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Jessica Compton
United States
เข้าร่วมเมื่อ 15 เม.ย. 2021
Welcome to my channel, my name is Jessica Compton and I am a woman in long-term recovery. I am a certified Peer Recovery Specialist, a Narcan trainer, harm reductionist, and an advocate for fighting stigma and making changes in the mental health/substance use areas of our world. These are all of my thoughts and stories and opinions.
TBI diagnosis, Mental Health and the future
Just a quick video about the future of this channel.
Contact me here: bustedupbutbeautiful@gmail.com
Contact me here: bustedupbutbeautiful@gmail.com
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Do people realize the fentanyl crisis is all lies?
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#fentanyl #addiction #recovery #fentanyl #fakenews Is the so-called fentanyl crisis all lies? Or is it a mixture of lies and truths? Can you overdose by touching fentanyl? What to believe and what to throw away! The study from the nurse who touched fentanyl with an open wound: pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/35722948/ Watch this next: th-cam.com/video/KeY6VzNhB-Q/w-d-xo.html Here's a playlist you shoul...
NATIONWIDE Adderall SHORTAGE!? HOW it can affect YOUR RECOVERY
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FOLLOW ME: My email: bustedupbutbeautiful@gmail.com My TikTok: jessicacompton1004 My Instagram: bustedupbutbeautifullife Never Use Alone! 1-800-484-3731 - you can call this # and they will stay on the phone with you as you use to ensure you are safe. IF, and ONLY if you become unresponsive will they call 911 so that emergency services can find you and administer naloxone. National...
IDENTIFYING how my TRIGGERS affect my RECOVERY & MENTAL HEALTH
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#triggers #mentalhealth #depression #recovery #addiction Today's video is about how I am (slowly) learning how to identify my TRIGGERS and how they affect my recovery process and my mental health. FOLLOW ME: My email: bustedupbutbeautiful@gmail.com My TikTok: jessicacompton1004 My Instagram: bustedupbutbeautifullife Never Use Alone! 1-800-484-3731 - you can call this # and they wi...
SIMPLE steps for SETTING BOUNDARIES for your Loved Ones Struggling with ADDICTION/ALCOHOLISM
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Today's video is Episode Two of my boundaries series. You can watch Episode One here: th-cam.com/video/YrwKVABite8/w-d-xo.html I'm giving you FOUR simple steps to start the process of setting boundaries with your loved ones who are addicted or use substances in a chaotic way. This is my way of setting boundaries that take some complications out of it. Please remember first and foremost to take ...
Boundaries Series | Ep. 1 | What and Why?
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#boundarysetting #recovery #boundariesforaddictedlovedones Today's video is an introduction of sorts to a series that I have been planning for the past month. Please watch and comment down below what you think! FOLLOW ME: My email: bustedupbutbeautiful@gmail.com My TikTok: jessicacompton1004 My Instagram: bustedupbutbeautifullife Never Use Alone! 1-800-484-3731 - you can call this...
Mental Health Struggles
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An update as to where I have been and why. I will be seeing you all soon. If you are reading this please know that I am so thankful for each of you for being here. I have been having a dark time with my mental health lately but I am trying to do better for this channel. Take care of yourselves, take care of each other.
TOP 5 Questions I Get Asked About Suboxone
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Want to know the Top 5 questions I am most frequently asked about my Suboxone? Let's dive in and talk about it! Watch this next: th-cam.com/video/0rpuT5TuW3s/w-d-xo.html Check out this playlist: th-cam.com/video/jtB0IXqb57A/w-d-xo.html Follow ME Around: TikTok: www.tiktok.com/@jessicacompton1004 Instagram: bustedupbutbeautifullife Email: bustedupbutbeautiful@gmail.com RESOURCES: ...
MAT recovery Suboxone Journey Pt. 2
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Watch Part One here: th-cam.com/video/jtB0IXqb57A/w-d-xo.html I am in mat recovery at this point in my recovery journey. This video is part two where I talk about my taper journey. I want to share my feelings about this, what it has been like working with a recovery clinic that provides mat recovery options, and where I am right now. My email and DMs are always open. Please do not hesitate to r...
My Suboxone Recovery Journey | Taper Pt 1
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My Suboxone Recovery Journey | Taper Pt 1
What is the shelf life for Narcan? Does Narcan expire?
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What is the shelf life for Narcan? Does Narcan expire?
Addiction Talks Ep. 2 | Cami Peyton | End Overdose
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Addiction Talks Ep. 2 | Cami Peyton | End Overdose
May Recovery Review | Mental Health Journey
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May Recovery Review | Mental Health Journey
Addiction Talks | Cami Petyn | All My Friends Keep Dying From Drugs
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Addiction Talks | Cami Petyn | All My Friends Keep Dying From Drugs
The $30 Million crack pipe mystery & a harm reduction grant
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The $30 Million crack pipe mystery & a harm reduction grant
Life changes and new changes in my recovery
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Life changes and new changes in my recovery
Mental Health Journey | Self-care & Holidays
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Mental Health Journey | Self-care & Holidays
Rock Bottom for Recovery | Let's Talk About It
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Rock Bottom for Recovery | Let's Talk About It
New Beginnings | The Next Steps in My Recovery Journey
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New Beginnings | The Next Steps in My Recovery Journey
Addiction v Dependence | Is there a difference? | Let's Talk About IT
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Addiction v Dependence | Is there a difference? | Let's Talk About IT
How Long is Enough Time in Recovery | My 3 year anniversary | That Little Voice in Your Head
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How Long is Enough Time in Recovery | My 3 year anniversary | That Little Voice in Your Head
There’s no myth. Meth is poison, and those that use always end up making the lives of those around them invariably worse.
Yeah i quit using on my own no bad effects i quit but i don't think meth bad lot of lies if government tax it it would be legal
Thank you so much. I been on fentanyl for over 2 years and just decided to quit. I been trickling down over the last 5 weeks and of course going thru mass amounts of withdrawals but I'm days away from my last dose. Im winning and I see life ahead. I'm grateful for your heart and time making this. I almost overdosed taking a suboxone which threw me into precipitated withdrawals and no one was around as I hallucinated so heavily and couldn't breath but someone called (miracle) and said take more and I ended up after that deciding to slowly come down.
My wife. Died of a meth OD i didn't. Know she. Was. Using. But. Had been. Using. For awhile. She lost her. Job. Then her. Friends and and almost. Except. Me and her family didn't. Know. What. Was going on till after she died i miss her. A awful lot. Don't assume. That. It's. Something. Else. Like. Natural mood swings. Like i did. Be aware it can be. Meth
I’m so sorry for your loss
Thank You. Almost. 6 months now
Thanks
that aint your bro even tho you guys are both ugly
Thanks for the engagement 😂
Heyy I'm am recovering addict and was looking up book review because I'd like to find some good interesting books on addiction to read. Thankyou for your reviews.!
You’re welcome! I was just thinking about doing an update on this because I read so much! I’m glad it helped you find some!
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On and on and on about nothing....zzzzzzz
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Do you work at the VA?
No I don’t.
Never herd of meth until I got in Ohio. N I been only here 3 years. I never seen meth in real life til I got here
It spreading around.
Where u work at? The V A?
I'm up on G Ms. Hite me up you seem to know n have Real understanding
Damn that aceiny tho.😍😍😍😍😍🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩
I brush my teeth accordingly not as a routine with bliss from zorba
Jessica! I didn’t know you did content! I’m so excited now! This video had me straight from the name.
I’m so glad you found my channel! :-) I’m really planning on pumping it up in the new year! If you have any input, suggestions- anything, let me know!! Thank you JD for being so awesome
Thanks Jessica ❤️🐨
How brave you are to keep speaking even though it was so hard for you. Inspirational. You are bigger than any addiction!! The light in you has always been there and shines through!!
Thank you so much for this! 🖤
I'm doing some right now lol. nice that youtube recommended this. I'm not gonna get addicted, I'm not touching this stuff until next summer (6 months from now). great fun but its horrible for your body. mildly cardiotoxic, very neurotoxic.
Instead of helping people out
Thank you for those words thank you for caring.
I used from age 19 to 23. Everyday. Then I stopped an eventually got on benzos then opiates. And then I got sober in 2014 but not for long i got back on opiates and now I'm on subutex have been for about 7 years. And then for the past almost 4 years ive been back on meth again. And nobody knew until I told them recently. Not my doctors my family or my sober friends. I'm smart and educated and have a beautiful home 40 acres of property and Ive been functioning fine until recently when I decided its bad for my physical health and I decided I wanted to quit and then tried and couldn't. And then I tried again and couldnt. I suffer from depression anxiety disorders and ocpd and I'm highly sensitive and an empath so I feel a LOT very deeply and when I use i can distract myself with stuff and when I get clean all the emotions come back and I end up relapsing again. I take care of myself my teeth my skin i eat like a person thats not on drugs full meals and food thats good for you and havent had any real consequence to my use. But since I want to quit but havent been able to and that has got. E in a serious downward spiral of hating myself and feeling like a failure. If you want you can use me for your research!
I understand where you are coming from. I eat. Sleep. Keep myself clean. Work and interact with people that would never know I was high unless I told them. However I am developing some health issues now that I'm older, and a small amount got me sentenced to 5 years in prison. So none of the being able to maintain mattered when the judge declared I spend 5 years locked up for less than two grams. Your gonna feel like shit for a while when you quit. Bananas, a good daily multivitamin, lots of water, and all the extra sleep you can alow yourself make it easier. Good luck and God bless.
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I forgot to mention that my DOC was M3th and I will admit this whole situation just had me on edge until I brought up the mg switch. This is a drug that when people are stopped abruptly from using, it has some withdrawal effects (not nearly as bad as others) for me I literally walk around my house all day long with thoughts and plans to get things done and next thing I know it’s night time and I haven’t done anything. My brain goes back to feeling like a child.. I’m constantly writing things down. I keep note pads in every room, even the bathroom bc I will think of something and 5 seconds later I can’t remember what it was. I have to set alarms for everything bc my brain ain’t working even the little bit that still works from doing all of the other drugs. I can’t have conversations without saying umm, uhh, and my face tells it all. So check your pharmacy and see if they have a different mg and you can ask your doctor to change it to make it add up to what you normally take.. Write down everything that pops up no matter what it is. Set alarms and timers If you feel like you’re about to lose your shit, step outside and take a couple deep breaths. Break your tasks up so you’re not doing one thing for hours. If you have 3 other things you need to do that day, I try to rotate them and do 30 minutes of each to make your brain switch to a different mode. I’m not a fan of sudoku or crossword puzzles but give me a word find or a little craft and I’m good to go..
This is a situation I have been dealing with for about 6 months. I have been taking adderall for several years now (30mg twice a day) at the moment.. usually my dr will call it in to the pharmacy, since Covid they have let Dr’s call it in instead of taking the paper script in (I live in SC) and I’ll always get a message from the pharmacy that it’s on back order. I would wait a day or so and call the pharmacy just so they have it fresh in their head so when the truck comes, they will fill it. This month it was about a week out and still no 30mgs. So I asked if I could have my dr call in 20 mgs 3x’s a day. They had bottles of the 20’s just short on the 30’s WHICH MADE ME MAD BC THEY COULD TELL US PATIENTS TO ASK OUR DR’s TO CHANGE IT INSTEAD OF US GOING COLD TURKEY🤬.
I like it!! thank you.
Thank you!
When you stop caring about the meth addict in your life. You stop caring about there bullshit. It takes a toll on you and you need yo take back your own life. You said that memoria damage is true. You did damage your brain. So it's not a myth.
Well I came across your channel this morning and watched several and could relate to everything you talked about I’ve been a functional user for 40 years I’m Certainly not saying it’s ok Cause it’s not but my wife constantly puts me down I’m a fn loser I’ve wrecked the last22 years of her life which I have a lot more to say I would like to visit you thanks
Love you girl. I sent you an email a bit ago, September 5th, I think. Hope you received it. You're doing great things and I totally admire you.
Love you girl!! I did see it this morning actually, when I was cleaning out my inboxes. I’m going to write you back soon. Know that you are in my thoughts. I will talk to you soon! And thank you for your sweet comment. 💜
@Jessica Compton You're seriously the best.
I'm a highly functioning addict. I am trying so hard to get sober. When I told my family that I was currently using meth they were shocked. They never suspected that from me... I picked up meth this time after 4 years of sobriety. It has been 4 years since I started again. I went 85 days sober from Dec. 2021-march 2022. Then I've been using and stopping since March. The first few months suck so bad that I give in to the craving. I hope to be sober in 2023. Thanks for this video.
you're highly functioning now, let's see how well you're doing in a year...
Let’s not cast doubt on anyone’s ability to continue their lives. I was a functional addict for 14 years. Comments like this aren’t what my channel is about. I have full confidence in Jessica to do what is best for her. If you aren’t here to support or learn or share in a positive way this isn’t the place for you.
Jessica, I was a functioning addict for 99% of my active use. My daughter and myself still get astonished expressions and responses when we mention my recovery or use. I understand 100% what you said about the cravings etc. If there is anything I can do for you please let me know. 💜
Me too!
It may take your mind off the real issues that made use in the first place, it just makes you stuck at that point in your life.
Congrats!
Thank you Justin!
I have 27🙂
Congratulations!! Don’t give up!!
Is this TH-cam for real or making fun of dumb people?
I don’t make fun of people. It’s quite real.
No he's dumb thanks Jessica
You won't get more done while using meth the crash always puts you way behind
I do know one thing its possible to recover from that drug all you need to change is everything get away from the people and places or you will end up dead or in prison i know a guy that lost a arm and a leg trying to steal chemicals from a moving freight train and he still did not learn anything he kept going until he got 10 years now his parents care for him that was 20 years ago
It is possible! Everyone does it differently but it is possible! You’re so right about that. I’m sorry that happened to that guy (not sure if you were friends or just knew him) Sometimes it takes something drastic to bring a change, sometimes it doesn’t.
Jessica I'd love to talk to u...I'm not in recovery..I live day to day but any question u need k ow bout meth I could answer.....been prison an an lost everythg 11 year ago....an still in active use.....but I'm trying so hard.....please I love to help ppl so please get in touch....
My email is listed in all of my description boxes! I’d love to talk!
I don’t get on Facebook. If you look below the video where it says the title there is usually the word (more) that you can tap on and that is the description box. If you scroll down through mine you will see my contact information.
I think your a very brave person cause society will hate you for being an addict but you are trying to help others at a potential loss of standings in your or maybe your job or friends and so many other things society tends to steal from the ones they deem necessary
Thank you Jacob. I don’t think about potential losses from those areas if I’m being honest. I only hope my videos help people. I’ve been on all sides of this - a person who used, a person who couldn’t quit, a person in recovery and now a person who is reaching out to help others. Thank you for being here and for your comment. 💜
I was sober 12 years and my woman cheated and I find myself in the middle of a relapse and this garbage full of fentanol which is super addictive but that's all an excuse. And an excuse is an empty shell for a weak person so I won't make excuses for myself or my behavior I just about lost everything since relapsing I'm 49 years old and destroying everything I worked so hard for and I no this.I hope you stay sober may God bless you
Hi Jacob, I'm sorry to hear about your relationship ending. Fentanyl is very addictive to people. I don't think that you are making an excuse, I think that you are having a hard time with a shitty situation (excuse my language) but the end of a relationship is hard enough without the added pain of your partner cheating on you. I know that you are hurting and right now it seems like you are in an impossible situation but you have pulled yourself out of this situation before. I believe that you can do it again. 12 years of sobriety is a massive achievement. You can do it again. If there is anything I can do to help you please reach out. God bless you.
Kudos for seeing more then just the finger pointing side of addiction in general.
Thank you very much for this. I’ve been on all sides of this so I try really hard not to point fingers
I'd hit it😎
Love your content! Thank you ❤
Thank you!! ♥️
So what was your doc?
I didn’t turn anything down at the end but I started with opiates. They were my doc if I had to pick one.
The body is a healing machine. But residue remains. Trying new things, changing routine. Too much sugar, less caffeine, exercise. I had a stroke 24 years ago. Wanted to die because every time I looked in the mirror I was reminded of something I can't get back..me. that's changed. God is good. Stay in the light.
Thank you for this. I try to stay there. Same for you. 🖤
I do it once in awhile. I own a business n addicted to wrkn n being independent. I don't comprehend allowing anything to cause you to lose everything.
You are lucky in that aspect. Some people can use recreationally and never think about it. Some of us can’t. It’s not a conscious choice for us to put our lives and everything in it at risk. It’s a switch (for lack of a better way to explain it) that gets flipped inside us and we can’t turn it off.
I do It and it's good I quit and still happy don't be fooled by drug rehab places they just want your money. If u really want quit u can do it on your own!
I have quit every thing that I was addicted to and I have never heard any other drug actually talk to me except for meth. It is harder than anything else to quit harder than smoking, drinking, pills, coke, weed all of it. its so fuckin hard to kick especially if you are a functioning addict who holds a job has a family and in the shadows is an addict. Fucked
Shww never have I had a comment resonate with me more than yours. It’s like a constant conversation that no one else can hear. I was the same as you; functional on the outside and in the shadows something completely different. The hardest part for me was telling my loved ones who didn’t know and hoping they wouldn’t cast me away. You can do it, I promise. If you need help or someone to talk to let me know
blueberries help with memory.
You clearly do meth. WTH is sub stit tus disorder.
This made me laugh so much so thanks for this. No, I don’t “do meth” anymore. Sorry if I stutter or you can’t understand my accent. It’s substance use disorder.
I disagree with the hygiene. I was a crackhead for 27 years. I took care of my hygiene. I still lost my teeth because they were all cracked from grinding them when I was high. That happens with meth as well. When you pump toxins into your body, you're going to have problems. Wherever the body is weak it furthers the problem. I was high functioning on the outside but torn up inside. You can't do drugs and not have severe problems. I don't care if it's just weed. You have issues you're not wanting to deal with. Start looking at ACTUALLY how these people are functioning. It doesn't matter if you have a job, own a house, etc. That's external shit. The soul is slowly being killed. We need to stop looking at the outside to make judgments and start looking at the inside. That will tell you right away. I look at the energy field. Energy doesn't lie. The energy field even tells what drugs someone is on. There are different frequency signatures on different drugs.
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How do I look at the energy field?
@@no2mob889 excellent question. I've had to develop THAT ability, but it starts with the intuition. Intuition is in the gut. You know how you get a gut feeling about something? That's intuition. As I've used it, it's gotten sharper and now I can actually see or sense the energy field and information comes about the energy field. I had to practice meditation to learn how to do this and quiet the mind enough to pick up on it. Anyone CAN do it. We all have these abilities.
@@rainncorbin8291 well my son was on some kind of uppers and his pupils were ginormous. He looked psychotic. He was more energetic than usual. he was aggressive.
@@no2mob889 sounds like meth to me. Just an opinion. Drug test him.
I used for 27 years. Not meth, but I have zero brain damage. I've actually gotten smarter since I stopped using. My IQ has gone up. There were myths about LSD too. One thing they don't teach in the 12 step programs is that Bill Wilson, founder of AA, he got sober using LSD. So did I. Psychedelics don't damage the brain, they actually help break the mental using patterns and increase intelligence. They are being used now to treat depression and LSD.
I’m happy to hear this for you. I’m not a 12 step member but I do know this about Bill W. I believe that psychedelics can be used to treat many things. I also believe that there are as many pathways to “recovery” (defined by each individual) as there are people on this earth.
All drugs affect the brain function. Some drugs are made from nature but meth is all chemicals. It's terrible. And toxic chemicals as well.
Hey Jessica I commented on your meth myth video recently and just seen this video. I can relate to this more because roxys were my doc for 6 years. Overall pills are bad but they will not completely destroy u like other harder drugs in most cases. I find u attractive and love your channel!
Hi Justin! Yeah they were my doc my entire time of using also. I definitely used other things to avoid being sick or because of other circumstances but pain medicine was my go to. I think any chaotic use has the potential to destroy someone’s life. I believe it is the use more than the substance. Thank you for your nice comments! I appreciate all of them. Welcome to the fam!