You do a great job at conveying your story. It was very raw and honest and real. So many people have similar life stories of tragedy, loss and pain. Sometimes just hearing someone else’s story is comforting to know there are other people who suffer too, but survive, grow and overcome, and maybe even really find their way into a real relationship with their creator, and finally make peace with knowing that he does love us, and he works mysteriously in our lives even if it doesn’t feel like it in the midst of the storm. His ways are higher than our ways. He knows the end from the beginning. I couldn’t surmise if you arrived at that belief in your own life, but I do believe that He has Larry and it’s glorious there, and I believe you will join him in time. Thanks for sharing. Godspeed.
Prayers are always answered. Yes, no, and wait. Believe what you want, I’m going to. Life is not easy, it’s blistering at times. I have survived intestinal issues that lead to a colostomy bag, thank God it was able to be reversed. I suffered a Ischemic stroke in my left MCA, thank God it didn’t affect my motor skills, leaving me with acute aphasia that has become almost impossible to notice. I was told I should not have been in the shape I was in because it took me 28 hours to get to a hospital after the stroke had taken place. After they gave me a clot buster I could speak and read again. They were almost not going to issue the clot buster because it had been over 3 hours since the stroke has taken place. One doctor said he would push the clot buster and hope for the best, it worked. My hope is in the Lord Jesus Christ, and I can’t believe in anything else. God bless….
@ Roman soldiers could force a Jew to walk a mile holding their weapons and cargo. Jesus urged His disciples to go the extra mile, for many reasons. Being this way gives you a chance to extend kindness even to the unkind notions of others. Love your neighbor as yourself and inspire others to do the same by always going the extra mile….. in my own words.
@@Joshua-m2z9f I see it as a more spiritual teaching. Something that aligns with Jesus' core teaching of peace and love to one another. To me, I can interact with it for tenderness and peace, resolving the ought against my brother if it means "to understand and respect where someone else is coming from." I did not live their life and have no business discounting their experience due to not being able to get out of my own. This helps us live together if we respect each other. We cease to be dividers if we stop worshiping Jesus and do what he says. Or else we risk residing in Matthew 7:23 territory.
@@Joshua-m2z9f It's hard sometimes. Life can be so raw and it is natural to lash out. We practice it and need to back down. Thank you for going there too.
You decided that abuse has to stop somewhere. Proud of you for keeping the Bible and looking at your childhood as a learning adventure so to speak. Such a beautiful view point. Love that and praying for you.
Hi there I was listening to your story while walking through a factory at my part time job. I am sorry for all the craziness you’ve had to endure. For me the hardest thing to endure here is the coldness of others and some form of loneliness. It is truly hard to walk in other people’s shoes though but I try to , when I have emotional strength, help those whom I can. I just wanted to recommend a video I watched two days ago on TH-cam. The title is I See Angels and Demons, Michael & The Seer Blake Healy. It helped me a little bit to push through, and I would be curious what your thoughts would be on it, from your life perspective. Wishing you well, thank you for sharing what you’ve been through
@@anatborodin5907 Thank you for your kind words. I myself do not follow Michael Heiser. I go a different direction with my work. I am not a spiritualist or teacher of fallen angels and things like that. This is a little different. Thank you again for your kind words.
@@jesserai Your comment gives me strength. I don’t know how to describe it. You filled my empty tank. Thank you for your kindness. Without knowing if I am helping in these videos, I feel so exposed and raw. I am not comfortable with them, and then I post on YT in public waiting for ridicule. You just healed my fears. I see you. Thank you.
dear Daniel, your story brought me to tears. you are a very good narrator by the way. no, its obvious you dont need an advice, you come up very clear minded, strong and at peace. i watched your video bc i wanted to find out how you found back to God. i am not christian but i am opened to every form of religious or non religious ppl. all religions are different languages to feel near to God. God sent me a neardeath experience when i was 17 without harming me physically or psychologically and He showed me in that neardeath experience the deeper meaning of suffering. several times He spoke to me in dreams with wonderful, loving answers. and yet the last year i got very angry seeing the tremendous ongoing suffering in gaza, the syrian prisoners got thru and some ppl around me. i am Gods bad student. God tried to show me so much and yet i am angry again. i know its alright for Him, He loves and accepts me anyway, but i want my innocent connection to Him back. i ask Him everyday: the most ppl in the world want to stop netanyahu and yet its like our voices dont count anything as a majority. i am not capable to watch the scenes from gaza and westbank anymore, i have nightmares of their stories and of the syrian freed prisoners. i am crying a lot.
@@mideastgirl8926 I love you, sister. I did not return to the God of Abraham but have found a way to make the Bible play out in my mind. It has lessons that teach me to forgive at a deep level to have a wonderful life. I found a pattern that belongs to all of humanity. At least I like to think so. I believe the pathway the ancients were trying to tell us about are hidden in plain sight but requires special and very fixed interpretation to gain access to. They tell us it is the way to God for the few who find it. Let’s look. I cannot even watch news anymore. It ruins my whole day when I see it. We don’t like to turn away because we care. But if we don’t turn away, it will consume our minds. We need our minds clear. I’m going to reply to this wonderful comment in a video. I will comment with a link when it’s posted. Turn your face from the world we cannot heal while we are hurt. We must learn to find our inner peace in order to help ease the world situation.
@@danielpaulson8838 my dear sweethearted brother, i love you too. thank you for your words. it really gives me something. and its good to speak and think about, it helps in smoothing and mending my broken heart. i look forward to your video. i dont get notifications but i will come back from time to time and i subscribed. you are absolutely right.i want more to turn away from internet and news. when i was 17, i had an nde. but the most important thing to Him was showing me the meaning of suffering. first He showed me every single destiny on earth, which lived, lives and will live at once. but He only showed me the pain of every destiny, nothing else. then He showed me the wisdom which came out of every single suffering and how this wisdom were envolving a perfectly, devine symphony in the universe. i wrote it more detailed but i deleted most bc i think its too much to read. to write it down, really helped me to find peace in me and God again and your video helped me to bring it into my mind again what God showed and teached me, thank you very much.
Tragic loss-I believed the bible were actual words from God-my life was stolen. When your life is threatened as a child you turn to a magical God to fix it...now I have CPTSD in my senior years
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You do a great job at conveying your story. It was very raw and honest and real. So many people have similar life stories of tragedy, loss and pain. Sometimes just hearing someone else’s story is comforting to know there are other people who suffer too, but survive, grow and overcome, and maybe even really find their way into a real relationship with their creator, and finally make peace with knowing that he does love us, and he works mysteriously in our lives even if it doesn’t feel like it in the midst of the storm. His ways are higher than our ways. He knows the end from the beginning. I couldn’t surmise if you arrived at that belief in your own life, but I do believe that He has Larry and it’s glorious there, and I believe you will join him in time. Thanks for sharing. Godspeed.
Thank you for your kind words.
Prayers are always answered. Yes, no, and wait. Believe what you want, I’m going to. Life is not easy, it’s blistering at times. I have survived intestinal issues that lead to a colostomy bag, thank God it was able to be reversed. I suffered a Ischemic stroke in my left MCA, thank God it didn’t affect my motor skills, leaving me with acute aphasia that has become almost impossible to notice. I was told I should not have been in the shape I was in because it took me 28 hours to get to a hospital after the stroke had taken place. After they gave me a clot buster I could speak and read again. They were almost not going to issue the clot buster because it had been over 3 hours since the stroke has taken place. One doctor said he would push the clot buster and hope for the best, it worked. My hope is in the Lord Jesus Christ, and I can’t believe in anything else. God bless….
It sounds like you must be strong in your religion.
Matthew 5:41
Can you tell me what that verse means?
@ Roman soldiers could force a Jew to walk a mile holding their weapons and cargo. Jesus urged His disciples to go the extra mile, for many reasons. Being this way gives you a chance to extend kindness even to the unkind notions of others. Love your neighbor as yourself and inspire others to do the same by always going the extra mile….. in my own words.
@ you are really an awesome person by the way. Thank you for responding in kindness.
@@Joshua-m2z9f I see it as a more spiritual teaching. Something that aligns with Jesus' core teaching of peace and love to one another. To me, I can interact with it for tenderness and peace, resolving the ought against my brother if it means "to understand and respect where someone else is coming from." I did not live their life and have no business discounting their experience due to not being able to get out of my own.
This helps us live together if we respect each other. We cease to be dividers if we stop worshiping Jesus and do what he says. Or else we risk residing in Matthew 7:23 territory.
@@Joshua-m2z9f It's hard sometimes. Life can be so raw and it is natural to lash out. We practice it and need to back down.
Thank you for going there too.
You decided that abuse has to stop somewhere. Proud of you for keeping the Bible and looking at your childhood as a learning adventure so to speak. Such a beautiful view point. Love that and praying for you.
Thank you for your kind words.
Hi there I was listening to your story while walking through a factory at my part time job. I am sorry for all the craziness you’ve had to endure. For me the hardest thing to endure here is the coldness of others and some form of loneliness. It is truly hard to walk in other people’s shoes though but I try to , when I have emotional strength, help those whom I can.
I just wanted to recommend a video I watched two days ago on TH-cam. The title is I See Angels and Demons, Michael & The Seer Blake Healy. It helped me a little bit to push through, and I would be curious what your thoughts would be on it, from your life perspective.
Wishing you well, thank you for sharing what you’ve been through
@@anatborodin5907 Thank you for your kind words.
I myself do not follow Michael Heiser. I go a different direction with my work. I am not a spiritualist or teacher of fallen angels and things like that. This is a little different.
Thank you again for your kind words.
You give companionship and a calm harbour to those whose story share similarities with yours. Bless you for your courage, intelligence and tenacity.
@@jesserai Your comment gives me strength. I don’t know how to describe it. You filled my empty tank. Thank you for your kindness.
Without knowing if I am helping in these videos, I feel so exposed and raw. I am not comfortable with them, and then I post on YT in public waiting for ridicule.
You just healed my fears.
I see you. Thank you.
Thank you for telling your story. I'm so glad you forgave your mom. It is SO important. God is good but people mess up all the time❤❤❤
Thank you for your kind words.
dear Daniel, your story brought me to tears. you are a very good narrator by the way. no, its obvious you dont need an advice, you come up very clear minded, strong and at peace.
i watched your video bc i wanted to find out how you found back to God. i am not christian but i am opened to every form of religious or non religious ppl. all religions are different languages to feel near to God. God sent me a neardeath experience when i was 17 without harming me physically or psychologically and He showed me in that neardeath experience the deeper meaning of suffering. several times He spoke to me in dreams with wonderful, loving answers. and yet the last year i got very angry seeing the tremendous ongoing suffering in gaza, the syrian prisoners got thru and some ppl around me. i am Gods bad student. God tried to show me so much and yet i am angry again. i know its alright for Him, He loves and accepts me anyway, but i want my innocent connection to Him back. i ask Him everyday: the most ppl in the world want to stop netanyahu and yet its like our voices dont count anything as a majority. i am not capable to watch the scenes from gaza and westbank anymore, i have nightmares of their stories and of the syrian freed prisoners. i am crying a lot.
@@mideastgirl8926 I love you, sister. I did not return to the God of Abraham but have found a way to make the Bible play out in my mind. It has lessons that teach me to forgive at a deep level to have a wonderful life. I found a pattern that belongs to all of humanity. At least I like to think so. I believe the pathway the ancients were trying to tell us about are hidden in plain sight but requires special and very fixed interpretation to gain access to. They tell us it is the way to God for the few who find it. Let’s look.
I cannot even watch news anymore. It ruins my whole day when I see it.
We don’t like to turn away because we care. But if we don’t turn away, it will consume our minds. We need our minds clear.
I’m going to reply to this wonderful comment in a video. I will comment with a link when it’s posted.
Turn your face from the world we cannot heal while we are hurt. We must learn to find our inner peace in order to help ease the world situation.
@@danielpaulson8838 my dear sweethearted brother, i love you too. thank you for your words. it really gives me something. and its good to speak and think about, it helps in smoothing and mending my broken heart.
i look forward to your video. i dont get notifications but i will come back from time to time and i subscribed.
you are absolutely right.i want more to turn away from internet and news.
when i was 17, i had an nde.
but the most important thing to Him was showing me the meaning of suffering. first He showed me every single destiny on earth, which lived, lives and will live at once. but He only showed me the pain of every destiny, nothing else. then He showed me the wisdom which came out of every single suffering and how this wisdom were envolving a perfectly, devine symphony in the universe.
i wrote it more detailed but i deleted most bc i think its too much to read. to write it down, really helped me to find peace in me and God again and your video helped me to bring it into my mind again what God showed and teached me, thank you very much.
@@mideastgirl8926 I didn't see this post till just now. I didn't get notified. I will make you a video.
Thank you.
My pleasure. Thank you.
Thank you for sharing 🙏
I guess I had to say that full story one time. I think to me, it is my qualifications to speak about this topic.
Thanks for being real.
It can be hard but it is also healing. You're very welcome.
I'm so sorry!
Thank you but, today is full of sunny days. I have healed.
❤️
It's good to see you, Patricia. I hope you are doing well.
@ Hi. I hope you’re doing well.
I was given 50 lashes...I identified with "Jesus"
Tragic loss-I believed the bible were actual words from God-my life was stolen. When your life is threatened as a child you turn to a magical God to fix it...now I have CPTSD in my senior years
@@susansilvey1614 I feel a deep sense of compassion. I am at a loss for words. Welcome to the channel.