I have suffered with schizophrenia for 10 years now…. I’m a believer too… I have been through hell.. but dealing with this illness is the hardest thing I have ever gone through… I am sorry about your momma… I’m sure she loved you more than herself… but symptoms of this mess makes us distant from even the ones we love the most in the whole world…. I’m so glad you can see the good in the suffering… that’s a true gift… one to hold onto forever… if you don’t mind… please say a prayer for me… I am really struggling right now… and I could use prayers from someone who understands… my name is Sierra…. Thank you for being obedient and sharing… ❤
Prayer sent! It truly is a terrible affliction. You must be so strong and brave! God is using you and your pain for His glory. You will be blessed beyond measure! Stay focused on the things above and not what's happening here and now. Peace and comfort to you!
I’m praying for you in Jesus name, you are loved! I hope you can find a church near you that is really on for for Jesus so they can lay hands on you to deliver you!
Precious Sierra, keep holding onto Jesus!! Pray on His Holy Spirit to encourage you…You are chosen by God…if He can choose Job (Job 1:8) He has chosen you too. Isn’t that wonderful that He picked you bc He knew you’d be the right person that would hold onto Him in the midst of these trials. I encourage you to read the book of Job it paints the picture of sorrow and lament with an ending for future hope 😊 We don’t understand why things happen but we can rest assure that it’s bc His ways and thoughts are greater than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9) may His name be blessed!!
This is making me cry so hard. My son was diagnosed with schizophrenia a few years ago and is now almost 22. It's so hard but I love him so much. Please pray God heals my whole family.
My son also has schizophrenia and I’m praying he could have a deliverance because when he’s in psychosis I feel such a demonic presence in him. I’m praying for your son too!
He doesn't have schizophrenia from what I know.. You're the victim of mind control experiments by arse holes that are playing with your mind and that is no lie!.. Please look up "electronic harassment" and "V2K mind control" under images for more insight as to why I say that, as well as "voice of God weapons", also look up "Ex CIA Dr Robert Duncan and Tyrone Dew, directed energy weapons".. Many "targeted individuals" out there.. Also look up Dr John Hall mind control" May God watch over you! Reply
God healed me from Schizophrenia in layers while I have obeyed Him in going to where He is moving in Power to heal and deliver me. For me, I found my healing and deliverance at 5F Church in Los Angeles. Hallelujah! If He can do it for me, He can do it for you!
I suffer from schizophrenia I0 years,I have a drug induced psychosis ..the worst of worst Because I hallucinate all the time and my nerves hurt alot.. when my psychosis began years ago I was very confused because I hallucinated all the time and saw alot of colors and pattern keildoscop visions.. I mean I still have it but The Lord helps me and strengthens me everyday because I couldnt even look people in the eye, I couldn’t even walk without having hallucinations ..I was even afraid to go upstairs ..was a nightmare..and my hope is Christ he is the one who makes the impossible possible! I will forever give him my life.
God healed me from Schizophrenia in layers while I have obeyed Him in going to where He is moving in Power to heal and deliver me. For me, I found my healing and deliverance at 5F Church in Los Angeles. Hallelujah! If He can do it for me, He can do it for you!
may i ask what you took that caused that? 8 years ago, i was stuck in a terrifying psychosis for 2 months after taking 6 doses of cough syrup with a small piece of an edible. i was guided to a miraculous meditation that almost immediately reversed all my symptoms. let me know if you'd like me to share it with you.
I battle with skitophrenia and sometimes it's tough with wanting to get healed 😔 when my grandpa prayed for me with his hand on my head I had a change in consciousness and I slowly got better with my meds but I still have this mental illness. I've been battling demons who torment me and I'll I want is peace. I know God is with me but it's a very tough battle. I know he's real I just don't understand why I had to go through all this suffering. Thanks for your story it's heartwarming to know how much you loved your Mom.
You're suffering is not for nothing. There is a purpose for everything, even when we don't know what it is. God is in control and He loves you! I pray He brings you peace and comfort!
God healed me from Schizophrenia in layers while I have obeyed Him in going to where He is moving in Power to heal and deliver me. For me, I found my healing and deliverance at 5F Church in Los Angeles. Hallelujah! If He can do it for me, He can do it for you!
@@_austinring yes this 🙌, I have often found (for me personally) that obedience is usually required for healing, sin is what usually lets these demons in people's lives the first place (but not always but sin can be a door way to let them in, for example when someone gives into temptation, repentance is necessary)
There is no doubt that the bible has healing power, when I had my 1st psychotic break, Jesus word came alive in my spirit and did a healing work in my life
Thank you for sharing. I can relate so much to your story. my brother has paranoid schizophrenia and he is 52. My mom is a saint and has taken such good care of him throughout his life. he told her one day out of the blue, while she was struggling with God, asking Him why her son had to suffer like this Terry looked her in the eye and said "mom, there's going to be a special place in heaven for people like me."
The Lord in His full, the Father, Son, and Spirit, loves you. He cares about your story, your family, your healing, and your forgiveness. I’m not sure if you talked about it, but God does care about your voice even when you feel He doesn’t want to hear it. He cares about your pain and guilt, and you are forgiven when you bring it to Him. May He bring you peace until you can be fully with Him and your mother
Schizophrenia is horrible. I know that a lot of people with the condition have to have medication. I was able to recover by ignoring the hallucinations and delusions. I simply refused to believe they are real. My daughter says it’s not possible to do that. She seems to be doing well on Abilify. I retired after working for 30 years at a high security airport. I never took medication never had therapy and I no longer fear having a relapse. I was a Christian the first time I had psychosis at about 21 years old. I knew there was something wrong with me but I didn’t know what it was. I did know that I had to find out what was wrong with me and recover. In order to do that, I had to trust my own delusional mind more than that of the doctors. I realized that the hallucinations were like entities that tended to drift off into the background whenever I was really focused like whenever I had an argument or something like that. That’s what gave me the idea of ignoring and not believing in those “entities” since that’s what caused them to withdraw. I had to change all my habits of thought. Every time I was triggered to think of some delusion of grandeur or otherwise, I had to rethink everything. I had to not believe what I believed. I had to stop doing miracles and telepathy. It worked! The hallucinations gradually became less and less. After several years, I became more confident that I would never have a relapse again. I actually retired from a 30 year career! I am surprised now how disinterested the medical profession is about my complete recovery. It’s almost like they want you to remain ill so they can lord it over you. They seem to be happier that way. They seem terrified to speak with me and that’s not a delusion. They avoid me like the plague! I don’t necessarily blame them since I probably understand schizophrenia better than they do. I want to help others with schizophrenia and the doctors don’t seem to even care about a possible cure.
Praise God ❤ Blessings be upon you, I have been set free from schizoid affected bi polar and heroin addiction. I was on heavy medication for decades including monthly injection. I had no withdrawals from medication and take no tablets today. Jesus christ can free you from anything if you believe in him. He saved a hopeless case like me. God bless you all on your journey ❤❤❤
I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia in my mid 30s after the death of my father. Since the loss of my mother my strength has grown in developing a way of applying the teaching of Christ. That is through promoting life and safeguarding all that are vulnerable which includes animals, plants, people, earth, water and light. Recently a priest publicly denounced me as a sinner. She is no Christian. There are many fakes who carry a Bible but cannot read or write or comprehend the joy of life. I witnessed the birth of a litter of pups and I'm beholding to the sanctity of life.
@oneman4412 Thank you brother. You see, I'm a well trained First Aider who came across a 40 year old disabled man who was high on crack and I brought him down from the drug using first aid. The next day I was labelled a paedophile and was forced out by a drug gang . I ended up placed in a safe house by the police. After attempts to take my own life I got rehoused and travelled to Belgium to try getting euthanasia since then I'm living day to day with my dog and take it for runs across fields and through woodland each day. I talk to my dead father and pray for release and unity. The female priest agreed with the drug gang that I was a paedophile and would go to hell. I realise now that she was a false teacher and very narcissistic using bigotry from the Bible to further her condemnation of first aid. It is my understanding that Christ was killed for practicing this skill? God bless the meek and hope that you do not suffer these slings and your priest can find some compassion?
I just got to this thread on 6/13/24. Hope you are still with us; please continue studying the Word of God. If you feel overwhelmed and tired of what is bothering you, use statements like "I bind you in the name of Jesus of Nazareth", "I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ." Also, sanctify a small amount of olive oil with prayer and fasting (or have someone who is a servant of the Lord prepare it for you.) Then apply like a drop on door frames and windows, to set your place apart. Say: "Lord, be with me. This house belongs to you." (Say your own prayer to the Heavenly Father.) Scripture from Luke 17, "Now when He was asked by the Pharisees when the kingdom of God would come, He answered them and said, “The kingdom of God does not come with observation; nor will they say, ‘See here!’ or ‘See there!’ For indeed, the kingdom of God is within you.” >> Matthew 18:18: "Verily I say unto you, Whatsoever ye shall bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever ye shall loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven."
I have schizophrenia, I hear voices trying to sway my beliefs about reality. Sometimes they say things like "God loves you" other times they tell me "you're not a christian." Theres alot of things they say other than that, but I won't go into that. It can be quite a struggle. I pray all of you suffering from this condition find peace, I've spent so much time hearing voices, but there is peace on the horizon for all those that believe in Jesus! God bless you all!
Listen dear, you don't have schizophrenia from what I know, you're the victim of mind control experiments by arse holes that are playing with your mind and that is no lie!.. Please look up "electronic harassment" and "V2K mind control" under images for more insight as to why I say that, as well as "voice of God weapons", also look up "Ex CIA Dr Robert Duncan and Tyrone Dew, directed energy weapons".. As well as "Dr John Hall mind control"! Many "targeted individuals" out there! May God watch over you!
Do you pray for breakthrough and healing? I pray Jesus frees you. I had a third eye opening experience where I started getting spiritual attacks. I knew it was the enemy. Jesus freed me from demonic possession. Not sure what your experience was.
God healed me from Schizophrenia in layers while I have obeyed Him in going to where He is moving in Power to heal and deliver me. For me, I found my healing and deliverance at 5F Church in Los Angeles. Hallelujah! If He can do it for me, He can do it for you!
I had a schizophrenic dad. We could not really stay with my dad, so my mum had to leave, my dad's younger sister stayed with us and our dad. Then one fine day my mum came to pick us up. We had the best years from then on. To this day I always look out for young children, make sure they are sheltered. I prayed for my dad always, until he died. I started to send Bible verses to my dad on his birthdays and Christmas for the last few years of his life.
I’m in tears, I was exhausted wanting to go to sleep but the Lord used you to ignite my heart get out of bed and seek the Lord with all my heart in soul. I have been praying for my brother who also was diagnosed with schizophrenia and has been suffering since I could remember. His name is Jaime Alvarado if the Lord placed him in your heart please pray for him. Thank you for sharing your testimony, God bless you.
Thank you sister for your testimony. One thing I learned from Pastor Stephen Darby is the mental illness some are oppressed and some are losses. One is not invited while the other was invited in. I pray for anyone who is going through mental illness May you receive Jesus, and fine HIS peace and Healing. For through the stripes we are healed, we are freed.
My mom suffered from severe mental health issues but had a childlike faith in God. I,like you, believe I will see her when I'm in heaven. I will get to know her for who she truly is
Hallelujah!!! I love you dear one. 67-68 years old. I have been "alone" for over 23 years now. DADDYGOD is My DADDY. Darling JESUS is My BIG BROTHER. HolyGhost is My MAMA-GOD. I enjoy Myself with My family indeed. >>Finally, Dear All People, know This: Holiness is a prerequisite for interceding for anyone or thing! You must live Holy, otherwise your prayer is not passing your head or roof!!! 2Corinthians 6:14-18, Galatians 5, John 15, Acts 2.
Thank you for sharing your testimony! My mother was an only child, and her mother went into a mental facility in the 1940's.She went in there in her late 20's and died at the young age of 33.We never knew her exact cause of death,but are fairly certain she received shock treatment as well as a labotomy,which was the barbaric practice if the day.I have always felt so sad for my mom,that she lost her mom so young.My mother has never even known where her mother is buried,and she is now 85 years old.I felt strongly to search records,and found my mother's ,mother's grave! I surprised her with the visit.We found a beautiful stone that said,In God's Care.Her name was Nellie,and she was also buried with HER mother,also named Nellie who died when she was only a 1 year old baby!It was the time of the Spanish flu epidemic.My mother cried such beautiful,bittersweet tears at her mother and grandmother's grave to finally get this closure.My mother trusted Jesus the day I got baptized,and is the kindest soul I know. I pray that when she takes her last breath in this world that she is greeted by Jesus,her mother,her grandmother, and her son Michael.Jesus is the way,the truth,and the life! No man comes to the Father,but through Him!✝️💞
Wow! Sometimes the hardships we go through are just unfathomable, but God is always with us! It's just amazing that you were able to find that grave. Thank you for sharing your story! May God give you peace and many blessings!
Just to say thanks for sharing your life s testimony. I myself have schizoaffective disorder and 20 years ago went through a huge schizophrenic episode, I thought I was going to hell even though I was born again. Satan puts the boot In when you are down. But God my father told me I would never go through that darkness again, and I haven't, even when my son died from a drug overdose I was at peace deep down because he was saved by Jesus Christ. God bless you and your family from Northern Ireland xx
Thank you very much for your testimony Stacy! I got tears in my eyes. All the best for you and your family....I also suffer from a vulnerability for psychosis (was labeled with ''schizoprhenia'') and feel supported by Christ. May God bring peace in the world. For: A World in Which All Children Can Play. 🕊❤🙏
There was nothing wrong how u speak. Really touched me. My mom has the same. U r brave and Holy Spirit is in U. Much love to you dear chosen sister in Christ ♥️ You are in my prayers. Hugs
I'm so sorry. I'm glad you found some comfort in this. Just know the Lord is with you always, even in your darkest times, He won't leave you. He understands the pain you're going through, but He also knows things that we don't. He sees the whole big picture, where we just see what's right in front of us. He sacrificed His son to save us, and He knows pain like no other. Everything will be made right in the end. We all will be whole and healed of all afflictions. Stay strong sis, and know you are so loved! Anyone reading this comment, please say a prayer for Breanna!
Wonderful testimony, and thank you for talking about your struggles and your Mom's struggles. Yes, you are right: if your Mom dealt with Schizophrenia and had such a great faith, then we all should have faith. Amen and thank you for sharing Jesus! ✝️
Wow 😭, what a testimony of God's love! How even in the hardest/worst of times, he is still there. You spoke so well, and with so much confidence in our savior, that is a beautiful thing Stacy! I am sorry to hear about your mom, but you are right, she is healed and is with our King! One day you'll get to see her again, praise God!! 💖
Thank you soooooo much ...God be praised....my mother suffered so in much the same way...and I had an alcoholic father also who went through WW II and he saw much in the war that he couldn't talk about, but we finally talked years later after he and I took a drive while my mom slept at my family's home here in California with my husband and three children . Both my mom and dad went forward to receive Jesus at a Billy Graham Crusades later even though we all went to church from the time my twin brother and I were about three years old. Our mom was in and out of hospital for many treatments and which included terrible shock treatments. We were born in 1943... but many trials still look in my mind if I let them... I had to learn to read the Bible for myself, also and in 1976 I became born again and God has been working on me. Much love to you and your family....thank you , again for sharing🎉❤😊
Stacy, thank you for listening to the Holy Spirit. I needed to watch this video today! Nothing can ever separate us from the love of God and your testimony testifies of this! Jesus said we would suffer and have trials but he said that he has overcome the world. And now you sister stand declaring this very thing! Stacy you have overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of your testimony. God Bless you! Thank you!! God Bless you!! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜🥰🥰🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I thought you did a great job speaking! My son struggles with schizoaffective disorder and seems so tormented by vicious, cruel voices. He has always loved the Lord so I wonder what is at play here. I have been praying against these forces and it has helped. His screaming has stopped.So glad I found you and thank you again!
I was captivated by your story Stacy. Oh, the pain of suffering especially when we don’t understand. Praise the Lord that he redeems every moment of suffering.🙏🏼❤️
Your mom is looking down rejoicing the work God has done for you and your son and she is free of pain. She is absolutely safe in the arms of God in heaven. Be encouraged in the Lord. Thank you for sharing, I m sure your testimony will encourage many people.
I watch most of your book talks.Thanks for sharing your story. Both of my parents had mental illness and spent time in hospitals. That's how they met. My dad had paranoid schizophrenia. My mother had a severe nervous breakdown as a teenager because her step dad abused her horribly since she was a tiny girl, with psychological and verbal abuse, and then my mother experienced sexual abuse by a family member, and later was physically abused by her first husband. She never fully recovered and stayed on meds for the rest of her life. My mother later became a genuine believer. I met my dad when I was in my 20s shortly before he died. I didn't see the worst side of his schizophrenia since he was never around. I remember feeling broken by my mom having a mental relapse when I was in high school. Very difficult. Some of the things you spoke about regarding the difficulties with your mom is what I felt. I remember praying for God to take her rather than her ruin her life. Eventually God answered prayer, she was able to marry a long time friend and he thankfully took good care of her. She died younger than she should have because she couldn't stop smoking cigarettes. I still miss her.
Oh wow, I'm sorry to hear this! My mom was also molested as a child, so that definitely played into her delusions. I'm really glad that your mom became a believer and found someone that was good to her. I still miss my mom too. I have moments where I think to call her to tell her something, like my about my son graduating. Then I remember she's not here and I get sad. I'm looking forward to being with her again though!
This was one of the most amazing God-stories I’ve ever heard. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for choosing to share this with us. BTW I think you’re an awesome speaker and captivating to listen to!!! I’m so grateful for the light God is shining through you on this channel! Please keep making videos !! Love this channel 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
That is so sweet of you, thank you:) It took a long time to get to where I just trust that He knows what He's doing. I couldn't understand before, but now it all makes sense!
There is only one place of safety, one place of salvation, the blood sacrifice of Jesus Christ that paid the full penalty for all our sins. Jesus loves you and wants you to spend eternity in heaven with Him. But that cannot happen unless you are born again. So first admit that you are a sinful creature, like we all are. Then believe that Jesus is who He says He is: fully God and fully man. He came to earth and lived a perfect, sinless life. He shed His blood on the cross to pay the penalty for all your sins, past, present and future sins. For the blood of Jesus Christ cleanses us from ALL unrighteousness, no matter what you have done! He died, was buried, and rose again on the third day. All you have to do is believe that. Believe it by putting one hundred percent of your faith and trust in Jesus Christ and what He did on the cross, without adding in any of your own good works or being good. Because that won’t save you! It has nothing to do with belonging to any church or practicing any religion. The moment you believe is like a personal encounter in your heart between you and God himself where you tell Him you believe, and that you receive Christ Jesus the Lord, and where you call on His name. For the Scripture says: All who call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved. The moment you believe you are born again, you are saved. You receive the Holy Spirit who will indwell you forever. Because salvation is eternal you can never lose it. So I hope you believed because the alternative would be to endure eternity in hell, paying for your sins. And nobody wants that. That is, if you should choose not to believe what Jesus Christ did for you on the cross when He died to pay for all your sins. What does the Scripture say? John 3 3Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God. 16For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. 17For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. 18He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. 36He that believeth on the Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life; but the wrath of God abideth on him. Romans 10 9That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. 10For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. 11For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. 13For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
BELIEVE LIKE A CHILD Is it perhaps your desire to enter the kingdom of heaven? Do you wish you had certainty about it? Here is what the Lord Jesus had to say about it: "Verily I say unto you, Whosoever shall not receive the kingdom of God as a little child shall in no wise enter therein." Luke 18:17. What did Jesus mean by these words? Notice that Jesus said, "receive" the kingdom; He did not say "work for" or "earn" the kingdom. How then can we be sure to receive the kingdom of God as a little child and truly enter therein? To know what Jesus meant we have to understand how a little child receives, since this is what Jesus requires of anyone who wishes to enter the kingdom of God. Have you ever noticed how a little child receives things, let's say from his parents or grandparents? Think about it for a while. By observation we know that little children receive without any inclination that they ought to EARN or DESERVE what is given to them. It does not occur to them that they should first become worthy or deserving. It is clear that little children always receive in humility and without reservations. Little children truly know how to receive a gift. They display an absence of pride and self-sufficiency; they simply receive without works and without merit. They do not feel that they first have to earn or deserve what is given to them. They do not measure themselves by their own performance and try to judge whether they should be considered worthy of the gift. They do not think to bring the question of their own merits or goodness into the equation. This, dear friend, is the simple point that Jesus was making. He is saying that this is the way that we need to receive the greatest gift that anyone can ever receive -- the gift of eternal life in His kingdom. The reason we need to receive it as a little child is because, try as we may, we can never earn or deserve it through our own merits, goodness or performance. God Almighty is holy and righteous and cannot look upon sin; His standard is perfection. Even if we have failed only once in our lifetime to fulfill even the smallest commandment in the law of God, we fall short of that perfection. The Bible states that: "All have sinned, and come short of the glory of God" (Romans 3:23). We all have failed to keep God's moral law, the 10 commandments perfectly; we have all sinned and come short of the glory of God. We can never change our imperfection and make ourselves acceptable to God by trying to be good. Isaiah 64:6 says: "But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away." God is holy and righteous and therefore has to punish sin. The Bible also reveals that God is love and does not want anyone to be damned to an eternity in hell. So the Creator Himself chose to become flesh and to pay the penalty for our sin, which is death. John 3:16-18 states: "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God." By simply trusting wholeheartedly in the finished work of Jesus, who lived a perfect and sinless life and died for our sin on the cross, and by receiving this free gift of the forgiveness of sin and eternal life by His grace, anyone, regardless of what terrible sins they may have committed, can be be born again by the Spirit of God and receive the gift of eternal life. This is how good God is: He was willing to take the punishment for our sin upon Himself. He is unlike anything that we will ever encounter in this dark world that has been marred by man's rebellion and sin and Satan's subsequent evil dominion. God created mankind with a free will to choose for themselves what they will and will not believe, and what they will and will not receive. He will never force His love and gifts on anyone. He will never force anyone to have a relationship with Him. In His mercy and love He offers it but still allows everyone to choose to receive it, or not to receive it. The Bible says that God is love. He is a God of mercy and grace. Mercy means that we do not get the judgment, condemnation and punishment that we deserve. Grace means that we get all the good from God that we do not deserve. God is both -- He is both merciful and gracious. Our human pride is what leads us to think that we somehow have to earn or deserve God's favour and gifts through our own performance, good conduct and meritorious deeds. But that is deception. We tend to reason that we first have to become 'good enough' before God would forgive us and accept us and allow us entrance into His kingdom. We don't realise that God requires perfection. So we focus on ourselves instead of on what Jesus has done for us through His perfect, finished work on the cross and the complete payment He has made for all our sins, past, present and future, through His blood sacrifice. To receive what Jesus did for us requires humility and faith, both of which is found in abundance in a little child. Thinking that we ought to merit the things of God will actually prevent us from receiving them, for it is contrary to the way a little child receives. It CANNOT be earned by us. It was earned on our behalf by what Jesus Christ has done for us and we just have to receive it as a gift. If indeed we could earn it then it would mean that we would have opportunity to boast in ourselves. Yet, our imperfect performance can never satisfy God's standard of perfection. The only way that we can receive eternal life in the kingdom of God is to receive it from Him as a free gift. It is not available to us in any other way. We can never earn the things of God. The Bible makes it very clear: "For the wages of sin is death; but the GIFT of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord." (Romans 6:23) "For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the GIFT of God: not of works, lest any man should boast" (Ephesians 2:8-9). Having said all this we can see how our human pride can be a major hindrance to our receiving from Him, not only the free gift of eternal life and the complete forgiveness of our sins that would secure our entrance into the kingdom of God through being born again, but everything else that we need and that He has provided for us by His grace in Christ; things like healing, provision and blessing. God is truly a good, good God. But we can only receive from Him if we are willing to receive as a little child. My earnest prayer is that you do. It is impossible to have any boldness in our relationship with God apart from total dependence on what Jesus did for us. Only those of us who are righteous by faith in Jesus have boldness, having received His righteousness as a free gift. Only His perfect work on the cross saves us from God's righteous judgement on our sin. Just believe that Jesus died for your sins, was buried and rose again from the dead on the third day and God will impute the righteousness of Christ to you and make you a new creature in Christ. He that promised is faithful. P.s. Titus 3:4-7 "But after that the kindness and love of God our Saviour toward man appeared, Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost; Which he shed on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Saviour; That being justified by his grace, we should be made heirs according to the hope of eternal life." Romans 10:9-11,13 "That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved." Amen. Kindly share this message.
I don't mean to say that isn't true, I thought the same thing for quite a few months about myself, but now it's back, though not nearly as bad, and I've found that controlling my anxiety is super effective at keeping the symptoms down, but I'm worried that it will get bad again. Still a Christian, I know his plan will be done, I just don't know that his plan is to cure me.
@@Nathan-w2s9d I understand your suffering very well. His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts and higher than our thoughts. We may not understand why we don’t experience healing from our symptoms and continue to suffer, but He promises to work all things together for our good. I hope that gives you comfort. He is the Good Shepherd and takes care of His sheep. I have thought many times I’ve lost my salvation because of how I acted and what I said during psychosis, but I’ve learned through many months of therapy and care from family and friends that God is love and doesn’t give up on us, especially those who suffer mentally. “He is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” “He who began the good work in you will be faithful to complete it.” Just remember that when God looks down on you, He sees someone who is so special and has great value to Him because you’ve been bought with a price. It doesn’t matter what happens in the present or the future, you will always be loved by Him despite your suffering. I was hospitalized three times earlier this year because of mental illness and I survived because we serve a God of hope and love. Even if we both have to suffer with a thorn in our flesh like Paul with mental illness the rest of our lives, God is able to sustain and provide for us through our weakness. God bless
Thanks for baring you soul, sister. It took a lot of courage. Courage can become CONTAGIOUS, by the way. I'm betting MANY will find courage to speak out about their challenges in life after hearing your testimony here.
Thank you for sharing your testimony. My mother has severe mental health issues and I grew up in fear of her. I am trying to forgive her, as I felt that a lot of my own mental health struggles were caused by her. I am praying for healing for my family as there is a lot of brokenness in it.
Forgive her as God forgives you. You may feel like she doesn't deserve it, but neither do you. Forgiveness takes the bitterness out of our lives. Holding on to anger gives evil a hold over you. Let go and let God handle it!
Thank you for your testimony. I went through something similar as a child, knowing that God was there, but didn't know him. I overdosed One nights on a hard drug, and told God to show me who he was. I stuck with it, studied every religion four days straight, lol. I was very confused. Search for God with your whole heart, he sees that and he reveals himself through his son Jesus Christ. I remember the exact moment the holy Spirit came over me, a peace I'll never be able to explain. This was the exact moment I accepted Christ as God, The Son of God, and my savior. I can't say I have lived a holy life since. That was in 2005. A lot has happened to me since. But I am SAVED. This I assure you. God does not leave us nor forsake us. God Bkess you. In the name of Adonai Elohim, Jesuah, king of King and Lord of lords.
It never will cease to amaze me how God uses the testimonies of his people to speak to his people! This has spoken so deeply to me. Thank you so much Stacy ❤ I love you with the love of the Lord. He loves you ao much!
I understand the mother pain. My mom did not have schizophrenia but she had a lot of emotional issues, and is an addict. I saw a giant hole in her hand once, infected and literally massive… it still shakes me, and after that I got saved! Still praying, there’s a reason for the suffering. God bless you sister 🕊📖✝️❤️ I am so grateful to be saved. Your testimony inspired me to share my own on YT. Thank you! ❤️❤️❤️ God bless you sister. ❤️✝️🕊📖
The Lord wanted me to say Your mom always loved you, what you saw was an image in your own mind of the gulit an pain you went through. God is both light and darkness he is in the midst no matter where we may be Let these words encourage you in the Lord Praise God
Stacy - What a blessing! What a story of redemption! God can take anything, absolutely anything to reach His children. The Lord spoke so mightily through you and by obeying his urging to share your testimony, it will bless many. I believe that your Mom knows what the Lord has done in your life and I'm sure she's so happy and thankful. Thank you again for sharing your testimony and your love of God's word. I have been so convicted lately to read more of GOD's WORD! You have inspired me! Thank you! Stacey
I'm so glad!! I thought I knew God, but boy, there was so much more to learn, and still learn! I'm amazed daily at His love and grace, and His forgiveness! I hate the things I've done, but I know He forgives me. He refused to let me go, even when I tried running away. Everything my mom and I went through was for His glory! All the suffering will be worth it in the end!
Awe honey, I’m so sorry for all you went through! You told your story very well. We overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony. God loves. you soooo much. Thank you for sharing. 💜
Just listening to what your mom wrote on those index cards, THAT WAS A MIRACLE!! When she said, God wants you to be holy, rather then happy, and then you'll be content, that's the ABSOLUTE TRUTH!! Wonderful testimony, God bless you!!
Thank you for sharing your story! Our God is so good! He is the ultimate healer of our minds, body's and souls. Even if that healing doesn't take place until we are home with him.
Praise the Lord this video ended with REPENTENCE bcuz its truly a requirement for eternal life in Heaven, God bless this testimony! Thank you for being obedient and sharing, not an easy one to share online with stranger, AMEN
@wanderingwithstacy Yes Jesus is Lord of Lords and King of kings but love covers all sins, Proverbs 10 : 12 kjv. It's too easy, it seems. God has unconditional love for everyone. This life is the hell God is talking about. This world is the Kingdom of God. Even before Jesus came, it was written about what Jesus was preaching about, love thy neighbour.
What a beautiful soul you have! Your mom knows you're sorry and she has already forgiven you. This was a genuine testimony, it made me tear up here and there. Be blessed always.
Hi Stacy. Sending hugs, your mum's symptoms sounded a lot like the ones my brother had in many ways, and your story touched and resonated with me deeply. It will be so beautiful when we can talk to them again when they are in their perfect bodies. I imagine you're an incredibly resilient person. Much love and God bless you my sister in Christ
Praise God for your peace. Remember, the word says tyst it’s the devil who comes to kill, steal and destroy but Jesus came to bring life and life abundant. It’s the enemy who oppressed your mom, Jesus came to “destroy the works of the devil” . God does indeed take what the enemy intends to destroy and use it for good for those who love Him. But he is not the one destroying. He is a good good father. So thankful you have the peace of knowing your mom is healed and whole and that you came to a deeper understanding of the truth.
Thank you for your bravery in sharing such a deeply personal testimony. So amazing. You did a great job at conveying it all! Grace and peace to you and your family x
May the Lord bless you and your family! Thank you for sharing your testimony. I believe it will bless others. Praise God for the pain we go through! He's making diamonds out of dust.
Thank you for sharing. Jesus is the lover of our souls, and what a powerful love story you share with him. It takes courage to be vulnerable. It takes courage to allow God to use you. Thank you for your courage. It has surely blessed me, and I know God will use your story to bless others as well.
My beautiful sister in Christ, this is one of the most impactful loving and God-fearing testimonies I have ever seen and heard. I pray that there is continual grace and mercy from our father in your life forevermore. As your brother in Christ, I would like you to know that conclusion of this testimony deeply touched me. I pray that your whole family accepts Jesus in their life in a way that they can't ever deny his existence for as long as they may live. He is my loving God and my fortress, my stronghold and my deliverer, my shield, in whom I take refuge, who subdues peoples under me. -Psalm 144:2
I was just thinking that your mom new that you didn’t have the best dad and prayed for you that God would step in and be that Dad for you❤️ I thought that was so amazing when you were little you felt so safe with Him. What a great testimony!! So glad your family knows the Lord thank you for sharing 🥰🥰
Yes, I absolutely believed my mom prayed all the time for me and for my kids. I feel so honored and blessed that God heard her prayers. He loved her so much. With all she went through, she was always faithful. Finding her Bible with her notes in it was the greatest gift she could give me! Prayers work, even when we can't see the effects of them. God is always using them for His good work!
My father currently has schizophrenia. Thank you so much for your testimony. it brought me to tears and I think God brought me to this video so I can hear it. Thank you. ❤
God healed me from Schizophrenia in layers while I have obeyed Him in going to where He is moving in Power to heal and deliver me. For me, I found my healing and deliverance at 5F Church in Los Angeles. Hallelujah! If He can do it for me, He can do it for your father!
All I can say is your video randomly showed up on my TH-cam feed. I mean I've looked into mental illness and things of the like on the internet, so maybe that's why it shows up. Who knows. But your video is encouraging. I don't struggle with schizophrenia, but OCD,depression, ADD, and anxiety. I'd definitely say God used your video to encourage me. He can work through mental illness when it seems He won't.
Thank you so much for being so brave and sharing such a beautiful story. My son suffers with paranoid schizophrenia. It’s so hard watching a loved one suffer. And it’s such a private pain that can’t be shared or understood by many people. Thank you for sharing your story. God is so good to walk with us through these hard things. You are such an amazing inspiration and blessing. 🤗 God bless!! Shalom! -Christa
Wow this is an awesome confession that brings revelation of how God who is the Potter uses any and every person and circumstance to make and mold us into the person he would have us to become, and truly, he is working on us from birth or before. 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻 All things are for our sakes.
Im at 14:55 and I've gotta pause this to say I wish I was there with you to hold your hand through this and give you a hug. I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia but they changed it to Dissociative Identity Disorder. Life is very hard and I tell this is very hard for you to do - but you're giving God glory by doing this!🙌 Well done! I obviously dont know you, but I'm proud of you for getting through this! Praise Jesus, the living God, our glorious King! Amen.🙏🫂💖
Thank you for sharing! GOD is good! Jesus of Nazareth has created in me a New Heart, He has set me free from misery, loneliness, selfishness, hatred, and suicidal depression. I worship GOD at TFH SF and SFCAC, and being in GOD's presence is my heart's desire and fulfillment, and singing Jesus Christ praise with other believers brings His LIFE into life!
I left everything I had (home, job, income) to become a missionary for the church. After three weeks or so, I discovered that it wasn't really from the Lord & there was anxiety in my spirit. I took a stand and walked away & now I'm having to get my life back together. I'm still living with my host who's no longer being paid to provide me with shelter. I have a flat viewing in a few days and need God's miraculous financial provision. I got my job back but won't become full time or be paid for a while. I have nothing left. I don't feel wanted where I'm living since I decided to step out of the mission. Please pray for my health, financial provision and God's favour.
Thank you for sharing what God has revealed through your journey.I love your story, I am learning to ask for prayer, to pray always, and read my Bible every day, and studyin depth and meditate. What a Great God we serve He does Not condemn us. He has been a Father to me that was absent and unknown, and I know He Loves me too. Take good care okay, and Never stop sharing what GOD has done for you.
Thank you for your testimony Stacy. You have really spoken to my heart as I have a similar story of my mom and I'm still praying for her to receive help and for God to be present in her life daily. He loves us so much and He will give us strength and joy no matter what falls on our shoulders. He saved me in 2000 when I met my future MIL and in 2005 I was led by Him to be baptized. I haven't looked back since. May God bless you and your family richly in the years to come.
Glory be to God in the name of Jesus amen! Hi my name is James and it is always a blessing to fellowship with the body of christ. Recently the lord has led me to start a TH-cam channel as well. If you like, see and hear what the lord has put on my heart to share by tuning into my channel. God bless you in the name of Jesus and have a wonderful day amen!
somehow i came across your video today and I want to say thank you for doing this. It has moved me in many ways, and I know God is working through you and your family. I want to say thank you Jesus for everything you have done, are doing and plan on doing for all of us. In Jesus Name I will forever pray...AMEN.
Thank you for sharing! I came across your channel looking for reviews on bible study companion books then was directed to your testimony. Thanks for your reviews on bible study books and for sharing your story!
Hi Stacy. Just discovered your channel & so far, I'm loving it. Thank you so much for sharing. I know this was hard to do. I'm coming back to Christ myself after drifting away. And you're 100% right. You're mom is doing just fine now, hun. And you'll be ok, too. Hugs.
Ive been running from God for a while after being so close and confident with him, but your story truly pierced my stone heart i created for myself overtime. Im lucky to even have my dad alive today who showed me the way to God by his example. He suffered so much, but was always faithful to God and I never understood that until he was saved from cancer through faith alone and Gods grace. It seems like i have forgotten everything I have witnessed and been through in my own life. You brought back so much memories with your story that I really relate to and I know that everything happens for a reason, even if all that you went through in life was for you to have such a testimony for others. I hope you continue to push forward with God, even when you feel like you arnt getting answers because that was me until I decided to give your video a chance. Thank you for your testimony.
GOD bless you, Toby! Thank you so much for sharing your struggles! We all have challenges we face, and sometimes we fall away or make bad choices! But please remember it's never too late to return to the ONE who gave HIS life so we can live! Hosea 6:1 "Come, and let us return to the Lord; For He has torn, but He will heal us; He has stricken, but He will bind us up." The LORD still has plans for you to prosper you and not to harm you! Jeremiah 11:29 Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love GOD, to those who are the called according to HIS purpose. 29 For whom HE foreknew, HE also predestined to be conformed to the image of HIS SON, that HE might be the firstborn among many brethren. 30 Moreover whom HE predestined, these HE also called; whom HE called, these HE also justified; and whom HE justified, these He also glorified." GOD bless you on your journey towards abundant life!
You did it with grace your testimony , your candle light reflects in the mirrors of dark places . Joy to you forevermore I pray for your peace is well deserved.Ame
Thank you for your beautiful story. My daughter has been diagnosed with schizophrenia this past week. I am so grateful for modern medicine and God’s redemptive grace.
Hi, Stacy. I just found your channel a day or two ago, and had just watched a couple of your Bible videos and found this one about your testimony. My heart just breaks thinking about your Mom and how much she suffered from her illness, and how much you suffered as a result, too. I can only imagine how difficult it was to bare your heart and soul to tell us your story, but you told it in such a beautiful way, and it was so worth it to hear how things turned out and how your Mom, your son, and you were all brought into God’s love. ☺️ I am incredibly proud of your Mom for having such faith in spite of what she was going through, and incredibly proud of you for pursuing your journey into faith and wholeness. I’m also super happy that your Mom is with Jesus, and that you and your family will all be together with her in Heaven one day! God bless you and your family! 😇💙🙏✝️ Meline
Hello Thank you for this video . I want to share the information with some friends, but they find it easier to read rather than to listen, however for me it’s the opposite way around- I don’t find it so easy to read so it’s very helpful to be able to listen to this very good teaching. I wondered if anyone of you knew of any similar content, which is in written format please that I can share with friends who prefer to read thank you very much I look forward to hearing more from you. 🙏🏼🙂
Wow! Thank you for sharing Stacy.You are amazing! your story and God is Amazing! All Glory and honour is his.I wish you much joy for the rest of your life on Earth sister.Through your pain your experience will help many come to Jesus,as you know.Thank you,God bless you ♥
Wow! What a powerful testimony! I’m weeping alongside you. My dad was an alcoholic and my sister was addicted to PCP so I can relate to some of this. As a teacher, I wonder why no adults intervened but you give me encouragement to continue to pray for our kids- not just the ones at home but the ones in the schools and stores…. When I think of things I regret, I list kind things I said and did too and I remind myself that I’m forgiven.
I'm sorry to hear about your struggles as well! I've often wondered about my teachers. I was a quiet kid for the most part. I didn't act out and a lot of us kids were in pretty rough situations. I lived in a bad area full of drugs and absent parents. I'm sure the teachers were overwhelmed. I'm sure my mom did enough praying to make up for it!
Blessings Sis in Christ.... I love the 2nd index your Ma wrote. Do u mind I use that to remind me each day, to me it is what I truly believe "Holy". Bless you so much for the longest wilderness (storms) ..wilderness testimony you were in Praise the LORD ... Praise Jesus!! Your endurance and faith espec your Mama's centered-faith inside.... Wow! Wow!. Yup! God IS ALWAYS near with even when DONT understand... I believe He NEVER leaves us. Blessings.
Oh Stacy, your story touched me greatly!🥲 Everyone’s testimony is beautiful but you truly have a powerful testimony! Good does triumph over evil! God is greater than the darkest places in this world! Thank you so much for sharing with us!❤️
This is probably the realest testimony I have experienced. I am sad she wasn't healed in this life, but it is encouraging how she held on despite everything.
Amazing testimony 🙌 GOD IS GOOD!! You did a great job explaining it too. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. It helps us all to know we are not alone. ❤🙏I need to do more Bible reading. I'm retired in 2 years, I plan on daily study...I. so excited about actually having time.
Im so happy to have found your channel. You are inspiring to me. My mum also had schizophrenia and my son does too. My mum has passed on to. Hearing your testimony makes me want to share mine too. Love to you and may God continue to bless you. I thank Him for giving us mothers that taught us about Him🙏
Very encouraging word. As someone with family members who have battles for their mental health I can relate. This has encouraged me to continue to have hope and see Gods light and hand in the midst of it all.
Ive always thought that people who were screnzerphrenic were seers or prophets. They always be knowing things that happen in the unknown. I sometimes wonder if they are just people who dont know how to control their gift. ❤❤
Thanks for sharing this, - my mum too had schizophrenia and my sister became I'll with schizophrenia too when she was 16yrs old, - it is a horrible illness and so difficult to understand. Currently my sister is in a care home, which is not great but I guess better than out on the streets. I like you have prayed, - she isn't a Christian as far as I know and I like you constantly question God why she has suffered so long . I still find the whole situation difficult
Thanks for sharing your testimony. Beautifully said! So sorry you and your Mom had to experience that. It hit home with me. Although different scenario, I have asked God why me and why was he was putting me and my family through such tough times. Angry, sad, etc. My mother has a traumatic brain injury from an accident 28 years ago. She almost died that day and was in the hospital for almost a year. She was never the same. Doesn’t remember things about my childhood, getting married, etc. Emotionally unattached from everyone. She doesn’t have the emotional aspect of being a parent or grandparent. She focuses on her immediate needs. My Dad and I are her legal guardians. So I had quite a few talks with God. Angry mostly. Then 15 years ago, my grandmother passed. The following month, my only sibling/24 year old brother/recent college graduate (16 year younger) passed unexpectedly from unknown cause (irregular rhythm in heart). Devastated and mad sums it up. Plus other things I discovered (not for social media) really had me upset and wondering why me. I continue to do better with time but I’m a work in progress. Thanks again for sharing!
This is such a beautiful testimony of God's love. Thank you for sharing. What a beautiful moment it will be when you are able to reunite with your mom who is whole and completely healed.
Amazing story, God and I have had a long road together as well. I was angry as well at stuff I didn’t understand, and later by reading the Bible, I found so much of it was from my own consequence. Never ever take what his son Jesus did for us on the cross for granted is all I can say because when it no longer seems possible to our human minds, he starts to make a way. You are a strong woman and your Mom is smiling down on you.
I live with bipolar with occasional psychosis. my relationship with God started the same way. my father died when I was 7, . I would talk to him a lot and felt his presence as well, just today I was thinking earlier I that embarrassed to include that part in my testimony. hearing you share it made me feel seen. sorry i'm kinda bad with words also but thank you for sharing your testimony. it really touched my heart. ❤️
Thank you very much for this story Stacy - so beautiful and uplifting ☺️❤️ i'm so glad that you have your personal relationship with Jesus Christ now and you are His ❤️ All Glory to God HalleluYAH 🙌 That was a great encouragement to me - thank you Dear 🥰❤️
Some times there are no answers, and life is so hard and unfair, to say you have been through so much i think you have turned out to be a wonderful person, and the trouble is because your parents were so unstable you would have to be the responsible one, and i would say this, God looks at our hearts not always our actions and what we say, you clearly loved your mum but were under such horrendous times with her, i felt i let my mum down and was under such guilt, until one day the Lord said i forgive you, and that was all i needed, if he has forgiven me i do not need validation from anyone else, and if you ask for forgiveness its exactly the same for you, so do not rremain under any more guilt because that is not from God, be set free and thank you for being so brave to share your testimony, well done all my love xxxxxxx
I have suffered with schizophrenia for 10 years now…. I’m a believer too… I have been through hell.. but dealing with this illness is the hardest thing I have ever gone through… I am sorry about your momma… I’m sure she loved you more than herself… but symptoms of this mess makes us distant from even the ones we love the most in the whole world…. I’m so glad you can see the good in the suffering… that’s a true gift… one to hold onto forever… if you don’t mind… please say a prayer for me… I am really struggling right now… and I could use prayers from someone who understands… my name is Sierra…. Thank you for being obedient and sharing… ❤
Prayer sent! It truly is a terrible affliction. You must be so strong and brave! God is using you and your pain for His glory. You will be blessed beyond measure! Stay focused on the things above and not what's happening here and now. Peace and comfort to you!
I’m praying for you in Jesus name, you are loved! I hope you can find a church near you that is really on for for Jesus so they can lay hands on you to deliver you!
God loves you, Sierra. Praying for you 🙏❤
Thank you for sharing your story. I'm happy for your mom....hard life beautiful ending❤
Precious Sierra, keep holding onto Jesus!! Pray on His Holy Spirit to encourage you…You are chosen by God…if He can choose Job (Job 1:8) He has chosen you too. Isn’t that wonderful that He picked you bc He knew you’d be the right person that would hold onto Him in the midst of these trials. I encourage you to read the book of Job it paints the picture of sorrow and lament with an ending for future hope 😊
We don’t understand why things happen but we can rest assure that it’s bc His ways and thoughts are greater than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9) may His name be blessed!!
This is making me cry so hard. My son was diagnosed with schizophrenia a few years ago and is now almost 22. It's so hard but I love him so much. Please pray God heals my whole family.
I'm so sorry you're going through this. Praying!
My son also has schizophrenia and I’m praying he could have a deliverance because when he’s in psychosis I feel such a demonic presence in him. I’m praying for your son too!
He doesn't have schizophrenia from what I know.. You're the victim of mind control experiments by arse holes that are playing with your mind and that is no lie!.. Please look up "electronic harassment" and "V2K mind control" under images for more insight as to why I say that, as well as "voice of God weapons", also look up "Ex CIA Dr Robert Duncan and Tyrone Dew, directed energy weapons".. Many "targeted individuals" out there.. Also look up Dr John Hall mind control" May God watch over you!
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I'm so sorry to hear this, I've said a prayer for your son's total healing xx
God healed me from Schizophrenia in layers while I have obeyed Him in going to where He is moving in Power to heal and deliver me. For me, I found my healing and deliverance at 5F Church in Los Angeles. Hallelujah! If He can do it for me, He can do it for you!
I suffer from schizophrenia I0 years,I have a drug induced psychosis ..the worst of worst
Because I hallucinate all the time and my nerves hurt alot.. when my psychosis began years ago I was very confused because I hallucinated all the time and saw alot of colors and pattern keildoscop visions..
I mean I still have it but The Lord helps me and strengthens me everyday because I couldnt even look people in the eye, I couldn’t even walk without having hallucinations ..I was even afraid to go upstairs ..was a nightmare..and my hope is Christ he is the one who makes the impossible possible! I will forever give him my life.
Amen ❤
God healed me from Schizophrenia in layers while I have obeyed Him in going to where He is moving in Power to heal and deliver me. For me, I found my healing and deliverance at 5F Church in Los Angeles. Hallelujah! If He can do it for me, He can do it for you!
Praying for your peace and comfort!
may i ask what you took that caused that? 8 years ago, i was stuck in a terrifying psychosis for 2 months after taking 6 doses of cough syrup with a small piece of an edible. i was guided to a miraculous meditation that almost immediately reversed all my symptoms. let me know if you'd like me to share it with you.
@@ToThePureAllThingsArePureyes what meditation?
I battle with skitophrenia and sometimes it's tough with wanting to get healed 😔 when my grandpa prayed for me with his hand on my head I had a change in consciousness and I slowly got better with my meds but I still have this mental illness. I've been battling demons who torment me and I'll I want is peace. I know God is with me but it's a very tough battle. I know he's real I just don't understand why I had to go through all this suffering. Thanks for your story it's heartwarming to know how much you loved your Mom.
You're suffering is not for nothing. There is a purpose for everything, even when we don't know what it is. God is in control and He loves you! I pray He brings you peace and comfort!
once I saw a person in a comment section say that the closer to God you get the more you will be persecuted (by both humans and Satan and his Demons)
God healed me from Schizophrenia in layers while I have obeyed Him in going to where He is moving in Power to heal and deliver me. For me, I found my healing and deliverance at 5F Church in Los Angeles. Hallelujah! If He can do it for me, He can do it for you!
@@_austinring yes this 🙌, I have often found (for me personally) that obedience is usually required for healing, sin is what usually lets these demons in people's lives the first place (but not always but sin can be a door way to let them in, for example when someone gives into temptation, repentance is necessary)
There is no doubt that the bible has
healing power, when I had my 1st
psychotic break, Jesus word came
alive in my spirit and did a healing
work in my life
That's amazing!
Exactly what happened to me
Thank you for sharing. I can relate so much to your story. my brother has paranoid schizophrenia and he is 52. My mom is a saint and has taken such good care of him throughout his life. he told her one day out of the blue, while she was struggling with God, asking Him why her son had to suffer like this Terry looked her in the eye and said "mom, there's going to be a special place in heaven for people like me."
So true!
It is true. Trust me.❤
@JC-du6sn thank you so much, he doesn't have the attention span to sit and read a book but I do appreciate it 🙏🙏
As a sufferer of schizophrenia Jesus is more alive and real now than ever before. He is faithful and yes has prepared a place for us.
100% agree!
The Lord in His full, the Father, Son, and Spirit, loves you. He cares about your story, your family, your healing, and your forgiveness. I’m not sure if you talked about it, but God does care about your voice even when you feel He doesn’t want to hear it. He cares about your pain and guilt, and you are forgiven when you bring it to Him. May He bring you peace until you can be fully with Him and your mother
Love this, thank you!
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Schizophrenia is horrible. I know that a lot of people with the condition have to have medication. I was able to recover by ignoring the hallucinations and delusions. I simply refused to believe they are real. My daughter says it’s not possible to do that. She seems to be doing well on Abilify. I retired after working for 30 years at a high security airport. I never took medication never had therapy and I no longer fear having a relapse.
I was a Christian the first time I had psychosis at about 21 years old. I knew there was something wrong with me but I didn’t know what it was. I did know that I had to find out what was wrong with me and recover. In order to do that, I had to trust my own delusional mind more than that of the doctors.
I realized that the hallucinations were like entities that tended to drift off into the background whenever I was really focused like whenever I had an argument or something like that. That’s what gave me the idea of ignoring and not believing in those “entities” since that’s what caused them to withdraw.
I had to change all my habits of thought. Every time I was triggered to think of some delusion of grandeur or otherwise, I had to rethink everything. I had to not believe what I believed. I had to stop doing miracles and telepathy.
It worked! The hallucinations gradually became less and less. After several years, I became more confident that I would never have a relapse again. I actually retired from a 30 year career!
I am surprised now how disinterested the medical profession is about my complete recovery. It’s almost like they want you to remain ill so they can lord it over you. They seem to be happier that way. They seem terrified to speak with me and that’s not a delusion. They avoid me like the plague! I don’t necessarily blame them since I probably understand schizophrenia better than they do. I want to help others with schizophrenia and the doctors don’t seem to even care about a possible cure.
May I ask you a question
@@faithlovehope4487 Yes.
This was nice to read. Would you feel comfortable saying the same thing on a TH-cam vid perhaps? It's a great way to get the word out.
@@kiddozcollection That's a good idea. I have mentioned it on another channel. Maybe I could post some videos on this channel. Thanks!
@@voiceinthewilderness322 Great! Let me know if u upload it.
Praise God ❤
Blessings be upon you,
I have been set free from schizoid affected bi polar and heroin addiction. I was on heavy medication for decades including monthly injection. I had no withdrawals from medication and take no tablets today.
Jesus christ can free you from anything if you believe in him.
He saved a hopeless case like me.
God bless you all on your journey ❤❤❤
God is good!
I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia in my mid 30s after the death of my father. Since the loss of my mother my strength has grown in developing a way of applying the teaching of Christ. That is through promoting life and safeguarding all that are vulnerable which includes animals, plants, people, earth, water and light. Recently a priest publicly denounced me as a sinner. She is no Christian. There are many fakes who carry a Bible but cannot read or write or comprehend the joy of life. I witnessed the birth of a litter of pups and I'm beholding to the sanctity of life.
May God bless you and keep you!
It wasn’t a priest if she was female. My Catholic priest has helped my through it and even visited me in hospital.
@oneman4412 Thank you brother. You see, I'm a well trained First Aider who came across a 40 year old disabled man who was high on crack and I brought him down from the drug using first aid. The next day I was labelled a paedophile and was forced out by a drug gang . I ended up placed in a safe house by the police. After attempts to take my own life I got rehoused and travelled to Belgium to try getting euthanasia since then I'm living day to day with my dog and take it for runs across fields and through woodland each day. I talk to my dead father and pray for release and unity. The female priest agreed with the drug gang that I was a paedophile and would go to hell. I realise now that she was a false teacher and very narcissistic using bigotry from the Bible to further her condemnation of first aid. It is my understanding that Christ was killed for practicing this skill? God bless the meek and hope that you do not suffer these slings and your priest can find some compassion?
I just got to this thread on 6/13/24. Hope you are still with us; please continue studying the Word of God. If you feel overwhelmed and tired of what is bothering you, use statements like "I bind you in the name of Jesus of Nazareth", "I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ." Also, sanctify a small amount of olive oil with prayer and fasting (or have someone who is a servant of the Lord prepare it for you.) Then apply like a drop on door frames and windows, to set your place apart. Say: "Lord, be with me. This house belongs to you." (Say your own prayer to the Heavenly Father.)
Scripture from Luke 17, "Now when He was asked by the Pharisees when the kingdom of God would come, He answered them and said, “The kingdom of God does not come with observation; nor will they say, ‘See here!’ or ‘See there!’ For indeed, the kingdom of God is within you.”
>> Matthew 18:18: "Verily I say unto you, Whatsoever ye shall bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever ye shall loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven."
I have schizophrenia, I hear voices trying to sway my beliefs about reality. Sometimes they say things like "God loves you" other times they tell me "you're not a christian." Theres alot of things they say other than that, but I won't go into that. It can be quite a struggle. I pray all of you suffering from this condition find peace, I've spent so much time hearing voices, but there is peace on the horizon for all those that believe in Jesus! God bless you all!
May God bless you and heal you!
Listen dear, you don't have schizophrenia from what I know, you're the victim of mind control experiments by arse holes that are playing with your mind and that is no lie!.. Please look up "electronic harassment" and "V2K mind control" under images for more insight as to why I say that, as well as "voice of God weapons", also look up "Ex CIA Dr Robert Duncan and Tyrone Dew, directed energy weapons".. As well as "Dr John Hall mind control"! Many "targeted individuals" out there! May God watch over you!
Do you pray for breakthrough and healing? I pray Jesus frees you. I had a third eye opening experience where I started getting spiritual attacks. I knew it was the enemy. Jesus freed me from demonic possession. Not sure what your experience was.
God healed me from Schizophrenia in layers while I have obeyed Him in going to where He is moving in Power to heal and deliver me. For me, I found my healing and deliverance at 5F Church in Los Angeles. Hallelujah! If He can do it for me, He can do it for you!
God bless you❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I had a schizophrenic dad. We could not really stay with my dad, so my mum had to leave, my dad's younger sister stayed with us and our dad. Then one fine day my mum came to pick us up. We had the best years from then on. To this day I always look out for young children, make sure they are sheltered. I prayed for my dad always, until he died. I started to send Bible verses to my dad on his birthdays and Christmas for the last few years of his life.
I’m in tears, I was exhausted wanting to go to sleep but the Lord used you to ignite my heart get out of bed and seek the Lord with all my heart in soul. I have been praying for my brother who also was diagnosed with schizophrenia and has been suffering since I could remember. His name is Jaime Alvarado if the Lord placed him in your heart please pray for him. Thank you for sharing your testimony, God bless you.
Lord please bless Jaime and his family. Please give them peace knowing that you are with them through every struggle!
Lord please give Jaime the wisdom to get delivered from Schizophrenia. In Jesus Name we pray 🙏🏽
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Thank you sister for your testimony. One thing I learned from Pastor Stephen Darby is the mental illness some are oppressed and some are losses. One is not invited while the other was invited in. I pray for anyone who is going through mental illness May you receive Jesus, and fine HIS peace and Healing. For through the stripes we are healed, we are freed.
My mom suffered from severe mental health issues but had a childlike faith in God. I,like you, believe I will see her when I'm in heaven. I will get to know her for who she truly is
YES, I can't wait to meet my mom fully healed!
Thank you, I feel your testimony. Grew up myself with a schizophrenic mom and I really really know what you have been through.
May God bless you and give you peace and comfort!
Hallelujah!!! I love you dear one.
67-68 years old. I have been "alone" for over 23 years now. DADDYGOD is My DADDY. Darling JESUS is My BIG BROTHER. HolyGhost is My MAMA-GOD. I enjoy Myself with My family indeed.
>>Finally, Dear All People, know This: Holiness is a prerequisite for interceding for anyone or thing! You must live Holy, otherwise your prayer is not passing your head or roof!!! 2Corinthians 6:14-18, Galatians 5, John 15, Acts 2.
yes that is true, holiness is required indeed
Thank you for sharing your testimony! My mother was an only child, and her mother went into a mental facility in the 1940's.She went in there in her late 20's and died at the young age of 33.We never knew her exact cause of death,but are fairly certain she received shock treatment as well as a labotomy,which was the barbaric practice if the day.I have always felt so sad for my mom,that she lost her mom so young.My mother has never even known where her mother is buried,and she is now 85 years old.I felt strongly to search records,and found my mother's ,mother's grave! I surprised her with the visit.We found a beautiful stone that said,In God's Care.Her name was Nellie,and she was also buried with HER mother,also named Nellie who died when she was only a 1 year old baby!It was the time of the Spanish flu epidemic.My mother cried such beautiful,bittersweet tears at her mother and grandmother's grave to finally get this closure.My mother trusted Jesus the day I got baptized,and is the kindest soul I know. I pray that when she takes her last breath in this world that she is greeted by Jesus,her mother,her grandmother, and her son Michael.Jesus is the way,the truth,and the life! No man comes to the Father,but through Him!✝️💞
Wow! Sometimes the hardships we go through are just unfathomable, but God is always with us! It's just amazing that you were able to find that grave. Thank you for sharing your story! May God give you peace and many blessings!
Just to say thanks for sharing your life s testimony. I myself have schizoaffective disorder and 20 years ago went through a huge schizophrenic episode, I thought I was going to hell even though I was born again. Satan puts the boot In when you are down. But God my father told me I would never go through that darkness again, and I haven't, even when my son died from a drug overdose I was at peace deep down because he was saved by Jesus Christ. God bless you and your family from Northern Ireland xx
Wow! I'm so sorry you've gone through that. May God watch over you always!
Thank you so much God bless you also xx
Thank you very much for your testimony Stacy! I got tears in my eyes. All the best for you and your family....I also suffer from a vulnerability for psychosis (was labeled with ''schizoprhenia'') and feel supported by Christ. May God bring peace in the world. For: A World in Which All Children Can Play. 🕊❤🙏
There was nothing wrong how u speak. Really touched me. My mom has the same. U r brave and Holy Spirit is in U. Much love to you dear chosen sister in Christ ♥️ You are in my prayers. Hugs
Wow. I needed this video.
I’m going through it with bipolar disorder. I didn’t expect to see this from you and I didn’t know I needed this.
Thank you.
I'm so sorry. I'm glad you found some comfort in this. Just know the Lord is with you always, even in your darkest times, He won't leave you. He understands the pain you're going through, but He also knows things that we don't. He sees the whole big picture, where we just see what's right in front of us. He sacrificed His son to save us, and He knows pain like no other. Everything will be made right in the end. We all will be whole and healed of all afflictions. Stay strong sis, and know you are so loved! Anyone reading this comment, please say a prayer for Breanna!
@@wanderingwithstacy thank you so much!
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Added you to my prayer journal Breanna.
CLING to Jesus.
Hold on TIGHT!!
Blessings.
Wonderful testimony, and thank you for talking about your struggles and your Mom's struggles. Yes, you are right: if your Mom dealt with Schizophrenia and had such a great faith, then we all should have faith. Amen and thank you for sharing Jesus! ✝️
Wow 😭, what a testimony of God's love! How even in the hardest/worst of times, he is still there. You spoke so well, and with so much confidence in our savior, that is a beautiful thing Stacy! I am sorry to hear about your mom, but you are right, she is healed and is with our King! One day you'll get to see her again, praise God!! 💖
Amen sister! I can't wait to see her as she is now!
@@wanderingwithstacy amen ✝️✝️✝️🙏 I'm also a Christian and yes I went back to church yay god was just guiding me through my faith amen ✝️✝️✝️👍
Oh Stacy! My heart is so full of joy and tears of joy! Thank you sharing your story!!!
Rejoice! He is always with us, even through the hardships!
Thank you soooooo much ...God be praised....my mother suffered so in much the same way...and I had an alcoholic father also who went through WW II and he saw much in the war that he couldn't talk about, but we finally talked years later after he and I took a drive while my mom slept at my family's home here in California with my husband and three children . Both my mom and dad went forward to receive Jesus at a Billy Graham Crusades later even though we all went to church from the time my twin brother and I were about three years old. Our mom was in and out of hospital for many treatments and which included terrible shock treatments. We were born in 1943... but many trials still look in my mind if I let them... I had to learn to read the Bible for myself, also and in 1976 I became born again and God has been working on me. Much love to you and your family....thank you , again for sharing🎉❤😊
Stacy, thank you for listening to the Holy Spirit. I needed to watch this video today! Nothing can ever separate us from the love of God and your testimony testifies of this! Jesus said we would suffer and have trials but he said that he has overcome the world. And now you sister stand declaring this very thing! Stacy you have overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of your testimony. God Bless you! Thank you!! God Bless you!! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜🥰🥰🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
Love you girl! Being apart of this family is everything! Praise the Lord!
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I thought you did a great job speaking! My son struggles with schizoaffective disorder and seems so tormented by vicious, cruel voices. He has always loved the Lord so I wonder what is at play here. I have been praying against these forces and it has helped. His screaming has stopped.So glad I found you and thank you again!
I was captivated by your story Stacy. Oh, the pain of suffering especially when we don’t understand. Praise the Lord that he redeems every moment of suffering.🙏🏼❤️
It's all worth it! I know my mom would go through it all again for us and she is being rewarded in Heaven!
Your mom is looking down rejoicing the work God has done for you and your son and she is free of pain. She is absolutely safe in the arms of God in heaven. Be encouraged in the Lord. Thank you for sharing, I m sure your testimony will encourage many people.
Thank you!🥰
I watch most of your book talks.Thanks for sharing your story. Both of my parents had mental illness and spent time in hospitals. That's how they met. My dad had paranoid schizophrenia. My mother had a severe nervous breakdown as a teenager because her step dad abused her horribly since she was a tiny girl, with psychological and verbal abuse, and then my mother experienced sexual abuse by a family member, and later was physically abused by her first husband. She never fully recovered and stayed on meds for the rest of her life. My mother later became a genuine believer. I met my dad when I was in my 20s shortly before he died. I didn't see the worst side of his schizophrenia since he was never around. I remember feeling broken by my mom having a mental relapse when I was in high school. Very difficult. Some of the things you spoke about regarding the difficulties with your mom is what I felt. I remember praying for God to take her rather than her ruin her life. Eventually God answered prayer, she was able to marry a long time friend and he thankfully took good care of her. She died younger than she should have because she couldn't stop smoking cigarettes. I still miss her.
Oh wow, I'm sorry to hear this! My mom was also molested as a child, so that definitely played into her delusions. I'm really glad that your mom became a believer and found someone that was good to her. I still miss my mom too. I have moments where I think to call her to tell her something, like my about my son graduating. Then I remember she's not here and I get sad. I'm looking forward to being with her again though!
This was one of the most amazing God-stories I’ve ever heard. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for choosing to share this with us. BTW I think you’re an awesome speaker and captivating to listen to!!! I’m so grateful for the light God is shining through you on this channel! Please keep making videos !! Love this channel 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
That is so sweet of you, thank you:) It took a long time to get to where I just trust that He knows what He's doing. I couldn't understand before, but now it all makes sense!
There is only one place of safety, one place of salvation, the blood sacrifice of Jesus Christ that paid the full penalty for all our sins.
Jesus loves you and wants you to spend eternity in heaven with Him. But that cannot happen unless you are born again.
So first admit that you are a sinful creature, like we all are. Then believe that Jesus is who He says He is: fully God and fully man. He came to earth and lived a perfect, sinless life. He shed His blood on the cross to pay the penalty for all your sins, past, present and future sins. For the blood of Jesus Christ cleanses us from ALL unrighteousness, no matter what you have done! He died, was buried, and rose again on the third day.
All you have to do is believe that. Believe it by putting one hundred percent of your faith and trust in Jesus Christ and what He did on the cross, without adding in any of your own good works or being good. Because that won’t save you! It has nothing to do with belonging to any church or practicing any religion.
The moment you believe is like a personal encounter in your heart between you and God himself where you tell Him you believe, and that you receive Christ Jesus the Lord, and where you call on His name. For the Scripture says: All who call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
The moment you believe you are born again, you are saved. You receive the Holy Spirit who will indwell you forever. Because salvation is eternal you can never lose it.
So I hope you believed because the alternative would be to endure eternity in hell, paying for your sins. And nobody wants that. That is, if you should choose not to believe what Jesus Christ did for you on the cross when He died to pay for all your sins.
What does the Scripture say?
John 3
3Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.
16For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
17For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
18He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
36He that believeth on the Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life; but the wrath of God abideth on him.
Romans 10
9That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
10For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.
11For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed.
13For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
BELIEVE LIKE A CHILD
Is it perhaps your desire to enter the kingdom of heaven? Do you wish you had certainty about it? Here is what the Lord Jesus had to say about it:
"Verily I say unto you, Whosoever shall not receive the kingdom of God as a little child shall in no wise enter therein." Luke 18:17.
What did Jesus mean by these words? Notice that Jesus said, "receive" the kingdom; He did not say "work for" or "earn" the kingdom. How then can we be sure to receive the kingdom of God as a little child and truly enter therein?
To know what Jesus meant we have to understand how a little child receives, since this is what Jesus requires of anyone who wishes to enter the kingdom of God. Have you ever noticed how a little child receives things, let's say from his parents or grandparents? Think about it for a while. By observation we know that little children receive without any inclination that they ought to EARN or DESERVE what is given to them. It does not occur to them that they should first become worthy or deserving. It is clear that little children always receive in humility and without reservations.
Little children truly know how to receive a gift. They display an absence of pride and self-sufficiency; they simply receive without works and without merit. They do not feel that they first have to earn or deserve what is given to them. They do not measure themselves by their own performance and try to judge whether they should be considered worthy of the gift. They do not think to bring the question of their own merits or goodness into the equation.
This, dear friend, is the simple point that Jesus was making. He is saying that this is the way that we need to receive the greatest gift that anyone can ever receive -- the gift of eternal life in His kingdom.
The reason we need to receive it as a little child is because, try as we may, we can never earn or deserve it through our own merits, goodness or performance. God Almighty is holy and righteous and cannot look upon sin; His standard is perfection. Even if we have failed only once in our lifetime to fulfill even the smallest commandment in the law of God, we fall short of that perfection. The Bible states that:
"All have sinned, and come short of the glory of God" (Romans 3:23).
We all have failed to keep God's moral law, the 10 commandments perfectly; we have all sinned and come short of the glory of God. We can never change our imperfection and make ourselves acceptable to God by trying to be good.
Isaiah 64:6 says:
"But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away."
God is holy and righteous and therefore has to punish sin. The Bible also reveals that God is love and does not want anyone to be damned to an eternity in hell. So the Creator Himself chose to become flesh and to pay the penalty for our sin, which is death.
John 3:16-18 states:
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God."
By simply trusting wholeheartedly in the finished work of Jesus, who lived a perfect and sinless life and died for our sin on the cross, and by receiving this free gift of the forgiveness of sin and eternal life by His grace, anyone, regardless of what terrible sins they may have committed, can be be born again by the Spirit of God and receive the gift of eternal life.
This is how good God is: He was willing to take the punishment for our sin upon Himself. He is unlike anything that we will ever encounter in this dark world that has been marred by man's rebellion and sin and Satan's subsequent evil dominion.
God created mankind with a free will to choose for themselves what they will and will not believe, and what they will and will not receive. He will never force His love and gifts on anyone. He will never force anyone to have a relationship with Him. In His mercy and love He offers it but still allows everyone to choose to receive it, or not to receive it. The Bible says that God is love. He is a God of mercy and grace. Mercy means that we do not get the judgment, condemnation and punishment that we deserve. Grace means that we get all the good from God that we do not deserve. God is both -- He is both merciful and gracious.
Our human pride is what leads us to think that we somehow have to earn or deserve God's favour and gifts through our own performance, good conduct and meritorious deeds. But that is deception. We tend to reason that we first have to become 'good enough' before God would forgive us and accept us and allow us entrance into His kingdom. We don't realise that God requires perfection. So we focus on ourselves instead of on what Jesus has done for us through His perfect, finished work on the cross and the complete payment He has made for all our sins, past, present and future, through His blood sacrifice.
To receive what Jesus did for us requires humility and faith, both of which is found in abundance in a little child.
Thinking that we ought to merit the things of God will actually prevent us from receiving them, for it is contrary to the way a little child receives. It CANNOT be earned by us. It was earned on our behalf by what Jesus Christ has done for us and we just have to receive it as a gift. If indeed we could earn it then it would mean that we would have opportunity to boast in ourselves. Yet, our imperfect performance can never satisfy God's standard of perfection.
The only way that we can receive eternal life in the kingdom of God is to receive it from Him as a free gift. It is not available to us in any other way. We can never earn the things of God.
The Bible makes it very clear:
"For the wages of sin is death; but the GIFT of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord." (Romans 6:23)
"For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the GIFT of God: not of works, lest any man should boast" (Ephesians 2:8-9).
Having said all this we can see how our human pride can be a major hindrance to our receiving from Him, not only the free gift of eternal life and the complete forgiveness of our sins that would secure our entrance into the kingdom of God through being born again, but everything else that we need and that He has provided for us by His grace in Christ; things like healing, provision and blessing. God is truly a good, good God. But we can only receive from Him if we are willing to receive as a little child. My earnest prayer is that you do.
It is impossible to have any boldness in our relationship with God apart from total dependence on what Jesus did for us. Only those of us who are righteous by faith in Jesus have boldness, having received His righteousness as a free gift. Only His perfect work on the cross saves us from God's righteous judgement on our sin.
Just believe that Jesus died for your sins, was buried and rose again from the dead on the third day and God will impute the righteousness of Christ to you and make you a new creature in Christ. He that promised is faithful.
P.s.
Titus 3:4-7
"But after that the kindness and love of God our Saviour toward man appeared,
Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost;
Which he shed on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Saviour;
That being justified by his grace, we should be made heirs according to the hope of eternal life."
Romans 10:9-11,13
"That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.
For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed.
For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved."
Amen.
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Amen, God bless you in the name of Jesus
I was saved from schizoeffective disorder. Let the lord jesus christ use you to clean up your symptoms. You are not demon possessed, just special.
I don't mean to say that isn't true, I thought the same thing for quite a few months about myself, but now it's back, though not nearly as bad, and I've found that controlling my anxiety is super effective at keeping the symptoms down, but I'm worried that it will get bad again. Still a Christian, I know his plan will be done, I just don't know that his plan is to cure me.
I'm so sorry for your suffering. Know that God does love you and is always with you!
@@Nathan-w2s9d I understand your suffering very well. His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts and higher than our thoughts. We may not understand why we don’t experience healing from our symptoms and continue to suffer, but He promises to work all things together for our good. I hope that gives you comfort. He is the Good Shepherd and takes care of His sheep. I have thought many times I’ve lost my salvation because of how I acted and what I said during psychosis, but I’ve learned through many months of therapy and care from family and friends that God is love and doesn’t give up on us, especially those who suffer mentally. “He is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” “He who began the good work in you will be faithful to complete it.” Just remember that when God looks down on you, He sees someone who is so special and has great value to Him because you’ve been bought with a price. It doesn’t matter what happens in the present or the future, you will always be loved by Him despite your suffering. I was hospitalized three times earlier this year because of mental illness and I survived because we serve a God of hope and love. Even if we both have to suffer with a thorn in our flesh like Paul with mental illness the rest of our lives, God is able to sustain and provide for us through our weakness.
God bless
Thanks for baring you soul, sister. It took a lot of courage. Courage can become CONTAGIOUS, by the way. I'm betting MANY will find courage to speak out about their challenges in life after hearing your testimony here.
That would be amazing!
Stacy, I am in tears. Thank you for sharing your story. God is good all the time. Amen.
His patience is amazing! There is no better love then His!
Thank you for sharing your testimony. My mother has severe mental health issues and I grew up in fear of her. I am trying to forgive her, as I felt that a lot of my own mental health struggles were caused by her. I am praying for healing for my family as there is a lot of brokenness in it.
Forgive her as God forgives you. You may feel like she doesn't deserve it, but neither do you. Forgiveness takes the bitterness out of our lives. Holding on to anger gives evil a hold over you. Let go and let God handle it!
Thank you for your testimony. I went through something similar as a child, knowing that God was there, but didn't know him. I overdosed One nights on a hard drug, and told God to show me who he was. I stuck with it, studied every religion four days straight, lol. I was very confused. Search for God with your whole heart, he sees that and he reveals himself through his son Jesus Christ.
I remember the exact moment the holy Spirit came over me, a peace I'll never be able to explain. This was the exact moment I accepted Christ as God, The Son of God, and my savior.
I can't say I have lived a holy life since. That was in 2005. A lot has happened to me since. But I am SAVED. This I assure you. God does not leave us nor forsake us.
God Bkess you. In the name of Adonai Elohim, Jesuah, king of King and Lord of lords.
Amen! Thank you for sharing this!
@@wanderingwithstacy Sorry for the typos.... speech to text🫢
It never will cease to amaze me how God uses the testimonies of his people to speak to his people!
This has spoken so deeply to me. Thank you so much Stacy ❤ I love you with the love of the Lord. He loves you ao much!
May God bless you!!
May God bless you!!
I understand the mother pain. My mom did not have schizophrenia but she had a lot of emotional issues, and is an addict. I saw a giant hole in her hand once, infected and literally massive… it still shakes me, and after that I got saved! Still praying, there’s a reason for the suffering. God bless you sister 🕊📖✝️❤️ I am so grateful to be saved. Your testimony inspired me to share my own on YT. Thank you! ❤️❤️❤️
God bless you sister. ❤️✝️🕊📖
Oh wow! God uses all things for our good! God bless you too!
Never stop praying, with god all things are possible
The Lord wanted me to say
Your mom always loved you, what you saw was an image in your own mind of the gulit an pain you went through. God is both light and darkness he is in the midst no matter where we may be
Let these words encourage you in the Lord
Praise God
Stacy - What a blessing! What a story of redemption! God can take anything, absolutely anything to reach His children. The Lord spoke so mightily through you and by obeying his urging to share your testimony, it will bless many. I believe that your Mom knows what the Lord has done in your life and I'm sure she's so happy and thankful. Thank you again for sharing your testimony and your love of God's word. I have been so convicted lately to read more of GOD's WORD! You have inspired me! Thank you! Stacey
I'm so glad!! I thought I knew God, but boy, there was so much more to learn, and still learn! I'm amazed daily at His love and grace, and His forgiveness! I hate the things I've done, but I know He forgives me. He refused to let me go, even when I tried running away. Everything my mom and I went through was for His glory! All the suffering will be worth it in the end!
@@wanderingwithstacy ❤️
Awe honey, I’m so sorry for all you went through! You told your story very well. We overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony. God loves. you soooo much. Thank you for sharing. 💜
Just listening to what your mom wrote on those index cards, THAT WAS A MIRACLE!! When she said, God wants you to be holy, rather then happy, and then you'll be content, that's the ABSOLUTE TRUTH!! Wonderful testimony, God bless you!!
@@susanaponte1579 Yes, those cards are a treasure!
Thank you for sharing your story! Our God is so good! He is the ultimate healer of our minds, body's and souls. Even if that healing doesn't take place until we are home with him.
Praise the Lord this video ended with REPENTENCE bcuz its truly a requirement for eternal life in Heaven, God bless this testimony! Thank you for being obedient and sharing, not an easy one to share online with stranger, AMEN
Well spoken, much better than I can speak. Everyone goes through hell, and everyone goes back to their maker.
If we believe and follow Christ, we get to be reunited with Him. It's a long and narrow road, that we must stay on!
@wanderingwithstacy Yes Jesus is Lord of Lords and King of kings but love covers all sins, Proverbs 10 : 12 kjv. It's too easy, it seems. God has unconditional love for everyone. This life is the hell God is talking about. This world is the Kingdom of God. Even before Jesus came, it was written about what Jesus was preaching about, love thy neighbour.
What a beautiful soul you have! Your mom knows you're sorry and she has already forgiven you. This was a genuine testimony, it made me tear up here and there. Be blessed always.
Thank you so much!
Hi Stacy. Sending hugs, your mum's symptoms sounded a lot like the ones my brother had in many ways, and your story touched and resonated with me deeply. It will be so beautiful when we can talk to them again when they are in their perfect bodies. I imagine you're an incredibly resilient person. Much love and God bless you my sister in Christ
@21nickmac Thank you and may God bless you!
Praise God for your peace. Remember, the word says tyst it’s the devil who comes to kill, steal and destroy but Jesus came to bring life and life abundant. It’s the enemy who oppressed your mom, Jesus came to “destroy the works of the devil” . God does indeed take what the enemy intends to destroy and use it for good for those who love Him. But he is not the one destroying. He is a good good father. So thankful you have the peace of knowing your mom is healed and whole and that you came to a deeper understanding of the truth.
TRUTH!
Thank you for your bravery in sharing such a deeply personal testimony. So amazing. You did a great job at conveying it all! Grace and peace to you and your family x
Thank you! I had to keep taking breaks!
May the Lord bless you and your family! Thank you for sharing your testimony. I believe it will bless others. Praise God for the pain we go through! He's making diamonds out of dust.
Yes this! It's so hard to see that while we're going through it, but everything is for His glory!
Thanks for sharing because I have had manic episodes and I truly believed in God!
Never forget, He's always with you, even in your darkest moments!
such faith and courage to share. my mom was an alcoholic and drug user. she passed from her body collapsing. i feel your pain dear sister.
I'm so sorry! Adding you to my prayers!
Thank you for sharing. Jesus is the lover of our souls, and what a powerful love story you share with him. It takes courage to be vulnerable. It takes courage to allow God to use you. Thank you for your courage. It has surely blessed me, and I know God will use your story to bless others as well.
Oh I hope so! I've learned to just listen when He tells me to do something now:)
Bless you sister and all believers and who are about to be believers in Jesus Christ name amen
My beautiful sister in Christ, this is one of the most impactful loving and God-fearing testimonies I have ever seen and heard. I pray that there is continual grace and mercy from our father in your life forevermore. As your brother in Christ, I would like you to know that conclusion of this testimony deeply touched me. I pray that your whole family accepts Jesus in their life in a way that they can't ever deny his existence for as long as they may live.
He is my loving God and my fortress, my stronghold and my deliverer, my shield, in whom I take refuge, who subdues peoples under me. -Psalm 144:2
I was just thinking that your mom new that you didn’t have the best dad and prayed for you that God would step in and be that Dad for you❤️ I thought that was so amazing when you were little you felt so safe with Him. What a great testimony!! So glad your family knows the Lord thank you for sharing 🥰🥰
Yes, I absolutely believed my mom prayed all the time for me and for my kids. I feel so honored and blessed that God heard her prayers. He loved her so much. With all she went through, she was always faithful. Finding her Bible with her notes in it was the greatest gift she could give me! Prayers work, even when we can't see the effects of them. God is always using them for His good work!
My father currently has schizophrenia. Thank you so much for your testimony. it brought me to tears and I think God brought me to this video so I can hear it. Thank you. ❤
I pray for both you and your father!
God healed me from Schizophrenia in layers while I have obeyed Him in going to where He is moving in Power to heal and deliver me. For me, I found my healing and deliverance at 5F Church in Los Angeles. Hallelujah! If He can do it for me, He can do it for your father!
All I can say is your video randomly showed up on my TH-cam feed. I mean I've looked into mental illness and things of the like on the internet, so maybe that's why it shows up. Who knows. But your video is encouraging. I don't struggle with schizophrenia, but OCD,depression, ADD, and anxiety. I'd definitely say God used your video to encourage me. He can work through mental illness when it seems He won't.
@@sethschannel9804 Yes! We don't always know His plan, but He's in control!
Thank you so much for being so brave and sharing such a beautiful story.
My son suffers with paranoid schizophrenia. It’s so hard watching a loved one suffer. And it’s such a private pain that can’t be shared or understood by many people.
Thank you for sharing your story. God is so good to walk with us through these hard things.
You are such an amazing inspiration and blessing. 🤗
God bless!!
Shalom!
-Christa
Oh my sister! I understand what it feels like. I pray for you both!
@@wanderingwithstacy 🤗
Thank you so much!!
Wow this is an awesome confession that brings revelation of how God who is the Potter uses any and every person and circumstance to make and mold us into the person he would have us to become, and truly, he is working on us from birth or before. 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻
All things are for our sakes.
Im at 14:55 and I've gotta pause this to say I wish I was there with you to hold your hand through this and give you a hug. I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia but they changed it to Dissociative Identity Disorder. Life is very hard and I tell this is very hard for you to do - but you're giving God glory by doing this!🙌 Well done! I obviously dont know you, but I'm proud of you for getting through this! Praise Jesus, the living God, our glorious King! Amen.🙏🫂💖
@SaraiSomeSay Yes, He's always here with me! Thank you and may God bless you!
Thank you for sharing! GOD is good! Jesus of Nazareth has created in me a New Heart, He has set me free from misery, loneliness, selfishness, hatred, and suicidal depression. I worship GOD at TFH SF and SFCAC, and being in GOD's presence is my heart's desire and fulfillment, and singing Jesus Christ praise with other believers brings His LIFE into life!
I left everything I had (home, job, income) to become a missionary for the church.
After three weeks or so, I discovered that it wasn't really from the Lord & there was anxiety in my spirit.
I took a stand and walked away & now I'm having to get my life back together. I'm still living with my host who's no longer being paid to provide me with shelter.
I have a flat viewing in a few days and need God's miraculous financial provision. I got my job back but won't become full time or be paid for a while. I have nothing left. I don't feel wanted where I'm living since I decided to step out of the mission.
Please pray for my health, financial provision and God's favour.
Thank you for sharing what God has revealed through your journey.I love your story, I am learning to ask for prayer, to pray always, and read my Bible every day, and studyin depth and meditate. What a Great God we serve He does Not condemn us. He has been a Father to me that was absent and unknown, and I know He Loves me too. Take good care okay, and Never stop sharing what GOD has done for you.
You are so welcome! God bless!
Thank you for your testimony Stacy. You have really spoken to my heart as I have a similar story of my mom and I'm still praying for her to receive help and for God to be present in her life daily. He loves us so much and He will give us strength and joy no matter what falls on our shoulders. He saved me in 2000 when I met my future MIL and in 2005 I was led by Him to be baptized. I haven't looked back since. May God bless you and your family richly in the years to come.
That's fantastic news! I'm so glad you've been saved. I just can't even imagine my life without God. I'd still be a hot mess!
Thanks for sharing. It takes alot of courage to do this. I also had scizophrenia and jesus healed me. Praise the lord ❤
God bless you spiritually, mentally, physically, and financially in the name of Jesus amen!
Same to you brother!
Glory be to God in the name of Jesus amen! Hi my name is James and it is always a blessing to fellowship with the body of christ. Recently the lord has led me to start a TH-cam channel as well. If you like, see and hear what the lord has put on my heart to share by tuning into my channel. God bless you in the name of Jesus and have a wonderful day amen!
somehow i came across your video today and I want to say thank you for doing this. It has moved me in many ways, and I know God is working through you and your family. I want to say thank you Jesus for everything you have done, are doing and plan on doing for all of us. In Jesus Name I will forever pray...AMEN.
Thank you, God bless you too!
Thank you for sharing! I came across your channel looking for reviews on bible study companion books then was directed to your testimony. Thanks for your reviews on bible study books and for sharing your story!
Thanks for watching!
Hi Stacy. Just discovered your channel & so far, I'm loving it. Thank you so much for sharing. I know this was hard to do. I'm coming back to Christ myself after drifting away. And you're 100% right. You're mom is doing just fine now, hun. And you'll be ok, too. Hugs.
Glad you're also finding your way back!
Ive been running from God for a while after being so close and confident with him, but your story truly pierced my stone heart i created for myself overtime. Im lucky to even have my dad alive today who showed me the way to God by his example. He suffered so much, but was always faithful to God and I never understood that until he was saved from cancer through faith alone and Gods grace. It seems like i have forgotten everything I have witnessed and been through in my own life. You brought back so much memories with your story that I really relate to and I know that everything happens for a reason, even if all that you went through in life was for you to have such a testimony for others. I hope you continue to push forward with God, even when you feel like you arnt getting answers because that was me until I decided to give your video a chance. Thank you for your testimony.
GOD bless you, Toby! Thank you so much for sharing your struggles! We all have challenges we face, and sometimes we fall away or make bad choices! But please remember it's never too late to return to the ONE who gave HIS life so we can live!
Hosea 6:1
"Come, and let us return to the Lord; For He has torn, but He will heal us; He has stricken, but He will bind us up."
The LORD still has plans for you to prosper you and not to harm you! Jeremiah 11:29
Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love GOD, to those who are the called according to HIS purpose. 29 For whom HE foreknew, HE also predestined to be conformed to the image of HIS SON, that HE might be the firstborn among many brethren. 30 Moreover whom HE predestined, these HE also called; whom HE called, these HE also justified; and whom HE justified, these He also glorified."
GOD bless you on your journey towards abundant life!
Thank you for these verses. I got an answer from this.
God's got you even when we can't see what He's doing! His plan is always in motion!
@@tobykim8752, I'm so grateful that those scriptures spoke to you! The word always speaks to my heart! It's so living and powerful! 💞🙏💞
You did it with grace your testimony , your candle light reflects in the mirrors of dark places . Joy to you forevermore I pray for your peace is well deserved.Ame
Thank you for your beautiful story. My daughter has been diagnosed with schizophrenia this past week. I am so grateful for modern medicine and God’s redemptive grace.
May God bless your family and heal her!
Hi, Stacy. I just found your channel a day or two ago, and had just watched a couple of your Bible videos and found this one about your testimony. My heart just breaks thinking about your Mom and how much she suffered from her illness, and how much you suffered as a result, too. I can only imagine how difficult it was to bare your heart and soul to tell us your story, but you told it in such a beautiful way, and it was so worth it to hear how things turned out and how your Mom, your son, and you were all brought into God’s love. ☺️ I am incredibly proud of your Mom for having such faith in spite of what she was going through, and incredibly proud of you for pursuing your journey into faith and wholeness. I’m also super happy that your Mom is with Jesus, and that you and your family will all be together with her in Heaven one day! God bless you and your family! 😇💙🙏✝️
Meline
Stacy is an articulate speaker. May God continue to bless you and your family.
Thank you, God bless you too!
Hello Thank you for this video . I want to share the information with some friends, but they find it easier to read rather than to listen, however for me it’s the opposite way around- I don’t find it so easy to read so it’s very helpful to be able to listen to this very good teaching.
I wondered if anyone of you knew of any similar content, which is in written format please that I can share with friends who prefer to read thank you very much I look forward to hearing more from you. 🙏🏼🙂
Wow! Thank you for sharing Stacy.You are amazing! your story and God is Amazing! All Glory and honour is his.I wish you much joy for the rest of your life on Earth sister.Through your pain your experience will help many come to Jesus,as you know.Thank you,God bless you ♥
Thank you! You too!
Wow! What a powerful testimony! I’m weeping alongside you. My dad was an alcoholic and my sister was addicted to PCP so I can relate to some of this. As a teacher, I wonder why no adults intervened but you give me encouragement to continue to pray for our kids- not just the ones at home but the ones in the schools and stores…. When I think of things I regret, I list kind things I said and did too and I remind myself that I’m forgiven.
I'm sorry to hear about your struggles as well! I've often wondered about my teachers. I was a quiet kid for the most part. I didn't act out and a lot of us kids were in pretty rough situations. I lived in a bad area full of drugs and absent parents. I'm sure the teachers were overwhelmed. I'm sure my mom did enough praying to make up for it!
Blessings Sis in Christ....
I love the 2nd index your Ma wrote. Do u mind I use that to remind me each day, to me it is what I truly believe "Holy".
Bless you so much for the longest wilderness (storms) ..wilderness testimony you were in Praise the LORD ... Praise Jesus!!
Your endurance and faith espec your Mama's centered-faith inside.... Wow! Wow!.
Yup! God IS ALWAYS near with even when DONT understand... I believe He NEVER leaves us.
Blessings.
Yes and yes!
Oh Stacy, your story touched me greatly!🥲 Everyone’s testimony is beautiful but you truly have a powerful testimony! Good does triumph over evil! God is greater than the darkest places in this world! Thank you so much for sharing with us!❤️
Thank you friend! It just shows you can live a lifetime of suffering, but still rejoice in the fact that you will spent eternity in paradise!
This is probably the realest testimony I have experienced. I am sad she wasn't healed in this life, but it is encouraging how she held on despite everything.
Absolutely!
I know a lady with severe schizophrenia and she knows Jesus in simplicity. I love talking to her
May you receive Jesus, and find HIS peace and Healing. For through the scriptures we are healed,
Amazing testimony 🙌 GOD IS GOOD!! You did a great job explaining it too. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. It helps us all to know we are not alone. ❤🙏I need to do more Bible reading. I'm retired in 2 years, I plan on daily study...I. so excited about actually having time.
Glad it was helpful! Yes, get into that Bible, you won't regret it!
Im so happy to have found your channel. You are inspiring to me. My mum also had schizophrenia and my son does too. My mum has passed on to. Hearing your testimony makes me want to share mine too. Love to you and may God continue to bless you. I thank Him for giving us mothers that taught us about Him🙏
@johannaparker2328 I will pray for you and your son! Much love to you!
Very encouraging word. As someone with family members who have battles for their mental health I can relate. This has encouraged me to continue to have hope and see Gods light and hand in the midst of it all.
@@bro_FREE He is always with us!
Ive always thought that people who were screnzerphrenic were seers or prophets. They always be knowing things that happen in the unknown. I sometimes wonder if they are just people who dont know how to control their gift. ❤❤
Thanks for sharing this, - my mum too had schizophrenia and my sister became I'll with schizophrenia too when she was 16yrs old, - it is a horrible illness and so difficult to understand. Currently my sister is in a care home, which is not great but I guess better than out on the streets.
I like you have prayed, - she isn't a Christian as far as I know and I like you constantly question God why she has suffered so long . I still find the whole situation difficult
Thanks for sharing your testimony. Beautifully said! So sorry you and your Mom had to experience that. It hit home with me. Although different scenario, I have asked God why me and why was he was putting me and my family through such tough times. Angry, sad, etc. My mother has a traumatic brain injury from an accident 28 years ago. She almost died that day and was in the hospital for almost a year. She was never the same. Doesn’t remember things about my childhood, getting married, etc. Emotionally unattached from everyone. She doesn’t have the emotional aspect of being a parent or grandparent. She focuses on her immediate needs. My Dad and I are her legal guardians. So I had quite a few talks with God. Angry mostly. Then 15 years ago, my grandmother passed. The following month, my only sibling/24 year old brother/recent college graduate (16 year younger) passed unexpectedly from unknown cause (irregular rhythm in heart). Devastated and mad sums it up. Plus other things I discovered (not for social media) really had me upset and wondering why me. I continue to do better with time but I’m a work in progress. Thanks again for sharing!
That's a lot to go through! I'm sorry you're experienced all those things. We definitely can relate to each other. I'll add you to my prayers!
Thank you for being so brave for the glory of God and for the edification of so many others!
Thanks for watching and commenting!
Thank you for this. Will be sharing it with many friends❤
This is such a beautiful testimony of God's love. Thank you for sharing. What a beautiful moment it will be when you are able to reunite with your mom who is whole and completely healed.
I can't wait to see her again!
Amazing story, God and I have had a long road together as well. I was angry as well at stuff I didn’t understand, and later by reading the Bible, I found so much of it was from my own consequence. Never ever take what his son Jesus did for us on the cross for granted is all I can say because when it no longer seems possible to our human minds, he starts to make a way. You are a strong woman and your Mom is smiling down on you.
I live with bipolar with occasional psychosis. my relationship with God started the same way. my father died when I was 7, . I would talk to him a lot and felt his presence as well, just today I was thinking earlier I that embarrassed to include that part in my testimony. hearing you share it made me feel seen. sorry i'm kinda bad with words also but thank you for sharing your testimony. it really touched my heart. ❤️
Awe, You are not alone!
One of the best testimonies I've ever heard. God bless you for sharing.
Thanks for listening🥰
Thank you very much for this story Stacy - so beautiful and uplifting ☺️❤️ i'm so glad that you have your personal relationship with Jesus Christ now and you are His ❤️ All Glory to God HalleluYAH 🙌 That was a great encouragement to me - thank you Dear 🥰❤️
Thank you:) Be blessed!
Thank you - for so many reasons! Thank you, and God bless you and your family.
Same to you!
Some times there are no answers, and life is so hard and unfair, to say you have been through so much i think you have turned out to be a wonderful person, and the trouble is because your parents were so unstable you would have to be the responsible one, and i would say this, God looks at our hearts not always our actions and what we say, you clearly loved your mum but were under such horrendous times with her, i felt i let my mum down and was under such guilt, until one day the Lord said i forgive you, and that was all i needed, if he has forgiven me i do not need validation from anyone else, and if you ask for forgiveness its exactly the same for you, so do not rremain under any more guilt because that is not from God, be set free and thank you for being so brave to share your testimony, well done all my love xxxxxxx