LIVING WITH OCD (OBSESSIVE-COMPULSIVE DISORDER)
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For all my fellow weirdos. Some of this is based on my private experience.
If you have any of these "symptoms" (though this is not the whole spectrum), you might want to take an OCD test online. If it turns out positive and you feel your daily life is negatively affected, try visiting a psychologist. Hopefully this video encourages you to read a bit about the disorder.
Don't be ashamed - more people suffer from OCD than you might think. We're just really good at hiding it.
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Kat Napiorkowska LMAO I love how this was posted 3 years ago and this comment was from an hour ago 😅 sis knowssss she’s blowing up on people’s recommended
Zara Syeda #caught 😜
3 years ago and this comment gets placed 4 hours ago lol. I love it 10/10
are u polish or something?
Kat Napiorkowska l can relate to this
So many people think they have OCD because they don't like when there is a yellow skittle mixed in with the red ones. No, this is OCD and it consumes and steals your life and happiness.
long time coming i think thats ocpd that youre talking about with the skittles
Some other things are not ocd, just perfectionism or maybe germaphobic tendencies
You realize that when people say that they are OCD, they don't mean it literally, right?
Uh almost everyone has a certain level of ocd, just this person has a mich higher level of ocd.
my ocd is perfectionism -.-
"I have to touch specific objects until it feels just right"
oh no i know about that one
S!LENT I do that to my diiiick
i have to have all my fingertips touch the whole object fully for at least five seconds and do that a few times :((
I have to move it in a specific pattern and if I mess up in any way it's a redo.
I don't think I have ocd but idk dude
S!LENT omg same. For some reason I have to scratch objects until the objects aren’t itchy anymore. It makes no sense because the objects aren’t alive obviously lol but I have to do it.
I have to touch the corner of everything, like text books, doors, walls, everything.
*Butter touches her thumb*
Me: *internally screaming*.....
Leana Lyden same asf tbh i started shivering
Yeah 0_0 I felt like washing my hands even tho I didnt touched it
same
Loll
Me too 😵
To the people wondering: why doesn’t she just stop doing these things? That’s not how it works. It’s like u get this severe anxiety whenever u don’t do a certain thing, and it’ll just keep gnawing and tearing at your mind until you finally give in and do it
yes thats true i used to get horrible thoughts , if i did not do a certain thing my brain would tell me something terrible is going to happen
I tried once just not doing something, it was night time, and I just didn't sleept whole night just because I had to look at me in the mirror 4,7 or 11 times, I wait till the morning, did it, and then I finnaly go to sleep
@@younggoth6491 i have had similar things like this before, its hard but you just have to push yourself to not do it. You will break out of the habit. Just try and ignore the thoughts as much as possible.
@@oliviarichardson9325 bruhh... I have ocd from 1 grade, I'm in 10 grade right now, and there are many types of ocd, not everyone can just stop, or puch yourself, my ocd is really hard, when I was 12 I couldn't even read for a year, now sometimes i can't say something, even If I really have to, I have fucking ticks and I just freeze, idk, I can't say anything when this happens, I'm so fucking tired, I even ask my mom can I go to the doctor, and I will get my medicines, she didn't say yes, or no, I'm waiting.. I can't push my self, I mean, thanks for trying to help, but my ocd is not that easy..
sorry for my english, I'm european
@@younggoth6491 oh ok, im so sorry!! i really hope it will get better for you. I have had ocd for many years but its quite mild. So i guess as its mild it worked for me. I understand how hard it can be though. You will get through this trust me :) ❤
OCD is not cool so think twice before you're self-diagnose
I have a diagnostic from a doctor so im fine
agreed
Unfortunately I am diagnosed by a doctor 😭😭 as I watch this my ocd seems to be worse anyone else who has ocd agree
honestly it really pisses me off when people say ‘that gives me ocd’ or ‘my ocd is kicking in’ when something isn’t completely straight or even (almost every time the person has no knowledge of what ocd really is and how it feels).
I shouldn’t have replied all I have been getting is. ‘Your story is stupid and fake’ they didn’t read the whole thing so I’m done with leaving it up.
I hope everyone understands that there are many different types of OCD.
I know this comment is pointless, but I had to make it an even number of replies.
Right.
Sierrah DiCosimo maybe I’m just a perfectionist but sometimes small habits make me question if they are still normal because like many people in the comment section are talking about this time pressure thing but I don’t have this I have more like if something isn’t perfectly aligned or if this one specific door isn’t closed or if I write something some lines just don’t feel right even tho I think they’d look perfectly fine to other people but I have to ‘correct‘ them or I’m getting this really weird feeling but maybe that’s just perfectionism Idk 😐
@@insa8142
Perfectionism is the urge for things to be perfect. OCD is more like doing things to your own accord. Perfectionism is the over all definition of that object being perfect.
For example; drawing a perfect circle, most would think of a clean line and a perfect dimensional shape. That's perfectionism.
Some OCDs close to the perfectionism category would be like; drawing a circle with one indent. It's not "perfect" but it HAS to be that way. In their eyes it's the RIGHT way.
Sierrah DiCosimo When I’m writing or drawing it’s like you said in the description of OCD but in every other way I think it’s perfectionism🤷🏽♀️ But it’s only writing and drawing so it isn’t that bad I should probably not worry about that too much 🤷🏽♀️ Thanks tho for explaining ☺️
My brain: TOUCH IT or you'll die
Depressed me: guess I'll die :/
Personally, the time when I deal with OCD the best is when I'm angry, cuz then my mind will be like "This will happen to me if I don't do this", and I'll be like "I don't give a damn, I want bad things happen to me", and the sensation it gives me is like ...
Then I wake up the next day with an emotional hangover and anxiety hits me hard
Yo that's dark! No!
I cure my intrusive thoughts by saying get out you frickin Trudy(I call my intrusive thoughts Trudy to make me feel better.)
@@Friday_The_Thirteenth idk y but I want to do that now too-
@@Friday_The_Thirteenth I named mine Randy.😂Yo, maybe they are second cousins twice removed...?
Soo I'm almost out of the tunnel after battling ocd for 7 years. It's a VERY long process and it's so difficult to eliminate all of the rituals, now I have only one or two. I'm so happy, I have my life back. the intrusive thoughts are starting to fade and now I always tell myself :"your family Is not gonna die if you don't close your backpack 5 times" and know I'm starting to believe it. To all the people with ocd, i'm with you, you can do this :-)
How did you overcame it?
@@2312paras I took my time, I didn't pressure myself. I analyzed one ritual at a time and tried to eliminate one step of it or to change it a little bit. For example I used to hang my bathrobe 5 times. Then I switched to 4 then 3 then 2 then 1. Keep in mind it took me A LOT but It was all worth it, I wanted my life back. YOU CAN DO THIS
@@margheritafodaro5542 that's exactly what my therapist told me to do
Mine actually developed into urinary frequency , i didn't even noticed that my ocd caused it until I went to the doctor. We did urinalysis , ultrasound , blood tests and all were normal then i realized what if it was because whenever i thought of something bad , i would always force myself to pee because for me it was a way to prevent that bad thought to happen, it came to the point where if i touch something i'd pee , if i think of something bad, i'd pee , for me peeing was a way to relieve myself of these thoughts , but then I wasn't able to really do or enjoy anything because every fricking 3 minutes I would want to pee , it was really frustrating for me ,
Thankfully I've finally stopped it now, and enjoying life ! ,:)
Wow thank you so much!!!!! You have really made me believe that I don’t have to live like this anymore!!!!
It’s so annoying when people are like, I have ocd omg I can’t take the messiness... no that’s just not how it is
Same. People think it's a cute trend or that it means they're organized
Lilo Milo ikr 💀
Yes!!! Fr
Agreed. It’s called perfectionism. I consider myself a perfectionist. That means you love things to be clean and organized at all times. OCD is a mental disorder in which you need to accomplish repetitive tasks to feel satisfied and anxiety-free for the time being. It’s a real problem. People shouldn’t really be self-diagnosing themselves. It’s very frustrating, I feel terrible for the people with OCD that have to listen to that moronic bullshit.
Exactly I do have OCD and I AM MESSY, I can’t leave my shoes if any shoe is touching a stripe on the floor or If I write something I need to erase and write aging and repeat the process spike 30 times but that doesn’t mean I’m tidy. I hate every time I tell someone I have ocd and they say “omg me too I’m like very very tidy and organized so same girl”
my thoughts are crazy honestly, here’s an example:
“if you don’t put your seatbelt in 3 seconds your whole family dies”
“if you don’t sneeze before the chorus on this song you won’t go to college”
Janeah Lim THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENS TO ME TOO. And the worst thing is that I know is NOT gonna happen if I don’t do it but I can’t get that thought of my head until I do it so I HAVE TO do it so I can be in peace.
EXACTLY
Wtf totally true
Literally me omg "if I don't make it downstairs in five seconds I'll die"
omg yesss
“If you don’t turn this light on and off 8 times your dog will run away”
“If a red car passes you in the next 8 seconds you will die”
“If you don’t kick that wall your mom will go to hospital”
It can be difficult. Glad to know I'm not alone.
I always thought I was the only person who thought things like this
I'm always doing this and usually 8 times
PLEASE STOP 😭😭😭😭
I love Knitting SO TRUUUEE
my OCD feels like I constantly have a gun to my head, makes me do things that aren't me :(
I Love you and i'm so sorry you have to deal with that bs. Stay strong because obviously you are 😊 its true it isn't you. Don't let your illness define you try to do the things that make you happy as much as you are able to!!! Or start a new hobby. Go fjr more walks and listen to music. Watch more ocd videos so u don't feel so lonely! It will be okay ❤❤❤
The most accurate representation I’ve seen of OCD to date.
Natalia P there are many different types of ocd 🙄 I had it and was medically diagnosed. It wasn’t like that. I was scared of germs.
Edit: y’all aren’t therapists I thought I had germaphobia at first, but was D I A G N O S E D with OCD by several professionals.
Yeah there are many different forms of ocd. Mine is totally different 🤷🏼♀️
There was 999 likes and that was MYYY time to SHINEEE I’m your 1,000th comentttt😆🤣😂
Natalia P it has to be the most accurate. OCD is no joke and people like to say they have it when they really don’t and it’s annoying because they have no idea how it is to deal with it. I have to twist my door knob 20 times before I leave so I avoid closing it
Artsy Elly isn’t that germophobia?’
I hate hate hate people who are like "omg I have ocd, like, I have to organize my bookshelf!"
No. There is much more. Aggguguguguagagagzhhhhagagagh
A lot of people have ocd and they don't even know it and the example that you gave doesn't make any sense
@@user-mt4if8oe6g I mean, a lot of people I have met have overexaggerated their small perfectionism, and don't understand the other terrible parts such as tics. For example, I have to blink 8 times before putting on my socks, have to sit up and down 2 times before sitting in a chair, and have to tie and retie my shoes otherwise I panic. It's like trying not to breathe underwater for 10 minutes. It's nearly impossible to resist.
Exactly
Okay so I don't have OCD but I am dyslexic and I hate when people say "Oh I'm a little bit dyslexic too" it's belittling, and you either are dyslexic or you're not end of story sister!
I imagine now correct me if I'm wrong, it's a similar thing?
Miri Hawk fucking right.
i’ve always been ashamed of having ocd and knowing so many people are in the same case makes me feel better
after 8 years of OCD & holding for too long I visited a doctor last week & he told me that I have:
major depressive disorder (MDD)
obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD)
generalized anxiety disorder (GAD)
& now I'm on paroxetine :(
If I cared about my mental health earlier & took it seriously from the beginning things would be a lot easier cuz now I have Irritable bowel syndrome & central serous retinopathy in my right eye. both of them showed up because of anxiety & depression.
so if you reading this please take your mental health seriously there's no wrong in that... seeking help does not make you weak or less of a man.
pray for me & for all of us ❤
THIS is what OCD is. when i tell someone i have OCD they reply with “oh i bet your room is so spotless” or “your schoolwork must be so neat and perfect”. no. that’s perfectionism, THIS is OCD and it’s not fun.
Tilda Whitby there are different types of OCD
Sophie 11 obviously, but people just believe that OCD is just “having to put everything in order” or “everything being tidy”, when in reality that’s only a tiny part of it
Tilda Whitby true but your comment made it seem otherwise
Sophie 11 ok
Tilda Whitby
Couldn't agree more. OCD is not fun!
*"yes Mr.Satan, I did"*
*me when my teacher asks if I've done my homework*
Lol
@ProducerZhang nobody does. Yay to being bad students.
Khadeejah Arshad I was the 1,000th like
@@i.saisabea thank you☺
lmao
"Do not practice what you don't want to become" - Jordan Peterson
This helps me stop performing my rituals and I'm getting better as I want to be perfect.
Yoooo thank you for commenting that, my bro! I'm gonna think of that quote too when I'm deciding whether or not to do a ritual. 😌😎👌
@@theoneonlyolivia2381 How is your ocd behaving Olivia? Has your suffering become somewhat bearable 😂
@@Harshsingh-sf1ri Lolzzz yeah it's been WAY better than what it was a couple years ago. Dude if I didn't tell my parents and got help I don't know where I'd be. I mean, it still acts up but at least it's way better. Anyway, that was really nice of you to ask! Thanks mi bro :3
how has it got to the point where I did rituals kinda as a joke to cool my anxiety down after it already was there but now I do it because my anxiety will come after. that made no sense sorry hahshs
Me: Crosses a street
Me: sees a car
My brain: now, *if you don't cross the street before that car drives past u, u will not come back home and be on the streets*
and my friends be like: "omg im sooo ocd'ed you know"
Wtf people actually say that? C R I N G E
*b r u h*
UGH
My friends pig tails were uneven in class one day, and three of my friends were like omg that bothers me so much and I said it doesn’t bother me, then they said “oh that’s because you don’t have like OCD lol” like it was something funny and to brag about
Get new friends
I always read a page of a book, get paranoid that I read it wrong, and reread the entire page over again just in case
omg sameee... is it ocd?
Same
Yes and no... Ive had severe OCD for a large portion of my life and it effects my reading alot. If I read and I think I misread, I'll reread the page. Then my brain uses that to,fire a storm of OCD by making me read if again.. Then each sentence out loud.... Then I'll start spelling out the words and reading out puncuation. It got to the point I could not read to help me relax (something I use to do) and in school I had to get extended times on tests cause of how long it take just reading a paragraph. So yes, if you're brain says "do it or else" (not exactly like that but just simplefying) when rereading and u keep repeating that process even though you KNOW you read it correctly.... Then, yes.
OMG ME TOO I DONT READ BECAUSE OF THIS 😭
I do it in like individual lines
I'm crying a whole river watching this video, I can't tell you how accurate this is. Thank you for shedding light on this mental illness, more people need to understand what OCD means and that it's not just some phrase for perfectionist. I've experienced nearly everything in this video since as long as I remember being alive. It has only gotten worse.
Same it’s so annoying they say u don’t have ocd coz your room is messy or your organisation skills r unclean when that’s clearly not what ocd is it’s rlly annoying and is misunderstood
I have OCD feel very guilty and sad..
I'm a bad person
Can't pray to god bad nude images comes😭
This is me every day:
“If I don’t run to the doorknob to fix the place where I touched it with my fingernails in 7.75 seconds, I will be teleported to Point Nemo and die”
Tiny dot on whiteboard: *exists*
Every girl in the classroom: "omg OmG plEAse eRasE thAt I HaVe OcD"
But seriously, OCD is not a joke, don't self-diagnose
Sam Sam that is so true, self diagnosing is so stupid sometimes
I self diagnosed with cancer cells in bed with the man in the mirror
I kept pressing the middle button cause u thought it was funny ... I thought I had ocd but my mom won't take me but I related to every thing accept for the washing hand multiple times and stuff like that so I'm iffy
You smartasses always say that, but imagine a person who has this weird shit they do and they don't want to assume anything because people like you are going to shit on them because they "self-diagnose" but maybe they are actually sick and they're going to live through this torture their entire lives, not seeking help.
Better for them to get scolded by a doctor for interpreting a mental illness in the wrong way than you telling people what to do.
You gotta admit, it is really goddamn annoying when the teacher doesn't rub off all the whiteboard marker of the whiteboard though 😂😭
Lmfao it annoys me when teachers leave dots on the board, but the fact that I may have left the straightener on even though I checked 6 times before I left is haunting me too much to even care
Welcome back to another episode of: why is this in my recommended
lmao honestly
Lmao same
I was literally just thinking this
Same lmao
Fair question! But it is a very well made video! And also mental health is a huge issue that none of us know enough about. Perhaps instead of laughing about it, see it as a learning opportunity because it could help someone you love. I’m not trying to be preachy lol just wanna end the stigma surrounding mental health education. TH-cam’s a great platform for that xo
Thank you so much for creating this video! This is a topic that should be discussed a lot more in public. It would stop the feeling of guilt and shame, each OCD sufferer has.
Amazing!!! This is a daily day struggle for many individuals. Thank you so much for sharing such a powerful video
my mom be like: i didn't check da door
My mom: checks door
Mom: perfection
That's only to be sure lol
If you wanna know the feeling of ocd when you didn't do the ritual its like the most *DISCOMFORTING SHIT IN THE WORLD* its soo DISCOMFORTING like you wanna exolode and kill someone
So shut the fuck up if you self diagnosed with this disorder
Dude, this comment is too vague to be making those assumptions about it. I understand being defensive about a disorder that is severely misunderstood by the majority of people - especially one which sounds like either you have or a close friend or relative has - but we don't know if this person's mom legit has OCD or not. It's pretty unclear, but again, I understand your defences. No disrespect intended.
@@elkoscott7166 i know i know it was just a joke😂😂😂
@@ImHanzVT i didn't diagnose anyone. this was just a joke lol😂
Not only does this portray OCD beautifully, but it's a filmic masterpiece. I can't praise this video enough.
Vera R Yes! And it doesn’t just say like “I clean my room” cause that’s not what it is
It Explains Basically What Goes On In My Head Every Single Day I’m So Glad This Is Shared In This Way So Hopefully People Can Understand And Become Well Informed On How Serious It Is.
It’s nice to see a video I can relate to. Touching things, repeating things, the thoughts. Thank you
first thing i noticed was the video length. ocd is such a fascinating disorder, this really puts it into a better perspective
I alwayssss have to touch certain objects a certain way and if I don’t do it right I may as well stay there till I do it right.
Primrose Everdeen I know what you mean and it sucks. I can waste so much time in my day trying to do or touch things ‘perfectly’.
or everything has to be in even numbers or the light switch has to make the right nose with the right speed turning off and i don’t even have ocd
I dont have OCD or I dont know but I have like to do many things a certain way it's not checking things it more like I even have to hold my phone a certain way I have to touch the washing machine a certain time or I touch the doorknob twice with both hands to make it even or when I walk and there's like squares I have to do touch them all or else it won't feel right and I can only touch them twice
Primrose Everdeen i’m surprised you have ocd and messed up that sentence. lol
Crim Acid I never said I had OCD like many of the other replies I got. It’s the truth and something I can relate too. Don’t just assume I have it.
Every girl in elementary school: i hAVe oCD ToO!!
But in reality, they’re just a perfectionist
I'm a perfectionist too then
I’m such a perfectionist 😂
Takes me ages to do anything lol
Ella BELLINGER ok thank you for educating me! I wasn’t aware that that was a condition 💚 sorry if I offended you, have a nice day!
Ella BELLINGER oh lord I feel really bad now :3
"Oh, someone left this light switch on. I should turn it off or the Earth will burn up because I was an irresponsible citizen." "Oh, but if I turn it off, this hall might be too dark and someone could fall and die because I couldn't mind my own business." *que standing in a silent panic, flicking lights, and overthinking all the horrible possibilities regarding turning this switch one way or the other*
Honestly it's the most satisfying video I've ever watched
Omg that part where she said she has to touch something multiple times until it feels right, I felt that 😩😂
Same 😣
The fact you have to touch something until it feels right is so true. Sometimes it never feels right and I cry because the anxiety I get won't go away. It is a such a disgustingly strong lure to having everything perfect. I had OCD so bad, I would constantly wash my hands, it got so bad my hands were so dry they cracked and bled. I got on medicine which helped but I stopped taking it. I hate when kids at my school act like its cute to have OCD. They don't understand its a terrible disorder. The fact I have to turn my fan off and on 20 times and realize my footing wasn't right and do it again. To then realize my hands our now disgusting and I must go wash them and I have to close the door with my foot so my hands won't get dirty and to make sure my bed sheets are perfectly over the bed and the bed it pushed against the wall, to go wash my hands again. Finally become content and go to sleep. It has gotten better after speaking with a therapist. Please don't say you have OCD because its "cute". I commented this but I thought it would be nice on this thread.
Let me add that when watching a movie and I don't know what they said, I can't focus and it ruins the next scene. At home when watching a movie I will put on subtitles just to make sure it said what I thought it said, then turn off subtitles and rewatch the scene to make sure I didn't miss anything.
@@UnknownUser-xw5qw This sounds really terrible..stay strong :/
@@sippinhottea5656 Its alright, its gotten better since then. I seen a therapist and got on medicine which helped me out a lot. I got off the medicine though, makes me too tired.
Friend: so tell me again why you couldn’t sleep last night?
Me: one of my toes on my right foot touched the side of the bed and I couldn’t get the others to, so I couldn’t sleep
I often, can’t sleep because my toes and/or fingers touch each other.
This drive me crazy: my two front teeth are more forward than my other teeth ok? And I need to tap my teeth with my other teeth 3 times. My bottom teeth can’t reach my front teeth. Well the top and I look crazy try to 😂
Eliott same it feels weird and uncomfortable
Literally me
Floofy Bunny tea
This is haunting what I just watched! Props go out to you for making this! I have OCD too!
This was extremely well put together. Also I feel so bad for this lady
to me, ocd is more like a ghost.This ghost shouts at me saying "if you don't tap it twice, your dog will starve" something like that. Now, imagine a demon literally behind your back screaming things at you like that.
Exactly
You just ruined my nights
OMG THAT HAPPENS TO ME ALL THE TIME
me: not suicidal, rides bike
me: sees car coming
also me: go in front of and watch it hit me
Sophia Loiselle meeee
same
Same
Why are you all alive than?
Disco Ball it’s not always that we want to kill are self it’s like your a kid in a toy store and you see your favorite toy except you see a car coming and you just have to go in front of it
Thank you for making this video, this was so well explained. I struggle with OCD and I have done for as long as I can remember. It can get so bad that I can't even write a single word for my homework, it takes me 3 minutes to leave the bathroom or I will spend hours of my day touching an object so that it feels 'just right'. It really annoys me when people say 'oh I used to have ocd where my room had to be tidy all the time'. It is not just being tidy, it is so much more than that.
Exactly :)
I'm a young physician and in a psychiatry residency program, and thoroughly enjoyed this video. Thank you for showing the world how debilitating this disorder can be.
i hate when people are like “omg i totally have ocd, like i need to organize my shelf, my pens, and everything needs to be in place!” ahagauhagsiahshbd
ITS MORE THAN THAT
I always get the urge to jump into bonfires and walk right in front of a car on a dangerous road while I’m waiting to crops the street. My mind doesn’t let me imagine certain things the way I want to, so I get annoyed. I clean my room like CRAZY, and many other odd things tend to annoy me. I think these girls should learn what OCD really is, before they even say a THING about OCC.😊thanks for listening
yea, ocd can be mistaken with being a perfectionist.
milku ツ it’s the most annoying thing
@@joslynfreier6996 When I get a new electronic I don't want to drop it but at the same time I want to smash it on the ground. 😂 The car thing is really relatable.
Electra Heart me too tho
I have OCD, and this was so fucking hard to watch
Sliverghost164 same
Why?
For me also... And only people like us can find it hard...
yes right!? like i can relate to all of these things but she does it in a other way and it just drives me crazy and now i am sitting here and pointing and my door several times at different points to make that this horrible feeling inside my head just go away
Honestly same, she checked the door twice and i hate the number 2 so i feel so uncomfortable
This brought tears to my eyes and a smile on my face
I used to feel like someone was watching me unless I gave into my compulsions, but anti-depressants and talking about issues have helped me a lot. :)
I hate when people say when they have OCD because they like things to look tidy. That aint right sis
I know right, there's so much more to OCD.
I think a lot of people confuse being ocd with actually just being a perfectionist
there’s a difference between perfectionism ocd a germophobe and you just wanting things to be clean and tidy. That’s what I normally say
Tilly I lot of things bug me that shouldn't matter (also that thing she said in the video about having to touch things just right, I do that, but I can usually resist the urge to retouch something in public, or touch my phone, ruby finger along a desk or something) but it's not OCD, it's just things that but me. And every one and a while my mom will do the "you're so OCD joke" and I remind her that's not the case. Next time I might joke back and ask if she's willing to pay to go get diagnosed (since she's so insistent)
Tilly I know right. I think they confuse perfectionism with ocd
2:13 I don’t want to kill anyone
Or tho my Ex is asking for it
Me:lol so true
Myia Nicolson well. Your comment was at 70, I liked it, it became 71. My OCD kicked in and I un-like it.
@@SM-ry8cu yikes.
Sara Mahmoud I feel like you don’t even have OCD
@@Ori0987 she doesn't
Myia Nicolson cant relate single af 😩
I hope everyone with ocd gets better. I never thought that i would have ocd to the point where i felt extremely anxious and felt like what i am living is not even real which is fucking scary and panicky sometimes. It has spread to so many areas ti my life. It is so normal to happen after so many traumas. Small steps everyone. Dont let ocd control you. It is just voices. It is a bully. Ignore it. Push through the discomfort of not acting in a ritual, compulsion mental or physical.We dont need to control all of those things ocd wants us. We can get free from our small box in our mind. Have so much self compassion. Sending you love
Me, 23: Hey, I have intrusive thoughts mostly and my compulsions are steps I go through in my head. I used to seek for reassurance whenever I can. But I cannot shower if I don't listen to a podcast that distracts me and I wash my hair seperately. I cannot fall asleep if my night-light isn't on, my hug-pillow isn't with me, my laptop doesn't play a certain TH-cam video and my radio isn't on playing only a specific station otherwise I will feel deeply unsettled. On days when the internet doesn't work and I cannot watch TH-cam I will stay awake until it works. I used to count until 100 in French and say three prayers before falling asleep. But I was successfully able to let go of them. Last year, my mom had to take my fitbit away as I would constantly check it to be sure that my heart is beating normally. I was probably three times in the ER because of some phantom pain and thought I was literally dying. I cannot sleep in hotels unless I have my pillow shirt with me and I need to wear long pants and a long sleeved shirt and socks to sleep because I would literally die if my body was to touch the freshly made bed. I cannot eat in pensions and have to wash my plate, glass and cutelry two times before finally eating. I actually cannot sleep anywhere that isn't my bed and people don't live at. I cannot sleep during long flights and car drives because I am afraid we might have an accident and I was asleep instead of praying for our safety. I am also afraid of tsunamis whenever I am at the beach so much that I once spent almost every night of our stay on the balcony watching the water for any weird activity. You don't know how it feels to be at the beach and everybody is enjoying themselves but all you want to do is to go home because you are afraid of a tsunami but there never has been a tsunami in the place where you are. And let's not forget the nights you lie awake because you think a plane or helicopter is about to crash in your house or not being able to look people in the eye because you may fall in love with them. And those funny times when your intrusive thoughts claim you to be a murderer and you don't leave your room or house for days.
At times I really just want to take a deep breath and be free of these fears that hide in the back of my mind and make certain situations unbearbale to me. Sometimes, I am so confused as to why I am the way I am. I really just want a peaceful life and spent lots of time with the people I love the most without being afraid of murdering them all or being killed by a freaking helicopter...
How are you doing? I experience the same things you mentioned. This is getting bad :(
All the dislikes are from the people who self diagnose of having OCD
Bitch how did you know
i self diagnosed myself but i dont think its cool or anything legit i have to do all of this and ill get anxiety if i dont do something iver again or touch something 3 times until it feels right
Hey army
Shanza Rashid hello fellow army :)))
@@choerryyy5987 Who is your bias? Mine is JK.
Just a reminder not everyone with ocd is like this like I have autism doesn’t mean I walk around blabbering there levels of ocd just like every disorder has
I have very mild autism and people always say I don’t and I have to explain this to them.
@@emiliajones8090 that must be annoying..
I’m like this lol
I have just started my own OCD channel about my own struggles and I love what you have done its amazing. keep up the super work😀
okay when she said i have to touch things until it feels just right … i’m so happy i’m not alone. when i hit a wall or a part of a chair/table, i always turn on my other side and hit it again so i can feel “even”. or if something feels weird i press my pinky really hard. :)
Intrusive thoughts have seriously ruined my life 🤦🏾♀️🤦🏾♀️🤦🏾♀️
Rae Azanna intrusive thoughts are awful and i truly wish more people spoke about them. i don’t get them as often as i used to - highly recommend practising yoga and meditation daily to help ❤️
Same😔
Same here 😫
Thoughts are entirely your own and although it might feel they are separate from you or your mind and "intrusive" in that sense, they aren't you are creating them and you can get rid of them!
It really bugs me when someone says something like "I have OCD, I like things tidy" like c'mon...Stop self-diagnosing yourself with serious things when you're probably just a very organized person.
Bia Menezes yeah it’s definitely ignorant making such comments
Bia Menezes Thank you! I hate it too it drives me up a wall
Exactly likes thought I had OCD then I remembered I wasn’t a doctor and didn’t know anything abt OCD but did find out I like to organize things to calm me down😂
exactly!!
they're probably just a perfectionist or something.
I love watching videos talking about what OCD is really like because it makes me feel less crazy/ less alone
Thanks for showing what OCD actually looks like, most people think of a controlling person who wants everything perfect or spotless but no it's actually having your mind make you think that if you dont do a certain thing you wont make it and you know that its not true yet you keep doing it... OCD as any other disorder is scary and not to be thought wrong off...
I have OCD, and it makes me hate life so much.
Do you want to heal? Leave some means of contact.
Focus your energy in something else. I focus a lot on studying (before clean every single corner of my room) and it helps me, im efficient. It has a positive side
Me too.
MɅRC does your profile pic mean anything then? Because I’m surprised you’d choose that
Same
Good God, this paints such a vivid picture of those affected. It does not feel in the least bit pleasant...
it’s not :(
Oh trust me it isn't
trust me its not
this video is simply perfect, it has made me feel so much more understood which i really appreciate. i almost tried to end my life at age 13 due to my ocd because i simply couldn’t stand living like i was everyday but a few things saved me, my family and god. therapy also helped but it also made me feel more stressed and overwhelmed so i would recommend getting help more privately instead of like 5 therapists at once like i did lol
Terrific job! This captures OCD very well. Subbed!
There’s nothing funny about OCD. Especially if your OCD is in your thoughts and you get compulsive thoughts. It’s horrible
I had
Yes. One of worst thing I have ever felt in my whole fucking life
It is. I went throught and its so fucking horrible
Omg yes! People just don’t understand what it’s like, but they of course have to go around talking ab how they have OCD because of something that just annoys them.
I had. I still have but much more easy. Thank you the doc.
"im scared of leaving the bathroom door open."
me ever since I was 4: yes
I’m scared of leaving it closed lol, which isn’t great when you live with other people 😂
I'm relieved my OCD symptoms didn't start until I was a young adult. It's pure HELL🔥 avoiding triggers and constant handwashing! At least an open or closed door is not a problem. My sympathies. This disorder is life sucking and makes you crazy
for me it’s my closet i literally have it blocked with a desk😭
"If you sleep with your face up, someone will kill you with a pillow".
"Don't see that much this knife or you might kill yourself".
"Checkout out the windows and doors are closed. Maybe someone can come in and hurt you or your family".
Three of all my intrusive thoughts.
Just yesterday my therapist said that I might have OCD. I mean, this thoughts were there almost all my life and I didn't even notice.
Some of mine are "im gay i have cancer no ion got cancer i aint gay " one other is " always cover ur head with a blanket or you die"
I know they sound completely fucking ridiculous but i cant explain them any better mate
my ocd is the number one reason i procrastinate like 70% of the day
*goes to leave house*
“That light switch didn’t feel like it flipped right... I have to do it again, otherwise we’re going to get in a terrible car accident where I see my boyfriend die”
*cue visualizations* 🙃
Facts.
Those thoughts are terrible right? Just literally be like nope not gonna happen and u know what... I'ma leave the light on today cuz I'm a badass
@@AshleyDance lol I wish it felt that easy
@@sameyeams it's not gonna feel easy it's gonna be hard and take time but is there something else that keeps people there other than it's scary?
@@sameyeams I'm just curious about mental health and how other people feel
It truly breaks my heart that people really suffer from this! 😔😔
Omg I just randomly clicked on this video because it was recommended and I can't believe that I do most of things shown in this video. I'm not educated on OCD so I don't know much about it but after watching this I think I need to see a doctor. My daughter has always told me I can be so dramatic and that I need to chill.. this makes sense to me now.
Use to have bad OCD growing up. It's like an odd pulling towards a certain action, with the feeling of negative consequences if not done correctly.. It was exhausting at times and led to depression but you gotta keep fighting and it will become much more manageable. I hardly even think about it anymore. Cheers!
my mom thinks OCD is all about "being clean" so every now and then she has to say to me "i don't understand how do you have ocd when you barely clean"
S.M.H.
My mom has OCD about cleaning and neatness or hygienic ..i can relate. I also thought OCD is confined to cleaning.
im sorry this is irrelevant but you have Ellen as your pfp :))
@@anniebanannie4542 I was gonna comment the same lmao, I love Ellen
I swear when things are neat and tidy i get even more stressed out.
@@maartje7204 lmao😂
it’s important to note that OCD is different in each person
Thank you for this! OCD rules my life, but I find it hard to explain it to others. This is perfect.
As someone with OCD, this is extremely relatable. For me the big thing is making sure my stove is off so it doesn't burn down the building. I've gotten used to my checks but it still takes me ~10 minutes to leave my apartment even though I know it's fine.
Woah, I feel so bad for people with OCD. Couldn't imagine living like that.
Props to you soldiers who have to go through this everyday 🖤
Yup I have OCD... It's a nightmare... Be glad you don't...
Thank you ❤️
Thanks
thank you
Thanks it sucks
i have a friend that have ocd. he ironed his blanket before go to sleep
🤣🤣🤣
A. A. 😂😂 i should not laugh but dude that's so funny
I dont think thats ocd its just wierd
A. A.
to be fair, ironing it makes it warm
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My brain: "touch the door 3 times otherwise you will get heart attack."
I'm currently having a mental breakdown because I was just in my room cleaning and disinfecting almost everything. It was so exhausting. In between I just wanted to cry. Now I'm watching you, still sobbing. But you putting OCD with a touch of humour brought me relief. Makes me feel I'm not alone. Thank you! ❤️
I'm sorry you have to go through this, i am having similar experience really frustrating
I used to have these exact habits when I was a kid but I fortunately out grew most of them
Same here, I wonder if it's a spectrum (since I didn't research). If I drop something on the floor like a piece of paper, I still have to pick it up even if I'm in a serious hurry, I just can't bare with the thought that it's laying on the ground.
Same, except I feel like they’re coming back
Yo me to anything I looked at I had to fix when I was a kid or if I dropped something I had to pick it up or I would go crazy but I fought throw it I think I knew my feelings weren’t right so I would drop something on purpose and not pick it up so I could break the habit
Same i remember id avoid those shadows or lines/cracks in the floor
I used to check everything three times or else I would cry. Still have an episode sometimes.
My OCD routine.
Close the toilet seat twice.
Make sure to use your wrist when turning on the water.
Use back of your hand to push soap out.
Open door with wrist or arm.
Make sure no creases are on your bed.
Clean up all garbage in room.
Organize stuffed animals twice.
Flip the light switch on 38 times.
At cousins house go to stairs and tap on the bottom step 110 times or 78 times.
Move things to specific spots now because your going to do it sooner or later so how about sooner.
Make outfit for tomorrow.
Make sure the time is odd when you go to bed.
Listen for the microwave to beep 3 times and then tick once to open.
Right before fridge closes jump.
Make sure whatever you took out of the fridge is on the counter before fridge closes.
That's not everything, just what I can think of off the top of my head. Not including other fucked up things.
DxathDontHarm :/ putting soap in soap dish the right way and at right angle in excatly middle ...and touching it several times before leaving bathroom
Myself have OCD, mine is germophobia.
When i go to bed the time always has to end in a zero
The electricity bill must be high as hell
W h a t
Thank you for sharing this and have a nice day 💛🤍
No matter what stand in compassion love and gratitude for each One of you battling ocd it's not you it's the demons behind you. We love you and you will be set free One day and always remember it's not you. We love you.
“though my ex is surely asking for it” LMAOOO
Laugh my ass off off off
“That make you look like you’re high on... acid.”
Edit: wow thanks for the likes lol
🤒🤣
696 likes?
I wonder how somebody could get 1.1k likes on comment for restating something she said in the video. Complete nonsense but If I were to do that I wouldn’t even get 1 🤣
Well I gave you one 😊
Thank you for such a thoughtful video! Your work is not only aesthetic but informative and nice to watch even when it's rough topics.
I appreciate you making and sharing this video - I find it so helpful to see how other people experience OCD and how it shapes their lives. It's reassuring too. Thank you 💛
I hate how people say they are OCD like they are the embodiment of the disorder itself.
Yes, it's weird, why would you want to be identified with something negative? I see this a lot with depression and anxiety, almost like if they proud of having this, and of course I know that some people really have those conditions though...
@@mefisth8678 Yea if you really do have it and have it bad you'd probably be less proud of having and more annoyed lol. There are some that may have mild cases however there's a fine line between being organized and having a disorder. Everyone wants to feel included and have the same shortcomings as everyone else nowadays so they can feel "real" or so that their accomplishments stand out even more in their life but you can't go around falsely claiming these hardships it's messed up. Imagine someone falsely claiming they had cancer or something very fatal. I'm not comparing the two that was simply an example of false claims.
Bireon having ocd doesn’t mean that you should be clean and organized there are types of it
Mefisth people just want attention these days but I think some people use it as a metaphor like “I’m so hungry I can eat a whole cow”
You say it to justify your habits, but obviously it’s ignorance. I’m guilty of saying I’m ocd because I like things clean and too simple. But after a minute into this video, I won’t be saying it. I think that’s the explanation most of you need that don’t understand
When people use ocd in a joking matter and makes it smaller than it really is, it makes me want to scream at everyone who jokes about it asking them do you want to have to think about breathing about the numbers you see everywhere and if they're even or not, do you want to have to organize everything you see in ROYGBIV and then especially with food and candies like m&ms and skittles you have to line them in that color order downwards and how many of each color you line them next to the same color side ways and if you dare see a symbol or a misshaped on you have to also put them in the most perfect to least perfect in every side ways color order, then you start on your right side of your mouth and take first candy that protrudes from the others and go down switching with each candy to the left and then right and then left side of your mouth & chew exactly 8 times until you have perfect rows that match up and you follow the rows down still alternating each side of the mouth per candy.etc
+Amanda Kaufman sorry Amanda, but this is called black comedy and it has nothing to do with trying to belittle the illness. Im not a doctor. I'm an artist, just trying to show what ocd is to as many people as I can. Same thing happened in Monk, Fight Club and many other films. People want to be offended by everything these days. Now this is what drives ME CRAZY.
+CallMeKat no you didn't understand, I'm very sorry if you thought I was saying this video was a joke. It's not I loved this it was beautifully done cinematically and also done very well explaining just a small tid bit of this. I too hate when everyone takes every little thing too serious and gets butt hurt about it. My comment was aimed towards the people who I see all the time who use illnesses and conditions people have as a light hearted joke, when they don't know how bad it can get and how real it Is for the people living with it. I was definitely not saying you were doing this with your video, your doing almost the opposite by educating people in a creative way that almost everyone can understand, and thank you for that. I'm very sorry, truly sorry.
Amanda Kaufman Oooh, no, I'm sorry for jumping all over you, haha. There was a missunderstanding on my part.
+CallMeKat it's perfectly fine, it wasn't your fault I'm an artist as well but more fine arts instead of cinematography so I understand that everything you create whether a painting or a video like this for example, is our baby and we're gonna protect it. I also didn't have anymore words to write with for the initial comment to describe it better and not make it seem like it's aimed towards you, I am still sorry, I don't like upsetting people and the last thing I wanted to do was upset you. Thank you for making this and all the videos you have made in general I've watched them a lot and love them all :)
Omg I thought I was the only one who did the chewing thing! Thank god I'm not alone!
I have OCD and perfectionism both.... I wash my hands for more then 10 minutes every time and bath for more than half hour. I measure every of my foot steps and I freakout when stepping on lines. I recheck things more often like 5 to 10 times. I want everything to be aligned according to me. I have repetitive thoughts and I cant stop them coming. And many many more things and I'll die if I skip anything.
OCD sucks and perfectionism makes it worst.
Girl it take me 2 hour for bathing
But cutting my nails scare me it even take more time then bathing
@@user-nf7zf3bp8t really! I thought I was the only one who take hours in cutting nails and yeah sometimes it takes me 2 hours and more while bathing too, specially when I'm on periods. Girl I can feel you..
@@user-nf7zf3bp8t well I donno if u r a girl or a boy😬
-want to do my job, compulsive thinking comes...
-watch youtube, repeating video every minutes...
-sleep : often leave my legs hanging because I'm afraid of dirt on my legs, and I'm too tired to wash my leg because just doing that I need like 20 minutes and full of anxiousnesb, if it failed, I have to take a bath.. wake up every morning with pain in my legs..
-finish bath for 1-2 hours,
-afraid of going to pee,
-cant concentrate to learn
-already prepared for my online class.. but I already exhausted even before start
but it didnt no matter how far I prepared, because 5 minutes before class, ocd comes greater...
-So, finally Im late, again...
and people tell me how not serious I'am, and not prepared I'm...
I dont blame anyone, but I want them to stop to judge that everybody is in normal condition as them and they talk like they can do better if they in my position.. but they dont know my every effort, when Im exhausted as hell but Im still think of others and my responsibility... they dont know that... but I can understand, they maybe never experienced it themself, so its fine if they dont understand me... but still, sometimes I want them to know, even tho it didnt matter to me anymore....that this ocd is the one who force me not to being myself..
I want them to know.. that this is not myself... this is not me...
It's still hurt,
I live with a very mild version of this on the daily, and even that drives me insane. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this. ♥️
same here! I want to go to a doctor to know for sure though i hope everything is okay for you❤️❤️!
Same here
Idk if I have ocd or not but I think I live with mild version of this too
Like I have my own rituals, It's like I'm bound to do it
I also made a ritual that whenever I climb stairs,I would skip a stair
If I don't do that, it would bother me all day
I also decorate things over and over
Easier than you expect, I treated a lot of people by easy steps it needs only five days
Omg its like i just watched myself... i feel so weird about it now!!
VeganTurkish me too
ok
I have the same attitude when it's time to left the house I have to check 2 or 3 times if I locked the door do I have ocd?
@@lina-uw5xi nope
Same but now im scared😶
I got OCD too, but my obsessive thoughts are constantly about the feeling of being stuck in my thoughts, as if they were a room without doors. And there is my tic disorder. And compulsions that make me do certain gestures, I had a hard time trying not to hurt myself, not because I wanted the pain, but because I thought of doing so.
As a person concerned I can tell that psychotherapy helps! I thought I had to die, but I didn't. No matter how much you are affected by the disorder, you can make it better!!
Making sure that I liked the video more than 20 times! 🤷♂
For me, everything has to be even. If I tap something, I have to tap again left and right. When I press the volume button, I have to press the other one. When she touched the weird statue thing, my mind kept telling me "HER HAND DIDNT GRIP THE STATUE EXACTLY IN THE MIDDLE"
Korbro 2227 I was like YOU HAVE TO TOUCH IT ONE MORE TIME
Korbro 2227 I'm happy to hear that I'm not the only one who struggles with OCD
Korbro 2227 SAME
:") I feel your pain too !!
I KNOW RIGHT
Thanks for making this. I struggle with OCD and some of these compulsions and mainly the intrusive thoughts.
PokemonTrainer Mia stop saying you have it it’s very hard to be diagnosed with it not many ppl are because it’s rare so so shut up
@@maxcaulfield509 you don't know if Mia has been diagnosed or not
Max Caulfield oh fuck off. you don’t know what they go through. she could have been diagnosed.
Max Caulfield dude what the fuck, how could you know if she has made it up?
It’s weird.. I do a lot of these things. Not self diagnosing, I’ve been diagnosed with a lot of things, never OCD. Hmmm
I used to have OCD. Trust me it's extremely hard to get those disturbing thoughts outta ur head. It'll never let u to live in the moment. The thoughts are never-ending and it's gets worse the more u listen to it and obey it. I might seem pretty normal on the outside but there's a war going on inside of my head. Watching this video reminds of those hard days. I didnt know why I was having such thoughts. Noone would understand nor be able to help me. I wondered why I was different and why can't think normally and live carefree like others. Years later I realised that it was OCD and a lot of people used to suffer the same. I almost thought I'd lose myself but somehow I survived. But I still haven't recovered fully. I still have those thoughts but most of the times I choose not to pay attention to it.