I mostly enjoy the night because the thoughts are not so intrusive as in the day (you know, the bad thoughts). But I rarely stay up at night. I love to sleep :)
As a young person with depression and a (maybe) minor case of anxiety, I know its not cool or anything. Unfortunately many others my age think mental illnesses are cool and stuff. I have never come out of the mental closet and said anything about my current mental state to my friends or family. Luckily there are some things that help and help me forget I even have it, for a short period of time.
Has anyone felt like when you hang out with a small group of friends,you just get ignored and always feel the odd one out and that is least cared about?
Exactly so relatable. I just don't understand why are there no people in our own circle who actually understands about this fucking thing with anxiety and depression. (Sorry for the strong language)
True, i always felt alone, everybody already had their own closed friend, n i'm the only one who left out. But the worst thing is when u start developed a hatred feeling to your friend, because it felt like your best friend just got stolen. And it make u hate yourself even more, for having such a feeling. And just hide it with a smile.
"Days become indistinguishable" is so true. My memory is getting worse - sometimes I can't even remember whether something happened today or yesterday. At least it doesn't matter because nothing of importance happens in my life anyway.
@@justeunepersonne6636 i tried it 2 times 1 time i was close. It is just that my depression stays the same whatever i try. I also am a very sensitive person for this cruel world. Sleep is so perfect i feel more alive when i sleep then i am awake.
And how much color you'll see...soon. It'll get better soon. You'll be able to see color, soon. It's always, in the future you'll get better. But I dont see a future for myself.
I relate. I've been on autopilot for so long that when I finally realized I had depression, it hit me like a freight train and I was unable to encourage myself to do much
Its my favorite part of bohemian Rhapsody. Really hits you in the feels. Also that Line "goodbye everybody I've got to go. Got to leave you all behind and face the truth". I often shut myself off from "friends" to reflect on how meaningless my life and relationships are.
That's literally my thought everyday. Dying is the hardest. Never being born or suddenly disappearing without pain would be best. Especially when you have few people connected to you.
So what would be the cure...i really hate it...i feel like every think is black i even don't care abuot it...i can't stop thinking...i can't sleep in rest ... the day for me is as same as the night...confused...all the time...and i wake up in every each day telling my self am gone struggle and make some changes but useless???...🖤💔🖤
yeah bc when i kill myself ill be guilty bc then all of friends, the family are depressed, sad or even guilty and that's on me. but if i was never born they wouldn't need to care.
What I found when going through long term depression is that you somewhat unknowingly look for things that ‘feed’ the depression. The state of mind you’re experiencing makes you listen to music that you relate to, with a downcast and negative outlook on everything. You tend to look for things that connect with the feelings you’ve been experiencing (or lack of). All these things often pull you further into this way of thinking and living. You hide from the world and use these things as fuel for the pain.
Cute, but there is no choose your character. You're stuck with who you are and if who you are is a worthless piece of shit, then that's the life you're stuck living. I've tried the reset multiple times. 4 different cities. Different stages of life. It's all the same. The only constant is me and my shitty existence.
Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It's the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It's wanting friends, but hate socializing. It's wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. It's feeling everything at once then feeling paralyzingly numb.
@@niamhthrelfall3384 i agree that's why i'm afraid to tell it to my parents cause i know they're not gonna believe it and will call me "overreacting and emotional"
Why these feelings come to some people , why others not ???? They feel so happy ! there is sth going on in here ,we should find out ? we must use our mind ,think think
youcef baba Endomorphins There are many reasons depression can be caused but as well there are many treatments (Excersize, supplements, lifestyle change, setting goals etc...) Watch the Ted talk on depression it’s a white doctor who specializes in depression
Haha so true...even I sometimes like to attend the crowd..i'd love to see people..but yeah,,,I am.just standing there quietly...and IDGF. like I must pass this event, as passing by a level in a video game.
When I was a teenager and I didn’t know I was depressed I described my depression as a big dark cloud following me everywhere. I said it doesn’t always rain but the cloud is always there.
@@yaelleon3572 hello my friend If you want to share with me I could be there for you anytime I can hear all you have to say I was really bad, feeling so sick sometime ago But I got over it and now it's the past. If you want to write me here or FB or WhatsApp or wherever.
@@butterbread566 so why did you try to kill yourself? Because you couldn't stand this or that. Because things were to tough for you. Because you thought it'd be the easiest way for you. See? What we think of when we consider suicide is just ourselves. It's probably the most egoistic thing to do. That's self-love to me. Only caring about ourselves.
@@pt.is.education5747 well yeah, but others often don't show that they care about you. They only do when it's too late. Maybe you want someone to prevent you from suicide, but there isn't anyone, so you think that they wouldn't be too sad about your death
As a person who is fighting clinical depression since past three years with anti depressants and therapy and an untreated relapse after medication, no one should ever go through this. I wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy. The word depression might sound normal to people who haven’t had it, but to us suffering from it, this mental illness is our home. A home we don’t wanna live in and a home that we can’t move out of. At first everything will seem very overwhelming, panicking and hyper, but slowly if it becomes persistent everything feels numb, silent, lonely and unbearable. We want to die and be free from it but we really can’t, so we become bound to live with it. It sucks up all the emotions and happiness, leaving you with just numbness and suffocating thoughts. People often try to be positive, act happy and normal but inside they are crying, weeping, sad and lonely and desperately praying to god to feel better and live a normal life.
The worst part is when in the middle of the night you suddenly feels positive and decide the next morning you're gonna wake up and change everything. But then the next morning comes and you realize that nothing changed and you just wanna stay in bed where is safe I'm so fucking tired of this cycle :(
depression doesn't care if you have loving parents who are still together, depression doesn't care if you haven't been through trauma, depression doesn't care how good your life was.
sleepy oli God damnit I want to cry. I just don't understand how I got this when my life is perfect. I have a loving mom and dad. I had friends... Until I pushed them away. I have two sisters and a brother... But yet I'm still sad. I feel like it's my fault; like I'm being ungrateful or something. I'm surrounded by love, yet I'm not able to feel it because the darkness is just to much to fight the light.
Kittens RBAE depression is a terrible thing, and it's also stereotyped for people with traumatic childhoods or abusive relationships or bereavement. Which makes it harder to cope with if you aren't under that category because the only thing left to blame is yourself even if you've done no wrong
everything you just said actually applies to me so I'm the stereotype but whenever I talk to someone about it they ask me WHY I'm depressed like I know. Like, they expect a reason for everything and social anxiety too. The most annoying questions are "how did it start? why are you depressed/socially anxious?" It's like they want a reason so they can belittle your depression. If the reason isn't good enough (traumatic enough) they'll dismiss it and assume whatever they want about you. I hate humans. And one other thing is age. If you're a certain age, say a teenager, then they won't take you seriously at all. They'll just assume you're going through another phase. Including family btw. I hate this. I can't wait to die.
Fujoshi Chan I totally agree. Ive been depressed for years now but i couldnt find how it started or what the cause. It's just something that suddenly occurs in me. Ive backed away from friends and even isolated myself from family members. My mom ofc noticed it and tried confronted me for so many times but i just couldnt know how to explain because i know she'll demand such reasons. And when i finally wanted to say something and couldnt give any reasons, she just couldnt understand and stared at me like im a poor child, she said depression must have a cause. She blame my insomnia nights and sleep during days and says im lazy. She blame me because i couldnt find a job because i cant go out with this comfort zone, i cant socialite, i cant go on the outside world. All of that made an impression to my mom that im just a useless piece of shit, worthless person and lazy overreacting daughter. Ofc she wont say it to me, but i know she kind of think that way :( I wanna be happy again
I'm so exhausted. feel like I'm repeating the same day over and over, same routine, same feelings, same meaningless drama. I'm so sick of it. I just want to feel alive and be happy but I'm constantly drained and everything feels so pointless. I just feel dead
You ever just forget your alive because your living a whole diffrent life in your head? The ammount of times I came up to the realization that my reality is the worse reality possible for me haunts me every night
@@julioamador157 اهلا وسهلا اذا نجحت في تطبيق هذا الاختبار , انت بنفسك ستعرف سبب هذه المشكلة , وعلى اساسها سيكون العلاج وبسيط لانك عرفت سبب المرض , ولن تحتاج لطبيب ولا تدفع فلوس . 1- تجلس عى كرس او باي طريقة تريحك - على السرير 2- المكان هدوء ليس فيه ازعاج او تلفزيون او موسيقى 3- ان تقرأ هذه الكلمات يعني تقرأ بقلبك ولا تحرك لسانك هذه اهم نقاط اللهم لك الحمد كما ينبغي لجلال وجهك وعظيم سلطانك اللهم لك الحمد حمدا كثيرا طيبا مباركا اللهم رب الارض والسماء - افتح لي ابواب السماء اللهم رب الارض والسماء - افتح لي ابواب السماء اللهم رب الارض والسماء - افتح لي ابواب الساء اللهم اني مظلوم اللهم اني مهموم اللهم اني مغموم اللهم اني محسود اللهم اني محسود حسبنا الله على من ظلمني حسبنا الله على من آذاني حسبنا الله على من أمرضني حسبنا الله على من حسدني حسبنا الله على من سحرني حسبنا الله على من ضيق صدري - وسبب لي هماً وغماً وكآبة اللهم أنت حسبي ونعم الوكيل حسبنا الله على كل شيطان وشيطانة حسبنا الله على كل مارد وماردة حسبنا الله على من تعاون مع الحسده حسبنا الله على من تعاون مع السحره اللهم أنت حسبي ونعم الوكيل
@@cat1800 no you haven't i know, but don't you dare say that people just act fucking depressed, because no. They don't. They have a lot of bad stuff going on. They're not simply sad. They may not eat or sleep, and they may commit suicide or self harm. Is someone who committed suicide, simply sad? The answer is No. So before you say something like that, think better about what people may be going through and if you still dissagee then you are welcome to leave.
Thing is, I am that guy to myself Everytime I say "I wanna end it" or "I'm gonna end it later in life if i become a nobody" In my head all I say is "why do u think like this, your life isn't that difficult, your only 16". and I'll just start to cry but I'll just go somewhere where nobody can see me and I'll just wipe the tears off and pretend everything's fine.
Get off social media first of all. No wonder you’re depressed. People purposely try to act like their lives are all perfect and happy on those apps. It’s all for the likes. Nothing on instagram is realistic. It’s all fake.
since childhood I loved the game of chess, now it's like "it's just trapping a stupid king inside a corner of the board and giving it checkmate, seen it countless times, why bother."
when you cry so much... just laying there, on the bathroom floor, curled up into a ball, absolutely empty. Nothing ever matters at that point. Not your pet, your parents, your friends. Nobody.
When you find it hard to cry but you can feel the emotion that's causing it inside you. Or when you feel like you're the one at fault for it. Or when you have no reason to feel depressed but it's just there. Or when you finally start crying you start to give yourself crap over "being a pity party, attention seeker" when in reality you know you're hurting but your mind makes it think you're not. Or when you're trying to write a comment like this and tell yourself that you're lying about how you feel to assure yourself that you're not depressed and that you are weak. Or when you lose trust in yourself because your depression believes you lie about how you feel. That you shouldn't cry because of yourself. That other people have it worse, yet you tell yourself that it is okay to cry and that regardless it's okay to feel hurt even if something minor caused you to feel that way. But your brain never listens, it only believes what the depression says, not you.
1. your gut microbiome has a fundemental role for your mental state chances are, you have sufferered from a bacterial infection to combat this, go carnivore to starve thee bacteria from energy (carbs) you should feel better in 2 weeks 2. testosterone also plays a major role with dopamine release (the hormone responsible for pleeasure and motivation) so increase in testosterone will increase dopamine to increase testosterone: -don't eat shit -lift heavy shit -literaly go outside (the goal is sunlight exposure, its still fine if the weather is ass) -hang out with the opposite gender (or the one that you consider hot) -practice semen retention -be more competitive -prevent fear from controlling your actions, let ur balls hang low and be more risk taking -deep breathing excercies (to lower stress) fun fact: Taking anti depressant will make you suffer from erectile dysfunction. But the same companies are also making viagra, their "cure" for erectile dysfunction. 3. Lack off motivation and pleasure is a lack of dopamine/seratonine. The way these hormones works is that they have to fluctuate. When having a lot of pleasure, dopamine levels will rise, but then have to fall below baseline which will make you feel like shit. To combat that, deliberitly choose to feel like shit so that your body will have no choice but to kick back your dopamine levels above baseline. 4. Practice gratitude. This is fundemental. Bring a paper & pen and write down 10 things ur gratefull for per day. While doing this ur gonna notice that you automatically feel slightly better. If you do this every day you will condition your mind to always have gratitude 5. Your thoughts control your emotions. lemme explain When you think about that exam ur gonna have tomorrow you feel stressed When you think about that person, your body feels warm When you think about bringing a lemon, slicing that lemon, smelling that lemon, and lick on that piece of lemon, your mouth will start to drool. 6. Nothing feels better than seeing the physical manifestation of your hard work. Speaking from experience. lets be straight. ur life is not shit because u have depression, u have depression because ur life is shit DO NOT LISTEN TO ANYONE WHO TELLS YOU OTHERWISE. THEY ARE WEAK PEOPLE WHO WANT TO FEEL SORRY FOR THEIR LAZINESS WAKE UP THE MATRIX IS REAL WAKEE UP
@@niggyhuru5388 I felt as if you have a background in depression, I need your help. I have depression for three years, and I follow up with a psychiatrist. Depression completely affected my studies. I feel that my life has stopped. I have no desire for anything in life. Mama and Papa are the reason for my illness How can I get rid of all that and not let it affect my future completely How can I live a normal life
Watching this 7 years after my depression, to be honest idk how it makes me feel, but i do remember perfectly how this video helped me out with the bad emotions that i used to have. Videos like these are absolutely necessary. I thanked you 7 years ago, and i thank you now, again; Thank you so much Kat.
Ahmed Zain i asked my parents a lot of times but they don’t believe in mental illnesses, so i won’t be able to go to one until i’m independent from them
It’s crazy how the funny people in life are the ones who are really depressed. Ironic huh. U portray happiness coz u can’t feel it urself. It’s sad. I hate it, not as much as my sudden depression moments that hid me outta nowhere. But it’s up there. It’s like there’s 2 versions of u that ur living. The socially accepted version, the one u wanna be. And the one u really are when ur home / alone.
7 years ago this video became my comfort. I had no one. Nobody ever understood the hell I was in. This video together with a few others became my go to when the voices got a little too loud than they usually were. It was nice to feel validated, to feel seen, and somehow understood, even just for a few minutes. Thank you for this Kat. I'm in a far better place now, and this is still my go to when the blues knocks on my door from time to time. ps. I asked for help. As a matter of fact, I fought for my right to get the help I desperately needed.
i dont remember what it feels like to be happy. positive emotions have gone as if they had been never existed. and peace can turn into nothing that is suffer
My family doesn't understand. I was never a person to smile a lot even when I was very happy and I was attacked a lot because that. Like imagine attacking a person for not showing their teeth every 5 seconds... A few years ago, I started smiling more and those people think I'm happier. The truth is: I've never been so depressed and insecure in my life. People give too much importance to what you show to the world, instead of caring for emotions. If I ever have kids I won't let them go through what I had to go through.
I've been struggling with heavy suicidality for almost a decade now, and whenever I get really close to an attempt and I feel I cannot reach out to anyone, I come back to this video and it gives me a few more days. I don't think I've met anyone that can describe the self destruction aspect so perfectly. Thank you.
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I know that it can feel this way but please try to keep on finding people that you can reach out to there are many people like you who feel the same way
having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. Its like we're drowning and no one notice. Its like we're screaming but no one hears.
Maybe u should stop having this constant desire to have people care about you and your problems. Stop wanting validation from people. Take care of yourself because nobody will truly ever take care of you like you would want them to.
I have autism , depression , anxiety and adhd it’s for sure not easy to cope with especially living with my parents who don’t understand me luckily I will be able to move out soon and try my best to get the help I need
listen to me, the most important relationship you must care of and feel, is the one with yourself. Take care of yourself, and it's actually an occasion to delete fake people who pretend to be around. Dealing with being loneley is a strength.
I relate so much to this, my mind just constantly gravitates to violent and graphic suicides but my body won’t let me do it. It’s so command frustrating
Have you ever thought about your goal in life, why we were created, I advise you to read the Qur'an, believe me you will find many answers in it, and understand life correctly.
I see a therapist now and I find it so hard to even explain what I'm feeling. I've been alone now for 5 years and its tough to keep fighting. This is the most accurate speech I've come across!!
Honestly it's been years I have felt that everyone thinks I'm boring. I realised I used to get triggered and say something like "friendships are useless" they probably thought I have some issues and I really got private after that. Since then Im always concerned whenever I meet people and ask them or myself, am I boring? Idk why I do that maybe I'm insecure 😔
When I was a little kid and heard of suicide I couldn't come up with a reason for anyone (including me) to do it. I'm sad to say it but now I can make a list. The brain works in mysterious ways. I actually have a lot to live for but sometimes I just feel like life is too much.
Same... I remember when I was younger when somebody threw himself in front of a train (which happens quite often here) I never understood how someone could do that. Now a couple days ago I was walking next to the rails at a train station and thought that everything would be so much easier if I just fell on them-.-
Depressed people are not weak. They are the strongest people. They fight more than anyone else and fall more than anyone else but still decide to get up. Depression is a very deep battle inside a human being and is not fixed by blaming them for being depressed. Love them no matter what they are going through ,embrace them when they are frustrated for no reason and don't give up on them.
Princess Fet / i thank you so much for that paragraph. people who don't have depression think its the easiest thing ever and that we are weak people, but we're not. we are the strongest people.
It hurts how much i relate to this video.. Vicious cycle of depressing episodes sometimes drains you out to the extent where you cant do anything anymore..
Idk man, all of you people think we live in fairytales like cinderella, like we supposed to be forever happily ever after,...why don't you go build something, cook m3th, go to medschool, cut down weight to 50kgs, learn to play drums, whatever inspires & floats your boat, the world is yours, grow some fvcking balls & stick to a masterplan, & then you'll see what i mean
"why are you depressed?" "be grateful" "other people had it worst" and i just sit there and listen and i don't even try to explain anymore because they will never understand. i'm strong but i'm so damn tired too.
I have the same issue,23 student/work as a trainer(part time) - livestreamer. Monthly income-10k on a badmonth,i have my parents with me,healthy. Im terribly depressed but i put on that disgusting mask everyday,give people motivation/evergy/joy when i,myself have none of it. Cant say anything,cant complain when i open my mouth they are all like “ what are you talking about you have money health looks future everything! Why are u complaining?” Only if knew the answer,the reason. I cant leave my bed for the past 5 days all the responsibilities,clients. The end is coming for me
Commutato in Perpetuum i feel like im not strong enough for everyday life and challenges even though i have that “lets get it” persona. Could be pressure also i dont know,all i know is im on the edge and noone knows.
I can relate to this so badly and it is awful. It makes us feel miserable and even more lonely. I can't go on this way, it hurts to get by. There are no words to describe it.
I used to watch this when I was 18. All my childhood trauma didn’t let me be happy, I would cry every day, every single night. I met my boyfriend, and he helped, but the most significant change in my life was my pet, my little exotic pet, my little black chicken, "Negra." She was so little, I took care of her, loved her, she grew so fast and made me happy, she gave emotions to my life and I was eager to wake up every day to feed her and spend time together, after four years there was no trace of my sadness. I loved her will all my heart. She passed away last year, and I couldn't stand it, I made a garden for her. I feel an enormous hole in my soul now that she is gone. My bf was the only person I trusted all these years, but he disappointed me so much in the most horrible way that he could. They both helped me to recover my soul. Now that they are gone, I feel lonely, but depression is not part of my life anymore. The only pure creature that could take it away was that little black hen I will always love from the button of my heart. I can't wait to join you someday, Negra.
I hate having on-again-off-again depression because just when you think things are finally getting better it all goes back to square 1 and its just an endless cycle of getting your hopes up then getting crushed
Eduardo Farías 2 hours ago I went into bed and my mom came to see me and there were tears in my eyes and she asked if I was ok and I said yes because I’m scared, lost, afraid and I made such a fake smile and then just bring out my tears. I am still awake. I’m supposed to be sleeping. I can’t stop crying.
@@karstonbell3608 life's got no meaning and it'll never have one, our existence is meaningless. You don't actually want a reason to live. What's crippling us is that we are even searching for this meaning in the first place. The problem is not that there is no meaning. Just live, love, enjoy the moment. Nothing matters, there is no reason. Just have fun
Depression is like an endless tunnel you keep walking and walking in day and night without rest. You get more and more tired, your steps heavier and heavier. All your hear is the lonely echo of them. The exit seems unreachable, no matter how hard you try. And spending so much time in the dark already, your eyes become weak and blind, failing to even see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore.
@@Laiser But life also not cool, should I live? Maybe death isn't cool, or isn't the sollution, but what if it's better than live yoir life without happiness or just feeling anything exept pain, numb and nothing
@@reka5924 thing is that’s not your life. it’s your life right now, but this is just a temporary stage of your life. depression makes you short-sighted when in actuality things DO get better because that is the literal nature of life. absolutely nothing is permanent. no matter how bad it feels, no matter how long it’s gone on, it ends. you will come through the other side of it and be so glad you did. it will all just be a memory. you can’t throw away all life has waiting for you on temporary pain. stay strong dude.
keep holding on, one day this new generation will understand and we will get the help and awareness for mental illnesses we need. I know we have to fake a smile sometimes and I’m so sorry about it, but keep fighting through it and try your best to y’all through it with your family and friends. And always remember You are loved❤️
The worst thing is you can't ask for help your family and friends already having their own struggles ... and if you cried infront of them they will think you're joking...
There hasn't been a single night that I haven't wished that tomorrow wouldn't exist when I sleep. Always wishing that this life was a dream and I could wake up
Kamyab Rezaee I know that feeling too. I'm sorry that you have to experience that. I know how the hopelessness can eat you alive. I hope you are able to find some solace, whether it's through videos like this, music, friends, family...anything. Take care of yourself.
Thanks, I never really say these things and pretend like nothing is wrong cause I know everyone has problems of their own and whenever someone tells me how they feel about being depressed and sad I just pretend like mine doesn't exist
Mechteld Linders thanks for caring and showing that you care. I lack motivation some times,I get really sad that I don't care if I don't smile.but I'll just do as I've been doing in these years
I have that feeling all the time. It's so exhausting ... Especially because I always try to think on ways to improve the world, and then come thoughts like "Most people don't care about that" "Why do you even bother about that?" Everything feels so difficult and impossible. But, hey! At least I have positive thoughts about saving the world. Or make people happy .... I don't know, things like that always make me think "I have to keep fighting. Maybe in the future I feel better." I was going to write a completely different comment. I do not know why I ended up talking about this! If you need someone to talk, I'm here. Or on twitter (it's very easy to find me). I also talk to many people through video games, but I have no idea if you are interested in those things. Take care man!
Or saying why are you being lazy (because you just want to be in bed all day and cry and clear your thoughts) when they could ask it's not that i'd open up to them but maybe in time if there patient and listen whenever they say these things it just motivates you to mope in bed more I really hate my life.
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@@denyalea7735 When they say don't be sad they mean be depressed but don't let it get in the way of stuff. This a cold world. Keep living it. No one is happy 100% of the time.
@@jaqenhghar3301 Hello...I wanna ask something...I'm 10 year old kid...I call me in bad words in my head..I fake smile When somebody asks me:Are you okay? I just say:I'm okay just tired... But i wanna say:Yes i'm ok just tired of living.. I fake smile...Am i depressed?
@@minty3438 Hey. I'm just a teen, I'm not a professional. I'm just gonna tell you something about what you said for your negative mind towards yourself. I also do that, saying bad words to myself, cause i have a low esteem. You should talk to your family or a teacher. Also please don't let anyone or anything affect your thoughts. And it's okay to not always smile. The fake smile is bad. Just be you!
@@fbiopenup5345 Thankyou! I hope you stay strong!! I lately looked at life in different perspective,I love myself now!I love life,i hope you can feel the same
That's the statement I've used a lot before I even knew what depression was. I've been trying to explain to my parents because they call me lazy. I feel like doing nothing and they make me even sadder.
I experienced both types of depression. Its like being very aware of consequences so you partake in life anyways, while feeling completely hopeless and numb on the inside. Doing things you have to do so you dont wither away. Depression can look happy and put together on the outside. But on the inside its empty and you wonder how long u can keep it up before you try to end it.
With depression I feel like I’m never satisfied in life . Like nothing I do excites me or makes me happy , I’m just going through the motions of everyday life like a zombie . The anxiety sucks but depression just kills me
abandoned explorer's yeah that’s what they think but I know it’s not I was thinking about starting a friend group on Instagram for people who feel lonley they can share all their problems en motivate each other there
"Things that make your friends excited leave you indifferent and you become aware of the huge gap that lies between you." This couldn't be worded more accurately. I'm at the stage where my friends tell me about all the exciting things they're gonna do and ask me to come and have fun with them. But I feel I can't be the same around them anymore - I can't even pretend to be excited. They have moved forwarded while I stayed still, and it's too late to catch up now.
I always say tomorrow i will change. Wake up early,start doing chores,go out with friends and more.But the next day i wake up..i feel like sh*t,i just wanna stay in bed and never get up.
Depression is living in a body that wants to die. It’s having a soul with no feeling, it’s being numb to life and faking happiness so those around you don’t have to pry and tell you what’s wrong with you.
@@dunjamicunovic1153 Nadam se da ćeš pobediti to sranje nikada nisam bio u depresiji niti želim da vidi a ni čujem kako je, ako budeš trebala da pričaš sa nekim uvek sam tu proveravaću svaki dan komentar pozdrav od mene i srećno ❤️❤️❤️
@@zngts1337 hvala ti mnogo, dirnuo me je ovaj komentar... i prethodni... ❤️ divno je što i dalje ima ljudi kojima je stalo i koji se brinu i ako ne znaju kroz šta neko drugi prolazi. Puno mi znači što kažeš da ćeš proveravati ❤️❤️ Imaš li Pinterest?
I've been there for a moment. Depression isn't just sadness, and it's only when you're in it that you understand what it is truly. Depression, thankfully isn't my main problem. I struggle a lot with anxiety, which can sometimes lead to depression. Take care of you ❤️ if there's a thing I've learned is that nothing is more important than your health.
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It is amazing after this time Kat, that you still care.
Go outside and get some exercise that’s the real cure to your “depression”
You don’t understand how the human body works
Where is your video about Anxiety? Why did u delete it
I don’t remember what it feels like to wake up in the morning and be happy
I'm sorry to hear, I know it's hard. I do. But dont give up 5 mins before the miracle. Change will come.
Same
Same. I wonder if everyone had ever been in this phase. Or is it just me? Just some people?
Same, I feel stuck in the same state of mind and I can't find my way out anymore.
Larissa P same 😭
“We’re just here... waiting for another day to pass”
bangtan bts true
I mostly enjoy the night because the thoughts are not so intrusive as in the day (you know, the bad thoughts). But I rarely stay up at night. I love to sleep :)
Charlie Bank uh
ARMY omg i feel you but bts has stopped all this
Yep
depression feels like you’re not living.. you’re just existing.
Fuck life
You can't see people's without depression who have biggest problem
Mya Janego ^
@Lucas Sebastián i dont understand what even is the problem with you people...
@Lucas Sebastián no one gives a shit so stop whining
It's weird I'm going to type this but, whenever I'm depressed I re-watch this video just to feel understood.
It isn't weird at all, I do the same thing.
im doing the same
Me too
Hope everyone doing good and staying safe. If you need to talk to someone or need help, there are people who care. Sending support and hearts. ❤️❤️❤️
same
remember kids depression isn’t cool or quirky it’s a serious illness and should be treated like such
As a young person with depression and a (maybe) minor case of anxiety, I know its not cool or anything. Unfortunately many others my age think mental illnesses are cool and stuff. I have never come out of the mental closet and said anything about my current mental state to my friends or family. Luckily there are some things that help and help me forget I even have it, for a short period of time.
the thing is when I tell people that I feel depressed they take it as a joke when it’s rly not
Well when I try tell my friends or people they say me to I fell sad it’s not just sad ness it’s family issues people billing they take stuff as a joke
You have not passed the vibe check
Radiation whatever dood Chernobyl dood what
"In the end you choose to be alone in your comfort zone where no one asks any questions."
I'm doing it now
@@azizahrahma6027 How are you doing now? :)
Has anyone felt like when you hang out with a small group of friends,you just get ignored and always feel the odd one out and that is least cared about?
Exactly so relatable. I just don't understand why are there no people in our own circle who actually understands about this fucking thing with anxiety and depression. (Sorry for the strong language)
Yeah, and I am always the last choice of my friends.
I feel like if I was in a group with a murderer and thief, I would still be the person who no one would want to hang out with
True, i always felt alone, everybody already had their own closed friend, n i'm the only one who left out. But the worst thing is when u start developed a hatred feeling to your friend, because it felt like your best friend just got stolen. And it make u hate yourself even more, for having such a feeling. And just hide it with a smile.
Aurelia Natalien omg that’s exactly me, and no matter where I go I’m always going to be the friend that no one cares about
"Days become indistinguishable" is so true. My memory is getting worse - sometimes I can't even remember whether something happened today or yesterday. At least it doesn't matter because nothing of importance happens in my life anyway.
So true.
It was a week ago, a year ago?
Sometimes i cant answer that question.
To me,sleep isn't just sleep anymore,it's an escape
Sleep is close to death just peacefull
Since I can't suicide I sleep to forget about everything
@@justeunepersonne6636 i tried it 2 times 1 time i was close. It is just that my depression stays the same whatever i try. I also am a very sensitive person for this cruel world. Sleep is so perfect i feel more alive when i sleep then i am awake.
@@martiangirl9411 so whats ur story
ღѕнιмα ღ the thing is I can't seem to sleep now :/
it's the worst when you want to cry but your mind is just empty and numb
a a yes it’s very hard 99 of the time it’s like that
a a bish it aint empty if u anxious all the time
i hate it when i want to cry but i don't even have the energy for that
Emotionally dead - me
yes
depression is like being colorblind and people are constantly telling you how colorful the world is
Wow
omg.. u said it pretty pretty well! i love and at the same time hate how it actually feels accurate
And how much color you'll see...soon. It'll get better soon. You'll be able to see color, soon. It's always, in the future you'll get better. But I dont see a future for myself.
Me with depression and colorblindness: 👁👄👁 I'm screwed
Wooooooooww
Depression is like just live a life because you dont want to upset your family
I relate. I've been on autopilot for so long that when I finally realized I had depression, it hit me like a freight train and I was unable to encourage myself to do much
"I don't wanna die, but sometimes I wish I'd never been born at all."
- Freddie Mercury
Its my favorite part of bohemian Rhapsody. Really hits you in the feels. Also that Line "goodbye everybody I've got to go. Got to leave you all behind and face the truth". I often shut myself off from "friends" to reflect on how meaningless my life and relationships are.
I really love Freddie, but by the way, Freddie has never been depressed, you can't imagine how lively he was for a dying man.
That's literally my thought everyday. Dying is the hardest. Never being born or suddenly disappearing without pain would be best. Especially when you have few people connected to you.
@@trynalive24 we are with you
👍
*"Depression is not wanting to die but wishing you were never born"*
Are you depressed
@@hermionegranger9367 if you're asking, if I ever felt that way than yeah, I have.
@Goose! I can understand your situation, I hope you'll feel alright soon.
So what would be the cure...i really hate it...i feel like every think is black i even don't care abuot it...i can't stop thinking...i can't sleep in rest ... the day for me is as same as the night...confused...all the time...and i wake up in every each day telling my self am gone struggle and make some changes but useless???...🖤💔🖤
yeah bc when i kill myself ill be guilty bc then all of friends, the family are depressed, sad or even guilty and that's on me. but if i was never born they wouldn't need to care.
What I found when going through long term depression is that you somewhat unknowingly look for things that ‘feed’ the depression. The state of mind you’re experiencing makes you listen to music that you relate to, with a downcast and negative outlook on everything. You tend to look for things that connect with the feelings you’ve been experiencing (or lack of). All these things often pull you further into this way of thinking and living. You hide from the world and use these things as fuel for the pain.
Someone said it! I think it's really important to know ways to cope with depression before it even occurs.
“you don’t really wanna die , you just don’t wanna live this life”
Yes 😭😭😭
Cute, but there is no choose your character. You're stuck with who you are and if who you are is a worthless piece of shit, then that's the life you're stuck living. I've tried the reset multiple times. 4 different cities. Different stages of life. It's all the same. The only constant is me and my shitty existence.
True i swear i wish had someones else life literally!!!
@@Xasu21 Hello, I feel the same way. I didn't eat for 2 days, even water, I am such a disgrace.😢😢
@@Xasu21 please keep fighting with depression, dont stop trying and believe in yourself. Stay strong
Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It's the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It's wanting friends, but hate socializing. It's wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. It's feeling everything at once then feeling paralyzingly numb.
Trisha Nicole but no one will ever understand unless they have it
@@niamhthrelfall3384 i agree that's why i'm afraid to tell it to my parents cause i know they're not gonna believe it and will call me "overreacting and emotional"
Perfectly explained. Exactly how I feel with my depression
This is destroying me. And I don't know what to do.
Spot on
Depression is like living in a body that is trying to fight for survival but with a mind that wants to die
Best comment ever
Oh wow this made me tear up
Wow its 3 in the morning this hit me hard
Can San more like wishes it was never born
hkhggj hjlfg Only cuz it’s off the internet. It’s literally everywhere lol
No one has ever explained depression better than this video
I agree, this video is a work of art.
I don’t recall the last time I was genuinely happy.
:(
sm😔😞😣
😞😞
Me too
Lola Vengeance me too...idk what happened but ever since 2016 ive just not been happy.
You know it’s gone bad again when you’re searching for these videos.
Jah
Yeah
yeah...
Now this hit
yh
It feels like homesickness, but you don't know where home is.
It's like:
Anywhere not at home: I want to go home.
Finally at home: I want to go./I don't want to be here./I want to go home.
Home is with the people I love (most of them are dead)
Karston Bell shitt man im so sorry pls stay strong i will pray for you ❤️
Maria Torossian my bed
The "home" you're pertaining to when you where child now it ending up "where's home?"
"What's it like being depressed? "
It feels like, ... Like you don't remember what better feels like
the hardest thing on having depression is wanting to die but being afraid of death
Queen Ashley Aguila
Yeah it’s painful but that just means we won the battle yet again fuck depression it’s not taking over my life
Why these feelings come to some people , why others not ???? They feel so happy ! there is sth going on in here ,we should find out ? we must use our mind ,think think
youcef baba
Endomorphins
There are many reasons depression can be caused but as well there are many treatments
(Excersize, supplements, lifestyle change, setting goals etc...)
Watch the Ted talk on depression it’s a white doctor who specializes in depression
Ya
Queen Ashley Aguila its having to live with the same mind set every day and night. It gets tiring
“I like being alone because when I’m with others I feel lonely”
Literally exactly how I feel I’m 13 and I have drank for the past 4 days it just makes me forget and I can’t stop
Me too -_____-
Haha so true...even I sometimes like to attend the crowd..i'd love to see people..but yeah,,,I am.just standing there quietly...and IDGF. like I must pass this event, as passing by a level in a video game.
Same
We all one team I feel lonely since young age. I don’t have actual real friend
What people think I have: 100% Sadness
What I actually have...: 20% Guilt, 15% Anxiety, 15% Tiredness, 20% Lost, 30% Worthless
😢
Please try Bach flower remedy , Rescue
Read my book "How dare you make me sad" Kishore Asrani
I hope we can talk 😔
Mc Lenonade you can call me on +919341210651on whatsap
@@kishoreasrani whats your book about and where can I find it
When I was a teenager and I didn’t know I was depressed I described my depression as a big dark cloud following me everywhere. I said it doesn’t always rain but the cloud is always there.
This is exactly what I feel, but I couldn't find the right words. Thank you. I will say this when anyone asks me
Mine is an ocean of sadness which has constant moving waves and occationally tsunamis hit you out of nowhere
It's a bottomless pit which I have failed to fill
A girl liked me when in was younger and I said are you joking
Exactly
depression is like drowning, but everyone on the outside is yelling at you to just breathe
If you're drowning, then gather all your efforts to swim out of the water
@@28_savage67 And when you swim at least near the surface, people will see you and certainly help you
hi ! 💅 you are amazing
at least 10 people love you, don’t leave
• Starri Kitty • thanks for the kind encouragement
I heard that quote!: im sorry for people who have Depression
“The worst part about having a mental illness is people expect you to behave as if you don't.” - Joker, 2019. Never related so much to a movie quote.
I hope you are ok, I love you
I literally cried in my inside, in that part of the movie, because I have mental illness and never related so much to a movie quote... :(
@@yaelleon3572 hello my friend If you want to share with me I could be there for you anytime I can hear all you have to say I was really bad, feeling so sick sometime ago But I got over it and now it's the past. If you want to write me here or FB or WhatsApp or wherever.
@X S you too my friend
Yes, that's so true
So many years of education yet nobody taught us how to love ourselves
Everybody loves themselves
@@butterbread566 I don't believe that
@@butterbread566 so why did you try to kill yourself? Because you couldn't stand this or that. Because things were to tough for you. Because you thought it'd be the easiest way for you. See? What we think of when we consider suicide is just ourselves. It's probably the most egoistic thing to do. That's self-love to me. Only caring about ourselves.
@@pt.is.education5747 well yeah, but others often don't show that they care about you. They only do when it's too late. Maybe you want someone to prevent you from suicide, but there isn't anyone, so you think that they wouldn't be too sad about your death
@@butterbread566 Don't suffer in silence, you are important to us.
As a person who is fighting clinical depression since past three years with anti depressants and therapy and an untreated relapse after medication, no one should ever go through this. I wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy. The word depression might sound normal to people who haven’t had it, but to us suffering from it, this mental illness is our home. A home we don’t wanna live in and a home that we can’t move out of. At first everything will seem very overwhelming, panicking and hyper, but slowly if it becomes persistent everything feels numb, silent, lonely and unbearable. We want to die and be free from it but we really can’t, so we become bound to live with it. It sucks up all the emotions and happiness, leaving you with just numbness and suffocating thoughts. People often try to be positive, act happy and normal but inside they are crying, weeping, sad and lonely and desperately praying to god to feel better and live a normal life.
How you feeling today? :D
The worst part is when in the middle of the night you suddenly feels positive and decide the next morning you're gonna wake up and change everything. But then the next morning comes and you realize that nothing changed and you just wanna stay in bed where is safe
I'm so fucking tired of this cycle :(
It's like you hope that by the morning you would get magically cured, but you dont, and you can't do anything about it
This comment had me crying
:/
for me it's worse at nighttime, but it still lingers during the day
stay strong, friend
so true'
depression doesn't care if you have loving parents who are still together, depression doesn't care if you haven't been through trauma, depression doesn't care how good your life was.
sleepy oli God damnit I want to cry. I just don't understand how I got this when my life is perfect. I have a loving mom and dad. I had friends... Until I pushed them away. I have two sisters and a brother... But yet I'm still sad. I feel like it's my fault; like I'm being ungrateful or something. I'm surrounded by love, yet I'm not able to feel it because the darkness is just to much to fight the light.
Kittens RBAE depression is a terrible thing, and it's also stereotyped for people with traumatic childhoods or abusive relationships or bereavement. Which makes it harder to cope with if you aren't under that category because the only thing left to blame is yourself even if you've done no wrong
everything you just said actually applies to me so I'm the stereotype but whenever I talk to someone about it they ask me WHY I'm depressed like I know. Like, they expect a reason for everything and social anxiety too. The most annoying questions are "how did it start? why are you depressed/socially anxious?" It's like they want a reason so they can belittle your depression. If the reason isn't good enough (traumatic enough) they'll dismiss it and assume whatever they want about you. I hate humans. And one other thing is age. If you're a certain age, say a teenager, then they won't take you seriously at all. They'll just assume you're going through another phase. Including family btw. I hate this. I can't wait to die.
Depression is not a fucking entity, stop feeding it like one.
Fujoshi Chan
I totally agree. Ive been depressed for years now but i couldnt find how it started or what the cause. It's just something that suddenly occurs in me. Ive backed away from friends and even isolated myself from family members. My mom ofc noticed it and tried confronted me for so many times but i just couldnt know how to explain because i know she'll demand such reasons. And when i finally wanted to say something and couldnt give any reasons, she just couldnt understand and stared at me like im a poor child, she said depression must have a cause. She blame my insomnia nights and sleep during days and says im lazy. She blame me because i couldnt find a job because i cant go out with this comfort zone, i cant socialite, i cant go on the outside world. All of that made an impression to my mom that im just a useless piece of shit, worthless person and lazy overreacting daughter. Ofc she wont say it to me, but i know she kind of think that way :(
I wanna be happy again
I'm so exhausted. feel like I'm repeating the same day over and over, same routine, same feelings, same meaningless drama. I'm so sick of it. I just want to feel alive and be happy but I'm constantly drained and everything feels so pointless. I just feel dead
You ever just forget your alive because your living a whole diffrent life in your head? The ammount of times I came up to the realization that my reality is the worse reality possible for me haunts me every night
هل تتكلم العربية ؟
هل عندك ضيق الصدر
كأنه جبل على صدرك
yes..
@@julioamador157 اهلا وسهلا
اذا نجحت في تطبيق هذا الاختبار , انت بنفسك ستعرف سبب هذه المشكلة , وعلى اساسها سيكون العلاج وبسيط لانك عرفت سبب المرض , ولن تحتاج لطبيب ولا تدفع فلوس
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1- تجلس عى كرس او باي طريقة تريحك - على السرير
2- المكان هدوء ليس فيه ازعاج او تلفزيون او موسيقى
3- ان تقرأ هذه الكلمات يعني تقرأ بقلبك ولا تحرك لسانك
هذه اهم نقاط
اللهم لك الحمد
كما ينبغي لجلال وجهك وعظيم سلطانك
اللهم لك الحمد
حمدا كثيرا طيبا مباركا
اللهم رب الارض والسماء - افتح لي ابواب السماء
اللهم رب الارض والسماء - افتح لي ابواب السماء
اللهم رب الارض والسماء - افتح لي ابواب الساء
اللهم اني مظلوم
اللهم اني مهموم
اللهم اني مغموم
اللهم اني محسود
اللهم اني محسود
حسبنا الله على من ظلمني
حسبنا الله على من آذاني
حسبنا الله على من أمرضني
حسبنا الله على من حسدني
حسبنا الله على من سحرني
حسبنا الله على من ضيق صدري - وسبب لي هماً وغماً وكآبة
اللهم أنت حسبي ونعم الوكيل
حسبنا الله على كل شيطان وشيطانة
حسبنا الله على كل مارد وماردة
حسبنا الله على من تعاون مع الحسده
حسبنا الله على من تعاون مع السحره
اللهم أنت حسبي ونعم الوكيل
Sameeee
Who else keeps coming back to this video from time to time ?
2017 till this moment
When your mom thinks you’re lazy but you’re depressed...
I can very much relate to that
Some kids pretend to be depressed but they are just sad
@@cat1800 then, you haven't been through depression yet, mate
Rosa Old did i say that i’ve been through depression like wtf
@@cat1800 no you haven't i know, but don't you dare say that people just act fucking depressed, because no. They don't. They have a lot of bad stuff going on. They're not simply sad. They may not eat or sleep, and they may commit suicide or self harm. Is someone who committed suicide, simply sad?
The answer is No. So before you say something like that, think better about what people may be going through and if you still dissagee then you are welcome to leave.
I think we all have a friend who likes to say:
"What are you complaining about? It's not like your life is so hard"
Ella L. Yeah, I hate when they are like that
Maby you'll prefer mine. "Life is excactly as hard as it should be"
Thing is, I am that guy to myself
Everytime I say "I wanna end it" or "I'm gonna end it later in life if i become a nobody" In my head all I say is "why do u think like this, your life isn't that difficult, your only 16".
and I'll just start to cry but I'll just go somewhere where nobody can see me and I'll just wipe the tears off and pretend everything's fine.
I don't have this friend but I have my older brother
Ella L.
My own sister does this
Depression....Its like wanting to live but at the same time wishing to die every second.......
thats me
S*** if that true then I do have Depression
@@theeclipse6912 Don't self diagnose please.
It's now 2023 and this video still makes sense to me. Sad generation with happy insta stories :/
Get off social media first of all. No wonder you’re depressed. People purposely try to act like their lives are all perfect and happy on those apps. It’s all for the likes. Nothing on instagram is realistic. It’s all fake.
“The things that used to bring you joy..are now worthless.” wow, that hit hard..
Yeap
Very true!!
since childhood I loved the game of chess, now it's like "it's just trapping a stupid king inside a corner of the board and giving it checkmate, seen it countless times, why bother."
I'm just on my phone all the time
It's because online I feel a lot more pleasure and have ibfs that I trust and feel like another person online idk
Depression is like drowning and not having the energy to swim back up.
And everyone is yelling at you just to breath
@MRSpurpule true but you know in the end you will get back up to the surface :)💖
Same 😥😭😭😭
@Krystiana wodkowska facts
@@jihaditani3721 i dont think so🙂
You know the feeling you get after you’ve been crying for hours?
Just sitting there emotionless?
New mental health vlogger here if interested. Hope you have a great day :)
Yes
when you cry so much... just laying there, on the bathroom floor, curled up into a ball, absolutely empty. Nothing ever matters at that point.
Not your pet, your parents, your friends. Nobody.
When you find it hard to cry but you can feel the emotion that's causing it inside you. Or when you feel like you're the one at fault for it. Or when you have no reason to feel depressed but it's just there. Or when you finally start crying you start to give yourself crap over "being a pity party, attention seeker" when in reality you know you're hurting but your mind makes it think you're not. Or when you're trying to write a comment like this and tell yourself that you're lying about how you feel to assure yourself that you're not depressed and that you are weak. Or when you lose trust in yourself because your depression believes you lie about how you feel. That you shouldn't cry because of yourself. That other people have it worse, yet you tell yourself that it is okay to cry and that regardless it's okay to feel hurt even if something minor caused you to feel that way. But your brain never listens, it only believes what the depression says, not you.
thats how ive felt for years. i cant even cry anymore
its been 7 years since this video came out, and i still feel the same
Same
try to see a therapist!!💕
same and its getting worse every yr
1. your gut microbiome has a fundemental role for your mental state
chances are, you have sufferered from a bacterial infection
to combat this, go carnivore to starve thee bacteria from energy (carbs)
you should feel better in 2 weeks
2. testosterone also plays a major role with dopamine release (the hormone responsible for pleeasure and motivation)
so increase in testosterone will increase dopamine
to increase testosterone:
-don't eat shit
-lift heavy shit
-literaly go outside (the goal is sunlight exposure, its still fine if the weather is ass)
-hang out with the opposite gender (or the one that you consider hot)
-practice semen retention
-be more competitive
-prevent fear from controlling your actions, let ur balls hang low and be more risk taking
-deep breathing excercies (to lower stress)
fun fact: Taking anti depressant will make you suffer from erectile dysfunction. But the same companies are also making viagra, their "cure" for erectile dysfunction.
3. Lack off motivation and pleasure is a lack of dopamine/seratonine. The way these hormones works is that they have to fluctuate. When having a lot of pleasure, dopamine levels will rise, but then have to fall below baseline which will make you feel like shit. To combat that, deliberitly choose to feel like shit so that your body will have no choice but to kick back your dopamine levels above baseline.
4. Practice gratitude. This is fundemental. Bring a paper & pen and write down 10 things ur gratefull for per day. While doing this ur gonna notice that you automatically feel slightly better. If you do this every day you will condition your mind to always have gratitude
5. Your thoughts control your emotions. lemme explain
When you think about that exam ur gonna have tomorrow you feel stressed
When you think about that person, your body feels warm
When you think about bringing a lemon, slicing that lemon, smelling that lemon, and lick on that piece of lemon, your mouth will start to drool.
6. Nothing feels better than seeing the physical manifestation of your hard work. Speaking from experience.
lets be straight.
ur life is not shit because u have depression, u have depression because ur life is shit
DO NOT LISTEN TO ANYONE WHO TELLS YOU OTHERWISE. THEY ARE WEAK PEOPLE WHO WANT TO FEEL SORRY FOR THEIR LAZINESS WAKE UP THE MATRIX IS REAL WAKEE UP
@@niggyhuru5388 I felt as if you have a background in depression, I need your help. I have depression for three years, and I follow up with a psychiatrist. Depression completely affected my studies. I feel that my life has stopped. I have no desire for anything in life. Mama and Papa are the reason for my illness How can I get rid of all that and not let it affect my future completely How can I live a normal life
The reason why I keep my feelings to myself is because I cant explain them
KookieKook same
The reason i keep my feelings to my slef is bc i can only understand my slef n no one els😞
KookieKook and when someone asks me what’s wrong sometimes i just burst into tears because i dunno how to explain how i’m feeling
yup
And no one could understand you they think you exaggerate about things you feel
"The saddest people are the kindest, because they know what they're going through, and they don't want anyone else to feel the same way."
Thruth
True
Kaylan A. No
What about misery loves companies
Or are there just vulnerable? That they don't care if anyone uses them or not.
People in comments understand better than my psychologist
juste une personne My psychiatric also doesn’t understand the way people in the comments do
talk to thm ..talk to anyone who understands you...you can talk to me as well i will not judge you n also i dont know you
yeah bcz drs have not been through this all ..thy just knw the taught stuff
Same
because many have experienced it
Watching this 7 years after my depression, to be honest idk how it makes me feel, but i do remember perfectly how this video helped me out with the bad emotions that i used to have. Videos like these are absolutely necessary. I thanked you 7 years ago, and i thank you now, again; Thank you so much Kat.
How u got cured lady?
She didn't have depression
i hate that depression is making me forget all of my life. i can’t remember one thing vividly other than traumas.
If i am honest, i do not remember even one day of highschool
Please get some professional help :(
sakura -,- same, at this point i don’t even remember my entire life
Ahmed Zain i asked my parents a lot of times but they don’t believe in mental illnesses, so i won’t be able to go to one until i’m independent from them
@@tsunchina3040 how old are you? If you don't mind
Depression is like constantly wanting to go home even though you're already there
the gulf of endless misery
One of the best comments! I never thought about it before but it's just how it is! Shortest way ever to describe depresión!
To me heaven is home, probably why I want to just die already :\
❤️
wow thats poetic
When you get home and can stop being “the funny guy” .......that’s me
It’s crazy how the funny people in life are the ones who are really depressed. Ironic huh. U portray happiness coz u can’t feel it urself. It’s sad. I hate it, not as much as my sudden depression moments that hid me outta nowhere. But it’s up there. It’s like there’s 2 versions of u that ur living. The socially accepted version, the one u wanna be. And the one u really are when ur home / alone.
DualNexus yeah I’m also an extrovert so when I feel depressed people are angry because I’m supposed to brighten up their day
Okay Peter Griffin
We always have that mascara we put on in front of others, but when we're finally alone, no one knows the pain we have to face.
That's me
7 years ago this video became my comfort. I had no one. Nobody ever understood the hell I was in. This video together with a few others became my go to when the voices got a little too loud than they usually were. It was nice to feel validated, to feel seen, and somehow understood, even just for a few minutes. Thank you for this Kat. I'm in a far better place now, and this is still my go to when the blues knocks on my door from time to time.
ps. I asked for help. As a matter of fact, I fought for my right to get the help I desperately needed.
As a depressive person, I don't want happiness at all. I just want some *peace of mind.*
i dont remember what it feels like to be happy. positive emotions have gone as if they had been never existed. and peace can turn into nothing that is suffer
i just want to feel ok
Me too
Get a cat
Me too
The hard part is waking up and having to go through life again.
yep. feels embarrassing [to ourselves], even.
@@KafinSulthan yes, I feel that
The absolute worst
The hardest
Yes
I'm sitting in my room in the dark crying because this is all me. I am suffering and alone.. I am so tired.
+Anastasia Brooks me too
*hugs* me too
me too
+Anastasia Brooks I can't even cry.
Me too
This is exactly how I feel. I've been suffering like this for months now... I wish everyone else who suffers this the best.
I want to be happy again
i never felt happy ;_;
Max Robert I'm so great right now! thanks for your comment :)
Markus IP [6B] :( Do something new, find live and everything will be change
Farah Sarquiz...Me too
Farah Sarquiz me too
my parents will say “we understand how you feel.” but the next day get mad at me for not being happy.
my mom tries to force me to be happy when i look sad. then she gets mad at me when i don't.
I feel you
keep you head up
"we understand how you feel" is clearly a lie. they don't take your mental health seriously
My family doesn't understand. I was never a person to smile a lot even when I was very happy and I was attacked a lot because that. Like imagine attacking a person for not showing their teeth every 5 seconds... A few years ago, I started smiling more and those people think I'm happier. The truth is: I've never been so depressed and insecure in my life.
People give too much importance to what you show to the world, instead of caring for emotions. If I ever have kids I won't let them go through what I had to go through.
i feel like i should be crying but i can’t
I feel you
Joelle Georgi ❤️
same..i feel numb everytime
Same here
When I stopped medication I managed to cry
I've been struggling with heavy suicidality for almost a decade now, and whenever I get really close to an attempt and I feel I cannot reach out to anyone, I come back to this video and it gives me a few more days. I don't think I've met anyone that can describe the self destruction aspect so perfectly.
Thank you.
You are beautiful and brave for resisting and holding on to hope
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I know that it can feel this way but please try to keep on finding people that you can reach out to there are many people like you who feel the same way
Maggie I pray you will heal.
"People cry not because they are weak but because they've been strong for too long"
You made me cry. This is so relatable.
Wow you've been watching anime That's a quote from Fairy Tail. But of course you knew that....... :/
@@XXX-hc9cd yeah❤
😭🙋♂️💔
Me I can't cry I don't know whyyy!!!
having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. Its like we're drowning and no one notice. Its like we're screaming but no one hears.
its hard when depression makes me want to sleep all the time so i dont have to be with my thoughts but my anxiety makes me scared of going to sleep
Maybe u should stop having this constant desire to have people care about you and your problems. Stop wanting validation from people. Take care of yourself because nobody will truly ever take care of you like you would want them to.
I have autism , depression , anxiety and adhd it’s for sure not easy to cope with especially living with my parents who don’t understand me luckily I will be able to move out soon and try my best to get the help I need
listen to me, the most important relationship you must care of and feel, is the one with yourself. Take care of yourself, and it's actually an occasion to delete fake people who pretend to be around. Dealing with being loneley is a strength.
Yup
Depression is like having a mind that tries to die with a body that tries to survive.
I relate so much to this, my mind just constantly gravitates to violent and graphic suicides but my body won’t let me do it.
It’s so command frustrating
*confusing and frustrating* not command 😒
@@mandlin4602 YES
Have you ever thought about your goal in life, why we were created, I advise you to read the Qur'an, believe me you will find many answers in it, and understand life correctly.
@@mandlin4602 same thoughts
I see a therapist now and I find it so hard to even explain what I'm feeling. I've been alone now for 5 years and its tough to keep fighting. This is the most accurate speech I've come across!!
When everyone thinks you’re boring but your depressed..
or when everyone thinks you're pretty funny but you use sarcasm to act like you're ok
@Giadinaa true
Yeah this is exactly why i stopped going out with my friends
I just don't want to spread my negative energy on them
@@RespirOrganico omg this is the one
Honestly it's been years I have felt that everyone thinks I'm boring. I realised I used to get triggered and say something like "friendships are useless" they probably thought I have some issues and I really got private after that. Since then Im always concerned whenever I meet people and ask them or myself, am I boring? Idk why I do that maybe I'm insecure 😔
When I was a little kid and heard of suicide I couldn't come up with a reason for anyone (including me) to do it. I'm sad to say it but now I can make a list. The brain works in mysterious ways. I actually have a lot to live for but sometimes I just feel like life is too much.
+Johanna Alnesjö Same
Agreed, curious why you personally are depressed. I like to compare my reasons with others.
true
Same... I remember when I was younger when somebody threw himself in front of a train (which happens quite often here) I never understood how someone could do that. Now a couple days ago I was walking next to the rails at a train station and thought that everything would be so much easier if I just fell on them-.-
Alpha Dog I know what you mean
Depressed people are not weak. They are the strongest people. They fight more than anyone else and fall more than anyone else but still decide to get up. Depression is a very deep battle inside a human being and is not fixed by blaming them for being depressed. Love them no matter what they are going through ,embrace them when they are frustrated for no reason and don't give up on them.
F Ala made me cry because its so true:(
anna batees hope for the best ❤... best u can do
anna batees if u need to talk give me ur Instagram account ❤
Princess Fet / i thank you so much for that paragraph. people who don't have depression think its the easiest thing ever and that we are weak people, but we're not. we are the strongest people.
Princess Fet i wish everyone would think the same way..
It hurts how much i relate to this video.. Vicious cycle of depressing episodes sometimes drains you out to the extent where you cant do anything anymore..
Yeah I feel numb and I feel like a failure
Depression is like having an abusive relationship with yourself.
@@rzangyz3672 bro what happened to u
So true..
Idk man, all of you people think we live in fairytales like cinderella, like we supposed to be forever happily ever after,...why don't you go build something, cook m3th, go to medschool, cut down weight to 50kgs, learn to play drums, whatever inspires & floats your boat, the world is yours, grow some fvcking balls & stick to a masterplan, & then you'll see what i mean
Fact 💔😢
But what if everything point that is made to myself, For example, is right though?
"why are you depressed?"
"be grateful"
"other people had it worst"
and i just sit there and listen and i don't even try to explain anymore because they will never understand. i'm strong but i'm so damn tired too.
@Commutato in Perpetuum thank you so much
Especially parents.. They say you have everything why are you depressed??? I mean I don’t know.
I have the same issue,23 student/work as a trainer(part time) - livestreamer. Monthly income-10k on a badmonth,i have my parents with me,healthy. Im terribly depressed but i put on that disgusting mask everyday,give people motivation/evergy/joy when i,myself have none of it. Cant say anything,cant complain when i open my mouth they are all like “ what are you talking about you have money health looks future everything! Why are u complaining?” Only if knew the answer,the reason. I cant leave my bed for the past 5 days all the responsibilities,clients. The end is coming for me
Commutato in Perpetuum i feel like im not strong enough for everyday life and challenges even though i have that “lets get it” persona. Could be pressure also i dont know,all i know is im on the edge and noone knows.
Hi lisa
I hate when people ask "why are you depressed you have a good life" 😑
i relate to this
That question is annoying. They don't understand what we go through daily.
Omalleykile 998 what do you go through tho?
I can relate to this so badly and it is awful. It makes us feel miserable and even more lonely. I can't go on this way, it hurts to get by. There are no words to describe it.
Yeah I hate how no one can understand and how everyone just thinks getting out of this is so easy
I used to watch this when I was 18. All my childhood trauma didn’t let me be happy, I would cry every day, every single night. I met my boyfriend, and he helped, but the most significant change in my life was my pet, my little exotic pet, my little black chicken, "Negra." She was so little, I took care of her, loved her, she grew so fast and made me happy, she gave emotions to my life and I was eager to wake up every day to feed her and spend time together, after four years there was no trace of my sadness. I loved her will all my heart. She passed away last year, and I couldn't stand it, I made a garden for her. I feel an enormous hole in my soul now that she is gone. My bf was the only person I trusted all these years, but he disappointed me so much in the most horrible way that he could. They both helped me to recover my soul. Now that they are gone, I feel lonely, but depression is not part of my life anymore. The only pure creature that could take it away was that little black hen I will always love from the button of my heart. I can't wait to join you someday, Negra.
I hate having on-again-off-again depression because just when you think things are finally getting better it all goes back to square 1 and its just an endless cycle of getting your hopes up then getting crushed
Braelyn Herbert Yep
I can relate
I feel ya... 😖
extremely right.... extreme bipolar depression squad :’)...
It gets harder every time too, the motivation to try and be happy just slowly goes away
the hardest part is when your friends and family ask if you're ok and you give your best fake smile and answer: I'm great :D
Same
Eduardo Farías Am the same here.I put on a happy front when in fact am really unhappy inside😢
Dunno, but if that friend does not reach out to you as you pull away, I dont thinks he would be a "real" friend. But that's just me.
Eduardo Farías 2 hours ago I went into bed and my mom came to see me and there were tears in my eyes and she asked if I was ok and I said yes because I’m scared, lost, afraid and I made such a fake smile and then just bring out my tears. I am still awake. I’m supposed to be sleeping. I can’t stop crying.
Mothers always understand us, it's time for you to talk with her, sweety.
“We all say that we want to die, when really we just want to start living.”
卩尺ㄖㄒ乇ㄩ丂 no I just want a reason to live
true that's what i want but my crappy life won't get damn better, if i kept living in this bullsh!t life, i'll end it then
@@karstonbell3608 life's got no meaning and it'll never have one, our existence is meaningless. You don't actually want a reason to live. What's crippling us is that we are even searching for this meaning in the first place. The problem is not that there is no meaning. Just live, love, enjoy the moment. Nothing matters, there is no reason. Just have fun
Depression is like an endless tunnel you keep walking and walking in day and night without rest. You get more and more tired, your steps heavier and heavier. All your hear is the lonely echo of them. The exit seems unreachable, no matter how hard you try. And spending so much time in the dark already, your eyes become weak and blind, failing to even see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore.
i feel like all eyes are watching me, counting my mistakes. they will laugh at whatever i do until i die.
@hiii hiii yeah. and that sort of led into on-and-off depression..
People don't remember your mistakes and embarassing mishaps. They remember the great stuff about you. Don't worry.
@@ftrctyvreycertcewtcwrgcwef6000 aww thankyouu❤
Let them watch it won't take away you're beautiful heart you're message made me so sad you're an amazing 💕
@@keiron.4612 thankyou for your support😇..i hope you can go through all of your problems in life too, no matter what happens🖤.
Reasons I live:
• I was born.
• I haven't died yet.
Wow. Seems like two little sentences but it is a whole book for people like us.
Dying isn't cool. Don't die.
@@Laiser But life also not cool, should I live? Maybe death isn't cool, or isn't the sollution, but what if it's better than live yoir life without happiness or just feeling anything exept pain, numb and nothing
currently crying my eyes out bc ur right 😀
@@reka5924 thing is that’s not your life. it’s your life right now, but this is just a temporary stage of your life. depression makes you short-sighted when in actuality things DO get better because that is the literal nature of life. absolutely nothing is permanent. no matter how bad it feels, no matter how long it’s gone on, it ends. you will come through the other side of it and be so glad you did. it will all just be a memory. you can’t throw away all life has waiting for you on temporary pain. stay strong dude.
I'm tired of pretending I'm happy when i'm actually not
maria angelica tapia me too .. but unfortunately nobody understand it so we have to
keep holding on, one day this new generation will understand and we will get the help and awareness for mental illnesses we need. I know we have to fake a smile sometimes and I’m so sorry about it, but keep fighting through it and try your best to y’all through it with your family and friends. And always remember You are loved❤️
So, don't prentend .Be happy , live your happy life !
I must have ALZHEIMER
Cause I don't remember fucking asking
Just don’t .. I show people how I feel and i dont care about them
The worst thing is you can't ask for help your family and friends already having their own struggles ... and if you cried infront of them they will think you're joking...
There hasn't been a single night that I haven't wished that tomorrow wouldn't exist when I sleep. Always wishing that this life was a dream and I could wake up
Kamyab Rezaee I know that feeling too. I'm sorry that you have to experience that. I know how the hopelessness can eat you alive. I hope you are able to find some solace, whether it's through videos like this, music, friends, family...anything.
Take care of yourself.
Thanks, I never really say these things and pretend like nothing is wrong cause I know everyone has problems of their own and whenever someone tells me how they feel about being depressed and sad I just pretend like mine doesn't exist
Kamyab Rezaee I'm sorry ... If you want to talk.. i'm here!
Mechteld Linders thanks for caring and showing that you care. I lack motivation some times,I get really sad that I don't care if I don't smile.but I'll just do as I've been doing in these years
I have that feeling all the time. It's so exhausting ... Especially because I always try to think on ways to improve the world, and then come thoughts like "Most people don't care about that" "Why do you even bother about that?" Everything feels so difficult and impossible.
But, hey! At least I have positive thoughts about saving the world. Or make people happy .... I don't know, things like that always make me think "I have to keep fighting. Maybe in the future I feel better."
I was going to write a completely different comment. I do not know why I ended up talking about this!
If you need someone to talk, I'm here. Or on twitter (it's very easy to find me). I also talk to many people through video games, but I have no idea if you are interested in those things.
Take care man!
i just hate when people say 'we all have our bad days don't be sad' it's just so annoying
Or instead of asking "why are you sad" they ask "Why are you mad"😣
Or saying why are you being lazy (because you just want to be in bed all day and cry and clear your thoughts) when they could ask it's not that i'd open up to them but maybe in time if there patient and listen whenever they say these things it just motivates you to mope in bed more I really hate my life.
@@denyalea7735 When they say don't be sad they mean be depressed but don't let it get in the way of stuff. This a cold world. Keep living it. No one is happy 100% of the time.
@@noredjoaiga7355 why are sad tho?
I have no reason i just feel nothing
They just can’t understand what depression is.
im hiding my depression from my whole family.
im acting like a whole smiley person..
when..
im just a worthless hopeless person inside.
Same
Hi
Just don't die plz... Get help...
@Abigail Ruiz family should know there is a thing called mental health. Bro get help by therapist. There are online therapist also. I'm praying for u
@Abigail Ruiz u have to tell. Cuz, u r not seeking attention. U need help. And u r doing it for urself
“A sudden positive upsurge” hits deep.. Hope I don’t get that feel again. Ever!
I wish I could talk to my childhood self. I feel like it'd be interesting to see how I used to look at the world when I was happier.
If you wanna talk to someone I'm just here. Don't do anything you shouldn't do cause remember, this world is beautiful cause you're here.
@@jaqenhghar3301 Hello...I wanna ask something...I'm 10 year old kid...I call me in bad words in my head..I fake smile When somebody asks me:Are you okay? I just say:I'm okay just tired... But i wanna say:Yes i'm ok just tired of living.. I fake smile...Am i depressed?
@@minty3438 Hey. I'm just a teen, I'm not a professional. I'm just gonna tell you something about what you said for your negative mind towards yourself. I also do that, saying bad words to myself, cause i have a low esteem. You should talk to your family or a teacher. Also please don't let anyone or anything affect your thoughts. And it's okay to not always smile. The fake smile is bad. Just be you!
@@fbiopenup5345 Thankyou! I hope you stay strong!! I lately looked at life in different perspective,I love myself now!I love life,i hope you can feel the same
@@minty3438 I'm so glad for you! You are very young you should enjoy life! ❤️
people care about me, but my mind is telling me they don't.
Maybe what you need is to show affection to those people, hug your loved ones, maybe they also feel alone.
hi ! 💅 you are amazing
at least 10 people love you, don’t leave
I feel like that everyday when im around my family and friends
This is exactly how I'm feeling rn but I'm not seeing the they do care part yet
We struggle with the same thing.
"why would you keep on trying if nothing makes you happy anyway" this hit me hard
melinda biba *nods
^ how I feel right now
Me almost all my life
Yes
That's the statement I've used a lot before I even knew what depression was. I've been trying to explain to my parents because they call me lazy. I feel like doing nothing and they make me even sadder.
I’m not sure how she had the energy and desire to do sit-ups, get dressed, walk out the door, go to work, etc as a depressed person?! I’m impressed.
I agree. I don't really get these videos
I experienced both types of depression. Its like being very aware of consequences so you partake in life anyways, while feeling completely hopeless and numb on the inside. Doing things you have to do so you dont wither away. Depression can look happy and put together on the outside. But on the inside its empty and you wonder how long u can keep it up before you try to end it.
@@kimberlyna13 that's literally me rn
i use running just to feel something and music to quiet my thoughts
depression is like wanting to go to bed and never waking up
I wish that could happen because I'm basically invisible anyway
Waking up to another day is so painful
Exactly...
Yupss it's true....when i was wakeup i think why why am i wakeup shit??
Depression IS wanting to go to bed and never waking up
the hardest part, hearing people whisper "what's wrong with her" when you have an episode
Ludya Kesturi or Person: "Like *why* are you cryin" Me: trys to explain why Person: **never talks to you again**
Fridaynight happened to me. and it was my bestest friend since childhood.
Fridaynight not the best definitely. but she was my closest for a loooong time
Ludya Kesturi yeah it's just my situation...in life
Ludya Kesturi هلو أنا راح انتحر ساعدوني أرجوكم
With depression I feel like I’m never satisfied in life . Like nothing I do excites me or makes me happy , I’m just going through the motions of everyday life like a zombie . The anxiety sucks but depression just kills me
I feel ya
☹️ do you have people who really are there for you ?
Justafriendofyou X no not anymore 😔
@@justafriendofyoux1435 no I don't anyway. I'm here on my own tryna to fix everything. Everyone else just says I'm doing it for attention. Am I fuck.
abandoned explorer's yeah that’s what they think but I know it’s not I was thinking about starting a friend group on Instagram for people who feel lonley they can share all their problems en motivate each other there
"Things that make your friends excited leave you indifferent and you become aware of the huge gap that lies between you."
This couldn't be worded more accurately. I'm at the stage where my friends tell me about all the exciting things they're gonna do and ask me to come and have fun with them. But I feel I can't be the same around them anymore - I can't even pretend to be excited. They have moved forwarded while I stayed still, and it's too late to catch up now.
“You're ashamed of everything you've done and everything you haven't.“
This one is deep...
Definitely!!!!
Then I would say "Tomorrow is another day to start over."
Now I would say "Can I just not wake up?"
blurryface girl ok
Your parents made you be grateful for your life
I always say tomorrow i will change.
Wake up early,start doing chores,go out with friends and more.But the next day i wake up..i feel like sh*t,i just wanna stay in bed and never get up.
@@dexterblockerson4662 well, no. they never asked to be born.
ok boomer
"Real Depression is When You stop loving the Things You Love"
So true....
Is this real?
But I still love my mum
@@hotcat279 it's not about your mum , it's about song that you loved or movies or anything you love to do. You don't enjoyed these anymore.
I cant even enjoy my music anymore
Depression is living in a body that wants to die. It’s having a soul with no feeling, it’s being numb to life and faking happiness so those around you don’t have to pry and tell you what’s wrong with you.
Depression is hard...
Sometimes when I say "I'm fine"
I would wish someone would say "tell me the truth... " but it doesnt happen...
That hit me real hard
bro ..we can talk ... whatever problem it has ...we will solutions..dont loose hope ...i am with you ... actually i am going through the same issue
the worst feeling is when they don’t even ask you how you are
this really speaks to me...
Tell me the truth
someone once said: 'I miss wanting to be awake'. that spoke to me
Budi jaka 😀💪
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To everyone in the comments,
“I hope one day you fall in love with being alive.”
Jhope is my hope I love you
Depression doesn't know what hope is.
thanks for your wishes
that’ll never happen lmao
Some things aren't possible
I've been there for a moment. Depression isn't just sadness, and it's only when you're in it that you understand what it is truly. Depression, thankfully isn't my main problem. I struggle a lot with anxiety, which can sometimes lead to depression. Take care of you ❤️ if there's a thing I've learned is that nothing is more important than your health.