There's a true horror in this. He's aware of his condition in a perverse way, he knows that he can't remember anything and is stuck in this realm with no thought, memory or dream.
Does that mean he "recalls" his condition? How does he manage to know what he doesn't know, or even his limitations? What stops him from walking out the door every 7 minutes, to look for the company he feels he never has? What a mystifyingly suspended existence, or non-existence. I'm glad for him that he's loved, and seems not to lose sight of that somehow. If he can hold on to his music, and also the fundamentals ie habits of daily living, it's too bad that his brain cannot be retrained to build a life around his overwhelming state of perpetual forgetfulness, or lack of remembering, or in spite of it, instinctively perhaps even. That might take specialized therapy, yet I got the feeling that the doctors gave up, and no-one else bothered to take over. That's a shame that the experts seem to have forgotten about him, and have resigned him to that room with a bed, banished to his ever rewritten diaries, and a piano that could hold keys to his neuroplasticity or at least psychologically so, not merely the keys he plays on it. Wishing them all well, whether they know it or not.
The diary entries where he keeps writing "I'm awake for the first time" is one of the most disturbing and horrific things I've ever seen. What a tragic and cruel existence, especially for someone who was so bright and talented. I could never make the choice for Clyde, but I would personally much rather be dead than have that reality.
Weird how there's some amount of awareness of being this way, especially since his rage has gone away and he seems calm about the situation tells me some part of his brain has been learning. Also the way he answers questions the same way, "you're the first human being I've seen", and "there's no difference between day and night"
I noticed that too, I also noticed when people tell him something he excepts it as true without question as if he has learned to understand on some level what has happened to him.
@@chris1275cc Right? Like, he very clearly even now is still an extremely bright individual even without memories. If he truly never created any new memories whatsoever, I imagine he'd still be in that initial state of panic that he was in those first few years. He's also obviously not concerned or surprised to learn that so much time has passed and that he's now an old man, or that his wife and children are now old. He does not consciously remember, but I think the other parts of his brain must have started remembering important things in a sort of 'muscle memory' sort of way. He also obviously hasn't entirely forgotten how to play music, nor what notes to play next, so I start to wonder if maybe the parts of his brain where he ingrained that 'muscle memory' effect, like music in his brain, remembers subconsciously, and plays a calming song he likes in the background to let him know that he doesn't need to rage or panic. Like the songs he hears as auditory hallucinations are guiding him along and guiding his motions, like the subconscious movements of keys on a keyboard as he plays.
@@FadeRadio1 EXACTLY it's almost like his brain still makes the memories but he can only access them on a deep subconscious level or something. I mean imagine what you would do if someone you did not "know" walked into your house uninvited! My fight or flight would kick in immediately and any stranger in my house better hope I'm closer to an exit than my knife block or 💀💀💀
@@chris1275cc you are right, the hippocampus is dealing with declarative memory (facts,events) and due to damage he is unable to form short-term memories, while other parts of the brain still produce non-declarative(procedural) memories, which are learnt in time and can't be explained in words (e.g skills, or in his example, the state of mind of 'knowing' he is ill) but having no memory of learning
He knows how to dress and wash himself. He just can't remember getting to that stage in the process but still continues because he remembers what to do from before his illness. Same with playing the piano. He knows the music but every 7 seconds his mind goes blank again but he no longer questions it and continues playing.
His wife is very intelligent and he is lucky to have her. She speaks as if she herself is a doctor on the matter. Considering how long it has gone on and been a part of her life, she may as well be a doctor on the matter.
What's incredible is he's essentially a time traveler. The 20 years since the virus has gone by in an instant, and what he says about death is entirely correct. To everyone else, he survived the virus, but to him it actually killed him because he will have no recollection from getting sick, to his death. But couldn't that be said for all of us? We don't get to take our memories with us, just like him.
I found what he said about death to be interesting and I agree with your comment. Watching my father decline into dementia made this both depressing but also gave a possible insight into what my dad was experiencing but unable to convey.
@@The_washing_board He only talks about death because he doesn't understand that he is conscious all the time but can remember nothing. It's a pity he can't realise that - it would I think be less painful for him.
When his son said that the “intellectual colossus” that was his father had so little left, my heart broke for him and his siblings. This story has touched me deeply.
His emotions when she tells him about the consert that was played to 5 countries. His love for his music is in his feelings you can see when he gets emotional but he doesnt remember is so sad 😥
I can't thank you enough for producing this follow up of Clive. I still have the VHS copy of the episode of the PBS series The Mind from 30+ years ago, which first highlighted his story. It's remarkable how his outbursts of anger and frustration have subsided, considering his memory has had no improvement. I remember thinking what a smart, eloquent and lovely "saint" his wife was; clearly she still is. I was moved to tears hearing how she left him, but couldn't stay away because her love of Clive was so deep, so genuine. It's such a sad, tragic story but teaches us all that every moment of our lives is precious.
He lives in an almost paradoxical reality... His life "happens", but not to him. Every moment he experiences happened to someone else. He really doesn't experience anything at all. He knows it, but he can't know anything ever, and never has. He is alone, even with company. He is the most interesting dead person alive. He's a living version of a dream you can't remember having. It seemed like it would be a nightmare to be him at first. But I am not so sure now. It's like saying a nightmare you have no memory of was scary.
The absolute devotion and incredible understanding of his wife is beautiful and heartwrenching. It's a stark reminder of how incredibly fortunate I am to have the love of my life be healthy and with me in body, mind, and heart.
That moment where he breaks down crying in the church while his wife is telling him the story and how good a conductor he was is genuinely one of the most beautiful and sad things I've ever seen.
What a wonderful man. Even if everything is always new to him multiple times daily. He is at a point where it isn't an emergency or crisis. Perhaps that is a small improvement since 1985. His personality is quite sweet.
It seems like that. We see him in 1985, he was upset and all. In this documentary, he is calm, accepted his condition, and accepts that things happen that he didn't remember. It's weird, he just accepts his condition, living in a care home, without really knowing stuff..
It makes me so sad that he doesn't really remember ANYTHING at all, be he knows he should. There is still something in his brain telling him that he should remember, but he just can't. He even knows he's ill, he knows that he wont remember, and he's trying to fight that, but he can't :(
What a truly awful and sad situation, it must be tortuous to experience. He dresses himself so very well and talks very well, I imagine it’s somewhere in his long term memory to be able to dress so well.
It's amazing that his wife can find ways to meet him where he is or would want to be. The few minutes of happiness has to be felt even though he forgets he felt it. It must feel wonderful having felt it than not at all. What remarkable people.
It's touchy to see this blank state of life and it make us realise that life is only described with the memories of event occur during the span of living otherwise it feels to be an object or as he said it's a state of living your own death.
The brain is a strange and amazing thing. That woman is a saint. I worked with traumatic brain injury sufferers and it was the most stressful job I ever had.
Yes it did - but you have to remember that this documentary is made for the lowest common denominator, and that means making it easy for the viewer to grok.
Maybe it could be a chance for Clive in the future, to be a little bit more conscious and have a better memory. I listen to science podcasts almost everyday and they talk a lot about uploading memories to the brain. They are now able to record thoughts and feelings, just like a tape recorder. The scientists doesn't exactly understand the gibberish that they are recording, but it works and it can be played back into the brain. I believe that this technology will be way more sophisticated in the future. Clive is 82 years old today, so maybe it is too late for him? But it could be a good help for other people with memory problems. The scientists call it a brain pacemaker. You could simply push a button and you will have the sensation of who you are, where you live, the names of your relatives and the emotions connected to important things in life etc etc... The sky is the limit.
I care for my brother who has the same condition. Although my brother is not as bad as this man, I have been able to teach him things once they enter into his long-term memory. This means that it takes about 6months for things to enter his memory. Or as he calls his memory, 'my forgettery'. edit last sentence.
@@digitalmediafan minutes to hours. He can vary and then the hours can last for days and weeks. It takes about 6 months for something to enter his long-term memory. This means that if asked a question about something he can ask it for about a hundred times over the 6 month period.
I have similar. I can't learn if I am only presented information on a few occasions. This is caused by having hundreds of seizures because of a tumour in my right temporal lobe. I recently had 80% of it removed. Hopefully no more seizures.
This gentleman's story is most tragic indeed. I do however think the 7 seconds memory span is bit of an exaggeration. With that kind of memory loss it would not be possible to speak to him for more than 7 seconds and get a meaningful answer. For example, if it takes you just 10 seconds to make your statement or ask a question, he would have to ask you to repeat what you just said as he only remembers the last 7 seconds of your statement which in itself might not make sense to him. This man very cable of storing and accessing information more than 7 seconds, in fact he does it most of the time. His situation is definitely one of the worst amnesia cases but do we need to say its just 7 seconds? I feel for the guy though
Its probably more like several seconds of buffer memory, so while he's giving his answer, that logic is passing thru his remaining memory but once that thought passes its gone forever. Kinda like the difference between RAM and disk space on a computer
I lived it. I married a man like that. It was a very difficult life! They don't know what a nightmare it is! I would never marry a sick man! he does not deserve it! He left me on the street after 17 years of marriage and his family took advantage of me. and without knowing anything we were both victims
How sad that his kids have given up because of how much it hurts them. He's honestly lucky he can't remember them because that would he even more heartbreaking for him
well he can remember his children, just in a state like when they were small children. he remembers them existing and can even recognize them as adults, he just remembers them being small and can't remember their names
He's literally stuck with no memory of anything. I suffer memory lapses through seizures of my epilepsy. Now that's terrifying to not know how I got there but this is CONSTANT how awful no memories of anything
i wonder if he would remeber the name of a pet dog that was constantly around him or if he would see it and re name it or possibly name it the same thing
I had a blackout for 12 hours nothing just dead apparently I danced all night brought kebab chips had a shower booked a holiday and got banned from another party weekend I have never drunk since but I keep thinking I was in Clive state nothing it is so scary to think our brain can do that some people say you seemed fully conscious but it was like I went to sleep for 12hours with no dreams basically the walking dead it was cruel for Clive that he had to survive this illness a waste of a truly wonderful man but what a love story and I believe his wife is his god she is his only awakening a love to the sound of music ❤
There's something so sad about this. Imagine having a beautiful life, with a caring wife and great talents, all for that to be stripped away. It's just so horrible.
The real mind bender about Clive’s condition is that it seems terrifying for him, but it’s not. He barely experiences it before his memory resets. The horror of his condition is only really experienced by the observer, who sees everything and can apply it to their own consciousness. It’s like witnessing a coma or a death.
I am Very similar to this man due to brain injury and cerebral malaria, my brain and eyes burn 24/7 Feels like my brain resets everyday it is a terrifying existence, I’m trying to grieve my mum and I can’t find her
What I don't understand is if his fever was so high for so long why didn't they put him in an ice bath to lower it like on the 1st day? I had a bad fever in the late 70's early 80's and they did that to me right away! Who knows, that could have saved him from the brain damage!
Uk in most areas got incompetent and basic “doctor”. The best one for adcanced cases are on Swiss, Singapore , america and Malaysia all of them are the only country where the doctor are geniuses with highly sucessful rate of treatment. and especially a caring human being
I mean here we are in 2023 & in the uk I have had a partially dislocated shoulder for 5 years, been told to just get used to it. If they can't figure out how to pop a limb back in joint & get it to stay there I don't suppose they have any idea about the brain
If he feels like he is living death I hope his angel of a wife makes it feel like heaven, which it seems she and others in his life do. He seems strangley at peace and content.
There's a true horror in this. He's aware of his condition in a perverse way, he knows that he can't remember anything and is stuck in this realm with no thought, memory or dream.
Stuck in a limbo between life and death
Absolutely terrifying
Does that mean he "recalls" his condition? How does he manage to know what he doesn't know, or even his limitations? What stops him from walking out the door every 7 minutes, to look for the company he feels he never has? What a mystifyingly suspended existence, or non-existence. I'm glad for him that he's loved, and seems not to lose sight of that somehow. If he can hold on to his music, and also the fundamentals ie habits of daily living, it's too bad that his brain cannot be retrained to build a life around his overwhelming state of perpetual forgetfulness, or lack of remembering, or in spite of it, instinctively perhaps even. That might take specialized therapy, yet I got the feeling that the doctors gave up, and no-one else bothered to take over. That's a shame that the experts seem to have forgotten about him, and have resigned him to that room with a bed, banished to his ever rewritten diaries, and a piano that could hold keys to his neuroplasticity or at least psychologically so, not merely the keys he plays on it. Wishing them all well, whether they know it or not.
How does he retain the sensory memory of being in a still area?
So sweet he doesn't remember but he knows he loves his wife more than anything else in the world
Yes that must be what keeps him going. I guess she's still alive. He's 83 now she is 65
The diary entries where he keeps writing "I'm awake for the first time" is one of the most disturbing and horrific things I've ever seen.
What a tragic and cruel existence, especially for someone who was so bright and talented. I could never make the choice for Clyde, but I would personally much rather be dead than have that reality.
It’s so sad to hear Clive continuously saying it’s the first time he’s seeing a human being, since he’s been ill
Weird how there's some amount of awareness of being this way, especially since his rage has gone away and he seems calm about the situation tells me some part of his brain has been learning. Also the way he answers questions the same way, "you're the first human being I've seen", and "there's no difference between day and night"
I noticed that too, I also noticed when people tell him something he excepts it as true without question as if he has learned to understand on some level what has happened to him.
@@chris1275cc Right? Like, he very clearly even now is still an extremely bright individual even without memories. If he truly never created any new memories whatsoever, I imagine he'd still be in that initial state of panic that he was in those first few years. He's also obviously not concerned or surprised to learn that so much time has passed and that he's now an old man, or that his wife and children are now old. He does not consciously remember, but I think the other parts of his brain must have started remembering important things in a sort of 'muscle memory' sort of way. He also obviously hasn't entirely forgotten how to play music, nor what notes to play next, so I start to wonder if maybe the parts of his brain where he ingrained that 'muscle memory' effect, like music in his brain, remembers subconsciously, and plays a calming song he likes in the background to let him know that he doesn't need to rage or panic. Like the songs he hears as auditory hallucinations are guiding him along and guiding his motions, like the subconscious movements of keys on a keyboard as he plays.
@@FadeRadio1 EXACTLY it's almost like his brain still makes the memories but he can only access them on a deep subconscious level or something. I mean imagine what you would do if someone you did not "know" walked into your house uninvited! My fight or flight would kick in immediately and any stranger in my house better hope I'm closer to an exit than my knife block or 💀💀💀
@@chris1275cc i think youre all right. the hippocampus is important but clearly the rest of the brain does a small amount of lifting
@@chris1275cc you are right, the hippocampus is dealing with declarative memory (facts,events) and due to damage he is unable to form short-term memories, while other parts of the brain still produce non-declarative(procedural) memories, which are learnt in time and can't be explained in words (e.g skills, or in his example, the state of mind of 'knowing' he is ill) but having no memory of learning
This may sound odd, but I couldn't get over how dapper a dresser Clive is. Tidy shirt and always a tie. He is blessed with a wonderful woman.
He knows how to dress and wash himself. He just can't remember getting to that stage in the process but still continues because he remembers what to do from before his illness. Same with playing the piano. He knows the music but every 7 seconds his mind goes blank again but he no longer questions it and continues playing.
Not really. She left him and visits once a month. Should be by his side till death, of he was blessed that is
Maybe he doesn't decide what he wears and they just dress him the way he used before he became disabled.
Also, isn't that the average British style?
@@jamiehook5912 certainly should visit more than once a month really. Once a week even....
His wife is very intelligent and he is lucky to have her. She speaks as if she herself is a doctor on the matter. Considering how long it has gone on and been a part of her life, she may as well be a doctor on the matter.
He's gone floppy! Get over here...how cute
A doctor, a scientist, a saint and the most patient person on the planet. Incredible woman!
She actually began working at a brain amnesia foundation because of this! :D
What's incredible is he's essentially a time traveler. The 20 years since the virus has gone by in an instant, and what he says about death is entirely correct. To everyone else, he survived the virus, but to him it actually killed him because he will have no recollection from getting sick, to his death. But couldn't that be said for all of us? We don't get to take our memories with us, just like him.
perhaps he might remember when he s a spirit if you believe in that sort of thing.
What are you talking about man
I found what he said about death to be interesting and I agree with your comment. Watching my father decline into dementia made this both depressing but also gave a possible insight into what my dad was experiencing but unable to convey.
@@The_washing_board He only talks about death because he doesn't understand that he is conscious all the time but can remember nothing. It's a pity he can't realise that - it would I think be less painful for him.
When his son said that the “intellectual colossus” that was his father had so little left, my heart broke for him and his siblings. This story has touched me deeply.
I'll touch you deeply.
@@alexbriggs9198 you're tapped
I'd also touch you deeply.
38:50 this poor woman is so strong and you can see how hard she is trying to keep it all together. I wish her all the love and happiness in the world
I watched most of this at school in psychology poor man bless him
Watching it right now for the same reason. Psychology gang!
His emotions when she tells him about the consert that was played to 5 countries. His love for his music is in his feelings you can see when he gets emotional but he doesnt remember is so sad 😥
I can't thank you enough for producing this follow up of Clive. I still have the VHS copy of the episode of the PBS series The Mind from 30+ years ago, which first highlighted his story.
It's remarkable how his outbursts of anger and frustration have subsided, considering his memory has had no improvement.
I remember thinking what a smart, eloquent and lovely "saint" his wife was; clearly she still is. I was moved to tears hearing how she left him, but couldn't stay away because her love of Clive was so deep, so genuine.
It's such a sad, tragic story but teaches us all that every moment of our lives is precious.
She is well informed, loving until the end and understands his inner torment. What a wonderful woman and wife she is
He lives in an almost paradoxical reality... His life "happens", but not to him. Every moment he experiences happened to someone else. He really doesn't experience anything at all. He knows it, but he can't know anything ever, and never has. He is alone, even with company. He is the most interesting dead person alive. He's a living version of a dream you can't remember having.
It seemed like it would be a nightmare to be him at first. But I am not so sure now. It's like saying a nightmare you have no memory of was scary.
She's so bright, loyal and astute, no wonder Clive remembers her the most.
That last comment...."...waiting for time to denude and disappear"...what a poetic, sad description of his condition, from the man himself.
For anyone who is is interested, Clive is alive and as well as can be at 86 years old.
The absolute devotion and incredible understanding of his wife is beautiful and heartwrenching. It's a stark reminder of how incredibly fortunate I am to have the love of my life be healthy and with me in body, mind, and heart.
That moment where he breaks down crying in the church while his wife is telling him the story and how good a conductor he was is genuinely one of the most beautiful and sad things I've ever seen.
"Are you paid to come here?"
"Thankfully, we are."
ROFL
What a wonderful man. Even if everything is always new to him multiple times daily. He is at a point where it isn't an emergency or crisis. Perhaps that is a small improvement since 1985. His personality is quite sweet.
It seems like that. We see him in 1985, he was upset and all. In this documentary, he is calm, accepted his condition, and accepts that things happen that he didn't remember. It's weird, he just accepts his condition, living in a care home, without really knowing stuff..
@@tiagobrasthe brain can obviously adopt to any situation given enough time.
It makes me so sad that he doesn't really remember ANYTHING at all, be he knows he should. There is still something in his brain telling him that he should remember, but he just can't. He even knows he's ill, he knows that he wont remember, and he's trying to fight that, but he can't :(
Clive may forget what he had for breakfast but atleast he remembers to stay dripped out
What a truly awful and sad situation, it must be tortuous to experience. He dresses himself so very well and talks very well, I imagine it’s somewhere in his long term memory to be able to dress so well.
It's amazing that his wife can find ways to meet him where he is or would want to be. The few minutes of happiness has to be felt even though he forgets he felt it. It must feel wonderful having felt it than not at all. What remarkable people.
I remember the first documentary I watched on Clive.
I've never forgotten it.
Terrifying.
It's touchy to see this blank state of life and it make us realise that life is only described with the memories of event occur during the span of living otherwise it feels to be an object or as he said it's a state of living your own death.
This is really sad. Reminds me of the movie 50 first dates.
Yeah same
The brain is a strange and amazing thing.
That woman is a saint. I worked with traumatic brain injury sufferers and it was the most stressful job I ever had.
That "Can he do this?" "Can he do that?" thing just went on forever...HE CAN'T REMEMBER, WHAT DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND?!?!?
Yes it did - but you have to remember that this documentary is made for the lowest common denominator, and that means making it easy for the viewer to grok.
What a beautiful person Deborah is, amazing!
Ooooooh my god.... Stories like this make me so appreciative... Its still so sad to hear about this though.
I've never seen anyone as pure as him. God, this is so sad
“HE’S GONE FLOPPY” will now be a term used in my house thank you
His wife has a very cinematic way of describing all this.
Maybe it could be a chance for Clive in the future, to be a little bit more conscious and have a better memory. I listen to science podcasts almost everyday and they talk a lot about uploading memories to the brain. They are now able to record thoughts and feelings, just like a tape recorder. The scientists doesn't exactly understand the gibberish that they are recording, but it works and it can be played back into the brain. I believe that this technology will be way more sophisticated in the future. Clive is 82 years old today, so maybe it is too late for him? But it could be a good help for other people with memory problems. The scientists call it a brain pacemaker. You could simply push a button and you will have the sensation of who you are, where you live, the names of your relatives and the emotions connected to important things in life etc etc... The sky is the limit.
It's sad that he has the same thought about his situation, that it's just like death.
Poor him I feel so so sorry for him 😢
I care for my brother who has the same condition. Although my brother is not as bad as this man, I have been able to teach him things once they enter into his long-term memory. This means that it takes about 6months for things to enter his memory. Or as he calls his memory, 'my forgettery'. edit last sentence.
Your brother also has a very short term memory like a few minutes or hours you mean?
@@digitalmediafan minutes to hours. He can vary and then the hours can last for days and weeks. It takes about 6 months for something to enter his long-term memory. This means that if asked a question about something he can ask it for about a hundred times over the 6 month period.
@@ilovefabricandflowers8543 I'm sorry to read this. Sounds very unusual but guess it isn't. Did this happen after an injury or something ?
@@digitalmediafan he had carbon monoxide poisoning and the bit that joins the two halves of his brain was damaged.
I have similar. I can't learn if I am only presented information on a few occasions. This is caused by having hundreds of seizures because of a tumour in my right temporal lobe. I recently had 80% of it removed. Hopefully no more seizures.
He’s got a wicked sense of humour
Music is a higher revelation than all wisdom and philosophy.
My brain can’t comprehend this being possible. Like how do you even function forgetting every 7 seconds…
You don’t
Does he remember that he forgets everything? Because he always says "this is the first time" for everything.
no he doesn't remember a single thing after he got the virus
What a gentleman in spite of everything
i look up to this man so much
He is a lovely man, I wish he would get back his memory even in late life.
1:04 He's so precious 🥺
This gentleman's story is most tragic indeed. I do however think the 7 seconds memory span is bit of an exaggeration. With that kind of memory loss it would not be possible to speak to him for more than 7 seconds and get a meaningful answer. For example, if it takes you just 10 seconds to make your statement or ask a question, he would have to ask you to repeat what you just said as he only remembers the last 7 seconds of your statement which in itself might not make sense to him. This man very cable of storing and accessing information more than 7 seconds, in fact he does it most of the time. His situation is definitely one of the worst amnesia cases but do we need to say its just 7 seconds? I feel for the guy though
Its probably more like several seconds of buffer memory, so while he's giving his answer, that logic is passing thru his remaining memory but once that thought passes its gone forever. Kinda like the difference between RAM and disk space on a computer
Seeing him cry just rips your heart out.
I lived it. I married a man like that. It was a very difficult life! They don't know what a nightmare it is! I would never marry a sick man! he does not deserve it! He left me on the street after 17 years of marriage and his family took advantage of me. and without knowing anything we were both victims
Horrible horrible horrible...poor man...poor family
This is very sad, I would never wish this upon anyone including my self or my family.
"A necessity for life, a house." -Clive
How to confuse (frustrate) a person with only an extremely short term memory. Keep asking them over and over, "do you remember?".
How sad that his kids have given up because of how much it hurts them. He's honestly lucky he can't remember them because that would he even more heartbreaking for him
well he can remember his children, just in a state like when they were small children. he remembers them existing and can even recognize them as adults, he just remembers them being small and can't remember their names
He's literally stuck with no memory of anything. I suffer memory lapses through seizures of my epilepsy. Now that's terrifying to not know how I got there but this is CONSTANT how awful no memories of anything
Shocking illness and i feel so sorry for him, must be so hard for him, wish him good health anyway!
Not only is Herpes encephalitis quite rare, but having both anterograde and retrograde amnesia is exceptionally rare. Fascinating case.
i wonder if he would remeber the name of a pet dog that was constantly around him or if he would see it and re name it or possibly name it the same thing
I had a blackout for 12 hours nothing just dead apparently I danced all night brought kebab chips had a shower booked a holiday and got banned from another party weekend I have never drunk since but I keep thinking I was in Clive state nothing it is so scary to think our brain can do that some people say you seemed fully conscious but it was like I went to sleep for 12hours with no dreams basically the walking dead it was cruel for Clive that he had to survive this illness a waste of a truly wonderful man but what a love story and I believe his wife is his god she is his only awakening a love to the sound of music ❤
There's something so sad about this. Imagine having a beautiful life, with a caring wife and great talents, all for that to be stripped away. It's just so horrible.
Oh my goodness. I pray he finds peace
Why isn't this a major studio movie? Maybe that's a good thing. Such a fascinating story.
The real mind bender about Clive’s condition is that it seems terrifying for him, but it’s not. He barely experiences it before his memory resets.
The horror of his condition is only really experienced by the observer, who sees everything and can apply it to their own consciousness. It’s like witnessing a coma or a death.
I am wondering how language and speech can work without memory. A beautifully told story.
Same way that they can play music - it is something that you end up doing instinctively after practicing it for long enough.
What if hes just making this up and hes actually just nuts
I was thinking the same. Hahaha!
Goodness, makes me grateful to have my mind and body, he seems so lovely as well such a shame.
Very sad 😭 I'm kinda in his position and only 36 memory drops severe
Am so grateful to meet you DR Rorpopor Herbal on TH-cam for helping me to cure my herpes totally
An emotional documentary done right. Not too much drama and very genuine.
I am
Very similar to this man due to brain injury and cerebral malaria, my brain and eyes burn 24/7
Feels like my brain resets everyday it is a terrifying existence, I’m trying to grieve my mum and I can’t find her
Real life Memento..
I wish I could forget the bad parts of my childhood. I feel bad for him though..I can only imagine the frustration he feels.
The Best husband ever ever ever:))))
cause he can't remember if you cheated on him XD?
You could tell him a joke over and over again
Fascinating... and sad.
The most interesting thing for me was the love of his wife. Their "relationship".
Its sad that he doesn't remember his wedding
This is so upsetting
poor dude
The last piece he is playing at 46:50 is amazing.
I wish I knew the name
What I don't understand is if his fever was so high for so long why didn't they put him in an ice bath to lower it like on the 1st day? I had a bad fever in the late 70's early 80's and they did that to me right away! Who knows, that could have saved him from the brain damage!
Uk in most areas got incompetent and basic “doctor”. The best one for adcanced cases are on Swiss, Singapore , america and Malaysia all of them are the only country where the doctor are geniuses with highly sucessful rate of treatment. and especially a caring human being
I mean here we are in 2023 & in the uk I have had a partially dislocated shoulder for 5 years, been told to just get used to it. If they can't figure out how to pop a limb back in joint & get it to stay there I don't suppose they have any idea about the brain
Decent singer
Yeah
Amazing documentary.
She reminds me of my aunts Julie so lovely
I feel bad for him
Crazy... God bless us all
Poor bloke
Can't make questions based in time instead of yes/no
Is anyone else counting 7 seconds each time?
This is so tragic 😢 this is like being dead
Explain what Clive could remember and could not remember.refer to short term and long term memory.
Someone be a legend and help
Structure your question in a way that makes more sense and maybe somebody will
love conquers all. so sad. sweet man. 😢
Someone should show him this video
This is heartbreaking!!
If he feels like he is living death I hope his angel of a wife makes it feel like heaven, which it seems she and others in his life do. He seems strangley at peace and content.
43:27
"The fact that I was a musician. And in love."
I can understand what he means about death would be easier.
I am now absolutely sure i am TRULY SUPPOSEDLY AWAKE
Now im really awake
Find you a man that loves you as much as Clive loves his wife ❤️