First off, I might be 14 at the moment but I understand what you feel. I’m here if you need to talk, I promise I understand. Here’s some info about me... severely depressed and have several anxiety disorders. I relate to this so freakin much. I have sever anxiety and panic attacks to the point of fainting and getting sick. It sneaks up on you randomly and sucks tremendously. I’m on anti depressants now but took 5 years and a near suicide attempt in middle school. Music saved me. I feel it was God using the one thing he knows would work well which is Harry styles. He makes me happy in my worst days and for a few minutes of a song, I feel ok. If anyone is struggling like I am, take a deep breath, calm down and take it one step at a time. Stressing yourself out makes it worse. I know it’s difficult but you’ve got this my friend :)
I fight my demons every day and it gets really really hard there's days I've thought of giving into my demons because I'm just sooo tired of dealing with the depression and the pain.....
Hang in there we will get through this storm as God brought us to it, he will bring us through it... You are a special child of God and I pray that you will see it for yourself soon
Never give up bro there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. The way I look at things is ive come this far so I dont see why I should give up now you know? Dont ever give up bro 👍
Several times daily I walk to my balcony I look down and think “one jump head first” and my pain is over, but what keeps me here is knowing the many other lives that i would ruin doing that. This video hit home. It spoke to me. And had I done what I wanted to I wouldn’t of lived to see. I write this not to be negative but to show my strength. If I live with depression daily and I can beat it, you can too. Aok it’s why I joined your channels man. Even though I don’t know you it just feels good to feel like I’m not alone. Appreciate it! And to anyone else, don’t be ashamed to seek help it’s not a weakness to do so, it’s what makes you stronger! 👍
Skål thank you! I appreciate it. Same to you. Sometimes it’s just good to know I’m not alone. It helps. And I’ve also been seeking professional help so I’m working to be on a better path forward. But I appreciate it! Thank you 👍
Hey AOK, glad you liked this one from clayton. Another one of Clayton’s I think you would love is “Jesus Over Depression”. It is one of his deepest and really focuses on some things that are really important in today’s society.
@ArtOfKickz This reaction...hit me hard. Im so glad you liked it and paused at the perfect moments to speak your truth. Seriously, much love brother. Cryptic Wisdom - 7 Years Remix next reaction lol
i use to listen to that spoken word on repeat and id be balling my eyes out. i was going through a hard time but im glad that i am doing alright right now.
We see you laughing but we see the pain you are covering with it. Laughing is such a complicated coping mechanism that I think most of us use. Stay strong 💪
We've been through a lot.... there are some difficult times in life and we think about how comfortable giving up sounds... But I can't and won't like you're fighting everyday, so I will too. God bless us all.
Thank you I know there over a hundred comments but when you paused that song and looked into the camera and told me not to do I could tell you ment it you really ment it so thankyou god works in unique ways and god came to me through you Thank you
Imagine people disapproving you, the world turns around against you, you are trying to make it better place but the more you try the more you fail, each try to get back on track takes away your energy away, you watch your happiness slowly decays and then you give up... But there are other ways, if you are lucky enough you will meet right people that will Boost your happiness you will still be depressed but you gain the ability to recharge yourself just like we charge our cellphones and that makes you want to keep on living and not ending your life, there is also a third way you fall into hatred you become the anarchy but this is a way to big topic to talk about, good video though, love you mate!
I’m so glad you found the light bro honestly I have depression and anxiety horrible . I thought one day of leaving but I cannot to my mother and friends family GOD
Oh god, I see the title and the thumbnail, and it scared me, I'm not anything like a speaker giving a meaning not to do something and here's why you shouldn't do that, you know basically what you do, all I do is play games and watch youtube and talk with my friends and loved ones but it reminded me that at one point I had to help my girlfriend, she was very depressed and had suicidal thoughts, and not being a speaker it was really hard, so when anyone talks about depression and stuff I get really uncomfortable and scared, I don't get emotional and don't cry often, but it'd be nice to cry to release stress.
Thank you so much for being here. I'm having a really hard time with my physical and mental health and was wishing it all would end. I even had it all planned out but your words snapped me out of it when most of my family and my therapist turned their backs to me. Depression and PTSD turmoil is hard to explain but I'll try. On the bad days, like today, it feels like I'm drowning and no one around me will help pull me up. Your words and the video you watched felt like the lord was using y'all to reach my heart. Thank you
Clayton Jennings is my favorite spoken word poet he speaks the trust and lights my path when my life is low, but he lets me know that all the bad makes the good feel better
I'm glad you didn't go through with it. My husband has had this battle on and off for the past 6 years. Just when he would pull himself out of it it was like something dragging him back in. He is doing a ton better now. Still has the off days but we fight through it.
It sounds like you are having what we call racing thoughts lol I'm typing while I listen to you many people are having the same problems depression and anxiety are just worse now because we are out of normal routines. I am a psychiatric nurse this is so true for many of my patients. I'm going to share this on my Facebook page
Bro, you don't need an explanation. We appreciate you posting at all. You're doing a great thing with this channel. I appreciate you and I'm sure I'm not the only one. Jump up on that high horse cause between this and your reaction channel, people listen.👌🏻👌🏻
I've been battling depression, anxiety and bipolar disorder since I was 12. Attempted suicide many times, each time a different way. If it weren't for the lord I wouldn't be here. He's the ONLY person who has saved me.
Much love bro and respect how you add your own personal experiences and your not the only one right now with the mind messing with ya keep doing what ya doing man
I used to want to absorb all the depression in the world too. I wanted to take it and let it devour me, release me. I still want to absorb all the misery out there but now I want to devour it.
I suffer with COPD chronic bronchitis and emphysema I have to get out, get out and get some sunshine that will help you sleep. I suffer with a grocery list of ailments. I will admit that if it weren't for my faith and love for the Lord God ❤ I would have done myself in after losing my husband to a hereditary brain aneurysm. GOD is my rock as well as my husband was. I fall 3-10 times a day and no help from anyone. I have my service dog, but I have no one else. So ya there have been many times that the devil has tempted me to take my life... No, God is my Pilot, that's how I make it every single day. I live in severe physical pain every day because of my fibromyalgia disease which there's no cure out to the public as of yet, and being born with arthritis on top of this, there are times I just want to give up, but I know I can't
I don’t know guys, I cried out for help plenty of times but here I am almost every day with that thing at my temple. I hope my guys that are struggling are given some small beautiful thing in life to help them hold on. I know that’s all I need but it’s been months.
There was one day I had convinced myself that that was gonna be the last day for me I thought of how I was gonna do it but I’m glad I talked with my parents that was one of the most emotional moments of my life when I was talking to them about it I and on the upswing of stuff right now everything is going my way right now
I'm glad you are doing better and pushing forward...and being brave enough to speak your truth on this. I know that this hit me....I needed to hear this. Thank you @artofkickz
*Who ever in here to release some feelings. Know that you are not alone with huge struggles going through your body and mind. Being confused at which way to go from here.. but let me tell you something. Just the fact that you are here, is a sign of strenght. A sign from your heart that you are not done seeking, watching, hearing, viewing or breathing. One step at the time, one breath at the time. Can’t do 5 steps in a rush, the fall will make you feel it even more. Accept that reaching the top, takes time and is ment to be so. Even if you carry much more than the next person on your path, let it build you. There is nobody tougher and nobody warmer in heart than the one struggling but never quit. A few pit-stops here and there are more than fine. But know this, heroes are made from battlefield before they find their happiness. Not from fields of roses without knowledge about the down-times. Be proud of yourself and the journey you got. Answers will reveal themselves for those who fight. Be you and be happy about it!*
Glad to see that you did a reaction to this song. I've been listening to it for a year now and can relate to everything he's saying. The thoughts of killing myself are getting stronger and stronger as the days go by. I've been depressed since I was 15 and still dealing with it at 36. May just give in and do it.
Hay every one this video is a real blessing to me as it should be to you This is a God sending message have I ever been depressed yes darlings alot yes but the one thing I know is that God is strong and heavy protector over me and as well you open your eyes, hearts and let him be there for you please don't let the enemy take you out by talking to you in your ears you are not beautiful , strong and no one cares about you telling you are not worthy enough ect ect. I am telling you that you are worthy enough to the Father and the Heavens above . Listen go to someone like family,A Paster,Run! Run! Run! Lay all out on the Alter please do this for your self
When my daughter was young i tried to kill myself. She found me and it scared her so bad she called 911. I had taughted her a week before. If i haven't i may might not be here. I thank god that i didn't die that day. I would have missed her and her brothers grow. I still fight depression but i try to keep it from getting there again
I see all of ''Nature'' as a God. That beeing said, i do not want to be a part of a society that treats its surrounding so poorly by ''free will''. So i end up in a constant mental fight over my own exsistance...
So crazy story but a couple of months ago I was so angry and so in pain and I got to drinking and listen to music on TH-cam but as I started to give up I grab my gun and put it to my head this song started playing mind u never heard it before and it save my life and I'll say I believe that was gods work amen everyone stay strong god looking out for u
I just found you on here. you just don't know how much this touched my heart. Thank you so much for sharing your heart with us all. Blessings in Jesus name
Mad respect for you bro. I’m 22 now, when I was 20 my ex of 5 years left me and that put me in some different dark places. Let’s just say it done me bad. Phora and his music got me through so much, Sinner Part 4, Numb, Fake Smiles, Fake Smiles 2, What Happened to Us. So many songs and his lyrics hit me so deep. Definitely worth a listen. Also NF, how could you leave us. Definitely worth a listen
Does anyone feel like they're alive for other people? Like, I don't enjoy the majority of my life. There are certain things I love doing, but they don't make it worth it. I live in chronic pain and depression and anxiety. I'm alive for my family, because I can't imagine the hole my death would leave. But I overall Don't enjoy my life. I'm working on forging my way out, but im very very tired all around...
I been here man.... i tried to shoot myself cause i was tired of the physical and verbal abuse of my step father . I better now and my step father is in jail. I don’t know what told me to not to pull the trigger. But i glad i listen
Man, I also struggled my battle against depression for 10 years or so. I also clinged onto the same thing you did, I knew my mother would be destroyed, and I could never do something so horrible for my own mother. So I struggled through for my mother sake, as the pain I would bear is nothing compared to what I would put her through. Now I have been depression free for a year and no thoughts of suicide. The last time I had suicide thoughts I went deep. I had my letter written to all the people I cared about, but thankfully I never went through it. I figured that to battle this depression, which is mostly hidden and never known, I would share what I wrote to some of the people on my list. After I did that, I never saw anything to my depression. I think one of the major contribution to the effectiveness of depression, is that it's hidden and unknown to the loved ones around us.
Clayton speaks the truth I have severe anxiety and depression and severe PTSD and when I found Clayton just listening to him speak as helped me cope a little better and you should check out Clayton Jennings-anxiety
I think of my nana she is what stopped me and Clayton u should listen to more of his spoken word if u haven’t he is so good and powerful and inspirational
I get the "just ask and I promise he will guide you through, when I was at the lowest I've ever been. when I went to throw myself over that bridge into oncoming traffic. When I was stood on the roof tops trying pluck up the courage to end it I asked and had nothing. You want to know who saved me. My son I would say it's the devils work not gods work. Because I heard blood curdling screams from my son in that moment. I had visions of him not copeing. I'd say the devil saved me just because of the way I was saved. The times I've prayed the times I've called upon God. The devil shows up more often than not. Could someone explain this to me?? Because still to this day I'm confused about it
The devils job is to take you away from God so that confusion you feel is exactly what he wants. Ask God for clarity in the cloud of confusion. I'll be praying for you!
Cool seeing you doing some spoken word. Check out Autocorrect humanity by prince EA (and really any other prince EA) OCD poem by Neil H. And paper people by Harry Baker. I use modern spoken work poetry to introduce my poetry unit each year.
In a few months time my daughter will be gone, I will be on my own and even more alone. She's moving in with her boyfriend and she can't stand been here any more. On that day, my world will be gone. I just hope I can stay strong.
Any person can achieve any realistic goal that they set themselves, and whilst things my be hard , hopeless, impossible and you may feel hurt , pain, loss, anger etc at the very least they are still feelings and once you make that irreversible choice and it is a choice, there is nothing. No love no laughter no highs no lows just nothing!!! So even if you feel sad pain or whatever embrace it because you are lucky enough to still feel something at all. I bet that you would go through 100 lows to feel 1high moment in life. So turn your frown upside down you and only you control your life destiny future etc.................or maybe I’m just full of shit but that’s fine too because it’s not everyone’s outlook it’s mine and you can do with it what you choose
Suicide doesn't end the pain. It just passes it on to everyone in u life and more then likely it makes it into more ppl that think of that as the only option. Man or woman we r all human. All it takes is asking. Asking for help or asking if someone is ok. U could save a life and that life might b your own.
I can relate to the sleep thing buddy....although late, this is an everyday problem for me...every year problem for me. When I'm awake, I feel so sleepy and yawny, yet when I go to bed every single thing goes through my mind and I just can't sleep... I can relate buddy. I hope its better now, maybe its not, but I just hope it is.
1200 dollars doesnt bring back a loved one that took thier life because they caouldnt handle the shit that is going on... Noone is talking about them deaths my twin was going to take her life i called and luckily i did because she had wrote letters to 3 of us telling us she was sorry she had to. I stopped her by a phone call so please call and check on just one person mental illness is real i told her the bible says if you take your life you will go to hell she said she is living in hell now 😢🙏
I don't get it. This video has 10K views, but only 791 likes at the time I'm commenting. You've analyzed the song, you've shared some of your own experience with thoughts of suicide, plus the fact that you wanted to also take others' pain away from them. You have such a wonderful heart & I love that you show it like you do! I am so grateful that I found your channel! Thank you, for being you 💚
First off, I might be 14 at the moment but I understand what you feel. I’m here if you need to talk, I promise I understand. Here’s some info about me... severely depressed and have several anxiety disorders. I relate to this so freakin much. I have sever anxiety and panic attacks to the point of fainting and getting sick. It sneaks up on you randomly and sucks tremendously. I’m on anti depressants now but took 5 years and a near suicide attempt in middle school. Music saved me. I feel it was God using the one thing he knows would work well which is Harry styles. He makes me happy in my worst days and for a few minutes of a song, I feel ok. If anyone is struggling like I am, take a deep breath, calm down and take it one step at a time. Stressing yourself out makes it worse. I know it’s difficult but you’ve got this my friend :)
Your ending messed me up good. When I cry, it's about everyone... Mom's sister, grandma's daughter that died in a car crash, my grandpa I didn't really get to know... Fuck l appreciate you
Yes . In my town in Georgia. We was 0 percent until a couple of weeks ago,but nobody is taking it seriously. Now we are at like 65 and climbing. I don't go anywhere unless I have too .
Art, I'm going to tell you, that inability to sleep is because there's something weighing on your mind that's trying to make you pay attention to it. You've been going going going nonstop, I'll bet, and now something's trying to talk to you, be it God or whoever, and your brain is just so full of clamor and noise you can't hear His voice. Here's what you need to do, if you decide to try this: Take yourself a full three days away - your fans will understand if you need to breathe, man - and unplug from the internet. Unplug from social media. Give yourself the chance to breathe without it sitting on you. It may be in the back of your mind, but do this now while you're waiting for the blends to come in for your next orders. Meditate. Chill. Take a freakin' bubble bath, whatever. Just make yourself slow down. Mentally open yourself up to your emotions and make yourself breathe and slow down. Ask yourself, what is it that I'm missing that's screaming at me? What am I needing to see? God, what are you trying to tell me? I'm trying to listen. Help me to listen. Yes, it may sound corny, but tell me I'm wrong? Sometimes, you have to disconnect to reconnect. Once you have a couple of days to slow down, you're going to find your dreams might get really vivid - that's okay, that's your subconscious bringing up that garbage you're needing to process because it's blocking you from moving forward. When you wake up, write the dreams down, and see if you spot continuing themes. Stuff like weather conditions, patterns, anything in the dreams can bring a clarity with God guiding you. Just ask Him to help you understand. People often think that the mysteries of God are dead. They're not - people just don't seek them anymore. But by creating us as His divine children who simply fell short and sinned, we still have that connection to Him and He can guide us - if we're willing to listen. Just remember, though, that even Christ spoke to a soothesayer. If there are other symptoms, Art, it'd behoove you to go visit your doctor, just to discuss what the symptoms are and make sure that there's not an underlying issue that can be caught early. God doesn't expect us to be stupid, neither. >.> I wish you health and most of all, comprehension of things through God's love. Namaste. P.S. I'm in Georgia, too. I still think Kemp's outta his damn fool mind!
DUDE DONT FUGHT THE TEARS! I was one of those guys raided boys don't no matter what.Until my 30s got divorced cried like a baby never thought I could feel pain like that crying is your realese.Been there very close it's is a strange thing to wish to die but at the same time be diying to live!!
Im so glad u reacted tp this. This "song" literally saved me so many times. I allways listen to it when I am suicidal. Which been often. Nobody ever told me not to.kill myself. My parents actually told I should go and Kill myslef. This songs makes me feel.like at least one person want me to be alive
I'm glad you are here amongst the living. It can be hard some days I know, but there is always a reason to stay alive. No matter how small and/or insignificant it may seem. At least it's a reason to live.
Consider listening to "God" from Clayton, every time I listen to that song, I feel God just moving. It is a great song, you should listen to it sometime.
I don't know how much of the God stuff I believe, but the fact that Clayton is willing to both talk about God and mental health is huge for me. I have talked to far too many Christians who say mental health is weakness and proof you're not a good Christian. In the end that's what pushed me away from all of that. Clayton seems so real though, and so do your reactions. I appreciate your honesty.
Hey, have you tried the Wim Hof method. It's a great way to calm down your body and brain. Breathing less has changed my relationship with anxiety. Breathing activates your Sympathetic, holding your breath activates the para-sympathetic nervous system.
The sad part for me the reason I didn't go through with it was because my cats had no one else. People in my life have made me feel replaceable so I really didn't think it would matter to anyone...I'm 53 and I judge myself the hardest....why didn't I fight when getting sold...just because he beat me...the things I did to survive were against my morels and I have a hard time forgiving my younger self
@Elizabeth Davis yes i also listen to nf... But i rap in spnish and i have a niece that sings in English... This is my TH-cam Channel where i upload my songs
It is so hard dealing with depression, wither it be a chemical imbalance or environmental. My depression it the fan was when life for became even harder and I'm talking like daddy removed from his trust fund, lord knows I've never had that luxury. My father, although I forgive and now realize he clearly has some serious mental health issues of his own to work and I prey he does. He was angry, always acted like we never told anything in advance when would, he would no problem running late for everything while putting you on guilt trip, if you had pain his was always worse ( I have Psoriatic arthritis and it is Diabling without my medication which took a while to figure out). One day he apologized and said to me because he needed my help so we got a trailer in my name and for a while we got along but deep down I knew it would end I just didn't want to acknowledge it. One year I find hes drinking the following year he leaves and I'm here taking care of mom (she has a hard to moving around)and my brother (he has autism) and I was scared, angry, and depressed. Anytime heard from I develop panic attacks. I wanted to die more then once and before even these issues but thankfully I always had someone to help me. I'm still working on my issues but this song brought me back to the ones who saved me even if they don't know it.
Man, another one? Thank you. Humbled. 🙏🏼
Love you bro you saved my life. Hope you see this
Much love Clayton
just heard some of your songs i just want to say thank you, your words mean so much too me :) you are the voice for the voicless !
First off, I might be 14 at the moment but I understand what you feel. I’m here if you need to talk, I promise I understand. Here’s some info about me...
severely depressed and have several anxiety disorders. I relate to this so freakin much. I have sever anxiety and panic attacks to the point of fainting and getting sick. It sneaks up on you randomly and sucks tremendously. I’m on anti depressants now but took 5 years and a near suicide attempt in middle school. Music saved me. I feel it was God using the one thing he knows would work well which is Harry styles. He makes me happy in my worst days and for a few minutes of a song, I feel ok. If anyone is struggling like I am, take a deep breath, calm down and take it one step at a time. Stressing yourself out makes it worse. I know it’s difficult but you’ve got this my friend :)
I love how humble you are bro...
Most creators don't take too kindly to reaction videos on their content, but you're so humble...
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God is who you want to TRUST! 😇💯
Jennings has real powerful spoken word. The rabbit hole should begin he has a lot of good poetry.
Smoke had my vision blurry watching bridges burning
Where we go one we go all.
I'm your 69th Like!
Besides the obvious, yes you're correct, 🔥 poetry.
I fight my demons every day and it gets really really hard there's days I've thought of giving into my demons because I'm just sooo tired of dealing with the depression and the pain.....
Hang in there we will get through this storm as God brought us to it, he will bring us through it... You are a special child of God and I pray that you will see it for yourself soon
@@Reesie6608 Thank You....I'm trying and still fighting day after day,thx for your kind words😊
Never give up bro there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. The way I look at things is ive come this far so I dont see why I should give up now you know? Dont ever give up bro 👍
@@codered9008 I'm working on it every day....I try to keep trolling along through the day....thx for your kind words 😊
I'm praying for you.
Several times daily I walk to my balcony I look down and think “one jump head first” and my pain is over, but what keeps me here is knowing the many other lives that i would ruin doing that. This video hit home. It spoke to me. And had I done what I wanted to I wouldn’t of lived to see. I write this not to be negative but to show my strength. If I live with depression daily and I can beat it, you can too. Aok it’s why I joined your channels man. Even though I don’t know you it just feels good to feel like I’m not alone. Appreciate it! And to anyone else, don’t be ashamed to seek help it’s not a weakness to do so, it’s what makes you stronger! 👍
Skål thank you! I appreciate it. Same to you. Sometimes it’s just good to know I’m not alone. It helps. And I’ve also been seeking professional help so I’m working to be on a better path forward. But I appreciate it! Thank you 👍
I'm praying for you.
PrettyGirlSwag thanks for the kind words!
Please call out to Jesus he will deliver you from every pain and fill you with peace love and joy😭✝️🙏🏽
Hey AOK, glad you liked this one from clayton. Another one of Clayton’s I think you would love is “Jesus Over Depression”. It is one of his deepest and really focuses on some things that are really important in today’s society.
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Yes, I seen Jesus over Depression and it is very deep. I hope he sees it and reacts to it.
This is another great poem from Clayton Jennings
The Living Miracle all his poems are great
@ArtOfKickz This reaction...hit me hard. Im so glad you liked it and paused at the perfect moments to speak your truth. Seriously, much love brother.
Cryptic Wisdom - 7 Years Remix next reaction lol
i use to listen to that spoken word on repeat and id be balling my eyes out. i was going through a hard time but im glad that i am doing alright right now.
I love Clayton he’s amazing, there is another one called depression it is heartfelt.
We see you laughing but we see the pain you are covering with it. Laughing is such a complicated coping mechanism that I think most of us use. Stay strong 💪
I'm still here ladies and gentlemen 🔥🔥🙌🙌
Praise the lord!
This is so good, I'm glad that you were able to be strong enough to continue. The people that are left suffer for the rest of their lives
We've been through a lot.... there are some difficult times in life and we think about how comfortable giving up sounds... But I can't and won't like you're fighting everyday, so I will too.
God bless us all.
I cried. Cuz i feel it! 🙏
Thank you I know there over a hundred comments but when you paused that song and looked into the camera and told me not to do I could tell you ment it you really ment it so thankyou god works in unique ways and god came to me through you Thank you
I’ve been waiting for this on the other channel. I’m glad you put it out because this man saved my life.
Imagine people disapproving you, the world turns around against you, you are trying to make it better place but the more you try the more you fail, each try to get back on track takes away your energy away, you watch your happiness slowly decays and then you give up... But there are other ways, if you are lucky enough you will meet right people that will Boost your happiness you will still be depressed but you gain the ability to recharge yourself just like we charge our cellphones and that makes you want to keep on living and not ending your life, there is also a third way you fall into hatred you become the anarchy but this is a way to big topic to talk about, good video though, love you mate!
This song had such an impact on me. BLESS all those who are struggling
I’m so glad you found the light bro honestly I have depression and anxiety horrible . I thought one day of leaving but I cannot to my mother and friends family GOD
Oh god, I see the title and the thumbnail, and it scared me, I'm not anything like a speaker giving a meaning not to do something and here's why you shouldn't do that, you know basically what you do, all I do is play games and watch youtube and talk with my friends and loved ones but it reminded me that at one point I had to help my girlfriend, she was very depressed and had suicidal thoughts, and not being a speaker it was really hard, so when anyone talks about depression and stuff I get really uncomfortable and scared, I don't get emotional and don't cry often, but it'd be nice to cry to release stress.
Thank you so much for being here. I'm having a really hard time with my physical and mental health and was wishing it all would end. I even had it all planned out but your words snapped me out of it when most of my family and my therapist turned their backs to me. Depression and PTSD turmoil is hard to explain but I'll try. On the bad days, like today, it feels like I'm drowning and no one around me will help pull me up. Your words and the video you watched felt like the lord was using y'all to reach my heart. Thank you
Clayton Jennings is my favorite spoken word poet he speaks the trust and lights my path when my life is low, but he lets me know that all the bad makes the good feel better
This was honestly the best so far! Truly inspirational man!
I'm glad you didn't go through with it. My husband has had this battle on and off for the past 6 years. Just when he would pull himself out of it it was like something dragging him back in. He is doing a ton better now. Still has the off days but we fight through it.
It sounds like you are having what we call racing thoughts lol I'm typing while I listen to you many people are having the same problems depression and anxiety are just worse now because we are out of normal routines. I am a psychiatric nurse this is so true for many of my patients. I'm going to share this on my Facebook page
Clayton Jennings is so amazing i love him so much thanks for being a voice for so many people i admire that
Bro, you don't need an explanation. We appreciate you posting at all. You're doing a great thing with this channel. I appreciate you and I'm sure I'm not the only one. Jump up on that high horse cause between this and your reaction channel, people listen.👌🏻👌🏻
I've been battling depression, anxiety and bipolar disorder since I was 12. Attempted suicide many times, each time a different way. If it weren't for the lord I wouldn't be here. He's the ONLY person who has saved me.
Much love bro and respect how you add your own personal experiences and your not the only one right now with the mind messing with ya keep doing what ya doing man
I used to want to absorb all the depression in the world too. I wanted to take it and let it devour me, release me. I still want to absorb all the misery out there but now I want to devour it.
I know what you're talkin about, you've got so many irons in the fire your mind won't shut off....I deal with the same thing....
He's amazing always gives me chills
I suffer with COPD chronic bronchitis and emphysema I have to get out, get out and get some sunshine that will help you sleep. I suffer with a grocery list of ailments. I will admit that if it weren't for my faith and love for the Lord God ❤ I would have done myself in after losing my husband to a hereditary brain aneurysm. GOD is my rock as well as my husband was. I fall 3-10 times a day and no help from anyone. I have my service dog, but I have no one else. So ya there have been many times that the devil has tempted me to take my life... No, God is my Pilot, that's how I make it every single day.
I live in severe physical pain every day because of my fibromyalgia disease which there's no cure out to the public as of yet, and being born with arthritis on top of this, there are times I just want to give up, but I know I can't
I'm praying for you.
Even though I have never met you I'm thankful for finding you... Bringing joy and solace to many
I don’t know guys, I cried out for help plenty of times but here I am almost every day with that thing at my temple. I hope my guys that are struggling are given some small beautiful thing in life to help them hold on. I know that’s all I need but it’s been months.
There was one day I had convinced myself that that was gonna be the last day for me I thought of how I was gonna do it but I’m glad I talked with my parents that was one of the most emotional moments of my life when I was talking to them about it I and on the upswing of stuff right now everything is going my way right now
Thanks for this one your the best it really helped me
Liking this before I even look at it💯This man can teach if you listen and understand from your life and others that you may know!
I'm glad you are doing better and pushing forward...and being brave enough to speak your truth on this. I know that this hit me....I needed to hear this. Thank you @artofkickz
I appreciate this video so much. Im going through some serious pain rn but it’s people like you and videos like this that help me through.
*Who ever in here to release some feelings. Know that you are not alone with huge struggles going through your body and mind. Being confused at which way to go from here.. but let me tell you something. Just the fact that you are here, is a sign of strenght. A sign from your heart that you are not done seeking, watching, hearing, viewing or breathing. One step at the time, one breath at the time. Can’t do 5 steps in a rush, the fall will make you feel it even more. Accept that reaching the top, takes time and is ment to be so. Even if you carry much more than the next person on your path, let it build you. There is nobody tougher and nobody warmer in heart than the one struggling but never quit. A few pit-stops here and there are more than fine. But know this, heroes are made from battlefield before they find their happiness. Not from fields of roses without knowledge about the down-times. Be proud of yourself and the journey you got. Answers will reveal themselves for those who fight. Be you and be happy about it!*
Glad to see that you did a reaction to this song. I've been listening to it for a year now and can relate to everything he's saying. The thoughts of killing myself are getting stronger and stronger as the days go by. I've been depressed since I was 15 and still dealing with it at 36. May just give in and do it.
Hay every one this video is a real blessing to me as it should be to you This is a God sending message have I ever been depressed yes darlings alot yes but the one thing I know is that God is strong and heavy protector over me and as well you open your eyes, hearts and let him be there for you please don't let the enemy take you out by talking to you in your ears you are not beautiful , strong and no one cares about you telling you are not worthy enough ect ect. I am telling you that you are worthy enough to the Father and the Heavens above . Listen go to someone like family,A Paster,Run! Run! Run! Lay all out on the Alter please do this for your self
Bruh you should do a bunch more Clayton Jennings!!
Thank you for sharing Clayton Jennings! I follow him and he is fantastic. Much love and respect from Las Vegas
When my daughter was young i tried to kill myself. She found me and it scared her so bad she called 911. I had taughted her a week before. If i haven't i may might not be here. I thank god that i didn't die that day. I would have missed her and her brothers grow. I still fight depression but i try to keep it from getting there again
Pray you stay strong and blessed🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾💕❤️💕❤️💕❤️
Hang in there
This helps me, I'm gonna leave my depression behind me and I too want to leave a legacy
I see all of ''Nature'' as a God. That beeing said, i do not want to be a part of a society that treats its surrounding so poorly by ''free will''. So i end up in a constant mental fight over my own exsistance...
So crazy story but a couple of months ago I was so angry and so in pain and I got to drinking and listen to music on TH-cam but as I started to give up I grab my gun and put it to my head this song started playing mind u never heard it before and it save my life and I'll say I believe that was gods work amen everyone stay strong god looking out for u
"Let me pick u up, if u don't know how to" this
Love Clayton He is Amazing 💗 goosebumps 💖
You finally reacted to this! This song in particular helped save my life last year..
I just found you on here. you just don't know how much this touched my heart. Thank you so much for sharing your heart with us all. Blessings in Jesus name
Mad respect for you bro. I’m 22 now, when I was 20 my ex of 5 years left me and that put me in some different dark places. Let’s just say it done me bad. Phora and his music got me through so much, Sinner Part 4, Numb, Fake Smiles, Fake Smiles 2, What Happened to Us. So many songs and his lyrics hit me so deep. Definitely worth a listen. Also NF, how could you leave us. Definitely worth a listen
Wow this song saved my life one night in 2019
Does anyone feel like they're alive for other people? Like, I don't enjoy the majority of my life. There are certain things I love doing, but they don't make it worth it. I live in chronic pain and depression and anxiety. I'm alive for my family, because I can't imagine the hole my death would leave. But I overall Don't enjoy my life. I'm working on forging my way out, but im very very tired all around...
React to all of his poetry! It tells a story!!!! So powerful. Love Clayton!!
I been here man.... i tried to shoot myself cause i was tired of the physical and verbal abuse of my step father . I better now and my step father is in jail. I don’t know what told me to not to pull the trigger. But i glad i listen
I’m glad you did too ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Man, I also struggled my battle against depression for 10 years or so. I also clinged onto the same thing you did, I knew my mother would be destroyed, and I could never do something so horrible for my own mother. So I struggled through for my mother sake, as the pain I would bear is nothing compared to what I would put her through. Now I have been depression free for a year and no thoughts of suicide.
The last time I had suicide thoughts I went deep. I had my letter written to all the people I cared about, but thankfully I never went through it. I figured that to battle this depression, which is mostly hidden and never known, I would share what I wrote to some of the people on my list. After I did that, I never saw anything to my depression.
I think one of the major contribution to the effectiveness of depression, is that it's hidden and unknown to the loved ones around us.
Clayton speaks the truth I have severe anxiety and depression and severe PTSD and when I found Clayton just listening to him speak as helped me cope a little better and you should check out Clayton Jennings-anxiety
I needed to see this video thank you so much man
I think of my nana she is what stopped me and Clayton u should listen to more of his spoken word if u haven’t he is so good and powerful and inspirational
I highly recommend looking up Joseph Solomon as well. His “depression is” video was the moment my life changed forever
Thank you.
I get the "just ask and I promise he will guide you through, when I was at the lowest I've ever been. when I went to throw myself over that bridge into oncoming traffic. When I was stood on the roof tops trying pluck up the courage to end it I asked and had nothing. You want to know who saved me. My son I would say it's the devils work not gods work. Because I heard blood curdling screams from my son in that moment. I had visions of him not copeing. I'd say the devil saved me just because of the way I was saved. The times I've prayed the times I've called upon God. The devil shows up more often than not. Could someone explain this to me?? Because still to this day I'm confused about it
The devils job is to take you away from God so that confusion you feel is exactly what he wants. Ask God for clarity in the cloud of confusion. I'll be praying for you!
Not being there to see how things play out. That was a great point.
Have you seen "dear Ava" or "Goodbye Ava"? Oh my god. I sobbed like a baby
Cool seeing you doing some spoken word. Check out Autocorrect humanity by prince EA (and really any other prince EA) OCD poem by Neil H. And paper people by Harry Baker.
I use modern spoken work poetry to introduce my poetry unit each year.
In a few months time my daughter will be gone, I will be on my own and even more alone. She's moving in with her boyfriend and she can't stand been here any more. On that day, my world will be gone. I just hope I can stay strong.
Any person can achieve any realistic goal that they set themselves, and whilst things my be hard , hopeless, impossible and you may feel hurt , pain, loss, anger etc at the very least they are still feelings and once you make that irreversible choice and it is a choice, there is nothing. No love no laughter no highs no lows just nothing!!! So even if you feel sad pain or whatever embrace it because you are lucky enough to still feel something at all. I bet that you would go through 100 lows to feel 1high moment in life. So turn your frown upside down you and only you control your life destiny future etc.................or maybe I’m just full of shit but that’s fine too because it’s not everyone’s outlook it’s mine and you can do with it what you choose
@@ryandrummond551 Thank you kind Sir.
Suicide doesn't end the pain. It just passes it on to everyone in u life and more then likely it makes it into more ppl that think of that as the only option. Man or woman we r all human. All it takes is asking. Asking for help or asking if someone is ok. U could save a life and that life might b your own.
What if those people wont help you? They have to live with the consequences they are not my concern anymore.
I can relate to the sleep thing buddy....although late, this is an everyday problem for me...every year problem for me. When I'm awake, I feel so sleepy and yawny, yet when I go to bed every single thing goes through my mind and I just can't sleep...
I can relate buddy. I hope its better now, maybe its not, but I just hope it is.
I heard this after my cousin took his life by gun shot. It broke me down to tears 😢
So sorry 💔
@@memenow2345 thank you
1200 dollars doesnt bring back a loved one that took thier life because they caouldnt handle the shit that is going on... Noone is talking about them deaths my twin was going to take her life i called and luckily i did because she had wrote letters to 3 of us telling us she was sorry she had to. I stopped her by a phone call so please call and check on just one person mental illness is real i told her the bible says if you take your life you will go to hell she said she is living in hell now 😢🙏
I loved these videos I also suffer from anxsiety and depression but doing a lot better. I love your chennel man.
I don't get it. This video has 10K views, but only 791 likes at the time I'm commenting. You've analyzed the song, you've shared some of your own experience with thoughts of suicide, plus the fact that you wanted to also take others' pain away from them. You have such a wonderful heart & I love that you show it like you do! I am so grateful that I found your channel! Thank you, for being you 💚
First off, I might be 14 at the moment but I understand what you feel. I’m here if you need to talk, I promise I understand. Here’s some info about me...
severely depressed and have several anxiety disorders. I relate to this so freakin much. I have sever anxiety and panic attacks to the point of fainting and getting sick. It sneaks up on you randomly and sucks tremendously. I’m on anti depressants now but took 5 years and a near suicide attempt in middle school. Music saved me. I feel it was God using the one thing he knows would work well which is Harry styles. He makes me happy in my worst days and for a few minutes of a song, I feel ok. If anyone is struggling like I am, take a deep breath, calm down and take it one step at a time. Stressing yourself out makes it worse. I know it’s difficult but you’ve got this my friend :)
22 by sailor Jerri, Boone Cutler’s Spartan Pledge, and Soldier Hard’s Song Spartan Pledge are powerful and have helped me in my dark times.
thank you........just, thank you......
People really should find time and listen to a band called blue October. They pulled me through some real dark times
My man this is intense. I dig this SO much like, damn.
Have you ever tried listening to Henry Rollins “I Know You”
Your ending messed me up good. When I cry, it's about everyone... Mom's sister, grandma's daughter that died in a car crash, my grandpa I didn't really get to know... Fuck l appreciate you
Yes . In my town in Georgia. We was 0 percent until a couple of weeks ago,but nobody is taking it seriously. Now we are at like 65 and climbing. I don't go anywhere unless I have too .
Jefferson bethke - the greatest artist, you won't be dissapointed by this spoken word video
Man this is deep
Happy for you❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Art, I'm going to tell you, that inability to sleep is because there's something weighing on your mind that's trying to make you pay attention to it. You've been going going going nonstop, I'll bet, and now something's trying to talk to you, be it God or whoever, and your brain is just so full of clamor and noise you can't hear His voice.
Here's what you need to do, if you decide to try this: Take yourself a full three days away - your fans will understand if you need to breathe, man - and unplug from the internet. Unplug from social media. Give yourself the chance to breathe without it sitting on you. It may be in the back of your mind, but do this now while you're waiting for the blends to come in for your next orders. Meditate. Chill. Take a freakin' bubble bath, whatever. Just make yourself slow down. Mentally open yourself up to your emotions and make yourself breathe and slow down. Ask yourself, what is it that I'm missing that's screaming at me? What am I needing to see? God, what are you trying to tell me? I'm trying to listen. Help me to listen. Yes, it may sound corny, but tell me I'm wrong? Sometimes, you have to disconnect to reconnect. Once you have a couple of days to slow down, you're going to find your dreams might get really vivid - that's okay, that's your subconscious bringing up that garbage you're needing to process because it's blocking you from moving forward. When you wake up, write the dreams down, and see if you spot continuing themes. Stuff like weather conditions, patterns, anything in the dreams can bring a clarity with God guiding you. Just ask Him to help you understand.
People often think that the mysteries of God are dead. They're not - people just don't seek them anymore. But by creating us as His divine children who simply fell short and sinned, we still have that connection to Him and He can guide us - if we're willing to listen.
Just remember, though, that even Christ spoke to a soothesayer. If there are other symptoms, Art, it'd behoove you to go visit your doctor, just to discuss what the symptoms are and make sure that there's not an underlying issue that can be caught early. God doesn't expect us to be stupid, neither. >.>
I wish you health and most of all, comprehension of things through God's love. Namaste.
P.S. I'm in Georgia, too. I still think Kemp's outta his damn fool mind!
DUDE DONT FUGHT THE TEARS! I was one of those guys raided boys don't no matter what.Until my 30s got divorced cried like a baby never thought I could feel pain like that crying is your realese.Been there very close it's is a strange thing to wish to die but at the same time be diying to live!!
Im so glad u reacted tp this. This "song" literally saved me so many times. I allways listen to it when I am suicidal. Which been often. Nobody ever told me not to.kill myself. My parents actually told I should go and Kill myslef. This songs makes me feel.like at least one person want me to be alive
I'm glad you are here amongst the living. It can be hard some days I know, but there is always a reason to stay alive. No matter how small and/or insignificant it may seem. At least it's a reason to live.
Should definitely do Clayton Jennings Dear Anxiety!
He did that one first.
therealmillerman oh okay thanks!
Thank you
You should react to GOOD BYE AVA. A story about losing a good friend
Consider listening to "God" from Clayton, every time I listen to that song, I feel God just moving. It is a great song, you should listen to it sometime.
Yo I’ve been introducing my mom to this guy
I don't know how much of the God stuff I believe, but the fact that Clayton is willing to both talk about God and mental health is huge for me. I have talked to far too many Christians who say mental health is weakness and proof you're not a good Christian. In the end that's what pushed me away from all of that. Clayton seems so real though, and so do your reactions. I appreciate your honesty.
Hey, have you tried the Wim Hof method. It's a great way to calm down your body and brain. Breathing less has changed my relationship with anxiety. Breathing activates your Sympathetic, holding your breath activates the para-sympathetic nervous system.
The sad part for me the reason I didn't go through with it was because my cats had no one else. People in my life have made me feel replaceable so I really didn't think it would matter to anyone...I'm 53 and I judge myself the hardest....why didn't I fight when getting sold...just because he beat me...the things I did to survive were against my morels and I have a hard time forgiving my younger self
I don’t want to die, but there has to be an end to this pain.
Im trying to be a rapper i dedicate songs to god and try to make the pain go away with my muisc
Don't let anything or anyone stop ya
@Elizabeth Davis yes i also listen to nf... But i rap in spnish and i have a niece that sings in English... This is my TH-cam Channel where i upload my songs
💗 Clayton Jennings. 💗
It is so hard dealing with depression, wither it be a chemical imbalance or environmental. My depression it the fan was when life for became even harder and I'm talking like daddy removed from his trust fund, lord knows I've never had that luxury. My father, although I forgive and now realize he clearly has some serious mental health issues of his own to work and I prey he does. He was angry, always acted like we never told anything in advance when would, he would no problem running late for everything while putting you on guilt trip, if you had pain his was always worse ( I have Psoriatic arthritis and it is Diabling without my medication which took a while to figure out). One day he apologized and said to me because he needed my help so we got a trailer in my name and for a while we got along but deep down I knew it would end I just didn't want to acknowledge it. One year I find hes drinking the following year he leaves and I'm here taking care of mom (she has a hard to moving around)and my brother (he has autism) and I was scared, angry, and depressed. Anytime heard from I develop panic attacks. I wanted to die more then once and before even these issues but thankfully I always had someone to help me. I'm still working on my issues but this song brought me back to the ones who saved me even if they don't know it.