Thank you for your kind words and encouragement, but more than anything, thank you for being transparent about your struggles too. Made me feel not so alone. Thank you again. Keep fighting.
Hi, I'm being honest I didn't no you. I was watching this on AOKs channel. Every solitary word you said touched my soul. I WAS THAT PERSON and for a very long time too until the day I actually DID TRY TO TOP MYSELF!. BUT MY SAVIOUR MY LORD AND MY DIVINE FAMILY UP ABOVE stopped that from happening. Not only am I alive, but I WOKE UP FULLY, when at best I should have been brain damaged after the amount of ***** I took. I've had my awakening too. I'm a lightworker now , working with my Angel's and helping and educating others that the LIGHT WILL ALWAYS WIN AND OVERCOME. THANKYOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART AND SOUL for your music and knowledge. I've just sent this on to a friend who is sadly going through it at the moment . All I can say is THANKYOU and I'm sending you LOVE AND LIGHT ALWAYS. ❤😇😇🙏🙏😘😘🤗🤗😇😇❤
Clayton Jennings spits truth hardcore. I have been listening to his spoken word for awhile. Don't sweat the tears they just mean you felt his words. It's kind of the point of spoken word.
This might sound odd, but seeing you break down, while heartbreaking, it comforted me at the same time. As a proud man who fights with depression and anxiety in the shadows, to see another man become emotional at this video and what we're going through, shows me that I am not alone in the tears. Thank you so much for this reaction and being real and true in it. You gave me hope and knowledge that I am not alone in this. Clayton is amazing and helping me cope! Prayers to all of us who suffer silently and smile publicly
Brother, there's healing in every tear, when a man cries, it's not because he's weak, it's because he's been strong for way too long, let that shit out!
Thank you for actually showing your feelings. Too many people nowadays show only the good parts. People don't show the other feelings they have. So much so that people can't handle it when others cry. When I expressed to people I was seeing a therapist, I could tell I was judged by some of the people that were supposed to be my friends when I was in college. It made me feel alone and isolated, but I didn't want to hide what I go through because why should I have? But what's more, seeing a man being open and honest about what he went through makes me feel like you are one of the good ones, man. Thank you.
I know I am late, but I want to say something if I can. I have anxiety and depression. Nothing helps me but I push through cause what other choice is there? I feel this speech keenly, and I know there are millions of us going through the same thing. Hello to you all, I would never have the courage to speak about this face to face. I am thankful for this medium to speak our minds. Thank you Aok for bringing my attention to this spoken word and the author. I hope you and all of us out here has a better day than the last. Peace be with you.
I battle everyday with my PTSD, depression and anxiety and it's a struggle everyday but I have to keep driving forward for my kids they deserve the best
❤ @Artofkickz I'm sitting here in tears fighting for you and with you..The transparency you share with those who can relate is giving healing. I see STRENGTH in you. Although, at times the anxiety makes you feel worthless, just know you very existence is by design, and your doing what you've been called to do. Though obedience in that, you are recieving healing while you help heal others. And others see your WORTH. Its unmeasured! Give credit where credit is due. This just makes US all appreciate you sooooooo much more. Your so much more than a voice with a brand. Big Thanks and huge open hugs. BE relentless UNAPOLOGETICALLY!😘
This really hit hard. I’m finding it hard to tell people how I’m feeling. I was in tears sooner than you lol. Even right now I’m finding it hard to hang on. I prayed for the first time in a while. I asked for help to be able to pay my bills and my mortgage that’s past due and the very next day not only did I get approved for overtime (I’m a temp at this warehouse) but I also got my stimulus check in my bank account tomorrow. This reminded me why I keep fighting. There’s some hope for those who work hard and pray harder.
So glad you watched this Clayton Jennings is one amazing ass poet all of his spoken words leave me in tears just like this he knows how to reach your heart and have you relate to his words love this reaction
This made me cry. I've been in this hell. We all feel alone in the dark of our mind. And thank you for being real. I respect men who can be honest with what they've been thru. Thank you. And damn, he hit me right in the heart.
When I saw you crying I wanted to come and give you a big ass bear hug man, I understand so deeply what you're going through and how hard it is. Everyone who goes through this is so much stronger then we're given credit for and we're underestimated because of it. If you ever need someone to lean on im here man, I know you don't know me, but I feel your emotions through the screen and I understand. You're so much more powerful and so much stronger than you may believe. God never gives us more than we can handle even if we believe we can't in that moment.
All clayton jennings videos are powerful and hit deep in ure soul never give up fighting ure anxiety and depression no matter what happens in life. The devil will never win stay strong and fight back everyone bless up 🙏❤️💯👊
This was deep; we struggle so much behind the masks we wear. When people ask us how we are doing we say we are ok. Anxiety has robbed us, robbed me of my LIFE, but we have to stay fighting and prayed up. This was powerful man.
I know exactly what you’re going through big bro. Earlier this year I had a severe mental breakdown. I was always anxious, scared, paranoid, crying a lot, etc. It was bad and with what’s going on now, It’s starting to come back but I’m powering through it. So you’re never alone big man
Also, I feel you bro, your mother passed away. My dad passed away back in like 2017, he died from CLL. The death of my father teared me down so much and that coupled with some other events almost made me commit suicide. But just as Clayton said, "...but HE reached in an placed hope deep inside of me..." God saved me from myself. You're not alone in your struggles man. And for such a genuine reaction I'm subscribing to your channel. Keep going strong m8, may God be with you!
It's fine to cry and shows that even men have to let it go and be broken down sometimes because we are all human. Love seeing when people, like you, can relate and know that others are going through it but that there is hope. Clayton Jennings is a wonderful poet and testimony. God is only refuge and peace in a time of trouble even when we feel like even God doesn't love us but He does. Love your reactions!
@ArtOfKickz Thank You...from the bottom of my heart...for reacting to this, including some of your story. You're not alone. I don't see you as just one of my favorite youtubers, to me, you're my brother and I mean that with everything in me...I knew you would like it because we both share that demon, and I knew you'd cry too, I cry every time, it's hard not to cry when God. Is speaking to us. Now...for another tear jerker react to Please Don't Kill Yourself (seen other people suggesting it too.) If you ever need me, I'm here, thought about maybe coming to ATL on a weekend and linking up with you and just hanging out not as a fan but as a friend. Love you homie...keep ya chin up.
I just found you today after listening to Dear Anxiety, I felt his spoken word so deep, but your breakdowns made it even more deep. I've been in therapy for a while now, and this spoke volumes to me. Thank you for this.
Thank you for the upload. I really needed this today. I was on the verge of a breakdown and to see this in my suggested feed has helped today. Thank you again AOK. You always come through when I need you
I saw the video. And it got me really hard bro. Some times it's ok to cry and get some help. The happiest people are usually the saddest. Kip it up bro. God bless 🙌 🙏.
Aww I LOVE Clayton Jennings! He's so good, you really need to go thru all of his catalog. Thank you for doing this. Much love and respect from Las Vegas
Man I’ve been watching both of your channels for a while now and this is the first one I’m commenting on mainly because Clayton Jennings’ videos literally saved my life. I suffer from anxiety and fell into depression for a whole year but then I started watching his videos. Although I still have anxiety and it gets bad at times it’s nowhere near what I used to be. Watching his videos showed me how to conquer what I was going through and has turned me into a whole different person than what I was.
Hey. I just need to tell you that I see you. You made an impression on me even back before I started to fight my demons. And now, well, I feel even more grateful to know you. You are truly an inspiration to me. I have much love for you. Thank you for this reaction.
i love clayton i just stumbled upon this video because i wanted to see how other people felt about him. you are so amazing, love your video. and REAL MEN CRY. keep up the amazing work, much love.
Your life isn’t over - Trent Shelton That video literally saved my life and I love your channel cause you know this struggle and you’re bringing awareness when we can’t voice it
Love this, Soo deep! I'm a detailed person.... Did anyone else notice that in the beginning the group sign said "Anxiety Support Group" and at the end it said "Anxiety Supportless Group" MAN!
As someone who’s gone to a support group I can relate. It didn’t do anything for me. I walked in and listened to people talk about their problems. One girl was saying her parents don’t understand what she’s going through and how she should be allowed to go out with her friends. Another dude was older than me talking about how his parents are threatening to kick him out if he doesn’t pay rent. I’m 25 and that was a year ago. I’m not saying my problems are more important than anyone else’s but as a recovering alcoholic who almost died I just couldn’t connect with anyone there. I gave it a second chance and went back the following week but I didn’t last 10 minutes before just walking out. They even tried to get me to stay. It was a joke and it didn’t help at all. Supportless group is very accurate.
@@TrashTalk878 Jesus Christ is the answer. HE is the peace that this world cannot give. I'm praying for you! Just want to tell you that Jesus does love you, and He has always been there with you. Even if it's painful.
It's scary just how much hit home with video. I am right here with you and every single person that feels like they don't matter, like no one cares, like the world would be better off with out you. No you do matter, people do care and you will be missed. Don't let the demons in your head and control your life.I am here right beside you.
I've been watching you for a while now and relate alot but this hit me on many level helps people understand what they may be going thru and not even know this is beautiful man good reaction man
This moved me sooo much when I first found it really impacted my life and made me realize some things about myself. I love how down to earth you are and so open minded. Thank you for the content brother much love and stay safe❤
Brother. Your not alone. This brought me alot of comfort. My dog had a seizure today and I spent time in my garage screaming at God. This meant alot to me with this reaction. Your honest and true. Which made me subscribe. We're not alone in this war brother
I wish I would've come across this video a lot sooner. This had me so emotional because everything he said in that video and everything that artofkickz was saying in his reaction, were true. I relate so much to this as I had and continue to battle my anxiety and depression every day. Thank y'all so much for the video and reaction to it. I'm glad to see just how much I'm not alone in this battle/war.
This does hit home for a lot. Like Clayton said everyone is going through something but won’t admit it. I also had the same reaction as you AOK. I cried so hard when I heard this the first time. Until this day I listen to it every night before I go to sleep. I have memorized every word. I say it with Clayton every night, like a night time prayer. I don’t know why but it feels like I let everything out from my day that I struggled with. It helps me sleep so much better. Like a weight at night being lifted. God bless , stay positive and safe. You’re not alone. ❤️ ☮️ 🙏
Brother for this channel you should definitely react to all of clayton’s videos. He is one of the reasons why I turned my life around. Keep up the great work
Hey AOK, it’s super hard for a mom, wife, daughter to admit the fear of not knowing what to do... being at the end of your rope only one more knot and then a free fall.. we have our kids coming to us needing something, husband returning home after a 12 hour shift looking for a safe comfortable place to enter, elderly mom or dad needing help with dr visits, shopping, or just someone they are familiar with to just be there for them to feel ok.. now kids home homework done, dinner finished sink full of dishes, husband wanting your attention, phone ringing from the parents Hopi g you can pop over tomorrow.... house is silent, so much to do exhaustion creeping in followed closely by anxiety for it being 3 am, dishes still in sink, laundry piled up on the couch, everyone sleeping and here I sit awake to exhausted to sleep, wishing for just a day just 24 hours of time to just be left alone... guilt, how can I feel this way... 5 am now dishes done laundry folded lunches made and packed, finally laying down as husband rouses sweetly saying he wished he could just lay there and sleep in like his wife.... same routine day in and day out... it’s a battle but I’m strong... I’ll continue this path I chose till I can’t follow it anymore... it’s hard for men to admit they need help, that’s true... we all have chains around our neck, they get heavy but sometimes they aren’t so bad...
I struggle with anxiety since I was a kid. His words hit deep with me. It makes me feel like I am not alone. Others feel like I do. It makes it easier. I been on a low for 4 months and I just found his music, I'm a new fan of his.
As someone who has fought with anxiety way before I knew what it was, I'm amazed at how much help comes from others fighting the same thing. Sometimes, it's good just to know that you are not as alone as you think you are.
An amazing reaction I always love your reactions but this was truly special and to someone who helped me through a lot I almost lost the battles to my demons much respect your not alone I'm now writing poetry for others who have been through the same
Please do "goodbye ava" by clayton Jennings that one hits home for me. Love your truth man helps me speak mine and we all know how hard it is for us men
Its ok to be emotional, your heart is being touched with love and strength. Way to conquer your demons because its not easy to do I know I've been there to
Thank you so much for this channel I suffer from anxiety and depression and it really helps me keep up your an amazing 😉 man May God bless you sweetheart 😜♥️💯💯
What you just said "if you were never taught to believe in me you wouldnt fear me." This is the things i think of at night. It makes me question churches, Pasteur's, and even if god himself is real
after the last video that you mentioned outwitting the devil, i went and listen to it. i absolutely loved it. it blew me away that some of what was said was exactly what i had been thinking and feeling for years. it was nice to know i wasn't the only person with that train of thought. ever since i started following your channel last year, hearing your story and how you felt through it made me not feel so alone in this world because the words you spoke sounded just like things i would say.
Wassup AOK just wanted to say thankyou for your honesty in this reaction. Very few times on platforms like youtube do we ever get to see the "real" person but you were open and honest enough tonlet that happen and i respect you alot for that. Hopefully if just one person benefits from seeing this then you will have made a difference. One love brother
This was tough. I have autism, ocd, bi-polar, depression, among a host of other mental deficiencies (as I call it). And my life is a living hell I just learned to live with. I’m often misunderstood and misjudged. It’s easy to feel invisible with a world of people around me. And this pulled out some of those raw sad emotions I feel. Made the song relatable in many ways. And at the end it’s why when people offer to help, I pass. It was too real. But at the same time it felt good knowing I’m not in this constant battle alone. 😊 great reaction man!
Your a hero brother.. Your the reason why the people around you are full of joy. so many people dont understand that they are wasting away their lives away always being miserable when people like you and your family are full of joy and see the good things in the world and just try to look past the negatives. I hope your blessed beyond all your wildest imaginations and the lord loves you and has you in his hands at all times. Much love brother.
Calvin Engle damn, that means more than you’ll know and I appreciate you! 👍 a true Sincere thank you! The only reason I’ve made it and I have risen is because of the lord himself. When I felt weak, when I felt like I literally had nothing and nothing to live for. I looked up and said “lord, please carry my life while I’m not in my right mind”. I tear up thinking about it. Because after I said that I just shattered to pieces on the ground. The difficult part to explain is that during that moment it’s almost like a felt a hand on my shoulder. And a soothing feeling that came over me almost as if to say don’t ever forget that tomorrow is a new day. You never know what tomorrow may bring. And that was so powerful it has been the energy that keep me moving till today and will stay with me till my time is up in this world. It’s how I can experience all I’ve mentioned and much more and still rise above it and live life. It’s my way of saying I am the one who’s in control and not my mind. My mind is part of me I control it, it doesn’t control me. And all this has been so so powerful to me that nothing will ever bring me down. And I share my story with only one hope that helps others. That’s it. Nothing more. 🙂
@@leosthrivwithautism dude if your speech is as good as your wording in writing then you need to look for motivational material to put out maybe talking to kids at schools or something or starting a charity for other people in your shoes.. Seriously man your struggle can be others peoples hand on their shoulder metaphoricaly if you see what I mean.. Not everyone has that knowledge or can get to it easily maybe they are past that point and didn't get that feeling you did but if you can do it so can they that's why I said a school maybe people younger than you will be easier to talk infront of and maybe more work can be done because you can change the rest of their lives.. Your a great person and you deserve the world man keep it up!!
Calvin Engle thank you! Seriously. Artofkickz channel had been speaking to me. And I went for years watching TH-cam channel after TH-cam channel always scared to comment and speak. I’m a selfless person and I don’t want to put a light on me because if I develop something I want it from a perspective that’s for everyone to use. I don’t need credit or fame. I really don’t. But if I can some how find a way to speak knowledge in a way that everyone can consume and process in their own ways that would mean the world to me. I’m thinking of starting a TH-cam channel myself. I just haven’t figured out the right angel that I want to take. TH-cam is a platform that would be easier for me. In person speech, because of my struggles, is way more difficult for me to get through in a meaningful way. People say take the leap just put it out and work on it. But for me it takes something thinking over because if you aren’t careful or strong TH-cam can eat you alive for lack of better wording. I have to have a plan of sorts to protect me. Tough skin so to speak, to not allow any form of negativity to get through to me. Because words to me mean a lot. And if I’m not careful it will hurt me as it has before. I really appreciate the encouragement. My whole life I’ve felt like I have message to give I just never knew how to go about it. But the more I think on this the more I’m slowly finding my own courage and voice to “speak my truth” without fear of what may come. Artofkickz, I promise I’m not stealing your saying man. Haha. But your saying has a deep meaning to me. And Calvin, good sir you proved to me I might just have an audience who might enjoy the content and message I have to bring. I show mad respect to artofkickz because this is one of his channels and the man is amazing! So if I successfully get my channel of the ground I’ll attribute it to him and give him a shout and one of his great followers and audience members too. I really needed this. Thanks artofkickz, thank you for the encouragement too Calvin! This literally means the world to me! 👍
@@leosthrivwithautism man you can do anything you set your mind to.. I know it!! You can do it and man I suggest in your videos maybe disabling comments or not allowing yourself to read them or something maybe have a family member go thru and erase all the negativity because the thing is people project themselves or what they are scared of onto others so maybe they are "perfectly normal" but are a bit slow and you might have a larger vocabulary than them or think in a better way they will put you down because your issues they might think bad things because its what they see in the mirror but they can't admit they need any help and just because it's over the internet they would never say anything on real like but they think this internet trolling doesn't effect others but it does. So man my advice to you is to follow your heart.. Whatever you like to do record it and record your speeches and how you feel and what you would like to change with your videos and just go for it.. This platform is very accepting to people who are different there is alot of channels of people with one leg and alot of other disabilities and they do very well (numbers wise) but just remember this is for you to get your knowledge and understanding out to the world and project yourself into something that will last longer than you will.. Remember we can all die tomorrow but what you make in video will live virtually forever and that's something that means something.. Even if you help one person make it through one more day man you succeeded. I hope to subscribe to you and see you put out some content man I will love to see whatever you put out!! Much love and wishing you all the best from florida! And by the way your writing abilities are flawless and your extremly smart.. Dont allow anyone to put you down man your a freaking superhero!
yet when i right this i am not finished with the Video but at minute 14 i can say it is one of the best if not the best reaction if ever seen thank you for that :)
Hey A.O.K! I love your content and I just wanted to say something I hold valuable to me was a reference in the movie doctor strange. The Ancient One says something about dealing with your demons. She says we don't just live with our demons. We learn to simply live above them. Its very powerful. Keep up the great work and content. I enjoy seeing other people who can relate and feel just as everyone else does. We all have demons
Hey man I listen to this whole story with Clayton Jennings it even had me crying man I've been going through the same stuff too and I seen that you had been in it too so I watch all of your stuff
Why I love AOK is he doesn't just pause the video just to repeat word to word what the artist just said (like most reaction channel), but he actually adds on and adds thought to it.
These always get to me because I feel just like that but being raised as a man I was taught to keep shit bottled up and dont let anyone know so I never learned how to tell someone that I'm no where near "okay" its just a word I say in response to "how are you"
Damn AOK I wish we could connect. We have so much in common. Ive delt with suicide attempts. I currently struggle with anxiety. I UNDERSTAND, because I deal with it. I know what it is like to feel like no one understands, because my wife struggles with understanding. Damn thus is one subject along with suicide, that I take VERY SERIOUSLY.
Yeah I'm subscribed to his channel. He's absolutely amazing. He just recently finished reading psalms with those of us unable to go to church with the edicts about social gathering.
What's up A.O.K.!! Don't ever be afraid to cry and let out your real emotions in front of us because we are all here for you, at least I know I am. You're 100% real and that's what I respect the most about you!!
Thank you for your kind words and encouragement, but more than anything, thank you for being transparent about your struggles too. Made me feel not so alone. Thank you again. Keep fighting.
Hi, I'm being honest I didn't no you. I was watching this on AOKs channel. Every solitary word you said touched my soul. I WAS THAT PERSON and for a very long time too until the day I actually DID TRY TO TOP MYSELF!. BUT MY SAVIOUR MY LORD AND MY DIVINE FAMILY UP ABOVE stopped that from happening. Not only am I alive, but I WOKE UP FULLY, when at best I should have been brain damaged after the amount of ***** I took. I've had my awakening too. I'm a lightworker now , working with my Angel's and helping and educating others that the LIGHT WILL ALWAYS WIN AND OVERCOME. THANKYOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART AND SOUL for your music and knowledge. I've just sent this on to a friend who is sadly going through it at the moment . All I can say is THANKYOU and I'm sending you LOVE AND LIGHT ALWAYS. ❤😇😇🙏🙏😘😘🤗🤗😇😇❤
Thank you for doing this
Clayton! These last three months have been rough! I turn 40 in November! The struggle is real! Thank You! For your words!
I'm Just a kid compared to you guys (21) but this is what I needed ❤️we all have our weak times we all need to stay strong love you all
@@jamiewolfejr.9130 i'm more of a kid, i'm 17 but i agree, I thank God that Clayton does what he does
Clayton Jennings spits truth hardcore. I have been listening to his spoken word for awhile. Don't sweat the tears they just mean you felt his words. It's kind of the point of spoken word.
Depression and anxiety is like seeing a sunset and knowing its beautiful, but not being able to appreciate it
This might sound odd, but seeing you break down, while heartbreaking, it comforted me at the same time. As a proud man who fights with depression and anxiety in the shadows, to see another man become emotional at this video and what we're going through, shows me that I am not alone in the tears. Thank you so much for this reaction and being real and true in it. You gave me hope and knowledge that I am not alone in this. Clayton is amazing and helping me cope! Prayers to all of us who suffer silently and smile publicly
You’re so awesome man, rare to see people who are true to themselves but also help others to do the same. You’re blessed man God loves you.
Brother, there's healing in every tear, when a man cries, it's not because he's weak, it's because he's been strong for way too long, let that shit out!
Clayton Jennings is an amazing guy, He writes amazing poems! I love his videos
I love him too..
You can check my spoken word videos too
Much respect man
Thank you for actually showing your feelings. Too many people nowadays show only the good parts. People don't show the other feelings they have. So much so that people can't handle it when others cry. When I expressed to people I was seeing a therapist, I could tell I was judged by some of the people that were supposed to be my friends when I was in college. It made me feel alone and isolated, but I didn't want to hide what I go through because why should I have? But what's more, seeing a man being open and honest about what he went through makes me feel like you are one of the good ones, man. Thank you.
Clayton and NF, two of the best word smiths I've ever listened too
I agree with the others. “Please Don’t Kill Yourself” is a video i still go back and rewatch. It’s totally worth it to react to.
Just watched this today, I felt every tear you shed and every word he spoke.
Hey AOK, if you liked this one from Clayton, you should react to his video “Please Don’t Kill Yourself”, I think you’d like that one a lot.
Please do “please don’t kill yourself”
Goodbye Ava - that was so hard to hear 💔
Simon P yeah that ones also really good
yes he should
I was just thinking this
I am glad he cried on camera most people would not show that in a video but he did that is why he is a real person
Clayton is 💯 his poetry tells his story. He has literally saved my life. He is the real deal! 🤍
its enough to make a grown man cry -officer earl devereaux
I know I am late, but I want to say something if I can. I have anxiety and depression. Nothing helps me but I push through cause what other choice is there? I feel this speech keenly, and I know there are millions of us going through the same thing. Hello to you all, I would never have the courage to speak about this face to face. I am thankful for this medium to speak our minds. Thank you Aok for bringing my attention to this spoken word and the author. I hope you and all of us out here has a better day than the last. Peace be with you.
Clayton helps keep the barrel out of my mouth. Doesn’t get better but I’m here surprisingly.
I battle everyday with my PTSD, depression and anxiety and it's a struggle everyday but I have to keep driving forward for my kids they deserve the best
I love Clayton so much I was so excited when I saw he reacted to this
❤ @Artofkickz I'm sitting here in tears fighting for you and with you..The transparency you share with those who can relate is giving healing. I see STRENGTH in you. Although, at times the anxiety makes you feel worthless, just know you very existence is by design, and your doing what you've been called to do. Though obedience in that, you are recieving healing while you help heal others. And others see your WORTH. Its unmeasured! Give credit where credit is due. This just makes US all appreciate you sooooooo much more. Your so much more than a voice with a brand. Big Thanks and huge open hugs. BE relentless UNAPOLOGETICALLY!😘
This really hit hard. I’m finding it hard to tell people how I’m feeling. I was in tears sooner than you lol. Even right now I’m finding it hard to hang on. I prayed for the first time in a while. I asked for help to be able to pay my bills and my mortgage that’s past due and the very next day not only did I get approved for overtime (I’m a temp at this warehouse) but I also got my stimulus check in my bank account tomorrow. This reminded me why I keep fighting. There’s some hope for those who work hard and pray harder.
Nathan Sikes thank you for those words
MoSSyGamez no problem brother. Thanks for taking the time to read it lol
So glad you watched this Clayton Jennings is one amazing ass poet all of his spoken words leave me in tears just like this he knows how to reach your heart and have you relate to his words love this reaction
This made me cry. I've been in this hell. We all feel alone in the dark of our mind. And thank you for being real. I respect men who can be honest with what they've been thru. Thank you. And damn, he hit me right in the heart.
I'm so glad you finally listened to this. This man saved my life.
When I saw you crying I wanted to come and give you a big ass bear hug man, I understand so deeply what you're going through and how hard it is. Everyone who goes through this is so much stronger then we're given credit for and we're underestimated because of it. If you ever need someone to lean on im here man, I know you don't know me, but I feel your emotions through the screen and I understand. You're so much more powerful and so much stronger than you may believe. God never gives us more than we can handle even if we believe we can't in that moment.
All clayton jennings videos are powerful and hit deep in ure soul never give up fighting ure anxiety and depression no matter what happens in life. The devil will never win stay strong and fight back everyone bless up 🙏❤️💯👊
Yes it is tuff general anxiety bi polar and ptsd so hard to deal with
Just seeing your reaction to his video makes me tear up! Hearing someone say exactly how u feel without even knowing you is crazy! #yournotalone
This was deep; we struggle so much behind the masks we wear. When people ask us how we are doing we say we are ok. Anxiety has robbed us, robbed me of my LIFE, but we have to stay fighting and prayed up. This was powerful man.
I know exactly what you’re going through big bro. Earlier this year I had a severe mental breakdown. I was always anxious, scared, paranoid, crying a lot, etc. It was bad and with what’s going on now, It’s starting to come back but I’m powering through it. So you’re never alone big man
Jennings is the best spoken word poet I've heard
Also, I feel you bro, your mother passed away. My dad passed away back in like 2017, he died from CLL. The death of my father teared me down so much and that coupled with some other events almost made me commit suicide. But just as Clayton said, "...but HE reached in an placed hope deep inside of me..." God saved me from myself. You're not alone in your struggles man. And for such a genuine reaction I'm subscribing to your channel.
Keep going strong m8, may God be with you!
Clayton Jennings is an amazing speaker. He has alot of what I call spoken raps, and they're amazing. Great reaction brother!!
Seeing you cry gives me hope and let’s me know I’m not alone and that if I keep trying to find my way out that I will find my way🙌🙏
It's fine to cry and shows that even men have to let it go and be broken down sometimes because we are all human. Love seeing when people, like you, can relate and know that others are going through it but that there is hope. Clayton Jennings is a wonderful poet and testimony. God is only refuge and peace in a time of trouble even when we feel like even God doesn't love us but He does. Love your reactions!
@ArtOfKickz Thank You...from the bottom of my heart...for reacting to this, including some of your story. You're not alone. I don't see you as just one of my favorite youtubers, to me, you're my brother and I mean that with everything in me...I knew you would like it because we both share that demon, and I knew you'd cry too, I cry every time, it's hard not to cry when God. Is speaking to us.
Now...for another tear jerker react to Please Don't Kill Yourself (seen other people suggesting it too.) If you ever need me, I'm here, thought about maybe coming to ATL on a weekend and linking up with you and just hanging out not as a fan but as a friend. Love you homie...keep ya chin up.
I just found you today after listening to Dear Anxiety, I felt his spoken word so deep, but your breakdowns made it even more deep. I've been in therapy for a while now, and this spoke volumes to me. Thank you for this.
That's my story also!! Good 2 see that more people are open about it! Thank you
Thank you for the upload. I really needed this today. I was on the verge of a breakdown and to see this in my suggested feed has helped today. Thank you again AOK. You always come through when I need you
again thx for the reaction buddy you and the song got me right in the heart love too you all !!!!
Absolutely love this one. Have followed this guy a while and he rings truth. Thanks big guy, this needs spread 👌😍
I saw the video. And it got me really hard bro. Some times it's ok to cry and get some help. The happiest people are usually the saddest. Kip it up bro. God bless 🙌 🙏.
Should have way more views! Clayton is great
Aww I LOVE Clayton Jennings! He's so good, you really need to go thru all of his catalog. Thank you for doing this. Much love and respect from Las Vegas
Man I’ve been watching both of your channels for a while now and this is the first one I’m commenting on mainly because Clayton Jennings’ videos literally saved my life. I suffer from anxiety and fell into depression for a whole year but then I started watching his videos. Although I still have anxiety and it gets bad at times it’s nowhere near what I used to be. Watching his videos showed me how to conquer what I was going through and has turned me into a whole different person than what I was.
Just visiting this video again. Definitely the best reaction ever. 🙏🏻 The honesty and vulnerability is powerfull bro.🖤
This made me cry. Grateful we are in a BETTER place. Love you my dear Dee!
And look where you are now, thank you for keep fighting, thank u for sharing your story.
Yo you should react to “Please Don’t Kill Yourself” by Clayton!
Honestly many of us do understand because many of us feel the same way for sure even if for different reasons we can relate to some level
Don’t fight the feeling men can show emotions and it’s part of the process. You are saved. God loves you. You do you.
I love Clayton his videos are so true and hit home he’s amazing and he made me feel like I ain’t the only one who’s got theses things going on 🥺❤️
Hey. I just need to tell you that I see you. You made an impression on me even back before I started to fight my demons. And now, well, I feel even more grateful to know you. You are truly an inspiration to me. I have much love for you. Thank you for this reaction.
Let it flow brother. That just goes to show you, what side you're on. God bless
i love clayton i just stumbled upon this video because i wanted to see how other people felt about him. you are so amazing, love your video. and REAL MEN CRY. keep up the amazing work, much love.
Wish you all the luck man. You’ve got such a wonderful energy and just are so open. Means a lot. Love your channels.
Your life isn’t over - Trent Shelton
That video literally saved my life and I love your channel cause you know this struggle and you’re bringing awareness when we can’t voice it
Love this, Soo deep!
I'm a detailed person.... Did anyone else notice that in the beginning the group sign said "Anxiety Support Group" and at the end it said "Anxiety Supportless Group" MAN!
i did. dont know why i didnt say anything about it tho. lol
As someone who’s gone to a support group I can relate. It didn’t do anything for me. I walked in and listened to people talk about their problems. One girl was saying her parents don’t understand what she’s going through and how she should be allowed to go out with her friends. Another dude was older than me talking about how his parents are threatening to kick him out if he doesn’t pay rent. I’m 25 and that was a year ago. I’m not saying my problems are more important than anyone else’s but as a recovering alcoholic who almost died I just couldn’t connect with anyone there. I gave it a second chance and went back the following week but I didn’t last 10 minutes before just walking out. They even tried to get me to stay. It was a joke and it didn’t help at all. Supportless group is very accurate.
@@TrashTalk878 Jesus Christ is the answer. HE is the peace that this world cannot give. I'm praying for you! Just want to tell you that Jesus does love you, and He has always been there with you. Even if it's painful.
It's scary just how much hit home with video. I am right here with you and every single person that feels like they don't matter, like no one cares, like the world would be better off with out you. No you do matter, people do care and you will be missed. Don't let the demons in your head and control your life.I am here right beside you.
I've been watching you for a while now and relate alot but this hit me on many level helps people understand what they may be going thru and not even know this is beautiful man good reaction man
I loved seeing how much that video touched u Cos I remember that same feeling when I first watched it
alot of his spoken word stuff is very good. I have a whole playlist of his spoken word stuff on a playlist from youtube
Your reaction got me just as much as did the song! I can't lie; but this shit sure did make me cry'ish!
This moved me sooo much when I first found it really impacted my life and made me realize some things about myself. I love how down to earth you are and so open minded. Thank you for the content brother much love and stay safe❤
Wauw, you heard my request for reaction to this 🖤 Thx bro it means the world for me. 🙏🏻
Bro, the emotion you displayed was so powerful, so raw. Sometimes, a good cry will do more than a laugh. Stay up man, we love you. #AOK
Brother. Your not alone. This brought me alot of comfort. My dog had a seizure today and I spent time in my garage screaming at God. This meant alot to me with this reaction. Your honest and true. Which made me subscribe. We're not alone in this war brother
I wish I would've come across this video a lot sooner. This had me so emotional because everything he said in that video and everything that artofkickz was saying in his reaction, were true. I relate so much to this as I had and continue to battle my anxiety and depression every day. Thank y'all so much for the video and reaction to it. I'm glad to see just how much I'm not alone in this battle/war.
I hope this one of many reactions Clayton is a life saver ♥️
This does hit home for a lot. Like Clayton said everyone is going through something but won’t admit it. I also had the same reaction as you AOK. I cried so hard when I heard this the first time. Until this day I listen to it every night before I go to sleep. I have memorized every word. I say it with Clayton every night, like a night time prayer. I don’t know why but it feels like I let everything out from my day that I struggled with. It helps me sleep so much better. Like a weight at night being lifted. God bless , stay positive and safe. You’re not alone. ❤️ ☮️ 🙏
Clayton Jennings has lots of amazing content. "Please don't kill yourself" "Godless America" and "Bipolar" are all good in my opinion
Brother for this channel you should definitely react to all of clayton’s videos. He is one of the reasons why I turned my life around. Keep up the great work
Hey AOK, it’s super hard for a mom, wife, daughter to admit the fear of not knowing what to do... being at the end of your rope only one more knot and then a free fall.. we have our kids coming to us needing something, husband returning home after a 12 hour shift looking for a safe comfortable place to enter, elderly mom or dad needing help with dr visits, shopping, or just someone they are familiar with to just be there for them to feel ok.. now kids home homework done, dinner finished sink full of dishes, husband wanting your attention, phone ringing from the parents Hopi g you can pop over tomorrow.... house is silent, so much to do exhaustion creeping in followed closely by anxiety for it being 3 am, dishes still in sink, laundry piled up on the couch, everyone sleeping and here I sit awake to exhausted to sleep, wishing for just a day just 24 hours of time to just be left alone... guilt, how can I feel this way... 5 am now dishes done laundry folded lunches made and packed, finally laying down as husband rouses sweetly saying he wished he could just lay there and sleep in like his wife.... same routine day in and day out... it’s a battle but I’m strong... I’ll continue this path I chose till I can’t follow it anymore... it’s hard for men to admit they need help, that’s true... we all have chains around our neck, they get heavy but sometimes they aren’t so bad...
I struggle with anxiety since I was a kid. His words hit deep with me. It makes me feel like I am not alone. Others feel like I do. It makes it easier. I been on a low for 4 months and I just found his music, I'm a new fan of his.
As someone who has fought with anxiety way before I knew what it was, I'm amazed at how much help comes from others fighting the same thing. Sometimes, it's good just to know that you are not as alone as you think you are.
You must check out everything Clayton does!! Love what he does and who he stands for 🙏
An amazing reaction I always love your reactions but this was truly special and to someone who helped me through a lot I almost lost the battles to my demons much respect your not alone I'm now writing poetry for others who have been through the same
Please do "goodbye ava" by clayton Jennings that one hits home for me. Love your truth man helps me speak mine and we all know how hard it is for us men
that one made me cry. so sad
Dude I cried in the first 5 seconds of that
Its ok to be emotional, your heart is being touched with love and strength. Way to conquer your demons because its not easy to do I know I've been there to
Thank you so much for this channel I suffer from anxiety and depression and it really helps me keep up your an amazing 😉 man May God bless you sweetheart 😜♥️💯💯
Please do more of Clayton Jennings. He has a lot of good stuff.
Ok now I am impressed this man is breathed from God so much respect
What you just said "if you were never taught to believe in me you wouldnt fear me." This is the things i think of at night. It makes me question churches, Pasteur's, and even if god himself is real
Jesus did not come to condemn you. He came to save u and me
I struggle every day,(PTSD) literally thank the creator for cannabis
after the last video that you mentioned outwitting the devil, i went and listen to it. i absolutely loved it. it blew me away that some of what was said was exactly what i had been thinking and feeling for years. it was nice to know i wasn't the only person with that train of thought. ever since i started following your channel last year, hearing your story and how you felt through it made me not feel so alone in this world because the words you spoke sounded just like things i would say.
right thats the same thing it did for me.
Thank God for God Mr Perspective Man with these Strength God bless you darling that you found in Him Peace be unto you. Amen
Loving your videos mate 👏👏
Wassup AOK just wanted to say thankyou for your honesty in this reaction. Very few times on platforms like youtube do we ever get to see the "real" person but you were open and honest enough tonlet that happen and i respect you alot for that.
Hopefully if just one person benefits from seeing this then you will have made a difference.
One love brother
This was tough. I have autism, ocd, bi-polar, depression, among a host of other mental deficiencies (as I call it). And my life is a living hell I just learned to live with. I’m often misunderstood and misjudged. It’s easy to feel invisible with a world of people around me. And this pulled out some of those raw sad emotions I feel. Made the song relatable in many ways. And at the end it’s why when people offer to help, I pass. It was too real. But at the same time it felt good knowing I’m not in this constant battle alone. 😊 great reaction man!
Your a hero brother.. Your the reason why the people around you are full of joy. so many people dont understand that they are wasting away their lives away always being miserable when people like you and your family are full of joy and see the good things in the world and just try to look past the negatives. I hope your blessed beyond all your wildest imaginations and the lord loves you and has you in his hands at all times. Much love brother.
Calvin Engle damn, that means more than you’ll know and I appreciate you! 👍 a true Sincere thank you! The only reason I’ve made it and I have risen is because of the lord himself. When I felt weak, when I felt like I literally had nothing and nothing to live for. I looked up and said “lord, please carry my life while I’m not in my right mind”. I tear up thinking about it. Because after I said that I just shattered to pieces on the ground. The difficult part to explain is that during that moment it’s almost like a felt a hand on my shoulder. And a soothing feeling that came over me almost as if to say don’t ever forget that tomorrow is a new day. You never know what tomorrow may bring. And that was so powerful it has been the energy that keep me moving till today and will stay with me till my time is up in this world. It’s how I can experience all I’ve mentioned and much more and still rise above it and live life. It’s my way of saying I am the one who’s in control and not my mind. My mind is part of me I control it, it doesn’t control me. And all this has been so so powerful to me that nothing will ever bring me down. And I share my story with only one hope that helps others. That’s it. Nothing more. 🙂
@@leosthrivwithautism dude if your speech is as good as your wording in writing then you need to look for motivational material to put out maybe talking to kids at schools or something or starting a charity for other people in your shoes.. Seriously man your struggle can be others peoples hand on their shoulder metaphoricaly if you see what I mean.. Not everyone has that knowledge or can get to it easily maybe they are past that point and didn't get that feeling you did but if you can do it so can they that's why I said a school maybe people younger than you will be easier to talk infront of and maybe more work can be done because you can change the rest of their lives.. Your a great person and you deserve the world man keep it up!!
Calvin Engle thank you! Seriously. Artofkickz channel had been speaking to me. And I went for years watching TH-cam channel after TH-cam channel always scared to comment and speak. I’m a selfless person and I don’t want to put a light on me because if I develop something I want it from a perspective that’s for everyone to use. I don’t need credit or fame. I really don’t. But if I can some how find a way to speak knowledge in a way that everyone can consume and process in their own ways that would mean the world to me. I’m thinking of starting a TH-cam channel myself. I just haven’t figured out the right angel that I want to take. TH-cam is a platform that would be easier for me. In person speech, because of my struggles, is way more difficult for me to get through in a meaningful way. People say take the leap just put it out and work on it. But for me it takes something thinking over because if you aren’t careful or strong TH-cam can eat you alive for lack of better wording. I have to have a plan of sorts to protect me. Tough skin so to speak, to not allow any form of negativity to get through to me. Because words to me mean a lot. And if I’m not careful it will hurt me as it has before. I really appreciate the encouragement. My whole life I’ve felt like I have message to give I just never knew how to go about it. But the more I think on this the more I’m slowly finding my own courage and voice to “speak my truth” without fear of what may come. Artofkickz, I promise I’m not stealing your saying man. Haha. But your saying has a deep meaning to me. And Calvin, good sir you proved to me I might just have an audience who might enjoy the content and message I have to bring. I show mad respect to artofkickz because this is one of his channels and the man is amazing! So if I successfully get my channel of the ground I’ll attribute it to him and give him a shout and one of his great followers and audience members too. I really needed this. Thanks artofkickz, thank you for the encouragement too Calvin! This literally means the world to me! 👍
@@leosthrivwithautism man you can do anything you set your mind to.. I know it!! You can do it and man I suggest in your videos maybe disabling comments or not allowing yourself to read them or something maybe have a family member go thru and erase all the negativity because the thing is people project themselves or what they are scared of onto others so maybe they are "perfectly normal" but are a bit slow and you might have a larger vocabulary than them or think in a better way they will put you down because your issues they might think bad things because its what they see in the mirror but they can't admit they need any help and just because it's over the internet they would never say anything on real like but they think this internet trolling doesn't effect others but it does. So man my advice to you is to follow your heart.. Whatever you like to do record it and record your speeches and how you feel and what you would like to change with your videos and just go for it.. This platform is very accepting to people who are different there is alot of channels of people with one leg and alot of other disabilities and they do very well (numbers wise) but just remember this is for you to get your knowledge and understanding out to the world and project yourself into something that will last longer than you will.. Remember we can all die tomorrow but what you make in video will live virtually forever and that's something that means something.. Even if you help one person make it through one more day man you succeeded. I hope to subscribe to you and see you put out some content man I will love to see whatever you put out!! Much love and wishing you all the best from florida! And by the way your writing abilities are flawless and your extremly smart.. Dont allow anyone to put you down man your a freaking superhero!
yet when i right this i am not finished with the Video but at minute 14 i can say it is one of the best if not the best reaction if ever seen thank you for that :)
Hey A.O.K! I love your content and I just wanted to say something I hold valuable to me was a reference in the movie doctor strange. The Ancient One says something about dealing with your demons. She says we don't just live with our demons. We learn to simply live above them. Its very powerful. Keep up the great work and content. I enjoy seeing other people who can relate and feel just as everyone else does. We all have demons
Hey man I listen to this whole story with Clayton Jennings it even had me crying man I've been going through the same stuff too and I seen that you had been in it too so I watch all of your stuff
Feelin this vid more Than any other but on a different level...I Dunno...like a share...bless
I listened to this poem when i was dealing with my own demons and anxiety
Why I love AOK is he doesn't just pause the video just to repeat word to word what the artist just said (like most reaction channel), but he actually adds on and adds thought to it.
Totally agree man. I learn something new about myself every time he does reaction videos on stuff like this.
These always get to me because I feel just like that but being raised as a man I was taught to keep shit bottled up and dont let anyone know so I never learned how to tell someone that I'm no where near "okay" its just a word I say in response to "how are you"
Damn AOK I wish we could connect. We have so much in common. Ive delt with suicide attempts. I currently struggle with anxiety. I UNDERSTAND, because I deal with it. I know what it is like to feel like no one understands, because my wife struggles with understanding. Damn thus is one subject along with suicide, that I take VERY SERIOUSLY.
Yeah I'm subscribed to his channel. He's absolutely amazing. He just recently finished reading psalms with those of us unable to go to church with the edicts about social gathering.
I love this song for the reason that it explains my feelings and I love your channel so good video :)
What's up A.O.K.!! Don't ever be afraid to cry and let out your real emotions in front of us because we are all here for you, at least I know I am. You're 100% real and that's what I respect the most about you!!
Grameo Larry well said 👌🏻♥️
Thanks, Larry