"I'm only honest when it rains" every time I have to share true deep feelings I feel so overwhelmed that I let them slip through tears and this line describes it perfectly
aesthetics: blue lighting, thunderstorms, crumbling statues, destroyed paintings, the weak glow of blue neon lights, the melancholy that comes with midnight rain, chapped lips, cold tears that drip off your chin
Adding more aesthetics: Rolling waves, dark water, midnight stars. Sunset clouds with planet doodles. Dark storms over the ocean seen from a distance. Doodles of broken hearts. Hands reaching. Hesitation.
Maybe I’m just projecting, but I think this song is about someone who struggles with relationships and intimacy and vulnerability because they were never equipped for it in the first place. “You let me set sail with cheap wood so I patched up every leak that I could”- the person’s environment left them averse to relationships (that weakness is the “cheap wood) and they have to do their best with it. The chorus is how the person functions in a relationship as a result. Fearing vulnerability & intimacy, they’re rarely honest about how they feel and who they are, and on the rare occasion when they let something slip, they cover it up so it will be forgotten or overlooked. It’s not that they don’t love the people they’re in relationships with, it’s that they don’t know how to show that love or feel it comfortably. Maybe I’m totally off base, but I know that these words made me feel understood in this way for the first time. I never thought I’d come across art that was brave enough to put words to that experience without villainizing it.
That does really make sense, the reference to the white flag seems to symbolize someone trying to create a truce or peace as the struggles go on, because they don't know how to fix it, don't know how to communicate, they never knew what love was and still don't and so don't know how to love someone else. Too afraid to speak so they cry out when the thunder will drown out their voice, just hoping someone might hear. When you have problems you will take them with you into every relationship, no one else can fix our problems except God. God works through others, others can be an example, an encouragement, can teach and counsel, help us learn, however, after all that, only we can decide to change.
A little bit of a different take, but I see this as someone who is struggling with self acceptance. They're trying to learn to love themself but they don't know how.
I had listened to the song a good 100 times because I loved the music and the lyrics, but I initially interpreted the lyrics differently, after being in an outpatient group for mental health and no one understood how I think crap of myself, and they said I should love myself and I was like, I don't even know how to like myself... that's when I thought of it just like how you worded it... I literally don't know how...
The section of lyrics below really got me to realize that and what is written in parentheses is how I interpret that section of lyrics: Pitch black, pale blue, These wild oceans Shake what's left of me loose Just to hear me cry mercy. (I cry and ask for help from the universe, whatever, for even just a break from the shit, instead of consistently and constantly being hit by title waves over and over and got one finger left holding onto that boat) A strong wind at my back, So I lift up the only sail that I have, This tired white flag. (I surrender) ⚐ I'm only honest when it rains, An open book (ridiculous honesty I have) with a torn out page, (life that’s torn me apart to shreds, thrown me in the trash) And my ink's run out. (nothing left I can do at this point) I want to love you but I don't know how. (I need to learn how to love myself, but I literally have no idea how, I hate how I think, how I feel, that I can’t even make simple decisions without freaking out or them being the wrong damn decision)
“I don’t know” it repeats. I imagine this as someone trying to explain to someone else how they feel. They way they would be frustrated grabbing there hair pacing back and forth “I don’t know how, I don’t know how, I don’t know what’s wrong I don’t know why” but it’s written in this beautiful song so peaceful. Which makes me have hope.
I feel like this is about a person who struggles to show love because they, themselves, were never shown love. They want to show love to another person and break the cycle, but having never been shown love can really mess with a person.
Lexa_Katniss I clicked their music video "Saturn" because the thumbnail showed stars and it was named after a planet. Then I fell in love with the music. I love space, there can be so much out there, other lives, maybe other humans or a planet were dinosaurs still exist and we would never really know it.
Orion's Belt yes! Omg! Thats what I love about it too. Space is the one thing we will NEVER know everything about. And we will never be able to destroy. Space will always be there qith all its secrets and its infinite
Lexa_Katniss yes. I don't think that there's anything more beautiful than looking at a galaxy, like through a telescope. The colours, the feeling of being so small compared to the infinity out there. And here we worry about money, cars and other things that actually have no meaning in this big universe. We are currently on a giant round rock in a giant room of nothingness, so to speak. How can someone not be fascinated by this? Just looking up at the sky during the night, seeing the milky-way, stars, planets helps me to calm down, to look at life in a different way. I firmly believe that more people should do that.
Orion's Belt I swear this is exactly what I think. One of the things I love the most is to just listen to instrumental music or to the song "promise" by ben howard and look at the stars while everything around me is dark. It just feels like I'm in a whole other world. Free and simply happy and I forget everything around me. I'm just surrounded by the beauty of the stars and the infinity of the univers and listen to my music which takes me somewhere else anyway🌌
Lexa_Katniss I feel and do the same with "Uranus" by Sleeping at Last, it's so beautiful and I love instrumental music. Or I listen to the soundtrack of "Interstellar" (great movie, amazing music. Hans Zimmer is a god) while being outside at night. I will definitely check out "promise" too, seems like we have a similar taste🌌
To everyone in the world, everywhere, my family, my friends, animals, and things that aren't alive and to myself, I wanna love you but I dont know how.
Jessie Puok through your actions, show what are you willing to do for them. I may not say I love you very much to my own family or anyone, but through my actions I would give them my all to make them happy or to help and to just be there for them.
crazyguardart101 I don't know why I haven't gotten this notification, but I also cant really express how I feel through words, because I am bad at it. I try to do it but it comes out harsh and rude and I get distant. Haha, the cruel reality of trying to love someone but you dont know or understand how. Lets try, together to try to express how we feel the right way. Ha, this reply is three months late, sorry about that. But let's try, before its too late and relationships are broken and jagged
I didn't know how to love until I started taking selfless actions and got myself out of the way. cleaned house metaphorically, found a power greater than me, told my secrets to someone, set right my wrongs, and show up every day to help someone else. and then one day I realized that I love deeply. very very very deeply. I didn't think I could.
I find it kinda interesting that everyone relate to the "I wanna love you but I dont know how" or "if brokeness is a form of art", because, even though I realte to that, the part with "I only honest when it rains, If I time it right the thundre break when I open my mouth/An open book with an torn out page" more, since I don't lie that often, but I dont tell the truth that often either. This song basically discribes me with others...
Some songs simply belongs to realm of 'sung poetry'. This one is just... ...a prime example of that. So many on-point parallels & metaphors. I'm left awe-struck..... 🙏🙏🙏
this is to my future self, you're hurting right now, in pain and spending most of your days fantasizing about taking your own life; but i hope when, or if, you come across this comment, you will have learned how to love yourself. please love yourself, please be happy. i promise you deserve it.
This could be about someone who's true love left/died and they meet someone else. They realize this person could be their next love...but it won't be like what they had before. They don't want to fall in love with this person, but they find themselves opening up to this person. The person is obviously in love with them but they don't know how how to love them back because they are scared to let go and move on from what they had before...even though they love the person. They still feel married to their loved one even though they died. This song is about that struggle.
can we just admit that we're all torn apart but we just want to know how to love a person, fully, like how they deserve to be. but we can't, we just... can't.
Allen Baltazar can you please explain to me what this is from? I am in love with this quote and I see it on almost all SAL songs but when I look it up nothing shows. What is it from??
My brother Cory died at the age of 12 was shot and I picked this song for his funeral. Oh how we wish u could come back. I love you with all my heart even if ur a butt. Now look your gone and the last thing we said to each other was "I hate you!" But I said I loved u. Even tho I was mad at you. If I could help find the killer I would. I love you too much to be in peace. The time we put sprinkles on your face and dad got mad those are the times I will cherish. -g 2006-2017 tomorrow is Xmas Eve Illy bro U were going to get a Xbox
Feeling your pain, as my avatar can attest. It's so damn hard and it's so damn wrong. They should still be here. Surely they deserve to still be here. You picked a perfect song for Cory's funeral. I swore when my brother was three, as I held him in a hug, that I'd find revenge on anyone who killed him. But in the end he shot himself. He was a month from his birthday, and from an early graduation. I almost drove to his house the day he died, because my mother and I were forced to evacuate from a fire hundreds of miles away... but I was tired, and I lingered to eat, and then I lingered to sleep. If I'd gone then I would have arrived right as he was getting off the bus... I would have shown up just as he went to grab the gun. I tell myself that even though it's just as likely that my exhaustion would have killed me on the road, or that I would have gone past his house and fallen asleep and missed him, or that he would have already done it and in my grief I'd have joined him. He was better than all the rest of us in the family combined. We shouldn't blame ourselves. Why do we blame ourselves? I hope your brother's killer is found. I hope that you find the peace and security to live the life he would have wanted for you. And I hope you continue to bring tenderness and care to this world, whoever you are.
this song was the one i relied on the week i attempted suicide. i related to it so heavily, it was all i could listen to. it's hard listening to it again and feeling all those emotions coming back, but here i am.
dear friend, i will not ever tell you just how important you are to me and just how much i love you, because i know that you are happy where you are in life now. i'm glad that i was part of your life for quite some time. these were some of the best years of my life and i am so incredibly thankful, because you taught me so much and never made me feel small, even if you had every reason to; i'm sure i wasn't the easiest person to be friends with. i remember telling you about all the things that made me feel weak. you were never one of them, and your words could always make me feel better. i believe that you were blessed with empathy unlike anyone i've ever met. please don't change. i miss you, and i wish i had a valid reason to, but you live only streets away and i could always come to you (you would let me, of course you would). but it's not the same anymore, because i held you down- you never said that, because you are gentle and soft, and you'd be too afraid of hurting me, but i know that i did and i don't want that. i kind of wish we had fought, just to have a clear ending, to have an excuse or a reason. this song reminds me of you. i won't tell you that i love you. (i hope you know, though.)
emma louise- If you ever held your friend back, it seems you have grown with time and regret. Life does not always make us say goodbye forever. I do not know your story, but I would say, go talk to your friend!! These things are worth it.
My lover and I... He communicates with me through songs and messages because that's all we have anymore. This is a recent message of his. I imagine it was how he felt, trying to live... After we broke up. I knew that he was still in love with me but the damage done between us was too deep. My ego prevented me from seeing him anymore. After who we were, everything that we had been.... He died, not even a full year after we broke up. The white flag.... Surrender.
Me and my ex communicated through songs for about a year. We split after like 4 years, still in love we tried yet again but the rift between was to great. It's been a few years since we have spoke now. I do hope you've found peace with your lose.
i hope the best for you now and your future. your past, future, all your broken and cracked edges make you who you are and i wish you well on the journey of life
I sang this at a school open mic. I sucked ass, but hey, I had the courage to do that in 7th grade, and while I may always cringe back at that moment, I can at least say that I did it in the first place, and that I wasn't too much of a coward to do it. It's truly a lovely song. If this gets lost in the sea of comments, then so be it. But I'd like the person who made it this far into my worthless and useless comment to have a nice day :)
I know everyone else has their own interpretation of this, loving themselves, loving someone they can’t have, someone who’s dead and such. But I’m aromantic, and see this song as someone struggling to accept their identity of such. That’s at least what I feel from listening to this.
this song reminds me of my mom. she repeatedly hurt me and still continue to. i used to love her and she tells me sorry all the time but i wanna love her back.... but i don't know how to get my heart back there
You'll never see this. But I gotta say, I wanted to love you. I'm sorry I couldn't. I didn't know how. Sincerely, The girl who loved the harbour lights
This just screams struggling with faith so much. I remember listening to this while I still fully believed in God. Now I don’t but this just feels how I felt when I was trying to pretend and force myself to believe.
I love seeing all the interpretations of this song because my own interpretation is just someone suffering with depression and intimacy issues and not sure how to ask for help. “I’m only honest when it rains” like how sometimes you only speak what you really think (depression wise) when you’ve reached your limit of bottling stuff up and crack.
My friend attempted last night she’s ok but her family stayed in the ER all last night with her. I love her so much and this song reminded me of our relationship. She’s my world and I wish she could see how I see her. She’s beautiful and perfect and I love her so much.
"Stitch by Stitch I tear apart if Brokenness is a form of art I must be a poster child prodigy" Omg that have me chills im getting that tattooed somewhere on my body
Came here after hearing about Jonghyun's death. This really sums up how I'm feeling. "I wanna love you, but I don't know how" if only I could have told him, how proud so many people were of him. If only I could have told him how bright he shined. If only I could have told him, his life was worth living.. How is it that my heart feels so much pain for a person I have never met? The power of music is incredible. Just like he was. R.I.P. Kim Jong-Hyun. ❤
idk if it's jus me but these songs remind me of me going thru a hard time in middle school/high school. closing my eyes in pitch darkness and just crying. every song from sleeping at last.
this song makes me cry because i relate to the lyrics but not in the way they were intentionally wrote. ive never been in love or have been in the situation that the lyrics describe but i take the lyrics to heart when i think about it as myself. i think of the lyrics as if im talking to myself and not to another person. i want to love myself but i dont know how. i want to tell myself that youre beautiful and loved. i try my best but its still hard for me to do it. if there is anyone out there like me i hope we can learn to love ourselves as we are.
Honestly I don't know if it's a combination of my situation ad my Asperger's Syndrome, but in not good at expressing my feelings or being heard or understood. Anxiety and depression; I feel like no one lets off their verbal attacks even when I'm raisin my white flag. I dunno I hear different parts of this song and I relate to it in pieces, you know?
Pitch black, pale blue There was a stained glass, variation of the truth And I felt empty handed You let me set sail With cheap wood So I patched up every leak that I could 'Til the blame grew too heavy Stitch by stitch I tear apart If brokenness is a form of art I must be a poster child prodigy Thread by thread I come apart If brokenness is a work of art Surely this must be my masterpiece I'm only honest when it rains If I time it right, the thunder breaks When I open my mouth I wanna tell you but I don't know how I'm only honest when it rains An open book, with a torn out page And my inks run out I wanna love you but I don't know how I don't know how No I don't know how I don't know how I wanna love you but I don't know how I don't know how I wanna love you but I don't know how I wanna love you but I don't know how I wanna love you Pitch black, pale blue These wild oceans shake what's left of me loose Just to hear me cry mercy The strong wind at my back So I'll lift up The only sail that I have This tired white flag (White flag) I'm only honest when it rains If I time it right, the thunder breaks When I open my mouth I wanna tell you but I don't know how I'm only honest when it rains An open book, with a torn out page And my inks run out I wanna love you but I don't know how Know how I'm only honest when it rains If I time it right, the thunder breaks When I open my mouth I wanna tell you but I don't know how Know how I'm only honest when it rains An open book, with a torn out page And my inks run out I wanna love you but I don't know how I don't know how I don't know how I don't know how I wanna love you but I don't know how I don't know how I wanna love you but I don't know how I wanna love you but I don't know how I wanna love you
I’ve loved my best friend of 22 years since as long as I can remember. We are both 24. When we were younger it was different, we met different people, went to separate schools etc. Now that we are older, every time I see her I just want to scream “I love you” but it’s like when I do I just get drained and can’t get the words out. This song for some reason reminds me of that. Glad I found it. Maybe one day I’ll tell her.
This song can be interpreted so many ways. For me it’s me talking to myself, wanting to tell the people I care about what I’ve been going through and the horrible things I’m doing to myself. “I wanna love you butI don’t know how” is me talking to myself. Sleeping At Last songs have this feel to them. Even if you don't like the tune, the lyrics hit hard. It feels like they are speaking your language. I’m on the verge of tears I every time I listen to this. I feel like somebody understands. “When I open my mouth, I wanna tell you but I don’t know how” This line is very relatable. I wanna tell people about how I feel but I don’t know what to say. “I’m only honest when it rains” I’m only honest to myself at the worst of times or when it’s “raining” and I can only confess to anybody when I can’t handle it and need to let it out. “An open book with a torn out page” “and my inks run out” These lines make me think of how you can loose innocence and life so fast without even taking the time to wrap up the “book” and how, even though it’s sad, if you can’t write in the book anymore, to me that’s a way of saying your not alive. I could go on and on about the lyrics, but I’ll stop here. Bless the people who wrote this song.
i had someone i cared about pass away in 2015, and last year I found someone who makes me so so so so happy and I always feel guilty, as if I shouldn’t love them. I listen to this song and it puts me at peace. I’m glad music is a language that everyone can understand, and is it’s own medicine.
“I’m only honest when it rains, if i time it right, then the thunder breaks, when i open my mouth, I wanna tell you but i don’t know how” i relate to the chorus a lot, but this line relates to me a lot, cause i was much as i wanna talk and seek comfort and help when i’m hurting, something deep down inside holds me back, and when i do, i don’t know how to express it, so i just hide it and cover it up with something lesser and unrelated
This song has helped me define who I am, in the mess and in the good times too, when I'm all the company I have, whether that's good or bad. It brings me peace and, surprisingly, warmth too. Because I am, indeed, a mess for a big chunk of the time! And most of the time, I love myself. Sometimes, I lack that. Sometimes, things are dark and I turn to things that don't help me, or I cling to the past, to people who have left me and aren't coming back. I lose my essence, and I feel distorted and empty. But to listen to Neptune in the middle of the turmoil, to understand that the lyrics mean so damn much to me, in so many different contexts (because that's just life), to realize that I AM Neptune. That's probably all I need.
I see this song as someone who has a problem putting their problems and feelings into words, but they love someone else so much they want to learn to be a more sensitive, but they are struggling with their own thoughts and feelings and trying to understand eveything in their mind so they can be a bit more eloquent. (My friend used the worrd 'tsundere' when I showed him this song and left lol)
My homie put me on this a few years ago and Im just realizing how great this song is. Havent talked to him in a year but lately ive been realizing how much I was low key learning from him cause he was so open minded.
sleeping at last é simplesmente um anjo na terra cantando e compondo hinos que abalam o emocional de qualquer um. simples e apaixonante. sleeping at last é incrivelmente incrível! ♡
I've always struggled with love. Not romantic love, just love in general. It's like I don't feel anything. When I left my parents to live on my own in a foreign country for a year, I wasn't even sad. I didn't miss them. When my brother left home to join the military, it was like he'd never been in my life. When someone I cared about died, I didn't feel anything. I just feel so empty. I want to love these people but I don't know how. But listening to Sleeping At Last, I can feel something.
Honestly this is one of my favorite songs, along with All Or Nothing from season 4 of Glee. This song is sooooooo good. The music, the lyrics, just everything about this song is so freaking good!!
I love how they add the drum and it kinda reminds me of rain and later it becomes more of a thunderstorm as it comes to the chorus. It's also kinda like a boat caught it a thunderstorm. just a thought.
I feel that this song is about someone who did something wrong to hurt the other person, he realizes what he's done and what he has lost after the other left his side and just doesn't know how to apologize and make it better, doesn't know how to express feelings, he feels broken and empty and childish that's why "if brokeness is a form of art I must be a poster child prodigy", he's only honest when he's drunk in the middle of the night that's why "pitch black, pale blue, it was a stained glass variation of the truth" and "I'm only honest when it rains" but is afraid, makes himself strong to speak and just silence so he won't seem weak that's why "if I time it right thunder breaks when I open my mouth". He knows it's his fault and that he has to try harder, to close the past's wounds that's why "an open book with a torn out page" but is too afraid to give in, wants to show his love but it's afraid to be hurt or hurt the other and keeps himself from moving on to write another chapter in his life that's why "and my ink's run out" meaning he gives up to try and doubts, but still feels like this person is worth trying for but doesn't know how to start. Just a personal thought.. Btw 2020?
Heya kiddo, God, I hope you're doing well. Y'know, it's always been tradition for us to send each other songs--unspoken shit and stuff, but I always did it much more frequently. Daily, and on the rare occasion, every other day, I'd send you a couple of 'em; sometimes I wonder if you knew that they encompassed all the thoughts I could never really blurt out, especially the extent of how much you meant to me. I've always told you how much I've loved you, and honestly, I still do. But I never told you that talking to you hurts. From the start, I knew you were someone great, someone who'll get far in life, yet you always hindered yourself. When we met, you were hung up on someone, and I wanted to be your friend. If I'd had known that I'd fall for you, well... I don't know, I think I still would have talked to you anyway. I want to help you through it all. I did a lot of shit because I thought it was for the best, but now that I look back on things, maybe I was the one in the wrong. You loved people, the attention they gave you, the attention _I_ gave you, and maybe that was why we ended up dating for a while, even if it wasn't exactly something I wanted to experience with you. I knew it would never work out. Of course it wouldn't, I was jealous of the people you'd flirt with when we were friends, and I knew you still thought of your ex. I felt drained every single time we talked, but I cared. I cared too much, to the point that I became a controlling asshole. It suffocated me, you'd get so jealous as well, you'd insult me whenever something I said or did wasn't up to your own ideals and beliefs, and you'd always compare me to them. I always asked if there was someone else, would suggest that we break up because maybe you weren't happy with me. Hell, sometimes even begged because I felt so fucking worthless. If I had just told you what was wrong, maybe things would have been okay. At first you assured me, until just as I expected, you broke up with me. It was fine, really, it was a huge relief. Maybe I should have stopped talking to you then, but you meant so much to me. I made a fool of myself, and if you were harsh prior to our relationship, you were cruel after the end of it. I took it all, but I can only take so much. I started telling you all of the frustrations I had against you, acted as passive aggressive as I could, treated you as badly as I felt because I was angry, because I thought I should fight fire with fire. Even now, I regret my actions, and I understand that they were unforgivable. And so I stopped. Kept my distance, and things were okay. We were regular friends again who occasionally had a few flings, yet talking to you still hurt. I kept thinking of you; it was tiring. I didn't want to, but it just kept getting worse when you started calling me by my name again, telling me that you love me from time to time. It drove me insane, because I should have let you go ages ago, but I keep selfishly clinging onto you, kept telling myself that it's just because I want to be there for you. Blocked you multiple times, "it's for the best" as I'd always say, but each time I couldn't can't forget you. We'd make up, you'd say you forgive me. All's well until the cycle repeats itself over some other argument. Each time we'd be okay, each time you'd treat me like shit because I left, rub it in my face that it's all my fault. Each time I'd feel how much I'm not enough for you, and would either step up my pep game or depress you with my thoughts. I know I'm garbage, I'm so sorry. I thought the last time would be the last. I'm so tired. I stopped listening to Wintergatan, Detektivbyrån, Sleeping at Last because I was afraid of feeling anything again. Their music made me think of you, of the comfort you provided, and it was just too dangerous; kept telling myself that there was a reason why I left you. But I went numb without you, died a little without you. Ironically, this was the time I got the best grades I've had in years, got awards, got new skills. Yet I was unhappy, I missed you so much. Now I tell you this on occasion, I don't think you believe me. Everything else is effortless, but everything about you is so tiring--am I just a masochist? Is that wrong of me to say? You have a new partner; you dated them after a week of knowing them, and that always made me boil with hurt and anger. You like the fact that they allow you to be intimate with other people--is that what's different between us? They aren't around often anymore, is that why you're back? Fucking hell you mean so much to me, but the shit we had was toxic. Why are you back? You came back claiming it was because you loved me unconditionally, and I don't exactly trust you as much as I did then, but I trusted you enough to let you back in again. You're depressed, I want to comfort you. I like being there for you as a friend, but is it even okay to say that I feel used too? Why is it that when I'm the one who's sad, you don't reassure me? I don't need a call, but sometimes I just wish I knew that you did care. I cannot thank you enough for bringing joy into my life, but I have no clue what to do anymore. I treasure all of my memories with you, but should I end it once and for all, or should I keep fighting on? You told me on the night you came back that if I block you again, you'd never forgive me. I can't figure out if loving you means bearing all the fatigue and frustrations I'm facing right now because I know despite all my efforts, I'm just a cop out, or if loving you means learning to let you go and wishing the best for you. It's an ungodly hour here at the moment yet I can't do anything but try to figure out what I'll have to do next. What would make you happy? What would make you okay? I can't heal your wounds, but god I sure hope I can at least soothe them. I'm venting on the comment section of a song I probably won't ever have the guts to send you, but if I ever do, then just know that you mean the world to me, and that was probably my biggest mistake--but (guiltily enough) I can't find it in myself to regret it. Then again, I doubt you'll ever even scroll through these, so essentially I've just wasted more of my time.
Hey, you need to let them go. Ive been there before. This song reminds me of what it was like trying to love after being with someone like that. It isnt healthy for either of you. It hurts and hurts and hurts and right now you may feel like they are your world and you have no choice but you do. Choose love for yourself. Choose the mental well being for the both of you. Choose to find someone new who can love you in a compatible way. Trust me, they will come when you think no one will.
Someone very important for me just died and I can't believe just how much I can relate to this song. This is not the first time I lose someone as important, but the pain is still unbearable and I don't know how to live with this anymore, i'm not sure if I can carry on after this
" if brokenness is a form of art, surely this must be my masterpiece."!
Shelby Swain I'm only honest when it rains...
If I time it right, the thunder breaks when I open my mouth...
I wanna tell you but I don't know how...
I wanna tell you but I don’t know how.
Damn Deedly Da I’m only honest when it rains,
"I'm only honest when it rains" every time I have to share true deep feelings I feel so overwhelmed that I let them slip through tears and this line describes it perfectly
sleeping at last is like one of my favorite artist now
badlands baby are you cheating on josh and tyty too? we should totally open a club
mystery Same I just discovered him Today❤🔥👏
This is one year ago but hecc hello Sleeping At Last amd clickies
IKR I found them and was instantly in love with the music
@Sumeyo Hassan no it ain’t 😹 embarassin yo self🤦🏽♀️ dis was 4 yrs ago
aesthetics:
blue lighting, thunderstorms, crumbling statues, destroyed paintings, the weak glow of blue neon lights, the melancholy that comes with midnight rain, chapped lips, cold tears that drip off your chin
Rissy Kline dude yes
Rissy Kline honestly yes
Beautiful
Adding more aesthetics:
Rolling waves, dark water, midnight stars. Sunset clouds with planet doodles. Dark storms over the ocean seen from a distance. Doodles of broken hearts. Hands reaching. Hesitation.
Wow i could never describe smthn like that so well
Maybe I’m just projecting, but I think this song is about someone who struggles with relationships and intimacy and vulnerability because they were never equipped for it in the first place. “You let me set sail with cheap wood so I patched up every leak that I could”- the person’s environment left them averse to relationships (that weakness is the “cheap wood) and they have to do their best with it. The chorus is how the person functions in a relationship as a result. Fearing vulnerability & intimacy, they’re rarely honest about how they feel and who they are, and on the rare occasion when they let something slip, they cover it up so it will be forgotten or overlooked. It’s not that they don’t love the people they’re in relationships with, it’s that they don’t know how to show that love or feel it comfortably.
Maybe I’m totally off base, but I know that these words made me feel understood in this way for the first time. I never thought I’d come across art that was brave enough to put words to that experience without villainizing it.
♡
Beautifully said.
Thank you because this is what I felt when I heard it at exactly the right moment.
NO!............You hit a home run with bases loaded!
That does really make sense, the reference to the white flag seems to symbolize someone trying to create a truce or peace as the struggles go on, because they don't know how to fix it, don't know how to communicate, they never knew what love was and still don't and so don't know how to love someone else. Too afraid to speak so they cry out when the thunder will drown out their voice, just hoping someone might hear.
When you have problems you will take them with you into every relationship, no one else can fix our problems except God. God works through others, others can be an example, an encouragement, can teach and counsel, help us learn, however, after all that, only we can decide to change.
A little bit of a different take, but I see this as someone who is struggling with self acceptance. They're trying to learn to love themself but they don't know how.
I had listened to the song a good 100 times because I loved the music and the lyrics, but I initially interpreted the lyrics differently, after being in an outpatient group for mental health and no one understood how I think crap of myself, and they said I should love myself and I was like, I don't even know how to like myself... that's when I thought of it just like how you worded it... I literally don't know how...
The section of lyrics below really got me to realize that and what is written in parentheses is how I interpret that section of lyrics:
Pitch black, pale blue,
These wild oceans
Shake what's left of me loose
Just to hear me cry mercy. (I cry and ask for help from the universe, whatever, for even just a break from the shit, instead of consistently and constantly being hit by title waves over and over and got one finger left holding onto that boat)
A strong wind at my back,
So I lift up the only sail that I have,
This tired white flag. (I surrender) ⚐
I'm only honest when it rains,
An open book (ridiculous honesty I have) with a torn out page, (life that’s torn me apart to shreds, thrown me in the trash)
And my ink's run out. (nothing left I can do at this point)
I want to love you but I don't know how.
(I need to learn how to love myself, but I literally have no idea how, I hate how I think, how I feel, that I can’t even make simple decisions without freaking out or them being the wrong damn decision)
@@kelly-ro9gq have a virtual hug and cookies 🍪 🍪
Honestly I feel it is because of self hate or low self-esteem they cannot allow themself to love someone else.
How do you fit the first verse into that interpretation?
After a year I still haven't found words to describe the magic of Sleeping at Last
Indescribable I listen to this song for a year now and I still don't get sick of it
Have you any yet?
I cry everytime I hear this because when I look at my self I want to love myself but I just don't know how...
you aren't alone
Shit that’s deep
I hope that you can love you right now. I don't know you, but I think every human are beauty, and you are too.
Fake it till u make it
Lily Phillips x2
“I don’t know” it repeats. I imagine this as someone trying to explain to someone else how they feel. They way they would be frustrated grabbing there hair pacing back and forth “I don’t know how, I don’t know how, I don’t know what’s wrong I don’t know why” but it’s written in this beautiful song so peaceful. Which makes me have hope.
i'm very grateful how you just said and explained it perfectly to me. like exactly. this is what i'm feeling rn
I feel like this is about a person who struggles to show love because they, themselves, were never shown love. They want to show love to another person and break the cycle, but having never been shown love can really mess with a person.
i really want to love but i end up hurting them instead
Indeed. With all those theories, I liked you the most
I also think like like this. It's hard you trust in someone when u always was by your own. To trust it's not a easy thing
I love galaxy things and I love that the songs are named after planets🌌
Lexa_Katniss I clicked their music video "Saturn" because the thumbnail showed stars and it was named after a planet. Then I fell in love with the music. I love space, there can be so much out there, other lives, maybe other humans or a planet were dinosaurs still exist and we would never really know it.
Orion's Belt yes! Omg! Thats what I love about it too. Space is the one thing we will NEVER know everything about. And we will never be able to destroy. Space will always be there qith all its secrets and its infinite
Lexa_Katniss yes. I don't think that there's anything more beautiful than looking at a galaxy, like through a telescope. The colours, the feeling of being so small compared to the infinity out there. And here we worry about money, cars and other things that actually have no meaning in this big universe. We are currently on a giant round rock in a giant room of nothingness, so to speak. How can someone not be fascinated by this? Just looking up at the sky during the night, seeing the milky-way, stars, planets helps me to calm down, to look at life in a different way. I firmly believe that more people should do that.
Orion's Belt I swear this is exactly what I think. One of the things I love the most is to just listen to instrumental music or to the song "promise" by ben howard and look at the stars while everything around me is dark. It just feels like I'm in a whole other world. Free and simply happy and I forget everything around me. I'm just surrounded by the beauty of the stars and the infinity of the univers and listen to my music which takes me somewhere else anyway🌌
Lexa_Katniss I feel and do the same with "Uranus" by Sleeping at Last, it's so beautiful and I love instrumental music. Or I listen to the soundtrack of "Interstellar" (great movie, amazing music. Hans Zimmer is a god) while being outside at night. I will definitely check out "promise" too, seems like we have a similar taste🌌
To everyone in the world, everywhere, my family, my friends, animals, and things that aren't alive and to myself, I wanna love you but I dont know how.
Jessie Puok through your actions, show what are you willing to do for them. I may not say I love you very much to my own family or anyone, but through my actions I would give them my all to make them happy or to help and to just be there for them.
crazyguardart101 I don't know why I haven't gotten this notification, but I also cant really express how I feel through words, because I am bad at it. I try to do it but it comes out harsh and rude and I get distant. Haha, the cruel reality of trying to love someone but you dont know or understand how. Lets try, together to try to express how we feel the right way. Ha, this reply is three months late, sorry about that. But let's try, before its too late and relationships are broken and jagged
I didn't know how to love until I started taking selfless actions and got myself out of the way. cleaned house metaphorically, found a power greater than me, told my secrets to someone, set right my wrongs, and show up every day to help someone else. and then one day I realized that I love deeply. very very very deeply. I didn't think I could.
if someone like me could learn to love, anyone could.
emo be like...
It's funny how one line of a song can make you love the whole thing
YESSS
But honestly from the beginning of the song if you're actually listening you'll be locked in
i'm in love with this song
jay k sem
Lol me... To every song they make😂😂
i wanna love it but i don't know how
I don’t know how
Who couldn't be?
I find it kinda interesting that everyone relate to the "I wanna love you but I dont know how" or "if brokeness is a form of art", because, even though I realte to that, the part with "I only honest when it rains, If I time it right the thundre break when I open my mouth/An open book with an torn out page" more, since I don't lie that often, but I dont tell the truth that often either. This song basically discribes me with others...
Same, those lines stuck w/ me too
"i'm only honest when it rains, if i time it right the thunder breaks when i open my mouth."
i will never get over this line
im usually a metal typ eof dude but holy fuck im in love with this song
ThrashGod Cid it's an amazing fucking song
ThrashGod Cid oh my god I know
ThrashGod Cid same here
me too:)
Funny enough, my ex introduced me to this song. I'm usually, like you, into metal, but this song has so much meaning to it.
Some songs simply belongs to realm of 'sung poetry'.
This one is just...
...a prime example of that.
So many on-point parallels & metaphors.
I'm left awe-struck.....
🙏🙏🙏
this is to my future self,
you're hurting right now, in pain and spending most of your days fantasizing about taking your own life; but i hope when, or if, you come across this comment, you will have learned how to love yourself.
please love yourself, please be happy.
i promise you deserve it.
i believe in you. you got this.
Ermahgersh!!1! Yours 😎
I hope you find the happiness you're looking for
I hope you're better now
you deserve it 100%. Be happy. It’s ok. You’re so much more than what the world throws at you.
This could be about someone who's true love left/died and they meet someone else. They realize this person could be their next love...but it won't be like what they had before. They don't want to fall in love with this person, but they find themselves opening up to this person. The person is obviously in love with them but they don't know how how to love them back because they are scared to let go and move on from what they had before...even though they love the person. They still feel married to their loved one even though they died. This song is about that struggle.
Have you read the book 'Spark' on Wattpad? 'Cause that's basically what happened to one of the main characters.
No but I'll check it out!
who's the book by?
Lenox is bETTER THAN U it's by BrightEyesEren. (I'm sorry I didn't reply sooner...)
Rachel D that's me ..
can we just admit that we're all torn apart but we just want to know how to love a person, fully, like how they deserve to be.
but we can't, we just... can't.
nobody’s parents told them how to love because nobody can truly love another .
From the girl who speaks from the universe, to the boy who’d do anything to hear it again...
Allen Baltazar can you please explain to me what this is from? I am in love with this quote and I see it on almost all SAL songs but when I look it up nothing shows. What is it from??
@@stella-mg2km look up the song saturn from SAL. Indirect quote from that.
Was wondering the same thing..
sleeping at last is a blessing to this world
My brother Cory died at the age of 12 was shot and I picked this song for his funeral. Oh how we wish u could come back. I love you with all my heart even if ur a butt. Now look your gone and the last thing we said to each other was "I hate you!" But I said I loved u. Even tho I was mad at you. If I could help find the killer I would. I love you too much to be in peace. The time we put sprinkles on your face and dad got mad those are the times I will cherish. -g 2006-2017 tomorrow is Xmas Eve Illy bro
U were going to get a Xbox
KGK playz R.I.P 😢😢
💜✨👼
Oh my god that's sad
Sorry for your loss
Feeling your pain, as my avatar can attest. It's so damn hard and it's so damn wrong. They should still be here. Surely they deserve to still be here. You picked a perfect song for Cory's funeral.
I swore when my brother was three, as I held him in a hug, that I'd find revenge on anyone who killed him. But in the end he shot himself. He was a month from his birthday, and from an early graduation. I almost drove to his house the day he died, because my mother and I were forced to evacuate from a fire hundreds of miles away... but I was tired, and I lingered to eat, and then I lingered to sleep. If I'd gone then I would have arrived right as he was getting off the bus... I would have shown up just as he went to grab the gun. I tell myself that even though it's just as likely that my exhaustion would have killed me on the road, or that I would have gone past his house and fallen asleep and missed him, or that he would have already done it and in my grief I'd have joined him. He was better than all the rest of us in the family combined.
We shouldn't blame ourselves. Why do we blame ourselves? I hope your brother's killer is found. I hope that you find the peace and security to live the life he would have wanted for you. And I hope you continue to bring tenderness and care to this world, whoever you are.
this song was the one i relied on the week i attempted suicide. i related to it so heavily, it was all i could listen to. it's hard listening to it again and feeling all those emotions coming back, but here i am.
hope you're doing okay, welcome to 2020 💞💞💞
i'm proud of you for making it ❤️
I hope you're doing well friend ❤️
You are strong
hope you're doing okay now, this song issa beauty
dear friend,
i will not ever tell you just how important you are to me and just how much i love you, because i know that you are happy where you are in life now.
i'm glad that i was part of your life for quite some time. these were some of the best years of my life and i am so incredibly thankful, because you taught me so much and never made me feel small, even if you had every reason to; i'm sure i wasn't the easiest person to be friends with. i remember telling you about all the things that made me feel weak. you were never one of them, and your words could always make me feel better. i believe that you were blessed with empathy unlike anyone i've ever met. please don't change.
i miss you, and i wish i had a valid reason to, but you live only streets away and i could always come to you (you would let me, of course you would). but it's not the same anymore, because i held you down- you never said that, because you are gentle and soft, and you'd be too afraid of hurting me, but i know that i did and i don't want that.
i kind of wish we had fought, just to have a clear ending, to have an excuse or a reason. this song reminds me of you. i won't tell you that i love you. (i hope you know, though.)
emma louise this is absolutely beautiful...
💕
emma louise- If you ever held your friend back, it seems you have grown with time and regret. Life does not always make us say goodbye forever. I do not know your story, but I would say, go talk to your friend!! These things are worth it.
emma louise tell her! Talk to her! Ask her to give you a second chance and just give more than you take. It doesn't have to be the same!
I love how this is beautiful and powerful this is all on its own without any context.
PERFECTION
My lover and I... He communicates with me through songs and messages because that's all we have anymore. This is a recent message of his. I imagine it was how he felt, trying to live... After we broke up. I knew that he was still in love with me but the damage done between us was too deep. My ego prevented me from seeing him anymore. After who we were, everything that we had been.... He died, not even a full year after we broke up. The white flag.... Surrender.
Me and my ex communicated through songs for about a year. We split after like 4 years, still in love we tried yet again but the rift between was to great. It's been a few years since we have spoke now. I do hope you've found peace with your lose.
The white flag, I understand. I’m so sorry. You’re story is tragic but yet so beautiful don’t u think? I hope everything is turned out okay right now
@@azulblvd everything worked out beautifully... Thank you ❤️
i’m so sorry. he was gone too soon. sending my love
“I wanna tell you but I don’t know how” is how I feel about telling my family about my depression and telling people just what I’m thinking.
i hope the best for you now and your future. your past, future, all your broken and cracked edges make you who you are and i wish you well on the journey of life
I feel the same thing.
I sang this at a school open mic.
I sucked ass, but hey, I had the courage to do that in 7th grade, and while I may always cringe back at that moment, I can at least say that I did it in the first place, and that I wasn't too much of a coward to do it.
It's truly a lovely song.
If this gets lost in the sea of comments, then so be it.
But I'd like the person who made it this far into my worthless and useless comment to have a nice day :)
Massive props for the courage to you 'fellow stranger !
Dont ever lose it.
Hope it made someone Discovery this gem of a song 🙏
I know everyone else has their own interpretation of this, loving themselves, loving someone they can’t have, someone who’s dead and such. But I’m aromantic, and see this song as someone struggling to accept their identity of such. That’s at least what I feel from listening to this.
this song reminds me of my mom. she repeatedly hurt me and still continue to. i used to love her and she tells me sorry all the time
but i wanna love her back.... but i don't know how to get my heart back there
Sandy Dunham you're not alone.
Im in the exact same situation
My favorite planet, my favorite song, my favorite band. Kill me
I cried I always listen to this when I'm sad
4 years later and im thoroughly embarrassed by this
The nostalgia 😭 used to fall asleep to this song at my lowest, so calming
"I'm only honest when it rains" That is such a beautiful line, it hits me very deep.
This is one of the saddest songs ever written. Its a work of art.
You'll never see this. But I gotta say, I wanted to love you. I'm sorry I couldn't. I didn't know how.
Sincerely,
The girl who loved the harbour lights
That's so sweet I hope they see it
This is a message i wanted to say not to anyone but my past self . The one i lost .
Did somebody break you, too?
Brock Sorensen i dont think so
Nathaniel Grey damn sis who hurt you
Wow I am not one to cry that much but I cried listening to this....
Neptune-
God of the sea.
These are starting to make more sense..
It just became my favorite song since this very moment
One year later I still feel the same way... don't know if it's a good or bad thing though
@@tacy3823 how you feeling?
cannt tell how much i'm in love with this song. such a powerful song. it tears my heart out.
This just screams struggling with faith so much. I remember listening to this while I still fully believed in God. Now I don’t but this just feels how I felt when I was trying to pretend and force myself to believe.
Gladeseason I am having the same struggles with God as well.
I love seeing all the interpretations of this song because my own interpretation is just someone suffering with depression and intimacy issues and not sure how to ask for help. “I’m only honest when it rains” like how sometimes you only speak what you really think (depression wise) when you’ve reached your limit of bottling stuff up and crack.
I wouldnt even have to understand single word to know this is honestly beautiful art.
Honestly .. I just heard this to a FMV and I'm inlove with it OML
DaegCooks Neptune was it...a 707 one?
I have a cold meme-filled Heart I found it in a 707 FMV lol
I love that they have the the planets as songs, they are all beautiful 💙
Sleeping at Last’s songs are so raw and emotionally honest.
I listen to this song a lot. It tends to be when I'm feeling down. Love this song :)
Discovered this artist (neptune and saturn) recently thru a spotify playlist and I'm sooo glad. I love the artistry behind their songs ❤️
My friend attempted last night she’s ok but her family stayed in the ER all last night with her. I love her so much and this song reminded me of our relationship. She’s my world and I wish she could see how I see her. She’s beautiful and perfect and I love her so much.
*this clears my soul*
"Stitch by Stitch I tear apart if Brokenness is a form of art I must be a poster child prodigy"
Omg that have me chills im getting that tattooed somewhere on my body
so poetic...love this
This match so much with the fact that Neptune is so beautiful but made of gas and cold
"I wanna love you but I don't know how"
I'm crying now
Came here after hearing about Jonghyun's death. This really sums up how I'm feeling. "I wanna love you, but I don't know how" if only I could have told him, how proud so many people were of him. If only I could have told him how bright he shined. If only I could have told him, his life was worth living.. How is it that my heart feels so much pain for a person I have never met? The power of music is incredible. Just like he was. R.I.P. Kim Jong-Hyun. ❤
oh my god 😭
idk if it's jus me but these songs remind me of me going thru a hard time in middle school/high school. closing my eyes in pitch darkness and just crying. every song from sleeping at last.
Whoever wrote the lyrics needs like the Nobel prize or something
"An open book with a torn out page" that is such a beautiful line.
this song makes me cry because i relate to the lyrics but not in the way they were intentionally wrote. ive never been in love or have been in the situation that the lyrics describe but i take the lyrics to heart when i think about it as myself. i think of the lyrics as if im talking to myself and not to another person. i want to love myself but i dont know how. i want to tell myself that youre beautiful and loved. i try my best but its still hard for me to do it. if there is anyone out there like me i hope we can learn to love ourselves as we are.
❤❤❤
This song hits a little too close to home.
Honestly I don't know if it's a combination of my situation ad my Asperger's Syndrome, but in not good at expressing my feelings or being heard or understood. Anxiety and depression; I feel like no one lets off their verbal attacks even when I'm raisin my white flag. I dunno I hear different parts of this song and I relate to it in pieces, you know?
@@subtleshenanigans5983 Same here, I feel ya. Though schizoid, not aspergers, but similar enough
@@ChemicalFleshCoffin I mean hey, if it’s relatable to you as well then it’s relatable to you.
@@subtleshenanigans5983 yep :a_ok:
If this ain't the story of my life...I never knew how to love.
If this doesn’t play on my funeral, I ain’t going
Pitch black, pale blue
There was a stained glass, variation of the truth
And I felt empty handed
You let me set sail
With cheap wood
So I patched up every leak that I could
'Til the blame grew too heavy
Stitch by stitch I tear apart
If brokenness is a form of art
I must be a poster child prodigy
Thread by thread I come apart
If brokenness is a work of art
Surely this must be my masterpiece
I'm only honest when it rains
If I time it right, the thunder breaks
When I open my mouth
I wanna tell you but I don't know how
I'm only honest when it rains
An open book, with a torn out page
And my inks run out
I wanna love you but I don't know how
I don't know how
No I don't know how
I don't know how
I wanna love you but I don't know how
I don't know how
I wanna love you but I don't know how
I wanna love you but I don't know how
I wanna love you
Pitch black, pale blue
These wild oceans shake what's left of me loose
Just to hear me cry mercy
The strong wind at my back
So I'll lift up
The only sail that I have
This tired white flag
(White flag)
I'm only honest when it rains
If I time it right, the thunder breaks
When I open my mouth
I wanna tell you but I don't know how
I'm only honest when it rains
An open book, with a torn out page
And my inks run out
I wanna love you but I don't know how
Know how
I'm only honest when it rains
If I time it right, the thunder breaks
When I open my mouth
I wanna tell you but I don't know how
Know how
I'm only honest when it rains
An open book, with a torn out page
And my inks run out
I wanna love you but I don't know how
I don't know how
I don't know how
I don't know how
I wanna love you but I don't know how
I don't know how
I wanna love you but I don't know how
I wanna love you but I don't know how
I wanna love you
I’ve loved my best friend of 22 years since as long as I can remember. We are both 24. When we were younger it was different, we met different people, went to separate schools etc. Now that we are older, every time I see her I just want to scream “I love you” but it’s like when I do I just get drained and can’t get the words out. This song for some reason reminds me of that. Glad I found it. Maybe one day I’ll tell her.
Powerful.. Enough said.. I love this group and I know how!!
This song can be interpreted so many ways. For me it’s me talking to myself, wanting to tell the people I care about what I’ve been going through and the horrible things I’m doing to myself. “I wanna love you butI don’t know how” is me talking to myself. Sleeping At Last songs have this feel to them. Even if you don't like the tune, the lyrics hit hard. It feels like they are speaking your language. I’m on the verge of tears I every time I listen to this. I feel like somebody understands. “When I open my mouth, I wanna tell you but I don’t know how”
This line is very relatable. I wanna tell people about how I feel but I don’t know what to say.
“I’m only honest when it rains” I’m only honest to myself at the worst of times or when it’s “raining” and I can only confess to anybody when I can’t handle it and need to let it out. “An open book with a torn out page” “and my inks run out” These lines make me think of how you can loose innocence and life so fast without even taking the time to wrap up the “book” and how, even though it’s sad, if you can’t write in the book anymore, to me that’s a way of saying your not alive. I could go on and on about the lyrics, but I’ll stop here. Bless the people who wrote this song.
if loneliness is a form of art, my life is a masterpiece!
Half music and the other half voices and even with the voices, the music overpowers... so beautiful to the point I almost cried
i had someone i cared about pass away in 2015, and last year I found someone who makes me so so so so happy and I always feel guilty, as if I shouldn’t love them. I listen to this song and it puts me at peace. I’m glad music is a language that everyone can understand, and is it’s own medicine.
the perfect description of my feelings .
Im listening to almost of it songs over and over. It soothes my spirit
an open book with a torn out page
AHHH you don't know HOW MUCH I have been looking for THIS SONG💞💞!!
“I’m only honest when it rains, if i time it right, then the thunder breaks, when i open my mouth, I wanna tell you but i don’t know how” i relate to the chorus a lot, but this line relates to me a lot, cause i was much as i wanna talk and seek comfort and help when i’m hurting, something deep down inside holds me back, and when i do, i don’t know how to express it, so i just hide it and cover it up with something lesser and unrelated
This has got to be one of my all time favorites
This is a masterpiece. I came here after a video having this as background score which depicts the love between Magnus and Alec! Just beautiful
This song has helped me define who I am, in the mess and in the good times too, when I'm all the company I have, whether that's good or bad. It brings me peace and, surprisingly, warmth too. Because I am, indeed, a mess for a big chunk of the time! And most of the time, I love myself. Sometimes, I lack that. Sometimes, things are dark and I turn to things that don't help me, or I cling to the past, to people who have left me and aren't coming back. I lose my essence, and I feel distorted and empty.
But to listen to Neptune in the middle of the turmoil, to understand that the lyrics mean so damn much to me, in so many different contexts (because that's just life), to realize that I AM Neptune.
That's probably all I need.
This is now my favorite song
I see this song as someone who has a problem putting their problems and feelings into words, but they love someone else so much they want to learn to be a more sensitive, but they are struggling with their own thoughts and feelings and trying to understand eveything in their mind so they can be a bit more eloquent.
(My friend used the worrd 'tsundere' when I showed him this song and left lol)
You get a hug and you get a hug and you too jerry.. hugs for everyone
My homie put me on this a few years ago and Im just realizing how great this song is. Havent talked to him in a year but lately ive been realizing how much I was low key learning from him cause he was so open minded.
They’re so underrated smh, I love them!!
God damn where they in my head this whole time then they wrote down everything?? I'm breaking down and it's strangely a relief for me.
This song just saved my life...
Sleeping at last is helping me cope with this quarantine
sleeping at last é simplesmente um anjo na terra cantando e compondo hinos que abalam o emocional de qualquer um. simples e apaixonante. sleeping at last é incrivelmente incrível! ♡
I've always struggled with love. Not romantic love, just love in general. It's like I don't feel anything. When I left my parents to live on my own in a foreign country for a year, I wasn't even sad. I didn't miss them. When my brother left home to join the military, it was like he'd never been in my life. When someone I cared about died, I didn't feel anything. I just feel so empty. I want to love these people but I don't know how. But listening to Sleeping At Last, I can feel something.
they are very beautiful
Honestly this is one of my favorite songs, along with All Or Nothing from season 4 of Glee. This song is sooooooo good. The music, the lyrics, just everything about this song is so freaking good!!
I love how they add the drum and it kinda reminds me of rain and later it becomes more of a thunderstorm as it comes to the chorus.
It's also kinda like a boat caught it a thunderstorm.
just a thought.
Just beautiful! Lovely, peaceful and very brilliant song. ❤️
I feel that this song is about someone who did something wrong to hurt the other person, he realizes what he's done and what he has lost after the other left his side and just doesn't know how to apologize and make it better, doesn't know how to express feelings, he feels broken and empty and childish that's why "if brokeness is a form of art I must be a poster child prodigy", he's only honest when he's drunk in the middle of the night that's why "pitch black, pale blue, it was a stained glass variation of the truth" and "I'm only honest when it rains" but is afraid, makes himself strong to speak and just silence so he won't seem weak that's why "if I time it right thunder breaks when I open my mouth". He knows it's his fault and that he has to try harder, to close the past's wounds that's why "an open book with a torn out page" but is too afraid to give in, wants to show his love but it's afraid to be hurt or hurt the other and keeps himself from moving on to write another chapter in his life that's why "and my ink's run out" meaning he gives up to try and doubts, but still feels like this person is worth trying for but doesn't know how to start.
Just a personal thought..
Btw 2020?
Iy.brelzz Official crying here
Heya kiddo,
God, I hope you're doing well. Y'know, it's always been tradition for us to send each other songs--unspoken shit and stuff, but I always did it much more frequently. Daily, and on the rare occasion, every other day, I'd send you a couple of 'em; sometimes I wonder if you knew that they encompassed all the thoughts I could never really blurt out, especially the extent of how much you meant to me.
I've always told you how much I've loved you, and honestly, I still do. But I never told you that talking to you hurts. From the start, I knew you were someone great, someone who'll get far in life, yet you always hindered yourself. When we met, you were hung up on someone, and I wanted to be your friend. If I'd had known that I'd fall for you, well... I don't know, I think I still would have talked to you anyway. I want to help you through it all.
I did a lot of shit because I thought it was for the best, but now that I look back on things, maybe I was the one in the wrong. You loved people, the attention they gave you, the attention _I_ gave you, and maybe that was why we ended up dating for a while, even if it wasn't exactly something I wanted to experience with you. I knew it would never work out.
Of course it wouldn't, I was jealous of the people you'd flirt with when we were friends, and I knew you still thought of your ex. I felt drained every single time we talked, but I cared. I cared too much, to the point that I became a controlling asshole. It suffocated me, you'd get so jealous as well, you'd insult me whenever something I said or did wasn't up to your own ideals and beliefs, and you'd always compare me to them. I always asked if there was someone else, would suggest that we break up because maybe you weren't happy with me. Hell, sometimes even begged because I felt so fucking worthless. If I had just told you what was wrong, maybe things would have been okay. At first you assured me, until just as I expected, you broke up with me.
It was fine, really, it was a huge relief. Maybe I should have stopped talking to you then, but you meant so much to me. I made a fool of myself, and if you were harsh prior to our relationship, you were cruel after the end of it.
I took it all, but I can only take so much. I started telling you all of the frustrations I had against you, acted as passive aggressive as I could, treated you as badly as I felt because I was angry, because I thought I should fight fire with fire. Even now, I regret my actions, and I understand that they were unforgivable.
And so I stopped. Kept my distance, and things were okay. We were regular friends again who occasionally had a few flings, yet talking to you still hurt. I kept thinking of you; it was tiring. I didn't want to, but it just kept getting worse when you started calling me by my name again, telling me that you love me from time to time. It drove me insane, because I should have let you go ages ago, but I keep selfishly clinging onto you, kept telling myself that it's just because I want to be there for you.
Blocked you multiple times, "it's for the best" as I'd always say, but each time I couldn't can't forget you. We'd make up, you'd say you forgive me. All's well until the cycle repeats itself over some other argument. Each time we'd be okay, each time you'd treat me like shit because I left, rub it in my face that it's all my fault. Each time I'd feel how much I'm not enough for you, and would either step up my pep game or depress you with my thoughts. I know I'm garbage, I'm so sorry.
I thought the last time would be the last. I'm so tired. I stopped listening to Wintergatan, Detektivbyrån, Sleeping at Last because I was afraid of feeling anything again. Their music made me think of you, of the comfort you provided, and it was just too dangerous; kept telling myself that there was a reason why I left you. But I went numb without you, died a little without you. Ironically, this was the time I got the best grades I've had in years, got awards, got new skills. Yet I was unhappy, I missed you so much. Now I tell you this on occasion, I don't think you believe me.
Everything else is effortless, but everything about you is so tiring--am I just a masochist? Is that wrong of me to say? You have a new partner; you dated them after a week of knowing them, and that always made me boil with hurt and anger. You like the fact that they allow you to be intimate with other people--is that what's different between us? They aren't around often anymore, is that why you're back?
Fucking hell you mean so much to me, but the shit we had was toxic. Why are you back? You came back claiming it was because you loved me unconditionally, and I don't exactly trust you as much as I did then, but I trusted you enough to let you back in again. You're depressed, I want to comfort you. I like being there for you as a friend, but is it even okay to say that I feel used too? Why is it that when I'm the one who's sad, you don't reassure me? I don't need a call, but sometimes I just wish I knew that you did care.
I cannot thank you enough for bringing joy into my life, but I have no clue what to do anymore. I treasure all of my memories with you, but should I end it once and for all, or should I keep fighting on?
You told me on the night you came back that if I block you again, you'd never forgive me. I can't figure out if loving you means bearing all the fatigue and frustrations I'm facing right now because I know despite all my efforts, I'm just a cop out, or if loving you means learning to let you go and wishing the best for you. It's an ungodly hour here at the moment yet I can't do anything but try to figure out what I'll have to do next. What would make you happy? What would make you okay? I can't heal your wounds, but god I sure hope I can at least soothe them. I'm venting on the comment section of a song I probably won't ever have the guts to send you, but if I ever do, then just know that you mean the world to me, and that was probably my biggest mistake--but (guiltily enough) I can't find it in myself to regret it. Then again, I doubt you'll ever even scroll through these, so essentially I've just wasted more of my time.
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Hey, you need to let them go. Ive been there before. This song reminds me of what it was like trying to love after being with someone like that. It isnt healthy for either of you. It hurts and hurts and hurts and right now you may feel like they are your world and you have no choice but you do. Choose love for yourself. Choose the mental well being for the both of you. Choose to find someone new who can love you in a compatible way. Trust me, they will come when you think no one will.
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One of his best songs
Someone very important for me just died and I can't believe just how much I can relate to this song. This is not the first time I lose someone as important, but the pain is still unbearable and I don't know how to live with this anymore, i'm not sure if I can carry on after this
I love how water is connected with this.
i love this one so much 💙💙💙
Y on gods earth I was not made aware of this song. So beautiful. Thanks for the upload... Let's keep on watching....2018 & beyond..
I think 'sleeping at last' is the musical voice to God's prophetic gift to the world. Seriously anointed!