Agree! Blue October's music lyrics are purely written from a heart that has experienced so much pain in life. Really heartwrenching, but beautiful nonetheless.
Can have something to do with the fact that this guy has had severe depression problems in the past. This is not commercialized fake-sorrow for the purpose of attracting insecure girls. He once performed in a concert and a fangirl asked him to "take his shirt off". He got very angry and answered back, "This is real!". Should tell you all
When I first heard this I thought, damn this slaps, but now that I've listened so much I truly appreciate the lyrics. After losing my brother, who was my best friend in the whole world, three years ago I felt like my world was over and life since then has felt cold and empty. I struggle every day with thoughts of leaving this cruel and heartless life behind but I think of my brother and I know he wouldnt want that. So all I can do is try and survive, floating through life.
I also lost my brother unexpectedlyabout 4 years ago, he was about 1 1/2 years younger than me (23). Our family was defunct to say the least, and he was my very best friend. We went through everything together and only had each other, I feel like a lost such a giant piece of me with him. I dont think anyone will ever be able to know me like he did. I cry everyday for him still. Since then I'm now 29 and have lost everyone in my family, but his death impacted me most severely. Thanksgiving and Christmas are spent alone and obviously really struggle with my isolation and grief. It breaks me to think about my car breaking down or if I were hospitalized, arrested, or broke/homeless that I'd have nobody to call to help or care. It's like I have all these feelings and emotions facing a cold world that continually plays cruel jokes on me. My biggest fear is that I will always feel this awful everyday the rest of my life. I envy people who have big loving families and get agitated when complain about things their family members do, such as a mom pestering someone to do responsible things since all I yearn for is that kind of social support more than anything in the world. I dont think the grief will ever stop, it bleeds into everything in my life. I'm started to think I dont know how to cope in a healthy way. Dont give up, you're not the only person struggling to deal with the feelings of loss. If you need to talk with someone that's been through a similar situation, I'd be more than happy to listen, talk, cry, or just understand. I'll leave this as an open invitation for anyone that reads this. 💙 hell, I know I need it too
@@lucascasey6867 hey Lucas. I lost my sister 22 years ago. and from what you described she was to me what your brother was to you. 1.5 years apart. it hurts. still hurts. I went on a downward spiral. lost the best years of my life. and no, that's not what she'd want for me, or your brother for you. its hard to love yourself when you lose the only person that loved you. but you got to. the world is more than ready to beat you down, don't join them. realize he loved things about you. that you should love too. when you start being okay with accepting you are a loveable person, and loving yourself the world reacts differently. love yourself. cause shit, if no one is gonna do it for you..do it your damn self. love your again and your pain. love your upside down Topsy turvy pea sized brain...and you'll find the world will do the same. I feel for you, I really do. let the pain make you stronger. much love from a stranger. I'll be there for you
I love Blue October. I've been through everything from IP, physical abuse at home, lost a love one, survived some failed suicide attempts...just... I can really connect with this band I feel, and listening to them is so cleansing. I can't wait to see them live next month.
It’s never been a sad song for me depends on the person I suppose. I used to play this song a lot when I drank with friends when I was young and now that I work offshore when I get a little homesick I find myself singin “I wanna swim away but don’t know how” lol. Im surrounded by the ocean most of the time now so it’s a fun song, but I never really used the song for memories of sadness or anything since the melody is so dang upbeat.
My mother worked 3 jobs, and my dad was abusive to me but not my 3 siblings. My whole life I felt like I was drowning cause I was falling down a "rabbit hole" trying to figure out "why me?!" And I was reaching for something that could pull me out but I never found my answer. I had 2 best friends who had been in similar situations and we were very close. They both committed suicide in 2012 and this song is so much more for me than anything I ever thought a song could be. I'm a 26 year old man with two handsome sons that are thriving but I still struggle inside with self hate and despair. It's a never ending wound, but I've been blessed with the strength to never give up or think of giving up even when it feels like the worlds against me. Idk why I typed this, just felt like sharing.
Im sorry you went through that brother. I wish you and your sons a magnificent life. As for knowing or understanding why those things happened just know there will come a time when all your questions will be answered.
I remember I used to love this song when I was like 9 then I forgot the name of the song and I've been searching for it forever and I'm so happy I FINALLY found it
This is one of the deepest songs I've ever heard and it's crazy how perfectly it describes my feelings sometimes. I'm so thankful that songs like this exist in the world because without them, without music in general- idk where I'd be
I remember hearing this on the radio while I watched my mom get ready for work in the morning (I was too little to go to school). I remember telling her I liked it because it was about the ocean, and even as a tiny child I already knew how much I loved the ocean. She said to me "it's not a very good song." I love my mom, but she has never been more wrong. As the years passed I always wanted to find the song back, but I remembered the lyrics wrong so I couldn't find it. Until one day, it came on the radio when I was at work. I was SHOOK. I remember thinking "there's no way this is what I think it is" until the chorus hit me like a truck. As someone who struggles with depression, I can always tell how bad I'm doing by how alive this song makes me feel. It will always be special, but the song has an undercurrent of depression in it that gives me a baseline. If the song feels happy and comfortable, I know I'm not doing well. If the song feels sad, then I know I'm doing better. Regardless, this is the first song on my favorites playlist and I think that says a lot.
Oh my god I used to love this song years ago. The nostalgia is strong with this one. And now that I get a chance to actually appreciate the lyrics like I couldn't when I was seven and my brain was muddled with my childish fantasies, I realize that this song is about suicide and it's really sad.
+Mother Russia its not just about sucide, its about him not understanding a realtionship that hes in and wanting to commit sucide because of it hence him saying i want too swim away which really means i want to stay in love but don't know how. and the more he progresses in the realtionship, the more he realizes that it won't work out
It's more about a guy who's wife died and now he's depressed and struggling with thoughts of suicide, her face being the only thing that brings him peace. I find it to be a rather hopeful song, he keeps saying how he can't swim but he's trying.
This rock band is so unique. I’m late asf on this band. I’m 24 tho. But the singer has such a different voice, I love it! This style reminds me a lot of the 1970s and 1970s rock style & the legends from that era🚫🧢
I drowned once. I was pulled under the water with the current. I tried to swim to the surface but I didn't make it. I was surrounded by cool water and darkenss. I looked up and could see sun beaming through the water metres above me. I felt this warm peaceful feeling come over me. I was surrounded by silence and then the brightest whitest light. It was the most calm I have ever felt. Then I was freezing. My friend had dived and pulled me out and started CPR. I was under about 2 1/2 min.
Wow this gave me chills. So after fighting to live you started to die and just felt..warmth and peace come over you? Were you afraid or did that pass ?
So (terrifying) but cool! And neat how our bodies (or maybe a higher power?) make us relax. I fell through the ice when I was 12. Although I panicked at first and fought to pull myself back up, my winter clothes were soaked and I couldn't. Much like you, I have a memory of feeling completely calm. I watched the sun filter through the ice and was completely transfixed/ peaceful looking at the refracted light. My eldest sister (24) pulled me out and as soon as she did, everything hurt.
My best friend Trey died of an overdose a week after his birthday this past January, and he showed me this song when we were young at a time where I wasn't really into music like this. But for some reason, this song stuck with me and it's our song now. He was my other brother, my best friend, my family. Blue October has no clue how much this song truly means to me. I wish I could thank them in person, I'm sure Trey would like that too.
This song hit different as a child. Being driven home by auntie who is obsessed with Justin, falling asleep to 18th floor balcony, dirtroom, and....this. Fastforward not knowing this song for many years just for it to pop up on my TH-cam feed......Justin better realize he can travel back in time & still give people strength with music that's passed. Hearing this again now that I'm grown up, the combination of memories as a child hearing a sad song not realizing the effect it has with the feelings that now come as an adult reading the lyrics and finally understanding.....I love to swim. I'll swim forever.
I had to do a presentation for my English class a few years ago where we had to analyze a song and I chose this one. My class loved it and I was able to bring good music into their lives! :)
i made my first email account in 5th grade based on this band.. 15 years later im still stuck on them. plus i was born where they came from so this band is literally my heart. blue october forever ❤ im 25 now and i first heard them at 11
I'm Bi-Polar. With that said I listen to this song a lot. Blue October is one of my favorite bands cause Justin the lead singer is Bi-Polar as well. I can really relate to his music and ya when I get depressed I do listen to this and think of the suicide part.
Life isn't easy when you have episodes and burn bridges. It's easy for people that aren't mentally ill to say it will get better or just get over it. I can't stand people saying that. They don't know how we feel.
When you're depressed, the lonely worst nights engulf you and you're too weak to fight the feelings off, the sadness takes over like waves crashing onto you, The air you breath thick and choking it's so strangling that you wish and pray for it to all be over. Panic sets in and it feels just like drowning in the ocean
Like when you lay on your bed looking up and you feel the weight pressing down on you paired with a feeling of hopelessness you cant think of a solution and you dont want to
This song saved my life, when I went through a tough time with my family and I got a little down I'd listen to this. It would even lull me to sleep sometimes. This song is truly a blessing in my life. Thank you ~.:.
I haven't heard this song in a long while, looking at the lyrics this time around, this song hits kinda hard and deep...I wanna tell whoever reads this: know that things will get better. Maybe not today, or tomorrow, but soon. Take your time, don't rush yourself. You'll make it, I know you will 💕
As a young teenager i knew every word. Didn't know what it was about. Now that I've lived a good decade as an adult i can't tell you how much this song means to me now. This is what every day looks like for me struggling with depression and many other problems i tried to ignore for years. The Marine corps will fuck you up...
It's funny to think that this band was a huge part if the soundtrack of my childhood. Especially this song. And the older I get, the more I understand it, and the more meaning it has. It doesn't really get old, but it does change with age.
@@bornyesterday2994 Geezus. How old are you? You sound like a 12 year old little boy who is just now hitting puberty and finds it amusing when someone says 69. Am I close?
I love how many people are like "im so glad my parents listened to this kind of music while I was growing up, and introduced me to so many amazing songs" cos like..... I was actually the one who showed my mom. This was the first song either of us heard by Blue October. And she loved this one the most, while i gravitated more towards Hate Me as an addict who the lyrics resonated with on such a deep level. We've both been through extensive trauma, horrible depression and anxiety and other severe mental illnesses, and addiction in my case. So when I found Blue October, I was in like... I think middle school?? It was a long time ago (I'm 30 now), and I IMMEDIATELY showed my mom because I knew she would love it. (I was right) One thing I love about Blue October, more specifically Justin, the singer, is that he clearly really does struggle with the same things, and was never pretending to..... And every. single. time. I've started a new chapter in my life, i find that Blue October had JUST released a new album right before, where he details his journey through the chapter I'm just then opening. And I will never be able to word just how much I appreciate Blue October and the songs. I've felt relief at not being alone, I've bawled my eyes out when listening to Hate Me because I deeply felt what he was saying. How he wanted his mom to hate him and leave him behind because he knew it was the only way she'd stop putting him above herself, and finally live for her instead of always for him. Even though he knew for her to he happy, he couldn't be a part of her life. And as I've gotten older, that's very much something I can relate to.... And I've cried when listening to Fear, and how I could just feel all the pressure I've put on myself for years finally be somewhat lifted off me, and feeling like someone was telling me i could finally let go of all the fear and self hatred and pain, and yeah i was allowed to feel it but didnt need to internalize it, and blame myself and shoulder it all on my own in silence. I Hope You're Happy when leaving a relationship that was very toxic on both sides but still wishing the other person the best, and not letting myself hate them. Listened to Home next to my sleeping fiancé, the love of my life i found after that breakup. And him making me excited for the future for the first time, instead of terrified. So much of my life parallels Justin's, and I wish I could meet him and tell him just how much he and his music have helped me.... Through some of the absolute darkest points of my life.....
Damn. Powerful words “I’m reaching for the life within me, how can one man stop his ending? I thought of just your face, relaxed and floated into space” Chills. I found my face. He has saved me for sure. Don’t give up. Your face will come.
Ive never been able to float in water. Or life. I only survive by kicking my feet as hard as i can. And most days that doesnt feel like its enough. But i will fight until i collapse
Someone sent me this song to inspire me to keep going when I feel like I don't want to go anymore it definitely helped me listen to it again I've heard it before in the past but never knew the name of it
I remember a few years listening to this often being able to relate to wanting to swim away from all the troubles and stuff. Now I find I can’t relate anymore. It’s amazing how much we grow when we look in hindsight. Still one of the best songs ever
This is very reflective of my last month of my chaotic life before I landed flat on my back on life support fighting for a life I never even knew I wanted before then! Now it's 10 months post coma...those memories still bring tears to me.
When I was a little baby I used to listen to this song all the time and I would sing to it all the time. My dad was in the coast guard but he has ( P. T. S.D ) it is sort for (Posted traumatic stress disorter.) I'm only 10 my dad is on sleeping pills and so much more he has tried to comment suicide many of times but having me and my brother and my mom helps him remind himself that he has a family and he kinda calms down. He is currently on 12 different pills a day . my dad thinks he is a monster and that he is not worth it but I think he is so worth it. P.T.S.D is spreading all over the world and they think that we can't help them and that is true but we can help them a little bit. Now we can't tell people with P.T.S.D that we can fix them because that is not true. My dad has had so many different prescriptions for his meds but none of them are working. P.T.S.D has spread so much thought his brain it is so bad doctors can't really help him anymore. I love my dad so much and a lot of people at my school say my life is perfect and nothing is going bad with my life. Do y'all think I have a major issue in life right now?
This songs much sadder than it seems. Especially when you consider its music video- He was performing on stage and the front row seat said something to the effect of "Reserved for my wife" and it was empty, because shes dead. )))))::::::::
Actually it's empty because she was never there for him. In real life she was a controlling bit** who never supported him and constantly made him feel bad for going on tour. She eventually cheated on him with their neighbor who was also married. *the more you know*
Amanda Worden I dont think that would go along with "I thought of just your face, relaxed and floated into space." May I ask where you got this information?
+ScotchTapeMafia he talks about her all the time. The first concert of theirs I ever went to he spent at least a quarter of it talking about her. Then he went on to point out that he started drinking again because of her.
Amanda Worden Thats messed up! In a way, he's better off than if she wouldve died. Imagine a cheating girlfriend dying before you were able to find out she betrayed you, then going on the rest of your life mourning her and never realizing that she never had feelings for you. Anyway, thank you for clearing that up~
koolbros1 Ibuix Paladin (Ibuix fuck you that is really not cool or funny. You're a fuckign piece of shit.) I'm sorry for you, koolbros1. I hope you are doing okay.
Father. He shared this on a cd he got from his job when i was little. The message of the song wasn't the impact. It sounded nice. And peaceful. The voice and the tones. I only remember him playing this for me when i was like 4 or 5. And me being sleepy in his arms. 😊 He is still with me. Only when its time for him to go...sadly.... I will do something nice. Maybe he will hear this with me just before. (For me: ❤❤)
I fell in love with a girl who would never feel the same I think I was part of some emotional game I don't know how to breathe without her On my heart will forever be a scar Killing these feelings is not a simple thing Without her, I don't know what the future will bring Always in my soul she will hold a place I can't help but dream of her beautiful face Help me, for I cannot escape This distant, longing place...
hey if she doesn't feel the same way for you then its not meant to be, and know you can now move on knowing you wouldn't work so oh well it sucks a bit now but move on to the fact there is someone as good or better for you that feels the same way.
This is one of those songs that your mother played when you were little and when you grew up you had vague memories of it and when you find it, absolute bliss
Heard this thanks to my grandparents and also on the radio before. I miss most of the old songs like this I’d listen too, loved this era of music and wish it would’ve come back. Early 2000s and early 2010s music gets me going.
When i was in middle school my bro when off to college and he gave me his ipod nano that had thousands of classic songs on it..i found this and couldnt stop listening to it everytime i got on the bus or whenever i got the chance...idk just made me feel better
If u liked the violin on this one.... Lol look up the song let it go by blue October . It sounds beautiful.. Just lesson to the whole song ... U would love it lol
mental health is a definite hurdle in the minds of young and old people alike. We all need to learn how to speak exactly what it is thats in our head and everything that we think is a problem, for that there needs to exist people that work to listen well and help explain any reason or solutions to reducing mental illnesses...sometimes all we need is some primal frustration ventilation.. basically break some stuff without fear of being looked at as a threat to humanity.
I thank my mother for blasting this kind of music when I was little
•Thank you mother•
I feel this man. 109%. Thank you
same bro same !!
Phan.trash202 same
Phan.trash202 👍
Phan.trash202 same
I heard this in a cafe yesterday, I hadn't heard it since I was around 10. Now I can appreciate just how lyrically brilliant it is.
It is blue October the band are they good or wut !
I’m going through such a tough time right now and never appreciated this song to its fullest until I needed it most. Watching them in STL in October
Ryan Degen you better now
Agree! Blue October's music lyrics are purely written from a heart that has experienced so much pain in life. Really heartwrenching, but beautiful nonetheless.
I wanna go to that Cafe
This is that one sad song in a million that actually has imagination behind it rather then cliche's and other nonesenses.
Can have something to do with the fact that this guy has had severe depression problems in the past. This is not commercialized fake-sorrow for the purpose of attracting insecure girls. He once performed in a concert and a fangirl asked him to "take his shirt off". He got very angry and answered back, "This is real!". Should tell you all
@Nick Supreme That fangirl didn't need to say that. That was just... Ignorant...
To be fair someone very close to you dying leaves a bit more of an emotional impact than some chick you dated for a few months breaking up with you.
I know right God bless you and them.
@@SilverBell1999 Nothing wrong with it, just a girl having fun in a concert.
This song so perfectly describes depression. "I'm treading for my life, believe me. How can I keep up this breathing?"
I know I'm years late but if you still use this account:
It's because that's what it's about. The singer's struggle with depression and addiction.
When I first heard this I thought, damn this slaps, but now that I've listened so much I truly appreciate the lyrics. After losing my brother, who was my best friend in the whole world, three years ago I felt like my world was over and life since then has felt cold and empty. I struggle every day with thoughts of leaving this cruel and heartless life behind but I think of my brother and I know he wouldnt want that. So all I can do is try and survive, floating through life.
I also lost my brother unexpectedlyabout 4 years ago, he was about 1 1/2 years younger than me (23). Our family was defunct to say the least, and he was my very best friend. We went through everything together and only had each other, I feel like a lost such a giant piece of me with him. I dont think anyone will ever be able to know me like he did. I cry everyday for him still. Since then I'm now 29 and have lost everyone in my family, but his death impacted me most severely. Thanksgiving and Christmas are spent alone and obviously really struggle with my isolation and grief. It breaks me to think about my car breaking down or if I were hospitalized, arrested, or broke/homeless that I'd have nobody to call to help or care. It's like I have all these feelings and emotions facing a cold world that continually plays cruel jokes on me. My biggest fear is that I will always feel this awful everyday the rest of my life. I envy people who have big loving families and get agitated when complain about things their family members do, such as a mom pestering someone to do responsible things since all I yearn for is that kind of social support more than anything in the world. I dont think the grief will ever stop, it bleeds into everything in my life.
I'm started to think I dont know how to cope in a healthy way.
Dont give up, you're not the only person struggling to deal with the feelings of loss. If you need to talk with someone that's been through a similar situation, I'd be more than happy to listen, talk, cry, or just understand. I'll leave this as an open invitation for anyone that reads this. 💙 hell, I know I need it too
Hate me blue October's makes me cry evrytime.to where I refuse to listen to it anymore.
@@lucascasey6867 this is beautiful I hope you're doing well
@@lucascasey6867 hey Lucas. I lost my sister 22 years ago. and from what you described she was to me what your brother was to you. 1.5 years apart. it hurts. still hurts. I went on a downward spiral. lost the best years of my life. and no, that's not what she'd want for me, or your brother for you. its hard to love yourself when you lose the only person that loved you. but you got to. the world is more than ready to beat you down, don't join them. realize he loved things about you. that you should love too. when you start being okay with accepting you are a loveable person, and loving yourself the world reacts differently. love yourself. cause shit, if no one is gonna do it for you..do it your damn self. love your again and your pain. love your upside down Topsy turvy pea sized brain...and you'll find the world will do the same. I feel for you, I really do. let the pain make you stronger. much love from a stranger. I'll be there for you
Hope you are STILL WITH US ❤
I love Blue October. I've been through everything from IP, physical abuse at home, lost a love one, survived some failed suicide attempts...just... I can really connect with this band I feel, and listening to them is so cleansing. I can't wait to see them live next month.
Hey are you still on TH-cam it,s been 10 years ago
If you are still here, I thank God! I lost my nephew on 6/17/22. I wish you well, God bless.
It's not worth it 😢 I have scars all over my arms and head. Remember scars are supposed too remind us that is in the past
❤
What's IP
man...this song hurts.
sokol doesnt it though? Too familiar.
sokol
life is like a jump rope , remember?
I agree
@@wesleymitchell4698 up down up down up down 😉😃
It’s never been a sad song for me depends on the person I suppose. I used to play this song a lot when I drank with friends when I was young and now that I work offshore when I get a little homesick I find myself singin “I wanna swim away but don’t know how” lol. Im surrounded by the ocean most of the time now so it’s a fun song, but I never really used the song for memories of sadness or anything since the melody is so dang upbeat.
My mother worked 3 jobs, and my dad was abusive to me but not my 3 siblings. My whole life I felt like I was drowning cause I was falling down a "rabbit hole" trying to figure out "why me?!" And I was reaching for something that could pull me out but I never found my answer. I had 2 best friends who had been in similar situations and we were very close. They both committed suicide in 2012 and this song is so much more for me than anything I ever thought a song could be. I'm a 26 year old man with two handsome sons that are thriving but I still struggle inside with self hate and despair. It's a never ending wound, but I've been blessed with the strength to never give up or think of giving up even when it feels like the worlds against me. Idk why I typed this, just felt like sharing.
Im sorry you went through that brother. I wish you and your sons a magnificent life. As for knowing or understanding why those things happened just know there will come a time when all your questions will be answered.
I remember I used to love this song when I was like 9 then I forgot the name of the song and I've been searching for it forever and I'm so happy I FINALLY found it
me too!!!
Shit dude, same!
Kinda happened to me with 'Better than Me' by Hinder.
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same
I haven’t heard this song in years but it started randomly playing in my head yesterday... thank you brain.
This is one of the deepest songs I've ever heard and it's crazy how perfectly it describes my feelings sometimes. I'm so thankful that songs like this exist in the world because without them, without music in general- idk where I'd be
I remember hearing this on the radio while I watched my mom get ready for work in the morning (I was too little to go to school). I remember telling her I liked it because it was about the ocean, and even as a tiny child I already knew how much I loved the ocean. She said to me "it's not a very good song." I love my mom, but she has never been more wrong.
As the years passed I always wanted to find the song back, but I remembered the lyrics wrong so I couldn't find it. Until one day, it came on the radio when I was at work. I was SHOOK. I remember thinking "there's no way this is what I think it is" until the chorus hit me like a truck.
As someone who struggles with depression, I can always tell how bad I'm doing by how alive this song makes me feel. It will always be special, but the song has an undercurrent of depression in it that gives me a baseline. If the song feels happy and comfortable, I know I'm not doing well. If the song feels sad, then I know I'm doing better.
Regardless, this is the first song on my favorites playlist and I think that says a lot.
Let the rain come down
Oh my god I used to love this song years ago. The nostalgia is strong with this one. And now that I get a chance to actually appreciate the lyrics like I couldn't when I was seven and my brain was muddled with my childish fantasies, I realize that this song is about suicide and it's really sad.
+Mother Russia its not just about sucide, its about him not understanding a realtionship that hes in and wanting to commit sucide because of it hence him saying i want too swim away which really means i want to stay in love but don't know how. and the more he progresses in the realtionship, the more he realizes that it won't work out
sad if you make it
+ken alexander exactly
It's more about a guy who's wife died and now he's depressed and struggling with thoughts of suicide, her face being the only thing that brings him peace. I find it to be a rather hopeful song, he keeps saying how he can't swim but he's trying.
miriflower01 he says he can't swim because he can't move on, and all he can think about is his ex's face.
This rock band is so unique. I’m late asf on this band. I’m 24 tho. But the singer has such a different voice, I love it! This style reminds me a lot of the 1970s and 1970s rock style & the legends from that era🚫🧢
I drowned once. I was pulled under the water with the current. I tried to swim to the surface but I didn't make it. I was surrounded by cool water and darkenss. I looked up and could see sun beaming through the water metres above me. I felt this warm peaceful feeling come over me. I was surrounded by silence and then the brightest whitest light. It was the most calm I have ever felt. Then I was freezing. My friend had dived and pulled me out and started CPR. I was under about 2 1/2 min.
Wow this gave me chills. So after fighting to live you started to die and just felt..warmth and peace come over you? Were you afraid or did that pass ?
I'm so glad you made it and can live your life like how you were ment too
So (terrifying) but cool! And neat how our bodies (or maybe a higher power?) make us relax.
I fell through the ice when I was 12. Although I panicked at first and fought to pull myself back up, my winter clothes were soaked and I couldn't. Much like you, I have a memory of feeling completely calm. I watched the sun filter through the ice and was completely transfixed/ peaceful looking at the refracted light. My eldest sister (24) pulled me out and as soon as she did, everything hurt.
@@user-vj8do6ss4b Yeah! Everything came from nothing. Or maybe we really aren't here! Ya reckon?
Drowning is apparently a really bad and painful way to die.
My best friend Trey died of an overdose a week after his birthday this past January, and he showed me this song when we were young at a time where I wasn't really into music like this. But for some reason, this song stuck with me and it's our song now. He was my other brother, my best friend, my family. Blue October has no clue how much this song truly means to me. I wish I could thank them in person, I'm sure Trey would like that too.
😧...😭
This song hit different as a child. Being driven home by auntie who is obsessed with Justin, falling asleep to 18th floor balcony, dirtroom, and....this. Fastforward not knowing this song for many years just for it to pop up on my TH-cam feed......Justin better realize he can travel back in time & still give people strength with music that's passed. Hearing this again now that I'm grown up, the combination of memories as a child hearing a sad song not realizing the effect it has with the feelings that now come as an adult reading the lyrics and finally understanding.....I love to swim. I'll swim forever.
This song actually feels like I am floating around in the ocean. I love it when songs can take you away like this.
I had to do a presentation for my English class a few years ago where we had to analyze a song and I chose this one. My class loved it and I was able to bring good music into their lives! :)
Oh my gosh that violin its so majestic and uhhh its much
its too much* whoops
I know! How am I supposed to handle the majesty of this song?!?
i made my first email account in 5th grade based on this band.. 15 years later im still stuck on them. plus i was born where they came from so this band is literally my heart. blue october forever ❤ im 25 now and i first heard them at 11
I'm Bi-Polar. With that said I listen to this song a lot. Blue October is one of my favorite bands cause Justin the lead singer is Bi-Polar as well. I can really relate to his music and ya when I get depressed I do listen to this and think of the suicide part.
Life isn't easy when you have episodes and burn bridges. It's easy for people that aren't mentally ill to say it will get better or just get over it. I can't stand people saying that. They don't know how we feel.
Abrokenheartinlife exactly
I know exactly what your talking
Same here, I too have been diagnosed with Bipolar
No one can control what theyre put through. You can always control how you react
When you're depressed, the lonely worst nights engulf you and you're too weak to fight the feelings off, the sadness takes over like waves crashing onto you, The air you breath thick and choking it's so strangling that you wish and pray for it to all be over. Panic sets in and it feels just like drowning in the ocean
Like when you lay on your bed looking up and you feel the weight pressing down on you paired with a feeling of hopelessness you cant think of a solution and you dont want to
This song saved my life, when I went through a tough time with my family and I got a little down I'd listen to this. It would even lull me to sleep sometimes. This song is truly a blessing in my life.
Thank you ~.:.
Are you still on TH-cam it,s been 8 years ago..
First year since youve passed ive been able to sing this song without crying. Again, I love you Burke.
I haven't heard this song in a long while, looking at the lyrics this time around, this song hits kinda hard and deep...I wanna tell whoever reads this: know that things will get better. Maybe not today, or tomorrow, but soon. Take your time, don't rush yourself. You'll make it, I know you will 💕
As a young teenager i knew every word. Didn't know what it was about. Now that I've lived a good decade as an adult i can't tell you how much this song means to me now. This is what every day looks like for me struggling with depression and many other problems i tried to ignore for years. The Marine corps will fuck you up...
This song is making me so nostalgic. My dad used to listen to this with me. I haven't heard it in YEARS and yet I still remember every word.
Btw perfect song for Fallen Leaves
2018?? I'm only 17 and can appreciate the hell out of this song. I remember listening to this with my mum when I was little. Man the memories...
It's funny to think that this band was a huge part if the soundtrack of my childhood. Especially this song. And the older I get, the more I understand it, and the more meaning it has. It doesn't really get old, but it does change with age.
I know what you mean
idk why but i have vivid memories of 8 year old me playing kingdom hearts when i hear this song.
Same here! Great song and great game! Looking forward to kingdom hearts 3! :)
me too :D
tisha inot
The original Kingdom Hearts? What a beautiful memory.
@@bornyesterday2994 Geezus. How old are you? You sound like a 12 year old little boy who is just now hitting puberty and finds it amusing when someone says 69. Am I close?
This dude is just an awesome songwriter! this is one of the most underrated groups ever.
Anyone listening to this amazing song in 2019
FUCK YES. SEEING HIM IN MAINE AGAINNNNN ON OCT 29TH (2019) . Bless up Justin.
I came back for some nostalgia!
❤️ beautiful a good friend more love.
NO
Everyone Knows You Are Only Allowed To Listen To A Song Within Five Years Of Its Release Date.
Gemma and Alex!!! Thanks Jessica Sorenson for using this song in your books! This is one of the best songs I have heard in my entire life!
I love how many people are like "im so glad my parents listened to this kind of music while I was growing up, and introduced me to so many amazing songs" cos like..... I was actually the one who showed my mom. This was the first song either of us heard by Blue October. And she loved this one the most, while i gravitated more towards Hate Me as an addict who the lyrics resonated with on such a deep level.
We've both been through extensive trauma, horrible depression and anxiety and other severe mental illnesses, and addiction in my case. So when I found Blue October, I was in like... I think middle school?? It was a long time ago (I'm 30 now), and I IMMEDIATELY showed my mom because I knew she would love it. (I was right)
One thing I love about Blue October, more specifically Justin, the singer, is that he clearly really does struggle with the same things, and was never pretending to..... And every. single. time. I've started a new chapter in my life, i find that Blue October had JUST released a new album right before, where he details his journey through the chapter I'm just then opening. And I will never be able to word just how much I appreciate Blue October and the songs. I've felt relief at not being alone, I've bawled my eyes out when listening to Hate Me because I deeply felt what he was saying. How he wanted his mom to hate him and leave him behind because he knew it was the only way she'd stop putting him above herself, and finally live for her instead of always for him. Even though he knew for her to he happy, he couldn't be a part of her life. And as I've gotten older, that's very much something I can relate to....
And I've cried when listening to Fear, and how I could just feel all the pressure I've put on myself for years finally be somewhat lifted off me, and feeling like someone was telling me i could finally let go of all the fear and self hatred and pain, and yeah i was allowed to feel it but didnt need to internalize it, and blame myself and shoulder it all on my own in silence. I Hope You're Happy when leaving a relationship that was very toxic on both sides but still wishing the other person the best, and not letting myself hate them. Listened to Home next to my sleeping fiancé, the love of my life i found after that breakup. And him making me excited for the future for the first time, instead of terrified.
So much of my life parallels Justin's, and I wish I could meet him and tell him just how much he and his music have helped me.... Through some of the absolute darkest points of my life.....
Damn. Powerful words
“I’m reaching for the life within me, how can one man stop his ending? I thought of just your face, relaxed and floated into space”
Chills. I found my face. He has saved me for sure. Don’t give up. Your face will come.
My mom downloaded this song on my mp3 player when no was really young. It was my favorite and I just found it again. I love it so much!
this song was written ten years ago, where has the time gone?
+ryan smith jl
your telling me just found it again damn i was 8 im 18 now
12 years now
All into the ocean ending this all
look at time now..
My boyfriend suggested I listen to a few Blue October songs. This band is awesome!
My sisters listened to this religiously during their Twilight phase when I was little. Still one of my childhood favorites.
Are you still on TH-cam it,s been 1 year ago.
This song just hits in all the right places.❤️ All the "feels"💯
My depressed ass is still here from the time this song came out to 2020
Saaaaaammme
Lol, I am here too :3
Post Malone
You ain’t alone Kay
depressed gang.. assemble
Concept of letting life consume you, moral of the story.. Instead of letting life consume you, consume life. Enjoy the beauty God gave us.
Sway Uprising be like water. When you relax and let yourself become one with it, you'll start to float
Ive never been able to float in water. Or life. I only survive by kicking my feet as hard as i can. And most days that doesnt feel like its enough. But i will fight until i collapse
This song will never get old , I absolutely love this song !
Just recently sang this with my brother at a school concert and we got first place
Congrats!
2020 and still loving this, loved this song since I was a little kid
THIS SONG GIVES ME THE FEEEEEELLLLSSS
I like this song I remember hearing this in 2006 as a kid when I used to live in desoto,Texas
Glenn Garner I still live in Texas man, and I also grew up on songs like these
Oh for real
Glenn Garner yeah, I live in a small town outside fort worth
Port Neches tx
Houston here!
You keep coming back no matter how many years and its still great and it still brings great emotion in your eyes
One of my favorite songs of my child hood; strikes nostalgia so hard.
Perfect song to describe their Band name.
I love this song and every time i go to the beach, i start singing this song.
I LOVE IT!!
Are you still on TH-cam it,s been 10 years ago.
Someone sent me this song to inspire me to keep going when I feel like I don't want to go anymore it definitely helped me listen to it again I've heard it before in the past but never knew the name of it
Keep going😎❤
This brings back so so many memories.
I remember a few years listening to this often being able to relate to wanting to swim away from all the troubles and stuff. Now I find I can’t relate anymore. It’s amazing how much we grow when we look in hindsight. Still one of the best songs ever
This is music, this is literally poetry with instruments. Thank you Blue October, this is your Fifth Symphony in my eyes, this is a masterpiece.
i don't know how to explain what this song does to me, but theres something about the whole song, especially the chorus, that touches my soul.
This song will always be great within 6 Years!
Are you still on on TH-cam it,s been 6 years ago and the song is still good.
@@nuclearmonster4259 yes lol, and indeed it’s still an amazing song.
As it replays once more as I write this comment.
It's 2015 and this song is still amazing.
oh he'll ya
2016
2017
+Cris Robles ....
I agree
I'm freaking in love with this band &. Justin & this song...
This is very reflective of my last month of my chaotic life before I landed flat on my back on life support fighting for a life I never even knew I wanted before then! Now it's 10 months post coma...those memories still bring tears to me.
When I was a little baby I used to listen to this song all the time and I would sing to it all the time. My dad was in the coast guard but he has ( P. T. S.D ) it is sort for (Posted traumatic stress disorter.) I'm only 10 my dad is on sleeping pills and so much more he has tried to comment suicide many of times but having me and my brother and my mom helps him remind himself that he has a family and he kinda calms down. He is currently on 12 different pills a day . my dad thinks he is a monster and that he is not worth it but I think he is so worth it. P.T.S.D is spreading all over the world and they think that we can't help them and that is true but we can help them a little bit. Now we can't tell people with P.T.S.D that we can fix them because that is not true. My dad has had so many different prescriptions for his meds but none of them are working. P.T.S.D has spread so much thought his brain it is so bad doctors can't really help him anymore. I love my dad so much and a lot of people at my school say my life is perfect and nothing is going bad with my life. Do y'all think I have a major issue in life right now?
I almost cried when I remembered just a tiny note from this song because I haven’t heard this in years and this really song hits hard with memories.
I want to visit the beach and just relax in the water listening to this song
Somehow this song makes me smile, finding myself still watching it in 2012. :)
2015's best throw back. Reminds me of my childhood
I love this song! It's one of the best songs in the world in my opinion
This songs much sadder than it seems. Especially when you consider its music video- He was performing on stage and the front row seat said something to the effect of "Reserved for my wife" and it was empty, because shes dead. )))))::::::::
Actually it's empty because she was never there for him. In real life she was a controlling bit** who never supported him and constantly made him feel bad for going on tour. She eventually cheated on him with their neighbor who was also married. *the more you know*
Amanda Worden I dont think that would go along with "I thought of just your face, relaxed and floated into space." May I ask where you got this information?
+ScotchTapeMafia he talks about her all the time. The first concert of theirs I ever went to he spent at least a quarter of it talking about her. Then he went on to point out that he started drinking again because of her.
Amanda Worden Thats messed up! In a way, he's better off than if she wouldve died. Imagine a cheating girlfriend dying before you were able to find out she betrayed you, then going on the rest of your life mourning her and never realizing that she never had feelings for you. Anyway, thank you for clearing that up~
Another one yet again, (it's supposed to be a sword, duh) 😢
This is what u call music ^-^
Always gets me teary-eyed.
0:28 fifteen years old this song means the world to me to this very very day thank you😊
My brother drowned I used to love this song but now it makes me cry
Are you okay 😰 i hope your brother is in a good place
Was his name Ben by chance?
Ibuix Paladin love it
koolbros1 Ibuix Paladin (Ibuix fuck you that is really not cool or funny. You're a fuckign piece of shit.) I'm sorry for you, koolbros1. I hope you are doing okay.
croalurk that was like ages ago. And even if he's okay, his brother hit the fuckin metaphoric fan lol. I'm sure that's just delightful for him.
im 17 and just found this song, and im so sad I didnt know about this song sooner I love it so much
This song reminds me of a past life.
How so?
Father. He shared this on a cd he got from his job when i was little. The message of the song wasn't the impact. It sounded nice. And peaceful. The voice and the tones.
I only remember him playing this for me when i was like 4 or 5. And me being sleepy in his arms. 😊
He is still with me. Only when its time for him to go...sadly....
I will do something nice.
Maybe he will hear this with me just before.
(For me: ❤❤)
got up this morning, craving to hear this song... beautiful
I'm in love with this band I'm actually singing this in our school talent show i'm so nervous ahhh
I fell in love with a girl who would never feel the same
I think I was part of some emotional game
I don't know how to breathe without her
On my heart will forever be a scar
Killing these feelings is not a simple thing
Without her, I don't know what the future will bring
Always in my soul she will hold a place
I can't help but dream of her beautiful face
Help me, for I cannot escape
This distant, longing place...
Those are nice lyrics. They describe what I'm going through right now. Thank you for sharing.
Could be worse. Could have FoxDIE
+TriMageRyan oh gawd why xD
hey if she doesn't feel the same way for you then its not meant to be, and know you can now move on knowing you wouldn't work so oh well it sucks a bit now but move on to the fact there is someone as good or better for you that feels the same way.
puuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuss
I haven't heard this song in like 5 years I finally found it again I'm happy
This is one of those songs that your mother played when you were little and when you grew up you had vague memories of it and when you find it, absolute bliss
I'm so sorry for your loss. Your dad sounds like a wonderful person, as do you! :)
I havent heard this in Years.
“I want to swim away but don’t know how.” Fuck. That’s so relatable I’m
let the rain come dowwwnnn!! 💜💚
Heard this thanks to my grandparents and also on the radio before. I miss most of the old songs like this I’d listen too, loved this era of music and wish it would’ve come back. Early 2000s and early 2010s music gets me going.
Heard them mentioned on the radio today and here I am haven't thought of this song in years and now I'm addicted all over again
Loved this song clear to 2018 so far 💚
If you change the speed to 1.25 it becomes a whole new song
How do you change speed? I'm on a mobile device
You cant change it on a mobile device
:( im on mobile
Stone YOU CAN NOW
It makes it sexy
R.I.P to my Uncle Mitchell, The Coolest of the Cool, who used to play this song and listen to me sing the chorus....
I remembered listening to this 10 years ago... Good memories 😇
Still the best memories I have
When i was in middle school my bro when off to college and he gave me his ipod nano that had thousands of classic songs on it..i found this and couldnt stop listening to it everytime i got on the bus or whenever i got the chance...idk just made me feel better
I love the violin at the end.
If u liked the violin on this one.... Lol look up the song let it go by blue October .
It sounds beautiful.. Just lesson to the whole song ... U would love it lol
89! I
HairyViking111 It's an er-hu, not a violin.
streakypro My bad, I have never heard of that before.
oh lol well whatever awesome instrument lol \
Heard this song when I was in elementary school
Same
I was a Sophomore in HS when this album came out.
Cool
Zero-Two i hear you there I though the song was sad when I heard it regrats for your los
Me too
I tried to commit suicide this song helped me get through it and I'm still standing here stronger than ever today
When i was a kid and this song came out, i listened to it everyday nonstop figuring out the true meaning to this song.
I thank everything I love every day, for this song being made. I think we all really needed this. Some of us still do.
my fiance died and wow...this song
ty
words are not enough
How are you doing
How are you
I love this song so fucking much
"i wanna swim away but don't know how, sometimes it feels just like im falling in the ocean."
This song saved me from killing myself when I was in depression
mental health is a definite hurdle in the minds of young and old people alike. We all need to learn how to speak exactly what it is thats in our head and everything that we think is a problem, for that there needs to exist people that work to listen well and help explain any reason or solutions to reducing mental illnesses...sometimes all we need is some primal frustration ventilation.. basically break some stuff without fear of being looked at as a threat to humanity.
The boy next door gave me a list with bands i had to listen to and download.
This is perfect.