New year! New me! New you! New merch, new NEW NEW old
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 3 ต.ค. 2024
- I've decided I'm going to use my youtube channel for some self help for the next few weeks. I'm going to chat to you all as if you were my therapist, and I won't be paying you a thing!!
I may have mentioned my NEW merch shop a few times, so here is a link to that.
www.crabstickzs...
And tweet me pics when the stuff arrives to your house so I can check it arrived in one piece as we'll be using owls for a more cost efficient method of delivery. And the savings will be past down to YOU!
Also, I will be using twitter again, but only as a means to chronicle my deteriorating mind.
/ chris_kendall_
chuppa chub wub
+KickThePj i want your friendship
same
AW PEEJ HOW SWEET
+KickThePj
Wut
YOU CAN MAKE A EIGHT HOUR VIDEO OF YOU SLEEPING AND I'LL WATCH IT ANYWAY, SILLY
An*
YOUR PROFILE PHOTO KILLS ME INSIDE
same
Chris please make a video of this I beg you
SO TRUE
Ahhh ya made me grin and that's all a video needs
so proud of you, we all love you you know
+Hanna Howell Lester Da fucking phandom tho ;-;
+TheAmazingKickThePhandomIsnotonFire awesome name
hehe ik :3
Chris (and everybody else that feels like a useless piece of rotten cheese with big dreams and far too many thoughts and self doubts). don't think about making 'good art'. don't even think about making 'art'. for now, just make. we're here and not going anywhere as you can see. use this channel the way you would have used it back in the day when youtube wasn't what it is today. You can do it, whatever you have in mind. Take you're time, calm yourself down, trust in the progress, trust in yourself - in the mean time we're here supporting you.always.
+Ema Atwell Great advice! :)
+Ema Atwell Thank you for saying that!
MivStar
that somehow gave even me a lot of comfort and energy. I hope he reads it too, you gave real nice and motivational advise.
that's really sweet,
we care more about your mental health than these videos. love you
+Taylor Jones WE REALLY DO. I hope he takes care of himself and/or lets others do that.
+Taylor Jones its true, we really love you Chris
Just realize that the people that have enjoyed watching your videos aren't expecting anything other than seeing a new video pop into their subscription boxes. Anything past that is just a bonus. Every video you make is appreciated/enjoyed by the silent majority.
i agree. he could not upload for years and id still be here
I agree we love you Chris!
+Jbidrovo My thoughts exactly.
Chris baby, don't push yourself for anything.
Take your time and do everything at our own pace
I'm stalking you
+ella Mackie ffs Ella I'm trying to read phanfiction
+Layla Wood what phanfic are you reading?
NOOOOO
Chris, whether it be 6 hours, 6 weeks, or 6 months, in ALWAYS happy to see you!! You are my favorite person on TH-cam. How you have the ability to make me lmao just by talking to the camera, I will never know but it's much appreciated!
I'm **
666 right there
I like these videos, I feel like he's actually my friend. And I like listening to him, it's so soothing to listen to his voice. And his videos are always amazing, for me, it's his quirkiness that keeps me watching. And I love Chris very much, I just hope he doesn't give up on himself, because his videos are very unique.
So true, that's why I love his videos too - they feel so personal and show his vulnerability which is incredibly endearing, especially when you can totally imagine him being just like that in the flesh too. Adorably awkward but disguises it with humour ☺️💕
Fiona Boyne Yeah, he's a cute, quirky dork.
+Dove Betancourt aka. Phangirl This is so sweet, thanks
+crabstickz No, Thank you.❤
me too
CHRIS!! I'm so happy you're back. We've all missed you lots. Do whatever you have to do to get back on the right track!! Your mental health always comes first :) xx
And don't feel like you're selling out with creating merchandise (unless you're joking about selling out, of course I can never tell lmao) because as long as it's something you're passionate about and if it helps pay the damn rent, just do it!! Gotta survive amiright my dude
+Lauren Elizabeth Exactly! He needs to put his health and happiness first. :)
+SushiRoll Speaks Exactly!! Which can honestly be hard to do... But I'm glad it seems like he's starting to recover :))
+Lauren Elizabeth Yes I feel that. I want him to be happy so much.
we love you Chris
you are beautiful
you are the universe
you are the galaxy
you are worth it
WE FUCKING LOVE YOU
Unscripted videos are the best kinds of videos. There's nothing more entertaining than watching the thought process of a talented mind - definitely helps us understand where characters like Becca and Darren came from!
Procrastination at it's best!
P.S. What differs right hair from wrong hair?
P.P.S. Right - back to that Call the Midwife marathon! No...I should be working on that exam I've got...10 pager! I tell ya!
P.P.P.S. Mkaybyenow
+Kat Hall P.P.P.P.S. Hope the audition went well!
CHRIS, HELLO MY LITTLE BEAN! It's lovely to see you back, and i would love for you to just talk to us. I want to know you, I want to know Chris, not just Crabstickz. I want to see you, because I honestly care about you so much, and I'm so happy to see you. Please take care of yourself, though. Your health is so important. I love you very, very much. Stay safe, bye now! 💙💙💙 (cheesy hearts woops)
youuuu
I second this
+Sophia The Failure All of us should second this 😂
+Phan You Not meeeee
+AmeliaPanics no True
To be honest a lot of people had a really shit 2015. Everything in the media was blowing up and everything was falling to pieces. I'm 14 in five days and I am terrified. I'm scared of growing up, of responsibilities, of exams, of losing friends, of failing subjects, of leaving school. Everything is scary and no one understands because they aren't looking at it like me. All they care about is being free and independent and having sex but they don't know what comes with that and I have gone off on a tangent. Just know that you aren't alone Chris. And now I'll go back to repressing these thoughts because whenever I mention them I just get criticised. Joy.
gurl, don't break down, I was the same when I was almost 14. I was terribly scared of change and then 14 happened. now I'm 4 days away from turning 15 and I realized nothing bad happened. don't worry about other people or adult things, you'll cross that bridge when you get there
You're not alone! I know how you feel... I'm also scared of growing up, but I accepted it. It's something you can't change. And honestly, age is just a number. I'm 17 and I still feel like a little child. But you will find your way! I believe that!
Ladies, I'm 23 and the only thing I can tell you is that you'll never feel like you've grown up. But you will learn and figure a lot out as you get older, as will Chris as he makes his choices regarding his career and personal life. Exams and schooling are a necessary evil, they suck and they're stressful but they're such good preparation for the rest of your life. Wishing you a happy and successful 2016! :)
Hun it's fine. The worlds your oyster. I recently had a major existential crisis in the middle of science class due to me wondering what I was doing with my life, lol. I felt the same way and it's ok m8 :3
+Laurel Huntley I have a huge passion for graphic design as well and have been told I'm pretty good at it, video editing too but I'm still working on finding outlets.
Currently I'm doing a volunteer job at a camp and I've found that fun too.
Thanks for sharing :3
I missed you so freaking much :D You can record yourself walking around your room for 2 hours, I'd still watch it
this video is crown you're still cat
Don't worry about boring us. We're glad to see you
Yeah, don't worry about boring us:-)
Spooky Gerard is that you?
+Eren Yeager wow thanks i didnt know
+Leroy Jones it was like three years ago....
+Emma Louise my god, I was being sarcastic. Of course I know the fricking band broke up.
Just me who cares about Chris's mental health more than my own? Also I will be buying a shit ton of merch
honestly I care more about his mental health than my own too
I get so worried about him sometimes because I can't tell when he's actually alright and just being himself or when he's putting on a brave face
+Katie Williamson same
YES I DO YES and yes I just need money first😂
+El Millington I wasted my money on food and now I regret all my life choices yay 😂
I honestly think that what Chris is doing here is the best thing he can do for this situation. I'm going through a similar 'mental breakdown' and I've found that any means of self help and expression, no matter how (be it art, talking to a camera, journalling) has helped me immensely and I know it will help Chris a lot. I just really don't want him to be pressured into doing something he doesn't feel comfortable with like making certain videos or even making any videos. At the moment, he has to focus on himself and his own health. This may seem 'selfish' to others buy they just don't quite understand what he is going through (neither do I). I honestly care so much for this man, his humour and realness has gotten me through a lot of bad thoughts. It makes me so uncomfortable and sad to see such a talented and wonderful man in a state like this. I am honestly so proud that he has taken this courageous step towards self help and opening up to the viewers who care.
Thank you Chris for being such an inspiration to everyone.
and Please know that will always be there to support you
+wholockian fangirl
yes!!! if you think you can use this platform for self-help then that's awesome!!! we're here for you!
+wholockian fangirl I literally do this except I sit alone in my room staring at myself in the mirror rambling like a lunatic. At least he can read thousands of positive messages from people that with him well, but I always find it therapeutic, despite how insane I probably look to others. I hope video making can turn into something therapeutic for him.
I need to hug Chris like I really need to hug him. I need to give him a really long hug and tell him how perfect he is even when he's just talking and even when his hair ain't perfect.
I totally understand the last part where you mentioned that all these TH-camrs were saying "2015 was so amazing" and "it's been the best year yet" like my 2015 was crap too Chris! One of the worst years of my life, so stressful and terrible and dark, but I really hope 2016 gets turned around for both of us yeah? Here's to a bright 2016! I've always thought you were a great actor! Even if you audition just for practice I'm glad your getting out there! Happy New year!
+JessIsAMess same here, I somehow am able now to stay positive, even though it's really hard from time to time. Hopefully 2016 will be THE year for us :)
true! 2015 was probably THE worst year of my life. hopefully all of our 2016's are better :)
I can honestly say that 2015 was the worst year of my life. I'm really hoping that I can calm myself down, get my stress under control and generally get my shit together
same here. 2015 has been pretty crappy so lets all hope that 2016 is better for us :) Good luck with the audition, Chris. I'm positive u'll do awesome :)
2015 was by far the worst year of my life everything fell apart, the most important person in my life has died. hopefully 2016 will be the year I pull myself together and get better
chris, honestly, i love you.
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+mugglebornprincess1 I love him more tho
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Chris, we'll take you any way we can and we'll always support you! Here's to wishing 2016 be a better year
I AGREE 2000%
Agreed
self analysis is the devils work. lighten up and have some fun.
+darren irwin But the Devils inside me!
+crabstickz is it terrible that I can completely relate? ..oh dear
+crabstickz flush that out..... enema time!
+crabstickz I feel ya
+crabstickz no, the Devil is in the fiddle
Chris, you don't have to act to be funny. You're very enjoyable personality to watch and I hope you know this.
Hey Chris,
I keep on writing and deleting comments because i'm not quite sure what to say. I guess i'll put it into three points..
1. You are really fricking hilarious!! You always have been, always will be. I know it's cliche to say this, but you are perfect just the way you are. I know you may not see this but SOOOO many other people do. That's why so many people found you and subscribed to you in the first place. You are funny regardless of whether "you're playing a character" or not.
2. I see that youtube really stresses you out sometimes. Who am I to give life advice? I'm just a 17 year old girl who is sitting in her underwear on youtube. But if I have learned anything in my short life to make me a way happier person, it's this: stop comparing yourself to other people. I swear to god it makes life soooooo much easier if you just start giving less of a damn about things. Hard to do? Yes. You need to learn to control your inner dialogue or else it's going to drive you insane. "This person has this many more subscribers than me...this person is funnier...this person...that person." Just stop yourself right there. Breathe. You live the life you create, okay? If you live according to other people's standards, other people's expectations, then it's not really your life. What do YOU want? Why can't you get it? Seriously, what's stopping you? If your depressed, if you hate yourself, you might answer "I can't, I'm just incapable, I'm out of control of my life, yadayadayada." Nope. That's incorrect. You are creating that reality. You can change it. I believe in you. I had a spiritual awakening a couple years ago and I realized this. I was very very depressed. I even convinced my self I was a reincarnated alien because no one could possibly love me or understand me and there was something innately flawed with me. What you're feeling is a very common feeling. Just hang in there and know you have support
preach x
Yes!
you're a wonderful person
youre are an amazing human being!
Dude I used to always compare myself to other artists and IT DROVE ME FUCKING CRAZY. And now that mental habit is coming back I NEED TO RE-CENTER BEFORE I DRIVE MYSELF INSANE AGAIN
i believe in you, you can find it
OMG HII
#hanginthere #youcandoit #blessup #findthekey #inspirational #bluesclues
Hey Chris, I really hope you read this comment section because it's like the nicest and most supportive one I've ever come across.
Also, maybe reading this makes you realize that the trolls and the critics in your head may be more prominent in your head right now than in your actual viewers - We love you and we love the content you create.
Be yourself and take care of yourself!!!
NEVER CLICKED SO FAST I AM SO HAPPY TO SEE YOUR FACE AND HEAR YOUR VOICE. Thanks Chris, haven't even watched yet. Will comment again.
+BethyALOT I'm glad you've thought of doing this, and I sincerely hope it helps you out. :)
IM TEARING UP WOW
chris its all gonna be okay, everything's gonna get better I promise you. I've literally never clicked on a notification faster, everyone's so glad to see/hear you again. he just seemed so different/off and I seriously started yelling "ITS GONNA BE OKAY CHRIS I LOVE YOU YOU'RE AMAZING" all while crying omg. jUST REMEMBER IT'LL ALL GET BETTER SOON (with the support of your loved ones as well :)
all I want to do right now is hug him for an hour dhshhssnc
all I want to do right now is hug him for an hour dhshhssnc
I think it's great that you use your youtube channel as you wish, or in a way that is helpful to you. It's your channel! And here there are people that care, of course we are just an internet audience, and there are assholes, but it's always people who are here and listen. I'm sorry that your 2015 went so bad, mine was as well, basically I had the pleasure to get to know that darkness you talked about and I was really on edge, but you know...we are here now. Good luck with your casting!
+Angela I was on the edge too :/ glad to see you didn't give up :D I'm proud of you for that :)
I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope everything is going better. Aw this is so nice, it made my day, so so proud of you too, hang in there :)
+Angela I'm glad this made you happy, just what I was hoping to achieve :) I'm doing great right now even though school sucks ass. stay positive 👌
+Angela BTW your profile pic is fabulous (PHAN)
I'M SO SORRY I'M SO LATE I'M A TERRIBLE HUMAN!
That is just so nice. I'm so happy to hear that, keep going. omg school is the worst sometimes, math will be my end.
Thank you so much, those two dorks take credit for being so damn cute. Yours is so cool as well!
I swear I'm not trying to force you to talk to me ahah, but I'll leave you my twitter here, I would like to talk to you more! twitter.com/aboywhoflew_ I'm italian so don't worry if it looks like runes ahah
As a fellow artist, I can relate to this soul searching a lot. Just know that I've found working through these art blocks is the absolute WORST, but it's also the time of greatest growth. Don't be too hard on yourself, and don't worry about what others think of your work. Only worry about yourself and your own progress. Just know that you'll look back at this time and think "those days were total shit, but i wouldn't be where i am now if I didn't get through it". Even taking a break and walking away from it can help snap you out of the funk. I don't know what else is going on in your life, but just know we're all rooting for you.
I probably shouldn't be laughing at this as much as I am but holy crap. Chris is one of, like, three people who can turn on a camera and ramble and still have me in stitches. Also, my 2015 was absolutely abysmal as well so I can relate a little too hard :') You do you, man. And to anyone else who had a sucky year, I hope 2016 is better for all of us!
ikr though, he can ramble on for ages about anything and it'll still bring a smile to my face. I hope he can smile more about it all though, (same bout 2015, worst year by far for me).
hope 2016 treats us well!!!
+Bry Moroz I couldn't agree more, he does make me giggle
I love you, Chris. Loads of people do. I'm glad to see you back and I hope that your 2016 is brilliant. And I hope you are okay and if you're not, that's okay, but I really care about you and hope you will be okay soon. Don't worry about what other people are saying about you because it isn't true and you are such an amazing TH-camr and artist and I hope 2016 brings you joy and you can come out of that darkness with you're awesome personality still in tact. Love you. Feel better.
*your
I've never clicked a notification so fast
Same oh my god
me
Same
Sameee :D
same ^-^
I feel like youtubers don't really make videos where it just feels...I don't know, casual. It's actually really refreshing to watch a video like this where someone just talks - it feels really personal. Keep doing what you're doing Chris, we'll all love you to bits!!! (omg that was way too cheesy I'm going to stop rn)(ᵔᴥᵔ)
Crazy = genius, Chris. Good luck on the casting!
out of the good the bad the dirty, Chris is the very good (panic references on point)
ikr this is a golden day, Chris is back after his impossible year. Hallelujah.
This year is gonna be impossible
+Lauren Gober i was about to put all his old videos in my house of memories...
Let's just all stand up and sing hallalujah. hopefully there's sunshine in the year ahead of us.
Im glad you decided to do what you need at the moment. and honestly its very refreshing to have "old-school" youtube videos back where people just talk to the camera and doing the trying-too-hard challenges
Chris we love you no matter what
Unfortunately, nowadays I can't tell when Chris is being serious or just playing one of his "characters" I mean, at first it was hard to tell, but as the video lingered on, I could tell he was being himself. I think Chris should be himself more often and not to worry what the viewers think of it. 😊
so what happened?
i love you chris please don't stress yourself out too much
JESS HI
+Publish AJ JAKE?
YES JAKE
Hope your audition went well Cheis! :)
Chris* fuck it
"Make Good Art" - the voice of Neil Gaiman is speaking to you. You are truly chosen.
+Molly McEnerney Hoot, etc, Molly, my human friend, ^oo^
Ya know.... Funny thing is, I didn't start watching your videos until about 8 or so months ago when you started the whole vlog thing and I can't even tell you how much I enjoyed it. Sometimes it's nice to just listen to someone else talk and realize that you're not alone in feeling like you have to compete with yourself all the time. I come from an artist background and it's so easy to get stuck trying to make the next best thing that you loose yourself in the process, and watching you try and find yourself is honestly the most real thing I have ever seen. It's so refreshing watching something so simple. I wish people would realize that they didn't have to try hard to make people like them
OMG I have never been so happy in my life and clicked notifications so fast 😭😂😁
SAME
+Lilly Schmidt SAME!!
+Wendy Chavez sameeee
Daisy Robinson SAME!!!!!
Thank you for making a video. I was starting to worry. I said to my friend the other day, Chris hasn't made a video in ages and she just moaned but I was seriously worried. I'm glad to hear that your going to post more videos because they make me laugh and not feel down, even silly little videos like this. I also hope the casting went well. Love you. Xxx
You know, Viners are on TH-cam now. So there is no expectation to be funny anymore... ;)
+teaandtoastify gabbieshow is funny tho. a much better youtuber than a viner
LMAO
+teaandtoastify i actually like the gabbieshow and david dobrik a lot more on youtube than on vine, they are actually quite funny. those two and liza are really funny on youtube.
OMG YASS AKSShhaa
Shots fired
Welcome back, fren!
We all really appreciate that you're trying to make videos again, but please put your mental health first.
I don't know a thing about the stress of TH-cam, for I am merely a young female with no life that finds random skittles in my bra sometimes, but it sounds like it can get kinda horrible.
Don't feel obligated to do anything extraordinary or too out of your comfort zone. We don't expect anything grand or spectacular or anything. You could upload a video of you eating a bowl of cereal and we would still be pleased. You don't have to be this certain "character" to please anybody, and TRULY, nobody expects this from you.
Also, if you need help of any sort, try and get it. I hate to sound really horrible (cause I hate when people tell me this, but it's true), but if you need a therapist, get it. We wouldn't mind in the slightest if you needed a little money help. Getting help is important.
If you need anybody to talk to, there's always one of us awake to have a lil chat on YouNow or whatever suits your fancy with you.
We are always here for whatever you need.
We love you and care about you.
(sorry if I sounded really stereotypical or annoying or like a grandma or something, I just didn't know how to say what I wanted to say without it coming out like that)
(everything I wrote feels kinda cringey to me but I'm sure you got the point of what I said)
+Chloe Kuvaja Don't worry, he's just being sarcastic.
I was having a terrible day today, seeing this video pop up in my subscription box made me so happy i cried..
Have you ever thought about turning the comments section off? That way maybe you could post without worrying (or seeing) what anyone else thinks but you. Just an idea :)
I agree that you should do this, you are an amazing person and need a bit of a break whilst doing something you love x
but thats stops the majority who have a positive thing to say
Antony D'Andrea yes I know but if it is the harsh comments that are effecting him then it is better to get rid of them
Everyone loves Chris tho! Everyone gets haters/unlogical trolls, so he should keep it on for us!
+Phan Elex the 'unlogical trolls' got me laughing
Good to see you back Crabstickz... I've honestly missed you and your content.. Make what ever you want and I'm pretty sure everyone will watch and enjoy .. Can't wait for these new videos
Crabstickz being real is my new favourite thing. I mean, I know this stuff is old now but it's new to me. It's fucking awesome and I love it so much.
HEY CHRIS BEAN IT'S GREAT TO SEE YOU AGAIN...WE HAVE ALL BEEN WORRIED BUT PLEASE JUST DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY..I MEAN CHRIS SERIOUSLY I DONT THINK YOU REALIZE HOW FUNNY YOU ARE ?? YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO ACCENTS TO BE FUNNY ?? YOU DON'T HAVE TO MAKE A WHOLE SKIT TO BE FUNNY?? JUST AHHHH ily i hope this year is going to be a better year for you
GUES WHOS BACK BACK BACK BACK AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN GUESS WHOS BACK BACK BACK
TELL A FRIEND FRIEND FRIEND
+Dont tell our parents in short, he just didn't feel like doing videos.
+Dont tell our parents That's what he does.
Now every boy and girl to the dance floor. To the dance floor. To the dance floor.
tell a friend friend friend
For what it's worth, I'm going through similar things Chris. 2015 was the worst year of my life by far, with a level of depression I had no idea existed. You aren't going through it alone. We're all here for you.
I've spent hoirs trying to write this coment, but it always seems too long and it doesn't sound true enough. But honestly, Chris, I know I speak for a lot of people when I say that a video of you just being yourself has the same impact as your best sketch. As long as you feel better when you're making the video, then we are happy. I really like how you said that you're gonna make videos for yourself because I think you're going to feel so much better doing it. I really hope it does. One way or another you have us.
ps: 2015 was the worst year of my life so far, it was so bad that I tried to run away, but as I am so messed up, when I was 2 cities away from mine, I had a panic attack and realised I wouldn't last much so I had to come back, so yeah
spent hours trying to write and now that i did there's almost as many mistakes as I made last year, but fuck it
+Daniela Gonçalves I've felt the need to run away too (and done so) it's very scary, I hope 2016 is much better for you, and Chris
+Daniela Gonçalves +Annie I genuinely, from the bottom of my heart hope that you guys have an incredible year ahead. I know things are always rough but I hope you guys always have something to make you happy enough to never want to escape ... actually just make that pure happy
Hope you guys have an awesome life!
- a stranger on the internet who loves you
Aneesha Varma thank you, that means a lot, the kindness I've seen from strangers is one of the things I love most. I ran away almost a year ago though, so things are getting a bit better now. I genuinely hope you have an amazing, happy year, and life as well :)
OH MY GOD!!! I'm crafting
YESS!! ANOTHER PHANDOM MEMBER
+Jazelle Lewis SAME
+Emma Louise YASSS!!! **jumps in the trash**
don't cry, craft
Don't craft
CRY!
chris is back. I'm so happy. this is what I needed to make my day better...😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄
you're clearly not okay and I just want to give you a hug
Dear Chris. I have loved every single video you have ever made. I don't care if it is "art". I just get so happy from seeing a video, any video, from you in my subscription box.
I HAVENT EVEN CLICKED PLAY AND IM ALREADY SO HAPPY
I'm crying.... he's back ♡♡♡
Please don't feel like you have to do this for us. Your mental health and feelings are way more important. You can take 5 years and I'll still be here. I hope you feel better soon, we care a lot, Chris.
You could just upload a 6 hour long video of your leg and I'd love it. And I honestly find all of your videos hilarious regardless of what you're doing so don't feel too much pressure to make certain videos or be a certain level of funny because you've surpassed all levels long ago. And don't worry about uploading, just give yourself some time to figure things out and make videos if you want to make them. They're supposed to be fun, not stressful. And remember that we're all here and that we think you're great and cyber-love you.
*wraps you in a virtual blanket*
Father...
brother ?
+Soph McDoph Son?
Shrek?
+MrGeorgieMurphy Fiona?
+Emerson Mill Baker Dragon?
CHRIS I MISSED YOU. but please never feel pressured to upload or be someone you're not. we're always here for you whether you're acting or being yourself. we love you. we love you. we love you.
There'll always be people appreciating you and your work, whatever you make!
I'm gonna buy as much mercy as I'm allowed. which, now that I think about it, is probably none. but I will try all that's humanely possible to buy a mug. and a beanie.
also that Yorkshire accent is beautiful.
*merch. this comment is a train wreck. strangely relatable.
also 2015 was absolute shite. cock. ass. completely terrible. 1/10. but hey, I need to stop with these full stops.
+AssassinatrGamr Don't Cry. Craft. ten points if you get the reference
+Renee Thompson I'm crafting so hard right now
Holy shit I'm going to cry I missed you so much. Im happy that you made this
I'm going to spend my money now
YOUR USERNAME
It's okay Chris, I just went through a really rough year, I selfies harmed and almost went to the hospital because of depression started by being bipolar which I struggle with every day and I just always get upset because I want to be normal and not live with how I am. I got into a fight with my dad and he told me I was stupid and to shut up. I still am not100% but I am learning from my mistakes and weaknesses and try to grow from them. When I met you at vidcon the day I got home I cried I was so happy, I was shaking too, no matter how you decide to do your videos I will support you and it just helps me to know that you are doing okay.
Please continue to inspire, teach and influence others with your content.
I am so proud of you AND Chris:)
+Bailey Gilliland thanks ☺️
If you ever need someone to talk to, just know I'm here. 😊
+Just Michaelea thanks 😉
i'm your dad now
God my 2015 was dog shit too. And here I was thinking I was the only one because everyone seemed to have a great year besides me.
Hope 2016 is better for the both of us. I think I'll go with suppressing everything rather then spend the entire year melting into my sofa.
To Chris, and to anyone who sees this comment...
You have NO IDEA how much I'm glad this video exists !!!
2015 was also a really bad year for me. I've lost people and pets I loved, my friends have witnessed the horrors of terrorism for the first time in their lives, my inspiration and motivation simply disappeared to the point where I just felt I was some kind of empty breathing body mass. It's a terrible feeling.
But a few days ago, I somehow became productive again, and realised that 2016 was going to be the year where I finally decide to take care of myself. And you know what saved me ?
1) Your videos. Not the funny ones (I mean, don't get me wrong, they're hilarious and it did put a smile on my face everytime I needed it) but the ones where I saw you struggling too, while still trying your best. It tought me that I wasn't alone in this, that I would take time to recover and that it was OK to feel this way.
2) Your fans on Tumblr (hi, if you're reading this). I came across some truly lovely people, that care about one another, and that really respect you as a human being. They are not the ones spaming you 150 times on Twitter / TH-cam asking if you're ok, they're not the ones asking you if you're alive, they're not the ones harrassing you to make another video, they're not the ones begging you to bring one of your characters back... BUT they WILL defend you and support you / each other with all their strengh no matter what. I hope you'll get to meet them all one day.
Ok this comment is getting really long now. I guess what I have to say is thank you for sticking with us Chris. And yes, let's go on this group therapy together.
Happy new year by the way, and I hope your audition went well ! It's a really brave thing you did yesterday, we're really proud of you :) x
hey man i hope u've gotten better
your videos really cheered me up yknow?
you deserve to be cheered up too.
ok, the winter is coming bit did actually make me laugh so :v
but I'm really glad you're back here with us, Chris! we've all missed you and I fully support you in this new thing you're doing, please remember to always put your mental health above all else and don't worry about us ^^
also, good luck with that casting and, well, your career in general :)
+Helena Toro I love his humour when he's actually being himself as well ya know? I love when he does random shit and giggles through it
And i completely agree with what you say. I hope from now he'll put himself first and won't feel obligated to do anything for anyone else!
I've had the same problem for years. Depression sucks ass. I'm proud of you, man. It's hard as an artist to create work when you think its always shit. I've looked some of my old work from last year and it was actually pretty good. Not nearly as shit as I thought it was in the moment. But, yeah. It gets better, dude. I still have shit days sometimes even weeks but it's better than before.
you don't need to rush yourself, chris
take all the time you need, we don't mind
Hopefully your 2016 is better than your 2015. Love ya Chris. Don't feel pressured to post when/what you don't want to post.
Chris, man, I'm sorry people are shit. Don't worry, you're awsome and funny and I'm proud of you :)))))
+Luke M 5 Comments? Wow...
'winter's coming, what's he doing out there???' was genuinely hilarious by the way
In light of you being so honest, let me ask an honest question: have you considered seeing a therapist? I know you joke(?) about it in the description here, but I think it could be really beneficial to you. I'm not just saying this; I come from a place of personal experience. This time last year was SUPER rough for me - that deepest dark you're talking about, that's where I was. I started seeing a counselor about the start of March '15 and it has REALLY helped. I started back at school again in September and I know for sure without my counselor's help in the months leading up to that, I would've quit school by the end of the first week. Now it's January and I'm in my second quarter! One of the most useful tools she gave me was "think helpful thoughts." Sounds silly, but it really helps. All those negative internalize commentors' voices? Well, they aren't helpful, are they? And I think you know that and I know it's not something you can just "turn off and feel better." But it is something you can be mindful of. I've found it's really helped me (but I recognize not all "solutions" work for everyone). All this is to say: I'm glad to see you in my sub box again, I really hope you have a great 2016, and find the means to seek help, whatever that may be. An actual therapist, uploading free thought videos, talking to your friends/family. Whatever it is, I wish you the best in your journey to feel healthier and sound of mind. You can still be a creative while loving yourself and taking care of yourself. All the best.
chris is probably one of the most honest people on youtube.
he is honest with his fans and i think that his fans appreciate that. atleast i do.
thank you so much chris
THE WHOLE WINTERS COMING YORKSHIRE ACCENT PART >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>. YESSSSSSS 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
this is the prettiest comment section ever omg look at all the love!!!
Holy cow you have the cheapest youtube merch out there, really happy about that, i can actually afford to buy something.
Winters coming? Well let him in then! Jesus take em' shoes off!
It feels like we're having a real conversation. Even though no one's answering you anything at the moment, we're here down in the comments and everyone's thinking replies in their minds as you go on. I understand it's been a hard year for you, it's been one for many people. But just remember that you just have to keep moving on and suddenly at some point you will realize that things are finally better.
2015 was pretty shit for me too, Chris. Even though Oscar's Hotel was a pretty fun time, so was going to LA, and VidCon and stuff (at least, I hope it was fun for you), you can still think that the year was shit. I graduated and got a professional license and I pretty much wanted to kill myself after that. I'm having a tough time too, writing-wise. But I keep telling myself that the first draft doesn't have to be perfect.
This year, I think I figured out something I should've figured out long before and that's to Keep Trying. Just keep trying, Chris. Even if you have a breakdown today, the next day will be a new day for you to try. Congratulate yourself for the little things. I congratulate myself for bathing, that's where I'm at right now.
I was super glad to see this appear in my subscription feed. I was starting to get worried. Take your time with the next video!
2015 wasn't my best year either, more of an Impossible Year.
Only panic! Fandom members will get this
I ruined a nice comment...
+AugustTheKilljoy Ikr!
SUCH a good song!!
THIS IMPOSSIBLE YEAR
I think 2015 has been bad for most people tbh😁
There's no sunshine, this impossible year...
YOU LEFT US FOR A WHOLE HALF YEAR, I MISSED YOU SO MUCH
We just want you to be happy, Chris. Make whatever content you want to make, don't worry about what everyone else is doing. We missed you tons and I'm really excited about your merch :^)
Oh Chris, I hope you're looking after yourself. This worried me a little bit. Although having said that, watching this video is me procrastinating at uni. Maybe I should get a real job... NO!
Ok definitely all joking aside, please be kind to yourself.
+XthecadburykidX It also left me a little worried, I liked your comment because it seemed so honest. Thx for being open :) Have a good day at uni
+lillimarleennight I'm like Chris in that respect. I've been in a similar position and I find it cathartic to talk and get it out there. But he's obviously still in pretty deep and self care is important. I often forget that myself.
Chris, like you said, don't pressure yourself. If you want to come back to TH-cam, do it for you. Make what YOU want to make, it doesn't have to be funny. We like you for your personality and that includes the ups and the downs because it's still you. I'm sure the majority of people here just want you to be happy in whatever you're doing.
I just discovered your channel today. I like you. I like you a lot. I hope that you're good now. I don't know what I'm writing here exactly. I just feel like I want you to be well
Do what you need, we luv u
2014 and 2015 were my worst years too. I was hospitalised for anorexia, moved to an inpatient ward 100 miles away from my family and spent little over a year there. When I finally got out I went into foster care where I am now. 250 miles away from my mum, 250 miles away from my girlfriend who did mention I can't tell anyone about bc her family is homophobic and puts her at risk. If it wasn't for my mum and her I would have relapsed already
I know this is 3 months on but if you're still suffering then I hope you're okay & stay strong❤️
I don't really care if Chris isn't going to be doing his usual videos, as long as he's getting better that's all I ask
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I tried to like this and accidentally reported it omg. 😂😂
i honestly cried when i saw this in my subscription box. i am so glad youre back chris. so glad.
Chris, don't trouble yourself too much. You're amazing. Your talent in speaking and humour just comes off naturally and it's wonderful. I really hope this year has been a better year than the last one for you so far. We love you.