Trying To Work When You're Depressed | How To Make The Hard Choice
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This made me cry when you said your job is to stay alive. Its helpful to know that other people going through health issues also can fall into these deep, deep holes. So thank you.
I felt that shit too, got me good
I'm a man and nearly teared 'cause I'm feeling stuck as I'm watching this video.
You're right. I should get busy. Thank you, brother man.
I've been depressed and suicidal for years, and I wish I could just stop working, but I have no one to rely on for the support I'd not to quit my job. I definitely think my job is one of the biggest contributors to my depression too, but looking for anything else makes me feel just as bad because I'm basically trading one shitty entry level job for another.
I hear you.
Same situation. Please update more about you. How are things now. Should I leave my job, or should I continue working with depression.
@@kunalbhatt7956 I forgot I made this comment, wow. I ended up leaving that shit job because I had a nervous breakdown at work over all the bullshit. I unfortunately have been out of work this whole time because my mental health has been so bad, but it has given me an opportunity to get on medication, which is helping, and also to step back and look at how terrible my job situation was so when I look for another one, I know what to avoid. I mean, it'll probably be another shitty job but at least I might be in a better state of mind to cope with stuff. If your job is making you depressed, please find another one before you wind up like me, having a breakdown in front of your coworkers and boss. I realize now, we and our mental and physical health, are 10000x more important than any job on this planet.
@@synthlust5687 Thanks, for the update. Yesterday, I was on the verge of Nervous Breakdown. In india we are going through lockdown, thankfully i am working from home and my parents are with me. So I was able to handle myself better. But had to take leave. Today is comparatively a better day. . I am doing night shift from 2.5 years.
But I don't know how long I will be able to continue like this.
I hear you too!
I lost my job with PTSD, its hard to hold down a job when your triggered, you feel extreme anger and want to tear someone apart but I need a job for routine. I am extremely frustrated and isolated.. I live in the UK
Simon wadsley I am in the same condition right now, my employer gave me a month to sort my self out or I will be fired !!
i think i should look into ptsd? anxiety and depression is my diagnosis. i have no issues getting to work i commute by bike. my issue is i am always boiling at work and no matter how hard i try sooner or later i explode on anyone who is lazy or milking the clock. until i quit drinking a decade ago i dont ever recall anger being an issue for me sober. i need a job to survive but the thought of packing my bike, picking a direction, and not looking back is constant. if i thought i was capable of begging i think i wouldve left already
God bless you.
Simon wadsley Much support to you my friend, it is not easy but I hope you can overcome this painful situation 💛
Simon wadsley that’s what I’m going through. I can’t keep a job. One thing someone says negative to me will cause me to threaten or try to hurt them. I’ve lost 3 jobs in the past year from threatening someone or actually trying to fight them. I don’t know what to do
Workplace culture can affect symptoms of mental illness. I like to be very careful when I am applying for jobs or taking on freelance work.
Coach Emily The Triumphant I totally agree to this.
Absolutely agree
Exactly. I use to have a job where I was very well like by my superiors and colleagues a like. Even became friends with some of my co-workers, to the point where we would hang out every other week end. The job I’m at now is the complete opposite. I’m not valued enough and there is a bit of favoritism, I’m over looked for certain projects I know my skills can accomplish but never given an opportunity, I’m not even well acquainted with co workers. Even after all these years on the job. I’m hoping the next few years I can eventually find my fit.
I do Postmates and uber eats on the side. So with these, you can just log off if you don't want to be dispatched for a delivery. I have done weekends where I'll do one delivery and then log off and lay in the back seat in a random parking lot. Then I'd get my shit together and get back in the driver's seat and log back on and do one or maybe two deliveries. I'd make some money, but obviously not as much as I would've if I was well
Danielle S I was thinking about doing this as well as I’m taking a leave of absence from my own soul crushing job. That you for posting this. I’m going to look both up. I know it’s been a year, have you been able to continue with both Uber and Postmates?
I agree with you. Work can make things worse. It can make stress worse for you health. I'm dealing with that right now. My anxiety has made me feel useless and its build more stress because I'm always thinking how em my gonna pay Bill's and support my kids . So if anyone has any tips on how I can battle this stress and anxiety so it dont over power me please help.
Friends and family just tell you "you just gotta be more positive"
Right on
And it sucks. So much.
I totally hear that and its more complicated for some then others. Just do the best you can each day, know that while some won't ever be able to understand there will always be people that do. You have my support and encouragement!!! It gets easier.
If 99.9 % of your energy is focused on surviving!!! That made me smile!
my Boss always tells me to smile more, that I'm lazy, I dont do enough.
she doesnt know how hard it is to even go to work, how hard it is to pretend to be happy and smile, to move I'm tired of people telling me to do for me unthinkable things cause my body feels so heavy. I'm always tired no matter how much I sleep 6h, 8h, 20h doesnt matter.
I'm never good enough I hate it here
Tell her you are depressed and not lazy
I simply didn't tell them during the job interview nor did I tell my coworkers I have this condition. I'm one of those mild to moderate people. Like you said painful but tolerable. Functional. Able to put up a front.
I let go of my apartment, lived in my car, and my DR advised me to apply for disability because he was not going to allow me to return to work. I put my crap in storage, applied for disability, got it a year later, and put my self on a waiting list for federal housing while I waited. It was a long haul, but not nearly as stressful as trying to maintain living expenses when I could not even crawl out of bed in the AM. Mornings are the worst, still are. I am still under psychiatric care and have major medical issues as well. I am on full disability and the depression is still a huge issue. I am unresponsive to meds and I am not a candidate for shock therapy due to heart troubles. I just had a medical DNA panel done and it revealed why I am non responsive to most meds in the way of antidepressants and anti-psych meds as well. Apparently I am a very high metabolizer and need way larger doses of meds than most DR's are willing to prescribe. I have a new psychiatrist that I am seeing for the first time on the 8th...........Lets see if she is willing to help.............................
I hope a year later all of your hard work is coming together
How are you doing Elaine? What's your situation now?
Hey
How are you now Elain 🥹
Part time work can be really helpful, you have less stress and more time to recover and reflect between shifts, and to slowly develop your mental strength and motivation
Agree
True but no health benefits
My family won’t help me. They have called me lazy when I got fired from a job
Same bro they dont understand what it's like to be depressed or anxious
How are you doing ? ♥️
Same
lazy is an ignorant word used to shame people with depression.. I HATE when people use that word as an insult. not understanding that a mental illness is a battle that takes most of our energy to fight
My parents don't care either.
Work is even worse for me. I go more inward in my thoughts because I think about how much I hate myself and about how much people laugh at me for my pathetic, embarrassing existence. I hate the way I look, sound (effeminate), the fact that I am a 28 yo man who hasn't been on a date, nor understands his own sexuality.
Sorry for late reply.. Bro, i am the same as you, except i m 26. I used to think people really give a damn about what i am and i used to panic like you did. I have a feminine voice as well and it irritates me as well. I have never had a girlfriend nor have been on a date. I feel miserable sometimes because i'd like to see what love is. Also i realised people are more focused on themselves than on me, and that is when i stopped caring for what i was saying about myself. Know what? I started loving myself because i have to live with this body for as much as i can before i go to another world. If people laugh at you (they did that to me as well, not to mention bullying me throughout my childhood) then know that, they either don't feel like themselves are as good as you, or are being threatened by your mysterious behaviour. Because you are mysterious and unknown if you are different from the other people. I suggest you read about introversion. Oh and about job, i work at a company where we're only 3 . Workmate and boss often discriminate against me because of two things. 1. I got hired at a later time than workmate and 2. Because of my clinical depression hint, i can't be as good as workmate. I used to work up to 23 hours in a single day!!! Those times were hell for a person with that sort of condition. So, i hope i didn't bore you with self talk, this is actually therapy for myself as well. If you reached this, i am grateful and know that you are so very powerful. Never give up bro.
MCB1988 don't give up! Many peope discover their sexuality later on. Sorry you feel bad at your workplace :( just remember you are probably way more worried than your coworkers are about how you come off. We always imagine ourselves as more noticeable or bad in public situations but most of that is in our heads
MCB1988 I wish for you to learn self love. Believe in yourself. It will come. I have found much self acceptance with age. Most people probably are not judging you like you think they are, and if so, find the good people. There are many out there . Do not believe or put any value into the 'cultural norms' the media push that say theres something wrong with you if you dont lose your virginity by a certain age, or at all for that matter. You are fine as you are. It's your life. Respect yourself and be who you are, then your desires will come when it is right for you. BTW I love effeminate men. They are usually wonderfully sensitive and compassionate. The world needs you. Also, don't feel pressured to rigidly define your sexuality. It's ok to explore different feelings, and change as you will, without the need to label yourself one or the other. Roll with it. We are complex creatures, and what you are going through is very normal. Peace.
Don't be too hard on yourself there must be something you like about yourself
Love will come. My best friend just got a girlfriend for the first time (he was also a virgin) at nearly 28 yo and is slowly regaining confidence
Try to love yourself do not worry about what others think of yourself it's hard I know
Amazing video. It's funny how sometimes your mind knows what needs to be done but your soul is so conflicting. Hearing things out loud from other people can really help, and I guess that boils down to feeling like you aren't alone....that someone does TRULY understand.
Thank you. And good luck to everyone dealing with these type of things, they are not easy.
I can't do stressful work, I have to work 3 times as hard just to be half the employee of most other people. Hence I feel like I will always have some low income job that barely gets me by. I was diagnosed with ADD/Depression/Anxiety. I have a feeling I may have a hint of Asperger's.
It's this sick society that has at it's root the concept that, if you are ill or can't work to produce merits or finance money, you are no good and need to be thrown. I know the feeling because i've got a hint of clinical depression and i feel horrible at work. I don't even know why am i working for someone anymore, so yea it sucks bro but keep going, there are people that understand you , :)
William Grand I feel the same way but at my job I'm always told I'm too slow and because of that my hrs are severely cut to the point where it's almost of no job. But I can't quit because even if I bring in 50 cents home I wouldn't have that if I didn't work and my hubby doesn't earn enough (that's another story) for all the bills. I kno I like the details but that takes time.
On Friday my boss told me that the other day I wasn't as detailed as I normally am and that I went off to help another employee. My problem is when I do the same half assed rushed job that everyone else does so they can move on to help another employee it's a problem (short staffed). So you do want my detailed work but I need to move in to the next task but not let the details suffer? I don't get it. I don't kno what to do.
My life is driving me insane to the point where I don't get out of bed except when I go to work where I rarely get hrs anyway. I don't care how my house looks anymore. Everyone ate dinner good now leave me the hell alone. Of course I'll never say that but that's how I feel at home. depression I a big fat stinky bitch that follows you everywhere to tease you like the kids in high school. I hate her but I can't leave her
Adhd and depression here and same cant do hectic work, i can only do these stupid minum wage bullshit jobs
William Grand I am on the same page
I relate I work In The oil field and when I'm depressed I can't concentrate and the simplest thing stress me out
Thanks for this. No one deserves to suffer like this. These mental diseases are very cruel and disabling
What has helped me more than anything is knowing that I have Depression, anxiety, panic disorder and so on. knowing I have it and expecting the troubles that I know will come actually help me battle them better. As far as getting back to work my therapist told me I would never know unless i try. Fear will keep you depressed for a long time but as long as you have the courage and will power to overcome what you already know will come, you can and will be successful.
My job is what makes me depressed. It's a factory job and very stressful
Same sir cleaning 12 hours a day
Let’s keep going
At the beginning of this year, I took a four month sabatical. My job during this time was to get better. I structured each day so that I had breakfast, then went for a walk, then spent a few hours doing yoga and working out. It was really what I needed at the time.
Mikey R that's what I did but soon as i go back to working a shitty job the depression came back
Bruce Goblenosh Hey Bruce. It's a tough one. I took another month off at the beginning of this year. You've just got to do what you've got to do. It might seem like an endless grind at times, but there are other times when the depression lifts. Stay strong!
I've been desperate. And I've thought "just stay live" and it works. Thanks Man, that's good advice. Stay well.
As someone that's been out of work for nearly a year due to anxiety/depression, I can honestly say I've been worse off. I got severely overwhelmed while working, going to school, & volunteering. I'm already an anxious person and social situations make me want to rip my hair out. I felt that I was a robot. I was living but not for myself. While quitting my job helped temporarily, it has left me in isolation for months and I feel as though I will never be able to re-cooperate. When I was working I hated myself. I hated what I was doing with myself. But at least I wasn't a burden on others. I was able to use the money I'd earned to help with causes I care about. Now I'm struggling to even go into the supermarket because I've been alone for SO long. It was an easy escape for me, and it helps. I have fewer panic attacks, I don't cry as often.. but I still hate myself and even more so with what I'm doing with my life. If you are able to work, do it. If you can't work, attempt to still socialize on a weekly basis. By socialize I mean actual interactions with human beings- even if you hate it. Isolating yourself is comforting, but it will make you worse off. *This is my experience as someone who's anxiety is worse in social settings* I really hope that whoever's watching this video can help make it out of whatever they're going through- or more able to understand a loved one.
Thanks for this
I am sorry I did not get back to you sooner and I will pray hard. Good job calling a crisis nurse!! That means you are a fighter. I hope you are even just a little more stable on this day.
I just started watching your videos. what u talk about is exactly how I feel sometimes. Your videos reaching out to people like me are very helpful. A lot of people don't understand suicide and depression if they never experienced it. I looked forward to more of your advice. I struggle everyday. I feel like I hit bottom for alot of reasons. Thank u again for your awesome heart felt videos.
Hi, I just wanted to say THANK YOU. I am experiencing a horrible depressive episode and finding your channel and watching some of your videos tonight was the only thing that make me feel better in days. THANKS!
I've quit several jobs from my anxiety alone!!! hate it
Same. Really concerned about things effecting me at work
Your not alone ive quite so many jobs due to my anxiety and depression sometimes its overwhelmingly too much at times
Me, too.
Yess I hate that training period of a new job that feeling of not knowing what to do having to ask questions and feeling like a bother
I Have quit jobs just walked out got a decent job the morning of couldn't get.out of bed then I got called lazy I kept thinking what is wrong with me why do I quit
Your videos help me with my guilty thoughts about my suicidal thoughts and my issues of feeling like I'm in a painful coma. Thank you
Hang in there. You are worth it
MORNINGS AND DEPRESSION!
wow! Did that one strike a chord. I related to that like it was myself. I do to this day. I'm trying extremely hard to battle this battle psychologically and pushing myself extremely hard.... WHEN I AM ABLE. it felt so good to watch that video. Somebody else actually felt those exact feelings. Waking up terrified period wondering if you're going to be able to keep control or whether your mind is actually going to take over completely. Not wanting to go to sleep because you know the very next thing that has to happen is that you will have to wake up to yet another day. unbelievable. Just felt so good to watch Noah's video describing what a morning can be like for some. it sounds like you have been through the same as myself. The countless medications. Count list different types of therapeutic treatment. Not sure what the electric stimulation was whether that was TMS or what. I went all the way down that dark Road and purely out of desperation had ECT inpatient for 5 weeks. literally was so disappointed when I went in not being on one single medication because none of them did anything for me. And I was immediately put on a combination of 4 medications. This was prior to the ECT. I was in for two weeks and received some different tests and four treatments. It was like some kind of nightmare for me anyway. And I left. I said screw this and just left. I got home and spent the next two weeks feeling the same way I have felt for a long time and decided once again that I just have to tough it out and do what I have to do. So I want back in, started all over and had the full 12 sessions. Unfortunately they did nothing for me. And I'm actually rather glad because after doing all the extensive research I did and have been doing I had no idea that most or many people have to have more ECT treatments along the way. the statistical data on people it has helped is what drew me in. I was in that Minority, that's smaller majority that it did nothing for. so right now I'm pushing with everything I've got psychologically. I'm also trying a medication that is only in trial studies, not approved and with no professional or expert guidance or help. Just going by what I have studied and researched. also pushing exposure type therapy to hopefully eradicate this isolative Behavior. man, what a bitch! I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. no pity party here. Just stating simple facts. Still difficult to deal with those who don't GET IT! nothing quite like that non-supportive non validating feeling. But for all of you out there, don't ever give up. Don't let that be an option. Keep watching videos. Things exactly like and Noah is taping. Don't ever give up because I have been in a very very dark place for a very very long time and I have made some progress. I don't have as many extremely dark days as I did. not the ones where you are in a very deep dark cold wet lonely desperate hole with no glimpse of light or hope. Yeah I still have my days... but I'm telling you, don't give up. Better days will come. Don't give up the chance of a future that consists of some type of inner contentment or something you can actually call GOOD. just keep fighting and keep pushing. Don't let it win. You guys can do this. You girls can do this. you're not alone.
have been trying to find work for a while. gone to interviews but no luck. i have to be alone at home when my husband is at work. All i do is just chores so i ruminate a lot and feel stupid/hopeless. no support from family or friends except my husband. it's been hard.
Hey you can do chores!!that's great.. I couldn't before do that's an accomplishment!! I'm glad your husband is supportive. But I know what you mean. I wwishi had more support from friends and fam too .hope all is well
I’ve found work to be one of the causes of my severe depression
I sometimes don't know if I'm depressed or lazy. One time the doctor had to tell me I was depressed and I thought he was a jerk. I have a job I love and I probably do spend more time alone that I should, but I thought I was ok. This week I've had a hard time leaving the house. I actually stayed home today saying I had a cold. I don't want anyone to know I'm depressed. It sure sucks.
Patricia Clouatre Maybe there is some pain inside of you that you are not consciously aware of.
Such as? I did lose my mom 2 years ago. We were very close. I feel as though I've grieved and moved on.
I wouldn't know.
For all my life, 22 years, I had suffered a pain that I could not identify, because I was not consciously aware of it.
Since childhood I had conditioned myself to numb the pain with addictive behaviors like playing videogames, which I would do for 5 hours a day or more.
Eventually this would change into me getting very badly addicted to weed in my adult life.
I know that for most people "weed" is not seen as a serious addiction, but for me it was like heroine.
Basically I had always ""brainwashed myself" to not be aware of the pain.
You hit this one out of the park! Man.. You absolutely brought tears to my eyes. I love your honesty.
I feel so down that just showering everyday seems hard. But what about people who are homeless?
you need help man
@@toomuch6690 What an ass you are!!
Do you live with family?
@@toomuch6690 Actually this was three years ago.. hence the date. I'm totally good now...but thanks for your concern lmao
@@americano1976 No. This was a few years back. I'm doing great now
See I found going to work very helpful. I may hate my job but it keeps me from Ruminating and being able to earn a cheque and keep my benefits gives me a big boost in self-esteem.
The more you give into depression. The more it will take
My mind is that screwed up at the moment that I have started to question whether I am just really lazy or actually depressed. The thought of having to work makes me so miserable that I can't ever enjoy myself. In my free time I just smoke weed to numb my thoughts otherwise work sits on the front of my mind and paralyses my will to do anything. I dread going to sleep on a work night because I know that it will just feel like I've blinked and then it will be time to get up for work. The journey to and from work always gets me angry, it just eats away at what should be your free time. I'm paying for a car (because its a million times better than relying on public transport) that I only need because I have to get to work. If I didn't have to work I wouldn't have car to begin with. But then what about a roof over my head? Life is prison with no bars. True freedom is an illusion. If anything I think that people who can just plod on with work for most of their lives and still be happy are the insane ones. Maybe I'm too sane, able to see right through the trap we are in. Who knows. I suppose nothing really matters when I look at the fact that 50 years from now I'll definitely be dead, maybe less. However long my heart can hold out for I suppose. So whatever the reason for my unending suffering, it won't last forever at least.
❤️ you’re making the world a better place
Thanks Lisa! everybody on this channel get me through so its a good trade!! Stay strong.
Everyone always says "get help" i have multiple times. Nothing helps even getting help.
I love the TED talks and I think that doctor is right on. Great comment and thanks for sharing.
Would not call them disorders. They are naturally caused effects, anxiety, depression, altering moods. We have created a demanding society that only works to control us and to give us instant gratification. This is not healthy.
On the other hand, working to make an income has its rewards other than financial. But "society's burdens" are what we immediatly become when we refuse this. Naturally (: - thanks for making these videos they "are" very helpful & honest.
Thomas Crespo I like reading this. I don’t wanna think I have a disorder. But I’m just having a rough time from what I went through.
I wish I knew someone like you growing up , would have been such a help . I’m 27 and I just feel like I’ve gotten out of my depression , as my early 20s was a nightmare.I was so full of self doubt and anxiety I suffered self destructive behaviors .
I am glad that I came across you and your channel. I have seen several psychologists, etc. You keep it real. It is a lifelong struggle for us all and when you said it is about staying alive, that really hit me. It truly is all about that. Hopefully we can all support each other in our times of need. Again, thank you, Noah...
I truely love that you don't just say you should go get help and see someone. You give them insight into what is really happening and I look up to that.
Unfortunately ‘the job will always be there’ is not true. My job is very specific and if I leave, the job will no longer be there. And I love my job, but I have lost so much concentration I can barely get through it.
Thank you for this video. I know my work wants me gone. They're micromanaging me to within an inch of my life. But I don't have a financial choice. There's no other jobs in my town. I would be literally homeless on the street alone as a young woman. I disclosed thinking it would get them off my back but its made things so much worse, I can feel them forcing me out. I tried confiding in my mum who got upset & said I was depressing her. I have to provide a med certificate every minute I'm not at work. I have restrictions on me no one else does. My coworkers dont talk to me due to absences. Its hell.
How are you now Katie?
Very honest guy!!! I am truck driver and was trying to decide to go to work or no? The depression is getting tough this past 1 year. I don't take no medication. I am trying to overcome it through prayer in Jesus name.
+Yonas Kai Hey Yonas, there is nothing wrong with taking medication. It's not cheating, it just helps a little. Instead of carrying a hundred pounds on your back, you're carrying 80. It's still heavy and exhausting, but you're a little less exhausted at the end of the day, and if you can figure out how to handle it well, you can gradually start reducing the weight you're carrying to the point you're not exhausted all the time.
I wish you well in your battle with depression :).
Have faith and make yourself right spiritually. you never what is around the corner.
Please read the entire post. It may help YOU!!!
Yonas Kai amén
John Roberts it can be any job can be
For me, my job seems to be where my depression likes to manifest itself the most. I always feel so hopeless and miserable when I'm there. Whenever I try to look for a new job though, I struggle to find something that works for me and I end up getting depressed all over again. I've been off work for a month now trying to heal from other medical issues and was hoping the time off would help with my depression/anxiety as well. However, I'm dreading the day I have to go back. If I'm being honest the time off seems to only have reaffirmed that I'm miserable there and can't stand another day. I'm horrified at the thought of all the senseless crying that will surely ensue once I return. That being said, my family is broke and can't support my ass forever so it's back to Hell I go.
ShastaMusic try starting your own home based business on the side, whatever your favorite hobby is try to make side income of it. That will be an emotional outlet for you, and who knows if you do it right, the cash will start rolling in and you can quit your job!
ShastaMusic story of my life..... I'm realizing I don't like what I do and my job is a bad for for me stress level wise but now I don't know what other job to get. I dread every day going and then when I'm not there in worry incessantly about work. It's a nightmare right now.
I feel exactly like this! Last week I started crying at work. I never cry at work around these evil maniacs, I can usually always hold off the tears until I get home, but I just, erupted one day. I’m tired, I’ve gained weight, I’m unenthusiastic, I’m fatigued. So I figured I need to create my own job and I started an online business I launched in November last year and I haven’t gotten ONE SALE yet, I’m so depressed, I’m too tired to try to figure out how to fix it, while whole working a stressful job. I just pray things change. Something has to GIVE. I’m single no kids, I don’t date. I’m always alone, so I tried getting out and hanging out with my sister for her b day, I hate CLUBS...(my sister loves clubs) a man started talking to me and asked me if I use sex toys just because I’m single, shit like that is reasons why I stay home, ppl have no manners and No morals. I just want to live on a farm or in the mountains at this point.
yes. been there done that a million times. quit the work I know, usually while in some 'episode' or cycle of the disorders, with the intention to find something else that fits better. but, as you commented, in doing that, get more depressed, upset, frustrated, and yes financially impacted & have yet to successfully pull it off, getting into different line of work. years & years have repeated same cycle & end up going back to the same industry, same work in the same industry. never advancing. getting harder and harder too, cos my pattern is known by now by hiring decision makers within the industry am in. very very scary.
I hear your cry 😪
It's good to know that we are not the only ones with this problem and that there is hope that things will be better but it's necessary to focus on it day by day..Your videos are very valuable to me !!
Thank you much for this. It was exactly what I needed. I suffer from moderate depression and anxiety and am in the middle of a workman's comp claim my job is fighting. So life is hard and the prospect of returning to work harder. I needed what you said. Thank you again.
My husband doesn't believe depression is real or that I have depression and fibromyalgia. I work full time while his business is mostly part time. My work is ready to fire me. I work at a group home that's making me worse. It's my only insurance to get my meds. I've been suffering for a few months and just found you. Thanks for keeping it real Noah. I don't even want to make an effort to help myself and my husband thinks I'm wasting our money on medication. It's a struggle. I'm so tired. I know the depression and suicidal feelings will go away eventually. It's just a huge struggle right now.
You should be a certified professional. I feel like you were really here in person talking to me having a heart to heart
Thank you so much for these video's. Seriously, thank you. Having someone talking about this while struggling helps. I hope you stay online and stay well.
Indeed in does and its so true, glad the video could be of some use to you.
I'm considering cashing out my 401k, selling my home, and moving to a better low income state just to try and survive in an easier circumstance. living is so expensive, and most days, I don't feel worth the effort it takes to make enough money to survive here.
I am glad I can be of some use to you! Stay strong.
Incredible how you have used your experiences with depression to be of service to others. Thank you so very much.
The only solace I get, is knowing that no matter what, one day it will all be over
Just wanted to pop in to say thanks for all the help! I started listening to you 5 years ago when I first got depression, anxiety, depersonalization. Life was sooo much better until 2020 hit. Now I am back here for a little boost.
Me too
Wildflower smile how are you doing
Dont know how else to put it... Ive been in major depression for 8 years... I see no hope, no light... Just any minute now im about to just end my own self....
Please dont..hopefully your still here with us on this earth..dont give up,trust in God..there is always hope,no matter how small..
I am only 24 years old, and is depressed from last 4 years. I can understand your feelings.
Still here. Have trusted in God.
Jimmy Garcia my nigga
@@sillau9 Ya god is going to pay your bills and feed you. Not trying to be rude but come on man.....
I find that when I have done this I ended up in a financially unstable situation and I don’t have anyone to rely on such as family and hardly any friends anymore. I understand and get the idea of giving yourself a break. It’s just not always an option, it sucks being stuck in bed when I don’t work, then leaving a job causes me to feel like I’ve failed, I’m a single mom, and I have a really good kid, I am socially awkward and say the wrong things at times do to lack of socializing, things are getting better and I’m thankful, but I’m fighting and feeling so mentally and physically drained.
Good luck to you. You will come out of it
You are the ONLY person to ever touch on what depression, anxiety, PTSD feels like.. thank you
Wow..thank you so much for putting yourself out there and helping others like myself. A month ago I had a severe anxiety attack that literally left me paralyzed. My parents flew me home to watch me to make sure I didn't hurt myself. I had to quit my job and felt like I was back to being a kid again. I felt like I failed. But, you're right about the whole survival thing. I needed to just stay alive at that point, long enough to get refocused and calm myself down. Thank you :)
you're such a relief! Thank you for being real and posting.
I've just come across your channel today, and I'm finding your videos so helpful. You say things so kindly and respectfully. :)
wow... I have felt this for years but I just finally got a job and this virus got rid of my job.. I have always been depressed and have bad anxiety.. I'm glad I've seen this video and I wish I saw this video sooner, I've had those suicidal thoughts this year. I'm glad I found this video.
Wauw, I just discovered you!
I love your openness and talking about everything.
I'm going to watch all your videos and hope to get some great tips to deal with de depression and the suicidal thoughts.
Thank you so much!!
I like the way u explain depression, trying to continue living with it.
Lost my son from this tormenting illness + Misophonia. 👍 (Australia)
I have Graves’ disease (hyperthyroidism) and the physical and mental illness because of this disease is kicking my ass.
The brain fog, the mood changes, constantly sad and depressed with anxiety and panic attacks is slowly killing me.
The nausea, no appetite, constantly sore and weak, muscle pains, etc I’m just over it completely.
Along w/ barriers to care makes it beyond difficult. I’ve been waiting a damn month to see an endocrinologist to start my treatment.
I’m just over it!
Thank you for takign the effort to make this. I'm struggling working on my own in a silent office and your perspective has given me strength to keep going at work and give myself more structure, purpose and not feel so alone. THANK YOU!
I will think of you at work when i feel my job sucks. stay strong x
Thanks Dec. I've since made some great positive changes in my life and things are a look better. Thanks again for the vid
I have been twice on antidepressants, first in my teens and then in my late 20s. I've been off now for good 4 years. The effects of antidepressants on me were transformative. I've talked about this in my channel. I noticed back in the day when I posted mine (same time as you posted yours) I got a lot of recommendations from this video. My channel was inactive for a while but now I'm back - and eager to share about my experiences- on and OFF the meds.
Noah!! Thanks for the videos... I listen to you everyday morning, and You're part of my wellness ritual. Thank you.
I have severe depression I'm 21 and I live with my "dad" and his girlfriend. I have to work to help with bills or he will kick me out. I have no one to talk to about my situation no one believes in it. I need money if I quit my job everyone will attack me for it.
you can survive on welfare if in Australia but need t go to a share house. Make sure to have cent med cert to aviod wait
Im in the same position :(
Look into modeling
TRT can take allot of time for some so stay patient and keep working on other avenues of mental health recovery too. I have not heard of the Sedona Method but will look into it and appreciate you bringing it to my attention. Be well my man.
This is really helpful, makes sense, especially the part where you said don’t work lol, but seriously, I don’t think my boss would agree, he wants the work done, faster than I can do it at the moment, I can’t fight him because it makes it worse, and I’ve done other jobs and feel the same. I need my own business but what I truly want to do doesn’t seem lucrative enough or I feel someone else in that line of work will try to destroy my company, to protect there business.
Thx Andrew and no I am not currently on any meds.
what if you feel like shit every other day? cuz my anxiety makes me not be able to eat and it forces me into a mental state of survival where I have to calm myself enough to be able to eat and not feel sick.
I know what your feeling, If I can't deal with my anxiety attacks that last hours then how can I deal with work. I'm an English teacher and need to be positive with my students online. Just thinking of planning lessons and doing the lessons makes me panic. I'm lost about what to do.
I've been working with severe depression and sky high depersonalization/derealization and it has been absolute hell.
Im a hard worker I don’t mind working, I just get so many anxious thoughts along with responsibility. I just don’t want to mess up and let anyone down or upset anyone but I want to work and better my life.
Wonderful advice and keep me posted!
Thanks a lot for this brilliant video. I'm exactly in that situation right now, you have no idea how you're helping me!
Much love and support from France 💛
Part-time work, early morning starts, is helping me right now.
For me it's the opposite, I hate morningz gives me more anxiety before it was okay and I told my manager I have severe depression and they give me shifts but can't go. It's so difficult even breathing every day of my life
The problems Ive found at work, is that missing alot of work due to mental health problems, they rarely understand and blame and think you are trying to be lazy.
Dealing with these people makes the depression and anxiety even worse.
Not sure how to deal with this one.
Sorry for your suffering first and foremost. Sound like its situationaly driven dp and depression which is not to say that it does not hurt. Things like school and work can be stressful and bring on these uncomfortable feelings for sure. The key is to set yourself up outside of school to be mentally strong so that you can push through once you are there. Accept that school is just something you need to do, put in place little things that help during break and lunch to relax you.
I find your videos so brilliant. It really feels personal and like you care. Good man!
I have major depressive disorder and high functioning anxiety. I'm single and have no one to take care of me financially or anything. Every day is so hard. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist next month, but that's a month away. Getting out of bed is so hard. Not going to work isn't an option. I don't know what to do.
How are you now?
I made the mistake of going back to work just days after being discharged from inpatient. I wish I had given myself more of an opportunity to get things straight. I was lucky enough to have paid time off and I took all of what I had.
T Fisher I could not work for almost 1 year during the worst of my mood disorder and it was really important to take the time I needed.
bignoknow your videos are such a big help I hope to hear back from you brother you are such a spur ration to me thank you for your help I have had an Anzinty and depression just like you have
@@bignoknow How did you pay for everything?
Anyone gets chest pain constantly from depression and anxiety?
hector Colon yes, on top of tightness & heaviness on chest.
@@MZFiVETW000H the worst feeling I thought it was just me
hector Colon oh no your not alone. I agree it really is. And so uncomfortable and scary. But it’s all the emotions we have inside plus the tension.
@@MZFiVETW000H makes perfect sense thank you for your comment really helped
hector Colon you’re welcome, my best advice is focus on your cause of your depression.. I think our anxiety comes from our depression. Don’t try to fight the feeling and let it flow. Deep breathing exercises helps, stretching, and just not giving it importance. Mine use to be INTENSE... 24/7 type of thing and lately it’s getting somewhat better. And I had this for almost 9 months. So I’m starting to see the light a little. Just focusing on my depression so the rest falls in place. Don’t get me wrong there will be good days and bad days. Just gotta work with it and don’t give up! Glad I could help you!
Hello Noah, Thank you so much for all your efforts in making us feel less alone. I agree with you all the way that if you are majorly and clinically depressed you shouldn't worry about work and get other's support. Surviving is important and unfortunately in this cruel world money is needed to survive. I don't have high expectations, but a certain minimum money is required otherwise the financial pressure can make the depression considerably worse and basically kill you. What if you are 47 years old, bipolar going through severe mood swings cycling rapidly day by day, never had sex or a girl friend before with virtually no hope of ever having one in the future, having a Chiropractic degree while not working to take advantage of all your years of studying and hard work, having lost your dad 6 years ago while still living with a frantic mother who doesn't understand your illness, doesn't communicate with you and doesn't pay you any money, with no other choice of medication that works after trying everything in the book in the course of 25 years, having fear of losing everything and becoming virtually homeless in the near future with no close friends, family or relatives support? How can you just stay in bed, not worry and not work while hoping that your depression gets better? I would appreciate your help and your feedback. Keep up the good work, Jason
You really articulate depression perfectly
Hi Noah,
Thank you so much for this! My sweetheart is going through a very difficult time with his depression. The work situation is a "situation"...but your video hits it on the head! Just want him to ease into it...he's suffering so much and it breaks my heart:( but again, thank you so much for sharing! I know a message from you would really cheer him up!!!
Thank you so much for this video. I really appreciate you sharing the information as it is so valuable.
I think a lot of it comes down to privilege. I recognize that I have certain privileges that others might not, for example, its a privilege I have that I already have a fully developed pre-frontal cortex, so can step outside of the situation and understand what specific part of my life is affecting me at the moment, and try to understand whether it's worthwhile to give it emotional energy if it's not within my control. If I were younger, I maybe wouldn't be able to gauge the importance of a stressor as well as I can currently. It at least helps me get by to be productive at work
Dude. You're an angel.
you're so fucking genuine man. thank you for your work. you've helped me tremendously
Thank you for your videos. You're encouraging. You describe me and how I am. My work is not hard but sometimes I just can't bring myself to get out of bed. I sleep my way through depression.
I have ptsd from getting SCREAMED at by my old boss when I would make mistakes. I’m about to leave for my 2nd day on my new job, the 1st day went pretty smooth but I’m still super anxious because I’m working busier hours (at a restraunt/bar) and I just hope it doesn’t get to crazy and I don’t get overwhelmed and they don’t expect too much from me. It’s not rocket science washing dishes/bar backing but I still fear I will make a catastrophic mistake.
Hi Noah. I suffer from depression and anxiety. I've been battling this for years.
I work .. im on medication to which sometimes makes me a little tired or slow ...
but I do a good job at my job my manager has no complaints about me . He's happy with my work .
It's a service industry job .. I love my customers.. and certain parts of the job. Over the past 3 months, I've been bullied at work , from 2 co workers . I've gone to my manager 2 times over the pastv3 months , based on the information I gave him , he agreed I was being singled out and bullied. He felt bad for me and didn't want me to be treated like this . Because I suffer from depression and anxiety it made this worse. He told me he was gonna speak to them and that there behaviour was totally unacceptable.. I was in tears ..
I've missed a few days based on the fact that I could no longer be " strong" at work I had to take a few days to feel better .. the situation hasn't improved and there has been no apologies..
what do u think
Agree that getting involved with passions and activities is important. There's also a lot to be said about how we respond to beliefs about ourselves. Happy people have developed good habits about how they treat self-loathing and criticism. That's crucial to better mood. If something in me (or someone else) tells me I'm no good, and I just accept the lie as truth, then I'll eventually start believing that, even though it's toxic. We control whether we're hostage to unrealistic thinking.