Did I mess up? Real time feelings about a social event. Unmasking Autism.

Part of my journey in unmasking my suspected autism is trying to recognise what is happening when I am in situations. I am very good at pushing my needs and feelings to the bottom of the pile, but I don't want to feel this exhausted anymore. It feels slow going but I am learning a lot more about myself, and today I went a school family event that went fine in respects of how I engaged (I think!) but how I felt afterwards and my thoughts reeling through my head was really interesting. Am I too hard on myself? Was it really fine or did I mess up and I just can't tell?
Thank you for watching my videos. I'm wavering on that line of posting them because I want to share and also wanting to hide in a dark corner and delete them all. I think sharing my experiences are helpful to me and others, so I'll carry on. Possibly after eating chocolate for a dopamine hit! (Apologies for the mistakes on the subtitles!)

[@isabellammusic]

I love that you film yourself unscripted and just talk about how you feel!

[@lilianaIila]

Hi!!! Im so happy i discovered your channel! The way you describe your feelings really helps put mine into words. Im 18 and i have been recently diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder and adhd. At first it was like a giant weight was lifted from my shoulders, but now im starting to deal with some really difficult emotions and im starting to notice all of the overstimulation… Anyways i just wanted to say that i really appreciate you sharing your unmasking journey and it helps to know that im not alone in this

[@TheGreatReveal]

Thank you so much for sharing! Fantastic that you have got your diagnoses, and I totally understand that it is only part of the picture. No magic wand appears to suddenly give you clarity, but its helpful to know what is going on for you. Really appreciate your kind words!