Esraa's Depersonalization Recovery Story (2023)
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02:05 DPDR from a Panic Attack
05:15 Can't Focus On Conversations
07:18 The Symptoms of DPDR
15:15 "Observing Yourself Suffering"
19:32 Having DPDR On My Birthday
24:50 Finding the term 'Depersonalization'
25:50 Headaches, Neck and Shoulder Pain
27:25 Seeing a Therapist
36:00 Starting to Recover!
37:53 DPDR + Meditation
43:10 What Did DPDR Recovery Feel Like?
46:04 Recovery is not a 'lightswitch'!
48:12 Dealing with Setbacks
50:00 Can you REALLY get back to normal?
54:10 I Can't Remember What 'Normal' Felt Like!
57:42 The DP Manual
1:02:03 Having More Empathy
1:04:17 Advice for DPDR Sufferers
Esraa Karroum (23) is from the Lebanon. She first developed chronic DPDR after a massive panic attack in 2021.
Following this she developed chronic depersonalization + derealization, brain fog and concentration issues, along with the constant fear of going crazy.
Fortunately, Esraa has since made a complete recovery! 👏
In this brand new interview she tells me all about her experience with and recovery from Depersonalization Disorder. 😊👀
Connect with me!
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Disclaimer: Please note that the medical information contained within this video is not intended as a substitute for consultation with a professional physician and is not a recommendation of specific therapies.
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I relate so much to when you say hyperawareness of your environment and sensations etc. I feel like aside from all the existential thoughts and questions this is what it ends up surrounding around- hyperawareness of literally everything and just questioning every single thing
Absolutely -- Hyperawareness (or Hypervigilance) is a super common symptom of DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions: www.webmd.com/mental-health/what-is-hypervigilance
Like where you are or what You've seen?
Shaun is a absolute legend/life saver 🤝
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@@Dpmanuali swear a god everything she said im relate it to so sir how to recover
Mam did you enjoy the things you use to enjoy before dpdr please reply me
Bless you ,I went through it , on and off for about a year, I was so frightening , I didn't know who I was, I couldn't take a shower , couldn't look in a mirror, was indoors for a year, I went through everything she said, All is good now, Her story has brought tears too my eyes, remembering that terrible year,
I never taught I would be myself again
Thank you for your comment, I'm so glad you found the video helpful and that you're feeling better 😊
Need help 😭😭 plz anyone help me I don’t know what the fuck going wrong with me
how did you get it to go away?
I just wanna say thank u to this guy right here who owns this channel, he helped me so much, no words could describe him and all i wanna say is thank u and i also wanna say keep going on and keep helping more people don’t stop that kind of content, people like me needs u alot , god bless u for all of this good work ❤️
So glad the content has been helpful 😊
@@Dpmanual Heyy please help me im soo lost
My Girl!! Proud of you ❤❤
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@@esraa5921i have the same thing you have sister not recognized your self feel stranger in presence of your parents confused الحمد لله اختي فرحت لكي من قلبي هل يمكن ان تعطيني نصيحة اوشي
@@esraa5921i feel weird like stranger to your self in presence of your parents confused headaches negative thoughts intrusive thoughts الحمد لله اختي فرحت لكي حقا من قلبي هل يمكن ان تعطيني نصيحة لإصلاح هادا الشي
@@esraa5921i feel weird like stranger to your self in presence of your parents confused headaches negative thoughts intrusive thoughts الحمد لله اختي فرحت لكي حقا من قلبي هل يمكن ان تعطيني نصيحة لإصلاح هادا الشي
@@esraa5921good to see ur story :) i suffer from 6 years now :( and dont know what to do sometimes i am ok and fine but again small small anxieties takes me back to intense symptoms :(
thankyouuu for making these videos❤️❤️❤️ u saved my life
You're so welcome! 😊❤️
Yay-, a new one!
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Yay, more people who experienced perpetual horror for an extended period of time!
@@joshuataylor3550no - one more person who recovered!
Merci
De rien 😊
I loved this conversation. Thanks so much Esraa for sharing your story!!! I agree with everything she said especially what she said at 58:06 “the most important thing is to understand [DPDR]” and these conversations help people navigate this confusing difficult time in their life; because if other’s experience is like mine, people in their day to day life don’t understand what DPDR is like! But videos like these with Esraa and Shaun are a warm reminder that everything is going to be okay in the end. Wishing everyone a healthy and happy week, hang in there friends x
Did u recover
@@araiq7005 I’m still on recovery. I have my setbacks as they talked about in the video but it’s just a sign that I’m on the way. I’m happy with my current “normal” so all is well.
@@dansback8053 I'm happy for you, how long have you been living with it.
Thanks for your comment Dan 😊 I'm very glad to hear you enjoyed the video and that you're doing so well!
@@dansback8053 did you enjoy the things you used to enjoy before dpdr
thanks for making these videos, i had dpdr for 7 years & haven’t dealt with in 3 years & it came back out of nowhere. this makes me feel so much less alone
Welcome to the channel Miranda and I'm very glad to hear the videos have been helpful 😊
Did you beat it once?
I wish there is a program for parents who their kids struggle with it.. I am happy that you recovered.. now I understand why my daughter struggles with headaches all time and sensitivity to light .. thank so much for sharing !
Glad it was helpful 😊
32:16 I had the same experience !!! When I explained it to my thrapist she just told me to do some grounding techniques and ignore the feeling when I feel it , but I was like when I feel it ??? I feel it all the time and she just said aaaaah and then never mentioned anything about it lol
Experiences like that are super common for people going through DPDR 😊
Yes I have the same with the focus on conversation I was telling my therapist like if I was hyper focusing on words not understanding it sometimes but I do??? Jeeeez
Don’t worry, feelings of hyperawareness (or hypervigilance) of your body / voice / environment are super common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions: www.webmd.com/mental-health/what-is-hypervigilance
I was pretty good over a month, when i have quit my work, suddenly all the symptoms return, and irrational and philosophical thoughts like i am back to zero.
There's a thought that's sticky now that what if i was from my childhood depersonalized and it's not like this we perceives the world, this thought make me a lot fear.
Hi Shaun, i also suffer from same kind of symptoms from almost 5-6 years now /i woke up a morning and i was feeling all is fake and unreal / like felt disconnected to the world / / health anxiety i have and small issues cause me anxiety / i use to get sad and depressed of things before as well but now whenever i focus on somethint constantly like i hVe some health issue and i am constantly focusing on it slowly slowly i will get so sad and i will start having vision issues , will feel my mind is lost and struck somewhere / than i will start focusing on all this / i wont be able to get off the bed / will sleep alot / wont be able to focus and go to work / and will feel more vision symptoms like head will feel weird and than i will become sad on that again n again this happens to me / when i ignore i noticed i feel better slowly slowly / but hangover kind of feeeling still remains there which started 6 years back / like even if i am happy or normal i have this hangover kind of feeling all time and than some stress or anxiety makes this so intense / is it all DP DR the things and symptoms i told / so in short its like some days months i am ok but along with hangover and discconectd sortt of / but i am ok with it i ignore but when i overthink of some situation related to health or i get sick or anythint that happens my mind becomes lost , feels i am lost somewhere , and i become sad of this and depressed and than when i ignore it takes few days and i become happy n back to normal / i really dont understand all this what is wrong me / plz guide me
Hey Becky, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual.
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
The symptoms I mention are all DP DR like small stress or anxiety takes me to this state where I feel unreal I feel lost like my mind is constantly thinking of something / I feel lost I feel depressed that again n again this all happens to me / is it all DP DR like vision feels weird / I feel detached I just wanna stay in bed .....
This is a very beneficial video and I am so inspired by this video subhanallah. I truly resonate with Esraa’s story. THANK YOU ESRAA! May Allah swt protect you and have mercy on you. May He place barakah in your life and put noor in your heart.. Allahuma Ameen❤️✨
Glad you enjoyed it! ❤️
I had it like this,it was the scariest time in my life, 😢.
Me too...☹️ www.dpmanual.com/about/my-depersonalization-story/
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Grazie per questo video. E' stato illuminante. Chissà se questo manuale è scritto anche in italiano e potrei trovarlo nelle comuni libreie
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Hi Shaun! Your videos are amazing and extremely helpful!
You also mentioned that you've been on ssri's for a while. Can you please tell more about that experience? For how long did you take it and what medication was that exactly? How much did it help your DPDR?
Hi! Glad you've been finding the videos helpful 😊
I'm not a medical professional so can't give you specific recommendations re medication. But please read this article, I think you'll find it useful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/can-medication-cure-depersonalization/
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.
I'd love to share my story too xxx
51:23 this is now what scared mo so much that normal feels like there not normal,.im now scared of normal feels like im new to this world even though i know everything
Read this, I think you'll find it helpful 😊
www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/
Looking down your body and feeling how you are inside it
Don’t worry, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/
Thank you shaan I am from Pakistan I felt in deep anxiety cycle after a panic attack and then experienced deep dpdr now i am on my recovery journey (Alhamdullilah)
@@animalfacts360planet Happy to help 😊
everything she said I can relate to 100% especially when she was talking about tension in the head. when I was 1st going through it I would grab the back of my head all the time because it felt like my head was going to explode at any minute. my coworkers would laugh at me and say " why u always grabbing your head bro?" and would laugh at me when they had no idea wtf I was going through. I thought I had a tumor, I thought something in my head popped like a blood vessel, I had so many crazy ideas but the tension was unreal to me I'll never forget it. went years with it and I'm still experiencing it. I would always feel like my face was changing or morphing. I would always ask my friends if my face looked different? and they would be completely lost or just make fun of me
Glad you found the video helpful 😊 And don’t worry, headaches / head tension are super common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions:
www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-exhaustion-and-muscle-pain/
Shaun, is it possible that this is due to anxiety for everyone? The same treatment method may not be possible for everyone, right? I am afraid of permanent damage to my brain.
hi shaun! i sometimes have a visual affect where things go slowmo for maybe 5-10 seconds? that’s the best way i can describe it. is this dpdr? (my case is from a weed induced panic attack) been dealing w dpdr for about 4 months!
Don’t worry, visual symptoms like that are super common with DPDR and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/
Hey I’m experiencing what I think is dp i have almost all the symptoms but the ones that effect me the most are the visual and “memory” symptoms as well as feeling blank it effects me every part of my day. I started taking anxiety medication. Lexapro did not help me it made my anxiety worse and in turn my dp symptoms. I just found you’re videos and plan on buying the manual
Don’t worry, visual and memory symptoms like that are super common with DPDR and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/
www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/
Can you have DP panic attacks ? So no physical symptoms just mental ? Scared fear loosing control ? Is that dp ? Also Can you have just dp just come and go with panic attacks only? have you any videos on this ? Thanks
Proud of you Esraa ❤❤
Oh my god❤ sad2i halaa la sheft your comment! Habibi thank you so much ❤❤❤
ك.يف تعام.لتي مع الاعراض ياريت تردي @@esraa5921
I really hope I can recover from this soon it’s completely ruined my life 😂
Hey Eve, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual.
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
Hey Shawn I have 3 questions. I’m suffering from dpdr right now
The first time I smoked weed, I had dpdr for 2 weeks and it went away
I tried it again 2 months ago and had a panic attack and it came back. I went through it ignoring it but I went to a party one day and I had the sensation I was high but didn’t smoke. People around me were smoking tho. Could I have gotten contact high and that triggered another panic attack? Please help
Remember that it doesn't matter what caused the DPDR, what it comes down to is your levels of anxiety going up and down over time, that's all 😊 If you're at a party with people smoking weed that could increase your anxiety and therefore the feelings of DPDR, which can feel like you're 'high'. Read this for more info: www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-causes-depersonalization-disorder/
Shaun, I have a question. It's about DP only. I don't have the focus right now to watch the whole video but I hope you answer this one question:
It is normal for emotions to come back slowly and gradually, and go back and forth into dissociation? So you start to feel some emotion but not others. They come back slowly and one by one. Some take a long time.
I think a lot of people expect to wake up one day and FEEL it all again, but with me it seems to go very slow. Today I felt a lot of stress and emotion and I cried my eyes out, so much pain came up and I started realising things, I felt so much anxiety suddenly, which I thought I didn't even have, but after that I have no memory of the day and I feel very dumb again. It seems a very slow process where little emotional componants come back one by one and with fall back. Is that normal? It's been months like this.
I find it very weird that I can feel emotion A but not emotion B yet....it's confusing.
Hi there! Yes absolutely, experiences like that are very common during the recovery process 😊 Recovery from any anxiety-based condition is never a smooth curve, it always has ups and downs. Read this, I think you'll find it very helpful:
www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-does-depersonalization-recovery-feel-like/
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.
I am going through this now is one Year first time it happen all my life...i am living like in hell no body understand what i am going through even my doctor
I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual.
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
@@Dpmanual i think i got my Dpdr after smoking bad weed first time i try weed in my life or i got it when i eat food somewhere was afraid was think it was poison in but they check blood nothing in ....but how long does bad weed stay in Body cuz now its one year
@@masengobruno192 It's not that bad weed has stayed in your body for this long, that's not possible. It's that the panic you experienced at the time triggered DPDR. Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-weed-and-other-drugs/
Is feeling feeling really floaty especially when laying down like feeling like you gonna leave you body a symptom?
Don’t worry, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.
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Hi shaun i really appreciate what you are doing
I have a question
Is seeing things dim like your vision is dim and blurry a symptom of dpdr
I have had all the other symptoms but dim and blurry vision are the ones i still struggle with after 9 months is it common with dpdr
Also is ringing in the ear also common?
Yes this is normal I also have this it only happens where you feel fear so dpdr gets hyper
@@technotricks1283mine is 24/7 tho
also rining in the ear here, month 8, is your rining loud and constantly?
Don’t worry, visual symptoms like that are super common with DPDR and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/
Is it like your eyes aren’t open wide enough is that what it feels like?
Any tips how to get through just found out what it is I’m struggling badly
Head over to my website at www.dpmanual.com, there’s tons of info and tips on DPDR recovery there 😊
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.
I am unable to open dpmanual website Shaun / please guide me
Here you go 😊 www.dpmanual.com
hi shawn. I've been on dp for 5 months. with this condition, there were fears that I had schizophrenia or a brain tumor. I visited a psychologist, he told me that she did not see or saw schizophrenia in me. sometimes I'm pretty sure that I have schizophrenia. And it all happened because I smoked weed the next day, everything seemed to be fine. but at night I woke up with a terrible feeling of fear and trembling. This is fine?
Read this, I think you'll find it interesting 😊
www.dpmanual.com/articles/schizophrenia_cancer_depersonalization/
I went through the exact same thing. Felt fine the next day and then in the evening had a blackout panic attack this was at the start of June and I still feel the exact same still just as bad dpdr, helps to know you’re not alone .
@@EveSincl Thanks for your comment Eve, and you're definitely not alone 😊
@@Dpmanual and how to distinguish HPPD or derialization?
There is a thought the DP/ DR is related to the dopamine system
THC floods the dopamine receptors but anxiety or a panic attack causes the brain to shut down the dopamine receptors
Because it’s in a fight or fight mode.
Most come out of it and the receptors begin to respond normally again
Some don’t and end up with a prolonged period of DP/DR
There is a channel here on TH-cam ( Chris Russo )
He ended up with serotonin syndrome ( Long story )
But he also ended up with DP/DR
He took 9-ME-BC which supposedly up regulates dopamine receptors
On the third day of taking this orally ( liquid form under the tongue for ten minutes )
He completely came out of the DP/DR
It’s worth looking in to
Man there isn’t anyway this could just be anxiety I literally can’t even feel my whole body no sleepy feeling mentally or physically no emotions nothing at all this is constant for me it feels like I’m going paralyzed
DPDR is a very common symptom of anxiety 😊
www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-definition-what-is-it/
@@Dpmanual so what I just described are symptoms? I can’t feel my body or skin the same anymore it feels like I’m touching somebody else’s skin
hello. I wanted to comment if it is possible to get out of this without medication? I don't want to take it, the times I've done it it has hurt me very badly, I would like to know if there are people who have gone without, and if I can too
I'm not a medical professional so can't give you specific recommendations re medication. But please read this article, I think you'll find it useful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/can-medication-cure-depersonalization/
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.
@@Dpmanual But if we can get out by our own means and with your manual?
@@Dpmanual From what I have seen, you and almost all of your patients have come out without some type of medication.
I've been feeling like this for 5 years, does it matter how long we live to heal? If there's a story like this, I'd love to hear it.
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@@MrStyle-sr1yvSame here
Kinda crazy how common this seems to be.
It's incredibly common -- It's estimated that about 1 in 50 people will experience chronic Depersonalization Disorder: www.theguardian.com/society/2015/sep/04/depersonalisation-disorder-the-condition-youve-never-heard-of-that-affects-millions
@@Dpmanual Damn, that's scary. Personally I have experienced it only during severe panic attacks, and it's extremely scary. I can't even imagine what it's like getting stuck in that state. I don't know if I could handle it honestly.
@@christianwallin4993 Well we only really get 'stuck' (which is still temporary) when we focus on the sensation, and create a feedback loop between it and the anxiety that's causing it. It's same process that's behind all anxiety-based conditions. It seems scary (especially at the start when you don't understand why it's happening!) but ultimately it's part of your body and brain's protective mechanism, and it's completely harmless and temporary 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-definition-what-is-it/
is it true that some ppl who have anxiety can become crazy ? I just read that someone have panic attack then become crazy and recovered from them with drug I'm very scared of becoming crazy
Read this, I think you'll find it very helpful 😊
www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/
@@Dpmanualthank you so much you make me feel calm
hope I'll recover soon and share my story with you❤️🙏
@@none3166 Looking forward to it! 😊❤
Is is possible to experience hallucinations and delusions in dpdr???
NEVER
@@jason34796but I hallucinate ghost type figures. Not exactly hallucinations but I see these ghost type figures and mistake some things/objects for those figures
@@mars__4 posible
Shawn I have a question. Did u at any point during your experience with dpdr start wondering if Solipsism was true? It’s absolutely plaguing me right now and I feel like I’ll never be ok because I can never have the answer. Any advice?
Don’t worry Caleb, existential / intrusive thoughts about things like solipsism are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating and frightening but they are also temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/
I have struggled with that for years.
Dude I feel this too or wondering if other people see the way you do and trying to believe it but your minds like ha nope or if people are real
Love the podcasts and appreciate them but the lack of audio quality on her endakes this very hard to hear her. I couldn't finish it
Turn on the captions 😊
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when you are experiencing dpdr and the news comes that you have won $1000,000 it looks like you will be cured today too😂
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Do you feel strangely good at night ?
Remember that ultimately, DPDR is just a symptom of anxiety so when the symptoms vary, it's just your anxiety levels going up and down, and certain situations / environments (daytime / nighttime) can affect them. I know it might seem difficult to believe but you actually have complete control over it 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-definition-what-is-it/
@@DpmanualWas there a strange affirmation at night?
What about masturbation guys, can it cause depersonalization?
Read this carefully, I think you'll find it useful 😊www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-causes-depersonalization-disorder/
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