TMS Before and After
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 21 ก.ย. 2024
- TLDR: I was severely depressed, I got TMS, now I'm not depressed.
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(11/22/19 update • Second time getting TM... --- I got TMS again)
This is me just before starting TMS (transcranial magnetic stimulation), at 3 weeks of treatment, 7 weeks of treatment, and then four weeks post treatment. Before and throughout treatment, I sought out testimonials from others. It was comforting to me. I wanted to pay it forward.
The TMS worked and my PHQ-9 score went from 23 (out of 27) to 0 in a matter of 8 weeks. My treatment plan started with 6 weeks every day Monday - Friday, but we extended it to 8 weeks after a remapping revealed that I needed a higher prescription.
More info about my depression...
Symptoms: lack of motivation, maladaptive daydreaming, morbid thoughts, brain fog, repetitive uncomfortable thoughts (like OCD), loss of appetite, feeling worthless and like I'm only a burden.
About me: 35, stay-at-home wife and mother, otherwise healthy, lifelong depression sufferer.
Other treatments tried before TMS: All sorts of drugs, acupuncture, gluten-free diet, whole30 diet, quitting caffeine and alcohol, neurofeedback, EMDR and hypnotherapy for bad memories, talk therapy, exercise. All of these things had their benefits, but none of them were sufficient.
Received TMS at Cascade TMS in Portland, OR with a Neurostar machine. (Loved my doctor and staff at this location. Highly recommend.) It was "rTMS" (repetitive TMS as opposed to deep TMS). I asked the technician about the difference and she said that there's no significant difference- the whole "deep TMS" thing is more like a marketing tactic. Anyway, don't get hung up on rTMS vs. dTMS.
I'd love to answer questions and offer encouragement, so please don't hesitate to leave a comment!
I am TMS technician, I see positive things everyday with patients!!
That's wonderful! Definitely got to know my technicians :) Spent a lot of time with them.
@@HookerTheWriter yeah it’s really cool. We see them daily!
I have been through TMS treatment too. It’s wonderful to have my mind function back. Thanks for sharing, I did the same.
Chris Cooksey I watched your videos and appreciated your willingness to share!
Cooksey Media when did you start to see results?
How long lasted results with rtms treatment?
Great video!. My experience is similar. Very high prescription but I saw results
@@kostas43 3 years
I'm taking it and it is working for me too! I felt a huge burden lift that I remember carrying for the last 35 years or so. I think it is a miracle. Nothing ever worked before.
Yeah! Congratulations!
Even if just one person gets out of this ‘mind hell’ that’s certainly something to rejoice over. So happy for you and I pray you’re still doing great!
I am doing great. Thanks!
MY journey too. I went to a new psychiatrist when my depressive symptoms returned after 30 years on meds. I had never heard of this therapy. I worked for me and I am grateful for it.
Thanks for sharing your journwy. If I disnt hear you talk about remapping and just not feeling like TMS was working after 4 weeks then I may not be here today with results!!! Today after remapping and get higher dose of TMS and 10 added treatments-- I feel like I feel so different now. I didn't even realize how low I really was until now. It's like I've had a burst of life and I wish I could get more weeks now to push me on over the mountain of Depression.
Holy shit I don't even know you but I'm so glad for you
I’m halfway thru TMS, & I really relate to you! You said it so well with “It’s always been my JOB to manage my depression every day”. I never thought of it that way, but it’s spot on! Thank you for sharing. It’s very brave. Love to you. 🐝
Best of luck! I hope you're feeling better!
I cried when you said, "it's hard for me to believe that I'm going to be one of the people it works for" because I feel that all the time with all the things people have told me will help, that have failed me.
There can be so many disappointments in seeking a treatment that works. I sank a bunch of money in neurofeedback that didn’t work. TMS works for so many, so if you’re able to get it, that’s great! Just remember that you aren’t out of options. Stay strong!
Have you tried emdr therapy
@@nylakhan5658 - Hi can you explain EDMR therapy & does it work? - Thanky you
I SEE the change all in your EYES!!! TRULY AMAZING!!!
I started Rtms and I finished my first two visits. The first day I was really drowsy after the treatment and the second day when I woke up it felt worse. However, when I woke up this morning I felt relief thankfully. Thanks for your video it is really uplifting !
I have been struggling with severe depression for about 20 years. I have been on just about every medication out there. A little over a year ago they did DNA testing only to find out that I am resistant to pretty much all of them. I felt completely defeated as I am currently on 5 different meds to try and manage my daily life. I somehow saw an ad for TMS on Facebook and have been asking my psychiatrist about it. She said I would probably be a great candidate for it. (I’m really wondering why I am just learning about this now and why it’s never been brought up). I am skeptical but the thought of possibly getting off some of these meds is an exciting thought. I am holding out a glimmer of hope and if it works I will be yelling about this from the rooftops. I don’t know why this isn’t something that is discussed more often and after all these years I am just learning about it now!
I know, right?! I tell EVERYONE about it if we even slightly touch on the topic of mental health. People need to know! I hope you're able to access it.
What DNA testing did you do?
@@brazenbunnies it was done by GeneSight
lets all pray to god to resolve anxity problem for all people in the world
With science, apparently. 🤔
I agree ! My anxiety is killing me !
Totally debilitating!
I’m currently at week 4 of 7 for my TMS treatment. As a patient, your presentation was similar to mine. Your video is very encouraging to people like me. I’m so glad it helped you, and that you shared this. Looks like you really found your smile again!
Well done
I’m now on session 25 of 35. Given my initial presentation, it’s hard to believe how far I’ve come. How much the pressure has backed off. This isn’t a gimmick. TMS works.
Did you have maladaptive daydreaming too?
@@diennm can’t say I know what that is.
Wow! what a huge difference after week 7!!! My depression is not as bad as how you were, but I still don't have energy to do some things, not even want to eat until my stomach hurts :( I want to try this and hope I have good results!! Your video literally made me cry.. I can't imagine how live will be without being depressed..
Did the TMS worked?
Did it work give us an update please
Thank you so much for your testimonial. I just started my TMS treatment this week, your testimonial gives me so much hope.
How'd you go?
Did you complete the treatment? Can it entirely treat your symptoms? I have very bad insomnia and will start the first session tomorrow.
@@chengwang4173hi. How did it go? My mother suffers from depression and severe insomnia. Ive heard mixed reviews on this treatment. I have seen some say that it has actually made them worse.
I just got a referral from my doctor to begin TMS. I’ve been deeply clinically depressed for years and have tried at least 10 different medications. They no longer help me. Your experience has given me hope. There is a difference in your whole person that is wonderful to see. I’m scared that I will be the one of 3 that won’t be helped. Thank you for posting this and good luck to you. 😊
How are you doing?
Wow! You look radiant 4 weeks after. You just have this glow about you.
I will be starting TMS this Wednesday along with neurofeedback for my anxiety. My world has gotten smaller I don’t leave my house and can’t drive due to my anxiety. I can’t wait to have the smile on my face like you did towards the end of this video.
yesenia Gonzalez I know how it feels. For me, feeling better was very gradual over a few months, so don’t give up! Good luck!
How’s it going ?
@@alaefarmestatesllc No answer means, not so well.
Did u get ur TMS treatment?
Did u get ur TMS treatment?
I was 1 minute in and felt like you were telling my whole story. Thank you for posting this! I start TMS next week due to every symptom you have mentioned and not working for over a year. Even just knowing someone else on this planet has had virtually the same experiences I have had in my mental health struggles made me feel less alone this morning. Sending you support, recognition, and gratitude.
Is the treatment helping? Like you, I haven't worked in almost a year too. I tried spravato but the effects of the drug don't last on me.
@@pt87153 I keep telling people that there are cheaper alternatives that works and don’t have side effects, I recommend you try out psychedelic mushroom, micro dosing psychedelic mushroom was the best decision I made to beat depression , not only ketamine makes you feel like a zombie with no emotions but other antidepressants that don’t work a bit, you should definitely try psychedelic mushroom, I had depression and anxiety but after treating myself with psychedelic mushroom I was more efficient in all I did , I’m in my 40’s and I’m breaking barriers, I get it from an online vendor that specializes in the trade of psychedelic products all natural from the earth and no side effects
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Search on Instagram for the handle above it is the contact address for the vendor
I’m glad u had a happy ending, I’m on day 3 of TMS
Best of luck!!
You truly came back to life over the course of these videos! Very powerful seeing someone who was in this dark pit, come out on the other side...feeling the sun shine again ☀️
I hope that will be my case as well. I'm just on session #7 of Brainsway Deep TMS. It hurts, but not as much as sleeping through my children's childhood.
Thank you for sharing this video. You're helping a lot of people.
Thank you for sharing your experience. I'm going to start TMS sometime this year, and I really feels like it's my last hope. I don't see many videos like yours recording your experience, so thank you for that.
I'm happy for you! Don't give up!
Never give up. This is a feeling, we are People and every feeling is for us. Thats why ı dont wanna you are hopeless. Dont describe this good or bad Just know it is feeling..and hopeless make me more depressionfully. This is side of physilogy...
Thrilled for you. Congratulations. My eyes welled up for you because I understand the relief you must feel.
I will say, I was hoping to see a review on someone who is not on any medication. I cannot tolerate SSRIs and am 2 weeks off Lexapro.
I truly believe everyone can find something that works. For me it's been TMS, meds, and exercise, although it would be nice to quit meds one day. I hope you find your treatment soon!
I also quitted intolerable drugs after 6 weeks.
You are a brave and strong person. Thanks for giving hope, I am starting TMS as well.
Did your experience with the treatment help at all?
How did it work for you Miks?
I’m happy you’re getting to do it! It works for most people but just remember that if it doesn’t work (frustrating though it may be) that it wasn’t your last option. Good luck!
What other options are out there besides drugs?
@@JohnLennon100 If you have difficult thoughts or memories, EMDR and Hypnotherapy helped me with those. It's not ideal, but there's electro-convulsive therapy. That probably would have been my next thing if TMS hadn't worked. Ooh, and it's a drug, but spravato is a new exciting thing. It's a ketamine nasal spray that has good long-term effects- it's not a daily pill.
Psychodelics are still an option
@@AS-010o0 yes, I’m very interested in spravato and my state legalized psilocybin.
This is great and I'm very happy for you.
But are the positive effects of rtms permanent or do they disappear after a while?
I love this. You can see how much your energy and spirit lifted throughout. You genuinely seem more comfortable with yourself by the end. Glad it worked - I’m about 3 weeks in and can definitely notice a difference within myself.
I'm so happy for you!
As someone who knows clinical depression with suicidality i definitely understand each day being your job to survive. Very happy this worked for you and hope you’re still doing well.
I've still had some down times, but kept finding relief with TMS and Esketamine treatment. I hope you're able to find something that works for you! Depression is tiring. Hang in there.
@@HookerTheWriter Glad you’re still finding relief and doing well. One day at a time and i continue to get by until i find what works. Stay strong and take care.
Going to start my first session this week after years of failed antidepressant results. I have hope that it helps me as much as it helped you. Thanks for sharing your story!
How are you now
I'm so glad that I found your channel, and love that the TMS worked for you. Regrettably, TMS made my depression worse, and I start ECT tomorrow. But before my first TMS session, you diary filled me with a lot of hope and love.
Good luck. I hope you feel better. What would you say about your experience with TMS?
Don't give up Samuel. There is a treatment for everyone and you will find it. I just finished TMS and it has changed my life after years of torture. I had fluctuations during the treatment but it improved and worked. I hope you find the treatment that works for you. Stay strong brother!
I pray for you Samuel. We live this how bad thats why we can understand you. Our hearts are with you
I'm seriously considering getting TMS. I'm tired of feeling like this and I want my life back.
Feeling better is possible! It takes time though, so take action today. Make that phone call!
I just had my first treatment today, I’m extremely skeptical. Just like you, I have tried 20+ meds and alternative treatments with no luck. Your testimony means more to me than the other seemingly sponsored treatments; so thank you for sharing your story and I’m hopeful I get the same results. Fingers crossed
Good luck!
ZAC, HOW ARE YOU DOING? I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW.
@@xrp_mexico8502 thanks for asking, my mood still feels the same. However, the drs say most people report feeling better during the 15th-22st session. Today was my 6th session due to the holiday.
Hold on buddy, i am close to get my 14 yo boy to get this treatment here in México, maybe in a few weeks hope sooner, but i have faith that it will be lifechanging for you and him, keep it up and dont ever loose faith, i really wish you get better with this procedure, seems to me its worth the try.
@@zacrussell4267hey has it worked ?
I’m starting TMS next Tuesday in South Carolina MUSC. Thank you so much for posting 😊
Yea! Good luck!
Man, I’m only up to Week 7 in the video and she sounds so different then at the start. Amazing. I’m currently at her beginning point and just felt everything she was saying. I just want to thank her for doing this video so others can get an idea of the TMS and if it could help others.
about to start TMS.
I really really hope i have the same outcome as you.
Im 47 and have been fighting since i was 20
I have also fought for over 20 years. I really hope it works for you!
Good luck friend. Share results with us.
I am going to attempt the TMS treatment myself, I was very nervous but after your video, I feel much more relieved and hopeful. I also have to say that the way you’re glowing now made me tear up. such a beautiful transformation, I could see it in your expression. thank you, and I hope you’re still doing amazing today 🧡
Thank you. I feel great! Best of luck!
If you are on the fence about trying TMS therapy, maybe I can inspire you as well. I just finished my TMS therapy two weeks ago and I can't recall ever feeling this good in my life! I just turned 60 and have suffered the torture if depression since I was a child. I tried every form of treatment available throughout my life including cognitive therapy, many different medications, homeopathic therapy, electroconvulsive therapy and hypnotherapy which all had limited effect with terrible side effects. TMS made sense to me because it treats the disorder at its source rather than simply managing the symptoms as traditional treatments do. I'm sleeping so much better and feel more relaxed and calm. My responses to anything that I encounter are much more reasonable than before without catastrophizing things with anger. My physical pain is much more manageable as well which enables me to be more active than before. I can honestly say that I feel joy for the first time in my life and look forward to the rest of it with interest and enthusiasm. If you haven't yet decided to try TMS, I highly reccomend it.
No sé bien lo que decís porque no se mucho inglés, pero con solo ver tu cara y ver la transformación de tu voz, la velocidad de la voz, los gestos de tu cara, tu sonrisa, el tamaño de tus ojos y como te brillan. Realmente noto una transformación increíble! Incluso no pareciera que tuvieras ningún problema.
¡Si! El cambio fue muy gradual. Comencé severamente deprimido. Ocho semanas después, no estaba deprimido en absoluto.
Thanks for putting yourself out there, and posting this. I just started TMS after a lifetime of depression. I am hopeful to get results like yours. Best regards.
Excited for you! I hope you start feeling results soon.
How are you Jose?
@@HookerTheWriter how are you now after two years? No more depression? I am looking to try the TMS for my anxiety. But scared of the side effects and not fully cure my anxiety. Hope you can reply back me.
Hi José Carlos, did you go thru the treatment , how do you feel ?
How are you Jose?
Wow, wonderful. I am at the end of my second week of tms
💐 keep it up! I hope you feel better soon!
Thank you for making these videos.This is such valuable information , and I think that hearing from real people what to expect can really help others feel safe. ❤
Thank you for saying! I know how hopeless it can feel.
This is wonderful! How are you feeling now?? I’ll check for an update. I’m so so glad this worked for you.. I just started treatment. Fingers crossed!!
I am resonating so strongly with your observation that it has been your sole job for a long time to cope with depression and that now it is additionally difficult to break out of that existence and to undertake a new job -- a new way of being. I'm finishing my 4th week of TMS following a very bad year-long depressive episode and I think beginning to feel better bit by bit. I've been wondering if some of my continuing fatigue and lack of motivation is because I'm reluctant or afraid to break out of my condition of barely living. Thinking of it as leaving a dreadful old job and embarking on a new job of my dreams is helpful, and a mindset I want to nurture every day now.
Looking ahead, I am concerned that if TMS truly does help me it will continue to be available and covered by my insurance. This of course, is a major struggle for all who must deal with health care in the USA.
Thank you, Kristin, for sharing your experiences. Best wishes to you and to everyone who has commented here.
Thank you so much for this comment! I'm so happy to hear that you're starting to feel better! Everyone's experience with TMS is different. If you relapse, don't give up! I got it three times and it lasted longer each time. Take care of yourself and be the person you know you are.
@@HookerTheWriter So good of you to reply to me, Kristen, and I appreciate knowing of your later experiences. I'm very impressed by how many people who are just beginning TMS have searched TH-cam and found your channel. It's an excellent one for us to find.
Yesterday was my first TMS session. Felt some second thoughts going in there and thinking about the time commitment considering my issues are more generalized anxiety but after the first session I did notice lucid dreaming and fewer obtrusive thoughts. What I'm really hopeful for is anxiety improvements because I'm mostly short of breath. It never ends.
Update later on how it goes!
Kristin this video gives me a LOT of hope - all my life I had to deal with depression, ADHD, OCD, anxiety and etc..
I missed a big part of my life because of that, could never really have a serious relationship and am stocking boxes in some warehouse for a living
I take medications for years already - no doubt it would be worse if I didn't take them - and I have been on and off therapy for years already...
but my issue are still a big part of my life...and now I wanna try TMS
I hope it works for me as it did for you
I'm so glad you found it! To this day, I'm still taking meds, but they just don't do quite enough. Good luck!
How did your treatment go? This has caused me to not have a relationship either and I’m hopeful this will help with limiting beliefs and a sense of “normalcy”. Prayers 🙏 to you and here’s to a happy healthy relationship with ourselves and someone we find to love. ❤️
I appreciate your vulnerability and documenting this. I'm at 21 out of 36 sessions and feeling pretty discouraged. No improvement and perhaps even a touch more despondent. They just increased my session from 3 to 8 minutes and using something called "double theta" pulses. I've been contemplating reaching for the "emergency exit" if this doesn't get better. It sounds like it took you at least 4 weeks to start to feel better tho, so that makes me hopeful. May you continue to attain your indigenous wellness.
TMS continues to work for weeks after treatment ends. It’s so hard to wait when you’re suffering, I know. If it doesn’t work, please try Spravato! I haven’t tried it yet but from what I understand it works very fast. In fact, if you are tempted by the “emergency exit” maybe you should ask about it now!
@@HookerTheWriter Thanks for the reply. I’ve completely withdrawn from friends and family and they don’t know how close I am to ordering a grip of sodium nitrate. Maybe I will ask about spravato. It’s supposed to be the best option for suicidal ideation. Thanks Kristen, I know you’ve been there and get it. It’s kind and thoughtful of you to take the time to reply and with sound advice!
@@yurih.5125 How are you feeling?
@@LauraRN713 Oh sluggish and melancholy. How about yourself?
@@yurih.5125 Pretty much the same as you. I feel like I'm trying to walk through mud most of the time. I have times that I feel better and have a little more energy, but for the most part I'm very "blah", tired, no motivation, just "there". It takes all I have to go to work. I have the mapping for TMS tomorrow and then start treatments. What did they say when you told them you don't feel any better?
Thank you for doing this video. I hope you're still doing well x
Amazing. I have extra to give to others. 🙏🙏 what a great feeling. Having depression and learning to manage it is definitely a full time job.. glad you’re feeling better :)
Looks like I need to try TMS. Glad I found your video. Thanks for the post. All medications have made me worse.
On week 7 your face and hair looked the same but different. You looked and sounded like a different person. More alive, animated and really there. I'm praying this happens with my TMS.
I got very thin while I was depressed, so my face started filling out more towards the end when I was getting my appetite back. I'll say a prayer for your TMS!
@@HookerTheWriter Well you look beautiful.
I start my tms treatment in the next few weeks. I've been suffering from depression since I was a little girl. Super nervous, excited, and hopeful. Happy to hear it worked for you!
I’m so happy for you! 🥳
I’m starting my session this coming week. Thank you for taking the time to make this video. (:
Good luck!
This is so inspiring. I just finished week 4 of my TMS and definitely experienced that mid-treatment dip after week 3. But now after Week 4 I feel... dare I say good? Yeah maybe I dare. I'm also on wellbutrin and lamictol for anxiety. Thank you for sharing, I'm so glad I found this!
I’m so happy for you!
I know this probably isn’t the best place to share, but I had a really weird reaction to lamictal. For some reason, one hour after taking my scheduled dose, I would enter this restless and horrifically depressed state where I had random muscle spasms and just couldn’t bear existing. I had to sleep right after taking it just so I could sleep through that part. Glad it works for you though, and back to the topic on hand, I hope you’ve been continuing to see improvements from TMS treatment eric. Its something I certainly want to try but my insurance doesn’t cover it at the moment :/
@@jawknee4088 it's been a godsend. I feel the best I've felt in decades. good luck in trying to get it covered
GRACIAS POR TU VIDEO TE DESEO LO MEJOR DEL MUNDO, PARECE QUE EMPEZAREMOS ESTE VIAJE CON MI HIJO DE 14 AÑOS, ERES UNA INSPIRACION, GRACIAS.
Tomorrow is my 2nd session of TMS I feel depressed today but your video gave me hope
This gives me so much hope
Thanks so much for posting your experience. I, too, have struggled with depression for most of my adult life and have tried many of the drugs out there with some success. I’m finding that, as I’m getting older, the meds aren’t working as well and some of the things you’ve described like brain fog and the inability to focus have occurred. The meds keep me from any major depression but the brain fog is almost just as crippling. My provider is checking to see if my insurance will cover the TMS treatments. Again, thank you for taking the time to share.
I'm excited for you! You're probably about to feel a lot better soon (soon like, after several weeks of treatment, but in the scheme of things, soon!) TMS changed my life. Good luck!
Do you check your testosterone levels?
@@Buhofree testosterone levels have been low for years. I did take testosterone for over a year but it had no real benefit to me so I stopped it.
@@buddy_lebowski find a good endo and take some Blood work, i see in TRT real Life changes
Did your brain fog finally go away? I have 6 weeks antidepressants and also brain fog. I don't know it came from my insomnia or med. I quitted med a week ago. I will have my first TMD tomorrow
Try dietary changes and go out and get some sunlight. Going outside in sunlight just 25 minutes every day and letting the fresh air hit your head and face as you breath deeply in and out really does help cleanse your brain.
I'm starting tomorrow after waiting a little over a year to turn 18. I'm a bit more excited after watching this. Thanks.
Trent Beckman good luck! I’m about to start maintenance treatments for the first time. I’m in the process of making a new video about it.
I'm glad I saw your video as I just finished week 4 of my TMS treatments and I'm having fluctuating moods after feeling really good during week 3. I'm sleeping much better which is a big hurdle for me but I still feel very tired which keeps me unmotivated. However, after spending a lifetime with the daily gring of trying to manage the thieving monster that is depression, I am feeling much better and hope to reach the result of remission that you mentioned. You said you heard that some patients commonly experience a bit of depressed feelings half way through the treatment and I believe that's what I'm going through right now so thank you for sharing that information. It gave me some comfort knowing I'm not alone.
Hi, do you get better now?
@@chengwang4173 I finished my TMS therapy two weeks ago and I'm feeling better than I've ever felt in my life. I highly reccomend TMS therapy. It has changed my life. I sleep much better and respond to things in a much more reasonable way which makes everything much easier. I feel more calm and breathe better too.
@@robertkruzic8484 thank you rob.
Dear Kristin, I wish you good health, my dear, your words give me great hope for treatment, God bless you
Dear Omar, God bless you. I hope treatment helps! I start mine next week. I’m so excited, I know it will help and I’m so hopeful for the both of us. What a time to be alive right!? Here’s to feeling alive and living our best life. :)
Thank you for sharing this! I’ve just had session 3. And I’m doubtful as I’m treatment resistant. I’m so pleased for you and I hope you continue to do well.
How are you feeling?
How did it work for you?
Hi. Any update? My mother is going to start therapy soon 😢
Awesome! I’m a week in of treatment. This gives me hope.
Hang in there!
Did you get better after treatment?
I'm not on any pharmaceuticals for Depression, PTSD and anxiety. I take nutrients that support mental health which helps somewhat but needed something more. I feel very fortunate to have this chance to get back to being me.
I have the same issues as you with reading, writing, etc.
I'm able to read again, began exercising and is more present. Feeling much better... pleasantly surprised.
All the best to you for a very healthy and happy life ahead.
Kristen, I am so happy for you! Keep enjoying, hopefully TMS also helps me
How's it going?
Incredible ! I Hope it will help a lot of people!😄
Thanks Kristin for your video!! I'm going to start my rTMS treatment at the Charité in Berlin in 2 weeks. I hope it will work for me🙏🏻
How did your TMS treatment work?
I managed to get a masters degree with lifetime depression and anxiety. Yet can’t compete with it. Been mopping floors and stocking shelves for a decade. Can’t get ahead.
Trying tms soon. I’ll continue to fight, but also hope disease gets me as the life I’ve lived wasn’t worth the fight. And the apple and orange comparisons (syrian refugees, starving kids, etc etc) do not work. I want to progress and I live where it’s possible.
Don't give up! I know it's really hard to feel like you're unable to fulfill your potential. Sometimes I wonder where I'd be in my career if I wasn't losing time to depression. This is the life I have, though. My suffering is valid and I don't need to compare my suffering to others' or my achievements to others' achievements. I know, still, it's hard and often words fail to make us feel any better when we're feeling our worst.
@@HookerTheWriter thanks but why not give up. so I spend the rest of my days (half way point) rationalizing and accepting a loser life. Or how about I changed the meaning I give my circumstances. No thanks. Thanks for replying, but serious question, why not give up?
@@capgains Me personally- I'm a person of faith and I believe in heaven. The thought of eventually going to heaven is a great comfort. I have a family that I don't want to hurt. Also, I'm a creative person and there's so much ugliness in the world, if there's any chance I can put any joy or beauty into it, I want to press on and do what good I can while I'm still here. You may not be a person of faith, but people without faith in God seem to still find meaning somewhere. I hope you'll search for something to hang onto.
@@HookerTheWriter I am a person of faith. He, she, it will give you what it wants, when it wants. Or when it believes you’re ready. We will discover, after death, that we are to explore a particular theme and that can’t be thwarted easily. Unfortunately some of us are here to experience a perceivably shitty life. But again, our lives are experiences used as tools to grow(which seems to be the point).
God be like, ok pal you figured it out. I coming back soon because you asshats fucked it all up
I am in the intake process for TMS right now and your testimonial provides me so much hope! Thank you so much for sharing.
Yea! Good luck!
Very happy to hear that you are doing better. You are so very pretty and intelligent.
John Zuras aw, shucks! Thank you!
@@HookerTheWriter you are welcome. Hope you are doing well.
Great news! Congrats. :)
I'm just finishing my 2nd week and feeling a bit worse in the past 2 days. I'm hoping I come through it like you as I've been bed ridden for 5 yrs. 🙁
You feeling any better?
I am having same exact experience now. Six weeks no real difference so I asked for some help and social worker got information. I got remapped and upped dose and two more weeks. Also had a genetics test that said low in dopamine and two meds I am on my body doesn’t metabolize well. So going through some med changes again too. Thanks for sharing bc if it wasn’t for your video I wouldn’t have gotten remapped or additional treatments but I am skeptical at this point
I’m sooooo happy for you and thx for posting this!!!
Aww! Thanks! I'm still doing great. :)
Management of anxiety and depression is my full time profession right now. Has been since I was about 13. My other job is the one that keeps a roof over my head. Every day I want to lay in bed and I hate working with people because I'm not like them. I don't laugh and joke and converse like them. I'm the loner and the weird one at work. I've had 100 jobs I bet. Just do my work and go home as fast as I can and shut the door. Just working 8 hours is absolutely exhausting. All I think about is getting back home all day while working.
My heart goes out to you! Keep trying things. Maybe I'm being naive, but I tend to believe that SOMETHING will work. I hope you find your something.
Hi Kristen, Thanks so much for this. I had my first TMS session last Friday and second today. Your video gave me hope.
Fantastic! I hope you feel better quickly. Hang in there!
@@HookerTheWriter Thanks for your encouragement. I'll give you an update in about 4 months if that's ok.
Dave Avakian yes I would love to know how it turns out.
Hi Kristin, I just finished my 36th session and am absolutely feeling better. I have an agitated depression and my agitation is gone! I can still feel low but can manage it better. In 2 weeks I will be evaluated for TMS for OCD. I have a severe checking form of OCD. I know insurance won't cover it but I'll be taking a home equity loan if I can. I hope you are doing well. Thanks for being there. Dave
Dave Avakian I’m so glad you’re feeling better!
I’m thinking about doing TMS therapy. I’m glad I found this video.❤
I hope you're able to access it! Good luck!
@@HookerTheWriter how many times a week did you go?
5 days a week for 8 weeks. I started with 6 weeks, but the results weren't coming so they added two more weeks. @@2863wonderland
So hopeful
Jillian Simpson yea! It’s been several months and I’m getting it again. Really thankful for it.
@@HookerTheWriter yay! Where I live there's like 1 clinic and it's been so difficult to get in contact with them but I'm thinking of trying an at-home fisher wallace device in the meantime. I've heard it has same effects but it is pricey
Jillian Simpson interesting. Let me know how it goes.
Thank you for sharing your journey 💜
20th session and I am doing a lot better
Congratulations!
Hi, can it solve insomnia?
@@chengwang4173 no change there I still don’t sleep well
Thanks for putting this together!
Love you guys
Glad your feeling better
Thank you for sharing this wonderful video 🙏💗 Best luck for you
Hi Kristin, I am glad that you were able to benefit from this treatment! I have a relative that has been struggling with an anxiety disorder which eventually lead to depression. It beaks my heart seeing her battle through her tough journey. Would you recommend this treatment given that medications alone are not really benefiting all that much? (I understand that we should consult a medical professional but I also value your opinion nearly two years post-treatment).
Definitely! It works for most people and has no side effects. If it's available to your relative, it's worth looking into.
I start my first session this Friday I’m a little nervous but this video gave me so much hope for the future
Excited for you! Good luck!
I just started TMS a little over a week ago. I have a very similar story to your Pre TMS one. Thanks so very much for sharing. I'm very worried that it won't help. I'm having a dip right now & have been worried sick. I'm hoping it helps me & I go up from here.
I want to ask if you're feeling better, but I know it'll probably take longer than that. Hang in there!
Hope everything went well for you and your treatment was successful!!❤️
Thank you for posting this video. I’m going to a consultation next week. I have severe generalized anxiety which is causing depression. I’m to the point I’ll try anything. My only concern is the cost. 😢
I hope you have insurance- I think it's typical for insurance to cover it. If not, maybe your doctor will work with you on the price. I know, TMS is a big commitment! I hope it goes well!
@@HookerTheWriter I do have insurance so hopefully they pay for a good portion.
4 questions
1. Are you an ad
2. If not, when did you realize you needed this treatment and how was it recommended to you?
3. Were you worried of potential side-effects and did you incur any?
4. Did the process feel uncomfortable, and how long did it take?
Thank you!
I am not an ad nor do I earn ad revenue on these videos (I know, youtube shows ads on it, but I don't have control over that). I realized I needed *something* when I was deeply depressed, already taken drug after drug, been to counseling, hypnotherapy... the list of treatments goes on. I heard about someone who had a brain implant for their depression and while researching that, I found TMS (which is NOT a brain implant). I looked for testimonials on youtube and reddit, talked to my psychiatrist, and thought it looked promising. There are no side effects, so I wasn't worried about that. The process is not painful, maybe just a little annoying. Feels like someone is tapping on your head. Treatments last about 20 minutes and I got them every day Monday through Friday for 8 weeks. Most people do 6 weeks, but I needed more. The only downside is that it's tedious and time consuming. To me, though, totally worth it! Like, I don't know where I'd be without it.
@@HookerTheWriter Thank you so much for your reply :) I'm thinking of trying myself, so this really helps. I'm really glad this helped you and hope it continues to brighten your days!
Love the poster. I start tomorrow - thanks for these videos :)
You're welcome! I hope it goes well for you!
I'm so happy to hear that you feeling good and not depressed anymore again!! Are you still feeling better?
Yes! It’s been about a year since I last had TMS and I’m able to maintain my mental health with medicine and meditation.
@@HookerTheWriter Hey Kristin. That is soo great! Super happy to hear you still feel better. Partly because of your experience, I decided to have rTMS therapy, which starts tomorrow for me at the Charité in Berlin.
thank you for sharing your journey
Thanks for posting this video. It was truly encouraging bc I am with you. I suffered with depression for soooo long that I am just existing versus living. I am not sure what living is. I am in my 4th week of TMS and I don't see any difference right now. Maybe one day or two I feel different but it goes away. The meds make me sweat profusely so I am cutting back and they nest don't help that much. I am not sure if I have the wrong combination or what but I needed to hear some better news. I wonder if I need remapping? It was hard to get mapped in the first place and saw very little movement. The places I've been are new at this so I am hoping time will tell.
TMS is very gradual, so hang in there! I realized TMS had worked when one day I saw an acquaintance from a distance at Target and I decided to call out their name so I could say hi instead of avoiding them.
@@HookerTheWriter Thanks for the encouragement 🙏. I need it. I truly understand how sometimes the things we think are small, like simply talking to someone, are big things when you are in the hole of depression. Just brushing my teeth can b a win for me on some days. I am so praying that TMS will do great things for my life like it has yours and.so many others. Thanks for sharing your experience. I just learned about the "dip" and now I will keep in mind that remapping can occur to improve treatment. That helps alot to know that it is more options going through this. God bless you for being honest and bold sharing your story so publicly. It's inspiring
@@HookerTheWriter Oh I avoid people like the plague since my depression and anxiety have gotten worse. I finally reached out for help since my meds no longer seemed effective. I go for mapping tomorrow morning. I'm nervous about the whole experience, and nervous that it won't work. But what I'm more nervous about, and why I'm giving TMS a try, is that I will continue to have no motivation, sleep all the time, never want to talk to anyone, and feel like I'm walking through mud. I hope it helps! Thank you for your video, and I'm so happy for you.
Thank you for this very helpful video.
This is me! So helpful thank you!
Thank you for sharing this! I just started tms today
Let me know how it turns out! Good luck!
Thank you for sharing.
dTMS actually DOES work so much better and is a far superior technology than repetitive.
Thank you for your video. This is very inspiring
I was injured by TMS then gaslighted. My ears never rang before TMS caused them to ring permanently. It has been 4 years.
I’m so sorry that happened to you. I had never heard of that before.
Very impressive and hopeful! Just had Day 1... ⚡🧠
🎉 I hope it works for you! Hang in there
Just hear to say i love you and im going to give this a try before i do some irreversible damage to myself or others
Don’t give up! I know it’s not totally logical but I always believe something will work if I just keep trying.