Fentanyl Addict interview-Blake
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 25 พ.ค. 2023
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Blake, a fentanyl addict on Skid Row.
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Love you Blake, it's Ricky from high school. I believe in you and you still have time to turn it all around. We miss having you around the family gatherings and we know you can persevere through anything. Take control of your life as you always have and be with the people you love again.
Blake is so lucky to have a friend like you ❤
Blake you have so much of your life to live go to rehab you can do it I lost my Beautiful Nephew to drugs please look after yourself people love you ❤
Ricky…you’re a good friend for reaching.
I can't imagine the pain you feel watching a loved one go through this.
@@nellybagg5188 Is thethat not what this post is doing?
Heroin and fentanyl almost killed my wife and me. We both celebrated 12 years clean yesterday. We do recover.
Congratulations 👏 Best wishes ❤
I'm a mom. This was my son's path too for many many years. He finally got help, turned his life around and has been clean and sober for 15 years. He turns 50 next month. If my son can do it, Blake can do it too. Praying for him.
This is so sweet
Thank you for sharing that good news. God bless you and your son.
That’s a wonderful thing & as a Mum it’s a distractive path your son was taking my nephew was like my own son now gone 🥲❤️
How long was your son in active addiction? How old was he when he turned it around and was it anything that specifically helped him do that ? I hope you don’t mind answering , I’m asking for myself as I’m now 35 and been in active addiction since 22, have lost a lot and have enough felonies to never get gainful employment again, and on the brink of losing the little contact and relationships I still have with my parents and siblings .. thank you and bless you for being a cool mom
@@MoAli-wm4ofI'm sorry I never saw your post until now. My son started into drugs when he was about 12 and they pretty much consumed his life till about age 35. His own dad even supplied him with drugs but I had no idea. You would never know by looking at my son that he was a "druggie" because his appearance did not portray his true lifestyle. He was clean-cut, and always worked, even as a teenager. But everything finally got out of control with his job, his family and relationships so he sought help from NA. He still attends NA meetings and keeps in close contact with his sponsor/mentor. He also had a mom who never stopped praying for him in the name of Jesus, my Savior.
August 26th will be 7 years for me.
I expected to die a junkie. I did a few times but was brought back.
My life is incredible, i have a beautiful family and girlfriend.
You got this Blake. You can beat it!
"Every junkie is like a sunset". " The Needle and the Damage Done, Neil Young.
@@missolesoul I've seen the needle and the damage done
A little part of it in everyone
But every junkie's like a settin' sun...
Very good! I feel as though so much music would resonate with this generation. It can be a huge insight into your own behavior. Thank you for knowing exactly what I was trying to say but messed it up. You are obviously a lover of incredible music. That song and "The Needle and the Spoon"." No more trips to the moon." Why would anyone want to stop if it wasn't a death trip ultimately?
Congratulations on your success!
Good job 👏🏽 Congrats
Blake, you are so self aware, engaging and intelligent. Please get the help you need because the world is a better place cuz you're alive.
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Yes!
The fact that he still has insurance is incredible. He's very fortunate. Also, if he's facing court appearances, most judges will give defendants a pass if they're in rehab. He likely qualifies for a public defender.
@@B_Bodziak he has Medicaid, and yes, it's great California provides that for those who need it! So do the other west coast states.
He is an addict, he steals from innocent people, why don't you invite him to live with you for a while, that would really help him.
Him dozing off like that is EXTREMELY IMPORTANT for our Youth to witness. I’m happy that you let the “film roll” for all of us to see.
I like how happy and respectful he talks about his family and his brother in college…no jealousy at all just pure humbleness…he is still in there…the drugs are trying to change him
51 days sober I’m blessed to have broken the chains of fentanyl
This guy says all the right things . He just needs to start having his actions meet his words .
Yeeeesss👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
It's not that easy, unfortunately. Clearly he's very smart but he needs serious therapy and long term treatment.
@@melissaeboch9093 it is that easy . He gets all the opportunities given to him he even says so himself . He just needs to take advantage of them and stop going in circles .
@@jamesgarland8322he needs to learn about munchy fun .. It's time he became his number one!!
That's what happens when one goes to lots of rehabs...they learn all the buzz words and what they are supposed to say.
When he's not nodding out, he's very alert and quite good at telling his story.
That's the dope
@@aspartamekillsyaknow9019😂😂 You're kidding. 😂
Agree
I think he may be having seizures.
@@susanbritton8345this is exactly what I saw too. An absent seizure. Even drugs don’t make you fall asleep mid sentence without having taken a hit of whatever the drug is. The reaction is usually immediate to drug use not 10mins of being totally alert & talking.
Thanks for not editing out Blake closing his eyes.
So sorry to see this intelligent, articulate young man so high and out of it. I pray he get the help he needs and gets well.
Me too; I feel his pain very keenly. Please keep him in your prayers,
I was going to be a doctor. Not an MD but research. Was pre-med at Berkeley. Then for some reason I decided to be a junkie instead. Talk about regret!
I'm now 54 and my life has been ruined. By me. I hope this young man gets clean before he's in my spot. It's too late for me.
Never too late
@@sarahemmons7555 At a certain point yeah, its too late.
@SuchABadKitty it is never too late. Maybe not the life you hoped for but something good. 🙏❤️
My mother suffered through this for years. Just like this. It starts off innocent, then it invaded her life, her decision making. Her friends turned into addicts who then merely acted like friends. Then she wanted it all to change, and be better when my grandparents - finally - decided to stop bailing her out of jail the night she overdosed in our Buick Century on train tracks. What’s my grandfather look like paying for the damages of a CSX engine? That’s the real moral of the story here - once addiction invaded her family’s life, it was too late for her. She died on the floor of my bedroom after overdosing on her month’s supply of Klonapin and pain patches that weren’t hers. Moreover, she died as the most hopeful woman that ever lived. The weekend she died, she was ecstatic, galavanting about the job she was going to get, how she was going to stop smoking cigarettes, and stop bringing strange men around. She had two weeks left of home confinement. Blake, man, I don’t know you. But, do not continue wishing for change. Be the motherfucking change you’re wishing for - the long way. Some of the worst endings divulge at the last of our best intentions.
Wow - I thank you for sharing your story -- and so sorry this happened.
Thank you for sharing. Best wishes to you and your family.
Thank you for sharing. Best wishes to you and your family.
I am so sorry to hear that 🥺. Your story could save someone’s life - thank you for having the courage to share! 🤍
My heart hurts for your mother , and your grandparents, and mostly for you. I hope Blake, or others see what you shared
This channel is keeping me sober. I never expected to ever write that when I started watching a year ago.
hope the journey is still going well, progress is day by day good luck
@green_filled_cvs7006 yes. Appreciate you asking. And I still watch this channel daily to remind myself what a relapse will do. I just can't go back
You’ve got this Blake. Don’t lose your fight. Recovery is possible. My brother was living where you are living now and addicted to Fentanyl. Suboxone helped him tremendously and he’s now a year sober and has gone back to school and is following his dreams. You deserve so much better and your family deserves to have you back in their lives. ❤️🙏🙏🙏
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Get on suboxone, stay on it as long as you motherfucking have to. Don't let anyone tell you your substituting. Stay on it as long as you have to. Ween off slow. You got this!
Congratulations 🎉 to your brother and your family❤ I know you guys are proud of him, and he is proud of himself. May GOD, Bless him with staying sober🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️❤️God is so great🙏🏾🙏🏾
Suboxine is really helps my brother. Where are you now? Reach out to me let me invite you to elevate life church where you are
This one is so sad. He’s a very intelligent, articulate guy. If he could get himself clean and sober he could have an amazing life.
Blake I hope you see this. I’ve been clean over 6 years and have been where you are. I was lucky and dealt with my addiction right after getting my college degree. The best thing you can do for yourself is lining up jobs you enjoy doing and that’s hard when you’re starting from rock bottom. But get around successful people because where you’re at as I’m sure you know will continue to trigger you to use. You’re going to continue getting screwed over by people down there, but you need to find people that lift you up that you ID as “better” than you. Once you get out of skid row and start finding a clean but fun group …you’ll see a different perspective of people and the world. Start reading about your trauma, start reading about why you attract negative people in your life. Start reading about how addiction is triggered when we have a loss of connection to ourselves, friends/family/people, and the world. I know you’re serious about getting clean. Praying for you.
I think he's a little further along in his addiction and has no support system. You said you got your college degree. He doesn't have anything to grasp except hope. He may need to go on a methadone clinic program in order to put his foot on the first step of the stairway up.
I hope Blake does see your comment: solid and compassionate advice. I suspect even if he doesn’t see this, lots of other addicts will read it and be grateful for this wisdom. I know I am. ❤
@@B_Bodziak he also said he had graduated fromcollegee as well and also has certified trades i think this is great advice!
@@JC-du6sn Why?
Mine had a college degree as well. Addiction does not differentiate
"am I allowed to cuss?" - cute kid and the piano hangs over a lot of us sweetheart. ♥️
I lost my only son 5 1/2 years ago to a Fentanyl overdose. You drifting off to school reminded me of how bad he was right before he passed away. He was brilliant, hilarious, 33 and a college professor. At the end of the day all that mattered was he was an addict and I missed ALL the signs. I will live with that the rest of my lifetime.
Please, please get help. You are so worth it.😢
A college professor? Wow. I’m decently successful as an addict making 80k, but just threw my job away to get treatment in rehab now. It truly goes to show that anyone can become addicted.
I'm very sorry. My bestfriend died when I was 19 and will never forget how his mother grieved. No mother should have to bury her kids. Your son is in heaven now ❤ God picks his flowers
He is an excellent story teller. Voice, rhythm,energy level, easy job for him in radio. He needs a podcast.
He's high
and you need a reality check. go talk to some addicts...
He looks like an actor. He looks well and his hair doesn't look like street style
@@victoriacortese4031 Tom Sizemore
He needs a rehab, not a podcast. He is high and he is telling a delusionary tale. Drug addicts come in all shapes and sizes. He needs help. Detox, therapy and life support. Then he will have a real story to tell. A story of survival.
Watching this makes me grateful because I realize this could have been me too. I'm 31, grew up in fresno like Blake & went to Clovis West. I got kicked out of a school for weed & went to continuation school afterwards as well. I had a lot of trauma and issues growing up & as a teen. My dad was a drug addict in & out of prison, many close family members were drug addicts & alcoholics. I dabbled in drugs & alcohol & was extremely easily influenced & could have easily become an addict. LUCKILY, we moved to a different city mid way through HS & some life events at that time changed the direction I was going completely, I am forever grateful for those things. Now, as an adult, it's scary how couple of bad decisions as a teen can completely change your life. I really hope Blake gets the help he needs & can overcome where he is in life right now. Sending ALL the good vibes to you Blake!
So glad you made it. I pray that Blake makes it.
I completely agree with you. A couple of bad decisions and like Blake 15 years go by and you are left wondering what happened what happened? Get back into rehab. You have health insurance call the same rehab that made you leave because of a relationship I bet they will take you back even if only for detox. Or go to another rehab. Go through the whole program get a job be consistent and I am sure your Dad will take you back. Remember you need to prove yourself to your family. Forget your past prove your sobriety and you will have success
This dude reminds me so much of ME! Oldest of 3 and an ex-baseball kid. Right down to the talking very normally until nodding out. Used to happen to me at my restaurant jobs and id say I was narcoleptic til they caught on. Im on suboxone now which ain't perfect but im grateful. Best of luck Blake you got so much life left if you want to claim it. Great story.
Nothing is perfect but we got to keep fighting . Stay stong man!
Proud of you! In my very humble opinion, Suboxone/Zubsolv/Methadone is the way to go. The intense depression and lethargy that usually lingers for many months after getting clean are often the reason people relapse. There is no shame in needing treatment for a disease. Some people, especially those who were almost lifelong addicts, have to stay on Suboxone/Meds for the rest of their lives. There's no shame in it. Long term exposure to opioids changes one's brain chemistry and the brain "forgets" how to produce dopamine and endorphins causing intense depression for years. PAWS is real. It's also the rare person who can quit and get into recovery without going to rehab. Yes, it can be done, but it's rare, and people that do almost always have some type of a support system. This guy doesn't even have a home
Agree.
I don't love the fact that I've been on sunoxone for a very long time, (mostly because its inconvenient at times and staying on top of the GI stuff is a bit of a chore) but I also don't think it's the worst thing either I think some medical professionals discourage it because the idea of being on anything long term just "sounds bad", even if there's no abuse of it or significant medical consequences.
@@TheAnthoula14 Opioids after the brain chemistry is a permanent way that other drugs don't. I think more and more rehabs are beginning to realize this. Thank goodness. People who could never manage to get a year clean, now have several years clean using Suboxone. It's a safe and very recognized medical treatment for a disease. I hope more rehabs and programs begin to recognize it. Although, I don't know if it should be used in someone's first attempt at sobriety.
How does that work? What is happening in your brain that one nods off mid sentence? I know he’s high but how does that work? Does one know when you nod of? When he speaks he sounds completely fine, and then he nods off. Is he high now? I went to Warby Parker to get fitted for frames and the guy helping me was nodding off mid sentence. He would come back and pick up where he left off. I was so frustrated that I left. I wasn’t rude I just felt bad. It’s only a matter of time before he gets fired.
falling down 7 times but getting up 8, that shit hit home i needed that quote today thank you blake for your message and amazing story telling, i pray you get back up and get the help and support your seeking and deserve
I love you so much cousin. Hearing you speak so well and sharing your truth to the world only shows that you are still in there and on your way back to us. This stage of your life does not define who you are, but how you overcome it! ❤ I’m praying for you every single day and will ALWAYS be in your corner. I believe in you and so do many many others! I miss you so much and cannot wait to give you the biggest hug. The Lord is always with you. Surrender it all to Him and fight for your life! ❤️ -Tamar
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Why are you letting your cousin Joe lie and use his little brother Blake’s name? that’s fucked up and irresponsible? He also failed to mention how he was upset the school still kicked him out after he tried snitching on all his friends and getting them kicked out to try and save his own ass lol dude was a major asshole and bully in highschool
@@NaturalMagi123 I understand that you do not have the best memories of my cousin. We have all fallen short, chose poorly and regretted things we have said and done to other people that we can never take back. These things cannot be undone, yet we can learn from them. For many people, it can even mean taking over a decade to realize what went wrong and how to make things right. There are many things in this world that do not make sense; things like tragedy, pain, loss, and sickness and there are reasonings behind these moments that are beyond our comprehension. Isaiah 55:8 reads, “For my thoughts are nothing like your thoughts” declares the Lord, “and my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.” Most people have experienced painful moments and say, “If God really does love me, why is this happening to my life?” But that is just not for us to try to understand. God allows pain and suffering for one reason, and that is to bring us closer to Him and to lean on Him. If we lived in a world without sin, there wouldn’t be pain or suffering. If we didn’t have pain or suffering, would we even desire to lean towards God?... Philippians 4:13, “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.” I strongly believe that my cousin will overcome this addiction. I hope that whoever ends up reading this to the end will have faith in him as well.
Hopefully his family gets him clean. He needs rehab. Addiction is hard to overcome alone.
Only he can get himself clean@@claytonluke81
Bless Blake’s soul. I can hear the pain and heartbreak. I hope he finds peace.
This guy is a pig .... hurts people every chance he gets ...
This piece of shit is lying and pretending to be his own lil brother to put all the shame on his name instead of his own I feel bad for the real Blake this asshole is Joe lol😅
Blake, you are so self aware! You can do this!!! Get clean and go love your family while they're here, you won't get this time back ❤
@Tomoko Abe Of course he used just prior, if he didn’t he’d be sick. That’s fentanyl addiction. If you’re not on it your sick af.
Self aware? Nodding off the chair?
Self aware?
Are you being ironic?
He's full of excuses and is blaming everything on everyone else.
@leneo1731 If I was there when he had this specific interaction with the principal, I would have loved to see the principal, nurse, guidance counselor, and parents create a plan with Blake and set goals that he could work towards while focusing on playing the sport he enjoyed. Not be forced out of regular school and into an alternative program that didn't facilitate the best environment for Blake to THRIVE. That specific detail changed the course, redirected where he would be and who he would be around and ultimately determining influential factors in his life. My perception may be contrary to others' opinions, but I wasn't there- and I'm not God ❤️
I see this comment a lot on SWU videos. This guy is experiencing extreme euphoria during the interview. He could be a totally different person when the drugs wear off.
Wow. I have never seen an SWU interview quite like this. Blake has had to deal with a lot of shit -- a lot of it self-imposed -- but he is young, smart, articulate, and, most important, he knows what success feels like and he is motivated in different ways. I don't know him, but if he's being straight-up with us, he will get out of this hell hole. I am sure of it. Please keep us posted.
Yeah well your looking at a liar dude was a major major asshole bully in highschool and really he threw his friends under the bus and snitched on them got them all kicked out of school and was mad they didn’t let him stay for snitching he bullied all the non cool kids and is currently being a piece of shit using his lil brothers name to ruin his name instead of taking responsibility using his own identity I feel bad for the real Blake his lil brother
2 years off of this monster of a drug. It's absolutely possible to walk away. I wish I could talk everyone off of it but it's something that only you can do if you are lucky enough. I prayed for 2 weeks straight, not sure if that can help anyone but it's how I stopped and I have no desire for it anymore. My heart hurts for the person trapped inside that so desperately wants to get back to actually living.
I hope the principal who lied to him sees this and feels terrible!!! Children must be seen, heard, believed, and told the truth!!! Otherwise trust of adults is LOST 💔
Yeah, because the guy who is nodding out on a stool during an interview is to believed over the principal. 😂😂😂
Interesting that he learned the lesson of dont tell the truth instead of dont do something stupid and illegal in the first place. That would have been my lesson learned.
Maybe I misunderstood, but I thought maybe getting kicked out of school was the better choice than having an arrest record. I’m not sure of the laws, but I suspect the principal DID good for him. The fault and responsibility rest with Blake not the administrator who is put in a tough spot.
God Bless You 🤍
@@sciencereactions8221this is what I thought too. He did get kicked out, but he didn't deal with the criminal justice system. Which is what the principal wagered, and what Blake chose.
That beggining is wild. He's only 29?!
I know right, he looks old aa fuck. He's killing himself so fast.
That beginning is how they all look out on the streets. It’s easy to spot fentanyl users, easy.
I thought so to, until I saw the nod that happened half way through the video.
No way this dude is 2 years older than me . People still think I look 20 , this drug is terrible , it’s destroying are nation. God we need to make it stop. It’s heartbreaking
This foo the same age as my ass
That piano hanging over his head analogy is so relatable and wanting to have some type of control so you self sabotage. I always felt like that as well and would react the same and went thru over 10 years of addiction at a young age and thankfully had good family around me to help. All I can say is go to rehab and go live in a sober house far away from where your stomping grounds are and continue to try and do the right thing daily so eventually you don’t have to cut that cord to the piano anymore.
As a substance abuse counselor, I see people like him often. He is intelligent and articulate. However, he is focused on others as the source of his addiction. Until he can stop making excuses and be accountable, his life won't change. What others think, do and say is not the problem.
My son is like this..I tried..he almost got me killed, put in jail and he does not care about anything or anyone else...he screamed at me so MUCH for my car that I was shaking and told HIM no, your not taking my car and he went running down the main street and then came back complete wet and shaking told him go take a cold shower and go to sleep...I CLD not sleep all night, because he might take my keys or something, he pawned my laptop and took money from me and the Father has never even told me he was doing drugs...not one time..he CLD scream at me, he CLD say the day you DNT come back, no man will ever want you except for your body, my way or the highway, that I was Costing him TOO much MONEY, call my job and started the beat downs, DNT come home without meds or will divorce you...spit in my face in the court room, call me over and over again stalked me, take the water deposit from me, leave me homeless, when he broke my back and almost my neck, then play victim, when he had money and even refused to buy me food, knowing I have gastroparesis...his drug... alchoholic abuser and lier who played victim all over the State...I DNT know what I did to deserve what I was Enduring...I NEVER did anything..
As a counselor do you feel like maybe you can be his last hope like he has potential ...he just need dat 1 person who truly will help him ... Help him find his trigger's and stay grounded and focused
@@lisacranmer8005i hope you are doing okay Lisa.
You dont have to deserve something for evil people to unleash their sick side, you only have to allow them into your life.
Its not your fault and you cant change them.
Please stay away from people like that.
Yeah drug addiction functions like a disease, it makes people feel sad for themselves and infects everyone around them.
Not to promote drug use but cannabis can greatly help with Gastroparesis but this is not advice; only a tip to look into it.
Stay safe and hopefully you find the love and peace you need.
@@sherrycrawley9913 if even family members cant do that then a counselor cant either, it hinders their job greatly if they care too much, sadly.
I went to rehab a few times and counselors who said this to me didn't help. They hurt. As an abused child, a scapegoat in my abusive and dysfunctional family, it was always about "it's not what other people do or say, it's about YOU." It wasn't about me. It was that drugs allowed me to escape the dangerous and harmful people around me that I couldn't physically escape. I didn't need to hear more of that. What I needed, and what got me sober, was acknowledging that the hurt and harm caused by others was the poison and drugs was how I was coping with it. No shame, no tough love, no radical accountability... the gentle voice saying "of course you chose this, what other choices did you have to leave a prison than with your mind?" I have 16 years now because someone allowed it to be other people's fault and put the accountability on them for the harm so I could stop blaming myself and see my value again.
Come on Blake, you are so bright & self aware. You CAN do this & get back on track. May God bless you & help bring you out of this. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Wild watching him burn out while talking an he just goes silent .. hope he gets a chance at recovery and excels in his life ♡
Aw, Blake is a sweetheart! As a mom, my heart is breaking. To see what drugs can do, it can be (& usually is) devastating! Blake, if you read this, I am going to pray for you, and I hold hope for you! You can do this! Like you said, you are young and you Can look back at this and say you got through it. Blessings & best wishes to you!
This kid has an amazing heart. He was one of my little brothers best friends and an amazing baseball player. Even though they love him dearly, he has broken their hearts and they are hoping for his return. He knows exactly the impact of his life and how to get better, but he just doesn’t have the will to do so!!! I love this guy but he needs help!!!
@@katiekane5247 He wants that comeback story for the darkest place he can get to, but I fear that place might not have a chance in this life. Thanks for the words.
@@katiekane5247 well said.
Make no mistake about it, our country is under attack with this drug!
Yas!
@Broskisnowskibut then there are us addicts who take the blame for every single little thing. Lol this cycle never ends well either way!
intro was able to tell 1 million stories it is THAT much relatable
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Yeah, if you're THAT much of a dope fiend!!! Totally relatable
This guy is crying out for help! He doesn't want this lifestyle but anybody who struggled with addiction knows how difficult it is to pull yourself out of it. I hope his family won't give up on him. Blake if you read this you've got so much to look forward to you can get past this!
No he’s not he can go home whenever he comes from a very wealthy family he was a legendary asshole in high school this interview does his real character an injustice then he did the most scumbag shit ever used his lil brothers name for this interview putting all his dirt onto his name instead of taking responsibility Top 3 biggest douchbags I ever went to school with
I have such a similar story to blake, typing this from a rehab currently
I'm one relapse away from living in my car /on the street. Have 4 months clean right now, but everyone around me is falling off and relapsing and it's making me doubt my near future. Feel for this dude
This one got to me. I grew up in the area he's from and have known so many families like the one he's from. He even talks like the kids my adult children grew up with. I'm going to pray for Blake and his family. These are good kids. Good families. It breaks my heart. I wish I could do more
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Praying is the very most that you can do.
Me too. I live in Fresno so Blake’s story is that much more impactful. Praying for his sobriety
same. I went to Clovis East, know a lot of kids they ended up at Gateway. no idea what any of them are up to these days, but it's almost a guarantee at least some of them are struggling with addiction.
If he's able to get honest with himself and others, stop blaming this addiction on circumstances or his position in life he can get clean. Hopfully he gets honest before its too late. We do recover.
Words of wisdom
Being honest has never really worked out very well in life for Blake
@@Milkyway109 you assume that all what he says is true. Having been on both sides of the addiction crazy train (thank God for recovery), we/they lie. My 59 years of life have taught me to be weary of anyone who never takes responsibility and accountability for their actions. It's always a red flag.
@@kimjohnson8471 you are so right! If we/ they want to get clean we/ they will. It ain't easy but We Do Recover. There but for the grace of God, I go....
He’s perfected the victim role.
Reminds me of watching my husband deal with the effects of addiction to fentanyl. Saw him nodding off while talking to him and talking around the truth. my husband died Dec 8 2022 of a fentanyl overdose.
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Rip 🕊
Sorry for your loss
There's some people where I say to myself "man, there really is no hope for this guy". But I don't feel that way about Blake. He's young, intelligent, well spoken, and has a deep self awareness of his addiction but also the way he's impacted the lives of others. I think he has a bright future, I just hope he can see how much value he has.
Damn, that teacher completely betrayed you. What a horrible thing to do to a young person. You seem very switched on and intelligent, keep fighting brother and remember to enjoy life when you can.
Assuming it's true.
I’m enraged that the principal betrayed his trust. It’s 100% believable and happens all the time in our society, whether we want to admit it or not.
Blake, you WILL get clean. Just keep trying one minute at a time. You have a beautiful heart and you will have a good and healthy life❤️🙏🌹
@@donacatanguma Totally agreed, should be held accountable. Awful betrayal of a young mans trust that had such an impact on his life.
@KIM JOHNSON It's true. And it's a principal not a teacher. Almost everybody who has had this type of high level interaction with an authority figure can cosign this. They lie.
Not just a young person.
Mark I hope you have narcan I was this guy for years in my early twenties I got clean from opiates at 22 and relapsed on alcohol in my late thirties so I have two and a half years of recovery almost and I'm working a solid program I'm grateful for Mark's channel as it was the introduction back into what my life was going to be like if I kept all the path I was on my wife and kids were about to leave me my business was in toilet and now I am finally where God wants me working a solid program living a clean life and being of service to God's other kids I pray for anybody out there struggling today as you have value you are worth recovery you do not have to die an addict in addiction but one way or another you will die an alcoholic or an addict if you are one has this disease never goes away but you can die sober one which is what I hope for for myself God bless to all be careful mark
i love how he is self aware, alot of addicts arent or just stop themselves from realizing that he has an addiction. blake sounds like he got alot of potential and i hope he can get some help.
Blake, you can do this. My son in law just died two months ago from this horrible drug. He and my daughter just found out they were having their second child, a week later he was dead. He kept it secret, my daughter had no idea he was doing drugs. Sadly he lost his life, but what he left was a broken wife, a 6 year old beautiful little girl that is struggling with her loss, a new baby coming that will never know his daddy... And his mother who also isn't doing well. All his and his wife's dreams crushed forever. A wife that's left to pick up the pieces and raise two children by herself. A wife that will go thru delivery of their little boy without his daddy. You are hurting yourself, but you're also hurting the people who love you. Drugs kill, and they kill everyone around you that loves you. Get clean, stay clean, you have alot to live for, you're young and seem like a fantastic young man. I pray you realize your worth. God Bless you!
Sad. I pray that this kid finds the help to overcome this terrible affliction..😞
@@jacobus57he is to someone a lot older.
Reminds me of a line from the old "Trainspotting" film. 😏
@@fletcher932 It may at least help a loved one of an addict. It may even help his own family process some of their feelings. However, he says, "Everyone I've had a relationship with had effed me over.". He needs to realize that HE was likely the catalyst that caused his loved ones to respond the way they did. He needs to realize, accept and own up to HIS part, HIS actions. I doubt ALL of his loved ones took the actions he thinks "screwed him over" without them being prompted by HIS actions. Loved ones can only give so much of themselves to an addict before they have to start protecting and giving to themselves. He's still in a victim mentality and that's not the ideal way to get into rehab and be successful....and actually have a life. Addicts have a tremendous amount of willpower. There's no way you cannot have willpower and be an addict. All of the scheming and effort and time put into getting your drugs just so you don't get sick, takes willpower. But, willpower is not what's needed to get sober.
I see some dummy's in these comments
O.D. soon ....
Wow, to fall asleep and pick right back up on the story like he never left
@@ump1nen oh wow, thanks for that explanation , I sure thought he went to sleep 😴
I hope you read this bro... I watched this with my sons and we all are praying for you man. I thank you for sharing your story and allowing us into your world and making them see your pain. I hope you find peace and overcome this prison. You have the intellect and charisma to achieve great things. Go get it my beother.👊🙏
Hope Blake can find treatment and a sober living arrangement. I found that structure and accountability as well as being surrounded by others with the same goal are instrumental in the recovery process. Keep taking action and don't give up! Find a sponsor and accept their guidance.
I’m really rooting for this guy. God be with you, Blake.
I feel like you just need to meet the right person to help you escape this mental prison. I know it’s hard to trust people after you’re fucked over so many times, but don’t close that door.
When he “falls asleep” mid sentence… it looks like an absent seizure. Which is common is addicts. I’ve never in my life seen someone even someone high go from so awake to so asleep without having JUST taken their drug of choice. He just literally fell asleep mid sentence 10mins into a conversation with no cuts or breaks.
I hope he gets the help he needs. He’s got a great personality & a story.
He probably couldn't talk without 'getting fix'd' first
@@Eidelmania I would say for sure for the first 30 seconds where he falls asleep and falls off the chair that would be typical of just getting high. But to have a full 10minutes of enthusiastic story telling them mid sentence nod off like that, I personally think the second nod off is a seizure.
I’m not a doctor so I could very well be wrong. Just what it looks like to me.
It’s classic Fent
@@Goodvibes-gu8dv okay ✌🏼
I've seen that exact thing happen hundreds of times.. it certainly is in no way "out of the ordinary" for an active heroin/fentanyl addict..granted there is also a more common kind of "slide" into a nod, but this is just another version..
You're so smart and hopeful, Blake. I speak for a majority of viewers when I say you have a mindset that can totally overcome whatever addictions you have. I can't articulate how much I want you to thrive and survive. I can't wait for the day that Blake gives us an update on how awesome his life is.
Blake, you have all of my support from France. You don't need to find the strength for recovery, you already have it.
15 years sober this year, you can do it too sweetheart!! I'm rooting for you!!
This interview hit different. Sigh.... "I want this to be apart of my trajectory and not where I end up" Powerful shit!!! I hope you find peace. Im rooting for you!!!
The only thing I learned when working in a psychiatric care facility, that I want people to know, is you’re not gonna recover if you don’t want to. He’s half way there, he wants to recover.
Mark!
Once again you show me what an unique person you are.
The patience you have for these people.
I take my hat off for you!
I could never do what you're doing.
And I've though that I had patience and compassion for other.
This showed me I was wrong.
This video probably isn't about him but about me.
That I need to change, too.
You are not alone Brother!
in this very moment i am fighting with addictions too!
Stay strong!
This young man is so intelligent. Prayers for him.
I will be praying for his recovery. I really mean that. He’s a special soul, that is very clear. He is so insightful and has so much to offer. I know he can fully recover and I believe in my heart he will do just that. 🖤
This breaks my heart, I do know he can overcome this and am sending him all the love in the world.
Oh man... how sad, i feel for this dude... hope he gets help and gets better.
3 weeks clean here. Was 4 months but had a relapse and was reminded of how painful this disease is. I’m also 29 from Northern California and I related to your story so much. The hidden addiction, the life starting to fall apart at 16, being an athlete and going to multiple colleges, etc. you can do this Blake. I know without a shadow of a doubt you can. My biggest fear was also losing one of my parents when I was getting high all day every day and it’s such a weight off my shoulders knowing I’ll be present and able to help if necessary. Rooting for you bro
don't ever lose control again, I believe in you, three weeks will be three years , you are going to do it this time
So brave! never stop taking care of yourself and checking in on that sobriety 🦾 rooting for you too! And Blake, really hoping he can finally commit to himself, forgive his mistakes and unleash his potential, such a sweet guy, I believe he can!!!🦾🦾🙏🏻
@@blueishxx Thank you so much. Really needed to hear this today. Still going strong and feeling a little more confident each day.
@@natsvargas I really really appreciate it. Having a bit of a rough day and coming online and reading your comments gave me a boost that I needed.
@@krb0123 well I'm happy positivity reached you 😊one day at a time ok? every day keep choosing staying clean and you'll see how far you can go. And when those days come along ask for help. You deserve to be happy, you are important, valued and loved. You got this 🦾
Wow! Bold and impressive, Mark. Blake is so insightful and self-aware. I’m pretty sure the addicts grok this 100%. And we certainly need more clean and sober addicts to facilitate healing for those who are still suffering. I think it’s extremely difficult for even the most sympathetic people working in addiction treatment to understand the experience of being caught in this viscous cycle, but god bless them for trying.
After the beginning I expected a much different interview. He seems so lucid for a fentanyl addict on skid row
Lost my brother 5/28 to Fentanyl. The pain is unbearable. I cry everyday. I wish I could’ve done more. Thank you for taking interest in the lost and broken hearted, Mark. Blake reminds me so much of my talented brother. I pray Blake gets help before it’s too late. If anyone can help a go fund me was set up. Search Arnita McClinton. Thank you 💔
This one hit home. I've seen a lot of these and can always relate to what is shared. This one hit different. I believe in you Blake!
That nod fall scared the sht out of me.
Blake. Sending you a big hug. You can recover. You can get a new life. You got this!
👍
This resonated so hard with me. I just want to give the biggest hug ever to him.
Sending this man every prayer and blessing imaginable.
Avoid fentanyl at all costs and lead a good life.
As an addict myself I second that. It’s the best advice you’re gonna get. Don’t touch this sh**!
@jimbofischa it's your poison, man..
@jimbofischa like what ?
My 32-year-old nephew died of a fentanyl overdose in April. He had been through 4 detoxes and 3 rehabs. He had just finished inpatient treatment and thus had been clean for several weeks. He decided to relapse and took the same amount. His body, having been clean, could not handle it. His mother found him. Law enforcement said this is a common occurrence, relapsing on the same dose after being clean for a time. Such a tragedy 😢.
@jimbofischa You're exactly the type who will get wrecked by drugs one day because you think they can hurt you and you're stronger and better than addicts.
No one here cares about your car or house.
His journey with sobriety won’t be successful until he takes responsibility for his actions. Yes he’s honest about his addiction but he blames everyone else for where he’s at now. He’s got great potential if he can be honest with himself.
Hopefully Blake gets the helps he needs and deserves. I know its harder than just stopping but man he seems very bright and has a lot of potential if he just can say no. Feel for him.
Oh you poor kid, decisions are everything son. My son was a competitive baseball player in Australia, though it’s not a big sport here, he was scouted to go to America after high school. Injury let him down and he was lost for a while. He is your age now and coaches. Am so glad he didn’t end up doing drugs though he admits they are everywhere. Bless your heart, Blake. You are young enough to get out of this life. Save up and travel! Sending love from Queensland🇳🇿
Possibly best intro of all time
GIOAT!!!!!
BLAKE if you see this, please know that I recognize that your life could have taken a different path if that deceiving high school principal actually helped you, saw your potential, and overlooked a tiny bit of cannabis. Don't give up Blake, do your best and keep trying ❤
Public education is a wicked indoctrination system. Homeschool your kids!
Yeah. I’m sure that’s the only trouble Blake ever caused at school. You people are so gullible.
If we all went through life by the experience of one adult or interaction, we would all be damaged for life.
FresNO,,,,,,,FresYES. Fresno was a fun place to grow up in the 80's. Cruising Blackstone every weekend 😎 unfortunately now it's a gang infested sh#t hole that's 100 degrees almost everyday in the summer. 🥵☀️☀️☀️🌡🔥🔥🔥
The teacher that kicks you out of school for buying drugs is not the person that put you on the path of drug use, that's just illogical nonsense. Blake has given us excuses for his drug use, not the reason(s). And that's not me trying to be mean, we don't even know if he's aware of those reasons. Difficult case, good luck Blake, take care!!!!!
I feel really bad for everyone out there suffering from painful addiction. Man I hope you get better asap and get out of skid row. Before it’s too late.
I’ve known him his entire life. We’ve been best friends forever. Born 30 days apart. He has great insurance & can walk into any rehab facility if he wanted sobriety more than anything else. He’s an incredible human being who I love dearly but he must get right within or he’ll continue to be without. THE DEVIL IS A DEFEATED FOE
Growing up we all said he was destined for failure growing up around douchbaggs like you and his human piece of shit brother Joe
I like you so much. I agree, even in the recovery community; alcoholism vs. “Drug” addiction, is looked at “one is worse than the other.” Addiction is a symptom of a bigger picture. I’m scared for you… this video has hit me in the gut. Godspeed.
What’s up Blake you got this bro. I chill out in Santa Cruz and Capitola all the time. Hope you get clean and stay strong. Peace brotha
This absolutely breaks my heart, there needs to be more grace and support given to these people. I'm rooting for you Blake. May God lead you to the road of recovery.
God bless you Blake. We are the same age. I've lost friends to this disease. My childhood best friend is still struggling like you. Never give up. This doesn't define you. I will remember my friends for the true amazing people they are no matter how dark times get.
I feel sorry for him. The problem is that he also feels sorry for him.
This one crushhhheed me. I am praying for your recovery, Blake!!! You are not your thoughts, and you are better than you think. You are so smart and handsome. This is just part of your story.. not the end result
Praying for you Blake. When I was 13, I ended up in the juvenile system and it turned my athletic dreams upside down, playing football was my only motivation to get through high school and I battled the system only to deal with politics when I made it back my senior year. I was never able to stop smoking weed, so I spent many months in juvenile hall for dirty tests. I got my medical prescription when I was 16 when it was very rare and before it was legal. I recently quit smoking THC and has been smoking CBD for the additional benefits and because I like to roll up still.
I’ve never done any hard drugs, but I’m really hoping you can get clean. Wishing you all the best. Thank you for sharing your story.
Blake, you are such a light. Some of the kindest, warmest people I’ve ever met are Armenian, and it is unfortunate that you have seen misinformation on drug/alcohol addiction in your culture.
“I want to be in a facility getting better… curing my sickness.” I want that for you too, Blake. I hear how badly you want to be there for your family and to help others. I am so looking forward to you being able to meet these goals.
“Become addicted to constant and never-ending self-improvement.” -Anthony J. D’Angelo
It amazes me that addicts flat out say that their life is the the way it is due to consequences of their actions yet blame others for them doing drugs.
All the best for you from germany. From one black sheep to another.
Thank you for doing these documentaries. I think it’s important to humanize people whom are going through addiction. Blake I’ll pray for you. I was once addicted to opioids and pretty much every pill and substance out there. Through God I’m clean today. Blake I hope your able to get the help you need.
I saw this interview and you Blake touched my heart. I'm sort of drug addict in some way for all the antidepressants and anxiety pills I take. Drugs as medicine or substance have the same reaction, at the end you start depending on them.
Blake, you said something that I KNOW if you do it, you will cross the border and never will go back again.
You said IF I FALL 20 TIMES I WILL STAND UP 21. DO IT BLAKE! Stand up again and this time repeat to yourself I'M A SO IMPORTANT PERSON AND I WON'T GIVE UP BECAUSE I DESERVE ANOTHER CHANCE TO PROVE MYSELF I CAN WIN THIS AND OTHER FIGHTS.
Look for help, you can't be kicked out from therapy. Therapist are there to help.
Don't give up Blake, you are young and don't think you are the black sheep of the family. I was too and I feel down and stand up for about 25 years. Now my family who rejected me since my teenage, are proud of me because I didn't give up and pursue my dream until I got it.
Blake TRUST ON YOURSELF. GOD SOMETIMES LET US FALL AND SUFFER TO MAKE US STRONG AND WISE. AND EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. I know it sounds silly that's true, I'm telling you this by my own experience.😊
This one for the class room ! Master class on being an addict . Stay strong Bro
Smart articulate interesting young man. This was very hard to watch. I can only imagine what it would be like for any of his loved ones to ever see this. I hope he keeps trying to quit drugs and stay sober until it sticks permanently. Wishing him all the best. I think he’s got it in him.
Gosh, I just started watching this, and after him nodding off and falling back, then him talking...seems very intelligent. Poor guy just needs the right help/guidance, as long as he wants the help. Haven't been in his situation, but I have been the family member (daughter) of an addict. I have learned that you can "lead a horse to water, but you can't make them drink" it's up to them to get clean. It's a hard road, but soo soo worth it. Seems like a good dude, just went down the wrong path. God bless him.
That quote is the one I've always lived by. Anytime I've been low I keep telling myself this. I hope you get the help you need xx
I’m going thru the high school part trying to get off the weed. Thanks to this video.I’m a senior going in only once a week I can relate to this so much it hit home. Thank you Blake for being brave to come on here and tell your story.
I’m 21 and started at 15.. trust me man if I could go back a few years ago and tell myself to stop I would.. it’s so much harder to quit if you keep on doing it for a longer period.. currently still trying to get off and I was you, telling myself I should stop at 18.. listen to your intuition, cheers
Listen you need to stop it cold turkey and just do it. Don’t look back and don’t give in. It’s the way I did it. Your life will get way better after that
Thank you for the replies
I was in high school nodding off fent bro. Doing hard drugs like any pills will not lead you to anywhere good. Stay strong you got this
How is quitting coming along, Dior?
Blake needs to be accountable and take responsibility for his actions in his life.
I was going to write this too. I noticed that he presents himself as a victim, a likely pattern that has persisted for years, it sounds like. No doubt he has some major trauma to work through and to reconcile the blunders of his past with his current situation so that he can move on and heal. He’s still young and lucid enough to break out of this cycle. You can still change this, Blake! It will just take some work on his part if he really wants it.
Unfortunately have to agree with you. Vibe is off...cut the shit..
I actually disagree. Sounds to me like he has had a lot of self reflection and is insightful. He takes accountability for doing drugs while identifying what triggers him. How is that playing the victim?
@Morgan Hope ur right..I'm just jaded from my sister's fight all her life. Always said what I wanted to hear and like she's getting it together. Now here I am, she's in her 60's and I can't take anymore of this ride...had to get off..I wish I could have helped her..wish I had a magic wand..sucks
@isee Owls oh trust me, as a woman I am WAY more harsh on women. I know all the tricks and manipulation practices women use to try to muster sympathy from others, and how tactful women THINK they are at avoiding accountability and responsibility for their life choices as well.