Percocet (Fentanyl) Recovery Story-Pretty
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 9 ก.พ. 2025
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Pretty, a former Percocet (Fentanyl) addict now living in Los Angeles.
If you would like some guidance on how to get help, Pretty’s email is Pbrandao1004@gmail.com or IG is YoPrettyF.
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day 4 sober this man is very motivating. crying on my couch real af
You got this! Just take it day by day. The more times you wake up with none of that in your body, the easier it will become. Stay strong and keep moving forward!
Keep it up I detoxed monthly for a couple years I know exactly what you’re feeling. I see this was posted a couple months ago I hope you stuck with it it’s so worth it.
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How you holding up?
hope you stayed strong and if you didn't, no problem, day 4 sober is always just around the corner. It can take multiple attempts, and that's allll good.
“If you’ve never been a mess, you have no message” is such a great quote. Only people who’ve lived through hard times can understand.
Truth
It's ok....I've also heard the quote of if you learn from your mistakes, that's knowledge, but if you learn from other people's mistakes, that's wisdom. I think it says alot, as not everyone needs to go through hell to be successful and happy
sure... whatever you say.
Yes I never was able to tell our youth a lesson until I went through 6 years of herion addiction 2 felonies later. I'm sober now but I try to help our youth make the mistakes I did. Partying will turn unto fun then being a necessity that you have to do to be sick. I lost everything and I just recently got it back
Omg excellent quote so true❤
This is really an eye opener and motivation to me, because I was on perc 30s for about 5-6 mouths and I’m only 17 I was down bad when I didn’t have them and me thinking I’m not on it long enough so I won’t get addicted but it takes one pill to destroy your life, im currently on going withdrawal right now (day 5) and I can’t sleep or eat and use the restroom HELLA but I felt good getting up today I hope to anybody who see this comment…….MAN MAN MAN, your not alone in this get some motivation and support and let time go by and I swear u will get through this ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank youuuuuuu
Lord Jesus give you strength
Why the fuck do people call them “perc 30’s” lol god damn that’s so annoying. There’s PERCOCET and then there’s OXYCODONE HYDROCHLORIDE 30MG. Also how “fly” can you be in a bullshit little town called “Dorchester” lol . And finally tired of seeing these mother fuckers say they’re “recovering” or “sober” just because they’ve been broke for 4-5 days and can’t afford to get High
Just remember brother, you’ll get through it. You’re through the worst of it already. Stay strong and go hit a meeting.
Day 5 is a blessing those first few days are the worse you got this
This is literally my struggle story with fentanyl. I'm clean now and healthy. Glad to see this man made it through
Glad you did too
Wow congrats
Me too!
Keep it up Leek!
We do recover!
@@danm5776 God bless family I hope you continue being great !
@@julz7753 thank you family God bless, continue to be great . Peace & love 🙏🏽
“I became a slave to Fentanyl. And when my master called…. I answered. I didn’t care at what cost”.
Such true words about addiction. ANY addiction. Thanks Mark for a Great interview.
Yes, classic words he said. I admire his recovery ❤️🩹
Sorry but greatfull to hear his story.
"It" didn't care at what cost. If more people could separate "I" from "it", I believe the world of addiction could look very different.
@@siriush100wym
Hey Mark if you could do more interviews. With people in recovery it would be great! It will give you fan base that's struggling hope. A lot of people are "functional addicts" and this would help a lot.
It will also give hope to the loved ones of addicts.
1000% agree! we need more recovery interviews, i need it right now..
💯💯💯💯💯🔥
Agreed. My son is in rehab for Fentanyl. I have already lost my stepson 4 yrs ago to Fentanyl. If anyone is reading PLEASE PRAY FOR MY SON GENO!!! I PRAY FOR ALL AFFLICTED WITH THIS TERRIBLE LIFE SUCKING DISEASE BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN THERE TOO!!!! God Bless ❤❤❤
@@Globellepraying for Geno! 🙏🏻 Like Pretty, God has plans for his life. I am sober from opiates and have been for over 2 years now by Gods good grace. I am a completely different person today, but share my story often to hopefully show others that we can and do recover.
This is hands down one of the BEST episodes from soft white under belly. What a captivating fellow!
Captivating from start to finish. Truly inspiring.
I agree....this story really spoke to me as someone actively dealing with addiction
I thought the interviewer left the building lol😅
@@michellewilkins5304 that’s a sign of a good interviewer
@@PrimateProductionssame here& still using perc/fent. it’s hell i don’t wish on anyone …wishing to overcome this addiction & maybe one day i could tell my story on SWU🩶
Thank you for sharing your story. My daughter is addicted to Fentanyl. Your story has helped me try to understand what she feels, thinks, etc. Your and yours are in my thoughts & prayers.
🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
I hope your daughter is doing better with that addiction you mentioned
Day 2 sober getting over a Percocet addiction i been had for the last 10 years Its a Hard mental battle but Im stronger than this I love me more than this addiction. Stay strong out there God will deliver you from this addiction 🙏💯 God bless
I hope you are still killing it proud of you I went through the same shit for 10 years it's rough trying to work and make a living while living an addiction impossible to balance
Hope you still strong I’m fighting the same addiction as well
Crazy I’m from the Cape Verdean community in Brockton Massachusetts and he’s not lying. He was definitely that dude, we was younger but his name def rang around the city . Known for always being fly, having the baddies and throwing dope events. I went to his bday party he had a Kretcheu back in 07!. Shit was lit. I moved to cali a few years ago and I swear I seen dude in Melrose. Good to see he recovered.
Heartwarming.
But we don’t say Cali here. If you do say Cali, it means you aren’t really from California and that maybe you ought to consider that the East Coast might be a better fit. We also don’t say Frisco, just FYI. I wouldn’t want you to sound stupid.
@@Msfifisquarepantzlmaoooo
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@@Msfifisquarepantzyes we do lol
@@Msfifisquarepantzho shut up ik alot of ppl born and raised in california that call it cali maybe you need to get off the internet nd talk to real ppl nd get around more
He's a great dude. He was my counselor when I was out in California, he's one of the better ones for sure.
at what program?
Amazing you’re still here, you must have a mission you’re meant to accomplish for sure!
What rehab? Where did he counsel people? Probably methadone ? They’ll take anyone. I’d be scared to have someone who was so new to sobriety!
Thanks so much for sharing such a great sobriety Congratulations to you !!!!
@@norgegal You Can Learn From Anyone...please remember that
The best interviews are the ones were Mark doesn't have to say a word. Thank you for sharing Pretty. This was worded beautifully.
real, this is not an interview, this is a story
This man is a refreshing breath of air. Congrats to his recovery,he looks healthy. 🤟
This brotha was preaching. As someone who was on Fentanyl for 4 years I didn’t think I’d ever get away from that demon.. but God had another plan and it’s not done. Just left Rehab 24 days sober for me, thank you for telling the world your story. Mines is similar. Praying for yall
I'm so proud of you ❤️🙏
May God continue to bless you but can you please say a little prayer for me 😢😢💔
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@@VeeMoraless yes i can and did, im hitting 5 months on the 15th.. you can do this. I love you
@@diegotorrelio588 thank you bro. 5 months clean on the 15th!
@@gizzlemaanee7709 how are you doing?
My ex’s bother is an addict and homeless and I always thought the family was terrible for not helping him but this guy was able to explain how his family tried but ultimately an addict won’t recover until they want to do it for themselves
So true
Made me smile when he started talking about his mom having a “glow” because my mom has that same “glow”. Today marks 1,404 days clean off of meth,heroin, and fent. He ain’t wrong anyone can do it. I don’t hold any special characteristics. If I can do it anyone can.
Fuckin proud of you dude love you. I’m tryna detox from the fake percs rn. This the second time I had to quit this. Fucking torture
Big love my friend. From a Mom. Lovely to say about your mom ❤
Of course you hold special characteristics! You believe in yourself and you followed through. We all benefit from those that do.
My Dad (RIP) used to always remind me to "Take care of No. 1" (he was a very giving man). What he meant by that was...take care of yourself to stay strong, so that you can also share that abundance with others. 🥲
@@nhlibra your Dad taught you a humbling & truthful message. Putting your needs, wants and accountability isn’t selfish. It is smart, so that you can spread love (not sexual), the lessons found in humanity. Thanks for sharing.
@@skrewfaced2279 thanks so very much dude. Nothin but love here for you, you got this. I believe in you. N if it’s worth anything I was truly a full blown junkie who shot up n dealt with addiction for the better part of 16 years n getting sober was so worth it. I relapsed countless times n one piece of advice is don’t give up on yourself even if everyone else has. You fuckin got this bro for real n if this time doesn’t pan out next time will. Love ya bro n keep your head up. Everyone relapses it’s the bounce back that matter. N don’t be too hard on yourself your not alone in this fight:
When my mom passed, she had 540 percocet stashed that i found. Needless to say, i became an addict. 5 years 5 months clean.
Congratulations Roxy!
I'm so happy for you, congratulations!! 💞💞 I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your mother.
Glad to hear you are in recovery! Wishing you the best❤
Stay strong
This was a great story. Ppl always assume addicts come from broken homes poor communities. It can happen to anyone. Happy he was able to recover!!
Been watching for years, idk how I missed this one. Blessed to have seen it tonight. Favorite interview on this channel thus far. RIP to my best friend who OD’d from fentanyl in April of 2022. 💔
Standing ovation. This hands down is the best interview on TH-cam right now possibly ever
I am Cape Verdean myself I’m so proud of you👏🏾👊🏽Keep your sobriety 🙌❤️❤️💋🇨🇻🙏🏽
My story is very similar. Except I thought I was doing coke and not fent. I started getting anxious when he was talking about throwing up, because I remember that feeling, but the high was better than anything I've ever experienced, so I went back to it. What those in recovery don't tell you, out of fear it will entice you, is the pure fucking joy of that first bump. It's the most beautiful, euphoric , completely ingulfed in love feeling you'd ever experience... But... its a lie. Its temporary. Eventually you're hurting yourself and others to get that feeling back again with no avail. The main reason addicts hate being sober, is because we know nothing in this world will make us feel that immense euphoria again. Sex isn't the same being sober now. Love isnt the same sober now. It left a hole in me.
My kids are the only thing that fills it. I would never go back to drugs, but it sucks knowing I'll never feel that feeling again. I am so thankful I made it out alive.
True story....
Hey sweetheart, your story is one that definitely makes sense to me because I can relate so much. Been addicted for over two decades and the hole that the s*** leaves inside of you when it's gone is immense. However I'm working so hard every day to try to figure out how to repair that hole instead of just fill it. Take 1 minute out of your day hit my picture, check out what I do maybe it's for you maybe it's not that's up to you- but I'd love to have you be part of my family and maybe we can help one another. I'm rooting for you much love sweetheart have a great Sunday ❤️👻💯🙌🏼🙏🏼
@@brandonratcliff3065 hope you're doing okay brother it seems you can relate.... You know from experience, as do I- wishing you nothing but love and good things my friend. Keep your head up ❤️👻💯🙌🏼🙏🏼
Umno opiates juat gove pain relief and mood boost. Amd u can't cum on opiates and don't feel like u want sex
TrRUE ITS TEMPORARY
GOD IS THE OLNY THING THAT IS ETERNAL
Beautiful interview! Clean 15 years I felt every word he said. So good to see this 🥰
Proud for you! 15 years is amazing! Sending you great vibes and positive energy! Make it a great day today!
Congratulations
this is so inspiring and i resonate with so much that he said. the isolation, being a slave to it. i did Fent consistently for 3 years at least. i'm on my 5th day sober off of Fentanyl ✨❤️ i have hope.
How are you doing? I'm quitting fent as well. I been just smoking for 3 months but it's destroyed my faith in myself. May God help us 🙏
@@hangingon i'm doing well. on day 23 now ! it's been rough but i just keep reminding myself of why i'm doing this. you can do it don't give up ✨❤️ you're in my prayers
He had soo much help and support, which obviously played a huge part in his sobriety. There are so many addicts out there who have no one.
Love seeing others find recovery! I’m Clean almost 3 years & 9 months now & I relate to so much of his story, especially the pain & misery of active addiction. Thanks to recovery I have a life beyond my wildest dreams today. I appreciate you making the content you do! Perhaps it will lead to more compassion toward those struggling & allow others to see they are people too… and everyone deserves a chance to be happy ❤
🎉congrats and keep on keeping on🎉❤😊
That's amazing! Did you use a twelve step program? I have tried multiple times and multiple approaches but nothing seems to work. I did have a sponsor and counselor ... who while "helping " me, both relapsed. Any insight would be appreciated.
@@BOLLOCKS1968
If you had to do all that and still gave into your habit then your not ready! You have to hate the drugs and what their doing to you! Be the example that these young kids need! I think the hardest part is the withdrawals! I pray you get it and just stop! It’s not worth it!
Dang, as a fellow addict, this is probably one of the best, if not the best recovery story I have ever heard. I like how he spoke about his drug use, but didnt glamorize it. It's awesome to see that fellow addicts can recover and end up happy and succesful. Pretty is definitely an inspiration and I know I'll keep his story with me always as a reminder to push your ego out of the way during recovery, have hope, work hard and take it day by day. Thank you so much Pretty and Mark for the video. One of my favs for sure. ❤
I heard the man in this interview may have passed away two weeks ago due to a recent Fent relapse. Someone that lived in his APT complex in boston commented it. May we all give him our thoughts in spirit. One love - you got this.
Pretty - 2 years and 7 months clean! Congratulations. How wonderful of you to share your journey. Inspiring. 'One day..and all that', from the U.K.x
His life sounds like my cousins life. My cousin was the man. Clubs, women, cars, houses, jewelry and he sold the drugs he didn’t do them. Then one day he did and it went from percs to OxyContin to morphine mixed with glass and meth and heroin…took his older sister and my baby brother with him. His older sister died from an infection she got from a dirty needle and my baby brother overdosed the day he got home from rehab and my mother found him. My cousin is still alive. Barely. He’s borderline schizophrenic and twitches and his teeth are gone and his gums are black…all from the drugs. The person we knew seems like a memory. God bless all of you in your journey. Pls get and stay sober no matter what. So proud of all of you fighting everyday. ❤
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“My son thinks I’m cooler than spider man, that’s sobriety”.
Tears pouring down my face. God bless you!
Im just crying so hard watching this because I relate so much. I was addicted to prescription painkillers and fentanyl for a year and Im just so, so thankful for my freedom from that mental prison. Thankful to be myself again. Im so glad this man could free himself too. We do recover. ❤
I'm going to imagine that like many, it became fentanyl after the system that flooded the streets with lighter painkillers that were also easier to quit, decided to put something out there that was not so easy to quit, being oc and fentanyl. Next they pulled the Janssen patches which they knew were going to the street, and then people went to street fentanyl. Chemists from the pharmaceuticals knew how to make it.
We have the system to thank for that. Not the cartels.
Congratulations 🙏
Damn you lucky you stopped after a year the longer you on these shits the harder it is I feel stuck I know this gonna kill me im this close to loosing everything it's a miracle my girl ain't left me yet. Congrats on stayin clean G
@@RickyPacks Very true. Was easy for people to quit after a year back in the percocet/vicodin days, before oc and fentanyl came out. You could even make it through work sick without that stuff.
7 days sober after 3 years on OxyContin
To anyone involved with addiction or living around addiction. This video is what hope looks like. It IS possible. Bravo.
My ex partner of almost 16 yrs was found dead of Fentanyl OD. 4 days ago. Rip Henrietta so hard to put that.
She had spent 5 months in detention and was transferred to a rehab facility.
She was doing well and had been clean since February of this year until a girl smuggled some pills in.
She became tempted and lost her program due to using in the place.
She was facing 9 yrs in prison for assault on a health care worker at Suboxone program when she first started trying for help.
She was scared of getting a number her biggest fear she spoke on.
Former gang member and drug user since age 11 it's all she knew.
She bought 2 pills and proceeded to get high as she could after all that clean time she smoked too much and she was found soon after.
I have 8 yrs clean right when the game changed from oxys and heroin to fentanyl.
My life was worth nothing and today I custody of my 5 grandchildren and I help bring people to their journey out of addiction.
It starts by being able to admit you can't do another day of it.
I was lost 17 yrs and you can come home.... I promise it's worth it.
i’m struggling right now and really want to quit
@icepick859 That's where it starts right there where you say.I don't want this anymore and then you begin searching for what you need to help you fight.The urges solid takes is the want.
Never be ashamed if you end up on medical assistance.Matt treatment , it's okay.
I listened to the whole interview this morning at work. Made my whole day. This past March 8th i celebrated 2 year's of consecutive sobriety from ALL substances. Ive been were hes been, felt everything hes felt. And lost everything that's he has lost. His story should be a constant reminder of darkness that WILL consume you if you think this cant be you. Thankfully for me for me my active addiction came before my children were born. 3 months into my sobriety i found out i was having my first child. 3 months after my son was born we found out we were having a daughter. Theyvare and will always be the best thing thsts ever happened to me. They saved me in ways they will never comprehend. I pray every day that i never return to that hell that god pulled me out of❤️🙏
Congratulations, keep it going! 🎉
"I'm a parent but I will never understand how it is to love like a mother does"
I can see the pain in his face as he talks about certain issues,I can relate so much to his story the back and forth he speaks of is so true .I had trauma I didn’t understand I also blamed everyone I went 10 years addicted now clean for 7years,I am aware of life now I’m happy he clean and a better man. He’s an inspiration and definitely has a purpose here
True
Stay strong and only believe in yourself
Thank you 🙏
Crazy we used the same amount of time and the same amount of clean time congrats 🎉
@@derekdick7678 same to you 🙏
I was in absolute tears at the end of this episode, and I’m not even sure why it was just so powerful! I think what got me is my son thinks I’m cooler than spider-man, I can’t even type that shit without shedding a happy tear. Congrats to you brother, you are extremely inspiring and anyone who crosses your path is extremely lucky these days. Keep on living.
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Your crying bc his son thinks he's cooler than Spider-Man?? Yeah your weird your too grown for that shit 💀 hate cringey people like you. Just want some attention
I'm addicted to Oxy & fentanyl. I died in a Boston Hospital ER in 2020. All my organs started to fail, my kidneys shut down, my blood became septic, my heart stopped... I experienced my soul ascending out of my body and up to Heaven. My Guardian Angel, Susan, guided me on a path. There were colors I had never seen before, sounds I had never heard. I reached the entrance to Heaven and was met by Jesus. Complete BLISS and LOVE. Jesus understands you. All my pain disappeared. I had a thorough life review. Like standing underneath Niagara Falls and every drop of water is a data byte. I relived every moment and thought in my life. I think about my experience every day.
I’d love to interview you
Was Jesus black or white?
@ hair of wool
@@EternandaFudge. I’m asking the fellow who died
This was one of the best interviews I've watched from soft white underbelly. That 50 Cent line really had me emotional - I literally broke down. I too felt that line was for me. I've learned to "never say never". You never know how your life is going to turn out and what struggles you will be faced with. I've been through a lot in my life and see life and people so different than I did when I was in high school and university. Everyday I thank God for life and the struggles I was able to overcome.
Recovering alcoholic here. Wish me luck, this man is a huge inspiration.
I’m so glad you are in recovery pretty . My daughter died last year of fentanyl. So many others are dying daily . Please be safe .
The brother is indeed inspirational, regardless of circumstances. God bless.
@TheTimeIsNow why would you think it wouldnt?
A brilliant interview. Pretty tells the story in such detail . He’s extremely intelligent, informative and switched on. I was an ice addict until 10 yrs ago and no cravings until just recently. This is my saving grace because it’s helping remember how soul destroying my addiction was, lately I’ve put on rose coloured glasses. Pretty has helped me take them off.
Going to my cousin’s funeral today. He overdosed on fentanyl. Been watching these videos all week. Watching this one today wishing he made to tell his story.
Yes, sir! Beautiful story of overcoming!!
“If I touch one thing, I will lose everything. I don’t want to lose this peace of mind I have today. …I only have today. And then tomorrow I’ll try again with this sobriety thing. I just show up every day.”
- Pretty
I have watched 100+ of these videos and I can honestly say this is the only one that I completely understand.
Lol . Yes he is well spoken 🫡🇨🇦
the state and mark pay him well!
Wow this made me so sad. I remember I used to always see him in the club and always so full of life. And to hear that he went through this broke my heart. But I am glad to hear that he’s doing well. Keep up the good work. You’re on your way to greatness
My parents flew down to Florida from Oregon to get me help. As soon as they got to my house I wasn't their I had walked to the dope man spot with 0 dollars in my pocket. My parents randomly saw Me walking down the road. And my mom got out and walked up to me like a lost puppy and hugged me. They took me into treatment. I have had 3 relapses in the past year but luckily they only lasted one day pr two and I'm sober to this day. When your so deep into addiction. Nothing will stop it not your parents not your kids not the law. Only you will stop yourself. It takes u to hit rock bottom to turn your life around
I’m in school to become an addiction medicine counselor. It’s always amazing to see people change after finally doing some thorough self reflection and giving themselves a complete self assessment about their lives, without being in denial and and being brutally honest with themselves.
Just as he mentioned, “if you let go of one thing, you can have everything.” Powerful AF.
Great video!
Congrats that’s a good story. Had to watch after Bryson mentioned him. He has to be a special person!
Wow. ❤❤❤ My son is lost in active addiction. Meth and fentanyl, heroin … whatever he can find.
My heart is broken over my sons pain … and feels full getting to see someone is free now … free from that life. ❤🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼❤️ your story brings life … don’t ever stop sharing it.
I feel your pain. My son is addicted to fentanyl too
I really enjoyed this interview. He’s definitely an effective speaker and someone I found inspiring. I hope his testimony will change many minds and hearts.
I’m so glad Pretty comes from such a loving and forgiving family. We need to keep learning about addiction as people because it can be easy to want to either enable a person or push them away entirely with no in between. I have a 62 year old uncle who has been an addict since before I was born, and I think the only way he’s still alive is from being in and out of jail since age 16.
I pray Pretty remains sober each and every day.
Beautiful testimony . Thank you I will pick up the phone & call a detox today.
As a recovering opiate addict myself I can relate to a lot of this guys story. Fairly successful as a financial advisor with money to support my addiction and being alright with the fact that I was an addict and functioning in life and traveling…to eventually losing everything and winding up all alone with nothing but my opiates as my only friend. I never want to go back to that loneliness ever again
Congrats on your sobriety 🎉🙏💞 I'm trying to get off of pain pills Hydrocodone has a hold on me I pray I can stop this.🙏
Beautiful interview. I sent this to my sister to watch because of the addiction issues her sons dealing with.
Man this was incredible. Feels like you lived my life story. Not the same substances but the path into addiction was identical. Some of the phrasing here hit me in my soul. You should write a book!
I’m on Oxycodone I can’t walk without it. I mean, I can’t even walk in my house without it. But I do take breaks every six months. I take a few weeks off of it. I’m actually disabled. I’m glad you’re clean. I’m proud of you. ❣️🙏🏻
YUP!…I literally can’t walk bc of Kaiser and pain they left me with bc of my spine/leg. Sucks that we are looked at sideways when we goto Walgreens or what not…I HATE waking up wondering if the pain is gonna hit me like a wrecking ball when I try to stand up. Have a TBI from a fall thx to said bad leg. My head THROBS like nothing I’ve felt. To hear the “street verbiage” for the meds many ppl rely on makes me ill. The lying about back pain is why US TRULY IN PAIN can’t get help nowadays! Makes me sick. He was honest tho. Hope he says the lane I also hope ppl stop bsing Dr’s…
@@sweetteagrits3822 The docs BS too. Some overprescribe too. It’s profitable for them. Once the person becomes addicted, that’s a long term customer.
@@sweetteagrits3822amen
@@SickandTired95That's so true 😢
This man is a beautiful storyteller. So beautiful to the point that he sounds poetic. Thank god he’s alive to share his triumphant story. Thank you. ❤
I gravitated towards watching this video because pretty reminded me of my baby brother.
He is currently struggling with addiction to heroin & meth. Thank you for bringing me a bit of hope with watching this video.
I know you don't do this channel for the accolades but you deserve all sorts of respect for the kind human being you are in investigating the human experience. The idea of searching out the social element of the world is amazing. I am particularly intrigued with your kindness with the Whittakers and the last video I watched of you with Zion. His case is just so, so sad and I am so happy that you offered him a chance to get into a recovery and I hope that he is successful with your offer. Your interview with Tasha was really interesting. I have children her age and just can't imagine my children having to live the life that she leads and yet she is always worried about her children in all that she does. I must say that every single one of your interviews are very thought provoking. Kudos to you Mark, you are doing wonderful things with your channel in bringing to light the societal issues that face many people. When we live in our calm and clean and peaceful and safe lives, we just cannot understand what some parts of our society have to endure in this life. Thank you for what you do.
Your comment is so beautiful❤
@@kellyholland8136 thank you and I mean every word of it.
Wow. I’m so incredibly proud of you ! 2 years & 7 months. That’s fantastic 💙,,,I was glued to your story. My heart was sinking as your story became further in to fentanyl addiction, then the rise of hope as you entered detox & the explosion of joy when you finally made it out of that hell. Im saving your video, along with another soft white underbelly video of a lady who started with smoking weed, then cocaine, then Crystal meth, heroin & finally deep in fentanyl addiction, homeless, wasted, no teeth etc, to show both to my granddaughter, at a suitable age, before she comes across drugs (she’s presently only 6), as drugs are the scourge of society, & I’m terrified when she’s older, she says yes & not no. I pray you continue in your sobriety & in helping others 🙏 & live your best life. Thank-you so much for your story. All my love from the UK xx
I related to soooo much of your story. I’m 4 years clean from fentanyl. And man do I remember… I remember being at deaths door, I remember trying to keep up with that “act” the lies..Man
All glory to the most high.❤
Recovery is possible
Keep your head up God has a beautiful plan for your life.
hearing how he questioned his morals when he first felt the fent, that hits home. that first time i got that high from a fake perc, i was searching endlessly for it but never can scratch that itch. lost my bsf bc he was coming off them and tried to get high off methadone. those blues are also my reason for calling myself an addict. this video hits home. i've never heard someone else finding out they also were so negatively changed by fent. it changed everything; how i think is even different. don't ever try them if you can.
im 3 weeks clean from the blues. i was using abt 20 a week, and was not getting high off them at all. i would use them to get rid of the withdrawal symptoms, the cold sweats, the nausea. i thought to myself these can't have fent in them bc i'm not getting high. i was just using to relieve myself. went to the er for mental health reasons and tested positive for fent. don't think it won't be in those fake pills even if they don't get you as high or are a different kind. you will cross fent if you touch fake pills. good luck to anyone struggling rn ❤
@kai-gb4cf i do not know you, i sure hope you are still clean going strong!!! How are you doing today?? ❤ i have a fanily member and honestly they dont want help so you keep pushing!!
@@sidniesantos8485 hey stranger! thank you for your kind words, it means a lot to me. i'm doing slightly better but now have been clean for over 3 months :) it took a lot in me to mentally get to the point where i had no desire to touch blues/fent again. the anger and grief is much stronger than the urge to get so high i can't feel it anymore, it's reassuring. those withdrawals are hell sent so it also makes it easier to stay away from. i started medication thats helped me overall and with the addiction, as my mental health deteriorated as my addiction grew. im starting from square one again and it's nice. give your family member time and always remind them they have support if they need it. maybe give them resources if they ask, but don't get too pushy. they have to want it for themselves for it to work out. sending my love, and thank you again ❤️❤️
This is absolutely beautiful and eloquently worded by a powerful man. I feel thankful to have heard his story and virtually meet him. We hit rock bottom at a similar time. Fentanyl was also my DOC. I am now a full time Psychology student with a completely different outlook on life. I hope to be able to offer the help that I was once saved by. Recovery is possible. Thanks as always, Mark.
Thanks bro im glad i finished this video i feel alot stronger an better about my sobriety after listening to you.
Keep on Truckin'.
@@charissemodeste6489 That’s right. Keep them cylinders pushing thanks 🙏
one addict talking to another...the only thing that can possibly keep us clean...powerful story
👍🏼👍🏼 truth - game knows game & you can’t BS a fellow addict.
This is the most profound and beautiful interview ever. Im so grateful to both of you for putting this out there. Pretty - your strength and courage are phenomenal. I'd give anything for you to be my son's mentor. We're deep in Georgia in a tiny town that's insanely conservative and judgemental and he cant find anyone he connects with. Like you, he's a beautiful, kind, rare, true soul who needs someone he can relate to. I'm sharing this with him to give him the hope he so badly needs. Thank you again for the gift of your experience and words. ❤
Great video, day 7 clean . after using perc 30s & eventually fent. For over a year everyday morning and night.. im glad im stopping myself now before it got worse .. had to withdrawl which felt like hell.. but today i actually went to sleep and woke up feeling normal .. thank god i have support from my family.. dont give up yall it can be done once u put your mind to it 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾💯🙌🏾
How u doin g
Congrats 👏 please stay strong 🙏❤️
Mark , Best interview yet because being a percocet addict then graduated to the blue birds ( Percocet 30s) it's a slippery never did phentynl but alcohol and gabapentins are a great chaser ...also soboxone was my substitute for 10 years then rehab with the grace of God I'm 30 months clean.......Pretty in so glad your doing so good .....Stay in the fight young gun.......God Bless
Wow Mark please do more of the recovery stories!!!! 🙏🏾
I bet there aren't many of them compared to those still in active addiction
I concur 🙏
As a recovering addict from north of Boston truly inspirational story. So much rings true. Keep up the good work Mark. Love is real!
This man had the message I needed this morning. Felt so much of this. He has an incredible command with his story.
@jimbofischaRight...
@jimbofischa never let the truth get in the way of a good story
@jimbofischa So your are accusing Mark of paying people to do this? If you are why TF are you actually here watching the channel ?
@jimbofischa You are 100% right bro Mark works for the CIA and a lot of his guests are state actors, here in Canada we have what is called csis our cia, they run all our drugs and gang and they are allllllllll junkies. I used to hang with them do and sell drugs! I also have worked in the Hollywood film industry here in Canada and i will tell u they hire lots and lots of actors for example Dan Dick from press for truth. If u can still find Steven okeefes operation catalyst video they are the best online worldwide about these people and state actor/ drug dealers. I am sure if u know anything about Canada they just took our handguns away like they did in nazi germany and alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll the shootings are CSIS/RCMP agents, they have killed like 7 friends of mine alone!
@@gailgarcia8782 yes he pays them cause he works for the state, I have asked Mark like 50 times to come to Canada to interview me or let me interview him about how he travels freely lol lol never would he respond when he found out who I am lol U want to know about drugs, gangster, killer cop and csis here in Canada? come visit me for a week. but I will tell u they will stop u at the border on ur way home and will take u in for more than questioning lol u don't get out much do u kid? Stupid is the virus! I will tell u thi nk the real Hell angel here I know them they would never let Mark interview them, we also have many csis bike gangs that claim to be the likes of HA lol
Very well spoken guy. Great interview. I liked the part when he talked about how we “negotiate” with ourselves and how we justify our addiction and why we do the things we do in active addiction. Our self talk definitely changes. I was a jobless, homeless, hopeless addict living a criminal life in Las Vegas. I’m now a nurse helping others living a beautiful life of recovery in California. I am 5 years, 17 days clean today. I don’t like to think about the life I used to live but it’s essential to my recovery I remember where I come from🙏🙏🙏
Im 58 days sober and i relate heavy with dudes story. I was a functioning addict. I did my detox , residential and now im in sober living. For all the addicts and alcoholics out there you can do it. Ask for help. Dont be a shamed. You can have a better life. You deserve a sober free life.
Thats amazing man congratulations keep going everyday i know i don’t know me but im proud of you man . Im currently going through real bad addiction… i get the worse seizers when i try to detox it scares the shit out of me 😔 i need help…
@@alexmartinesz602Hello friend how are you doing? I also get seizures I take medication for it twice a day I've hurt myself in so many ways because of my disability.I take hydrocodone pain pills and Xanax I've tried to stop cold turkey but I also have seizures that put me in the hospital due to an injury.😔 I'm praying for you please be safe we can do this ❤🙏
Listening to this made me realize : yes YOU need to make the decision to want better but it really take someone helping you the way YOU need to be helped … that’s why he went through so many people until he came across the person talking how he understood. Bless him and people who take on the feat of helping people like him 🙏🏽
His success and happiness has made my day. I'm smiling from ear to ear. I won't lie, I did shed a few tears of joy. Iv never felt this type of joy before. Best of luck to you.
You lie and over exaggerating
Lmao get a life 💀🤡
I applaud his honesty.
I agree except the part where he couldn't accept accountability for being an addict. "I don't know who's fault it was."
As a PALOP Brother from Mozambique 🇲🇿. Thank you for your Story
probably the best interview i have ever seen on this topic. I got clean in July of 2024. the hardest thing i have ever done.
This was so gripping. You better go boy! Keep doing what you’re doing because you can see how happy you truly are. Congratulations 🎉
Mad respect. You can tell he’s so fulfilled in life, this makes me SO happy to see.
This hurts my heart because I had to break up with my bf last yr because of this. He just became unbearable to deal with. He's still fentanyl and heroin. Don't think he'll ever stop, but I will forever mourn the good moments.
almost 2 months clean from fent i’m so happy with what life is becoming
“I did the wrong things, the right way” . Thank you for this
I hope Boston's Cape Verdean community is watching this. I know they will support him in his recovery.
Knew he was cv from the thumbnail was waiting for him to say he was from the Boston area in the first few seconds of the video and I was right watched the whole interview in one sit down with goosebumps
@@jgrizz5623 Is the country that speaks Portuguese?
Brought a big smile on my face when he said he was now sober for 2 years!!!!! Keep going Pretty!!! I wish you all the best brother 🙏🏽
Pretti has turned his SOBRIETY into his HUSSLE! I think that’s why he will stay sober. He’s learned that there is power in truth when it comes to really helping others. He has the talk down, and I pray he keeps the walk and stays humble. When we think we are smarter than our DOC, we fail. We fall. He has a life story that addicts understand.
Great insight, I hope he sees your comments
🙌🏼 You get it! There is no greater service in helping others because the secret in the sauce is that it actually helps yourself when you help others ❤️ hope you have a great day my friends ❤️👻🙏🏼
@@kathyyoungberg1578 it comes from experience. I’m 54 now, and have walked the walk for many years now. Nobody would guess what I’ve lived through. Addiction knows no boundaries. I love this channel because it starts conversations between strangers, but we unite and there is strength in knowing we aren’t alone. Have a blessed Sunday.
@HTP So true! It’s like the saying goes,”whether you think you CAN, or think you CANNOT, you are RIGHT!” The mind is so powerful, and what works for one person might not work for the next, but addicts that stay on the right side of the dirt seem to all have something that clicked in them, and when they tell their stories, certain things sound very similar. I’m thankful I’m on the right side of the dirt, and I hope each of us that comes to SWU will learn or share something that helps a fellow human. That makes life worth living. Hope. Love. Courage. Honesty. Sharing our struggles. Have a blessed Sunday.
@@DetroitFettyghost Man, that is so true. It’s motive that matters a lot of times,too. If we serve others with no other reason than to share and make a better place for a fellow human, addict or not, that love grows. We don’t see how the ripple of one small deed or act, while done in love, will hit every shore. I know that sounds so cliche, but I believe it, and because I’m still standing. Thanks for having a conversation with me. Have a blessed day ☺️
This is the most inspiring interview on SWU. Thank you Pretty. I've watched it 6 times. It hits home. Much love ❤️
Got almost 6 years clean. I couldn’t imagine when I was in it living without it now that I’m over it I can’t imagine my life again with it. It’s hard to see the light when things are bad but after the fight life is so much better.
Today is my 1st day of not taking perc 30s in 12yrs
Congratulations on making day 1 towards the rest of your life.
This dude is the only person I’ve seen explain it so good and relatable like I basically have the same story
Lol same
Note to self; do not listen to this story during work! 😭❤️
I love him! I need a Pretty in my life. I’m not an addict but the strength he has to change his mindset is inspiring. He’s more than pretty, he is beautiful.
Loved this interview. Word for word explained was what I went through myself. 2 years and 5 months sober now and I understand the peace of mind he has mentioned. I’ve earned everything I once lost (not the material stuff) but the trust of my parents, family, and friends and my self worth. I finally feel like I am valuable again after having had lost that to fentanyl. I feel proud of myself again. I’m no longer embarrassed of who i was and what I did to myself and those around me. And like he has said, if I was able to do it, anyone reading this can do it as well. The light is bright at the end of the dark tunnel. 🙏🏻
I’m not an addict but I love one and he’s watched this and I pray he keeps seeing things like this
Great story.
Articulate, charismatic man that is making a difference.
'If you've never been a mess....
you have no message'.
Brilliant.
Continue to bless and be blessed. 😇💙🙏
Your handsome face looks to me like you could be the love of my life, but our stories of addiction are SO eerily similar.. down to minute details you would be taken aback to see line up in parallel precision . Sadly, if we had met at our peak active addiction, we would have drowned each other in co-dependency and warped blinded love struck lust enabling actions
Thank you for sharing your story... you are impacting me for sure, Maybe I'll see you next Lifetime... or the Flip Side ..be strong Pretty...One day at a time ❤️
So powerful, this made my day. I’m incredibly proud to be sober & it’s stories like these that remind me why it’s all worth it. So much love to you Pretty, keep coming back. ❤
Awesome interview,I'm 2 years clean off fyentenol and depression meds..for any one in the life,stay strong put God first and close that chapter an open a new one with out all those bad people that where with u on your bad road..the light will shine in your dark tunnel with God by your side..#staystrong
Please pray for me because I truly need it. My doctor has me on painkillers (Hydrocodone) due to my arthritis and other health problems I have. I'm tired of spending money on pills when I run out of my pills. This may sound like a damn excuse but It's so hard for me because my mom is also on painkillers...Idk🤦♀️ 😢😢😢If you can just say a prayer for me 🙏
I saved this last yr and i still come to watch to keep me motivated and keep going
Don't give up.
I am so thankful and feel blessed and honored to have heard him . Cause I have felt the exact same way as I have struggled with delaing with my addictions. Moving from one substance to the next . At the point where I have been I don't take photographs of myself because I keep struggling but i am actively taking part in my recovery
Thank you, Pretty and Mark. What a fascinating and empowering message. The best part of the video, the smile that comes over your face when you speak of your sobriety. Congratulations. You are a brilliant story teller.