This is for everyone watching this: I love you and I hope everybody is doing fine. Even if you feel lonely, depressed or scared you gotta stay strong and don't forget that there will always be a little hope in everything
let me tell you something, it wont get better it gets worse day by day, ive come to a point where i just want to die in my sleep and accept death if it is right in front of my face
I'd go back to me as a child to actually focus on my studies and not disappointing the shit outta everybody,, but at the same time I don't want to go back to childhood traumas. I just wanna die yknow
I never thought of this as a symptom of depression. I just beat myself over it because I tend to be more mentally tired during school. It's so hard to focus now. I don't know what happened. I use to be the gifted kid.
I feel like I have the biggest pair of rose tinted glasses on that have on Lenses that keep falling pit and each time it does it just shatters till I glue it together I used to get little flicks and small looks or sighs to let me know I said something wrong near my mom it hurt a little I thought that was just like a spanking like just disabling but I told a friend sry a bunch of friends and only two thought it was normal and I panicked each time they looked at me with that look like I was some broken child it broke those glasses till I repaired them I cried a lot the last few years so much holding back tears behind those glasses that I never feel them slip out of my eye till they hit my shirt neck or cheek I’m fine … oh another tear….
Lifeless as always and i find no joy in living + no motivation to do anyting i just keep smiling and move on with my day Cool playlist (if your worried iw been lifeless without any emotions since iw been 8 or 9 shorty im turning 18 we will see what my future will look)
never has truer words been spoken before, i trusted people and got betrayed, i loved people and once again got betrayed and the moment i started being real i was hated for it. is there a single thing in this world that doesnt get you betrayed and hated?
@@jaysonpicard-gravel5808 nah we were put on earth to suffer, i honestly feel like i just exist i wanna die but im too scared to kill myself so i lay in bed and rot because its the closest thing to death besides sleep
"you are just lazy" "you're lying" "you haven't had anything yesterday" "just be normal" "you have everything so silent" "you got it from your phone" "what other people would pay for what you have" "be sociable" "you just say that to make you interesting" "you just want attention" "you just don't want to go to school" Thank you to my great parents for such great support.
To any kids here, I am older now but as a teenager this feeling felt suffocating and never ending. Don’t follow through with any dark thoughts, keep pushing towards the positive ones and I swear I come back to this feeling of depression and I feel a little lighter stronger and safer as I get control❤ I’m sorry we’re all here
Yeah pretty much- it sucks too :/ aren't we teenagers? I thought this was supposed to be the best years of our lives. Yet here we are, in a pit that will probably be the death of most of us.
Yeah, it's hard to live up to our parents expectations. They want us to grow up but when we do they tell us we can't make decisions because we're kids. I really don't get it
Im just 13 and pretending to be fine. My friends knows that but still they’re trying to cheer me up but im not feeling like it. I felt like it’s just me here who dont wanna live anymore. I felt sorry for them but i just dont wanna breathe anylonger
Im happy for you @gabs6201 and try to not feel like those two years ago right now your happy and free You free now i love you bro (no homo tho) take care - YourUnknowedStranger.
This hits so much harder when you sitting in school and you check your grades to see that you failing in multiple classes after being the "gifted kid" all your life Edit: Hey so I saw a lot of replys relating which makes sense so if any of you need to vent you are welcome too! Just I hope you all know that your grades shouldn't determine how you or your family treats you. Also your grades should not determine if you do certain things you need to do for human surival like eating, sleeping, ect. Just know that atleast one person in the world cares about you and if tour still alive, happy, or whatever. It may be a family member, a friend, or even a person on the internet just know that someone cares about you. (Sorry if that was kinda cringe I just want you all to know that you matter)
Nothing hurts more when you're crying at night without making a noise and losing your breath with those silent screams of hurt. (PS thank u for ur lovely comments under my songs, means a lot 🖤)
I miss my girlfriend, she passed away last month due to covid, I just want to hug her one more time, say how much I love her, and reasure her that everything will be ok so she can go in peace I just can't believe this happened, after years of relationship, since we were teenagers, almost half of our lives together, and I couldn't even say goodbye We were so close to get married too
Just a reminder to people: traumacore isn’t an aesthetic, it’s a coping mechanism Edit: not trying to ‘gatekeep’ in anyway, just wanted to put this out there so people don’t treat it like a style e.g goth, cottagecore, Lolita etc Edit 2: ur all missing my point lmao. Traumacore is a creative coping mechanism, where you can create playlists or audio or images or literally anything. I understand there’s creativity and a sort of beauty in it but again, it’s not an aesthetic.
I don’t want to die I just want to go into an alternate reality where everything is perfect All people are nice All food tastes good All days are weekends Everyone is friends Everyone is happy Everyone is kind Nothing is wrong…
There is no such thing as a perfect world... that is why I must erase it... *play Chosen By The Planet* Walks away in a wall of flames "COME BACK YOU FIEND! COME AND FIGHT!"
@@ajarofworms7 If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going forward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people that tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet if you can afford a therapist too because I worry about you "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" by the way do not be shy to call for help...
@@leorichard7955 ok, but the thing is, I said in the very first line I don’t want to die- Bc if I die my friends and family will be sad Also living is kinda, cool
when i was a kid all i thought was "oh i cant wait to grow up!!" "i cant wait to be a teenager!" oh boy how was a wrong..all i do these day is stay up until 6 in the morning and wake u at 4pm and never leaving my room..9 and its been like this for almost 2 -3 years now and my mom is always saying to come out of my room, and she'll come to me asking if i need therapy but i just dont like talking to people and not seeing someone for about 1 year the social anxiety has gotten even worse.. and then there is my sisters who "joke' around and say stuff like "OMG PLS BAHAHA SHE ACTS DEPRESSED IT HONESTLY EMMBERESING" do you know how much that hurts to hear from your sisters? honestly sometimes i actually do think about leaving the earth but then again i dont want to die yk? i just want to be somewhere where i dont have to care or think about anything no stress, no parents yelling at me, no school, no nothing in general somewhere where i can just sit and read without anything to care about in the world...
You alright? But listen here.. sometimes talking to strangers about how you feel are better then talking with a therapist nothing too personal just talk about how you feel and they’ll understand you so well! That it feels like a dream knowing a stranger knows you and understands you more well then your own parents!
i’ve seen everyone sharing stories. so i thought i would too. i can’t really remember a lot of stuff from when i was younger, i can only remember my parents always fighting when i was 3 and seeing my dad leave because of my mom. but i didn’t think much of anything until 2nd grade, bullying and growing up made me put me in a different mind. and i realized the trauma from when i was 3 was very wrong for such a young age. i used to dream of it and think about it a lot and i got scared of loud screaming for a long time, especially when people yelled at me. and my mom got worse throughout the years, yelling at me for no reason and always finding something to yell and hit at me for. and always making my mentality worse. “why can you be like her?” “stop eating” “you’re too young to feel like this” “i wasn’t like you” “things were different back then, there are kids who don’t have anything so stop crying” *always blaming me for everything* *always manipulating me* *always taking her anger out on me whenever she’s in a bad mood* i was diagnosed with depression and anxiety in middle school. i always thought of killing myself, and doing stuff but always backing out. pulling knives on my neck or holding pills in my hand. my first suicide attempt was when i was in 7th grade, i took half of a bottle of pain pills and a few of my own pills. i was listening to music and messaged my mom “i love you” even if she didn’t love me. she even admitted it one time too. i ended up at the hospital and they took me to a mental hospital and i was there for 6 days, lying when they asked me on how i was feeling. someone told me that if we tell them the wrong things or act a certain way they make us stay longer and i didn’t want to so i lied. i never told anyone how i felt. i smiled telling the doctor and nurses “i’m fine.” after, my mom didn’t talk to me about it. she acted like nothing ever happened. now im in 10th and i still have thoughts about kms, i recently found out that my mom was on birth control pills while doing the deed with my dad so i am indeed a mistake. my mom didn’t want to have another child, im just a burden to her. before i found out about it i tried opening up to my mom after i had a panic attack at school. she told me “i don’t care about your problems” and she was being a hypocrite, saying “do you wanna get thrown out on the streets?” and then she starts talking about taking her cat to the vet. my sister said “just throw the cat out of the house” “why would i do that? that’s so heartless!” oh. wow. so i had a mental breakdown when i got home and she left. i let it all out, screaming and crying and my closer sister comforted me while i felt like i was struggling to breathe and my mind was all clouded. crying out “she doesn’t care, she never did” “why am i alive” “please kill me.” my sister stayed with me, and now i trust her even though i have trust issues. i got into a fight with my oldest sister recently because she was talking about me to me so i did too. she starting hitting me while we were in the car and my mom defended her so i started screaming at them calling them names and telling them how they act. i didn’t even try to hit them while they tried hitting me because my sister is pregnant. i tried stopping them from hitting me and they did eventually but when i got home i got in trouble because my mom and my oldest sister said i was trying to hit her belly where her baby is. i didn’t get anywhere near her stomach so i just stood quiet and went to my room. i’ve learned to control my emotions and i just got out of hand so i calmed myself trying not to get mad. my brother came and got mad at me and tried hitting at me and i got out of control and started yelling at him so everyone came in my room blaming me for everything saying “you started this” but anyways here i am now just a few days after getting my phone back and going permanently virtual. this is probably too long and im probably gonna get trashed for this but🤷♀️
I hear you... i read the whole thing. you've been treated so wrong in your life. I'm really sorry. Words are failing me in this situation honestly. Do you have anyone else to talk to? Like a friend or counselor, or pastor... it may be good to get an outsider to help you. I've been through some similar experiences... too many to get into here. When I was at my lowest and nobody cared about me, Jesus cared. He showed me that he forgave me... he gave his life for my sins. He answered prayers in miraculous, impossible ways. He's been there with me as a friend and Savior, in the darkest nights of my life. I know he cares so much about you... I'm here to tell you. He loves you personally. He wants to rescue you. ❤
Every generations been like this, the thing about the internet is that it makes everything visible the world hasn't gotten any more racist, but we know more about it, same thing here.
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating something, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! _________________________________________________ -Not mine, but pass it around!
do you ever just wonder why bad luck seems to always find you? why they always leave, despite saying they'd always stay? i thought they understood me. but then they accused me of something i would never do, due to experiencing it myself. i loved them so much, and i hate that i still do. they never even once loved me the same.
@@harpermerritt13 Pro tip: don't EVER interact with strangers in Discord, people there are sad people at the very least, irredemable degerates at the worst
@@jbenji2739 ik I’m late and you might be ok now but I just wanted to tell you that there are a lot of people who love you and most importantly, God loves you( idk if you believe in God or not but I do).
I listen to this playlist for I think over a year now. i remember when I cried to this because I felt so bad. It was one of the worst times in my life, but I'm in a bit better place now mentally. I just wanted to say that this playlist still comforts me, and to this day, it still helps me with sleeping in. Ik it sounds weird, but it feels like a hug when no one can see what's happening inside of you. I love it. Thank you so much. You don't know how glad I am to discovered this playlist.
y'all know that feeling when you're crying and, at a random point, you just go find yourself a mirror then start doing weird faces to laugh at, later realizing how miserable your life is, or is it just me??
At one point, idk when, but my tears just stopped and now i just lock myself in my room and laugh pathetically at my misery because no one except a bunch of strangers online get it
You can sleep, but your tired. Your alive, but your sick. Your healthy, but you hurt. Your alive, but not living. Your wishing you were knew why. You wish. Wished.
If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going forward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people that tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet if you can afford a therapist too because I worry about you "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" by the way do not be shy to call for help..
it's funny how people nowdays forget that Dazai Osamu was an actual person before being turned into an anime character. he wrote a classic very praised novel called No Longer Human, and since it was his last work before drowning himself it's basically a really long suicide note
You ever just look back at how close you and your old friend group were and how much fun you guys had.... . . Then you remember how they turned there backs on you when you were at your lowest :(
When I was 10 right before school ended for the year I was so excited to be in middle school and finally have a bit more responsibility, little did I know that a few weeks later I'd have to take on most of the responsibility and deal with unrecognized trauma till 7th grade where I slowly lost the will to live plus all the high expectations everyone put on me since I'm the oldest and smartest amoung my cousins. Thank you for listening to me vent a bit :>
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There are a lot of people in the comment section who are in... not good places mentally. For all of you, I swear it can get better, I'm someone who got through it: after years of getting worse (up to self punishments and attempts of ending it all) even with the "help" of various psychologists, I got a diagnosis for anxiety and depression and finally found the help I actually needed. It was scary at first, feeling... sad, like I had given up, the worthlessness, they were better than the numbness of feeling almost nothing at all: it was like the void left by their absence was too big to be filled by anything else. Eventually, though, with therapy (one of my assignments was to participate in group projects, then I met a few times a therapist) and the few friends that sticked around even when I started spiraling, eventually it was enough. I won't say the Sun seemed to shine brighter and the grass was greener, it doesn't work like that: instead, it felt like I finally wasn't being carried around, dragged by the current, or that my feet moved mindlessly on their own, but instead I was the one walking, I was the one speaking, not just a voicebox, I found myself wanting to do something with myself for the first time in a long while. I found myself crying easily, instead of not having any more tears to spare, and even the laughter sounded more genuine to my friends. It's okay to be depressed, it's okay to fall and it's okay to rest for a while. It's okay to feel worthless, it's okay to just not want to be there. It's fundamental to understand, though, that nothing stays still, even if it appears to be so: we are always changing, for better or worse, and it's beautiful, as it allows us all to find new paths, wherever they might take us. I'm not trying to "cure your depression" here, I know it doesn't work like that, I just wish that, if you read this far, you could find something to hold on to, someone to confide in, and allow those who care about you to help. Because one of the things I learned through this and even later looking back, is that even if I felt alone, it was actually a wall I ended up building myself after getting hurt one too many times and I had made it too high. I'm 22 now, the scars I have on my arms are white, almost invisible, against the light tan and I have a new diagnosis in a folder, ADHD with a sprinkle of autism and I can't help myself sometimes and I think that, had I known it earlier, it would have saved me a lot of issues. All in all, I can finally say that I'm alright. Not the happiest person in the world, sure, but it's enough. I'm enough. You are enough. If you can't talk, then write, draw, play an instrument, sing: I don't even mean about you and your experience, it can be about anything. Just let it out.
@Filip Sobczak nobody is useless, we all have something to do in life. you are someone's important person without you realizing it. even if i don't know you at all, i genuinely care about you as well.
"Ik your smart enough to do better " "Your just confused " "This is a phase " "You only care about your feelings you never think about mine " "It's not the name I gave you at birth so I'm not calling you it" "I'm tried of walking on egg shells around you " "I expect you but I don't support your decisions " I just wanna be good enough, I wanna be her son .
I feel like I’m not good enough for her either, i love her but I can’t be the daughter she’s always wanted her whole life. Because I’m not a girl and I don’t want to hurt her by saying that.
I didn't see anyone do time stamps so i will :> 0:01- YKWIM? - Yot Club 3:32 - Hey Kids - Molina 7:26 - Chamber Of Reflection - Mac DeMarco 11:18 - Fly Out West - Yot Club 14:12 - Surf Curse - Freaks 16:54 - Landlord - Yot Club 19:30 - Oh Klahoma - Jack Stauber 22:36 - Still Life - Sitcom 25:58 - Can I Call You Tonight? - Dayglow 30:33 - I Can't Handle Change - ROAR 34:41 - Devil town - Cavetown 38:01 - is New Flesh - Current Joys 45:01 - Somebody i used to know - Gotye
It really hurts when you’re giving hints left and right that you’re depressed or when you’re not comfortable but some strange reason no one ever notices
I hope both sides of your pillow are nice and cold. Your cereal will never get soggy and stay crunchy. You will never stub your toe. And you'll have a nice life.
“You’re not depressed” “You’re not stressed” “You’re fine” “You’re not suicidal” “You’re cutting for attention” “Why are your grades slipping” “It’s a phase” “You’re to young for all of this” “That stuff you watch is messing with your brain” “Why are you so weird” “Why are you always in your room” “Why did you let your self go” “It’s that damn phone that makes you like this” “Just be happy” “Be normal” “Wear more girly stuff” “You’re making this gender stuff up” I wish parents would just shut up and stop being judgmental.
you are valid. your feelings are valid. dont let those assholes tell you otherwise. if only they knew what you were actually feeling, i am so sorry that you have to go throigh that. at the end of the day, yolo. you only live once, so fuck it. don't listen to them, you're so much more than them :) also youre NEVER to young to feel. feelings happen for all ages, im sorry you have to go through that. i am going through a similar situation right now and i am only 11, it sucks. it really does, but i believe in you. i truly do love you, and wish you all the best! good luck on your journey, remember your mindset is key. if you genuinely want to get better, fake it till you make it. change your mindset to _day one_ instead of _one day_ ! i love you, and you are so fucking valid. i hope you know that youre very loved and don't need to SH, i know it is so addicting but truly, hurting yourself is never the answer. it is A answer but it isn't THE answer. good luck, and wish you the best.
It’s been 2 years now, time moves on fast doesn’t it? This playlist got me through so many things, this playlist is one of the few reasons I’m alive. And for that, I am grateful internally it always helped me de-realize and think of alternate dimensions where I can be happy and that’s my goal. Life comes through with many obstacles, it may seem quite literally impossible to get through some. But just know that no matter what if you’re willing to try, if you can reach out, just know there will always be people who’ll be there to have your back. I completely know that not a lot of people may revisit this video after a few more years but to those who do and come across this comment I hope you’re having a wonderful life. I’ll be more than happy to give advice and reach out, but that’s only if you’ll try
“Your to young to understand” “Cause of that phone” “Your depressed” “I can’t trust you” “Your lying” “Stop saying your sorry it’s annoying” “Be social” “It’s not hard to make friends” “Be more like her” “Your just lazy” “Self centered” “Jealous” “Your so thin” “Eat more” “Stop saying your fine I hate that response” “You have to be apart of things” “Stop crying” Sorry but crying is my nature I’ve been crying all my life I do it when you ask me if I’m ok That makes me cry more Cause I know I’m not ok Holding my tears in But questions like that It makes me cry out the tears I was trying so hard to hold in my eyes Trying to make my face less red Trying not to talk cause If I open my mouth I’ll start to cry I can’t think of words when I’m crying There’s to much to say And I can never think of how to start I have always been this way Crying What I’m good at
Kid me: I wanna be older now Me now: can I be a kid again.. no? Okay.. My mind in school: don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail My mind at home: why are my parents screaming at me I did nothing.. My mind with friends: what if they are fake friends I just wanna vent to them I try they never listen to me they only vent to me why can’t I never vent My mind with my crush: I love them just stop being scared just tell them you love them.. oh they moved away I never got to tell them…. My mind: GO JUMP OFF I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN SCHOOL IS THE ONLY FUN PLACE IM A CRYBABY BITCH I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE IS STARING AT ME
be strong. look at those who are hurting you, and laugh. the second you love someone, just see if they don't despise you, then become friends. tell your parents to give you space, or to leave you alone. just listen to your friends, then slowly release small stories about yourself, venting that way. be strong, get better, rest, eat, drink, hug a stranger, anything... for those who secretly love you.
"youre to young to be this sad" "youre not depressed, you just arent happy right now" "you've gained a lot of weight.." "sorry.. you just arent as close with me as i am with her" i get it. you dont care, you just pretend you do.. lolz.
*gives virtual hugs to everyone struggling because I know what it's like and want everyone to know that it's not their fault and that they're a wonderful person :3* (IDK HOW TO COMFORT I'M SO SORRY IF THIS SOUNDS CHEESY)
sometimes i feel like crying...but then i can't...and just put On some music, blend everything out and listen to my heart-beat, Hoping it will stop and i just fall asleep…~Carrier pigeon
I’m to young to know all this pain... but at the same time I feel bad because people have it much worse then me. I can’t feel anything without feeling guilty
your feelings are valid, don't invalidate them. Everyone has their own problems aaaaaand, that's okay, I just wanna let you know your valid, you shouldnt lesser your problems because you know people have worse problems, like I said you are valid and so are your problems, stay safe
aw same, i have a nearly perfect life actually and always feel bad whenever i'm sad bc i literally don't have a reason to,,, but yeah the person above me has said it all already, though i wanna tell you one more time that it's okay to feel emotions bc we're humans after all our emotions don't always have to make sense, hearts do be stupid compared to our brains (but they still need each other to exist) xd off-topic but i really like your diluc pfp 👉👈
It's okay, it is not as if anyone's life is easy, just cuz some people suffer more than others it doesn't need to make you feel guilty, because in a way or other bad things happen and feeling sad for it is just emotions, and, if it grows into something bigger than an emotion, that's okay too, just reaching out for help or comfort is the first step to take for yourself, stay safe! and have a great day!
i used to be depressed alot and i felt bad about it cus other people had it worse than me so i ignored my feelings. now im 21 and traumatized and broken. i have extremely low self esteem which in turn leads to many more mental health problems like addiction, making impulsive and irrational decisons. Deal with ur feelings. theyre yours not anyone elses so it doesnt matter how worse someone else has it. love yourself...im still working on it
every comment I see on this video I wish someone special will hug them and say "everything will be ok" so you don't have to feel sad. I hope everyone that sees this I hope you have a good day or night and hope in the future you'll be happy.
Well - we shall probably see the invention of an age-slowing or even age-killing medicine in our lifetimes, because it's already underway. This technology will allow us to experience life in its truest fashion, because in the limited time frame we have we are not able to experience all of life. Life is an endless subset of topics, which into themselves are an endless well of niches and subsets. Life is insanely beautiful because of the variety we have created and experience with our ability to think. I personally think age-regression is unfairly stigmatized for this reason, as death takes too much sense in people's heads. To argue that death gives life meaning is to argue that happiness needs a countered suffering which i simply don't believe is true. A sunset spent with a SO doesn't need misery to make it worthwhile because the happiness makes its own meaning. This applies to life all-in-all. And finally, even if you must die eventually from circumstances we could not possibly control, we still shouldn't suffer under the stress of this presumption overtaking our minds. And so what if we die slowly with every breath? It simply means we should value every breath that much more. And i hope you have some clear skies
This really helped me sm cause lately I have been feeling like I’m slowly dying cause one of my friends Kiki always talks about her and her struggling and when I tell her mine she never gives me support I have other friends called Angelica and her cat called Microbio they really helped me not to end it all I want to say to Kiki that I don’t want to be friends her but I’m to scared to and I will feel horrible if I do so
I have been through so much in my life. When I was 5 I was diagnosed with depression. When I was 10 I was diagnosed with PTSD, OCD, and anxiety. I never was able to handle my emotions and I still can’t. Trauma core is the only thing that helps me anymore. Thank you for making this. And everyone else, remember you are loved.
I feel extremely bad for you. It must be horrible to the deal with all of this constantly. I Hope you will feel better soon and that there are people for you ^^. ( Sorry for Bad english I'm french)
Since this is a place on the internet, I feel open to share a memory I have that sadly no one else has. I was 7 and it was a normal day visiting my dad. It was just us and I was fine with that. He got a beer from the fridge which I was also fine with. Or at least I was. He had drank 7. His limit is around 3. He asked me to go get him another and when I said "I think you've a enough dad, it's late and your dru-" he had raised his hand and hit me. By 2 in the morning, I had gotten him at least 4 more. The next morning he woke up and didn't remember anything. To this day I've only ever told three people. Besides you lovely folks! I hope you all have an amazing and remember your fucking perfect no matter what. I love you bitch.
Dude I am so sorry :[ parents suck sometimes. My mom yelled at me for hours about having a couple empty chip bags and bottles in my room cuz it was too dirty and disgusting and she was disgusted in me and I was disappointing her :] ya know I don’t think parents really understand they can be crappy people too
I am so sorry. My dad is an alcoholic too and I know what it feels like :/ your father seems like a shitty person I'm sorry you had to go through that. I hope you're doing way better and I hope you're safe. Ilysm and you're perfect darling
To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)
Let’s face it. Life isn’t the fun rollercoaster we thought it was gonna be when we were all five years old. Edit: Sorry, I didn’t mean to offend anyone or anything, it was just a random comment. Sorry :(
Sadly, you're right, it's the complete opposite. Instead of us being happy and cheerful, almost the entire generation is sad and depressed. It's sad to realize that tbh
No offence but as much as I also have a hard time everyday I still think life is fun bc we get to live... So idk I like life even If im always crying and hurting myself.
Hey. Hey, you. Yes, you. You're the one reading this, aren't you? Well, let me tell you something. You need to know. DON'T SCROLL, please.. I know, I know I'm a stranger here on the internet. But, I guarantee you, you need to hear this. Are you in a dark place? You aren't alone. We all were there, y'know. Feeling Suicidal? Please don't. I think you matter. Even if I don't know you, I still think you matter. You are the best stranger I've met. So, do something for me real quick. It's quick, I promise. Drink some water. WAIT! DON'T WIPE THE WATER OFF YOUR LIPS YET! Look, see how they shine? See how they twinkle and glimmer? it's like you. Even in the tiniest bit of light, you shine. If you want to take your life, think about something. Out of the 7 billion+ people on this earth.. Someone out there, they think you're perfect. They love you, so much. Imagine how much you'd hurt them if you left.. even if it seems unlikely, I can assure you. Someone out there, they love you. So keep fighting. You'll win, no matter how hard it is. "Fight the storm to see the rainbow". Remember that, okay? Good, I love you. Stay safe, handsome/beautiful :)
I have never felt so happy and cried over a youtube comment, Thanks alot. This means alot to me and alot if other people reading this. I hope all the best for you, Stay safe Stay awsome
i remember listening to this aproximately 1 year ago im just glad its better now if anyone is reading this it gets better never lose hope no matter which situation you are in right now
"nobody deserves to be with someone that destroys them, especially when they're unaware that they're slowly falling apart. i wouldn't wish this even on my worst enemy"
@@RagdollWraith bro you are the only person i can relate to like everyone is saying she made me deppresed she broke up with me but we dont even have somone to call her it hurts way more when you dont have a person to call her
Tysm for this I well always play this cuz these are my last 2 month in this earth but for who ever is reading this live your life to the fullest and have fun while u can and always remember that you are beautiful no matter what ❤
You know when your lying In bed and you’re having a mental breakdown and you just randomly think you really want someone to love you as much as you would love them and then you just leave the playlist when you sleep
@@_mothy_1282 yea. But it's the other way around ppl like sad me. I'm quieter and more shy. I don't always run my mouth and I'm more "respectful" but they don't see that I'm unmotivated, tired, I hate myself, insecure, and overall just sick of existing tbh lmfao
The internet is basically my home. There's a lot of toxic people, but there's people that understand me more than people I know irl. Honestly, it hurts. I don't know why people that know me more than strangers don't understand my pain, but strangers do. I always wanted to talk to someone about my problems, but nobody in my life ever did. Only the people on the internet. One person in real life that would talk to my about my psin, and would relate to me is my best friend. I'm so grateful for her. But then again, why can't anyone else do the same?
They say to talk to them and then when you do they just blame it on being a teenager. Yes I’m a teenager, but why does that make my feelings any less valid? When I tell you I’m in pain, why is it not valid? When I cry for help why is it not valid. Why am I never valid.
Your a great person and you matter to me! Even though you may just be a random person on the internet I think your an amazing person and your gonna make it through this. Like they say, “you gotta fight the storm to see the rainbow!” I think you matter
Every time I try to tell my mom how I feel she always says, “You probably are about to start your period.” Or “Your hormones are getting to you.” Not I’m not sure if what I feel is an illusion or I’m faking it or if I actually have a problem
@@simpsrus8861 same except ive never told anyone but my "best friend" who told me I have a great life and no reason to be feeling this so stop. I haven't told anyone about how I feel since then.
Sometimes, when I feel tired or when I need to think, there's nothing better than going to bed and listening to this while resting my head on the pillow
“I’m so proud of you for always staying positive.” “You’re so good at keeping up your grades- you BETTER not start doing poorly” “You help the rest of us by staying happy” “You’re the one doing the chores for the past week, I didn’t even know” “Making friends isn’t hard, go get more” -How can they not know how much I’m dying inside?
For a bit of context, I always have to stay happy for my family to keep up their morale, I have to keep my grades up because they can’t have more than one kid with bad grades (to them bad grades is anything lower than a B+)
It’s been awhile since I’ve had serious problems with depression but I feel like in a way I was happier being in that state as I felt comfortable simply being in a corner and being ignored. Now I feel like I have to act normal and social but it just makes my stomach hurt everyday and I feel like I’m burning.non of it feels natural and it feels like I can’t go back to what felt like me now that I have all these people that except this version of me.
Young me: is growing up fun? Older me: srry to ruin your dreams but no kid Young me: how is it then? Older me: it's like a dark hole you cant quite escape and u fall forever always leaking water out your eyes like a river- ...
*Ships don't sink because water is around them, but because water gets inside them. Don't let what's happening around you influence or weigh you down.* Hope this made your day 1% better, love and support you all. you are valid!! ❤️❤️❤️
I fell into a state of depression on February of 2021 because of things that were happening in my life ( school, my parents being disappointed in my, realizing that I only have one best friend and our friendship is falling apart, etc). I’ve never been depressed before, I cried for like a month but then I just felt numb, nothing felt real, after that I started daydreaming for most of the day where it came to the point where the world I made in my mind almost felt real, in some way idk how to explain it. Like everything that happened in my world affected me in real life. Anyway about a week ago the depression ended and I’m so happy that it’s over but rn I’m crying because through all those months of me suffering, no one noticed what I was going through. And every time I would try to tell anyone, they would tell me that im being dramatic and I I don’t know what depression is like. .Sorry for making this really long I just had to vent
@@habidhernandez763 it's perfectly fine to vent, I went through the same thing no one noticed I was depressed. It gets better over time though, the people you meet may encourage you to do bad or good things. But you'll meet better people. Life gets better. Stay strong ❤️
I miss the days when everything was just so simple. I was just living my life and enjoying the things happening around me. Now I can barely get out of bed without a voice inside telling me I’d be better off dead. I’m way too conscious about my appearance and relationships. I’m way too conscious of myself and I cry almost every night. I wish it could be easier, even though I feel guilty because I’m fortunate enough to write this comment. I just miss when I was happy. I wish I was a kid again.
Sometimes strangers understands you more than your family, friends or anyone your close to or sometimes you just wanna be alone in your room thinking about life or stuff and thats ok i also do that I often think about why i was born, why am i even trying everyone hates me but i have to stay strong cause there might be somebody out there that does care about me
I’ve not experienced much trauma but is it weird I’m crying at “somebody I used to know”? I usually vibe to it, but this, just seems so sad. My bsf did advise therapy because a lot of the time I feel sad for no actual reason. And I sometimes feel like a 3rd wheel. Like some people would be better off without me, but I don’t want to die, and ik my true friends and family love me, it’s just some others who I can’t let go of, I feel like I’ve lost a bsf going into year 8 since she seems closer with someone else, and we’ve known each other since we were 5. This hits hard.
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This comment section is great. we're all people around the world, with only one thing in common: we're using music to cope with our pain. we're all strangers to each other, yet we're supporting everyone in need. thanks for that
I like reading the comments and seeing some where people are becoming friends with each other we gotta take care of each other because nobody else will👍
This is for everyone watching this:
I love you and I hope everybody is doing fine. Even if you feel lonely, depressed or scared you gotta stay strong and don't forget that there will always be a little hope in everything
@@silliestmanever I hope you get better soon, and that your not alone.
thank you lovely
@@silliestmanever I will cheer you up if I ever can,buddy
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Have this love :>
kawaii..., but life will never be perfect
@@taikonix_oni1679 but we can do our best to make it as enjoyable as we can
I thought being a teenager was going to be fun and now that I am, it sucks. I'm losing reasons to live everyday and I just wanna disappear lmfao.
You have so many reasons to live plz don't die :
i feel you, hang in there homie :(
If you need to talk lmk
@@sweatysockzaha can i?
let me tell you something, it wont get better it gets worse day by day, ive come to a point where i just want to die in my sleep and accept death if it is right in front of my face
"being a teen is fun," they said "these are your golden years," they said
so why do we all wanna go back to being a child?
I really don't want to go back, way to much trauma
@@_doring_5875 same
I'd go back to me as a child to actually focus on my studies and not disappointing the shit outta everybody,, but at the same time I don't want to go back to childhood traumas. I just wanna die yknow
Ik I dont. Childhood was trash yo.
A good childhood?
What's that? 👁️👄👁️
depression: I hate living
Anxiety: I'm afraid of death
I can't win.
you can!:)
I believe in you!! :) it will all be okay some day, i pinky promise :D
Thank you, both of you. All the same to you and double
wow.
Same
“Being tired and wanting to die doesn’t mean dying permanently,it’s wanting to leave that feeling” -me
wanting to experience nothingness
"I always like walking in the rain, so no one can see me crying." -Charlie Chaplin
That hits soo different man
waitwiat.. charlie chaplin said that??
woah
o-m-g, what- si. SII, WACHO RE SI
Yeah
I really need a 30 minute long hug from someone who isn’t my pillow.
Edit: Thank you all so much for all the hugs!!!😭😭 HUGS TO EVERYONE!!!🥰
I really wish I could give you a real hug, but I can’t. Still sending a virtual hug tho! 🤗
@@user-fn1gd9yc8j thank you😭🤗
⊂( ◜◒◝ )⊃ soz it isn't a real one ♡
I'm sending a virtual hug, pls wait....
I'm sorry it will take a while bc it's a 54 minute hug
**hugs** 💖👉👈💖
“I’m just tired.”
_”Did you not get enough sleep?”_
“No, I did. It’s not that, I’m just. Tired.”
HAY SEPONGBOB 🧽
Just tired.
glad im not the only one whos mentally tired
I never thought of this as a symptom of depression. I just beat myself over it because I tend to be more mentally tired during school. It's so hard to focus now. I don't know what happened. I use to be the gifted kid.
Tired of life tired of being beaten up at school and coming home with bruises and hurting limbs can I vent here? I need a therapist
It's been 2 years and ty y'all for the support and the comments. ( I hope all of you are doing better
I feel like I have the biggest pair of rose tinted glasses on that have on Lenses that keep falling pit and each time it does it just shatters till I glue it together I used to get little flicks and small looks or sighs to let me know I said something wrong near my mom it hurt a little I thought that was just like a spanking like just disabling but I told a friend sry a bunch of friends and only two thought it was normal and I panicked each time they looked at me with that look like I was some broken child it broke those glasses till I repaired them I cried a lot the last few years so much holding back tears behind those glasses that I never feel them slip out of my eye till they hit my shirt neck or cheek I’m fine … oh another tear….
you ok?
@@raelynwalsh2328 how are you?
Lifeless as always and i find no joy in living + no motivation to do anyting i just keep smiling and move on with my day Cool playlist (if your worried iw been lifeless without any emotions since iw been 8 or 9 shorty im turning 18 we will see what my future will look)
@@wixenlol9897itll get better ❤ thank u for holding on
“Trust gets you killed, love gets you hurt, and being real gets you hated”-Johnny Cash
Но, дорогой, лучше упасть, чем никогда не летать:)
Но что больно всë равно правда
Thank you for the message
@@ТатьянаТретьякова-н5ч what hurts is most true
never has truer words been spoken before, i trusted people and got betrayed, i loved people and once again got betrayed and the moment i started being real i was hated for it. is there a single thing in this world that doesnt get you betrayed and hated?
@@jaysonpicard-gravel5808 nah we were put on earth to suffer, i honestly feel like i just exist i wanna die but im too scared to kill myself so i lay in bed and rot because its the closest thing to death besides sleep
'Crying is how your heart speaks, when your lips can't explain the pain you feel.
go to a psychologist
"there's more than one purpose for those lips" -me
@@jok7723 go find your dad :p
Tbh this is true and kinda hits different, this comment deserves more love ❤️
such a writer !
"you are just lazy"
"you're lying"
"you haven't had anything yesterday"
"just be normal"
"you have everything so silent"
"you got it from your phone"
"what other people would pay for what you have"
"be sociable"
"you just say that to make you interesting"
"you just want attention"
"you just don't want to go to school"
Thank you to my great parents for such great support.
Same here...but hold on. It's gonna be okay. Believe me♡ be strong!♡
Fuck your support, be happy that your alive
this 8 year old kids is getting on my nervers with this bullshit
yea this hits home
I can relate so much, not to everything but particulary to:
"be sociable"
"you got it from your phone"
and to
"you are just lazy".....
To any kids here, I am older now but as a teenager this feeling felt suffocating and never ending. Don’t follow through with any dark thoughts, keep pushing towards the positive ones and I swear I come back to this feeling of depression and I feel a little lighter stronger and safer as I get control❤ I’m sorry we’re all here
9yr old suffering here :))
14 yr old here, about to go homeless. Don't see any positive moments coming up anytime soon.
@Mirage_Man321 14!? Holy crap! Are you okay now?
@@sigmaaash Idk still seeing what happens.
@Mirage_Main321 dang, hope everything goes well for you 🫶
*When people in TH-cam comment sections are more supportive than family/friends*
🥲
i swear this so true
i mean ur not wrong
I know...
I don't have either anyways
@@SalemsForgottenWitch Sheesh.
Yeah pretty much- it sucks too :/ aren't we teenagers? I thought this was supposed to be the best years of our lives. Yet here we are, in a pit that will probably be the death of most of us.
Ya
I wouldn't be surprised if I got a heart attack and died because I eat so much to take my mind off of them so anyways bai💖
Nah.... I'm a regular 14 year old and these songs really calm me. So no I'm not depressed. Hope your doin good tho
Yeah, it's hard to live up to our parents expectations. They want us to grow up but when we do they tell us we can't make decisions because we're kids. I really don't get it
Im just 13 and pretending to be fine. My friends knows that but still they’re trying to cheer me up but im not feeling like it. I felt like it’s just me here who dont wanna live anymore. I felt sorry for them but i just dont wanna breathe anylonger
bruh i have dementia and i am still happy
fuck depresssion
[i forgot what i wanted write here]
This playlist makes my chest hurt, but no matter how hard I try the tears just won't come out :/
Its gonna be alright bud', you just got tired. Ily
trying your best to stay quiet, so no one can hear you
same im numb
I’m crying rn, that’s an achievement.
same bro
The fact that I was very depressed 2 years ago and now coming back to this playlist I’m like wow I’ve come a long way and I’m happy finally!
I congratulate you. You are very lucky, once again congratulations).
Im happy for you @gabs6201 and try to not feel like those two years ago right now your happy and free
You free now i love you bro (no homo tho) take care
- YourUnknowedStranger.
Soup.
nice, good job you made it to happiness
Howw
“whats wrong”
i can’t tell you without being silenced.
silenced by deez nutz ONG BRO
@@loquatic wtf this ain't a joke
@@3o29wje this ain’t build a bitch :/ you don’t get to pick and choose :(
@@loquatic we
@@loquatic can i have ur alpha pp🥺🥺🥺
“ People will leave you without a single reason and come back with a million excuses. “
- Unknown
so true
Yea true
Everybody fighting their own battles. Empathy for yourself starts with empathy for others as well
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Holy shit... that's real
This hits so much harder when you sitting in school and you check your grades to see that you failing in multiple classes after being the "gifted kid" all your life
Edit: Hey so I saw a lot of replys relating which makes sense so if any of you need to vent you are welcome too! Just I hope you all know that your grades shouldn't determine how you or your family treats you. Also your grades should not determine if you do certain things you need to do for human surival like eating, sleeping, ect. Just know that atleast one person in the world cares about you and if tour still alive, happy, or whatever. It may be a family member, a friend, or even a person on the internet just know that someone cares about you. (Sorry if that was kinda cringe I just want you all to know that you matter)
Cuarentena :(
I can relate
relatable
relatable
@@misakichxn1294 I know how you feel. I have always hated not being the best (or smthing like that)
Nothing hurts more when you're crying at night without making a noise and losing your breath with those silent screams of hurt.
(PS thank u for ur lovely comments under my songs, means a lot 🖤)
Yea and that’s just the truth😢
this is me rn lmao
I was trying to forget that
@@lillybiddle2925 😔
@@cinnamoroIIz 😢
We are all slowly dying just some faster than others
yes yes very real quete of the day
I miss my girlfriend, she passed away last month due to covid, I just want to hug her one more time, say how much I love her, and reasure her that everything will be ok so she can go in peace
I just can't believe this happened, after years of relationship, since we were teenagers, almost half of our lives together, and I couldn't even say goodbye
We were so close to get married too
God, I'm so sorry for your loss.
I’m sorry for your loss
dang this hurt me a lot, im so so so sorry for your loss :( cheer up
@elia. skeate-jones sorry for your loss
That’s…….so…….
I- No words.
I’m sorry?
NEVER EVER DELETE THIS
dont worry, a part of you will remain here
@Zoaholic this is one of the nicest comments I’ve ever got omg...
@@wakeup_deni :d
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Just a reminder to people: traumacore isn’t an aesthetic, it’s a coping mechanism
Edit: not trying to ‘gatekeep’ in anyway, just wanted to put this out there so people don’t treat it like a style e.g goth, cottagecore, Lolita etc
Edit 2: ur all missing my point lmao. Traumacore is a creative coping mechanism, where you can create playlists or audio or images or literally anything. I understand there’s creativity and a sort of beauty in it but again, it’s not an aesthetic.
Exactly.
the songs i fire but why make trauma aesthetic. 2021 is whack at this point.
Don't idolize the bad, but the art can still contain beauty.
Yep
mhm, i hate it when people make it as one, it's truly sickening.
I don’t want to die
I just want to go into an alternate reality where everything is perfect
All people are nice
All food tastes good
All days are weekends
Everyone is friends
Everyone is happy
Everyone is kind
Nothing is wrong…
There is no such thing as a perfect world... that is why I must erase it...
*play Chosen By The Planet*
Walks away in a wall of flames
"COME BACK YOU FIEND! COME AND FIGHT!"
@@crowdycrowded2278 YES
@@ajarofworms7 If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going forward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people that tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet if you can afford a therapist too because I worry about you "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" by the way do not be shy to call for help...
If the world was perfect it also wouldn't be because people would take it away, good and bad are nonexistent
@@leorichard7955 ok, but the thing is, I said in the very first line I don’t want to die-
Bc if I die my friends and family will be sad
Also living is kinda, cool
when i was a kid all i thought was "oh i cant wait to grow up!!" "i cant wait to be a teenager!" oh boy how was a wrong..all i do these day is stay up until 6 in the morning and wake u at 4pm and never leaving my room..9 and its been like this for almost 2 -3 years now and my mom is always saying to come out of my room, and she'll come to me asking if i need therapy but i just dont like talking to people and not seeing someone for about 1 year the social anxiety has gotten even worse.. and then there is my sisters who "joke' around and say stuff like "OMG PLS BAHAHA SHE ACTS DEPRESSED IT HONESTLY EMMBERESING" do you know how much that hurts to hear from your sisters? honestly sometimes i actually do think about leaving the earth but then again i dont want to die yk? i just want to be somewhere where i dont have to care or think about anything no stress, no parents yelling at me, no school, no nothing in general somewhere where i can just sit and read without anything to care about in the world...
same especially that last part, thats all i want, to not stress, not have to worry about the future and everything, not feel trapped, etc.
Uno reversee
i still wanna grow up. that way, i can go out and escape from “home”.
You alright? But listen here.. sometimes talking to strangers about how you feel are better then talking with a therapist nothing too personal just talk about how you feel and they’ll understand you so well! That it feels like a dream knowing a stranger knows you and understands you more well then your own parents!
i’ve seen everyone sharing stories. so i thought i would too.
i can’t really remember a lot of stuff from when i was younger, i can only remember my parents always fighting when i was 3 and seeing my dad leave because of my mom. but i didn’t think much of anything until 2nd grade, bullying and growing up made me put me in a different mind. and i realized the trauma from when i was 3 was very wrong for such a young age. i used to dream of it and think about it a lot and i got scared of loud screaming for a long time, especially when people yelled at me. and my mom got worse throughout the years, yelling at me for no reason and always finding something to yell and hit at me for. and always making my mentality worse. “why can you be like her?” “stop eating” “you’re too young to feel like this” “i wasn’t like you” “things were different back then, there are kids who don’t have anything so stop crying” *always blaming me for everything* *always manipulating me* *always taking her anger out on me whenever she’s in a bad mood* i was diagnosed with depression and anxiety in middle school. i always thought of killing myself, and doing stuff but always backing out. pulling knives on my neck or holding pills in my hand. my first suicide attempt was when i was in 7th grade, i took half of a bottle of pain pills and a few of my own pills. i was listening to music and messaged my mom “i love you” even if she didn’t love me. she even admitted it one time too. i ended up at the hospital and they took me to a mental hospital and i was there for 6 days, lying when they asked me on how i was feeling. someone told me that if we tell them the wrong things or act a certain way they make us stay longer and i didn’t want to so i lied. i never told anyone how i felt. i smiled telling the doctor and nurses “i’m fine.” after, my mom didn’t talk to me about it. she acted like nothing ever happened. now im in 10th and i still have thoughts about kms, i recently found out that my mom was on birth control pills while doing the deed with my dad so i am indeed a mistake. my mom didn’t want to have another child, im just a burden to her. before i found out about it i tried opening up to my mom after i had a panic attack at school. she told me “i don’t care about your problems” and she was being a hypocrite, saying “do you wanna get thrown out on the streets?” and then she starts talking about taking her cat to the vet. my sister said “just throw the cat out of the house” “why would i do that? that’s so heartless!” oh. wow. so i had a mental breakdown when i got home and she left. i let it all out, screaming and crying and my closer sister comforted me while i felt like i was struggling to breathe and my mind was all clouded. crying out “she doesn’t care, she never did” “why am i alive” “please kill me.” my sister stayed with me, and now i trust her even though i have trust issues. i got into a fight with my oldest sister recently because she was talking about me to me so i did too. she starting hitting me while we were in the car and my mom defended her so i started screaming at them calling them names and telling them how they act. i didn’t even try to hit them while they tried hitting me because my sister is pregnant. i tried stopping them from hitting me and they did eventually but when i got home i got in trouble because my mom and my oldest sister said i was trying to hit her belly where her baby is. i didn’t get anywhere near her stomach so i just stood quiet and went to my room. i’ve learned to control my emotions and i just got out of hand so i calmed myself trying not to get mad. my brother came and got mad at me and tried hitting at me and i got out of control and started yelling at him so everyone came in my room blaming me for everything saying “you started this” but anyways here i am now just a few days after getting my phone back and going permanently virtual. this is probably too long and im probably gonna get trashed for this but🤷♀️
Endure,in enduring grow strong.
I hear you... i read the whole thing. you've been treated so wrong in your life. I'm really sorry. Words are failing me in this situation honestly. Do you have anyone else to talk to? Like a friend or counselor, or pastor... it may be good to get an outsider to help you.
I've been through some similar experiences... too many to get into here. When I was at my lowest and nobody cared about me, Jesus cared. He showed me that he forgave me... he gave his life for my sins. He answered prayers in miraculous, impossible ways. He's been there with me as a friend and Savior, in the darkest nights of my life. I know he cares so much about you... I'm here to tell you. He loves you personally. He wants to rescue you. ❤
call someone. your clearly not safe there, so go and leave that house. please, consider it for me-no. consider it for YOU.
Are you doing better? Are you out of this household because there are much better places for you.
Just don't do it, from one to another, for what its worth
this playlist made me realize how much my life sucks and how much i just want everything to go away… :”)
Aww i hope everything gets better for u ⊂( ◜◒◝ )⊃
same ugh.
i love how this has 1M views. Shows how lowkey depressed our generation is god DAMN!
Every generations been like this, the thing about the internet is that it makes everything visible
the world hasn't gotten any more racist, but we know more about it, same thing here.
True but it's just me having this on loop 24/7, half of the views are mine 😩😩
@@jackie4734 im not a girl bestie
@@whiteeyedshadow8423 well said
2.1 mil actually
To everyone who is doing homework,
leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus
To everyone who is trying to sleep,
leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve.
To everyone who is feeling sad,
grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time.
To everyone who is creating something,
you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
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-Not mine, but pass it around!
Thanks ^^
who does homework at home fucking nerds
Thank you for the suggestion but I will have to decline. You see, I only do this wallowing every so often. Sometimes it's good to taste tragedy
do you ever just wonder why bad luck seems to always find you? why they always leave, despite saying they'd always stay?
i thought they understood me.
but then they accused me of something i would never do, due to experiencing it myself.
i loved them so much, and i hate that i still do.
they never even once loved me the same.
As soon as your best friend says “besties forever” you already know it’s gonna end
@@lucygoosey3428 yes yes and yes
Hey, are you talking about POCD? Sending love
THIS
Leo says “no trans right!!!”
ah, they said being a teenager would be fun. not being sexually harassed on the internet.
Get out of Discord, like, yesterday
@@pablo_giustiniani wre you yelling me to get off discord ?
@@harpermerritt13 Pro tip: don't EVER interact with strangers in Discord, people there are sad people at the very least, irredemable degerates at the worst
I'm sorry are you okay, I don't know how it feels to be in that situation but I hope you are doing better now.Best of luck.
@@Killingjoke2 i’m okay now ! :)
"I don't wanna die, but I don't wanna live either. Pain is the only thing that which I can know for sure, that I'm alive and empty sometimes"-unknown
Hey you need a cold soda
@@bobkim5555 yea I do...
@@jbenji2739 ik I’m late and you might be ok now but I just wanted to tell you that there are a lot of people who love you and most importantly, God loves you( idk if you believe in God or not but I do).
@@habidhernandez763 thanks and I want to say that you are loved too.
😂😂😂😂
I listen to this playlist for I think over a year now. i remember when I cried to this because I felt so bad.
It was one of the worst times in my life, but I'm in a bit better place now mentally.
I just wanted to say that this playlist still comforts me, and to this day, it still helps me with sleeping in.
Ik it sounds weird, but it feels like a hug when no one can see what's happening inside of you.
I love it. Thank you so much. You don't know how glad I am to discovered this playlist.
I'm rlly happy for you:>. I wish you the best
@@rainy4967 Thank you sm! I wish you all the best as well! :)
y'all know that feeling when you're crying and, at a random point, you just go find yourself a mirror then start doing weird faces to laugh at, later realizing how miserable your life is, or is it just me??
(っ^_^)っI do that too
go to a psychologist
yeah, except I'm like
✌😗💧✌
@@jok7723 woah so cool, telling everyone to go to a psychologist like it means something
@@skatrboy9748 And i found the dsmp fan i was looking for in the comments :>
At one point, idk when, but my tears just stopped and now i just lock myself in my room and laugh pathetically at my misery because no one except a bunch of strangers online get it
god ive never related to something more..
Same
I felt this
felt that one
People online treats me more like family than my real ones.
Parents:where is the old u? U changed
Idk man u killed her she's not coming back -,-
Bro same i-
Im so sorry, bestie
This comment is relatable.
Yea...
oh- I am sorry to hear that
You can sleep, but your tired.
Your alive, but your sick.
Your healthy, but you hurt.
Your alive, but not living.
Your wishing you were knew why.
You wish.
Wished.
"dazai why do you wish to die?"
"lets turn that question around- is there really any value to this 'thing' we call living...?"
-Dazai Osamu
Why 😭
If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going forward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people that tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet if you can afford a therapist too because I worry about you "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" by the way do not be shy to call for help..
-🤓
it's funny how people nowdays forget that Dazai Osamu was an actual person before being turned into an anime character. he wrote a classic very praised novel called No Longer Human, and since it was his last work before drowning himself it's basically a really long suicide note
@@robin586 oh my god i never knew that ...ngl sounds pretty -inspirational-
“It’s not goodbye,it’s just see u later”-cavetown
Well it's always a see u later, becouse we will mabey meet each other in hell,heaven or by the rebirth
You ever just look back at how close you and your old friend group were and how much fun you guys had....
.
.
Then you remember how they turned there backs on you when you were at your lowest :(
Yep when you were there for them and they repay you by leaving
Yep... It hurt
yup and the reason is cause they listen to a guy we all hated and he made rumors about me in middle school and everyone hated me
yeah. a lot.
kinda they all left me and replaced me with a much better looking person lol
When I was 10 right before school ended for the year I was so excited to be in middle school and finally have a bit more responsibility, little did I know that a few weeks later I'd have to take on most of the responsibility and deal with unrecognized trauma till 7th grade where I slowly lost the will to live plus all the high expectations everyone put on me since I'm the oldest and smartest amoung my cousins. Thank you for listening to me vent a bit :>
It's fine
Estuans interius
Ira vehementi
Estuans interius
Ira vehementi
Sephiroth
Sephiroth
Estuans interius
Ira vehementi
Estuans interius
Ira vehementi
Sephiroth
Sephiroth
Sors immanis
Et inanis
Sors immanis
Et inanis
Estuans interius
Ira vehementi
Estuans interius
Ira vehementi
Sephiroth
Sephiroth
Veni, veni, venias,
Ne me mori facias
Veni, veni, venias,
Ne me mori facias
Veni, veni, venias,
Ne me mori facias
Veni, veni, venias,
Ne me mori facias
Veni, veni, venias, gloriosa
Ne me mori facias generosa
Veni, veni, venias, gloriosa
Ne me mori facias generosa
Veni, veni, venias, gloriosa
Ne me mori facias generosa
Veni, veni, venias, gloriosa
Ne me mori facias generosa
Sephiroth
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hey believe it or not i went/am going through the exact like no joke exact same. life suck
oh my god im so sorry
There are a lot of people in the comment section who are in... not good places mentally.
For all of you, I swear it can get better,
I'm someone who got through it: after years of getting worse (up to self punishments and attempts of ending it all) even with the "help" of various psychologists, I got a diagnosis for anxiety and depression and finally found the help I actually needed.
It was scary at first, feeling... sad, like I had given up, the worthlessness, they were better than the numbness of feeling almost nothing at all: it was like the void left by their absence was too big to be filled by anything else.
Eventually, though, with therapy (one of my assignments was to participate in group projects, then I met a few times a therapist) and the few friends that sticked around even when I started spiraling, eventually it was enough.
I won't say the Sun seemed to shine brighter and the grass was greener, it doesn't work like that: instead, it felt like I finally wasn't being carried around, dragged by the current, or that my feet moved mindlessly on their own, but instead I was the one walking, I was the one speaking, not just a voicebox, I found myself wanting to do something with myself for the first time in a long while. I found myself crying easily, instead of not having any more tears to spare, and even the laughter sounded more genuine to my friends.
It's okay to be depressed, it's okay to fall and it's okay to rest for a while.
It's okay to feel worthless, it's okay to just not want to be there.
It's fundamental to understand, though, that nothing stays still, even if it appears to be so: we are always changing, for better or worse, and it's beautiful, as it allows us all to find new paths, wherever they might take us.
I'm not trying to "cure your depression" here, I know it doesn't work like that, I just wish that, if you read this far, you could find something to hold on to, someone to confide in, and allow those who care about you to help.
Because one of the things I learned through this and even later looking back, is that even if I felt alone, it was actually a wall I ended up building myself after getting hurt one too many times and I had made it too high.
I'm 22 now, the scars I have on my arms are white, almost invisible, against the light tan and I have a new diagnosis in a folder, ADHD with a sprinkle of autism and I can't help myself sometimes and I think that, had I known it earlier, it would have saved me a lot of issues.
All in all, I can finally say that I'm alright. Not the happiest person in the world, sure, but it's enough.
I'm enough.
You are enough.
If you can't talk, then write, draw, play an instrument, sing: I don't even mean about you and your experience, it can be about anything.
Just let it out.
" think about it, suicide means you killed the most important person. *yourself* " - monokuma
@@mimi_3457 same lmao
@Filip Sobczak nobody is useless, we all have something to do in life. you are someone's important person without you realizing it. even if i don't know you at all, i genuinely care about you as well.
@Filip Sobczak you alright bro?
@Filip Sobczak you're strong, you got this!
"Ik your smart enough to do better "
"Your just confused "
"This is a phase "
"You only care about your feelings you never think about mine "
"It's not the name I gave you at birth so I'm not calling you it"
"I'm tried of walking on egg shells around you "
"I expect you but I don't support your decisions "
I just wanna be good enough, I wanna be her son .
I feel like I’m not good enough for her either, i love her but I can’t be the daughter she’s always wanted her whole life. Because I’m not a girl and I don’t want to hurt her by saying that.
@@st4rrb062 same
she will never accept you but i will.
stay awhile its warmer next to the fire.
..-.-same...
"Ik your smart enough to do better"
literally what my parents say everyday
I didn't see anyone do time stamps so i will :>
0:01- YKWIM? - Yot Club
3:32 - Hey Kids - Molina
7:26 - Chamber Of Reflection - Mac DeMarco
11:18 - Fly Out West - Yot Club
14:12 - Surf Curse - Freaks
16:54 - Landlord - Yot Club
19:30 - Oh Klahoma - Jack Stauber
22:36 - Still Life - Sitcom
25:58 - Can I Call You Tonight? - Dayglow
30:33 - I Can't Handle Change - ROAR
34:41 - Devil town - Cavetown
38:01 - is New Flesh - Current Joys
45:01 - Somebody i used to know - Gotye
38:01 is New Flesh - Current Joys
Thank you!
@@LilEmmyyy no problem :)
@@cassiiidmn Okay thanks for letting me know
U r the best😩💕
It really hurts when you’re giving hints left and right that you’re depressed or when you’re not comfortable but some strange reason no one ever notices
are you ok?
Stamps for Songs :D
YKWIM? - Yot Club : 0:00 - 3:33
Hey Kids - Molina : 3:33 - 7:24
Chamber of Reflection - Mac DeMarco : 7:24 - 11:15
Fly Out West - Yot Club : 11:15 - 14:04
Freaks - Surf Curse : 14:04 - 16:54
Landlord - Yot Club : 16:54 - 19:30
Oh Klahoma - Jack Stauber : 19:30 - 22:25
Still Life - Sitcom : 22:25 - 25:58
Can I Call You Tonight? - Dayglow : 25:58 - 30:30
I Can't Handle Change - Roar : 30:30 - 34:40
Devil Town - Cavetown : 34:40 - 38:00
New Flesh - Current Joys : 38:00 - 40:50
Somebody That I Used To Know - Gotye : 40:50 - 45:36
you earned your self a new subscriber
thank you for doing god's work
you are legendary
I hope both sides of your pillow are nice and cold.
Your cereal will never get soggy and stay crunchy.
You will never stub your toe.
And you'll have a nice life.
this need to have a heart .
“You’re not depressed”
“You’re not stressed”
“You’re fine”
“You’re not suicidal”
“You’re cutting for attention”
“Why are your grades slipping”
“It’s a phase”
“You’re to young for all of this”
“That stuff you watch is messing with your brain”
“Why are you so weird”
“Why are you always in your room”
“Why did you let your self go”
“It’s that damn phone that makes you like this”
“Just be happy”
“Be normal”
“Wear more girly stuff”
“You’re making this gender stuff up”
I wish parents would just shut up and stop being judgmental.
hey,if you need someone to talk,just look at the comments
Same and sorry to hear
Edgy mmmedgy edgy
you are valid. your feelings are valid. dont let those assholes tell you otherwise. if only they knew what you were actually feeling, i am so sorry that you have to go throigh that. at the end of the day, yolo. you only live once, so fuck it. don't listen to them, you're so much more than them :) also youre NEVER to young to feel. feelings happen for all ages, im sorry you have to go through that. i am going through a similar situation right now and i am only 11, it sucks. it really does, but i believe in you. i truly do love you, and wish you all the best! good luck on your journey, remember your mindset is key. if you genuinely want to get better, fake it till you make it. change your mindset to _day one_ instead of _one day_ ! i love you, and you are so fucking valid. i hope you know that youre very loved and don't need to SH, i know it is so addicting but truly, hurting yourself is never the answer. it is A answer but it isn't THE answer. good luck, and wish you the best.
indeed.
"I lost my mind loving that one person...Then I lost them"-Me
I like the wordplay you used with lost, not to mention an incredibly relatable quote.
@@apotropagic thank you :) how was your day?
"I lost myself... and then i lost everything I love" -me
"The internet has made my child gay!" No, the internet accepted me, which should have been your job.
that's dark
@Professional dumbass no, dude can't you see how straight her comment was? Do some interpretacion classes for god's sake
@@Mel-ws7re yea like it was so straight
oh shit
THIS.
It’s been 2 years now, time moves on fast doesn’t it? This playlist got me through so many things, this playlist is one of the few reasons I’m alive. And for that, I am grateful internally it always helped me de-realize and think of alternate dimensions where I can be happy and that’s my goal. Life comes through with many obstacles, it may seem quite literally impossible to get through some. But just know that no matter what if you’re willing to try, if you can reach out, just know there will always be people who’ll be there to have your back. I completely know that not a lot of people may revisit this video after a few more years but to those who do and come across this comment I hope you’re having a wonderful life. I’ll be more than happy to give advice and reach out, but that’s only if you’ll try
I love you so much! 🧡 You're inspiring! 🤗✨
For the first time in a long time I decided to read the comments and your words... I really needed this. You made my day better, thanks ❤❤
I just need a hug a 10 min hug from anyone at this point
HERE HAVE A VIRTUAL HUGGGGGG!!!!!
**hugs**
i VoLunTeEr As TriBuTe *10 minute virtual hug*
hugs cutely /p
✨𝚃𝚘𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚟𝚎𝚍✨
“Your to young to understand”
“Cause of that phone”
“Your depressed”
“I can’t trust you”
“Your lying”
“Stop saying your sorry it’s annoying”
“Be social”
“It’s not hard to make friends”
“Be more like her”
“Your just lazy”
“Self centered”
“Jealous”
“Your so thin”
“Eat more”
“Stop saying your fine I hate that response”
“You have to be apart of things”
“Stop crying”
Sorry but crying is my nature I’ve been crying all my life
I do it when you ask me if I’m ok
That makes me cry more
Cause I know I’m not ok
Holding my tears in
But questions like that
It makes me cry out the tears I was trying so hard to hold in my eyes
Trying to make my face less red
Trying not to talk cause If I open my mouth I’ll start to cry
I can’t think of words when I’m crying
There’s to much to say
And I can never think of how to start
I have always been this way
Crying
What I’m good at
YO you have bad grammar bro
I know how it feels...
my mom sayings all these things, i mean im sorry man😶
@@iammiserykidd this person is obviously going through a tough time and you're more worried about their grammar. go sit down somewhere 💀😐👉🏾🪑
@@its.carm. lol
crying while listening
stop doing drama, stupid
@@shi6ri No need to be rude, maybe it's true, maybe it's not. If it's not, then just ignore it.
@@shi6ri sthu DA
@@bunbun5625 I have severe depression, and which is why I make drama in TH-cam comments? Don't. That kind of person disgusts me.
@@shi6ri Oh, fair point. I just thought the " Stupid" wasn't necessary
Kid me: I wanna be older now
Me now: can I be a kid again.. no? Okay..
My mind in school: don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail don’t fail
My mind at home: why are my parents screaming at me I did nothing..
My mind with friends: what if they are fake friends I just wanna vent to them I try they never listen to me they only vent to me why can’t I never vent
My mind with my crush: I love them just stop being scared just tell them you love them.. oh they moved away I never got to tell them….
My mind: GO JUMP OFF I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN SCHOOL IS THE ONLY FUN PLACE IM A CRYBABY BITCH I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE IS STARING AT ME
The static of facade mask the noise of the cries and pleas. Don't kneel. Don't submit to death. That's exactly what it wants you to do.
be strong. look at those who are hurting you, and laugh. the second you love someone, just see if they don't despise you, then become friends. tell your parents to give you space, or to leave you alone. just listen to your friends, then slowly release small stories about yourself, venting that way. be strong, get better, rest, eat, drink, hug a stranger, anything... for those who secretly love you.
i never knew traumacore was a thing until now lol
ig according to yall this is how i cope with my life, traumacore
go to a psychologist
"youre to young to be this sad"
"youre not depressed, you just arent happy right now"
"you've gained a lot of weight.."
"sorry.. you just arent as close with me as i am with her"
i get it. you dont care, you just pretend you do.. lolz.
"its an insider you wouldnt get it"
im not sad, i like the slowed music
"stop do the drama queen"
"I'm going to see mother...."
Walks menacingly out of the room.
*play Chosen By The Planet*
"SEPHIROOOOOTHHHH!!!!"
when they were the ones that got you to your lowest and damaged you for 2+ years…
*gives virtual hugs to everyone struggling because I know what it's like and want everyone to know that it's not their fault and that they're a wonderful person :3* (IDK HOW TO COMFORT I'M SO SORRY IF THIS SOUNDS CHEESY)
It's fine.
Thank you.. I needed this..
@@Shehateslife You're welcome
no way ghost give me a hug
@@B0btheweirdguy :)
sometimes i feel like crying...but then i can't...and just put On some music, blend everything out and listen to my heart-beat, Hoping it will stop and i just fall asleep…~Carrier pigeon
this happens with me....
I’m to young to know all this pain... but at the same time I feel bad because people have it much worse then me.
I can’t feel anything without feeling guilty
your feelings are valid, don't invalidate them. Everyone has their own problems aaaaaand, that's okay, I just wanna let you know your valid, you shouldnt lesser your problems because you know people have worse problems, like I said you are valid and so are your problems, stay safe
@@urmomlol9805 Thank u so mich :)) i hope u have a wonderful day
aw same, i have a nearly perfect life actually and always feel bad whenever i'm sad bc i literally don't have a reason to,,,
but yeah the person above me has said it all already, though i wanna tell you one more time that it's okay to feel emotions bc we're humans after all
our emotions don't always have to make sense, hearts do be stupid compared to our brains (but they still need each other to exist) xd
off-topic but i really like your diluc pfp 👉👈
It's okay, it is not as if anyone's life is easy, just cuz some people suffer more than others it doesn't need to make you feel guilty, because in a way or other bad things happen and feeling sad for it is just emotions, and, if it grows into something bigger than an emotion, that's okay too, just reaching out for help or comfort is the first step to take for yourself, stay safe! and have a great day!
i used to be depressed alot and i felt bad about it cus other people had it worse than me so i ignored my feelings. now im 21 and traumatized and broken. i have extremely low self esteem which in turn leads to many more mental health problems like addiction, making impulsive and irrational decisons. Deal with ur feelings. theyre yours not anyone elses so it doesnt matter how worse someone else has it. love yourself...im still working on it
every comment I see on this video I wish someone special will hug them and say "everything will be ok" so you don't have to feel sad. I hope everyone that sees this I hope you have a good day or night and hope in the future you'll be happy.
Getting old everyday means that we are slowly dying, we breathe only to die
You're making me cry rn (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )
Literally though, on my 9th birthday i realized i'm one year closer to dying. Birthdays are just reminders of death.
lol i can't wait until i finally go to sleep
This is not true lmao
Well - we shall probably see the invention of an age-slowing or even age-killing medicine in our lifetimes, because it's already underway.
This technology will allow us to experience life in its truest fashion, because in the limited time frame we have we are not able to experience all of life.
Life is an endless subset of topics, which into themselves are an endless well of niches and subsets. Life is insanely beautiful because of the variety we have created and experience with our ability to think.
I personally think age-regression is unfairly stigmatized for this reason, as death takes too much sense in people's heads.
To argue that death gives life meaning is to argue that happiness needs a countered suffering which i simply don't believe is true. A sunset spent with a SO doesn't need misery to make it worthwhile because the happiness makes its own meaning. This applies to life all-in-all.
And finally, even if you must die eventually from circumstances we could not possibly control, we still shouldn't suffer under the stress of this presumption overtaking our minds.
And so what if we die slowly with every breath?
It simply means we should value every breath that much more.
And i hope you have some clear skies
"What do you mean you dont know?
How can a dog make you a better person?"
"I dont know."
YKWIM? - Yot Club : 0:00 - 3:33
Hey Kids - Molina : 3:33 - 7:24
Chamber of Reflection - Mac DeMarco : 7:24 - 11:15
Fly Out West - Yot Club : 11:15 - 14:04
Freaks - Surf Curse : 14:04 - 16:54
Landlord - Yot Club : 16:54 - 19:30
Oh Klahoma - Jack Stauber : 19:30 - 22:25
Still Life - Sitcom : 22:25 - 25:58
Can I Call You Tonight? - Dayglow : 25:58 - 30:30
I Can't Handle Change - Roar : 30:30 - 34:40
Devil Town - Cavetown : 34:40 - 38:00
New Flesh - Current Joys : 38:00 - 40:50
Somebody That I Used To Know - Gotye : 40:50 - 45:36
this is for myself
Thank you, hero
Thanks anyways ❤️ hope you have a good day
Thanks ❤
thanks mate, was looking for the stamps-
well now i know the song names, thanks!
This really helped me sm cause lately I have been feeling like I’m slowly dying cause one of my friends Kiki always talks about her and her struggling and when I tell her mine she never gives me support I have other friends called Angelica and her cat called Microbio they really helped me not to end it all I want to say to Kiki that I don’t want to be friends her but I’m to scared to and I will feel horrible if I do so
are you ok?
@@eva-ov8sp Im doing alr rn but I’m still friends with Kiki but I’m trying to tell her but she won’t listen
@@Skyyyyyy.luvsu._. try to say something like: how would you feel if i weren't listening?
@@eva-ov8spi will try that and I’ll see how it gos and thank you sm ❤
I have been through so much in my life. When I was 5 I was diagnosed with depression. When I was 10 I was diagnosed with PTSD, OCD, and anxiety. I never was able to handle my emotions and I still can’t. Trauma core is the only thing that helps me anymore. Thank you for making this. And everyone else, remember you are loved.
I feel extremely bad for you. It must be horrible to the deal with all of this constantly. I Hope you will feel better soon and that there are people for you ^^. ( Sorry for Bad english I'm french)
omg.. five? i can't imagine how horrible that would feel... you can do whatever your facing!
Since this is a place on the internet, I feel open to share a memory I have that sadly no one else has. I was 7 and it was a normal day visiting my dad. It was just us and I was fine with that. He got a beer from the fridge which I was also fine with. Or at least I was. He had drank 7. His limit is around 3. He asked me to go get him another and when I said "I think you've a enough dad, it's late and your dru-" he had raised his hand and hit me. By 2 in the morning, I had gotten him at least 4 more. The next morning he woke up and didn't remember anything. To this day I've only ever told three people. Besides you lovely folks! I hope you all have an amazing and remember your fucking perfect no matter what. I love you bitch.
i hope your ok now, ur perfect too ⊂( ◜◒◝ )⊃
Dude I am so sorry :[ parents suck sometimes. My mom yelled at me for hours about having a couple empty chip bags and bottles in my room cuz it was too dirty and disgusting and she was disgusted in me and I was disappointing her :] ya know I don’t think parents really understand they can be crappy people too
I am so sorry. My dad is an alcoholic too and I know what it feels like :/ your father seems like a shitty person I'm sorry you had to go through that. I hope you're doing way better and I hope you're safe. Ilysm and you're perfect darling
@@m3w0o I don't see my father very much anymore so I feel way safer now but I'm sorry your currently going through this.
@@urmom-nv7hn it's completely fine. One day it'll be over :]
This playlist hug me so tight and i like that
To whoever reads this,
i love you
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love your insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love your failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you on your sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you move
i love the way you act
i love you when you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you when you're mean
i love you when you're alone
i love you when you can't feel
i love you when you feel too much
i love you when you can't take life anymore
i love you when you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you when you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you when you don't believe in yourself
i love you when you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you when you're in pain
i love you when you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love your wounds
i love your scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you when you lie
i love you when you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you when you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you when you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you when you have a headache
i love you when you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you need help
i love you when you're mature
i love you when you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you when life is meh
i love you when you're responsible
i love you when you're irresponsible
i love you when you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love you at your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)
Ily2
I love you too pookiebesr
Ily2 I mean it reading the handwriting part made me cry that's all it took
"I saved your life last night, but, tonight it might have to be you who saves my life" - *unknown*
Let’s face it. Life isn’t the fun rollercoaster we thought it was gonna be when we were all five years old.
Edit: Sorry, I didn’t mean to offend anyone or anything, it was just a random comment. Sorry :(
Sadly, you're right, it's the complete opposite. Instead of us being happy and cheerful, almost the entire generation is sad and depressed. It's sad to realize that tbh
I don’t even wanna grow anymore
boy what the hell boy
No offence but as much as I also have a hard time everyday I still think life is fun bc we get to live... So idk I like life even If im always crying and hurting myself.
shut up your literally 12 you havent experiened "life"
Hey.
Hey, you.
Yes, you.
You're the one reading this, aren't you?
Well, let me tell you something.
You need to know.
DON'T SCROLL, please..
I know, I know I'm a stranger here on the internet.
But, I guarantee you, you need to hear this.
Are you in a dark place?
You aren't alone.
We all were there, y'know.
Feeling Suicidal?
Please don't.
I think you matter.
Even if I don't know you, I still think you matter.
You are the best stranger I've met.
So, do something for me real quick.
It's quick, I promise.
Drink some water.
WAIT! DON'T WIPE THE WATER OFF YOUR LIPS YET!
Look, see how they shine?
See how they twinkle and glimmer?
it's like you.
Even in the tiniest bit of light, you shine.
If you want to take your life, think about something.
Out of the 7 billion+ people on this earth..
Someone out there, they think you're perfect.
They love you, so much.
Imagine how much you'd hurt them if you left..
even if it seems unlikely, I can assure you.
Someone out there, they love you.
So keep fighting.
You'll win, no matter how hard it is.
"Fight the storm to see the rainbow". Remember that, okay?
Good, I love you.
Stay safe, handsome/beautiful :)
this made me cry thank you
thank you, I really needed to hear this
Thank you for this, I really needed this.
THIS IS MAKING ME CRY I LOAVE U
I have never felt so happy and cried over a youtube comment,
Thanks alot.
This means alot to me and alot if other people reading this.
I hope all the best for you,
Stay safe
Stay awsome
i remember listening to this aproximately 1 year ago
im just glad its better now
if anyone is reading this it gets better never lose hope no matter which situation you are in right now
look at where im at again
dont lose hope if anyone reads this
im never going to get better am i
"nobody deserves to be with someone that destroys them, especially when they're unaware that they're slowly falling apart. i wouldn't wish this even on my worst enemy"
In this case I'm the one destroying myself lol (i see ur asexual flag dear)
"Im not depresssed.
i can smile and laugh during the day but then at night i
remember all the good times i had with her, and it hits deep"
same bro 🫂
least you had a "her" to have good times with.
same
@@RagdollWraith bro you are the only person i can relate to like everyone is saying she made me deppresed she broke up with me but we dont even have somone to call her it hurts way more when you dont have a person to call her
@@valenntynedi648 I appreciate this comment.
Tysm for this I well always play this cuz these are my last 2 month in this earth but for who ever is reading this live your life to the fullest and have fun while u can and always remember that you are beautiful no matter what ❤
are you ok?
Thank you so much
You know when your lying In bed and you’re having a mental breakdown and you just randomly think you really want someone to love you as much as you would love them and then you just leave the playlist when you sleep
"Wheres the old you? You were so much funnier then."
I honestly dont know where I went or what went wrong..
Honestly same thing with me…..
@@_mothy_1282 yea. But it's the other way around ppl like sad me. I'm quieter and more shy. I don't always run my mouth and I'm more "respectful" but they don't see that I'm unmotivated, tired, I hate myself, insecure, and overall just sick of existing tbh lmfao
@@haileiwallinga2505 help r you me?
The internet is basically my home. There's a lot of toxic people, but there's people that understand me more than people I know irl. Honestly, it hurts. I don't know why people that know me more than strangers don't understand my pain, but strangers do. I always wanted to talk to someone about my problems, but nobody in my life ever did. Only the people on the internet. One person in real life that would talk to my about my psin, and would relate to me is my best friend. I'm so grateful for her. But then again, why can't anyone else do the same?
Yeah... pretty much...
i miss being able to laugh and smile at anything. i tell everyone im tired, they say sleep, it’s not sleep darling.
smile at deez nutz darling
@@loquatic WHAT I
@@loquatic IM A LESBIAN
@@sneeblesnorp GAHA
@@sneeblesnorp r/wooosh
They say to talk to them and then when you do they just blame it on being a teenager. Yes I’m a teenager, but why does that make my feelings any less valid? When I tell you I’m in pain, why is it not valid? When I cry for help why is it not valid. Why am I never valid.
you are very valid
You are as valid as anyone else, please never forget that
Your a great person and you matter to me! Even though you may just be a random person on the internet I think your an amazing person and your gonna make it through this. Like they say, “you gotta fight the storm to see the rainbow!”
I think you matter
Every time I try to tell my mom how I feel she always says, “You probably are about to start your period.” Or “Your hormones are getting to you.” Not I’m not sure if what I feel is an illusion or I’m faking it or if I actually have a problem
@@simpsrus8861 same except ive never told anyone but my "best friend" who told me I have a great life and no reason to be feeling this so stop. I haven't told anyone about how I feel since then.
Sometimes, when I feel tired or when I need to think, there's nothing better than going to bed and listening to this while resting my head on the pillow
I'm not slowly dying!
*90 years later*
Shit they were right
“I’m so proud of you for always staying positive.”
“You’re so good at keeping up your grades- you BETTER not start doing poorly”
“You help the rest of us by staying happy”
“You’re the one doing the chores for the past week, I didn’t even know”
“Making friends isn’t hard, go get more”
-How can they not know how much I’m dying inside?
For a bit of context, I always have to stay happy for my family to keep up their morale, I have to keep my grades up because they can’t have more than one kid with bad grades (to them bad grades is anything lower than a B+)
brocken LMAO
thanks
start leaving notes telling them how you feel or spook them with the notes!
It might help you!
@@maxwell-auel haven’t heard that before, maybe I’ll try it
It’s been awhile since I’ve had serious problems with depression but I feel like in a way I was happier being in that state as I felt comfortable simply being in a corner and being ignored. Now I feel like I have to act normal and social but it just makes my stomach hurt everyday and I feel like I’m burning.non of it feels natural and it feels like I can’t go back to what felt like me now that I have all these people that except this version of me.
Young me: is growing up fun?
Older me: srry to ruin your dreams but no kid
Young me: how is it then?
Older me: it's like a dark hole you cant quite escape and u fall forever always leaking water out your eyes like a river- ...
man i'd love to cry... but i can't idk why... when im depressed it feels like im dancing in the dark
@@gab_2005 i feel the same
Same here bestie
yeah it is
If you get me asked this I would say: it's the same
*Ships don't sink because water is around them, but because water gets inside them. Don't let what's happening around you influence or weigh you down.*
Hope this made your day 1% better, love and support you all. you are valid!! ❤️❤️❤️
I fell into a state of depression on February of 2021 because of things that were happening in my life ( school, my parents being disappointed in my, realizing that I only have one best friend and our friendship is falling apart, etc). I’ve never been depressed before, I cried for like a month but then I just felt numb, nothing felt real, after that I started daydreaming for most of the day where it came to the point where the world I made in my mind almost felt real, in some way idk how to explain it. Like everything that happened in my world affected me in real life. Anyway about a week ago the depression ended and I’m so happy that it’s over but rn I’m crying because through all those months of me suffering, no one noticed what I was going through. And every time I would try to tell anyone, they would tell me that im being dramatic and I I don’t know what depression is like. .Sorry for making this really long I just had to vent
@@habidhernandez763 it's perfectly fine to vent, I went through the same thing no one noticed I was depressed. It gets better over time though, the people you meet may encourage you to do bad or good things. But you'll meet better people. Life gets better. Stay strong ❤️
@@creator-kun.1832 thank you so much. I hope you have a great day and life in general:)
Stay strong too ❤️
Do u think the ships decide that water will get inside of them? They can't control it nor escape it
ships also flip when theres too much weight on one side. also, when the sail falls on your head isnt fun.
I miss the days when everything was just so simple. I was just living my life and enjoying the things happening around me. Now I can barely get out of bed without a voice inside telling me I’d be better off dead. I’m way too conscious about my appearance and relationships. I’m way too conscious of myself and I cry almost every night. I wish it could be easier, even though I feel guilty because I’m fortunate enough to write this comment.
I just miss when I was happy.
I wish I was a kid again.
Sometimes strangers understands you more than your family, friends or anyone your close to or sometimes you just wanna be alone in your room thinking about life or stuff and thats ok i also do that I often think about why i was born, why am i even trying everyone hates me but i have to stay strong cause there might be somebody out there that does care about me
I wish i would know the people in the comment section in real life. You seem so nice and are so comforting with such a good soul
The saddest people are usually the kindest honestly
@@AnneDalton82, согласен, читая комментарий я получаю больше тепла чем от всех знакомых за очень долгое время😅
😂😂😂😂
pov: you used to be the golden child but u have just turned into a mess and you here because you know there's people like you here
Me: I ran out of tears to cry lol but I'll listen
YKWIM: starts playing
Also me: cries hard
same tho
I’ve not experienced much trauma but is it weird I’m crying at “somebody I used to know”? I usually vibe to it, but this, just seems so sad. My bsf did advise therapy because a lot of the time I feel sad for no actual reason. And I sometimes feel like a 3rd wheel. Like some people would be better off without me, but I don’t want to die, and ik my true friends and family love me, it’s just some others who I can’t let go of, I feel like I’ve lost a bsf going into year 8 since she seems closer with someone else, and we’ve known each other since we were 5. This hits hard.
TIME STAMPS:
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YKWIM? - Yot Club : 0:00 - 3:33
Hey Kids - Molina : 3:33 - 7:24
Chamber of Reflection - Mac DeMarco : 7:24 - 11:15
Fly Out West - Yot Club : 11:15 - 14:04
Freaks - Surf Curse : 14:04 - 16:54
Landlord - Yot Club : 16:54 - 19:30
Oh Klahoma - Jack Stauber : 19:30 - 22:25
Still Life - Sitcom : 22:25 - 25:58
Can I Call You Tonight? - Dayglow : 25:58 - 30:30
I Can't Handle Change - Roar : 30:30 - 34:40
Devil Town - Cavetown : 34:40 - 38:00
New Flesh - Current Joys : 38:00 - 40:50
Somebody That I Used To Know - Gotye : 40:50 - 45:36
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have fun
16:54 - 19:30 is Landlord by Yot Club :3
Thanks :>
@@Ultra_Hyper_ np :P
Life saver thankss
@@imselfish633 np love
The ,,its never like you ever tried to stay’’ hits different after your mother just abandoned you.
I’m so sorry but my first thoughts of when your mother abandons you is when you lose your mother at the store
@@ghostybat6890 💀
I’m so sorry man, also... I love your pfp
@@kayy8154 ⋔⟒ ⏁⍜⍜ :)
Am really sorry for you
This comment section is great. we're all people around the world, with only one thing in common: we're using music to cope with our pain. we're all strangers to each other, yet we're supporting everyone in need. thanks for that
true also whatever youre going trough right now it will be ok also my bother died 1 month ago he got shot
😂😂😂
@@valenntynedi648hope ur doing better man
@@valenntynedi648that must be tough
I like reading the comments and seeing some where people are becoming friends with each other we gotta take care of each other because nobody else will👍
I love the comments on these types of playlists, they're so relatable.