Hello every one! Please feel free to vent or comfort someone, and thank you for 1.93k subs I’m really thankful for all your guys support. I hope you guys feel better - me
Irl people call me fat ugly fatherless and online I seem to be really cool and the center on attention and it makes me smile and laugh but life is hard my parents fight but also they force me to things I don’t know yet and on vr when I don’t get stressed when I don’t know anything I have like maybe a small amount of friends irl but online I got 200+ friends I don’t understand am I not cool in real life or am I really ugly and don’t want to be hangout with my 3 besties forgot about me and I don’t think they would come to my birthday and it’s soon I wanna die but I have my online friends I got cheated on and used this world is cruel very and I get bullied by everyone even the teacher do I have a place in the world or am I not good enough please tell me if I belong here
@@Peedaweeee you deserve better.. everyone belongs in this world, everyone who calls u "fat ugly fatherless" is just like u, they need to be loved, they just have a dark spot in their heart and they let it out on you. please do not believe anything they say, you're worth it, everyone is
Don't worry about it man, life is like a jigsaw puzzle. And the last missing piece is a partner, the right one for you will come along eventually, and I've felt just like you for a while now. I've attempted to commit multiple times but I always turn to my loved ones. All you need to do is find the last missing piece of the puzzle. Love you man.
Real. It's because you don't see genuine happiness anymore in this world. So many people are fake in fear of getting judged by rude people. No one wants to help anymore because they're too tired from helping other people. Teachers are mean to their students because of how much stress is going on out of school in their lives, while kids act like who they grew up around, leading to more and more people's mental healths to lower. That's why you don't see much love in this world anymore. Most of it is lust, nowadays. :(
My point is, it's not just social media thats destroying us... it's school. parents and teachers are blind, though, and blame it on the devices, even though the only reason we use the devices is to cure boredom or to take a break. This world is losing it's love..
Oh! Hey kiddo, you found me. Rough day? I’m sorry kid. I can’t imagine how that feels for that one of a kind soul you got there. I know it feels like every day’s the same problem and you can’t help but feel terrible for letting everyone down… but keep that head for me kid. Tomorrow’s gonna get better and promise you, I’ll be there in your heart with you to keep you going to another good day! Push on kiddo, you got a stranger rooting for you!
I have friends...but tbh..I don't really have...because thier fake...and..it really hurts really...but..yk, how they say, life must go on..but I miss how I wasn't the person who was just stands alone while my friends talk..
I'm proud of you for waking up. I'm proud of you for brushing your hair. I'm proud of you for breathing. I'm proud of you for making your bed. I'm proud of you for eating. I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat. I'm proud of you for drinking water, I'm proud of you for being here. I'm proud of you for being you. I'm proud of you for smiling. I'm proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you. I'm proud of you for standing up. I'm proud of you for blinking. I'm proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed. I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth. I'm proud of you for standing up. I'm proud of you for sitting down. I'm proud of you for defending yourself. I'm proud of you for believing in yourself. I'm proud of you for simply trying. I'm proud of you for being alive. IM PROUD OF YOU.
To those who are isolated in their room and crying to these songs, know that you’re not alone and things WILL get better. It may not seem like that now, but it will in the future. When? I don’t know, but it won’t stay like this forever. There’s always some type of hope, even if you don’t feel it. I love you all. No one can afford to lose you in this world, no matter how horrible it is. You’re far too precious. Sending hugs to anyone who wants/needs one!
Thank you for spreading kind messages, I'm sure you're a kind person who wants to give hope.. I appreciate it, really appreciates it.. I been gone through alot but I'm always guilty that maybe someone who has gone through alot worse than me still can smile and be nice to everyone. I hope god blesses you dearie 💙 take care!
@@Limerant_Evangeline i feel you.. I couldn't say I *understand* because I didn't experience what you're experiencing... but I hope you take care okay? You been so strong.. 🫂
It hurts so much when you don't want to exist but don't want to die It hurts so much when you see the cruel reality It hurts so much when you realize that you are weak,
Hey stranger, its alright, you are loved, trust me. If ever feel like u arent loved, u are by me, and always will!! Sorry if this sounds strange or uncomf, ill be here to comfort u anytime. and remember that ill be here if u want to be friends, or if u got any problems. I may not be ur therapy, but ill be here to comfort u
@@RIPV-o2x even if it may not seem like it matters or very miniscule, a lot of us random people on the Internet love you. Just get some rest tonight and know that many people hundreds of miles away love you.
Man life SUCKS my crush said she liked me we used to text each other GN and GM almost every night I thought she had affection towards me turns out she was dared to say she liked me :) LIFE IS GREAT yes we are both under 18 don’t know what I was expecting (quick note if u wanna know how young I’m going through this I’m only ten :) )
I want to fucking cry.. it’s upsetting that people on the internet can help us better than our parents, friends, or counselors.. what a fucked up situation this is.. I hope I don’t wake up tomorrow..
If you get this, you did wake up and you kept waking up. The sun rise is a beautiful thing, id hate for you to never be able to watch one again. Tomorrow is a new day, and im proud of you for being brave enough to see it.
As a person who feels that way saying that may feel right but then you think how you are still backed up I meant one of my best friends online and they have helped me get through multiple crises but they disappeared and they where very depressed so I’m guessing they ended their life and even thinking about it makes me sad but I will care for you even though I don’t know you and you don’t know me but I will care for you and I know that the world is fucked and I just hope that one morning you wake up and are happy you woke up
“Pain for us, is like water for a plant. We need it to grow as a person, to get emotion, sensitivity, compassion, gratitude, & love. But too much can kill us.”- Zillion.
water is good for plants, it's healing and nice in all ways, it's good, too much good can kill yes, but it certainly is not pain, pain is bad- and then just worse untill we can't take it any longer and die, pain is the lack of water if anything, pain doesn't make a person grow, people make themselves grow to avoid pain, it's not necessary to be good, at all
@@twistedreality997 Thank you for your reply about how pain is unneeded and so on. But my quote as a message in itself is pain , like water, can hurt when there’s too much. However, in the quote I put doesn’t speak about healing and being comforting to others. Instead it was metaphor for too much pain can kill a person, like too much water kills a plant. But the pain is needed for a person to grow true sensitivity for when others are hurt to give empathy, or sympathy in the correct circumstances. The pain is needed to have gratitude and love for the things you cherish the most, if you don’t value them in the first place, and realise that later. Sure it may be unnecessary to be hurt and so on. But the pain is what makes us human, it’s what makes us humane to others that are hurt. Comforting them when they’re upset, lending a shoulder for them to cry on when they are hurt, and loving them even with their flaws. The entire point of the quote is to show that pain is needed for others to grow and prosper in life, because that’s how the harsh reality of life is. Killing others or themselves when too much pain is inflicted, or being insensitive and accidentally hurting others. But when people are hurt, and use that hurt to grow as a person, like plant getting water and using it for photosynthesis, they can act with the compassion, gratitude, & love for others. This may not resonate for you or others, but it resonates with me and the people that may feel similarly. As for I was hurt many times by my ex best friend, before cutting all contacts with him after. But that pain taught me how to be compassionate, and love my current best friend unlike when I acted insensitive in the past, due to me not experiencing pain, & therefore not having any compassion or gratitude for the people I care about. That pain is what taught me to be sensitive when my best friend is hurt. That pain is what taught me to cherish and love them. That pain is what taught me to be humane to them and others. But I’m currently experiencing too much pain within myself from the pain that my ex-best friend had given me, as that hasn’t been healed or used to grow as a person. Therefore, it’s killing me inside. This is what the point of the quote. Thank you for reading, and you may comment even if your view doesn’t align with mine, but that’s what makes us humans. In life we are always hurt and have our own views, that’s what makes us human
As I slowly dissappear I see light granting inner peace and death to the body as I look of into the last of me I asked why? I answered because you're not weak anymore as I see the last bit if dust disappear the pain comes back as the light given goes dark as I accept that I will alway be in the bad ending as I finsh my last bit of faith I answer goodbye... As I no longer see truth and the family and friend that seemed smiling were not smiling as the void end I realize that the reality is that I am no longer able to enjoy nor smile the end is near.
To everyone who can't remember the last time they got a hug, And to everyone who needs a shoulder to cry on, It'll all be okay. Just hold on a little longer
But I can't... Me : Everyone tells me that I should try more harder but I don't stop trying ! Staying Alive is already one of them ! People : "Stop it you just want attention"
I'm soo proud of you for working so hard and getting this far! I know you worked hard my love but it's time to take a break. It's okay to not be okay. Remember to stay hydrated and TRY to eat 3 meals a day! You are loved and i'm proud of you for opening up in the internet! I love you and don't give up!
even if you did something to be proud....sometimes just...knowing you did it is enough...........and hey- im sure someday you can tell someone about that thing and they say- "great job" ..and even if you dont belive my comment- at least your back at these songs to relax and cry again..right?.. have a good one
I don't know what you have done, but I'm super proud and you have been working super hard to get to where you are! Even if they are small or big steps in your life it can still be hard to overcome little steps! I just hope you have a nice day and know I'm proud of you, Dearly Danya
i'm pretty sure this is my last moment, i just want to leave without anyone noticing, btw thanks for reading, i don't know who you are but have a nice day
Please don't give up! Stay strong, because you're here for a reason and you deserve to be here! ❤ You're valuable, important and unique my friend! Stay! ❤
I’ve always gotten so excited when people compliment me, or anything positive. Then once, when my best friend said she was proud of me for beating her in our fav video game while she was at my house, i started crying. My parents asked why I was crying. I cry under any type of validation because my parents n e v e r gave me that validation I craved as a child. Here I am, 13, crying that my boyfriend tells me he’s proud of me for staying alive this long. Stay safe out there, love yall. -your fellow depressed child Edit 8/8/2024: I’m 14 now!! We broke up, but i’ve found someone better. Thank you all for sharing your stories, it’s helped me realize i’m not alone. I will continue to help everyone with what they go through in the replies. Also, rhanks for 400 likes!! I’ve finally started posting on my channel, so give that a looksee, i do anime edits!! Thank you for trusting in me to read and comfort you with your stories. -Love, your fellow depressed teen.
I feel the same way too! I dont usually get compliments or have someone say that they are proud of me, so the only few times that someone says those, I really really appreciate it and it stays in my mind and I never forget it. It feels great! :D
I really don't like seeing others unhappy. But when I look at myself, I just don't feel like giving that attention to me. I want someone else to touch my shoylder and hug me deep. Whispering that its okay and I can have the best cry of my life. Because crying is a coping skill for me and I hope others find it just as helpful as I do.
I feel that too. I don't feel anything for myself, but when others are struggling, I need to try to help them in any way I can. While I feel the need to cry too sometimes, I would love nothing more than to help others who are hurting. Anyone who needs to can reply to this and I will give my best encouragement. ❤️
Fr, I don’t give myself any attention, but I do give all 100% of my attention on others, and they don’t even care or acknowledge it, and it’s an exact description of a very kind person, someone that gives no matter what.
Please start giving your guy’s attention to yourself you all have so much potential you can really make a difference in your life it’s not just handed to you. You gotta work hard for it and trust me it will pay off I will gladly give you all a hug it really is going to be okay ig u want to talk about anything come to me I’ll listen and hear you. You guys are heard, respected, and loved I just hope a better future for all you kiddos
I just want kisses in my cheeks any moment of the day, hugs, nice words, paper gift, poems, smiles, compliments or anything... I just want to be loved by her...
that doesn't mean they dont love you, they want to make you have a bright future but they were being too hard on you, i hope they realize being too strict makes people feel unloved, sad. or maybe you can just do what their telling you to do so they wont be too harsh, strict to you that much lmk if u need something tho
@@mushroomkitty9995 people will always care, but sometimes they're just too scared to express how they feel so they Say nothing :)) they'res Always good people, of course theres bad people too ! But in this World, there Always has to be good and Bad people
I would hate that too kiddo there being a little to strict with you and I hope they realize just how tired you are. I would give u a hug right now just try to enjoy your moments your still so young and beautiful! With lots of potential and better future if u ever need to talk abt anything at all talk to me I’ll listen
Then dont be happy, be content. I dont know what you are going through or if youre through it already, but happiness is a journey, one step in front of the other
Timestampssss ⋆｡°✩ 0:00 - 4:40 no surprises by Radiohead ⋆｡°✩ 4:41 - 8:59 7 weeks and 3 days by Yungagitta ⋆｡°✩ 9:00 - 10:42 Jealous by Eyedress ⋆｡°✩ 10:43 - 13:06 haunt me (x3) by Teen Suicide ⋆｡°✩ 13:06 - 16:22 After Dark by Mr.Kitty
I realised something, its hard to love others when you don't love yourself but, its also hard to love yourself when others don't love you or at least don't show it.
If you can’t love yourself your heart has been emptied, there’s nothing to take or give, just emptiness. One day, there will be someone that will share their heart with you, you will both have one half, like a locket. It may take time to find that person, so let this digital version be a placeholder 🧡
Im not sure if you are a Christian but here; Jesus said to love others.. as yourself.. If you can't love others, what is there to love about yourself? If u cant love yourself.. What is there to love others?? However, ill not be forcing beliefs, just know that someone loves you even if that someone is unknown.. ❤️
@@ZaskiSF any time, just know I love you so so soooo much!!!! You are enough, you are worthy, you are perfect in every single way no matter what. Keep being you, because I love you just as you are
i just want to feel loved but when people try to love me in their own why it doesn't feel like anything... i take being insulted, hit, being called names, forgotten about etc but i just show everyone kindness and care what about me? like this if you have the same problem
The comment section is reviving my faith in humanity, a lot of people are being so nice and supportive. I wish I could see more of this in the world sometimes yk?
People say I'm scary, people say I'm a possessed doll, they call me frightening, something out of their nightmares and I just live with that, but I love I just don't get love back. I feel you
Hahahahaha finally someone who understands me finally someone who isn't givin whatever they want when they want they want to fuck up are lives lets fuck up theres
I have been stressing a lot lately and realised i am sort of getting paranoia and it's affecting my friendships and I think I have some disorder I don't know what because sometimes when I get happy I can do things without even thinking about anything people would think I'm crazy and now some of my friends hate me and I had thought 2 of my friends weree trying to ruin me I did so much for one of my friends and she was my pookie now she hates me and says she doesn't trust me I did so much for her even starved during school because she is too lazy to bring food for herself I have insomnia so I struggle a lot to sleep and that's probably making me go a bit insane I'm literally online like all the time it's like I'm addicted to devices I stress a lot and used to fear of being yelled at and I loved being centre of attention now I don't even like speaking to people and I don't even feel sad when some yells at me for something my paranoia is even making me feel like my bestie is plotting against me and it's troubling me because I vent to her but afterwards I feel like I am just being self centered and I sent an email again after about how her day was and trying to be kind because i was away from school on FRIDAY because my mum gaveu p because I had nnono uniform and she said I was unorganized and cringe and I didn't know how to respond to that so I didn't I am also an over thinker sswhen I'm not crazy and filled ewith happiness and being thoughtless so I'm feeling like something bad is gonna happen today since it is Monday my sister asked me who is in my friend groooup on Friday afternoon and shesaid I'll find out soon so now I don't think it's gonna be good news I already planned ahead for if my friends flicked me out of the group I'd just be a alone and edit yt videos to post so they would be better quality but I just get distracted easily I don't know what to do anymore I am just like I feel like everyone hates me because I seem so childish and I'm in high school I asked my bff what happened while I was away on I think k it was Wednesday and she said they just sat around and talked but whenever I'm around during lunches we play childish GGames I aM wRitINg MessilY BecAUsE oF l g
You know there's something wrong when you make everything about this fantasy world you created where you'd dream to be.. I just want to feel something other than anxiety and numbness is that too much to ask?
It’s not too much to ask. You deserve no anxiety and numbness, your fantasy worlds are your oasis, never lose them, they are a place where you can go, just close your eyes and let your mind wander to your lands. If no one is there for you to turn to, remember there are countless people in this TH-cam chat willing to comfort you, and even join you in your beautiful oasis. You are loved. I love you.
Time stamps: 0:00 - 4:40 no surprises - Radiohead 4:41 - 9:00 7 weeks and 3 days - Yungagitta 9:00 - 10:43 Jealous - Eyedress I forgot the last 2 songs names
POV writer Asra Frost at your service! You laughed as you shook your head, facing the ground. Your hands clenched at your sides so much they’re shaking at the pressure applied. Yet you smiled. Smiled and kept going, picking your head up to play your world of pretend. But this world of pretend is getting harder. Harder to keep, harder to hold onto, harder to fool those that can see. Yet as you smiled and carried on through the rain, not bothering to get under cover, you looked up and let lose the pain. You yelled at the sky as thunder clapped over your voice. The streets were empty today, the weather calling for silence other than it’s own war. But now, your done, letting the mask fall as you make your way home. The puddles of water calming you slightly as you walk through them. Oh how you wish you could fall through them and go somewhere else. How you wish that even if that happened, someone would care enough to look for you. And yet here you are. In the rain at 2am. And not one call. Not one text. Not anyone looking. “Hard to be worried when no one wants to see anything wrong.” You sighed and walked inside. Shaking the rain off on your porch before heading in. Your jacket and shoes abandoned at the front door. You made your way to the kitchen and begun heating up your leftover spaghetti. “Hm.. he used to like this.” You spoke to yourself before you once again let out a breath of air, grabbing a soda and sitting it on the counter before you headed upstairs to change your wet close before drowning yourself in movies. Todays like any other day. Alone to the world, isolated and fed up with the world. But, todays just one of many. Maybe….maybe it’ll get better. Just…hopefully so.
i'm gonna write the bad ending to this so here you go. Since this is the bad ending, this obviously is not gonna end and be all pretty and happy and harmless. So heed warning. TW:Violence and alcohol. i also write so, hope you enjoy this. You believe nobody cares about you. Maybe someone does? But either way... It won't make the slightest difference. You peer out the window from your house, the rain is slow tonight, almost non-existent, it's faint taps reminding you of its presence. You ponder your thoughts. What reason do I have to keep going? This endless cycle of smiling, acting. Like you thought about earlier, people certainly aren't fooled anymore. What do you have to lose? Nobody cares. You ponder once again, then wander to your fridge. You take some scotch, and pour yourself a cup. You take sips as you walk closer to your closet. You think again. Then you remember. You take a seat as the movie you selected continues playing. You continue to drink, and fill another cup. Then another. And Another. Finally, you feel dizzy, and slump back into your chair. It's 2:58 AM Now. You blink, and almost as if time skipped, it's 3:05 AM. You feel lightheaded, and still a little woozy. You get up from your chair, the anger and hatred, hopelessness, following you with each step. Your fists clenched. *Nothing Matters Now.* The weight of your steps shakes the floor a little, as you finally reach your closet and with your might open the doors. You can't see too well, it's blurry, You need a light. As you walk over to get your phone that you left on the couch. You trip, and fall. You lift yourself up, after droning on the floor for a few minutes, that is. The screen flickers on, and you turn on the flashlight. You re-approach the closet, your vision blurred, it's almost like a glitch from a video game, when you look, the frames overlap. You reach the closet, see your cases. And Box. You scrounge through your clothes, you haven't cared enough to wash them.. .It's been what? A week since you last washed them. Who cares. Christ.. This is messy, how could You let this happen? It doesn't matter, you remind yourself of that fact. You grab what you need, but it falls over, and makes a loud thud. These minor incidences are only increasing your rage. You suppress it once again. You then grab your box, and put it down. You hear the rattling of the brass and metal inside, the textures colliding to make the sound. You open it, and are greeted with your supply. Neat, you see a old magazine, but you don't have time to read a magazine like that, you need to focus on the more important magazine. The blaring audio of the movie is like static, you block it out, that must be the reason. Your hands flap around, then you grab the magazine you want. You begin to load. Round, Round... Round... Then it's filled. You put it aside. And inspect one of your beauties. It glares in the faint light of the tv screen in the distance. You take it out, and set it down. You reach for more... Grabbing all them.. You then load again, and again, and again. Finally, you're done. It's 3:24 AM Now. You grab another one of your.. Possessions. Magazine In. You cock it, the bolt clacks, signifying a round is chambered. Then you load the others, then you take out their magazines, and replace the lost bullet. This is the end. The end for you. You can't be helped. Your fury is going to be released soon. You throw all your things to the ground, safety on of course. Right next to your beloved chair. This movie is boring. When? When will I do it?? Tomorrow... Tomorrow. That'll be it. You then realize you forgot your shotgun. You grab your slugs, and load it up. Now you're ready. You drink, some more scotch. Then you scream. Scream for a brief moment, and slump back into your chair. You clasp your hands together, and look downward, taking in a deep breath. You drink some more, and more, and more. You fade out. You wake up at 6 am. Your head hurts like hell, but your head is going to go through a lot worse pain today. You look around your room. It's still dark out. You fill up a glass of water, and down it, then a few more. You use the restroom. You reach for your guns, and begin to bag them. All this ignorance. Hatred. Fury. THe world will feel the pain that you have today. All those that have ignored you, stepped aside. It is time for vengeance. They will feel your hatred. You open your door, you breathe in, and out, your breath is visible in the dawn cold. You put one of your bags in the passengers seat, by the drivers. The others, they stay next to your leg. You check once again, it's all loaded. Ready. You drive. You arrive. People walk in, thinking it's going to be another unassuming day, learning boring things. But oh boy, you're going to make this day one they will surely never forget. You open your car door, sling the bag next to you in the passengers seat over your shoulder, and carry in the rest, another being rung around your torso. You don't wanna be seen... But nobody ever even paid attention to you in the first place. You go to the bathroom. Nobody else is in here. The noise of the zippers moving can be heard through the restroom. It's the only noise. You feel the cold metal. You switch it to fire. *It's time.*
@@fatfag2290 this is amazing, but the ending wasnt finished when I did mine, I just left it on neutral for those that wanted to write their own endings and get ideas. I'm happy that you write as well! It's good to keep writing things you like. I use these Povs for ideas a lot do the time, and I was wondering if I can use mine ans yours as a backstory for one of my characters.
0:00 no surprises-Radiohead 4:42 7 weeks and three days-yungatita 9:01 jealous- eye dress 10:44 It was nice while it lasted-unjaps 13:08 After dark (extended)-mr.kitty
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! If you're reading, relax, Focus, and imagine the beautiful scenes in your head. And if you're playing games like me, Focus on your game and don't give up :D -Not mine, but pass it around guys
It shouldn't be something you long for. I'd hug you if I was with you 😭 *Hugs* ❤️ love u, stay strong and never let others bring you down with them, you deserve more. 👑
@@Aizen_33 aww, thank you so much! I wish you all the best in your life too. 🌟 You and me, we're best friends now. We just, we get it. We are the cool beans! 💕
If your in your room crying to these songs,it’s ok let it all out I’m proud of you for being you sometimes we need to cry,and that’s ok ,don’t worry, do something that makes you happy,be have a nice relaxing bath okay :) *hug*
i used to be so emotional but lately I feel numb inside. I dont feel happy, angry, or sad. I only feel numb and tired. Idk if this is a good feeling because im not sad, but also not angry. Everyday feels like a loop that plays over and over.
Vent to me, i swear i can relate, i had almost every problem on life: losing pets at a young age, learning about the real world at a young age, having family problems at a young age, being burnout at a young age..and i promise to not just say “im so sorry for u”
@@SereIthinknot yuh, and dauym a seungberry was not the person i expected, but by your brother? That mustve been hard, im a middle child with only sisters, so i cant relate or help anything, when i do, ill reply tho☺
My parents have been divorced for as long as I can remember. My mother wasn't really a figure in my life. She kept leaving, on and off again. She would leave for days, weeks, and even months on end. I never really missed her, as she was never really there in the first place. Whenever my mother was in the house, arguing, and fights would always happen. She would always attack my father, and harm herself in ways to make it seem like my father was abusive and hurting her. She tried to send him to jail more than once. I can remember vividly, I was 5 at the time and my younger sister was 2. We were watching a vocaloid music video, when I all of a sudden, heard cursing, and fighting, YET AGAIN for the 3rd time this week, (This was a Tuesday btw) Eventually I saw my dad leave the house for a while with my mother in the living room, pacing around, back and forth, muttering to herself. I, obviously as a child, didn't understand the situation, and my 2 year old sister DEFINIETLY wouldn't. I tried asking what was happening and why my father was gone and where he was going, because I wanted to go with him. I was brushed off. I remember having a really close and good bond with my father when I was younger. I guess that was because we were more of a family, even with my parents arguing and fighting all the time. After my mother finally packed her stuff and left, that's where everything went downhill. And I mean, *EVERYTHING*. Now, me and my father barely talk as we used to, and when we talk, it results in me crying or him getting upset, shutting me down, and making me upset/cry. I'm always being called an embarrassment, worthless, annoying, disgusting, or any degrading word you can think of, whenever I can't get something right. (I remember talking to my mother once during a visit, and I asked her why she left. She said it was because of my father. He would always berate and talk badly about her, it was like he was bi-polar. He was happy or fine one moment, then all of a sudden, he was upset, yelling, calling you names. I never really understood her because I believed the stories my father would always paint about her, that she was a bad person, and that he never did anything. But that's a lie, I kind of understand why she left. I know now, that none of them were saints.) My grades went down by a lot. (I used to score As on my report card and get 100s every single time without trying.) I felt so weighed down, tired, I had no motivation. How could I have been so happy to do all this when I was younger? My mental health is spiraling out of control. (Incoming trigger warning btw!) I've been self harming, as well as feeling suicidal and worthless, like my life has nothing worth going for me at all, or ever. I developed an ed as a result of constantly being shamed of my weight and looks. I used to eat a moderate to maybe a bit too much food (maybe that's the ed talking, I have no idea anymore), to not eating, or barely eating anything at all. It's caused me headaches, I've felt lightheaded, I've fainted/collapsed, blacked out many times before, as well was too weak at times to even lift a finger. My father constantly asks me why I do it, why I don't eat. And all I say is, "I'm just not hungry." He constantly says that I'm hurting myself and that I need to take care of my body. But how? How can I love and take care of my body that you now made me hate so much? Anyway. Whenever my parents would argue, or anything bad would happen when I was younger, I used food, drawing, music, and socialization as a way to escape from the cruel reality that I would, and could never have a "childhood." How else could I have coped when everyone in the household is like a turtle in their shell? Everyone puts up a mask and doesn't talk to anyone else about how they feel. I've thought about suicide, and have attempted more than once. I was never successful, and would always end up hurting myself more than before. But hey, I guess I deserve it, right? I've attempted to talk to my father more than once about me feeling suicidal, and my feelings overall, and I would always get brushed off. His most recent reply to me feeling suicidal was because I, "Wasn't able to do what I want". I feel like giving up, honestly. I feel like no one cares anymore. But I know that's not true. My younger sister looks up to me, calls me Mother, and always tries to help when she sees me upset/overwhelmed (Yeah, I'm female btw.) My friends always compliment and say how they miss me whenever I'm not in school, and they're just so supportive and nice- And my girlfriend. She's all I could ever ask for. (My dad is homophobic too, LOL) But for some reason, it's not enough. I feel so empty. So while you might be reading this.. Pretty long rant, I'm in a dark room, spilling out a chapter of my life story, while stressing out about school, and crying in my room. If you read all of this though, thank you, I appreciate it. Because, even though you can't really do much to help physically, listening makes a huge difference as well. So thank you.
I know it’s hard right now but I promise you it will slowly get better If your still in school try to talk to the teachers and find small coping methods if your father starts getting (⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️) Abusive I suggest going to the police I hope things get better my friend
Whenever I see a happy family eating ice cream together, going to the amusement park and just laughing with each other.. I tend to feel a sadness deep inside.. I find it hard not to stare and wish I could be that little kid who’s holding dads hand and being so carefree and happy.. I crave the love I was never showed while growing up.. I just want to be loved…❤..
Yeah seriously I spent my childhood up until now being 16 living with my addiction mother or my manipulative, mentally, and emotionally abusive father or both of them together. Seeing happy family’s honesty makes me depressed.
this playlist screams me-- its my birthday today and everyone forgot, so this basically makes me smile bc the songs are my exact taste and i dont have to skip at all, thank you.
Find something that you feel like you master to feel more confident and happy my friend! You can draw, write, sing, run, exercise, dance, be with friends/family. Remember to take care of yourself and those around you. Stay hydrated and active, eat enough and healthy. Go out for a walk and remember to be careful. You are worth a place in this world, never give up hope you can make a difference. You are strong, brave, independent, kind and genuine. You deserve to live a good life as much as anyone else, good luck on your journey! 💞
Heyyy! Its just a random person. If your reading this, i just wanted to tell you it is very informal, a lot needs to be corrected and has a lot of grammar mistakes
frick it ill vent how do you vent again? lmao. So uh just started uni life, scared as heck, not nervous but scared cuz its all fear and overwhelming feelings maybe because im turning into an adult. Lately i noticed that i started to feel like falling when walking or even standing nearby lots of people, doesnt matter if i know them or not which is really uncomfy for me. Usually its just sweating and wide eyes which apparently is very obvious according to some people. This 'nervous falling' or smth idk what to call has been bothering me alot, id rather get yelled and shouted by my inner voice than feel like falling in public. Other thing is that my plan for uni life is that i wanted to expand my social life which yup you guessed it, didnt work out. Not to mention i already planned it since after middle school ended whihc was uh 2 years ago. Went to college for a year, plan didnt work out, but i did talk more but hated it. Now in uni its only been a month here i can tell ill just stay the same. wish i could type more but idk im tired. Im afraid at one point in future ill just say "f-k it" and just yknow, end it, oyasumi moment. Ive planned and fantasized abt it for uh hmm a hella LOT. The thing that im worried about the most is the fact that i dont love myself due to these cuts, i got fresh and old what u want? hop outside a- forgor lyrics i dont like mumble rap anyway. Ive hurt lots of people and animals, yes im sorry, my anger management hasnt improved any bit but hey at least i only lash out my anger onto myself now, instead of some random cat or the walls or some random online friend i met on discord right? "he was a normal kid and you broke him" these words kept playing in my head recently, not about me but about someone i loved and hurt in the end because im a terrible person 4 years until uni ends will i make it? i dont know. Everything scares me especailly the future and the past thanks for listening to my ted talk and have a nice day
hi, dont see it like that, live the moment, i know yeah the same old phrase, but for me it worked, i used to think a lot, everyday, about the past. but know im close to finish school and i did some internship at local postproduction agency (yea i study graphic design / audio video) and last week they contacted me saying that if i wanted when i will get the diploma i could go there to work. So life's been good to me lately and i've been happy, i was really really sad some months ago, like 5 months ago i was literally planning my death but i didnt give up and kept fighting, and here I am. Life is good. And you can do it too, like me. Soo live the university in a good way, tryhard to be happy, dont be scared. Have a good day/week, life! - Thomas
If I have to stay single, I'll feel lonely, feel like I'll never feel love and have to see other people in a relationship which makes me jealous, so it's vital for me to be in a relationship. I bet this whole "love yourself in order to love others" and "the best way to catch butterflies is to stop chasing them" quotes are all a lie.
I am single too, but I have the chance to feel the need to have someone to love. I am like this, I know it's strange but I haven't felt emotions for a long time. If you want, we can talk a little, you will fell better after.
My parent’s love can be brutal, cold and psychologically damaging. They created a defective son with people/social problems who tries to attempts to break the cycle weekly, the son struggles to be different but starts fighting a side that reflects his parents each time he helps his siblings. He was raised by the internet and kids at school and the least his parents, he’s left broken from them all. He’s treated as weird for trying to mimic what he thought was the norms. He’s more sadder each year but somehow climbs back a little different each time like nothing has happened but doesn’t know how much more stress, anxiety and pain he can take. Each journey is more painful than the other, yet complete despair can’t take over him yet. Despite how hollow he can be, he gets emotional for his siblings for fearing they become as fragile like him and as hollow as his parents. He has dark thoughts about his own life and wishes he could start all over to see if he could actually find the same nostalgic happiness he had as young child and help his family before they turn out the way they have today, he’ll never know and is forced to keep on trying in the present but keeps on day dreaming what could have been a happier life. The ending is up to him but not every ending he wants is achievable without having restarts, which is as fictional as all his dreams. Let’s just hope he doesn’t give in. As he types, he’s fighting another battle.
It's been 4 months since you left this comment. I'm proud of you for hanging in there ❤ I may be just a random stranger online, but that seems to be the only ppl that understand or care. So yeah, I'm proud of you ❤ hang in there ❤ hopefully, one day, it will get better ❤
I just want to be loved by someone for real. To never fear of being alone again, to have a gf who's into what I like and be there to hang out instead of having to check a schedule for when they're busy. I feel like I'll never get that ever...
...I...feel the same I try to get out there and find someone and then get knocked down "friend zoned" over and over abandoned over and over again sometimes I think what if I just don't get up but if I don't, I will never find that special person we can't give up keep your chin up we will both find our special someone...one day we just have to keep searching
best friend of 4 years just said that we've grown too far apart and unfriended me today... i ripped up the bandana they gave me and cried on a friend i barely knows shoulder... as much as i wanna be mad as much as i wanna go crazy and tell everyone they were so respectful about it to the point i don't want to do anything because i still care. i don't want to but i let them so far in i cant stop caring anymore... i fucking hate this. the worse part was that they used my real name instead of the nickname they always use of mint...
I FELT LOVED. REALLY, REALLY LOVED FOR FIVE MINUTES. I HAVE NEVER FELT THAT BEFORE. AND NOW IM REALISING HOW FCKING EMPTY I AM ALL THE TIME WITHOUT IT. THIS ISN'T ME. THIS ISN'T ME. WHERE THE HELL AM I? HOW DID I GET HERE? HOW DO I GET OUT? IM DONE, IM DONE I WANT TO LEAVE NOW. THIS ISN'T MY LIFE, IT ISN'T MY STORY AND NOTHING MAKES ANY SENSE.
this comment section has honestly made me realize how often I avoid my problems and sadness and depression by putting on a fake smile, every tiny little feeling over the past couple months just came flooding back in
Just me scrolling trough these comments makes me a little hapier knowing someone is there for u and understands you Pov: ur life gets so deppressing you think if u died right there would anyone care🙁
My mom told me that she's getting me a therapist today, she said that there's something wrong with me, it might be the fact that I've been in a fire, I've been in an abusive family, I've almost been killed by a classmate, I've dealt with depression and anxiety since I was 6 and I'm deeply in love with someone who hates me all before I've even turned 14.
I hate my mom and my grandma. They try to put me into a mold I cannot fit and, make choices for me when I'm perfectly capable of making my own choices. The amount of times they lectured me because I liked something they didn't is tiring. I'm so tired of them. I'm so tired with trying to live up to their expectations. All I want is their validation, acceptance, and love and yet, no matter how hard I try, I get their feelings of disappointment and shame in return.
my mom and grandma are the exact same way!- my grandma is a hateful person sometimes who gets at everyone and thing and no matter what me or my mom do- she always finds something to nag about- and my mom is just a bit controlling- you should do this- or that- thats not correct- you cant do that- and any time i wanna talk to her about stuff like that- or stand up for myself- oop- now shes the victim crying- i under stand how you feel and theres gonna come a point where you jsut gotta...go do your own thing......even to there chagrin.....and once you do maybe they will reconsider things...........who knows? anyway- sorry about the rant just ive never heard anyone complain this close to home- have a good day-
I’m a living doll that my parents control. Told that if something is wrong to talk to them. If I do, I’ll be called names and made fun of and called names forever. I know that if I tell the the truth I’ll be kicked out. I’m trans and a pansexual. I hear enough slurs and yelling every day. School is tiring. It makes me want to go home, but home is tiring. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror without feeling disgusted or wanting to tear my hair out. My smile bothers me, so does my laugh. I want help but I’m too afraid to ask. I get sewer slidal thoughts from the moment I wake up. Music is the only thing that calms me or makes me happy anymore. My friend thinks I’m annoying. He talks bad about my other friends and he can get aggressive toward me. I hardly ever feel emotion anymore. I can’t cry, but I want to let it out. It’s gotten worse. Everything is just tiring anymore. Everything is boring now. I’ve tried and tried to be happy, but I just can’t seem to muster up the energy. I’m. just. so. tired. I’ve tried to leave this world but it’s never worked. My brother even tells me everyday that I should kms. I want someone to understand. Please. I just wanna smile again. I feel trapped, like a dog. Only leaving the house to go on walks and doing as I’m told. I want to run away. I want to be a stray cat. Go where I want, when I want. To be free.
i keep a journal. i keep it in a place where no one knows. no one knows about the journal or its whereabouts except for me. it helps me express my feelings and feel like im being heard even though im just writing. it feels nice to express your feelings sometimes. ive felt like i was in a cage for the longest. i was always told by my parents that our house was a safe space but it never felt like it. if i said something wrong that they didn't agree with it felt like walking on egg shells. journaling might not help you. i dont know you after all. but it sure as hell helped me feel heard. even though it was just a dumb book and i was writing to no one but myself i felt understood. all my feelings explained and written. it was comforting in a sense. the purpose of writing this is the same purpose of writing in my journal. im being heard. im explaining my feelings. except this one is on the internet. for people to see. but thats ok. its okay to express your feelings and concerns. its okay to not feel ok sometimes. if you felt happy all the time that would be unhealthy too. im glad you and i made it this far
but ignorance can haunt you, at least the true can lead to finality and acceptance, so take your pick on which you'd prefer, neither are right, both are wrong . . . i wish you the best of luck on whatever made you comment this
yeah, I made two friends recently and we have cried together we have laughed together, and we have shared our struggles, and I trust then more than any of my irl friends sometimes online friends can be great you still got to be careful though not all online friends are like that
As a 12 yr old girl, i cant believe how much people have gone through....im so sorry you guys feel these things, i do sometimes relate but hey, to people that are reading this, You are not alone. You are loved. Your skin isn't a paper, don't cut it. Your neck isn't a coat, don't hang it. Your body isn't a book, don't judge it. Your life isn't a movie, don't end it. You are gonna be the happiest person soon, i promise. There are people who love you. You can get throught these stuff you're going through. You are beautiful, inside and out. You are the reason why people smile. You can vent to me, i promise ill listen and try my best to comfort you, yes i am a kid but please, just give it a try :). You are really lucky. PEOPLE are lucky to have you. Your smile is very pretty. You are not ugly. You are surtainly not a mistake. Keep fighting, im cheering for you. Let all your feelings out okay? Hey... It's okay.. It's not your fault alright..? Don't blame yourself.. People love you, i love you. Ipromise, things are gonna get better soon Thank you for staying strong. I am so proud of you, for everything, okay? I am so proud of you that you came this far! You are very brave! I admire you :) Jesus, is very proud of you. You're not alone, yes life can be tiring, and that's normal! Just keep fighting just for a while, everything will be fine, i promise. Enjoy the .•♫•music•♫•. :)
Thx for the reassuring words, girl...I honestly don't feel like writing too much. I've feeling sad and not loved for three years. I'm surprised that we're the same age.
@@eduarduxu179 no no! You are love! You're loved by Jesus, by me, by your family members! I really hope you feel alright, keep fighting, I'm proud of you!
What I have gone through the past few weeks. I keep hearing these things for the first time... Thanks for this. Truly. You seem like the type of person I would truly love to know as an IRL friend. Thank you, again. I genuinely cried reading that. You may be a "kid" but you as a kid are better than every. Single. Person. I have ever met. A while ago one of my best friends that I tried venting to thought it was funny or something to tell my family and everyone I know about all my personal problems, so I have kind of dual personalities rn on that situation. Dunno how to feel. I have felt more emotions in the past week than this entire year. Thanks for helping me get through the week. Truly. Thank you. (Your writing is on point. I read the next line and it was as if I was having a genuine conversation with you. Thanks.) Edit: the person I vented to was one of my closest friends. She also was basically the first person I knew personally that I tried to vent to. I may never trust anyone IRL again... Yay... She is also moving permanently out of my State, so I could ghost her later.
@@dragongaming-nx3hl hey! I'm so sorry that happened to you, I really hope you have a great future/life. I'm always here to listen to your problems, I really don't know the person who made fun of you when you vented, but knowing that happened, she's not really a good friend. I hope you find someone better than them, you honestly deserve better.
@@MwaMwa-p9l Thanks. I am planning on probably ghosting them in a few weeks after they move, so I don't have to deal with that mess. I appreciate you being this kind. A few people I have met that were your type of kindness are the people that keep me going. Please help anyone you can. :]
The kid who ever one knows and hang out with them. They see them every day, that kid seem happy knows His friends so well. But no one knows what they like, no one and I mean no one knows anything about that kid. That is me
Is anyone else that one friend that is tild there that guy anyone can go to, to vent to, and that your kind and supportive, but your never anything more then that. No matter how much love you give you never receive the same love back. You will always and forever be "the caring friend" but never anything more
I would kinda qualify as that type of friend because I only want the best for you and everyone else I will help you in any situation and if you are feeling down I will try and help
Hello stranger! If you're reading this heres a reminder: You aren't a stick, nor a cow. it doesn't matter how your body is shaped. You are perfect just the way you are and i know things are hard right now and i can relate to your pain but don't give up yet! I'm so proud of you how you keep fighting. You probably don't even know me and i'm probably many miled away from you but i just wanna give you a really long and big hug to show you how proud i am. Don't change yourself for anyone, you are perfect the way you are, even if you don't see yourself as a perfect person, i see you as one! You are so strong, look how far you made it tru life. Don't give up now! You've lost a person? I'm sorry to hear that sweetheart, just know they're watching from above. My grandma always used to tell me that even if you lose somone, they'll try their best to guard you until death. You may can't see them but they're always there for you! somone broke your heart? They don't deserve you, you're a wonderfull person and you should take more care of yourself. They don't appreaciate ( idk how to spell sry bout that sweetie
i hate the fact that my goal is to leave all my friends. I don't hate them, I just hate the fact that i'll end up hurting and reminisce about them after school stuff. No one needs to put up with me. i don't have to feel dependent. Despite this, i just can't help but cry from the thought of missing them or hurting them by leaving them. This sucks
Appreciating what I have now isn’t that bad, it’s just tiring. Apparently one “are you ok?” can make you cry. Healing is a long time process but it’s worth it. (Sometimes) I hate being burned out, I always feel so tired, lonely and lazy. I miss the people who comfort me through screen. I love making someone happy, but why can’t I be happy? The impact for someone who’s being compared is heavy, it’s more than carrying a bag full of books. It’s like you’re carrying a mountain on your back that you cannot put down because the whole world might shake. I’m tired.
Thats a striking image... I'm sorry for your burdens. If you can, go to God and pray about it. Ask him for his help to bear that burden for you. “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 ❤
uh oh, i didn't expect to find you back here so soon. Things are getting bad again, aren't they? It's okay it won't always be like this. Things might not get better today or tomorrow but one day you'll feel okay, I promise. Keep your head up, won't you? You're not losing as long as you're trying. And don't stop trying I believe in you
You never loved me you love that i love you, You never cared about me you love that i care about you, You never wanted to be with me you just wanted to be with someone. To be loved feels so good isn't it? But why cant you love back? You didn't loved me you just loved my love
hello whoever's reading. hope your day's been great. I'm sorry for venting. long distance relationships hurt especially when i am touch starved. everyday, i get to hear my boyfriend feeling sad that he has to leave for school. he knows how alone i feel when he's gone and there's barely anything he can do. everyday, his classmates frustrates him, his school schedule blocks the path between me and him wanting to just be together. im 5 hours ahead of him, that's why it's so hard for us to hang out sometimes. it could be 12 am for him when it's 6 am for me. I've never felt his touch and sometimes i really want to feel the warmth of his hugs on the darkest days of my life. i just want to be fully loved. i want to be with him physically. how much i crave him. it's all so painful. i really hope there's a way we could meet up; no more sorrowful nights without him next to me. thank you for reading, whoever's reading.
I feel this...I was in a long distance relationship myself and it didn't work out. I'm glad you got someone who actually cares and I hope you two eventually meet each other
Warmth is all we want in our darkest moments, the feeling of someone we love holding us. One day you will see him, i cannot promise but i can only hope.
I just wish my mom took me seriously when I vent to her. I want her to understand that if I always stay on my PC, it's because the people I love the most are behind this screen and that they're not strangers to me. They may leave in other countries than mine but I consider them as my friends and she doesn't want to understand. It feels like she doesn't want me to get rid of all those suicidal thoughts. She thinks I don't love her anymore but if she at least tried to understand me a bit better directly and not forcing me to go see a psy, I could still love her like I did years ago. Also, I can understand that she's strict but telling me it's my fault that I'm not fine is a bit too much. I actually feel like she doesn't give a shit about how I feel. I don't feel loved by her. Neither by most of the rest of my family and especially my classmates. I just want more people to love me. One person is not enough for me when half of the people in my year bully me. I hte that, I hate life and I hate myself.
I'm sorry that your mom doesn't take you seriously and that you feel that people around you don't love you, I am always here if you need to talk. Just remember that I love you and you are perfect.
@@Melapurple A recomendation i can give you, is to try out christianity, it has helped me, a lot and am sure it can help you too! Just try it out, man. Hope the best for you.
I've hugged a lot before, but I've never felt the genuine care from a hug. When i hug someone, it's mostly me putting my love and concern into it, not the other way around. It's like im praying for their safety and wishing the best for them. I've never really felt the "love" from a hug, the genuine concern for my health and safety, the looking out for my well being, the feeling of support, the feeling of their presence.
Ok, im not gonna say that "everything is going to be ok" or " you aren't alone" because ive been in your boat. I know that that isnt ture or helpful. But i want you to know that if im on your side, i always will be. And even though i have no clue who you are, and we probably will never speak again, i care about you and want you to be safe. I understand youre mindset, its been mine for years. And if you find my words empty or pointless, thats okay, but its ture💛
All I have to say is, I didn’t ask to be born. I never wanted to be born. I just want to exit life, it’s the only way people can’t argue with me. I just want a hug, a real one. I’m done wiping my blood and tears on my sleeve. I’m done being called a crybaby for “little things”. I’m done being treated like a human built with no feelings. I’d do anything risky, I don’t care if I die. I hate my life. Edit: things are getting better, i hope it doesn’t turn around.
Hello every one! Please feel free to vent or comfort someone, and thank you for 1.93k subs I’m really thankful for all your guys support. I hope you guys feel better - me
I would vent to someone but the person I vent to said I vent to much and said to stop..
Thank you❤😢
Love the cover photo
@@graybain776 facts 💯
@@angelabowles1414Same but even worse it’s my fake friend
"how's your day?"
"it's "fine"
the french equivalent of "it's fine" to that question is "it's going" which makes me not guilty of lying as it is going but it's not good
I'm going to kill myself if I see a furry... 2:53
Why must this be so relatable T~T
@@philippey4918 yes. My dad says that you can tell people to "Have a day" not necessarily a good one. but have one.
Story of my life. God bless you
Pov: you just wait for someone to help you, but you know that they will never come to help you...
Honestly I used too and still feel that way a lot of times
THIS>>>>
Real.
I doubt that would ever happen.
@@Arsonistic-profetme too, we’re all just unloveable empty shells at the end of they day, and it’s better to accept that fact
the fact online people know us better than our parents or irl friends.
ik! People in the real world are just...cruel and...mean
Irl people call me fat ugly fatherless and online I seem to be really cool and the center on attention and it makes me smile and laugh but life is hard my parents fight but also they force me to things I don’t know yet and on vr when I don’t get stressed when I don’t know anything I have like maybe a small amount of friends irl but online I got 200+ friends I don’t understand am I not cool in real life or am I really ugly and don’t want to be hangout with my 3 besties forgot about me and I don’t think they would come to my birthday and it’s soon I wanna die but I have my online friends I got cheated on and used this world is cruel very and I get bullied by everyone even the teacher do I have a place in the world or am I not good enough please tell me if I belong here
@@Peedaweeee you deserve better.. everyone belongs in this world, everyone who calls u "fat ugly fatherless" is just like u, they need to be loved, they just have a dark spot in their heart and they let it out on you. please do not believe anything they say, you're worth it, everyone is
@@Peedaweeee man this is fucked up i love u ya know maby its the sad music but i love you i want u to know youre loved alr
@@Peedaweeee 💛🐝
Im surrounded by people who love and care for me, but at the same time, I've never felt more alone
Don't worry about it man, life is like a jigsaw puzzle. And the last missing piece is a partner, the right one for you will come along eventually, and I've felt just like you for a while now. I've attempted to commit multiple times but I always turn to my loved ones. All you need to do is find the last missing piece of the puzzle. Love you man.
you're not alone, at least in the sense that there are others out there who can understand you
The worst thing ever because it’s like my life is awesome and here I am weeping for no reason
Real. It's because you don't see genuine happiness anymore in this world. So many people are fake in fear of getting judged by rude people. No one wants to help anymore because they're too tired from helping other people. Teachers are mean to their students because of how much stress is going on out of school in their lives, while kids act like who they grew up around, leading to more and more people's mental healths to lower. That's why you don't see much love in this world anymore. Most of it is lust, nowadays. :(
My point is, it's not just social media thats destroying us... it's school. parents and teachers are blind, though, and blame it on the devices, even though the only reason we use the devices is to cure boredom or to take a break. This world is losing it's love..
Oh! Hey kiddo, you found me.
Rough day? I’m sorry kid. I can’t imagine how that feels for that one of a kind soul you got there. I know it feels like every day’s the same problem and you can’t help but feel terrible for letting everyone down… but keep that head for me kid. Tomorrow’s gonna get better and promise you, I’ll be there in your heart with you to keep you going to another good day! Push on kiddo, you got a stranger rooting for you!
I can’t wait to see that day you truly smile! 😊
daddy issues going crazy rn (totally not crying)
I cried as soon as I read the hey kiddo my dad died around 2 years ago and it sucks so bad for me
Its not getting better tho but its ok man! Thx for some motivational speech i really really need it
your profile pictureis so comforting
The kid has no friends in school….👇
Ty guys for likes❤️
Depends on how you defined having no friends because most likely out of a 50-50 percent chance you have friends😅
I have a lot of friends :) uhm....
I have friends...but tbh..I don't really have...because thier fake...and..it really hurts really...but..yk, how they say, life must go on..but I miss how I wasn't the person who was just stands alone while my friends talk..
I have friends... They just hate me... A lot
False friends, not have friends or feeling alone, different situations that are still just as bad and valid.
I'm proud of you for waking up.
I'm proud of you for brushing your hair.
I'm proud of you for breathing.
I'm proud of you for making your bed.
I'm proud of you for eating.
I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat.
I'm proud of you for drinking water,
I'm proud of you for being here.
I'm proud of you for being you.
I'm proud of you for smiling.
I'm proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for blinking.
I'm proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed.
I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for sitting down.
I'm proud of you for defending yourself.
I'm proud of you for believing in yourself.
I'm proud of you for simply trying.
I'm proud of you for being alive.
IM PROUD OF YOU.
I’m proud of you for everything
thanks Mom...
tanks, i really needed dis
I'm proud of you for writing this.
Thank you I needed this
Lets be honest the worst felling is crying but no tears come out 🙃
Yup i agree
not the worst but definitely not a satisfying experience
The Even worst is when your not crying but tears coming out 🫠
Yeah I just laying here thinking
I've taught myself to cry silently so nobody knows until they look at my face, which I can cover with my hair. 😎
funny and heartwarming, how strangers in the internet cares for us better than people we was hoping to get care from that we all need so much.
I agree
I agree. My mom called me a crybaby for crying after I got blamed wrongly by my sister and my mom got mad at me for not cleaning my table
@@vaterplays oof, damn-.. that's unfair. no one deserves to be treated like that tbh. are you okay now bud?
@KeyUploads k?
dude its something when im crying and reading comments
Timestamps + venting place! ✨
♥️ = Timestamp
💙 = By whoever made the song!
💚 = Song name
♥️ 0:00 - 4:40
💙 Radiohead
💚 No surprises.
♥️ 4:40 - 8:59
💙 Yungagitta
💚 7 weeks and 3 days
♥️ 8:59 - 10:42
💙 Eyedress
💚 Jealous
♥️ 10:43 - 13:06
💙Teen Suicide
💚 Haunt me (x3)
♥️ 13:06 - 16:22
💙 Mr Kitty.
💚 After Dark
Edit: After 1 year we have gotten 2k likes! Tysm everyone!!♥️
What a interesting way to put the timestamps very nice👍👍👍
@@Marbled_hands ty
Thanks! ♡
Thank you
TY
To those who are isolated in their room and crying to these songs, know that you’re not alone and things WILL get better. It may not seem like that now, but it will in the future. When? I don’t know, but it won’t stay like this forever. There’s always some type of hope, even if you don’t feel it.
I love you all. No one can afford to lose you in this world, no matter how horrible it is. You’re far too precious. Sending hugs to anyone who wants/needs one!
Thank you for spreading kind messages, I'm sure you're a kind person who wants to give hope.. I appreciate it, really appreciates it..
I been gone through alot but I'm always guilty that maybe someone who has gone through alot worse than me still can smile and be nice to everyone.
I hope god blesses you dearie 💙 take care!
@@flower7250 awe tysm! May God bless you as well! :)
Ive only gotten worse. even after going to therapy.
@@Limerant_Evangeline i feel you.. I couldn't say I *understand* because I didn't experience what you're experiencing... but I hope you take care okay? You been so strong.. 🫂
Thanks but I'm not aloud to Isolate my self in my room hell I spend one hour in there and my mom complains
It hurts so much when you don't want to exist but don't want to die
It hurts so much when you see the cruel reality
It hurts so much when you realize that you are weak,
it hurts when you dont know why your living anymore.
It hurts so much to know that you’ll never be someone known in this world
It hurt's so much when you want to love, but cant because you're too broken to.
@@SquidBux dont remind me
it hurts so much knowing no one wants to know you for you and not your body
I just wanna rest, i just wanna feel loved, i just wanna feel happy once again.
*William Afton*
Same
Hey stranger, its alright, you are loved, trust me. If ever feel like u arent loved, u are by me, and always will!! Sorry if this sounds strange or uncomf, ill be here to comfort u anytime. and remember that ill be here if u want to be friends, or if u got any problems. I may not be ur therapy, but ill be here to comfort u
Same
what is love
Being loved used to be normal,
Now its a miracle 💗
I know....
real
im starting to give up i dont think ill ever be loved
@@RIPV-o2x same
@@RIPV-o2x even if it may not seem like it matters or very miniscule, a lot of us random people on the Internet love you. Just get some rest tonight and know that many people hundreds of miles away love you.
i wanna cry in someones arms and i want them to tell me ill be okay and just support me. but dreams dont always come true...kill me please.
Take me with you.
I just want to cry free but my body won't let me lol
I wanna hug you, warm and tight. A friendly hug. I want to hug like this all people who want one.
I’m no touchy person, but you can be an exception I’ll give you a hug bro. It’s going to be ok man
Just wanted to let you know you aren’t alone on this feeling. I’ve been feeling the exact same way for a while. Things get better, I promise.
Man life SUCKS my crush said she liked me we used to text each other GN and GM almost every night I thought she had affection towards me turns out she was dared to say she liked me :) LIFE IS GREAT yes we are both under 18 don’t know what I was expecting (quick note if u wanna know how young I’m going through this I’m only ten :) )
Its not gonna get any better kid sorry 🙁
just reminder to who reads this if anyone even does
Thank you. I'm in tears. These are the words I've been longing to hear.
@@miyachinen5135 aw im so sorry ab that ml 🙁 i cant promise stuff will get better, but i hope just the littlest bit you will
@@DeletedUseraa1612db thank you sm 💓
@@miyachinen5135 ofc!!
Thx :')
i love how it’s random strangers from the internet understand me and how my parents don’t
Ye...
I just had a fight with them
that sucks man i hope you can find your people soon
Ya I know what you mean
@@mary-rb4yd so0ry for that i send my prears
I want to fucking cry.. it’s upsetting that people on the internet can help us better than our parents, friends, or counselors.. what a fucked up situation this is.. I hope I don’t wake up tomorrow..
If you get this, you did wake up and you kept waking up. The sun rise is a beautiful thing, id hate for you to never be able to watch one again. Tomorrow is a new day, and im proud of you for being brave enough to see it.
As a person who feels that way saying that may feel right but then you think how you are still backed up I meant one of my best friends online and they have helped me get through multiple crises but they disappeared and they where very depressed so I’m guessing they ended their life and even thinking about it makes me sad but I will care for you even though I don’t know you and you don’t know me but I will care for you and I know that the world is fucked and I just hope that one morning you wake up and are happy you woke up
i want you to wake up tomorrow.
i want you to wake up tomorrow too!
@@slejkson9980 :> good job young soljur
i need a hug man
I got you 🫲😊🫱
“Pain for us, is like water for a plant. We need it to grow as a person, to get emotion, sensitivity, compassion, gratitude, & love. But too much can kill us.”- Zillion.
water is good for plants, it's healing and nice in all ways, it's good, too much good can kill yes, but it certainly is not pain, pain is bad- and then just worse untill we can't take it any longer and die, pain is the lack of water if anything, pain doesn't make a person grow, people make themselves grow to avoid pain, it's not necessary to be good, at all
His love was as sweet as any human could muster up if it wasn’t fake
@@twistedreality997 Thank you for your reply about how pain is unneeded and so on.
But my quote as a message in itself is pain , like water, can hurt when there’s too much. However, in the quote I put doesn’t speak about healing and being comforting to others. Instead it was metaphor for too much pain can kill a person, like too much water kills a plant.
But the pain is needed for a person to grow true sensitivity for when others are hurt to give empathy, or sympathy in the correct circumstances.
The pain is needed to have gratitude and love for the things you cherish the most, if you don’t value them in the first place, and realise that later.
Sure it may be unnecessary to be hurt and so on. But the pain is what makes us human, it’s what makes us humane to others that are hurt.
Comforting them when they’re upset, lending a shoulder for them to cry on when they are hurt, and loving them even with their flaws.
The entire point of the quote is to show that pain is needed for others to grow and prosper in life, because that’s how the harsh reality of life is. Killing others or themselves when too much pain is inflicted, or being insensitive and accidentally hurting others. But when people are hurt, and use that hurt to grow as a person, like plant getting water and using it for photosynthesis, they can act with the compassion, gratitude, & love for others.
This may not resonate for you or others, but it resonates with me and the people that may feel similarly. As for I was hurt many times by my ex best friend, before cutting all contacts with him after.
But that pain taught me how to be compassionate, and love my current best friend unlike when I acted insensitive in the past, due to me not experiencing pain, & therefore not having any compassion or gratitude for the people I care about.
That pain is what taught me to be sensitive when my best friend is hurt.
That pain is what taught me to cherish and love them.
That pain is what taught me to be humane to them and others.
But I’m currently experiencing too much pain within myself from the pain that my ex-best friend had given me, as that hasn’t been healed or used to grow as a person. Therefore, it’s killing me inside.
This is what the point of the quote. Thank you for reading, and you may comment even if your view doesn’t align with mine, but that’s what makes us humans. In life we are always hurt and have our own views, that’s what makes us human
He was a fart, and she was blown away 😔😔
As I slowly dissappear I see light granting inner peace and death to the body as I look of into the last of me I asked why? I answered because you're not weak anymore as I see the last bit if dust disappear the pain comes back as the light given goes dark as I accept that I will alway be in the bad ending as I finsh my last bit of faith I answer goodbye... As I no longer see truth and the family and friend that seemed smiling were not smiling as the void end I realize that the reality is that I am no longer able to enjoy nor smile the end is near.
To everyone who can't remember the last time they got a hug,
And to everyone who needs a shoulder to cry on,
It'll all be okay. Just hold on a little longer
But I can't...
Me : Everyone tells me that I should try more harder but I don't stop trying ! Staying Alive is already one of them !
People : "Stop it you just want attention"
@@Apocalypse-V One day it'll all be worth it
I’m trying…but it’s getting harder
I'll try... I'll try... like I've always done
I eat bricks.
HELP I DONT REMEMBER WRITING THIS
I'm soo proud of you for working so hard and getting this far! I know you worked hard my love but it's time to take a break. It's okay to not be okay. Remember to stay hydrated and TRY to eat 3 meals a day! You are loved and i'm proud of you for opening up in the internet! I love you and don't give up!
even if you did something to be proud....sometimes just...knowing you did it is enough...........and hey- im sure someday you can tell someone about that thing and they say- "great job"
..and even if you dont belive my comment- at least your back at these songs to relax and cry again..right?.. have a good one
Hey, just know that this stranger loves you and is proud of whatever you've accomplished!
Yeah
I don't know what you have done, but I'm super proud and you have been working super hard to get to where you are! Even if they are small or big steps in your life it can still be hard to overcome little steps! I just hope you have a nice day and know I'm proud of you,
Dearly
Danya
i'm pretty sure this is my last moment, i just want to leave without anyone noticing, btw thanks for reading, i don't know who you are but have a nice day
@gokuok516 ?
Please don't give up! Stay strong, because you're here for a reason and you deserve to be here! ❤ You're valuable, important and unique my friend! Stay! ❤
i just want someone to hug me, no talking just a long hug.
I wish I could give you one
🫂
🤓🤓🤓🤓
@G Fox how is he a nerd
*hug him/her
Hope it will help ya, it's a pity that is not real, but at least it's still something for you
*Pet him/her softly
I’ve always gotten so excited when people compliment me, or anything positive. Then once, when my best friend said she was proud of me for beating her in our fav video game while she was at my house, i started crying. My parents asked why I was crying. I cry under any type of validation because my parents n e v e r gave me that validation I craved as a child. Here I am, 13, crying that my boyfriend tells me he’s proud of me for staying alive this long. Stay safe out there, love yall. -your fellow depressed child
Edit 8/8/2024: I’m 14 now!! We broke up, but i’ve found someone better. Thank you all for sharing your stories, it’s helped me realize i’m not alone. I will continue to help everyone with what they go through in the replies. Also, rhanks for 400 likes!! I’ve finally started posting on my channel, so give that a looksee, i do anime edits!! Thank you for trusting in me to read and comfort you with your stories.
-Love, your fellow depressed teen.
keep loving, ya doing a good job! 👍👍
Im sure that you're amazing in every way
You're amazing in every way!
Don't forget that, because I'm here for you❤❤❤❤❤❤
I believe in you, always strive for the best
be thankful for what you have, but try to get more.
I feel the same way too!
I dont usually get compliments or have someone say that they are proud of me, so the only few times that someone says those, I really really appreciate it and it stays in my mind and I never forget it. It feels great! :D
I really don't like seeing others unhappy. But when I look at myself, I just don't feel like giving that attention to me.
I want someone else to touch my shoylder and hug me deep. Whispering that its okay and I can have the best cry of my life. Because crying is a coping skill for me and I hope others find it just as helpful as I do.
I feel that too. I don't feel anything for myself, but when others are struggling, I need to try to help them in any way I can. While I feel the need to cry too sometimes, I would love nothing more than to help others who are hurting. Anyone who needs to can reply to this and I will give my best encouragement. ❤️
Fr, I don’t give myself any attention, but I do give all 100% of my attention on others, and they don’t even care or acknowledge it, and it’s an exact description of a very kind person, someone that gives no matter what.
Please start giving your guy’s attention to yourself you all have so much potential you can really make a difference in your life it’s not just handed to you. You gotta work hard for it and trust me it will pay off I will gladly give you all a hug it really is going to be okay ig u want to talk about anything come to me I’ll listen and hear you. You guys are heard, respected, and loved I just hope a better future for all you kiddos
I just want kisses in my cheeks any moment of the day, hugs, nice words, paper gift, poems, smiles, compliments or anything... I just want to be loved by her...
Hi...
Guys I found her, I love her.
🎉
I'm soo happy for you!
I hope you both last forever!!
Why you using periods? But I don't care, I hope you and her have a happy life together🎉
I hope you're relationship is going good . Wish You guys a good Future.
Just lost mine. The One (I thought she was the one)
Don't go loving her to much now
like my mom and dad forced me to study when, I am tired
im so sorry about that, school sucks. i hope they
realize they are pushing you to hard.
i hope you do better ❤
@@satorugoo no joke but I'm actually crying because I've never ever see someone care about someone else before
that doesn't mean they dont love you,
they want to make you have a bright future but they were being too hard on you, i hope they realize being too strict makes people feel unloved, sad. or maybe you can just do what their telling you to do so they wont be too harsh, strict to you that much
lmk if u need something tho
@@mushroomkitty9995 people will always care, but sometimes they're just too scared to express how they feel so they Say nothing :)) they'res Always good people, of course theres bad people too ! But in this World, there Always has to be good and Bad people
I would hate that too kiddo there being a little to strict with you and I hope they realize just how tired you are. I would give u a hug right now just try to enjoy your moments your still so young and beautiful! With lots of potential and better future if u ever need to talk abt anything at all talk to me I’ll listen
it's hard to be happy when you've been mentally beaten to the point that emotion is a foreign concept
Then dont be happy, be content. I dont know what you are going through or if youre through it already, but happiness is a journey, one step in front of the other
Timestampssss
⋆｡°✩ 0:00 - 4:40 no surprises by Radiohead
⋆｡°✩ 4:41 - 8:59 7 weeks and 3 days by Yungagitta
⋆｡°✩ 9:00 - 10:42 Jealous by Eyedress
⋆｡°✩ 10:43 - 13:06 haunt me (x3) by Teen Suicide
⋆｡°✩ 13:06 - 16:22 After Dark by Mr.Kitty
FIRST COMMENT THANK YOU SO MUCH
Yungatita*
thnx .:3
@@Somebodythatsnotme x
@@0000.SEVENN huh
Is it bad to not be able to cry anymore?.. my mom threw me against the wall and I was bleeding but I couldn't cry I just sat there
OMG, WHAT A MONSTER are u ok Budd ?
Loving someone is so hard when you can't even love or except your self.
I realised something, its hard to love others when you don't love yourself but, its also hard to love yourself when others don't love you or at least don't show it.
If you can’t love yourself your heart has been emptied, there’s nothing to take or give, just emptiness. One day, there will be someone that will share their heart with you, you will both have one half, like a locket. It may take time to find that person, so let this digital version be a placeholder 🧡
Im not sure if you are a Christian but here; Jesus said to love others.. as yourself..
If you can't love others, what is there to love about yourself?
If u cant love yourself.. What is there to love others??
However, ill not be forcing beliefs, just know that someone loves you even if that someone is unknown.. ❤️
To whoever reads this,
i love you
thank you
@@stamps19 no problem! I’m doing okay thanks, but I hope you’re doing good! Love youu!
Cant believe I'm crying thank you
Thank you very much for all this...
@@ZaskiSF any time, just know I love you so so soooo much!!!! You are enough, you are worthy, you are perfect in every single way no matter what. Keep being you, because I love you just as you are
i just want to feel loved but when people try to love me in their own why it doesn't feel like anything... i take being insulted, hit, being called names, forgotten about etc but i just show everyone kindness and care what about me?
like this if you have the same problem
i wish i could restart my life fr🙃
Me too
Same
yeah same
The comment section is reviving my faith in humanity, a lot of people are being so nice and supportive. I wish I could see more of this in the world sometimes yk?
YT comment section is polar opposite of Instagram comment section
@@null0357 lol
my faith in humanity will never be restored but it helps
@@null0357dont talk about insta
@@null0357 that’s an understatement, YT comment sections are the polar opposite of everywhere else, including in the real world.
sometimes, its just easier to be feared than loved…
So when you find someone who loves you- they'll love you for you- have a day- doesn't have to be amazing...just one you made it threw
People say I'm scary, people say I'm a possessed doll, they call me frightening, something out of their nightmares and I just live with that, but I love I just don't get love back. I feel you
Hahahahaha finally someone who understands me finally someone who isn't givin whatever they want when they want they want to fuck up are lives lets fuck up theres
Yea..
Indeed thats all we got now
So... are you okay? Feel free to rant on me, i'll listen... please don't cry anymore, im here by your side... I will never leave you, I promise
I have been stressing a lot lately and realised i am sort of getting paranoia and it's affecting my friendships and I think I have some disorder I don't know what because sometimes when I get happy I can do things without even thinking about anything people would think I'm crazy and now some of my friends hate me and I had thought 2 of my friends weree trying to ruin me I did so much for one of my friends and she was my pookie now she hates me and says she doesn't trust me I did so much for her even starved during school because she is too lazy to bring food for herself I have insomnia so I struggle a lot to sleep and that's probably making me go a bit insane I'm literally online like all the time it's like I'm addicted to devices I stress a lot and used to fear of being yelled at and I loved being centre of attention now I don't even like speaking to people and I don't even feel sad when some yells at me for something my paranoia is even making me feel like my bestie is plotting against me and it's troubling me because I vent to her but afterwards I feel like I am just being self centered and I sent an email again after about how her day was and trying to be kind because i was away from school on FRIDAY because my mum gaveu p because I had nnono uniform and she said I was unorganized and cringe and I didn't know how to respond to that so I didn't I am also an over thinker sswhen I'm not crazy and filled ewith happiness and being thoughtless so I'm feeling like something bad is gonna happen today since it is Monday my sister asked me who is in my friend groooup on Friday afternoon and shesaid I'll find out soon so now I don't think it's gonna be good news I already planned ahead for if my friends flicked me out of the group I'd just be a alone and edit yt videos to post so they would be better quality but I just get distracted easily I don't know what to do anymore I am just like I feel like everyone hates me because I seem so childish and I'm in high school I asked my bff what happened while I was away on I think k it was Wednesday and she said they just sat around and talked but whenever I'm around during lunches we play childish GGames I aM wRitINg MessilY BecAUsE oF l g
You know there's something wrong when you make everything about this fantasy world you created where you'd dream to be..
I just want to feel something other than anxiety and numbness is that too much to ask?
It’s not too much to ask. You deserve no anxiety and numbness, your fantasy worlds are your oasis, never lose them, they are a place where you can go, just close your eyes and let your mind wander to your lands. If no one is there for you to turn to, remember there are countless people in this TH-cam chat willing to comfort you, and even join you in your beautiful oasis. You are loved. I love you.
yes
Glad to know I’m not the only one. :’)
i stopped dreaming those weird fantasies about flying now i just want to be normal again :(
Time stamps:
0:00 - 4:40 no surprises - Radiohead
4:41 - 9:00 7 weeks and 3 days - Yungagitta
9:00 - 10:43 Jealous - Eyedress
I forgot the last 2 songs names
Ty
13:06 - 16:22 Mr.kitty - after dark
I forgot the name of the song before that one :")
4th song is haunt me(3x) I think
@@Aghoulwithinternetaccess oh yes. From 'teen suicide' ,right?
i eat bricks.
POV writer Asra Frost at your service!
You laughed as you shook your head, facing the ground. Your hands clenched at your sides so much they’re shaking at the pressure applied. Yet you smiled. Smiled and kept going, picking your head up to play your world of pretend. But this world of pretend is getting harder. Harder to keep, harder to hold onto, harder to fool those that can see. Yet as you smiled and carried on through the rain, not bothering to get under cover, you looked up and let lose the pain. You yelled at the sky as thunder clapped over your voice. The streets were empty today, the weather calling for silence other than it’s own war. But now, your done, letting the mask fall as you make your way home. The puddles of water calming you slightly as you walk through them. Oh how you wish you could fall through them and go somewhere else. How you wish that even if that happened, someone would care enough to look for you. And yet here you are. In the rain at 2am. And not one call. Not one text. Not anyone looking. “Hard to be worried when no one wants to see anything wrong.” You sighed and walked inside. Shaking the rain off on your porch before heading in. Your jacket and shoes abandoned at the front door. You made your way to the kitchen and begun heating up your leftover spaghetti. “Hm.. he used to like this.” You spoke to yourself before you once again let out a breath of air, grabbing a soda and sitting it on the counter before you headed upstairs to change your wet close before drowning yourself in movies. Todays like any other day. Alone to the world, isolated and fed up with the world. But, todays just one of many. Maybe….maybe it’ll get better. Just…hopefully so.
i'm gonna write the bad ending to this so here you go. Since this is the bad ending, this obviously is not gonna end and be all pretty and happy and harmless. So heed warning. TW:Violence and alcohol. i also write so, hope you enjoy this.
You believe nobody cares about you. Maybe someone does? But either way... It won't make the slightest difference. You peer out the window from your house, the rain is slow tonight, almost non-existent, it's faint taps reminding you of its presence. You ponder your thoughts. What reason do I have to keep going? This endless cycle of smiling, acting. Like you thought about earlier, people certainly aren't fooled anymore. What do you have to lose? Nobody cares. You ponder once again, then wander to your fridge. You take some scotch, and pour yourself a cup. You take sips as you walk closer to your closet. You think again. Then you remember. You take a seat as the movie you selected continues playing. You continue to drink, and fill another cup. Then another. And Another. Finally, you feel dizzy, and slump back into your chair. It's 2:58 AM Now. You blink, and almost as if time skipped, it's 3:05 AM. You feel lightheaded, and still a little woozy. You get up from your chair, the anger and hatred, hopelessness, following you with each step. Your fists clenched. *Nothing Matters Now.* The weight of your steps shakes the floor a little, as you finally reach your closet and with your might open the doors. You can't see too well, it's blurry, You need a light. As you walk over to get your phone that you left on the couch. You trip, and fall. You lift yourself up, after droning on the floor for a few minutes, that is. The screen flickers on, and you turn on the flashlight. You re-approach the closet, your vision blurred, it's almost like a glitch from a video game, when you look, the frames overlap. You reach the closet, see your cases. And Box. You scrounge through your clothes, you haven't cared enough to wash them.. .It's been what? A week since you last washed them. Who cares. Christ.. This is messy, how could You let this happen? It doesn't matter, you remind yourself of that fact. You grab what you need, but it falls over, and makes a loud thud. These minor incidences are only increasing your rage. You suppress it once again. You then grab your box, and put it down. You hear the rattling of the brass and metal inside, the textures colliding to make the sound. You open it, and are greeted with your supply. Neat, you see a old magazine, but you don't have time to read a magazine like that, you need to focus on the more important magazine. The blaring audio of the movie is like static, you block it out, that must be the reason. Your hands flap around, then you grab the magazine you want. You begin to load. Round, Round... Round... Then it's filled. You put it aside. And inspect one of your beauties. It glares in the faint light of the tv screen in the distance. You take it out, and set it down. You reach for more... Grabbing all them.. You then load again, and again, and again. Finally, you're done. It's 3:24 AM Now. You grab another one of your.. Possessions. Magazine In. You cock it, the bolt clacks, signifying a round is chambered. Then you load the others, then you take out their magazines, and replace the lost bullet. This is the end. The end for you. You can't be helped. Your fury is going to be released soon. You throw all your things to the ground, safety on of course. Right next to your beloved chair. This movie is boring. When? When will I do it?? Tomorrow... Tomorrow. That'll be it. You then realize you forgot your shotgun. You grab your slugs, and load it up. Now you're ready. You drink, some more scotch. Then you scream. Scream for a brief moment, and slump back into your chair. You clasp your hands together, and look downward, taking in a deep breath. You drink some more, and more, and more. You fade out. You wake up at 6 am. Your head hurts like hell, but your head is going to go through a lot worse pain today. You look around your room. It's still dark out. You fill up a glass of water, and down it, then a few more. You use the restroom. You reach for your guns, and begin to bag them. All this ignorance. Hatred. Fury. THe world will feel the pain that you have today. All those that have ignored you, stepped aside. It is time for vengeance. They will feel your hatred. You open your door, you breathe in, and out, your breath is visible in the dawn cold. You put one of your bags in the passengers seat, by the drivers. The others, they stay next to your leg. You check once again, it's all loaded. Ready. You drive. You arrive. People walk in, thinking it's going to be another unassuming day, learning boring things. But oh boy, you're going to make this day one they will surely never forget. You open your car door, sling the bag next to you in the passengers seat over your shoulder, and carry in the rest, another being rung around your torso. You don't wanna be seen... But nobody ever even paid attention to you in the first place. You go to the bathroom. Nobody else is in here. The noise of the zippers moving can be heard through the restroom. It's the only noise. You feel the cold metal. You switch it to fire.
*It's time.*
@@fatfag2290 this is amazing, but the ending wasnt finished when I did mine, I just left it on neutral for those that wanted to write their own endings and get ideas. I'm happy that you write as well! It's good to keep writing things you like. I use these Povs for ideas a lot do the time, and I was wondering if I can use mine ans yours as a backstory for one of my characters.
@@asrafrost89 I had to leave it on the implied cliffhanger. You can guess what happens. Thanks for the compliment.
@@asrafrost89 I also tried to keep it vague right up until the end.
@@fatfag2290 well you did good I loved the cliffhanger without too much detail
funny how my own parents hate me and an app loves me more than them
Yea...
* *You cried for help...but no one came* *
0:00 no surprises-Radiohead
4:42 7 weeks and three days-yungatita
9:01 jealous- eye dress
10:44 It was nice while it lasted-unjaps
13:08 After dark (extended)-mr.kitty
Thanks, I love you.
Thank you, wonderful human ❤️
I was looking for timestamps ty
Thx
@@Coraline-v6tme too-😀
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus
To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve.
To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time.
To everyone who is creating, you got this.
Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
If you're reading, relax, Focus, and imagine the beautiful scenes in your head.
And if you're playing games like me, Focus on your game and don't give up :D
-Not mine, but pass it around guys
@@ChloeMoon_ no problem! goodluck with the art homework!
Thank you, i'm gonna try to study for my exams that are next week and you gave me the perfect motivation I needed.♡♡
not even this comment is unique i saw this already in another video
Thank you, I think I needed this
im really sorry but my problem is i cant sleep im trying to while listening to the playlist but thanks
People on the internet care more then the people around me (:
i mean atleast the internet cares. cant say the same for me =)
I just want someone to hold me when I cry that shouldn't be to much to ask for , right?..
It shouldn't be something you long for. I'd hug you if I was with you 😭 *Hugs* ❤️ love u, stay strong and never let others bring you down with them, you deserve more. 👑
@@sophielily1 please . Dont make me cry 😭✋
@@Aizen_33 I promise you, I will never! 😭♥️
@@sophielily1 this was srs a very comforting conversation hope you have an amazing life whoever you are and ty 😭♡
@@Aizen_33 aww, thank you so much! I wish you all the best in your life too. 🌟 You and me, we're best friends now. We just, we get it. We are the cool beans! 💕
If your in your room crying to these songs,it’s ok let it all out I’m proud of you for being you sometimes we need to cry,and that’s ok ,don’t worry, do something that makes you happy,be have a nice relaxing bath okay :) *hug*
I eat bricks.
Thank you im crying 😢 much love
Thank you for the hug. ❤
I am crying now. I just need a hug and affection..
i used to be so emotional but lately I feel numb inside. I dont feel happy, angry, or sad. I only feel numb and tired. Idk if this is a good feeling because im not sad, but also not angry. Everyday feels like a loop that plays over and over.
I almost felt something listening to this playlist.
It's been too long.
I think I forgot how to feel.
Well... I hope you know, that your loved by someone ❤ I don't know you, but everyone deserves to be loved ❤ I'm proud of you for living :)
Vent to me, i swear i can relate, i had almost every problem on life: losing pets at a young age, learning about the real world at a young age, having family problems at a young age, being burnout at a young age..and i promise to not just say “im so sorry for u”
Bet, I've been traumatised by my brother and manipulated by three people. Anyways are you okay? Are you around better people now?
@@SereIthinknot yuh, and dauym a seungberry was not the person i expected, but by your brother? That mustve been hard, im a middle child with only sisters, so i cant relate or help anything, when i do, ill reply tho☺
@@Likes_Mochi I'm the youngest child
@@Likes_Mochi also I like mochi too 😁
@@Likes_Mochi it wasn't anything major to me but my dad says otherwise
My parents have been divorced for as long as I can remember. My mother wasn't really a figure in my life. She kept leaving, on and off again. She would leave for days, weeks, and even months on end. I never really missed her, as she was never really there in the first place. Whenever my mother was in the house, arguing, and fights would always happen. She would always attack my father, and harm herself in ways to make it seem like my father was abusive and hurting her. She tried to send him to jail more than once.
I can remember vividly, I was 5 at the time and my younger sister was 2. We were watching a vocaloid music video, when I all of a sudden, heard cursing, and fighting, YET AGAIN for the 3rd time this week, (This was a Tuesday btw) Eventually I saw my dad leave the house for a while with my mother in the living room, pacing around, back and forth, muttering to herself. I, obviously as a child, didn't understand the situation, and my 2 year old sister DEFINIETLY wouldn't. I tried asking what was happening and why my father was gone and where he was going, because I wanted to go with him. I was brushed off.
I remember having a really close and good bond with my father when I was younger. I guess that was because we were more of a family, even with my parents arguing and fighting all the time. After my mother finally packed her stuff and left, that's where everything went downhill. And I mean, *EVERYTHING*. Now, me and my father barely talk as we used to, and when we talk, it results in me crying or him getting upset, shutting me down, and making me upset/cry. I'm always being called an embarrassment, worthless, annoying, disgusting, or any degrading word you can think of, whenever I can't get something right. (I remember talking to my mother once during a visit, and I asked her why she left. She said it was because of my father. He would always berate and talk badly about her, it was like he was bi-polar. He was happy or fine one moment, then all of a sudden, he was upset, yelling, calling you names. I never really understood her because I believed the stories my father would always paint about her, that she was a bad person, and that he never did anything. But that's a lie, I kind of understand why she left. I know now, that none of them were saints.)
My grades went down by a lot. (I used to score As on my report card and get 100s every single time without trying.)
I felt so weighed down, tired, I had no motivation. How could I have been so happy to do all this when I was younger?
My mental health is spiraling out of control. (Incoming trigger warning btw!) I've been self harming, as well as feeling suicidal and worthless, like my life has nothing worth going for me at all, or ever. I developed an ed as a result of constantly being shamed of my weight and looks. I used to eat a moderate to maybe a bit too much food (maybe that's the ed talking, I have no idea anymore), to not eating, or barely eating anything at all. It's caused me headaches, I've felt lightheaded, I've fainted/collapsed, blacked out many times before, as well was too weak at times to even lift a finger. My father constantly asks me why I do it, why I don't eat. And all I say is, "I'm just not hungry." He constantly says that I'm hurting myself and that I need to take care of my body. But how? How can I love and take care of my body that you now made me hate so much? Anyway. Whenever my parents would argue, or anything bad would happen when I was younger, I used food, drawing, music, and socialization as a way to escape from the cruel reality that I would, and could never have a "childhood." How else could I have coped when everyone in the household is like a turtle in their shell? Everyone puts up a mask and doesn't talk to anyone else about how they feel.
I've thought about suicide, and have attempted more than once. I was never successful, and would always end up hurting myself more than before. But hey, I guess I deserve it, right?
I've attempted to talk to my father more than once about me feeling suicidal, and my feelings overall, and I would always get brushed off. His most recent reply to me feeling suicidal was because I, "Wasn't able to do what I want".
I feel like giving up, honestly. I feel like no one cares anymore.
But I know that's not true. My younger sister looks up to me, calls me Mother, and always tries to help when she sees me upset/overwhelmed (Yeah, I'm female btw.)
My friends always compliment and say how they miss me whenever I'm not in school, and they're just so supportive and nice-
And my girlfriend. She's all I could ever ask for. (My dad is homophobic too, LOL)
But for some reason, it's not enough. I feel so empty. So while you might be reading this.. Pretty long rant, I'm in a dark room, spilling out a chapter of my life story, while stressing out about school, and crying in my room.
If you read all of this though, thank you, I appreciate it. Because, even though you can't really do much to help physically, listening makes a huge difference as well. So thank you.
ily sm, good luck friend
I know it’s hard right now but I promise you it will slowly get better If your still in school try to talk to the teachers and find small coping methods if your father starts getting (⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️)
Abusive I suggest going to the police I hope things get better my friend
I'm sorry you had to go through all that, I really hope you get better soon
I hope things get better for you
you're so strong for getting through all this and im so proud of you (´▽｀) ♡♡♡ i know you can do it my friend i believe in you!! you're amazing ❤❤
POV: when you see a happy family anywhere and remember how you're treated at home
Whenever I see a happy family eating ice cream together, going to the amusement park and just laughing with each other.. I tend to feel a sadness deep inside.. I find it hard not to stare and wish I could be that little kid who’s holding dads hand and being so carefree and happy..
I crave the love I was never showed while growing up.. I just want to be loved…❤..
Yeah seriously I spent my childhood up until now being 16 living with my addiction mother or my manipulative, mentally, and emotionally abusive father or both of them together. Seeing happy family’s honesty makes me depressed.
@@elijahgarrett7860 I'm sorry to hear that lovely. I wish you the best in life, the very best.
@@euinswoo thanks that means a lot
“Thinking of you is a poison I drink often.” -Anonymous
this playlist screams me-- its my birthday today and everyone forgot, so this basically makes me smile bc the songs are my exact taste and i dont have to skip at all, thank you.
Happy late birthday! 💕
I can't remember the last time i got a "happy birthday" 🤭
Happy late birthday ❤
This was a month old, but happy late birthday!!!🎉🎉🎉
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳
YOUR AMAZING!!!
I maybe a month late, but happy late bday!
im very late but happy birthday. i hope you're doing okay
Im waiting.I’m waiting so long,nothing comes nothing changed.I’m still feeling empty for so long,so long…Idk anymore
Find something that you feel like you master to feel more confident and happy my friend! You can draw, write, sing, run, exercise, dance, be with friends/family. Remember to take care of yourself and those around you. Stay hydrated and active, eat enough and healthy. Go out for a walk and remember to be careful. You are worth a place in this world, never give up hope you can make a difference. You are strong, brave, independent, kind and genuine. You deserve to live a good life as much as anyone else, good luck on your journey! 💞
I know… it’s been rough as of late
hey, daily reminder that you deserve to be loved and happy, even if all you do is existing. love you :)
Thank you ❤
Thanks kind stranger, i needed that. 😊
I'm never loved
but i dont =)
"People cry at night so they can smile in the morning."
When i'm away from my family٫ I'm happier than ever.
i hope one day you can stay away from them forever one day, and live the happier life you deserve. ❤
same
same TnT
Same dude...
Heyyy! Its just a random person. If your reading this, i just wanted to tell you it is very informal, a lot needs to be corrected and has a lot of grammar mistakes
Thanks
frick it ill vent
how do you vent again? lmao. So uh just started uni life, scared as heck, not nervous but scared cuz its all fear and overwhelming feelings maybe because im turning into an adult. Lately i noticed that i started to feel like falling when walking or even standing nearby lots of people, doesnt matter if i know them or not which is really uncomfy for me. Usually its just sweating and wide eyes which apparently is very obvious according to some people. This 'nervous falling' or smth idk what to call has been bothering me alot, id rather get yelled and shouted by my inner voice than feel like falling in public.
Other thing is that my plan for uni life is that i wanted to expand my social life which yup you guessed it, didnt work out. Not to mention i already planned it since after middle school ended whihc was uh 2 years ago. Went to college for a year, plan didnt work out, but i did talk more but hated it. Now in uni its only been a month here i can tell ill just stay the same.
wish i could type more but idk im tired. Im afraid at one point in future ill just say "f-k it" and just yknow, end it, oyasumi moment. Ive planned and fantasized abt it for uh hmm a hella LOT. The thing that im worried about the most is the fact that i dont love myself due to these cuts, i got fresh and old what u want? hop outside a- forgor lyrics i dont like mumble rap anyway.
Ive hurt lots of people and animals, yes im sorry, my anger management hasnt improved any bit but hey at least i only lash out my anger onto myself now, instead of some random cat or the walls or some random online friend i met on discord right?
"he was a normal kid and you broke him" these words kept playing in my head recently, not about me but about someone i loved and hurt in the end because im a terrible person
4 years until uni ends will i make it? i dont know. Everything scares me especailly the future and the past
thanks for listening to my ted talk and have a nice day
hi, dont see it like that, live the moment, i know yeah the same old phrase, but for me it worked, i used to think a lot, everyday, about the past. but know im close to finish school and i did some internship at local postproduction agency (yea i study graphic design / audio video) and last week they contacted me saying that if i wanted when i will get the diploma i could go there to work. So life's been good to me lately and i've been happy, i was really really sad some months ago, like 5 months ago i was literally planning my death but i didnt give up and kept fighting, and here I am. Life is good. And you can do it too, like me. Soo live the university in a good way, tryhard to be happy, dont be scared. Have a good day/week, life!
- Thomas
If I have to stay single, I'll feel lonely, feel like I'll never feel love and have to see other people in a relationship which makes me jealous, so it's vital for me to be in a relationship. I bet this whole "love yourself in order to love others" and "the best way to catch butterflies is to stop chasing them" quotes are all a lie.
I am single too, but I have the chance to feel the need to have someone to love. I am like this, I know it's strange but I haven't felt emotions for a long time. If you want, we can talk a little, you will fell better after.
@@ItsRainyInFranceI wouldn't mind ty
I just want to be with someone so bad 😞
It is a lie. Life is bullcrap.
I had my heart broken today, and this playlist at least let me get a few minutes of escape from reality, thank you for uploading.
What’s the name? Him/her? Do u still feel sad cause I do after around the same time.
My parent’s love can be brutal, cold and psychologically damaging. They created a defective son with people/social problems who tries to attempts to break the cycle weekly, the son struggles to be different but starts fighting a side that reflects his parents each time he helps his siblings. He was raised by the internet and kids at school and the least his parents, he’s left broken from them all. He’s treated as weird for trying to mimic what he thought was the norms. He’s more sadder each year but somehow climbs back a little different each time like nothing has happened but doesn’t know how much more stress, anxiety and pain he can take. Each journey is more painful than the other, yet complete despair can’t take over him yet. Despite how hollow he can be, he gets emotional for his siblings for fearing they become as fragile like him and as hollow as his parents. He has dark thoughts about his own life and wishes he could start all over to see if he could actually find the same nostalgic happiness he had as young child and help his family before they turn out the way they have today, he’ll never know and is forced to keep on trying in the present but keeps on day dreaming what could have been a happier life. The ending is up to him but not every ending he wants is achievable without having restarts, which is as fictional as all his dreams. Let’s just hope he doesn’t give in. As he types, he’s fighting another battle.
It's been 4 months since you left this comment. I'm proud of you for hanging in there ❤ I may be just a random stranger online, but that seems to be the only ppl that understand or care. So yeah, I'm proud of you ❤ hang in there ❤ hopefully, one day, it will get better ❤
I just want to be loved by someone for real. To never fear of being alone again, to have a gf who's into what I like and be there to hang out instead of having to check a schedule for when they're busy. I feel like I'll never get that ever...
Jesus is always there... you never have to be alone again when you're with him ❤ and he loves you, for real.
@@the.seagull.35 not everyone wants jesus
Same bro
You dont need a gf to be happy, believe it or not. Thats what i thought, turns out; you only need a proper friend. Keep pushing brother.
...I...feel the same I try to get out there and find someone and then get knocked down "friend zoned" over and over abandoned over and over again sometimes I think what if I just don't get up but if I don't, I will never find that special person we can't give up keep your chin up we will both find our special someone...one day we just have to keep searching
best friend of 4 years just said that we've grown too far apart and unfriended me today... i ripped up the bandana they gave me and cried on a friend i barely knows shoulder... as much as i wanna be mad as much as i wanna go crazy and tell everyone they were so respectful about it to the point i don't want to do anything because i still care. i don't want to but i let them so far in i cant stop caring anymore... i fucking hate this. the worse part was that they used my real name instead of the nickname they always use of mint...
You know what I lose my only one best friend. Now it 2 mo ago but I read your story it just look like the same as me to.
I FELT LOVED. REALLY, REALLY LOVED FOR FIVE MINUTES. I HAVE NEVER FELT THAT BEFORE. AND NOW IM REALISING HOW FCKING EMPTY I AM ALL THE TIME WITHOUT IT. THIS ISN'T ME. THIS ISN'T ME. WHERE THE HELL AM I? HOW DID I GET HERE? HOW DO I GET OUT? IM DONE, IM DONE I WANT TO LEAVE NOW. THIS ISN'T MY LIFE, IT ISN'T MY STORY AND NOTHING MAKES ANY SENSE.
Hey its been a few days, I hope things are feeling better rn
@@the.seagull.35 yeah, im doing alright now :) thank you for checking in dude
real
this comment section has honestly made me realize how often I avoid my problems and sadness and depression by putting on a fake smile, every tiny little feeling over the past couple months just came flooding back in
same man
yep, me too
Fr, but I ALWAYS have a fake smile unless I’m alone.
genuinely, if everyone in these comments were people I knew, I'd die happily. everyone is so sweet ♡
That's because we're not afraid of being judged here, so we dare to show our true colors :) 🌟
can i be your friend :D
can we be your friend
@@Its_a_bakugou_lover
I’d be happy to end up being your friend i kinda need more friends after losing most of them :)
Just me scrolling trough these comments makes me a little hapier knowing someone is there for u and understands you Pov: ur life gets so deppressing you think if u died right there would anyone care🙁
My mom told me that she's getting me a therapist today, she said that there's something wrong with me, it might be the fact that I've been in a fire, I've been in an abusive family, I've almost been killed by a classmate, I've dealt with depression and anxiety since I was 6 and I'm deeply in love with someone who hates me all before I've even turned 14.
That's what we give but don't get it back, always goes in one unique way..
I hate my mom and my grandma. They try to put me into a mold I cannot fit and, make choices for me when I'm perfectly capable of making my own choices. The amount of times they lectured me because I liked something they didn't is tiring. I'm so tired of them. I'm so tired with trying to live up to their expectations. All I want is their validation, acceptance, and love and yet, no matter how hard I try, I get their feelings of disappointment and shame in return.
my mom and grandma are the exact same way!- my grandma is a hateful person sometimes who gets at everyone and thing and no matter what me or my mom do- she always finds something to nag about- and my mom is just a bit controlling- you should do this- or that- thats not correct- you cant do that- and any time i wanna talk to her about stuff like that- or stand up for myself- oop- now shes the victim crying- i under stand how you feel and theres gonna come a point where you jsut gotta...go do your own thing......even to there chagrin.....and once you do maybe they will reconsider things...........who knows? anyway- sorry about the rant just ive never heard anyone complain this close to home- have a good day-
Im proud of you for still being alive❤
The kid who gets yelled at for no reason 😢
I’m a living doll that my parents control. Told that if something is wrong to talk to them. If I do, I’ll be called names and made fun of and called names forever. I know that if I tell the the truth I’ll be kicked out. I’m trans and a pansexual. I hear enough slurs and yelling every day. School is tiring. It makes me want to go home, but home is tiring. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror without feeling disgusted or wanting to tear my hair out. My smile bothers me, so does my laugh. I want help but I’m too afraid to ask. I get sewer slidal thoughts from the moment I wake up. Music is the only thing that calms me or makes me happy anymore. My friend thinks I’m annoying. He talks bad about my other friends and he can get aggressive toward me. I hardly ever feel emotion anymore. I can’t cry, but I want to let it out. It’s gotten worse. Everything is just tiring anymore. Everything is boring now. I’ve tried and tried to be happy, but I just can’t seem to muster up the energy. I’m. just. so. tired. I’ve tried to leave this world but it’s never worked. My brother even tells me everyday that I should kms. I want someone to understand. Please. I just wanna smile again. I feel trapped, like a dog. Only leaving the house to go on walks and doing as I’m told. I want to run away. I want to be a stray cat. Go where I want, when I want. To be free.
Lmao thanks 🌝
damn, this is the deepest one ive heard. wish i could help
It's alright, one day, you'll finally be free from the cage and you'll be able to fly far and wide. Stay strong bud, we're cheering for you
i keep a journal. i keep it in a place where no one knows. no one knows about the journal or its whereabouts except for me. it helps me express my feelings and feel like im being heard even though im just writing. it feels nice to express your feelings sometimes. ive felt like i was in a cage for the longest. i was always told by my parents that our house was a safe space but it never felt like it. if i said something wrong that they didn't agree with it felt like walking on egg shells. journaling might not help you. i dont know you after all. but it sure as hell helped me feel heard. even though it was just a dumb book and i was writing to no one but myself i felt understood. all my feelings explained and written. it was comforting in a sense. the purpose of writing this is the same purpose of writing in my journal. im being heard. im explaining my feelings. except this one is on the internet. for people to see. but thats ok. its okay to express your feelings and concerns. its okay to not feel ok sometimes. if you felt happy all the time that would be unhealthy too. im glad you and i made it this far
you're in america right? go do some of the things america allows
The truth hurts, knowing it's true hurts more
but ignorance can haunt you, at least the true can lead to finality and acceptance, so take your pick on which you'd prefer, neither are right, both are wrong . . . i wish you the best of luck on whatever made you comment this
@@confusedfalcon1184 ❤️
It's truly a sight to see how online people are there for us more than our irl friends and family.
Es feo saber q esa es la verdad.
yeah, I made two friends recently and we have cried together we have laughed together, and we have shared our struggles, and I trust then more than any of my irl friends sometimes online friends can be great you still got to be careful though not all online friends are like that
As a 12 yr old girl, i cant believe how much people have gone through....im so sorry you guys feel these things, i do sometimes relate but hey, to people that are reading this,
You are not alone.
You are loved.
Your skin isn't a paper, don't cut it.
Your neck isn't a coat, don't hang it.
Your body isn't a book, don't judge it.
Your life isn't a movie, don't end it.
You are gonna be the happiest person soon, i promise.
There are people who love you.
You can get throught these stuff you're going through.
You are beautiful, inside and out.
You are the reason why people smile.
You can vent to me, i promise ill listen and try my best to comfort you, yes i am a kid but please, just give it a try :).
You are really lucky.
PEOPLE are lucky to have you.
Your smile is very pretty.
You are not ugly.
You are surtainly not a mistake.
Keep fighting, im cheering for you.
Let all your feelings out okay?
Hey... It's okay.. It's not your fault alright..? Don't blame yourself.. People love you, i love you. Ipromise, things are gonna get better soon
Thank you for staying strong.
I am so proud of you, for everything, okay?
I am so proud of you that you came this far!
You are very brave!
I admire you :)
Jesus, is very proud of you.
You're not alone, yes life can be tiring, and that's normal!
Just keep fighting just for a while, everything will be fine, i promise. Enjoy the .•♫•music•♫•. :)
Thx for the reassuring words, girl...I honestly don't feel like writing too much.
I've feeling sad and not loved for three years.
I'm surprised that we're the same age.
@@eduarduxu179 no no! You are love! You're loved by Jesus, by me, by your family members! I really hope you feel alright, keep fighting, I'm proud of you!
What I have gone through the past few weeks. I keep hearing these things for the first time... Thanks for this. Truly. You seem like the type of person I would truly love to know as an IRL friend. Thank you, again. I genuinely cried reading that. You may be a "kid" but you as a kid are better than every. Single. Person. I have ever met. A while ago one of my best friends that I tried venting to thought it was funny or something to tell my family and everyone I know about all my personal problems, so I have kind of dual personalities rn on that situation. Dunno how to feel. I have felt more emotions in the past week than this entire year. Thanks for helping me get through the week. Truly. Thank you. (Your writing is on point. I read the next line and it was as if I was having a genuine conversation with you. Thanks.)
Edit: the person I vented to was one of my closest friends. She also was basically the first person I knew personally that I tried to vent to. I may never trust anyone IRL again... Yay... She is also moving permanently out of my State, so I could ghost her later.
@@dragongaming-nx3hl hey! I'm so sorry that happened to you, I really hope you have a great future/life. I'm always here to listen to your problems, I really don't know the person who made fun of you when you vented, but knowing that happened, she's not really a good friend. I hope you find someone better than them, you honestly deserve better.
@@MwaMwa-p9l Thanks. I am planning on probably ghosting them in a few weeks after they move, so I don't have to deal with that mess. I appreciate you being this kind. A few people I have met that were your type of kindness are the people that keep me going. Please help anyone you can. :]
When you realize you dont have a lot of friends but a lot of people you talk to.
I'm currently crying in bed at 1:10 AM right now, this music made me feel worse, but better at the same time
I want to be loved by someone. I'm not downplaying family or friends, but I want a significant other. Is that asking for too much...?
The kid who ever one knows and hang out with them. They see them every day, that kid seem happy knows His friends so well. But no one knows what they like, no one and I mean no one knows anything about that kid. That is me
Is anyone else that one friend that is tild there that guy anyone can go to, to vent to, and that your kind and supportive, but your never anything more then that. No matter how much love you give you never receive the same love back. You will always and forever be "the caring friend" but never anything more
I would kinda qualify as that type of friend because I only want the best for you and everyone else I will help you in any situation and if you are feeling down I will try and help
That’s exactly me
WAIT THATS ALSO ME-
Me
me fr, I try not to think about it tho
Hello stranger! If you're reading this heres a reminder:
You aren't a stick, nor a cow. it doesn't matter how your body is shaped. You are perfect just the way you are and i know things are hard right now and i can relate to your pain but don't give up yet! I'm so proud of you how you keep fighting. You probably don't even know me and i'm probably many miled away from you but i just wanna give you a really long and big hug to show you how proud i am. Don't change yourself for anyone, you are perfect the way you are, even if you don't see yourself as a perfect person, i see you as one! You are so strong, look how far you made it tru life. Don't give up now!
You've lost a person?
I'm sorry to hear that sweetheart, just know they're watching from above. My grandma always used to tell me that even if you lose somone, they'll try their best to guard you until death. You may can't see them but they're always there for you!
somone broke your heart?
They don't deserve you, you're a wonderfull person and you should take more care of yourself. They don't appreaciate ( idk how to spell sry bout that sweetie
Thanks
thank you..
"How was your day?"
"It was good"
i hate the fact that my goal is to leave all my friends. I don't hate them, I just hate the fact that i'll end up hurting and reminisce about them after school stuff. No one needs to put up with me. i don't have to feel dependent. Despite this, i just can't help but cry from the thought of missing them or hurting them by leaving them.
This sucks
Appreciating what I have now isn’t that bad, it’s just tiring.
Apparently one “are you ok?” can make you cry.
Healing is a long time process but it’s worth it. (Sometimes)
I hate being burned out, I always feel so tired, lonely and lazy.
I miss the people who comfort me through screen.
I love making someone happy, but why can’t I be happy?
The impact for someone who’s being compared is heavy, it’s more than carrying a bag full of books. It’s like you’re carrying a mountain on your back that you cannot put down because the whole world might shake.
I’m tired.
Thats a striking image... I'm sorry for your burdens. If you can, go to God and pray about it. Ask him for his help to bear that burden for you.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28-30 ❤
uh oh, i didn't expect to find you back here so soon. Things are getting bad again, aren't they? It's okay it won't always be like this. Things might not get better today or tomorrow but one day you'll feel okay, I promise. Keep your head up, won't you? You're not losing as long as you're trying. And don't stop trying I believe in you
I needed to hear this so much thank you kind stranger I’m crying rn
I'm just a child..... but...
You never loved me you love that i love you,
You never cared about me you love that i care about you,
You never wanted to be with me you just wanted to be with someone. To be loved feels so good isn't it? But why cant you love back? You didn't loved me you just loved my love
hello whoever's reading. hope your day's been great. I'm sorry for venting.
long distance relationships hurt especially when i am touch starved. everyday, i get to hear my boyfriend feeling sad that he has to leave for school. he knows how alone i feel when he's gone and there's barely anything he can do. everyday, his classmates frustrates him, his school schedule blocks the path between me and him wanting to just be together. im 5 hours ahead of him, that's why it's so hard for us to hang out sometimes. it could be 12 am for him when it's 6 am for me. I've never felt his touch and sometimes i really want to feel the warmth of his hugs on the darkest days of my life. i just want to be fully loved. i want to be with him physically. how much i crave him. it's all so painful. i really hope there's a way we could meet up; no more sorrowful nights without him next to me.
thank you for reading, whoever's reading.
I feel this...I was in a long distance relationship myself and it didn't work out. I'm glad you got someone who actually cares and I hope you two eventually meet each other
Warmth is all we want in our darkest moments, the feeling of someone we love holding us. One day you will see him, i cannot promise but i can only hope.
Stay strong . Sometimes it's hard but you guys can do it !
I just wish my mom took me seriously when I vent to her. I want her to understand that if I always stay on my PC, it's because the people I love the most are behind this screen and that they're not strangers to me. They may leave in other countries than mine but I consider them as my friends and she doesn't want to understand. It feels like she doesn't want me to get rid of all those suicidal thoughts. She thinks I don't love her anymore but if she at least tried to understand me a bit better directly and not forcing me to go see a psy, I could still love her like I did years ago. Also, I can understand that she's strict but telling me it's my fault that I'm not fine is a bit too much. I actually feel like she doesn't give a shit about how I feel. I don't feel loved by her. Neither by most of the rest of my family and especially my classmates. I just want more people to love me. One person is not enough for me when half of the people in my year bully me. I hte that, I hate life and I hate myself.
I'm sorry that your mom doesn't take you seriously and that you feel that people around you don't love you, I am always here if you need to talk. Just remember that I love you and you are perfect.
"... but no one came."
Still your filled with Determination❤
why the fuvk did you write this
“Oh hey there.. you okay there kiddo? Here, have some candy”
🍬 *You got rock candy*
@@LazyArtyz to end myself
@@Melapurple A recomendation i can give you, is to try out christianity, it has helped me, a lot and am sure it can help you too! Just try it out, man. Hope the best for you.
“Life is the most difficult exam. Many people fail because they try to copy others, not realizing that everyone has a different question paper."
You shall motivate you're self,we all believe in you,we are all proud of you
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I have tried.. but everytime i do i just climb up this ladder and eventually fall down..
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I've hugged a lot before, but I've never felt the genuine care from a hug. When i hug someone, it's mostly me putting my love and concern into it, not the other way around. It's like im praying for their safety and wishing the best for them. I've never really felt the "love" from a hug, the genuine concern for my health and safety, the looking out for my well being, the feeling of support, the feeling of their presence.
Same. I wish I could feel that but I can't
Same here.
Same dude
I really hope i dont wake up tmr.
How are you doing? I am someone you can trust, but I will delete this this if you request me to! ^^
Ok, im not gonna say that "everything is going to be ok" or " you aren't alone" because ive been in your boat. I know that that isnt ture or helpful. But i want you to know that if im on your side, i always will be. And even though i have no clue who you are, and we probably will never speak again, i care about you and want you to be safe. I understand youre mindset, its been mine for years. And if you find my words empty or pointless, thats okay, but its ture💛
I thank you all for helping me ! I am feeling better for now :D
why did i just start crying?.... what is happening to me?..
All I have to say is, I didn’t ask to be born. I never wanted to be born. I just want to exit life, it’s the only way people can’t argue with me. I just want a hug, a real one. I’m done wiping my blood and tears on my sleeve. I’m done being called a crybaby for “little things”. I’m done being treated like a human built with no feelings. I’d do anything risky, I don’t care if I die.
I hate my life.
Edit: things are getting better, i hope it doesn’t turn around.
Man, I'm feeling it
I wanna to hug you
Sorry for bad english, I'm just learning👉👈
@@Valera_Kot Thank you very much. 🙏
Everyone Call me cry baby. But it's not my fault ? I can't control my eyes !!