Are You Okay? | Spoken Word Poetry

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    Lyrics
    I’m usually pretty good at putting on a mask, I mean I do it all the time,
    if anyone ever suspects something’s wrong, I shut them off with ‘I’m fine’.
    But today I was really struggling, and I couldn’t find it within myself to force another smile.
    It’s exhausting to keep up with this persona and I don’t want to live in denial.
    But knowing that wasn’t an option I braced myself for another day.
    Feeling myself getting agitated, hoping it’d go away.
    Everything was going wrong, I could feel myself about to burst.
    Emotions rushing to the surface, preparing myself for the worst.
    But then I saw someone staring, like they could see right through me,
    Sensing something was wrong they walked right to me.
    After a long pause they said, ‘Are you okay?’
    I had been asked this question many times before but there was something about the way in which they said it that made me feel like they actually cared what I had to say.
    Struggling to keep myself together I could feel my insecurities on display.
    My walls were crumbling down, I had a lump in my throat,
    My eyes were tearing up as I clenched on to my coat.
    My mask was my safety net - it helped me get through each day
    The only thing I could rely on, to cover up the hurt and pain
    and now my safety net was gone, I couldn’t find the right words to say
    cause how do you tell someone you’re hurting, that you can’t remember the last time you were okay.
    I couldn’t get myself to shrug it off, I couldn’t get myself to lie
    I couldn’t force myself to put on a smile, not this time
    I couldn’t make up some silly excuse, cause in this moment it didn’t feel right.
    So I did the only thing I could, I broke down and cried.
    They looked at me in a way no one has ever looked at me before,
    They saw me with my guard down, the me no one ever saw.
    They saw the bruised, the ugly, every humiliating flaw,
    And despite all of it they accepted me, and wanted to know more.
    They didn’t try to fix me but listened and gave me the choice,
    and I didn’t want to run away this time, so I gave my problem’s a voice.
    I talked and talked and talked, tears rushing down my face,
    and they listened patiently and gave me a safe space.
    No judgement, no pretence just love and support,
    and through communication and patience we built up a rapport.
    I had no idea how free it would feel to just get it off my chest.
    After months of it building up inside me, I could finally release and rest.
    Out of all the ways of dealing with it, who knew communication would be the best.
    For the first time in a long time, I finally felt okay
    Like I was heard and validated, like my feelings were justified in some way.
    That it wasn’t my fault and I had no reason to hide.
    If I just let all the anger out eventually the pain would subside.
    The burden inside would offload and I’d feel a lot lighter,
    My perspective on life would change and the world would become brighter.
    See the thing is we didn’t just talk, we connected and engaged.
    they opened themselves to me and made me feel safe,
    so I’m extending the kindness further and hoping to do the same,
    I’d like to ask anyone who’s struggling right now, are you okay?

ความคิดเห็น • 926

  • @jazmingisellebecerra5280
    @jazmingisellebecerra5280 6 ปีที่แล้ว +535

    My "friends" dont even bother to ask me if im okay ..
    I have no one to relay on but myself .

    • @HeyItsAraba
      @HeyItsAraba 6 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Jazmin Giselle I’m here for you

    • @mangomangomilkshake5744
      @mangomangomilkshake5744 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Same /:

    • @ariauk2
      @ariauk2 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I’m going trough something same right now :’)

    • @galaxyoldacc483
      @galaxyoldacc483 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Jazmin Giselle same. It would really make me feel good if someone even asked that because it would make me think someone actually cares but nobody in real life gives a shit

    • @STEVOLOVESTHAILAND
      @STEVOLOVESTHAILAND 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I care, 😢😍

  • @leeasyy
    @leeasyy 6 ปีที่แล้ว +290

    when you asked ''are you okay?'' something inside my broke down. i didn't cry during the whole video but then, i couldn't help it.

    • @shahdmohamed2180
      @shahdmohamed2180 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      lena bastet same here ....idk but i broke down when she said it

    • @mangomangomilkshake5744
      @mangomangomilkshake5744 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      lena bastet same it felt like someone could hear my pain

    • @kayleeanderson3416
      @kayleeanderson3416 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Shahd Mohamed same here but I don't trust anyone else at Smith's

    • @kayleeanderson3416
      @kayleeanderson3416 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      lena bastet I never show my feelings at Smith's

    • @Laylaissleeping19
      @Laylaissleeping19 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      When I feel bad I cry then I try my best to hold it back but if someone asks me if I’m okay I can’t help anymore cause I know I’m not 😞

  • @alyssab199
    @alyssab199 6 ปีที่แล้ว +848

    I am not ok

    • @paularancic6143
      @paularancic6143 6 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      Alyssa Barrientos what's wrong? You can tell me, I'll listen to you...

    • @poetastro0
      @poetastro0 6 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Alyssa Barrientos talk to a person close to you. That I believe would make you feel better

    • @msenasar
      @msenasar 6 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      (I promise)

    • @honeylovesmimi
      @honeylovesmimi 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Alyssa Barrientos im not okay..

    • @msenasar
      @msenasar 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Lps Tiffany 16 (i promise)

  • @tia6269
    @tia6269 6 ปีที่แล้ว +604

    Wow. Wow. Just wow. I don't know what to say because this one video made me burst into tears

    • @tiahanson5590
      @tiahanson5590 6 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Tia x Lilly it's been released for minute. You've been here for 37 seconds. You haven't watched the full video.

    • @marzipan9428
      @marzipan9428 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Tia x Lilly Your profile picture is fantastic. #TeamSuper!!

    • @kelseypienaar9113
      @kelseypienaar9113 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Tia x Lilly same

    • @hallehubbard3321
      @hallehubbard3321 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      I did the same... I love her poems they speak to me in an emotional way

    • @jayjay-12
      @jayjay-12 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Everything will be okay💛

  • @angel127_
    @angel127_ 6 ปีที่แล้ว +286

    i hide my mental breakdowns and panic/anxiety attacks from my family. it's become a habit.

    • @angel127_
      @angel127_ 6 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      i'm also suicidal. but i'm scared. i'm a big disappointment

    • @stanloonauglies9358
      @stanloonauglies9358 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      ani t. same. it's so hard and it sucks

    • @maureen6558
      @maureen6558 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      i feel/do the exact same. im always here for you though. insta - @kelpozz )):

    • @catherineclifton1757
      @catherineclifton1757 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I can understand that I have done that to for a long time until I got so I'll everyone could tell. Being happy just did not work anymore

    • @catherineclifton1757
      @catherineclifton1757 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@angel127_because scared does not make you a disappointment it make you human ok

  • @beth5128
    @beth5128 6 ปีที่แล้ว +129

    i have a feeling i’m about to be sobbing by the end of this

    • @shars3511
      @shars3511 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      bet h did u sob?

  • @whateverworld9081
    @whateverworld9081 6 ปีที่แล้ว +312

    Taz, you're like my last supply of oxygen that sends me back to earth to live once again. It's like meditation . You make me feel safe and belong to somewhere. I love u n if anyone hadn't told u this today , you're an amazing human being.

    • @iasminajusca3574
      @iasminajusca3574 6 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Whatever World You're so nice. I think the same way about her, she is just amazing.

    • @Audrey-tu7xk
      @Audrey-tu7xk 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      true lets stay strong

    • @azamireid3535
      @azamireid3535 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Whatever World 👏

    • @kayleeanderson3416
      @kayleeanderson3416 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Daisy Ho I can't be strong around any one anymore

    • @Audrey-tu7xk
      @Audrey-tu7xk 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      but we arent alone

  • @rhyb2732
    @rhyb2732 6 ปีที่แล้ว +104

    This was me the other day I could not force a smile for the first time and I was holding back tears since I got to school then my teacher made eye contact with me and asked me if I was okay and I couldn't find anything to say because I couldn't make myself smile and say I'm okay but I didn't know how to say I was hurt... somehow I held the tears and didn't break down but I just shrugged my shoulders and she asked what was wrong and I forced myself to say "nothing I'm okay" and walked back to my seat... I hate days like that it sucks that so many people like me have to feel like this daily it really breaks my heart :( people say "you're not alone" like it's a good thing but nobody should feel like this. I wish happiness was more powerful in more people lives ugh

    • @inbalbenbenishty6801
      @inbalbenbenishty6801 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Rhy B do you trust your teacher? If you do, you could try to talk with her. Teachers care. Or you could talk with me if you'd like that. ❤

    • @brittanyhoward430
      @brittanyhoward430 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Rhy B I'm sorry you had to do that. I can relate. I'm not sure if you'd like but I'm here to chat if you'd ever like to.

  • @yourspeachy
    @yourspeachy 6 ปีที่แล้ว +305

    Taz, your timing is always perfect.

  • @antigoni3856
    @antigoni3856 6 ปีที่แล้ว +557

    I'm not ok :(
    I'm suicidal and depressed but no one knows that except me.. I've been hiding it 2 years now..

    • @lizbethgarcia8881
      @lizbethgarcia8881 6 ปีที่แล้ว +28

      Antigoni Kou. You are loved and cared for I know how hard it is I know how hard it was for you to write this but guess what your a step closer to getting what you really need and that's to talk to someone about it it helps it really does and know you are brave for doing this for writing this you aren't seeking attention you are being brave

    • @thararadhapalaniswamy6045
      @thararadhapalaniswamy6045 6 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      hey,look up 7 cups and try using it.

    • @lea2315
      @lea2315 6 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      same but 5 years 🙃🙃 Keep going

    • @kaliarice6159
      @kaliarice6159 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Antigoni Kou. Me too

    • @Lisa-mv8sp
      @Lisa-mv8sp 6 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Antigoni Kou. You are not alone💗 there is always light at the end of the tunnel

  • @janeikawebb7324
    @janeikawebb7324 6 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    Im stressed and I almost had a panic attack in school, I felt all the pre warning signs. I'm not okay I avoid my homework and assignments as an attempt to avoid stress. I thought I over came this but now that I'm in a new school I find myself being more and more insecure. But I'm glad you asked, now because you asked I feel a tad bit better

  • @tinyrolal6745
    @tinyrolal6745 6 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    This is how I felt all throughout 9th and 10th grade. I went to one of the top 3 schools in my city. It caused so much stress that I would break down. I would eat less. I would stay up all night just to complete every single project and homework assignment that was given to me. I had suicidal thoughts. At the end of 10th grade, I decided that I wasn't going to be miserable anymore. Now I'm in a new school and for once in my life, I am okay.

    • @lea2315
      @lea2315 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      That's amazing!!🤗👏

    • @tinyrolal6745
      @tinyrolal6745 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thanks :3

    • @laurajimenez7878
      @laurajimenez7878 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      I’m in your situation but I can’t escape, there aren’t any easier schools in the city and when I’m moving here I wasn’t used to the level of abuse they take on students. I am responsible for myself and my teachers’ tasks and accountable for anything that goes wrong even if it’s beyond my reach. Not to mention getting good grades is the hardest thing, nothing is ever good enough and I’m constantly thinking about suicide. I’m not going to kill myself but a lot of the time I do want to.

    • @tinyrolal6745
      @tinyrolal6745 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Laura Jimenez I hope that things will get better. And they will. I'm sure of it.

    • @NA-mj8fy
      @NA-mj8fy 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Lil Cinnamon Roll good for you.

  • @zsofia_nagy
    @zsofia_nagy 6 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    This happened to me last year, before summer break when I was crying almost every day, losing track of school works, my grades getting worse, my school performance got worse and we had a presentation I didn't prepare for at all. I didn't even make it half way and I just cried. My class and teacher understood, because I've always put on a smile, always been the best student, always high grades and focus. But then and there I just couldn't continue holding that mask I had on for 3 years. I burst out in tears and everyone was quiet and patient. And then nobody asked me if I was okay. They just knew that I wasn't and respected my breakdown. So I resonate with this poem very, very much. It's insane how good you are! So real and raw! Love it❤️

  • @cailynholloway3257
    @cailynholloway3257 6 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    I started crying bc I will never have this mindset. I can't connect with people. I am not okay.

    • @trinitygolden5702
      @trinitygolden5702 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Cailyn Holloway same I don't really have friends I can be myself with. I can't connect with anyone I don't know why I'm like this

    • @787aida-rivers.a
      @787aida-rivers.a 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Cailyn Holloway same

  • @Farah-js6cg
    @Farah-js6cg 6 ปีที่แล้ว +90

    That came in just the right time ,taz I'm struggling with the same aspects ,I feel so in need to someone to listen ... but have no courage to try again cuz they made fun of me all the time ,that I'm pretending ..that it's all in my head ,when it's not ....I'm just tired. Of being ...tired

    • @Farah-js6cg
      @Farah-js6cg 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      cosmic wolf thank u so much ,knowing that this should come out from the people who supposedly care about me and not from u as a stranger breaks my heart a bit ,thank u so much

    • @fatima.aljanahi
      @fatima.aljanahi 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Farah aren't you the cute lebanese from twitter? i forgot your username lmao i sound creepy sorry yikes + i relate 101%

    • @Farah-js6cg
      @Farah-js6cg 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Fatima AlJanahi hehehhehe you're not 😆😆 u better send me a message there girl ✌💙

    • @fatima.aljanahi
      @fatima.aljanahi 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Farah nvm you're not the person i thought you were lmao you either look so much like her or that's not a picture of you but either way i really hope you feel okay someday and every nasty feeling and thought changes into pure happiness

  • @alisha9200
    @alisha9200 6 ปีที่แล้ว +61

    I am not ok. I have bad anxiety that makes me unable to concentrate. I have attacks inside of me. I feel un comfortable. I can’t deal with it anymore. My problems, my feelings in my life aren’t as bad as others. But I don’t tell anyone bc I feel like they will judge me. I want that person taz was talking about to happen to me. I need someone like that. But. No. My problems are stupid, no one cares. So nevermind. I’ll keep it in another place inside my Brain. So I don’t annoy, or upset anyone by being a idiot and overreacting. It’s fine. I’ll smile and laugh like I’m okay cause I am right? I’m fine.

    • @kayley9331
      @kayley9331 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      a xo I get it ❤️

    • @trinitygolden5702
      @trinitygolden5702 6 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      a xo I'm not gonna lie my situation is the exact same every last detail u said is me. I wish I was OK. I'm uncomfortable around everyone except my family. I have no friends that I can connect with because I don't show me true personality. All I am at school is the shy nobody you doesn't talk and no one remembers her name. I'm tired of being like this. I'm going to see a therapist soon. I just hope that she/he can fix my problems because their just getting worse. I think I have depression. I'm not ok and I wish I was

    • @aisha-we8jx
      @aisha-we8jx 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Alisha Chavda This hits me hard, i deal with exact same problems as you. I just feel like i need to hide it away, because no one will be there. ❤

    • @justapixarlampxd2268
      @justapixarlampxd2268 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      I’m in the same boat you are

    • @alisha9200
      @alisha9200 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @Zinnia27 you have no idea how much this means to me. I can’t believe I even wrote that comment online but thank u so much... honestly, my mental state hasn’t improved but I’ve definitely found a coping mechanism, even though it’s not a person. but thank you for asking, I hope you have a wonderful day❤️

  • @tamx6048
    @tamx6048 6 ปีที่แล้ว +64

    This came at the right time😢❤

  • @zaraayubi9100
    @zaraayubi9100 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Made me cry at the end when she said “are u okay”

  • @charlizeandmadesonmiradi1522
    @charlizeandmadesonmiradi1522 6 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    I don't usually comment on people's videos but your videos have always inspired me after months and months of dealing with depression you were the person that spoke the exact feeling that was going through me x thank you for making these videos

    • @justjs32
      @justjs32 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      th-cam.com/video/tmHXEnmgbvc/w-d-xo.html

  • @userheaa
    @userheaa 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I just wanna hug all these beings down these comments, I love you all❤️😩🙌

  • @sarakhan-kk8bw
    @sarakhan-kk8bw 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I am not okay at all, feel alone and depressed, when u asked the question 'am I okay' ever emotional that is was hiding just came running down my eyes with tears..

  • @briannaruano972
    @briannaruano972 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I was hanging out eith friends but I felt out of place and sad. My insecurities got the best of me and the one person who asked me if I was okay was the person who always says "I hate everyone." He is the only person who's ever said "I know you're not fine." Even though I was sad it was also the best feeling because I knew that someone finally cared. He'll always be very important to me and is the reason why I relate so much to this.

  • @wolfmaiden5110
    @wolfmaiden5110 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Taz this really speaks to me. I went so long just lying to people when they asked me if I was okay and in a way I got comfortable with the lie because it was all I knew. Then one day, it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, but I let someone help me, I just decided there was no more lies. l It felt like I’d just let someone finally see the real me, stopped hiding years of pain and hurt and self hatred. It just all came out in a rush and I feel like I’m finally learning to trust again, because this person has become the platonic love of my life. They’ve seen the horrible ugly parts of me that I’ve been disgusted by, and despite everything I feel is wrong with me they still want me around and still continue to show me all the love and support I could ever ask for. I am so so lucky that I have this person in my life right now, they’re more than I could ever ask for.

  • @xhobisunshine2465
    @xhobisunshine2465 6 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Your poems speak such truth. I have been feeling so depressed and lonely these past couple months. People ask me if I'm okay, but I just say everything's fine when really it's not. I break down almost every night because I just feel like giving up. It's a feeling I don't like having.. especially at 15 years old. I'm not okay.. I'm not okay at all. Three of my closest "friends" don't talk to me anymore. They see me, they pass me, they act like I'm not even there. You know what really fucking sucks? I really thought they were my friends. They're not. I feel like giving up.. There's other issues going on inside my life besides that which are even worse. My life is falling apart. I'm not okay.

    • @tap4t780
      @tap4t780 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      xXSugarKookieXx i feel the same way...everyday...i walk throughout school and random ppl ask me if im ok...i say im fine and walk past them like nothing happened...teachers are always trying to comfort me at school but...it makes me very uncomfotable

    • @ashleyzimmerman5762
      @ashleyzimmerman5762 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      I'm sorry that you have/had to go through that. I hope that you are doing better, considering that it's been a year since you posted this but if you aren't then I am always open for a conversation/support. I care about you!

  • @Sleepy1809
    @Sleepy1809 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I keep telling myself that everything is gonna be okay although i know that it would not be okay, i tried to look happy, everyone thinks my life is perfect but it's actually hard...very hard and everyday i cried before sleep again, hoping that everything is gonna be okay which in reality it's just a fairytale exlectation because life is not okay, especially living in cruel society..

  • @elisalack
    @elisalack 6 ปีที่แล้ว +24

    I am speechless.

  • @VinoVenitas
    @VinoVenitas 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    "How do you tell someone you're hurting?" That was the line that really touched my soul. Amazing. Well done.

  • @daviebevan
    @daviebevan 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I just come back from a three hour course re: Depression.
    This was held by the local Mental Health department.
    They played this at the end of the course. I was listening and struggling to hold back the tears. The girl across the table was with tears down her cheeks, just to let you know I have subscribed. You are brilliant.

  • @michellehorings1973
    @michellehorings1973 6 ปีที่แล้ว +41

    No I'm not okay

    • @sixrats4560
      @sixrats4560 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Michelle Horings you will be soon

    • @ashleyzimmerman5762
      @ashleyzimmerman5762 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      If you need someone to talk to then I'm here for you. I care about you!

  • @MrAlikyo
    @MrAlikyo 6 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I start crying after the last question... are you ok ?

  • @Mel-rz6uz
    @Mel-rz6uz 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I‘m crying and I cannot stop my tears.

  • @chocolatecheese770
    @chocolatecheese770 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    The last "are you okay?" break my wall of tears at 2 am

  • @caro_hglt
    @caro_hglt 6 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I am actually not really okay and wish I could tell someone but somehow I don't know anyone who would listen and care about me.. So all my pain is kind of stuck inside my throat.😶
    I wanna thank you Taz for your vids, I feel like someone in this world knows exactly with what I am struggling right now. 💕 That comfort me a bit🌹

    • @sajlaanees1627
      @sajlaanees1627 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      How are you today? Are you okay?

    • @raiiven5268
      @raiiven5268 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      karrolynahh 298 It’s been 3 years.
      I hope you’re better now

    • @caro_hglt
      @caro_hglt 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@raiiven5268 oh i totally forgot this... It is heartbreaking to remember that at one point in my life I was this broken young girl. I'm better now, I still sometimes feel like life is not worth it but I try to see the good things in life. Thank you for asking

    • @caro_hglt
      @caro_hglt 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      For those who are struggling, here is a list of different things that helped me: i got a cat, i tried to really live day by day and tried not to think about the future, studied something that made sense for me (I'm a nurse now and really like to help others), I tried to see more the people i care about, I slept a lot, tried to avoid binge drinking (like I sometimes did to ease the pain) and some more things. Hope it can help someone.

    • @raiiven5268
      @raiiven5268 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      karrolynahh 298 I’m glad to know you’re better now!

  • @brittanyunknown7197
    @brittanyunknown7197 6 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    No I'm not okay but thank you for asking Taz

  • @wtfisgoingon171
    @wtfisgoingon171 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Don’t care if my 2 years late but just how she ask “are you okay” sounded so genuine and full of concern i said no without realising it

  • @annacerna9578
    @annacerna9578 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    Yes communication is super important. You'll feel deep relief if you share your problems with someone.

  • @jeannemoreaux7582
    @jeannemoreaux7582 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This is another fantastic poetry. You helped me through very tough times. Each of your Videos showed me again, that i was not the only one. And i forgot that quite a lot times. Back then, wenn my wall started to slightly crack, i had no one who came to me and asked. I had my longtime friends. But they always thought to know how i am. Gosh. They also thought to know who i am. But then, wenn my wall started to rinn, because it was just to much and just to long i've kept all of my thoughts and problems, i started to tell EVERYONE really. But still i had no one who knew all. I told everyone a little bit of my story. And made sure that, even if i talked to so many people, no one gets to know me.
    Now i have most of this behind me. But with all my Problems i lost a big part of my abillity to help. And thats a thought which hunts me. Like really. Why can't i help these people thay way i did before? And what do the people around me, which are imediatly there, when i had a rough day, have to go through at the moment, because i can ask them how they are and if they want to talk as many times as i want. It seems like i don't give them this feeling you describe in this Video. And i don't know if i did before or what it was then. But you do. And for that i want to thank you. You really touch your community. And its not easy the way you do. I wish you the best. And everyone else who reads this comment. Because one thing i took out of this whole thing is positivity. And even if you think life is dark and will never get better. And everything is just not worth to live. There comes another beautiful day. It doesn't have to be tomorrow. But this day will come.

  • @sophiaduncan1596
    @sophiaduncan1596 6 ปีที่แล้ว +38

    I am not, but those are words I can’t say out loud...

  • @shellymahlatsi4202
    @shellymahlatsi4202 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    Wow, this video hit me hard...all I could remember is that one moment when everything is falling apart,but you cannot let yourself break down because that's not what you do.

  • @saraho5788
    @saraho5788 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    That heartfelt question. When other people ask, it sound so fake. Even from my closest family and friends. I don’t feel it. I feel numb all over, and weighed down. When Taz asked, the water works started flowing. After I was done, I felt honestly so relieved. Half of the self hate that built up inside me throughout the years just,, flew away. Thank you. But the next half is still here and growing by the second. But I’ve learned it’ll stay there forever, but I will eventually forget about it, right?

  • @Rashi0220
    @Rashi0220 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I'm alive but I ain't living. I'm not okay. I feel like ending it all but I'm holding on.

    • @marygrace4658
      @marygrace4658 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Life is never easy, when we feel we have the worst there will still be many worse off than us, count your blessings however small they are, for we have just one life, we have to get through it brave dear

  • @aphroditescomet
    @aphroditescomet 6 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    No I'm not ok, I've been sick for so long . Constant headaches and dizziness,and it won't stop . The doctor say it's nothing but......

    • @givememyname7919
      @givememyname7919 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Jess story Hope you'll get better soon :(

    • @AC-ck2bd
      @AC-ck2bd 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      It’s been the same for me, I’m mentally fine but physically I’m like *wOaH*
      I randomly get dizzy, headaches everywhere, random blurry vision. I stopped feeling physically fine a while ago, but whatever, I’m alive.

  • @daniellehamuy5474
    @daniellehamuy5474 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    In the moment you said "are you okay?" i start crying like crazy but in quiet into my pillow. I've been depressed for 2 years now and every time i try to hold to a little light of hope.
    I just wanted to say thank you.
    I always feel like I'm forced to fake a smile and it can be so hard some times, that i almost wanted to give up...
    some of your poets are really helping and keeping me strong.
    Thank you💕

  • @lukeellis5836
    @lukeellis5836 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    no. im not okay. im beyond okay. i only have these videos to make me feel safe

    • @catherineclifton1757
      @catherineclifton1757 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Ok I know how that feels. If you want to chat we can. I really hope your doing ok

  • @serbangabriela9792
    @serbangabriela9792 6 ปีที่แล้ว +121

    Very beautiful. Love❤😘💞😍 you

  • @jaydakoyas4830
    @jaydakoyas4830 6 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    Love you

  • @saloni3912
    @saloni3912 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Always being that friend that always asks "Are you okay?" But never being asked the same. Cause no one sees your sadness. That ends today. Make yourself a priority. Don't hide your emotions. You can't help others for long if you don't help yourself first. I have anxiety issues, I admit it. I need help. I am getting the help I need cause i talked about it. Don't stress yourself, there's always people that care. Reach out to those few. Stay strong. Always here to talk to. 🖤

  • @lieve2755
    @lieve2755 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    I kept it together so well through the entire video but that last 'are you okay?' hit me hard and made me burst into tears

  • @karolinaasd4525
    @karolinaasd4525 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    wow... I mean, this is (for me) your second the best poem. It catch my heart, thank you

  • @kitanablade943
    @kitanablade943 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    No i am not okay ,i haven't been okay for years and i doubt i will get better everyday i put on a fake smile and make jokes but alone at night i break down , my thoughts go wild trying to break me and i lose every round ,i always lie and say im fine
    But im out of my mind
    Knowing nobody knows the real me

  • @amy-wu8gi
    @amy-wu8gi 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    The are you okay at the end broke me

  • @thembhekileteeleedehpoet1139
    @thembhekileteeleedehpoet1139 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I listened to this poem for thousands of times and i still feel that last "Are You Okay?"
    Your words always heals deep wounds in me. Thank you so much. We need this, we want your words Taz. @Clickfortaz

  • @millied888
    @millied888 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Wow. I love this. This is amazing

  • @carysaishx
    @carysaishx 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Wow, this made me cry made me realise that I feel this way, and that hurts, I want help but I'm terrified of getting it, I feel like I'm mental, am I?

  • @alicat2264
    @alicat2264 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    this really hit home for me.... i am not okay and have not been okay for a while now. i smile when needed but people don't know how broken i really am. I have people i can talk to, and they help me through but i just can't seem to tell them everything.

  • @k_iwi
    @k_iwi 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I saw a tic tok about depression and there was a video in it,(it was kind of a lyric video where only lines for this vide were there with a neon bg and I hear your voice) it was you I knew it was you, I can easily identify your voice. In my worst time I saw your video to ease my pain and I am so attached to this channel that even if when there was no context about it being your poetry and your voice I said to myself, it's taz, it gotta be taz cause I know when I hear that comforting voice that helped me get through a lot! I looked for video and now I am here, I wanted to say thank you, I know you won't be able to see it but your changing and influencing ppl life a lot in ways you even couldn't imagine so keep going I have fait in you
    All the best ✨
    11-09-2021(Saturday)
    12:00 am

  • @annasanchez9348
    @annasanchez9348 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You are so inspiring, it's actually insane! I love your videos so much!! ❤💕 I've watched them so many times i actually know your poems by heart.. Thank u so much for existing honestly... ❤❤❤💕

  • @karicampbell1644
    @karicampbell1644 6 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    No , no I'm not

  • @poemsplay178
    @poemsplay178 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Being honest is the best way forward, to deal with what is happening within! We need to work through our hurt and pain :)

  • @ishasameer1615
    @ishasameer1615 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Relatable af . So relieved to find that I’m not the only one who feels like this ...

  • @WeeklyInspiration
    @WeeklyInspiration 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Deep

  • @ideka0084
    @ideka0084 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Wow you’re so beautiful 😍❤️

  • @Itsshegooo
    @Itsshegooo 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    When she asked are you okay I couldn’t help but cry 😭 I’m not okay so much has been hurting

  • @mel9046
    @mel9046 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    Happiness is everywhere Taz! Just remember that your thoughts change your mood and life, and whether you find happiness or not because, happiness is actually in your mind and you just gotta look around for the light to help you get through each day to survive; things aren't always easy. But they can be sometimes. I'm going to be here for you, supporting you. You "bruises" ,"scars" are beautiful because pain is beauty, you are beautiful! You are my role model.

  • @scarlettmlnds333
    @scarlettmlnds333 6 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    This might be off topic, I can't help but stare at her face, she looks like a mixture of alessia cara and lily singh. Lots of love though, she's amazing.

  • @Despin7a77
    @Despin7a77 6 ปีที่แล้ว +40

    *Im not okay. Is that enough? No one cares.. even a stranger no one REALLY care*

    • @alisha9200
      @alisha9200 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      catvonkator l feel the exact same... I care for you.

    • @Despin7a77
      @Despin7a77 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      a xo i care for you too do you have an instagram?

    • @alisha9200
      @alisha9200 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      catvonkator l yeah I do

    • @alisha9200
      @alisha9200 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      What’s yours?

    • @fatimahanif3244
      @fatimahanif3244 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      catvonkator l I care !

  • @huuiie
    @huuiie 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    Please do more of these they make me feel so much better. I can speak out but someone who can in such a beautiful way...not many people get that. All my peers are full of skin showing popular kids and I’m just an outcast. Seeing you upload a poem brings a smile to my face as I know most of these I can feel your voice just holds so much emotions just like when you try and speak up. That holding your breath and letting it all out even if it isn’t the easiest thing to do.

  • @lostlacuna2680
    @lostlacuna2680 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    When you asked "are you okay" I almost broke down in the middle of school but in my head that little voice told me it wouldn't help and that I'd never be okay but I want to thank you for all the amazing things you say and how you support those who don't get much support at all

  • @keiramagee9523
    @keiramagee9523 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    💛

  • @simplykatexo2504
    @simplykatexo2504 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This sounds too much like me how depressing

  • @WidsLife
    @WidsLife 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I literally want someone to cry and just be there

    • @jasminedancinghands1526
      @jasminedancinghands1526 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Wid
      I'm here for you! You're not alone, stay strong. You got this. 💜 Let me know if you ever want to talk.

    • @WidsLife
      @WidsLife 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@jasminedancinghands1526 thank you so muchhhh, I'm doing fine now

  • @shirleyware6637
    @shirleyware6637 6 ปีที่แล้ว +34

    ❤❤❤❤

  • @PepeGangaEdits
    @PepeGangaEdits 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    This is my story, totally. I was keeping pain for years and years and when someone cared, i felt totally free. I cannot explain how happy I am now. It sounds stupid, but it happened.

  • @Hamid.6
    @Hamid.6 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I just burst in to tears knowing I'm not the only one feeling this pain

    • @catherineclifton1757
      @catherineclifton1757 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      It's not easy especially when you know people worse than you it makes your issues seem stupid and meaningless even though there not

    • @Hamid.6
      @Hamid.6 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@catherineclifton1757
      The truth is No one will ever understand unless they have or feel the same pain you feel

    • @catherineclifton1757
      @catherineclifton1757 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@Hamid.6 If you don't tell them how you feel then they will never know

    • @catherineclifton1757
      @catherineclifton1757 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Hamid.6 I find it difficult to put how I feel into words so I get frustrated them I get told I should control myself and keep it on the inside so I put that frustration of not being able to say what I feel into myself in the form of self harm.

    • @Hamid.6
      @Hamid.6 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@catherineclifton1757
      I've been told by my teachers and parents that all I'm doing is seeking attention I tried to explain how I feel but I got told that I should look how much I have and that i should drop the act
      I've also turned to self haram but I don't cut my wrists I cut my thighs because I know no one will see them and no one will ever know that I cut myself.

  • @bethanydusciuc2148
    @bethanydusciuc2148 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    I needed someone like that multiple times in my life

  • @justanaverageteenager6061
    @justanaverageteenager6061 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    The problem is not about sharing the things the main problem is that most people gonna judge us and taunt us in every possible way they can... That's why I don't really tell someone about my issues and have trust issues

  • @noums
    @noums 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Who needs this months into quarantine after all the pain just kept building up and up till it reached an unbearable amount?

  • @phoebe6919
    @phoebe6919 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    i definitely relate to being asked all the time if your okay, until the one time its different, they sound genuinely concerned and its hard to shrug it off like every other time, its like time stops for a second because you are actually contemplating the thought of opening up to somebody for some odd reason, just this time. Almost like an open door, a way out, because you cant hold it all in much longer, and there's not much left to lose, no matter how hard you try and hide it, there's only so much you can bare alone.

  • @angelaking9449
    @angelaking9449 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    completely and terrifyingly emotional right now, this is beautiful

  • @SilloniusAeldarian
    @SilloniusAeldarian 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    damn she really hit me up with that last word i cry. thank you Taz you were amazing.

  • @seialofia
    @seialofia 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    when you asked "are you ok" i teared up. thank you for this

  • @inthelifeofzee
    @inthelifeofzee 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    No 😔 I'm exhausted... and I come back to these videos... knowing that you somehow know how to put my thoughts into words. And that I'm not alone.

  • @marinaisabelle7155
    @marinaisabelle7155 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    I have depression, suicidal thoughts and I self harm when I can’t take it, it’s always been SO hard to say these things so I always say I’m fine. I’m not ok.

  • @helenetrstrup4817
    @helenetrstrup4817 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Towards the end I will have to agree. There is a lot of meaning in *how* you say it and I do get the feeling that you care, so instead of shrugging off with the usual: "I'm fine." I will tell you genuinely I am okay. 😊
    The sun is shining, spring is at my doorstep and I'll get to spend some time with my family today. Sure, things could always be better but I have very little to complain about. The most annoying thing in my life right now are my bangs, going to the hairdresser to get my hair cut is too much of a hassle right now. 😆
    And the fact that the TV series I want to watch don't get a new season anytime soon. So yes, I am okay. I don't feel sad, lonely, depressed or like I don't matter. I have people who care about me and love me, people I care about and love.

  • @jennamateriano7316
    @jennamateriano7316 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    im watching this in 2021 and just cried and im not gonna lie i broke down when you asked at the end "are you okay" because im not

  • @brittanyhoward430
    @brittanyhoward430 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    I, like so many others, am not okay. For now. I cried last night. I was surprised. Sometimes I can't cry at all. My chest was physically aching from my mental/emotional pain. But, I am 13 months without cutting myself now and I am seeing a therapist almost every week. I am on my road to recovery. So, eventually, I will be okay. 🙃

  • @Rasinbren
    @Rasinbren 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    I just act happy, nobody bothers to ask if I’m okay because I look so happy but really I go home and cry myself to sleep or scream in the bathroom mirror wishing I could tell someone without feeling held back or vulnerable

  • @Sevinwrites
    @Sevinwrites 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    This is the 100th time I've listened to this. Once again I needed this poem more than anything......

  • @lizellevanwyk6857
    @lizellevanwyk6857 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    Whenever I feel down , i always visit your page . You are the last bit of hope some of us need Thank You

  • @kayley9331
    @kayley9331 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I just had horrible day and this definitely made it brighter thank you! I struggle a lot with anxiety and today it just overcame my thoughts and feelings 😣 I’m scared of the future.... the unknown.... the uncontrollable Feels good to get that out there 😄 I always seem to be the listener and nobody else really cares to truly listen sorry my mind keeps rambling on and on but thank you 😃💕

  • @maxeen5569
    @maxeen5569 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    You are great poet. You have the ability to create the atmosphere you desire. And make the audience feel

  • @chelseydixon3917
    @chelseydixon3917 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I cried not even half way through...

  • @Blake-ii9yi
    @Blake-ii9yi 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    I’m never ok. Nobody ever sees me cry but when I’m alone at night I cry

  • @mhonshanovung
    @mhonshanovung 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Girll post more of these you're the only therapy I get

  • @ChickLuvsYou
    @ChickLuvsYou 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    This is so beautiful. Its a simple question that is not asked enough.

  • @sarahjanechandler
    @sarahjanechandler 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    The comments make me feel so sad, yet so understood

  • @noragami1825
    @noragami1825 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I am not okay. Other people didn't even care for me as if I am invincible. They didn't even bother to ask. So I just hold my own hand and covered my face with fake smile, breathing the heavy breath of burden n carrying tears in my eyes.

  • @zoyavats851
    @zoyavats851 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    these always calm me when it gets really bad, thank you.

  • @jeffjavens1215
    @jeffjavens1215 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    *crying* How I LONG for somebody like this...

  • @isabelle4289
    @isabelle4289 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    Taz, I’ve never really commented on any youtube videos, but I really had to this time. This is incredible. You’re truly gifted and I admire your creativity and view to things✨
    I honestly don’t get how u keep finding the exact right words to tell something, bring a message. You’re so inspiring, and so kindhearted. I wish more people could be like that❤️❤️