Hi everyone! Here's my brand new Spoken Word! It's about the ENVY that eats away at all of us and how we can actually fight it... th-cam.com/video/ueLuNRwqNDM/w-d-xo.html
@@andrewstone3391 Read Luke 5:32 and be encouraged that the whole reason Jesus was born, lived, died and rose was to clothe us in His goodness because our own goodness could never be enough
CryingFire hi i just started my youtube Channel i hope you subscribe if you like my work. and cheer me up because no one is subscribing and feel so discouraged even though i put lots of effort to write édit and stuff 😢😳😵
the cat lover 360 Dont take this the wrong way, im not telling you what to believe, but I'm hoping you can answer my question. How do you god even exist?
hi. thank you for saying this. i’m going through a hard time right now and i’m lost. i was about to start cutting myself again, but you helped me by just saying 6 words. i don’t know you but i love you so much for this.
When you cry in front of people: "Crybaby." When you cry alone: "They're just doing it for attention" When you just stop crying: "Why are you always happy?"
You can call me what's Rev because tonight is the night I won't care I'll cut my wrists I'll cry along just looking for the thing that was keeping me here is now gone so I shall go too😭😭goodbye 😩😩😖😖😖im scared but I'll do it anyways because it needs to be done
Hey Eva! I'm sorry to hear that most of your life has been like that... There's another video I really think that you'll love, it's about an incredible man called Nick Vujicic, and if you've never heard of him, you'll never be able to forget him! th-cam.com/video/84Kj3BfHQuI/w-d-xo.html And glad you like the video :)
Boop i lost my friend too but I realize that if we were asked to get back together like how we used to, my answer would be no and it's worth it. Because I learn to accept new people in my life. God allows that to happen for a reason. Have faith in Him because He plans the best for us 💕 so yeah, ever journey you'll met a lot of people, try to put that disappointment aside and discover the world, open for more option and you will be amaze by the people you met.
This poem was just beautiful. The past 4 years of my life had been hell but my fake smile went away when god answered my prayers and taught me how to love myself. He showed me how to learn from the bad and find a reason to smile, a real beautiful smile even when it seemed my world was falling apart and for that I'm forever grateful.
i apologize but god cannot make you love yourself. God is a myth to keep society from going into chaos. But if you want something to believe in believe in the devil, the devil gave you the ability to love, and protected those who believed with goat blood. You can thank god if you like but think about if it was really some god with a big dusty book that says to kill anyone who is different or is not in the box of normal or good. I am bisexual, and Atheist I get so much hate i've started to hate myself i looked up at my ceiling and asked for help and everything just got even worse. i was tied to a bathroom stall railing and had a cross shoved in my face tell me is that god, if so I'm glad i don't believe in something fake something that just helps some people and sometimes makes people kill others because they claim GOD said so.
808 forever I don't think you have the right experience with God yet and that's ok. Please don't tell coming telling me that God can't make me love myself or that he is a myth and that Satan is real. I mean yes Satan is real but who do you think created Satan? You know even demons believe in God? Did you know there is scientific proof that God is real? I'm sorry you feel that God is a myth but I have felt his presence and his love and when you say things like that it doesn't make me doubt my belief in God it just makes me feel bad that you are rejecting his love. I'm gonna pray that one day you get to experience God in your life because he literally set me free. I hope one day you will get to feel the same way. I will also pray that God will protect you from the lies of Satan and corruption of what the world has come to.
Lmfao. I believe that a game of hide and seek shouldn't last this long. Another thing is gods love shown by drowning people, raping a girl, kidnapping, making people on the Ark have incest. I mean if you read the bible and actually think about what it says, sounds like some person that was insane wrote it. If you told someone who's never heard of god or jesus they'd think you were insane or that your mad. i chose not to believe in god for my own reasons you may believe what you want but I'm just saying god making you love yourself is kind of sad, should believe in your self instead of some dude no ones seen and honestly i think the world would be better if religion didn't cause issues
I cried because this is almost like me..I smile at home and school my parents and friends thinks it’s a real smile,but at night..I just cry myself to sleep..at school I act tough but I’m really not.My friends tell me to show my true self but they judge me...they judge me so hard I feel like I fell down the cliff..I hate this..nice video though..
Every day, like an endless cycle, I put on a “smile.” When someone tells a joke, funny or not, I laugh. If I don’t, the person who told the joke looks at me like I’m a jerk. I told my friend about me cutting and she asked me “why, why did you do it? You seemed so happy.” I responded with,” fake smiles. There is a thing as putting on a mask of fake smiles and laughs. If I don’t, they ask if I’m ok and I want to say I am dying but it comes out as an I’m fine.” She then left me and never talked to me until a little bit ago when she told me she cut too. I then told her to show me her scars and asked “why did you do it?” She responded with the same thing I had said. Me and her a friends now.... she stoped cutting and started being her Normal self but I still cut and put on a fake smile.
Hey Megan :) I'm so so sorry to hear that.... here's a video I think you'll like, I think you'll really relate to it... th-cam.com/video/6mcY9rBZpow/w-d-xo.html :)
Hey mate, I struggle with the same thing. Fake mask and self harm... but as soon as I turned to GOD my life got better! I turned to him and he has helped me see that I am Priceless, I AM beautiful You are Beautiful and you are Priceless and please don’t forget it
Did anyone else just look up at the ceiling and just think "...wow."? Did anyone else feel like that somehow they were meant to click this? Did anyone else just need this? This was just an absolute masterpiece... And a guy who's dealt with depression for so long, but put smiles on everyone's face, that he said this? This was just a good reminder... And its beautiful.
That feeling when you relate to every stanza, sentence and word spoken. It just makes you break down crying or numb inside and you can't say anything because you don't want others to worry. So an "I'm fine" is all you can say.
It’s always that moment, when someone asks, “How are you?” Or “Are you okay?” And you have a mental debate about wether or not you want to tell them, “I’m fine.” Or wether you’re going to actually tell them the truth. About the pain you feel, the thoughts you have, and the scars that cover your skin.
I am not a christian but this went deep into my heart, I have been ignoring religion hoping my pain will one day fade way. thank you for showing me the right path.
Hasen Zarroug god loves us all he can fill the emptiness we feel. There is a website called JW.org that's help me feel better when I was in a bad place
i apologize but god cannot make you love yourself. God is a myth to keep society from going into chaos. But if you want something to believe in believe in the devil, the devil gave you the ability to love, and protected those who believed with goat blood. You can thank god if you like but think about if it was really some god with a big dusty book that says to kill anyone who is different or is not in the box of normal or good. I am bisexual, and Atheist I get so much hate i've started to hate myself i looked up at my ceiling and asked for help and everything just got even worse. i was tied to a bathroom stall railing and had a cross shoved in my face tell me is that god, if so I'm glad i don't believe in something fake something that just helps some people and sometimes makes people kill others because they claim GOD said so. My hope is strong but i still have pain even without some god. i have scars from those who believe.
My parents the other day were talking to me (they just found out that I cut) and they said "You're taking this very maturely" and I was like, Thanks! After we talked for like two minutes, I walked slowly to my room, closed my door, then cried for like an hour. I went back upstairs smiling and they didn't notice anything
And then one day you wake up and realize that nothing hurts anymore. Something you've prayed and wished and begged for is suddenly reality. You naively believed this would make things better, that it would heal your broken heart and spirit, only to discover the numbness offers none of the comfort it promised. And you become something you never wanted to be...an empty vessel, seeing the world through lifeless eyes that are as cold and emotionless as the lens of a camera; never again will they discern or even comprehend beauty...any and all feelings of attachment dissolve into apathetic contempt. But you no longer care about these things, you don't miss them. It's like they only ever existed as whispers of a dream from the distant past, fading farther from your memory's grasp with each passing moment.
I wear a mask that smiles it looks so beutiful, but when I take it off you see me crying... I become a master of diguise no one notices i'm dying inside... I say i'm fine see my eyes they tell i'm dying inside..
Zm_11 _jr I felt/feel the same way... u need encouraging people in ur life that'll never leave u to rot, people that care enough to kno when ur hurt and when ur not... what u need is a true friend... and whether that friend becomes God or Christ or just someone who understand and knows u enough to help u, it'll be someone u can depend on and someone that wants the best for u
I wear a mask it's a smile but if someone actually cared they would be able to see it's broken I had friends But they left me I had confidence But that crumbled to dust I had love But it wasn't meant to be Blades used to be for paper Now they're for skin Long sleeves were used to keep you warm Now there used to hide your scarrs I'm broken I'm lost I'm invisible, I'm no one
You’re beautiful just the way you are. Everyone here loves you. Please don’t hurt yourself, we want you to love yourself. You are strong and gorgeous, you are loved!
hello, i know that this was a year ago and i’m hoping that you’re better now. if you are i would like to ask how you did it.. and if you’re still going through this, i ask that if we can go through this together. i want to get out of these thoughts. i’m desperate
You can believe, because Christianity is not just a fantasy. Is based in fact. Jesus was a historical person who really died. And they really didn't produce his body, even when his disciples claimed he was risen and they wanted to silence him. I would recommend Mere Christianity by CS Lewis and The Case for Christ by Lee Strobel. When I was an atheist I thought that the idea of God was obviously stupid, but after reading more into it I decided to follow Jesus. He has helped me through my depression, but I still face issues with trust and self worth. You are not alone. You are loved and cared for. Not just by Jesus, everyone who follows him is called to love. Much love, From someone who's been there.
This is a poem I made its inspired by "Fake Smile" and if you happen to read Thankyou for your time hope you enjoy! "MASK OF GOLD" By Beth Hollifield A boy in a room who just turned 19 It was always his dream To help those in need Friends that he trusted Became someone new So he warped his world To fit in THEIR mold Now his worst fear is being rejected He’d try ANYTHING To feel loved and accepted He made a mask from gold to hide what he was And to become someone who was loved To smile and laugh the mask had given him that, but the pain was too deep The mask of gold would not break He tried and tried and yelled for help, But the help he craved He had never received And it was he who had been truly deceived All the dreams he's had Just haven't come true They faded like a memory, Like he knew he’d become one day If you ask how he is He’ll answer with pride And say he's fine He hides it well, Behind his mask of gold But see in his eyes See how truly broken he is inside His only friend became a bottle, A bottle of pills and a bottle of poison. It helped with the pain But the cuts never seemed to fade. He’d try anything To fill the big hole in his heart His heart was empty From the sorrows he's drowned But deep down He knows he’s not brave or bold But he’d lived the lie so he’ll continue Even though the truth is He’s scared of the world, And just wants to go home
LYRICS: There's a girl in the corner, just turned 18 Ever since she was little it was always her dream To marry a man who would treat her just right With loving best friends for the rest of her life But as she grew up, her friends all grew cold So she twisted her life just to fit in their mould Now her biggest fear is that she'll be rejected She'll try anything to feel loved and accepted She posts photos on Instagram, hoping that now Her body attracts what her heart can't somehow Slowly turning herself into something she's not Desperate for anyone to think that she's hot But the love that she craves has never come through And the dreams she once held just haven't come true If you ask how she is, she'll say that she's fine She disguises it well but she's dying inside She tried parties and drinking, just a little to start Anything to fill that big hole in her heart Now she's sleeping around, hoping love will be found But her heart lies empty from the sorrows she's drowned 'Cause deep down she knows that she is not bold She puts on her fake smile while she bleeds On the outside she'll build so her life will seem filled But on the inside she's never complete There's a boy on the streets, acting all rough Bullying others just to make him feel tough He puts on a show so his ego will grow Puts everyone down to try and raise himself up People assume that he's always been cold It seems like there's nothing that could tame his soul On the outside he's callous, with a heart made of steel But inside he's been broken by the pain that he feels He's the abuser at school, but at home he's abused With a dad always drunk and a mum always bruised He's lost count of the times that he's gone to bed crying He's never found peace and he's got tired of trying Now he's lost all his hope and his trust has worn thin So he hurts others first before they can hurt him He takes out his pain on the kids at his school While desperate for someone to think that he's cool He buries it deep so the world never sees All the heartache and heartbreak brings his heart straight to its knees He fights with his friends while he wrestles with doubt Feels he's been dealt bad hand, so he's dealing it out But down deep he knows that he is not bold He puts on his fake smile while he bleeds On the outside he'll build so his life will seem filled But on the inside he's never complete Though we try not to show it, and all try to fix it In our hearts we're all broken but no one admits it They say that it's what's on the inside that counts We all put on a brave face but on the inside we doubt We're all scared of the world, we don't know what we're facing We're longing for something but don't know what we're chasing Though we face the same things that burden and break us We all look to each other for some feeling of status We want people to view us, to follow and like To favourite our looks and subscribe to our life We treat retweets like morphine to cover the hurt Of our friendless existence when our phone doesn't work We're all grasping at glory and craving acclaim It's the fuel in our tank, it's the drug in our veins And soon as it's gone, our heart hits the floor And we run to self-pity 'til our egos find more Everyone out there keeps searching around Just to find the right pill to pick them up when they're down And we try our best, but we fail our own test We pretend that we're swimming while we drown Because deep down we all know that we are not bold We put on our fake smiles while we bleed On the outside we build so our lives will seem filled But on the inside we're never complete So what is the answer? What is the cure? What's the solution to being so insecure? Can sex, drugs and money fulfill all your dreams? Or a 7-step process restore self-esteem? Well if we're all here by chance, and there's no higher power Then live life to the full or just waste every hour If it makes you feel good, then do all the more And find satisfaction in what you adore Just eat, drink, sleep, party, have fun then die 'Cause what does it matter what you do to feel high? If you only live once, then do what you choose And we're all here by chance so you really can't lose But the problem with that: it's ignorant lies It's the best people offer but never satisfies It's like try'n to fill a bucket right up to the top While it's leaking out more than you ever could stop Whatever the world can produce as the answer Just eats us away like an emotional cancer There's nothing inside you to enlighten your soul You can't do a thing to make you feel whole So what if we've been looking in all the wrong places Trying to find gratification to fill our hearts' spaces? What if the real answer isn't something conceived? Isn't not dreamt up by people, but something received? See while everyone's try'n to find a method that's greater True help can only come from our Creator Whether you believe doesn't change what is true All I can do is present this to you: We try to show our good and cover our bad Just show the happy but never the sad But God isn't fooled; He sees under your mask He knows all your thoughts and your unending task That search for acceptance, to keep and preserve it But there's nothing good in us to ever deserve it But though I am sinful and stood as God's foe Because He is good, He stood up and said, "No" "I won't leave you alone, though you deserve Hell I'll love you and free you from your prison cell I'll come as a man and I'll die in your place Taking your sin and giving you grace" "But I won't stay dead, I'll rise from the grave I'll show I'm alive and I'm willing to save Now your time on earth may be still filled with strife But repent and believe, and I'll give you life" So though I am wretched and hopeless alone God chose to love me and and make me His own Now I'm alive when once I was dead So I'm simply a beggar showing where to find bread See the trouble we face has been true from the start The heart of our problem is the problem of our heart We're all full of flaws, full of sin, full of vice Our hearts need transforming and cleansing by Christ It's not superficial touch-ups, but supernatural change It gives new breath to my lungs, new life to my veins Now whatever I go through, I don't need a fake smile Because I'm forgiven, adopted, and loved as God's child It's not just my answer that suits me the best Not a just nice lifestyle, valid as all the rest No, it's the Way, and the Truth, and the Life The reason my smile isn't fake is Christ
"There's a girl in the corner, with tear stains on her eyes... from the places she's wandered... and the shame she can't hide~" can anyone guess the song?
that was beautiful. I'm crying ha. I always thought that god never answered me, and I believed it. this poem, made me realize, that god is real. I... I have never felt so, ALIVE. thank you so much. because of you, I now can see me, as someone who is loved. heh thank you so very much
That's so amazing to hear, and humbling to hear! That's why I wrote it, so if I've been able to play a small part in helping you grow closer to God and cause your love for Him to grow then I'm overjoyed with that! I'll be praying for you :)
Am I enough? - Spoken Words Poem. Am I good enough? Am I pretty enough? Am I smart enough? Am I thin enough? Am I enough? Those are questions that I ask my self everyday because I wanna be good enough. Because I come to school and I see the groups of kids that hangout together, you have your jocks and your popular kids and the artistic kids or the musical kids, but what am I? Am I just another face in these hallways among the other rejects. Among the kids who feel like they don’t belong. Am I the only person in the entire school who feels like they have a massive weight upon their shoulders everyday? Am I the only who cakes their face with makeup to cover up their gross and disgusting natural beauty. Am I the only one who wear baggy clothes because I don’t have a thin waist and nobody wants to see that. Because based on popular opinion if a girl doesn’t wear size zero skinny jeans or have a perfectly straight smile or beautiful luscious hair then then she’s not beautiful. I wake up every morning and look in the mirror and think to myself “wow, I look gross.” I put on a pair of jeans, look in the mirror and say “wow. I’m incredibly fat.” I hate the way I look, I hate the way I talk. I hate the way I walk and breathe and act. I hate that I constantly compare myself to every girl at this school saying “I wish I was as skinny as her,” or “I wish I had that perfect smile,” or “I wish I had her beautiful hair.”. I wish I was good enough. I wish I was worth something. I wish I was beautiful. Am I good enough? Am I pretty enough? Am I smart enough? Am I thin enough? Am I enough? The answer, is yes. Yes you are good enough, Yes you are pretty enough. Yes you are smart enough. Yes your are enough. You are beautiful. No matter what anyone says, or thinks or acts. You can wear whatever you want, you can put on makeup or keep it off, your still beautiful. You can show off that messy frizzy hair and not care about what people say because it is beautiful and it is natural. You can walk into school with your head held high and talk to whoever you want because society shouldn’t effect how you live your live. You should be the one to choose who you wanna be, not the opinions of people around you. So for the last time. I am asking. Am I enough? Thank you.
Well. Screw the question about if you’re enough. The real question is... DID YOU WRITE ENOUGH? The answer is: Yes, definitely! And I read all of it, clap for me! :) Now enough for the joking around, of course you are enough! You are who you’re meant to be. Live your life to the fullest.
I Just came to TH-cam to find peace with a song. and instead what I found it was all gold. So maybe i'm crying to the beauty of this. But my wish of peace has been fullfilled. :) thank you for bringing a little of happines to the world.
"Now, whether you believe doesn't change what is true; and all I can do is present this to you: We try to show our good and cover our bad, just show the happy but never the sad, *But God isn't fooled; he sees under your mask,* *He knows all your thoughts, and your unending task,* *That search for acceptance, to keep and preserve it,* *But there's nothing good in us to ever deserve it.* *But though I am sinful, and stood as God's foe,* *Because he is good, he stood up and said **_NO._* *_I won't leave you alone, though you deserve hell_* *_I'll love you and free you from your prison cell._* *_I'll come as a man and die in your place,_* *_Taking your sin... And giving you grace._* *_But I won't stay dead. I'll rise from the grave_* *_I'll show I'm alive, I'm willing to save_* *_Now your time on Earth may still be filled with strife,_* *_But repent and believe, and I'll give you life._* ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
if god was real why would he give me te live i have because i lost my dad to suicide when i was 5 and lost my grandparents last year my mother is an alcoholic and i have been praying every night to show me a sign that god is real but all i get is more disappointment
Gyon Niens I am so sorry for your intense, horrible and continuing hardship... it's horrible, I understand to an extent, of course, I can never know exactly how you feel. God has a path planned for everyone, a destiny... the last proposition in the description for this video hints at this too. From experience, the feeling of loneliness and when you feel as though God isn't there, it's horrible I know, doesn't mean He isn't. Perhaps you've heard of 'Footprints in the Sand.' It's a beautiful poem. It tells of how even though we feel like God isn't there and that it seems He left us alone in the hardest times, but really, He spent all that time carrying us, we just couldn't see it... In our lives, there are times where we must go through extremely hard times, some that it seems we will never escape from, but it will change, and with Jesus, you can change too. God doesn't sit there, waiting impatiently, tapping His foot, checking His watch, He will wait for as long as it takes. He watches over you, as your heart cries out to Him, He hasn't forsaken you. Some times we must trust his promise, have faith, and just survive. No expectations. Just always know that God loves you and cares for you, I care for you too. If you want to speak to someone or ask more questions about God, I'm here for you. God bless you, and I really hope things improve.
@@cabdiwaxidxasan3256 appreciate it but gonna pass on that. I stopped trying to believe in any kind of God and rather walk the path I so choose myself without relying on some higher form of being
In such a dark world, I do find it hard to believe, that there's people who realize the little things like this! To lift a spirits hope, in such a way! Thank you all who do these things!
Wow this hit me hard... It literally described my life in a couple sentences and made me realize how messed up society is how messed up i am... I always put on a fake smile and lie that I'm okay. When I'm not but I pray to God that one day that will no longer mater. This poem honestly is very inspirational and really touching
I’ve been in a rather depressing state lately. I feel like a loner at school. I’ve always been very tiny and skinny which makes people never take me seriously. Today I started watching Jon Jorgenson, and I began to fall asleep slowly... I woke up to this video playing and I felt like I could relate so much. Thank You, this video is amazing!
Amen, Jesus offers genuine love, acceptance, peace, and joy. Trust me ik believing in God doesnt automatically cure all of our problems, but He is there waiting with grace and open arms to guide us and bless us. These are simply tests in our testimonies, valleys so we can rejoice in the hills. Ik this is so cliche, but whoever is reading this I pray you know that Jesus sincerly sincerly loves you
When you find Christ, you find joy. This is so encouraging. There is more to life, and that is Christ. Thank you so much for seeing that and voicing that.
Amen, this is an amazing poem. How true, the only answer is the Gospel and the love of Christ. Thank you for the reminder, I really needed that, praise be to God.
I love this poem, even though I don't believe in a god. I also love how I haven't seen anyone be full on rude about it, I may have seen one or two go on the little unrespectful but the majority of it was very nice. Even if they didn't share the same beliefs
Sierra Joseph ur running away from the truth the truth is God is real and you may not can see him he is real he is life wind you can't see the wind can you? But you can feel it when it blows against your skin just like God he does great things everyday even though you might not be able to see him he still here and alive. I'm a believer but I choose not to belive because I want to do what I want to do but I know now that it doesn't work like that. I love this poem this man is remarkable he is a true believer. Thank u so much dude you mad me wanna change. 😭 thank u
cara tolbert Has there ever been any proof of God? None that is reliable so until it is proven it exists don't force your views on other people. I am not saying God definitely does or does not exist but everyone is free to have their own opinion so don't enforce yours. Sorry I rant alot 😂😂
Destined Nightcore ok people come to me all the time and say how can u prove gods real but I tell them all the same thing and they can ever answer it I say. "wind is real but u can't see it". And none of them can ever say anything else after that but I'm not forcing anything on anyone I'm just telling u the truth and one day u soon shall find out. 😂😂😊
cara tolbert I am not religious myself so when people say something definitely exists which hasn't been proven I get a bit triggered. But yeah one day we will find out who has been right all along. Sorry that you have been a victim to my ranting 😂😂
I'm not a believer myself, but I really related to the situation of both the girl and the boy. I went through a phase very similar to the boy during my senior year of highschool after a bad break up and losing some of my best freinds. It was a really rough and miserable period of my life that took me a long time to get over. It feels great to know someone understands what that's like (:
Macabre Nightmares God Understands So He Sends You Those Who You Can Relate To Because if Not Him at Least Those Who Can Send You To Him. you Dont Have to Believe in Religion Because That Never Solved a Thing But The Truth Is That He Has Always Been Above You. We Will Not Fall Short Anymore and As One We Will See This Through and At The Gates He Awaits For Our Return as I Will Meet You There. Time Will Bring Us All Together One Way Or Another. If Not Our Creator Then At Least The Life Given at Birth. Do Right By Those Influenced By Your Presence. Stay Safe and Be Humble Or Seek Just That. Unconditional Love From Riverside California.
Macabre Nightmares God Understands So He Sends You Those Who You Can Relate To Because if Not Him at Least Those Who Can Send You To Him. you Dont Have to Believe in Religion Because That Never Solved a Thing But The Truth Is That He Has Always Been Above You. We Will Not Fall Short Anymore and As One We Will See This Through and At The Gates He Awaits For Our Return as I Will Meet You There. Time Will Bring Us All Together One Way Or Another. If Not Our Creator Then At Least The Life Given at Birth. Do Right By Those Influenced By Your Presence. Stay Safe and Be Humble Or Seek Just That. Unconditional Love From Riverside California.
Is it enough? Its been so long that I've asked myself that. When I was drowning in all that hate. For myself, others, and feeling that way. It walked me to the inner oceans of my heart. A calling, a passing, a start. Now, the shadows never watch me. The light is never hollow. I'm never alone, or scared, or afraid. And I have so many people to thank for that. I have so many people that care about me, I was just too blind to see it. Even if you don't know it, there's someone out there. Fighting for us, everyday. So listen. Listen to the battle cries of pain strung together by faint memory and warning. Listen to all the people calling your name. Warping and forming, yelling and screaming. The pain of being broken. The pain of watching the broken. I know the broken search for a cure to the pain. I've been there too, searching and scanning for something to end it all. Something swift and easy. Like the knife or the rope. But we must learn that we are sick, and no matter how hard we wish we weren't. We are. And knives and ropes won't help us. Instead take from the truth that things will get better. It will take so long to get there, but it'll be worth it. A new person who feels the sunshine, A new person who never has to lie about being happy. A new person that appreciates others so much more. A future like that exists. Don't you want to live it?
This video really explains how I am....just a fake smile...and will change just to make others happy and make others laugh and make them make her happy...but she is just broken....and just thinking to hurt herself...and tbh...it hurts to broken and make others belive what you are not...but thank you this poem saved my life...from been hanged on a string on the sealing of her house.....and a dropped chair...so I wanted to say thank you for saving my life...
Hey Vanessa :) It's so incredibly humbling to hear you say this poem has saved your life... you have no idea how amazing that is for me to hear! Even if you were the only one who'd watched it, it would be worthwhile just for that! :) There's another video I love sharing with people, and I think you'll really like it too!! th-cam.com/video/84Kj3BfHQuI/w-d-xo.html :)
Wow. This was truly amazing. Thank you so much for making and sharing this video. I am Christian and was always a happy and faithful child howeve I have recently been feeling depressed and was feeling more down than usual, listening to depressing songs on TH-cam. Sadness can become an addiction. You fall deeper and deeper into it until there's no way out. However I came across this video and the title "fake smile" related to me a lot and while I was watching it, the lyrics really seemed to relate to today's world and the main causes of depression amongst our favorite singers and actors. As I was scrolling down looking for the next video to watch... I heard the words "ignorant lies never satisfy" "what if the solution is not something dreamt up by people, but received?" And the second I heard "the only true help can come from our creator" I burst into tears. I have been dedicated to my faith for so long yet failed to understand how I fell into such a turmoil. My faith has been neglected as I continue to fall down this deep dark hole. But i think this video was my first step climbing out and I am now certain that with God's help, I can accomplish anything. I am going to put the quote "the reasoning smile isn't fake..is Jesus Christ!" Thank you so much for this video. God bless you all!
Hi Sarah :) That's so incredible to hear!! I'm so humbled and honoured that God was able to use this video to help you - stories like yours make making videos worthwhile, so thank you and may God bless you Sarah! :)
Psalm 119 verse 1-2 , says blessed which means happy. So happy are those who obey all the lord commands anytime we fill depressed is a sign we should draw closer to God. Become a disciple of christ.
This is so beautiful! i love this poem even though it kinda mad me feel sad. because i'm insecure about some stuff about myself like my body\stomach :(
When I was younger I had a friend who saw me. But we were young. I still stare at his back. He's cool now. I still cry in school, I can't stop it. But he doesn't notice anymore. Maybe im over thinking it... It's not that he's mean... Hes just busy.
+MrJupiter0001 Yes. All that emotional speech for nothing? It's like those "draw my life" videos that tell you what happens to animals and want you to become vegan. I'm not intrested in that. Though,the speech is great and what happens to animals is terrible.
Every 40 seconds someone commits Suicide and this has helped me and many others try to smile a real smile not a fake one this has saved a lot of people who have commented and just others around the world you are a life saver Thank you
After 4 years I've finally written something new! Here's my new brand spoken word for Easter, called, "Who Is This Jesus?" Hope you like it! th-cam.com/video/8lJp0HoVT3A/w-d-xo.html
*Although we might wear a mask, deep down we hope that someone, anyone, will look us in our dull eyes, see through our disguise, and hear our silent cries* 💧 To anyone reading this who feels the uncontrollable, overwhelming, & soul crushing feeling of hopelessness, loneliness, & worthlessness or the painful numb feeling of not being able to feel at all, I don’t need to know you to tell you *You **_are_** a fighter. You **_are_** a survivor. You **_are_** important to me. You **_are_** loved & **_I love you_* ❤️
I just discovered this over a game of chess with my friends. Such a masterpiece! I must confess things are quite tough and it's hard to continue smiling Lord hear my cry! All I ask for is clarity 🙏🏾
I don't think that I even got through half way of this video before I started crying. This poem is amazing and helped open up my eyes about some people. Thank you.
Wow. Being new to TH-cam trying to get into spoken word (eventually film) this is really inspiring . Just words. They reach so many , touch so many, relate to so many. Thank you !
I've never once given a real smile since I was eight. My life has been a living hell. From backstabbing friends, to bullies making me unable to breathe without being judged, to being left behind and afraid of things that truly make no sense. I've developed the fears of being abandoned, rejected, being alone, being in the dark, and because of these fears I've been unable to confide in anyone. Only around two years ago, I was able to finally find a way to confide in someone. I allowed myself to confide in God. While I didn't really truly believe at first, I soon found myself believing more and relying more in/on God.
So much realness and feelings in 9 minutes that is all too familiar to us. We need more spoken word artists to express the reality of life that we are all experiencing but avoid discussing. I did attempted to this with the spoken word on my channel. Thank you for this.
There was a time.. In my class everyone said, "if you have problems, tell us, we will help" When i didn't tell them, the got angry and said "why didn't you tell us! We would have helped!" Now... When i don't want to hide it... They say.. "You just want intension! You are fine! Don't make up things! It's all fake!" That's why i stopped talking to anyone about it... And then others say "why do this people always hide their problems?! It's not even bad! We all have something in the past!"
i see all these stories of how people just had a smile to have to get put on, no story behind it, but would you believe me when if I said I never put on a fake smile. *i got rid of smiling completely* I was abused as a child by my father, every weekend I got passed between my mother and father because it was *the law, they can morph the law for a druggie but not for an abused daughter and her sister* my older sister has down syndrome, she's so effected by it she can't even talk. *I as a 3-6 year old girl didn't understand why she could never be loved by a father.* My mother was with a guy that treated her like crap, my mother finally went to her senses, and moved away, she found out about the abuse I took when it slipped one night while I was crying. We lived alone for a little, not much money, but we were living, but I didn't have a chance at school social success. They made fun of me for being quiet, short, and smart, smart of all things. I never did tell my mother about my school life, because we moved again, but with another man, I was weary at 7 years old of this man, but he was nice. He cared for me, he loved me, he understood me, he even had a daughter who is my bestest friend *he was perfect* until I was 8... He got really sick, he went to the hospital, he was there for 2 years, my mom lived at the hospital with my dad, she quit her job, she came home every night and kissed us goodnight but, *I had to take care of my sister every day and night* I woke up early, got her dressed, waited for the school bus to come and when it did I gave her over to her school and ran to my bus stop, sure I barely ever made it and had to walk to school but I would do it for my sister, I had to walk home otherwise I wouldn't get there in time to get my sister, I made her dinner every night, always a hot meal on the dinner table, I always played with her, I never left her alone, after a year of this repetitive cycle my mother came home more, I was told not to worry, she would take better care of us and our dad was almost ready to get out. He did come home 1 year later, but he told me I was so different, I guess I didn't realize it but my mother took me to a doctor, they told me something. *I had ASPD, anxiety, and depressive disorder* I could live with this, taking 4 pills every day as a 10 year old. Life did get better, then worse, but in the end it does get better, I now have dimples again, I know it sounds stupid but that means I have been smiling, I moved to a better school, i made a few friends, but it's better. Im 14, I still live with these disorders but its whom I am, and I am leaving teen years alive and well.
Shay that's such a touching story! I'm so sorry for the pain you've gone through... But I'm so glad you're learning to smile again and that things are looking better for you!! I would try to say something helpful and encouraging, but I'm struggling to find words. You've gone through things I could never imagine! I think the most important thing I could say is already in the video from 7:04... no matter how much pain we go through in this life, God sent Jesus to forgive our sins and secure our future in heaven - that's the greatest news I could ever give! Your comment is the best one I've read for a long time! May God bless you and your sister Shay :)
I’m a 13 year old girl that suffers with anxiety and possibly depression. You inspired me to be a better person and so did this poem. I hope you have a blessed life with you and your family... God Bless you.
Whoever is reading this remember to keep going on and never stop don't think of the bad things in life think of the good things in life we are all here for something greater. You are stronger than you seem smarter than you know and loved more than you know. Hold onto what you love and never let go and never ever give up
You guys are probably going to put a lot of hate on this comment but I really just wanted to say that I loved the poem even if I am an atheist. I thought it was very meaningful, but sadly I just don't believe in a higher power. Please do forgive me and please make more videos like this. It seemed to make a lot of people happy and made my day a little better.☺️☺️☺️
I am a strong believer of God. I don't have doctor diagnosed depression, it's self- diagnosed. Let's just say I've been through alot, I don't self harm I don't have strong suicidal thoughts. Deep down in my brain I always heard the voice saying, God is there for me. I guess I never really took it into deep consideration, although I've prayed about my depression I haven't felt, I don't know.. fixed. But this video showed me that yes I make sins and so do other people but that doesn't give me a reason to pretend to be happy. Because I can pray, because I have the hope of a new life after this one, because I have a loving family, who would be very supportive. I have a reason to smile. Look on the bright side, there always is one. You can always find hope in Christ, even if others bring you down. God is with you. Amen
Josh Higham I didn’t even think you would read my comment let alone reply, but this means so much I checked out your Channel and you have some good stuff, don’t stop you’re good at what you do
Thanks Nesha, that means a lot! :) I'm hopefully going to be making another spoken word but I've got no idea what to do it about... so if you have any suggestions let me know!
I relied on fake smiles all my life. It wasn’t till the end of my 1st year of high school that someone noticed the smiles were fake. He noticed me, he noticed my pain, he didn’t want me to fake a smile and that made my smiles become genuine for the first time ever. But now, 8 years later, he can no longer handle the dark truth that my fake smiles hide. The only way to keep him from running away was to go back to faking smiles while I bled from my wrists, and scratched at my face, and went back to telling everyone the beautiful lie that is “I’m fine😁”
beautiful message, I could relate to it. Most importantly u highlighted the solution to the problem which is Christ. Truth can b denied but not avoided. There's life in him... m a witness
This poem has helped me to open my eyes, to see what's going on in other people's minds ,this has given me knowledge which I have not known to help me understand and with emotion I've grown. Thanks this spoken word has given me inspiration and hope 🙂
Hi everyone! Here's my brand new Spoken Word! It's about the ENVY that eats away at all of us and how we can actually fight it... th-cam.com/video/ueLuNRwqNDM/w-d-xo.html
I don’t want to live anymore, my relationship with Christ has weakened. I used to be on fire but it’s not the same. Jesus is disappointed in me
@@andrewstone3391 Read Luke 5:32 and be encouraged that the whole reason Jesus was born, lived, died and rose was to clothe us in His goodness because our own goodness could never be enough
@@JoshDHigham thx josh
That's very awesome
@@KojoBig-Gyan Thanks so much!
That moment when you know your in the right part of TH-cam. That part of TH-cam where everyone seems accepting and the videos actually tell the truth.
true
CryingFire god is always with us he loves us.
CryingFire so true
CryingFire hi i just started my youtube Channel i hope you subscribe if you like my work. and cheer me up because no one is subscribing and feel so discouraged even though i put lots of effort to write édit and stuff 😢😳😵
the cat lover 360 Dont take this the wrong way, im not telling you what to believe, but I'm hoping you can answer my question. How do you god even exist?
Even though there is sadness in your voice while you were reading this you have a heart of gold
Thanks :)
:) thank you
Thanks
hi. thank you for saying this. i’m going through a hard time right now and i’m lost. i was about to start cutting myself again, but you helped me by just saying 6 words. i don’t know you but i love you so much for this.
I fell it too
When you cry in front of people:
"Crybaby."
When you cry alone:
"They're just doing it for attention"
When you just stop crying:
"Why are you always happy?"
that is 1000000000000000000000000000000000000% true
@@villiandeku2757 yup ✨
@@alyaazkia3530 your not wrong... your not wrong...
You can call me what's Rev because tonight is the night I won't care I'll cut my wrists I'll cry along just looking for the thing that was keeping me here is now gone so I shall go too😭😭goodbye 😩😩😖😖😖im scared but I'll do it anyways because it needs to be done
@@Vanessa-zo3to please are you still here?
This is perfect the thing is that I have actually put on a fake smile everyday for most of my life but this is just prefect
Hey Eva! I'm sorry to hear that most of your life has been like that... There's another video I really think that you'll love, it's about an incredible man called Nick Vujicic, and if you've never heard of him, you'll never be able to forget him!
th-cam.com/video/84Kj3BfHQuI/w-d-xo.html
And glad you like the video :)
Same
I have to put on a fake smile as well, especially when i go to work...
Jeff the land shark
@@FlatlineVC Yes, I'm glad that ya noticed!
Every day I wear a smile..but feel so alone on the inside ♡
ow, no matter what I am with you, Don't feel lonely.
AliceWillington_Zelda thank you sweetie ❤
Becca Butterfly don't be, God loves u so much. You're His precious daughter. And He waiting for u to come in His arm and will never left u alone. 💕
sooooo sad now you know you are not alone ok 66544111 my no ...
Boop i lost my friend too but I realize that if we were asked to get back together like how we used to, my answer would be no and it's worth it. Because I learn to accept new people in my life. God allows that to happen for a reason. Have faith in Him because He plans the best for us 💕 so yeah, ever journey you'll met a lot of people, try to put that disappointment aside and discover the world, open for more option and you will be amaze by the people you met.
This poem was just beautiful. The past 4 years of my life had been hell but my fake smile went away when god answered my prayers and taught me how to love myself. He showed me how to learn from the bad and find a reason to smile, a real beautiful smile even when it seemed my world was falling apart and for that I'm forever grateful.
aw, praise Jesus!!!! :D
i apologize but god cannot make you love yourself. God is a myth to keep society from going into chaos. But if you want something to believe in believe in the devil, the devil gave you the ability to love, and protected those who believed with goat blood. You can thank god if you like but think about if it was really some god with a big dusty book that says to kill anyone who is different or is not in the box of normal or good. I am bisexual, and Atheist I get so much hate i've started to hate myself i looked up at my ceiling and asked for help and everything just got even worse. i was tied to a bathroom stall railing and had a cross shoved in my face tell me is that god, if so I'm glad i don't believe in something fake something that just helps some people and sometimes makes people kill others because they claim GOD said so.
808 forever I don't think you have the right experience with God yet and that's ok. Please don't tell coming telling me that God can't make me love myself or that he is a myth and that Satan is real. I mean yes Satan is real but who do you think created Satan? You know even demons believe in God? Did you know there is scientific proof that God is real? I'm sorry you feel that God is a myth but I have felt his presence and his love and when you say things like that it doesn't make me doubt my belief in God it just makes me feel bad that you are rejecting his love. I'm gonna pray that one day you get to experience God in your life because he literally set me free. I hope one day you will get to feel the same way. I will also pray that God will protect you from the lies of Satan and corruption of what the world has come to.
Lmfao. I believe that a game of hide and seek shouldn't last this long.
Another thing is gods love shown by drowning people, raping a girl, kidnapping, making people on the Ark have incest. I mean if you read the bible and actually think about what it says, sounds like some person that was insane wrote it. If you told someone who's never heard of god or jesus they'd think you were insane or that your mad. i chose not to believe in god for my own reasons you may believe what you want but I'm just saying god making you love yourself is kind of sad, should believe in your self instead of some dude no ones seen and honestly i think the world would be better if religion didn't cause issues
really i can't blame god. even though they were shouting that god told them to because i was an atheist and homosexual.
I cried because this is almost like me..I smile at home and school my parents and friends thinks it’s a real smile,but at night..I just cry myself to sleep..at school I act tough but I’m really not.My friends tell me to show my true self but they judge me...they judge me so hard I feel like I fell down the cliff..I hate this..nice video though..
Hey Itz Kookie :) here's a video I think you should see... th-cam.com/video/6mcY9rBZpow/w-d-xo.html :)
unknownBlythe me to and I’m a girl this is just my dad’s pic
Me to girl
It hurts so bad when your parent's and friend's can't tell the difference between your real or fake smile anymore...
@@JoshDHigham I feel that
Every day, like an endless cycle, I put on a “smile.” When someone tells a joke, funny or not, I laugh. If I don’t, the person who told the joke looks at me like I’m a jerk. I told my friend about me cutting and she asked me “why, why did you do it? You seemed so happy.” I responded with,” fake smiles. There is a thing as putting on a mask of fake smiles and laughs. If I don’t, they ask if I’m ok and I want to say I am dying but it comes out as an I’m fine.” She then left me and never talked to me until a little bit ago when she told me she cut too. I then told her to show me her scars and asked “why did you do it?” She responded with the same thing I had said. Me and her a friends now.... she stoped cutting and started being her Normal self but I still cut and put on a fake smile.
Hey Megan :) I'm so so sorry to hear that.... here's a video I think you'll like, I think you'll really relate to it... th-cam.com/video/6mcY9rBZpow/w-d-xo.html :)
Hey mate, I struggle with the same thing. Fake mask and self harm...
but as soon as I turned to GOD my life got better! I turned to him and he has helped me see that I am Priceless, I AM beautiful
You are Beautiful and you are Priceless and please don’t forget it
I can relate to you tony.. I'm only 12 to..
Za Warudo!... Now that time is stopped I can add this to my cringe compilation
@@JoshDHigham Their name appears to be lucas
Did anyone else just look up at the ceiling and just think "...wow."? Did anyone else feel like that somehow they were meant to click this? Did anyone else just need this? This was just an absolute masterpiece... And a guy who's dealt with depression for so long, but put smiles on everyone's face, that he said this? This was just a good reminder... And its beautiful.
Thank you so much, that's so humbling to hear that :) I'm so glad you like it!
I know exactly how u feel
That feeling when you relate to every stanza, sentence and word spoken. It just makes you break down crying or numb inside and you can't say anything because you don't want others to worry. So an "I'm fine" is all you can say.
I admit it...that is true
"you can't say anything because you don't want others to worry" I cried at that line...
It’s always that moment, when someone asks, “How are you?” Or “Are you okay?” And you have a mental debate about wether or not you want to tell them, “I’m fine.” Or wether you’re going to actually tell them the truth. About the pain you feel, the thoughts you have, and the scars that cover your skin.
I am not a christian but this went deep into my heart, I have been ignoring religion hoping my pain will one day fade way. thank you for showing me the right path.
Hasen Zarroug So you believe now?
Hasen Zarroug that's the problem with Atheism, it doesn't take away the pain, just the hope ♡
Hasen Zarroug god loves us all he can fill the emptiness we feel. There is a website called JW.org that's help me feel better when I was in a bad place
i apologize but god cannot make you love yourself. God is a myth to keep society from going into chaos. But if you want something to believe in believe in the devil, the devil gave you the ability to love, and protected those who believed with goat blood. You can thank god if you like but think about if it was really some god with a big dusty book that says to kill anyone who is different or is not in the box of normal or good. I am bisexual, and Atheist I get so much hate i've started to hate myself i looked up at my ceiling and asked for help and everything just got even worse. i was tied to a bathroom stall railing and had a cross shoved in my face tell me is that god, if so I'm glad i don't believe in something fake something that just helps some people and sometimes makes people kill others because they claim GOD said so.
My hope is strong but i still have pain even without some god. i have scars from those who believe.
Why don't you all start believing in yourselves instead of something there's no proof of?
What hurts the most isn't when your friends don't know if your smile is real or fake, its when your parent's can't tell the difference...
True
No it’s when your parents never knew ! I’m too good at hiding it now 🥲
My parents the other day were talking to me (they just found out that I cut) and they said "You're taking this very maturely" and I was like, Thanks! After we talked for like two minutes, I walked slowly to my room, closed my door, then cried for like an hour. I went back upstairs smiling and they didn't notice anything
And then one day you wake up and realize that nothing hurts anymore. Something you've prayed and wished and begged for is suddenly reality. You naively believed this would make things better, that it would heal your broken heart and spirit, only to discover the numbness offers none of the comfort it promised. And you become something you never wanted to be...an empty vessel, seeing the world through lifeless eyes that are as cold and emotionless as the lens of a camera; never again will they discern or even comprehend beauty...any and all feelings of attachment dissolve into apathetic contempt. But you no longer care about these things, you don't miss them. It's like they only ever existed as whispers of a dream from the distant past, fading farther from your memory's grasp with each passing moment.
"she'll say that she's fine...she disguise it well but she's dying inside." 😞.
Ariana Portillo that is me everyday
Yeah, same.
Same
I wear a mask that smiles it looks so beutiful, but when I take it off you see me crying... I become a master of diguise no one notices i'm dying inside... I say i'm fine see my eyes they tell i'm dying inside..
Hey Zm_11 _jr :) here's another video I think you might like... th-cam.com/video/-3kHZPjz654/w-d-xo.html
Zm_11 _jr I understand you and I'm here if you need to talk
Zm_11 _jr
I felt/feel the same way... u need encouraging people in ur life that'll never leave u to rot, people that care enough to kno when ur hurt and when ur not... what u need is a true friend... and whether that friend becomes God or Christ or just someone who understand and knows u enough to help u, it'll be someone u can depend on and someone that wants the best for u
Josh Higham thx
rachel rippey thx
Damn, you gotta hit me with a Robin Williams quote right off the bat
I wear a mask it's a smile but if someone actually cared they would be able to see it's broken
I had friends
But they left me
I had confidence
But that crumbled to dust
I had love
But it wasn't meant to be
Blades used to be for paper
Now they're for skin
Long sleeves were used to keep you warm
Now there used to hide your scarrs
I'm broken I'm lost I'm invisible,
I'm no one
This is beautiful and relatable
😘❣
You’re beautiful just the way you are. Everyone here loves you. Please don’t hurt yourself, we want you to love yourself. You are strong and gorgeous, you are loved!
hello, i know that this was a year ago and i’m hoping that you’re better now. if you are i would like to ask how you did it.. and if you’re still going through this, i ask that if we can go through this together. i want to get out of these thoughts. i’m desperate
i understand this.
Only GOD can turn fake smile into a real one....
God Bless to everyone
To God Be The Glory
xx_ ninja ty
God isn't real don't you see that? If he was real then why are humans here we are the reason for the world's fucked up problems
@@cassiedavies7181 ikr
@@cassiedavies7181 there's many answers for that
Though I'm Muslim, so I don't completely have the same views you voice towards the end. But, this really is a wonderful video
Saarah N
same
Same ...
same
Saarah N same
Saarah N God bless all y'all ✌
This is gold....
I have read a lot of poems but this has proved to be one of the best even though i am not from the said religion
Good work on this
Thank you Samia, that really means a lot! :)
Samia Chowdhury
It doesn't matter if ur apart of a religion, all that matters is that u believe in God!
God bless you! I'll pray for your happiness every day.😀😁
Just A Nobody I wish I could believe.
You can believe, because Christianity is not just a fantasy. Is based in fact. Jesus was a historical person who really died. And they really didn't produce his body, even when his disciples claimed he was risen and they wanted to silence him. I would recommend Mere Christianity by CS Lewis and The Case for Christ by Lee Strobel. When I was an atheist I thought that the idea of God was obviously stupid, but after reading more into it I decided to follow Jesus. He has helped me through my depression, but I still face issues with trust and self worth. You are not alone. You are loved and cared for. Not just by Jesus, everyone who follows him is called to love.
Much love,
From someone who's been there.
This is a poem I made its inspired by "Fake Smile" and if you happen to read Thankyou for your time hope you enjoy!
"MASK OF GOLD"
By Beth Hollifield
A boy in a room who just turned 19
It was always his dream
To help those in need
Friends that he trusted
Became someone new
So he warped his world
To fit in THEIR mold
Now his worst fear is being rejected
He’d try ANYTHING
To feel loved and accepted
He made a mask from gold
to hide what he was
And to become someone who was loved
To smile and laugh
the mask had given him that,
but the pain was too deep
The mask of gold would not break
He tried and tried and yelled for help,
But the help he craved
He had never received
And it was he who had been truly deceived
All the dreams he's had
Just haven't come true
They faded like a memory,
Like he knew he’d become one day
If you ask how he is
He’ll answer with pride
And say he's fine
He hides it well,
Behind his mask of gold
But see in his eyes
See how truly broken he is inside
His only friend became a bottle,
A bottle of pills and a bottle of poison.
It helped with the pain
But the cuts never seemed to fade.
He’d try anything
To fill the big hole in his heart
His heart was empty
From the sorrows he's drowned
But deep down
He knows he’s not brave or bold
But he’d lived the lie
so he’ll continue
Even though the truth is
He’s scared of the world,
And just wants to go home
i guess .....it's really a realty for me
LYRICS:
There's a girl in the corner, just turned 18
Ever since she was little it was always her dream
To marry a man who would treat her just right
With loving best friends for the rest of her life
But as she grew up, her friends all grew cold
So she twisted her life just to fit in their mould
Now her biggest fear is that she'll be rejected
She'll try anything to feel loved and accepted
She posts photos on Instagram, hoping that now
Her body attracts what her heart can't somehow
Slowly turning herself into something she's not
Desperate for anyone to think that she's hot
But the love that she craves has never come through
And the dreams she once held just haven't come true
If you ask how she is, she'll say that she's fine
She disguises it well but she's dying inside
She tried parties and drinking, just a little to start
Anything to fill that big hole in her heart
Now she's sleeping around, hoping love will be found
But her heart lies empty from the sorrows she's drowned
'Cause deep down she knows that she is not bold
She puts on her fake smile while she bleeds
On the outside she'll build so her life will seem filled
But on the inside she's never complete
There's a boy on the streets, acting all rough
Bullying others just to make him feel tough
He puts on a show so his ego will grow
Puts everyone down to try and raise himself up
People assume that he's always been cold
It seems like there's nothing that could tame his soul
On the outside he's callous, with a heart made of steel
But inside he's been broken by the pain that he feels
He's the abuser at school, but at home he's abused
With a dad always drunk and a mum always bruised
He's lost count of the times that he's gone to bed crying
He's never found peace and he's got tired of trying
Now he's lost all his hope and his trust has worn thin
So he hurts others first before they can hurt him
He takes out his pain on the kids at his school
While desperate for someone to think that he's cool
He buries it deep so the world never sees
All the heartache and heartbreak brings his heart straight to its knees
He fights with his friends while he wrestles with doubt
Feels he's been dealt bad hand, so he's dealing it out
But down deep he knows that he is not bold
He puts on his fake smile while he bleeds
On the outside he'll build so his life will seem filled
But on the inside he's never complete
Though we try not to show it, and all try to fix it
In our hearts we're all broken but no one admits it
They say that it's what's on the inside that counts
We all put on a brave face but on the inside we doubt
We're all scared of the world, we don't know what we're facing
We're longing for something but don't know what we're chasing
Though we face the same things that burden and break us
We all look to each other for some feeling of status
We want people to view us, to follow and like
To favourite our looks and subscribe to our life
We treat retweets like morphine to cover the hurt
Of our friendless existence when our phone doesn't work
We're all grasping at glory and craving acclaim
It's the fuel in our tank, it's the drug in our veins
And soon as it's gone, our heart hits the floor
And we run to self-pity 'til our egos find more
Everyone out there keeps searching around
Just to find the right pill to pick them up when they're down
And we try our best, but we fail our own test
We pretend that we're swimming while we drown
Because deep down we all know that we are not bold
We put on our fake smiles while we bleed
On the outside we build so our lives will seem filled
But on the inside we're never complete
So what is the answer? What is the cure?
What's the solution to being so insecure?
Can sex, drugs and money fulfill all your dreams?
Or a 7-step process restore self-esteem?
Well if we're all here by chance, and there's no higher power
Then live life to the full or just waste every hour
If it makes you feel good, then do all the more
And find satisfaction in what you adore
Just eat, drink, sleep, party, have fun then die
'Cause what does it matter what you do to feel high?
If you only live once, then do what you choose
And we're all here by chance so you really can't lose
But the problem with that: it's ignorant lies
It's the best people offer but never satisfies
It's like try'n to fill a bucket right up to the top
While it's leaking out more than you ever could stop
Whatever the world can produce as the answer
Just eats us away like an emotional cancer
There's nothing inside you to enlighten your soul
You can't do a thing to make you feel whole
So what if we've been looking in all the wrong places
Trying to find gratification to fill our hearts' spaces?
What if the real answer isn't something conceived?
Isn't not dreamt up by people, but something received?
See while everyone's try'n to find a method that's greater
True help can only come from our Creator
Whether you believe doesn't change what is true
All I can do is present this to you:
We try to show our good and cover our bad
Just show the happy but never the sad
But God isn't fooled; He sees under your mask
He knows all your thoughts and your unending task
That search for acceptance, to keep and preserve it
But there's nothing good in us to ever deserve it
But though I am sinful and stood as God's foe
Because He is good, He stood up and said, "No"
"I won't leave you alone, though you deserve Hell
I'll love you and free you from your prison cell
I'll come as a man and I'll die in your place
Taking your sin and giving you grace"
"But I won't stay dead, I'll rise from the grave
I'll show I'm alive and I'm willing to save
Now your time on earth may be still filled with strife
But repent and believe, and I'll give you life"
So though I am wretched and hopeless alone
God chose to love me and and make me His own
Now I'm alive when once I was dead
So I'm simply a beggar showing where to find bread
See the trouble we face has been true from the start
The heart of our problem is the problem of our heart
We're all full of flaws, full of sin, full of vice
Our hearts need transforming and cleansing by Christ
It's not superficial touch-ups, but supernatural change
It gives new breath to my lungs, new life to my veins
Now whatever I go through, I don't need a fake smile
Because I'm forgiven, adopted, and loved as God's child
It's not just my answer that suits me the best
Not a just nice lifestyle, valid as all the rest
No, it's the Way, and the Truth, and the Life
The reason my smile isn't fake is Christ
Wooow it was right here!! I wanted to share it with my friend to I paused the video and typed when the lyrics were right here!! XD I'm so dumb
Haha sorry Luna... :P
Its alright!!:) I really like the video
"There's a girl in the corner,
with tear stains on her eyes...
from the places she's wandered...
and the shame she can't hide~"
can anyone guess the song?
-Fantasy is my Reality- You Are More C:
that was beautiful. I'm crying ha. I always thought that god never answered me, and I believed it. this poem, made me realize, that god is real. I... I have never felt so, ALIVE. thank you so much. because of you, I now can see me, as someone who is loved. heh thank you so very much
That's so amazing to hear, and humbling to hear! That's why I wrote it, so if I've been able to play a small part in helping you grow closer to God and cause your love for Him to grow then I'm overjoyed with that! I'll be praying for you :)
Thank you! I will keep you in my prayers also! :)
Josh Higham im asking your permission, can i use your piece? On our youth service?
Yeah sure, no problem :)
Josh Higham :)
Am I enough? - Spoken Words Poem.
Am I good enough? Am I pretty enough? Am I smart enough? Am I thin enough? Am I enough? Those are questions that I ask my self everyday because I wanna be good enough. Because I come to school and I see the groups of kids that hangout together, you have your jocks and your popular kids and the artistic kids or the musical kids, but what am I? Am I just another face in these hallways among the other rejects. Among the kids who feel like they don’t belong.
Am I the only person in the entire school who feels like they have a massive weight upon their shoulders everyday? Am I the only who cakes their face with makeup to cover up their gross and disgusting natural beauty. Am I the only one who wear baggy clothes because I don’t have a thin waist and nobody wants to see that. Because based on popular opinion if a girl doesn’t wear size zero skinny jeans or have a perfectly straight smile or beautiful luscious hair then then she’s not beautiful.
I wake up every morning and look in the mirror and think to myself “wow, I look gross.” I put on a pair of jeans, look in the mirror and say “wow. I’m incredibly fat.” I hate the way I look, I hate the way I talk. I hate the way I walk and breathe and act. I hate that I constantly compare myself to every girl at this school saying “I wish I was as skinny as her,” or “I wish I had that perfect smile,” or “I wish I had her beautiful hair.”. I wish I was good enough. I wish I was worth something. I wish I was beautiful.
Am I good enough? Am I pretty enough? Am I smart enough? Am I thin enough? Am I enough? The answer, is yes. Yes you are good enough, Yes you are pretty enough. Yes you are smart enough. Yes your are enough. You are beautiful. No matter what anyone says, or thinks or acts. You can wear whatever you want, you can put on makeup or keep it off, your still beautiful. You can show off that messy frizzy hair and not care about what people say because it is beautiful and it is natural. You can walk into school with your head held high and talk to whoever you want because society shouldn’t effect how you live your live. You should be the one to choose who you wanna be, not the opinions of people around you.
So for the last time. I am asking. Am I enough?
Thank you.
Lizzie Elizabeth Venho Wow...
Well. Screw the question about if you’re enough. The real question is... DID YOU WRITE ENOUGH? The answer is: Yes, definitely! And I read all of it, clap for me! :) Now enough for the joking around, of course you are enough! You are who you’re meant to be. Live your life to the fullest.
To many words for meh tiny brain, but I bet the poem is amazing 😂👌🏽
Lizzie Elizabeth Venho: Do i look good?
Me: DE YU KNOW DE WAE
Lizzie Elizabeth Venho you are good enough sweetie
Honestly I’m crying this is so touching.. 😭 I can relate to most of this and my heart just feels so touched right now. This was amazing
Hey Blooming Kitten :) really glad you liked it!
I wish I had someone to hug me right now... I'm bawling.
m.th-cam.com/video/LbktXeUboLM/w-d-xo.html
I Just came to TH-cam to find peace with a song.
and instead what I found it was all gold.
So maybe i'm crying to the beauty of this.
But my wish of peace has been fullfilled.
:) thank you for bringing a little of happines to the world.
So glad you liked it Keyla, and you're welcome! :)
Isn't it sad when you get hurt so much, you can finally say,'' I'm used to it.''
''Blowing out someone's candle, doesn't make yours seem brighter.'' #BullyQuotes
"Now, whether you believe doesn't change what is true; and all I can do is present this to you:
We try to show our good and cover our bad,
just show the happy but never the sad,
*But God isn't fooled; he sees under your mask,*
*He knows all your thoughts, and your unending task,*
*That search for acceptance, to keep and preserve it,*
*But there's nothing good in us to ever deserve it.*
*But though I am sinful, and stood as God's foe,*
*Because he is good, he stood up and said **_NO._*
*_I won't leave you alone, though you deserve hell_*
*_I'll love you and free you from your prison cell._*
*_I'll come as a man and die in your place,_*
*_Taking your sin... And giving you grace._*
*_But I won't stay dead. I'll rise from the grave_*
*_I'll show I'm alive, I'm willing to save_*
*_Now your time on Earth may still be filled with strife,_*
*_But repent and believe, and I'll give you life._*
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if god was real why would he give me te live i have because i lost my dad to suicide when i was 5 and lost my grandparents last year my mother is an alcoholic and i have been praying every night to show me a sign that god is real but all i get is more disappointment
Gyon Niens I am so sorry for your intense, horrible and continuing hardship... it's horrible, I understand to an extent, of course, I can never know exactly how you feel.
God has a path planned for everyone, a destiny... the last proposition in the description for this video hints at this too.
From experience, the feeling of loneliness and when you feel as though God isn't there, it's horrible I know, doesn't mean He isn't. Perhaps you've heard of 'Footprints in the Sand.' It's a beautiful poem. It tells of how even though we feel like God isn't there and that it seems He left us alone in the hardest times, but really, He spent all that time carrying us, we just couldn't see it...
In our lives, there are times where we must go through extremely hard times, some that it seems we will never escape from, but it will change, and with Jesus, you can change too. God doesn't sit there, waiting impatiently, tapping His foot, checking His watch, He will wait for as long as it takes. He watches over you, as your heart cries out to Him, He hasn't forsaken you. Some times we must trust his promise, have faith, and just survive. No expectations.
Just always know that God loves you and cares for you, I care for you too. If you want to speak to someone or ask more questions about God, I'm here for you.
God bless you, and I really hope things improve.
@@The-Listener who created you? Why you're father death
@@The-Listener There's creator of all world is Allah one God read the truth about God Muslims Holy Quran
@@cabdiwaxidxasan3256 appreciate it but gonna pass on that. I stopped trying to believe in any kind of God and rather walk the path I so choose myself without relying on some higher form of being
Everyone: Sad
Me: This could be a rap song
Thank you for using your talent to bless the world. I saw this at just the right time. God bless you !
No problem Kimberly!
That made me cry... That made my hope there could be happiness around again... Thank you for all those words... You're telling us.
Thanks Klaudia, so humbled to hear that and so glad you liked it! :)
One of the best poems I have honestly ever heard, extremely touching
Thank you so much Jacinda :)
STFU
In such a dark world, I do find it hard to believe, that there's people who realize the little things like this! To lift a spirits hope, in such a way! Thank you all who do these things!
Wow this hit me hard... It literally described my life in a couple sentences and made me realize how messed up society is how messed up i am... I always put on a fake smile and lie that I'm okay. When I'm not but I pray to God that one day that will no longer mater. This poem honestly is very inspirational and really touching
That's amazing to hear Karina, may God bless you :)
Josh Higham this made m cry because this is me and I have depression nobody knows
Karina Pyasetskiy *gives hug*
Fail City *hugs back* I'ma go with it
I’ve been in a rather depressing state lately. I feel like a loner at school. I’ve always been very tiny and skinny which makes people never take me seriously. Today I started watching Jon Jorgenson, and I began to fall asleep slowly... I woke up to this video playing and I felt like I could relate so much. Thank You, this video is amazing!
Hey Tiger Flips, you're welcome! Glad you liked it :)
I love this. This is making me cry. This is so beautiful. Thank you.
Really glad you liked it :)
Accio Firebolt
_You now have 69 likes_
Aye same. Well... it made me get pins and needles in my heart, and _almost_ made me cry...
Amen, Jesus offers genuine love, acceptance, peace, and joy. Trust me ik believing in God doesnt automatically cure all of our problems, but He is there waiting with grace and open arms to guide us and bless us. These are simply tests in our testimonies, valleys so we can rejoice in the hills. Ik this is so cliche, but whoever is reading this I pray you know that Jesus sincerly sincerly loves you
This really made me cry. ..i belive in God and he is the reason that i'm alive right now...Thank you for this beautifull poem ♡
My pleasure Moise! :)
Moise Emilia
I feel the same way about this vid/poem! 😊😊😊
This is a great piece. I personally don't think you have to be the same faith to agree this is well written and creative. Keep up the good work!
When you find Christ, you find joy. This is so encouraging. There is more to life, and that is Christ. Thank you so much for seeing that and voicing that.
My pleasure Taylor!
Taylor Powell If you find joy when you find Christ, then why would Christ be hiding in the first place?
Erick Benjamin thank you. Someone who sees it.
Winter Wolf0986 Huh?? What did I do?
I agree
This poem is a beautiful masterpiece
Hey Rahnumaa, thank you so much, that's so kind! Really glad you like it :D
Amen, this is an amazing poem. How true, the only answer is the Gospel and the love of Christ. Thank you for the reminder, I really needed that, praise be to God.
Thank you so much, I'm so glad you liked it :)
Sad goodbye
It’s true. If it wasn’t for Jesus, I wouldn’t be here right now
I love this poem, even though I don't believe in a god. I also love how I haven't seen anyone be full on rude about it, I may have seen one or two go on the little unrespectful but the majority of it was very nice. Even if they didn't share the same beliefs
Sierra Joseph ur running away from the truth the truth is God is real and you may not can see him he is real he is life wind you can't see the wind can you? But you can feel it when it blows against your skin just like God he does great things everyday even though you might not be able to see him he still here and alive. I'm a believer but I choose not to belive because I want to do what I want to do but I know now that it doesn't work like that. I love this poem this man is remarkable he is a true believer. Thank u so much dude you mad me wanna change. 😭 thank u
cara tolbert Has there ever been any proof of God? None that is reliable so until it is proven it exists don't force your views on other people. I am not saying God definitely does or does not exist but everyone is free to have their own opinion so don't enforce yours.
Sorry I rant alot 😂😂
Destined Nightcore ok people come to me all the time and say how can u prove gods real but I tell them all the same thing and they can ever answer it I say. "wind is real but u can't see it". And none of them can ever say anything else after that but I'm not forcing anything on anyone I'm just telling u the truth and one day u soon shall find out. 😂😂😊
cara tolbert I am not religious myself so when people say something definitely exists which hasn't been proven I get a bit triggered. But yeah one day we will find out who has been right all along. Sorry that you have been a victim to my ranting 😂😂
Destined Nightcore it's OK don't worry I dont have a thing against u I just believe. Ur cool though u keep a good argument
Just Robin Williams name made it all real. I just figured they were probably the words of someone who didn't understand.
This is so beautiful.
Thank you so much
You're welcome :)
I'm not a believer myself, but I really related to the situation of both the girl and the boy. I went through a phase very similar to the boy during my senior year of highschool after a bad break up and losing some of my best freinds. It was a really rough and miserable period of my life that took me a long time to get over. It feels great to know someone understands what that's like (:
Macabre Nightmares God Understands So He Sends You Those Who You Can Relate To Because if Not Him at Least Those Who Can Send You To Him. you Dont Have to Believe in Religion Because That Never Solved a Thing But The Truth Is That He Has Always Been Above You. We Will Not Fall Short Anymore and As One We Will See This Through and At The Gates He Awaits For Our Return as I Will Meet You There. Time Will Bring Us All Together One Way Or Another. If Not Our Creator Then At Least The Life Given at Birth. Do Right By Those Influenced By Your Presence. Stay Safe and Be Humble Or Seek Just That. Unconditional Love From Riverside California.
Macabre Nightmares God Understands So He Sends You Those Who You Can Relate To Because if Not Him at Least Those Who Can Send You To Him. you Dont Have to Believe in Religion Because That Never Solved a Thing But The Truth Is That He Has Always Been Above You. We Will Not Fall Short Anymore and As One We Will See This Through and At The Gates He Awaits For Our Return as I Will Meet You There. Time Will Bring Us All Together One Way Or Another. If Not Our Creator Then At Least The Life Given at Birth. Do Right By Those Influenced By Your Presence. Stay Safe and Be Humble Or Seek Just That. Unconditional Love From Riverside California.
Beautiful.
Is it enough?
Its been so long that I've asked myself that.
When I was drowning in all that hate.
For myself, others, and feeling that way.
It walked me to the inner oceans of my heart.
A calling, a passing, a start.
Now, the shadows never watch me.
The light is never hollow.
I'm never alone, or scared, or afraid.
And I have so many people to thank for that.
I have so many people that care about me, I was just too blind to see it.
Even if you don't know it, there's someone out there.
Fighting for us, everyday.
So listen.
Listen to the battle cries of pain strung together by faint memory and warning.
Listen to all the people calling your name.
Warping and forming, yelling and screaming.
The pain of being broken.
The pain of watching the broken.
I know the broken search for a cure to the pain.
I've been there too, searching and scanning for something to end it all.
Something swift and easy.
Like the knife or the rope.
But we must learn that we are sick, and no matter how hard we wish we weren't.
We are.
And knives and ropes won't help us.
Instead take from the truth that things will get better.
It will take so long to get there, but it'll be worth it.
A new person who feels the sunshine,
A new person who never has to lie about being happy.
A new person that appreciates others so much more.
A future like that exists.
Don't you want to live it?
This video really explains how I am....just a fake smile...and will change just to make others happy and make others laugh and make them make her happy...but she is just broken....and just thinking to hurt herself...and tbh...it hurts to broken and make others belive what you are not...but thank you this poem saved my life...from been hanged on a string on the sealing of her house.....and a dropped chair...so I wanted to say thank you for saving my life...
Hey Vanessa :) It's so incredibly humbling to hear you say this poem has saved your life... you have no idea how amazing that is for me to hear! Even if you were the only one who'd watched it, it would be worthwhile just for that! :)
There's another video I love sharing with people, and I think you'll really like it too!! th-cam.com/video/84Kj3BfHQuI/w-d-xo.html :)
Wow. This was truly amazing. Thank you so much for making and sharing this video. I am Christian and was always a happy and faithful child howeve I have recently been feeling depressed and was feeling more down than usual, listening to depressing songs on TH-cam. Sadness can become an addiction. You fall deeper and deeper into it until there's no way out. However I came across this video and the title "fake smile" related to me a lot and while I was watching it, the lyrics really seemed to relate to today's world and the main causes of depression amongst our favorite singers and actors. As I was scrolling down looking for the next video to watch... I heard the words "ignorant lies never satisfy" "what if the solution is not something dreamt up by people, but received?" And the second I heard "the only true help can come from our creator" I burst into tears. I have been dedicated to my faith for so long yet failed to understand how I fell into such a turmoil. My faith has been neglected as I continue to fall down this deep dark hole. But i think this video was my first step climbing out and I am now certain that with God's help, I can accomplish anything. I am going to put the quote "the reasoning smile isn't fake..is Jesus Christ!" Thank you so much for this video. God bless you all!
Hi Sarah :) That's so incredible to hear!! I'm so humbled and honoured that God was able to use this video to help you - stories like yours make making videos worthwhile, so thank you and may God bless you Sarah! :)
Psalm 119 verse 1-2 , says blessed which means happy. So happy are those who obey all the lord commands anytime we fill depressed is a sign we should draw closer to God. Become a disciple of christ.
I'm in love with this poem. Can I make a video on this poem please? This poem has hit my heart straight & I want to film something on it.
Glad you liked it Amulya! Yeah sure you can :)
Josh Higham can I sign this in my asl class?
Yeah of course!
This is so beautiful! i love this poem even though it kinda mad me feel sad. because i'm insecure about some stuff about myself like my body\stomach :(
Amulya Singh i wanna see that video!
When I was younger I had a friend who saw me. But we were young.
I still stare at his back.
He's cool now.
I still cry in school, I can't stop it.
But he doesn't notice anymore.
Maybe im over thinking it... It's not that he's mean... Hes just busy.
i’ve been holding everything in for sooo long and there’s a time where u just break and this is that time
Put on a fake smile every damn day even though inside I was dying inside still doing it today and still alone
Your not alone.
There were 137 ppl that were so emotional- crying and shaking and eyes full of tears ... They accidentally hit the dislike button
nah its more then likely the religious tone towards the end.
+MrJupiter0001
Yes.
All that emotional speech for nothing?
It's like those "draw my life" videos that tell you what happens to animals and want you to become vegan.
I'm not intrested in that.
Though,the speech is great and what happens to animals is terrible.
Camila Bertolini what the hell does that have to do with animals
That i'm not intrested in becoming vegan or going to church.
It's just so beautiful to listen, every thing said just hurts you from inside but gives a hope also that you're suffice! ❤️
I’ve never had a poem hit me like this one did😭🖤 such great work and meaning🖤
Hey Arii.xox! You're welcome, so glad you like it :D
Every 40 seconds someone commits Suicide and this has helped me and many others try to smile a real smile not a fake one this has saved a lot of people who have commented and just others around the world you are a life saver Thank you
It's so humbling to hear that... thank you, and it's my pleasure!
Josh Higham you have saved many lives including me a child. Thank you for opening my heart
After 4 years I've finally written something new! Here's my new brand spoken word for Easter, called, "Who Is This Jesus?" Hope you like it! th-cam.com/video/8lJp0HoVT3A/w-d-xo.html
If Jesus is something real, I won't believe it! Haha!
I just like this one
Your spoken words are so good. Thank you for sharing God's truth and hope!
So far my favorite poem.
@Sephia Graham If you believe it!
hats off beautiful poem i have ever heard!
just beautiful :)
Thank you Aritro!!
Josh Higham keep up the great uploads god bless you. this video is priceless.
While it is sad, it is also beautiful!!!!
Thanks Shirley!
he hurts others first before they can hurt him
*Although we might wear a mask, deep down we hope that someone, anyone, will look us in our dull eyes, see through our disguise, and hear our silent cries* 💧
To anyone reading this who feels the uncontrollable, overwhelming, & soul crushing feeling of hopelessness, loneliness, & worthlessness or the painful numb feeling of not being able to feel at all, I don’t need to know you to tell you *You **_are_** a fighter. You **_are_** a survivor. You **_are_** important to me. You **_are_** loved & **_I love you_* ❤️
I love this! It's so true! thanks for this! it has moved to tears!
I'm glad you liked it :D
It's just amazing what a smile can hide, someone could appear to be happy but inside they are just the complete opposite.
I relate to this so much,nobody realize how much we are in pain in the inside.
I wish this spoken word could be longer and more
it is really beautiful full of life and i adore :)...
Thanks, glad you like it! :)
Man I really needed this. I've been going through some friend problems and I found this. I'm so thankful for it.
Hey Kaylee :) you're welcome, so glad you like it :)
I just discovered this over a game of chess with my friends.
Such a masterpiece! I must confess things are quite tough and it's hard to continue smiling
Lord hear my cry! All I ask for is clarity 🙏🏾
It's all about who Christ is and what He's done :) keep pressing on
@@JoshDHigham Thanks Josh... Appreciate you 👍🏾
I don't think that I even got through half way of this video before I started crying. This poem is amazing and helped open up my eyes about some people. Thank you.
You're welcome, so glad you like it :)
Wow. Being new to TH-cam trying to get into spoken word (eventually film) this is really inspiring . Just words. They reach so many , touch so many, relate to so many.
Thank you !
"If you ask how she is she'll say that she's fine, She disguises it well but she's dying inside" story of my life
I've never once given a real smile since I was eight. My life has been a living hell. From backstabbing friends, to bullies making me unable to breathe without being judged, to being left behind and afraid of things that truly make no sense. I've developed the fears of being abandoned, rejected, being alone, being in the dark, and because of these fears I've been unable to confide in anyone. Only around two years ago, I was able to finally find a way to confide in someone. I allowed myself to confide in God. While I didn't really truly believe at first, I soon found myself believing more and relying more in/on God.
Amen 🙏 I went through most of those things as well. And Confiding in Jesus is the best thing I ever did. I wish I had done it sooner
I'm at the first minute of the video and im in tears....every single word is true...
So much realness and feelings in 9 minutes that is all too familiar to us. We need more spoken word artists to express the reality of life that we are all experiencing but avoid discussing. I did attempted to this with the spoken word on my channel. Thank you for this.
Hey Everest Co. :) Thanks so much, that means a lot! Really glad you liked it!
There was a time..
In my class everyone said, "if you have problems, tell us, we will help"
When i didn't tell them, the got angry and said "why didn't you tell us! We would have helped!"
Now... When i don't want to hide it...
They say.. "You just want intension! You are fine! Don't make up things! It's all fake!"
That's why i stopped talking to anyone about it...
And then others say "why do this people always hide their problems?! It's not even bad! We all have something in the past!"
It can't rain all the time but that's the only time she smiles and laughs at everyone that can't understand that little falling rain drops problems.
I listen to this everynight before I go to bed...thank you so much
That's so humbling to hear Andre, I'm so glad you liked it!! May God bless you :)
i see all these stories of how people just had a smile to have to get put on, no story behind it, but would you believe me when if I said I never put on a fake smile. *i got rid of smiling completely* I was abused as a child by my father, every weekend I got passed between my mother and father because it was *the law, they can morph the law for a druggie but not for an abused daughter and her sister* my older sister has down syndrome, she's so effected by it she can't even talk. *I as a 3-6 year old girl didn't understand why she could never be loved by a father.* My mother was with a guy that treated her like crap, my mother finally went to her senses, and moved away, she found out about the abuse I took when it slipped one night while I was crying. We lived alone for a little, not much money, but we were living, but I didn't have a chance at school social success. They made fun of me for being quiet, short, and smart, smart of all things. I never did tell my mother about my school life, because we moved again, but with another man, I was weary at 7 years old of this man, but he was nice. He cared for me, he loved me, he understood me, he even had a daughter who is my bestest friend *he was perfect* until I was 8... He got really sick, he went to the hospital, he was there for 2 years, my mom lived at the hospital with my dad, she quit her job, she came home every night and kissed us goodnight but, *I had to take care of my sister every day and night* I woke up early, got her dressed, waited for the school bus to come and when it did I gave her over to her school and ran to my bus stop, sure I barely ever made it and had to walk to school but I would do it for my sister, I had to walk home otherwise I wouldn't get there in time to get my sister, I made her dinner every night, always a hot meal on the dinner table, I always played with her, I never left her alone, after a year of this repetitive cycle my mother came home more, I was told not to worry, she would take better care of us and our dad was almost ready to get out. He did come home 1 year later, but he told me I was so different, I guess I didn't realize it but my mother took me to a doctor, they told me something. *I had ASPD, anxiety, and depressive disorder* I could live with this, taking 4 pills every day as a 10 year old. Life did get better, then worse, but in the end it does get better, I now have dimples again, I know it sounds stupid but that means I have been smiling, I moved to a better school, i made a few friends, but it's better. Im 14, I still live with these disorders but its whom I am, and I am leaving teen years alive and well.
Shay that's such a touching story! I'm so sorry for the pain you've gone through... But I'm so glad you're learning to smile again and that things are looking better for you!! I would try to say something helpful and encouraging, but I'm struggling to find words. You've gone through things I could never imagine! I think the most important thing I could say is already in the video from 7:04... no matter how much pain we go through in this life, God sent Jesus to forgive our sins and secure our future in heaven - that's the greatest news I could ever give! Your comment is the best one I've read for a long time! May God bless you and your sister Shay :)
Josh Higham thank you, it means allot to me.
:)
Shay Jean *gives hugs*
I’m a 13 year old girl that suffers with anxiety and possibly depression. You inspired me to be a better person and so did this poem. I hope you have a blessed life with you and your family... God Bless you.
the most beautiful spoken word Poem I have ever heard
well done x 😍
Thanks Melissa!!
Whoever is reading this remember to keep going on and never stop don't think of the bad things in life think of the good things in life we are all here for something greater. You are stronger than you seem smarter than you know and loved more than you know. Hold onto what you love and never let go and never ever give up
You guys are probably going to put a lot of hate on this comment but I really just wanted to say that I loved the poem even if I am an atheist. I thought it was very meaningful, but sadly I just don't believe in a higher power. Please do forgive me and please make more videos like this. It seemed to make a lot of people happy and made my day a little better.☺️☺️☺️
Thanks, glad you liked it :)
i am an atheist as well and it was brilliant
Im the same! Its okay
I am a strong believer of God. I don't have doctor diagnosed depression, it's self- diagnosed. Let's just say I've been through alot, I don't self harm I don't have strong suicidal thoughts. Deep down in my brain I always heard the voice saying, God is there for me. I guess I never really took it into deep consideration, although I've prayed about my depression I haven't felt, I don't know.. fixed. But this video showed me that yes I make sins and so do other people but that doesn't give me a reason to pretend to be happy. Because I can pray, because I have the hope of a new life after this one, because I have a loving family, who would be very supportive. I have a reason to smile. Look on the bright side, there always is one. You can always find hope in Christ, even if others bring you down. God is with you.
Amen
Well said Marie! :) here's another video I think you'll really relate to :) th-cam.com/video/6mcY9rBZpow/w-d-xo.html
Josh Higham Oh my goodness! Thank you so much for recognizing this!!💓😁
You're welcome :)
I hope you can find help and get yourself a proper diagnosis and surround yourself with good people
This is the most real thing I have ever heard brought me to tears and it’s crazy how much this explains, thank you that’s all I can say
Hey Nesha, I'm so glad you liked it! :)
Josh Higham I didn’t even think you would read my comment let alone reply, but this means so much I checked out your Channel and you have some good stuff, don’t stop you’re good at what you do
Thanks Nesha, that means a lot! :) I'm hopefully going to be making another spoken word but I've got no idea what to do it about... so if you have any suggestions let me know!
Josh Higham loneliness/feeling empty or numb
“The heart of our problem is the problem of our heart.”
I love this
Very heart felt
I love this so much, one of the things that keeps me going
The main thing
Godbless
You're welcome! :) so glad you liked it!
Thank you...you are so wise. Know all that is true.... Showing me and others what is truth from Christ. 💜💜💞
love it, should be thought of overtime we feel like we need to follow the crowd, and not live Gods way of life, the true way
I relied on fake smiles all my life. It wasn’t till the end of my 1st year of high school that someone noticed the smiles were fake. He noticed me, he noticed my pain, he didn’t want me to fake a smile and that made my smiles become genuine for the first time ever. But now, 8 years later, he can no longer handle the dark truth that my fake smiles hide. The only way to keep him from running away was to go back to faking smiles while I bled from my wrists, and scratched at my face, and went back to telling everyone the beautiful lie that is “I’m fine😁”
beautiful message, I could relate to it. Most importantly u highlighted the solution to the problem which is Christ. Truth can b denied but not avoided. There's life in him... m a witness
I saw this and it really explains me really thank you. I needed this I don't know why but this helped me. 🖤🙏🏼 God bless you bro
Thanks :)
😭😭god is good.
all the time
And all the time
god is good
neon music panda God brought anger, hatred and illness into the world, still think he's good?
Winter Wolf0986 but he brought you and he also brought love
Four years later, this video is still so true and touching. It was what I needed to see today, indeed...so thank you for making it, sir.
I totally felt compared to the girl.. This video it's really touchy. Thanks! Really, Thank You.
You're welcome :)
This is so beautiful.
Thank you for sharing the beauty that is Christ ❤️
Thank you so much, glad you enjoyed it 😊
This poem has helped me to open my eyes, to see what's going on in other people's minds ,this has given me knowledge which I have not known to help me understand and with emotion I've grown. Thanks this spoken word has given me inspiration and hope 🙂
Amazing to hear that!!
Flower Girl *gives hugs*
it’s not when they ask if I’m okay that makes me cry, it’s when I don’t want them to know.
I was sobbing through the whole video it was really brilliant and inspiring.
Mariana Cortinez same
Loved this 💞💞 showed just how hurt someone could be despite the smile on their face 💔
Hey Amber, really glad you like it :D
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I cried so bad after watching. this is so amazing.....