I know some folks here are scared of dementia. Just know... its not set in stone that you WILL get it. Just a possibility (that you might even be able to influence with a healthy lifestyle). Also there is a lot of research being done as we speak. I'd say once we reach "that" age we will very likely be able to at least slow it down greatly. I also don't think the point of this album was to scare people. As to me personally I work in elderly care and listening to this made me actually reflect the way I treat my patients and how due to working stress and other factors (also egoistical ones) I was not always treating them the way I should. This helps me greatly in trying to do it better from now on. These people deserve all the help they can get. And maybe I can be a small note in their music that makes the whole ordeal a bit less dreadful for them. If you have the time... maybe consider doing some voluntary work for elderly. Don't be scared of them. You can learn a lot from the most demented person for your personal growth and journey. You can give them a lot of joy even if they are confused. I'd say having this perspective beats being scared of dementia.
The album is not trying to be scary, it's trying it's best to convey how dementia can be scary and portray it to people who don't know how it feels like. Of course dementia isn't how this album operates, but it does show the decline in thinking via memories and sound repetition slowy decaying to barely even remember the sounds. But still, for me this is the single most powerful projects along with The Disintegration Loops. But say what you will, the album is scary. Especially Stages 4 and 5. And especially the second song of Stage 4. I just want to get inside my sheets with those disorted vocals. As for being scary of dementia, i don't know a single person. And while it can be scary, it's also a peaceful death. If i ever get dementia, i will tell my family for this album and The Caretaker so i can listen it again. Some of his work actually helps dementia patients remember things via music. This isn't one of them tho.
My grandma keeps forgetting my grandpa at times, She goes out of the house to get groceries but she always gets lost, even though she has lived there for 50 years. I told her, That she didn't need to worry about not remembering us, all she needed to know is that, we will always remember and love her and that's the only thing that matters.
Hidden Sea Buried Deep sounds like someone desperately trying over and over again to remember the tune to something, repeatedly starting from the top to try and recall how the rest of it goes.
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@@nightshiftts make a Neo-Noir style edit of Mr. Robot footage, with toned-down colors (not completely black and white) with a blueish tint (not too blue) with the song "The Background World" by Nine Inch Nails, about the main character's descent into madness.
this is when you start to notice things are *really* getting wrong the echos and hanging notes all crashing into each other and fading out reminds me of how empty one's brain gets when they begin to lose their memories. faces disappear, locations fade out. suddenly, you can't remember your wedding day. your best friends, although you remember their names, have started to become a blur. it hits you when you realize you forgot how to play guitar. this is stage 3
All the songs feel familiar because I heard some of them on the previous albums, but now they're starting to feel wrong. Im on the 10 minute mark and im starting to feel nauseous and scared.
It's funny because even though I have a pretty trained ear and have practiced music, I didn't notice in the first listens that the first song (Back There Benjamin) in Stage 3 repeats pretty soon in Libet's All Joyful Camaraderie. It's just slowed down more and begins from a different part in the song. Then there are songs that have been ringing in my ear for many days, such as "Heartaches" (or "It's just a burning memory") because the song is pretty repetitive and is repeated many times throuhgout at least the first five stages. You can't really make out any song by Stage 6.
You don't want to remember this music. Trust me, everyone reading this: YOU. DO. NOT. WANT. THESE SONGS. STUCK IN YOUR HEAD. Any pot smokers be warned too, you do not want this music to surface in your head when you get really stoned, you will go insane.
they might, "Terminal lucidity, rally before death or end-of-life rally, refers to an unexpected return of mental clarity and memory, or suddenly regained consciousness that occurs in the time shortly before death in patients suffering from severe psychiatric or neurological disorders. This phenomenon has been noted in patients with schizophrenia, tumors, strokes, meningitis, Parkinson's disease, and Alzheimer's disease."
If anything, dementia is EXACTLY what that is: A slow, extended flashing of one's life before their eyes. Their ability to form new memories completely dies, leaving them only with the slowly fading memories of their lives.
My grandfather didn't die from dementia, but severe pancreatitis and its complications. Even so, I still listened to this particular stage on the drive to the hospital after the call, attempting to cry all my tears out before seeing him, just in case he didn't realize he was dying. All the states are tragic, but this stage in particular makes me cry everytime I hear it. It's the further distortion and dissonance creeping in, the mangling of treasured memories, the last time they'll be remembered in some vaguely recognizable format. Needless to say, my grandfather was well in the throes of a death rattle once we arrived, around 8pm December 23rd. He finally passed on Christmas morning at 6:40am. His last words were "I love you". I can only hope that his final thoughts and memories weren't mangled and faded like this stage. I love you too, Papa.
I feel the same way! At Joyful Camaraderie, I was getting frightened by the low and loud tone that wasn't in Back There Benjamin. I could barely get through it. This is REALLY getting to me. I never thought music could make me scared.
@@Triunity4 Yes, but from 4 to 6 the sound changed completely. They're a lot darker and noisy and industrial-like, fully abandoning these 30s record samples.
16:45 “bewildered in others eyes” made me scared, it sounds like an ice cream truck or a childhood tune but I can’t make out what it is, i guess that’s the point and it got the message across perfectly
i love how to the minimal great hidden is like a more distorted version of drifting time replaced, its like u can hear it but everythings so offtune and sad
I love how clearly the struggle to recall the fondest memories is presented. The tune of "It's just a burning memory" in particular just keeps coming back, especially in this stage. To me, it feels like desperation. The person has held onto this memory since the very start, perhaps this one memory has coloured their entire life. It feels like an important memory, yet every time we come back to reflect on it, it only seems hazier and more distorted. So we focus more and more on it, while it continues to elude our grasp, until in a final moment of vaguely coherent thought, our fondest memory is irreversibly blotted out by waves of confusion and emptiness. The person is gone.
In dementia memories are like sand. The longer you hold onto the sand, the longer it takes to lose. When you do lose it your hand becomes empty. There's nothing left to hold on to.
today my grandpa died of cancer. he had a small phase of dementia before not talking anymore. He was associating old memories with moments of the present. I went to see him few days ago, when he was still there. He didn’t recognise me at first but when he did he smiled. Then he asked me if i went dancing, i told him i went to school, he just answered with a slight « oh ». The last time i saw him, he smiled to me and made a heart with his hands, the day after that, he couldn’t speak at all. I loved my grandpa so much, and seeing him going away in this way hurted more than anything.
I know how you feel. One of my aunts is the oldest in my family. She's been gone mentally for a while now and I didn't even realize. When I was a kid she was definitely more with it, but I slowly realized something was off in my teens. She always said "Wow you've gotten so big now!" every time she saw me, and I thought it was just an endearing thing she said, but in my late teens I realized she was just living in loops of time. Everything seemed to restart for her after a day. Everyone else in my family has had to take care of her at least once, and now all of us just say that we don't wanna live that long anymore. That dying before you start to forget how to wipe your ass is probably the best thing, not just for yourself but for your family too. I've said this before, that since I'm the youngest in my family, I'll have to watch everyone I love die, one by one. So once my memory becomes a real problem, I'll probably buy a bottle of Everclear, book a night in a hotel, leave a nice tip for the room service, and drink myself to death.
Age is truly the most fascinating yet horrifying thing about life. As one ages, they gain knowledge they could have only dreamed of. They experience things unique to them and recall what they have done in their life. They watched humanity progress. From women not being able to vote to women holding special places in governments. No matter what happens, no matter what videos or books say, the oldest among us hold the information of the past that humanity must keep close to it. But once you pass the age of 60, life becomes a blur. Your children by then are all grown. You have 60 years of experience and life in your mind. The passage of time progresses faster than you can comprehend. Your body becomes weaker. Diseases that barely made you feel anything in your younger days make you sicker than normal. The deterioration of your body comes along with immune compromisation, and you become susceptible to diseases like COVID-19. Cancer affects older people because their bodies are just too old to notice the cells forming. Dementia is truly the most horrifying thing I can think of. At least with death, your body dies with your mind. The work of Benjamin Libet comes to mind, while his experiments and ideas were flawed, the idea that consciousness is tied to the mind is terrifying. Rest in Peace to your grandfather.
I just found out my grandma was getting groceries out of her car and was planning to put them in her other house... She doesn’t have another house. Finding this out depresses me.
Party Last year at 2 in the morning, she decided to go on a walk. My uncle who lives with her didn’t hear her walk out of the house. She ended up walking a mile or so and tripped and fell. Bystanders saw her and she went to the hospital. Had a black eye which was sad to see, but she ended up alright. My dad has been taking her to her appointments and such, and he’s been telling me she’s been doing better. Sadly I haven’t been able to see her due to Covid. But I plan to as soon as I can.
Stage 3: The Subject with Dementia is diagnosed with said Dementia, and starts to have difficulty focusing. The most important moments, family members, and friends have been remembered. the last stage before the post-awareness stages. Stage 3 is a lot more disorienting, this is when more advanced effects are used to make the music more confused. Songs will often end abruptly. Some songs will be next to unrecognizable from the unedited audio. Songs will have more ambiance to them. Two songs, in particular, Al Bowlly's "Heartaches" and Russ Morgan's "Goodnight my Beautiful" are both repeated three times each throughout the album, and each time they get more distorted. These memories must have been very important to the subject. A lot of the songs sound like they could be in a horror film soundtrack. I'm going to talk about two songs, and they are "Back there Benjamin" and "Mournful Camaraderie". For "Back there Benjamin", strings are monstrously warped, and horns echo for what seems like forever. It's really disorienting like the rest of the album, and really gives the feeling of confusion caused by the loss of memories. The structure of the song has begun to break down as the mind would at this point. It contrasts heavily to the first two stages. For "Mournful Camaraderie", it's the last reprise of Al Bowlly's "Heartaches" that as any noticeable resemblance to the original audio. As the title suggests, this song may be about the subject's friends and family mourning over something. Possibly the subject doesn't recognize them anymore. Stage 3 is the last stage with any sort of structure to it. the last stage before post-awareness fully kicks in. What's scary about this album is the same as the second stage plus added confusion and not fully understanding what's going on.
There is one more moment of this at the very end of stage 6, where you can hear music clearly yet with static, the very last song, the second half, they will forever haunt those who listen.
@@jamesaviation2240 I kinda feel the same way too looking back. I think I just chose it cuz it was what a lot of people said is when it was diagnosed. I knew a lot less about EATEOT and Alzheimer's Disease back then.
As you are pushed by wheelchair to the entrance of the nursing home you go over what is happening. In a sense you are completed, in another you feel finished. The two words with the same definition but contrasting meanings dance and intertwine with each other. Your life has been made. You went to school and graduated, you found someone you loved, settled down somewhere and then you started a family with them. This side is completion. The other side shows time, which has given you all these things but now only to strip them away. It cannot be stopped it cannot be prevented. As you are pushed through the doors you know that it’s too late to do anything you wanted to do in life, and without knowing it, you enter the waiting room to the afterlife.
I think The Caretaker first introduced the earlier albums for you to soak in, make memories with, have personal nostalgia of the juncture in time where you were listening to them, only for it to progress into dementia, making you feel as if it is happening to your own mind. Struggling to recognize and make sense of your favorite songs and memories.
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The actual song is seven minutes long, and its name is simply "piano medley." 7 minutes. And the patient can only recall the first 7 seconds. Horrifying.
Definitely the scariest stage, it’s also the last bit of the album where you can really enjoy it as entertainment and it’s still kinda...cool, before it goes from somewhat enjoyable and spooky to just breaking you and making you feel bored, mindless, like nothing I think it’s also the scariest in concept because it’s the in between where the dementia is really bad, but you’re still aware of what’s happening, it’s not confusion, it’s genuine fear
What I like most about this stage is that it’s almost a jack of all traits. There’s some relatively normal sounding tracks, and some extremely distorted ones. You could almost make a mini-EATEOT with this stage alone. Stage 1 - Long term dusk glimpses (18:37) Stage 2 - Gradations of Arms Length (22:11) Stage 3 - And Heart Breaks (4:15) Stage 4 - Libet Delay (39:00) Stage 5 - To The Minimal Great Hidden (12:53) Stage 6 - Aching Cavern Without Lucidity (34:05)
My father died of dementia last November. This part 3 has for me very recognisable elements of his condition shortly before there was no other option but putting him in a care home.
I know what you mean. My grandfather died last May after 9 years of Alzheimer’s. (May he Rest In Peace) Usually The Caretaker is uplifts me... but this album makes me remember his first signs. Watching a loved one become unrecognizable is too difficult to bear.
My great uncle was diagnosed with dementia about a year ago. I hope this is not what he's going through. He can talk still of course, but his thought revolve around a few topics and not much else. It's also sad when he doesn't seem to recognize my immediate family, so he just keeps a permanent smile, saying "hows it going?"
I feel like if i ever develop Alzheimer's, and i go senile, and i begin to forget i even exist, then the last thing i'll ever remember will probably be Calm2.ogg from the minecraft OST.
F2 - Drifting Time Misplaced is one of my favourite songs, how it seems like one of the more stable Stage 3 songs at first, but around halfway through, the notes start to draw out for longer than usual, The vinyl cracke seems to get slightly louder in very clean 'bursts', It seems to be fine for another loop or two, before it breaks down even more, the notes sounding much more echoey, the crackle being louder, it seems so distant, like it's breaking apart so quickly, it seems to feel better for around 2 seconds, before vinyl crackle ends the track, like you're trying to grasp on a memory that isn't even there anymore. It's terrifying and shows this stage very well along with Back There Benjamin. edit: If somebody somehow sees this comment, It's called drifting time misplaced on the bandcamp page.
i 100% agree with this comment. drifting time misplaced, along with "an empty bliss beyond this world" are my 2 most favorite tracks in this stage. the way they were entangled and amplified to be just barely comprehensible before the post awareness stage is hair-raising and unsettling.
It literally seems like the last existence of this memory with lullaby of the leaves being used earlier in stage 2, and it seems like whoever is trying conjure what they can of the memory in their head but slowly losing it, leaving out some details as it fades away into nothing
I personally prefer the version of an empty bliss beyond this world that's on this album. For me it evokes a strange, surrealistic feeling and almost makes me feel like I'm in an empty impressionist painting
"Aching cavern without lucidity" definitely sounds like when post awareness kicks in, with the following final tracks sounding like the sufferer entering "blissful" unawareness while their friends and loved ones (the "camaraderie") "mourn" as whom they've come to know starts to fade away. *Chilling* I tell you.
I think the title refers to a cavity in the brain losing all of it's neurons, so while the brain still has a bit of awareness left, the cavern (cavity) in question is dead
F5 is actually heartaches. Listen to toe version with no effects(mostly) and then this and you might be able to hear the first few notes. It’s ridiculous how little is left of it.
- "To The Minimal Great Hidden" is actually an altered version of "A Relationship With The Sublime" featured in AEBBTW - "Back there Benjamin" may sound like another version of "Libet's Delay", but is actually the snippet that comes AFTER the original loop. The same thing happens again in "Libet's All Joyful Camaraderie" before being completely obliterated near the end. - "An empty bliss beyond this World" uses the "Wedding of the Painted Doll" version from the Victor Salon Orchestra - "Burning despair does ache" alters "Heartaches" even more than "What does it matter how my heart breaks" from last stage. "Mournful cameraderie" repeats the same process and the melody is barely there this time.
A relationship with the sublime got deconfirmed, it was Paddlin’ Madeline Home by the same dudes who made the sample for A relationship with the sublime (Layton & Johnstone)
In my opinion, the scariest stage. It is so aggressive and unpredictable, perfectly represented by this cover art. I think what it represents is the worrying of loosing memories, and so the brain squeezes in the things it can remember to its loudest. That's why some tracks are cut off and unfinished and looping, the brain is making what's left of the current memories, trying to make them as loud and aggressive as possible so that you can still hear them. The previous two stages had their own mood. Stage 1 was somewhat happy and enjoyable, with songs being poetic and about death, but accepting it. While stage 2's songs are still poetic, they are depressive and sad, and reflect on the fear of what's to come, as the person now realises what's wrong. Stage 3's songs however, aren't sad. They aren't happy either. This person can't feel these emotions within their memories because they are worrying about loosing them, so they just blurt them out aggressively in hopes of trying to save them. While they might be saving the memory's importance, they don't know why it's important, hence why most songs here feel emotionless and infinite. This is my favourite stage, and it is definitely one of the scariest.
Is this anyone else’s favorite EATEOT stage? I feel like this one can be enjoyed even without the context of the previous stages. Just sounds really cool.
Facts, this one just encompasses the eerie vibe, literally without context you'd think its a horror musical purposely made to second guess yourself, pair this with stage 1 and you have a very good experience, especially with how burning memories is used and how its so different than hiw it started
"Mournful camaraderie" is pretty sad, your family is gathered around you and you feel comfortable with them being around, but you don't quite know who they are.
@@idolaltry the theme of the album is dementia and recurring, fuzzy memories an empty bliss beyond this world was one of the most recognizable songs (for me) on the album it came from so seeing it here, as a shadow of what is was, is haunting
@@condor2279 the caretaker? No it was a very old record from Milan of a Italian song, I think the name it’s miserere or Il trovatore, search it on the sample list
@@trasteviejo its like the opposite of libet’s delay from an empty bliss beyond this world despite them using the same song. Libet’s delay was calm and jazzy where this is scary and weird to listen to but it fits stage 3 so well
EATEOT has fundamentally changed how I view the world. I never knew change like this could happen so fast. Incredibly confusing, heart-breaking and enlightening of an experience. Thank you.
In my opinion, there are 3 important memories in this album. Heartaches, Goodnight my beautiful, and lullaby of the leaves. They exist in every other part they are first introduced and probably the patients last memories.
@Derekanic I'm not too sure about stage 5... i would go for "this section will be a mandolin solo by mister james fitzgerald" to be the unforgettable song.. like i legit cried at that part ;-; some other contestants would be the was it a dream segement, notre dame/i'm following you segment, and one of the piano clear segment from Layton and Johnstone.. and i dont know if i missed something else
God. Lullaby of the Leaves had played so many times in stage 6, it's heartbreaking. They still try to cling on to memories they know will never touch again.
For "strongest emotional effect" i'd say stage 6. The empty atmosphere it gives off is just horrific in my opinion. Kinda sad that many only remember it for the ending.
'Drifting Time Misplaced' (and also misspelled in the description) is one of the most harrowing pieces of music ever. And I also find it expressing the whole idea of this stage. As I pass it through myself, I feel as I have surrendered to the inevitability of slowly losing everything, connecting me to my life..as the very concepts of it have already halfway dissolved in my soul. I feel devastated and helpless and can't even enjoy this final moments of remembering..these precious moments, slipping through my fingers, leaving nothing that I have turned into..in the obscure darkness... Also 'Bewildered in Others Eyes' is a great one. Like it's trying to appear calm, almost friendly, yet some ineffable, elusive terror lurks within it, which you cannot shake off. Like a subconscious feeling that something is horribly wrong, without being able to specify it..
It sounds like you have this illness...I am so very sorry. I have to say your writing is exquisite though. I see you wrote this 2 years ago....how are you doing now? Sending positive thoughts to you, whoever you are.
It sounds like chaos, like not necessarily forgetting, but more like everything blurring together into one and after it’s done I can’t recall what even happened
Gradations of arms length sounds like a sad acceptance of their disease, and their fate. So does "the way ahead feels lonely" in stage 2, which makes me think the patient forgot they already accepted their fate, and accepted it again. Over and over again.
It's extra sad considering the person won't be aware of their disease in the following stages; meaning they have to mourn their own death before it happens
“back there benjamin” is particularly hard for me to listen to, something about the sudden looping overlapping trumpet sounds is very jarring and irksome to listen to and yet i cannot stop listening to it and get it out of my mind. i’m not particularly bothered by it though
My fav part of back there Benji has to be the super subtle ukelele strum. Only plays once per loop, but it perfectly gives the insanity a sense of "this can't be real"
Jesus christ, Stage 3 made me appreciate how lucky my grandparents are. They are not suffering from dementia, and are mostly fine. Though they've had better days..
I'm so blessed that dementia doesn't run in my family. None if my grandparents or great grandparents suffered from it to any serious degree. If you have someone in your family that does... I'm so sorry.
@@allenharper2928 pssh.. lucky you… I wasn’t around when my great grandmother was on the last stages on one form of dementia. Well. I was actually really young before she died.. my grandmother tells me how great of a mother she was, the only recall I have of her was when I was leaving her home (or somewhere else.) Man, I miss her even though I never met her. Atleast my memories haven’t.
@@vibrantgleamsame here. Although I never really spent much time with her, as I was only around 5 years old when she died and I didn’t understand. The only memories I have of her are when we had family gatherings for thanksgiving or something where she was in a wheelchair and just stared blankly. my mom had to tell her that she was her daughter and im her granddaughter. In a way, I sort of am lucky because i didnt know her very well so I didnt have to be devastated when she passed. Dementia is a terrifying thing.
Ok, 4 hours of depressing music for visualization of dementia and memory loss - here we go! Edit: This just might be the most terrifying stage for me. It is still possible to distinguish melodies, but the distortions are obvious enough to realize something very very wrong is going on - and you can't do anything. The stage starts abruptly, with no introductions, nor paragrafing in the previous one, and immediately it's serious. When the first song suddenly stopped, I was so confused; and then there's - I think it's the fourth one - that is almost undistorted, but on the headphones you can barely hear some hiss, just behind you; and there's the one where jazz is mixed with some other melody - it was so unsettling. F3 is also worth mentioning because of the ghostly bass and faintly hearable guitar, as if it was the last moment, before forgetting it completely. The next one, F4, is my Special One melody, just like the first song, and among all the distortion, hook is left untouched - as if the feeling remained. The last songs, as I later realized had little pieces of it as well - three notes in a row, then I noticed a pair more; lastly I noticed the one note from the beginning of the hook. I think, the moment this hook will dilute entirely, so not a single note remains, will be the most painful to listen through. On the other hand, the cover art is a bit like a warning, or at least that's how I feel about it. There is a painting in hallway in my house, which my parents bought with a flat. It was painted by the lady, who lived there before, and it depicts flowers. And it's colour are almost perfectly inversed with the cover. My grandmother also likes to paint. And these are paintings of flowers all over her place. And I, myself, paint as well. Ok, onto the next stage, I guess!
@@mirror1001 I wrrote something under each one so you'll be seeing me a lot. I think it's a good idea to write somewhere initial thoughts, maybe you'd like to I'm not sure if it's a good idea to jump like that though. I started to get ideas on interpretations of certain sounds at stage 2 and these sounds are later used throughout the entire thing. And if you can, do every stage in one go. I didn't and that's a real shame. I guess to say 'I hope you'll like it' isn't really correct, so, i dunno, I hope you'll have an intresting experience :)
Thanks man, I did the first 4 stages yesterday and I didn’t get all that much value out of them. But I know with a re-listen I’ll definitely appreciate them more. Cheers.
The very first time I ever listened to stage 3, it was Hidden Sea Buried Deep that stuck with me the hardest. The person is obviously trying REALLY HARD to figure out how the rest of the thought or memory went, but it's just not there anymore
this was the scariest part for me tbh. the distortion was uncanny enough and the image just fucked up enough that it really just deeply unnerved me. the rest wasnt quite as bad as im already pretty accustomed to experimental and harsh music, but this part really creeped me out and made me the most uncomfortable
Yeah, Stage 3's my favorite for that reason. It makes you try so hard to pick out familiar melodies, but they feel like they might fade away at any moment.
E1 - Goodnight, My beautiful - Russ morgan E2 - Heartaches - Al Bowlly E3 - some song from L&J idk E4 - Same as E1 E5 - Paddlin' Madellin Home - L&J E6 - Stardust - Charlie spivak E7 - The prettiest little song of all - Albert Benzler. E8 - Exactly like you - Roger wolf or something idk F1 - Romance - Jonh boles F2 - Lullaby Of The Leaves - L&J F3 - II Trovatore - idk F4 - Heartaches - Seger ellis F5 - Heartaches Seger ellis F6 - The wedding of the painted doll - idk F7 - Same as E1 F8 - Heartaches - Seger ellis
I'm a young adult dealing with a neurodegenerative disease. I see a lot of my own trials in this album, and ironically, that is why I find these compositions restorative.
You're losing every memory you used to cherish. You recognize that music...but from where? You don't know. You're memory of that song is far too distorted. What year is it again? Sometime in the 20s, right? You came into this nursing home about...2 months ago? Yeah, that's probably it. Someone keeps visiting you. A woman. But you don't know who she is. She's always brought by a man who you do know. You ask the man who the woman is. He looks shocked, replying, "Why, that's your daughter! You remember me, her husband, but not her?" You panic, worried of how worse this could get. Everything's deteriorating, as you're slowly transitioning to stage 4.
This reminds me of a video I watched recently of someone's dad, who seemed to be in stage 5 but could still speak (though he rarely did). At one point as he goes about his aimless activities around the house, you can hear him mumble to himself softly, "everything's gone to hell."
I think this album throws in tracks you haven’t heard that you KNOW you haven’t heard, but it could’ve been in those last hour and a half of music so, you become confused. Just like the brain thinking of things that did not happen. The unfamiliar becomes the familiar.
Right off the bat with a more distorted Libet's Delay and It's Just a Burning Memory back to back definitely made this stage feel drastically more disturbing.
This is probably one of the most terrifying yet soothing albums by far. something about it is relaxing yet horrifying at the same time. the notes clashing and blending together is one of the best things I've heard. Favorite song: Long Term dusk glimpses/back there Benjamin 8/10
Drifting time misplaced is just a vibe And burning despair does ache kinda makes me mad with it literally just being a more messed up version of what does it matter how my heart aches (favorite song from stage 2)
@@kamilslup7743 i mean, the songs just being a more distorted version of the older ones makes sense in the context that this is about alzheimer's, at this point, only the more important memories last
I like all the references to AEBBTW in this stage. It ads to the feeling of half remembering, with it being familiar but from a different project. Gives you that “wait, haven’t I heard this before?”
This is my favorite stage of Everywhere at the End of Time. It depicts the struggle holding on, trying so desperately to grasp to the most important memories of your life as they slowly, steadily slip away. Your past crumbles as your present decays, and you are lost in the endless sea of things almost recognizable. You can still communicate, but time grows short. Truly a work of art, this album.
I love the last two songs here - Libet Delay and Mournful Camaraderie. The feel like this event horizon for the post awereness stages, and the way they reuse Goodnight My Beautiful and Heartaches emphasises it. They don't feel frightening like Back There Benjamin or Drifting time misplaced/replaced. They feel almost comforting in a twisted way. Like someone stopping to struggle against a riptide, they just go along as their mental state deterorates. Theres no reason to fight it.
this series makes me really reflective of my own loneliness. suffering in a sea of dwindling mental health and borderline insanity, and all the people around you can do is watch from the outside, never knowing all of what is actually happening.
Getting stuck in distractions helps me TH-cam vids, gym, bjj, are fun and I kinda accept loneliness I'm not totally alone but ik we gone get out this funk
Probably my favourite stage. Stage 3 is the start of the end, it’s like the person is “NO! Won’t loose my memories!” (Anger), and “No! Please I don’t want to loose my memories!” (Sadness). It’s the first stage that genuinely freaked me out. But this is nothing compared to the fear and terror of the post awareness stages...
This album haunts me when I go to sleep,when i listen to this album and couple hours later i forget about the songs, when I go to sleep i remember the songs and yesterday when I was going to sleep i felt that someone was looking at me from above. And i heard a voice that sounded like my grandmother who died at just 74 years old ,and had alzheimer's and parkinson's and she died in the same room were i was sleeping. I heard her saying „go to sleep" and i started crying. It was 2 am and i couldn't go to sleep because i was sad and scared. I later heard something weird noises many times and i didn't know what it was.
That is scary. But she just wants you to be happy. She wanted to let you know that she is fine in the afterlife and she doesn’t want you to remember her weak and confused as she was when she died, but the way she was before that sucky illness, because everyone finds justice in afterlife. You will see when you die.
You are losing. You know what's coming yet you've no idea what lay beyond it. Your thoughts and memories are regressed to a point of pure stimuli as you descend further into the closing blanket of death.
To me “bewildered in others eyes” portrays the subject looking back at a childhood memory of playing with a music box or maybe going to the circus and the memory being distorted. All of the stages have been heart breaking but that one song changed how I think about dementia, the subject is starting to lose current memories and looks back only to find that the memories aren’t the same there distant, fuzzy, this stage is pure genius
I have the gene most likely to cause Alzheimer’s and honestly it’s breaking my heart to think these feelings in the musical sense could actually be me one day.
this gives me serotonin, and i have no idea why. like, nearly all the songs are so cheerful, and i love the reverb. plus, some are so distorted they're just gorgeous (libet delay, looking at you)
Gosh same honestly, stage 3 has to be my favorite of all the stages/albums. I can't stop coming back to listen to it every few days. The tracks here just give off such an ethereal vibe and I love it sm👌
The entirety of stage 3 was incredibly disturbing, but Burning Despair does ache scares the absolute shit out of me. Imagine living a life where you made so many memories with loved ones and not being able to remember any of it at all
E1 genuinely sounds like crying, every violin note sounds like a warped contorted wail. and the loud brass sounds like its stabbing the brain repeatedly, beautiful stage.
Back there Benjamin really gets me emotional. It feels like someone trying to remember their favorite song but the loud high notes keep crashing into each other.
@@Whatisthepointofhandles441 It makes me tear up I don't like it for some reason, most the other songs are alright but I don't want Benjamin anywhere near me
This whole stage feels like drowning. Like the solid ground beneath you has turned into quicksand, and you're desperately trying to grasp on to something, but it keeps slipping through your fingers.
This stage is such a sharp contrast to stage 2, that, even though I knew what was coming, it was quite jarring. It feels like they have forgotten what was making them so discontent in stage 2, and listening to the first few tracks literally sounds like they are angry and triumphant. Then the cut to the next song. E2 sounds like they are desperately trying to hold on to the heartaches theme, but it’s crumpling away, and they are trying harder and harder to keep onto it, as the static grows louder. The repetitive on of the tune across the stages sounds like them trying to remember a memory, but being horrified at its degradation. The silence goes on for a while before… E3 sounds like the person thinking of a memory, only for it to keep repeating over and over again. Then the sharp turn back to E1’s theme. E4 sounds like the person instantly just starting to recall the rest of E1, completely forgetting what was going on in E3. And the melody itself, though happy sounds like everything around you is breaking away but you don’t care... you just want to relive that all joyful memory for the last time before it’s gone. E5 sounds like a person recalling a memory, only to find it cut up and broken. The crackling noises sound like a persons brain slowly dying, this one is extremely unsettling. Then the quick cut to E6. E6 is like a person recalling a happy memory, and I feel like the name itself is really unsettling. “Sublime beyond loss.” Sublime means beautiful, so it’s like the person is believing that, no matter how degraded the sound already is, they will never lose it. E7 sounds like a person is just in a confused or bewildered state. I could imagine someone with dementia sitting all alone, confused, not knowing what is going on. E8 sounds, like a lot of songs in stage 1 and 2, like a final credits song for the persons life (I think this has a melody from some of stage 2’s songs) and the person is bittersweetly reminiscing on they’re life, in a final and quiet acceptance. But we’re only halfway through stage 3. F1. I don’t know how I feel about this. Sounds so… empty. Like the person is just trying to recall something, only to end up with nothing except a feeling of melancholy. Then the cut to F2. I love this motif. In stage 2, it sounds angry, but here it just sounds sad. It sounds like… empty bliss. Definitely sounds like its name, like you’re floating in time. Then the static takes hold again for a while. The memory scowling decaying away. Until all you can hear is static. F3 begins (or F2 ends?) with a looping static sample. Before it cuts to a foggy noise, where you can barely make out a noise. It literally sounds like the hell sirens. Like the person finding a bad memory in all the chaos. It sounds like the land between awareness and post awareness. Where there is nothing. F4 is so jarring. It is the dying, decaying memory of heartaches shattering apart. The notes clashing and breaking and it is just horrifying. Makes my head heart just by listening. This is the first glimpse you see of what the post awareness stages hold. Chaos. Bursts of clarity followed by nonsense. Then it all disappears back into the labyrinth of the mind. F5’s name sums it up best. An aching cavern without lucidity. Where there used to be memories, there is nothing. And then… lucidity. F6 has empty bliss beyond this world’s main melody. It sounds like the person finally has found a memory, believing they might be getting better. But the statics still there. And the echo. But why does that matter, while you’re dancing away in the ballroom of your mind? Nothing could ever go wrong. Nothing could ever go wrong. This song is just… sad. The person holding onto the last thing they have. Before the fog sets back in. It’s one of my favourites though. A last true moment of lucidity before it all implodes into stage 4’s chaos. Before it’s cut off by F7. This is horrifying. The beginning shows how much the mind has deteriorated. Usually, it quickly resolves to a happier note, so it just leaves you, waiting for a resolution that never comes. You can barely make out the melody, though it is mostly smothered by static. It’s like the person is realising for the first time that things have gotten really bad. And there is nothing they can do. The instruments blend together into a horrifying amalgamation, before disappearing into F8. F8. The last moment of clarity. You can’t even call it a melody. Just overlapping memories that used to be beautiful, but are now gone. This stage really shows the deterioration of the mind fully. At the beginning, it’s all good. At the end, it leaves you with emptiness. A candle that has been extinguished. The light is dimming on this persons life. And then it all disappears. IN SUMMARY: this stage is amazing. It shows dementia without covering anything. Truly showing the shattering of the mind. Wow. At the end, it really feels like emptiness. But we’re not even halfway through EATEOT. The cover art really represents this stage. Take the last one. In stage 2, the art is clearly a plant pot. Sure, it’s all weird, but you know what it is. The cover art for this looks like the mind has broken and it is all rioting into chaos. Damn This is a long comment.
"Back there Benjamin" reminds me of my dead grandma. She didn't have dementia, but in her last moments she couldn't even recognize me. It's heartbreaking...
The year is 2020 and you are laughing at the pictures online. The pictures are funny because you understand the contextual foundation of the jokes. This understanding makes you feel included, as if you're part of an inside-joke. You look to your left, then to your right. You're actually alone. You've felt alone for years, but the pictures online help you to forget that. The pictures online make you feel like you're having genuine shared experience. You know deep down the experience is not genuine, because there is a void in your heart that even the freshest meme could never fill. You walk outside, you try to involve yourself in the world around you, but it's all the same. The same faces, the same locations, the same routine and habits. You realize that there is no escape, whatever dystopia you were told about seems better, as at least those had an identifiable enemy. But in this world, man is spoiled rotten, and so the suffering amounts to more than the chains and boots a Tyrant could ever bring. You are occupying a space in existence, you are without meaning, you quite simply, just are.
Mournful camaraderie sounds eerily beautiful, although it is still a sad depiction of forgetting a particular memory... the song melody that repeated throughout the previous phases is reduced into a fragments and is drowned by the ambient fog
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I decided to listen to this album for my creative art project. After I finished, I couldn't even remember what I had drawn until the next day. My finished artwork was there clocks one with all it's numbers and brand new looking. The other with slight chipping of the edge and some of the numbers missing or scratched out. The glass had cracks running along the middle. The final clock was weird. It had a deformed shape no numbers just a few lines and the hands looked like real human hands, the glass was shattered into pieces. My teacher asked what inspired me and she was surprised. This album is something else and it'll always have a special place with me.
the more i look at this, the more i realize it looks like a distorted rose bush. it's kinda interesting, because roses are beautiful, but also can be quite dangerous due to their thorns. it's like it's hinting that the memories that remain are beginning to do a mix of both harm and good, as they begin to fade away, and become both confusing, therefore hurtful, but cherished at the same time.
this album changed my life ... and made me understand my grandfather's pain and gave me more empathy and understanding towards him ... thanks the caretaker
drifting time replaced sounds the best with the static/echo toward the end of the song and describes this whole stage perfectly. as u started losing awareness type of vibe.
Here’s what i think of stage 3: The E section is the first section in EATEOT to show mood swings and heavy memory loss E1 sounds aggressive. Its like the patient doesn’t want to accept something is wrong. The instruments are played in such a violent way that it makes the song sound powerful yet sad at the same time. Out of the first three stages, E1 is the best start to a stage. E2 also sounds angry. Its the third time Heartaches is played and and it follows from E1 with the aggressive tone of the instruments, especially the transition that sounds like a metal bin being thrown down the stairs. Unlike stage 1 and 2’s version, it has a much faster tempo, which could portray the panic in the patient, knowing he/she only has a limited amount of time left before post- awareness kicks in. E3 deviates from the aggressive tone of the first 2 songs, almost sounding quite joyful. However, a very small sample is played before it loops back to the start. This shows the patients struggles to recall certain memories, as he/she has to start again to try and recall the full memory, but to no avail. E4 is the same song as E1 but in a more melancholy tone. Its as if the patient has calmed down but remained sad. He/she still knows that there is no turning back and he/she has accepted his/her fate. E5 is the first song to sound extremely broken. This is the first notable sign of severe memory loss with jumbled notes that sound like the disk is broken or cracked. E6 is similar to E5 but less distorted. Its a very upbeat song, similar to A4, B6 and D3 but with missing and repeating notes. Its like the patient is able to recall something, but only the key parts instead of the full thing. E7 is a very different song compared to the rest of EATEOT. It has a very childlike tone, comparable to the music from an ice cream van. It shows the patients last memories of childhood. The high pitch of the song shows the patient has had a happy childhood which has made memories for life. E7 repeats again in stage 4’s temporary bliss state, showing the joy the patient feels when remembering his/her’s childhood. E8 seems too good to be true for a stage 3 song. Its joyful Disney like connections make it more of a stage 1 song. Just like E7, it portrays happy childhood memories or even memories of raising a child. However, its heavy crackling and fuzzing creates a sense of fear. It’s as if the patient is aware that this is his/her last few moments of pure joy. I always associate this song in particular with the patient spending time with his/her family before he/she completely forgets that he/she even has a family. The F section is the last section with “normal” songs. However, every song in the F section has a notable issue that portrays a growth in memory loss. F1 is the first song without a seamless loop. It has a lengthy build up but then suddenly cuts and starts over. It has a similar concept as E3 but more amplified. The song itself is upbeat, almost like as if the patient is remembering an event like a wedding or award ceremony but doesn’t remember who he/she married or what prize he/she won. F2 is the most interesting song in my opinion as its the only song that gets progressively worse as it loops. Initially, it sounds echoed with a lone piano playing a melancholy melody. As it loops, the fuzziness takes over and the piano gets more echoed, as if the whole piano is moving further away from where you’re standing. Its sort of like a demonstration of what happens to the patients memories overtime, as they become more hard to recall. Furthermore, the song is stopped at the end and followed with 20 seconds of uninterrupted crackling. I associate this with the last hint of denial the patient has about their condition. He/she is trying his/her best to recall a specific memory but to no avail. F3 is extremely slowed down to create a hellish tone. The patient is slowing down, taking a good few minutes to recall even one memory. F4 is the fourth time Heartaches is played. Only this time, it is much more broken. Its the same sample from stage 2’s version of Heartaches but notes are missing and the ones that survived are strained and echoed. The patient is suffering awfully from dementia at this point and it shows through F4. F5 is Heartaches again but this time… it’s merely a ghost of what it once was. It is a 1 minute taster of the emptiness of stage 6. This is it, this is the beginning of the patient’s slow descent into the thick fog of confusion. Then, it stops for… …F6. After 10 minutes of chaos, the blissful reverberations of F6 seem like heaven. The last coherent memory before nothingness. The patient speaks to his/her loved ones for the last time. It only gets worse from here. F7 is just like F4, broken, confusing and scary. Notes are repeated for a good few seconds. If you have listened to an empty bliss beyond this world, this song will seem recognisable and nostalgic. The patient is doing their best to recall key moments from life. As F7 loops, different notes are repeated, reflecting how as time goes on new memories are found but quickly lost. F8 is the final “normal” song in EATEOT. The 2 minute blissful sixth repetition of Heartaches reflects the patient’s last coherent days before post awareness kicks in. It seems as if F4 and F5 have been mixed together to create a sense of broken memories being echoed until they’re nothing. The last few seconds of F8 complete stages 1-3 with a final echo that fades away. This is the patient’s final night of awareness. The dreadful years beyond this are awaiting. … then the hell of stage 4 then begins. If you made it this far, thankyou for reading. I included both pronouns to avoid any conflicts if this comment ever gets recognition lol.
I fell like F6 still fells... Off. Like some off-putting aspect is looming... He/She might still feel unpleasant, rather from a limited time frame or just by some internal element.
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My grandma sometimes doesn't even remember that my dad is dead.
Imbion :(
Sounds like a good memory to lose
Daddy Yogurt I’d love to forget someone’s death
Daddy Yogurt what changes with time?
Daddy Yogurt does acceptance take time?
I know some folks here are scared of dementia. Just know... its not set in stone that you WILL get it. Just a possibility (that you might even be able to influence with a healthy lifestyle). Also there is a lot of research being done as we speak. I'd say once we reach "that" age we will very likely be able to at least slow it down greatly.
I also don't think the point of this album was to scare people. As to me personally I work in elderly care and listening to this made me actually reflect the way I treat my patients and how due to working stress and other factors (also egoistical ones) I was not always treating them the way I should. This helps me greatly in trying to do it better from now on. These people deserve all the help they can get. And maybe I can be a small note in their music that makes the whole ordeal a bit less dreadful for them.
If you have the time... maybe consider doing some voluntary work for elderly. Don't be scared of them. You can learn a lot from the most demented person for your personal growth and journey. You can give them a lot of joy even if they are confused. I'd say having this perspective beats being scared of dementia.
and if we dont find a way to slow it down wee always got *LAVA* and *PLASMA*
The album is not trying to be scary, it's trying it's best to convey how dementia can be scary and portray it to people who don't know how it feels like. Of course dementia isn't how this album operates, but it does show the decline in thinking via memories and sound repetition slowy decaying to barely even remember the sounds. But still, for me this is the single most powerful projects along with The Disintegration Loops. But say what you will, the album is scary. Especially Stages 4 and 5. And especially the second song of Stage 4. I just want to get inside my sheets with those disorted vocals. As for being scary of dementia, i don't know a single person. And while it can be scary, it's also a peaceful death. If i ever get dementia, i will tell my family for this album and The Caretaker so i can listen it again. Some of his work actually helps dementia patients remember things via music. This isn't one of them tho.
There are actions you can do to help make it less likely, a few are learning a language later in life, exercise, and just trying to be healthy.
@@morgankasper5227 i dont get the reference
Oh it’s pretty much set in stone that I get it, just family history tings (nervous laughter)
My grandma keeps forgetting my grandpa at times, She goes out of the house to get groceries but she always gets lost, even though she has lived there for 50 years. I told her, That she didn't need to worry about not remembering us, all she needed to know is that, we will always remember and love her and that's the only thing that matters.
Beautiful
she shouldn't be allowed to drive if she has dementia...
@@deadlocks he never said that she drives
@@ShadowChaser111 but she has access out of the house, she could simply not remember where she lives and never come back
@@zorubark bruh read what he said he/she said before commenting. He/she said that she lived there for a 50 years so she might have moved
Hidden Sea Buried Deep sounds like someone desperately trying over and over again to remember the tune to something, repeatedly starting from the top to try and recall how the rest of it goes.
a/sl/? 18/f/cali
@@BrendaBrendaBrendaBrendaBrenda is this a shitpost or did this account get hacked because this is not a time to try and hook up with random internet people
@Layne Krusz the notes are 18, female and from california
@@creme923 LMAO
To me it just sounds like Old-age Lo-fi
So many people sighed with relief when f8 ended and stage 3 finished but little did they know what form of fresh hell would await next.
Kevin Hixson stage 3 is the best. Along with stage 6. The two turning points.
@@nightshiftts make a Neo-Noir style edit of Mr. Robot footage, with toned-down colors (not completely black and white) with a blueish tint (not too blue) with the song "The Background World" by Nine Inch Nails, about the main character's descent into madness.
@@John-X Don't encourage this individual, they're adding nothing to this video.
Me at the end of stage 3: Oh Fuck yeah halfway there lets go
Me 5 seconds into stage 4: Oh fuck fuck fuck lets go back nope
I can't imagine people liking stage 3 ending knowing it's only going to get worse
this is when you start to notice things are *really* getting wrong
the echos and hanging notes all crashing into each other and fading out reminds me of how empty one's brain gets when they begin to lose their memories. faces disappear, locations fade out. suddenly, you can't remember your wedding day. your best friends, although you remember their names, have started to become a blur. it hits you when you realize you forgot how to play guitar.
this is stage 3
Shit I play guitar and the last line hit hard
@@riccardoc9552 Actually people with dementia still remember how to play instruments, because of muscle memory.
@@teschen7015 yeah I thought about that too, thanks for the answer anyways :)
When I read that last part about forgetting to play guitar I shed a tear man... holy fuck that's so depressing to think about
Hey again! Lmao I’ve been seeing you comment on every part (so far) thanks for being a tour guide lmao
This reminds me of how deeply afraid I am of aging.
i think i'm gonna cry
Just imagine this concept album 70 years from now except instead of 1930s ballroom it's a disintegration of blink 182 songs
@@shacka95 Well, that'll be us.
@@234pg786 wow , that's true and depressing
@@234pg786 hopefully not
the crazy thing about this music is even 30 seconds after listening to a song i cant remember a single thing from it
All the songs feel familiar because I heard some of them on the previous albums, but now they're starting to feel wrong. Im on the 10 minute mark and im starting to feel nauseous and scared.
FUCK
It's funny because even though I have a pretty trained ear and have practiced music, I didn't notice in the first listens that the first song (Back There Benjamin) in Stage 3 repeats pretty soon in Libet's All Joyful Camaraderie. It's just slowed down more and begins from a different part in the song. Then there are songs that have been ringing in my ear for many days, such as "Heartaches" (or "It's just a burning memory") because the song is pretty repetitive and is repeated many times throuhgout at least the first five stages. You can't really make out any song by Stage 6.
Probably because the songs with a discernable melody are too scary to bother remembering.. especially when its in the night.
You don't want to remember this music. Trust me, everyone reading this: YOU. DO. NOT. WANT. THESE SONGS. STUCK IN YOUR HEAD.
Any pot smokers be warned too, you do not want this music to surface in your head when you get really stoned, you will go insane.
They don’t even see their life flash before their eyes
man your comment just stabbed me in the feels and is twisting the knife
they might, "Terminal lucidity, rally before death or end-of-life rally, refers to an unexpected return of mental clarity and memory, or suddenly regained consciousness that occurs in the time shortly before death in patients suffering from severe psychiatric or neurological disorders. This phenomenon has been noted in patients with schizophrenia, tumors, strokes, meningitis, Parkinson's disease, and Alzheimer's disease."
A terrifying thought
If anything, dementia is EXACTLY what that is: A slow, extended flashing of one's life before their eyes. Their ability to form new memories completely dies, leaving them only with the slowly fading memories of their lives.
@@createric that’s horrifying. Why can’t they just die in blissful ignorance of what’s happening?
My grandfather didn't die from dementia, but severe pancreatitis and its complications.
Even so, I still listened to this particular stage on the drive to the hospital after the call, attempting to cry all my tears out before seeing him, just in case he didn't realize he was dying.
All the states are tragic, but this stage in particular makes me cry everytime I hear it. It's the further distortion and dissonance creeping in, the mangling of treasured memories, the last time they'll be remembered in some vaguely recognizable format.
Needless to say, my grandfather was well in the throes of a death rattle once we arrived, around 8pm December 23rd. He finally passed on Christmas morning at 6:40am. His last words were "I love you".
I can only hope that his final thoughts and memories weren't mangled and faded like this stage.
I love you too, Papa.
Kayleigh Wyatt I'm sorry.
This made me tear up
r.i.p
Oh my goodness...I am so sorry for your loss.
May he rest in peace.
@@milfsonme I was stone cold faced until I read "I love you too, Papa."
Goddamn eye sweat.
I think it's gonna take a lot of moral strength to listen to part 4-6.
I feel the same way! At Joyful Camaraderie, I was getting frightened by the low and loud tone that wasn't in Back There Benjamin. I could barely get through it. This is REALLY getting to me. I never thought music could make me scared.
mantra3000 yall seriously scared? this is like great gatsby/ fallout music.
@@Triunity4 Yes, but from 4 to 6 the sound changed completely. They're a lot darker and noisy and industrial-like, fully abandoning these 30s record samples.
@@godmaster20 I was terrified by the first track of Stage 1!
@@matiasbenitez980 not really abandoning them, just putting them through an industrial strength shredder...
God help us. There's supposed to be three more stages.
Have you heard the fourth?
Sorry EL. Just saw your reply. I'm a inactive user. Going back and listening to Stages 1-3. Haven't listened to all of Stage 4 yet.
It's ok, thank's for the reply. Sorry for the aggressive response, but i've seen so much shit on this platform.
Very aggressive person aren't you!
You're right... i'm attempted to delete that comment. Shame on me!
16:45 “bewildered in others eyes” made me scared, it sounds like an ice cream truck or a childhood tune but I can’t make out what it is, i guess that’s the point and it got the message across perfectly
i love how to the minimal great hidden is like a more distorted version of drifting time replaced, its like u can hear it but everythings so offtune and sad
It's so beautiful.
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The beginning of Temporary Bliss State and the last Stage 4 Post Awareness Confusions has a creepy childhood tune too
@@truebagel8368 i think Temporary Bliss state uses Bewildered In Other eye's sample
Musically speaking, stage 3 bops the hardest
@Ryan Lima for me that’d have to go to stage one
Agreed
yes
True
The middle of E1 sounds like a boppin mashup
I love how clearly the struggle to recall the fondest memories is presented. The tune of "It's just a burning memory" in particular just keeps coming back, especially in this stage. To me, it feels like desperation. The person has held onto this memory since the very start, perhaps this one memory has coloured their entire life. It feels like an important memory, yet every time we come back to reflect on it, it only seems hazier and more distorted. So we focus more and more on it, while it continues to elude our grasp, until in a final moment of vaguely coherent thought, our fondest memory is irreversibly blotted out by waves of confusion and emptiness. The person is gone.
the caretaker portrays these things so well and i dont get how but i love it
yes... :(
Like playing a music box over and over again, until it rusts and breaks
Its just a burning memory is sampled from heartaches, which means the person might be trying to remember a lover.
In dementia memories are like sand. The longer you hold onto the sand, the longer it takes to lose. When you do lose it your hand becomes empty. There's nothing left to hold on to.
when you work in a care home this music stays with you for every minute of each shift, and yet listening at home feels like a drunken blur
today my grandpa died of cancer. he had a small phase of dementia before not talking anymore. He was associating old memories with moments of the present. I went to see him few days ago, when he was still there. He didn’t recognise me at first but when he did he smiled. Then he asked me if i went dancing, i told him i went to school, he just answered with a slight « oh ». The last time i saw him, he smiled to me and made a heart with his hands, the day after that, he couldn’t speak at all. I loved my grandpa so much, and seeing him going away in this way hurted more than anything.
I know how you feel. One of my aunts is the oldest in my family. She's been gone mentally for a while now and I didn't even realize. When I was a kid she was definitely more with it, but I slowly realized something was off in my teens. She always said "Wow you've gotten so big now!" every time she saw me, and I thought it was just an endearing thing she said, but in my late teens I realized she was just living in loops of time. Everything seemed to restart for her after a day.
Everyone else in my family has had to take care of her at least once, and now all of us just say that we don't wanna live that long anymore. That dying before you start to forget how to wipe your ass is probably the best thing, not just for yourself but for your family too.
I've said this before, that since I'm the youngest in my family, I'll have to watch everyone I love die, one by one. So once my memory becomes a real problem, I'll probably buy a bottle of Everclear, book a night in a hotel, leave a nice tip for the room service, and drink myself to death.
Age is truly the most fascinating yet horrifying thing about life. As one ages, they gain knowledge they could have only dreamed of. They experience things unique to them and recall what they have done in their life. They watched humanity progress. From women not being able to vote to women holding special places in governments. No matter what happens, no matter what videos or books say, the oldest among us hold the information of the past that humanity must keep close to it. But once you pass the age of 60, life becomes a blur. Your children by then are all grown. You have 60 years of experience and life in your mind. The passage of time progresses faster than you can comprehend. Your body becomes weaker. Diseases that barely made you feel anything in your younger days make you sicker than normal. The deterioration of your body comes along with immune compromisation, and you become susceptible to diseases like COVID-19. Cancer affects older people because their bodies are just too old to notice the cells forming. Dementia is truly the most horrifying thing I can think of. At least with death, your body dies with your mind. The work of Benjamin Libet comes to mind, while his experiments and ideas were flawed, the idea that consciousness is tied to the mind is terrifying. Rest in Peace to your grandfather.
At least she died before becoming a empty shell of herself
yeah
I just found out my grandma was getting groceries out of her car and was planning to put them in her other house... She doesn’t have another house. Finding this out depresses me.
My grandmother took all the food out of her own freezer and said she was "bringing it home". Painful and sad.
@@Redhoboful That is really sad...
How is she? Is she ok??
Party Last year at 2 in the morning, she decided to go on a walk. My uncle who lives with her didn’t hear her walk out of the house. She ended up walking a mile or so and tripped and fell. Bystanders saw her and she went to the hospital. Had a black eye which was sad to see, but she ended up alright. My dad has been taking her to her appointments and such, and he’s been telling me she’s been doing better. Sadly I haven’t been able to see her due to Covid. But I plan to as soon as I can.
@@Ninthsignmusic That's sweet of you. I'm sorry you all have to go through this.
Stage 3: The Subject with Dementia is diagnosed with said Dementia, and starts to have difficulty focusing. The most important moments, family members, and friends have been remembered. the last stage before the post-awareness stages.
Stage 3 is a lot more disorienting, this is when more advanced effects are used to make the music more confused. Songs will often end abruptly. Some songs will be next to unrecognizable from the unedited audio. Songs will have more ambiance to them. Two songs, in particular, Al Bowlly's "Heartaches" and Russ Morgan's "Goodnight my Beautiful" are both repeated three times each throughout the album, and each time they get more distorted. These memories must have been very important to the subject. A lot of the songs sound like they could be in a horror film soundtrack.
I'm going to talk about two songs, and they are "Back there Benjamin" and "Mournful Camaraderie".
For "Back there Benjamin", strings are monstrously warped, and horns echo for what seems like forever. It's really disorienting like the rest of the album, and really gives the feeling of confusion caused by the loss of memories. The structure of the song has begun to break down as the mind would at this point. It contrasts heavily to the first two stages.
For "Mournful Camaraderie", it's the last reprise of Al Bowlly's "Heartaches" that as any noticeable resemblance to the original audio. As the title suggests, this song may be about the subject's friends and family mourning over something. Possibly the subject doesn't recognize them anymore.
Stage 3 is the last stage with any sort of structure to it. the last stage before post-awareness fully kicks in. What's scary about this album is the same as the second stage plus added confusion and not fully understanding what's going on.
f4 and f8 use seger ellis' version of heartaches, not al bowllys
@@sweetpotato-jn1fg
Listen to the variant in Stage 2. It's pretty much that but broken.
There is one more moment of this at the very end of stage 6, where you can hear music clearly yet with static, the very last song, the second half, they will forever haunt those who listen.
I feel like stage 3 is too late to be diagnosed
@@jamesaviation2240 I kinda feel the same way too looking back. I think I just chose it cuz it was what a lot of people said is when it was diagnosed. I knew a lot less about EATEOT and Alzheimer's Disease back then.
As you are pushed by wheelchair to the entrance of the nursing home you go over what is happening. In a sense you are completed, in another you feel finished. The two words with the same definition but contrasting meanings dance and intertwine with each other. Your life has been made. You went to school and graduated, you found someone you loved, settled down somewhere and then you started a family with them. This side is completion. The other side shows time, which has given you all these things but now only to strip them away. It cannot be stopped it cannot be prevented. As you are pushed through the doors you know that it’s too late to do anything you wanted to do in life, and without knowing it, you enter the waiting room to the afterlife.
That was beautiful 👏👏👏👏👏
that was beautiful but dark as shit
The two words with the same definition but contrasting meanings | im thinking of Mournful camaraderie
@@thorntailband "and without knowing it, you enter the waiting room to the afterlife."
😱 *B R U H.* 💀
this is why we need to use *FIRE* guys,so people dont *_SUFFER_*
I think The Caretaker first introduced the earlier albums for you to soak in, make memories with, have personal nostalgia of the juncture in time where you were listening to them, only for it to progress into dementia, making you feel as if it is happening to your own mind. Struggling to recognize and make sense of your favorite songs and memories.
Absolutely. It's starting to get terrifying.
ya
aw fuck, intentionally having a big gap between albums to fuck with your own memory of his collection
_Was it this song... or was it that song?_
Holy shit reading this gave me chills, especially since I've just heard the new 4th stage as well...
This is amazing.
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Lofi Beats to forget what you were studying.
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The repetition in "A hidden sea buried deep" is really unsettling, along with the crackling
And the short "oh"
The actual song is seven minutes long, and its name is simply "piano medley."
7 minutes. And the patient can only recall the first 7 seconds.
Horrifying.
Agreed, is like a hidden sea buried deep that someone found but they only remember only one cobfursing part about that sea
@@marz8386 Oh God-
@The Shepherd :D basically same, but when doing the full six-hours-and-a-half experience is just, horrifying
Definitely the scariest stage, it’s also the last bit of the album where you can really enjoy it as entertainment and it’s still kinda...cool, before it goes from somewhat enjoyable and spooky to just breaking you and making you feel bored, mindless, like nothing
I think it’s also the scariest in concept because it’s the in between where the dementia is really bad, but you’re still aware of what’s happening, it’s not confusion, it’s genuine fear
Two words: Hell sirens
F3+F5
@@hart418 1 word and one number STAGE 5
@@RiceWitch-dingus-400 People still comment on caretaker videos?
What I like most about this stage is that it’s almost a jack of all traits. There’s some relatively normal sounding tracks, and some extremely distorted ones. You could almost make a mini-EATEOT with this stage alone.
Stage 1 - Long term dusk glimpses (18:37)
Stage 2 - Gradations of Arms Length (22:11)
Stage 3 - And Heart Breaks (4:15)
Stage 4 - Libet Delay (39:00)
Stage 5 - To The Minimal Great Hidden (12:53)
Stage 6 - Aching Cavern Without Lucidity (34:05)
oooo good point
Yeah it's the point of lucidity's end it loses all context and it crashes into itself memories bursting mixing into confusions.
I think to the minimal great hidden would have been one of those bliss states in stage 5 except a little distorted and distant.
I think An empty bliss beyond this World would be better for a Stage 3 song, but other than that yeah.
Yea long term dusk glimpses is one of the same songs from stage 1
My father died of dementia last November. This part 3 has for me very recognisable elements of his condition shortly before there was no other option but putting him in a care home.
Sorry for your loss man.
My condolences.
I know what you mean. My grandfather died last May after 9 years of Alzheimer’s. (May he Rest In Peace) Usually The Caretaker is uplifts me... but this album makes me remember his first signs. Watching a loved one become unrecognizable is too difficult to bear.
Exact same thing happened to my grandfather a few months ago. My condolences man
Sorry for your loss but just know he's in a better place now and he's not suffering anymore. I hope you are doing well D. Oliver.
My great uncle was diagnosed with dementia about a year ago. I hope this is not what he's going through. He can talk still of course, but his thought revolve around a few topics and not much else. It's also sad when he doesn't seem to recognize my immediate family, so he just keeps a permanent smile, saying "hows it going?"
play the caretaker for him he should recognise it
How's it going? Any updates?
Please, we want updates about your grandfather. I feel sorry for him, and I hope he's doing okay.
He's probably in post awareness now.
@@theczechoslovakiankamerad7340 great uncle
I feel like if i ever develop Alzheimer's, and i go senile, and i begin to forget i even exist, then the last thing i'll ever remember will probably be Calm2.ogg from the minecraft OST.
that's actually a somewhat realistic prediction. music is some of the last things that people with Alzheimer's remember.
Someone made a minecraft version of EATEOT
@@sumwon6973 wasn't it a minecraft version of "an empty bliss beyond this world"?
@@egap98 they made both! The eateot remake is a lot better done
@@Zawmbbeh yeah, it's not a smooth process by a longshot, this was mostly a sad joke.
this entire project makes me want to go hug my grandma and tell her how much i love her :,,,(
Do it while you still can do it
Not during a pandemic, but call her more often!
I feel the same, but still shocks me that she doesn´t recognizes me anymore.
I wish I had more time.
@Everything Is Burning Like Fire what's a zogbot
F2 - Drifting Time Misplaced is one of my favourite songs, how it seems like one of the more stable Stage 3 songs at first, but around halfway through, the notes start to draw out for longer than usual, The vinyl cracke seems to get slightly louder in very clean 'bursts', It seems to be fine for another loop or two, before it breaks down even more, the notes sounding much more echoey, the crackle being louder, it seems so distant, like it's breaking apart so quickly, it seems to feel better for around 2 seconds, before vinyl crackle ends the track, like you're trying to grasp on a memory that isn't even there anymore. It's terrifying and shows this stage very well along with Back There Benjamin.
edit: If somebody somehow sees this comment, It's called drifting time misplaced on the bandcamp page.
i 100% agree with this comment. drifting time misplaced, along with "an empty bliss beyond this world" are my 2 most favorite tracks in this stage. the way they were entangled and amplified to be just barely comprehensible before the post awareness stage is hair-raising and unsettling.
It literally seems like the last existence of this memory with lullaby of the leaves being used earlier in stage 2, and it seems like whoever is trying conjure what they can of the memory in their head but slowly losing it, leaving out some details as it fades away into nothing
I personally prefer the version of an empty bliss beyond this world that's on this album. For me it evokes a strange, surrealistic feeling and almost makes me feel like I'm in an empty impressionist painting
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@@JordanKeuring 'Sup, Joseph cool ring
"Aching cavern without lucidity" definitely sounds like when post awareness kicks in, with the following final tracks sounding like the sufferer entering "blissful" unawareness while their friends and loved ones (the "camaraderie") "mourn" as whom they've come to know starts to fade away.
*Chilling* I tell you.
I thought the exact same thing about Aching Cavern w/o Lucidity. The "w/o lucidity" part kind of gives it away. It's definitely bone chilling.
I feel like F4 is where the post awareness vibe starts to come in
I think the title refers to a cavity in the brain losing all of it's neurons, so while the brain still has a bit of awareness left, the cavern (cavity) in question is dead
F5 is actually heartaches. Listen to toe version with no effects(mostly) and then this and you might be able to hear the first few notes. It’s ridiculous how little is left of it.
E6 is the start of Post awareness, although its not as bad as F4 and F8, its like half cohorent. It feels like trying to remember a dream
- "To The Minimal Great Hidden" is actually an altered version of "A Relationship With The Sublime" featured in AEBBTW
- "Back there Benjamin" may sound like another version of "Libet's Delay", but is actually the snippet that comes AFTER the original loop. The same thing happens again in "Libet's All Joyful Camaraderie" before being completely obliterated near the end.
- "An empty bliss beyond this World" uses the "Wedding of the Painted Doll" version from the Victor Salon Orchestra
- "Burning despair does ache" alters "Heartaches" even more than "What does it matter how my heart breaks" from last stage. "Mournful cameraderie" repeats the same process and the melody is barely there this time.
A relationship with the sublime got deconfirmed, it was Paddlin’ Madeline Home by the same dudes who made the sample for A relationship with the sublime (Layton & Johnstone)
E6 uses Stardust by Charlie Spivak, and E7 uses The PRettiest Little Song Of All by Albert Benzler
Listening to this is like playing the piano while constantly holding down the damper pedal.
Check out Tim Hecker's album Dropped Pianos, if you like sustained piano and experimental ambiance.
@@JustAzer1 calm down
@@JustAzer1 calm down edgelord
@@JustAzer1 calm down edgelord
@@JustAzer1 calm down edgelord
In my opinion, the scariest stage. It is so aggressive and unpredictable, perfectly represented by this cover art. I think what it represents is the worrying of loosing memories, and so the brain squeezes in the things it can remember to its loudest. That's why some tracks are cut off and unfinished and looping, the brain is making what's left of the current memories, trying to make them as loud and aggressive as possible so that you can still hear them. The previous two stages had their own mood. Stage 1 was somewhat happy and enjoyable, with songs being poetic and about death, but accepting it. While stage 2's songs are still poetic, they are depressive and sad, and reflect on the fear of what's to come, as the person now realises what's wrong. Stage 3's songs however, aren't sad. They aren't happy either. This person can't feel these emotions within their memories because they are worrying about loosing them, so they just blurt them out aggressively in hopes of trying to save them. While they might be saving the memory's importance, they don't know why it's important, hence why most songs here feel emotionless and infinite.
This is my favourite stage, and it is definitely one of the scariest.
This perfectly describes it. There’s no emotion or theme. It’s just everything in the moment
Stage 5:
Wait till you hear stage 6
It's my favorite stage too I just like the good music not really scary to me.
@@White_Wrath same
Is this anyone else’s favorite EATEOT stage? I feel like this one can be enjoyed even without the context of the previous stages. Just sounds really cool.
Oh yeah, I would 200% agree. It feels a lot more varied than the other stages, with some calm instrumentals and some confused noise songs.
Facts, this one just encompasses the eerie vibe, literally without context you'd think its a horror musical purposely made to second guess yourself, pair this with stage 1 and you have a very good experience, especially with how burning memories is used and how its so different than hiw it started
these songs are bops
I love this stage as much as everyone else here. I think it hits the mid point perfectly! 😘
As someone who is a fan of stage 3 (and 4) (and any other stage before that really) I can agree. This is my favorite stage.
I know that my life exists outside of this, but listening to this makes me feel like I'm living somebody else's
I have exactly the same feeling. It's almost an intimate experience
Hot damn that's a really good way to put these feelings I'm experiencing into words
That's the power of music!
just seeing "An empty bliss beyond this World" as one of the track titles here is absolutely devastating.
i laughed out loud when i first noticed it, but then it all slowly dawned on me and i was like 'oh......'
"Mournful camaraderie" is pretty sad, your family is gathered around you and you feel comfortable with them being around, but you don't quite know who they are.
Because its poetic or because his big album has the same name?
@@idolaltry the theme of the album is dementia and recurring, fuzzy memories
an empty bliss beyond this world was one of the most recognizable songs (for me) on the album it came from so seeing it here, as a shadow of what is was, is haunting
just wait for "A brutal bliss beyond this empty defeat" in stage 6
29:31 You've really gone and lost it now.
A sample of what's to come
Am I a little bit schizo or did he actually sing that?
@@condor2279 the caretaker?
No it was a very old record from Milan of a Italian song, I think the name it’s miserere or Il trovatore, search it on the sample list
*first track is such a nice start into this stage isnt it*
It’s horrifying but it summarizes the stage so well
@@pizzatime1901 it sounds so peaceful but also manic at the same time. Its like seeing someone breakdown or go insane
@@trasteviejo its like the opposite of libet’s delay from an empty bliss beyond this world despite them using the same song. Libet’s delay was calm and jazzy where this is scary and weird to listen to but it fits stage 3 so well
*yep*
The middle of it slaps you can’t convince me otherwise
1930s smooth Lofi hip hop beats to dissociate to
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This is the best stage.
In my opinion
This one is very good. My favorite stage is probably 2.
@@flngodingo9647 Stage 2 feels too melancholy for me. Stage 3 has that upfront unease but is still upbeat in most areas. F8 was hella cool too.
My favorite stage is stage 2 . It’s just so perfect.
Stage 6 is probably objectively the best stage tho
EATEOT has fundamentally changed how I view the world. I never knew change like this could happen so fast. Incredibly confusing, heart-breaking and enlightening of an experience.
Thank you.
Proof that music-
What was I about to say, I forgot
“Drifting time replaced” is so beautiful.
It is
@Maximum Rubidium Definitely
I love how it slowly becomes more distant and echoey until it’s just record noise
i feel like my cord attaching me to my space station just snapped and now i’m spinning till i pass out
I mean misplaced
In my opinion, there are 3 important memories in this album. Heartaches, Goodnight my beautiful, and lullaby of the leaves. They exist in every other part they are first introduced and probably the patients last memories.
bro misplaced in time(lullaby of the leaves) is my favorite album
Yeah. Looks like these three song are very important for this album and the patient.
@Derekanic I'm not too sure about stage 5... i would go for "this section will be a mandolin solo by mister james fitzgerald" to be the unforgettable song.. like i legit cried at that part ;-;
some other contestants would be the was it a dream segement, notre dame/i'm following you segment, and one of the piano clear segment from Layton and Johnstone.. and i dont know if i missed something else
God. Lullaby of the Leaves had played so many times in stage 6, it's heartbreaking. They still try to cling on to memories they know will never touch again.
no, empty bliss beyond world used in all stage 5 and 6
stage 3 has the biggest bangers and strongest emotional effect. Change my mind
Stage 6 last five minutes
For "strongest emotional effect" i'd say stage 6. The empty atmosphere it gives off is just horrific in my opinion. Kinda sad that many only remember it for the ending.
Stage 5's L1SB-b,M1SA1,K1SA-e,K1SA-d and N1SD2.
Stage 6's P1SA,P1SC,O1SA,Q1SA,R1SB and R1SC.
'Drifting Time Misplaced' (and also misspelled in the description) is one of the most harrowing pieces of music ever. And I also find it expressing the whole idea of this stage.
As I pass it through myself, I feel as I have surrendered to the inevitability of slowly losing everything, connecting me to my life..as the very concepts of it have already halfway dissolved in my soul. I feel devastated and helpless and can't even enjoy this final moments of remembering..these precious moments, slipping through my fingers, leaving nothing that I have turned into..in the obscure darkness...
Also 'Bewildered in Others Eyes' is a great one. Like it's trying to appear calm, almost friendly, yet some ineffable, elusive terror lurks within it, which you cannot shake off. Like a subconscious feeling that something is horribly wrong, without being able to specify it..
Original is called Lullaby of the leaves
Also, beautiful writing, you're very talented!
It sounds like you have this illness...I am so very sorry. I have to say your writing is exquisite though. I see you wrote this 2 years ago....how are you doing now? Sending positive thoughts to you, whoever you are.
it’s drifting time replaced in the description lol
I hope you're doing alright these days if you actually do have dementia, I'm deeply sorry.
It sounds like chaos, like not necessarily forgetting, but more like everything blurring together into one and after it’s done I can’t recall what even happened
The first song is absolutely incredible
Gradations of arms length sounds like a sad acceptance of their disease, and their fate. So does "the way ahead feels lonely" in stage 2, which makes me think the patient forgot they already accepted their fate, and accepted it again. Over and over again.
The sadder part is,it's re-used in N1SA and P1SB.
It's extra sad considering the person won't be aware of their disease in the following stages; meaning they have to mourn their own death before it happens
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@@KingSolidTails ouch. However will I recover from that sick burn? You really have me a dose of my own medicine there!
Oop-
16:45 I like to think about this song as a last memory of one's childhood that is fading away
F6 Everywhere an empty bliss is actually the last childhood memory
It sounds like a theme to a 1940s children’s show
“back there benjamin” is particularly hard for me to listen to, something about the sudden looping overlapping trumpet sounds is very jarring and irksome to listen to
and yet i cannot stop listening to it and get it out of my mind. i’m not particularly bothered by it though
It’s really something, it reminds me of old Thunderbirds music so I feel drawn to it
Yet absolutely horrified at it
My fav part of back there Benji has to be the super subtle ukelele strum. Only plays once per loop, but it perfectly gives the insanity a sense of "this can't be real"
@kitty I can relate. The reverb gives the song a strange feeling.
Especially the part where it loops, literally spine chilling
"Libet's all joyful camaraderie" is really similar. I think that one affects me the most.
Jesus christ, Stage 3 made me appreciate how lucky my grandparents are. They are not suffering from dementia, and are mostly fine. Though they've had better days..
Lucky you. My grandmother suffered from it.
I'm so blessed that dementia doesn't run in my family. None if my grandparents or great grandparents suffered from it to any serious degree. If you have someone in your family that does... I'm so sorry.
"Though they've had better days..."
*Stage 0.5 Starts to play*
@@allenharper2928 pssh.. lucky you… I wasn’t around when my great grandmother was on the last stages on one form of dementia. Well. I was actually really young before she died.. my grandmother tells me how great of a mother she was, the only recall I have of her was when I was leaving her home (or somewhere else.) Man, I miss her even though I never met her. Atleast my memories haven’t.
@@vibrantgleamsame here. Although I never really spent much time with her, as I was only around 5 years old when she died and I didn’t understand. The only memories I have of her are when we had family gatherings for thanksgiving or something where she was in a wheelchair and just stared blankly. my mom had to tell her that she was her daughter and im her granddaughter. In a way, I sort of am lucky because i didnt know her very well so I didnt have to be devastated when she passed. Dementia is a terrifying thing.
Ok, 4 hours of depressing music for visualization of dementia and memory loss - here we go!
Edit: This just might be the most terrifying stage for me. It is still possible to distinguish melodies, but the distortions are obvious enough to realize something very very wrong is going on - and you can't do anything. The stage starts abruptly, with no introductions, nor paragrafing in the previous one, and immediately it's serious. When the first song suddenly stopped, I was so confused; and then there's - I think it's the fourth one - that is almost undistorted, but on the headphones you can barely hear some hiss, just behind you; and there's the one where jazz is mixed with some other melody - it was so unsettling. F3 is also worth mentioning because of the ghostly bass and faintly hearable guitar, as if it was the last moment, before forgetting it completely. The next one, F4, is my Special One melody, just like the first song, and among all the distortion, hook is left untouched - as if the feeling remained. The last songs, as I later realized had little pieces of it as well - three notes in a row, then I noticed a pair more; lastly I noticed the one note from the beginning of the hook. I think, the moment this hook will dilute entirely, so not a single note remains, will be the most painful to listen through.
On the other hand, the cover art is a bit like a warning, or at least that's how I feel about it. There is a painting in hallway in my house, which my parents bought with a flat. It was painted by the lady, who lived there before, and it depicts flowers. And it's colour are almost perfectly inversed with the cover. My grandmother also likes to paint. And these are paintings of flowers all over her place. And I, myself, paint as well.
Ok, onto the next stage, I guess!
wheres the update
@@kablaziken it'll be there in a few years. I have to regain sanity
Haha found ya again, I decided I’d listen to just stage 1, now on stage 3 because I’m hooked. Not really in a good way although.
@@mirror1001 I wrrote something under each one so you'll be seeing me a lot. I think it's a good idea to write somewhere initial thoughts, maybe you'd like to
I'm not sure if it's a good idea to jump like that though. I started to get ideas on interpretations of certain sounds at stage 2 and these sounds are later used throughout the entire thing. And if you can, do every stage in one go. I didn't and that's a real shame.
I guess to say 'I hope you'll like it' isn't really correct, so, i dunno, I hope you'll have an intresting experience :)
Thanks man, I did the first 4 stages yesterday and I didn’t get all that much value out of them. But I know with a re-listen I’ll definitely appreciate them more. Cheers.
nobody is talking about hidden sea buried deep. c'mon guys, that ones a banger.
Yes!! I agree
The very first time I ever listened to stage 3, it was Hidden Sea Buried Deep that stuck with me the hardest. The person is obviously trying REALLY HARD to figure out how the rest of the thought or memory went, but it's just not there anymore
The melody honestly sounds really mischievous and cool
@@Canodiablo ^^^
Banger hidden deep
this was the scariest part for me tbh. the distortion was uncanny enough and the image just fucked up enough that it really just deeply unnerved me.
the rest wasnt quite as bad as im already pretty accustomed to experimental and harsh music, but this part really creeped me out and made me the most uncomfortable
Yeah, Stage 3's my favorite for that reason. It makes you try so hard to pick out familiar melodies, but they feel like they might fade away at any moment.
E1 - Goodnight, My beautiful - Russ morgan
E2 - Heartaches - Al Bowlly
E3 - some song from L&J idk
E4 - Same as E1
E5 - Paddlin' Madellin Home - L&J
E6 - Stardust - Charlie spivak
E7 - The prettiest little song of all - Albert Benzler.
E8 - Exactly like you - Roger wolf or something idk
F1 - Romance - Jonh boles
F2 - Lullaby Of The Leaves - L&J
F3 - II Trovatore - idk
F4 - Heartaches - Seger ellis
F5 - Heartaches Seger ellis
F6 - The wedding of the painted doll - idk
F7 - Same as E1
F8 - Heartaches - Seger ellis
E5 is paddlin Madeline home
@@DanteTimberwolf Thanks for the info!
E3 - Piano Medley by L&J
E3 is actually called "My Blue heaven" by Layton and Johnstone (L&J)
F3 sample is by Ferruccio Giannini
This is giving me a depression attack if that is a actual thing.
@Haha TNT Go brrr we know, it still gives depression due to being scared of getting old
@juice, you already told them once, maybe lay off this album for a bit
I got a parinoa attack from EATEOT.
depressive episode?
I'm a young adult dealing with a neurodegenerative disease. I see a lot of my own trials in this album, and ironically, that is why I find these compositions restorative.
I'm sorry homeboy
godspeed
You are in stage 4?
You're losing every memory you used to cherish. You recognize that music...but from where? You don't know. You're memory of that song is far too distorted. What year is it again? Sometime in the 20s, right? You came into this nursing home about...2 months ago? Yeah, that's probably it.
Someone keeps visiting you. A woman. But you don't know who she is. She's always brought by a man who you do know. You ask the man who the woman is. He looks shocked, replying, "Why, that's your daughter! You remember me, her husband, but not her?"
You panic, worried of how worse this could get. Everything's deteriorating, as you're slowly transitioning to stage 4.
This reminds me of a video I watched recently of someone's dad, who seemed to be in stage 5 but could still speak (though he rarely did). At one point as he goes about his aimless activities around the house, you can hear him mumble to himself softly, "everything's gone to hell."
@@luckyotter623 Holy. freaking. crap.
I think this album throws in tracks you haven’t heard that you KNOW you haven’t heard, but it could’ve been in those last hour and a half of music so, you become confused. Just like the brain thinking of things that did not happen. The unfamiliar becomes the familiar.
Right off the bat with a more distorted Libet's Delay and It's Just a Burning Memory back to back definitely made this stage feel drastically more disturbing.
This is probably one of the most terrifying yet soothing albums by far. something about it is relaxing yet horrifying at the same time. the notes clashing and blending together is one of the best things I've heard.
Favorite song: Long Term dusk glimpses/back there Benjamin
8/10
Have you listened to the rest of the album?
Drifting time misplaced is just a vibe
And burning despair does ache kinda makes me mad with it literally just being a more messed up version of what does it matter how my heart aches (favorite song from stage 2)
@@kamilslup7743 i mean, the songs just being a more distorted version of the older ones makes sense in the context that this is about alzheimer's, at this point, only the more important memories last
I like all the references to AEBBTW in this stage. It ads to the feeling of half remembering, with it being familiar but from a different project. Gives you that “wait, haven’t I heard this before?”
There 2
and heart breaks (04:15) is a remix of "it's just a burning memory" back from stage 1.
Creepy dude.
So is F4-Burning despair does ache (31:35)
It was taken from the sample, although this one, happens towards the end of the actual song unlike Burning Memory which was taken from the beginning
Lyu uwu Fuck. i hear the note and i know how it’s supposed to go but it doesn’t, and it makes me so uncomfortable
Also mourning camardie
This is my favorite stage of Everywhere at the End of Time. It depicts the struggle holding on, trying so desperately to grasp to the most important memories of your life as they slowly, steadily slip away. Your past crumbles as your present decays, and you are lost in the endless sea of things almost recognizable. You can still communicate, but time grows short. Truly a work of art, this album.
I love the last two songs here - Libet Delay and Mournful Camaraderie.
The feel like this event horizon for the post awereness stages, and the way they reuse Goodnight My Beautiful and Heartaches emphasises it. They don't feel frightening like Back There Benjamin or Drifting time misplaced/replaced. They feel almost comforting in a twisted way. Like someone stopping to struggle against a riptide, they just go along as their mental state deterorates. Theres no reason to fight it.
this series makes me really reflective of my own loneliness. suffering in a sea of dwindling mental health and borderline insanity, and all the people around you can do is watch from the outside, never knowing all of what is actually happening.
Getting stuck in distractions helps me TH-cam vids, gym, bjj, are fun and I kinda accept loneliness I'm not totally alone but ik we gone get out this funk
You ok?
i don't think they're ok
Is that silent hill 3 as ur pfp? I feel like I can relate to you hella
Things get better, I promise... just keep holding on...
Probably my favourite stage. Stage 3 is the start of the end, it’s like the person is “NO! Won’t loose my memories!” (Anger), and “No! Please I don’t want to loose my memories!” (Sadness). It’s the first stage that genuinely freaked me out. But this is nothing compared to the fear and terror of the post awareness stages...
You guys are sleeping on "E6-Sublime Beyond Loss", it's one of my favourite tracks and portrays the confusion by the blasted trumpets
It’s a total banger to be honest
This album haunts me when I go to sleep,when i listen to this album and couple hours later i forget about the songs, when I go to sleep i remember the songs and yesterday when I was going to sleep i felt that someone was looking at me from above. And i heard a voice that sounded like my grandmother who died at just 74 years old ,and had alzheimer's and parkinson's and she died in the same room were i was sleeping. I heard her saying „go to sleep" and i started crying. It was 2 am and i couldn't go to sleep because i was sad and scared. I later heard something weird noises many times and i didn't know what it was.
Ugh... sorry you had to go through that, dude
That is scary. But she just wants you to be happy. She wanted to let you know that she is fine in the afterlife and she doesn’t want you to remember her weak and confused as she was when she died, but the way she was before that sucky illness, because everyone finds justice in afterlife. You will see when you die.
Oh wow... That could be some sort of hypnagogic (however you spell it) hallucination, or maybe... Its really her..
I really like the references to An Empty Bliss Beyond This World
its so draining to listen through this in just one sitting and I'm only just halfway, but it's something that I can't just stop, i have to keep going.
You are losing. You know what's coming yet you've no idea what lay beyond it. Your thoughts and memories are regressed to a point of pure stimuli as you descend further into the closing blanket of death.
To me “bewildered in others eyes” portrays the subject looking back at a childhood memory of playing with a music box or maybe going to the circus and the memory being distorted. All of the stages have been heart breaking but that one song changed how I think about dementia, the subject is starting to lose current memories and looks back only to find that the memories aren’t the same there distant, fuzzy, this stage is pure genius
I have the gene most likely to cause Alzheimer’s and honestly it’s breaking my heart to think these feelings in the musical sense could actually be me one day.
Just remember that thing, remember? That one thing. That thing you were supposed to remember! Don't you remember?
Oh God..
There are actually ways to prevent it so pls stay safe
@@john_dillermand Ah disrespect, very common on youtube.
Good luck later in life! Hope you stay safe.
I’m so sorry about that. I wish the best for you and I hope you don’t experience that in your life at all.
this gives me serotonin, and i have no idea why. like, nearly all the songs are so cheerful, and i love the reverb. plus, some are so distorted they're just gorgeous (libet delay, looking at you)
Gosh same honestly, stage 3 has to be my favorite of all the stages/albums. I can't stop coming back to listen to it every few days. The tracks here just give off such an ethereal vibe and I love it sm👌
@@MrFinnyeh It's especially nice while doing homework :D
its so sweet and calming when i completely ignore the context
The entirety of stage 3 was incredibly disturbing, but Burning Despair does ache scares the absolute shit out of me. Imagine living a life where you made so many memories with loved ones and not being able to remember any of it at all
Album directly recorded from the Black Lodge hehe
Even though its been two years, I just wanna tell you Twin Peaks is timeless
E1 genuinely sounds like crying, every violin note sounds like a warped contorted wail. and the loud brass sounds like its stabbing the brain repeatedly, beautiful stage.
As someone who has suffered many minor head traumas, this does a great job of representing memories and their quality in my brain.
Back there Benjamin really gets me emotional. It feels like someone trying to remember their favorite song but the loud high notes keep crashing into each other.
Bro wtf u mean back there Benjamin goes hard
@@Whatisthepointofhandles441 It makes me tear up I don't like it for some reason, most the other songs are alright but I don't want Benjamin anywhere near me
that song is terrifying bro
@@bringbackstpatties2967 huh, i honestly kinda vibe to it, so im surprised so many hate it
This whole stage feels like drowning. Like the solid ground beneath you has turned into quicksand, and you're desperately trying to grasp on to something, but it keeps slipping through your fingers.
either the album is truly doing its job or i just don't pay attention while playing this on the background
This stage is such a sharp contrast to stage 2, that, even though I knew what was coming, it was quite jarring. It feels like they have forgotten what was making them so discontent in stage 2, and listening to the first few tracks literally sounds like they are angry and triumphant. Then the cut to the next song. E2 sounds like they are desperately trying to hold on to the heartaches theme, but it’s crumpling away, and they are trying harder and harder to keep onto it, as the static grows louder. The repetitive on of the tune across the stages sounds like them trying to remember a memory, but being horrified at its degradation.
The silence goes on for a while before… E3 sounds like the person thinking of a memory, only for it to keep repeating over and over again. Then the sharp turn back to E1’s theme. E4 sounds like the person instantly just starting to recall the rest of E1, completely forgetting what was going on in E3. And the melody itself, though happy sounds like everything around you is breaking away but you don’t care... you just want to relive that all joyful memory for the last time before it’s gone.
E5 sounds like a person recalling a memory, only to find it cut up and broken. The crackling noises sound like a persons brain slowly dying, this one is extremely unsettling. Then the quick cut to E6. E6 is like a person recalling a happy memory, and I feel like the name itself is really unsettling. “Sublime beyond loss.” Sublime means beautiful, so it’s like the person is believing that, no matter how degraded the sound already is, they will never lose it.
E7 sounds like a person is just in a confused or bewildered state. I could imagine someone with dementia sitting all alone, confused, not knowing what is going on. E8 sounds, like a lot of songs in stage 1 and 2, like a final credits song for the persons life (I think this has a melody from some of stage 2’s songs) and the person is bittersweetly reminiscing on they’re life, in a final and quiet acceptance. But we’re only halfway through stage 3.
F1. I don’t know how I feel about this. Sounds so… empty. Like the person is just trying to recall something, only to end up with nothing except a feeling of melancholy. Then the cut to F2. I love this motif. In stage 2, it sounds angry, but here it just sounds sad. It sounds like… empty bliss. Definitely sounds like its name, like you’re floating in time. Then the static takes hold again for a while. The memory scowling decaying away. Until all you can hear is static.
F3 begins (or F2 ends?) with a looping static sample. Before it cuts to a foggy noise, where you can barely make out a noise. It literally sounds like the hell sirens. Like the person finding a bad memory in all the chaos. It sounds like the land between awareness and post awareness. Where there is nothing. F4 is so jarring. It is the dying, decaying memory of heartaches shattering apart. The notes clashing and breaking and it is just horrifying. Makes my head heart just by listening. This is the first glimpse you see of what the post awareness stages hold. Chaos. Bursts of clarity followed by nonsense. Then it all disappears back into the labyrinth of the mind.
F5’s name sums it up best. An aching cavern without lucidity. Where there used to be memories, there is nothing. And then… lucidity. F6 has empty bliss beyond this world’s main melody. It sounds like the person finally has found a memory, believing they might be getting better. But the statics still there. And the echo. But why does that matter, while you’re dancing away in the ballroom of your mind? Nothing could ever go wrong. Nothing could ever go wrong. This song is just… sad. The person holding onto the last thing they have. Before the fog sets back in. It’s one of my favourites though. A last true moment of lucidity before it all implodes into stage 4’s chaos.
Before it’s cut off by F7. This is horrifying. The beginning shows how much the mind has deteriorated. Usually, it quickly resolves to a happier note, so it just leaves you, waiting for a resolution that never comes. You can barely make out the melody, though it is mostly smothered by static. It’s like the person is realising for the first time that things have gotten really bad. And there is nothing they can do. The instruments blend together into a horrifying amalgamation, before disappearing into F8. F8. The last moment of clarity. You can’t even call it a melody. Just overlapping memories that used to be beautiful, but are now gone. This stage really shows the deterioration of the mind fully. At the beginning, it’s all good. At the end, it leaves you with emptiness. A candle that has been extinguished. The light is dimming on this persons life. And then it all disappears.
IN SUMMARY: this stage is amazing. It shows dementia without covering anything. Truly showing the shattering of the mind. Wow. At the end, it really feels like emptiness. But we’re not even halfway through EATEOT. The cover art really represents this stage. Take the last one. In stage 2, the art is clearly a plant pot. Sure, it’s all weird, but you know what it is. The cover art for this looks like the mind has broken and it is all rioting into chaos.
Damn This is a long comment.
As a person who wrote a long review on EATEOT, you have my respect.
what is to become of me once the earth covers up my last footprint
"Back there Benjamin" reminds me of my dead grandma.
She didn't have dementia, but in her last moments
she couldn't even recognize me. It's heartbreaking...
damn
The year is 2020 and you are laughing at the pictures online.
The pictures are funny because you understand the contextual foundation of the jokes.
This understanding makes you feel included, as if you're part of an inside-joke.
You look to your left, then to your right. You're actually alone.
You've felt alone for years, but the pictures online help you to forget that.
The pictures online make you feel like you're having genuine shared experience.
You know deep down the experience is not genuine, because there is a void in your heart that even the freshest meme could never fill.
You walk outside, you try to involve yourself in the world around you, but it's all the same.
The same faces, the same locations, the same routine and habits. You realize that there is no escape, whatever dystopia you were told about seems better, as at least those had an identifiable enemy.
But in this world, man is spoiled rotten, and so the suffering amounts to more than the chains and boots a Tyrant could ever bring.
You are occupying a space in existence, you are without meaning, you quite simply, just are.
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It gets so dark, near the end
out of all the earlier stages i didn’t remember any except this one it stuck with me so hard
bucci bucci I remembered this one and stage 1. Stage 2 was pretty forgettable except for the Lullaby of the Leaves track.
Mournful camaraderie sounds eerily beautiful, although it is still a sad depiction of forgetting a particular memory... the song melody that repeated throughout the previous phases is reduced into a fragments and is drowned by the ambient fog
"drifting time replaced" is a bit of a 🅱️anger ngl 👀
Crowned Trash in the lowest of keys 👀
Alek rodriguez yesss
hell yes
wait it was called replaced 2 years ago?
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Thank you so much for this. Libet Delay is just heart crushing.
I decided to listen to this album for my creative art project. After I finished, I couldn't even remember what I had drawn until the next day. My finished artwork was there clocks one with all it's numbers and brand new looking. The other with slight chipping of the edge and some of the numbers missing or scratched out. The glass had cracks running along the middle. The final clock was weird. It had a deformed shape no numbers just a few lines and the hands looked like real human hands, the glass was shattered into pieces. My teacher asked what inspired me and she was surprised. This album is something else and it'll always have a special place with me.
Fun fact: some Alzheimer's patients take tests to see which dementia stage they're on by drawing clocks every once in a while
I’ll never forget how the intensity of back there benjamin horrified me after coming out of stage 2 feeling somewhat relaxed
the more i look at this, the more i realize it looks like a distorted rose bush.
it's kinda interesting, because roses are beautiful, but also can be quite dangerous due to their thorns.
it's like it's hinting that the memories that remain are beginning to do a mix of both harm and good, as they begin to fade away, and become both confusing, therefore hurtful, but cherished at the same time.
"Hidden sea buried deep" is probably the most ominous track in the stage. I don't know why.
I got the same feeling from it. It just stands out to me. It makes me feel..... I don’t know how to describe it. Like something bad is coming.
Internal bewildered World creeps me out beyond belief, just like hidden sea buried deep.
The decay of memory and Identity.
this album changed my life ... and made me understand my grandfather's pain and gave me more empathy and understanding towards him ... thanks the caretaker
:)
drifting time replaced sounds the best with the static/echo toward the end of the song and describes this whole stage perfectly. as u started losing awareness type of vibe.
Here’s what i think of stage 3:
The E section is the first section in EATEOT to show mood swings and heavy memory loss
E1 sounds aggressive. Its like the patient doesn’t want to accept something is wrong. The instruments are played in such a violent way that it makes the song sound powerful yet sad at the same time. Out of the first three stages, E1 is the best start to a stage.
E2 also sounds angry. Its the third time Heartaches is played and and it follows from E1 with the aggressive tone of the instruments, especially the transition that sounds like a metal bin being thrown down the stairs. Unlike stage 1 and 2’s version, it has a much faster tempo, which could portray the panic in the patient, knowing he/she only has a limited amount of time left before post- awareness kicks in.
E3 deviates from the aggressive tone of the first 2 songs, almost sounding quite joyful. However, a very small sample is played before it loops back to the start. This shows the patients struggles to recall certain memories, as he/she has to start again to try and recall the full memory, but to no avail.
E4 is the same song as E1 but in a more melancholy tone. Its as if the patient has calmed down but remained sad. He/she still knows that there is no turning back and he/she has accepted his/her fate.
E5 is the first song to sound extremely broken. This is the first notable sign of severe memory loss with jumbled notes that sound like the disk is broken or cracked.
E6 is similar to E5 but less distorted. Its a very upbeat song, similar to A4, B6 and D3 but with missing and repeating notes. Its like the patient is able to recall something, but only the key parts instead of the full thing.
E7 is a very different song compared to the rest of EATEOT. It has a very childlike tone, comparable to the music from an ice cream van. It shows the patients last memories of childhood. The high pitch of the song shows the patient has had a happy childhood which has made memories for life. E7 repeats again in stage 4’s temporary bliss state, showing the joy the patient feels when remembering his/her’s childhood.
E8 seems too good to be true for a stage 3 song. Its joyful Disney like connections make it more of a stage 1 song. Just like E7, it portrays happy childhood memories or even memories of raising a child. However, its heavy crackling and fuzzing creates a sense of fear. It’s as if the patient is aware that this is his/her last few moments of pure joy. I always associate this song in particular with the patient spending time with his/her family before he/she completely forgets that he/she even has a family.
The F section is the last section with “normal” songs. However, every song in the F section has a notable issue that portrays a growth in memory loss.
F1 is the first song without a seamless loop. It has a lengthy build up but then suddenly cuts and starts over. It has a similar concept as E3 but more amplified. The song itself is upbeat, almost like as if the patient is remembering an event like a wedding or award ceremony but doesn’t remember who he/she married or what prize he/she won.
F2 is the most interesting song in my opinion as its the only song that gets progressively worse as it loops. Initially, it sounds echoed with a lone piano playing a melancholy melody. As it loops, the fuzziness takes over and the piano gets more echoed, as if the whole piano is moving further away from where you’re standing. Its sort of like a demonstration of what happens to the patients memories overtime, as they become more hard to recall. Furthermore, the song is stopped at the end and followed with 20 seconds of uninterrupted crackling. I associate this with the last hint of denial the patient has about their condition. He/she is trying his/her best to recall a specific memory but to no avail.
F3 is extremely slowed down to create a hellish tone. The patient is slowing down, taking a good few minutes to recall even one memory.
F4 is the fourth time Heartaches is played. Only this time, it is much more broken. Its the same sample from stage 2’s version of Heartaches but notes are missing and the ones that survived are strained and echoed. The patient is suffering awfully from dementia at this point and it shows through F4.
F5 is Heartaches again but this time… it’s merely a ghost of what it once was. It is a 1 minute taster of the emptiness of stage 6. This is it, this is the beginning of the patient’s slow descent into the thick fog of confusion. Then, it stops for…
…F6. After 10 minutes of chaos, the blissful reverberations of F6 seem like heaven. The last coherent memory before nothingness. The patient speaks to his/her loved ones for the last time. It only gets worse from here.
F7 is just like F4, broken, confusing and scary. Notes are repeated for a good few seconds. If you have listened to an empty bliss beyond this world, this song will seem recognisable and nostalgic. The patient is doing their best to recall key moments from life. As F7 loops, different notes are repeated, reflecting how as time goes on new memories are found but quickly lost.
F8 is the final “normal” song in EATEOT. The 2 minute blissful sixth repetition of Heartaches reflects the patient’s last coherent days before post awareness kicks in. It seems as if F4 and F5 have been mixed together to create a sense of broken memories being echoed until they’re nothing. The last few seconds of F8 complete stages 1-3 with a final echo that fades away. This is the patient’s final night of awareness. The dreadful years beyond this are awaiting.
… then the hell of stage 4 then begins.
If you made it this far, thankyou for reading. I included both pronouns to avoid any conflicts if this comment ever gets recognition lol.
Thanks, this is awesome!
E8 is a stage 1 song repeated as in "The last embers of awareness"
Thank you
@@OldTeaz That was a mistake. Go check out B3 again, its changed to the normal B3
I fell like F6 still fells... Off. Like some off-putting aspect is looming... He/She might still feel unpleasant, rather from a limited time frame or just by some internal element.