I mean, i dont feel lonely, just dead. Like compleatly dead. I don't need interactions with people. Just doesn't mean anything to me. Its like playing a videogame, can't really describe It might be because i had 2 self inducted comas with alcohol and drugs... I feel like i've died before. Now im just waiting till next time im in blank
I'm a junior in college now and have been experiencing this since I was sixteen years old after a night of drinking and smoking with friends. I still have intense feelings of not being fully there, very spacey. I've come to find out my mom, dad, cousins, and my aunts and uncles, deal with something similar. My guess is it runs in the family; having psychological disorders, especially after one of my cousins was diagnosed with schizophrenia last year. I go about my life and I've learned to cope with it after dealing with it for so long. I do second-guess my feelings and emotions, what other people think of me, etc., but I try not to let this thing run my life.
I feel that I am unable to love anyone anymore..it feels like after waking up I am just acting to be a son, a bf, a friend, a brother with different people.. literally just pretending to be myself..it feels like I am employed by me to act like me.
Omg ive literally said this before to myself, it feels like im a character acting out my part to the world im constantly switching faces with different people
I just started seeing therapist and just came across this. This is pretty spot on with the past 10 years of my life man and I’m going to bring this up when I meet with the therapist this week. This is some crazy stuff I didn’t really know others dealt with. I’ve always had this feeling I’m like watching myself just be a part of this life without actually living it, as crazy as that sounds.
It starts at any time but usually at early adolescence or early adulthood. It appears as a defence mechanism against severe anxiety, trauma by switching of reality. You know that you love your family but you sort of know it academically rather than feel it. Relationships that you value deeply suddenly lose their essential quality Those with this condition claimed to see themselves detached from the world or seeing the world as if through a haze or fog. The World appears 2d or flat like a cartoon. Watching themselves from a far or out of body experience feeling detached from their own body parts and an emotional moment. You can't feel someone that you love them because you don't feel it. You're emotionally blunt
I think I have developed this condition over time. After so many anxiety, trauma and emotionally taxing situations, I kind of switched off. I think I'm incapable of loving someone. And even If I do, I can't feel it. Seems far away from me. When I go out, the world, people, and everything that is happening around me feel threatening and uncomfortable. You will always catch me observing things, people, animals, the weather, etc. Despite not feeling able to love, I also feel a very shallow sense of accomplishment, motivation and/or desire. Everything just seems fo far away from me, like a vision that I can only see in my head.
Oh man I know I know it’s just so numbing and so much confusing. But there’s hope man believe me. Christ can give you rest you can see things for what they really are again. You can get relief Just cry your heart out to him. He understands he knows your pain just cry your heart out to him you’ll see the truth believe me just ask for help he knows what’s going on just ask him for relief
I do not have this disorder I have something called schizoid personality disorder since I was young I’m an adult now and the only people who know is my doctor as I never got diagnosed at an earlier age I’m not depressed I’m not lonely I enjoy it to me it would be the best feeling if I could feel it you know
Such ignorance here. Depersonalization is the third most common mental health symptom in the world, right behind depression and anxiety. Forget what you've been told. I'm a working man from a construction background. This isn't some "feminist made up illness", this is a well documented mental disorder. Adam Duritz of the Counting Crows has had it for years. Rapper Vinnie Paz from Jedi Mind Tricks has had it for years. I am friends online with people all the way from Tunisia to Japan that have this. People of all kinds of backgrounds are at risk. This isn't just some "triggered" feminist disorder. Actually read up on something instead of bringing your politics into something. This illness I've been living with for years is finally getting publicity, which means better odds of a cure, which means I might finally get to live a normal life, and the vermin of the internet gotta come out of the woodwork to fuck it up.
Agreed. I think this documentary almost does a disservice to those of us who experience it. Its not about not feeling love, its about a complete lack of self and the world around you.
Out to Lunch & off Box mental age 8 or 9 paranoid schizophrenic. Non drug therapy for schizophrenia: Always challenge the voices particularly when they tell you stuff about "vermin"
Vermin was meant to be a hyperbolic statement. A metaphor. Like a rat? Or a lowly person? Like other than that word choice what's your issue man? To think we got grown ass men out here with nothing better to do than troll strangers on the internet. Smh.
Everyone in this comment section saying you a living with this...holy hell. I had no idea something like this even exists..this is like hell on earth..I am so very sorry and I wish you all to return back to normal asap. Doctors, specialists, scientists where you at??
DP/DR is a blessing in disguise. It's the beginning of the ego not being the in drivers seat all the time anymore. The ego thinks it's dying. You're not. It's actually a very beautiful thing that is happening. You are waking up. Give yourself time to go though this process. The greatest help I found in my process was this: Acceptance. 100% accept at all times what your are feeling. You don't have to engage with it. Just as radio noise in the background. Let go. Let go of all the thoughts you have. Don't take them seriously, no matter how grotesque or annoying they are. They are just thoughts. They don't control you unless you actively want them to. Relax. Don't fight the process. Breathe. Spend time in nature. Curiosity. Be curious and face your fear. Try to find where the actual fear is coming from. You will sooner or later see that the source does not exist, and the fear will dissipate by itself. Hope this helps
I’ve had it since April 2007, just over 11 years. It is pretty miserable but as time has gone on, I have managed to have more and more days where I don’t think about it and distract myself. But last year being the 10th anniversary of my DP onset meant I started thinking about it again and worrying it will never go away. I hope there is a cure someday and people start to take it more seriously.
Eseosa Osagiede wtf does that mean?! I’ve had (and have) this. I, like others found I had nowhere to turn as medical professionals had no idea what it was and worse still blanketly and incorrectly diagnosed it as depression. I tried going to church in the search for relief but it just meant more to worry about as it felt like those in church were speaking another language and I couldn’t understand or access what they were saying or why, ultimately they believe in Christ. Phrases like ‘accept Jesus Christ as your personal saviour’ terrify me. I don’t want the ghost of some dead guy coming into my body and mind! I’ve too much in there already!
I believe there is a form of this where you can love those close to you but still have an overwhelming feeling like you are never really there with them, even if you want to be. You can be sitting right next to them and be a billion miles away.
Finally I understand what happened to me this fall and winter! I WAS FEELING THIS. I’ve never felt so certain, I had depersonalization/derealization disorder. I went through a personal trauma/crisis and after that. For MONTHS I was feeling absolutely detached from the world. I felt as though I was a flying orb going through life and stuff just kept happening to me, without my respons to any of it (because I was detached from myself). When people asked my questions like ”What do YOU think about this Emelie” I answered in my head ”But I am not Emelie or a ”you” or a person at all, why don’t anyone ask the trees outside what they think? I am a part of everything in the world, and I am also nothing.” It felt like I knew something beyond normal peoples comprehension, like this huge secret that life was of no other substance than things happening. A couple of months ago I had a nervous breakdown, where everything just sort of let go. After that I cried and screamed and sobbed and mourned for about a MONTH. Every waking moment where I wasn’t preoccupied or distracted with anything I cried. Like somebody pulled the plug and the water run out. And after that, even though I’m still ashamed whenever I display emotions, I know I have to feel them, I must feel them. Or else in the end of this ”no-feelings-cycle” there’s only emptyness which (in my case) can lead to addiction. I wouldn’t wish DP/DR on my worst enemy. It’s one of the strangest and scariest ”headspaces” I’ve ever experienced.
I suffered from this for less than a year. It felt as if I was a passenger in my own body. I sometimes stared at my hand and asked "who's hand is this"? Words coming from my mouth....it was me but it didnt really feel like me. It became quite frustrating trying to break out of this bubble.
@@michael5089 I had been living in Israel at the time, around 1998. At first I thought I was poisoned. I really thought something at work was getting into my system. When I left that job, it all remained. I thought diet, or environmental factors? I'd walk through the market and it felt like a film set, so sometimes I'd enjoy the ride at first. But it became frustrating...like a bad acid trip. I'd miss being in touch with myself. It felt like that little dude in Men in Black. The little alien guy inside the head just driving the body. At night I'd just lay in bed staring at my hands...touching my face. Just trying to reassure myself that I'm still in control. I'd just stare at my arms and rub them slowly. This is me. Or in the mirror. Then one day it was just gone. About 4 years later my best mate in London described symptoms he was having, same thing. I helped him a lot but he became very angry and argued with me a lot out of frustration. It was also during this time another friend's dad said the word "derealization" for the first time when we spoke about the experience.
I don't know if I have it but recently, I've learnt that I'm incapable of love. When I go out with friends it feels strange like I'm in a different planet surrounded by different species. Sometimes, I have to forced a smile or laughter to connect with people and make them feel safe and calm. I usually look at my friends if they smiling or laughing so I can do the same. Sometimes, what I hear, my brain interprets it different which makes me to isolate myself from civilisation or publicity. I don't like people. It's like my switch turn off. The concept of love is alien to me.
I don't love anyone. The concept of love is alien to me. I feel like we're conditioned by society to follow an order, love, marriage, kids, family and friends, but doesn't come naturally to me.
I'm not diagnosed and I will not diagnose myself, but this perfectly describes what I've been going through for almost a year now. I have a hard time understanding and actually feeling love, it feels like a foreign concept. It never feels artificial or real, every time I try to grasp it. It's just simply not there.
I had this for a month, two years ago. If anyone is experiencing this now, don't be scared by all the stories out there that it lasts *forever*. No idea how someone can function with this e.g. career, relationship, for years and years. You're a blank emotionless automaton. Unable to be happy. Unable to be sad. Unable to love. Unable to fear. Wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
Nothing specific really (though I did resign from my employment at the time to concentrate on my recovery), it just gradually lifted, not instantly, but slowly I started to feel better. It came on me after a period of severe anxiety where I was unable to sleep at all for a week or so apparently it's a defensive mechanism the brain uses to shut off from that intense trauma. The point i really wanted to hit home is that, it did not last long for me in the grand scheme of things and I am sure that is the case for the vast, vast majority of people who ever experience this.
@@antsly i used to have intense inner monolgoue, intense visual mental imagery and feelings. Now i am blank, i have aphantasia and no inner voice. A silent mind. I have 1.5 years like this. I still cant function.
I’ve had it for almost 2 years. Honestly it was the worse feeling ever waking up everyday having panic attacks, feeling like I was in a dream, looking in the mirror and freaking out. I hope everyone that’s going through this recovers. You will and you can. The gym honestly helps and self care. Keep taking care of yourself and eating healthy foods! Keep surrounding yourself with great people❤
Have had this for 1 year and 2 months now. Mental Health services haven't got a clue, but even if they did, there is no current specific treatment. The best strategy I've found is drawing your attention away from the symptoms (I know its obsessive but do your best) and onto something you used to enjoy, EMDR, talk therapy, good nuitrition, exercise, lots of water, and time - lots and lots of time. There are some good youtube channels too. You're not alone and plenty of people have made it through, stay strong!
Reina Swift It's not an independent disorder since it usually comes with other symptoms like visual snow and anxiety. The way to overcome depersonalization and derealization is to get involved with life and stop checking in to see how you feel. I know someone who recovered twice using that, and I almost recovered once. Age regression can be used as a last resort if that doesn't work.
How does age regression work? I think you are right - getting involved in Life is the ONLY cure, maybe helped along with some anti-anxiety/anti-depressant meds, and ... a home health visitor that MAKES you get out of the house! We need Public Health in the US to begin hiring regular trainers to help people get more physical, and more involved in their communities! It could only help. It'd help me leave my home, though I'm not agoraphobic, I have no feelings for anything anymore. Just ... nothing. I need a fire under my buns.
I’ve had this off and on since childhood, after my anxiety started showing its head. It feels like a really good (albeit disturbing in a way) 3rd person video game, where you’re just over your shoulder, but still using your own mind and eyes. Touch doesn’t feel the same either, like the flat emotions as well, for me. I typically have issues when I’m overwhelmed and anxious, and heading towards burnout. It really cripples me, and affects nearly all aspects of my life.
She is describing me exactly! I'm so happy to have it put into content. Im not like this all the time but it goes in & out uncontrollably. Sometimes weeks at a time. The picture of my hands or detached feeling , same flat symptoms. I seem better now that I'm retired but its lonely & scarey.
I feel like this for years and the worst about it is the fact that you know it's only in your head. You know it's not true. This feeling alone is slowly driving you insane. This inner isolation, the feeling of not belonging to this World or just being an observer is torture.
I’ve had Dp and Dr disorder for 9 yrs persistently.. I remember feeling like my thoughts were running constantly. I felt like I was completely invisible! Like the walking dead! It was so bad. Now, I have days where having this is so normal and i don’t really feel so detached. I still don’t completely feel normal!! I just wish one day it would just all go away.
yes, i don't feel love for my family. my parents, pets. They are/were just there helping me. My Life is good at the moment but somehow bad. i feel happy and sad knowing I may never find a Love for someone
ME TOO. It was just like a light switch. I don’t know what happened, it just did. I am in a happy relationship and for some reason I haven’t been feeling any love, and in my past relationships, every one of them. I don’t like people anymore, and it’s not one of those things like “Oh you just haven’t met the one yet.” I haven’t felt anything. I’m confused, I’m not sad or happy or anything I don’t know what’s going on. It’s just blank. The switch was just turned off and now I don’t know how to turn it back on. I feel numb.
I find it unbelievable that doctors in the UK haven't heard of this. I'm from the US and have DP/DR and was in the hospital as well as outpatient for it, and all the doctors, nurses, and therapists I've talked to were familiar with it and said they see it all the time in patients. There were people in the hospital the same time as me who were also having it, or told me they had it in the past. They must be getting really inadequate training over there.
@@8Polkovnikit feels like I’m a robot, worst part is it’s the memory failure and unable to visualize anything anymore, my mind is just blank, but I walk around with no emotions, foggy brain, numb limbs, I hate it…
@@marioncarbonell6047I been having dpdr for almost 2 years and yes I agree with the memory part when you try to remember something it’s like you can visualize it just blank and things you did seem like you did them so long ago
Did you know that marijuana gives room for demons to enter you? What you’re going through is spiritual hence why you find your self outside your body watching yourself from another realm. The bible says in Ephesians 6:12 “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood (humans) but against principalities, powers, rulers of darkness of this world, spiritual wickedness in the heavenly realm" what this scripture is saying is that we have Two realms a physical realm and a spiritual realm. We humans dwell in the Physical realm while demons and angles dwell in spiritual realm. Did you know that Demons can pull you out of your body and leave you stranded in the spirit realm while they possess your physical body in the physical realm? Hence why when your in the spirit realm everything looks different it almost feels like another reality because there’s no time or space in spirit realm. You may see things in 2 dimension. You may even notice that someone else is controlling your physical body!! I want you to understand that it’s not you in control is a demon!! They can will-fully pull you out and place you back in when they want too!! Please I don’t want you you to be afraid I want you to put your trust in Jesus Christ because he can set you free and restore you!!! You must repent from your sins and believe in Gospel of Jesus Christ!!!!!
I have this and I'm only 12 years old. I see all the people in the comments saying how long they've had it... I don't want to have it for that long. I want therapy but I don't have enough money for it. I feel doomed. I'm like a robot; thoughtless and empty. I just live day by day... Someone help me!
This first onset for me when I was 12 as well. I am 28 now and still feel void. It doesn't just cure itself. The good thing for you is the internet now has so much information and resources that weren't available when i was your age. Talk to your guardians first and dont let them just diagnose you with depression. If your guardian isn't available, talk to school counselor, and be honest. Don't be ashamed. If you haven't already, seek a personal relationship with God.
I hope you are feeling better now..this was posted four years ago but I just discovered this disorder even exists just today. :( I feel so bad for anyone experiencing this stuff especially all the kids not even 18 yet and dealing with something so life shattering..breaks my heart.
@@Ddmm123 I am doing better, thank you so much! But i fear i may have episodes of this again in the future because of stress. The one i had when i was 12 lasted 1-2weeks, and the rest were only a mere few hours; i'm incredibly lucky compared to a lot of other people in this comment section. thanks for the concern, and i hope you're doing well 💜
I looked up this video because it’s been happening to me. First time was terrifying and just unsettling. 2nd time wasn’t so bad, best thing you can do is relax and let it pass.
Just sleep sleep sleep and some more sleep and everytime you do that, you're wishing "gosh let this please disappear by the time I wake up" but then it doesn't and then what do you do? GET SOME MORE SLEEP... cause that's the only solution
I have had this most of my life and I'm 54 years old. I don't really believe videos about how people seem to completely get rid of it and have only a few years of it. But everyone is different.
26 now and i’ve had DPD since i was 11. it felt like my soul left my body and left me to observe my life as a bystander… and just never returned. i’m stuck, and it feels completely and utterly lonely. this detachment has created rifts in my relationships and i feel that… nobody can withstand or tolerate me in a relationship. hardly anyone can tolerate my detachment.. it’s really.. difficult.
I'm really sorry to hear that you've been struggling with DPD for so long. I understand how isolating and challenging it can be. It’s important to remember that you’re not alone, and there are ways to manage and improve your situation. One thing that really helped me was finding activities that grounded me and brought me back into my body. For me, weightlifting made a huge difference. It gave me a sense of control and connection that I had been missing. Building and maintaining relationships can be incredibly tough when dealing with DPD, but opening up about your experience to those close to you can help them understand what you’re going through. It’s also okay to seek support from mental health professionals who can offer strategies tailored to your needs. Remember, it’s okay to take small steps and celebrate small victories. You deserve to feel connected and supported. If you ever need someone to talk to or need more advice, feel free to reach out. Stay strong and keep pushing forward. You're not alone in this.
The treatment is the same as for many other mental disorders. Cognitive behavioral therapy / SSRIs. Some studies have shown that Lamotrigine combined with an SSRI can be effective for reducing symptoms. But most doctors and psychiatrists will refuse prescribing Lamotrigine for dpdr (unless you have epilepsy or bipolar).
NO !!! lamotrigin makes it worse and ditto SSRI … I have epilepsy and have had a craniotomy because I had a brain tumour therefore i have to take lamotrigine … unless your a doctor… or better a brain surgeon… / neurologist never ever claim that… and … just read the labels side affects… it’s on both… “brain fog” feeling distant from reality.. and more a like Peace ✌️ from Denmark 🇩🇰
It depends on the individual and how one reacts to certain medications (same with illicit drugs). Most psychiatrists, specialists ect don't know a thing about dissociation, as few are specialized in this. Norway here.
The man is at 5:00 is terrified. It is the fear that paralyses, not the warped perception. For fast progress, just consider you're dead already, make friends with the apparitions, observe and set the rules of the game, and enjoy the show.
I feel very alive, I am constantly aware. However, I have never felt love towards someone. Infatuation, perhaps. Appreciation for my family, certainly. But I don’t have a genuine feeling of happiness towards anyone. Just their approval.
Massive panic attacks from it cos you'll be in it and be like "well im used to it now" then you hit an even harder dissociative spell in the middle of work you didn't know was possible.
I had a very similar experience when I was in college. Scared me half to death when all of a sudden my surroundings flipped almost suddenly like a switch. This was back in 2014 when there was not a lot of videos/accessible resources on the subject. I had a wonderful campus therapist who listened to my symptoms and researched diligently to discover Depersonalization disorder. She told me I just needed to feel the feelings and accept my current state. The disorder can’t hurt me, and I have nothing to fear. It’s just my body protecting me. With regular therapy my awareness returned to baseline in 6 months without any medication. Such a scary experience!
I think other people misunderstood this .this topic is not mainly about love and other stuff like that.i have depersonalization derealization and its like you're physical present but it feels like your also absent it feels like your watching yourself from the inside in your head.i struggle for years yet here am i today i still have this sh*t.
I don’t want to self diagnosed, I’ve been feeling like this for around 5 years?? It feels like I’m in a game and life doesn’t feel whole. I still remember the moment where it started
I was searching for an info about myself. Then i got here, i dont know, but i dont feel love, but i can feel anger occassionally, loneliness, yes, feeling different, but cant say am DP...
Hmmmmmm did you know there’s somthing idk what it is all I know is that when you get mad even a little you go on a rampage and you don’t remember anything you could have both the video gives answer about love and the think I said can be the think about hitting
No DP/DR disorder is a real disorder, read the DSM-5. You can have temporary DP/DR symptoms without having the disorder though, ie through drug use. The symptoms are also common in borderline pd, anxiety disorders, ptsd and others
@@notofthisworld5267 I believe that DPDR is caused by a depletion of dopamine, norepinephrine, serotonin, and acetylcholine. It could also involve NMDA receptor toxicity. Overdosing on psychoactive drugs can deplete these neurotransmitters and cause toxicity to neurotransmitter receptors. Recurring panic attacks can do the same. Treatment should involve letting neurotransmitter receptors repair and supplementation with precursors to these neurotransmitters.
I had this disorder for a whole year from the age of 12 to 13 and it would come back in shorter spans during my mid to late teenage years when I would dwell on my experience with it and try to articulate what it felt like. I had just started full time ballet at 12 and it was a very toxic and stressful environment (I did full time ballet until I was 17). The most horrible part is that I would tell my parents that I "wasn't me" and they would just say "everyone goes through stages like this". I thought I was losing my mind and went into a deep depression during that first year. There were hardly any articles on it at first but once I was made aware of what it was, I was so relieved.
This conditions got my relationship messed up and made me fail academically , but I have sort of worked out the recovery process. The aim is to take your mind off it , but I’ve never got to 100% recovery yet. Just pretend it doesn’t exist , do things you enjoy, you should feel better, but the aim to the cure is maintaining that. If you are gonna worry bout dp and search it up all the time then be prepared to have it for a long time. I can say this cause this emotional numbness I’ve felt my emotions again, I’ve experienced temporary recovery, never been able to eradicate it though
I think I have depersonalization disorder cause sometimes when I am looking at myself in the mirror I get the feeling that who ever I see isn't me. Or any kind of action I make in front of it isn't making me the person I think I should be..is it "it"?
@@user-gw1vi8cg6w No, that's accurate perception. What he reports sounds exactly like a mirror mediation and the insight he had is precisely the one we are trying to evoke. The thing that appears in the mirror is in fact not you. Nothing that appears can be you.
I've had this for two years... began drinking heavily to self-medicate it, now that im 7 months sober its mostly gone, life is livable now, but it still is something i deal with on a regular basis...
This was what i wanted to hear because i’m having dp/dr and not feeling love for my bf and i start to feel very bad about this because before the phase i was very in love with him and when anxiety starts i stop feelig for him and for my family👍
Can this occur after psychedelic drug use? Like People who like and want the seperation of mind and body and actually continue to live in their brain/ mental world rather than in reality?
OMG! Thank you so much for this video. I’ve been experiencing all these symptoms since I was in prep school and now I’m a grown man and i never knew how to explain it so I just never brought it up.
I've been suffering from this for the last four years. It feels boring, you'll only realize you are you, you exist when you're taking a shower or lying on your bed because that's the only time you can think deeply. You'll always ask yourself, "did I really do all of that?" Because everything you experience that day felt like a dream, it feels like you just watched someone else's life. Everything is boring, you rarely get nervous, and even if you are nervous and have done something wrong, you don't really feel the consequences of your actions. It was a very complicated experience. You don't feel impatient, even if you wait for someone for hours, time moves fast anyway.
I have this !! It came on out of nowhere whilst at work over 8 months ago. Since then I've been off work ever since,going to lose my job over it . It's sooo bad ,it's petrifying. I've run out of shops and also half way through a haircut at a hairdressers. We need help !! We are being given SSRI but that's not the issue we're having.
@@michael5089 hi mate, I literally had to do resign from my job yesterday, had a chat with the director and they advised me to and said they will take me back if I get better. It's awful isn't it, GP's don't have a clue, I have requested a neurologist as something doesn't seem right at all, I'm at the stage where I'm not leaving the house. I have the odd good day though where I think I'm getting better but then I have an episode then I go backwards.
@@Scotchegg2869 Hi Jimmy I'm pretty bad at moment. Haven't actually left house since end of October. Also have anxiety, health anxiety and depression. So much I could say. But we could possibly stay in touch on here.💜🫂🙏
at first, when you were at work, you probably had headphones or concentrated to your phone or pc (if you detail that time, we can figure out if cause is something else but will be similar). that makes body unprepared to any possible threat from outside. so for that reason body opened freeze protection, for any possible outside threat. and after that, you realized the symptoms and saw them as a threat. for that reason protection continued. and after that, you continued to see them as a threat, so protection continued. note: these are my views and may not be true.
@@Scotchegg2869 Hi Jimmy just thought I'd see how you are again? I'm pretty bad and like you I haven't actually left the house now for 4 months! Just sort of surviving.💜💜🫂👍
I can't Express love or feel it it feels like I'm in a deep water trying to reach out to get out but i can't and it feels lonely watching other being in love is great but i will never have that it's like watch a movie
When these symptoms appear for me they happen in episodes when I’m especially anxious or worried. The longest I’ve gone with it was 5 days. I can’t even imagine having this 24/7 it already felt like a living hell. I went to a doctor and they had no idea I was denied any real kind of help and they just said to rest and eat more.
I feel this. I get deja vu of myself dying all the time, I can’t form deep emotional Relationships. Everything in my life feels pointless, I feel like nothing
Hey dude. I just want to say it takes courage to be honest about how you’re feeling. I don’t know you personally but you are another human being. I don’t know anything about your life and what you’ve experienced but I can suggest a couple of things. Right now I’ve gone through an emotionally numb stage where I can’t personally feel love but this isn’t a bad thing. I have this scene playing in my head I call the psychotic chaos. It’s just a bunch of negative events with pictures one after another with the voices to them and they get louder and then my face all screamed up with a gun to my head and bang. all it is is yourself talking to yourself about yourself. There are dangers in this world but it can be safe if you make it safe by being the best person you can be. Study, read, journal, eat healthy foods, exercise, learn some form of self defence, I recommend jujitsu and your relationships with friends, family and yourself just becomes one great big lesson. You look back and you learn a lot what you was and you compare to who you are now, spiritually, emotionally, psychologically and physically. Also accept the fact you’re emotionally numb. Just don’t care for a short while and allow yourself naturally to feel again. Be honest with people because you don’t want to waste their time or yours if you’re thinking about committing to a friendship. Just commit to yourself, think of number 1 and get your head down and do all the things you know you should do and avoid the things you know you shouldn’t do. Drugs, alcohol, any other bad habits you do, STOP. Again not saying you do any of these and I’m not saying there aren’t any benefits to drugs or alcohol. What I am saying is right now are those bad habits pushing you forward or holding you down. screenshot this comment and write it down. Definitely start reading and journaling though! My life transformed 👏🏼
This Is a living nightmare 8 years going on for me…. I have C-PTSD as well . Wish i died of the brain tumour i had craniotomi for instead off living my life like this…. Love ❤️ and peace ☮️ all from Denmark 🇩🇰
same like i never miss my mom and i dont love her ive been like this for years some times my mom say do you love me and i say yes when im telling a lie i think she think i dont love her
am suffering right here it started at the age of 16 now am 19 still can't feel a thing , it's just disgusting and makes me depressed and self hate keeps on growing day after another
In Buddhism "depersonalization" and love go hand in hand. They're two aspects of wisdom that reinforce each other. I'm not sure how Western psychology fits together with people spending a lot of time and effort trying to stabilize "depersonalization".
For me it’s not that I can’t feel love towards someone but I do feel like everything is fake. Even peoples reactions towards me. My family, friends, strangers all feel like they aren’t really real. I don’t recognize the person in the mirror and I feel trapped in the shell we call a body. Looking in the mirror in my own eyes scares the hell out of me some days. I have to basically meditate to bring myself back to baseline after looking in my own eyes because I’m inside a person I don’t know.
I had this happen to me today. It was like my skin felt numb, the ceiling fan felt choppier than usual with a lag, steps were weird, my head felt fuzzy and I just had this sense that I'd wake up any second and it all just be a bad dream.
I would never wish this disorder on my worst enemy. It's the worst feeling and leaves you feeling lonely and numb.
I mean, i dont feel lonely, just dead. Like compleatly dead. I don't need interactions with people. Just doesn't mean anything to me. Its like playing a videogame, can't really describe
It might be because i had 2 self inducted comas with alcohol and drugs... I feel like i've died before. Now im just waiting till next time im in blank
What I do is just date people to make them happy. It doesnt bother me much.
I'm a junior in college now and have been experiencing this since I was sixteen years old after a night of drinking and smoking with friends. I still have intense feelings of not being fully there, very spacey. I've come to find out my mom, dad, cousins, and my aunts and uncles, deal with something similar. My guess is it runs in the family; having psychological disorders, especially after one of my cousins was diagnosed with schizophrenia last year.
I go about my life and I've learned to cope with it after dealing with it for so long. I do second-guess my feelings and emotions, what other people think of me, etc., but I try not to let this thing run my life.
I only had a one crush over my home life and it only lasted 1 week then I didn’t feel anything tords here and ever since haven’t feel that thing
@@blackheart6162 -I feel exactly the same. It’s horrible. Has it changed at all for you?
Sometimes i get so scared of myself. I feel like i can never love anyone wholeheartedly, not even my parents or my friends or myself.
That's not necessarily Dp
i do feel the same. i feel bad feeling like i dont really love my parents neither my friends or myself..
Same
Same with me.I try to help people only cause it’s the right thing to do and not if I’m feeling about it
If you guys wanna overcome dp I recommend this channel th-cam.com/channels/MouQO5FI6eXdoU76l1td0A.html
I feel that I am unable to love anyone anymore..it feels like after waking up I am just acting to be a son, a bf, a friend, a brother with different people.. literally just pretending to be myself..it feels like I am employed by me to act like me.
same
Omg ive literally said this before to myself, it feels like im a character acting out my part to the world im constantly switching faces with different people
when you have a spiritual awakening it does strip parts of your ego away
cuasing you to feel totally diffrent around people
I just started seeing therapist and just came across this. This is pretty spot on with the past 10 years of my life man and I’m going to bring this up when I meet with the therapist this week. This is some crazy stuff I didn’t really know others dealt with. I’ve always had this feeling I’m like watching myself just be a part of this life without actually living it, as crazy as that sounds.
waltuh
The music/sound in this video is horrendous and distracting.
it’s a compositional disorder
it was giving me so much anxiety 😭😭
lmao 💀
😂😂😂😂 seriously
I clicked on this because I was trying to figure out why I can't feel love towards another person
leoapold rakowski. Same
Same
Same
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Me too
It starts at any time but usually at early adolescence or early adulthood. It appears as a defence mechanism against severe anxiety, trauma by switching of reality. You know that you love your family but you sort of know it academically rather than feel it.
Relationships that you value deeply suddenly lose their essential quality
Those with this condition claimed to see themselves detached from the world or seeing the world as if through a haze or fog. The World appears 2d or flat like a cartoon. Watching themselves from a far or out of body experience feeling detached from their own body parts and an emotional moment. You can't feel someone that you love them because you don't feel it. You're emotionally blunt
I've been going through it. It's very strange. It's like I see everything differently. It feels like my whole reality has shifted
@@jordanalexie7407for how long ? Are you recovered
ive had this for 15 years
Yeh
I think I have developed this condition over time. After so many anxiety, trauma and emotionally taxing situations, I kind of switched off. I think I'm incapable of loving someone. And even If I do, I can't feel it. Seems far away from me. When I go out, the world, people, and everything that is happening around me feel threatening and uncomfortable. You will always catch me observing things, people, animals, the weather, etc. Despite not feeling able to love, I also feel a very shallow sense of accomplishment, motivation and/or desire. Everything just seems fo far away from me, like a vision that I can only see in my head.
I feel like im in a dream and every second im gonna wakeup but i never wakeup
Try grounding 🙏 cold showers and 5-4-3-2-1 method worked for me ❤❤
Anyone ever get scared about relationships because not sure whether your feelings are correct and feels artificial?
Yes, a lot, actually
Don’t know what a relationship is
Yes, I am not in a relationship because I’m afraid of staying with someone that I don’t actually love
So much ignorance in the comments, you don't know the pain until you experience it. 2 years of DP for me and counting.
Thomas Layland hey cheer up u got a PlayStation if so give me ur gamer tag
Oh man I know I know it’s just so numbing and so much confusing. But there’s hope man believe me. Christ can give you rest you can see things for what they really are again. You can get relief Just cry your heart out to him. He understands he knows your pain just cry your heart out to him you’ll see the truth believe me just ask for help he knows what’s going on just ask him for relief
What's it like?
I do not have this disorder I have something called schizoid personality disorder since I was young I’m an adult now and the only people who know is my doctor as I never got diagnosed at an earlier age I’m not depressed I’m not lonely I enjoy it to me it would be the best feeling if I could feel it you know
Hi, I've also had DDD and am making a podcast about the condition. Would you be interested in taking part please?
i cant feel love for anyone anymore. but like..i know who i love. i just don’t feel it.
same
me too
Such ignorance here. Depersonalization is the third most common mental health symptom in the world, right behind depression and anxiety.
Forget what you've been told. I'm a working man from a construction background. This isn't some "feminist made up illness", this is a well documented mental disorder. Adam Duritz of the Counting Crows has had it for years. Rapper Vinnie Paz from Jedi Mind Tricks has had it for years. I am friends online with people all the way from Tunisia to Japan that have this. People of all kinds of backgrounds are at risk. This isn't just some "triggered" feminist disorder. Actually read up on something instead of bringing your politics into something. This illness I've been living with for years is finally getting publicity, which means better odds of a cure, which means I might finally get to live a normal life, and the vermin of the internet gotta come out of the woodwork to fuck it up.
Agreed. I think this documentary almost does a disservice to those of us who experience it. Its not about not feeling love, its about a complete lack of self and the world around you.
Lunch Box 89 sounds like you've got paranoia not depersonalisation "vermin" are going to come out of the Internet and into your abode lol
"My name is Phil Dobson and I don't understand hyperbole."
Out to Lunch & off Box mental age 8 or 9 paranoid schizophrenic. Non drug therapy for schizophrenia: Always challenge the voices particularly when they tell you stuff about "vermin"
Vermin was meant to be a hyperbolic statement. A metaphor. Like a rat? Or a lowly person? Like other than that word choice what's your issue man? To think we got grown ass men out here with nothing better to do than troll strangers on the internet. Smh.
Everyone in this comment section saying you a living with this...holy hell. I had no idea something like this even exists..this is like hell on earth..I am so very sorry and I wish you all to return back to normal asap. Doctors, specialists, scientists where you at??
I always feel like I am no longer human. I am just existing doing role-playing in real life.
Dont feel alone
DP/DR is a blessing in disguise. It's the beginning of the ego not being the in drivers seat all the time anymore. The ego thinks it's dying. You're not. It's actually a very beautiful thing that is happening. You are waking up. Give yourself time to go though this process. The greatest help I found in my process was this:
Acceptance. 100% accept at all times what your are feeling. You don't have to engage with it. Just as radio noise in the background.
Let go. Let go of all the thoughts you have. Don't take them seriously, no matter how grotesque or annoying they are. They are just thoughts. They don't control you unless you actively want them to.
Relax. Don't fight the process. Breathe. Spend time in nature.
Curiosity. Be curious and face your fear. Try to find where the actual fear is coming from. You will sooner or later see that the source does not exist, and the fear will dissipate by itself.
Hope this helps
life is hell, you can’t feel anything, I want to feel something so badly
You obviously don't have this disorder. It's not a nice feeling at all.
Stupid take..
Thank you so much for writing this here.
@@samuhnellacan you explain it I have anxiety and someone told me to get rid of it before I develop depersonalization or derealization disorder
This is very real, and it is hell. I've had depersonalization disorder since 2004
Gregory I feel you I have had it for 20 years
try floatation tank or sensory deprivation
it really help me to connect with my body
I’ve had it since April 2007, just over 11 years. It is pretty miserable but as time has gone on, I have managed to have more and more days where I don’t think about it and distract myself. But last year being the 10th anniversary of my DP onset meant I started thinking about it again and worrying it will never go away. I hope there is a cure someday and people start to take it more seriously.
helen4963 There is a cure and that’s Jesus Christ because what your going through is not mental it’s spiritual
Eseosa Osagiede wtf does that mean?! I’ve had (and have) this. I, like others found I had nowhere to turn as medical professionals had no idea what it was and worse still blanketly and incorrectly diagnosed it as depression.
I tried going to church in the search for relief but it just meant more to worry about as it felt like those in church were speaking another language and I couldn’t understand or access what they were saying or why, ultimately they believe in Christ.
Phrases like ‘accept Jesus Christ as your personal saviour’ terrify me. I don’t want the ghost of some dead guy coming into my body and mind! I’ve too much in there already!
Waking up and you can just end it all, cause nothing feels real, nothing. It sounds so simple but you have no idea how scary and empty it feels
@@8Polkovnikmate litetally all yge time 😢😢😢 its the weirdest
I believe there is a form of this where you can love those close to you but still have an overwhelming feeling like you are never really there with them, even if you want to be. You can be sitting right next to them and be a billion miles away.
I don’t want to be one of those people that self-diagnose them selfs but I relate to everything in this video 😐
Same innit
Finally I understand what happened to me this fall and winter! I WAS FEELING THIS. I’ve never felt so certain, I had depersonalization/derealization disorder. I went through a personal trauma/crisis and after that. For MONTHS I was feeling absolutely detached from the world. I felt as though I was a flying orb going through life and stuff just kept happening to me, without my respons to any of it (because I was detached from myself). When people asked my questions like ”What do YOU think about this Emelie” I answered in my head ”But I am not Emelie or a ”you” or a person at all, why don’t anyone ask the trees outside what they think? I am a part of everything in the world, and I am also nothing.” It felt like I knew something beyond normal peoples comprehension, like this huge secret that life was of no other substance than things happening.
A couple of months ago I had a nervous breakdown, where everything just sort of let go. After that I cried and screamed and sobbed and mourned for about a MONTH. Every waking moment where I wasn’t preoccupied or distracted with anything I cried. Like somebody pulled the plug and the water run out. And after that, even though I’m still ashamed whenever I display emotions, I know I have to feel them, I must feel them. Or else in the end of this ”no-feelings-cycle” there’s only emptyness which (in my case) can lead to addiction.
I wouldn’t wish DP/DR on my worst enemy. It’s one of the strangest and scariest ”headspaces” I’ve ever experienced.
😢so that's why I feel weird when someone calls my name, I don't even know who are they calling.
@@jeonkookie2774yeah I feel the same, it's the scariest feeling. hate it so much
Thank you for this. Also, who the hell said we can’t feel love ..!?
I suffered from this for less than a year. It felt as if I was a passenger in my own body. I sometimes stared at my hand and asked "who's hand is this"? Words coming from my mouth....it was me but it didnt really feel like me. It became quite frustrating trying to break out of this bubble.
How did you deal with it?
@@michael5089 I had been living in Israel at the time, around 1998. At first I thought I was poisoned. I really thought something at work was getting into my system. When I left that job, it all remained. I thought diet, or environmental factors? I'd walk through the market and it felt like a film set, so sometimes I'd enjoy the ride at first. But it became frustrating...like a bad acid trip. I'd miss being in touch with myself. It felt like that little dude in Men in Black. The little alien guy inside the head just driving the body. At night I'd just lay in bed staring at my hands...touching my face. Just trying to reassure myself that I'm still in control. I'd just stare at my arms and rub them slowly. This is me. Or in the mirror. Then one day it was just gone. About 4 years later my best mate in London described symptoms he was having, same thing. I helped him a lot but he became very angry and argued with me a lot out of frustration. It was also during this time another friend's dad said the word "derealization" for the first time when we spoke about the experience.
I don't know if I have it but recently, I've learnt that I'm incapable of love. When I go out with friends it feels strange like I'm in a different planet surrounded by different species. Sometimes, I have to forced a smile or laughter to connect with people and make them feel safe and calm. I usually look at my friends if they smiling or laughing so I can do the same. Sometimes, what I hear, my brain interprets it different which makes me to isolate myself from civilisation or publicity.
I don't like people. It's like my switch turn off. The concept of love is alien to me.
Amazing how she describes it. Very accurate
I don't love anyone. The concept of love is alien to me. I feel like we're conditioned by society to follow an order, love, marriage, kids, family and friends, but doesn't come naturally to me.
Same.
Literally
I feel like im in a dream constantly, i cant feel love and im constantly feel lonely and i now know what i have which makes me feel better.
Hey how is ur dpdr now ?
I'm not diagnosed and I will not diagnose myself, but this perfectly describes what I've been going through for almost a year now. I have a hard time understanding and actually feeling love, it feels like a foreign concept. It never feels artificial or real, every time I try to grasp it. It's just simply not there.
I HAVE THIS IM SO HAPPY ITS ON BBC
Hi, I've also had DDD and am making a podcast about the condition. Would you be interested in taking part please?
I had this for a month, two years ago. If anyone is experiencing this now, don't be scared by all the stories out there that it lasts *forever*. No idea how someone can function with this e.g. career, relationship, for years and years. You're a blank emotionless automaton. Unable to be happy. Unable to be sad. Unable to love. Unable to fear. Wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
How did you recover ?
Nothing specific really (though I did resign from my employment at the time to concentrate on my recovery), it just gradually lifted, not instantly, but slowly I started to feel better. It came on me after a period of severe anxiety where I was unable to sleep at all for a week or so apparently it's a defensive mechanism the brain uses to shut off from that intense trauma.
The point i really wanted to hit home is that, it did not last long for me in the grand scheme of things and I am sure that is the case for the vast, vast majority of people who ever experience this.
@@antsly i used to have intense inner monolgoue, intense visual mental imagery and feelings. Now i am blank, i have aphantasia and no inner voice. A silent mind. I have 1.5 years like this. I still cant function.
@@antsly i lost my university bcs of this, u cant do anything. Never i would have thought that the inner voice would someday..just.. Stop.
@@antsly how old did u get it
I’ve had it for almost 2 years. Honestly it was the worse feeling ever waking up everyday having panic attacks, feeling like I was in a dream, looking in the mirror and freaking out. I hope everyone that’s going through this recovers. You will and you can. The gym honestly helps and self care. Keep taking care of yourself and eating healthy foods! Keep surrounding yourself with great people❤
You are not alone.
Can you tell me how to get out of it??
Meditation, therapy and doing something that terrorfies you helps.
Have had this for 1 year and 2 months now. Mental Health services haven't got a clue, but even if they did, there is no current specific treatment. The best strategy I've found is drawing your attention away from the symptoms (I know its obsessive but do your best) and onto something you used to enjoy, EMDR, talk therapy, good nuitrition, exercise, lots of water, and time - lots and lots of time. There are some good youtube channels too. You're not alone and plenty of people have made it through, stay strong!
Hi, I've also had DDD and am making a podcast about the condition. Would you be interested in taking part please?
I have the same complication with feeling love and having moments where I always have out of body and out of world experience
sleep deprivation and lots of caffeine can cause similar.
Correct as can trauma, or drugs, thats likely to cause an episode though which goes away. The Disorder is when it is constant 24/7
Reina Swift It's not an independent disorder since it usually comes with other symptoms like visual snow and anxiety. The way to overcome depersonalization and derealization is to get involved with life and stop checking in to see how you feel. I know someone who recovered twice using that, and I almost recovered once. Age regression can be used as a last resort if that doesn't work.
How does age regression work? I think you are right - getting involved in Life is the ONLY cure, maybe helped along with some anti-anxiety/anti-depressant meds, and ... a home health visitor that MAKES you get out of the house! We need Public Health in the US to begin hiring regular trainers to help people get more physical, and more involved in their communities! It could only help. It'd help me leave my home, though I'm not agoraphobic, I have no feelings for anything anymore. Just ... nothing. I need a fire under my buns.
I’ve had this off and on since childhood, after my anxiety started showing its head. It feels like a really good (albeit disturbing in a way) 3rd person video game, where you’re just over your shoulder, but still using your own mind and eyes. Touch doesn’t feel the same either, like the flat emotions as well, for me.
I typically have issues when I’m overwhelmed and anxious, and heading towards burnout. It really cripples me, and affects nearly all aspects of my life.
She is describing me exactly!
I'm so happy to have it put into content.
Im not like this all the time but it goes in & out uncontrollably. Sometimes weeks at a time. The picture of my hands or detached feeling , same flat symptoms.
I seem better now that I'm retired but its lonely & scarey.
i think Love and kindness comprehension are key to help people to heal.
This explains why I can never feel myself missing someone. I can only miss them if they have passed on.
I get over a crush,suddenly everything change.I can't love anyone.
That’s not a bad thing. Think of it as your love machine taking a break from giving out love. You’ll know when to go back to it!
Same
I feel like this for years and the worst about it is the fact that you know it's only in your head. You know it's not true. This feeling alone is slowly driving you insane. This inner isolation, the feeling of not belonging to this World or just being an observer is torture.
I’ve had Dp and Dr disorder for 9 yrs persistently.. I remember feeling like my thoughts were running constantly. I felt like I was completely invisible! Like the walking dead! It was so bad. Now, I have days where having this is so normal and i don’t really feel so detached. I still don’t completely feel normal!! I just wish one day it would just all go away.
Hi, I've also had DDD and am making a podcast about the condition. Would you be interested in taking part please?
How do you over something like this?
Come
This is me, i dont feel anything towards anybody even to my family..
yes, i don't feel love for my family. my parents, pets. They are/were just there helping me. My Life is good at the moment but somehow bad. i feel happy and sad knowing I may never find a Love for someone
@@RostockerBursch same
When the beginning has such a banging start, you can't stop yourself from focusing on something more upbeat
After finding out about this, this is the most I’ve ever felt seen..
Hearts out to anyone experiencing this. Worst stretch of my life, you truly don’t know how blessed you are till you experience a sense of No being
Thank you for talking about it on tv
I had this for almost 2 years. I lost my job, my house, everything.
I can’t feel love and happiness and sadness
It SUDDENLY HAPPEND SOMEHOW
Nah me too ..im 19 never date..
angry but i cant ,im sad but i cant ,even i cant fell in love ..why?🤔i want to fell in love😢
ME TOO. It was just like a light switch. I don’t know what happened, it just did. I am in a happy relationship and for some reason I haven’t been feeling any love, and in my past relationships, every one of them. I don’t like people anymore, and it’s not one of those things like “Oh you just haven’t met the one yet.” I haven’t felt anything. I’m confused, I’m not sad or happy or anything I don’t know what’s going on. It’s just blank. The switch was just turned off and now I don’t know how to turn it back on. I feel numb.
me too
@@sofirific227 yup my addiction did this to me
I find it unbelievable that doctors in the UK haven't heard of this. I'm from the US and have DP/DR and was in the hospital as well as outpatient for it, and all the doctors, nurses, and therapists I've talked to were familiar with it and said they see it all the time in patients. There were people in the hospital the same time as me who were also having it, or told me they had it in the past. They must be getting really inadequate training over there.
@@8Polkovnikit feels like I’m a robot, worst part is it’s the memory failure and unable to visualize anything anymore, my mind is just blank, but I walk around with no emotions, foggy brain, numb limbs, I hate it…
@@marioncarbonell6047I been having dpdr for almost 2 years and yes I agree with the memory part when you try to remember something it’s like you can visualize it just blank and things you did seem like you did them so long ago
@@marioncarbonell6047do you feel fear?
I experience this due to intensive psychopathic abuse. Extreme stress.
This happened to me after suffering a panic attack from being high on marijuana
Me too
Did you know that marijuana gives room for demons to enter you? What you’re going through is spiritual hence why you find your self outside your body watching yourself from another realm. The bible says in Ephesians 6:12 “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood (humans) but against principalities, powers, rulers of darkness of this world, spiritual wickedness in the heavenly realm" what this scripture is saying is that we have Two realms a physical realm and a spiritual realm. We humans dwell in the Physical realm while demons and angles dwell in spiritual realm. Did you know that Demons can pull you out of your body and leave you stranded in the spirit realm while they possess your physical body in the physical realm? Hence why when your in the spirit realm everything looks different it almost feels like another reality because there’s no time or space in spirit realm. You may see things in 2 dimension. You may even notice that someone else is controlling your physical body!! I want you to understand that it’s not you in control is a demon!! They can will-fully pull you out and place you back in when they want too!! Please I don’t want you you to be afraid I want you to put your trust in Jesus Christ because he can set you free and restore you!!! You must repent from your sins and believe in Gospel of Jesus Christ!!!!!
Same. I can't smoke weed or ill feel so fucked ill be scared. And then Ill get depersonalization, panic attacks and anxiety long term
@@Kingdomchild_5367 u re crazy
What does it feel like to pass out or black out never had happened to me
Is a way a lot of people’s mind handle emotional trauma 😔
I have this and I'm only 12 years old. I see all the people in the comments saying how long they've had it... I don't want to have it for that long. I want therapy but I don't have enough money for it. I feel doomed. I'm like a robot; thoughtless and empty. I just live day by day... Someone help me!
Pammie me too I’m 12 and I don’t feel emotions and have dpdr
This first onset for me when I was 12 as well. I am 28 now and still feel void. It doesn't just cure itself. The good thing for you is the internet now has so much information and resources that weren't available when i was your age. Talk to your guardians first and dont let them just diagnose you with depression. If your guardian isn't available, talk to school counselor, and be honest. Don't be ashamed. If you haven't already, seek a personal relationship with God.
I hope you are feeling better now..this was posted four years ago but I just discovered this disorder even exists just today. :( I feel so bad for anyone experiencing this stuff especially all the kids not even 18 yet and dealing with something so life shattering..breaks my heart.
@@Ddmm123 I am doing better, thank you so much! But i fear i may have episodes of this again in the future because of stress. The one i had when i was 12 lasted 1-2weeks, and the rest were only a mere few hours; i'm incredibly lucky compared to a lot of other people in this comment section. thanks for the concern, and i hope you're doing well 💜
@@parmelar ♡
I looked up this video because it’s been happening to me. First time was terrifying and just unsettling. 2nd time wasn’t so bad, best thing you can do is relax and let it pass.
Just sleep sleep sleep and some more sleep and everytime you do that, you're wishing "gosh let this please disappear by the time I wake up" but then it doesn't and then what do you do?
GET SOME MORE SLEEP... cause that's the only solution
Same you just feel like a passenger and you question reality or if you’re in the matrix
my docter diagnozed me depression that cause depersonalization, but i think depersonalization makes me feel depression
My mom was recently diagnosed with depression and she suffers from depersonalization. It could be both simultaneously.
depression has the same symptoms as dp its a living hell
I got this from 10 mg thc. I took 2 years to recover. I wish everyone the best. It was horrible.
how did you recover?
I have had this most of my life and I'm 54 years old. I don't really believe videos about how people seem to completely get rid of it and have only a few years of it. But everyone is different.
26 now and i’ve had DPD since i was 11. it felt like my soul left my body and left me to observe my life as a bystander… and just never returned. i’m stuck, and it feels completely and utterly lonely. this detachment has created rifts in my relationships and i feel that… nobody can withstand or tolerate me in a relationship. hardly anyone can tolerate my detachment.. it’s really.. difficult.
I'm really sorry to hear that you've been struggling with DPD for so long. I understand how isolating and challenging it can be. It’s important to remember that you’re not alone, and there are ways to manage and improve your situation.
One thing that really helped me was finding activities that grounded me and brought me back into my body. For me, weightlifting made a huge difference. It gave me a sense of control and connection that I had been missing.
Building and maintaining relationships can be incredibly tough when dealing with DPD, but opening up about your experience to those close to you can help them understand what you’re going through. It’s also okay to seek support from mental health professionals who can offer strategies tailored to your needs.
Remember, it’s okay to take small steps and celebrate small victories. You deserve to feel connected and supported. If you ever need someone to talk to or need more advice, feel free to reach out.
Stay strong and keep pushing forward. You're not alone in this.
The treatment is the same as for many other mental disorders. Cognitive behavioral therapy / SSRIs. Some studies have shown that Lamotrigine combined with an SSRI can be effective for reducing symptoms. But most doctors and psychiatrists will refuse prescribing Lamotrigine for dpdr (unless you have epilepsy or bipolar).
NO !!! lamotrigin makes it worse and ditto SSRI … I have epilepsy and have had a craniotomy because I had a brain tumour therefore i have to take lamotrigine … unless your a doctor… or better a brain surgeon… / neurologist never ever claim that… and … just read the labels side affects… it’s on both… “brain fog” feeling distant from reality.. and more a like
Peace ✌️ from Denmark 🇩🇰
It depends on the individual and how one reacts to certain medications (same with illicit drugs). Most psychiatrists, specialists ect don't know a thing about dissociation, as few are specialized in this. Norway here.
In my forties now and have this feeling, afraid to go out sometimes, it's really distressing.
How loud do you want the music?
YESSSS
The man is at 5:00 is terrified. It is the fear that paralyses, not the warped perception. For fast progress, just consider you're dead already, make friends with the apparitions, observe and set the rules of the game, and enjoy the show.
I feel very alive, I am constantly aware. However, I have never felt love towards someone. Infatuation, perhaps. Appreciation for my family, certainly. But I don’t have a genuine feeling of happiness towards anyone. Just their approval.
Massive panic attacks from it cos you'll be in it and be like "well im used to it now" then you hit an even harder dissociative spell in the middle of work you didn't know was possible.
I had a very similar experience when I was in college. Scared me half to death when all of a sudden my surroundings flipped almost suddenly like a switch. This was back in 2014 when there was not a lot of videos/accessible resources on the subject. I had a wonderful campus therapist who listened to my symptoms and researched diligently to discover Depersonalization disorder. She told me I just needed to feel the feelings and accept my current state. The disorder can’t hurt me, and I have nothing to fear. It’s just my body protecting me. With regular therapy my awareness returned to baseline in 6 months without any medication. Such a scary experience!
I think other people misunderstood this .this topic is not mainly about love and other stuff like that.i have depersonalization derealization and its like you're physical present but it feels like your also absent it feels like your watching yourself from the inside in your head.i struggle for years yet here am i today i still have this sh*t.
I can't connect to anybody
Hate that feeling of the split between me and everything and everyone I see myself as a joke or fool it becomes hate towards myself.
I feel I wasted my life on something fake sold to me long long ago
I don’t want to self diagnosed, I’ve been feeling like this for around 5 years?? It feels like I’m in a game and life doesn’t feel whole. I still remember the moment where it started
Action needs to be taken as soon as possible
I was searching for an info about myself. Then i got here, i dont know, but i dont feel love, but i can feel anger occassionally, loneliness, yes, feeling different, but cant say am DP...
God loves you😊
Hmmmmmm did you know there’s somthing idk what it is all I know is that when you get mad even a little you go on a rampage and you don’t remember anything you could have both the video gives answer about love and the think I said can be the think about hitting
Everyone is treating Depersonalization like some independent condition, which it isn’t. Depersonalization is a symptom of anxiety.
it can be a symptom of anxiety and/or depression, but it can also be a chronic illness. they're talking more about the illness than the symptom.
No DP/DR disorder is a real disorder, read the DSM-5. You can have temporary DP/DR symptoms without having the disorder though, ie through drug use. The symptoms are also common in borderline pd, anxiety disorders, ptsd and others
Anxiety
Stress
Drug use
Drug withdrawal
It's a symptom yet also a disorder.
Stress hormones fire up, and the brain is jarred out of equilibrium.
@@notofthisworld5267 I believe that DPDR is caused by a depletion of dopamine, norepinephrine, serotonin, and acetylcholine. It could also involve NMDA receptor toxicity. Overdosing on psychoactive drugs can deplete these neurotransmitters and cause toxicity to neurotransmitter receptors. Recurring panic attacks can do the same.
Treatment should involve letting neurotransmitter receptors repair and supplementation with precursors to these neurotransmitters.
I had this disorder for a whole year from the age of 12 to 13 and it would come back in shorter spans during my mid to late teenage years when I would dwell on my experience with it and try to articulate what it felt like. I had just started full time ballet at 12 and it was a very toxic and stressful environment (I did full time ballet until I was 17). The most horrible part is that I would tell my parents that I "wasn't me" and they would just say "everyone goes through stages like this". I thought I was losing my mind and went into a deep depression during that first year. There were hardly any articles on it at first but once I was made aware of what it was, I was so relieved.
This conditions got my relationship messed up and made me fail academically , but I have sort of worked out the recovery process. The aim is to take your mind off it , but I’ve never got to 100% recovery yet. Just pretend it doesn’t exist , do things you enjoy, you should feel better, but the aim to the cure is maintaining that. If you are gonna worry bout dp and search it up all the time then be prepared to have it for a long time. I can say this cause this emotional numbness I’ve felt my emotions again, I’ve experienced temporary recovery, never been able to eradicate it though
I think I have this. I’ve struggled with it for years and I’m trying to reach out but I’m stuggling to
I think I have depersonalization disorder cause sometimes when I am looking at myself in the mirror I get the feeling that who ever I see isn't me. Or any kind of action I make in front of it isn't making me the person I think I should be..is it "it"?
That sounds like delusions
@@user-gw1vi8cg6w not a delusion. fuck you.
@@user-gw1vi8cg6w im 2 years late but ur wrong L
same for me but i have depression its hell
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No, that's accurate perception.
What he reports sounds exactly like a mirror mediation and the insight he had is precisely the one we are trying to evoke.
The thing that appears in the mirror is in fact not you. Nothing that appears can be you.
I've had this for two years... began drinking heavily to self-medicate it, now that im 7 months sober its mostly gone, life is livable now, but it still is something i deal with on a regular basis...
I guess now I know what the problem is. Thank you !
I recovered once but had a panic attack and it came back, the love and passions etc do come back, you still love people but you just can't feel it
This was what i wanted to hear because i’m having dp/dr and not feeling love for my bf and i start to feel very bad about this because before the phase i was very in love with him and when anxiety starts i stop feelig for him and for my family👍
Can this occur after psychedelic drug use? Like People who like and want the seperation of mind and body and actually continue to live in their brain/ mental world rather than in reality?
Yes it can. Ego death is a form of depersonalization
OMG! Thank you so much for this video. I’ve been experiencing all these symptoms since I was in prep school and now I’m a grown man and i never knew how to explain it so I just never brought it up.
Hi, I've also had DDD and am making a podcast about the condition. Would you be interested in taking part please?
I've been suffering from this for the last four years. It feels boring, you'll only realize you are you, you exist when you're taking a shower or lying on your bed because that's the only time you can think deeply. You'll always ask yourself, "did I really do all of that?" Because everything you experience that day felt like a dream, it feels like you just watched someone else's life. Everything is boring, you rarely get nervous, and even if you are nervous and have done something wrong, you don't really feel the consequences of your actions. It was a very complicated experience. You don't feel impatient, even if you wait for someone for hours, time moves fast anyway.
I had my finals today. I'm looking up this because I really started to flare up but I'm always one to disassociate
I have this !!
It came on out of nowhere whilst at work over 8 months ago.
Since then I've been off work ever since,going to lose my job over it .
It's sooo bad ,it's petrifying. I've run out of shops and also half way through a haircut at a hairdressers. We need help !!
We are being given SSRI but that's not the issue we're having.
I have it very bad Jimmy. I quit job last year. How are you coping?🫂🙏
@@michael5089 hi mate, I literally had to do resign from my job yesterday, had a chat with the director and they advised me to and said they will take me back if I get better. It's awful isn't it, GP's don't have a clue, I have requested a neurologist as something doesn't seem right at all, I'm at the stage where I'm not leaving the house.
I have the odd good day though where I think I'm getting better but then I have an episode then I go backwards.
@@Scotchegg2869 Hi Jimmy I'm pretty bad at moment. Haven't actually left house since end of October. Also have anxiety, health anxiety and depression. So much I could say. But we could possibly stay in touch on here.💜🫂🙏
at first, when you were at work, you probably had headphones or concentrated to your phone or pc (if you detail that time, we can figure out if cause is something else but will be similar). that makes body unprepared to any possible threat from outside. so for that reason body opened freeze protection, for any possible outside threat.
and after that, you realized the symptoms and saw them as a threat. for that reason protection continued.
and after that, you continued to see them as a threat, so protection continued.
note: these are my views and may not be true.
@@Scotchegg2869 Hi Jimmy just thought I'd see how you are again? I'm pretty bad and like you I haven't actually left the house now for 4 months! Just sort of surviving.💜💜🫂👍
I can feel love, I just think no one will love me
I can't Express love or feel it it feels like I'm in a deep water trying to reach out to get out but i can't and it feels lonely watching other being in love is great but i will never have that it's like watch a movie
Same
When these symptoms appear for me they happen in episodes when I’m especially anxious or worried. The longest I’ve gone with it was 5 days. I can’t even imagine having this 24/7 it already felt like a living hell. I went to a doctor and they had no idea I was denied any real kind of help and they just said to rest and eat more.
ADHD, aphantasia and SDAM ... I'm guessing that lack of empathy and lack of love are somehow related.
I feel this. I get deja vu of myself dying all the time, I can’t form deep emotional
Relationships. Everything in my life feels pointless, I feel like nothing
Hey dude. I just want to say it takes courage to be honest about how you’re feeling. I don’t know you personally but you are another human being. I don’t know anything about your life and what you’ve experienced but I can suggest a couple of things. Right now I’ve gone through an emotionally numb stage where I can’t personally feel love but this isn’t a bad thing. I have this scene playing in my head I call the psychotic chaos. It’s just a bunch of negative events with pictures one after another with the voices to them and they get louder and then my face all screamed up with a gun to my head and bang. all it is is yourself talking to yourself about yourself. There are dangers in this world but it can be safe if you make it safe by being the best person you can be. Study, read, journal, eat healthy foods, exercise, learn some form of self defence, I recommend jujitsu and your relationships with friends, family and yourself just becomes one great big lesson. You look back and you learn a lot what you was and you compare to who you are now, spiritually, emotionally, psychologically and physically. Also accept the fact you’re emotionally numb. Just don’t care for a short while and allow yourself naturally to feel again. Be honest with people because you don’t want to waste their time or yours if you’re thinking about committing to a friendship. Just commit to yourself, think of number 1 and get your head down and do all the things you know you should do and avoid the things you know you shouldn’t do. Drugs, alcohol, any other bad habits you do, STOP. Again not saying you do any of these and I’m not saying there aren’t any benefits to drugs or alcohol. What I am saying is right now are those bad habits pushing you forward or holding you down. screenshot this comment and write it down. Definitely start reading and journaling though! My life transformed 👏🏼
How r u doing now?
30 yrs of therapy and no dr picked up on my description.
i have comfort in knowing i am not alone.
This Is a living nightmare 8 years going on for me…. I have C-PTSD as well . Wish i died of the brain tumour i had craniotomi for instead off living my life like this….
Love ❤️ and peace ☮️ all from Denmark 🇩🇰
Can this disorder all be somewhat related to low levels of *Oxytocin* since its like the "bonding hormone"
yes 100%
because of my addiction i feel empty and numb and lonely
Probably more with serotonine, since that seems to be associated with the salience of experiences in general.
If I don't feel love, I will find a way to love I will find someone who I love I won't give up in my life
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I can't feel love to anyone all I do is act as I love them which is really hard for me.
Same
Same but it's easy for me to act like I do
same like i never miss my mom and i dont love her ive been like this for years some times my mom say do you love me and i say yes when im telling a lie i think she think i dont love her
The only time I feel like I in with my body is when im high it’s like the two pieces arte able to relax and fit together like puzzle
have it since 99 .... in the end you get used to, sad but true
am suffering right here it started at the age of 16 now am 19 still can't feel a thing , it's just disgusting and makes me depressed and self hate keeps on growing day after another
as a sufferer of dp/dr it is not an easy disorder to have; but i believe it is attached to some sort of trauma that one goes through
In Buddhism "depersonalization" and love go hand in hand. They're two aspects of wisdom that reinforce each other.
I'm not sure how Western psychology fits together with people spending a lot of time and effort trying to stabilize "depersonalization".
For me it’s not that I can’t feel love towards someone but I do feel like everything is fake. Even peoples reactions towards me. My family, friends, strangers all feel like they aren’t really real. I don’t recognize the person in the mirror and I feel trapped in the shell we call a body. Looking in the mirror in my own eyes scares the hell out of me some days. I have to basically meditate to bring myself back to baseline after looking in my own eyes because I’m inside a person I don’t know.
I had this happen to me today. It was like my skin felt numb, the ceiling fan felt choppier than usual with a lag, steps were weird, my head felt fuzzy and I just had this sense that I'd wake up any second and it all just be a bad dream.