"You're not a bad person if you make a mistake and dont learn from it the first time" is something I really needed to hear and realize because it's SO true. 💓
you being extremely self aware and verbalising it will probably help a lot of people in the sense it might help their self awakening.Keep trauma dumping it’s very comforting
Cool video, My relationship of 5 years ended a month ago. The love of my life decided to leave me, I really loved him so much I can’t stop thinking about him, I’ve tried my very best to get him back in my life, but to no avail, I’m frustrated, I don’t see my life with anyone else. I’ve done my best to get rid of the thoughts of him, but I can’t, I don’t know why I’m saying this here, I really miss him and just can’t stop thinking about him
its difficult to let go of someone you love, i was in a similar situation, my relationship of 12 years ended, but i couldnt just let him go i did all i could to get him back, i had to seek the help of a spiritual counselor who helped me bring him back.
the realisation that "people don't like to see you heal" is so honest, but true. I've struggled and had to grow a lot this year. It's been interesting to see how people have felt uncomfortable or 'threatened' by my ability to overcome, mature, self-reflect (etc.) because it often makes them feel insecure about their own lack of healing. at the end of the day, we're all responsible for our own healing and no one else's.
Genuinely, and I mean genuinely, I doubt THAT many people noticed or cared. Thinking like this is actually really toxic and crappy and a slippery slope--these ideas that everyone's jealous of your personal growth, no one wants to see you win, etc. It stems from too much focus on your own story and worrying about what everyone else is thinking about you, and these tendencies are so commonly expressed amongst our generation. Narcissism is absolutely rampant amongst millennials and gen z. Too many ppl w "main character energy" so to speak. Maybe instead of assuming everyone is jealous of you, you should try to focus more on how your friends are doing, listen more intently when they speak instead of talking about yourself, and try to rework the part of your brain that thinks everyone wants you to fail.
@@brockmccaw4259 that's a super interesting interpretation of what I said, thankyou for your input. I'd recommend giving it a reread, "at the end of the day, we're all responsible for our own healing and no one else's." I'm entirely responsible for my feelings, and so are you. The reality is, not everyone is comfortable with seeing other people heal and move on, but that is not my responsibility and it never will be. Many of my greatest supports in my healing journey have been from my friends and family, but my comment wasn't about that, because that was not the part of Madeline's video that I was referring to. Thanks again for your advice, I'll bring it up with my therapist sometime :)
The part around 20:00 about framing self respect as "looking back at past 'you' with gratefulness for what they went through, and that giving you the trust in 'future you' to have your back and know that they'll look at 'present you' with love and respect for what you're going through right now" is so good, first time i personally hear it put in that way or using that "relationship between you's across time". Whole 40 minutes are worth it just for that quick 2 minutes segment. The NZ part was interesting to hear and it's the setup for that gem of a line so it's nice to have heard it. The school part was a bit rambly indeed but I still enjoy the random talk and anecdotes that come up. Don't want to be condescending and all that or be the dude that's like "you're so mature for your age" to younger girls lmfao but I do get that vibe from your way of speaking. I think it's actually my issue and I'm immature for my age (guess dudes in general are like that, but I think maybe more in my case for several reasons), and that I may be relatively late to this self-development talk. Maybe it's a cultural thing or maybe it's just the way media in my country is, but I definitely see a lot less introspection and much more societal / structural issues talk, which fine ig but it's so all-encompassing and it permeates so much every layer of media that it gets old for me quick. Your way of talking feels so much more real to me and it truly feels like someone filling in a friend on what's been happening rather than someone "using a platform for something" (even if that "something" is a good cause). Not hating on those people either, but I do think that I personally am in a place where I need the introspection way more than the "extrospection" or societal analysis or whatever that so many other outlets focus on providing.
Just had a breakup myself. Feels like hell when you know she's the cheater and then walking out of the relationship she's the one who couldn't care less and you're the one hurting and utterly wrecked
Your voice is overall calming to listen to. Whatever happens, you must prioritize yourself first. We appreciate you for voicing your own insights or opinions. May God bless you.
This was one of the most thoughtful and well spoken introspections I’ve ever heard. Mad props to you for not only being so incredibly self aware that you can easily spot the areas that need improvement, but also for being so open and vulnerable with it and giving us all more food for thought. Just subscribed and can’t wait to hear more about how you see life!
I can't believe I listened for whole 39 minutes, and still felt like just 10 minutes! I had to recheck the length of video. Your brutal honesty makes anyone connect instantly! Or maybe I had same kind of experience in that period of time too, from introvert to extrovert, to kinda introvert again, to now shifting my gear to kinda extrovert soon.
I was listening to a podcast that said, “it’s important to live life by design rather than emotion. Basically, sticking to a routine is what allows us to be the healthiest version of ourselves (especially when you're fighting these demons ex. OCD for me). In my healing journey - I’ve had to overhaul how I approach work/habits by practising mediocre consistency. Now I try to put in consistent 50-60% effort into my habits (ex. journaling/working out) - to make sure I do it I began recording it and posting it on my youtube channel. Because historically I have a habit of going too hard, not being able to sustain the Herculean effort, giving up and hating myself. So now I’m trying to give a small-ish, consistent mediocre effort everyday. And its crazy how it adds up, and its crazy how much better I’m able to handle the bad days when anxiety is trying to take over.
@@mango4399 Here it is! It’s an OCD Podcast but I think the main points can be extrapolated for any one’s benefit. th-cam.com/video/CGyW1Rp1Y2g/w-d-xo.html&ab_channel=TheOCDStories
Went through a horrible breakup last year and currently still healing but so happy I got to the point of knowing my own self worth and having self love and respect, took a while (even before i was ever in a relationship) but im finally here. This is a very encouraging video to continue my healing and growth journey
what you said about feeling like people from your past being in a seperate universe because they act in a way that puts you in utter disbelief is sp true 🥰
Madeline, I almost didn't write this... I have gone through a similar traumatic experience and honestly I haven't heard anyone react to it the same way as me, I legit thought I wasn't in reality.
I was thinking the exact same thing! It feels so strange and so weird, like I’m not in this world because in the past year I’ve had break ups - relationships and friendships. And now my mum and brothers aren’t speaking to me over something I don’t really understand. I feel and have been through so much loss and so much heartache that it doesn’t feel real. I can’t even describe it xx
"I don't think my relationship with myself should be all consuming that I can onlyfosus on that, it's unsustainable". I really struggle with this, not in my relationship with myself but in my "romantic" relationships. It's really hard to find a balance between giving attention and caring for your loved one, and giving yourself time not only to get your priorities done but also to spend time just with yourself or other important people in your life. It's a problem because I always find myself cutting off my possibilities of having a relationship, the worst part is that feel very happy when I do that and it has nothing to do with really big problems in those possible relationships :/
god i just love you. i have been obsessed with you since i saw the first tiktok of yours and when u started posting here i’ve never been so excited i just keep rewatching your four videos wishing there was more. i want you to know, as someone who is also extremely self aware for myself and others and feel like i’m always on the side of actually understanding people, like you, and how you explained, you’re very admirable and SO beautiful, and whether physically you feel different, you have friends who you make sense to, and who you could trust, here. ew little youtube comment spill i love you
The way you described feeling like there was a glitch in the matrix and you’ve been dropped into another timeline is so scarily accurate to how I feel at this moment. This is not right. Where I am and how my life is on this day is not right, the events that caused it are not right and didn’t happen. That’s how my brain is feeling. I can’t even process it.
It is really true about that people do not like to see you healing I lost what I thought where my best friends when I was getting better! they just got so triggered and would bring me down, what left me so confused. How this could be done by the people who supported me in my worse? why now that I am happier they suddenly despise my improving? So, what I learned is that when you grow you start to disconnect from people who do not ,and you connect with new people who are in your new level! It hurts to say goodbye to so many humans, but is part of the process to become the best version of yourself. Thank You for mentioning this topic.
I needed to hear this tonight. I'm in the process of healing from a traumatic breakup/relationship in which my trust was violated and just hearing that someone else has gone through the same and felt the same way I do is so comforting. gives me hope.
wanna thank you for sharing your experience! im trauma dumping rn, but i got out of a one-sided schtick where the dude became super abusive and started calling me a dog. and my mutual friends r more interested in staying friends with him or being in his pants. i totally related when you said you saw things you never expected people were capable of doing. thank you again for making me feel less alone with my experience 💔
you don’t understand how much i need this today, i stupidly took back an ex and i just let her go for the final time ever and it’s such a weird feeling
Madeline, I've watched all of your podcast and I use to watch your tiktok's religiously but i deleted tiktok as I have bipolar disorder and I act like kanye west on them posting all my manic psychotic delusions. You always say that you don't make any sense or what you've said is waffle. Madeline you are completely wrong, what you say is not only understandable to every adult that can hear; it is also extremely relatable and the way you word and speak makes it extremely easy to connect with your beautiful, powerful and strong words. I've struggled with my mental health since I was 8 and have been abused by family and I was constantly sexually abused from the ages of 12-20 but different men in double digits. However now i'm thriving, healing and so so happy and even better i have found peace. You should be so incredibly proud of yourself and where you have gotten do. The universe loves you, everyone that watches your content love you and I love you madeline. Big up to your mum for creating such a wonderful, kind and empathetic, strong woman!!
the only thing on my mind is i love her face and all of these colors go so well together its so satisfying. like queens eyes match her the letters on her sweatshirt. I LOVE THAT
I think it’s so important to be compassionate for your younger and traumatized self. I really appreciate you acknowledging this and being kind to her. Love this podcast! So real to me!
it's like i'm seeing my younger self. the way you get consistent in healing is accepting the periods of nothingness. accepting that you don't have to overachieve or be on a certain path. acceptance helps you with the journey. it becomes easier and it flows more natural. what you're trying to gain consistency of is naturalness. if naturalness is even a word
“I didn’t deserve to take up space in the world unless I was earning that space by bettering myself” - I love listening to you talk because so many of your thoughts are my thoughts! I just feel understood
Its so funny to learn and understand that most of us today are experiencing the same relationship with work and life…craving consistency. Because I related to what she had to say almost word for word in some parts Theres had to be something particular behind it
your words resonate with me in a way that i’ve never been able to find before. please know that i value this podcast so much and I’m looking forward to where this is going.
Just discovered your channel thanks too the story of Central Cee. Love your video, I have the impression that these are all my thoughts put together in it 😁
literally checked your channel like an hour ago to see if you'd uploaded anything, how good is that timing keen to have all of my trauma justified over the next 40 minutes x
Girl... We have lived the same life here, this sounded exactly like my traumatic breakup, into the greatest healing era of my life experience. And thank you for being so raw, it can take years to heal with so many ups and downs, does not happen over night, but wow is it worth it. Especially when you can step back and see first hand the progress and healing you have done. Thank you for this, resonated truly :)
When you said you didn’t feel like those people were capable of doing those things I felt that so much after the person did more stuff I didn’t like they still shocked me everytime it was crazy but I didn’t know my body could handle this I’m so proud of myself in ways ❤
Madeline thank you so much for being so honest and open with us!!! It's so awesome that you use your platform for these kinds of conversations!!! I love you and keep growing and healing my love!!!
You’re not the only one that has experienced delusion / detachment due to trauma. The brain simply becomes too overwhelmed with the stress of the reality it has been given and so to cope it detaches itself from the reality it has been given and creates a new narrative for itself such as like you said being placed in a different universe and having the people it loved being stuck in another world. Trauma response is different for everyone but this response is one that so many people have to deal with including me :( it sucks
It's so crazy that we can be so hard on ourselves sometimes!!! This is so relatable! Thank you for sharing! We all have so much to heal from and so much to learn!
Ok, hypothesis which you definitely didn't ask for but you can maybe explore in therapy if you like. You seek pain because important events in your life have been surrounded by pain and you got through those just fine so it's where you're most comfortable.
I, for all my life have been to state school. And omg watching this video has only just made me realise that just because someone’s a teacher it doesn’t give them the right to scream and shout in your face. Like that was quite literally the norm for all of secondary school.
this brought me so much comfort, thank you for posting this. currently going through my first real break up and something about your videos and your tiktoks just bring me so much comfort i cant describe it. you seem so genuine and you talk with a purpose you're not just saying a bunch of nonsense. and its very refreshing to hear. like if you've managed to get through THAT then i can certainly get through THIS. (that future version of you giving ur current self a hug thing helped a lot) never stop making videos :) lost of love from a 17 y/o in California
Your whole energy is mine and I’m so proud of someone who’s had so many embarrassing things happen to them wear it on your chest and brush it off an laugh it off and having the most fuckifn insane things happening forever to you… we’re soul mates
madeline i swear to god, this is the first video/ podcast thing ive watched of you. ive only ever watched one of ur vlog thingys but this seriously ive related to everything thtas come out of ur mouth during this. so please keep talking your thoughts and im sure lots of people are dealing with this miserable cycle of healing or whatever but hopefully with time we can all imorove and understand ourselves better
21:86 “for some reason I only have empathy for 6 year old me and then it just gets really bad after that and now I hate myself which I’m working on” made me subscribe so fast cause why is that so relatable LOL ur not a bad person and I appreciate how real you keep it
"You're not a bad person if you make a mistake and dont learn from it the first time" is something I really needed to hear and realize because it's SO true. 💓
the baggage and body count they go through to enter yet another guys life
I agree except some people will label all sorts of things under the name « mistakes ». Abusing someone is not a mistake for example
she said that in this video? can u time tag pls?
@@sarah_0805 12:08
@@codydembo4257 thank you!
you being extremely self aware and verbalising it will probably help a lot of people in the sense it might help their self awakening.Keep trauma dumping it’s very comforting
i love this podcast bc it’s literally how my brain works
samee
BAHAHAHA I WAS THINKIJG THE SAME THING
Was literally in the midst of crying when this came out. Postponing the sadness until later.
Same
Made my day😂
hope u r okay now
Tee-hee yasss girl, sadness can wait❤
Postponing emotions is never a good idea. Cry about it then go on with your day✨
We owe so much to our past selves, the hurt we went through, how resilient we were, past you deserves a hug. You're so self aware 🧡✨
Wow this it 😭
the baggage and body count they go through to enter yet another guys life
Escalating between intense healing and bad habits sounds so familiar, thank you for verbalizing it!
Cool video, My relationship of 5 years ended a month ago. The love of my life decided to leave me, I really loved him so much I can’t stop thinking about him, I’ve tried my very best to get him back in my life, but to no avail, I’m frustrated, I don’t see my life with anyone else. I’ve done my best to get rid of the thoughts of him, but I can’t, I don’t know why I’m saying this here, I really miss him and just can’t stop thinking about him
its difficult to let go of someone you love, i was in a similar situation, my relationship of 12 years ended, but i couldnt just let him go i did all i could to get him back, i had to seek the help of a spiritual counselor who helped me bring him back.
Amazing, how did you get a spiritual counselor, and how do i reach him?
His name is Father Obah Eze, and he is a great spiritual counselor who can bring back your ex.
he is father obah eze, he has great powers, he can help you.
Thank you for this valuable information, i just looked him up now online. impressive
the realisation that "people don't like to see you heal" is so honest, but true. I've struggled and had to grow a lot this year. It's been interesting to see how people have felt uncomfortable or 'threatened' by my ability to overcome, mature, self-reflect (etc.) because it often makes them feel insecure about their own lack of healing. at the end of the day, we're all responsible for our own healing and no one else's.
Genuinely, and I mean genuinely, I doubt THAT many people noticed or cared. Thinking like this is actually really toxic and crappy and a slippery slope--these ideas that everyone's jealous of your personal growth, no one wants to see you win, etc. It stems from too much focus on your own story and worrying about what everyone else is thinking about you, and these tendencies are so commonly expressed amongst our generation. Narcissism is absolutely rampant amongst millennials and gen z. Too many ppl w "main character energy" so to speak. Maybe instead of assuming everyone is jealous of you, you should try to focus more on how your friends are doing, listen more intently when they speak instead of talking about yourself, and try to rework the part of your brain that thinks everyone wants you to fail.
@@brockmccaw4259 that's a super interesting interpretation of what I said, thankyou for your input.
I'd recommend giving it a reread, "at the end of the day, we're all responsible for our own healing and no one else's." I'm entirely responsible for my feelings, and so are you.
The reality is, not everyone is comfortable with seeing other people heal and move on, but that is not my responsibility and it never will be.
Many of my greatest supports in my healing journey have been from my friends and family, but my comment wasn't about that, because that was not the part of Madeline's video that I was referring to.
Thanks again for your advice, I'll bring it up with my therapist sometime :)
The part around 20:00 about framing self respect as "looking back at past 'you' with gratefulness for what they went through, and that giving you the trust in 'future you' to have your back and know that they'll look at 'present you' with love and respect for what you're going through right now" is so good, first time i personally hear it put in that way or using that "relationship between you's across time". Whole 40 minutes are worth it just for that quick 2 minutes segment.
The NZ part was interesting to hear and it's the setup for that gem of a line so it's nice to have heard it. The school part was a bit rambly indeed but I still enjoy the random talk and anecdotes that come up.
Don't want to be condescending and all that or be the dude that's like "you're so mature for your age" to younger girls lmfao but I do get that vibe from your way of speaking. I think it's actually my issue and I'm immature for my age (guess dudes in general are like that, but I think maybe more in my case for several reasons), and that I may be relatively late to this self-development talk. Maybe it's a cultural thing or maybe it's just the way media in my country is, but I definitely see a lot less introspection and much more societal / structural issues talk, which fine ig but it's so all-encompassing and it permeates so much every layer of media that it gets old for me quick. Your way of talking feels so much more real to me and it truly feels like someone filling in a friend on what's been happening rather than someone "using a platform for something" (even if that "something" is a good cause). Not hating on those people either, but I do think that I personally am in a place where I need the introspection way more than the "extrospection" or societal analysis or whatever that so many other outlets focus on providing.
Just had a breakup myself. Feels like hell when you know she's the cheater and then walking out of the relationship she's the one who couldn't care less and you're the one hurting and utterly wrecked
How do u feel now ?
@@lailamk615 Better, but it feels more difficult to trust a person now
@@junechevalier don’t let someone else limit the amount you love or trust , don’t let them win .
@@lailamk615 Ideally, but realistically it just integrates into your defense mechanism subconsciously
this genuinely cured everything inside me
So happy your back :’)
Your voice is overall calming to listen to. Whatever happens, you must prioritize yourself first. We appreciate you for voicing your own insights or opinions. May God bless you.
This was one of the most thoughtful and well spoken introspections I’ve ever heard. Mad props to you for not only being so incredibly self aware that you can easily spot the areas that need improvement, but also for being so open and vulnerable with it and giving us all more food for thought. Just subscribed and can’t wait to hear more about how you see life!
I can't believe I listened for whole 39 minutes, and still felt like just 10 minutes! I had to recheck the length of video. Your brutal honesty makes anyone connect instantly! Or maybe I had same kind of experience in that period of time too, from introvert to extrovert, to kinda introvert again, to now shifting my gear to kinda extrovert soon.
I was listening to a podcast that said, “it’s important to live life by design rather than emotion. Basically, sticking to a routine is what allows us to be the healthiest version of ourselves (especially when you're fighting these demons ex. OCD for me).
In my healing journey - I’ve had to overhaul how I approach work/habits by practising mediocre consistency. Now I try to put in consistent 50-60% effort into my habits (ex. journaling/working out) - to make sure I do it I began recording it and posting it on my youtube channel.
Because historically I have a habit of going too hard, not being able to sustain the Herculean effort, giving up and hating myself. So now I’m trying to give a small-ish, consistent mediocre effort everyday. And its crazy how it adds up, and its crazy how much better I’m able to handle the bad days when anxiety is trying to take over.
Omg this is such a good concept
this is so important!!
What podcast were u listening to??
@@mango4399 Here it is! It’s an OCD Podcast but I think the main points can be extrapolated for any one’s benefit. th-cam.com/video/CGyW1Rp1Y2g/w-d-xo.html&ab_channel=TheOCDStories
@@risika thanks
Went through a horrible breakup last year and currently still healing but so happy I got to the point of knowing my own self worth and having self love and respect, took a while (even before i was ever in a relationship) but im finally here. This is a very encouraging video to continue my healing and growth journey
around 5 minutes is such an evocative way to describe relational trauma. the shock and dissociation. it changes your worldview
what you said about feeling like people from your past being in a seperate universe because they act in a way that puts you in utter disbelief is sp true 🥰
yes yes yes. you don’t even understand how much i love this woman💘
Madeline, I almost didn't write this... I have gone through a similar traumatic experience and honestly I haven't heard anyone react to it the same way as me, I legit thought I wasn't in reality.
I was thinking the exact same thing! It feels so strange and so weird, like I’m not in this world because in the past year I’ve had break ups - relationships and friendships. And now my mum and brothers aren’t speaking to me over something I don’t really understand. I feel and have been through so much loss and so much heartache that it doesn’t feel real. I can’t even describe it xx
"I don't think my relationship with myself should be all consuming that I can onlyfosus on that, it's unsustainable".
I really struggle with this, not in my relationship with myself but in my "romantic" relationships. It's really hard to find a balance between giving attention and caring for your loved one, and giving yourself time not only to get your priorities done but also to spend time just with yourself or other important people in your life. It's a problem because I always find myself cutting off my possibilities of having a relationship, the worst part is that feel very happy when I do that and it has nothing to do with really big problems in those possible relationships :/
I need to find Jesus
god i just love you. i have been obsessed with you since i saw the first tiktok of yours and when u started posting here i’ve never been so excited i just keep rewatching your four videos wishing there was more. i want you to know, as someone who is also extremely self aware for myself and others and feel like i’m always on the side of actually understanding people, like you, and how you explained, you’re very admirable and SO beautiful, and whether physically you feel different, you have friends who you make sense to, and who you could trust, here. ew little youtube comment spill i love you
The way you described feeling like there was a glitch in the matrix and you’ve been dropped into another timeline is so scarily accurate to how I feel at this moment. This is not right. Where I am and how my life is on this day is not right, the events that caused it are not right and didn’t happen. That’s how my brain is feeling. I can’t even process it.
It is really true about that people do not like to see you healing I lost what I thought where my best friends when I was getting better! they just got so triggered and would bring me down, what left me so confused. How this could be done by the people who supported me in my worse? why now that I am happier they suddenly despise my improving? So, what I learned is that when you grow you start to disconnect from people who do not ,and you connect with new people who are in your new level! It hurts to say goodbye to so many humans, but is part of the process to become the best version of yourself. Thank You for mentioning this topic.
I needed to hear this tonight. I'm in the process of healing from a traumatic breakup/relationship in which my trust was violated and just hearing that someone else has gone through the same and felt the same way I do is so comforting. gives me hope.
right there with you girl 🫶🏼 it sucks we have to heal from other people’s cruel behavior
@@kyndallfaithhyou probably traumatized other ppl don’t worry
❤❤❤❤❤❤
wanna thank you for sharing your experience! im trauma dumping rn, but i got out of a one-sided schtick where the dude became super abusive and started calling me a dog. and my mutual friends r more interested in staying friends with him or being in his pants. i totally related when you said you saw things you never expected people were capable of doing. thank you again for making me feel less alone with my experience 💔
i’m so sorry that sounds horrible
I’m going through a very similar situation and we got this healing journey together
you don’t understand how much i need this today, i stupidly took back an ex and i just let her go for the final time ever and it’s such a weird feeling
its absolutely insane how much u make me feel seen and heard. ily
You have no clue how helpful this is Madeline. For the past year I’ve gone through such a similar situation, thank you love
Madeline, I've watched all of your podcast and I use to watch your tiktok's religiously but i deleted tiktok as I have bipolar disorder and I act like kanye west on them posting all my manic psychotic delusions. You always say that you don't make any sense or what you've said is waffle. Madeline you are completely wrong, what you say is not only understandable to every adult that can hear; it is also extremely relatable and the way you word and speak makes it extremely easy to connect with your beautiful, powerful and strong words. I've struggled with my mental health since I was 8 and have been abused by family and I was constantly sexually abused from the ages of 12-20 but different men in double digits. However now i'm thriving, healing and so so happy and even better i have found peace. You should be so incredibly proud of yourself and where you have gotten do. The universe loves you, everyone that watches your content love you and I love you madeline. Big up to your mum for creating such a wonderful, kind and empathetic, strong woman!!
I’ve never heard her speak slowly and so calmly. I prefer it, very soothing.
the only thing on my mind is i love her face and all of these colors go so well together its so satisfying. like queens eyes match her the letters on her sweatshirt. I LOVE THAT
ok, time to put life on pause for 39 minutes
I think it’s so important to be compassionate for your younger and traumatized self. I really appreciate you acknowledging this and being kind to her. Love this podcast! So real to me!
"all i've done is trauma dump and talk about school" yeah and i loved every second of it
it's like i'm seeing my younger self. the way you get consistent in healing is accepting the periods of nothingness. accepting that you don't have to overachieve or be on a certain path. acceptance helps you with the journey. it becomes easier and it flows more natural. what you're trying to gain consistency of is naturalness. if naturalness is even a word
you must be great.
it is a fundamental fact in your brain that your not attractive??! YOU are genuinely one of the most gorgeous people i have ever seen in my life
no way someone can look like that and not think they're attractive
@@akiraofa i think everyone thinks they aren’t attractive in some regard, even if they have beautiful qualities.
I died when she said you shouldn’t have created vulnerable things in this world because I’m still here 💀
I really needed this today x
that bit at 26:27 where shes like" im going to square up with your children emma" is so inspiring honestly. will now search for my bully's fb account.
“I didn’t deserve to take up space in the world unless I was earning that space by bettering myself” - I love listening to you talk because so many of your thoughts are my thoughts! I just feel understood
Its so funny to learn and understand that most of us today are experiencing the same relationship with work and life…craving consistency. Because I related to what she had to say almost word for word in some parts Theres had to be something particular behind it
your words resonate with me in a way that i’ve never been able to find before. please know that i value this podcast so much and I’m looking forward to where this is going.
Just discovered your channel thanks too the story of Central Cee. Love your video, I have the impression that these are all my thoughts put together in it 😁
i love you so much madeline, thank you for this video and thank you for existing.
I clicked on this by accident. Yet this video made me feel like I know you 💞. I relate so much to everything you say.
literally checked your channel like an hour ago to see if you'd uploaded anything, how good is that timing
keen to have all of my trauma justified over the next 40 minutes x
11:30
I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO DOES THIS? Needing to learn every single lesson from this period.
thanks for this.
not this being in my recommended now😭
Yassss girl!! No better place to be for a cleanse and new start! The land of peace and fruitfulness ❤
i literally love her.
Girl... We have lived the same life here, this sounded exactly like my traumatic breakup, into the greatest healing era of my life experience. And thank you for being so raw, it can take years to heal with so many ups and downs, does not happen over night, but wow is it worth it. Especially when you can step back and see first hand the progress and healing you have done. Thank you for this, resonated truly :)
I’ve been checking my notifications for you to upload the past few weeks lol. So glad you posted!!
omg i wish these vids were available on spotify
when you are healing you become a mirror, and most people do not want to look at a mirror - WOW!
I’ve never watched any of your TH-cam vids but love this video so much, it’s extremely understandable and relatable 😭🫶 love u madz x
this aged well
I love listening to this woman
When you said you didn’t feel like those people were capable of doing those things I felt that so much after the person did more stuff I didn’t like they still shocked me everytime it was crazy but I didn’t know my body could handle this I’m so proud of myself in ways ❤
she’s literally speaking out my mind and now i know how to put my feelings into words to tell my therapist lmaoo
LMAO
SAME
Or you're just... intellectually lazy and letting someone else tell you how to think? This girl isn't that deep lol
much needed ep, sending love ur way!!
Madeline thank you so much for being so honest and open with us!!! It's so awesome that you use your platform for these kinds of conversations!!! I love you and keep growing and healing my love!!!
why do u always post about stuff exactly when i need to hear it like this is eerie. ur so perfect queen i love you
You’re not the only one that has experienced delusion / detachment due to trauma. The brain simply becomes too overwhelmed with the stress of the reality it has been given and so to cope it detaches itself from the reality it has been given and creates a new narrative for itself such as like you said being placed in a different universe and having the people it loved being stuck in another world. Trauma response is different for everyone but this response is one that so many people have to deal with including me :( it sucks
holy shitt
It's so crazy that we can be so hard on ourselves sometimes!!! This is so relatable! Thank you for sharing! We all have so much to heal from and so much to learn!
Hard to grasp how beautiful a person can be, those eyes and lips. Mind-blowing. But apart from this, I love listening to her.
Yess, she’s stunning
Perfect timing, I love your content . My ex turned so cold when we split, she became a whole new human, in a bad way.
I go back to this episode from time to time
free therapy
Ok, hypothesis which you definitely didn't ask for but you can maybe explore in therapy if you like. You seek pain because important events in your life have been surrounded by pain and you got through those just fine so it's where you're most comfortable.
i feel i’m genuinely having a conversation w u in real life and i love ittt
the fact we both went to a Steiner school AFTER a state school brings me so much joy
Love this it’s literally in the same format as my thoughts lmfaoooooo
I’ve never related to anyone more. This video really helped me.
I, for all my life have been to state school. And omg watching this video has only just made me realise that just because someone’s a teacher it doesn’t give them the right to scream and shout in your face. Like that was quite literally the norm for all of secondary school.
OH MY GOD THE LOLA REFERENCE ICB YOU WATCH BIG MOUTH. SLAYYYYY
More childhood storiess they’re ✨ICONIC✨ (also I missed bonfire night too which is so upsetting considering it’s the day after my bday😭)
listening to this while writing my philosophy essay. nietzsche has nothing on you
I'm actually sure my primary school days are relatable in some way boys Vs girls or vise versa your taking me down memory lane 🙃
your videos bring such an ease to my day. tysm for this 🤍
i legit love these
The way Madeline said “she isn’t classy” reminded me of “I have class and you don’t” gurl from the parent trap
The thing about this podcast is that it made too much sense when it actually shouldn’t which is crazyyy scaryyyy
Madeline u got big when I needed u most I’ve never encountered someone I relate to on such a level if I didn’t have Madeline I wouldn’t have life
AHHH I'VE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO ANOTHER EP
Yo I can’t believe how well her tiktok audience has translated to TH-cam. That’s fire
this brought me so much comfort, thank you for posting this. currently going through my first real break up and something about your videos and your tiktoks just bring me so much comfort i cant describe it. you seem so genuine and you talk with a purpose you're not just saying a bunch of nonsense. and its very refreshing to hear. like if you've managed to get through THAT then i can certainly get through THIS. (that future version of you giving ur current self a hug thing helped a lot) never stop making videos :) lost of love from a 17 y/o in California
I love this podcast so much! I feel so seen! 😂 brilliant!!
Your whole energy is mine and I’m so proud of someone who’s had so many embarrassing things happen to them wear it on your chest and brush it off an laugh it off and having the most fuckifn insane things happening forever to you… we’re soul mates
madeline i swear to god, this is the first video/ podcast thing ive watched of you. ive only ever watched one of ur vlog thingys but this seriously ive related to everything thtas come out of ur mouth during this. so please keep talking your thoughts and im sure lots of people are dealing with this miserable cycle of healing or whatever but hopefully with time we can all imorove and understand ourselves better
Girl save me from my hometown I can’t escape
So true about being in bed but not actually resting. Love you btw queen!! 😘💗💗
this was so calming and validating to listen to. i feel kinda revived and motivated to like be a better me lol
listening to you while i am stdying :)) thank you for making these videos it inspires me so much
Thank you for posting bookie 😻
You literally just spoke my feelings into words wtf
Thank you so much for this podcast. I feel so seen and understood and I needed that so bad. Love
21:86 “for some reason I only have empathy for 6 year old me and then it just gets really bad after that and now I hate myself which I’m working on” made me subscribe so fast cause why is that so relatable LOL
ur not a bad person and I appreciate how real you keep it