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I've studied narcissism every day the last 3-4 years but this video really nails which of my parents tactics were the most harmful to me as a child. Its sad to listen to but very informative and validating. Thank you
My narc parents just accused me of playing games with them since I stopped responding to their baits and provoking and he became extremely nasty and going to rage for a smallest things and warned me to look for an apartament until end of a year -.-. They never loved me and you can see it as I am looking from a time perspective. Welp it's only confirmed how bad and self centred they are and do not care about nobody else. I am going no contact once I move out.
Hi Jerry Thanks for your video I live in Belgium, my English is not so good. I need to get some guidance in my journey with my parents. My dad is narcissistic I think my mom also. I created some distance as I got older .... now my father demands all my help and presence. His second wife died January 23 and he told me he has not so long to live..... he has cancer. But now I know he can have several years to live..... I regret taking care of him..... I am empty and totally in stress after seeing or hearing him. my life , he wants to control it. My work also, my friends.... did not have the time to celebrate my birthday in April...he told me to cancel all activities.... just be there for him.I cannot hold on.....for years to come...
Are you stating that it’s not OK to mention your sex life to your parent but you can to a therapist how about a friend like a best friend if it’s very confidential and they keep it to them selves? Where are the lines drawn? Is it considered a national if you talk about very private personal things with a friend or how about a therapist? There just seems to be so much gray area there. I do see what you mean there or covert narcissist do gather information with asking you a ton of questions and they’re just using it to use it against you were trying to delete you as somebody that is true it’s almost like to write a book I guarantee it’s true they are, and you’re the star that they’re gonna punish.
I finally said goodbye to my father after more than 30 years of continued trauma. Honestly, the hardest thing to deal with was the guilt other people put on you for doing so. Those people who do not understand what it is like to deal with toxic parents, it's exhausting and it's okay to walk away from it.
I had to do it about 15 years ago when i was 50. It was very difficult but immediately my husband, son, and I began to heal. I had to do the same with a subbing who controlled the family. Peace is very sweet. It took a long time for me to learn to love myself and so neglecting myself. It made me a better wife and mother and friend.
Tell those people they are lucky that their parents haven't invoked those emotions in them. Don't take a blessing for granted. Watch their face go blank 😆
I bought myself a hat. My Mum took it off me and tried it on and said, "it looks better on me." It sat on top of her wardrobe for years and she never wore it once.
When I was 16, I cut up my favorite and newly purchased green shirt and threw it in the trash because my mother kept trying to wear it. (As a young girl, she already had a lot more than me and wouldn't share it with me.) 😂 I'm glad I did it
Imagine being held back your entire life, and only discovering as an adult that what you've experienced actually had a name and you could have prevented it had you only knew about all this terminology at an early age.
It is what we went through that allows us to see things from said perspective and understand it, otherwise we'd probably be one of those people that claims CPTSD because they got grounded on a regular basis. Best thing we can do is use what knowledge and wisdom we've gained through our traumas to help and understand others going through bad situations
I was six, sitting at a table, sobbing after being hit in the head so hard my face hit the book. She said " you're to stupid to copy something right " I was six years old in a foreign country tying to learn a new language and didn't know I was dyslexic.
I decided to just cut all communication with my narcissist mother and pedophile father for my own healing. They adopted me when I was five, they already had two kids and I was just a scapegoat and a plaything for them. Once I had my own kids, I saw the abuse in a whole new light and basically said F*CK YOU and I was DONE! The only forgiveness I felt I needed to have was to forgive myself for all the wars I waged against myself, for all the self sabotage, I forgave myself. I don’t particularly feel like I need to forgive them but I also no longer let it consume me, I’m just indifferent towards them. It is what it is and I’ve moved on.
Adoption rarely works. Better to be with a dysfunctional parent or a super young parent...at least there is a real sense of belonging. Mother Theresa had an adoption scheme of Indian children into USA. I believe this worked because it was open and monitored.
I was adopted when I was 5 years-old too. My brother who's 4 years-older than me was adopted too. They adopted another girl and had one girl that was artificially inseminated. The natural born girl was the family golden child. I was at first a black sheep then elevated to secondary golden child when I behaved the way my mother wanted me to behave, but I was knocked back down to black sheep after my adopted black sheep sister left the family. I went no contact with them because I wasn't putting up with their abuse anymore. My parents divorced when I was 15 years-old, so I didn't really have a normal family experience. My father used me as a pawn after I moved in with him because he was trying to control his ex-wife. After I turned 18 years-old, I was of no more use to him and he started being a real narcissistic jerk all the time.
I don't let anyone live rent free in my head and no one shuold. I've used a tactic called negative affermations.' Any thing else you don't like about me?' They eventually run out of material to attract you with. I'm the scapegoat that escaped.Lol😊
That's useful, thank you. I said to my mother once, is there anything you know or like about me! I like the idea of is there anything else you ront like ✋✌
Sometimes the gaslighting is more subtle ...like the parent is yelling at you and you respond in a normal voice and you are told that you are the one causing the problem..argument
I vividly recall the first time I chose not to engage my mother with the incessant verbal arguments and stayed very calm, very collected. She accused me of being in a cult, lol. Staying calm and it yelling sent her into a tailspin. 😂
I was told that I was ruining my parents marriage because of all the fighting that I'm causing between my parents. I wasn't the one who cheated in their relationship. I wasn't the one who decided to have kids with a narcissist. I wasn't the one who decided to abuse my kids and not listen to them.
My mother would do all of that and more. As an adult she would get me to a breaking point (provoking and denying stuff, smiling to my face while saying that all the wrongs she did to me didn't exist) and than record me while I was raging. Then she would let other people listen to those recordings so I would be considered like the crazy piece of shit that she was. Honestly I understand why some people end up killing themselves or their parent. I want out myself. She stole my life, my choices, my future, the person I was supposed to be. And she doesn't understand why I can't stand her
It’s an awful trap!….Been there myself….. the best thing you can do is free yourself from her and get away when you can and go no contact. Then you get to work some more on your healing and be the person you were meant to be, surrounded by people who genuinely love and support you. Good luck to you!…..🍀
It’s so sad to see all the advice to go no contact. These are also hurt people who did not get their cup filled with love. Pray for them. Don’t do things you will regret when they die. Vengeance is of the Lord.
"Parenting ends at 18." It took me until 39 and a half to figure it out and set a boundary. My mother embarrassed me in front of my family. "Tell your grandma 'thank you,'" she said as we left a holiday dinner. I had already talked to my grandma privately before leaving, so i ignored my mother's direction and internally rolled my eyes. Having not gotten the response she wanted, my mother again, more forcefully, demanded: "Tell. Your. Grandma. 'THANK. YOU!'" I snapped "YES MOTHER!" And guess what came next... she chastised me "You're SO MEAN to me!" And later that week, I finally told her to stop treating me like I was 8 years old. I wouldn't say things are great now, but better than they were, at least for me.
You're right. As a child, you're doing your level best to make them proud of you, and they see you as competition. You can't please everyone, so you gotta please yourself.
- Emotional neglect - Gaslighting - stone walling and silent treatment - covert putdowns and overt ones - verbal abuse (get internal boundaries aka thick skin, ignore them!!they are weird animals and arent worth it) -project their negatives traits on you - sabotage and pathological envy - Hot and cold behaviour - Rage attacks - micro managing (who are you speaking to, what you eat, what you wear....) - neglect and physical deprivation - triangulation (emmeshment) - pitch forking ( dont join them) - smear campaigns (maintain self confidence and self esteem) - parentification, emotional incest - sexual abuse, coercion -
My mother would always disagree with me no matter what, she just would never like to accept that I might be right or that what I have to say might be right. She would always question me and make me feel like I was stupid or dumb.
My father was the same. would really like to know why parents do that. He would argue with me that "connections " social, business, political don't exist! Just because he doesn't have any its insanity
@@Happydays14385 I think it was, she had a very abusive father and my dad was a drunk too. It took me a very long time to believe in myself that I was smart. I read philosophy and psychology and write poetry. We are okay now I think she finally realised that after me explaining to her all the things I learnt from psychology. We have a better relationship now, it just had to take me moving out to see that.
I just listened to the part about covert putdowns and my dad's sense of humour came to mind. "Well son, I'm happy you managed to do SOMETHING right in life" after telling him that I'm soon going to be a father myself.
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The Physical neglect point touched me deeply. I remember as a child and teenager being sick and being completely ignored. One night at 14 years old I had a severe asthma an couldn't breathe, I stood up and ask my mom for help and she just turned to the other side in her bed and told me that she wouldn't help me, that she had enough issues with my sister, that she couldn't pay a doctor, that I should wait until I grow up and work to pay myself a doctor.
You just reminded me of when my appendix nearly burst, and my parents thought I was playing sick to get out of school. Of course, even until recently, I'd blame myself. Also, I was 7. 😢 Sorry for what you went through - that sounds really painful. ❤
my 4yr older sister was not only a Narc like our mother but also my physical tormentor. On the daily till I helped her runaway me 11 her 15. Because she was a lesbian for 9yrs. ⏭️ when she was 24 moved back to Texas and i introduced her to her still married YES, married to a man i introduced her to from my work while i was in college. Going on 30 yrs. Our mother died this past July and left us (her & I) a lake house im currently living in. She’s trying to kick me out. Because my mom owes back taxes. Which I’m in contact with the appraisal district to work something out. I can’t help but based on my entire life…..once a Narcissist always a narcissist 💁🏻♀️ The most self-centered selfish people Ever. Hate to say this but do wish 🤔I was the narcissus 🤬sometime instead of the only empath of my family. If I ONLY cared about me. Instead of being raised to take care of everybody except me. And @ 52 making strides to change that. Just wanted to get the above 👆 out. Thanks
My abusive parents have not seen me since 2015. I tried & tried until I realised in my 40's these people never change. As soon as they discovered I was going to therapy & talking about the trauma they put me through all my life, they preferred to pretend I don't exist. Everyone assumes I am a terrible child & that is what hurts the most now. My heart turned to stone many years ago, when neither parent called me to see if I survived a 4 hour major surgery.
They never cared to begin with, I am so sorry for what happened to you. The biological parents of mine is the same way, they never cared about me, the day I accepted was when I was granted true freedom, I am in no contact with them and so happy now
It's so scary:you consider your narc parents your closest people, but they are actually your worst enemy, and have no connection to you whatsoever except their DNA.
I'm a ACOA and a recovering alcoholic. I'm the scapegoat in the family; I realize now at 55 that they continue to abuse me mentally, emotionally, and psychologically. It's so covert that I wasn't aware until recently when I started to learn more about gaslighting, silent treatment, and indirect put-downs. On my last visit with them, I decided I was done with the disrespect I needed a break.
I woke @ 58 yo & oh what difference the recent past 15 months of being woke @ a distance has made. Two more years & my Super Nova SHINE will blast my families darkness into the Light.
The Sadistic Cruelty of what has been over a lifetime to endure solidify why death neither scares or concerns the hundred upon hundreds of time I've faced death as if it's just one of my childhood playmates that much like my Narcopathetic FAMILY is always there to squander my flame pre-ignition. Super Nova pending (no child deserves this WITHOUT God HAVING HIS Devine Reasons).
I'm so sad for you .I know what it's like .I sreamed at my mother one day that she didn't care.Itade no difference ..lm the one who was always willing.
Enjoy your break, I relate. I spent all last weekend in bed in my pyjamas reading, watching movies; cuddling the cats, being the licenced driver in the passenger seat while my Learner driver son drove to the shops. Phone off all weekend. 85% of every weekend, my phone is on airplane mode. Works for me, I'M in control of who I speak to and when. When I do talk, I decide for how long, Boundaries, I'm not sure what brand of family/parent/system I have (narc or other ~ I don't know. All I know is how I feel, and I have permission to feel how I do and self-validate how I feel and act in congruence with that. To negate my feelings and go along with being nice is to commit a violence against myself. And TOOOTALLY it is about them. "Oh you have a good job now at age 54, I can finally stop worrying about you." NICE. Yep it is about them when these things are said. ( 😹) Rant over, but ~ thank you and good luck Janl.8918. No apologies, no crap. :-) Yay us and thanks Jerry.
My narcissistic family had the blunt insulting drunk father, slithering poisoning mother, and flying monkey low-IQ older brother screaming insults for 18 years. And me, the youngest empath who was taught that "Jesus wants his followers to suffer." Not a good combination. I finally left at 18 to work hard in the real world, still healing the original wounds in my 50s.
My parents divorced when I was 5 and I resented him for leaving me with my mom. I didn’t have the wisdom to recognize narcissism as a child, but this is my mom. I believe he got tired of her games after the divorce because he never came to visit us, but he should have been a better father FOR HIS CHILDREN! We had no safe space. And all of us are damaged because of her. My mother is now 80 and I’m torn between leaving her to her own misery and obeying God’s command to honor her. I will say me and my siblings are distancing ourselves more and more from her because the antics continue and we don’t want to be bothered. But, knowing she has only a few years remaining, I’m really not wanting to completely disconnect. My biggest fear is to not have contact with her and the next thing I hear is she passed and no one knew for days, as she lives alone. It’s really hard.
I have the same dilemma. I want to honor my parents according to God's commands but I keep getting hurt over and over again. I don't know since when I started admitting this but I'm now just waiting for all my toxic family members to die... it's the only way I see closure... there's just something about the death of my abusers that makes me feel like I'll be set free. Yes I know they're my father and mother. But they were cruel and narcissistic. I don't want my own family, husband and children to be effected because of my trauma. They didn't do anything wrong but love me and care for me... I need to protect them now. Love shouldn't have to hurt and I'm very sorry you lost your mother. For what it's worth she's in a blissful sleep ❤ if it helps one day you'll see her again. In the mean while, God have mercy on me
I'm coming from the same place as you,. I realised too late that she was a narcissist, but when I did I used some strategies ppl suggested. Like the grey rock method, not arguing with her, and mostly minimising the contact I have with her. Contact by telephone seems to be the easiest for me than face to face. So I still have contact but it's functional, not social.
My mom finally passed. She was close to 92. I constantly left my business and home to fly in and help her cope. I feel I honored her as my mother but it took it’s toll. Thank heavens for Covid. For two years I couldn’t visit at times. I found she actually did better without me seeing her so much. I really wasn’t making a difference and my visits gave her more inspiration to act out. Do less but show up when really needed.
The emotional neglect and sometimes physical neglect, was far worse and is longer lasting than the trauma caused by the events that happened in my childhood. The events that happened scarred me deep but deeper than they needed to be, because I had nobody there to support, love, comfort, listen to, care about, validate, soothe me during those times. I can't help it, I hate my parents whilst simultaneously feeling pity and disgust and guilt all mixed into one.
The pitchforking is a very good comparison. 'I want more information about you'. That's how I spot narcs these days. You asked the rhethorical question, 'Are they writing a book?', I have actually asked people in the past, 'Are you going to write my biography?. They were offended...
I have asked, when someone asks for more information, “I’m not sure why you ask.” Or “How will that information help you, I’m unclear.” Or “Maybe we should just take it slow, there will be the right time for these answers…what did you do this past weekend?”
it took me 60+ years to finally hear my older sister's microaggressions. she subsequently tacitly confirmed her dislike resentment of me and after decades of trying to comprehend narcissism and the toxic family, i've had to call time and go no contact. what a truly surreal cruel monstrous terribly tragic dynamic. the destroyer of worlds. 🥴
Damn! My mother loves to control everything... if you shut down TV wrongly she comes with a life changing advice on how to do it correctly! It seems shes always trying to provoke people and when you ask her to shut up she says I'm doing it for your own good and plays victim... 😄
I start to realise that my mother is like one of those machines you used to haver in diners. The ones with all of the records where you can put in a coin and play one. Imagine one with just a few records scattered around like a vending machine that's always empty. That's what she is like. She has only a few operating modes that you have to work out. One of them that she likes to play over and over most through most of the day is "Any thing you can do I can do better."
I used to tell my mom the only time she would talk to me if she wanted me to do something or he was mad at me. Because I got in trouble doing something wrong. And the reality is they don't know you. You're not even a person to them. They had their own messed up childhood.
I raged at my mother in May, because after 4 years of giving me the silent treatment, when she FINALLY agreed to talk to me she told me that it was merely my perception that she was giving me the silent treat. Whaaaaaaat. She not only gave me the silent treatment herself but she drafted in other family members to give me the silent treatment too. All while my dad was angry with me for hurting her! My whatsapps went unread. She didn't respond to texts. When I walked over to her house to give her a letter, she wouldn't take it. She looked around to see if the neighbours were noticing me trying to give her a letter that fell to the ground when she wouldn't take it. So when she told me that it was merely my perception that she gave me the silent treatment, I RAGED like I was plugged in to a generator
A person who pulls the silent treatment is someone who shouldn't be talking to you and who you shouldn't be talking to. I hope you can accept this and your mind will be at peace. Trauma makes our minds be at war with reality and you will do nothing but suffer.
No, my favorite is when you're talking. And asking a couple questions, and they only respond to what they want to respond to. And they ignore the questions that they don't want to answer. That's always fun.
@@Seatonni Sometimes it helps if you make your answer contingent upon them answering your question. You're not going to get an answer to your question, but they'll eventually stop asking theirs. It's not productive, but generally, nothing about these conversations are.
I m 39. My mom was entertaining telling my 11 y/o something inappropriate to threaten him to behave better in school. I asked her not to do that. She started yelling at me..."I never said i was going to tell him." And later said me telling her not to tell him was me chastising her. So a reasonable request as a parent for my child was chastising her. I started to cry about the hopelessness of the situation and she said...well great now I feel terrible..not oh I m sorry but great you are making me feel terrible...I was hospitalized at the time as well.
My enabler dad told me a few days ago "Even though you're an adult we still see you as our child". So why didn't you protect me then if you see me as a child? What an absolute dumbass fucking thing to say to someone. Sorry Dad, I know you said you did your best but I still see you as a lazy coward.
Growing up, we never got any of the love bombing - my dad reserved that for business associates. We - the family - got the rage. My dad has never said I love you to us kids, but he's said it to people in his business. We got the bellowing and tantrums.
You just described all of my childhood and most of adulthood. I left home at 14 and was estranged from parents many periods of adult life. I was once told by a psychotherapist I had been an orphan all my life, ie not had real parents, but I said it's much worse than being an orphan when the parents are still around and abusive. Both parents died in last 3 years and I feel only relief and some sadness that they couldn't have changed and had a happier life, I only feel this sadness because of all the work I've done on myself. Every point of this video brings up memories that caused cptsd, I must refer to this when I go for EMDR soon. Also, you have a beautiful singing voice. Thank you
My narc dad always had a millions of reasons to not do the right thing, but was always extra critical and abusive to us kids. Now that we’re adults, he has selective memory where he doesn’t remember any of it, and believes himself to be a relatively good father bc I didn’t turn out to be “messed up”. Now my sister has become a narc like my parents, the only option is NC or minimal contact..It’s so toxic and unhealthy dealing with these people.
I fucking HATE the "Oh, you turned out fine." argument. Translation: "I'm a good parent because you're not in jail or a permanent resident of a mental institution." By Grabthar's Hammer, what an accomplishment. 🙄🙄🙄
My mother will say she rages on me and tries to control my every decision out of love. I sold my house with out telling her because she is crazy and stressful. She cried and said I hurt her to her heart. Because I say no to her control now. She is trying to use me as a retire plan..and control my money. I no longer give her a benefit of doubt. She is an abuser who has an ego that needs to be fed. Thus channel has helped me heal! ❤
I went very very very low contact like borderline no contact and mine was telling my dad that "It just hurts my feelings that my child doesn't talk to me". I laughed so hard. Boo fucking hoo. My feelings were constantly hurt by her growing up and was always told "get over it". Weird how people don't think about their actions and the consequences that come from it.
I remember my MIL snickered at me when I was talking to my husband, my father-in-law and while waiting in line at a restaurant. I looked at her like she was a 6yr old but she really was 72 at the time. It’s crazy for me to see a parent act like a toddler or jealous teenager. 🙄
My exs mum asked me to write her an email detailing his abuse 'so she could understand the situation more' and discuss with his therapist - he is 29. I did not write that email.
Since April 22, 2022 I have been on a journey to finally find myself. I have felt like a failure for my whole life and I am beginning to see why I did. Things I was taught in my childhood truly effected my relationships outside of the home. I feel especially stupid that it has taken me this long to see the truth. I was successful in stopping the generational trauma as I raised my children basically opposite of how I was raised. They never had to compete with me for a spotlight, I taught and reinforced self love and respect in each of them. But the entire time I knew I was a hypocrite because I didn’t live those principles myself. I’m in the winter season of my life and I don’t know that putting myself through this is going to be worth it in the end. My grandmother had to have been a genius; she taught me to cook, clean, sew, manage a household…all of this being done under the mantra of not needing to be dependent on anyone. I can take care of myself and unfortunately that is where I am at in life; on my own, alone and realizing just how broken I am
@@iluvmusic1710 thank you for the kind words. I did make the conscious choice to have children but the partner I chose didn’t want to be faithful…but I’ve done everything in my power to put a stop to the toxic generational neglect and emotional abuse. Two of my three are of adult age and they are starting to see things that I told them that they would understand one day…taking the high road cost me so much financially but I was playing the long game for the physical and emotional consistently supportive and nurturing for them. I am going to need to work until I drop, but the money spent has been worth it when I can see my young ones being physically healthy, but more important they don’t have the burden of toxicity in their lives… my investments didn’t go into my 401because I invested it in my kids; they are good, kind , confident and loving people…
I suffered all of these. I was alone, an only child of a narcissist single parent who at 78 and in hospice, still emotionally abuses me, gaslighting, verbal put downs. When I did therapy in the 90s, narcissism was not a hot topic. My therapist knew my mom was abusive to me but she couldn''t put her finger on it. Then I returned from my study abroad summer, and my mother's equally narcissistic sister had weaseled her way into the women's group therapy I went to, even gaslighting my therapist. I quit right away but the therapist was blind to what my aunt was doing - stealing and sabotaging.
God bless you ❤I always thought it was normal mother and daughter relationship I’ve only learned about narcissist people and parents in the last 7 years! I’m 55 next week I moved 2 hours drive away. I’m listening to jerry and going to go minimum to no contact ❤
I can believe it because a lot of what therapists study is the extreme personality disorders. They don't seem to study a pattern of externalicing shame via gaslighting, denial, manipulations and projections. My mother would never fit the criteria for a personality disorder, but she is extremely shame-avoidant. So, example, it's not that she had no empathy or patience when I was growing up, it's that I was "sensitive". Another example, it's not that her pain is at the forefront of her awareness and mine isn't, no, in her eyes it's that her pain is real and mine is a grudge!!! On and on I could go, but none of this is in the DSM5, and it's not studied it seems, so you end up with therapists who have 7 years of study but only the last year of their studies is relevant to the issues normal people experience at the hands of other "normal" people!!
As a scapegoated person in the family, I have very limited contact. It's still frustrating to realize the amount of sabotosh that's gone on over the years and that some in the family will only ever know the projected lies and stories.
I was tested in elementary school and my IQ was in the top 2%. I was put into a program for mentally gifted kids. My parents told me I was lazy. No praise. I think they were trying to keep me humble. 😮
No they weren't. They probably were envious of you.. I'm sorry but it seems like they did not want you to excel. I was an A grade student at school. But I dropped out of school at 16 bc my parents didn't want me to be educated (no praise, criticism, secondhand uniform so thin you could see thru it & 2 sizes to big at 15 yrs old, no interest in anything I did at school, no money spent on basic education items and THEY HAD MONEY to pay for it. I wanted to keep learning but couldn't).
i hear that! zero praise. just criticism. slowly erodes your self-determination and all the subsequent possibilities. it began so young and it has utterly destroyed my life.
Being raised by absent narcisstic father and borderline mother caused me borderline and narcisstic personality depression anxiety body imagine issues eating disorder and ocd
Thank you, Jerry; very informative. I am an adult survivor of a violent binge drinking father, and a mentally unstable narcissistic mother. I was parentified all my life: had to care for my siblings and my mother. As a result I have a chronic progressive disability. I finally had enough, and moved 3,000 miles from my family, to heal me. I'm now accused of being selfish, you're not looking after mom, you're just like dad (I don't drink or consume any drugs). Yes, if taking care of myself for once is selfish, I'll accept that. Just sorry it took me 60 years to figure that out.
I hope you are OK My sister ...I'm so sorry to hear that you have been through what you have been through !°° narcissists are dangerous these folks have killed millions people without a gun frankly speaking !!!!
Good for you ❤I wish it didn’t take us that long to look after ourselves and go minimal or no contact in 55 next week I moved 2 hours drive away it hasn’t been far enough my toxic family still get here I use excuse I’m working when I’m not to keep people away aswel sending blessings from the coast in the uk 🇬🇧
You've just described my childhood! This was why, even as a nurse, I couldn't love my mom as a daughter when she died...she'd destroyed my love for my mother.....😢
It’s not just the parents. I had a brother who hated me for as long as I can remember. I was the scapegoat and my reality is always a lie, my mother buys into it. They denied all the abuse. My farther had to ways silence or rage.
I have a scapegoat workshop coming up. Check out my website soon for details. I’m sorry to hear the abusers in your life have denied it. Silence and rage is not love and not normal. You are as lovable as they think you are not!
@Kelly-pp1et the same with me my siblings treat me like a freaking disease. I been sheltered and suffered from Autism, social anxiety....and she would insult me infront of her hookups! she in her 40s. I'm 31. ..I have brothers are just like her...always felt like a stranger
@@Dana93Korn family is not blood, dear. These people project their shadows on us. F…k them and if you haven’t, go no contact. I moved to a different continent.
One saving grace was that my mom was too busy in her own life to micromanage me. I went through all the rest. It's amazing any of us (kids of narc parents) survived, really. My mom's abuse sent me to the hospital in an ambulance many times, and when I stood up to her and called her out for lying about it she reported me to the police and tried to set up one of my kids to get arrested and the other institutionalized. She was trying to get me involuntarily committed as psychotic to avoid the consequences of her actions. She has no conscience and got the rest of the family to believe her and threaten me. I've seen a lot of my friends go to an early grave from this kind of abuse, it's serious. I know a lot of people roll their eyes when you say "narcissist" but this is no joke.
Hello, my name is Donna and I am an alcoholic/ACOA/ADON. (Hi, Donna.) I quit drinking when I was 28. I'm recovering from recent homelessness. My husband and I are recovering from my rages. Our five surviving cats are my emotional support animals. I was retired prematurely from legal aid due to the disability of C-PTSD, which I believe is connected to having misophonia, which ruined my life and career. I was a Lost Child who became a Scapegoat when I had the unmitigated gall to marry, to love someone more than the narcissists. I want to thank Mr./Dr. Wise here for keeping his delivery clear and free of triggers such as lip-smacking and throat clearing; and to compliment his marvelous tenor voice. But mostly for keeping his delivery clear and free of triggers. I'll be listening to more videos.
One of my CN mother's most amusing projections was years after I had went no/low contact and had almost no contact with all family members was to scream at me ' ALL YOU DO IS INTERFERE IN EVERYBODY ELSE'S LIFE !' . I had made the error of picking up the phone before realizing it was her .
Dayum, the best 25:30 I’ve seen on TH-cam addressing this topic; he got to the point and spoke of other tactics I had forgotten about as a kid. He articulated the behavior and it’s impact on my psyche and my soul….
Covert putdowns are big in my family. I never considered them as actually being a thing and denied them as being a thing for most of my life. I think it was because all of the encouragement and compliments that I had received were actually just covert put downs.
The passive aggressiveness conversation is like insunuated that you're less than me so I'll take the chance to cut you down because you trust me to be fair in our encounter. You just can't give them the opportunity to even speak to you sometimes because in these hives, there's a secret about you, but you're always the last to know. Childish adult behavior. I thought we were supposed to be elders and be deserving of respect when we aged? What ever happened to that fantasy? It won't be a fantasy for me. I'll stay by myself and let the real God guide me. Not some false pride to bow to. It's all crazy fear of the imaginary judge of "The Family". It's not even real. "Ohg, but they might talk bad about me." Bak bak bak, like a hen house spreading like wildfire looking for, even making up something, anything rather than setting an example like a real Cristlike man or woman might do because it would make someone elses life. Better. Maybe if we all did that the world would be at peace. For once. Youre right Sir. We need to see what blinded our parents to act this way. This isn't love.
I'm so scared right now my whole life is this right now 😭 I'm in my life right now I'm not ok mentally I wish I had money to get help I can't get help no one to help me through this my husband doesn't get it I don't think I don't believe anything about myself
Oh my I feel personally attacked lol self care, or lack of, is me! I’m doing better, realizing that I HAVE to eat, I need to feel good inside, and it’s ok to take the time to take care of ME. I still struggle immensely with food and cooking for myself.
My dad would get angry at me when I was afraid he’d run over my cats. I watched him back over a sleeping cat with a tractor before I could say stop. He did this more than once and after it happened he would just go silent and never mentioned that he actually did the thing he said he never did. This shaped my future. I went into animal care because I wanted to protect my cats.
I also went into animal care work place because of the neglectful conditions my father's livestock and poultry were kept in. He bellowed at my sister and I to take out the garbage and then told us that he had hit the family pet cat over the head with a shovel because she had rabies. Sick individual. We were not able to bury her (she did not have rabies). We just had to keep a stiff upper lip and get on the school bus.
Our son’s biological mother has been diagnosed w histrionic, personality, disorder. Had no idea what this was until our son who was almost 9 at the time came home from a visit w his mom and told us that she forces him to take showers w him. He showed me ( his dad’s significant other) how she was washing her privates in front of him. As a woman, I literally couldn’t breathe or process what he was telling his dad & I. It took two wks before I, myself called a crisis center. We pd for our son’s biological mother to be assessed. We went to court and even the judge couldn’t process what our boy had been thru bc legally the biological mother has rights. A yr later our son had a 5 hour visit w his mom. His older brother molested him. Marks were left on our son where his older brother had cut and strangled him. We are still fighting for our son in court. Everyone needs to be aware of this kind of narcissistic, abuse. Otherwise the curse continues and others are hurt.
wtf???? I’m so sorry for these monstrosities. Why can’t you stop him from visiting since you adopted him, there is no obligation to visit his biological mother. He is YOUR son legally. Am I missing sth here?
I can relate many of the traits to my mother, who exhibits pronounced narcissistic traits. Like many, I'm still working out how to handle the past and deal with the way I was raised. Hardest part is getting over the lies and mistruths about our place in society and the victim mentality. Its often so much gaslighting that your entire life and worldview growing up has to be discarded as an adult as if you were cocooned away from reality. Ideological/political attitudes played a strong role in my family's mythology, where healthy, realistic aspects of "the other side" politically were continuously portrayed as only negative so that any success or independence was seen as evil. In retrospect, control where the enmeshment of all being stuck in the same place allowed us to be collectively "stuck" as a family. Another one you nailed for my family was the malignant projections. Super harsh criticism and disregard for us but in turn fragile as a delicate flower. I wonder if anyone else here feels similarly in one regard to me: I don't feel sadness or shame or regret or bitterness, but furious and righteous anger. Having cut ties from unhealthy family relationships, while maintaining healthy and mixed ones, I've been told "can't you see you're hurting your mother through not talking at all to her?". And my response is always "GOOD, I want her to hurt, because that is justice.". Love the memes about the cycle-breaking oldest siblings who become so done with the toxicity, we get hyper-combative with the toxic parts of the family.
My parents did very little parenting. Kids need healthy guardrails. They were not parents. My father was bullied by mother. Later, I wondered why he stayed for more than 50 years. My mother was very negative and creepy. My father was decent and passive. It took me years to have a backbone and I fell for controlling, critical, and dishonest women. I do my best to learn and grow. What a trip.
Thank you, thank you, thank you for this! For me, it is healing simply hearing how common the awful things I experienced in childhood are. It isn't me. The first time I went to the dentist was when I was twenty-one and found a coupon for a free visit. So much of what you outlined was so upsetting, I wept like a baby listening to you recall my childhood. But there is so much peace and freedom knowing that it wasn't me. Millions of parents were like mine and millions of people got the same or worse treatment. I wasn't bad and I didn't do anything to deserve the treatment I got, and neither did the rest of us. Thank you!
Reading your your words made want to cry. I remember when I first started discovering the truth about abuse and my family's "love". Please know that I'm sending you virtual love and hugs!! ❤❤❤
I lived a long time thinking there was something wrong with me and as it turns out, I was the normal one. Keep looking forward my friend. And peace be with you.
I love that you just went full in and called them crazy people, tbh that felt good hearing you just say it, yes they are crazy. I love the strategies you’re giving us, I really appreciate this
Wow, every single example you mentioned hits home with my mom. Even at the end when you said, “what’s going on? Are they writing a book?” In regards to the toxic parent asking too many questions… My mom is currently writing a “memoir” that is suppose to be about her life but instead is primarily about mine and all the times she took me to auditions, etc. My mom was not only a stage mom growing up, she also had a severe case of munchousen biproxy and kept me sick to be paid by the state to be my “caregiver” when all along it was me taking care of her emotionally while being mentally, spiritually, psychologically and even physically abused in the process. Was recently diagnosed with a severe case of CPTSD from all of the severe trauma throughout the years. 😔
I'm writing a book about my crazy baby boomer father that runs a slum lord ice business that he uses to perpetuate abuse, my mom is an infinite helper and never stand up to him. Cold as ice a classhole chronicle it's a,play on the last name.
My mom was talking about her intimate life with my father, when I was under 18. I couldn't understand it, and I was disgusted. I wasn't talking to her about my intimate life, but she was talking to me as if she was my daughter.
I used to think I only suffered emotional neglect because I "had all I needed," so there wasn't possibly a chance I suffered physical neglect but I'm starting to wonder if this was entirely the case. I was never taken to the dentist (and now I'm an adult with severe self esteem issues due to my bad teeth), never taken to the doctor unless I was really ill, whenever I got sick it was treated like a burden on my mom who was being inconvenienced (not that she ever went through much effort when I was sick, the best I could hope for was some tylenol and a lemonade), I genuinely don't remember eating dinner, she didn't care if I went to school on an empty stomach, I remember making food for myself as young as 8 and I have no idea where she was during all of this. clothes and shoes were usually gifts or hand me downs. birthdays were just another day. I didn't starve, I had clothes and lived under a roof with hot running water and internet, etc, so I always thought I didn't suffer physical neglect, but I realize now that I probably did, if only slightly. we were poor so I never thought to question these things, but I realize now that had my parents prioritized me and my siblings I shouldn't have had to live like that. whenever I brought these issues up with my mom she would always bring up the fact that _she_ never went to the dentist, and _she_ had even less clothes than I did, always centering herself, always expecting me to be understanding but never making any attempts to understand me. I used to make a huge effort to understand her and where she was coming from and her traumas but, due to some personal events, I reached a breaking point and just don't care anymore. I won't go no contact probably, but my parents are no longer privileged to have access to my real self and real life.
I am 59 years old and I am only now realizing that my mom was narcissistic. I look back at my child hood and adult hood and now I see all the times that my mom made feel like I could never handle things on my own. She made me feel like I always had to look up to her and admire her and always get her permission to do things. When I told her once that I wanted to get a job with an airline or at the airport, her response was to say. you will never get a job at an airline or with the airport. you can not do that. When i did get job with the airport she was embarrassed. So many times I have tried to talk with her and she would always either ignore me or say I was not remembering what really happened. I feel like I am such a broken person that i will never get better.
For years my mom would tell me that I’m so pretty but if I lost some weight then maybe I could find a bf. I think this is what caused my low self esteem and shame of the way I look
You covered it all. It's good to categorize the situations that create the confusion. The childhood trauma follows us well into adulthood and even after the parents have passed on. In fact, the distinct memories can come up, even when we are in our senior years. The self-care is necessary and it must be defined, in order for us to better understand our feelings. Thank you for this very wise compilation of information on the issue.
My sisters do this smear, scapegoat, pitchfork routine. Parents are gone, we’re in our 60’s but the “Golden Child” has taken over the role of head Narcissist. Has always used stonewalling as punishment etc. Painful to be exiled by my entire family including the extended family members. Golden Child even actively works on looping in my adult children. My experience with narcs is they leave no stone unturned in order to exact as much pain and damage as possible once you become aware or won’t engage in their wants and needs including fawning. It’s bad. There’s always a Scapegoat and now it’s me. I used to be the one helping out and listening to everyone. Devalue Discard cycle was inevitable.
Pitchforking and caballing are new terms (reputation smearing is not)...I've seen this in the workplace. This is going to help a lot of people give labels to what has happened to them, and to begin to understand the common tactics narcissists use to control, manipulate, and disparage people. Unrelated: you have a smooth, melodic voice.
One day I was at my aunt’s house and she showed me photos of my mother’s 70th birthday party from a couple of months earlier with all of the extended family there except me (because I didn’t even know about it). The next day I visited my mother and asked her about her 70th birthday party and she said, “I never had a 70th birthday party”.
I was at a large family gathering two days ago. I've gone "limited contact" with my immediate family but told them I would be at extended family events. I was standing near my mother, when one of my uncles came over and told a story from our collective past, about a time when I was a teenager and did something that upset my mother and the way she reacted. After the event, my dad contacted me and said that my mom was very, very upset but that she was mostly concerned that "I would be upset by what my uncle said". I wasn't upset in the slightest, because it was something that had happened, it was the truth. I said, "I'm not upset in the slightest. It's just facts of the past. And, I'm not the one who's been trying to ignore and avoid these facts." I'm sure she was quite upset. Her entire goal regarding the way either of us has acted or responded in the past has been to ignore it, deflect it away, avoid accepting accountability, etc. My entire goal has been to talk about these things because they had such an effect on who I am and the way our family is today. Grow up, mom.
00:39 🚸 Narcissistic parents often practice emotional neglect, focusing on themselves and neglecting their children, leading to self-neglect in adulthood. Breaking this cycle requires prioritizing self-care. 01:45 🎭 Gaslighting creates confusion about reality in children of narcissistic parents, eroding trust in their own perceptions. Recognizing and affirming your reality is crucial for personal growth. 03:22 🤐 Stonewalling and silent treatment can make children feel responsible for their parents' unhappiness. Learning to set boundaries and recognize the emotional manipulation is key for healing. 04:15 🔄 Covert put-downs, delivered subtly, can be traumatic. Recognizing these hidden insults and building self-awareness are crucial for breaking the cycle of internalizing negativity. 06:28 🗣 Verbal abuse, beyond overt put-downs, can be scathing and damaging. Building confidence and setting boundaries are essential for overcoming the impact of verbal abuse. 09:21 🤢 Narcissistic parents may sabotage and feel pathological envy, leading them to undermine their children's success. Understanding this behavior helps in maintaining self-worth. 10:57 🌡 Hot and cold behavior, characterized by love bombing and punishment, can be emotionally confusing. Developing boundaries and recognizing the manipulation are vital for stable relationships. 13:04 🤬 Rage attacks and emotional abuse can induce fear. Reducing the emotional impact of love bombing and intolerance for rage attacks is crucial for emotional well-being. 14:11 🕹 Micromanaging by narcissistic parents hinders the development of self-management skills. Learning to know and trust oneself is essential for breaking free from micromanagement patterns. 15:46 🚫 Neglect and physical deprivation, including emotional and physical neglect, can hinder adult self-care. Learning to prioritize one's needs is essential for healing from neglect. 17:25 🔄 Triangulation in relationships within narcissistic families involves unhealthy dynamics. Breaking free from triangulation requires establishing healthy boundaries and avoiding emotional enmeshment. 19:44 🔥 Pitchforking and cabaling involve group dynamics against a family member. Recognizing and avoiding these toxic patterns are crucial for maintaining personal well-being. 20:51 🎭 Scapegoating and smear campaigns can tarnish one's image within the family. Maintaining a strong sense of self, self-esteem, and self-confidence helps mitigate the impact of scapegoating. 22:37 🤐 Covert emotional incest and parentification involve inappropriate sharing of personal details. Setting boundaries and seeking external help are essential for breaking free from these patterns. 24:27 ⛔ Sexual abuse and coercion may occur in narcissistic homes. Acknowledging and seeking help to heal from such trauma is vital for personal well-being.
My mother doesn't seem to fit in 100% to any one category (i.e., narcissistic, borderline, codependent, etc), but it's interesting how similar some of the traits are. I have C-PTSD and I woke up this morning remembering how my mom wanted me to use my PTO and vacation time from work to go on vacations with her to places that SHE wanted to go.
My Mom would want me to use it to serve her. She'd ask for the vacation money I'd use on myself to pay for her wants and needs or to give the money to needier family members that she determined were worthy and entitled to it
Narcissism is on a spectrum. The low end of the spectrum. Having some let's you know you're in the right direction. Look up complex b personality disorders in the dsm5. She may be further down the scale. Closer to psychopath. Not all psychopaths kill. Some don't need to in order to destroy someone's self. She may have histrionic personality disorder or may be a sociopath. There are also other personality disorders on the spectrum. I hope this helps.
Yep they point out all your faults & joke about it, keep putting you down but say oh we love you anyway!! Like they have to tolerate your existence... it just saddles them with a lifelong belief they aren't enough!! awful thing to do to a kid 😡
Im really thankful for this video! When I talk to friends it's very hard for me to explain my experiences. I felt trapped in this repetitive negative relationship with my mother , and it broke my heart. I was blessed with a new job opportunity! Which required me to move a hour away! It's the best thing that ever happened to me! Im starting to find myself and its beautiful! Im making new friends! And im so amazed because people like me! Everywhere I go! And it's so refreshing 😊 now I have the time to heal! And watch videos like this! Thank you
Gee, I knew I lived in a dysfunctional household growing up, but now I see I actually have a whole grab bag of assorted dysfunctional themes..guilt, co-dependency, enabler, rescuer, the comic relief, scapegoat, enmeshment, lost child ,handyman(actually girl), loyalist(to a fault), etc. etc. Imagine being an 'acting out' child back in the sixties in Catholic school. I was always disrupting the class, oh sure, my classmates loved it, the nuns/teachers, not so much. Thinking back, not once did any of them think to ask me if there was 'anything' going on at home. They just assumed I was just a problem kid who was unruly and was poorly disciplined at home. Oh if only they knew. My (older) brother would just go into fantasy land, I on the other hand felt everything, every emotion, every fear. I disguised it all with comedy and promiscuity. In '78 when my parents split, what do you think my (narcissistic) dad said to me as his suitcases were packed and ready to leave for Vegas, and I didn't want to stop hugging him to say goodbye (for how long I didn't know)...he said to me, Dina, don't do this to me...really, don't do this to You!? It would be ten years before I would actually see/visit with him again, I was actually fifteen when he left us, so no I wasn't a toddler or preteen when he left, but anyone knows that adolescence is hard enough to deal with emotions and self identity/esteem. Divorce/separation is hard enough on a child, but to deal with it in adolescence can be even more traumatic..and it was. Fast forward to the relative present, after twenty years of my father being absent from my life, my mom felt 'sorry' for him after all his siblings passed away and he had 'no one left' in Vegas, my mom took him back,🤷🏼 I think it was back in 2000. I told her she was making a big mistake, but he brought back all his 'baggage' with him, with the same narcissistic, alcoholic traits and behavior, it was like he never left. Fast forward to the (real) present(2024), 'somehow' I have become the caregiver/caretaker for all, my mom, my dad, my brother, my disabled sister..because I have allowed it, I know. My dad is so good with that fourth Commandment, honor thy mother and father, I'm like yeah dad, after you've broken at least half of 'em. He tells me, you know you and your brother weren't babies when I left to Vegas. I was confused, I didn't know there was an expiration date on fatherhood! The trajectory my life took after he abandoned us led me on a very rebellious, 'looking for love in all the wrong places' wayward path. But I ask myself, how better/healthier would my life(and my brother's) have been if he never left? Not much better I'm sure, with the alcohol, the gambling, the(vicious) fights between him and my mom, either way not a healthy, wholesome environment. And my mom, God love her, that's a whole other web weaved.. So, my dad now 87, I have had no contact, except with social workers, aides, etc. And now in his eyes I am the worst daughter for not being his doormat, I mean his errand girl, I mean, well, you know what I mean. Needless to say, I would never abandon him, as a person, as an elder, but as a father daughter relationship goes, sadly I don't even think that relationship ever existed. Still, I keep hope alive, and at 62 I proceed with caution in relationships. Actually, some of my best encounters, conversations are with people/strangers I meet along the way. Our conversations are brief, some edifying, and then we just go our separate ways. No baggage, no time or need to gossip, just a short, pleasant memory. And the smiles are a bonus I store in my memory box...❤
Oh my goodness, apart from U aving a Sibling, this is so like my story & I'm now 60, back home to care 4 elderly parents last 5yrs after going thru all sorts of mental health & emotional issues when I took off overseas age 25. I carved out a life as the Empath I am & my 14yr marriage was fine - until he joined a Cult & 2yrs later discarded me like Trash overnight & I lost everyone & everything I loved - me included. I didn't respond to 2yrs outpatient therapy so Residential Treatment was only option left 4 me to av any hope of regaining myself. I couldn't get it cos too expensive so wen I moved back 5yrs ago to care 4 elderly parents as their only child - after I thought I'd get help in my home country which I was refused - I been living w/them - only to be Verbally Emotionally and Physically abused ... To my Horror I realize it's exactly wot I endured as a child 💧 yet I'd been blamed 4 being bad - it was all Lies. I'm living it again. This is 2 much 2 cope with as in physically now sick from untreated Complex Ptsd that started 12yrs ago, yet my medical Insights know this was triggered from my child. I'm not allowed to express any emotions, thoughts, opinions or anything. Mum's in bed most day, Dad's bin her carer for decades yet now he's got Dementia. I came to help - they abuse me, I'm more traumatized - without any help for anything & alone in my room most of day - Mum's so stressed over Dad & my condition they've know about is blamed on me. And Mum's so codependent & feels entitled I can't talk to her cos she turns it around about her illness & pain & dad's... I'm Horrified 😢 - there's no help or support for anything in my overwhelmed Healthcare where I am, I can't afford treatment... Yet coming to terms w/all this is beyond my tolerance. I talked 2 Mum 2 days ago - all she cares about is me polishing my bedroom dresser wen I've not bin able to eat solid food in 5 months, &: Dad's always bin out of control w/anger towards me since childhood - it's not his Dementia ... I get the same thing shoved down my throat daily "homo thy Mother & Father" - wen I'm supposed to deal with their abuse that they feel is their right & I'm just disrespectful & don't love them...they throw this at me daily. I've had more than I can take💔
@Britdv Don't beat yourself up with guilt, but if you must, use a feather. Parents seem to have a universal remote, they know what buttons to push no matter if we're abroad or right next door. It's up to us to break the (vicious) cycle, move forward boldly; we can't control their behavior, but we can control how we react(or not react) to their remarks or insinuations. Have you ever heard the saying, 'detach with love?' Resentment, anger and guilt are only going to fester and make us physically sick. 'Gotta start living in the solution today because tomorrow is not promised. I wish for you inner peace, and pray you will heal..one day at a time.
🤍It’ll all be over soon I promise. And you’ll be free. This was my life. You CAN still heal with work like this. It took me until 55 & I’m still working on it but my life is TOTALLY different now. Don’t give up🤍
When I was younger, I suffered from substance abuse as a coping mechanism for my parents. A little while after beginning treatment, I got into an argument with my parents who then proceeded to tell me that "I'm nothing more than a drunk, f***ing loser that won't amount to anything." Technically I was a young adult at the time, but hearing that from my parental figures burned into my psyche. It never was the same after that.
Wow! what an eye opening dissertation, you were so very clear. here I am 80 years old and did not know those things had names! I am going to go read your free articles, as I often wonder what is my authentic self. Just bowled over even hearing you talk about human interactions. Thank you for your expertise . I am amazed and astonished you genuine interest in helping others.
Idk if my parents are narcissists but they are similar. Definitely covert and overt shamming. When I have made an achievement, it's not that they need the spotlight it's just hardly recognized and I'm made to feel immature for wanting to celebrate. They don't tell me something never happened but they never remember it. Most poignantly that I'm aware of is that my pain is never comparable to my dad's pain. Just an example, I had a muscle spasm that was so painful I nearly blacked out when he tried to make me stand up. They had to roll me into urgent care in a wheelchair and my dad laughed and said I was doing it for attention. Like I broke a bone last year and my first reaction was to try and splint it myself, which I was successful, but I put off going to the doctor until I realized I wasn't going to be able to walk without crutches. But there's no stonewalling or other typical narcissistic behavior. Mainly it's just them acting disgusted by me for being weak, stupid, or "different" like I'm not the child they wanted.
When there’s no reasoning for it and they tell you some delusional lies it becomes hard to hold back. I have found that with myself and with many other people when talking to them about their realizations, it all came down to jealousy. I am glad for all I have been through. There’s no way I would be as emotionally aware, Independent, and confident had I not gone through these trials and tribulations. God helps me too. I know that even if I have no one, I will always have him there with me.
Love your videos. I grew up in 60s. Just realized the last couple years through other creators how well the narcissist label fit my Father. Some of your videos every word describes my entire childhood. My earliest memory we were traveling to California to see my Mom's sister family. We stopped at Hoover Dam. Mom likely pregnant had to pee again. Terrified I cried being left alone with my Father. He put me on his shoulders and walked over to the edge forcing me to look at water 400' below. Panicked that I was going to be hurled over the Dam I kicked myself free and ran across the lot. Mom came back to him beating my ass. I was about 3.75 years old. I just found you a couple days ago. Will definitely watch them all.
My both parents were unscientific, narcissistic personalities, they always contused me with their ideologies, finally I surrendered to their Ill will।now I am destroyed, my story is ended।
So grateful for the information and validation, Jerry -- some of it is really tough to hear (esp if you're offspring who's been yanked back "home" by "parental illness" when you were out there trying to build your own life, and we didn't have this information at the time we were bombarded with the "COME HOME" screams to accurately assess what was going on, ESPECIALLY when we're "only" kids and so society beats you, literally beats you over the head with "IT'S *YOUR* RESPONSIBILITY) buuut it's necessary if we're going to build any kind of life, especially now
39 and just now seeing the truth of everything. And I still live with them. Also just found out I'm autistic. I've got a big dream though. I'm INFJ and found out just recently that I'm smart. Prayers please. I love your videos. I was needing the next teacher and it's hard to find someone good on this topic. ❤
No contact since February for the final time. I had to get away to save myself. Narc mother’s yelling response when I sobbed to her on the phone about my suicidal thoughts…”It’s all about you! It’s all about you!” She poisoned my dog & my dog died in 1999. I could write a novel. I’m sure we all could. I’m done with her & all the relatives
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I've studied narcissism every day the last 3-4 years but this video really nails which of my parents tactics were the most harmful to me as a child. Its sad to listen to but very informative and validating. Thank you
My narc parents just accused me of playing games with them since I stopped responding to their baits and provoking and he became extremely nasty and going to rage for a smallest things and warned me to look for an apartament until end of a year -.-. They never loved me and you can see it as I am looking from a time perspective. Welp it's only confirmed how bad and self centred they are and do not care about nobody else. I am going no contact once I move out.
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Hi Jerry
Thanks for your video
I live in Belgium, my English is not so good. I need to get some guidance in my journey with my parents. My dad is narcissistic I think my mom also. I created some distance as I got older .... now my father demands all my help and presence. His second wife died January 23 and he told me he has not so long to live..... he has cancer. But now I know he can have several years to live..... I regret taking care of him..... I am empty and totally in stress after seeing or hearing him. my life , he wants to control it. My work also, my friends.... did not have the time to celebrate my birthday in April...he told me to cancel all activities.... just be there for him.I cannot hold on.....for years to come...
Are you stating that it’s not OK to mention your sex life to your parent but you can to a therapist how about a friend like a best friend if it’s very confidential and they keep it to them selves? Where are the lines drawn? Is it considered a national if you talk about very private personal things with a friend or how about a therapist? There just seems to be so much gray area there. I do see what you mean there or covert narcissist do gather information with asking you a ton of questions and they’re just using it to use it against you were trying to delete you as somebody that is true it’s almost like to write a book I guarantee it’s true they are, and you’re the star that they’re gonna punish.
I finally said goodbye to my father after more than 30 years of continued trauma. Honestly, the hardest thing to deal with was the guilt other people put on you for doing so. Those people who do not understand what it is like to deal with toxic parents, it's exhausting and it's okay to walk away from it.
I’m here to motivate me to not respond to some 11 pm bs text from my dad. At 37 😅
I had to do it about 15 years ago when i was 50. It was very difficult but immediately my husband, son, and I began to heal. I had to do the same with a subbing who controlled the family. Peace is very sweet. It took a long time for me to learn to love myself and so neglecting myself. It made me a better wife and mother and friend.
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Tell those people they are lucky that their parents haven't invoked those emotions in them. Don't take a blessing for granted. Watch their face go blank 😆
Same boat ❤
I am sooo sorry for my inner child. I started to be my self at the age of 52.
@@amberv4223 yess. Support here!
Much love to you
Same.. I'm 45 and finally snapped with mommy dearest about 4 months ago. Never again. Blessings to all of us on this healing journey. ❤
I hear you, I found out at 40.
i was 65!
I bought myself a hat. My Mum took it off me and tried it on and said, "it looks better on me." It sat on top of her wardrobe for years and she never wore it once.
I cannot even fathom this. I am just so sorry. How are people's children not everything to them 😢
My mother-in-law is like this. I should have never taken her to get my wedding dress. 😢
I went to nursing school so I could take care of my mom in her old age....her idea, her words...shocking. I know your feeling
How awful to feel dismissed, disrespected, invisible, and unworthy.
When I was 16, I cut up my favorite and newly purchased green shirt and threw it in the trash because my mother kept trying to wear it. (As a young girl, she already had a lot more than me and wouldn't share it with me.) 😂 I'm glad I did it
Imagine being held back your entire life, and only discovering as an adult that what you've experienced actually had a name and you could have prevented it had you only knew about all this terminology at an early age.
You could not have prevented it. Don't do that to yourself. You didn't know what you didn't know.
@@curiouscomplex290 True.
I don’t have to imagine, unfortunately. 😒😌
It is what we went through that allows us to see things from said perspective and understand it, otherwise we'd probably be one of those people that claims CPTSD because they got grounded on a regular basis.
Best thing we can do is use what knowledge and wisdom we've gained through our traumas to help and understand others going through bad situations
@@enigmalfidelityone of what people ? i’m confused ab the invalidating comment and who these people are
I was six, sitting at a table, sobbing after being hit in the head so hard my face hit the book. She said " you're to stupid to copy something right " I was six years old in a foreign country tying to learn a new language and didn't know I was dyslexic.
that is f**king awful. i'm so sorry.
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That's so wrong! I'm so 😔 sorry
She should be in prison.
@@Bronte866Abusive parents very rarely land in prison. They pretty much have to put their kid on life support before that will happen. 😓
I decided to just cut all communication with my narcissist mother and pedophile father for my own healing. They adopted me when I was five, they already had two kids and I was just a scapegoat and a plaything for them. Once I had my own kids, I saw the abuse in a whole new light and basically said F*CK YOU and I was DONE!
The only forgiveness I felt I needed to have was to forgive myself for all the wars I waged against myself, for all the self sabotage, I forgave myself. I don’t particularly feel like I need to forgive them but I also no longer let it consume me, I’m just indifferent towards them. It is what it is and I’ve moved on.
Finally someone I can relate too!! I hope you found healing!
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Adoption rarely works. Better to be with a dysfunctional parent or a super young parent...at least there is a real sense of belonging.
Mother Theresa had an adoption scheme of Indian children into USA. I believe this worked because it was open and monitored.
@@fridaytieday”Mother Theresa” has been outed for child trafficking.
I was adopted when I was 5 years-old too. My brother who's 4 years-older than me was adopted too. They adopted another girl and had one girl that was artificially inseminated. The natural born girl was the family golden child. I was at first a black sheep then elevated to secondary golden child when I behaved the way my mother wanted me to behave, but I was knocked back down to black sheep after my adopted black sheep sister left the family. I went no contact with them because I wasn't putting up with their abuse anymore. My parents divorced when I was 15 years-old, so I didn't really have a normal family experience. My father used me as a pawn after I moved in with him because he was trying to control his ex-wife. After I turned 18 years-old, I was of no more use to him and he started being a real narcissistic jerk all the time.
I don't let anyone live rent free in my head and no one shuold. I've used a tactic called negative affermations.' Any thing else you don't like about me?' They eventually run out of material to attract you with. I'm the scapegoat that escaped.Lol😊
Great response.... Thank you for watching.
That's useful, thank you. I said to my mother once, is there anything you know or like about me! I like the idea of is there anything else you ront like ✋✌
Wow, I love that. I have a sarcastic streak and have not used it that beneficially! Good job! 😘👍🏼👍🏼
Sometimes the gaslighting is more subtle ...like the parent is yelling at you and you respond in a normal voice and you are told that you are the one causing the problem..argument
Yes, you’re yelling if you speak sternly or raise your voice a tiny bit, yet they yell ALL THE TIME.
They love to do anything that dumps everything on you, making you the problem.
I vividly recall the first time I chose not to engage my mother with the incessant verbal arguments and stayed very calm, very collected. She accused me of being in a cult, lol. Staying calm and it yelling sent her into a tailspin. 😂
I was told that I was ruining my parents marriage because of all the fighting that I'm causing between my parents. I wasn't the one who cheated in their relationship. I wasn't the one who decided to have kids with a narcissist. I wasn't the one who decided to abuse my kids and not listen to them.
@@madeleinegrayson8372My narcissistic abusive mother accused me if I started singing when she yelled at me. She said I was ignoring her.
"Stop neglecting yourself."...lightning just went through me
My mother would do all of that and more. As an adult she would get me to a breaking point (provoking and denying stuff, smiling to my face while saying that all the wrongs she did to me didn't exist) and than record me while I was raging. Then she would let other people listen to those recordings so I would be considered like the crazy piece of shit that she was. Honestly I understand why some people end up killing themselves or their parent. I want out myself. She stole my life, my choices, my future, the person I was supposed to be. And she doesn't understand why I can't stand her
It’s not too late to start building the life you want. You’re worth it.
It’s an awful trap!….Been there myself…..
the best thing you can do is free yourself from her and get away when you can and go no contact. Then you get to work some more on your healing and be the person you were meant to be, surrounded by people who genuinely love and support you.
Good luck to you!…..🍀
Your independence from the crazy people of the FAMILY is your best revenge!
Go no contact. It's your only hope. Narcs are pure evil. The best thing my narcissistic mother did was die.
It’s so sad to see all the advice to go no contact. These are also hurt people who did not get their cup filled with love. Pray for them. Don’t do things you will regret when they die. Vengeance is of the Lord.
"Parenting ends at 18." It took me until 39 and a half to figure it out and set a boundary. My mother embarrassed me in front of my family. "Tell your grandma 'thank you,'" she said as we left a holiday dinner. I had already talked to my grandma privately before leaving, so i ignored my mother's direction and internally rolled my eyes. Having not gotten the response she wanted, my mother again, more forcefully, demanded: "Tell. Your. Grandma. 'THANK. YOU!'" I snapped "YES MOTHER!" And guess what came next... she chastised me "You're SO MEAN to me!" And later that week, I finally told her to stop treating me like I was 8 years old. I wouldn't say things are great now, but better than they were, at least for me.
Well done! Keep watching Jerry, he will help you so very much with developing your voice.
You're right. As a child, you're doing your level best to make them proud of you, and they see you as competition. You can't please everyone, so you gotta please yourself.
- Emotional neglect
- Gaslighting
- stone walling and silent treatment
- covert putdowns and overt ones
- verbal abuse (get internal boundaries aka thick skin, ignore them!!they are weird animals and arent worth it)
-project their negatives traits on you
- sabotage and pathological envy
- Hot and cold behaviour
- Rage attacks
- micro managing (who are you speaking to, what you eat, what you wear....)
- neglect and physical deprivation
- triangulation (emmeshment)
- pitch forking ( dont join them)
- smear campaigns (maintain self confidence and self esteem)
- parentification, emotional incest
- sexual abuse, coercion
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Thank you. This helps me follow along to the video better. I appreciate it.
Thank you 😊
I experienced everything on the list except sexual abuse.
@@valerier4308same here but we don t know what happens when we were babies.🥹😔🙁
-Divide and conquerers.
My mother would always disagree with me no matter what, she just would never like to accept that I might be right or that what I have to say might be right. She would always question me and make me feel like I was stupid or dumb.
My father was the same. would really like to know why parents do that. He would argue with me that "connections " social, business, political don't exist! Just because he doesn't have any its insanity
@@idontcare9797 I had an IQ test during high school. My narc father attacked me while he was drunk and said "So now you think you're smarter than me."
It was because you were smarter
@@Happydays14385 I think it was, she had a very abusive father and my dad was a drunk too. It took me a very long time to believe in myself that I was smart. I read philosophy and psychology and write poetry. We are okay now I think she finally realised that after me explaining to her all the things I learnt from psychology. We have a better relationship now, it just had to take me moving out to see that.
I just listened to the part about covert putdowns and my dad's sense of humour came to mind. "Well son, I'm happy you managed to do SOMETHING right in life" after telling him that I'm soon going to be a father myself.
The Physical neglect point touched me deeply. I remember as a child and teenager being sick and being completely ignored. One night at 14 years old I had a severe asthma an couldn't breathe, I stood up and ask my mom for help and she just turned to the other side in her bed and told me that she wouldn't help me, that she had enough issues with my sister, that she couldn't pay a doctor, that I should wait until I grow up and work to pay myself a doctor.
You just reminded me of when my appendix nearly burst, and my parents thought I was playing sick to get out of school. Of course, even until recently, I'd blame myself. Also, I was 7. 😢 Sorry for what you went through - that sounds really painful. ❤
Not just narcissistic parents but siblings as well!
Yes, that was my older sister..a mean narc.
exactly
Same
my 4yr older sister was not only a Narc like our mother but also my physical tormentor. On the daily till I helped her runaway me 11 her 15. Because she was a lesbian for 9yrs. ⏭️ when she was 24 moved back to Texas and i introduced her to her still married YES, married to a man i introduced her to from my work while i was in college. Going on 30 yrs. Our mother died this past July and left us (her & I) a lake house im currently living in. She’s trying to kick me out. Because my mom owes back taxes. Which I’m in contact with the appraisal district to work something out. I can’t help but based on my entire life…..once a
Narcissist always a narcissist 💁🏻♀️ The most self-centered selfish people Ever. Hate to say this but do wish 🤔I was the narcissus 🤬sometime instead of the only empath of my family. If I ONLY cared about me. Instead of being raised to take care of everybody except me. And @ 52 making strides to change that. Just wanted to get the above 👆 out. Thanks
It's usually a family dynamic.
My abusive parents have not seen me since 2015. I tried & tried until I realised in my 40's these people never change. As soon as they discovered I was going to therapy & talking about the trauma they put me through all my life, they preferred to pretend I don't exist. Everyone assumes I am a terrible child & that is what hurts the most now. My heart turned to stone many years ago, when neither parent called me to see if I survived a 4 hour major surgery.
Oh no! Unbelievable.
They never cared to begin with, I am so sorry for what happened to you. The biological parents of mine is the same way, they never cared about me, the day I accepted was when I was granted true freedom, I am in no contact with them and so happy now
God Bless You, Dear One. 🙏🏼🤍🦅
It's so scary:you consider your narc parents your closest people, but they are actually your worst enemy, and have no connection to you whatsoever except their DNA.
That is a perfect summary.
Exactly
Family is an F word.
I'm a ACOA and a recovering alcoholic. I'm the scapegoat in the family; I realize now at 55 that they continue to abuse me mentally, emotionally, and psychologically. It's so covert that I wasn't aware until recently when I started to learn more about gaslighting, silent treatment, and indirect put-downs. On my last visit with them, I decided I was done with the disrespect I needed a break.
I woke @ 58 yo & oh what difference the recent past 15 months of being woke @ a distance has made. Two more years & my Super Nova SHINE will blast my families darkness into the Light.
The Sadistic Cruelty of what has been over a lifetime to endure solidify why death neither scares or concerns the hundred upon hundreds of time I've faced death as if it's just one of my childhood playmates that much like my Narcopathetic FAMILY is always there to squander my flame pre-ignition. Super Nova pending (no child deserves this WITHOUT God HAVING HIS Devine Reasons).
I'm so sad for you .I know what it's like .I sreamed at my mother one day that she didn't care.Itade no difference ..lm the one who was always willing.
Enjoy your break, I relate. I spent all last weekend in bed in my pyjamas reading, watching movies; cuddling the cats, being the licenced driver in the passenger seat while my Learner driver son drove to the shops. Phone off all weekend. 85% of every weekend, my phone is on airplane mode. Works for me, I'M in control of who I speak to and when. When I do talk, I decide for how long, Boundaries, I'm not sure what brand of family/parent/system I have (narc or other ~ I don't know. All I know is how I feel, and I have permission to feel how I do and self-validate how I feel and act in congruence with that. To negate my feelings and go along with being nice is to commit a violence against myself. And TOOOTALLY it is about them. "Oh you have a good job now at age 54, I can finally stop worrying about you." NICE. Yep it is about them when these things are said. ( 😹) Rant over, but ~ thank you and good luck Janl.8918. No apologies, no crap. :-) Yay us and thanks Jerry.
I’m 46 and finally figured out the Narcs in my family. Stay strong and safe
My narcissistic family had the blunt insulting drunk father, slithering poisoning mother, and flying monkey low-IQ older brother screaming insults for 18 years. And me, the youngest empath who was taught that "Jesus wants his followers to suffer." Not a good combination. I finally left at 18 to work hard in the real world, still healing the original wounds in my 50s.
My parents divorced when I was 5 and I resented him for leaving me with my mom. I didn’t have the wisdom to recognize narcissism as a child, but this is my mom.
I believe he got tired of her games after the divorce because he never came to visit us, but he should have been a better father FOR HIS CHILDREN! We had no safe space. And all of us are damaged because of her.
My mother is now 80 and I’m torn between leaving her to her own misery and obeying God’s command to honor her. I will say me and my siblings are distancing ourselves more and more from her because the antics continue and we don’t want to be bothered. But, knowing she has only a few years remaining, I’m really not wanting to completely disconnect. My biggest fear is to not have contact with her and the next thing I hear is she passed and no one knew for days, as she lives alone.
It’s really hard.
I feel the same .
I have the same dilemma. I want to honor my parents according to God's commands but I keep getting hurt over and over again. I don't know since when I started admitting this but I'm now just waiting for all my toxic family members to die... it's the only way I see closure... there's just something about the death of my abusers that makes me feel like I'll be set free. Yes I know they're my father and mother. But they were cruel and narcissistic. I don't want my own family, husband and children to be effected because of my trauma. They didn't do anything wrong but love me and care for me... I need to protect them now. Love shouldn't have to hurt and I'm very sorry you lost your mother. For what it's worth she's in a blissful sleep ❤ if it helps one day you'll see her again.
In the mean while, God have mercy on me
I'm coming from the same place as you,. I realised too late that she was a narcissist, but when I did I used some strategies ppl suggested. Like the grey rock method, not arguing with her, and mostly minimising the contact I have with her. Contact by telephone seems to be the easiest for me than face to face. So I still have contact but it's functional, not social.
My story too!
My mom finally passed. She was close to 92. I constantly left my business and home to fly in and help her cope. I feel I honored her as my mother but it took it’s toll. Thank heavens for Covid. For two years I couldn’t visit at times. I found she actually did better without me seeing her so much. I really wasn’t making a difference and my visits gave her more inspiration to act out.
Do less but show up when really needed.
The emotional neglect and sometimes physical neglect, was far worse and is longer lasting than the trauma caused by the events that happened in my childhood. The events that happened scarred me deep but deeper than they needed to be, because I had nobody there to support, love, comfort, listen to, care about, validate, soothe me during those times. I can't help it, I hate my parents whilst simultaneously feeling pity and disgust and guilt all mixed into one.
The pitchforking is a very good comparison.
'I want more information about you'. That's how I spot narcs these days. You asked the rhethorical question, 'Are they writing a book?', I have actually asked people in the past, 'Are you going to write my biography?. They were offended...
Hahaha. Love this remark!
I have asked, when someone asks for more information, “I’m not sure why you ask.” Or “How will that information help you, I’m unclear.” Or “Maybe we should just take it slow, there will be the right time for these answers…what did you do this past weekend?”
Same
it took me 60+ years to finally hear my older sister's microaggressions. she subsequently tacitly confirmed her dislike resentment of me and after decades of trying to comprehend narcissism and the toxic family, i've had to call time and go no contact. what a truly surreal cruel monstrous terribly tragic dynamic. the destroyer of worlds. 🥴
Damn! My mother loves to control everything... if you shut down TV wrongly she comes with a life changing advice on how to do it correctly! It seems shes always trying to provoke people and when you ask her to shut up she says I'm doing it for your own good and plays victim... 😄
I start to realise that my mother is like one of those machines you used to haver in diners. The ones with all of the records where you can put in a coin and play one. Imagine one with just a few records scattered around like a vending machine that's always empty. That's what she is like. She has only a few operating modes that you have to work out. One of them that she likes to play over and over most through most of the day is "Any thing you can do I can do better."
I used to tell my mom the only time she would talk to me if she wanted me to do something or he was mad at me. Because I got in trouble doing something wrong. And the reality is they don't know you. You're not even a person to them. They had their own messed up childhood.
I raged at my mother in May, because after 4 years of giving me the silent treatment, when she FINALLY agreed to talk to me she told me that it was merely my perception that she was giving me the silent treat. Whaaaaaaat. She not only gave me the silent treatment herself but she drafted in other family members to give me the silent treatment too. All while my dad was angry with me for hurting her! My whatsapps went unread. She didn't respond to texts. When I walked over to her house to give her a letter, she wouldn't take it. She looked around to see if the neighbours were noticing me trying to give her a letter that fell to the ground when she wouldn't take it. So when she told me that it was merely my perception that she gave me the silent treatment, I RAGED like I was plugged in to a generator
She was just doing you a favor not talking to you. You're so ungrateful! 😂😂😂❤
They can drive you to it
Sorry you went through that
No contact.❤
A person who pulls the silent treatment is someone who shouldn't be talking to you and who you shouldn't be talking to. I hope you can accept this and your mind will be at peace. Trauma makes our minds be at war with reality and you will do nothing but suffer.
No, my favorite is when you're talking. And asking a couple questions, and they only respond to what they want to respond to. And they ignore the questions that they don't want to answer. That's always fun.
& they won’t let you ignore any questions they ask
@@Seatonni Sometimes it helps if you make your answer contingent upon them answering your question. You're not going to get an answer to your question, but they'll eventually stop asking theirs. It's not productive, but generally, nothing about these conversations are.
Yup, fun. 😒
And when they answer its your last 3 words.
“You’re just the kid - I’m the adult” when you are BOTH GROWN will make you throw something breakable across the room and hope it smashes to pieces
I m 39. My mom was entertaining telling my 11 y/o something inappropriate to threaten him to behave better in school. I asked her not to do that. She started yelling at me..."I never said i was going to tell him." And later said me telling her not to tell him was me chastising her. So a reasonable request as a parent for my child was chastising her. I started to cry about the hopelessness of the situation and she said...well great now I feel terrible..not oh I m sorry but great you are making me feel terrible...I was hospitalized at the time as well.
My enabler dad told me a few days ago "Even though you're an adult we still see you as our child". So why didn't you protect me then if you see me as a child?
What an absolute dumbass fucking thing to say to someone. Sorry Dad, I know you said you did your best but I still see you as a lazy coward.
@@FFlores79 You were *hospitalized*?? Then it shouldn't be all about her feeeeelings, should it?
I'm so sorry you were put through that 😞
That's the secret!
Observe, witness, without absorbing.
What they say, think or feel like, is none of my business.
Never was ❤
You are right. They can say whatever they want it doesn't mean it's true or I have to believe it.
@@DesertSessions93
To be-lie-ve anything per say, when lies abound, never is truly knowing.😘
Growing up, we never got any of the love bombing - my dad reserved that for business associates. We - the family - got the rage. My dad has never said I love you to us kids, but he's said it to people in his business. We got the bellowing and tantrums.
You just described all of my childhood and most of adulthood. I left home at 14 and was estranged from parents many periods of adult life. I was once told by a psychotherapist I had been an orphan all my life, ie not had real parents, but I said it's much worse than being an orphan when the parents are still around and abusive. Both parents died in last 3 years and I feel only relief and some sadness that they couldn't have changed and had a happier life, I only feel this sadness because of all the work I've done on myself.
Every point of this video brings up memories that caused cptsd, I must refer to this when I go for EMDR soon.
Also, you have a beautiful singing voice.
Thank you
Thank you for your kind words
My narc dad always had a millions of reasons to not do the right thing, but was always extra critical and abusive to us kids. Now that we’re adults, he has selective memory where he doesn’t remember any of it, and believes himself to be a relatively good father bc I didn’t turn out to be “messed up”. Now my sister has become a narc like my parents, the only option is NC or minimal contact..It’s so toxic and unhealthy dealing with these people.
I fucking HATE the "Oh, you turned out fine." argument. Translation: "I'm a good parent because you're not in jail or a permanent resident of a mental institution."
By Grabthar's Hammer, what an accomplishment. 🙄🙄🙄
Funny my dad says this because only 1 of his 5 kids turned into a drug addict. It was nothing he did because 1 out of 5 isn't bad right ?! 🙄
The covert insults get under the skin, then fester until the ugliness builds and bursts to the surface ....like an infected wound.
My mother will say she rages on me and tries to control my every decision out of love. I sold my house with out telling her because she is crazy and stressful. She cried and said I hurt her to her heart. Because I say no to her control now. She is trying to use me as a retire plan..and control my money. I no longer give her a benefit of doubt. She is an abuser who has an ego that needs to be fed. Thus channel has helped me heal! ❤
Good work!
I went very very very low contact like borderline no contact and mine was telling my dad that "It just hurts my feelings that my child doesn't talk to me". I laughed so hard. Boo fucking hoo. My feelings were constantly hurt by her growing up and was always told "get over it".
Weird how people don't think about their actions and the consequences that come from it.
I remember my MIL snickered at me when I was talking to my husband, my father-in-law and while waiting in line at a restaurant. I looked at her like she was a 6yr old but she really was 72 at the time. It’s crazy for me to see a parent act like a toddler or jealous teenager. 🙄
I’m so sorry you have a bad MIL. I miss mine, she was great. But this sure sounds like my own mother. She’s so childish it’s ridiculous.
I think it can get worse with age too.
yeah i lived with mine for a year and only just escaped. she terrorised me out of pure envy and coldness
My exs mum asked me to write her an email detailing his abuse 'so she could understand the situation more' and discuss with his therapist - he is 29. I did not write that email.
Since April 22, 2022 I have been on a journey to finally find myself. I have felt like a failure for my whole life and I am beginning to see why I did. Things I was taught in my childhood truly effected my relationships outside of the home.
I feel especially stupid that it has taken me this long to see the truth.
I was successful in stopping the generational trauma as I raised my children basically opposite of how I was raised. They never had to compete with me for a spotlight, I taught and reinforced self love and respect in each of them. But the entire time I knew I was a hypocrite because I didn’t live those principles myself.
I’m in the winter season of my life and I don’t know that putting myself through this is going to be worth it in the end.
My grandmother had to have been a genius; she taught me to cook, clean, sew, manage a household…all of this being done under the mantra of not needing to be dependent on anyone. I can take care of myself and unfortunately that is where I am at in life; on my own, alone and realizing just how broken I am
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@@iluvmusic1710 thank you for the kind words. I did make the conscious choice to have children but the partner I chose didn’t want to be faithful…but I’ve done everything in my power to put a stop to the toxic generational neglect and emotional abuse. Two of my three are of adult age and they are starting to see things that I told them that they would understand one day…taking the high road cost me so much financially but I was playing the long game for the physical and emotional consistently supportive and nurturing for them. I am going to need to work until I drop, but the money spent has been worth it when I can see my young ones being physically healthy, but more important they don’t have the burden of toxicity in their lives… my investments didn’t go into my 401because I invested it in my kids; they are good, kind , confident and loving people…
I understand about feeling broken.
Sounds familiar.
Keep your chin up.
I suffered all of these. I was alone, an only child of a narcissist single parent who at 78 and in hospice, still emotionally abuses me, gaslighting, verbal put downs. When I did therapy in the 90s, narcissism was not a hot topic. My therapist knew my mom was abusive to me but she couldn''t put her finger on it. Then I returned from my study abroad summer, and my mother's equally narcissistic sister had weaseled her way into the women's group therapy I went to, even gaslighting my therapist. I quit right away but the therapist was blind to what my aunt was doing - stealing and sabotaging.
God bless you ❤I always thought it was normal mother and daughter relationship I’ve only learned about narcissist people and parents in the last 7 years! I’m 55 next week I moved 2 hours drive away. I’m listening to jerry and going to go minimum to no contact ❤
I can believe it because a lot of what therapists study is the extreme personality disorders. They don't seem to study a pattern of externalicing shame via gaslighting, denial, manipulations and projections. My mother would never fit the criteria for a personality disorder, but she is extremely shame-avoidant. So, example, it's not that she had no empathy or patience when I was growing up, it's that I was "sensitive". Another example, it's not that her pain is at the forefront of her awareness and mine isn't, no, in her eyes it's that her pain is real and mine is a grudge!!!
On and on I could go, but none of this is in the DSM5, and it's not studied it seems, so you end up with therapists who have 7 years of study but only the last year of their studies is relevant to the issues normal people experience at the hands of other "normal" people!!
covert putdowns. They go in like a corkscrew in our heart ❤️ perfectly said.
As a scapegoated person in the family, I have very limited contact. It's still frustrating to realize the amount of sabotosh that's gone on over the years and that some in the family will only ever know the projected lies and stories.
Same, you reach out. Nobody reached back just to say, "How are you doing sister, I'm here😢
I was tested in elementary school and my IQ was in the top 2%. I was put into a program for mentally gifted kids. My parents told me I was lazy. No praise. I think they were trying to keep me humble. 😮
No, they weren't. They were threatened you. That's jealousy in action.
@@madeleinegrayson8372💯
I think you're both right
No they weren't. They probably were envious of you.. I'm sorry but it seems like they did not want you to excel.
I was an A grade student at school. But I dropped out of school at 16 bc my parents didn't want me to be educated (no praise, criticism, secondhand uniform so thin you could see thru it & 2 sizes to big at 15 yrs old, no interest in anything I did at school, no money spent on basic education items and THEY HAD MONEY to pay for it. I wanted to keep learning but couldn't).
i hear that! zero praise. just criticism. slowly erodes your self-determination and all the subsequent possibilities. it began so young and it has utterly destroyed my life.
I knew the meaning of the words "condescending" and "patronizing" before I was a teenager - don't know how.
Being raised by absent narcisstic father and borderline mother caused me borderline and narcisstic personality depression anxiety body imagine issues eating disorder and ocd
So relatable. I have horrible anxiety and cptsd from my narc abuse.
Thank you, Jerry; very informative. I am an adult survivor of a violent binge drinking father, and a mentally unstable narcissistic mother. I was parentified all my life: had to care for my siblings and my mother. As a result I have a chronic progressive disability. I finally had enough, and moved 3,000 miles from my family, to heal me. I'm now accused of being selfish, you're not looking after mom, you're just like dad (I don't drink or consume any drugs). Yes, if taking care of myself for once is selfish, I'll accept that. Just sorry it took me 60 years to figure that out.
I hope you are OK My sister ...I'm so sorry to hear that you have been through what you have been through !°° narcissists are dangerous these folks have killed millions people without a gun frankly speaking !!!!
Good for you ❤I wish it didn’t take us that long to look after ourselves and go minimal or no contact in 55 next week I moved 2 hours drive away it hasn’t been far enough my toxic family still get here I use excuse I’m working when I’m not to keep people away aswel sending blessings from the coast in the uk 🇬🇧
You've just described my childhood! This was why, even as a nurse, I couldn't love my mom as a daughter when she died...she'd destroyed my love for my mother.....😢
It’s not just the parents. I had a brother who hated me for as long as I can remember. I was the scapegoat and my reality is always a lie, my mother buys into it. They denied all the abuse. My farther had to ways silence or rage.
I have a scapegoat workshop coming up.
Check out my website soon for details.
I’m sorry to hear the abusers in your life have denied it.
Silence and rage is not love and not normal.
You are as lovable as they think you are not!
Me too. My sister goes around saying I’m a weirdo
@Kelly-pp1et the same with me my siblings treat me like a freaking disease. I been sheltered and suffered from Autism, social anxiety....and she would insult me infront of her hookups! she in her 40s. I'm 31. ..I have brothers are just like her...always felt like a stranger
@@Dana93Korn family is not blood, dear. These people project their shadows on us. F…k them and if you haven’t, go no contact. I moved to a different continent.
"For an honor role student you sure are stupid."
Dad told me that in junior high
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The triangle! They had me so wound up i couldn't think straight. So depressed!
One saving grace was that my mom was too busy in her own life to micromanage me. I went through all the rest. It's amazing any of us (kids of narc parents) survived, really. My mom's abuse sent me to the hospital in an ambulance many times, and when I stood up to her and called her out for lying about it she reported me to the police and tried to set up one of my kids to get arrested and the other institutionalized. She was trying to get me involuntarily committed as psychotic to avoid the consequences of her actions. She has no conscience and got the rest of the family to believe her and threaten me. I've seen a lot of my friends go to an early grave from this kind of abuse, it's serious. I know a lot of people roll their eyes when you say "narcissist" but this is no joke.
Hello, my name is Donna and I am an alcoholic/ACOA/ADON. (Hi, Donna.) I quit drinking when I was 28. I'm recovering from recent homelessness. My husband and I are recovering from my rages. Our five surviving cats are my emotional support animals. I was retired prematurely from legal aid due to the disability of C-PTSD, which I believe is connected to having misophonia, which ruined my life and career. I was a Lost Child who became a Scapegoat when I had the unmitigated gall to marry, to love someone more than the narcissists. I want to thank Mr./Dr. Wise here for keeping his delivery clear and free of triggers such as lip-smacking and throat clearing; and to compliment his marvelous tenor voice. But mostly for keeping his delivery clear and free of triggers. I'll be listening to more videos.
I am deeply aware of what I didn't have growing up through videos such as this. I lived a lifetime on what I knew. my whole life was a sad lie
A lie can get up and go miles before the truth can get it's pants on...
True and the flying monkeys eat it up every time. 🤦🏽♀️
One of my CN mother's most amusing projections was years after I had went no/low contact and had almost no contact with all family members was to scream at me ' ALL YOU DO IS INTERFERE IN EVERYBODY ELSE'S LIFE !' . I had made the error of picking up the phone before realizing it was her .
Wow!
Dayum, the best 25:30 I’ve seen on TH-cam addressing this topic; he got to the point and spoke of other tactics I had forgotten about as a kid. He articulated the behavior and it’s impact on my psyche and my soul….
Covert putdowns are big in my family. I never considered them as actually being a thing and denied them as being a thing for most of my life. I think it was because all of the encouragement and compliments that I had received were actually just covert put downs.
The passive aggressiveness conversation is like insunuated that you're less than me so I'll take the chance to cut you down because you trust me to be fair in our encounter. You just can't give them the opportunity to even speak to you sometimes because in these hives, there's a secret about you, but you're always the last to know. Childish adult behavior. I thought we were supposed to be elders and be deserving of respect when we aged? What ever happened to that fantasy? It won't be a fantasy for me. I'll stay by myself and let the real God guide me. Not some false pride to bow to. It's all crazy fear of the imaginary judge of "The Family". It's not even real. "Ohg, but they might talk bad about me." Bak bak bak, like a hen house spreading like wildfire looking for, even making up something, anything rather than setting an example like a real Cristlike man or woman might do because it would make someone elses life. Better. Maybe if we all did that the world would be at peace. For once. Youre right Sir. We need to see what blinded our parents to act this way. This isn't love.
DEFINITELY, not love.
I'm so scared right now my whole life is this right now 😭 I'm in my life right now I'm not ok mentally I wish I had money to get help I can't get help no one to help me through this my husband doesn't get it I don't think I don't believe anything about myself
I had to go no contact. I'm an adult and I parent my own self. I was used, abused, and neglected. (Emotionally neglected)
Oh my I feel personally attacked lol self care, or lack of, is me!
I’m doing better, realizing that I HAVE to eat, I need to feel good inside, and it’s ok to take the time to take care of ME. I still struggle immensely with food and cooking for myself.
Chicken thighs, some spices, in a glass dish. 350 degrees for one hour. Easy mode. 😊
Same
Jerry? When you say “There are good parents out there…there ARE.”
I’m gonna need you to sell it little harder 😂😂😂😂
My family turned everyone against me. Including my adult children… it feels like a crime 😔
Same, siblings thanks to my covert grandmother. .....
My dad would get angry at me when I was afraid he’d run over my cats. I watched him back over a sleeping cat with a tractor before I could say stop. He did this more than once and after it happened he would just go silent and never mentioned that he actually did the thing he said he never did. This shaped my future. I went into animal care because I wanted to protect my cats.
I also went into animal care work place because of the neglectful conditions my father's livestock and poultry were kept in. He bellowed at my sister and I to take out the garbage and then told us that he had hit the family pet cat over the head with a shovel because she had rabies. Sick individual. We were not able to bury her (she did not have rabies). We just had to keep a stiff upper lip and get on the school bus.
@@tjjurake3506 sorry for that. It’s so hard when innocent animals are treated so badly.
WOW, THANK YOU !!! Almost Everything you said resonates with me !!!!!! This touched me to the core !!!
Our son’s biological mother has been diagnosed w histrionic, personality, disorder.
Had no idea what this was until our son who was almost 9 at the time came home from a visit w his mom and told us that she forces him to take showers w him.
He showed me ( his dad’s significant other) how she was washing her privates in front of him.
As a woman, I literally couldn’t breathe or process what he was telling his dad & I.
It took two wks before I, myself called a crisis center.
We pd for our son’s biological mother to be assessed.
We went to court and even the judge couldn’t process what our boy had been thru bc legally the biological mother has rights.
A yr later our son had a 5 hour visit w his mom.
His older brother molested him.
Marks were left on our son where his older brother had cut and strangled him.
We are still fighting for our son in court.
Everyone needs to be aware of this kind of narcissistic, abuse.
Otherwise the curse continues and others are hurt.
wtf???? I’m so sorry for these monstrosities. Why can’t you stop him from visiting since you adopted him, there is no obligation to visit his biological mother. He is YOUR son legally. Am I missing sth here?
Thank you so much. In the midst of confusion, sorrow and loneliness, your perspective gives me insight and comfort. Thank you very much.
Please KNOW that you are not alone. There are very many of us out here who get it. ❤
I can relate many of the traits to my mother, who exhibits pronounced narcissistic traits. Like many, I'm still working out how to handle the past and deal with the way I was raised. Hardest part is getting over the lies and mistruths about our place in society and the victim mentality. Its often so much gaslighting that your entire life and worldview growing up has to be discarded as an adult as if you were cocooned away from reality. Ideological/political attitudes played a strong role in my family's mythology, where healthy, realistic aspects of "the other side" politically were continuously portrayed as only negative so that any success or independence was seen as evil. In retrospect, control where the enmeshment of all being stuck in the same place allowed us to be collectively "stuck" as a family.
Another one you nailed for my family was the malignant projections. Super harsh criticism and disregard for us but in turn fragile as a delicate flower.
I wonder if anyone else here feels similarly in one regard to me: I don't feel sadness or shame or regret or bitterness, but furious and righteous anger. Having cut ties from unhealthy family relationships, while maintaining healthy and mixed ones, I've been told "can't you see you're hurting your mother through not talking at all to her?". And my response is always "GOOD, I want her to hurt, because that is justice.". Love the memes about the cycle-breaking oldest siblings who become so done with the toxicity, we get hyper-combative with the toxic parts of the family.
I get it. My mom is a narc. A bad one tooo
My parents did very little parenting. Kids need healthy guardrails. They were not parents. My father was bullied by mother. Later, I wondered why he stayed for more than 50 years. My mother was very negative and creepy. My father was decent and passive. It took me years to have a backbone and I fell for controlling, critical, and dishonest women. I do my best to learn and grow. What a trip.
Thank you, thank you, thank you for this! For me, it is healing simply hearing how common the awful things I experienced in childhood are. It isn't me. The first time I went to the dentist was when I was twenty-one and found a coupon for a free visit. So much of what you outlined was so upsetting, I wept like a baby listening to you recall my childhood. But there is so much peace and freedom knowing that it wasn't me. Millions of parents were like mine and millions of people got the same or worse treatment. I wasn't bad and I didn't do anything to deserve the treatment I got, and neither did the rest of us. Thank you!
Reading your your words made want to cry. I remember when I first started discovering the truth about abuse and my family's "love". Please know that I'm sending you virtual love and hugs!! ❤❤❤
Good point it wasn't us.
I lived a long time thinking there was something wrong with me and as it turns out, I was the normal one. Keep looking forward my friend. And peace be with you.
I love that you just went full in and called them crazy people, tbh that felt good hearing you just say it, yes they are crazy. I love the strategies you’re giving us, I really appreciate this
Wow, every single example you mentioned hits home with my mom. Even at the end when you said, “what’s going on? Are they writing a book?” In regards to the toxic parent asking too many questions… My mom is currently writing a “memoir” that is suppose to be about her life but instead is primarily about mine and all the times she took me to auditions, etc. My mom was not only a stage mom growing up, she also had a severe case of munchousen biproxy and kept me sick to be paid by the state to be my “caregiver” when all along it was me taking care of her emotionally while being mentally, spiritually, psychologically and even physically abused in the process. Was recently diagnosed with a severe case of CPTSD from all of the severe trauma throughout the years. 😔
I'm writing a book about my crazy baby boomer father that runs a slum lord ice business that he uses to perpetuate abuse, my mom is an infinite helper and never stand up to him. Cold as ice a classhole chronicle it's a,play on the last name.
They used the ice house to film a part of the movie fight valley with holly holm and misha Tate. I have other tie-ins as well
My mom was talking about her intimate life with my father, when I was under 18. I couldn't understand it, and I was disgusted. I wasn't talking to her about my intimate life, but she was talking to me as if she was my daughter.
I used to think I only suffered emotional neglect because I "had all I needed," so there wasn't possibly a chance I suffered physical neglect but I'm starting to wonder if this was entirely the case. I was never taken to the dentist (and now I'm an adult with severe self esteem issues due to my bad teeth), never taken to the doctor unless I was really ill, whenever I got sick it was treated like a burden on my mom who was being inconvenienced (not that she ever went through much effort when I was sick, the best I could hope for was some tylenol and a lemonade), I genuinely don't remember eating dinner, she didn't care if I went to school on an empty stomach, I remember making food for myself as young as 8 and I have no idea where she was during all of this. clothes and shoes were usually gifts or hand me downs. birthdays were just another day. I didn't starve, I had clothes and lived under a roof with hot running water and internet, etc, so I always thought I didn't suffer physical neglect, but I realize now that I probably did, if only slightly. we were poor so I never thought to question these things, but I realize now that had my parents prioritized me and my siblings I shouldn't have had to live like that.
whenever I brought these issues up with my mom she would always bring up the fact that _she_ never went to the dentist, and _she_ had even less clothes than I did, always centering herself, always expecting me to be understanding but never making any attempts to understand me. I used to make a huge effort to understand her and where she was coming from and her traumas but, due to some personal events, I reached a breaking point and just don't care anymore. I won't go no contact probably, but my parents are no longer privileged to have access to my real self and real life.
I am 59 years old and I am only now realizing that my mom was narcissistic. I look back at my child hood and adult hood and now I see all the times that my mom made feel like I could never handle things on my own. She made me feel like I always had to look up to her and admire her and always get her permission to do things. When I told her once that I wanted to get a job with an airline or at the airport, her response was to say. you will never get a job at an airline or with the airport. you can not do that. When i did get job with the airport she was embarrassed. So many times I have tried to talk with her and she would always either ignore me or say I was not remembering what really happened. I feel like I am such a broken person that i will never get better.
For years my mom would tell me that I’m so pretty but if I lost some weight then maybe I could find a bf. I think this is what caused my low self esteem and shame of the way I look
You covered it all. It's good to categorize the situations that create the confusion. The childhood trauma follows us well into adulthood and even after the parents have passed on. In fact, the distinct memories can come up, even when we are in our senior years. The self-care is necessary and it must be defined, in order for us to better understand our feelings. Thank you for this very wise compilation of information on the issue.
My sisters do this smear, scapegoat, pitchfork routine. Parents are gone, we’re in our 60’s but the “Golden Child” has taken over the role of head Narcissist. Has always used stonewalling as punishment etc. Painful to be exiled by my entire family including the extended family members. Golden Child even actively works on looping in my adult children. My experience with narcs is they leave no stone unturned in order to exact as much pain and damage as possible once you become aware or won’t engage in their wants and needs including fawning. It’s bad. There’s always a Scapegoat and now it’s me. I used to be the one helping out and listening to everyone. Devalue Discard cycle was inevitable.
Pitchforking and caballing are new terms (reputation smearing is not)...I've seen this in the workplace.
This is going to help a lot of people give labels to what has happened to them, and to begin to understand the common tactics narcissists use to control, manipulate, and disparage people.
Unrelated: you have a smooth, melodic voice.
One day I was at my aunt’s house and she showed me photos of my mother’s 70th birthday party from a couple of months earlier with all of the extended family there except me (because I didn’t even know about it). The next day I visited my mother and asked her about her 70th birthday party and she said, “I never had a 70th birthday party”.
man, they cant help themselves huh....enjoy your peace, joy, health and prosperity
@@jesussson3467 Thank you.
I was at a large family gathering two days ago. I've gone "limited contact" with my immediate family but told them I would be at extended family events. I was standing near my mother, when one of my uncles came over and told a story from our collective past, about a time when I was a teenager and did something that upset my mother and the way she reacted. After the event, my dad contacted me and said that my mom was very, very upset but that she was mostly concerned that "I would be upset by what my uncle said". I wasn't upset in the slightest, because it was something that had happened, it was the truth. I said, "I'm not upset in the slightest. It's just facts of the past. And, I'm not the one who's been trying to ignore and avoid these facts."
I'm sure she was quite upset. Her entire goal regarding the way either of us has acted or responded in the past has been to ignore it, deflect it away, avoid accepting accountability, etc. My entire goal has been to talk about these things because they had such an effect on who I am and the way our family is today.
Grow up, mom.
00:39 🚸 Narcissistic parents often practice emotional neglect, focusing on themselves and neglecting their children, leading to self-neglect in adulthood. Breaking this cycle requires prioritizing self-care.
01:45 🎭 Gaslighting creates confusion about reality in children of narcissistic parents, eroding trust in their own perceptions. Recognizing and affirming your reality is crucial for personal growth.
03:22 🤐 Stonewalling and silent treatment can make children feel responsible for their parents' unhappiness. Learning to set boundaries and recognize the emotional manipulation is key for healing.
04:15 🔄 Covert put-downs, delivered subtly, can be traumatic. Recognizing these hidden insults and building self-awareness are crucial for breaking the cycle of internalizing negativity.
06:28 🗣 Verbal abuse, beyond overt put-downs, can be scathing and damaging. Building confidence and setting boundaries are essential for overcoming the impact of verbal abuse.
09:21 🤢 Narcissistic parents may sabotage and feel pathological envy, leading them to undermine their children's success. Understanding this behavior helps in maintaining self-worth.
10:57 🌡 Hot and cold behavior, characterized by love bombing and punishment, can be emotionally confusing. Developing boundaries and recognizing the manipulation are vital for stable relationships.
13:04 🤬 Rage attacks and emotional abuse can induce fear. Reducing the emotional impact of love bombing and intolerance for rage attacks is crucial for emotional well-being.
14:11 🕹 Micromanaging by narcissistic parents hinders the development of self-management skills. Learning to know and trust oneself is essential for breaking free from micromanagement patterns.
15:46 🚫 Neglect and physical deprivation, including emotional and physical neglect, can hinder adult self-care. Learning to prioritize one's needs is essential for healing from neglect.
17:25 🔄 Triangulation in relationships within narcissistic families involves unhealthy dynamics. Breaking free from triangulation requires establishing healthy boundaries and avoiding emotional enmeshment.
19:44 🔥 Pitchforking and cabaling involve group dynamics against a family member. Recognizing and avoiding these toxic patterns are crucial for maintaining personal well-being.
20:51 🎭 Scapegoating and smear campaigns can tarnish one's image within the family. Maintaining a strong sense of self, self-esteem, and self-confidence helps mitigate the impact of scapegoating.
22:37 🤐 Covert emotional incest and parentification involve inappropriate sharing of personal details. Setting boundaries and seeking external help are essential for breaking free from these patterns.
24:27 ⛔ Sexual abuse and coercion may occur in narcissistic homes. Acknowledging and seeking help to heal from such trauma is vital for personal well-being.
My mother doesn't seem to fit in 100% to any one category (i.e., narcissistic, borderline, codependent, etc), but it's interesting how similar some of the traits are. I have C-PTSD and I woke up this morning remembering how my mom wanted me to use my PTO and vacation time from work to go on vacations with her to places that SHE wanted to go.
My Mom would want me to use it to serve her. She'd ask for the vacation money I'd use on myself to pay for her wants and needs or to give the money to needier family members that she determined were worthy and entitled to it
Cluster B, for “bullshit.” It’s all kind of the same and tends to wash over around the edges of formal diagnostic definitions.
@@Vapourwear I love this!
Narcissism is on a spectrum. The low end of the spectrum. Having some let's you know you're in the right direction. Look up complex b personality disorders in the dsm5. She may be further down the scale. Closer to psychopath. Not all psychopaths kill. Some don't need to in order to destroy someone's self. She may have histrionic personality disorder or may be a sociopath. There are also other personality disorders on the spectrum.
I hope this helps.
Yep they point out all your faults & joke about it, keep putting you down but say oh we love you anyway!! Like they have to tolerate your existence... it just saddles them with a lifelong belief they aren't enough!! awful thing to do to a kid 😡
Thank you, Jerry. I’m currently working very hard on internal boundaries and agree it’s the key to freedom!
Forgiveness is the key to freedom.
Im really thankful for this video! When I talk to friends it's very hard for me to explain my experiences. I felt trapped in this repetitive negative relationship with my mother , and it broke my heart. I was blessed with a new job opportunity! Which required me to move a hour away! It's the best thing that ever happened to me! Im starting to find myself and its beautiful! Im making new friends! And im so amazed because people like me! Everywhere I go! And it's so refreshing 😊 now I have the time to heal! And watch videos like this! Thank you
Gee, I knew I lived in a dysfunctional household growing up, but now I see I actually have a whole grab bag of assorted dysfunctional themes..guilt, co-dependency, enabler, rescuer, the comic relief, scapegoat, enmeshment, lost child ,handyman(actually girl), loyalist(to a fault), etc. etc. Imagine being an 'acting out' child back in the sixties in Catholic school. I was always disrupting the class, oh sure, my classmates loved it, the nuns/teachers, not so much. Thinking back, not once did any of them think to ask me if there was 'anything' going on at home. They just assumed I was just a problem kid who was unruly and was poorly disciplined at home. Oh if only they knew. My (older) brother would just go into fantasy land, I on the other hand felt everything, every emotion, every fear. I disguised it all with comedy and promiscuity. In '78 when my parents split, what do you think my (narcissistic) dad said to me as his suitcases were packed and ready to leave for Vegas, and I didn't want to stop hugging him to say goodbye (for how long I didn't know)...he said to me, Dina, don't do this to me...really, don't do this to You!? It would be ten years before I would actually see/visit with him again, I was actually fifteen when he left us, so no I wasn't a toddler or preteen when he left, but anyone knows that adolescence is hard enough to deal with emotions and self identity/esteem. Divorce/separation is hard enough on a child, but to deal with it in adolescence can be even more traumatic..and it was. Fast forward to the relative present, after twenty years of my father being absent from my life, my mom felt 'sorry' for him after all his siblings passed away and he had 'no one left' in Vegas, my mom took him back,🤷🏼 I think it was back in 2000. I told her she was making a big mistake, but he brought back all his 'baggage' with him, with the same narcissistic, alcoholic traits and behavior, it was like he never left. Fast forward to the (real) present(2024), 'somehow' I have become the caregiver/caretaker for all, my mom, my dad, my brother, my disabled sister..because I have allowed it, I know. My dad is so good with that fourth Commandment, honor thy mother and father, I'm like yeah dad, after you've broken at least half of 'em. He tells me, you know you and your brother weren't babies when I left to Vegas. I was confused, I didn't know there was an expiration date on fatherhood! The trajectory my life took after he abandoned us led me on a very rebellious, 'looking for love in all the wrong places' wayward path. But I ask myself, how better/healthier would my life(and my brother's) have been if he never left? Not much better I'm sure, with the alcohol, the gambling, the(vicious) fights between him and my mom, either way not a healthy, wholesome environment. And my mom, God love her, that's a whole other web weaved.. So, my dad now 87, I have had no contact, except with social workers, aides, etc. And now in his eyes I am the worst daughter for not being his doormat, I mean his errand girl, I mean, well, you know what I mean. Needless to say, I would never abandon him, as a person, as an elder, but as a father daughter relationship goes, sadly I don't even think that relationship ever existed. Still, I keep hope alive, and at 62 I proceed with caution in relationships. Actually, some of my best encounters, conversations are with people/strangers I meet along the way. Our conversations are brief, some edifying, and then we just go our separate ways. No baggage, no time or need to gossip, just a short, pleasant memory. And the smiles are a bonus I store in my memory box...❤
Oh my goodness, apart from U aving a Sibling, this is so like my story & I'm now 60, back home to care 4 elderly parents last 5yrs after going thru all sorts of mental health & emotional issues when I took off overseas age 25. I carved out a life as the Empath I am & my 14yr marriage was fine - until he joined a Cult & 2yrs later discarded me like Trash overnight & I lost everyone & everything I loved - me included. I didn't respond to 2yrs outpatient therapy so Residential Treatment was only option left 4 me to av any hope of regaining myself.
I couldn't get it cos too expensive so wen I moved back 5yrs ago to care 4 elderly parents as their only child - after I thought I'd get help in my home country which I was refused - I been living w/them - only to be Verbally Emotionally and Physically abused ...
To my Horror I realize it's exactly wot I endured as a child 💧 yet I'd been blamed 4 being bad - it was all Lies. I'm living it again.
This is 2 much 2 cope with as in physically now sick from untreated Complex Ptsd that started 12yrs ago, yet my medical Insights know this was triggered from my child.
I'm not allowed to express any emotions, thoughts, opinions or anything.
Mum's in bed most day, Dad's bin her carer for decades yet now he's got Dementia. I came to help - they abuse me, I'm more traumatized - without any help for anything & alone in my room most of day -
Mum's so stressed over Dad & my condition they've know about is blamed on me. And Mum's so codependent & feels entitled I can't talk to her cos she turns it around about her illness & pain & dad's...
I'm Horrified 😢 - there's no help or support for anything in my overwhelmed Healthcare where I am, I can't afford treatment... Yet coming to terms w/all this is beyond my tolerance.
I talked 2 Mum 2 days ago - all she cares about is me polishing my bedroom dresser wen I've not bin able to eat solid food in 5 months, &: Dad's always bin out of control w/anger towards me since childhood - it's not his Dementia ...
I get the same thing shoved down my throat daily "homo thy Mother & Father" - wen I'm supposed to deal with their abuse that they feel is their right & I'm just disrespectful & don't love them...they throw this at me daily.
I've had more than I can take💔
@Britdv Don't beat yourself up with guilt, but if you must, use a feather. Parents seem to have a universal remote, they know what buttons to push no matter if we're abroad or right next door. It's up to us to break the (vicious) cycle, move forward boldly; we can't control their behavior, but we can control how we react(or not react) to their remarks or insinuations. Have you ever heard the saying, 'detach with love?' Resentment, anger and guilt are only going to fester and make us physically sick. 'Gotta start living in the solution today because tomorrow is not promised. I wish for you inner peace, and pray you will heal..one day at a time.
🤍It’ll all be over soon I promise. And you’ll be free.
This was my life.
You CAN still heal with work like this.
It took me until 55 & I’m still working on it but my life is TOTALLY different now.
Don’t give up🤍
When I was younger, I suffered from substance abuse as a coping mechanism for my parents. A little while after beginning treatment, I got into an argument with my parents who then proceeded to tell me that "I'm nothing more than a drunk, f***ing loser that won't amount to anything." Technically I was a young adult at the time, but hearing that from my parental figures burned into my psyche. It never was the same after that.
Wow! what an eye opening dissertation, you were so very clear. here I am 80 years old and did not know those things had names! I am going to go read your free articles, as I often wonder what is my authentic self. Just bowled over even hearing you talk about human interactions. Thank you for your expertise . I am amazed and astonished you genuine interest in helping others.
Idk if my parents are narcissists but they are similar. Definitely covert and overt shamming. When I have made an achievement, it's not that they need the spotlight it's just hardly recognized and I'm made to feel immature for wanting to celebrate. They don't tell me something never happened but they never remember it. Most poignantly that I'm aware of is that my pain is never comparable to my dad's pain. Just an example, I had a muscle spasm that was so painful I nearly blacked out when he tried to make me stand up. They had to roll me into urgent care in a wheelchair and my dad laughed and said I was doing it for attention. Like I broke a bone last year and my first reaction was to try and splint it myself, which I was successful, but I put off going to the doctor until I realized I wasn't going to be able to walk without crutches.
But there's no stonewalling or other typical narcissistic behavior. Mainly it's just them acting disgusted by me for being weak, stupid, or "different" like I'm not the child they wanted.
I'm crying now but it's a good cry. It is something I needed and now I understand so much more about my parents and my own behavior. Thank you Jerry.
Deal with alot of pitchforking and scapegoating thanks to my envious jealous cult like family who really hates the ground I walk on 😢.
When there’s no reasoning for it and they tell you some delusional lies it becomes hard to hold back. I have found that with myself and with many other people when talking to them about their realizations, it all came down to jealousy. I am glad for all I have been through. There’s no way I would be as emotionally aware, Independent, and confident had I not gone through these trials and tribulations. God helps me too. I know that even if I have no one, I will always have him there with me.
i was SENT TO SCHOOL WITH ONE HUNDRED FIVE DEGREE TEMPERATURE. Teacher was APPAULED
Love your videos. I grew up in 60s. Just realized the last couple years through other creators how well the narcissist label fit my Father. Some of your videos every word describes my entire childhood. My earliest memory we were traveling to California to see my Mom's sister family. We stopped at Hoover Dam. Mom likely pregnant had to pee again. Terrified I cried being left alone with my Father. He put me on his shoulders and walked over to the edge forcing me to look at water 400' below. Panicked that I was going to be hurled over the Dam I kicked myself free and ran across the lot. Mom came back to him beating my ass. I was about 3.75 years old. I just found you a couple days ago. Will definitely watch them all.
My both parents were unscientific, narcissistic personalities, they always contused me with their ideologies, finally I surrendered to their Ill will।now I am destroyed, my story is ended।
So grateful for the information and validation, Jerry -- some of it is really tough to hear (esp if you're offspring who's been yanked back "home" by "parental illness" when you were out there trying to build your own life, and we didn't have this information at the time we were bombarded with the "COME HOME" screams to accurately assess what was going on, ESPECIALLY when we're "only" kids and so society beats you, literally beats you over the head with "IT'S *YOUR* RESPONSIBILITY) buuut it's necessary if we're going to build any kind of life, especially now
So you are a narcissist too.
39 and just now seeing the truth of everything. And I still live with them. Also just found out I'm autistic. I've got a big dream though. I'm INFJ and found out just recently that I'm smart. Prayers please. I love your videos. I was needing the next teacher and it's hard to find someone good on this topic. ❤
Same, I'm autistic! 31...
No contact since February for the final time. I had to get away to save myself. Narc mother’s yelling response when I sobbed to her on the phone about my suicidal thoughts…”It’s all about you! It’s all about you!” She poisoned my dog & my dog died in 1999. I could write a novel. I’m sure we all could. I’m done with her & all the relatives