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Colleen, I am totally sobbing along with you while you say goodbye to the house. Growing up watching you accomplish your dreams and buy your dream house was so fulfilling that this feels emotional for me as well. But, I am so so so happy for you and excited for the next chapter of your life! Remember how bad you’ve wanted this and how far you’ve come, I’m so goddamn proud of you!
Me too!!
I feel the same way! I’m crying right along with her. In a way, we’ve grown attached to this house too. ❤️
Me too 🥹 happy tears 🥹
Agreed!! We all have to get used to this! It hit me when she showed the house all packed up!!!
I agree
My sister taught me when kids hurt themselves one thing to say is... Was that scary? And they'll say yes. And it's just so validating to be able to say that was scary. Colleen is this scary? You get to say yes. I hear you. It is scary. You get to feel scared. We'll be here to listen to you! ❤️
Aww ❤️
The wording is perfect ❤❤
Your comment made me cry more. So beautiful and important❤
I love this so much, you worded it perfectly ❤️
bro stfu. she’s a grown woman. she’s gonna wonder why her kids are having such a hard time and then she’ll just make her life harder with her crying. she needs to grow tf up.
“I needed to fully feel this sadness to make room for the happy ones “ best quote ever thank you
It’s important to remember that we can be sad and grieving while being excited and happy. Sit with your feelings and feel them, yes!!! I’m proud of you.
Colleen, a wise woman named Taylor Swift once said "everything you lose is a step you take." I know moving is really tough and it feels like you're leaving a part of your life behind but one day soon you'll look back and think, that house was nice but this is my home. I can't wait for your babies to have their first steps in this house and for Flynn to go off to his first day of school here. There are infinite memories waiting to be made.
This, a hundred times this 🔼 🙏🏻❤️
Moving is very stressful. Give yourself time.🌺🌺
This is such a lovely comment🤍
Very well said💕
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Colleen, I think you are so impressive! The fact that you have organised Halloween, cared for sick babies, threw them a big birthday party, packed up the house, planning Flynns birthday, planning for Christmas, all while vlogging and working and doing your fundraiser. You're amazing and it is totally normal to feel all these feelings. I think you should be proud of yourself. x
100%! Totally agree; she's an amazing mama! I hope Colleen sees this comment! 😊
100% this 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
👏👏👏 for real!
@@paigeokeefe9721 always undermining powerful women. misogynist
^^ lmao, i just KNEW there was gonna be a comment like this. there always has to be That Person.
A photoshoot amidst moving is the most Colleen thing ever and that's not a call-out, that's literally what we love about you. You navigate chaos like a ring leader and it's glorious.
it's the same energy as her curling her hair while in labor
Change and transition are hard, no matter how exciting things are going to be on the other side. It's such a positive thing that you keep acknowledging what you're feeling. It's also OKAY to feel both. I'm a mom of 3 kiddos; 6m, 2 & 4 and I can completely relate to feeling both excited for the future and needing to grieve the past as we watch our babies grow up in front of our eyes ❤️
Colleen don't forget to show yourself grace. It's ok to be sad.
I agree ❤🎉😊
yes!! colleen every feeling you feel now or later are all valid!!
@@Rachel-di6dr shut up
I'm not going to get this perfect, but my therapist always tells me it's okay to "be dramatic" because we can't control our feelings. Usually we say we're being dramatic as a way to be dismissive of our feelings for the benefit of others. You don't need to dismiss or justify your feelings; your feelings are valid, you cannot control them and being "dramatic" doesn't have to be negative.
@@Rachel-di6dr Even a positive change can be scary and cause sadness. Even if a lot of gratitude and happiness comes too which Colleen has expressed. She is still allowed to feel sad. Just be kind!
I cried immediately after I put in an official offer for my house. Intellectually I knew I was making a good decision, but emotionally I felt like I was making a huge mistake. I wasn't in love with my house when I first bought it, but it turned out to be such a haven during the pandemic and allowed me to do things I otherwise never could have (like adopt a dog). Give yourself the grace of time.
Colleen, changes are scary. But never forget how far you got and how incredible the new adventures are going to be!
Hi Colleen! I’ve been a viewer for a long time and have never commented, but I just have to say I was crying right along with you! You’ve been a part of my daily routine for years, I watch your vlogs every morning while eating breakfast. Your home became a place of “home” and comfort for me too as the backdrop to all these videos! Change is sooo hard and your feelings are completely understandable. Your realness and relatability is what I love so much about you. I know it’s challenging right now but I can’t wait to see you and your wonderful family thriving in the new house! ❤
Same, I've watched her from the beginning and I think I've commented once. I understand what you mean. It's actually really trippy to see the house all boxed up and even when she was walking through I realized I had the layout all wrong in my head. 🥴
Is it weird feeling sad of leaving a house that I've never even been to? I've watched colleen in this house for YEARS, and I was crying as I was watching the the vlog. This is a new beginning, new stories, new adventures, everything's gonna be okay! We love you Colleen❤
As an adult with ADHD that has moved several times, I have cried through every move. Partially because moving requires you to use every part of your brain that is so hard. Organizing, packing, staying on task! It’s the worst! You’re doing fine and tomorrow will be better. Or if it’s not, you’ll figure it out. You can do this!
THIS
Feel those feelings, Colleen
Colleen, I cried with you. You are saying goodbye to a huge chapter in your life. Be kind to yourself and allow yourself to feel all of the emotions that go along with making a big life changing move. The good news is that you are able to start off your journey at your new home surrounded by the people that love you the most in this world and that mean the most to you, you’ll be celebrating your birthday, Flynn’s birthday, Christmas, etc. in this new home and making so many incredible new memories that your new home will feel like home to you rather quickly. Of course you’ll miss things about this home as well, but you will make so many new and incredible memories in your new home as well. I am sure that Erik and you have made the right decision for your children and your family. I hope that the moving process is going smoothly and I wish you all the best. 💞 And I really want to buy your onesie! 😍
grow up, she’s not your friend. you’re nothing more than a monthly dollar to her.
Colleen, i heard this in a song and i think this resembles what your going through and i think everyone needs to hear this, “life goes too fast, heart breaks in two, tough times don’t last, tough people do” -Ben Platt
Can you please tell me the name of the song?🥺 I really appreciated your comment💕
Dark Times- Ben Platt
Listening to that song made my day, thank you stranger ❤
This is an exciting time for all of you. One box at a time, one room at a time. It’s ok to feel sad you are doing this for your children. Remember you will be an empty nester one day. And you’ll get to enjoy your grandchildren and children when the come over. After the holidays and after your tours. You need to go Hawaii. You needs a big break. A time out for Colleen. It will be okay. Have faith. Best wishes for you and your family. Make more beautiful memories.
I just want to thank you for sharing this song. I listened after reading your comment.. also at a time when I needed it the most. Thank you
I am SO glad you had movers come. I was concerned at first in the other video when you said you were moving the next day and I saw things still on the walls, and in cabinets, I was like "Oh no, she has like weeks worth of packing to do!!!" and then you said you had people coming to pack up- that helps A LOT! So excited for this new chapter. It will be weird not seeing you in this house, but we will all get used to the new normal with you. Can't wait to see how this new place fits your family. So glad for you all :)
I think there are some people on here today that don't understand life as deeply and as beautifully as you are living it. I can't tell you enough that the things and ways you choose are so bright in this universe. We are beyond blessed that you take time with us. Thankyou Colleen 💜
Why am I crying too 😢 I never thought I’d feel so attached to a house I’ve never been to before… I love you Colleen
Same! I almost cried😭😭
Me tooo😢
that was all of our houses too especially these past 2 years!🤧
I’m gonna miss it SO MUCH😭
I feel really lucky to have someone to watch who is so real and vulnerable with her audience. You’re not being dramatic. You’re having emotions and it’s expected and healthy! It doesn’t always feel good, just try to let them flow through you and know you have the strength to get through them. Take things one day at a time. Today you are loved and safe. Tomorrow you will also be loved and safe, and you will adjust in your own time. ❤️❤️
Moving is such a stressful experience. I definitely feel a lot of the same emotions you’ve expressed in this video. Thank you for sharing the hard times as well as the good. So excited for the next chapter that awaits you and your family. ❤
Your house is not just your house, it’s your home. Your safe place. It makes complete sense that it’s scary and sad for that to change but you’re about to experience so much happiness on the other side ❤
I have grown up watching Colleen and Miranda! While this is sad, she is entering a new chapter in her life and I’m so excited to see what’s in store for her and her wonderful family! Love u colleen ❤️
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@@paulafamularo5001 I must of done this by accident, as I have no idea
Your feelings are so valid Colleen, change is scary and especially the fact that you're giving up something you love so much!
Change is hard. It is okay to feel and you will find little things to love about this new chapter and by Christmas you won’t imagine it any other way. You are so so strong and inspire me every single day ❤❤❤
I felt the same way leaving my house around two years ago now. I still think about that house a lot because I made a lot of memories there, but that doesn't mean you lose the memories and the people you love. Those things com with when you leave, and you can continue building your life in a home better for your kids, it will get better, it takes time, lots of time in some situations. But once you realize you're happy in the future it makes it all worth it. It is okay not to be okay.
Colleen this is your moment and its okay to feel like this. When we moved my dad was also very sad and even cried but then he made a lot more memories and realized that his decision of moving was great❤️ We are all with u and you all gonna love the new house and will make so many great memories i promise 🥺❤️
Prayers for you! Christmas the crAp out of your new house, it will help you feel better♥️♥️♥️
Seeing the hallway and the room next to the living room all empty and in boxes with movers around made me tear up. I know how hard it is to say goodbye to a place like that. And watching you since before Flynn was born and seeing so much of that space, plus knowing how emotional it was for you, made me so emotional. It feels silly seeing as I've never even been in the house but seeing it like that made me feel everything I've felt having to leave my homes in the past and I felt like I was going through it with you. Please be kind to yourself for the next few weeks as you adjust to the move. I can't wait to see what other amazing memories you and your family make in this new house and all the fun dance parties you'll get to have!
Houses are very intimate settings. Like you talked about, so much of your life happens there. You’re in a new shell to continue your family’s life and that house will absolutely burst with all the laughing, dancing, good days and bad days, memories, and lol your Christmas decorations. Your feelings are valid! Get to know your new shell, and it probably will start feeling like a better fit. ❤
I'm still impressed how you pack up a whole house in 5 minutes 😂❤
@@calliea9064 Omg same
@@calliea9064 same! I was seeing if there was any new vids and I was happy to see a new one!❤
New house with new memories. This is a good thing.
Yeah, impressive movers.
It's not that hard when you can afford movers that will pack things for you.
WE ALL LOVE YOU COLLEEN. Your feelings are so valid and expected. That home meant so much to you and gave so much to you. I promise you once the grieving period ends, you'll make new awesome memories with your family in the new home and these hard days will be a memory in the past. You stayed SO strong when the twins were in the NICU and even though it was hard, you made it through. You can do this queen. Remember your shirt, "women are incredible"
SO PROUD OF YOU COLLEN CONGRATS TO YOU AND ERIK ON THIS NEW CHAPTER AND ALSO CHRISTMAS IN THE NEW HOUSE WE CANNOT WAIT 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
Colleen, my family can’t have Thanksgiving or Christmas because I have cancer and the expenses have taken everything from us. Be thankful. You have a new home. You get to buy new things and you get everything you want. You have everything. Think about people like me who have lost everything…. I may not be here next year….You need to figure out how to be happy…
@@megc4915 thank you, I appreciate you! Also, you are right…she will think about how unhappy she is. 🙄
Colleen, you should watch Shanny Bananny’s “moving with mental illness” series that she did on TH-cam a few months ago. She went through a lot of the same emotions when she had to move homes a few months ago and described the same feelings of struggling w change that you talked about in this video. What you’re feeling right now is valid but it will get better! Sending love! 💗💗💗💗
Colleen! It’s so normal to have so many different emotions about change. And of course it will be hard for a little while, but that is one of the great things about what you do. You have a bunch of people out there who support you, and love you, and who are here for you. There is no way to tell at this point if This was the right decision, but you can only wait and find out and we are all here to support you along the way!❤🤗
I think sometimes as parents, it can be difficult not to lose ourselves. We put so much into our kids and what is good and right for them that we can lose our individuality. It's ok for this to be hard for you. You may have made the decision that is right for your kids/family, but that doesn't mean you can't feel sadness for closing a chapter of your life and leaving a place that has meant so much to you. It's ok to feel your feelings!
Colleen, when I am 20 and in college now but when i was 16 my family moved out of my childhood home that i had lived in my whole life. the change was really hard for me. i couldn’t fathom leaving the home that i had made every single memory of my life in all the good and bad. my mom explained that home isn’t a place but people and memories. just because my memories were tied to that home didn’t make them any less important or a part of me. it took a couple nights but soon our new house started to feel like home again. it will for you too. sending you love, your never too dramatic for feeling your feelings. would you tell your kids or erik they were to dramatic for feeling that way? no. give yourself some grace and love. this too shall pass
so sad you’re leaving this house, but i’m so excited for the future home ❤ congratulations on the house Colleen and Erik 🎉
We moved out of our first place this year. The first 2 months was pretty hard. I know we should've been happy to have more space but I also grieved leaving the first place
My husband and I are moving out of our first place in a year and I know I’m going to have the hardest time
Oh my gosh, Colleen! I'm so excited for your new place, but thank you so much for welcoming us to your home! I've been watching you for over a decade, so I remember when you moved to your first home. Can't wait to see all the Christmas decorations in your new home, where you'll fill the place with a bunch of new memories
colleeen! i hug you , i feel like i would feel the same way. youre strong and take your time to process your emotions! love you and cant wait to see and be a part of the new memories youll create at the new house❤
One thing I learned recently about ADHD is that you feel emotions way more intense than a "typical" person and you should not apologize for feeling this way about your move! You are so open with us and we know how much this means to you! Thank you for taking us along for the journey!
How would u know that? Have you felt what a 'normal' person feels?
@@javi3701 Lol they do research on this stuff. Like looking at peoples brains, has to do with neurotransmitters and the intensity of their release. It’s not to invalidate anyone else’s emotions or say that others don’t experience high levels of stress/sadness/anger or anything else but with ADHD it is very impulsive and intense emotions that tend not to follow the typical timeline of how others experiences those emotions
@@Shark9457 I respectfully disagree, I know people who have suffered immensely and manage to keep their emotions in check, I could never be that controlled myself, just because they don't show their emotions does not mean that they don't suffer and hurt, in fact one I know has been through the worse, but she just went quiet. I suffer from anxiety on a daily basis, no one can tell when I feel nauseous and panicky, I've suffered too, I don't like when someone says other ppl feel more, as humans we should know we all have the same feelings and wants, her so called suffering isn't even bad, moving houses is a privilege, I've seen people who have lost loved ones, go through illnesses etc, they would take this type of hardship anytime over this.
@@javi3701 and to say that her suffering isn’t bad, in itself is quite disrespectful to anyone struggling with mental issues or coping of any sort. Someone’s experiences and emotions do not invalidate anyone else’s just because they are experiencing different circumstances. And on her TH-cam channel she has every right to talk through and share the emotions and experiences she has been through without getting criticism from people saying it’s not valid because she isn’t in any financial trouble. I suggest listening to others perspectives and understanding that while the circumstances may be different that any situation can still be very hard on any individual and that discounting others experiences can be EXTREMELY detrimental to one’s mental health before discussing mental disorders you do not have experience with again. I have had people do this to me before, ones with horrible anxiety and depression who have every right to feel that their mental health is valid, but have discounted my feelings and emotions before because they do not understand and assumed our mental situations were the same and that spiraled into a period of me being pretty unwell for a decent bit of time. I don’t blame that person whatsoever I just think it is important to understand that every mental disorder is different and discounting anyones experiences because they are different from your own is very dangerous and honestly one of the most irresponsible things you can do regarding mental health.
Colleen I don’t think you realize the shit you help people through. On days I feel like starving myself, I turn on your videos and eat with you. Feel your feels. We love you
It’s so true. I always watch these vlogs after a hard day, or when I’m sad, or lonely or just when I need to feel normal.
I have delayed reaction with things too. I get everything done that’s needed and then I give myself time to process. Is so important to cry. It’s so important to process. You’re doing great.
Eric is so sweet the way he put his hand on Colleens cheek he's so comforting and kind God bless you guys!
Colleen you are not being dramatic. your feelings matter you matter. It's okay to cry. change is very hard I don't like change either your a very good mother always thinking about your kids I just want to let you know that everything will be okay. ❤️
Erik petting Colleen’s hair when they were in the car and she was sad is just adorable. Their relationship is beyond amazing 🥹🫶
This is a HUGE difference for your family and I think you guys will have amazing experiences in this house. Although I am sad to see you leave the house, this new one will be amazing for you family! Best of luck to your family Colleen!
So sorry this is so hard for you. Exactly...if it's not right you will move again. Overwhelmed and overtired makes for a hard time regulating. This is grief, grief sucks, grief is the "great disregulator". Hugs, you are right you will feel better ❤
I actually really appreciate you showing us these moments of vulnerability. I feel the exact same way about change and it helps me feel less alone knowing others experience the same thing.
Wow Colleen, we are so so proud of you. we know this is a hard time for you but your not leaving the memories behind… memories are forever
Girl, it's very sad to leave a place that you've called home for so long and made so many memories in. You have to remember that even if you don't love this house, it doesn't have to be permanent. You make some awesome memories here and you always have the option to find another dream home. In the meantime, this is just one chapter in your life story, you have the ability to make it a memorable one. ❤️
As a fellow neurodivergent brain, I can relate to the shame and frustration that comes with not being “appropriately” excited and happy with what seems from the outside like positive change.
Change is painful. It doesn’t matter if we know it’s the right choice. I think it’s inspiring and WONDERFUL that you’re being honest with yourself (and your audience!) about how difficult this is for you. Putting on the brave face and pretending it’s all joyful when it’s not just makes it worse. Letting yourself grieve will (hopefully) make it easier to take the next steps forward. You got this momma. ❤
love this
I think you are a remarkable woman, your strength, integrity, love for your entire extended family, your ambition, imagination, sheer work ethic and empathy is incredible - you are one of the most hard working woman I know and produce constantly prefect content and have done since I first watched you back in 2009 and have been a huge fan ever since, your creation of Miranda Sings was nothing short of genius. I wish you so much happiness in your new home, with your beautiful children, husband, Koko, Daisy, Gus
, Mouse and the rest of the wonderful Ballingers & your friends who quite clearly love you to bits - as do all your fans and admirers, with much love and warm wish from Jess 🇬🇧♥️🇺🇸
My family moved recently and literally the first couple weeks I was super anxious, feeling spacey, not quite with my feet on the ground, just floaty. But there will come a moment when all your stuff will find its place and so will you, and suddenly that house will feel like home. No one is expecting you to be used to it straight away. You're in a transition period, a liminal space in time where you're in between places. So cry about it. Grieve the change. But know that there are so many new experiences and memories to be lived and to be excited for. Sending you lots and lots of good energy!
Colleen I know it's super hard to move and stress about having to leave the home where you and your family made so many special memories, but think about all the new memories you get to make in the new house,like Maisy and Wesley will take their first steps in the new house and you get to watch them and Flynn grow up there. I know it's hard but we are all here for you always
Being sad about moving is so normal! I remember being sad even when my grandparents moved once and it wasn’t even my house but I had memories there. You’ll bring your memories and your family and your personal belongings and soon your new home will feel like your home again.
You can be sad and grieving a piece of your life and also be excited. Cant wait to see the new place❤
“Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened”-Dr Seuss ❤
Hey Colleen, I started watching about a year ago when the twins were born. Watching your vlogs every day has become part of my day and I look forward to it everyday. I wanted to say thank you to this year of entertainment and I’m happy that you are moving on to the next chapter of your life and I’m excited to see where the vlog goes! Love you so much💜
I started watching like a month or so before the twins were born and same! I always get so excited when I see that a new vlog is out.
i think this is so good for yall bc thats the house you struggled in bringing the babies home from the hospital and for you to have a fresh new place to raise them with even more happy memories will be so good for yall!!
I don’t often comment on anyone’s videos but I felt I needed to as I’ve gone through this EXACT thing . I have bad anxiety and i really really don’t cope with change . When I moved into my new house , I cried for like 2 weeks and even told my partner we should sell it ! But slowly and surely , it became my home and I love it!! I’ve now been here and year and can tell you it’s the BEST decision I ever made! I love living here . I found buying homely things and putting up photos of family really helped !
Sending love xxx
Every time I see Colleen cry, I want to give her a hug. It’ll feel like home when you make memories there. When I left my home, I felt the same. You’re not alone & the way you feel is valid. Always valid ♥️
Buying a home and moving are some of the biggest stressors a person can go thru in life. You're actually really fortunate that you can express and feel your feelings openly so they don't get pushed down and slowly come out in unhealthy ways later. Be patient yourself, you got this!
Hey girl. Ive been watching you for years now and i know you loved that house it was beautiful. You had all 3 of your beautiful kids in that home. It's ok to be sad. As long as you,erik and you're babies are together. Thats home 💜
Praying for you & your family through the transition!! You will be okay! It's okay to be sad!
Colleen, I totally get where you are coming from right now. I am currently moving as well and it can be super overwhelming and stressful and really really sad while also being really exciting and fun. Just know that we are all here with you and everything will be exactly how you want it in the end. Love you Colleen!
I just love colleen so much, she works so hard to make other people happy and she is just the sweetest person on her videos and vlogs
There is NOTHING like a baby laughing. I just adore your sweet family. It is the highlight of my day. Congratulations on your new home. I know change is hard. Just keep reminding yourself it is for your sweet babies. Hang in there, beautiful lady. Oh, sweet girl, I wish I could hug you.
Did you know that moving is one of the top 10 most stressfull event in a person life? So yes cry! A lot if you need to!! I strongly believe that it's way better to allow yourself to feel all those emotions instead of just push them aside and ignore them. So keep crying, laughing, dancing ... just keep being you! Big hugs from Montréal.
Hi Colleen! I really struggle with change as well, and something that my mom told me that has always really helped is this: The only decision in the whole world that you can’t get out of is having kids. Everything else can be altered, fixed, you can remove yourself from, etc. And it’s exactly what you said; if this new house isn’t the right fit for you and your family, you’ll make a change! Just knowing that you aren’t trapped may help ease some of the anxiety of all this newness! ❤
I have been watching you for 4 years now. You and Erik are awesome parents. You do anything to make your kids happy. Your guys videos are entertaining and whenever you post I always stop what I’m doing and start watching it. Colleen, you got this. It’s a big change but you have so much strength in you and happiness. I love you all so much and I’m going to say the kids look super HAPPY about the FISH 🐠 !!!!!!!!! Your the best.
Girl it’s ok!! I am in a position where I no longer fit in my current home and I love it here, it’s small, we live in a small town in the keys but I don’t fit, and I cry thinking about possibly moving to a new city and a new home, because it’s a big change but things we do for our kids is also the nudge we need to invite change, change is scary but also good for the soul, helps release all stagnant energies. But have the moment cry about, and keep moving forward!! We love you! And remember to give yourself some space to grief. ❤
It’s ok to feel what you feel! “Feelings are neither right nor wrong”. We can not help how we feel; it is what it is!!! My suggestion for you is to hire someone to organize for you; it will help start in an organized home. It will relieve a lot of the stress! You’ve got this, and being closer to family (at least I think you are?) will be so significant and will help the missing of your other home! We have moved 7 times since 2012. That first house was our first home and all three girls came home from the hospital to that home, but it’s the family that makes the place a home and it takes a little time to feel comfortable in a house. Just let yourself feel what you feel! 🥰🥰🥰
Colleen! It’s okay to be sad, but remember you are doing this for your kids and your family! You will make so many new memories!
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It may look as though the situation is creating the suffering, but ultimately this is not so - your resistance is. - Eckhart Tolle
My husband and my first apartment was 600sq ft, run down, bad neighbors. But it was our first place. We adopted our dog, had our Halloween, christmas, and he proposed to me there on christmas. So many firsts and it was only a year. And it was so so hard for me to leave. Of course our place was bigger and better for us and the dogs but I was so sad to leave our first dumpy place that held so many memories. So I can’t imagine what your feeling with you first house. It’s ok to feel sad. Love u Colleen! ❤
Aww hun, Moving is stressful EVEN a positive move. Trust me, I moved so much growing up I hated it. However, I learned to take the good with the bad. I can't wait for you to show us your new house
I was rewatching all your psychic vlogs waiting for you🥺🥺🥺💕💕💕 sending love and good vibes💕✨
Honestly I feel like us long time viewers are having a hard time with this transition too… or maybe it’s cause I’m adhd and don’t do well with change either lol but I can totally feel through the screen what you’re feeling. No need to apologize, let’s just cry together and I know that sooner rather than later you’ll adapt to your new home ❤ sending love and light!!!
I feel you girl. I’m so “bad” with change. Moving is a huge deal and it comes with a lot of emotions, especially since you’ve had so many special memories in that house. I moved this summer and the first week I was just constantly panicking and second guessing myself. I moved my furniture back and forth a thousand times and totally broke down and called my mom because the change was so hard for me to deal with. I’m now 5 months in and I’m so happy with how things turned out even though I was unsure at first. My point is, it’s totally okay and normal to be sad and overwhelmed and to have doubts. For me, it helps to remember to give it a little bit of time to start feeling easier and to remember that things will work out and that your home is your people and your love and nothing will ever take that away. Much love, you got this!!❤️❤️
I feel this so hard. I’m the same way. Change is super scary and hard. Especially big changes like where you LIVE. Each night, your house was your constant. It was comforting and now it’s gone. That’s incredibly hard. Just try to remember at one point that house was new and scary too and now you miss it. Soon, this new house will become your comfort. It may take a while or it may not and like you said then you find a new house. Sending all the love!
I relate so much to that "flip floppy" feeling. I've been going through a scary change as well, and from minute to minute I go from feeling totally confident about my decision to feeling terrified and sure that it's the wrong choice. It's so frustrating and uncomfortable, but it's going to pass and it will soon be normal
The minute she started to cry I had already felt my own tears filling my own eyes.
I remember when we bought this house, it was so empty then, I remember the hard times that followed and the many tears that I shed with you (feeling that I knew you so well then lol), I remember Eric coming over as a “friend”, I remember all of the cookie parties, birthday parties, I remember all of our lives with Koko, I remember us getting pregnant with Flynn, I remember the kids planning the wedding, then Flynn being born, I remember getting to be with you every day of the hardest time of my life (not only was it a worldwide pandemic but I was diagnosed with some horrible new diagnosis & loss my dad after a year of not being able to even hug him or hold his hand because of the shutdown) and that is when I realized I really didn’t know you before but now you had become my best friend & didn’t even know it!!, then the loss of your beautiful Angel (I just wanted to reach out & tell you I felt that pain as well & no one can tell you how to get through it), I remember meeting our dear friend during that time - Tia 🐝 and throwing cake with her, I remember the announcement of your 3rd pregnancy & then the announcement we were having twins!! , I remember cooking & baking in not only your dream kitchen but mine as well, late night talks with Erik and seeing how much unconditional love he has for you and how much you deserve that type of love. I remember all the times that we went to spend time with Rachel or she came over to hang out. The games we played with her like drawing stuff w/ our feet, taste testing stuff, mukbangs w/Jessica, every cheesecake from the Cheesecake Factory, Rachel staying at this house when she first got Blaze, going ghost hunting w/ her & Koko. I remember when Daniel & Joey put in astroturf, or when Joey showed up in a dress w/a pregnant belly. This house feels like home to me. I have so many memories that I can not begin to imagine how it will feel for you. How cool is it that someone else will now be able to move in and make their own memories? We (your best friends) have many years ahead of us to make so many more new memories.
Side Note- I cried most saying goodbye to the kitchen lol, then the Miranda room, we can’t forget the twins room was once the guest room that you spent so much time in. It was John’s room at one time too, but that is where your water broke with Flynn. It holds a lot of memories as well.
So many great memories!
Thank you Colleen- for allowing us to come into your home, in whatever we were wearing, looking like we did and inviting us to sit with you & just talk. 🫶🏻🤟🏻
I feel the same way parting with things that have been on my life for a while because I attach memories and emotions to those things. The emotions that are attached to things are so strong because I feel so intensely. Something my therapist suggested was to give myself time to thank the thing I’m parting with. This sounds so weird I know, but I have tried it and it really helps. Give yourself time to sit in each room of your house and thank it for the specific memories, moments, and emotions that specific room gave you. It has really helped bring me closure with ending one chapter and embracing change.
with change comes the unknown but i love how you are experiencing humanistic emotions. I relate to this just like the 8 billion lovely people. Sending good love. We just have to remind ourselves to keep a positive mind and surrender to the fact we don't know what the future entails. I love you honestly and good karma to you.
It's ok you got this!!!❤❤❤
P.s. your doing great! It must be tuff. I'm going through alot and whenever you post everything just goes away❤
You’re feelings are 100 percent validated. I think you are such an amazing person for being able to go through with such a huge change in your life!!! It’s really inspiring
You got this! Stay strong and MAKE that kitchen yours! Every home needs a space that is you and for you that is where cookies happen.
Eric and Wesley doing the fishy sounds reminded me so much of Flynn and the way he used to say water. Times run fast.
Oh Colleen, our home is our security! It's totally understandable! I have felt uncomfortable every time I've moved. You will make this new house your happy place with time ❤️
Colleen: I’m so busy, I need to pack and move.
Also Colleen: I’m having a photo shoot
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Well, she had to. It was work related.
I am terrible with change as well it's the fear of the unknown for me and I cry a lot when change happens and no matter how much I try and mentally prepare for it, it doesn't help so dont worry you aren't alone Colleen
Hi Colleen! Your feelings of sadness about leaving your home are completely valid! Watching you cry made me tear up as well thinking about how hard it will be to leave my current home too. My grandparents built our house in 1965 and we have been the only family to ever live in it/ My mother was raised here and I was too basically because I loved going to "grandma's". We moved back in when my grandparent's health started to decline and they both passed peacefully in the home. So there are lots of good and sorrowful memories that I will be devastated to leave behind once we move. Unfortunately, our city is becoming to crowded and expensive so we will be looking to move out of state in 5 years which is exciting! But if I could physically pick up this house and move, I would! Hope you will adjust well and just know you will make new memories in your new home!
I love how in tune with your emotions you are. I wish I could be this open and honest with myself. I typically just suppress my emotions to the point I don’t feel much anymore. ❤️
Omg? Good luckk and i bet the kids are gonna love the new house
Colleen, I think the biggest thing right now is you're greiving. You're greiving what you currenly had and saying goodbye to that chapter of your life. You lived in that house for so long and got so comfortable with the space, but to realize that it's not going to be the best option for your family is such a strong, curageous thing to accept. Let yourself greive for your previous house and previous chapter and then look onto this new one with excitement and pride
It's okay to be sad. The ending of one chapter of your life can be sad, uncomfortable, and scary. Your emotions are valid. I believe the reason why your new home didn't feel like home is because you haven't made it your home. It's an empty house and your other one has the memories that made it home. Once you get your stuff in and your living in it it will start to feel more like a home. The memories and what you put into the home makes it "your" home. It's okay to be sad but don't forget to think of all the new awesome memories you will get to create in your new home. Sending all the love to you and your family.
Colleen this is why we love you! these raw authentic emotions are just so real and relatable, I am sending you so much love right now. Someone told me ages ago how we only grow during the uncomfortable moments and I feel like you are just going through one of the growth moments in life, and feeling those feelings is so important! Thanks for showing the good and the bad always!