I Never Got To Hold My Daughter | Bailey's Stillbirth Story

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  • @brilliantbutblue
    @brilliantbutblue 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +78

    Winter thankyou for allowing Bailey a safe space to share her precious Daughter Hazel 🩷

  • @megtaylor1027
    @megtaylor1027 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +20

    Dear Bailey. I don’t know that you will ever read this, but I pray that God blesses you and surrounds you with his arms.
    I can’t begin to express how sorry I am that this tragedy happened to you and your family. I pray that you get the healing you deserve in this life and can live a full, loving existence. God Bless you

  • @house-of-angst
    @house-of-angst 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +44

    Bailey is an articulate young woman and described her story of losing her Hazel in such poised detail. I hope she becomes a mother again soon.

  • @carolyndrake9797
    @carolyndrake9797 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    I will never forget this story. What a strong woman she is. I hope she fills her home with lots of babies. God Bless you.

  • @justdenise8847
    @justdenise8847 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +40

    Bailey is so brave to share her story. I cant even imagine all she endured along with the details that came out. My heart just breaks so much for her. Her beautiful pregnancy pics, the nursery, the beautiful pics of Hazel, and how she found her name. I could see how hard it was to talk about and Winter, you were amazing at soothing her fears with your soft and comforting voice and providing that safe place for her to open up about her and Hazels story. May God bless both until they meet again ❤

    • @pammerle1691
      @pammerle1691 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Absolutely ❤

  • @ernurse4104
    @ernurse4104 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +33

    This is one of the most profound stories that has been told on your channel. Bailey, I am so proud of you for finding the courage to tell your story and share your sweet Hazel with us. I cannot imagine going through such a tradgedy and the amount of guilt and shame that Hazel’s dad must have felt and the immense anger that you must have felt. I loved hearing that you were able to reach out to the medical examiner to help heal your heart and ease your pain. You are a very strong woman and I wish you peace and happiness. Thank YOU WINTER for giving women this amazing platform. You have helped more women than you even know of. ❤

  • @brilliantbutblue
    @brilliantbutblue 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +35

    Bailey, l have no words. I'm so sorry you had to endure this.
    "Jealous of the Angels" is so perfect for your sweet Baby Hazel Kay 🤍

  • @sailorluna4000
    @sailorluna4000 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +49

    I’ve been listening to this podcast for a while now I think I’ve seen almost every episode, but this one just hits differently and the twist at the end I’m so sorry Bailey, RIP Hazel 🕊️

    • @Valentina-Steinway
      @Valentina-Steinway 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

      This one hit me the most.
      I’ve been binge watching all of them.

  • @bonnietrottier3187
    @bonnietrottier3187 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +96

    How devastating-I gasped when I was listening to Baileys story, but darn it-a loaded gun playing around 😡

  • @NS-lx4hx
    @NS-lx4hx 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +19

    I'm so thankful on the kindness of the community that was shown to this poor mother and all that she went through!

  • @angelwingstn3392
    @angelwingstn3392 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +38

    Thank you for sharing your story, Baily. Hazel was a beautiful baby girl, never to be forgotten. I wish you continued happiness in your life ahead. ❤

    • @TT-cu7ze
      @TT-cu7ze 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

      She was a gorgeous baby!!

  • @angelinamodesto
    @angelinamodesto 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +18

    Thank you for sharing Hazel with us 🙏🏾

  • @tiffanynicole5920
    @tiffanynicole5920 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +26

    This is seriously one of the most sad and heart wrenching videos I’ve ever seen. That baby girl is a beautiful precious Angel 👼 she was too perfect for the world. So sorry you went through this. I can’t imagine but I feel your pain ❤

  • @chartmann43
    @chartmann43 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +18

    So incredibly hard momma Bailey. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive yourself and not feel guilty for not holding Hazel. We never know how we will react or feel in times of trauma. Our hearts will protect us from things that are too painful to bear. I hope your heart heals and one day you will have another beautiful baby and you can tell them about their beautiful sister. God bless you. ❤❤❤

  • @joancottam6956
    @joancottam6956 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    Beautiful I lost my son in a hunting accident when he was 18 he was accidentally shot by a gun that just went off. It’s been 16 years but it still feels like it just happened. There’s so many unanswered questions that I may never get the answer to I miss him so much, he was a great kid just starting his life 18 years old. He made me a mom I’ve lost three babies before him.❤

    • @rach9466
      @rach9466 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Oh my gosh!

    • @autisticlybrē
      @autisticlybrē 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I'm so sorry for your loss. ❤️

    • @Luluisraging.86
      @Luluisraging.86 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I’m so very sorry!

  • @dirtylaundry9785
    @dirtylaundry9785 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +46

    Bailey I’m so sorry for the loss of your sweet girl Hazel 😔🩷 Winter was right in saying people would be curious about what happened and I was completely shocked when you revealed who it was, accident or not I wouldn’t have been able to forgive him nor should he ever forgive himself honestly. Your family sounds amazing and I’m so happy they were there to support you through the worst point of your life! Take care of yourself and thank you for sharing Hazel with us 🩷

    • @CheriHammer-Sullivan
      @CheriHammer-Sullivan 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +13

      Carrying anger, resentment, and unforgiveness in addition to the heaviness of grief and ultimate loss can drag your soul down to a depth you can't recover from. Forgiveness is not justification. If it were justified it would not require forgiveness. Forgiveness is not like it never happened. The process of forgiveness, of understanding what it is and isn't, relieves by sifting away the acid of blame that is such a destroyer. Hazel's daddy could have lost his mind if he is a caring person anticipating the coming of his little girl. It is not an easy thing but it can make it possible to heal and go on.

    • @HanifaUwitonze-l8s
      @HanifaUwitonze-l8s 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ​@@CheriHammer-Sullivan well said ,forgiveness is not a sign of weakness contrary its a sign of strength and wisdom.

  • @drkatel
    @drkatel 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +19

    Tragic beyond words. Bailey was so courageous to tell Hazel’s story. This was the hardest episode to listen to; I can’t imagine having lived it. 🙏🏼

  • @67globallangelduncan-rolfe19
    @67globallangelduncan-rolfe19 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +12

    Hazel is beautiful and now your Guardian Angel! Thank you for sharing her story and yours, bless you!

  • @HaleytheMortician
    @HaleytheMortician 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    I am a mortician, and the first thing I would have done when this mom entered the funeral home is to give her many opportunities and really encouraged her to hold her baby. This story just gets more tragic as it goes. I feel like the father of this baby took the opportunity of a lifetime from this mother. How tragic!

  • @CRAFTBOSS57
    @CRAFTBOSS57 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +14

    She is beautiful.

  • @lindad1195
    @lindad1195 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +12

    I am so so sorry! My heart is breaking for you. I’m praying for you! Thank you for sharing your precious baby Hazel with us.

  • @DoctorT0716
    @DoctorT0716 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +11

    Bailey sending you lots of love. I cannot even imagine your pain. This story was incredibly hard to listen to and I am so glad you are getting help to heal from this trauma. May Hazel rest in eternal peace.

  • @kreeves122
    @kreeves122 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    I just found this channel and Bailey’s story was the first I watched. I watched it while holding my brand new baby boy- rocking him, kissing him, crying. I guess it’s hard for me to explain this and put into words- but her story made me remember that he is such a gift and I am so unbelievably blessed to have him (and my older son who is 4). I feel like that might sound trite, and of course I know they’re precious and I would give my life for them in a second. But sometimes, especially during stressful days, you forget to be grateful and you forget just how precious their lives are, and stories like this make you realize how important it is to just stop and feel that.

  • @kymlouise
    @kymlouise 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +18

    Hazel was so perfect ♥️♥️♥️

  • @susanmiller7935
    @susanmiller7935 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +10

    Bailey Hazel is so beautiful. I’m so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby girl. ❤

  • @elizabethd.7662
    @elizabethd.7662 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +26

    Such a difficult story. The interview was handled so delicately given the issues discussed. Wishing you well.

  • @margarettorres9156
    @margarettorres9156 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +12

    Bailey your the most courageous mom thank you for sharing!!

  • @maryellenblount6376
    @maryellenblount6376 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +12

    Thank you for sharing your story. My heart goes out to you. Such a tragic event that took your precious daughter. You are courageous beyond belief being able to tell your story. Blessings to you 🙏🏼

  • @pammerle1691
    @pammerle1691 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Winter, you and your husband are the nicest sincere, caring people. Thank you for your pod cast as like Bailey said, it helps parents greatly having someone and all of us out her to talk to and share their baby's with. I personally have NEVER HAD A BABY, could NEVER get pregnant. I had the most extreme diagnosis of Endometriosis and ultimately had to have a Radical Hysterectomy at 30 yrs old...and I can say it devastated me knowing I would NEVER have a baby. For years I was traumatized by this and couldn't even go to someones baby shower...I just couldn't and every month when I had my cycle, I would just cry aside of being in severe pain do to the Endometriosis. So I came across your popcast and for some reason it helps me. So Thank you for having this Podcast and please never end it as I can see how helpful it is to all the parents to share their baby's story. ❤❤❤❤

  • @Rockinrobynification
    @Rockinrobynification 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    This was heartbreaking and so beautiful. I’ve never experienced a stillbirth, but I watch this as a way to support these parents.
    Love & prayers to Bailey, and all loss parents 💕🙏🏼❤️

  • @joycoddington6087
    @joycoddington6087 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Bailey you've got to be one of the bravest women I've ever heard! God will bless you through the rest of your life carrying your dear Hazel with you! Hazel was my mom's name so it's very special to me!!

  • @wishingyoupeace
    @wishingyoupeace 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    She is so beautiful and perfect. Sweet baby. Beautiful brave mom I'm so sorry.

  • @Hollywood-yv3qy
    @Hollywood-yv3qy 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +10

    I am so so crushed for you & absolutely angry for your tragedy :( God bless you, stay strong ❤

  • @pinacoloda226
    @pinacoloda226 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +13

    🎉 my sincerest condolences for your loss🙏🏻🙏🏻💔 Such a beautiful child! Fly high,baby girl 😘😘

  • @tammybraxton898
    @tammybraxton898 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    This is so devastating. I’m so sorry. Such a sweet baby girl.

  • @dianaballard2629
    @dianaballard2629 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Sending prayers love strength and hope. Your daughter is beautiful thank you for sharing Hazel Kay

  • @mikimarkusen4108
    @mikimarkusen4108 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Precious Bailey….your parents must be so proud of you. Your strength when sharing your story was told with such grace. I have 5 beautiful grandkids (my grandson was a 2020 baby as well). I always watch these videos thru my “Noni” eyes, and your story broke my heart. Hazel was beautiful, and is with you at all times.

  • @standup2982
    @standup2982 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    Sending much love to Bailey from England 💔💜

  • @nikkibb1998
    @nikkibb1998 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +13

    Omgggg my heart sank when I heard who shot her. That is so wow😢😢 I am so sorry for your loss. Hazel Kay was so beautiful and perfect. I can’t even believe he shot and killed the baby😢😢😢😢

  • @kelliparker3107
    @kelliparker3107 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +21

    As with any other baby loss story, I was very sad for Bailey. I've had 3 miscarriages and 2 daughters, so I feel it all. But when it came to the end and I found out who discharged the gun, i was very angry! Yes, I know it was an accident and accidents happen. But he didn't want any reminders of her around the house. That is so sad and I don't know if I could've been able to forgive him. Bailey, you are truly an angel and a strong woman! I have very deep respect for you. Hazel is beautiful baby...I think she looks just like you!

    • @KellieRudd1
      @KellieRudd1 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

      The fact that it was Hazels father with the gun, shook me to my core. Bailey is a strong young woman and I send her all of my love and prayers. She is a much better person than I am for sure. It enraged me!! She has the right attitude about things but Im not sure I could be a poised as she is. RIP Baby Hazel, look over your mommy she loves you very much 😍

  • @laurawilliams5363
    @laurawilliams5363 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I can't imagine what Bailey and her family and friends went through. I am so sorry this happened to you. Your daughter is beautiful. The strength you have to survive this, blessings to you and your loved ones.

  • @NS-lx4hx
    @NS-lx4hx 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    These stories are multilevel complex
    Thank you for bringing these stories forward.

  • @tracyweckerly1802
    @tracyweckerly1802 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Im heartbroken for what has happened to your and Hazel. I also feel for the person holding the gun. What a horrible sense of guilt they must feel. Im so sorry for your loss and what you have gone though. She is whole now and in heaven with no fear, pain or sorrow.

  • @senjahawks857
    @senjahawks857 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +8

    You had . many voices at you. Try not to feel bad or guilty. You had a real tragic time. She'll always be in your heart

  • @rebeccahansler3239
    @rebeccahansler3239 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    You are so incredible to be able to tell your tragic story with such grace. I think it is tragic to have this happen but made worse to be discouraged to hold her. That person needs correcting. Wishing the best for you.💞

  • @carolederrick5884
    @carolederrick5884 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Thank you for sharing Hazel Kay and the journey you had with her. I’ve heard many tragic things, but you articulated the most shocking and painful trauma imaginable. Hazel is your hero and I understand why jealous of the angels would be the perfect song for her aunt to sing at her service. I’m so grateful you walked away from the relationship with the ex. Just tragic, careless, and no way to get past the tragic loss together. I could not and would not trust him ever again. Please continue to protect yourself and heal 💕

  • @DawnWhite-b4s
    @DawnWhite-b4s 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    So sorry of losing your beautiful baby hazel xx

  • @christinem.carter-wanner5304
    @christinem.carter-wanner5304 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +8

    God bless this family

  • @JBIRD446
    @JBIRD446 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    wow... thank you for sharing your story... Hazel Kay is beautiful.....I'm glad these wonderful people were able to give you what you needed... slide show! I am in tears..... a LOT of hair.. you must have had heartburn!

  • @pammerle1691
    @pammerle1691 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Bailey, Thank you for sharing your story with us all...Hazel was Beautiful!!! The second Hazel passed, God took Hazel and made her aAbsolutely PERFECT IN BODY AND HEALTH. God then took Hazel and laid her on the lap of his most PRECIOUS ANGEL to be CARED for. Hazel is with Jesus now in TOTAL PEACE, A ETERNITY OF PERFECTNESS FOR ETERNITY, AND EXTREME beauty. You will forever be Hazels Mommy and Daddy. Hazel knew you, knew your voice, 😊and was with you for a little over 9 months. Hazel is with you every single day in your memory, your heart, and she can hear you from the Promise Land so anytime you want you can talk to her and she will hear you. Hazel will be there to Welcome you when God calls for you to come to the Promise Land. Again, Hazel was PERFECT AND GORGEOUS. I am so sorry for your loss and what you went thru ...WOW. Just know she watches down on you and know you as you will forever be her Mommy and some day she will be a BIG SISTER. Talk about her, and tell everyone she is your daughter. Viral Hugs your way and again Thank you for sharing your story and your Beautiful Daughter with us all. ❤

  • @OanhSchlesinger
    @OanhSchlesinger 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Oh my goodness! Hazel’s daddy?
    Bailey, if you see this I want you to know that your smile & laugh is really uplifting. I hope you continue to laugh, smile, and have many babies!

  • @joycesmallwood6750
    @joycesmallwood6750 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    I'm in Kentucky I lost 2 babies it does hurt very much so . I want to hold them both. I'm so sorry . God bless you

  • @chevy266nova
    @chevy266nova 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    My baby boy only lived 2 and 1/2 hr. I never got to see him. When I go back to my home state, I visit his grave. He would be 59 this year. I only had you for 5 months in me, But I have live this lifetime loving and thinking of you Mark.

    • @lyricusx2900
      @lyricusx2900 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Never got to see him? That's so sad. I'm so sorry this happened. 😢😢😢 Rest in heaven baby Mark.

  • @Sharonlee334
    @Sharonlee334 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Bless your heart. Baby Hazel is beautiful ❤

  • @createconsiderconnect3356
    @createconsiderconnect3356 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    Sending you so much love, light, energy, peace, calming thoughts 💜 tragedy on multiple levels, yet massive love still presides for Hazel Kay’s life 💜

  • @helenallen4449
    @helenallen4449 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Bailey ,God bless you. You have proven once again that a Mother's love is the strongest kind. My heart breaks for what you have been through. Love and Faith will carry you on. 💔🙏

  • @sallymccoy6286
    @sallymccoy6286 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    I'm so sorry for your loss. My brother's 1st child was stillborn. So heartbreaking. It was difficult for them. The baby was 9 months old

  • @reginahaley3723
    @reginahaley3723 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    Bailey, thank you so much for sharing your heartbreaking story so eloquently with us. 🥰💜I just know that when you decide to have another baby, that child will be so very special! You will always carry your Hazel Kay in your heart ,forever. I am so sorry, but also best wishes to you and your family.❤️🥰❤️

  • @andreaalexandraadams6323
    @andreaalexandraadams6323 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    In all ur video's I've watched since coming across ur channel this 1 has touched me me that bit more. My heart absolutely breaks for Bailey. Little Hazel Kay was absolutely beautiful. What a devastating way Bailey had to loose her little baby & little Hazel had to loose her life. God Bless u all xox

  • @dianemazon1937
    @dianemazon1937 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Oh my goodness you are both brave and kind to share…thank u

  • @psychonauty2020
    @psychonauty2020 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    hazel is such a adorable name and your daughter is so adorable ❤❤❤

  • @shereewordell2433
    @shereewordell2433 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +21

    Never EVER play with guns people, they are way too dangerous!

  • @lisagking8853
    @lisagking8853 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    I am so sorry you went through this. I lost my Baby Phillip hours after he was born. He was very active in utero. I had an emergency c-section 6 weeks early and as they put me under all I could do was pray. When I woke up, I was begging to hold him. Finally, I was told that they were trying to save him .I became hysterical. I think I knew he was dying. They gave me a shot that knocked me out for hours. My gurney was taken past the nursery to my room and I could see through an opening of the curtain. He was very blue and barely moving. They were still trying to save him. Once I was in my room , again,they put me out. The nurse came in later and said their refrigeration unit was down and they had to take him to the funeral home. It was a horrible way to find out. I only have pictures of him in his beautiful blue sweater set that my sister bought . She held him but I was in the hospital for so long, I never held or saw him. I have pictures of my beautiful Boy in the tiny little casket. When I saw them, I knew him.and I’m so glad to have those pictures.He was so beautiful with a full head of thick dark brown hair. I still feel an extreme loss. I know people really try but if they haven’t experienced it, they can’t understand. Tomorrow, Feb. 15th would have been my Baby Boys birthday. ♥️ Phillip, I’m so sorry I didn’t get to hold you. This is so horrible. It breaks my heart to see how many people have to endure this.

    • @tigermomsmith1478
      @tigermomsmith1478 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      😢I’m so sorry for your loss and for the way things went.

    •  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you.

  • @staceygordon4337
    @staceygordon4337 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Awww ..so sorry for your loss..Hazel being your hero is so beautiful ❤

  • @ahlayashabi-hopeful7296
    @ahlayashabi-hopeful7296 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you moms and thank you to this channel. I appreciate the vulnerability. I cry because I can only imagine the pain. I see the spiritual strength that came out of these horrible chapters in your lives❤

  • @julsjewels3185
    @julsjewels3185 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Hazel will be with you always. I pray you have a child very soon. It is such a tragedy to lose her this way. Hugs to you and your family.

  • @TerriGregoire
    @TerriGregoire 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Thanks!

    • @StillAPartofUs
      @StillAPartofUs  11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Thank you so much! That was so kind of you! :)

  • @jaynemarks6615
    @jaynemarks6615 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    I had a baby girl Dec. 10, 1968 she was approximately three months early weight two pounds. Nurses took mi baby to the nursery put me in hospital room, I wanted to see my baby they said it could not see her, over and over I asked and was told no, so I got out of bed because I wanted to see my baby, nurses found my took me back to bed and finally took me to the nursery window in my bed. I begged to go to her bed bed but was not allowed in the nursery. I got to see her again through the window they tried to keep me in my room but I went to nursery window as much as I could Drs wanted me to go home when my baby was two days old because they didn't want me there they were expecting Stephanie to not survive much longer and they say I should be home!!!! So I never got to touch my baby!!!! And she passed away almost exactly 48 hours old. It is not something yy get over, it is not a sickness!!! I remember ever part of it every year it is the same thing. I am so glad things have changed it has to be much better for mother, father and baby.

  • @bonniegalusha1693
    @bonniegalusha1693 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    God bless you. Spirit is never wasted . Shes always with you...

  • @smeyers2308
    @smeyers2308 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    God bless you, Bailey. You'll see Hazel again in Heaven someday.

  • @annabrahamson4320
    @annabrahamson4320 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +13

    Accudent or not he was irrisponsible for fooling around with a gun around someone who could be hurt.

  • @Valentine3e
    @Valentine3e 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    How Brave you Young Women are ♥️🙏🏼♥️

  • @micheleclay442
    @micheleclay442 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Your precious little Hazel is resting in God's arms watching over her mother's 💔❤️

  • @one_ice_cold_chiq
    @one_ice_cold_chiq 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Bailey, I'm so very sorry for the loss of your baby girl, Hazel. Please don't blame yourself. May the peace of God be with you until you and Hazel meet again.

  • @mylittlerebornfarm756
    @mylittlerebornfarm756 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    What a story!! Wow!! bailey you are an amazing young lady and I know you will be a beautiful mommy again soon xxx

  • @dianasmithkurtz109
    @dianasmithkurtz109 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    As much as your tragic story is so much worse than mine, I am so jealous of your support and the tiny pieces of Hazel Kay that you got to keep. It has been 44 years ago tomorrow on Valentines Day. I clicked with your emotions of just things happening around you and not really participating. I never really took time to grieve and was focused on survival as in a short 5 months time I lost my daughter, my father (to suicide) and my husband. I too never was able to hold my baby and it has haunted me to this day. Did she know that I loved her? My husband at the time left the hospital before she even died. He had to get to his girlfriend's house. While the anger and numbness and loss of control helped me to be determined to be successful and the woman I am today is because of Katie. I think of what could have been, maybe a grandma or even a great grandma by now. Her prom, wedding, babies and all of what could have been. In those days people never had remembrances of children who were born premature (24 weeks) you were just supposed to move on and have another baby. I was divorced the same year as Katie was born. Bless you for sharing your story and I sincerely hope you will find your happiness.

  • @rebeccagrimm668
    @rebeccagrimm668 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    Rest in heavenly peace Hazel Kay.

  • @Loopylou897
    @Loopylou897 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I have just finished listening I didn’t expect any of what was shared, Absolutely heartbreaking & what an incredibly strong women, Thank you for sharing may you continue to heal & find peace xXx

  • @Valentina-Steinway
    @Valentina-Steinway 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Wow…. Just wow….
    My heart ♥️ is with you…
    Please be ok. Love for you, Bailey, and Hazel.
    Blessings for you, your future, and your family…😢❤

  • @debbiejackson7218
    @debbiejackson7218 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    You are an amazing mum, Hazel was beautiful. Her hair was so thick and wavy. I love how strong you are, take care of yourself ❤

  • @wishingyoupeace
    @wishingyoupeace 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I am so sorry. This is horrific. I'm so sorry for your loss.

  • @Valz_Marie
    @Valz_Marie 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    This story is completely heartbreaking 💔 🕊️ sending virtual hugs 🫂

  • @pinupdoll97
    @pinupdoll97 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    This just broke my heart for this poor momma and her family.😢 This was the worst heartbreaking freak accident I could ever imagine. 😢

  • @PKC27
    @PKC27 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I am so sorry for your loss God bless you ❤

  • @gaillouchen5261
    @gaillouchen5261 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    You’re an amazing person Bailey!

  • @cindihoulroyd8211
    @cindihoulroyd8211 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    God bless you...prayers for your heart!!!

  • @Kathlene-wm8ll
    @Kathlene-wm8ll 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thanks for sharing your story god bless you 🙏❤

  • @cadoo5591
    @cadoo5591 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you for your story Bailey. I was extra surprised about the mention of EMDR at the end, I've just started it for cptsd. I wish you the best in life, and Hazel's spirit is always with you as you know. God bless you 🙏

  • @joanneheckman7488
    @joanneheckman7488 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +8

    Hazel was ABSOULITY BEAUTIFUL... Your story was told by you,,,HER AMAZING,,,STRONG WONDERFUL MOM.... I'm SO GLAD you were able to see photos of Hazel,,for you to hold DEAR TO YOUR HEART ALWAYS... I'm 65,,and came across your story,,,which I felt the need to watch... Such a sad outcome that it was revealed it was the father of Hazel who accidentally shot,,and killed your PRECIOUS LITTLE GIRL,,and injured you also.... You have gone through so much.... My 1st born son Christopher was killed Nov 15th 2017... I have no answers to this day...
    I can't even imagine your pain... I'm actually glad your no longer with the father of Hazel,,,it's sad that it was basically him that told the doctor's, and nurses that you were not to see your BEAUTIFUL ANGEL.... I believe it was probably due to guilt.... I felt at the beginning of your story that something was off with him,,,and then I realized at the end of your story my feelings were right.... You sound like an AWESOME PERSON,,and I pray that one day you will have another child.... My THOUGHTS and PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU ALWAYS 🙏💖🙏💖🙏 SUCH A BEAUTIFUL ANGEL YOU HAVE,,,AND WILL SEE AGAIN FOR ALL ETERNITY😇🕊
    MY GOD COMFORT YOU ON THOSE DAY'S WHEN YOU LONG FOR YOUR BELOVED HAZEL KAY🙇‍♂️😇🙇‍♂️🕊

  • @pamelabrumfield7679
    @pamelabrumfield7679 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I am so so sorry Bailey. I can't imagine what you've been through. 🙏🙏

  • @buttercupj6208
    @buttercupj6208 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I'm so sorry for the loss of their beautiful baby girl Hazel my thoughts and prayers are with her family 🙏🏽 RIP 🕊️ HAZEL

  • @sandyhawks5240
    @sandyhawks5240 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    This is the most horrific story I ever heard.😢

  • @ZeldaZelda-RichesToRags
    @ZeldaZelda-RichesToRags 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    It was almost too heartbreaking for me,72 yr old woman who’s still grieving over the loss of child due to infertility after years of failed treatments and surgeries…. I’m having to stop the video and compose myself before continuing forward because our loss is very painful but very different but at the same time is just as painful and heartbreaking 💔 as losing a baby…. A song that would have sang and rocked my baby to is “Sleep Sound in Jesus” by Michael Card…. Is the most beautiful song… you can easily find it online and listen to it as you rock the memories for as long as you need to…..
    lord Bless you and thank God for Jesus who will raise her up perfect and whole…. Never to suffer again.
    I couldn’t have faced the baby-daddy that was the one who was careless about handling the gun and ultimately caused the death… couldn’t forgive but we must in order to move forward.

  • @elizabethkoobs1060
    @elizabethkoobs1060 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +11

    You are so brave, Bailey, to share your story. How utterly devastating your trauma is. Sweet Baby Hazel will be at peace with Jesus in heaven. She was a beautiful and perfect baby girl. Fly high with the angels, Hazel.🩷🕊🌌

  • @nicky25294
    @nicky25294 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    😮😢 oh my this has to be the saddest thing ever 🙏🏻🥹

  • @marygarrage2550
    @marygarrage2550 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Wow, Bailey, what a almost unbelievable tragedy. The pain for all involved is emmence to say the least.
    What a beautiful little angel hero.
    Your ex must feel awful. I think if you would have remained together it would have been a constant reminder of hazels death and not her life.
    I'm glad you're better physically. May peace be with you and your family.

  • @susanbaker3461
    @susanbaker3461 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful daughter's story! Im so sorry for your loss! You will see her again. She is in Jesus's arms until then!❤❤❤

  • @kellylyncottrell6191
    @kellylyncottrell6191 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    OMG 😭😭😭 Bailey's story is heartbreaking 😭😭 omggg.

  • @lameas66
    @lameas66 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    How traumatising. Yr have so much courage ❤

  • @carolbraswell4488
    @carolbraswell4488 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Holy smokes.That's such a sad story and cried feeling her pain. Bailey, you are an amazing young woman with such strength and wisdom. Hazel left her finger print on this planet and in her mama heart forever! Thank you for sharing your story with us Bailey. I'm so happy that our happy now and I wish you the best of everything the world has to offer you!! ❤