For anyone that has a missed miscarriage I heard this the other day: Your body hasnt failed you or let you down. Your body wanted you to be pregnant so much and loved that baby that your body wasn’t ready to let it go Thought it was a beautiful way of reframing the negative thoughts. X
I am 11 weeks and yesterday I was told my baby stopped developing 4 weeks ago and had no heart beat. I haven’t felt any miscarriage symptoms. I never knew this was a thing. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s help me understand my situation better. God bless
I'm so sorry you went through that. I have a similar story. My husband and I put off having kids and focused on growing our careers to be financially stable. At 27 and 28, we were ready to stop birth control and start trying. My 3 cycles took 7 months, and on the 3rd I finally got the positive. We were over the moon and told close friends. We embraced the pregnancy and my husband took such good care of me. I knew in the back of my head that miscarriage is common with first pregnancies, but I tried to not think about it. I started getting nausea and food aversions at 5 weeks, along with sore boobs and bloating. We went to our 7 week scan, and I was spot on from my tracking, 7 weeks and 1 day - due 3/6/23. The baby had a beautiful little body and a yolk sac, and a heart rate of 137 bpm. I was so happy to see it healthy. I was prescribed macrobid for a possible uti but other than that I had a clean bill of health. They set my next ultrasound for 11 weeks 1 day to check for defects and growth. My nausea got worse with the macrobid, but around 9 weeks it was out of my system and I felt so much better. The nausea was almost gone but the food aversions were there. I had migraines in week 10. I started to have terrible fears of the baby being gone because of feeling better so soon. I was reassured by friends that it probably ended early because it started so early at 5 weeks. On the day of the 11 week scan, I told my husband about my fears, but he brushed them off and told me baby is fine. When I laid down for the ultrasound, the tech used the wand on my belly and couldn't get much of an image so she switched to internal ultrasound. The picture appeared and it showed an outline of our baby, laying very still upside down. All I had heard is to expect my baby to bouncing all over the place at this ultrasound. I turned to the ultrasound tech and said "please tell me he is sleeping". Those words still ring in my husband's ears. When she turned on the heartbeat detector, the screen showed static. Thats when my heart dropped and I knew. She turned to me and said "I'm sorry, there's no heartbeat". The baby had stopped growing 2 weeks ago at 9 weeks 1 day. I wanted the baby out. I was in shock. I opted to take the misoprostol to induce the miscarriage, because I wanted to experience delivering and meeting my baby in the comfort of my home. They offered strong pain meds, but i didnt want them so they told me that 2 aleve would be close to equivalent of iv pain relief. I took misoprostol and 1 aleve (didnt realize that would not be helpful like 2 at once would) at home and spent 9 hours in labor, with painful contractions and passing multiple clots the size of tennis balls. By 11pm, I felt my pain stop mid contraction and a gush. My water had broken and my baby was there. He was the size of a grape, with the sweetest little fingers and dots for eyes, and little legs. I held him In my hand and let my husband say goodbye with me. 15 mins later I delivered the placenta. 2 days later I came back for a follow-up ultrasound, and I still had over 3 centimeters thick endometrial lining in the uterus. The doctor prescribed another round of misoprostol and I spent another 9 hours with lighter contractions and minimal tissue and blood passing (I took 2 aleve this time and it helped) 2 days later I was passing clots and blood again, I still am. My ultrasound is next Tuesday, if I haven't passed enough tissue I will need a DNC which I don't want. My hcg tests have lowered to a very faint positive so I have hope. But I just want this to be over so we can try again
I got diagnosed last week, doctor can’t find a heartbeat in my twins so I decided to wait for miracle but God loves my babies and want to keep them with Him. I have heavy bleeding yesterday and my babies out naturaly but doctor said there is still many tissues inside my womb and I need to do D&C tomorrow.
This was tough to watch. I hate seeing you hurting. This is a pain I wish no woman ever had to feel or experience. I admire you. Your strength. Your dedication to helping others. Your heart. Your passion. All of it! You are just simply amazing. I know sharing this was very difficult and painful. But it will most certainly help someone else going through this or something similar. I’m continuing to send my love and hugs. ❤️
😭😭 You’ve been such an amazing friend to talk to through all this. You’ll never know how much you’ve helped me! It’s a sisterhood I wish no one ever had to join but we’re all so much stronger from it. Thank you, Crystal💕💕
This just happened to me. 2 days ago we found out on our first prenatal visit that our baby stopped developing at 8 weeks and im supposed to be 10 weeks pregnant it was devastating. My heart sank and all i could do was cry. I never had any symptoms and my body doesnt want to let go and process the loss of our baby 😭💔
Her story matches mine exactly, which freaks me out. I'm 11 weeks pregnant, I heard and saw a heartbeat at 8 weeks, and I am just super freaked out about another miscarriage. I have my 12 week appointment on Monday and I pray to God that my baby is ok.
This is like me I had my 8 week ultrasound and heard bubs heartbeat this is my first pregnancy and I’m so scared that by my 12 week ultrasound something will happen I am currently 9.6 pregnant but I didn’t find out till I was 8 weeks along via ultrasound and I was smoking and eating things that I shouldn’t of been eating and I’m so worried something could happen
@@jessicaeckersley7975 if it makes you feel better my baby was born completely healthy! He is now 2 months old and he's perfect! I also did things I shouldn't have when I was pregnant because I didn't know better. I think your baby will be just fine! ❤️
Thank you so much for making this video & addressing not only the physical aspects but the emotional, too. It really is therapeutic to watch because I feel not so alone, yet also so hard to watch because my heart hurts for you and I know your pain. I am miscarrying at about 11 weeks with triplets. My babies only measured around 6 weeks though... I wasn’t prepared for the amount of physical pain I was in, and all that was coming out of me. On top of that was of course grief & loss, and it’s been the worst feeling I’ve ever had to feel. For anybody reading this that is going through a miscarriage- you are not alone.❤️❤️❤️
@@MommaAlia has 3 miscarried n one pregnancy n has surgery due for polyp take out ..was in pain due my period would be cramp n bleeding..but now not in pain n cramping hope would get pregnant again in future???
I want to say thank you. I'm so sorry u had to go through this. I lost my baby 5 days ago. 2 days b4 8 weeks and I experienced everything you described. It's awful. Tomorrow is the anniversary of the passing of my little girl who died 6 yrs ago tomorrow of a brain tumor. She was 3yrs old. This loss is my 5th miscarriage in as many yrs. Let no one tell you how to or how long u should grieve. It's a process and you have to ride it out.
This just happened to me today. 11 week doc visit and doc said “I’m sorry there’s no heartbeat.” Time stood still. We had heard a solid heart beat at ultrasound twice last month. Im 37. I’m still haunted about my moms baby she lost at 5 months pregnant when I was 10 years old the trauma it gave me. And for this to happen to me now I believed I wouldn’t miscarry because of the pain I experienced at 10 years old when my mom lost hers. I always wanted to have a baby myself to make up for it. Not giving up but heartbroken today💔
I suffered a missed miscarriage. I discovered it myself. I worked in an OB/GYN office and watched my baby’s heartbeat start and saw when it no longer beat. I was so so so sad. I’m sorry for your loss. 😢
In March I had my 12 week appointment and they said my baby had no heartbeat but was the size the baby should have been so the baby had just passed. Yesterday would have been my due date. They wanted me to have a d and c so bad but I told them I wanted it to be done naturally in the comfort of my home and that’s what happened it took my body 2 weeks to understand the loss. Currently pregnant and are hoping this baby sticks around! This type of loss is absolutely awful and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.
I’m going through the same thing! I had a D&C yesterday as on Monday I went for my 12 week screening and they confirmed the heartbeat had stopped and had also just happened in the previous couple of weeks 🥺🥺🥺 my second miscarriage this year! I hope to have a successful pregnancy
I had a missed miscarriage at 12 weeks 4 days I had zero miscarriage symptoms it was discovered at my routine OB visit that my baby no longer had a heartbeat it was 1 of the most devastating things I have ever been through my heart breaks for you my deepest condolences to you both. That was my 4th pregnancy so it was hard for certain people to understand why I was so devastated. Unless you have been through it you just don't understand.
The exact same thing happened. To me. I found out at my 12 week appt. I was 12 weeks 4 days and during the ultrasound they said the baby never grew past 9 weeks. I was shocked and devastated. For 3 weeks my body continued acting as if I was pregnant and showed no signs of the miscarriage starting naturally. I was heartbroken.
In 2017 I had a miss abortion and in 2019 I had miss abortion again with triplets in November, and now I want to conceive , what can I take am so stress up. Someone help
I had a similar experience, turned out I had a partial molar pregnancy and that’s why I didn’t have any miscarriage symptoms, my hcG was so high my body had no idea the baby had passed away I ended up needing a aD&C it wasn’t until my doctor got the pathology report we found out about the molar pregnancy.
Hi thank you for this video. My story is the exact same as yours. I go tomorrow for my d&c. I would be 12w2days. I’m devastated. Baby stopped growing at 8 weeks 😭 I too am grieving the loss of a 12 week old fetus. I just want this to be a bad dream. I can’t stop crying 😢 Your video gave me comfort. Blessings to you and your family ❤️❤️
I just experienced a missed miscarriage and had an DNC 2 weeks ago. Thanks for sharing your story because it made me feel not alone. I am turning 38 end of this month. My mom told me that i was too old to have a baby. But hearing about your age proved the doctor's right. It can happen at any age. I hope you are doing better now. ❤ we have an angel baby watching over us!
I lost my baby at 10 weeks just yesterday. First it started with small brown discharge followed reddish spotting the following day. It wasnt much maybe filling half panty liner. So i went to ER and was told to monitor the flow of discharge. Since it was less nothing much was done. So the third day i was still having spotting but this time with cramps so i was told to be on bed rest and talk painkiller. Since it was weekend i was just dealing with ER and calling martenity hospital. So on monday i went for an ultra sound only to see baby lifeless hanging there. It was the saddest day in my life. I wished it was a dream. But its real. Wishing every pregnant woman all the best.
I’m watching this from the UK and currently on day 3 of miscarrying a 9 week pregnancy. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Know that your bravery and honesty is helping me get through this horrific experience right now. I’ve had miscarriages before, 9 in total, but none of my previous losses were this far along and so I was not physically or mentally prepared for this pain. It is excruciating. I was exactly like you and for most of the past 48hrs, I have either been rocking back and forth, curled in a ball, crawling to the bathroom, leaning over the couch unable to sit down, going through the most painful contractions I’ve ever known. I’m taking codeine right now which I would never usually take and it’s barely taking the edge off. We had a reassurance scan at the hospital last week that showed the baby stopped developing at 5 weeks but my body took a whole month after to realise. My tummy was growing, I had pregnancy symptoms and we were so sure everything was fine. The shock and sadness when you’re told things are not fine is indescribable. We have a 6 year old daughter and I long to give her a brother or sister but it’s so scary to even imagine going through this journey again at the moment, in case we end up back here again. I’m 37 so I don’t really have time on my side either but I hope this is not the end for us. I know when the physical pain subsides, I’ll have the emotional pain to deal with, but I just want to thank you for making me feel less alone right now x
So sorry. This is me right now . Found out last night at 12 weeks 6 days I'd lost baby sometime after my 8 week scan with heart beat. My 1 and only is 7 soon and I so badly wanted to give her a sister or brother. So very sad... I'm 36 soon. Not sure if I can try again.
I found this so heartbreaking to watch, and I'm so sorry for all that you have had to go through. You are unbelievably strong & resilient. You are so incredibly brave to make this video, but know that it will really help other women in this situation. Sending love to you & your family.
My experience was very similar. My insides just broke lose and dropped at 11 weeks. My levels took forever to go back down and I've never felt the same since. Thanks for sharing.I am now pregnant exactly 1 year later. I'm working through fear and trying to live life. The missed miscarriage was so traumatic that I'm having a hard time being excited. It's hard to know how and where to direct my thoughts.
i just had a missed misscarrige ..it was my very first pregnancy and on my first 11 week scan i got the news that there was no heartbeat and that the baby stoped growing its honestly the worst thing that a woman can experiance ....im very sorry for you aswell and as i was watching your video i was crying aswell ..but as u said you had 2 natural misscarriges and honestly id be better off having that natural misscarrige because the way this all hit me on my very first visit and hearing from doctors its just the worst its about a week only and i honestly dont know even if i will be able to get over this .. but you have your 2 girls and im happy for you i really hope i will have a healthy pregnancy one day and thank you for sharing your story ❤
@@MommaAlia Thank you very much ❤i really am trying to be as strong as i can i know God has his reasons for everything and blessing is waiting for people after hard times .. but sometimes its just not working keepin all pain to yourself is horible so thankyou ♡ for hearing me out and for understanding you helped me alot ❤❤
I’m am currently going through the same thing baby dosnt want to come out😔 I’m really really sorry it is a very horrible thing and I’m sorry you had to go through it. I was suppose to be 11 weeks and 3 days yesterday and they told me baby hasn’t grown since 8 weeks and that their was no heartbeat. It is breaking me. I know what your going through and I’m sorry you had to go through that.
@@kendrarowland695 im so so sorry for your loss ❤i wish i could tell u it will be okay by time but it wont .. it really is so heartbreaking i still cry till today its just something that will stay with u forever ..but you have to be strong you have to give yourself a break and try take your mind off and just take it as it was Gods desission ..thats how i had to take it no one woulld give me another explaination .. i really wish non of us women would have to go through heartbreak like this ...but they say its nature .. but head up keep strong remember theres nothing u can do at this point and that u did nothing wrong lots of hugs andpray for you ❤
This is exactly what happened to me last night. My first doctor's visit was perfect. The the day i was supposed to be 12 weeks exactly i started to bleed. I went to the er. I found out my baby was only 7weeks 5 days with no heartbeat.i kinda knew something was strange when i was not showing at all or Putting on weight. This was my first pregnacy and im pretty thin. I was not sure what was normal. My mom did not show with me for 5 months so i assumed it was. Im completely devastated. Im sorry for your loss. :(
I’m so sorry for your loss❤️ take it slowly, day by day. You aren’t alone and if you ever need to talk, message me on Instagram. I’ll be happy to be the shoulder you may need. Sending my love💕
I'm currently 9 weeks pregnant and your video has definitely been helpful in answering my questions about missed miscarriage which I think is a huge fear for a lot of women. You have gone through a great struggle dealing with this and I just want to say that your courage in posting this video is enormous. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with us.
The pregnancy was a surprise to begin with and I had to abruptly end the liver cleanse I was on but despite it being unexpected we quickly embraced it. My little 4 year old was so excited and said that he knew it was a sister baby. I along with my husband and others also felt like we knew it was a girl. We will never get to confirm that now. I just announced it to friends and pulled out my my maternity clothes and started shopping on line for baby things which things should be arriving in the mail today. I was feeling anxious and nervous 3 days ago on the day of my first 12 week appointment with the OB. We got our worst snow storm ever and I didn't have a vehicle w/ 4WD so I called and canceled my 1st prenatal appointment but being anxious due to very small but recent spotting a couple of days early I called and requested the appointment back before canceling again due to the continued snow fall. Then I started spotting again ( it was just a streak the same as you described) I called the clinic once again to ask if I could could still keep my canceled appointment for the 3rd time while my husband who was away for work called a neighbor and friend to ask if I could take their 4wd vehicle. When I shared the recent news of our pregnancy with friends I wondered if I was jumping the gun. I felt like I knew intuitively that the baby wasn't alive in me and 3 of my friends and sisters seemed to confirm my feelings. Not verbally but there was a look in their eye that made me think that their intuition was in sinc with mine. Despite all that I really hoped to prove those impressions wrong. Which is why I was anxious to make it to my appointment. The doctor and Ultra sound tech confirmed my fears. I knew when the Dr. Said that the baby was measuring about 9 instead of 12 weeks and he wasn't able to find the heart beat but he sent me to an ultra sound tech. He said that his equipment doesn't always pick up the heart beat but I felt like he knew and didn't want to have to give me the bad news. The Ultra sound tech didn't tell me but she asked what the Dr. Said and then just turned the screen so that I could see and I knew from past ultra sounds with my live babies that there is noise and movements along with a heart beat. She said, do you see what I'm seeing ? I nodded as the reality of my fears sank in. At first I felt shock and numb. My mom was with me which helped me somehow keep it together. I didn't have the energy to be upset just yet but it has been emotionally painful and a terrible disappointment. I didn't want to have to tell my husband and children. Especially my 4 yr old son who regularly would talk to my belly and wish the baby a good night or good morning. He was excited about this baby the most. It is not my first miscarriage but it is my first missed miscarriage. It was harder in the sense that I thought that I had a 12 week 3 day old baby inside me only to find out that I had been carrying a dead 9 week baby for an extra 3 weeks and still suffering morning sickness among other symptoms and all of the while believing that I crossed the finish line for potential miscarriage. I hope and pray that we have better luck the next time. It is my hope for everyone trying to conceive right now.
Update: My appointment was on Wednesday. I chose to labor at home. Lost the baby yesterday (Saturday) hemmoraged afterwards and passed out on my way to the bathroom. My husband caught me and carried me to bed where I was given blood builders. My neighbor and friend is a midwife and she has taken wonderful care of me. I'm slowly regaining strength but I'm not out of the woods yet.
I also want to say that In the midst of this sad and terrible experience I've been able to make some beautiful memories with my husband children, friends and family that have offered their help and lended a hand in numerous ways. Bringing me flowers and helping with meals for my family as well as giving other therapeutic assistance. The outpour of love has made me think of a scripture in the book of Psalms 94:19 "In the midst of my anxieties they comforts delight my souls".
Just sooooo sorry. Know it’s been a while but am catching up with my videos and couldn’t come and don’t comment. Thoughts and love for you and your family. It’s gonna work! You’ll see... your rainbow baby is coming! And we’re here for you always! Lots of love and anything we can do to make you feel better, just let us know!
So sorry for ur loss i lost my baby in 2017 at 7 weeks 3 day , i got pregnant again in oct of 2018 everything was going good i thought i went in for my 12 week scan and learned my baby had passed at 7 weeks and 4 day we were so devastated because i still had morning sickness and all pregnancy signs it was really hard to lose 2 babys back to back i had to get a d& c since my body didn't miscarry naturally my baby had been dead in me for 5 weeks , we lost hope after the 2 miscarriages by the grace of god i got pregnant again july of 2019 i am now 21 weeks pregnant please don't lose hope .sending prayers your way
I'm so sorry you are going through this... I really understand what you're feeling right now. I had my m/c in June. It's been a couple of months, but I'm still grieving. I feel that I'm so lost and empty. We've been trying to get pregnant for 7 yrs. We tried everything I could. We tried IVF. We had 2 cycles. The first one failed and the second one - m/c. I was so happy to get pregnant! I was not expecting to lose it... Feeling so sad. My heart breaks when I hear stories like yours... I know once you get pregnant, there’s a baby there inside of you... It’s your baby... Sorry if it seems like I’m venting. It just hurts me so bad... Some people don’t understand what we're going through. They’ve never experienced it. So it is easy to say things that will hurt our feelings. But we know how it really feels. We find comfort from each other… Hopefully, all of us will find comfort & be strong.
Going through very depressive moments after i was diagnosed with missed abortion last week. I was supposed to be in 8+3 but ultrasound said 7+1 pw. My baby had died a week ago and i didn't realise it. Am so broken, ashamed, depressed, angry, sad😟😟😟😟
Your words are just making me stronger and stronger,my baby’s heartbeat wasn’t found during last visit7w ,told by doc to wait for next 10days, I still have a gut feeling that everything will turn out positive but still Iam so much worried if something so nervous!.....please pray for me dear
So happy to see that you went on to have a healthy baby. I am going through this now. The pain of coming home after learning about a missed miscarriage to see the pile of baby books on your kitchen table is awful.
Let me just start off by saying I am so sorry you've had to go through this. But I also would really like to thank you for being here as a crutch for me in this time in my life. We recently had a miscarriage around 5 weeks and at first I was managing fine, I really was. After I got my period we started trying again and I guess each time we don't get pregnant it hurts a little more like "I know my body can get pregnant" and then everything that goes from that point. Some days are bearable. Others are hard. We knew about the pregnancy for about 2 weeks prior to starting to bleed and we were both so excited. It wasn't far along but it still hurt. (And still does). It really has helped me to hear others' stories and know im not alone. I wish the best for anyone out there hoping for their miracle baby💕 Thank-you again, it means more than you know🥰😭🥰
Thank you, this has been the worst week of my life. She made it to 9 weeks and found out at 12...nightmare to say the least. I just want the emotional pain to go away. I'm so sorry you had to go through this too.
I've watched so many of your videos but have never left you any comments. But I feel compelled to leave one now. It must have been difficult to relive out loud your experience. I say out loud because I know you relive it in your mind often, as all of us mamas of lost babies do. But this was so beautiful. Especially the end where you say about not regretting the joy y'all had as a family when y'all were planning for this arrival. I'm not a hugging person but I wish I could give you a hug. I wish nothing but the best for you and your family.
If I ever left a comment on a bereaved mother’s video, that’s exactly what I would have wrote. I have a feeling we’re a lot alike. Thank you so much and I’m sending my love right back to you💕
I feel your pain. I just went through a similar experience, (actually still going through it this literally just happened to me) I was 11 weeks and 3 days when we found out about my missed miscarriage. The pain is so, so excruciating. I had a hematoma in my uterus that wasn't passing and excessive bleeding. I still have to go get my quants done and go back there which is so heart wrenching in itself. It's so hard to go through and I'm glad I'm not alone with my experience. I've never felt so much physical and emotional pain thinking everything is going amazing and then it isn't anymore. Thank you for sharing your story, and I'm so sorry for your loss❤.
Thank you for sharing this. Your family is in my prayers. Take your time grieving. I can't imagine feeling like you have to rush grieving the loss of a child.
Last week at 11.5 weeks in, I had my first ultrasound for my first pregnancy. All my labs from last week looked great (hcg and everything), I'm young and very healthy, I didn't have any signs of miscarriage. I'm shocked that this happened to me. It measured 6 weeks, no heartbeat, with signs of necrosis. I haven't passed anything, not a single drop of blood. My doctor wants me to have a d&c asap, but I'm having trouble getting into a cheaper surgical center. Having it done at the hospital would cost over $4300. After this, my husband and I are scared to try again.
I’m so sorry for your loss❤️ It’s so wrong that on top of everything you have to worry about medical costs. That shouldn’t be a situation that exists. Your fears are completely understandable. There’s no rush to feel differently and as corny as it sounds take it one day at a time. You guys will find your way through this and to whatever your journey may look like moving forward in your own time. You’re not alone and if you ever want/need to talk please don’t hesitate to message me on Instagram. Sending love💕
I'm so sorry, i also had an abortion in January, it was so unexpected, sad, disappointing, although I know it happens a lot.... Just wait 2 or 3 Months untill you will try again. Did you get a D&C?
@@prizescu I was scheduled for a d&c However, like 6 hours before surgery, I ended up passing it naturally. I'm really glad that my body was able to do what it needed to. That was in the second week of February, and so far I've felt fine ever since. My hcg level and menstrual cycle have gone back to normal.
@@prizescu i miscarried 4 days ago at 7w6d 🥺 my doctor calls it an abortion but i don't like that term. Why do they use this term when the abortion was not planned or wanted.
I got pregnant December last year, it was the first time ive ever been pregnant and both me and my partner were so excited. I didn't have alot of symptoms and at around 6 weeks i started bleeding. I was really scared and called the hospital who only told me that its normal with a little bit of bleeding and that they cant help me anyway if it indeed was a miscarriage. I was totally depressed for the next 4 weeks i had to wait for an appointment (which i got after several times of me calling them, begging them to check). Finally at the appointment i was told there was no baby inside me....It was a nightmare and I cried for weeks... Right now I'm 10 weeks pregnant, got alot more symptoms than last time, but I'm scared to death, I can't help but to worry and wonder if it's going to happen again. I got an appointment in 3 weeks and I try to take one day at the time. I'm sorry to hear this happend to you! xxx
I also experienced a missed miscarriage with my first pregnancy recently, at 11 and a half weeks.. I can relate so much to your video, especially reliving that day in your mind and remembering those last good moments before the terrible news. Thanks for sharing your story, it does help to not feel so alone, and the fact that you have two healthy children gives me hope. ❤️
So sorry to hear that Amy❤️ I can’t wait to hear one day that you’ve got your own little one in your arms, I’ve got hope you’ll get there! You aren’t alone and if you ever need/want to talk don’t hesitate to message me on Instagram💕
Thank you for making this video. Is was very meaningful to me and helpful to hear your story. It makes me feel less alone as I go through my own miscarriage. It takes strength to share your experience like this with others 💜
Miscarriage is my worst fear :( I’m 19 and type 1 diabetic. I’m 11 weeks and 3 days and I’ve been holding my breath the whole time. I’m hoping when I hit the second trimester I will start being more happy. Me and my boyfriend have been looking at baby stuff once a week at target and other stores which makes me feel so much happier. So sorry this happened to you and your angel baby 💕
It’s a very common fear because it’s unfortunately so common itself😔 I hope you have a healthy and happy pregnancy and live birth. Just try to take it one day at a time💕
I know this video is 2 years old, but the pain never goes away completely. I just found out yesterday that our first baby girl (we have 5 living sons) passed away about 2 weeks ago. I was supposed to be 11 weeks 3 days and baby only measured 9 weeks 4 days. It means she passed away right after we heard the heartbeat for the first time at my midwife appt around 9 weeks 4 days on a Wednesday. We found the heartbeat on our home doppler that Friday. We tried to listen again on Sunday and couldn't find it. I was just 10 weeks at that point so didn't overly stress. We found out the gender that weekend via early dna test and were SO excited to find out we were having our first girl. I believe she had just passed away at that point. My hcg started dropping too dramatically around 9 weeks but was still within "range" but I woke up the night I turned 11 weeks in panic over the baby. I instinctively knew something was wrong. I started spotting at 11 weeks 3 days. I held onto hope because we had just heard the heartbeat between 9-10 weeks twice. My midwife sent me to the er and sure enough, my hcg plumitted and the ultrasound showed a baby at 9 weeks 4 days with no heartbeat. I am so heartbroken, the pain is unreal. It keeps hitting me in waves and I cannot even believe this is my new reality. I am still only spotting but i am starting to feel achy. This video was helpful. I hate that i went from watching pregnancy vlogs to watching missed miscarriage videos to prepare myself. Hugs to you!
I am so, so sorry for your loss❤️ If you need to talk, I’m on Instagram regularly and would be happy to listen to anything you need to get off your chest. It’s so tough, with time I hope the pain eases. Hugs right back🤍
I’m on my husbands account. After many years of thinking we weren’t going to have anymore kids (our daughter is 12) we got pregnant in December! We had a MMC at 6 weeks and did not find out until almost 11 weeks. We thought for sure everything was going to work out. We were excited. Nervous. Surreal feeling, and now we kinda feel empty. What was a super surprise ended so abruptly and it just feels so lonely. We are not sure if we want to try again, as we weren’t trying to begin with. Thank you so much for sharing your story!
You have helped Me so much today i had had my 12 wk ultrasound appointment baby was perfect heart beat was great. I'm supposed to be 16 wks and 5days pregnant but a couple days ago I went to my 16week and 3days appointment only for 2 nurses to not find my baby's heart beat to being sent for an ultra sound to seeing the tv with my baby not moving at all no heart beat my baby was measuring 12 wks and a couple days i broke into pieces on Valentine's day 02/14/2019 only to find out my baby had passed at 12 wks and so many days how could it be It made no sense to me. Friday 02/15/2019 the next day I had to meet with my doctor so she could explain what the next step was to do a d&c Monday morning 02/18/2019 at 9 am and I'm not looking forward to that horrendous part . Today 02/16/2019 and pending my body is in the beginning process of doing this all on its own which I am thankful for backaching pelvic pains pink on toilet paper each time clear and back again to pink which I am assuming the thinning of my cervix . I find it so hard to see my baby perfectly whole to be torn to pieces with a d&c on 02/18/2019 . I looked all day on Google for what I should expect during this process and I had no luck until I came across you on youtube I'm so thankful that you have shared your experience with us. I know the cause of my miss miscarry is because of my hyperthyroidism I know this in my heart . So my doctor for my thyroid found a nodgule in my thyroid and being pregnant wouldn't let her do the procedure to see if it is cancerous or to get my thyroid on track whether it be freezed or taken out before we try again. I wish you a blessed pregnancy I pray that you have this healthy baby and all goes well with your pregnancy and delivery of a healthy baby.
I am so sorry for your loss Ariel❤️ What a tragic and sad situation. It sucks having to go through all the physical aspects and making such tough decisions. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. You so aren’t alone and if you ever want/need to talk please don’t hesitate to message me on Instagram. Sending my love💕
I'm 9 weeks today this is my first pregnancy and I have my 12 week scan at the end of this month and I'm terrified this will happen to me. I just feel like it's too good to be true that I'm pregnant and I've always wanted to be a mum but I feel like something will go wrong
That’s a very valid emotion momma💕 my recommendation is to focus on what you know this very moment - you’re pregnant. And until you’re told otherwise, you’re growing your perfect little one. Hope everything goes smoothly❤️
@@caitjade3584 I can't wait, but I'm still nervous that something's wrong. My belly seems to be growing so I hope that means everything's going well. Honestly I keep thinking what it'll be like to see my baby on the screen but I just can't imagine it, it seems so surreal!
So much of what you shared struck home for me. Especially the feeling of grieving the future you had planned and feeling this strange loss of knowing that even though you almost made it to the "safety" of the second trimester your baby really wasn't anywhere near meeting that mark. I felt those same things, and am still struggling with tumultuous emotions now after my missed miscarriage in August when my baby would have been 11w3d and we found out it hadn't grown past 8w5d. Especially after having had that first ultrasound when baby was 7w5d and measured exactly on target with such a strong heartbeat. To suddenly have a healthy pregnancy ripped away with the words "no heartbeat" took the wind out of my sails and I still feel like there's this huge hole in my heart and that a part of me is missing. It was my first pregnancy and now I just feel like in every subsequent pregnancy I'll be so much more worried than I was with the first, but for now I can just hope that I even will get pregnant again and that my husband and I can start our family.
I’m so sorry Adrianna. It’s something I wish no one had to go through because we’re left with so much pain and even more unanswered questions. You’re absolutely right in everything you’re feeling, it’s a nightmare position to be in. The only solace I can give is that it will get easier with time. Not better because nothing will ever truly be able to do that, but easier to carry with you. One day you’ll feel more peace than pain with everything. I hope one day soon you’ll also have a healthy earth side baby to snuggle. You may have fears and doubts moving ahead and even more so in any future pregnancies but try to enjoy them anyway. It’ll be a battle everyday to overcome that anxiety but you deserve to enjoy every second of any pregnancy you get to experience. Sending you my love and baby dust moving forward💕💕💕
Currently going through this same situation. Had my first ultrasound last week and the baby had a faint heartbeat and was measuring 3 weeks smaller and was told my due date may be off. The baby just quit progressing at 6 weeks. Went back yesterday and there was no heartbeat. I’m so sorry you went through this.
This was so very difficult to watch!! You are one strong momma! Thank you for sharing your experience and opening up your heart to us. So sorry you suffered such loss!
I started watching your videos when I was pregnant last year after conceiving for the very first time in Feb 2017. My last period had been in October 2016, but I hoped that this one would be healthy, even though the pregnancy was unplanned. At my first ultrasound at 13 weeks they found an abnormally shaped sac, no heartbeat, and an abnormal growth on the uterine lining. After waiting a week and a half, I hadn't miscarried, but my hcg went down. I took misoprostol to induce a miscarriage, and due to the 4 months of extra uterine lining that had built up, my reaction to the medication was horrific. Sadly I was sent home to miscarry and when I was grimaced in pain and when my husband called, the emergency room wasn't interested in taking me in. In hindsight we shouldn't have told them we were coming, we just should have went. I haven't been able to think about trying again, and I'm so scared that I might not be able to have a healthy pregnancy. It's so hard. I know that if I get pregnant again I won't be buying a doppler. I don't think I would rest easily, I think I would be constantly tormented. Our losses are so similar. I knew I stayed subscribed for a reason. I wonder how long my body would have held on if it wasn't for those pills. I feel you, girl ❤❤❤❤❤❤
Ugh, I am so sorry you had to go through all of that. With all the emotional and mental stress pregnancy loss brings, I wish it was at least physically easier. Unfortunately you’re dealt some truly crappy cards though. I understand your fear and hesitations, they’re completely valid. If one day you’re feeling more confident, go for it💕 thanks for sticking around💕💕
My missed miscarriage at 12 weeks was extremely painful and the amount of blood could have been mistaken for a crime scene I couldn't even change my clothing that was drenched in blood without the bathroom literally looking like someone was murdered in there.
@@hollycarr3267 oh holly im so sorry. I hope you are holding up ok and hope you get your rainbow baby. I know how emotionally devastating it is, I did not handle it well for a very long time.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I am going through this now and it's just the worst. My son has wanted a baby brother or sister for 3 years now and I still haven't told him there's no longer a baby 😔
Sorry to see you went through this. One thing to be very grateful for is that your children have a sibling. My daughter will be an only child now as me and especially my wife dont want to take the chance in case we go through this again. Once is enough for her. Wish you the best.
I'm sorry for your loss. Grief and gratitude can sit at the same table. My losses have never made me less thankful for my living children. My living children have never lessened my losses. Sending you all well wishes
Wow thank you so much for sharing I also thought I was having a November baby and now all I’m waiting is to get another ultrasound to confirm my suspicions a baby with no heartbeat measuring 6 weeks when my last period was in February....I just need to accept this and get ready for the process ahead, I’m scared about the whole pain part of it. I also have two girls, sounded like you were my future me telling the story... again thank you for sharing, this gives me an idea of what to expect 😳
I hope you’ll both have these babies to keep💕 It’s such a crappy thing to have in common but comments like yours remind me none of us are truly alone in this. Keeping my fingers crossed for you ladies✨
Wow. I went through the same thing. Starting spotting at 12 weeks. Went in for an ultrasound, smh. Baby was only 5 weeks and 6 days. It stop growing then. This was so heartbreaking for me i was so excited thinking im olmost cleared of the trimester . Im actually home right now miscarrying. Im in pain alot of back pain. But the process seems really slow. Im still not passing alot of blood the pain is mostly bk pain. The hospital told me ill pass it on my own. But im scared. I've been spotting around 5 days now its getting abit heavier but wow. Listening to this i can relate. I cried while watching and after. 😢
I'm going through the same thing right now. I'm supposed to be 10 weeks but measured 5 and a half weeks. 30 mn after confirmation that I had a miscarriage it all started to pass. Its like once I realized it my body just let go of it all ☹😭
Thank you so much. I can’t even begin to imagine what going through this is like, but I’m so grateful you’re strong enough to open up for other mother’s that might need to hear your story. I don’t like watching many mommy TH-camrs because I feel like majority of them are just not true to the light of motherhood, but I absolutely love your channel. You have such a wonderful aura.
I had this on tuesday, I had a tiny bit of spotting then at 3am Wednesday I woke up feeling strange and went to the toilet and had a lot of blood. Went to a+e where they said I might be miscarriaging so went home and came back later for a scan where they confirmed I had a mmc, I was a day away from my 12 week scan and my baby died at 8 weeks, was devastated, went home and within 3 hrs I passed everything, this was my first baby.
This touched my heart I have not experienced anything like this so I can not even fathom what you are feeling. But what I know I can do is send hugs, support and good vibes your way. It is always going to hurt and scar will always be there which sucks. I know that you are a strong mom and woman. Sending many hugs and love.
I also lost my baby on 11 week. Brown discharge started. I could not understand why it happen. When doctor examined he told there is no heartbeat and no growth. Advice to abort. It was my first baby after 4 years of marriage. I was so happy but something went wrong and we lost our little one. It broke both of us. Just praying to god for the good things.
Hi 💜 thank you so much for sharing your story. I know that was probably not easy for you. I just wanted to share that we have similar stories. I lost my baby at 11 weeks and 6 days on 6/13/21. It was my first baby and we had our first ultrasound scheduled for 12 weeks and 3 days, but obviously never made it to that appointment...and I was so sad I never got to have that experience. But by some miracle, through all the tissue I passed, I got to see and hold my baby…but it only looked about 7-8 weeks, not 12. So I also had a missed miscarriage. I passed mostly everything on my own, but ended up opting for the D&C because I didn’t want to bleed for a long time and there was still a little tissue left over in my uterus. I’m so sorry you had to go through this. So many things that you mentioned and the feelings that you said you have felt…I have felt exactly those things. You are not alone!
I just found out about you. Right now I should have been 11+2w, but on Monday appointment baby measured only 6+3 weeks with no heartbeat (saw heartbeat 2 weeks ago), yesterday started to get contractions and delivered all the stuff with pushing at my bathub which was very unpleasant thing to see. At sunday night dreamed that my doctor says that I will miscarry at Tuesday to Wednesday, which I did and I am still bleeding right now. This was my 6th miscarry from December 2018. The worst part that my doctor said that it could be, that this is not a last time for me. I have so many illnesses that makes me conceiving hard (I am not ovulating), and other illness does everything to kill the baby, so for me it's the battle with myself and I don't know when I will win. It could be next time, it could be after 10 more miscarriages. And I clearly don't know if I will have the strenght to go thru all of this so many times.. And I am very sorry about your losses. It never gets better, you will never forget about this, but wont take away your happiness too.
@sarah29880 I did. In total I had 9MC, 10th pregnancy gave us a girl l who is now 18month old and starting daycare. Her delivery was traumatic, I didn't know if she will survive but she did and is a healthy toddler. ❤️
Thank you for making this, i am currently going through the same right now, i am still waiting to miscarry, he was supposed to be my first baby 💔 so i have no idea what to really expect.
I’m so sorry for you, I’m expecting my first baby now (12 weeks) and I haven’t had any bleeding but I’ve had cramping that feels like a shooting pain very low in my vagina and I’m terrified of going to my appointment in an hour only to be told I had a missed miscarriage :( I hope for a future healthy pregnancy for you 😢💗
I am so sorry for your loss🤍 it’s unbelievably hard but you will get through it. All your feelings are valid and as cliche as it is, take it one day at a time. You’re not alone💕
familypeacelove I’m so so sorry :( I haven’t had anything else go wrong but I’m terrified as I have a connective tissue disorder :/ I hope things get easier for you
The same exact thing happened to me recently. Found out in december that i was pregnant and then found out in february that we had a missed miscarriage. Had a d&c. I am so sorry for your loss. I felt all the same things. Wishing you and your family the best
I had the same thing. Baby measure at 14.3 days at my appointment I was supposed to be 16.5 I had a doppler which help me prepare for what I would learn at that appointment. 2nd trimester is supposed to be in the clear. I was not. I did the lab testing. Nothing was wrong and confirmed it was a little boy. That was in june 2014. ( his feet are my picture) today I'm 11 weeks pregnant and still terrified that something could happened. I don't know if I will be happy till I reach 20 some weeks. I use the doppler every other day to reassure me. I think the longer you are pregnant the harder you fall when it ends abruptly. I also have unexplained infertility and takes for ever for me to get pregnant. I have 19 yr 17yr 4 yr with 2 miscarry. Miles would be 3 this years. It hurts every July first when another year goes by that miles would be here. Good luck to you.
I’m so, so sorry momma. Pregnancy is such a beautiful thing but so scary when you know anything can happen at any time. You don’t feel relieved until your baby is alive in your arms. I hope this baby continues to beat all your fears and gets to come home with you!💕
Rebeka ttc ..know it’s an old post but had similar experience. .i just didn’t realize how common it is not that it makes it less hard. Did you ever try again? I would love to except I’m in my late 30s and honestly don’t know if I could. 😪
@@TheMsilva81 yes I did try again. Took a bit. But February 4th 2019 I had another little boy. He is a red head and full of energy. Miscarriages are hard no matter if it is your first baby are you 6th baby. I will never forget my little Miles born sleeping. 👼
Oh also I was 40 when my red head was born. I didn't use any fertility medicine this time... just on a wim we were pregnant. I didn't think I could get pregnant anymore. So many fertility drugs over the years can diminish your egg supply. So I really thought 🤔 I couldn't get pregnant and it would be then. Good luck to you. I'm sure it will happen. Baby dust to you.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. In August at 12 weeks exactly we found out our baby stopped growing at 9weeks2days. It’s such a hard thing to go through. But I am trying to share my story too, to try and let others know they are not alone! X
I’ve always loved your channel because you are always sharing to help others. Your EP series made me realize that I didn’t have to give up because my son wouldn’t latch. I know this video was incredibly hard to make, but it’s a comfort for others to know they are not alone. I know you guys will be okay in the end 🌈💛 the sun must set to rise, and you need a little rain to make a rainbow 😘
They call it an Anembryonic pregnancy now, my doctor called it that (Blighted Ovum is outdated I guess). I had an ultrasound at what should’ve been 6weeks, 6days and had an empty sac. They thought maybe I was too earlier, however I’ve been tracking my cycle and ovulation and know when my lmp was. I have a repeat ultrasound Monday (I should be 8 weeks, 4days). I’m pretty confident this is what I have. Doctor did say if it’s not too early then this what it is. The tech told me she couldn’t even measure it.
Im in my 3rd pregnancy, currently 7weeks. 1st chemical , 2nd missed , and this time is so frustrating.. hope i can go through this . Im stress... kept thinking how long this last
I had my 12 week scan on Friday and they told me there was no longer. Heart beat they said the baby was 11weeks 6 days in size when I was 12 weeks 6 days so they say it must of happened Last week I have to go to the hospital tomorrow to decide what I want to do take a tablet or have d&c I am just so upset and in shock I can't believe this has happened your video was so helpful though I don't feel so alone it's hard as I'm not bleeding or have any pain just knowing I'm still carrying my baby that's no longer alive it's killing me :(
I just had a miscarriage at 7 weeks and I swear the pain was disgusting!!! It was horrible! I think the embryo had to have passed on its own. It was crazy. I was thinking maybe I don’t want to be a mother. The shit was so bad!!
This is what I am going through and I am just waiting to pass. This is my first time. I haven’t even bled and I found out there was no heartbeat 2 weeks ago
Momma Alia thank you so much. Your video was so helpful. I started spotting today. I made a video on my experience because I was expecting to document my pregnancy, but this is where I am.
I think it's pretty normal to have your cycle change after 35. I have 2 kids too, I'm 38. Mine changed around 33/34. Shorter period, different ovulation day. 2 missed periods in 3 years. I wondered if I was beginning perimenopause, but apparently I wasn't
My first pregnancy ended with missed abortion (missed miscarriage) - I was almost 13 weeks when I started spotting brown only to find out that the he stopped growing at around 8.5 weeks - and to think that my first us was right at week 8. I cannot say what I felt really - I did not even knew I was pregnant till week 7 because my pcos and because i had a surgery right at that point and was sure I cannot be pregnant and beside a bit of nausea felt nothing diffrent. 2 months after i have chemical pregnancy. I did got pregnant and had a healthy baby - but it is scary to do it after miscarriage - i was scared that something might happen again.
I came across your video today probably because anticipating a miscarriage. Your story was well told and I thank you for sharing though I'm sure it was hard. I've had one miscarriage already and have had two daughters. We're trying for another baby. I decided to cancel my doctor appointment and am just waiting. Again thank you for sharing.
This is basically the same as we went through. Well, I guess ours had more twists and turns. Ultimately I was pregnant for 9.5 weeks, but she measured 7 weeks and no longer had a heartbeat. I went through the labor at home with no pain medicine because I didn't think the ER would be able to help me (I live in a red state and had documented heartbeat previously). It was the most painful thing I've ever gone through physically and emotionally. I wish I had gotten a d&c instead. I bled heavily for over a month and still have hcg in my system. I lost so much blood I'm now anemic and my doctor is trying to decide if I need iron infusion or blood. My pregnancy symptoms were more intense during this pregnancy than with my son.
My daughter is waiting for body to do it's job. She just found out today that she has a missed miscarriage. So who knows when it will happen. I've had 2 myself. It's a horrible thing to go through. I'm sorry you had to.
Thank you for posting this video. Currently going through this for the first time. I'm very nervous waiting for everything to be completed but your story let's me know what to expect. I'm so sorry for your lost. But thank you for sharing, I know I am not alone, which definitely helps along with all of the other emotions I'm going through. 🙏🏼❤️
I'm so sorry. I understand how you feel (I also understand that someone saying that or that they will pray for you or that they are sorry for your loss is NOT helpful in the least). In 09 I had an ectopic (tubal) pregnancy and almost died. They took one of my tubes and conceiving would be really hard. In 2012 we have birth to our rainbow baby and there was a rainbow over the hospital when he was born...so sweet. Then in 2014 we had our 2nd and when she was 10 months old we conceived again and miscarried...we are due this month to deliver our last miracle baby. My prayers are with you...conception is possible. I love you. Keep the faith sweet mama
Thank you for your story. I am going through this right now, I should be 9 weeks but growth seems to have stopped around 6 weeks. I was hoping by body would pass baby naturally but now I am terrified and planning a d&c. So sorry for your loss.
Going though this... Supposedly I should be 10 weeks and the baby stopped growing at 6. Waiting to take the pills :( Thanks for saying that we should take time and not under estimating the dolor. I already have 2 daughters too. Thanks
For anyone that has a missed miscarriage I heard this the other day:
Your body hasnt failed you or let you down. Your body wanted you to be pregnant so much and loved that baby that your body wasn’t ready to let it go
Thought it was a beautiful way of reframing the negative thoughts. X
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Lauren M That was so helpful for me! It even made me cry. Thank you so, so much! 💖
wat is MMC?
This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing that. 😢
Made me feel good cause I went through a MMC
Just today I returned from hospital after D&C for my 2nd missed miscarriage... Lots of love n strength to mommas who have gone through my ordeal
I am so sorry for your losses🤍
I am 11 weeks and yesterday I was told my baby stopped developing 4 weeks ago and had no heart beat. I haven’t felt any miscarriage symptoms. I never knew this was a thing. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s help me understand my situation better. God bless
@@umarkiani5322 i was 3 months pregnancy when I miscarried this is my 3rd miscarriage and i one ectopic pregnancy
I just had the same situation where I found out yesterday my baby had past at 9 weeks and I’m 13 weeks.. take care 🤗
Heydidyou get pregnant again???
I'm so sorry you went through that. I have a similar story. My husband and I put off having kids and focused on growing our careers to be financially stable. At 27 and 28, we were ready to stop birth control and start trying. My 3 cycles took 7 months, and on the 3rd I finally got the positive. We were over the moon and told close friends. We embraced the pregnancy and my husband took such good care of me. I knew in the back of my head that miscarriage is common with first pregnancies, but I tried to not think about it. I started getting nausea and food aversions at 5 weeks, along with sore boobs and bloating. We went to our 7 week scan, and I was spot on from my tracking, 7 weeks and 1 day - due 3/6/23. The baby had a beautiful little body and a yolk sac, and a heart rate of 137 bpm. I was so happy to see it healthy. I was prescribed macrobid for a possible uti but other than that I had a clean bill of health. They set my next ultrasound for 11 weeks 1 day to check for defects and growth. My nausea got worse with the macrobid, but around 9 weeks it was out of my system and I felt so much better. The nausea was almost gone but the food aversions were there. I had migraines in week 10. I started to have terrible fears of the baby being gone because of feeling better so soon. I was reassured by friends that it probably ended early because it started so early at 5 weeks. On the day of the 11 week scan, I told my husband about my fears, but he brushed them off and told me baby is fine. When I laid down for the ultrasound, the tech used the wand on my belly and couldn't get much of an image so she switched to internal ultrasound. The picture appeared and it showed an outline of our baby, laying very still upside down. All I had heard is to expect my baby to bouncing all over the place at this ultrasound. I turned to the ultrasound tech and said "please tell me he is sleeping". Those words still ring in my husband's ears. When she turned on the heartbeat detector, the screen showed static. Thats when my heart dropped and I knew. She turned to me and said "I'm sorry, there's no heartbeat". The baby had stopped growing 2 weeks ago at 9 weeks 1 day. I wanted the baby out. I was in shock. I opted to take the misoprostol to induce the miscarriage, because I wanted to experience delivering and meeting my baby in the comfort of my home. They offered strong pain meds, but i didnt want them so they told me that 2 aleve would be close to equivalent of iv pain relief. I took misoprostol and 1 aleve (didnt realize that would not be helpful like 2 at once would) at home and spent 9 hours in labor, with painful contractions and passing multiple clots the size of tennis balls. By 11pm, I felt my pain stop mid contraction and a gush. My water had broken and my baby was there. He was the size of a grape, with the sweetest little fingers and dots for eyes, and little legs. I held him In my hand and let my husband say goodbye with me. 15 mins later I delivered the placenta. 2 days later I came back for a follow-up ultrasound, and I still had over 3 centimeters thick endometrial lining in the uterus. The doctor prescribed another round of misoprostol and I spent another 9 hours with lighter contractions and minimal tissue and blood passing (I took 2 aleve this time and it helped) 2 days later I was passing clots and blood again, I still am. My ultrasound is next Tuesday, if I haven't passed enough tissue I will need a DNC which I don't want. My hcg tests have lowered to a very faint positive so I have hope. But I just want this to be over so we can try again
I got diagnosed last week, doctor can’t find a heartbeat in my twins so I decided to wait for miracle but God loves my babies and want to keep them with Him. I have heavy bleeding yesterday and my babies out naturaly but doctor said there is still many tissues inside my womb and I need to do D&C tomorrow.
This was tough to watch. I hate seeing you hurting. This is a pain I wish no woman ever had to feel or experience. I admire you. Your strength. Your dedication to helping others. Your heart. Your passion. All of it! You are just simply amazing. I know sharing this was very difficult and painful. But it will most certainly help someone else going through this or something similar. I’m continuing to send my love and hugs. ❤️
😭😭 You’ve been such an amazing friend to talk to through all this. You’ll never know how much you’ve helped me! It’s a sisterhood I wish no one ever had to join but we’re all so much stronger from it. Thank you, Crystal💕💕
A year after my missed miscarriage I got pregnant with my now sweet 2 year old little boy.
u had d and c with this miscarriage?
This just happened to me. 2 days ago we found out on our first prenatal visit that our baby stopped developing at 8 weeks and im supposed to be 10 weeks pregnant it was devastating. My heart sank and all i could do was cry. I never had any symptoms and my body doesnt want to let go and process the loss of our baby 😭💔
Her story matches mine exactly, which freaks me out. I'm 11 weeks pregnant, I heard and saw a heartbeat at 8 weeks, and I am just super freaked out about another miscarriage. I have my 12 week appointment on Monday and I pray to God that my baby is ok.
I understand you’re nerves but I hope your appointment goes perfectly💕
@@MommaAlia thank you so much! This baby means everything to me!
This is like me I had my 8 week ultrasound and heard bubs heartbeat this is my first pregnancy and I’m so scared that by my 12 week ultrasound something will happen I am currently 9.6 pregnant but I didn’t find out till I was 8 weeks along via ultrasound and I was smoking and eating things that I shouldn’t of been eating and I’m so worried something could happen
@@jessicaeckersley7975 if it makes you feel better my baby was born completely healthy! He is now 2 months old and he's perfect! I also did things I shouldn't have when I was pregnant because I didn't know better. I think your baby will be just fine! ❤️
Thank you so much for making this video & addressing not only the physical aspects but the emotional, too. It really is therapeutic to watch because I feel not so alone, yet also so hard to watch because my heart hurts for you and I know your pain. I am miscarrying at about 11 weeks with triplets. My babies only measured around 6 weeks though... I wasn’t prepared for the amount of physical pain I was in, and all that was coming out of me. On top of that was of course grief & loss, and it’s been the worst feeling I’ve ever had to feel. For anybody reading this that is going through a miscarriage- you are not alone.❤️❤️❤️
I’m so sorry for your losses❤️❤️
@@MommaAlia has 3 miscarried n one pregnancy n has surgery due for polyp take out ..was in pain due my period would be cramp n bleeding..but now not in pain n cramping hope would get pregnant again in future???
I want to say thank you. I'm so sorry u had to go through this. I lost my baby 5 days ago. 2 days b4 8 weeks and I experienced everything you described. It's awful. Tomorrow is the anniversary of the passing of my little girl who died 6 yrs ago tomorrow of a brain tumor. She was 3yrs old. This loss is my 5th miscarriage in as many yrs. Let no one tell you how to or how long u should grieve. It's a process and you have to ride it out.
I'm so sorry for your losses Patsy
This just happened to me today. 11 week doc visit and doc said “I’m sorry there’s no heartbeat.” Time stood still. We had heard a solid heart beat at ultrasound twice last month. Im 37. I’m still haunted about my moms baby she lost at 5 months pregnant when I was 10 years old the trauma it gave me. And for this to happen to me now I believed I wouldn’t miscarry because of the pain I experienced at 10 years old when my mom lost hers. I always wanted to have a baby myself to make up for it. Not giving up but heartbroken today💔
I suffered a missed miscarriage. I discovered it myself. I worked in an OB/GYN office and watched my baby’s heartbeat start and saw when it no longer beat. I was so so so sad. I’m sorry for your loss. 😢
I'm so sorry for yours❤
In March I had my 12 week appointment and they said my baby had no heartbeat but was the size the baby should have been so the baby had just passed. Yesterday would have been my due date. They wanted me to have a d and c so bad but I told them I wanted it to be done naturally in the comfort of my home and that’s what happened it took my body 2 weeks to understand the loss. Currently pregnant and are hoping this baby sticks around! This type of loss is absolutely awful and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.
I hope your pregnancy goes perfectly❤️✨
Hoping things turned out well for you
Same here
I’m going through the same thing! I had a D&C yesterday as on Monday I went for my 12 week screening and they confirmed the heartbeat had stopped and had also just happened in the previous couple of weeks 🥺🥺🥺 my second miscarriage this year! I hope to have a successful pregnancy
I had a missed miscarriage at 12 weeks 4 days I had zero miscarriage symptoms it was discovered at my routine OB visit that my baby no longer had a heartbeat it was 1 of the most devastating things I have ever been through my heart breaks for you my deepest condolences to you both. That was my 4th pregnancy so it was hard for certain people to understand why I was so devastated. Unless you have been through it you just don't understand.
I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️ just because you may have other living children doesn’t lessen the loss. I wish more people understood that😔
The exact same thing happened. To me. I found out at my 12 week appt. I was 12 weeks 4 days and during the ultrasound they said the baby never grew past 9 weeks. I was shocked and devastated. For 3 weeks my body continued acting as if I was pregnant and showed no signs of the miscarriage starting naturally. I was heartbroken.
In 2017 I had a miss abortion and in 2019 I had miss abortion again with triplets in November, and now I want to conceive , what can I take am so stress up. Someone help
I had a similar experience, turned out I had a partial molar pregnancy and that’s why I didn’t have any miscarriage symptoms, my hcG was so high my body had no idea the baby had passed away I ended up needing a aD&C it wasn’t until my doctor got the pathology report we found out about the molar pregnancy.
Hi thank you for this video. My story is the exact same as yours. I go tomorrow for my d&c. I would be 12w2days. I’m devastated. Baby stopped growing at 8 weeks 😭 I too am grieving the loss of a 12 week old fetus. I just want this to be a bad dream. I can’t stop crying 😢 Your video gave me comfort. Blessings to you and your family ❤️❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss❤️ sending love and hopes for a speedy recovery✨ please message me on Instagram if you need to talk!
How did the d&c go I'm scared to make that choice myself and will I get pregnant again if I go thru that procedure
I just experienced a missed miscarriage and had an DNC 2 weeks ago. Thanks for sharing your story because it made me feel not alone. I am turning 38 end of this month. My mom told me that i was too old to have a baby. But hearing about your age proved the doctor's right. It can happen at any age. I hope you are doing better now. ❤ we have an angel baby watching over us!
I lost my baby at 10 weeks just yesterday. First it started with small brown discharge followed reddish spotting the following day. It wasnt much maybe filling half panty liner. So i went to ER and was told to monitor the flow of discharge. Since it was less nothing much was done. So the third day i was still having spotting but this time with cramps so i was told to be on bed rest and talk painkiller. Since it was weekend i was just dealing with ER and calling martenity hospital. So on monday i went for an ultra sound only to see baby lifeless hanging there. It was the saddest day in my life. I wished it was a dream. But its real. Wishing every pregnant woman all the best.
So sorry for your loss❤️
I’m watching this from the UK and currently on day 3 of miscarrying a 9 week pregnancy. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Know that your bravery and honesty is helping me get through this horrific experience right now. I’ve had miscarriages before, 9 in total, but none of my previous losses were this far along and so I was not physically or mentally prepared for this pain. It is excruciating. I was exactly like you and for most of the past 48hrs, I have either been rocking back and forth, curled in a ball, crawling to the bathroom, leaning over the couch unable to sit down, going through the most painful contractions I’ve ever known. I’m taking codeine right now which I would never usually take and it’s barely taking the edge off. We had a reassurance scan at the hospital last week that showed the baby stopped developing at 5 weeks but my body took a whole month after to realise. My tummy was growing, I had pregnancy symptoms and we were so sure everything was fine. The shock and sadness when you’re told things are not fine is indescribable. We have a 6 year old daughter and I long to give her a brother or sister but it’s so scary to even imagine going through this journey again at the moment, in case we end up back here again. I’m 37 so I don’t really have time on my side either but I hope this is not the end for us. I know when the physical pain subsides, I’ll have the emotional pain to deal with, but I just want to thank you for making me feel less alone right now x
I'm so, so sorry for you losses. I hope the pain subsides soon and healing comes quickly. Sending love
So sorry. This is me right now . Found out last night at 12 weeks 6 days I'd lost baby sometime after my 8 week scan with heart beat. My 1 and only is 7 soon and I so badly wanted to give her a sister or brother. So very sad... I'm 36 soon. Not sure if I can try again.
Extremely very sorry.. my story is exactly like yours, so I can relate how it must have been for you.
I found this so heartbreaking to watch, and I'm so sorry for all that you have had to go through. You are unbelievably strong & resilient. You are so incredibly brave to make this video, but know that it will really help other women in this situation. Sending love to you & your family.
Thank you so much💕💕
My experience was very similar. My insides just broke lose and dropped at 11 weeks. My levels took forever to go back down and I've never felt the same since. Thanks for sharing.I am now pregnant exactly 1 year later. I'm working through fear and trying to live life. The missed miscarriage was so traumatic that I'm having a hard time being excited. It's hard to know how and where to direct my thoughts.
I hope everything went well ❤
i just had a missed misscarrige ..it was my very first pregnancy and on my first 11 week scan i got the news that there was no heartbeat and that the baby stoped growing its honestly the worst thing that a woman can experiance ....im very sorry for you aswell and as i was watching your video i was crying aswell ..but as u said you had 2 natural misscarriges and honestly id be better off having that natural misscarrige because the way this all hit me on my very first visit and hearing from doctors its just the worst its about a week only and i honestly dont know even if i will be able to get over this ..
but you have your 2 girls and im happy for you i really hope i will have a healthy pregnancy one day
and thank you for sharing your story ❤
I'm so sorry for your loss
@@MommaAlia Thank you very much ❤i really am trying to be as strong as i can i know God has his reasons for everything and blessing is waiting for people after hard times .. but sometimes its just not working keepin all pain to yourself is horible so thankyou ♡ for hearing me out and for understanding you helped me alot ❤❤
I’m am currently going through the same thing baby dosnt want to come out😔 I’m really really sorry it is a very horrible thing and I’m sorry you had to go through it. I was suppose to be 11 weeks and 3 days yesterday and they told me baby hasn’t grown since 8 weeks and that their was no heartbeat. It is breaking me. I know what your going through and I’m sorry you had to go through that.
@@kendrarowland695 im so so sorry for your loss ❤i wish i could tell u it will be okay by time but it wont .. it really is so heartbreaking i still cry till today its just something that will stay with u forever ..but you have to be strong you have to give yourself a break and try take your mind off and just take it as it was Gods desission ..thats how i had to take it no one woulld give me another explaination ..
i really wish non of us women would have to go through heartbreak like this ...but they say its nature ..
but head up keep strong remember theres nothing u can do at this point and that u did nothing wrong lots of hugs andpray for you ❤
Thank you for sharing your story with us. I was out of the hospital just yesterday from a stillbirth delivery at 17weeks.
I am so, so sorry for your loss. Sending so much love and support to you🤍
This is exactly what happened to me last night. My first doctor's visit was perfect. The the day i was supposed to be 12 weeks exactly i started to bleed. I went to the er. I found out my baby was only 7weeks 5 days with no heartbeat.i kinda knew something was strange when i was not showing at all or Putting on weight. This was my first pregnacy and im pretty thin. I was not sure what was normal. My mom did not show with me for 5 months so i assumed it was. Im completely devastated. Im sorry for your loss. :(
I’m so sorry for your loss❤️ take it slowly, day by day. You aren’t alone and if you ever need to talk, message me on Instagram. I’ll be happy to be the shoulder you may need. Sending my love💕
I had miscarriage at 12 weeks too... its okay!!! I believe that i will get pregnant again!!!
I’m so sorry and that’s a great mindset❤️
I'm currently 9 weeks pregnant and your video has definitely been helpful in answering my questions about missed miscarriage which I think is a huge fear for a lot of women. You have gone through a great struggle dealing with this and I just want to say that your courage in posting this video is enormous. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with us.
Thank you and I hope your pregnancy continues to be healthy and boring💕
The pregnancy was a surprise to begin with and I had to abruptly end the liver cleanse I was on but despite it being unexpected we quickly embraced it. My little 4 year old was so excited and said that he knew it was a sister baby. I along with my husband and others also felt like we knew it was a girl. We will never get to confirm that now.
I just announced it to friends and pulled out my my maternity clothes and started shopping on line for baby things which things should be arriving in the mail today.
I was feeling anxious and nervous 3 days ago on the day of my first 12 week appointment with the OB.
We got our worst snow storm ever and I didn't have a vehicle w/ 4WD so I called and canceled my 1st prenatal appointment but being anxious due to very small but recent spotting a couple of days early I called and requested the appointment back before canceling again due to the continued snow fall. Then I started spotting again ( it was just a streak the same as you described) I called the clinic once again to ask if I could could still keep my canceled appointment for the 3rd time while my husband who was away for work called a neighbor and friend to ask if I could take their 4wd vehicle.
When I shared the recent news of our pregnancy with friends I wondered if I was jumping the gun. I felt like I knew intuitively that the baby wasn't alive in me and 3 of my friends and sisters seemed to confirm my feelings. Not verbally but there was a look in their eye that made me think that their intuition was in sinc with mine. Despite all that I really hoped to prove those impressions wrong. Which is why I was anxious to make it to my appointment. The doctor and Ultra sound tech confirmed my fears. I knew when the Dr. Said that the baby was measuring about 9 instead of 12 weeks and he wasn't able to find the heart beat but he sent me to an ultra sound tech. He said that his equipment doesn't always pick up the heart beat but I felt like he knew and didn't want to have to give me the bad news. The Ultra sound tech didn't tell me but she asked what the Dr. Said and then just turned the screen so that I could see and I knew from past ultra sounds with my live babies that there is noise and movements along with a heart beat.
She said, do you see what I'm seeing ? I nodded as the reality of my fears sank in. At first I felt shock and numb. My mom was with me which helped me somehow keep it together. I didn't have the energy to be upset just yet but it has been emotionally painful and a terrible disappointment. I didn't want to have to tell my husband and children. Especially my 4 yr old son who regularly would talk to my belly and wish the baby a good night or good morning. He was excited about this baby the most.
It is not my first miscarriage but it is my first missed miscarriage. It was harder in the sense that I thought that I had a 12 week 3 day old baby inside me only to find out that I had been carrying a dead 9 week baby for an extra 3 weeks and still suffering morning sickness among other symptoms and all of the while believing that I crossed the finish line for potential miscarriage.
I hope and pray that we have better luck the next time. It is my hope for everyone trying to conceive right now.
Update: My appointment was on Wednesday. I chose to labor at home.
Lost the baby yesterday (Saturday) hemmoraged afterwards and passed out on my way to the bathroom. My husband caught me and carried me to bed where I was given blood builders. My neighbor and friend is a midwife and she has taken wonderful care of me. I'm slowly regaining strength but I'm not out of the woods yet.
I also want to say that In the midst of this sad and terrible experience I've been able to make some beautiful memories with my husband children, friends and family that have offered their help and lended a hand in numerous ways. Bringing me flowers and helping with meals for my family as well as giving other therapeutic assistance. The outpour of love has made me think of a scripture in the book of
Psalms 94:19
"In the midst of my anxieties they comforts delight my souls".
Just sooooo sorry. Know it’s been a while but am catching up with my videos and couldn’t come and don’t comment. Thoughts and love for you and your family. It’s gonna work! You’ll see... your rainbow baby is coming! And we’re here for you always! Lots of love and anything we can do to make you feel better, just let us know!
Thank you so, so much for your support💕
Thank you for sharing.. it really helped me.
I'm currently waiting for my miscarriage to begin.
This is incredibly heartbreaking.
I’m so sorry for your loss💕💕
So sorry for ur loss i lost my baby in 2017 at 7 weeks 3 day , i got pregnant again in oct of 2018 everything was going good i thought i went in for my 12 week scan and learned my baby had passed at 7 weeks and 4 day we were so devastated because i still had morning sickness and all pregnancy signs it was really hard to lose 2 babys back to back i had to get a d& c since my body didn't miscarry naturally my baby had been dead in me for 5 weeks , we lost hope after the 2 miscarriages by the grace of god i got pregnant again july of 2019 i am now 21 weeks pregnant please don't lose hope .sending prayers your way
I’m so sorry for your losses. Sending positive thoughts for a healthy remainder of your pregnancy💕
Thank u so much ❤
Thanks so much mum, I already had two miss abortions and the second was triplet, was loosing hope , thanks I will my hope alive
I feel your pain sweety I had 3 miscarriages and it was so heart breaking but god always gives us strength.. god bless you
Thank you
I'm so sorry you are going through this... I really understand what you're feeling right now. I had my m/c in June. It's been a couple of months, but I'm still grieving. I feel that I'm so lost and empty. We've been trying to get pregnant for 7 yrs. We tried everything I could. We tried IVF. We had 2 cycles. The first one failed and the second one - m/c. I was so happy to get pregnant! I was not expecting to lose it... Feeling so sad. My heart breaks when I hear stories like yours... I know once you get pregnant, there’s a baby there inside of you... It’s your baby... Sorry if it seems like I’m venting. It just hurts me so bad... Some people don’t understand what we're going through. They’ve never experienced it. So it is easy to say things that will hurt our feelings. But we know how it really feels. We find comfort from each other… Hopefully, all of us will find comfort & be strong.
I’m so sorry for your loss and all you’ve had to go through. I hope your turn is right around the corner❤️
Watching this and experiencing 3.miscarriage in a year... I feel your pain and I thank you so much for sharing 💗
Sending so much love🤍🤍
Same here
I misscarried with baby no3 on Thursday at 9 weeks and still getting my head around it. Much love to everyone xxx
I’m so sorry❤️
I had jus gone thru my 3rd miscarriage on Friday n I still cant believe my babies are gone 😭😭😭😭
Going through very depressive moments after i was diagnosed with missed abortion last week. I was supposed to be in 8+3 but ultrasound said 7+1 pw. My baby had died a week ago and i didn't realise it. Am so broken, ashamed, depressed, angry, sad😟😟😟😟
Your words are just making me stronger and stronger,my baby’s heartbeat wasn’t found during last visit7w ,told by doc to wait for next 10days, I still have a gut feeling that everything will turn out positive but still Iam so much worried if something so nervous!.....please pray for me dear
I hope everything goes perfectly your baby is healthy💕💕💕
So happy to see that you went on to have a healthy baby. I am going through this now. The pain of coming home after learning about a missed miscarriage to see the pile of baby books on your kitchen table is awful.
Sending so many hugs your way. I am so sorry for your loss!
Let me just start off by saying I am so sorry you've had to go through this. But I also would really like to thank you for being here as a crutch for me in this time in my life. We recently had a miscarriage around 5 weeks and at first I was managing fine, I really was. After I got my period we started trying again and I guess each time we don't get pregnant it hurts a little more like "I know my body can get pregnant" and then everything that goes from that point. Some days are bearable. Others are hard. We knew about the pregnancy for about 2 weeks prior to starting to bleed and we were both so excited. It wasn't far along but it still hurt. (And still does). It really has helped me to hear others' stories and know im not alone. I wish the best for anyone out there hoping for their miracle baby💕 Thank-you again, it means more than you know🥰😭🥰
Thank you, this has been the worst week of my life. She made it to 9 weeks and found out at 12...nightmare to say the least. I just want the emotional pain to go away. I'm so sorry you had to go through this too.
I’m so sorry for your loss❤️ Take all the time you need to heal, one day at a time. Sending you love💕
I've watched so many of your videos but have never left you any comments. But I feel compelled to leave one now. It must have been difficult to relive out loud your experience. I say out loud because I know you relive it in your mind often, as all of us mamas of lost babies do. But this was so beautiful. Especially the end where you say about not regretting the joy y'all had as a family when y'all were planning for this arrival. I'm not a hugging person but I wish I could give you a hug. I wish nothing but the best for you and your family.
If I ever left a comment on a bereaved mother’s video, that’s exactly what I would have wrote. I have a feeling we’re a lot alike. Thank you so much and I’m sending my love right back to you💕
I feel your pain. I just went through a similar experience, (actually still going through it this literally just happened to me) I was 11 weeks and 3 days when we found out about my missed miscarriage. The pain is so, so excruciating. I had a hematoma in my uterus that wasn't passing and excessive bleeding. I still have to go get my quants done and go back there which is so heart wrenching in itself. It's so hard to go through and I'm glad I'm not alone with my experience. I've never felt so much physical and emotional pain thinking everything is going amazing and then it isn't anymore. Thank you for sharing your story, and I'm so sorry for your loss❤.
I cried listening to your toilet episode. Thanks for sharing your story and u r a strong woman
Thank you for sharing this. Your family is in my prayers. Take your time grieving. I can't imagine feeling like you have to rush grieving the loss of a child.
Thank you so much💕
Last week at 11.5 weeks in, I had my first ultrasound for my first pregnancy. All my labs from last week looked great (hcg and everything), I'm young and very healthy, I didn't have any signs of miscarriage. I'm shocked that this happened to me. It measured 6 weeks, no heartbeat, with signs of necrosis. I haven't passed anything, not a single drop of blood. My doctor wants me to have a d&c asap, but I'm having trouble getting into a cheaper surgical center. Having it done at the hospital would cost over $4300.
After this, my husband and I are scared to try again.
I’m so sorry for your loss❤️ It’s so wrong that on top of everything you have to worry about medical costs. That shouldn’t be a situation that exists. Your fears are completely understandable. There’s no rush to feel differently and as corny as it sounds take it one day at a time. You guys will find your way through this and to whatever your journey may look like moving forward in your own time. You’re not alone and if you ever want/need to talk please don’t hesitate to message me on Instagram. Sending love💕
I'm so sorry, i also had an abortion in January, it was so unexpected, sad, disappointing, although I know it happens a lot....
Just wait 2 or 3 Months untill you will try again.
Did you get a D&C?
@@prizescu I was scheduled for a d&c
However, like 6 hours before surgery, I ended up passing it naturally. I'm really glad that my body was able to do what it needed to. That was in the second week of February, and so far I've felt fine ever since. My hcg level and menstrual cycle have gone back to normal.
@@prizescu i miscarried 4 days ago at 7w6d 🥺 my doctor calls it an abortion but i don't like that term. Why do they use this term when the abortion was not planned or wanted.
I got pregnant December last year, it was the first time ive ever been pregnant and both me and my partner were so excited. I didn't have alot of symptoms and at around 6 weeks i started bleeding. I was really scared and called the hospital who only told me that its normal with a little bit of bleeding and that they cant help me anyway if it indeed was a miscarriage. I was totally depressed for the next 4 weeks i had to wait for an appointment (which i got after several times of me calling them, begging them to check). Finally at the appointment i was told there was no baby inside me....It was a nightmare and I cried for weeks... Right now I'm 10 weeks pregnant, got alot more symptoms than last time, but I'm scared to death, I can't help but to worry and wonder if it's going to happen again. I got an appointment in 3 weeks and I try to take one day at the time. I'm sorry to hear this happend to you! xxx
I’m sorry for your loss❤️ I hope things go perfectly and you get your rainbow baby🤞🏻✨🌈
I also experienced a missed miscarriage with my first pregnancy recently, at 11 and a half weeks.. I can relate so much to your video, especially reliving that day in your mind and remembering those last good moments before the terrible news. Thanks for sharing your story, it does help to not feel so alone, and the fact that you have two healthy children gives me hope. ❤️
So sorry to hear that Amy❤️ I can’t wait to hear one day that you’ve got your own little one in your arms, I’ve got hope you’ll get there! You aren’t alone and if you ever need/want to talk don’t hesitate to message me on Instagram💕
Thank you for making this video. Is was very meaningful to me and helpful to hear your story. It makes me feel less alone as I go through my own miscarriage. It takes strength to share your experience like this with others 💜
I’m sorry for your loss❤️ sending love✨
Miscarriage is my worst fear :( I’m 19 and type 1 diabetic. I’m 11 weeks and 3 days and I’ve been holding my breath the whole time. I’m hoping when I hit the second trimester I will start being more happy. Me and my boyfriend have been looking at baby stuff once a week at target and other stores which makes me feel so much happier. So sorry this happened to you and your angel baby 💕
It’s a very common fear because it’s unfortunately so common itself😔 I hope you have a healthy and happy pregnancy and live birth. Just try to take it one day at a time💕
I know this video is 2 years old, but the pain never goes away completely. I just found out yesterday that our first baby girl (we have 5 living sons) passed away about 2 weeks ago. I was supposed to be 11 weeks 3 days and baby only measured 9 weeks 4 days. It means she passed away right after we heard the heartbeat for the first time at my midwife appt around 9 weeks 4 days on a Wednesday. We found the heartbeat on our home doppler that Friday. We tried to listen again on Sunday and couldn't find it. I was just 10 weeks at that point so didn't overly stress. We found out the gender that weekend via early dna test and were SO excited to find out we were having our first girl. I believe she had just passed away at that point. My hcg started dropping too dramatically around 9 weeks but was still within "range" but I woke up the night I turned 11 weeks in panic over the baby. I instinctively knew something was wrong. I started spotting at 11 weeks 3 days. I held onto hope because we had just heard the heartbeat between 9-10 weeks twice. My midwife sent me to the er and sure enough, my hcg plumitted and the ultrasound showed a baby at 9 weeks 4 days with no heartbeat. I am so heartbroken, the pain is unreal. It keeps hitting me in waves and I cannot even believe this is my new reality. I am still only spotting but i am starting to feel achy. This video was helpful. I hate that i went from watching pregnancy vlogs to watching missed miscarriage videos to prepare myself. Hugs to you!
I am so, so sorry for your loss❤️ If you need to talk, I’m on Instagram regularly and would be happy to listen to anything you need to get off your chest. It’s so tough, with time I hope the pain eases. Hugs right back🤍
Going thru my second miscarriage now. It’s a very emotional phase
I’m so sorry❤️
Did you get pregnant again?
I’m on my husbands account. After many years of thinking we weren’t going to have anymore kids (our daughter is 12) we got pregnant in December! We had a MMC at 6 weeks and did not find out until almost 11 weeks. We thought for sure everything was going to work out. We were excited. Nervous. Surreal feeling, and now we kinda feel empty. What was a super surprise ended so abruptly and it just feels so lonely. We are not sure if we want to try again, as we weren’t trying to begin with. Thank you so much for sharing your story!
You have helped Me so much today i had had my 12 wk ultrasound appointment baby was perfect heart beat was great. I'm supposed to be 16 wks and 5days pregnant but a couple days ago I went to my 16week and 3days appointment only for 2 nurses to not find my baby's heart beat to being sent for an ultra sound to seeing the tv with my baby not moving at all no heart beat my baby was measuring 12 wks and a couple days i broke into pieces on Valentine's day 02/14/2019 only to find out my baby had passed at 12 wks and so many days how could it be It made no sense to me. Friday 02/15/2019 the next day I had to meet with my doctor so she could explain what the next step was to do a d&c Monday morning 02/18/2019 at 9 am and I'm not looking forward to that horrendous part . Today 02/16/2019 and pending my body is in the beginning process of doing this all on its own which I am thankful for backaching pelvic pains pink on toilet paper each time clear and back again to pink which I am assuming the thinning of my cervix . I find it so hard to see my baby perfectly whole to be torn to pieces with a d&c on 02/18/2019 . I looked all day on Google for what I should expect during this process and I had no luck until I came across you on youtube I'm so thankful that you have shared your experience with us. I know the cause of my miss miscarry is because of my hyperthyroidism I know this in my heart . So my doctor for my thyroid found a nodgule in my thyroid and being pregnant wouldn't let her do the procedure to see if it is cancerous or to get my thyroid on track whether it be freezed or taken out before we try again. I wish you a blessed pregnancy I pray that you have this healthy baby and all goes well with your pregnancy and delivery of a healthy baby.
I am so sorry for your loss Ariel❤️ What a tragic and sad situation. It sucks having to go through all the physical aspects and making such tough decisions. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. You so aren’t alone and if you ever want/need to talk please don’t hesitate to message me on Instagram. Sending my love💕
Just lost our baby at 13w2d :( baby measured right on schedule. I am devastated. I'm so sorry for your loss!
I'm 9 weeks today this is my first pregnancy and I have my 12 week scan at the end of this month and I'm terrified this will happen to me. I just feel like it's too good to be true that I'm pregnant and I've always wanted to be a mum but I feel like something will go wrong
That’s a very valid emotion momma💕 my recommendation is to focus on what you know this very moment - you’re pregnant. And until you’re told otherwise, you’re growing your perfect little one. Hope everything goes smoothly❤️
Me tooo! 11 weeks rn
@@caitjade3584 I'm 11 weeks 4 days now, my scan is in 4 days
Chantelle Adlington I wish you the best .the best feeling is being able to see her/him wiggle
@@caitjade3584 I can't wait, but I'm still nervous that something's wrong. My belly seems to be growing so I hope that means everything's going well. Honestly I keep thinking what it'll be like to see my baby on the screen but I just can't imagine it, it seems so surreal!
So much of what you shared struck home for me. Especially the feeling of grieving the future you had planned and feeling this strange loss of knowing that even though you almost made it to the "safety" of the second trimester your baby really wasn't anywhere near meeting that mark. I felt those same things, and am still struggling with tumultuous emotions now after my missed miscarriage in August when my baby would have been 11w3d and we found out it hadn't grown past 8w5d. Especially after having had that first ultrasound when baby was 7w5d and measured exactly on target with such a strong heartbeat. To suddenly have a healthy pregnancy ripped away with the words "no heartbeat" took the wind out of my sails and I still feel like there's this huge hole in my heart and that a part of me is missing. It was my first pregnancy and now I just feel like in every subsequent pregnancy I'll be so much more worried than I was with the first, but for now I can just hope that I even will get pregnant again and that my husband and I can start our family.
I’m so sorry Adrianna. It’s something I wish no one had to go through because we’re left with so much pain and even more unanswered questions. You’re absolutely right in everything you’re feeling, it’s a nightmare position to be in. The only solace I can give is that it will get easier with time. Not better because nothing will ever truly be able to do that, but easier to carry with you. One day you’ll feel more peace than pain with everything. I hope one day soon you’ll also have a healthy earth side baby to snuggle. You may have fears and doubts moving ahead and even more so in any future pregnancies but try to enjoy them anyway. It’ll be a battle everyday to overcome that anxiety but you deserve to enjoy every second of any pregnancy you get to experience. Sending you my love and baby dust moving forward💕💕💕
Currently going through this same situation. Had my first ultrasound last week and the baby had a faint heartbeat and was measuring 3 weeks smaller and was told my due date may be off. The baby just quit progressing at 6 weeks. Went back yesterday and there was no heartbeat. I’m so sorry you went through this.
I’m so sorry you are too❤️
Oh Alia my heart breaks for you sweetheart!! I am so incredibly sorry honey. I just can't even imagine going through that. I am just so sorry. 😢😢😢😢
Thank you
This was so very difficult to watch!! You are one strong momma! Thank you for sharing your experience and opening up your heart to us. So sorry you suffered such loss!
Thank you💕💕
Thank you so much💕💕
I started watching your videos when I was pregnant last year after conceiving for the very first time in Feb 2017. My last period had been in October 2016, but I hoped that this one would be healthy, even though the pregnancy was unplanned. At my first ultrasound at 13 weeks they found an abnormally shaped sac, no heartbeat, and an abnormal growth on the uterine lining. After waiting a week and a half, I hadn't miscarried, but my hcg went down. I took misoprostol to induce a miscarriage, and due to the 4 months of extra uterine lining that had built up, my reaction to the medication was horrific. Sadly I was sent home to miscarry and when I was grimaced in pain and when my husband called, the emergency room wasn't interested in taking me in. In hindsight we shouldn't have told them we were coming, we just should have went. I haven't been able to think about trying again, and I'm so scared that I might not be able to have a healthy pregnancy. It's so hard. I know that if I get pregnant again I won't be buying a doppler. I don't think I would rest easily, I think I would be constantly tormented. Our losses are so similar. I knew I stayed subscribed for a reason. I wonder how long my body would have held on if it wasn't for those pills. I feel you, girl ❤❤❤❤❤❤
Ugh, I am so sorry you had to go through all of that. With all the emotional and mental stress pregnancy loss brings, I wish it was at least physically easier. Unfortunately you’re dealt some truly crappy cards though. I understand your fear and hesitations, they’re completely valid. If one day you’re feeling more confident, go for it💕 thanks for sticking around💕💕
Momma Alia much love 😙😙
I have had 4 missed misscarriages, now pregnant with no 5 💞
I’m so sorry for your losses🤍 congrats on your pregnancy and I hope it goes perfectly!💕
@laura did you do something different
My missed miscarriage at 12 weeks was extremely painful and the amount of blood could have been mistaken for a crime scene I couldn't even change my clothing that was drenched in blood without the bathroom literally looking like someone was murdered in there.
Me too mine was at 11 weeks. I miscarried at home it was blood everywhere.
@@hollycarr3267 oh holly im so sorry. I hope you are holding up ok and hope you get your rainbow baby. I know how emotionally devastating it is, I did not handle it well for a very long time.
@@hollycarr3267 prayers for you and your family
I'm so sorry for your loss. I am going through this now and it's just the worst. My son has wanted a baby brother or sister for 3 years now and I still haven't told him there's no longer a baby 😔
I’m so sorry for your loss momma. That pain isn’t something any mother should know. Sending lots of love❤️✨
Sorry to see you went through this. One thing to be very grateful for is that your children have a sibling. My daughter will be an only child now as me and especially my wife dont want to take the chance in case we go through this again. Once is enough for her. Wish you the best.
I'm sorry for your loss. Grief and gratitude can sit at the same table. My losses have never made me less thankful for my living children. My living children have never lessened my losses. Sending you all well wishes
Wow thank you so much for sharing I also thought I was having a November baby and now all I’m waiting is to get another ultrasound to confirm my suspicions a baby with no heartbeat measuring 6 weeks when my last period was in February....I just need to accept this and get ready for the process ahead, I’m scared about the whole pain part of it. I also have two girls, sounded like you were my future me telling the story... again thank you for sharing, this gives me an idea of what to expect 😳
I was supposed to have a November baby too. Now I'm hoping I get to keep my january baby.
I hope you’ll both have these babies to keep💕 It’s such a crappy thing to have in common but comments like yours remind me none of us are truly alone in this. Keeping my fingers crossed for you ladies✨
Wow. I went through the same thing. Starting spotting at 12 weeks. Went in for an ultrasound, smh. Baby was only 5 weeks and 6 days. It stop growing then. This was so heartbreaking for me i was so excited thinking im olmost cleared of the trimester . Im actually home right now miscarrying. Im in pain alot of back pain. But the process seems really slow. Im still not passing alot of blood the pain is mostly bk pain. The hospital told me ill pass it on my own. But im scared. I've been spotting around 5 days now its getting abit heavier but wow. Listening to this i can relate. I cried while watching and after. 😢
I’m so, so sorry❤️❤️
I'm going through the same thing right now. I'm supposed to be 10 weeks but measured 5 and a half weeks. 30 mn after confirmation that I had a miscarriage it all started to pass. Its like once I realized it my body just let go of it all ☹😭
Thank you so much. I can’t even begin to imagine what going through this is like, but I’m so grateful you’re strong enough to open up for other mother’s that might need to hear your story.
I don’t like watching many mommy TH-camrs because I feel like majority of them are just not true to the light of motherhood, but I absolutely love your channel. You have such a wonderful aura.
That means so much to me, thank you💕 for all your support and kind words💕💕
Momma Alia wishing you and your family nothing but the best.
Riki Reese i😒😍
I had this on tuesday, I had a tiny bit of spotting then at 3am Wednesday I woke up feeling strange and went to the toilet and had a lot of blood. Went to a+e where they said I might be miscarriaging so went home and came back later for a scan where they confirmed I had a mmc, I was a day away from my 12 week scan and my baby died at 8 weeks, was devastated, went home and within 3 hrs I passed everything, this was my first baby.
I’m so, so sorry❤️
This touched my heart I have not experienced anything like this so I can not even fathom what you are feeling. But what I know I can do is send hugs, support and good vibes your way. It is always going to hurt and scar will always be there which sucks. I know that you are a strong mom and woman. Sending many hugs and love.
Thank you so much, that means a lot💕💕
I lost my baby to missed abortion today....i got a bleeding and went to the ER and they didn’t found a heartbeat😞 i’ve been crying every day since
I am so sorry for your loss💕
I also lost my baby on 11 week. Brown discharge started. I could not understand why it happen. When doctor examined he told there is no heartbeat and no growth. Advice to abort. It was my first baby after 4 years of marriage. I was so happy but something went wrong and we lost our little one. It broke both of us.
Just praying to god for the good things.
Hi 💜 thank you so much for sharing your story. I know that was probably not easy for you. I just wanted to share that we have similar stories. I lost my baby at 11 weeks and 6 days on 6/13/21. It was my first baby and we had our first ultrasound scheduled for 12 weeks and 3 days, but obviously never made it to that appointment...and I was so sad I never got to have that experience. But by some miracle, through all the tissue I passed, I got to see and hold my baby…but it only looked about 7-8 weeks, not 12. So I also had a missed miscarriage. I passed mostly everything on my own, but ended up opting for the D&C because I didn’t want to bleed for a long time and there was still a little tissue left over in my uterus. I’m so sorry you had to go through this. So many things that you mentioned and the feelings that you said you have felt…I have felt exactly those things. You are not alone!
Sending you so many hugs and so much love McKenzie
@@MommaAlia 💗 thank you so much!
I just found out about you. Right now I should have been 11+2w, but on Monday appointment baby measured only 6+3 weeks with no heartbeat (saw heartbeat 2 weeks ago), yesterday started to get contractions and delivered all the stuff with pushing at my bathub which was very unpleasant thing to see. At sunday night dreamed that my doctor says that I will miscarry at Tuesday to Wednesday, which I did and I am still bleeding right now. This was my 6th miscarry from December 2018. The worst part that my doctor said that it could be, that this is not a last time for me. I have so many illnesses that makes me conceiving hard (I am not ovulating), and other illness does everything to kill the baby, so for me it's the battle with myself and I don't know when I will win. It could be next time, it could be after 10 more miscarriages. And I clearly don't know if I will have the strenght to go thru all of this so many times..
And I am very sorry about your losses. It never gets better, you will never forget about this, but wont take away your happiness too.
I’m so, so sorry for your losses❤️
@@MommaAlia thank you. My babies will always be at my heart. ❤️
@@annakire8184 I hope things finally worked out for you and you were able to carry a baby to term ❤
@sarah29880 I did. In total I had 9MC, 10th pregnancy gave us a girl l who is now 18month old and starting daycare. Her delivery was traumatic, I didn't know if she will survive but she did and is a healthy toddler. ❤️
Thank you for making this, i am currently going through the same right now, i am still waiting to miscarry, he was supposed to be my first baby 💔 so i have no idea what to really expect.
I’m so sorry for you, I’m expecting my first baby now (12 weeks) and I haven’t had any bleeding but I’ve had cramping that feels like a shooting pain very low in my vagina and I’m terrified of going to my appointment in an hour only to be told I had a missed miscarriage :( I hope for a future healthy pregnancy for you 😢💗
I am so sorry for your loss🤍 it’s unbelievably hard but you will get through it. All your feelings are valid and as cliche as it is, take it one day at a time. You’re not alone💕
@@lexjordan691 how did it go for you ? I found out I lost my baby last night . Died weeks before I started bleeding.
So sorry for your loss xx
familypeacelove I’m so so sorry :( I haven’t had anything else go wrong but I’m terrified as I have a connective tissue disorder :/ I hope things get easier for you
The same exact thing happened to me recently. Found out in december that i was pregnant and then found out in february that we had a missed miscarriage. Had a d&c. I am so sorry for your loss. I felt all the same things. Wishing you and your family the best
Thank you so much, sending my love right back💕
My body naturally started miscarriage the day after my OB discovered my baby no longer had a heart beat.
Sheryl Parana The same exact thing happened to me. So sorry for your loss. Hugs 💖💙
Im going through this now. Its unbelievable trying to believe everything was fine and walking in for a ultrasound to find out that news.
I’m so, so sorry🤍
My missed miscarriage felt like full on labor.
I had the same thing. Baby measure at 14.3 days at my appointment I was supposed to be 16.5 I had a doppler which help me prepare for what I would learn at that appointment. 2nd trimester is supposed to be in the clear. I was not. I did the lab testing. Nothing was wrong and confirmed it was a little boy. That was in june 2014. ( his feet are my picture) today I'm 11 weeks pregnant and still terrified that something could happened. I don't know if I will be happy till I reach 20 some weeks. I use the doppler every other day to reassure me. I think the longer you are pregnant the harder you fall when it ends abruptly. I also have unexplained infertility and takes for ever for me to get pregnant. I have 19 yr 17yr 4 yr with 2 miscarry. Miles would be 3 this years. It hurts every July first when another year goes by that miles would be here. Good luck to you.
I’m so, so sorry momma. Pregnancy is such a beautiful thing but so scary when you know anything can happen at any time. You don’t feel relieved until your baby is alive in your arms. I hope this baby continues to beat all your fears and gets to come home with you!💕
Rebeka ttc ..know it’s an old post but had similar experience. .i just didn’t realize how common it is not that it makes it less hard. Did you ever try again? I would love to except I’m in my late 30s and honestly don’t know if I could. 😪
@@TheMsilva81 yes I did try again. Took a bit. But February 4th 2019 I had another little boy. He is a red head and full of energy. Miscarriages are hard no matter if it is your first baby are you 6th baby.
I will never forget my little Miles born sleeping. 👼
Oh also I was 40 when my red head was born. I didn't use any fertility medicine this time... just on a wim we were pregnant. I didn't think I could get pregnant anymore. So many fertility drugs over the years can diminish your egg supply. So I really thought 🤔 I couldn't get pregnant and it would be then. Good luck to you. I'm sure it will happen. Baby dust to you.
@@rebekattc1722 oh thank you! your post made me want to cry. thank you it gives me so much hope that maybe im not too old. thank you so much
I went to the hospital and all they gave me was Tylenol.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. In August at 12 weeks exactly we found out our baby stopped growing at 9weeks2days. It’s such a hard thing to go through. But I am trying to share my story too, to try and let others know they are not alone! X
You’re so welcome. I’m sorry to hear of your loss but that’s so awesome that you’re going to reach out for other people!💕
Then wht u did dear?
I’ve always loved your channel because you are always sharing to help others. Your EP series made me realize that I didn’t have to give up because my son wouldn’t latch. I know this video was incredibly hard to make, but it’s a comfort for others to know they are not alone. I know you guys will be okay in the end 🌈💛 the sun must set to rise, and you need a little rain to make a rainbow 😘
I’m so happy my videos could help you momma. And thank you so much for your kind words and support💕💕
Thank you for this video. Your perspective really helps.
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They call it an Anembryonic pregnancy now, my doctor called it that (Blighted Ovum is outdated I guess). I had an ultrasound at what should’ve been 6weeks, 6days and had an empty sac. They thought maybe I was too earlier, however I’ve been tracking my cycle and ovulation and know when my lmp was. I have a repeat ultrasound Monday (I should be 8 weeks, 4days). I’m pretty confident this is what I have. Doctor did say if it’s not too early then this what it is. The tech told me she couldn’t even measure it.
I really hope your next ultrasound is better🤍
I lost my baby after 8 weeks n still face the infertility please pray for me 😢
I didn't understand why did too many miscarriage women in America. American doctor s are not good enough.
I just found out I had a missed miscarriage at 7 weeks. I am sad but I know it is possible. This is my very first.
I am so sorry for your loss🤍
Im in my 3rd pregnancy, currently 7weeks. 1st chemical , 2nd missed , and this time is so frustrating.. hope i can go through this . Im stress... kept thinking how long this last
Hope the pregnancy was successful ❤
My missed miscarriage was 11 weeks. This was 24 years ago but haunts me still, nothing made sense at the time and nothing was explained.
Thank you for your courage in posting this experience. I know that this will help so many people!
I hope so and thank you for your constant support💕
Thank you for sharing this hard journey! Love you so much!
Love ya too💕
I had my 12 week scan on Friday and they told me there was no longer. Heart beat they said the baby was 11weeks 6 days in size when I was 12 weeks 6 days so they say it must of happened Last week I have to go to the hospital tomorrow to decide what I want to do take a tablet or have d&c I am just so upset and in shock I can't believe this has happened your video was so helpful though I don't feel so alone it's hard as I'm not bleeding or have any pain just knowing I'm still carrying my baby that's no longer alive it's killing me :(
I’m so sorry for your loss❤️ i hope your recovery is quick and as painless as possible💕
You are so brave for posting this video. I can't imagine how hard this was for you. You know that I'll forever there for you when you need anything.
Thank you so much Isabel💕💕
I just had a miscarriage at 7 weeks and I swear the pain was disgusting!!! It was horrible! I think the embryo had to have passed on its own. It was crazy. I was thinking maybe I don’t want to be a mother. The shit was so bad!!
I’m sorry for your loss and hope you’re healing well❤️
This is what I am going through and I am just waiting to pass. This is my first time. I haven’t even bled and I found out there was no heartbeat 2 weeks ago
I’m so sorry for your loss❤️
Momma Alia thank you so much. Your video was so helpful. I started spotting today. I made a video on my experience because I was expecting to document my pregnancy, but this is where I am.
I think it's pretty normal to have your cycle change after 35. I have 2 kids too, I'm 38. Mine changed around 33/34. Shorter period, different ovulation day. 2 missed periods in 3 years. I wondered if I was beginning perimenopause, but apparently I wasn't
My first pregnancy ended with missed abortion (missed miscarriage) - I was almost 13 weeks when I started spotting brown only to find out that the he stopped growing at around 8.5 weeks - and to think that my first us was right at week 8. I cannot say what I felt really - I did not even knew I was pregnant till week 7 because my pcos and because i had a surgery right at that point and was sure I cannot be pregnant and beside a bit of nausea felt nothing diffrent. 2 months after i have chemical pregnancy. I did got pregnant and had a healthy baby - but it is scary to do it after miscarriage - i was scared that something might happen again.
I’m sorry for your loss❤️
I came across your video today probably because anticipating a miscarriage. Your story was well told and I thank you for sharing though I'm sure it was hard. I've had one miscarriage already and have had two daughters. We're trying for another baby. I decided to cancel my doctor appointment and am just waiting. Again thank you for sharing.
I hope your pregnancy progresses and is healthy. I'll be thinking of you
This is basically the same as we went through. Well, I guess ours had more twists and turns. Ultimately I was pregnant for 9.5 weeks, but she measured 7 weeks and no longer had a heartbeat. I went through the labor at home with no pain medicine because I didn't think the ER would be able to help me (I live in a red state and had documented heartbeat previously). It was the most painful thing I've ever gone through physically and emotionally. I wish I had gotten a d&c instead. I bled heavily for over a month and still have hcg in my system. I lost so much blood I'm now anemic and my doctor is trying to decide if I need iron infusion or blood. My pregnancy symptoms were more intense during this pregnancy than with my son.
My daughter is waiting for body to do it's job. She just found out today that she has a missed miscarriage. So who knows when it will happen. I've had 2 myself. It's a horrible thing to go through. I'm sorry you had to.
I’m so sorry for your daughter’s loss❤️ And your losses as well. I hope it’s a quick process and I’ll be thinking of her💕
@@MommaAlia Thank you..
Thank you for posting this video. Currently going through this for the first time. I'm very nervous waiting for everything to be completed but your story let's me know what to expect. I'm so sorry for your lost. But thank you for sharing, I know I am not alone, which definitely helps along with all of the other emotions I'm going through. 🙏🏼❤️
I’m so sorry to hear that. Sending love and positive thoughts your way💕
Am so sorry for your loss this hit me so hard
I'm so sorry. I understand how you feel (I also understand that someone saying that or that they will pray for you or that they are sorry for your loss is NOT helpful in the least). In 09 I had an ectopic (tubal) pregnancy and almost died. They took one of my tubes and conceiving would be really hard. In 2012 we have birth to our rainbow baby and there was a rainbow over the hospital when he was born...so sweet. Then in 2014 we had our 2nd and when she was 10 months old we conceived again and miscarried...we are due this month to deliver our last miracle baby. My prayers are with you...conception is possible. I love you. Keep the faith sweet mama
What a journey momma! So happy you got your rainbow babies🙌🏻 thank you so much💕
Thank you for your story. I am going through this right now, I should be 9 weeks but growth seems to have stopped around 6 weeks. I was hoping by body would pass baby naturally but now I am terrified and planning a d&c. So sorry for your loss.
And I am so sorry for yours🤍 sending you so much love and hope things go as well as they can💕
Going though this... Supposedly I should be 10 weeks and the baby stopped growing at 6. Waiting to take the pills :( Thanks for saying that we should take time and not under estimating the dolor.
I already have 2 daughters too.
Thanks