Hello bruv. It’s Jonny bamber. I gave you the bike carbs for Maude. This video has truly touched me and I am so proud of you for this. I was where you are with sniff and puff. I smoked weed from the age of 13 and coke from my teens got so bad was doing a few grams a day and weed. In the end I was not even doing lines just Splitting it into two piles and sniffing it. Would get a gram on my way home pull over in a lay-by sniffing it all then going home and hiding it from my family. Put my wife and family through so much and lost them for a while. Won’t go into it all but I have not done drugs now in ten years. Tried AA and CA but just was not for me. The love of my wife and kids got me through it and I managed to turn my life around. The thought is always in the back of my head but I look at what I have now and the family that stuck by me. From where you was to where you are now is amazing. What you have achieved with your cars and your channels is amazing!!! There are normal everyday people that would not have the guts to do what you have!! You have a truly amazing woman standing by you and by posting this video you now have everyone of you subscribers watching you back!!! You have one massive family looking out for you now!! If you ever get the bad thoughts when you know Cats working a night shift your welcome over mine for the night!! You got this bruv! You got my number and as always if there is anything I can do to help with the card or anything just let me know. It’s hard to admit to the ones you love but what you have just done is truly brave. Your a legend!!!❤❤
I was about to write something about not being on your own when Cat’s on her night shifts, but this comment beat me to it. I too have spent many years thinking about some of these issues, in my case through involvement with a counselling organisation and trying to help people in other situations. Trying to ‘be strong’ in a situation known to trigger the problem is bound to fail - you have to see it coming and withdraw from the situation. Going to stay with a trusted friend or family or having them stay with you on those occasions seems to be a good way forward.
Wasn’t expecting that Marcus, at least you admitted that you had a problem, that’s the first stage of recovery, stay strong and concentrate on the cars, best wishes.
Hey Marcus I have watched this video 3 times I can’t believe you are struggling with these addictions. I have been watching your main channel from the start and even criticised your driving in some of them. I can’t stop thinking about the things you have said especially about wondering random towns alone and stealing packages in the hope there is drugs in them. I’m not going to lie I had a tear in my eye listening to you tell your story. You come across as a care free normal guy with a good woman and a passion for your cars. I would never have guessed you are fighting these addictions. I hope one day you will win this battle and be happier than you have ever been 👍🏻
Hi mate, I have been a follower right from the start. Brave brave man doing what you just did. I can relate. I had both my parents pass from cancer within 6 months of each other and it hit me hard. I ended up with depression and started taking Sertraline for it. I went through the most darkest of places but I’m still here. My beautiful wife and gorgeous little girl gave me the reason I needed to not do something silly. I know you don’t know you personally but keep strong and always remember that your not alone, people care and would really miss you. Take care
Firstly Marcus, MASSIVE respect to what you do with the cars, and the gamble of leaving Royal Mail. Your in my top 3 TH-camrs that I watch as soon as you drop a video. But my god, this video mate, like everyone else has said, had no idea. You got big balls to admit all that, I can see it it's going to help massively to others! I'm not an addict or suffer depression, but when you talked about small things, even insignificant things that happen to you as a kid, that can have a massive effect on adult life, that hit home with me. Soon as you started talking, I could instantly relate to it. Would love to see a side by side vid with Cat, with her thoughts on this. And she really is, a beautiful girlfriend to stick by you! Take care mate, and keep posting vids👍👍👍
brave of you to open up about your struggles i have not done drugs but suffered from bullies at school you are doing a great thing opening up look forward to more on both your channels
i am glad you opened up about this. us blokes especially are not good at talking about these issues. i was badly bullied at school too and it left deep scarring that i have had to deal with all my life ,luckily i have a very supportive wife and 2 beautiful girls now . stay strong .
I hear what your saying mate and we'll done for speaking out the fact we never knew because you content is so enjoyable and full of laughs shows we can all have our struggles and never judge anyone. One of my favourite channels as you speak your mind at that's priceless. 👌
Look after yourself. You are a national treasure. Don't touch the antidepressants, you don't need them and they can seriously mess you up in strange ways. Find some activity however daft for those Nightshift nights that go wrong. You could probably get a job as an analyst. I still think one day somebody will spot you and you will be on the TV. Keep making the youTube (both channels) you are better at it than you think, and help loads of us. Look after Cat. Thank you, and thank you for reading.
Respect for telling all about your problems. I have suffered badly with depression since loosing my baby son 5 years ago. Wishing you and Kat all the best x
I suffer from mental health mate for over 30 years , I have total respect for you sharing this with everyone as you didn't have to ever , I respected you before but that has went up tenfold Marcus keep fighting keep moving on live for today mate 👍👌
Well done Marcus, only been following you a few months and never knowingly been around people with similar issues so would never have known you had these issues, massive respect to you for speaking out and being so honest.
Marcus, thank you sincerely for sharing your story. Your videos on the other channel have brought joy and entertainment to so many of us and long may it continue, this in itself is a huge achievement. Marcus, you can overcome this illness, we're all supporters of you and your work.
Fuck me ,, Marcus very brave to sit there and talk about your troubles.. takes a lot of balls as a human and open up to the world.. a very strong and hard hitting video.. a lot of us have problems.. what stay hidden.. guess we all need to open up to someone..at some point in are lives.. keep it coming.. it’s good to talk .. respect mate ..
Well done Marcus for having the sheer balls and courage to open up on a very difficult area. Just keep on hanging in there, and rejoice in all the pleasure you bring to others through you videos. You have a 24-carat, gold-plated diamond there in Cat. She and your sheer determination and will power are the route to continue on your improving path. So as I’m sure you do, appreciate the hell out of how lucky you are to have Cat in your life and just be so damn thankful that she is your rock. All strength prayers and good wishes to you on your journey, Marcus, and please convey all love and appreciation to Cat who is one in a million. And how the hell she manages never to throw up on your drift day outings still totally baffles me!! 🤪🤪 Stay strong, Marcus. ❤️❤️
Fair play to you mate, I was exactly the same as you I was out of control for years. Everything you say I did the exact same. And since I became sober i cant believe there are so many people that have had the same struggle it's crazy. I can relate to this so much and have to take my hat off to you for throwing it out there. I'm just over 4 years sober and my life has become amazing. Fair play mate and your not alone out here. 👍
Goes to show just what people are dealing with & hide it. Total respect for being so honest & up front !! Stay positive & focus on the great things in your life. Much love Marcus.
This was brilliant wasn't expecting to hear the blunt truth like that never would of thought you had personal issues with dependency I have a few skeletons in my closet and it's fantastic that you shared yours with us like mate's do best wishes 😜👌
OMG i didn't see this coming full respect to you for pulling that big plaster off and big respect for Cat for being there for you you make a great couple i have my demons like most people and i hope more people see this and take note and can help more people keep strong fella
Gobsmaked! Thought I was going to be watching you bodge old Fords. Every credit for sharing your troubles. Some very surprising admissions. I'll be sure to watch this new channel as well as your original one. Well done to you and also very significantly to Cat.
I follow you on the car channel and I must say I take my hat off to you for being so open and honest I was really taken back and surprised but wish u all the success and happiness
Full respect for opening up to the world. This life is full of challenges & addiction is widespread. Your personal insights can only help with the realities of living day to day for anyone struggling with mental issues or personal demons. Thank you for being so honest. Wishing you all the best 👍
Been there was homeless...started with bud, moved onto hard drugs selling it first then using a lil to fully addicted on b,s n white. Had to go n.a I'm completely clean now house kids missus, two motorcycles and a 90,s Vauxhall work full time time in a garage fair play to u..... been there addiction is real. Keep your head up
Nothing but admiration for you mate. This channel will help to vent and share. We ALL need that. It’s not about the cars but doing what you want to do and improve and provide the best life that you can have. You have all our support ❤
I feel your pain Marcus. I crashed my moped a month ago, going to get just 1 more beer! I smashed all the plastics on my little Honda, ripped my Stone Island jacket, broke 2 toes and nearly broke my leg! Im 39 years old and also deeply ashamed of the things I do when high
Wow Marcus, big up to you first of all for your complete honesty, when I met you, knew we would get along, kinda similar personalities! Good luck with your journey, you have my support my friend! Your a nice guy.
My respect for you is now off the clock Marcus - Talking about it is the biggest part so well done ! It's not easy lad but keep with it and don't get down if you relapse - just start again ! I'm in shock as I thought your only addiction was the old skool Ford's 😅
Respect to you Marcus being honest and admitting to yourself is the main thing I know exactly what your going through im in and out of that life myself it’s hard Bro. Hang in there mate things will get better it’s good to talk. You take care now 💯👍
Wow, just wow. Like others have said, I had no idea what you'd been through and what you are still dealing with. Great courage and honesty to open up like this. Massive respect mate. All the best. 👍
Bless you Marcus thats really moved me , well done for facing your demonds and coming out telling the world, your a very brave man and very lucky to have your beautiful girlfriend beside you 💙
I no 100% how u feeling, u got 2 keep going if not 4 urself, 4 da one tat lov u ..dy say its a illness is it?.ur on a path keep walking don't look bk looking 4wrd keep going ...u got so much 2 giv .lov da videos .bless MH.
Dear Marcus, Firstly of your very open Vlog,we are 100%behind you.And im sure many of your followers are too,we was totally shocked and to know what you have been going through all this time,you have a wonderful partner in Cat,anyway just wanted to let you know how we wish to support you and Cat. Love to you both. Maggie & Graham.
A story from your heart Marcus . I have been to many of the places you speak about. You are over one of the biggest hurdles by addressing to yourself that you are an alcoholic & drug user. I found self hypnosis to be the key to my well being . I shall continue to use the hypnosis as it helps each day of my existence.
Hay bro. I lost a childhood friend last year due to mental health, he would have been 40 this year. The first time we knew about it was he put a load of pics on facebook of what he had done to himself. We all got round him to tried to help him out, we all thought he was doing well! But he was hiding it from us. He was hiding a lot from his family too. He was on drugs and drinking witch did not help out! I wish he had opened up to us and we could have helped him more. Still remember that call from his sister! Then having to tell all of our friends. I've been struggling with my own mental health after almost loosening my own life 3 years ago. Witch has left me with a lot of heath problems! Really has knocked me back and i struggle every day. Im nowhere near as bad as him and i don't entend on ever getting there! So stay strong and keep up the good work!
Well done mate . Im an addict in recovery 17 years clean . Found my passion working on my cars . Find a good support group . I attend NA and have great friendships there. I dont have a drug problem, i have a me problem. 12 step programs provide a means to clear away past feelings and move forward.
Total respect for you Marcus, you are not alone on these daily battles but like most of us we stay silent. Speaking out is a massive hurdle and you have done yourself proud. Also a shout out to Kat 👍🏻 keep up the great work on the main channel, big man hug 👊🏼
@@mh_on_track just keep.up the good work, keep yourself busy. Thousands of.people are here for you...your not alone. Stay strong and let's get Heidi rolling this year.
Joined your other channel covid lockdown time.. You did propper help me get through some really shitty nights and dark days. I've been a drug addict since for ever. 90ts clubbing. First night out taking Es was only 14. But we was walking about at the age of 11 n 12 on acid sniffing gas . So the class As took hold before my 20th bday. " just wanted you to know me propper briefly before I say"!! You brave pal. Your honest to say in an addict even thou you have tryed to keep it together "which you have" . Not a crack an smack head like me. Bit I've always admitted I'm an addict. I love your understanding and ability to get across, if your not onto the coke this week you hitting the booze or a combo ect I know you dont probably want thousands of people saying "oh Marcus we think your so brave a d you going a out of the right way this that the other. I've got a mk1 st170 last year mainly cos your other channel Always dreamt of stop being a total addict junkie what ever Wanted to have something to focus on But it's the slips and the depression that sets in if you slip, that hurts It makes me anyway feel like a total fraud when someone says "your really doing better now your mot spending every ladt pe NY on the coke or the crack ect ect. I'm glad you have now stood infront of the camera to tell us about this Marcus! Cos its shocked me that you go on walk abouts and drug cruzes like ke I've always been famous for Kinda thought yo my self if he struggles to talk an Express him &elf with out coke like me ? Is he coked up here.??. Hey brother that's just the addict in me . I cant do AA.. CA .. ect because I sat there trying to figure out if there chatting awY this week cos there smashed?? Cos last three weeks they havnt said 2 words . Anyway thanks for the honesty and sharing. And your so so right cat is your life saver. My misses past away 10 years back dead young and it recked me. Keep the faith brother.
Hi Marcus i loved the clip about you opening up about your issues. It sounds like you have a very supportive girlfreind in your life . Which is very good and we all need supprt now and then keep up with the fantastic channel it makes me laugh all the best 👍
Thanks for sharing this get into the meeting CA 12 steps I feel your pain I suffer with this illness god can help no power that’s are problem stay strong 🙏🏻
Well done for speaking out Marcus, a big part of us guy's problems is perhaps that we don't like to talk about them. Addiction and/or depression affects most of us at some time or the other. Good to see so much positivity in the comments. Best Wishes
Hi Marcus…much respect for this very open and honest video , this kind of talk and content can only create more positivity in your life and all who view it…from my experience through meditation,coming to understand that you don’t have to act on every thought that pops into your head and that your thoughts don’t define you where the first building blocks that I needed with my struggles with addiction, I’m a few years older than yourself but I understand and can relate to what you’ve gone through… I’m at a place now where I don’t have a constant battle with myself not to fall off the wagon, I just don’t want to anymore… stay “on track” mate you’re an inspiration 👍👍👍
I remember when I first learned about meditation whilst watching self help videos. It took years before I actually tried it because I thought it was a bit weird etc (which ironically was me allowing my mind to not try it) After learning about Eckhart Tolle, I tried actually meditating and was doing it everyday for a while. Even when I stopped I made sure that I was living in the present moment as much as possible and this was huge for me in terms of improving my life. Nowadays I sit down every morning and go through a guided meditation on TH-cam. For me 20 mins is the ideal BUT I am purposely doing 10 mins because I am trying to do not allow my mind to persuade me that I dont have time etc. Iv leant from past experiences that for me it is better to do a LITTLE BIT of EVERYTHING in my morning routine (meditation, journaling, walk round the block, exercise, cold shower etc etc etc) rather than picking and choosing certain elements from the routine and going full on. 👍
Jesus what a brave man you are that takes a lot mate hats of to you you have a loving beautiful lady a lovely father oh and some alright cars 😂 fair play to you mate for sharing that took a real man to do that 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼
Hey Marcus, wow mate opening up like that is not easy but amazing your doing this. I know people with very similar stories to yours. In fact a good friend of mine has a very very similar story to yours if I get him to one of the petrolheads breakfast meets I will introduce you.
The thing is, no-one can understand what it's like to be an addict if they haven't had that experience themselves! Many may say, get help, but when you are deep into something, you can't, or don't want to see what help is available, until for some, something happens to get you to make a decision to get help! many don't get to that point! Also, sometimes we can'r see that we have an issue! I never had issues with drugs like this, but went through mental health issues with depression, even having to have 6 weeks in a mental hospital. It's not easy to see a way out. But as you are doing now, being truthful and honest with yourself, and those who care about you. and simply talking about things, can begin to make better decisions in life not only you, but those around you, and other's who may see this video. Good on you Marcus.
Fair play for speaking up mate I've been you're shoes I'm the past lost my kids and my relationship when down hill all down to drink and drugs glad you said about them voices as I use to get then when I was on coke too though I was messed up hearing them. I then I got of the coke I couldn't go to the pub with out thinking about ordering a packed up and had to stop going to the put with me mates as I was scared I would get back on it again
2 minutes in Marcus an I feel you brother.. massive massive respect for you opening up there.. the best thing I ever did was open up to my addiction I was hooked on painkillers for almost 10 years it got to the point where I planned my route to pass pharmacy’s to pick more up if I couldn’t get any from the bloke up the road who could get hold of anything wink wink… I kept it from everything until one day I ran out completely and I was in bits.. I contacted a company called CGL Change Grow Live.. I’m being treated as a heroine addict due to the amount of opioids I was taking and it’s changed my life… give yourself a big pat on the back for admitting you have a problem you can break the habit 💪 you got this 💪
Bloody hell Marcus, am as surprised as anyone to hear this, just goes to show that we all have our demons and our own way to cope with them, massive respect to you for opening up about this, stay strong bro, always here if you need a chat or support ♥️
Hi Marcus, thank you for your openness, you are very lucky to have a wonderful supportive girlfriend in Cat.... please don't take her for granted....I loathe my partner of 15 years recently partly due to my alcohol addiction and also my mental health illness......I'm just getting over it and I appreciate you being so honest and your positive attitude is really inspiring.....all any of us can do is try our best, we all fail occasionally, and like yourself we have to deal with it and try to move forward.......I'll pray for you to succeed in the long run....please keep sharing as I recently had a crisis and was on my way to lie down on the railway line and go to sleep and hope to never wake up....we all need escapism at times just do what works for you...🤞
Wow ,I wasn't expecting that dude , Love your videos and when I'm down the only thing that keeps me going is your videos and your cars........ I'm pleased you can express your issues and maybe we can all help each other along the way to reach our goal in life
Have you ever had your testosterone levels measured at a private clinic? I was diagnosed with depression by a NHS doctor but I was showing a lot of symptoms of low testosterone, a good friend of mine from my gym told me to get my bloodwork done and it turned out my testosterone was very low. I’ve been TRT ever since and I haven’t touch a antidepressant, I feel completely normal and happy all the time. Might be something worth looking into mate and massive well done for being so open about your struggles.
Look into ASD, my friend. You have a number of similarities to me and at 51 years old being diagnosed made perfect sense of my whole life. Hope you get through the other side intact. 🙏🏻🙏🏻👍🏻
Thanks for the advice! 👍 Currently Im not interested in getting 'diagnosed' for anything. As far as Im concerned doctors are just the marketing department of big pharma anyway. For someone like me that has lived the life of a lazy waste man, the last thing I need is a diagnosis (an excuse) for how I am. I just need to WORK everyday at being a stronger person. If I am at a disadvantage because I have some sort of 'medical issue' then so be it. Any disadvantage is irrelevant if I actually try my best at life. 💪
hi mate,you have shown real character by publicly admitting your addictions....many people would have kept it hidden thinking it was going to affect ratings or followers, but your transparent approach to your demons will gain you much respect and also help others in similar situations...im keen to see your videos regarding meditation as i think that is something everyone can use to improve their lives.......i sincerely wish you all the best in acheiving your goals ....
Thanks mate! 👍 My next video will touch on meditation but in the meantime there are plenty of videos on TH-cam about it and loads of guided meditations on here for you to follow.
Hello mate Fair play for starting this channel I also suffer with social mental health issues and it is hard to admit the issues sometimes 👍🏻 and also wicked content as always on your other channel 👍🏻
Wow, I wasn’t expecting that, (let me try jog your memory who I am lol, I met you with my son at Santa Pod ford show I’ve spoke to you a bit on messenger, myself and my son have a TH-cam channel…not this one I’m on now, I’m Dave my son Bailey I’ve got the ratty mondeo and fiesta) Great honesty there, I myself struggle daily with mental health I do have labels personally I don’t mind using my diagnosis at times to explain myself, I’m autistic and I have ocd, the ocd is bad but I can hide it, I too am a alcoholic and have used drugs but alcohol was my main drug of choice, I’ve been sober and clean for 7&1/2 years, I also did attend aa 12 step program but haven’t attended for a few years I never fully committed and like you there were parts that didn’t resonate with me and I also found it a bit of a cult. I get suicidal thoughts they’re worse as I’m older, I try (I’m on some now) medication but it never really works for me it’ll take the edge off for a few weeks then ware off. I often make viewers of our channel aware that I’m autistic and struggle. Hopefully you’ll do a video on meditation soon as I’ve always struggled to understand how that works and just because I’m 7&1/2 years sober doesn’t mean I find life easy, I hate social situations and I do lots of stuff alone. Keep up the good work 1 day at a time don’t be hard on yourself 👍
@cortinamad1 I can kinda relate. Don’t wanna go into it too much cuz I’m not comfortable with some of the mental side but I’m also autistic with OCD and I also suffer from PVL which is a form of cerebral palsy and I have epilepsy too so I pretty much never touch my car cuz the PVL basically means as much as I can pull weight in the gym I can’t actually use my muscle and I also have arthritis so combining the two it takes 10x more effort just to do stupid shit like get out of bed and walk to the toilet cuz my joints stiffen up after a while which makes it hard to move and with the arthritis it’s even worse in the winter. As for the epilepsy that’s triggered by heat light and noise so that can also hold me back sometimes. And as you probably know being autistic yourself I get confused and struggle to understand simple things and I can’t do things quickly either. So aswell as that I’ve also struggled with mental health too and I still do now(ie. Depression anxiety and paranoia and I have had similar thoughts but I’ve never acted out on it) and from the outside i look like a mess but you would never know I had these conditions unless you saw me walking but even then I force myself to try heal and toe so it’s less noticeable so I look normal. Now for the last few years I’ve been numb but since I bought my Lexus 2 months ago I’ve been way happier and because I’ve been distracted either filming videos or taking pictures or trying to learn more about it and look at parts for it my mental state has been pretty good although I do sometimes have off days and this is slightly stupid but it’s mainly cuz I’m the only one in the family with no friends or partner or any social life at all and it does get to me sometimes but now I look through my camera roll and see how pimp my Lexus looks and I remember the times I said I’d never afford one and then remember it’s mine and I realise that life really isn’t that bad and if you wait it out it will get better even if it’s something small. So everyone who says cars won’t make you happy and are just metal just don’t understand and probably never will but trust me things will improve. Hang in there man
Nice one thanks for the reply, reading yours makes me feel I don’t have it all that bad, sorry you have the pvl and epilepsy and all that What’s your TH-cam channel, my other one I load videos of my cars and car meets to is RAT FORD stay safe keep going with your Lexus
Hi Marcus respect to you mate to open with you struggle in life I had to admit that I need help with my mental health. Il really struggling ATM Follow you on your other Chanel You get my strength to carry on with my mk2 escort estate project Well done mate stay strong 👌
Hi Marcus thanks for your channel.My life is a battle of challenges.Massive rounds of abuse and negativity.I haven't done drugs but alcohol was a line that seemed to help..Many horrible things have tried to destroy my life ,All the time taking care of my family and business..Regards TEX
Wow! Not sure how I feel about this! Yes I’m shocked and actually this was the last thing I thought you’d say! But like others have said it is very very brave! Your definitely on the spectrum! I think you need to be assessed for your own justification x
Jeebus! Mate! We must travel through the dark to find the light = the fact that you are talking and getting its off your chest is the 1st step believe me. So many ways you can overcome it. There is Neo Resonance therapy , Reiki , football , come online and play DAYZ or zombies - those can help , find your niche....you can do it ! This is also a message to whoever else is watching/reading - you can overcome it too! Mate - you have a great foundation to overcome this - you work , you have a TH-cam project, you definitely aint no wasteman! Some guy knocked on my door for a spoon , now that is waste! You just need to escape from the world we all do just without harming your body and soul! Good luck!
Thanks Kirsty. It was not as hard as I thought it would be to be honest, which makes me believe even more that making these videos is like a calling. In just hope the things I will be sharing in future videos will help other people. 👍
Well done pal very brave thing to do .just b4 lock down i found out one of my best mates ad cancer 3yrs end of this month then found out my mum was really poorly. Then lock down hit i was doin shopping for mine n my mum n dad a job that should take 30 mins ish but was takin 2 to 3 hrs . Lost my mate and 4 days after funeral lost my mum i hit morgans (rum) for a few days numbed pain but dint really help so day b4 funeral i made mind up not to turn to drink man its been hard at times but i made a promise in chapel of rest up to now iv kept it any pal keep goin you doin ok every one here for you
Hello bruv. It’s Jonny bamber. I gave you the bike carbs for Maude. This video has truly touched me and I am so proud of you for this. I was where you are with sniff and puff. I smoked weed from the age of 13 and coke from my teens got so bad was doing a few grams a day and weed. In the end I was not even doing lines just Splitting it into two piles and sniffing it. Would get a gram on my way home pull over in a lay-by sniffing it all then going home and hiding it from my family. Put my wife and family through so much and lost them for a while. Won’t go into it all but I have not done drugs now in ten years. Tried AA and CA but just was not for me. The love of my wife and kids got me through it and I managed to turn my life around. The thought is always in the back of my head but I look at what I have now and the family that stuck by me. From where you was to where you are now is amazing. What you have achieved with your cars and your channels is amazing!!! There are normal everyday people that would not have the guts to do what you have!! You have a truly amazing woman standing by you and by posting this video you now have everyone of you subscribers watching you back!!! You have one massive family looking out for you now!! If you ever get the bad thoughts when you know Cats working a night shift your welcome over mine for the night!! You got this bruv! You got my number and as always if there is anything I can do to help with the card or anything just let me know. It’s hard to admit to the ones you love but what you have just done is truly brave. Your a legend!!!❤❤
I was about to write something about not being on your own when Cat’s on her night shifts, but this comment beat me to it. I too have spent many years thinking about some of these issues, in my case through involvement with a counselling organisation and trying to help people in other situations. Trying to ‘be strong’ in a situation known to trigger the problem is bound to fail - you have to see it coming and withdraw from the situation. Going to stay with a trusted friend or family or having them stay with you on those occasions seems to be a good way forward.
Keep off the go-Caine bruv say NO to drugs man and alcohol it will turn your mind into mush..
Amazing work getting clean, well done.
Wasn’t expecting that Marcus, at least you admitted that you had a problem, that’s the first stage of recovery, stay strong and concentrate on the cars, best wishes.
This took balls. You are such a genuine man. Well done marcus, 💙
One of the most open and powerful videos I've seen on TH-cam. Take care Marcus
Thanks for watching mate! 👍
Takes a lot of guts to do that. Fair play to you bro. Massive respect 👏🏻
Thanks for Sharing Marcus 👍
Thanks for watching. 👍
Hey Marcus I have watched this video 3 times I can’t believe you are struggling with these addictions. I have been watching your main channel from the start and even criticised your driving in some of them. I can’t stop thinking about the things you have said especially about wondering random towns alone and stealing packages in the hope there is drugs in them. I’m not going to lie I had a tear in my eye listening to you tell your story. You come across as a care free normal guy with a good woman and a passion for your cars. I would never have guessed you are fighting these addictions. I hope one day you will win this battle and be happier than you have ever been 👍🏻
Hi mate, I have been a follower right from the start. Brave brave man doing what you just did. I can relate. I had both my parents pass from cancer within 6 months of each other and it hit me hard. I ended up with depression and started taking Sertraline for it. I went through the most darkest of places but I’m still here. My beautiful wife and gorgeous little girl gave me the reason I needed to not do something silly. I know you don’t know you personally but keep strong and always remember that your not alone, people care and would really miss you. Take care
One more thing. Respect goes out to cat , it says a lot about the girl and also her family
Massive respect for doing this. Takes a big man to admit to his problems. Keep at it mate
Firstly Marcus, MASSIVE respect to what you do with the cars, and the gamble of leaving Royal Mail. Your in my top 3 TH-camrs that I watch as soon as you drop a video. But my god, this video mate, like everyone else has said, had no idea. You got big balls to admit all that, I can see it it's going to help massively to others! I'm not an addict or suffer depression, but when you talked about small things, even insignificant things that happen to you as a kid, that can have a massive effect on adult life, that hit home with me. Soon as you started talking, I could instantly relate to it. Would love to see a side by side vid with Cat, with her thoughts on this. And she really is, a beautiful girlfriend to stick by you! Take care mate, and keep posting vids👍👍👍
It takes a man to admit his problems glad you've pulled through it take it a day at a time keep up the good work!
brave of you to open up about your struggles i have not done drugs but suffered from bullies at school you are doing a great thing opening up look forward to more on both your channels
i am glad you opened up about this. us blokes especially are not good at talking about these issues. i was badly bullied at school too and it left deep scarring that i have had to deal with all my life ,luckily i have a very supportive wife and 2 beautiful girls now . stay strong .
I hear what your saying mate and we'll done for speaking out the fact we never knew because you content is so enjoyable and full of laughs shows we can all have our struggles and never judge anyone. One of my favourite channels as you speak your mind at that's priceless. 👌
Exactly the same as me mate,stay off it ,like I'm doing!keep positive with everything your good at.👊
My hat is well and truly off to you, i relate to you on quite alot, all power to you for doing this 💪💪💪💪
Marcus what a brave man you are doing this video,telling the whole world your story. Respect man
Look after yourself. You are a national treasure. Don't touch the antidepressants, you don't need them and they can seriously mess you up in strange ways. Find some activity however daft for those Nightshift nights that go wrong. You could probably get a job as an analyst. I still think one day somebody will spot you and you will be on the TV. Keep making the youTube (both channels) you are better at it than you think, and help loads of us. Look after Cat. Thank you, and thank you for reading.
Respect for telling all about your problems. I have suffered badly with depression since loosing my baby son 5 years ago. Wishing you and Kat all the best x
I suffer from mental health mate for over 30 years , I have total respect for you sharing this with everyone as you didn't have to ever , I respected you before but that has went up tenfold Marcus keep fighting keep moving on live for today mate 👍👌
Well done Marcus, only been following you a few months and never knowingly been around people with similar issues so would never have known you had these issues, massive respect to you for speaking out and being so honest.
Your a top bloke Marcus, respect for your honesty, been there my self, now I spend my time building old fords and watching your videos 👌
Marcus, thank you sincerely for sharing your story. Your videos on the other channel have brought joy and entertainment to so many of us and long may it continue, this in itself is a huge achievement. Marcus, you can overcome this illness, we're all supporters of you and your work.
Fuck me ,, Marcus very brave to sit there and talk about your troubles.. takes a lot of balls as a human and open up to the world.. a very strong and hard hitting video.. a lot of us have problems.. what stay hidden.. guess we all need to open up to someone..at some point in are lives.. keep it coming.. it’s good to talk .. respect mate ..
Well done Marcus for having the sheer balls and courage to open up on a very difficult area. Just keep on hanging in there, and rejoice in all the pleasure you bring to others through you videos. You have a 24-carat, gold-plated diamond there in Cat. She and your sheer determination and will power are the route to continue on your improving path. So as I’m sure you do, appreciate the hell out of how lucky you are to have Cat in your life and just be so damn thankful that she is your rock. All strength prayers and good wishes to you on your journey, Marcus, and please convey all love and appreciation to Cat who is one in a million. And how the hell she manages never to throw up on your drift day outings still totally baffles me!! 🤪🤪 Stay strong, Marcus.
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Always found honesty the best policy, respect to ya Marcus, see ya in the summer 👌 😎
Fair play to you mate, I was exactly the same as you I was out of control for years. Everything you say I did the exact same. And since I became sober i cant believe there are so many people that have had the same struggle it's crazy. I can relate to this so much and have to take my hat off to you for throwing it out there. I'm just over 4 years sober and my life has become amazing. Fair play mate and your not alone out here. 👍
Goes to show just what people are dealing with & hide it.
Total respect for being so honest & up front !!
Stay positive & focus on the great things in your life.
Much love Marcus.
Thanks mate! 👍
I have watched this 3 times now , can't believe your honesty Marcus and I just want to say Cat you are a total diamond girl 👍
This was brilliant wasn't expecting to hear the blunt truth like that never would of thought you had personal issues with dependency I have a few skeletons in my closet and it's fantastic that you shared yours with us like mate's do best wishes 😜👌
Love it you have started to break away from it doing this your brave as fk fair game.
OMG i didn't see this coming full respect to you for pulling that big plaster off and big respect for Cat for being there for you you make a great couple i have my demons like most people and i hope more people see this and take note and can help more people keep strong fella
Gobsmaked! Thought I was going to be watching you bodge old Fords. Every credit for sharing your troubles. Some very surprising admissions. I'll be sure to watch this new channel as well as your original one. Well done to you and also very significantly to Cat.
I follow you on the car channel and I must say I take my hat off to you for being so open and honest I was really taken back and surprised but wish u all the success and happiness
Wow! Prayers for your addiction and we still love you ❤❤❤❤
Full respect for opening up to the world. This life is full of challenges & addiction is widespread. Your personal insights can only help with the realities of living day to day for anyone struggling with mental issues or personal demons. Thank you for being so honest. Wishing you all the best 👍
Thanks mate! 👍
Been there was homeless...started with bud, moved onto hard drugs selling it first then using a lil to fully addicted on b,s n white. Had to go n.a I'm completely clean now house kids missus, two motorcycles and a 90,s Vauxhall work full time time in a garage fair play to u..... been there addiction is real. Keep your head up
Wow I'd of never guessed u had this problem with depression an drugs
Good on u talking about it
Brother thats taken balls to do a video about it total respect. I know where your coming from im there myself .
I hope the things I will be sharing in future videos help you mate! 👍 We'r in this together! 💪
Nothing but admiration for you mate. This channel will help to vent and share. We ALL need that. It’s not about the cars but doing what you want to do and improve and provide the best life that you can have. You have all our support ❤
Thanks mate! 👍
I feel your pain Marcus. I crashed my moped a month ago, going to get just 1 more beer! I smashed all the plastics on my little Honda, ripped my Stone Island jacket, broke 2 toes and nearly broke my leg! Im 39 years old and also deeply ashamed of the things I do when high
Wasn't expecting that mate no one perfect but you are my number 1 you tube watch keep positive 👍 all the best Richard
Wow Marcus, big up to you first of all for your complete honesty, when I met you, knew we would get along, kinda similar personalities! Good luck with your journey, you have my support my friend! Your a nice guy.
Thanks Amber! 👍
Wow Marcus, massive respect to you for opening up and sharing your story it must of taken a lot of courage, much respect x
Thanks mate! 👍
Great words Marcus 👍great courage to talk like this well done
My respect for you is now off the clock Marcus - Talking about it is the biggest part so well done ! It's not easy lad but keep with it and don't get down if you relapse - just start again ! I'm in shock as I thought your only addiction was the old skool Ford's 😅
Respect to you Marcus being honest and admitting to yourself is the main thing I know exactly what your going through im in and out of that life myself it’s hard Bro. Hang in there mate things will get better it’s good to talk. You take care now 💯👍
Wow, just wow. Like others have said, I had no idea what you'd been through and what you are still dealing with.
Great courage and honesty to open up like this.
Massive respect mate.
All the best. 👍
Thanks mate! 👍
No many people know how bad it is behind the scenes but we are all here for u man
Bless you Marcus thats really moved me , well done for facing your demonds and coming out telling the world, your a very brave man and very lucky to have your beautiful girlfriend beside you 💙
I no 100% how u feeling, u got 2 keep going if not 4 urself, 4 da one tat lov u ..dy say its a illness is it?.ur on a path keep walking don't look bk looking 4wrd keep going ...u got so much 2 giv .lov da videos .bless MH.
Dear Marcus,
Firstly of your very open Vlog,we are 100%behind you.And im sure many of your followers are too,we was totally shocked and to know what you have been going through all this time,you have a wonderful partner in Cat,anyway just wanted to let you know how we wish to support you and Cat.
Love to you both.
Maggie & Graham.
Thanks guys! 👍
A story from your heart Marcus . I have been to many of the places you speak about. You are over one of the biggest hurdles by addressing to yourself that you are an alcoholic & drug user. I found self hypnosis to be the key to my well being . I shall continue to use the hypnosis as it helps each day of my existence.
Hay bro. I lost a childhood friend last year due to mental health, he would have been 40 this year. The first time we knew about it was he put a load of pics on facebook of what he had done to himself. We all got round him to tried to help him out, we all thought he was doing well! But he was hiding it from us. He was hiding a lot from his family too. He was on drugs and drinking witch did not help out! I wish he had opened up to us and we could have helped him more. Still remember that call from his sister! Then having to tell all of our friends. I've been struggling with my own mental health after almost loosening my own life 3 years ago. Witch has left me with a lot of heath problems! Really has knocked me back and i struggle every day. Im nowhere near as bad as him and i don't entend on ever getting there! So stay strong and keep up the good work!
Well done mate . Im an addict in recovery 17 years clean . Found my passion working on my cars . Find a good support group . I attend NA and have great friendships there. I dont have a drug problem, i have a me problem. 12 step programs provide a means to clear away past feelings and move forward.
This is so true mate. I don't have a drug problem. I have a problem with life and drugs were my solution! 👍
Total respect for you Marcus, you are not alone on these daily battles but like most of us we stay silent. Speaking out is a massive hurdle and you have done yourself proud. Also a shout out to Kat 👍🏻 keep up the great work on the main channel, big man hug 👊🏼
Thanks mate! 👍
@@mh_on_track just keep.up the good work, keep yourself busy. Thousands of.people are here for you...your not alone. Stay strong and let's get Heidi rolling this year.
Joined your other channel covid lockdown time..
You did propper help me get through some really shitty nights and dark days.
I've been a drug addict since for ever.
90ts clubbing. First night out taking Es was only 14. But we was walking about at the age of 11 n 12 on acid sniffing gas .
So the class As took hold before my 20th bday. " just wanted you to know me propper briefly before I say"!!
You brave pal. Your honest to say in an addict even thou you have tryed to keep it together "which you have" .
Not a crack an smack head like me.
Bit I've always admitted I'm an addict.
I love your understanding and ability to get across, if your not onto the coke this week you hitting the booze or a combo ect
I know you dont probably want thousands of people saying "oh Marcus we think your so brave a d you going a out of the right way this that the other.
I've got a mk1 st170 last year mainly cos your other channel
Always dreamt of stop being a total addict junkie what ever
Wanted to have something to focus on
But it's the slips and the depression that sets in if you slip, that hurts
It makes me anyway feel like a total fraud when someone says "your really doing better now your mot spending every ladt pe NY on the coke or the crack ect ect.
I'm glad you have now stood infront of the camera to tell us about this Marcus! Cos its shocked me that you go on walk abouts and drug cruzes like ke I've always been famous for
Kinda thought yo my self if he struggles to talk an Express him &elf with out coke like me ? Is he coked up here.??.
Hey brother that's just the addict in me
. I cant do AA.. CA .. ect because I sat there trying to figure out if there chatting awY this week cos there smashed?? Cos last three weeks they havnt said 2 words
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Anyway thanks for the honesty and sharing.
And your so so right cat is your life saver.
My misses past away 10 years back dead young and it recked me.
Keep the faith brother.
Thanks for sharing mate.
Huge respect Marcus, I’m a secret alcoholic and to be honest your video has touched and inspired me. I look forward to many more, thanks mate
Thanks for the positivity mate! 👍 I hope the future videos on this channel will be useful to you. 👍
Wow, I didn’t see that coming, big respect m8, you’re going to beat this ❤️
Hi Marcus i loved the clip about you opening up about your issues. It sounds like you have a very supportive girlfreind in your life . Which is very good and we all need supprt now and then keep up with the fantastic channel it makes me laugh all the best 👍
Respect too this man for talking about he’s troubles 👍🏻hope you stay sober!
Massive respect mate such a honest and open video respect for this mate ❤️
Thanks for sharing this get into the meeting CA 12 steps I feel your pain I suffer with this illness god can help no power that’s are problem stay strong 🙏🏻
Thank you for your honesty,in sharing your Situation.
Well done mate that took guts massive respect . I can relate to some of the stuff your saying as I face my own demons .
Thanks Ant! 👍 I hope the things I am going to share in future videos will be useful to you too. 👍
Well done for speaking out Marcus, a big part of us guy's problems is perhaps that we don't like to talk about them. Addiction and/or depression affects most of us at some time or the other. Good to see so much positivity in the comments. Best Wishes
I wish you every success with this Marcus
Well done keep it up u r doing well 👍
Hi Marcus…much respect for this very open and honest video , this kind of talk and content can only create more positivity in your life and all who view it…from my experience through meditation,coming to understand that you don’t have to act on every thought that pops into your head and that your thoughts don’t define you where the first building blocks that I needed with my struggles with addiction, I’m a few years older than yourself but I understand and can relate to what you’ve gone through… I’m at a place now where I don’t have a constant battle with myself not to fall off the wagon, I just don’t want to anymore… stay “on track” mate you’re an inspiration 👍👍👍
I remember when I first learned about meditation whilst watching self help videos. It took years before I actually tried it because I thought it was a bit weird etc (which ironically was me allowing my mind to not try it) After learning about Eckhart Tolle, I tried actually meditating and was doing it everyday for a while. Even when I stopped I made sure that I was living in the present moment as much as possible and this was huge for me in terms of improving my life. Nowadays I sit down every morning and go through a guided meditation on TH-cam. For me 20 mins is the ideal BUT I am purposely doing 10 mins because I am trying to do not allow my mind to persuade me that I dont have time etc. Iv leant from past experiences that for me it is better to do a LITTLE BIT of EVERYTHING in my morning routine (meditation, journaling, walk round the block, exercise, cold shower etc etc etc) rather than picking and choosing certain elements from the routine and going full on. 👍
Jesus what a brave man you are that takes a lot mate hats of to you you have a loving beautiful lady a lovely father oh and some alright cars 😂 fair play to you mate for sharing that took a real man to do that 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼
Hey Marcus, wow mate opening up like that is not easy but amazing your doing this. I know people with very similar stories to yours. In fact a good friend of mine has a very very similar story to yours if I get him to one of the petrolheads breakfast meets I will introduce you.
Massive respect mate for having the balls to admit you have problems. No judgment here mate.
Thanks mate! 👍
The thing is, no-one can understand what it's like to be an addict if they haven't had that experience themselves! Many may say, get help, but when you are deep into something, you can't, or don't want to see what help is available, until for some, something happens to get you to make a decision to get help! many don't get to that point! Also, sometimes we can'r see that we have an issue! I never had issues with drugs like this, but went through mental health issues with depression, even having to have 6 weeks in a mental hospital. It's not easy to see a way out. But as you are doing now, being truthful and honest with yourself, and those who care about you. and simply talking about things, can begin to make better decisions in life not only you, but those around you, and other's who may see this video. Good on you Marcus.
Thanks for watching mate! 👍 And thanks for sharing your story. I wish you good luck for the future. 👍
Take care and well done on doing this video and helping other people. 1 day at a time.
Fair play for speaking up mate I've been you're shoes I'm the past lost my kids and my relationship when down hill all down to drink and drugs glad you said about them voices as I use to get then when I was on coke too though I was messed up hearing them. I then I got of the coke I couldn't go to the pub with out thinking about ordering a packed up and had to stop going to the put with me mates as I was scared I would get back on it again
Huge respect for talking out loud about your experiences!
I hope this channel helps you and others who are or have been in a similar boat 👍.
Thanks mate! 👍
2 minutes in Marcus an I feel you brother.. massive massive respect for you opening up there.. the best thing I ever did was open up to my addiction I was hooked on painkillers for almost 10 years it got to the point where I planned my route to pass pharmacy’s to pick more up if I couldn’t get any from the bloke up the road who could get hold of anything wink wink… I kept it from everything until one day I ran out completely and I was in bits.. I contacted a company called CGL Change Grow Live.. I’m being treated as a heroine addict due to the amount of opioids I was taking and it’s changed my life… give yourself a big pat on the back for admitting you have a problem you can break the habit 💪 you got this 💪
Thanks for the positivity mate! 👍 Good luck with your recovery. 👍
Bloody hell Marcus, am as surprised as anyone to hear this, just goes to show that we all have our demons and our own way to cope with them, massive respect to you for opening up about this, stay strong bro, always here if you need a chat or support ♥️
Hi Marcus, thank you for your openness, you are very lucky to have a wonderful supportive girlfriend in Cat.... please don't take her for granted....I loathe my partner of 15 years recently partly due to my alcohol addiction and also my mental health illness......I'm just getting over it and I appreciate you being so honest and your positive attitude is really inspiring.....all any of us can do is try our best, we all fail occasionally, and like yourself we have to deal with it and try to move forward.......I'll pray for you to succeed in the long run....please keep sharing as I recently had a crisis and was on my way to lie down on the railway line and go to sleep and hope to never wake up....we all need escapism at times just do what works for you...🤞
Wow ,I wasn't expecting that dude ,
Love your videos and when I'm down the only thing that keeps me going is your videos and your cars........
I'm pleased you can express your issues and maybe we can all help each other along the way to reach our goal in life
Making these videos will defo help me just as much as anyone else mate. 👍
Have you ever had your testosterone levels measured at a private clinic? I was diagnosed with depression by a NHS doctor but I was showing a lot of symptoms of low testosterone, a good friend of mine from my gym told me to get my bloodwork done and it turned out my testosterone was very low. I’ve been TRT ever since and I haven’t touch a antidepressant, I feel completely normal and happy all the time. Might be something worth looking into mate and massive well done for being so open about your struggles.
Massive respect mate, stay strong in battling your demons, we're all here with you 💪👍
Thanks mate! 👍
Hi mate, it takes a very brave person to open up publicly about situations like this, I wish you all the best in achieving your goals 👍
Look into ASD, my friend. You have a number of similarities to me and at 51 years old being diagnosed made perfect sense of my whole life.
Hope you get through the other side intact. 🙏🏻🙏🏻👍🏻
Thanks for the advice! 👍 Currently Im not interested in getting 'diagnosed' for anything. As far as Im concerned doctors are just the marketing department of big pharma anyway. For someone like me that has lived the life of a lazy waste man, the last thing I need is a diagnosis (an excuse) for how I am. I just need to WORK everyday at being a stronger person. If I am at a disadvantage because I have some sort of 'medical issue' then so be it. Any disadvantage is irrelevant if I actually try my best at life. 💪
Good on ya, takes some balls to do what you have done here.
Well done mate I’m not you but have my own things don’t stop doing what your doing 👍🏻👍🏻
hi mate,you have shown real character by publicly admitting your addictions....many people would have kept it hidden thinking it was going to affect ratings or followers, but your transparent approach to your demons will gain you much respect and also help others in similar situations...im keen to see your videos regarding meditation as i think that is something everyone can use to improve their lives.......i sincerely wish you all the best in acheiving your goals ....
Thanks mate! 👍 My next video will touch on meditation but in the meantime there are plenty of videos on TH-cam about it and loads of guided meditations on here for you to follow.
Hello mate Fair play for starting this channel I also suffer with social mental health issues and it is hard to admit the issues sometimes 👍🏻 and also wicked content as always on your other channel 👍🏻
Love you marcus from a fellow addict them 12 steps are never ending top boy
13 steps @A A
Wow, I wasn’t expecting that, (let me try jog your memory who I am lol, I met you with my son at Santa Pod ford show I’ve spoke to you a bit on messenger, myself and my son have a TH-cam channel…not this one I’m on now, I’m Dave my son Bailey I’ve got the ratty mondeo and fiesta)
Great honesty there, I myself struggle daily with mental health I do have labels personally I don’t mind using my diagnosis at times to explain myself, I’m autistic and I have ocd, the ocd is bad but I can hide it, I too am a alcoholic and have used drugs but alcohol was my main drug of choice, I’ve been sober and clean for 7&1/2 years, I also did attend aa 12 step program but haven’t attended for a few years I never fully committed and like you there were parts that didn’t resonate with me and I also found it a bit of a cult.
I get suicidal thoughts they’re worse as I’m older, I try (I’m on some now) medication but it never really works for me it’ll take the edge off for a few weeks then ware off.
I often make viewers of our channel aware that I’m autistic and struggle.
Hopefully you’ll do a video on meditation soon as I’ve always struggled to understand how that works and just because I’m 7&1/2 years sober doesn’t mean I find life easy, I hate social situations and I do lots of stuff alone.
Keep up the good work 1 day at a time don’t be hard on yourself 👍
@cortinamad1 I can kinda relate. Don’t wanna go into it too much cuz I’m not comfortable with some of the mental side but I’m also autistic with OCD and I also suffer from PVL which is a form of cerebral palsy and I have epilepsy too so I pretty much never touch my car cuz the PVL basically means as much as I can pull weight in the gym I can’t actually use my muscle and I also have arthritis so combining the two it takes 10x more effort just to do stupid shit like get out of bed and walk to the toilet cuz my joints stiffen up after a while which makes it hard to move and with the arthritis it’s even worse in the winter. As for the epilepsy that’s triggered by heat light and noise so that can also hold me back sometimes. And as you probably know being autistic yourself I get confused and struggle to understand simple things and I can’t do things quickly either. So aswell as that I’ve also struggled with mental health too and I still do now(ie. Depression anxiety and paranoia and I have had similar thoughts but I’ve never acted out on it) and from the outside i look like a mess but you would never know I had these conditions unless you saw me walking but even then I force myself to try heal and toe so it’s less noticeable so I look normal. Now for the last few years I’ve been numb but since I bought my Lexus 2 months ago I’ve been way happier and because I’ve been distracted either filming videos or taking pictures or trying to learn more about it and look at parts for it my mental state has been pretty good although I do sometimes have off days and this is slightly stupid but it’s mainly cuz I’m the only one in the family with no friends or partner or any social life at all and it does get to me sometimes but now I look through my camera roll and see how pimp my Lexus looks and I remember the times I said I’d never afford one and then remember it’s mine and I realise that life really isn’t that bad and if you wait it out it will get better even if it’s something small. So everyone who says cars won’t make you happy and are just metal just don’t understand and probably never will but trust me things will improve. Hang in there man
Nice one thanks for the reply, reading yours makes me feel I don’t have it all that bad, sorry you have the pvl and epilepsy and all that
What’s your TH-cam channel, my other one I load videos of my cars and car meets to is RAT FORD
stay safe keep going with your Lexus
@@cortinamad1 it’s all on this channel mate. I only have this YT
@@cortinamad1 I just subscribed. Hopefully it’s the right one since it came up instantly
Thanks I subscribed to yours too, if there’s a ratty fiesta and mondeo it’s the right one lol
You are such a lovely person Marcus,I’m looking forward to your next vids, I think this channel is going to be great and help a lot of people 👍
Thanks mate! 👍 I really hope these videos will help other people.
Hi Marcus respect to you mate to open with you struggle in life
I had to admit that I need help with my mental health. Il really struggling ATM
Follow you on your other Chanel
You get my strength to carry on with my mk2 escort estate project
Well done mate stay strong 👌
I hope that the things I will be sharing in future videos are helpful to you mate! 👍
Hi Marcus thanks for your channel.My life is a battle of challenges.Massive rounds of abuse and negativity.I haven't done drugs but alcohol was a line that seemed to help..Many horrible things have tried to destroy my life ,All the time taking care of my family and business..Regards TEX
Wow! Not sure how I feel about this! Yes I’m shocked and actually this was the last thing I thought you’d say! But like others have said it is very very brave! Your definitely on the spectrum! I think you need to be assessed for your own justification x
Jeebus! Mate! We must travel through the dark to find the light = the fact that you are talking and getting its off your chest is the 1st step believe me. So many ways you can overcome it. There is Neo Resonance therapy , Reiki , football , come online and play DAYZ or zombies - those can help , find your niche....you can do it ! This is also a message to whoever else is watching/reading - you can overcome it too!
Mate - you have a great foundation to overcome this - you work , you have a TH-cam project, you definitely aint no wasteman! Some guy knocked on my door for a spoon , now that is waste! You just need to escape from the world we all do just without harming your body and soul! Good luck!
The best thing I found was talking to people
This must have been hard for you to make. Well done.
Thanks Kirsty. It was not as hard as I thought it would be to be honest, which makes me believe even more that making these videos is like a calling. In just hope the things I will be sharing in future videos will help other people. 👍
Well done pal very brave thing to do .just b4 lock down i found out one of my best mates ad cancer 3yrs end of this month then found out my mum was really poorly. Then lock down hit i was doin shopping for mine n my mum n dad a job that should take 30 mins ish but was takin 2 to 3 hrs . Lost my mate and 4 days after funeral lost my mum i hit morgans (rum) for a few days numbed pain but dint really help so day b4 funeral i made mind up not to turn to drink man its been hard at times but i made a promise in chapel of rest up to now iv kept it any pal keep goin you doin ok every one here for you
Glad you can talk about everything mate. I’ve watched you since the start and would never have known you even drank.
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