The story of our baby 💔 Our missed miscarriage experience
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- Our baby in heaven 👼 You touched our lives immensely during the short yet sweet time you were growing with us. We treasure & mourn the daydreams of what our life would of looked like together. We are so grateful to God for covering us with an indescribable softness during this terrible time. We are so grateful to our family & community who have celebrated & wept alongside us. The love of Jesus has been so tangibly felt through the people who surround us.
At the beginning of the month, we experienced a missed miscarriage. We went in for our 10 week appointment & there was no heartbeat found. My body was holding on to our baby. I didn’t experience any symptoms of loss, so it was a complete shock. We have been working on mentally & physically healing ever since.
I am so grateful for my love, who despite his own pain, has endlessly showered me with tenderness & care. Throughout our 11 years together, nothing has been more intimate & brought us closer together. 💛
To all the women that have gone through this before me, your stories, strength, & solace have provided comfort & inspiration. I’m in awe of you.
Spoken & unspoken, I know how painfully common this is.
We have immensely heavy hearts but are hopeful for the joy that is yet to come. To our first baby, we will adore you forever. Until we meet again. 🕊️
LET’S BE FRIENDS!
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I’m so sorry for your loss. I had a missed miscarriage last spring, I didn’t even know it was possible. But the Lord is good, and I’m currently driving to church with my rainbow baby babbling in the back seat. I pray the Lord will bless you with a healthy pregnancy soon and you have peace and trust in His timing until then.
Thank you! I needed to hear this. I just experienced a miscarriage in august and I’m scared to try again. But like you said we need to trust in god. Congratulations on your precious child. May god always protect you and your baby. 🌈🙏🏼
ALL GLORY TO JESUS CHRIST! ❤
GOD IS IN CONTROL ALLISON AND B. HE WILL BLESS YALL WITH A BABY❤
@@eramirezsw I am so sorry for your loss. Pregnancy after a loss can be scary, and I know for me especially passing the due date pregnant with another child caused a lot of mixed emotions. I remember telling my husband that it’s hard to grieve my first baby when I know with the overlap in pregnancy timelines, I could never have had both of my babies. But there’s also so much joy because of the hope we have in Christ. My sister died in a car accident a week after my baby shower, and in that grief it comforted me to not only imagine them both with Christ, but to imagine them all together. Every time I hear of another baby lost or another death, I just add them to my mental family portrait in heaven, and imagine this large extended family we all have waiting for us. My sister was an infant daycare worker, and I like to imagine her watching over all the little angel babies. 💕
@@Alexa-qn6keI am so sorry for your loss! ❤🙏
Definitely not your fault. I’m glad you were told that many times. Deepest condolences to you 😢😥💔🤍❤️
My heart breaks for you and your husband Allison 💔 My sister lost her first born 2 hours after giving birth. It truly is something that marks you forever. One quote someone sent me that helped me see things in a new light is this one…
“Grief never ends. But it changes. It’s a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness nor a lack of faith. It is the price of love.”
It’s that last sentence that gets me “it’s is the price of love” 💕sending you so much love and comfort through this time 🙏🏽
Wow that quote, thank you for sharing
Oh that is so beautiful!! Thank you for that.
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Thank you for sharing the beautiful quote. 💖 It is so very comforting.
Natalie, That is one of the most beautiful quotes I’ve ever seen describing grief. Thank you so much for sharing it. I have written it down and will share it with someone who just lost her father and is having a difficult time. ❤
Dear Allison, our first baby also ended up in miscarriage, and it was so hard and sad. After that, God gave us 4 beautiful and healthy children… I keep thinking about how “God gives and takes away…” trust in the Lord and he will take care of you. ❤️ Thank you for sharing your heart with us.
Does He really take away....like He took away our baby? Or my friend's 1 month old or others who have lost children?
Sweet Allison… I broke into ugly tears the second I saw the notification for this video. I know this pain. You are so special to our family. You are a beautiful source of connection for myself and my 16 year old daughter. She was 5 years old when we lost our second baby. She remembers. Your story is continually being written and I unfortunately know how hard it is to know this chapter will always exist. Allison, you are a beautiful example of how to draw close to God when you are experiencing loss. I am praying for your ability to celebrate with others. I was graciously given the mercy to do so. As I watched others welcome their babies, I remembered that I would never want them to experience the loss of a baby. I attended those baby showers and birthdays so thankful that their story did not include this chapter. I am praying for your medical decisions ahead, for your heart as you walk into the next pregnancy, and for God to gracious and merciful to you and Brandon. Although this community is a beuatiful one, I am praying for women to physically come alongside of you who have experienced this and can walk with you through the pain. Thank you for sharing your story.
Sweet Allison, it breaks my heart to watch this video! I had two miscarriages before I went on to have my kids (now 10 and 7 years old). Miscarriage is so common, and yet no one ever talks about it! I so appreciate your transparency about your experience, and I'm sure this video will be a balm to so many! I'm praying that you won't have to have a DNC, and that you will feel God's peace and presence. "Weeping may stay overnight, but there is joy in the morning." Psalm 30:5
Oh Allison ❤️🩹 my heart sank when I saw this notification. I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve experienced a few losses and it is so hard. Sending you and Brandon so much love ❤️
Allison, you didn’t have to share your painful experience, but we, your TH-cam community, appreciate your transparency. It’s not an easy thing to go through, a lost of a child you wanted to be part of your family. As you can tell many women go through it and it does help to know we are not alone in this experience. I too had a miscarriage at 10wks. Our son was super excited to get a sibling only to find out it wasn’t meant to be. Forward 21yrs, he remains an only child. It was hard at first bc he really wanted a sibling. But time does heal broken hearts. My husband and I are grateful to God for our son. In his perfect timing, you and Brandon will get to grow your family again. Take this time to heal, find the courage to try again when you are ready and trust in the Lord. He will not forsake you but bless you and Brandon and Palmer too. Condolences to you both. ❤
I'm so sorry, Allison and Brandon. We lost our first pregnancy also around 5 weeks. Our doctor said it was more common than we think. We know we will see our baby again one day.
We ended up pregnant again soon after, and our son will be 29 next weekend. We had 3 children with no problems after, so try not to be fearful. God will help you get through this. Love and prayers ❤
Beautiful story. May God bless you and your family!
@@kyliecrawford1301 Thank you, Kylie ❤️
Allison thanks so much for your vulnerability and sharing this with us when you didn’t have to. I’m sure many people will find comfort in your story knowing they’re not alone in this experience. Praying for healing for you all. 💕
Oh Allison, no words can express how sorry I am for your loss. Sending so much love and lots of prayers!!!
My mom experienced a miscarriage around 8 weeks too, but she went on to have two more kids after that. Your time will come. I feel for you and will be keeping you and Brandon in my prayers. ❤
Oh Allison, crying along with you watching this. 😭 Your strength & trust in the Lord despite your pain & loss is so SO inspiring. Thank you for letting us into your journey even when it’s heavy! This beautiful little community that you’ve built is here to surround you in love & prayers. 💌💘🤍
I’m so sorry. I had a missed miscarriage last year between 9-10 weeks, and I also found out at our first ultrasound. I feel your immense grief. Please know that you’re not alone, and that millions of women share your feelings of sadness. It is such a delicate and real part of life.
Oh Allison and Brandon I am so sorry! Father, comfort them in this time of great loss. Be near to them and wrap them in your peace that surpasses all understanding. Heal their broken hearts and bind every wound. May your presence be tangible and heavy in their hearts and home as you draw near to them. In Jesus name.
I’m so sorry 💔
My heart absolutely dropped when I saw this notification… Allison, I am so deeply sorry for you and Brandon’s loss. That little baby was already so loved and cared for, and is infinitely loved and cared for by our Father in heaven. Praying for your joy, grief processing, and to pass the baby naturally as you stated.
I have never forgotten the five words I heard five years ago “your baby has no heartbeat”. That never goes away but you will learn to live with it. I am thinking of you and I’m praying for you both ♥️
So sorry to learn this news. My mother had multiple pregnancy losses and after her first, she hated hearing “things happen for a reason.” The only thing that helped her was being told that she would never get over it (how can you?) but that she would learn to get used to the loss. My mom is 72 now but she’s never forgotten all the little lives that she carried no matter how short.
As humans, to be able to feel loss, we must have felt love - this is one of my favourite quotes and I hope it brings anyone reading this a little bit of comfort 🤍🤍🤍
Oh Allison, my heart breaks for you and Brandon at this difficult time. I’m keeping you both in my prayers. Sweet Palmer is right there by your side, protecting you You are surrounded by love and most importantly, your little one will never be forgotten.
Allison I’m so sorry!!!! Praying for you and Brandon.
Allison, I don’t know if you’re going to see this comment and I’m at a loss for words. My husband and I both cried when we saw your post on Instagram, you feel like a best friend to me because I have watched you for so many years. I’ve dreamt about being pregnant along side you (I tagged you in my new years vision board where there’s a section about being a mom), I just feel so much love in my heart for you. I have never cried like this over a loss from a creator, and I think it’s because I truly hold you as a sister in Christ. And as your sister I just feel so deeply sorry for you and Brandon and wish I could send you something, do something for you, or literally any small act to bring you even a slice of joy.
You are a person who brings forth so much life. You bring life in the words you speak. The videos you make. The creative ideas you share. The small moments you beautifully capture and document. Your beautiful garden, your delicious recipes, and your cozy home are all evidences of the life you create. I know this is only the beginning of the story for your family. Whenever, and if ever, you decide to try again, I know that life is in your future 💛.
I’m so sorry Allison. We also found out in early August that we were pregnant and at our 10 week ultrasound got the news that there was no heartbeat. Confirmed again a week later and then the process of losing our baby started. I had never even heard of a missed miscarriage before that. Also trying to find joy and hope through this process. I cried with you watching this. Sending love and so many prayers to you guys as the process continues. ❤ Please if you have any questions about what might be next don’t hesitate to ask your close friends that have gone through it or me. I am happy to chat with you. It was a very unknown process and I had no idea what was coming next.
I am so sorry for your loss❤ praying for you.
Oh Allison! I am truly sorry. As soon as I saw the title, tears came to my eyes. I had a miscarriage last year myself. Unfortunately it is more common than I was aware until I had mine. Just as you said you didn't want anyone to feel alone...you don't feel alone either. There are many of us out here who have felt the same pain and loss. Just know there is hope...as I'm sitting here watching my sweet rainbow baby boy sleep. Much love and prayers to you and Brandon. 💙
Allison and Brandon, I am truly sorry for your loss. Never lose faith, I went through 4 miscarriages and luckily pregnancy number 5 became my beautiful daughter who is now 13. I remember the journey of the joys and then devastating ultrasounds when there was no heartbeat. I had 3 natural miscarriages at home and one through the surgery process. The surgery process was easier for me both physically and emotionally. Also with the surgery at the hospital they were able to test the fetus to give more answers.
Thank you for sharing. You are not alone. I experienced 3 missed miscarriages all between 7-9 weeks pregnant over a year and a half time period. It was by far the hardest time of my life. Ask your doctor, but what finally helped me was getting on *progesterone* immediately once I found out I was pregnant….I wish I would have done that after my first loss, but I didn’t know and figured it was a one off. The second time it happened, I started to think ok maybe something is wrong…
Please ask your doctor! I wish someone would have shared this info with me. I am sitting here now with my 9 week old rainbow baby on my chest and the moment she was born was the happiest of my life. All the heartache was so worth it, and I see the reason for Gods timing now. It is just hard to see it when you are going through it.
Praying for you. Sending so much love.
This helped me too, progesterone pessaries up till 12 weeks worked. Wishing you the best ❤
Dear Allison and Brandon, I’m very sorry for the loss of your first baby. I can feel God’s love through Allison’s words and I know you will be ok. I also know you will be blessed with a second baby as soon as you are ready. All my love to you, you guys will be in my prayers. 🤍 sending you hugs across the miles.
Thank you for normalising miscarriages and being strong enough to share this extremely rough experience. Lots of love, hope you feel like yourself soon 🧡
Precious Allison- I already commented on your instagram to offer my condolences and share a bit of my similar experience, but as I’m watching your video I just really felt compelled to comment and commend you for honoring God so deeply with your testimony. What a gift to other women who may not have anyone to speak with about their experiences. I can just feel in my soul that your vulnerability and honesty as well as your reliance on the Lord will be a beacon that will point others toward Him. ❤
Allison, my heart truly breaks with you, I cried watching this, and the grief of losing your first baby is like no other. You are not alone. And it’s not your fault. Those words brought me such great comfort while we grieved our first baby last year around this time. The deepest part of my heart aches for you ❤️🩹
Something that brought me a lot of comfort is that your baby will always be with you, even in miscarriage their little cells stay inside of you even after they’ve left for heaven & I thought how special of God to do that.
I pray you feel upheld by the tears we are weeping alongside of you. And just know however you feel moving forward with grief and joy - there is endless grace to feel whatever you feel. May our Good Shepherd comfort & protect your hearts as you walk through the valley. 💔 All my love Allison ❤️🩹
My sister experienced this just this summer, at exactly 10 weeks as well. It was also a missed miscarriage. It's devastating, but you will get through it with a fantastic support system. I just recently started watching your videos, but when you mentioned having a time of grief in your last update, I knew deep down right away that you had lost a baby. I can't explain how, I just knew. I hope that you find peace. Will be praying for healing.
I also knew. I think it is something that women can naturally sense. I was hoping that I was wrong,
Me too. We will surround the Bickerstaffs with prayer 🙏🏾
Yes, we will ! ❤❤❤
So so beyond sorry for what you went through. A friend of mine said these words when she miscarried -“ it’s an honor to know our baby walks alongside Jesus “. Those words have stuck with me and I still get chills thinking about it. I hope you find comfort and peace.
Oh Allison…. I’m praying so hard for you today. I’m so sorry for your loss but just know what God has in store for you will be sooo special. Sending all my love and hugs!❤
I am so very sorry for this immense loss. I have never lost a baby myself, but have experienced a lot of grief and loss so I cried along with you watching this. Your strength, faith in God and hope for the future is inspirational. Thankful for all the support you have. God be with you in this time Xx
It really goes to show how much people are suffering behind closed doors. I’m so grateful you were able to open up about something so hard Allison. I wish you joy for your future because you deserve that and so much more, you are to kind of a human to have so much grief.
I’m so deeply sorry for your loss. Praise the Lord you will see your baby again. It was crushing when I lost my first baby at 9 weeks. We didn’t know gender but my husband and I both felt like it was a girl. We named her. We had a beautiful boy and then girl and then another miscarriage and also named him. It helps giving baby a name. They are waiting for you in heaven for those who believe in Jesus. ❤
We named our baby in heaven also.
I am so sorry, Allison 😢 This has to be such a tough time for you. It’s such a horrific experience but I’m so happy you have the love and support of your family to get through this. You will have your rainbow baby 🌈 ❤
Allison, I just want you to know as a long time sub, I am praying for you and so sorry for losing this precious life from God. My husband and I lost our first baby too, much of what you shared was exactly how we felt. Crying and holding one another and it bringing our marriage so much closer. Nothing prepared you for that kind of anguish.
Now we have a 17 month old baby boy, and pregnant with another baby. It was so hard being pregnant again after the miscarriage, but it forced me to trust in my Savior Jesus so much more, and really lean into my faith that God is sovereign, He is in full control of life and death, and has numbered our days. That gives us hope as believers that death is not the end! We will see these precious babies in eternity, and I want to encourage you that the Lord very well could give you a healthy baby in the future, this is my prayer for you and for God’s peace to strengthen and encourage you, and for God to use this suffering for His glory and your good (Romans 8:28, for we know that all things work together for the good of those who are called according to Gods purposes)
Much love my sister ❤️❤️❤️
I’m currently going through the same thing with my first pregnancy, also had a missed miscarriage. Sending you all the love & praying for you. With every storm comes a rainbow… 🌈 🩵
Thank you for being vulnerable through this difficult time. One of the amazing things about TH-cam and social media is that you can literally have thousands of people (you don't even know) praying for you, and that is really powerful. Praying for you and your husband during this time of healing. What a time to lean and depend on the Lord and strengthen your faith.
Oh Allison 💔 I also went through a missed miscarriage in July after 4 years of trying. It’s so hard and unfair and isolating. I hope you have a good support system by your side.
Take the time you need to mourn this loss. There is so much good to come. My first pregnancy was a loss around 9 weeks and I was devastated and went through all the emotions. But I am here now 7 years later with 3 beautiful healthy babies. Your time will come and it will be absolutely perfect. Sending so many hugs your way. ❤
Sending you so much love Allison. I experienced a missed miscarriage too in 2022. So much love for you, B and your little angel. 🤍
Hope you're doing ok. This was difficult to watch.
@@munajedski ty 💕
I also had a missed miscarriage at 12 weeks 💔it truly is heartbreaking, especially after hearing that heartbeat and dreaming of the future with your baby, to then have it taken away too soon is truly heart shattering. Thank you for sharing your story, I wish more people would talk about this! It's been almost 3 years since my miscarriage, and I'm still praying and waiting for God to bless us with a beautiful baby. You WILL be blessed with your baby when God feels the time is right. You will be an incredible mom, and you already are a mom to a beautiful angel baby 👼 Thinking of you and Brandon x
🙏🏼 Allison, I am so sorry this happened to you. I will keep you guys in my thoughts and prayers. My first pregnancy also ended in miscarriage. I now have an angel watching over me. About 6 months later we got pregnant again and now we have a happy, healthy 13 year old girl 💕
I am so sorry for what you are going through. I also had a miscarriage early in a pregnancy many years ago and I remember how heartbreaking it was. It hurts so badly.
My next pregnancy went to term and now my grown son has 3 kids of his own. I can't imagine life without these exact people I was destined to have as a child and grandchildren. None of them would have existed if my previous baby had been born. But still I wonder even after all these years, what would that child have been like.
I am glad you have given yourself time to grieve but still keep a joyful and grateful heart.
It amazes me that you can still smile even while experiencing so much heartbreak. Please know that I’ll continuously pray for you and that you are so so loved by so so many people. Stay strong! We love you 🫶🏻🩷
I found your channel through Michelle Reed, so just hearing your story. I experienced the same thing- same situation, timing etc. It still hurts, it always will- even after two kids since. So happy for you that you are expecting your rainbow baby ❤
I’m so sorry Allison… I’m literally crying along with you in this video. I’m sending you, Brandon, Palmer, and your whole family and community so many prayers. I’m so thankful we have a merciful God who is caring for you during this journey. ❤
Allison, I'm so very sorry. I also experienced a miscarriage at 10 weeks, and it was the deepest heartache imaginable. Your baby will always have a special place in your heart.
I pray you take solace, as I do, in that the baby is safe with our Lord in heaven, watching over you. And you will reunite one day. Hugs to you 💕
Allison, my heart and prayers go out to you and your family. I had a miscarriage in 2021 and it was the most difficult thing that my husband and I have ever been through. I think its so sweet that you’re honoring your baby by doing something special in your garden. Its true…its not your fault and try to remember that throughout your grieving process. I had to constantly tell myself that it wasn’t the food I ate, or vitamins I took, or anything…these things are unexplained. There is a poem “Wait”, by Russell Kelfer that helped me a lot during my grieving process. Maybe it can be a source of healing for you too. Sending you all a big hug and prayers of healing and continued support from those around you ❤️
😢 I’m just crying so hard because it just brought back memories of my miscarriage… The healing process is a roller coaster for sure.. However, 4 years later I was blessed with a beautiful baby boy, which is now 18 years old ❤ GOD is good because we never know why but, his plans for us is something totally different. Allison and Brandon sorry for your loss! GOD will prevail 💐 Blessings to you both 🙏
I am so sorry for your and Brandon's loss. 36 years ago our first baby (son) was a stillborn and it was like hitting a brickwall. My husband was a Marine and i never saw him cry till that moment. Was like hitting brick wall. My faith and family/friends helped us through it! Stay in faith. Again so sorry in my thoughts and prayers!!💔🙏
Thank you so for sharing your story. Just experienced a missed miscarriage with our first pregnancy, I always knew it’s common and possible, but didn’t think it would happen to us. It’s so hard to tell all our family too, after seeing their excitement when we first shared our news.
Our time will come though!
You are so incredibly loved. We are all praying for your comfort and continued peace during this incredibly difficult time💛
My daughter and her fiancée have been having fertility struggles for years. They underwent 2 IVF cycles. Both of which resulted in pregnancy and both were lost soon after. After some soul searching they started at a new clinic. Before they had another IVF, they had a miracle happen and got pregnant naturally! She is now 22 weeks and we are all over the moon for this new rainbow baby boy to come in February. ❤ Don’t give up hope and continue to have faith that your time will come! Blessings to you!
You and Brandon are in my prayers, Allison. ❤ Your love for this beautiful baby is tangible.
I'm so sorry, sweet Allison. My heart breaks for you and Brandon during this time. I hate that this is part of your journey, but I know God is already using your story for His glory. Your faith, strength, vulnerability and positive outlook touches my heart, and I know will have a huge impact on all who come across your channel. Sending love and prayers as I know there are hard days ahead. God has wonderful things in store.
As soon as you posted that you were going through a hard time in the last video, I just had a second sense that this was what it was. I also miscarried my first pregnancy, baby was due in March, at roughly 8 weeks. It’s so so devastating and I’ll be praying for you to heal and have strength and peace of mind at this time ❤ hopefully we both get our rainbow babies soon! Btw you are one of the only non Jewish TH-camrs that I watch who posted about what’s been happening in Israel, and the fact that you are going through such a hard time and were still able to make that post really means SO much to me as a Jewish long time viewer of yours. You’re the best and I’m sending you so much love and strength in this time
My heart is broken 😢🥹 I remember you wanting a child so bad. Sending you and Brandon love and a big hug.
I honestly never really imagined what it might feel like to go through this, because children were never in my plan for life. But seeing this, I can feel it through you, and I feel immense sorrow for you Allison. This is raw emotion. I will keep you in my prayers ♥️♥️
Allison, I’ve always found you to be such a calming presence and full of joy, and I’m so grateful that through it all you still have managed to find joy. You’re gonna be an amazing mom one day, this is not the end of your journey 🫶🏼 thank you for being vulnerable with us when it wasn’t easy. You’ve brought many women solace though knowing they’re not alone in this ❤️ praying you and Brandon find strength in each other and in God 🙏🏼
Wow, you hit the mail on the head: “thank you for being vulnerable with us when it wasn’t easy.”
So incredibly sorry you guys had to go through this. My heart breaks for you guys. I’ve gone through four miscarriages and personally know how incredibly heartbreaking it is. Praying for you both. Keep the faith and hope. You are not alone. You and your family are being upheld in prayer.
Allison,
I am so sorry for your loss 😢I went through 6 ivfs until I got pregnant and lost the baby when I was 14 weeks pregnant. I know the pain 💔 and try to understand the reason why 😪 it's hard. I am so sorry you and Brandon have to go through this experience and sadness. Praying for you two🙏
Im so sorry! Im so glad that you have the support you need to get you through this and not letting it affect your hope. From someone who had 2 missed miscarriages, I now have two wonderful babies and let me tell you this “experience” will change you and happen for a reason. I didnt understand why me when it happened but after becoming a mom, it all made perfect sense as to why i miscarried. I would not have been 100000% grateful for being pregnant or becoming a mom if i didnt miscarry, i wouldnt have cherish those moments as much, i wouldnt have been this patience with my babies, i wouldnt have been this strong for my babies during difficult motherhood times. But those micarriages remind me of how tough i am, how much i wanted those babies and how grateful i am for those babies during the tough times. It allows me to pause time and really enjoy my babies although there are so much household work to be done etc
Allison, as someone who just experienced a missed miscarriage about a month ago. It is one of the hardest experiences to go though. I pray God will continue to give you peace and hope through this situation. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️
Dear Allison, my heart breaks and aches for you and your family. I cried the whole video. Thank you for sharing such an intimate and vulnerable part of your life. I appreciate your honesty and hope in the midst of such a difficult time. I hope that you continue to heal and look towards light and positivity. Please know that a lot of people love and care about you. I know that there are hard times ahead. Be gentle with yourself and know that you can lean on your loved ones. I wish I could send you more support than just this comment. I’ll be thinking and praying for you. And know the perfect time will come and that you will be a mama someday soon. Any child will be so lucky to have you. Stay strong. Take all the time you need. Sending you lots of love, peace and healing energy. 🥺🙏🏼❤️
Allison, you are not alone we as women that have gone through what you are now going through feel your valid pain… It’s something that you will remember for the rest of your life time and that’s a reminder that the joy and excitement and pain loss of your and Brandon’s child was REAL! One of the many blessings out of this situation is knowing you can get pregnant… Please find comfort in that if anything, know that your RAINBOW BABY(IES) are coming, I believe it and I know that all the sweet women leaving comments and your friends and family believe it as well… Pray that when the LORD does bless you guys with another baby that your excitement and joy will still be exactly that, don’t let the enemy rob you of that with doubts/fear because of the loss of this baby because he’s definitely good at doing that… GOD IS GOOD AND HE IS FAITHFUL!!! Take your time healing and praying and comforting each other and being encouraged with knowing GOD OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN is collecting all of your sweet tears and in your due season will bless you with new tears from the joy/excitement of knowing your pregnant again!!! We love you and we are with you and praying for you… 😘😘
Writing you this with my 5 week old rainbow baby in my arms. I experienced a miscarriage of our first baby around the same gestation as you on Thanksgiving Day last year. This experience, although challenging and heartbreaking, will change you, your husband and your relationship for the better. My husband and I have been together for over 8 years and we still comment on how our miscarriage brought us closer than anything else we had experienced. I pray you find solace in knowing that with the Lord’s blessing your womb will experience love, light, joy and life again. I pray in this time you find moments to nourish both your body and soul and grow through this with all the love and support you both deserve.
I’ve been following you for years, and experienced back to back miscarriages September and November of 2021. Watching your videos is one of the things that helped me see the beauty of the small things in life and how God can bring comfort and beauty in every season through that time. We just threw our miracle baby girls 1st birthday party last month and I can declare from the mountaintops that God is GOOD and He is FAITHFUL. Even in the waiting. Even in the confusion. Even in the numbness. One of my favorite quotes I heard was “grief is love that never got the chance to be shown.” And that really helped me process that what I was experiencing was that I never got the chance to show love to that baby. So what you’re saying about honoring that baby really will help you through the grief. I also wrote a letter to our babies, and dried some flowers from that time that are now in my baby’s nursery! I also have a bracelet with their heavenly birthday engraved on it and I keep it on always! Praying for you and your family.
I’m so sorry for your loss🥺 Sending lots of love and prayers
Oh Allison. There are not enough words to comfort you during this time. Praying for you during this transforming time and warm hugs. 🤍
“The softness of God”, you said that so lovely Allison. Your honesty through this has shown how much you have leaned on Jesus. Thank you for sharing such a vulnerable moment. Remember, you are a mother sweetie. You have loved your child and nurtured your child, even if only for short time. Lots of love to you and Brandon. ❤
Just had my D&C three days ago with my twins . It’s been alot . But I have so much faith in God and I k ow he has plans for me and my family . It’s a horrible experience to go through and I am
Mourning with you. I’m so sorry for your loss . But so proud of your strength . God bless you ❤️
There aren't enough words to express how much my heart hurts for you and Brandon. I know sharing your story here with your online community will help and comfort so many other women who have struggled with miscarriage. Sending you both so much love and healing prayers. ❤
I am hugging you from afar so hard!!! Had a miscarriage in-between my 2 kids. Was amazed I could even get pregnant at 40 honestly. Read that so many women miscarriage and most never even know. Unbelievable! Take time to heal, keep your faith, and know you have an army of people that are praying for you. Thank you for sharing your story! Hugs and love to you!!!
Oh, Allison. I’m so sorry you are experiencing this. My heart goes out to you, Brandon, Palmer and your community of support and love. ❤
Sweet Allison. I've been following you since we were in college. We've gone through the same experiences at almost the exact same time. I am feeling joy and the loss with you, as I know so many others are as well. You are so so loved. Because of your heart, you've created a beautiful community. God will carry you through this. May His voice be clear to you as you listen for His loving comfort🤍
Allison, your presence has consistently radiated light and joy, not only among those closest to you but also within our entire community. As you navigate through this challenging season, I pray that you feel that same warmth and brightness pouring back into your life. Our hearts unite with yours, and I hold a steadfast belief that God has a distinct plan in store for both you and Brandan. We love you!
Allison, my heart breaks for you and Brandon as you grieve the loss of your sweet baby. You are in my prayers for healing and strength.
Dear Allison,
As a women that is now into my early 40’s I can tell you that miscarriage is something that needs to be talked about much more. I myself have had 5 miscarriages, 2 of them were missed miscarriages. One I had to have a DNC, and the last one was at the end of 2020 and I was not able to have a DNC because of the pandemic, which was a traumatic experience being isolated at home and having to pass everything naturally at home. At 32 I had a pregnancy that ended in neonatal death, my first baby was born at 20 weeks and because her lungs were not developed enough, she passed in my arms after I delivered her. Please keep that hope and your eyes to God! His plan and grace is sufficient. After the loss of my daughter and many miscarriages in between, I finally had my son, who just turned 9 last week. I was still brave and wanted to add to our family after him, but kept having miscarriages, so our last attempt was the one in 2020 at the age of 40. I gave it my best for 8 years, and was blessed with one child earth side and I am so grateful to be able to experience motherhood. I cried with you because I feel that deep pain as understand exactly how you feel. I’ll be praying for your family for peace, hope and understanding. God Bless you!
This is one of those things that enrages me about how things were handled during Covid. My friend miscarried and she was in the ER and her husband wasn’t allowed to be with her.
I’m so sorry
Allison, I’m sending lots of prayers your way… I can’t even begin to imagine the loss of an unborn child. I will continue to pray for your family❤
I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss, Allison. 💛 Your heart is so sweet, even in the grief that shines through.
Thank you for sharing this. This has helped me during this season of my life. Congratulations on your new baby that has been brought to this world. 🙏🏽💕
I’m so sorry Allison. 😢 Sending love and prayers to you & Brandon. Praying the lord covers you with his goodness and grace. ❤️
Oh, Allison. I am just now seeing this. I am so so sorry you and Brandon are going through all of this. Sam and I are absolutely praying for you guys. I'm so glad you are feeling lifted up and God's presence as you both process such hard and holy feelings. It seems like you guys have an awesome support system, but if you ever need anything, don't hesitate at all to let us know. 💚 Sending so much love and prayers, friend!
It's SOOOOOOOOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL how much YOU VALUE LIFE!!! It's super apparent that you don't take the creation of life for granted. Not one bit💗. Love you both so much😘
I’m heartbroken for you Allison and Brandon. I’m so sorry you experienced this loss, but know that joy is coming in the morning. The Lord has plans to prosper you guys and not to harm you, but to give you hope and a future. Good will come out of this! ❤
My heart breaks for you, Allison. There are no words to describe how sorry I am. Sending you and Brandon so much love during this time. May you feel wrapped in the love of your community. 🥺❤️🩹
Cried the whole time. I am so sorry for your loss. You gained an angel baby. But, you will have a human baby too ❤ sending you so much love, thinking of you
Dear Allison and Brandon,
I'm truly sorry for your loss. Send you warm hug from Europe ❤️
I just cried and grieved with you. Praying for your peace 🤍
Dear Allison, I see you already have around 1000 comments and I don't know if you are even going to have time to read mine, but anyways I just wanna tell you how sorry I am for your loss. You and B are amazing, grateful people and God bless you will have so many children very soon. I totally understand what you are going through...I had my first miscarriage 2 years ago and it broke me so much and gave me so many fears about the second pregnancy ..BUT ..❤, AFTER 6 MONTHS I GOT PREGNANT! Had a super healthy pregnancy and now amazing little toddler! I WISH YOU ALL THE LUCK AND HAPPINESS for the next pregnancies and God bless one day we will all be with our babies! ❤
So sorry for your loss 💔 it's amazing that when you go through something this hard you also realize just how much your friends and family love you. And you experience the power of prayer like never before.
I’m so so sorry Allison 💔
Praying for you. Loss is so hard, but I’m so glad that you know the truth of the presence of Jesus. He is with you and will give you strength and hope for the future.
Sending love to you and Brandon, Allison. I’ve had two miscarriages, one passed naturally and one I needed surgery 19:25 . I’m so glad you’re clinging to hope, and along with your medical professionals I couldn’t emphasize enough that it’s not your fault. Thank you for sharing your story, it’s incredibly painful and not one that I’d like to share with anyone, and yet… there really is something about knowing we aren’t alone. ❤
Oh Allison.. my heart is breaking for you, and with you. Sending you so many prayers.. I’m so glad that you and Brandon have each other❤️ you have a whole lot of love on here as well.. 😔❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss, Allison and Brandon!! Sending so much love and prayers to you both!! Thank you so much for your courage and strein sharing, Allison!! You are helping so many others through the sharing!! God bless you both!! 🙏🏽 ❤🙏🏽
I’m am so. So sorry. I have have 3 miscarriages, it’s a kind of heartbreak there are literally no words for. I’m sorry I won’t be able to watch this video, but you guys are so deeply in my thoughts and prayers 💔