I experienced this ego dissolution on Ayahuasca, i saw myself disappearing, all of my memories were getting erased, until i had no memories at all, i didn't know who i was or anything, I was just a consciousness existing in middle of the nothing,space and time were inexistent. I could recognize that i was there before, my true nature belonged there, I became one with the universe again. When i returned to my body i felt like a stranger in a new body with memories that wasn't mine. I was reborn.
For me, it was the opposite. It was a sudden rush of nostalgia and memories hitting me all ar once, confusing the shit out of me. Nothing felt real, life felt meaningless, and I felt stuck.
@@tastefulsubstance i felt both. First it felt like life was a simulation I got out of and I didnt know who I was althought everything seemed familiar. It was peaceful I went to my bed and the woke up still not knowing who i am. I felt like I was reborn but suddenly started having memories of my past life. I felt like I was in the good place after life. Having memories from my past made me realized I died I tried hard to think what was life. I had trouble remembering my name my daughters name and everyone I know but slowly everything was coming back. Then I thought: afterlife is kinda boring peaceful but boring.
Thank you for typing this, i had this experience but i thought I held back the doomsday, i was so scared of letting go, but what you described, got right into my heart. I was so scared, but with this.. felt easier to look on those memories with more happiness
I had a psychedelic experience on Tuesday, 5gs of mushrooms with a shaman. I experienced this ego death and it was terrifying and enlightening at the same time. I was very happy when I returned to normal as I was extremely concerned that I would never come back to explain the story as my thoughts were no longer constructed in my language.
I think of ego death as the suspension of the false self, which exposes us to our real self. We build up false selves as a defense against early childhood pain. When this false self is cracked or threatened or stripped away, you have ego death.
DMT is the most craziest experience have ever had in my entire life,but I was been helped out by a specialist who guided me through my first ever DMT experience,he got all kinds of psychedelics stuffs
Ego is made up of 5 categories- -Wealth -Knowledge -Validations -Social Acceptance -Morals & Beliefs We base our own self worth off those 5 categories. Once you detach yourself from all 5, you realize were nothing more, nothing less than souls. You cannot be around sober people or handle "real life" scenarios when tripping. Even drunk or high friends still have their Ego's intact. Still aware of self worths, judgements & their social acceptance. You need to set aside 6-8 hours of free time & be around other ppl tripping if you want to have the best experience possible. 🌈🍄💯
That’s kinda funny you say that. on my 3.7g ego death trip and ladies voice told me theirs 5 aspects of life you will need to understand throughout the duration of my life to understand the relative meaning of life… so maybe it has some similarities to what you’re talking about, thanks !!
My wealth aspect was interesting. I used to think I never deserved anything nice, expensive, fancy. Like I was trash and shouldn't even think about doing anything that costs money for myself. Or that I could never afford anything. But I no longer have that opinion.
Digging your channel! I’m a therapist specializing in psychedelic prep& integration work and I really appreciate your summaries and explanations of the research in this field. I’m always wanting to learn more to better help my clients. 🙏🏽
Excellent man, I've never really looked into a very proper description of ego-death but this was bang on. The way you described both types of dissolution in terms of internal and external unity is such a cool way of putting it because, depending on the experience or the psychedelic involved, that sense of unity can be very different yet at the same time so similar but just sort of focused in a different direction. And also nice thumbnail btw ;)
Curiously, in my three psilocybin experiences, I didn't experience ego death or dissolution. Instead, I received strong, clear messages affirming my true identity, spiritually and in what purpose(s) I have in life.
Ive taken psilocybin many times in various doses. Most the time I experience exactly what you’re describing. Last night however, i took a generous dose of a Peruvian variety and experienced something completely different than i ever have. As i peaked my thoughts began to spiral into one another to the point where my sense of self, time and perception was completely dissolved. It was like being trapped in an infinite time loop of thought and contradictions. Very difficult to explain but it was like a paradox of consciousness. It reminded me of images like when watching tv and on the tv someone is watching tv and that person is watching tv of someone watching tv etc etc. I consider myself to be spiritually grounded and there isnt many occasions i can think of where i can say ive experienced true fear but what a profound and harsh experience i had. For many they might consider it a “bad” trip but to me it was just what I needed and although it shook me to my core i returned with a gratitude for basic existence that trumped any sense of gratitude i have ever felt. What a blessing and powerful tool these fungi can be.
@@brendanperkins5574 that's actually not something one should take away from. I took 1.5gms (this was my first time and I am light weight so this dose must at least be 2-2.25 gms) and initially it was scary losing control of my body but then slowly my body started becoming warm and it was like a gentle massage all over. For 30 mins approx I was almost on the verge of ego death. I had already lost control of 90% of my body. Right there and then I knew that this could be a taste of the afterlife. When you lose connection to your body but your mind is still awake. I felt truly one with the universe. I think everyone after they die return to being the part of this one true entity. I am an atheist and although I am not denying that there might or might not be some entity that created us, if there is, it is neutral in nature. I did see eyes opening and closing in patterns and that could be the entity. It was neither pleased nor unpleased seeing me but seemed like it acknowledged my presence. We have anthropomorphized and labeled 'god' as being benevolent, forgiving, kind, nurturing etc. but why is that exactly? How do we know 'god' isn't neutral? So all in all, it was quite an eye opening experience. After death I believe everyone becomes one with the universe itself. While under the effects time did pass slowly for me so I would imagine it would completely stop on a higher dose. But it never was scary. And then I slept for 14 hrs that day afterwards.
@@SahilP2648 you should try 5 - 7 grams, quite a few times I’ve basically gone into a complete dream world I took a lot more than that everyday for 3 months straight the 1st time I realised millions grew right next to my house so had a constant supply during shroom season but I’m the same I’m an atheist and started thinking there was a mushroom god or something a after a while and every time a took a really high dose felt like my body just went numb and I couldn’t actually see reality and kind of felt like it was damaging my brain at first cause it was so intense but always made sure I was just lying in my bed watching all the crazy visions and completely changed my brain and made me see what was most important in life they have been so helpful !
Conventional wisdom says that 5 grams is a maximum dose. My strongest dose was 4 grams, which proved so intense as to be almost unbearable (my therapist, on seeing the intensity of my response to my first-ever dose of 3.8 grams, observed that I was unusually sensitive). So I'd really caution against any dose higher than 5 grams -- unless one first has enough experience to know one's limits. For myself, I've now settled on a dose of just 3 grams, which is plenty strong for my purposes (by now I've had eleven trips).
I literally lost all identity of who I was. Then pulled myself back in and watched the world morph back in around my friend who was tripping with me in passenger seat
@@anderson-may5174 was sitting on dirt road for hours when I messaged this but yeah I drove, always did. None of my friends are able to but I've always been able to drive fine on anything . I'm past that now , still dangerous and if a car would of hit me it wouldve been blamed on the chemical I was on ven if it wasn't my fault so was dumb
@@Revelator2025 well I never had it actually tested but it was on blotters and was called LSD, could've been any research chem that acts like LSD honestly but yes from all we knew we were taking LSD. My buddy bought about 4 different style sheets like 3000 dollars total and we just did it till we ran out
It was scary … I just had ego dissolution and fought it bc it is very scary. But it was beneficial looking back in some ways. I need to meditate to understand what was beneficial. Because a better definition for this process is to accept you are dead..you can’t remember who you are, if you are alive or dead or even who your children are… so it is a very scary feeling even if you think you are prepared. Nothing can prepare you for such an experience… I was unable to communicate and thought I was having a stroke.. I could barely move and couldn’t understand my surroundings or answer questions. It was very very scary
My experience began as a beam of clarity and insight, penetrating and all-encompassing. I sat embraced by nature, surrounded by the majestic wisdom of the trees and the cool breeze gently brushing against my skin. For the first time in my life, I felt an overwhelming sense of truly understanding myself, as if my essence had been distilled into a single, clear, and undisturbed thought: "This is me." As this realization struck me, the boundaries between myself and the world began to dissolve, like ice melting in the warmth of the spring sun. Colors and emotions exploded into a whirlpool of sensory impressions, and I could feel my identity starting to shift, rotate, and change. At first, I was just me, then I was everything but me. The line where I ended and the universe began vanished completely. Panic gripped my heart like an iron claw. I was sucked into a kaleidoscope of alternate realities, continuously slipping in and out of countless versions of myself. Each version of "me" observed the next, like an infinite house of mirrors where the reflections just continued endlessly. I saw through the layers of my own existence, like a series of dolls, where each new doll was both the observer and the observed. Just when I thought I would lose my grip on my sanity, my perspective zoomed out at a dizzying speed. I suddenly discovered that I was the observer, the one watching all this unfold. I was no longer trapped in the chaos but stood outside observing. But just as I thought I had found some kind of peace, new dimensions opened before me, a reminder that there will always be more layers of observation, more depths to explore. Eventually, I reached a point of stillness, a quiet center where everything ceased. I vanished into an infinite void, a space of absolute nothingness. There, I encountered a figure, a presence that filled the empty space with an aura of power and a calmness deeper than anything I had ever known. "Who are you?" I asked, my voice trembling with awe and a strange calm spreading through me. "I am God," the figure replied with a voice that was both powerful and gentle. And in that moment, I became God. I was overwhelmed by a sense of complete unity with all that is, a profound understanding of every atom in the universe, and an unimaginable peace that can only come from being one with everything. When I returned to myself, it was with a deeper understanding of my own existence and my place in the cosmos.
I had an ego death from a THC vape. I thought I was just going to get really high. Instead I had the most terrifying experience. No trippy colors or hallucinations. Just slowly going paralyzed, losing my memory, sense of time and thoughts. Major panic attack , I really thought I was going to die and then I actually did. Felt my heart stop and lungs cease. Could not feel my body anymore and I just faded out into complete unconsciousness. Suddenly I felt this overwhelming feeling of calm and peace. Slowly I started to come back to reality piece by piece. I would go through it over and over again, not sure how many times I “died”. But after I the first I knew what was happening and understood I just had to let go and stop fighting. Each time less severe and was so thankful when I finally dipped back down into normal consciousness and that my brain wasn’t permanently fucked up. I am grateful for the experience.
Ego death is a very powerful and life changing experience and most people find the experience very positive in making a change in the users lives. A few people find the experience negative. This is because many people are afraid of letting their egos go, as it's everything that some individuals have. The positive things about hallucinogens overweight the negatives by a long shot. Positive factors are for example; They are anti-addictive, help you get rid of phobias, anxiety, depression, PTSD traumas and can be used to quit hard addictions that people have to mainly coke, heroin and meth. A single trip can make people come to the realization that they don't need these addictive drugs in their lives. I can honestly say that i know alot of people who tried psychedelics to battle different addictions and many actually quit these addictions completely after their trips.
Ego dissolution is not unique to psychedelics, but happens in "natural" mystical experiences, as well. For example, a Christian having a "born again" experience describes a loss of sense of self and identification with the Divine. That would probably be the narrative self, but I suppose it could be the minimal self in extreme cases. The mushroom experience is very similar, but you are more likely to experience the dissolution of the narrative AND minimal self. I've only had one "natural" mystical experience in my life, but I keep going back to it for comparison to my psychedelic induced mystical experiences where I have realized Samadhi on multiple trips. I'm almost convinced that the mushroom is a sacrament that provides access to the Divine (The Holy Spirit) through "rebirth" in order to produce in us "the fruit of the Spirit" - love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, self control, etc. P. Cubensis is rightly called "The Golden Teacher". ;) Enjoying your videos.
I’ve had 2 experiences with micro dosing P but also went to a workshop on psilocybin. I agree with the belief that the substance is ancient sacred plant medicine. Holding & smelling the mushrooms in the workshop seemed to shift my vibrational frequency. I honor & have great respect for the opening of this new frontier for mental/emotional/spiritual well-being with self & others. We are a planet in dire need of holistic transformation. Learn so much from such podcasts. Thank you🙏
Thank you so much for explaining this. I experienced this yesterday for the first time and it was nothing short of profound for me. I am grateful that you put it into words for me. I am definitely subscribing and cannot wait to learn more. I am truly excited for how this can help people in the future. ❤️
It's been very helpful watching this video and reading the comments. In my pursuit of psilocybin as therapy, I experienced in my first session. I had the sensation of parts of me disappearing (like Hal in 2001:Space Odyssey) and I was afraid that every part of my mind was being placed in a box and hauled away. I panicked, opened my eyes, stood up, and walked around until the session was over . Now after reading more, I know that is a common sensation and I should have met the sensation with calm and a sense of wonder. Next time, I will . It's somewhat difficult doing this on my own.
This is exactly what Vedanta and Samkhya philosophies have been saying for ages. Drg Drisyha Viveka, the observer and observed are the same, hence ego dissolution. Swami Vivekananda was lightyears ahead of us it's not even funny. Like Swami said: Love is the highest ideal. Real love is selfless, real love is unconditional. THIS is psychedelics.
Exactly. In my youth, I came to combine psychedelics with Vedanta, partly by way of Alan Watts (see his, The Book, on the taboo against knowing who you are). Or as John Lennon in the album Sgt Peppers Lonely Hearts Club Band, said, "Having the read The Book, I'd love to turn you on". The mystical experiences during and after psychedelics led me to meditation, which gave way to the most profound experiences/experience. In other words, I followed Watts' recommendation: "Once you hear the message, hang up the phone." What he meant was, once you gain mystical experience from psychedelics, move on. Psychedelics are not required. I cherish Vivekananda to this day. His writings are full of clarity, which is what most people thirst for yet don't recognize it. Psychedelics are helpful in spiritual growth in that they give the mind a taste of the neural pathways inherent to enlightenment. Once the 'hunting dog catches the scent', he knows what to give attention to. Check out Gary Weber's videos on TH-cam; he's a psychedelic naive scientist, but recognizes the value they offer to meditators as one who awakened.
@@tzsaint9113 death to our ego and old self, death to our flesh or ashes to rise back to the Spirit. Gospel of Thomas says that we can't know our end if we don't know our beginning, the Spirit. Death or alive we will go back there.
@@JULALAINE when I took psychedelics I would not call it a bad trip but I felt as if my friends and I were connected. I some how knew that I would just come back after...is that the drug or myself saying that?
@@tzsaint9113 i dont know that but I believe that its you and the Spirit that created life and all. I was in high school when Ive first experience that feeling of connection to everything and I didnt use any drug.
Haha yep! I did 5g penis envy mushrooms (Strongest strain in the world) I died and then realized I’m actually immortal and came back into the body and realized I can’t die.
Mesh, you are a delight! Clear, pleasant, and beautifully paced. You don't feel rushed and trying to get a 10-min.-segment into a 5minute video! I did my doctoral work in dreams, problem-solving, and personal growth in the mid-70s. Jim Fadiman was my doctoral committee chief. As an undergrad at Princeton and in Paris, I avoided Psychedelics because I had had in my dreams it seemed to me most of the experiences my colleagues spoke of but none of the risks which I foolishly believed that Erlichmans and Nixon's lies had spread. These included the happy discovery that i would ever be like a twinkling star in say a unified universal star system and at the same "time" I would and felt the bliss of union with all the stars. THEN! I heard Dr.Griffiths describe his Johns Hopkins study of very experienced meditators in which two monks who had thought and convinced their researchers that they had received the psilocybin in the double-blind study because they has had such a super experience. 2 months later, when the blind was removed, all were surprised to find that the 2 meditators had received the placebo. When they later received the promised psilocybin, they were AMAZED hat how that experience was on another level. Well, now I hope to try P to have the richer experience and a refresher to remember the dream magic in a more intense way. My experiences of 50+ years ago led me to be veru suspicious of Freud's conception of the Ego, and I am so glad you and others are opening up and trimming down what that concept can mean.
Man, it always starts with confusion and trying to figure out why the confusion is there leads into more confusion. Nothing makes any sense what’s so ever and trying to make sense of things can make it worse. The concept of psychedelics and mind altering substances are gone. A lot of emptiness and blankness within the mind. The answer was as simple as “dude your tripping nuts right now” but that wasn’t even comprehensible. Til this day that is the most bizarre thing ever to me. You think about it here and there but when you are in it, you are in it for real. Complete shut down of the sense of self. Spine tingling!
yes bro. i felt like the more i kept trying to unconfuse myself the worst it got. my girl saved me during my ego death, and sometimes i think back and say "damn i really almost got lost"
DMT is the most craziest experience have ever had in my entire life,but I was been helped out by a specialist who guided me through my first ever DMT experience,he got all kinds of psychedelics stuffs
I wish there was more of a focus on psychedelics in the science community. I had an single experience on lsd that left me utterly dumbfounded and speechless and there are absolutely no answers or possible explanations that I have found in months of research and it’s killing me lol..
There's actually a lot of scientific work being done at the moment and a huge literature of resources to help you make sense of a crazy experience. I would recommend checking out The Quentin Experience and PsychedSubstance - two great YT channels that might be helpful.
@@ThePsychedelicScientist well that’s good to hear. I’ve checked out a few of their videos before but i couldn’t find anything that sounded like what i went through. I suppose it’s a very subjective experience and i’m not likely to find an explanation the specific phenomenon i encountered.
@@zachhall2575 about an hour into my trip i noticed the room i was in was silent and at that exact same moment two distinct sounds began to play on loop inside my head that i can only describe as the Chidori from Naruto and something called a “falling shepherds tone”. around this same time it felt like i went into a dream and i was in a black room seeing a spinning 3D figure of my head only with nothing but a dark purple geometric outline of my face on all sides and in between each line it was pitch black. Every time i had any words come to mind, the mouths would open and let out this indescribable “stream of thought” is the best i can do. Now the crazy part is that while i’m seeing all this and consciously trying to figure out what i’m looking at, there is a deep evil sounding voice kinda like sauron from lord of the rings 🤣 that seemed separated from my own thoughts. It seemed to be literally teasing me. Over and over it would say “what is it? what is it? come on you know what it is..” over and over again for what seemed like hours. every time it felt like i was close to figuring out what “it” was, i would get this intense feeling of doom like when your heart drops when you know you’ve fucked up something serious and at that same time the voice would chuckle and say “nope” or “so close” all the while the first two sounds are still ringing on. Then suddenly all at once i snapped out of it completely and just sat there like wtf did i just experience. It took me weeks of googling and brainstorming to associate the sounds i heard in my head to actual things i had heard previously in my regular life. Crazy stuff
DMT is the most craziest experience have ever had in my entire life,but I was been helped out by a specialist who guided me through my first ever DMT experience,he got all kinds of psychedelics stuffs
@@MerlaPakwelI experienced mine yesterday and I was alone and it was the most scariest thing I’ve ever experienced! I didn’t know if I was alive or dead anymore. But I made it thru and it was beautiful at the end
18 years old, handful of fresh shrooms, couple hrs in I was standing in front of a heater looking at stuff on top of the fireplace and boom I was gone, floating in the darkness, no fear, no thoughts, no concept of self or anything at all yet completely conscious and aware, eventually a large sphere of white light formed and I was just there floating, I was standing the whole time then my friend put his hand on my shoulder and asked if I was ok because I was just staring into nothingness 😂, I kind of just shook my head and went on enjoying the trip but it was a beautiful experience over all.
Thank you for the explanation... I appreciate your articulation of ideas that can begin to define in words of what is a " multi-dimensional" union with all that one might perceive in a given moment and connection... or extension to what surrounds us. I first experienced psychedelics, hallucinogens as a very young teenager and continued them occasionally (less often) into my late twenties. I attribute my balance of... sense of, personal, intellectual and social well being in part to my experiences. I ran across your video from a search for "I experimented with psychedelic drugs as a teen and lost my sense of ego". At 66 years of age (and change), my interest has never waned.
Psych saved me from depression and Anxiety,all thanks to my buddy who connected me to this mycologist who guided me through on my experience, he's got all kinds of psychedelics stuffs such as microdosing mushrooms Ayahuasca LSD Adderall Xanax chocolate bars and lot more and he delivers to all countries locally and overseas
Ego death is a very scary term. So, we become different after the trip. What happens to our perspective? I guess it widens, as no one I’ve watched so far has described ego death as anything but good or worth experiencing. It makes one become less like themselves?
It depends on how well your socially constructed self is able to put up with the cognitive dissonance. I loved my ego death, it freed me and pushed me towards happiness. Whereas I know someone who was terrified of losing their sense of self and in their own words, losing their sanity. You can't really navigate society in late stage capitalism with a dead ego, so you really need to maintain this dissonance between spirituality and navigating soceity. It's tiring and hard but I find it rewarding so I continue
It's more like I had a light shown on the truth about myself. I'm still me now; I can look back and know with a sense of comfort what the "truth" is. It's reassuring for me. I had a very positive experience and felt in control.
I had a severe tooth infection and made the mistake of taking a magic chocolate bar to escape my pain, the mushrooms and infection teamed up and nearly killed me, I felt the life being sucked from my body by the infected to the point where everything started going black and my entire soul screamed that if I fell asleep right then and there I wasn't going to wake up, my mind desperately came up with a solution, cold shower, immediately, when I tried to stand my muscles weren't responding properly, like the valve to the life energy needed to make them move got completely capped to the slightest trickle, I've tripped dozens of times, never, never have I had something like this happen, I literally felt my body and brain struggling to continue functioning, vital actions like breathing became difficult, I had to use the temperature of the water from the shower to force my body to respond, to continue breathing and functioning, took about an hour of bargaining with whatever is out there to continue existing, my entire being was brought down to the simple words I want to live, I want to see me daughter again, I want to live, over and over for what felt like an eternity, at this point it felt like I merged with all the knowledge of the universe and none of it mattered, I was part of it and I didn't care, this vessel and it's attachment to her is all that mattered, my flame nearly flickered out, I felt the end of the script of my life and could not accept it, my body lay in the shower, not responding to any commands, I couldn't see, could barely register the feeling of the water running on me, trapped in this dying husk I begged my body to break down sugars, nutrients, anything it could to give me anything to work with, anything to keep breathing, anything to stay conscious and not slip away, about an hour in my legs started barely sliding around as I began to retain some feeling and control in them, my vision still highly distorted from the chocolate bar (the literal only nice part of this experience) but still I could see again, looked over to realize I had texted my daughter the words I love you at 1 in the morning in fear that they were the last I'd ever give, took me 20 minutes just to get enough strength together to reach for my towel, I couldn't stand to dry myself, literally had to lay there, get as dry as I could, laying down, and slowly dress myself over an embarrassing amount of time being careful not to slip and hurt myself in the process, I don't get f*cked up like most people do, no matter what condition I'm in my thoughts are always me and always there, even in my sleep, i remember everything, I remember telling whatever I made the bargain with as I got dressed that I learned, never again, kinda swore on it too, golden teacher don't play, if I do do shrooms again it will likely have to be another strain and quite some time after my infection is long gone, the was the story of how I got unmade, I'm still in the haze of it, the glow of appreciation for being alive, while simultaneously losing some part of myself, some part of me is gone now, the part that worked his ass off to get this beautiful tv and PS5, the one that feels screwed over by literally everything that works against him and immediately flares up with frustrated anger, his habits are embedded, but he's dead, things that made his frustration flare up irritate me equally, but the reservoir to the immediate testosterone release got walled off somewhere during all this, even if the wtf thoughts occur, I'm met with surprise as my body no longer has the anger welling up behind the thoughts, almost is if it were to say "c'est la vie"
That self that experiences the self’s experience in a sort of third person watching is bizarre and prominent in many of my significant memories - psychedelic or otherwise.
My ego death was me trapped in a room going over a story where I was both the character, writer and narrator at the same time. That's the only logical way I've found to explain it. It was just too weird. It started when I decided to take a shower, I take either LSD or Shrooms once a year, but this one time I got something stronger than I thought it was, same dosage as always, never had any problems before. So when I got into the shower, I remember seeing my reflection on the mirror laughing at me. I continued. got a literal golden shower that wasn't piss after I turned the faucet on, felt really good from the temperature of the water... then boom. I'm sitting on my bed, I'm writing a story in a book in the air and I'm at the same time writing, narrating and being the guy the story was written about. And it was a whole lot of fucking truths about myself but weaved into a story. That went on for what I believed to be many, many hours. Finally managed to drink some water, came back to the same thing... that continued, I thought it would never end and I was debating what was real and what was not. It finally started to end when my dog licked me out of nowhere. At that lick, I was brought back at bits at a time. Unfortunately, both methods are illegal as shit where I live, that explains the different dosage from the blotter amount I was used to consuming. Sure was a tremendous and scary as fuck trip, when it ended I was very sweaty and petting my dog. Took a shower right after, felt good. Gave me time inside my head to figure out some stuff, but I left with more questions than answers. This year I ate a mushroom that showed me flashes of last year. But I never lost control like last year. It just told me what was up. And it was tremendously enjoyable by far.
That's definitely one way to look at it. By having our ego or sense of individual identity dissolved, then we are essentially going beyond its limiting/constraining confines. And in that sense, you can understanding ego-dissolution as a form of expansion - an expansion into a larger identity beyond the individual mind-body. In that sense, it would correspond to self-transcendence as Huxley and various others would refer to.
Great stuff! Just wish your delivery was a bit slower/calmer with slight pauses, so as not to feel bombarded with information and more time to take it in.
So for a average Joe like me, would you say that this "ego death" expirience fells somewhat simmilarly to being in "flow"? Like yeah i understand that there will be some difference between the 2, in the flow you have just you and whatever you're doing and in ego death you have you, but like you're everything? But is the sense of immersion and clarity simmilar between these 2 expiriences?
There is definitely similarity between them. One difference is that in ego dissolution you don't need to be doing anything, and another difference is that you can sit and be aware of ego dissolution itself (whereas in flow, the processing of being in flow is in relation to what you are doing - it's not an experience in itself).
I took about 4 - 4.5g of shrooms while camping on the beach with some friends. When the goofing off subsided I realized I was on a different plane altogether. I knew I belonged to a family and a circle of friends but wasn't certain if they were in the past or future. I felt that, at any moment, I could dissolve into the sand or water and simply be gone, a notion i quickly came to peace with. It was otherworldly.
Have you watched Neuroanatomist Jill Bolte Taylor's TED, where she describes "ego dissolution" during her LEFT-HEMISPHERE Stroke and the experience of "NIRVANA" in that state? Or Iain McGilchrist's Master & His Emissary ? To me this is what happens (from my own subjective experience too) you zoom out and leave the ego-identity behind, and then you can experience more heart-connectedness or nature-connectedness (usually for me it is both at the same time) as the brainchatter is tuned down and one finds consciousness on the other side (possibly a RIGHT-HEMISPHERE state
I would like to suggest that unity experience, can be an experience, where by, perception (interpretation), replaces the perception of a limited self, within a body, to experience any other object cognized (through the Sense), to be perceived as : " this is me"... Thus leading to form a "story" in perception: "i am this also... therefore i am everything..."... So...the massage here is that dropping the perception of self, not nescessarilly leads to unity experience... and that... Unity experience, can be mere new story, conjured by perception... because the operating system is designed to perceive identification with this senses carrying body, in order to create motivation for it's survival... ❤️🙏🌈👍
I’ve probably experienced one the worst possible ego deaths you can experience. Unsure still if it was “really and ego death or worse” I was assaulted so randomly at work and got hit in the head so fucking hard it split had to get staples etc and a needle in my head went home that night and made the dumbest choice ever… not knowing what they put in my head and with all the trauma I brazed off I decided to take shrooms 😂 yes setting yourself up I was visably blind for 7+ hours throwing up and the nausea hit so intensely I got paralyzed while standing this was the most nightmare experience I’ve ever had in my life where multiple time I couldn’t catch my breath or if I even look anywhere everything is flying in 5 directions at once causing my eyes to stay shut. But that 8th hour I was in heaven my muscles where so tense for so long that I felt the relaxation in every part of me as a lucid dream almost I felt all the knowledge in the world my mind felt clear fast and then I passed out to sleep. Multiple times my vision kept going in and out I fr thought I was gonna die I my whole perception changed since and I also decided to take a stronger path of Christianity.
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I normally describe ego dissolution as your sense of narrative self is gone. You can view your life as if it was another person. The lens of you which you have viewed your entire life and all things is shifted. The rose coloured glasses of the ego is lifted. A sense of unity and the mystical experience may cohabit the same psychedelic space but neither ego dissolution or unity are a condition precedent for the other. Whilst they commonly concurrently present it does not mean they are the same thing. You can have ego dissolution without sense of unity. Not so sure though if you can have sense of unity without ego dissolution.
Ha I remembered having one I lost my mind I seen golden eggs bunch of eyes and Jesus my bro Jesus this crap was crazy and random car,truck,plane,cat,dog,etc noises even money dropping in telling u I was in a game in space
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My son said to me that you can have an ego death while tripping and just dont come back from it. Like. Actual death type stuff. I've done hallucinogenics. A lot of them. He hasn't really done them. Maybe a couple times. But he knows more about the research that scientists and psychologists have done into tripping. And knows more about it then I do where I have more e patience with it then he does. Amd I'm curious if hes right. Cus.... it brain does amazing things. What if it accidentally shut itself off. That's a terrifying thought.
This is my biggest fear but I guess one has to take the risk. Haven't tried psychedelics but I'm fascinated by it. I keep thinking about the possibilities that it offers for our understanding of identity, otherness, reality, symbols etc. And I believe this process is in itself an enlightening intellectual experience.
I heard you shouldn’t do shrooms if your weak mentally. I deal with anxiety and I heard that you should go to the forest and do shrooms but I’m afraid of some serial killer or weirdo out there, seeing me while I’m vulnerable. You can either have a good trip or bad trip.
Anyone struggling from some kind of mental illness that is considering taking psychedelics should seek out a trained professional for guidance, and not do it themselves (and definitely not in the woods).
If it's your first time , DEFINITELY do it in a safe setting such as your home with positive people around you and not in a place which is already making you anxious. If you can't afford a trained professional to guide you, start at a low dose and make sure you have anti-anxiety medication at hand. Coming from someone who used to suffer from severe anxiety, but is now doing better :)
The ego does not dissolve in the psychedelic experience or in transcendence during meditation or moksha . what is occurring is a simple shift in what we are identified as an individual or consciousness awake to itself . When this shift occurs it is not because of one state dissolving into the other but rather the infinite stability of un manifest but lively conscious is more restful and attractive to the individuals mind intellect and senses . Our attention is drawn to this more pleasing state , rests there and becomes identified with that as who we are . Whether this experience is permanent or temporary has no effect on the ego as it is a necessary part of the mind body experience in order to move around in the relative field in a safe manner and make simple choices via the discriminatory aspect of the intellect . an ego and intellectual discrimination is necessary for a human nervous system . when oneness is our dominate identity we still need an ego , intellect and senses to operate safely and efficiently in every day life . so no , the ego does not dissolve in higher states of consciousness but the feature of oneness is ADDED to our identity .
Thanks for the info Shane but i quit psychedelics back in the sixties . i do still find it fascinating what people are experiencing today and i still maintain that without a chemical analysis one cannot know the contents of what is ingested . it really is only by word of mouth / anecdotal evidence that one feels confident enough to try that source . fortunately for me i got lucky and discovered how to remain high without drugs , saying that has no more validity than claiming what is being sold is pure .
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I took about 7 1/2 grams for my first time trying shrooms two months ago. I had half a bottle of vodka before I did them so I might’ve not been in the right mind state to begin with. I definitely had a very bad terrifying trip along with ego death. A couple weeks after the trip I started developing a bunch of PTSD symptoms which means I likely experienced PTSD during the trip. Do you or anybody else have any advice or suggestions on how to overcome this, I’m dealing with severe nonstop anxiety/hypervigilance/overstimulation. I’ve dealt with generalized anxiety disorder and PTSD before I even tried the shrooms, the bad trip just made all my PTSD symptoms skyrocket. Please help me out I’m suffering
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My hunch is that your ego can dissolve and feel less solid/stable/certain in a continuous way, but at some point there can be a distinct shift where there is no ego entirely
Huh I was wondering the same. I've experienced ego death but society the way it is really enforces 'individuality' and it's pretty hard to keep your spiritual self from wearing out
A solid grounding in the world and in yourself is key. At the end of the day, I'm presenting these subjects in a very abstract, conceptual way. Yes, these ideas stretch our idea of what kinds of experiences are possible and how flexible our experience of reality might be, but talking about them is much different than experiencing them.
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@@sebastien4346 it's been a while, at first i felt like i was going to lose my mind, but now i feel much better than ever. It's all part of the path to liberate yourself from suffering. It's kinda weird to lose that sense of ego. I didn't completely lose it yet, but i feel like when that happens there's no sense of "me" anymore, emotions no longer affect you nor control you. You even lose the fear of death. It's the true nature of ourselves. The ego is a creation of our minds, an illusion.
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I've been there. It's like being a bored vampire or bored god, I just wanted to die so it would end and i didn't have to be a part of the endless nothingness anymore.
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I'm a Christian wondering if this would effect your spirit in any way. Do you feel influenced by any other beings that you cannot quite describe but you know that they are not just your imagination? If so, do they want to harm you or do they calm you down?
The mushroom, in my experience, only has the best intentions for you. [see my comment on this video]. I'm a Christian as well, though not associated with any sect now. I prefer to think of the mushroom as a sacrament. It shuts down the DMN (ego dissolution) so your true self can communicate with and experience the Divine.
The serpent tricked Eve in the garden of Eden and said that she can become like God through secret revelation.....special knowledge. She ate it, knowing her eyes would be “opened” but it was a trick. It was deceiving. It was not truth. Just like when we take psychedelics. We are revealed secret revelations and special knowledge. But it is not truth. As a Christian you know there’s only one truth. 1 Tim 4:1 says that many will depart from the faith and give heed to seducing spirits and doctrine of devils. Speaking lies in hypocrisy and having their conscious seared. This is just that. Even Anton Lavey said that people who do this are hypocritical because these practices are from their belief system- Satan.
@@Truthinjesuschrist The Kingdom of heaven is within. I and the Father are one. God is the I Am That I Am. The I Am is the way, the truth, and the light. The Christos or Christ was known to the Greeks before Jesus came along. How is it any different from the Awakened or Buddha consciousness? Experience of the devine is not limited to saints and Jesus. Unquestionably, the experience of divinity has been perceived as a threat to the Catholic church; those who dared teach union with the divine to the masses were murdered by the church. Read up on Miguel de Molinos, a priest in the 17th century who the church condemned for teaching a way to have a personal relationship with God.
@@Truthinjesuschrist That special knowledge you refer to was the opposite of what Eve experienced. Instead of a nondual awareness, she came to see duality, which is to see a world separate from devine awareness.
@@kenjones7719 sorry ken, your discernment is so off I would never take the way you interpret the Bible as truth. Trust me, I have been where you are, thinking what you are thinking. Praise the LORD I found the truth. Sorry to say it but you will see ☹️
The human mind was born screaming and then hummed itself silent, Everything after this is a construction (including language, words) and therefore delusional in its beliefs , The top affect that can happen on LSD, is you return to this untouched awareness with no complexity for hours (empty dead head) There are probably thousands of layers of delusion that you break through to reach this state. And afterwards it will probably take the rest of your life to explain all the layers of delusion that you removed If you have not experienced this its delusional of me to expect language to be sufficient to help you comprehend The words, Ideas and concepts in our mind play no meaningful part in our existence , there is a whole other shindig going on that we Roman slaves (Roman salves states)were taught to never look at Now the food we eat , now that matters and we really should do something about it , To talk dosages is important, LSD works exponentially, so from effective 30mg to 500mg the effects steadily slowly increase But after 500mg the line starts to go vertical in affects A very important tip that most people do not know, As Manesh mentioned, in a way your brain is just constantly comparing the now to the past then predicting the future The trick to making the LSD really take over is create an environment where this part of the brain basically goes to sleep , Its either too boring or to chaotic, then it seems to switch off, and all hell breaks loose :)
I had a look on google I haven’t got any social media. Is it mushrooms you got? What strain are they and how much you got? Once you use psychedelics you will always use them 😁
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Great video, thank you. I am trying to prepare for a heroic dose for my depression, and want to understand what Im getting myself into. I see quite a few comments about people being scared of never coming back from the dissolution. Is that a possibility? Have people had long term detrimental effects from shroom trips, or messed up their lives for more than week or two? I have had serious depression for 40 years, I am so looking forward to the relief I have heard a heroic dose can bring. (I have been micro dosing for a few years) and have done rec doses of up to a couple of grams) Can I end up worse off? Thank you for your great videos, I look forward to watching more
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I experienced this ego dissolution on Ayahuasca, i saw myself disappearing, all of my memories were getting erased, until i had no memories at all, i didn't know who i was or anything, I was just a consciousness existing in middle of the nothing,space and time were inexistent. I could recognize that i was there before, my true nature belonged there, I became one with the universe again. When i returned to my body i felt like a stranger in a new body with memories that wasn't mine. I was reborn.
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For me, it was the opposite. It was a sudden rush of nostalgia and memories hitting me all ar once, confusing the shit out of me. Nothing felt real, life felt meaningless, and I felt stuck.
@@tastefulsubstance i felt both. First it felt like life was a simulation I got out of and I didnt know who I was althought everything seemed familiar. It was peaceful I went to my bed and the woke up still not knowing who i am. I felt like I was reborn but suddenly started having memories of my past life. I felt like I was in the good place after life. Having memories from my past made me realized I died I tried hard to think what was life. I had trouble remembering my name my daughters name and everyone I know but slowly everything was coming back. Then I thought: afterlife is kinda boring peaceful but boring.
@@tastefulsubstance you've just described my existence for the last 4 years
Thank you for typing this, i had this experience but i thought I held back the doomsday, i was so scared of letting go, but what you described, got right into my heart. I was so scared, but with this.. felt easier to look on those memories with more happiness
I had a psychedelic experience on Tuesday, 5gs of mushrooms with a shaman. I experienced this ego death and it was terrifying and enlightening at the same time. I was very happy when I returned to normal as I was extremely concerned that I would never come back to explain the story as my thoughts were no longer constructed in my language.
welcome
Where is that shamen based? X
Me too. Did this shit yesterday 5 grams. And I at peak ripped my dab pen 5 times
@@bootygus7276 how was that experience? , when I’m tripping I don’t have an urge to smoke until I’m on my way down
@@Artbae339 a nice blunt while on a trip I think on the way up and on the way down is pretty nice but it's been a minute since I've tripped tbh
I think of ego death as the suspension of the false self, which exposes us to our real self. We build up false selves as a defense against early childhood pain. When this false self is cracked or threatened or stripped away, you have ego death.
I love how u explained it! I want to achieve this to help with my addictions. I experienced it a tiny bit on my last trip.
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Ego is made up of 5 categories-
-Wealth
-Knowledge
-Validations
-Social Acceptance
-Morals & Beliefs
We base our own self worth off those 5 categories. Once you detach yourself from all 5, you realize were nothing more, nothing less than souls. You cannot be around sober people or handle "real life" scenarios when tripping. Even drunk or high friends still have their Ego's intact. Still aware of self worths, judgements & their social acceptance. You need to set aside 6-8 hours of free time & be around other ppl tripping if you want to have the best experience possible. 🌈🍄💯
That’s kinda funny you say that. on my 3.7g ego death trip and ladies voice told me theirs 5 aspects of life you will need to understand throughout the duration of my life to understand the relative meaning of life… so maybe it has some similarities to what you’re talking about, thanks !!
My wealth aspect was interesting. I used to think I never deserved anything nice, expensive, fancy. Like I was trash and shouldn't even think about doing anything that costs money for myself. Or that I could never afford anything. But I no longer have that opinion.
reducing life to numbered lists is a trap @@kyler7997
Well said 👏🏼👏🏼
So true I was tripping and I felt each one of these catagories fight to stay alive and all of them fell execpt for my morals and beliefs they held on
Digging your channel! I’m a therapist specializing in psychedelic prep& integration work and I really appreciate your summaries and explanations of the research in this field. I’m always wanting to learn more to better help my clients. 🙏🏽
Thanks for the comment! I'm really glad you find my content useful - keep on with the important work!
You did a pretty good job describing the EGO/ No EGO. BIG PICTURE = The Universe is experiencing itself THROUGH all that IS.
Excellent man, I've never really looked into a very proper description of ego-death but this was bang on. The way you described both types of dissolution in terms of internal and external unity is such a cool way of putting it because, depending on the experience or the psychedelic involved, that sense of unity can be very different yet at the same time so similar but just sort of focused in a different direction. And also nice thumbnail btw ;)
Curiously, in my three psilocybin experiences, I didn't experience ego death or dissolution. Instead, I received strong, clear messages affirming my true identity, spiritually and in what purpose(s) I have in life.
Ive taken psilocybin many times in various doses. Most the time I experience exactly what you’re describing. Last night however, i took a generous dose of a Peruvian variety and experienced something completely different than i ever have. As i peaked my thoughts began to spiral into one another to the point where my sense of self, time and perception was completely dissolved. It was like being trapped in an infinite time loop of thought and contradictions. Very difficult to explain but it was like a paradox of consciousness. It reminded me of images like when watching tv and on the tv someone is watching tv and that person is watching tv of someone watching tv etc etc. I consider myself to be spiritually grounded and there isnt many occasions i can think of where i can say ive experienced true fear but what a profound and harsh experience i had. For many they might consider it a “bad” trip but to me it was just what I needed and although it shook me to my core i returned with a gratitude for basic existence that trumped any sense of gratitude i have ever felt. What a blessing and powerful tool these fungi can be.
@@brendanperkins5574 that's actually not something one should take away from. I took 1.5gms (this was my first time and I am light weight so this dose must at least be 2-2.25 gms) and initially it was scary losing control of my body but then slowly my body started becoming warm and it was like a gentle massage all over. For 30 mins approx I was almost on the verge of ego death. I had already lost control of 90% of my body. Right there and then I knew that this could be a taste of the afterlife. When you lose connection to your body but your mind is still awake. I felt truly one with the universe. I think everyone after they die return to being the part of this one true entity. I am an atheist and although I am not denying that there might or might not be some entity that created us, if there is, it is neutral in nature. I did see eyes opening and closing in patterns and that could be the entity. It was neither pleased nor unpleased seeing me but seemed like it acknowledged my presence. We have anthropomorphized and labeled 'god' as being benevolent, forgiving, kind, nurturing etc. but why is that exactly? How do we know 'god' isn't neutral? So all in all, it was quite an eye opening experience. After death I believe everyone becomes one with the universe itself. While under the effects time did pass slowly for me so I would imagine it would completely stop on a higher dose. But it never was scary. And then I slept for 14 hrs that day afterwards.
@@SahilP2648 you should try 5 - 7 grams, quite a few times I’ve basically gone into a complete dream world I took a lot more than that everyday for 3 months straight the 1st time I realised millions grew right next to my house so had a constant supply during shroom season but I’m the same I’m an atheist and started thinking there was a mushroom god or something a after a while and every time a took a really high dose felt like my body just went numb and I couldn’t actually see reality and kind of felt like it was damaging my brain at first cause it was so intense but always made sure I was just lying in my bed watching all the crazy visions and completely changed my brain and made me see what was most important in life they have been so helpful !
What is most important in life ?
Conventional wisdom says that 5 grams is a maximum dose. My strongest dose was 4 grams, which proved so intense as to be almost unbearable (my therapist, on seeing the intensity of my response to my first-ever dose of 3.8 grams, observed that I was unusually sensitive). So I'd really caution against any dose higher than 5 grams -- unless one first has enough experience to know one's limits. For myself, I've now settled on a dose of just 3 grams, which is plenty strong for my purposes (by now I've had eleven trips).
Learnt a lot from this. And felt it was snappy and accessible. Great intro!
I'm in the afterglow stages now. Just experienced ego death. Took 2 tabs about 350ug total . It was the craziest thing I've ever experienced.
I literally lost all identity of who I was. Then pulled myself back in and watched the world morph back in around my friend who was tripping with me in passenger seat
@@theonlyDB Hope you weren’t driving lol
@@anderson-may5174 was sitting on dirt road for hours when I messaged this but yeah I drove, always did. None of my friends are able to but I've always been able to drive fine on anything . I'm past that now , still dangerous and if a car would of hit me it wouldve been blamed on the chemical I was on ven if it wasn't my fault so was dumb
So that was on LSD?
@@Revelator2025 well I never had it actually tested but it was on blotters and was called LSD, could've been any research chem that acts like LSD honestly but yes from all we knew we were taking LSD. My buddy bought about 4 different style sheets like 3000 dollars total and we just did it till we ran out
It was scary … I just had ego dissolution and fought it bc it is very scary. But it was beneficial looking back in some ways. I need to meditate to understand what was beneficial. Because a better definition for this process is to accept you are dead..you can’t remember who you are, if you are alive or dead or even who your children are… so it is a very scary feeling even if you think you are prepared. Nothing can prepare you for such an experience… I was unable to communicate and thought I was having a stroke.. I could barely move and couldn’t understand my surroundings or answer questions. It was very very scary
My experience began as a beam of clarity and insight, penetrating and all-encompassing. I sat embraced by nature, surrounded by the majestic wisdom of the trees and the cool breeze gently brushing against my skin. For the first time in my life, I felt an overwhelming sense of truly understanding myself, as if my essence had been distilled into a single, clear, and undisturbed thought: "This is me."
As this realization struck me, the boundaries between myself and the world began to dissolve, like ice melting in the warmth of the spring sun. Colors and emotions exploded into a whirlpool of sensory impressions, and I could feel my identity starting to shift, rotate, and change. At first, I was just me, then I was everything but me. The line where I ended and the universe began vanished completely.
Panic gripped my heart like an iron claw. I was sucked into a kaleidoscope of alternate realities, continuously slipping in and out of countless versions of myself. Each version of "me" observed the next, like an infinite house of mirrors where the reflections just continued endlessly. I saw through the layers of my own existence, like a series of dolls, where each new doll was both the observer and the observed.
Just when I thought I would lose my grip on my sanity, my perspective zoomed out at a dizzying speed. I suddenly discovered that I was the observer, the one watching all this unfold. I was no longer trapped in the chaos but stood outside observing. But just as I thought I had found some kind of peace, new dimensions opened before me, a reminder that there will always be more layers of observation, more depths to explore.
Eventually, I reached a point of stillness, a quiet center where everything ceased. I vanished into an infinite void, a space of absolute nothingness. There, I encountered a figure, a presence that filled the empty space with an aura of power and a calmness deeper than anything I had ever known. "Who are you?" I asked, my voice trembling with awe and a strange calm spreading through me.
"I am God," the figure replied with a voice that was both powerful and gentle.
And in that moment, I became God. I was overwhelmed by a sense of complete unity with all that is, a profound understanding of every atom in the universe, and an unimaginable peace that can only come from being one with everything. When I returned to myself, it was with a deeper understanding of my own existence and my place in the cosmos.
I had an ego death from a THC vape. I thought I was just going to get really high. Instead I had the most terrifying experience. No trippy colors or hallucinations. Just slowly going paralyzed, losing my memory, sense of time and thoughts. Major panic attack , I really thought I was going to die and then I actually did. Felt my heart stop and lungs cease. Could not feel my body anymore and I just faded out into complete unconsciousness. Suddenly I felt this overwhelming feeling of calm and peace. Slowly I started to come back to reality piece by piece. I would go through it over and over again, not sure how many times I “died”. But after I the first I knew what was happening and understood I just had to let go and stop fighting. Each time less severe and was so thankful when I finally dipped back down into normal consciousness and that my brain wasn’t permanently fucked up. I am grateful for the experience.
U got laced bro
I think that was a DMT vape homie. Not THC lol
Ego death is a very powerful and life changing experience and most people find the experience very positive in making a change in the users lives. A few people find the experience negative. This is because many people are afraid of letting their egos go, as it's everything that some individuals have. The positive things about hallucinogens overweight the negatives by a long shot. Positive factors are for example; They are anti-addictive, help you get rid of phobias, anxiety, depression, PTSD traumas and can be used to quit hard addictions that people have to mainly coke, heroin and meth. A single trip can make people come to the realization that they don't need these addictive drugs in their lives. I can honestly say that i know alot of people who tried psychedelics to battle different addictions and many actually quit these addictions completely after their trips.
Ego dissolution is not unique to psychedelics, but happens in "natural" mystical experiences, as well. For example, a Christian having a "born again" experience describes a loss of sense of self and identification with the Divine. That would probably be the narrative self, but I suppose it could be the minimal self in extreme cases. The mushroom experience is very similar, but you are more likely to experience the dissolution of the narrative AND minimal self. I've only had one "natural" mystical experience in my life, but I keep going back to it for comparison to my psychedelic induced mystical experiences where I have realized Samadhi on multiple trips. I'm almost convinced that the mushroom is a sacrament that provides access to the Divine (The Holy Spirit) through "rebirth" in order to produce in us "the fruit of the Spirit" - love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, self control, etc. P. Cubensis is rightly called "The Golden Teacher". ;) Enjoying your videos.
I’ve had 2 experiences with micro dosing P but also went to a workshop on psilocybin. I agree with the belief that the substance is ancient sacred plant medicine. Holding & smelling the mushrooms in the workshop seemed to shift my vibrational frequency. I honor & have great respect for the opening of this new frontier for mental/emotional/spiritual well-being with self & others. We are a planet in dire need of holistic transformation. Learn so much from such podcasts. Thank you🙏
I find that it's easy to talk about ego dissolution with others who have experienced it, and basically impossible with those who have not
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Thank you so much for explaining this. I experienced this yesterday for the first time and it was nothing short of profound for me. I am grateful that you put it into words for me. I am definitely subscribing and cannot wait to learn more. I am truly excited for how this can help people in the future. ❤️
Cheers Randa, I'm glad the video helped you make sense of your experience!
It's been very helpful watching this video and reading the comments. In my pursuit of psilocybin as therapy, I experienced in my first session. I had the sensation of parts of me disappearing (like Hal in 2001:Space Odyssey) and I was afraid that every part of my mind was being placed in a box and hauled away. I panicked, opened my eyes, stood up, and walked around until the session was over . Now after reading more, I know that is a common sensation and I should have met the sensation with calm and a sense of wonder. Next time, I will . It's somewhat difficult doing this on my own.
This is exactly what Vedanta and Samkhya philosophies have been saying for ages. Drg Drisyha Viveka, the observer and observed are the same, hence ego dissolution. Swami Vivekananda was lightyears ahead of us it's not even funny.
Like Swami said: Love is the highest ideal. Real love is selfless, real love is unconditional. THIS is psychedelics.
Exactly. In my youth, I came to combine psychedelics with Vedanta, partly by way of Alan Watts (see his, The Book, on the taboo against knowing who you are). Or as John Lennon in the album Sgt Peppers Lonely Hearts Club Band, said, "Having the read The Book, I'd love to turn you on". The mystical experiences during and after psychedelics led me to meditation, which gave way to the most profound experiences/experience. In other words, I followed Watts' recommendation: "Once you hear the message, hang up the phone." What he meant was, once you gain mystical experience from psychedelics, move on. Psychedelics are not required. I cherish Vivekananda to this day. His writings are full of clarity, which is what most people thirst for yet don't recognize it. Psychedelics are helpful in spiritual growth in that they give the mind a taste of the neural pathways inherent to enlightenment. Once the 'hunting dog catches the scent', he knows what to give attention to. Check out Gary Weber's videos on TH-cam; he's a psychedelic naive scientist, but recognizes the value they offer to meditators as one who awakened.
I died... only to realize that I have no death after... I AM INFINITE.
Please explain more! I understand but I want to see what it means?
@@tzsaint9113 death to our ego and old self, death to our flesh or ashes to rise back to the Spirit. Gospel of Thomas says that we can't know our end if we don't know our beginning, the Spirit. Death or alive we will go back there.
@@JULALAINE when I took psychedelics I would not call it a bad trip but I felt as if my friends and I were connected. I some how knew that I would just come back after...is that the drug or myself saying that?
@@tzsaint9113 i dont know that but I believe that its you and the Spirit that created life and all. I was in high school when Ive first experience that feeling of connection to everything and I didnt use any drug.
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I died and then realized I’m actually immortal and came back into the body and realized I can’t die.
Mesh, you are a delight! Clear, pleasant, and beautifully paced. You don't feel rushed and trying to get a 10-min.-segment into a 5minute video!
I did my doctoral work in dreams, problem-solving, and personal growth in the mid-70s. Jim Fadiman was my doctoral committee chief. As an undergrad at Princeton and in Paris, I avoided Psychedelics because I had had in my dreams it seemed to me most of the experiences my colleagues spoke of but none of the risks which I foolishly believed that Erlichmans and Nixon's lies had spread. These included the happy discovery that i would ever be like a twinkling star in say a unified universal star system and at the same "time" I would and felt the bliss of union with all the stars. THEN! I heard Dr.Griffiths describe his Johns Hopkins study of very experienced meditators in which two monks who had thought and convinced their researchers that they had received the psilocybin in the double-blind study because they has had such a super experience. 2 months later, when the blind was removed, all were surprised to find that the 2 meditators had received the placebo. When they later received the promised psilocybin, they were AMAZED hat how that experience was on another level. Well, now I hope to try P to have the richer experience and a refresher to remember the dream magic in a more intense way. My experiences of 50+ years ago led me to be veru suspicious of Freud's conception of the Ego, and I am so glad you and others are opening up and trimming down what that concept can mean.
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I took 6 tabs in 4 hours, standing in my aunts vegetable garden, completely still, completely silent, becoming one with the carrots
Man, it always starts with confusion and trying to figure out why the confusion is there leads into more confusion. Nothing makes any sense what’s so ever and trying to make sense of things can make it worse. The concept of psychedelics and mind altering substances are gone. A lot of emptiness and blankness within the mind. The answer was as simple as “dude your tripping nuts right now” but that wasn’t even comprehensible. Til this day that is the most bizarre thing ever to me. You think about it here and there but when you are in it, you are in it for real. Complete shut down of the sense of self. Spine tingling!
yes bro. i felt like the more i kept trying to unconfuse myself the worst it got. my girl saved me during my ego death, and sometimes i think back and say "damn i really almost got lost"
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Exactly when you begin to trip balls your no longer in control acid is terrifying at 1st, bliss when coming down.,,, Magical
I’m just now coming down off the shrooms feeling great but this might be too much to take in now lol
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man the experience even sounds crazy just hearing about it
I wish there was more of a focus on psychedelics in the science community. I had an single experience on lsd that left me utterly dumbfounded and speechless and there are absolutely no answers or possible explanations that I have found in months of research and it’s killing me lol..
There's actually a lot of scientific work being done at the moment and a huge literature of resources to help you make sense of a crazy experience.
I would recommend checking out The Quentin Experience and PsychedSubstance - two great YT channels that might be helpful.
@@ThePsychedelicScientist well that’s good to hear.
I’ve checked out a few of their videos before but i couldn’t find anything that sounded like what i went through. I suppose it’s a very subjective experience and i’m not likely to find an explanation the specific phenomenon i encountered.
@@nunn2do what’d you experience?
@@zachhall2575 about an hour into my trip i noticed the room i was in was silent and at that exact same moment two distinct sounds began to play on loop inside my head that i can only describe as the Chidori from Naruto and something called a “falling shepherds tone”. around this same time it felt like i went into a dream and i was in a black room seeing a spinning 3D figure of my head only with nothing but a dark purple geometric outline of my face on all sides and in between each line it was pitch black. Every time i had any words come to mind, the mouths would open and let out this indescribable “stream of thought” is the best i can do.
Now the crazy part is that while i’m seeing all this and consciously trying to figure out what i’m looking at, there is a deep evil sounding voice kinda like sauron from lord of the rings 🤣 that seemed separated from my own thoughts. It seemed to be literally teasing me. Over and over it would say “what is it? what is it? come on you know what it is..” over and over again for what seemed like hours. every time it felt like i was close to figuring out what “it” was, i would get this intense feeling of doom like when your heart drops when you know you’ve fucked up something serious and at that same time the voice would chuckle and say “nope” or “so close” all the while the first two sounds are still ringing on. Then suddenly all at once i snapped out of it completely and just sat there like wtf did i just experience. It took me weeks of googling and brainstorming to associate the sounds i heard in my head to actual things i had heard previously in my regular life. Crazy stuff
@@nunn2do damn that’s fuckin crazy. Have you since found anyone with a similar experience? And do you have a theory over what you think it was
That gave me so much clarity! Thank you!
I just had ego death. I was just at a complete loss of reality and everything was super confusing. I knew I was on a trip but my god was it insane
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@@MerlaPakwelI experienced mine yesterday and I was alone and it was the most scariest thing I’ve ever experienced! I didn’t know if I was alive or dead anymore. But I made it thru and it was beautiful at the end
This was a excellent video. Well done 👏. Easily the best I’ve ever heard someone explain the concept of ego death.
Man people better be prepared when it comes to this stuff. It can get terrifying if you aren’t ready to handle it
18 years old, handful of fresh shrooms, couple hrs in I was standing in front of a heater looking at stuff on top of the fireplace and boom I was gone, floating in the darkness, no fear, no thoughts, no concept of self or anything at all yet completely conscious and aware, eventually a large sphere of white light formed and I was just there floating, I was standing the whole time then my friend put his hand on my shoulder and asked if I was ok because I was just staring into nothingness 😂, I kind of just shook my head and went on enjoying the trip but it was a beautiful experience over all.
Thank you for the explanation... I appreciate your articulation of ideas that can begin to define in words of what is a " multi-dimensional" union with all that one might perceive in a given moment and connection... or extension to what surrounds us. I first experienced psychedelics, hallucinogens as a very young teenager and continued them occasionally (less often) into my late twenties. I attribute my balance of... sense of, personal, intellectual and social well being in part to my experiences. I ran across your video from a search for "I experimented with psychedelic drugs as a teen and lost my sense of ego". At 66 years of age (and change), my interest has never waned.
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Ego death is a very scary term. So, we become different after the trip. What happens to our perspective? I guess it widens, as no one I’ve watched so far has described ego death as anything but good or worth experiencing. It makes one become less like themselves?
Ego death isn't promised during a trip. Ego death I've heard is normally positive tho.
I found it terrifying to be honest
It depends on how well your socially constructed self is able to put up with the cognitive dissonance. I loved my ego death, it freed me and pushed me towards happiness. Whereas I know someone who was terrified of losing their sense of self and in their own words, losing their sanity. You can't really navigate society in late stage capitalism with a dead ego, so you really need to maintain this dissonance between spirituality and navigating soceity. It's tiring and hard but I find it rewarding so I continue
@@alexandriasnow2053 mine was terrifying, but I believe it has to do with how well u can control it
It's more like I had a light shown on the truth about myself. I'm still me now; I can look back and know with a sense of comfort what the "truth" is. It's reassuring for me. I had a very positive experience and felt in control.
Thank you for explaining this clearly.
Thanks for this overview. See ya! 🤙🍄
I had a severe tooth infection and made the mistake of taking a magic chocolate bar to escape my pain, the mushrooms and infection teamed up and nearly killed me, I felt the life being sucked from my body by the infected to the point where everything started going black and my entire soul screamed that if I fell asleep right then and there I wasn't going to wake up, my mind desperately came up with a solution, cold shower, immediately, when I tried to stand my muscles weren't responding properly, like the valve to the life energy needed to make them move got completely capped to the slightest trickle, I've tripped dozens of times, never, never have I had something like this happen, I literally felt my body and brain struggling to continue functioning, vital actions like breathing became difficult, I had to use the temperature of the water from the shower to force my body to respond, to continue breathing and functioning, took about an hour of bargaining with whatever is out there to continue existing, my entire being was brought down to the simple words I want to live, I want to see me daughter again, I want to live, over and over for what felt like an eternity, at this point it felt like I merged with all the knowledge of the universe and none of it mattered, I was part of it and I didn't care, this vessel and it's attachment to her is all that mattered, my flame nearly flickered out, I felt the end of the script of my life and could not accept it, my body lay in the shower, not responding to any commands, I couldn't see, could barely register the feeling of the water running on me, trapped in this dying husk I begged my body to break down sugars, nutrients, anything it could to give me anything to work with, anything to keep breathing, anything to stay conscious and not slip away, about an hour in my legs started barely sliding around as I began to retain some feeling and control in them, my vision still highly distorted from the chocolate bar (the literal only nice part of this experience) but still I could see again, looked over to realize I had texted my daughter the words I love you at 1 in the morning in fear that they were the last I'd ever give, took me 20 minutes just to get enough strength together to reach for my towel, I couldn't stand to dry myself, literally had to lay there, get as dry as I could, laying down, and slowly dress myself over an embarrassing amount of time being careful not to slip and hurt myself in the process, I don't get f*cked up like most people do, no matter what condition I'm in my thoughts are always me and always there, even in my sleep, i remember everything, I remember telling whatever I made the bargain with as I got dressed that I learned, never again, kinda swore on it too, golden teacher don't play, if I do do shrooms again it will likely have to be another strain and quite some time after my infection is long gone, the was the story of how I got unmade, I'm still in the haze of it, the glow of appreciation for being alive, while simultaneously losing some part of myself, some part of me is gone now, the part that worked his ass off to get this beautiful tv and PS5, the one that feels screwed over by literally everything that works against him and immediately flares up with frustrated anger, his habits are embedded, but he's dead, things that made his frustration flare up irritate me equally, but the reservoir to the immediate testosterone release got walled off somewhere during all this, even if the wtf thoughts occur, I'm met with surprise as my body no longer has the anger welling up behind the thoughts, almost is if it were to say "c'est la vie"
That self that experiences the self’s experience in a sort of third person watching is bizarre and prominent in many of my significant memories - psychedelic or otherwise.
Very clearly and succinctly explained. Good job!
This video is very informative and well spoken bro :)
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Amazing summary and great research! I learned a lot from this, thank you.
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My ego death was me trapped in a room going over a story where I was both the character, writer and narrator at the same time. That's the only logical way I've found to explain it. It was just too weird. It started when I decided to take a shower, I take either LSD or Shrooms once a year, but this one time I got something stronger than I thought it was, same dosage as always, never had any problems before. So when I got into the shower, I remember seeing my reflection on the mirror laughing at me. I continued. got a literal golden shower that wasn't piss after I turned the faucet on, felt really good from the temperature of the water... then boom. I'm sitting on my bed, I'm writing a story in a book in the air and I'm at the same time writing, narrating and being the guy the story was written about. And it was a whole lot of fucking truths about myself but weaved into a story. That went on for what I believed to be many, many hours. Finally managed to drink some water, came back to the same thing... that continued, I thought it would never end and I was debating what was real and what was not. It finally started to end when my dog licked me out of nowhere. At that lick, I was brought back at bits at a time.
Unfortunately, both methods are illegal as shit where I live, that explains the different dosage from the blotter amount I was used to consuming. Sure was a tremendous and scary as fuck trip, when it ended I was very sweaty and petting my dog. Took a shower right after, felt good. Gave me time inside my head to figure out some stuff, but I left with more questions than answers.
This year I ate a mushroom that showed me flashes of last year. But I never lost control like last year. It just told me what was up. And it was tremendously enjoyable by far.
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Would you equate ego-dissolution with self-transcendence, as suggested by Aldous Huxley?
That's definitely one way to look at it. By having our ego or sense of individual identity dissolved, then we are essentially going beyond its limiting/constraining confines. And in that sense, you can understanding ego-dissolution as a form of expansion - an expansion into a larger identity beyond the individual mind-body. In that sense, it would correspond to self-transcendence as Huxley and various others would refer to.
My experience was very interesting and peaceful.
Great stuff! Just wish your delivery was a bit slower/calmer with slight pauses, so as not to feel bombarded with information and more time to take it in.
cheers, thanks for the feedback
You can slow the speed of the video😉
So for a average Joe like me, would you say that this "ego death" expirience fells somewhat simmilarly to being in "flow"? Like yeah i understand that there will be some difference between the 2, in the flow you have just you and whatever you're doing and in ego death you have you, but like you're everything? But is the sense of immersion and clarity simmilar between these 2 expiriences?
There is definitely similarity between them. One difference is that in ego dissolution you don't need to be doing anything, and another difference is that you can sit and be aware of ego dissolution itself (whereas in flow, the processing of being in flow is in relation to what you are doing - it's not an experience in itself).
Really great video. Thanks for sharing
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I took about 4 - 4.5g of shrooms while camping on the beach with some friends. When the goofing off subsided I realized I was on a different plane altogether. I knew I belonged to a family and a circle of friends but wasn't certain if they were in the past or future. I felt that, at any moment, I could dissolve into the sand or water and simply be gone, a notion i quickly came to peace with. It was otherworldly.
I had a similar experience last week and I’m all shaken inside. Is anything real!!
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Yeah! Thinking of reaching out to him at some point soon
Have you watched Neuroanatomist Jill Bolte Taylor's TED, where she describes "ego dissolution" during her LEFT-HEMISPHERE Stroke and the experience of "NIRVANA" in that state?
Or Iain McGilchrist's Master & His Emissary ?
To me this is what happens (from my own subjective experience too) you zoom out and leave the ego-identity behind, and then you can experience more heart-connectedness or nature-connectedness (usually for me it is both at the same time) as the brainchatter is tuned down and one finds consciousness on the other side (possibly a RIGHT-HEMISPHERE state
Very well explained and intelligent
Dude this video is amazing! Well done Manesh!
Thanks Lee!!
I would like to suggest that unity experience, can be an experience, where by, perception (interpretation), replaces the perception of a limited self, within a body,
to experience any other object cognized (through the Sense), to be perceived as : " this is me"...
Thus leading to form a "story" in perception: "i am this also... therefore i am everything..."...
So...the massage here is that dropping the perception of self, not nescessarilly leads to unity experience...
and that...
Unity experience, can be mere new story, conjured by perception... because the operating system is designed to perceive identification with this senses carrying body, in order to create motivation for it's survival...
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I’ve probably experienced one the worst possible ego deaths you can experience. Unsure still if it was “really and ego death or worse” I was assaulted so randomly at work and got hit in the head so fucking hard it split had to get staples etc and a needle in my head went home that night and made the dumbest choice ever… not knowing what they put in my head and with all the trauma I brazed off I decided to take shrooms 😂 yes setting yourself up I was visably blind for 7+ hours throwing up and the nausea hit so intensely I got paralyzed while standing this was the most nightmare experience I’ve ever had in my life where multiple time I couldn’t catch my breath or if I even look anywhere everything is flying in 5 directions at once causing my eyes to stay shut. But that 8th hour I was in heaven my muscles where so tense for so long that I felt the relaxation in every part of me as a lucid dream almost I felt all the knowledge in the world my mind felt clear fast and then I passed out to sleep. Multiple times my vision kept going in and out I fr thought I was gonna die I my whole perception changed since and I also decided to take a stronger path of Christianity.
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I normally describe ego dissolution as your sense of narrative self is gone. You can view your life as if it was another person. The lens of you which you have viewed your entire life and all things is shifted. The rose coloured glasses of the ego is lifted.
A sense of unity and the mystical experience may cohabit the same psychedelic space but neither ego dissolution or unity are a condition precedent for the other. Whilst they commonly concurrently present it does not mean they are the same thing. You can have ego dissolution without sense of unity. Not so sure though if you can have sense of unity without ego dissolution.
Ha I remembered having one I lost my mind I seen golden eggs bunch of eyes and Jesus my bro Jesus this crap was crazy and random car,truck,plane,cat,dog,etc noises even money dropping in telling u I was in a game in space
My very first time tripping on shrooms I had an ego death and don’t know wtf happened until watching videos like these… why did it happen ?
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I'm not the voice in my head. I'm not my thoughts. I'm everywhere.
My son said to me that you can have an ego death while tripping and just dont come back from it. Like. Actual death type stuff. I've done hallucinogenics. A lot of them. He hasn't really done them. Maybe a couple times. But he knows more about the research that scientists and psychologists have done into tripping. And knows more about it then I do where I have more e patience with it then he does. Amd I'm curious if hes right. Cus.... it brain does amazing things. What if it accidentally shut itself off. That's a terrifying thought.
This is my biggest fear but I guess one has to take the risk. Haven't tried psychedelics but I'm fascinated by it. I keep thinking about the possibilities that it offers for our understanding of identity, otherness, reality, symbols etc. And I believe this process is in itself an enlightening intellectual experience.
I heard you shouldn’t do shrooms if your weak mentally. I deal with anxiety and I heard that you should go to the forest and do shrooms but I’m afraid of some serial killer or weirdo out there, seeing me while I’m vulnerable. You can either have a good trip or bad trip.
Anyone struggling from some kind of mental illness that is considering taking psychedelics should seek out a trained professional for guidance, and not do it themselves (and definitely not in the woods).
If it's your first time , DEFINITELY do it in a safe setting such as your home with positive people around you and not in a place which is already making you anxious. If you can't afford a trained professional to guide you, start at a low dose and make sure you have anti-anxiety medication at hand. Coming from someone who used to suffer from severe anxiety, but is now doing better :)
@@chandrimadey8419 hey, I need it for my mental illness like anxiety and OCD. How to source it and how to find a guide
The ego does not dissolve in the psychedelic experience or in transcendence during meditation or moksha .
what is occurring is a simple shift in what we are identified as an individual or consciousness awake to itself . When this shift occurs it is not because of one state dissolving into the other but rather the infinite stability of un manifest but lively conscious is more restful and attractive to the individuals mind intellect and senses . Our attention is drawn to this more pleasing state , rests there and becomes identified with that as who we are .
Whether this experience is permanent or temporary has no effect on the ego as it is a necessary part of the mind body experience in order to move around in the relative field in a safe manner and make simple choices via the discriminatory aspect of the intellect . an ego and intellectual discrimination is necessary for a human nervous system . when oneness is our dominate identity we still need an ego , intellect and senses to operate safely and
efficiently in every day life .
so no , the ego does not dissolve in higher states of consciousness but the feature of oneness is ADDED to our identity .
Thanks for the info Shane but i quit psychedelics back in the sixties . i do still find it fascinating what people are experiencing today and i still maintain that without a chemical analysis one cannot know the contents of what is ingested . it really is only by word of mouth / anecdotal evidence that one feels confident enough to try that source . fortunately for me i got lucky and discovered how to remain high without drugs , saying that has no more validity than claiming what is being sold is pure .
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I had an ego death on shrooms. Still kinda messed up because of it
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What would say about this may helping a person who suffers from Bordeline Personality Disorder which a person has no sense of self?
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What a great video! Thank you for your very intelligent report.
I took about 7 1/2 grams for my first time trying shrooms two months ago. I had half a bottle of vodka before I did them so I might’ve not been in the right mind state to begin with. I definitely had a very bad terrifying trip along with ego death. A couple weeks after the trip I started developing a bunch of PTSD symptoms which means I likely experienced PTSD during the trip. Do you or anybody else have any advice or suggestions on how to overcome this, I’m dealing with severe nonstop anxiety/hypervigilance/overstimulation.
I’ve dealt with generalized anxiety disorder and PTSD before I even tried the shrooms, the bad trip just made all my PTSD symptoms skyrocket. Please help me out I’m suffering
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Very interesting.
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Is ego dissolution a continuous or distinct experience? Or can it be either?
My hunch is that your ego can dissolve and feel less solid/stable/certain in a continuous way, but at some point there can be a distinct shift where there is no ego entirely
Huh I was wondering the same. I've experienced ego death but society the way it is really enforces 'individuality' and it's pretty hard to keep your spiritual self from wearing out
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How do you talk about these subjects without feeling like your loosing you mind
A solid grounding in the world and in yourself is key. At the end of the day, I'm presenting these subjects in a very abstract, conceptual way. Yes, these ideas stretch our idea of what kinds of experiences are possible and how flexible our experience of reality might be, but talking about them is much different than experiencing them.
please answer can ego death be permanent
yes bro becareful
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Interesting subject I didn't experience an ego death through using LSD but I
did have a death to my old life after
becoming a Christian
I had such a good trip on acid but i had an ego death but cannot go back to the old me and i don't know who i am anymore
Same, I can't even remember how it felt to be the old me. Sometimes i wish i never done that and im scared
@@rhqqn446fjnnbbc was the old you better or worse?
@@sebastien4346 it's been a while, at first i felt like i was going to lose my mind, but now i feel much better than ever. It's all part of the path to liberate yourself from suffering. It's kinda weird to lose that sense of ego. I didn't completely lose it yet, but i feel like when that happens there's no sense of "me" anymore, emotions no longer affect you nor control you. You even lose the fear of death. It's the true nature of ourselves. The ego is a creation of our minds, an illusion.
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Can anyone tell me, if I try DMT and do the breakthrough, will it change me? I want to try but I don't want to be a different person afterwards 🤷🏻♂️
People that try this and fail can never admit to it,or just make sh;t up,like a southpark episode-it went "swimmingly"-bruh, actually...
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Anyone have a conversation on the phone with your inner self.
Why did you?
I've been there. It's like being a bored vampire or bored god, I just wanted to die so it would end and i didn't have to be a part of the endless nothingness anymore.
When humans start dissolving their sense of self and individualism, we are in trouble.
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what a beautiful man
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what camera did you use and how did you mount it up to record you?
Why do your videos have the random jumps and hickups like fractions of a second have been cut out?
You are still tripping and those are blips in the matrix of reality
Get cha 5 dried grams of shrooms and enjoy the "ONE"...YOU'RE IT
These scientists get on my nerves. Just take some shrooms and they’ll understand it easy.
Psychedelic satori. When you feel no difference between a rib in your body and a tree in the forest.
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I'm a Christian wondering if this would effect your spirit in any way. Do you feel influenced by any other beings that you cannot quite describe but you know that they are not just your imagination? If so, do they want to harm you or do they calm you down?
The mushroom, in my experience, only has the best intentions for you. [see my comment on this video]. I'm a Christian as well, though not associated with any sect now. I prefer to think of the mushroom as a sacrament. It shuts down the DMN (ego dissolution) so your true self can communicate with and experience the Divine.
The serpent tricked Eve in the garden of Eden and said that she can become like God through secret revelation.....special knowledge. She ate it, knowing her eyes would be “opened” but it was a trick. It was deceiving. It was not truth. Just like when we take psychedelics. We are revealed secret revelations and special knowledge. But it is not truth. As a Christian you know there’s only one truth. 1 Tim 4:1 says that many will depart from the faith and give heed to seducing spirits and doctrine of devils. Speaking lies in hypocrisy and having their conscious seared. This is just that.
Even Anton Lavey said that people who do this are hypocritical because these practices are from their belief system- Satan.
@@Truthinjesuschrist The Kingdom of heaven is within. I and the Father are one. God is the I Am That I Am. The I Am is the way, the truth, and the light. The Christos or Christ was known to the Greeks before Jesus came along. How is it any different from the Awakened or Buddha consciousness? Experience of the devine is not limited to saints and Jesus. Unquestionably, the experience of divinity has been perceived as a threat to the Catholic church; those who dared teach union with the divine to the masses were murdered by the church. Read up on Miguel de Molinos, a priest in the 17th century who the church condemned for teaching a way to have a personal relationship with God.
@@Truthinjesuschrist That special knowledge you refer to was the opposite of what Eve experienced. Instead of a nondual awareness, she came to see duality, which is to see a world separate from devine awareness.
@@kenjones7719 sorry ken, your discernment is so off I would never take the way you interpret the Bible as truth. Trust me, I have been where you are, thinking what you are thinking. Praise the LORD I found the truth. Sorry to say it but you will see ☹️
The human mind was born screaming and then hummed itself silent, Everything after this is a construction (including language, words) and therefore delusional in its beliefs , The top affect that can happen on LSD, is you return to this untouched awareness with no complexity for hours (empty dead head)
There are probably thousands of layers of delusion that you break through to reach this state.
And afterwards it will probably take the rest of your life to explain all the layers of delusion that you removed
If you have not experienced this its delusional of me to expect language to be sufficient to help you comprehend
The words, Ideas and concepts in our mind play no meaningful part in our existence , there is a whole other shindig going on that we Roman slaves (Roman salves states)were taught to never look at
Now the food we eat , now that matters and we really should do something about it ,
To talk dosages is important,
LSD works exponentially, so from effective 30mg to 500mg the effects steadily slowly increase
But after 500mg the line starts to go vertical in affects
A very important tip that most people do not know,
As Manesh mentioned, in a way your brain is just constantly comparing the now to the past then predicting the future
The trick to making the LSD really take over is create an environment where this part of the brain basically goes to sleep , Its either too boring or to chaotic, then it seems to switch off, and all hell breaks loose :)
I microdose with DMT it’s the best thing I have ever done
I had a look on google I haven’t got any social media. Is it mushrooms you got? What strain are they and how much you got? Once you use psychedelics you will always use them 😁
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why do you say "quote unquote "? don't you want us to know where the quote ends?
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Third Impact.
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You talk too fast
Don’t know why you have to explain ego death if you have experienced it it’s quite obvious lol
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Great video, thank you. I am trying to prepare for a heroic dose for my depression, and want to understand what Im getting myself into.
I see quite a few comments about people being scared of never coming back from the dissolution. Is that a possibility?
Have people had long term detrimental effects from shroom trips, or messed up their lives for more than week or two?
I have had serious depression for 40 years, I am so looking forward to the relief I have heard a heroic dose can bring. (I have been micro dosing for a few years) and have done rec doses of up to a couple of grams)
Can I end up worse off?
Thank you for your great videos, I look forward to watching more
You basically go full on dementia and memory loss while tripping balls. It’s great!!Not really.🫠🫥
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