We are in this together bro, don’t give up. You’ve been here since the beginning. We’ve got each others back bro. Thanks as always brother, one day at a time!! 🙏🏻
No one is ever safe. The temptation will always be there. It's crucial to keep your guard up at all times. I have no intention to drink anymore, but I know there's always the chance I will. It's so easy to slip up and get drunk again, and if I do, I'll be right back into my old ways.
Great video slayer I’ve just recently got sober from a horrific alcohol binge and was attacked in my sleep whist heavy drinking by a demon, just as I was waking up i heard it’s voice scream the c..t word in my ear and it wasn’t in my head it had so much dark energy attached to it to say it was terrifying would be an understatement
Hey thanks shine!!! That sounds horrifying my friend but trust me I know what you mean. I actually had an experience like this while laying it bed, like you said I heard something speak to me and it sounded like it was right in my ear. As if someone put their lips right next to my ear and whispered, absolutely terrifying, bone chilling. I always say the people who know, know. You aren’t alone. Thank you for the comment my friend! 🙏🏻
@@nickwatland3565 that pretty wild, that’s why prayer is so important. Also like shine said be careful what you’re throwing out there, watch your words. Keep me updated my friend!!!
I will say as an AA myself its a phenomenal program that has just changed me as a man. AA is just like this, sharing your experience strength and hope and the formats are very precise from topic meetings, big book meetings, speaker meetings and open discussion meetings. Its a daily reprieve where you can go and just let it off your chest and others will listen, support you and help you. And helping others helps the helper also. I recommend AA for anyone in recovery. It’s a life saving program that will change you inwardly! I’m a new man today, a sober spiritual man today thanks to the program.
I’m looking forward to actually giving AA a real chance, in the past I’ve never followed through. Whenever I would stay for a while I’d start to begin to see the positives then I’d leave. You as well as so many people have told me I need to give it a real go, so I’m looking forward to it. I’m glad you’re sober today brother, that’s awesome. Thank you for this comment 🙏🏻
Really proud of you bro this is the 2nd video I’ve seen and your channel is awesome. Stay busy bro we got your back and support. I’m going to keep tuning into your videos. 1 day at a time pretty soon that anxiety you got will go away and you’ll be back to normal. We all mess up bro no one’s perfect but your videos do help all.
Hey jbenz, thanks brother. This is awesome of you to say man. I’ve got your back as well. I’m glad you are here on this journey with me and I’m glad I’m helping. God bless 🙏🏻
I love that you're recounting your days - it keeps you accountable. Part of what keeps me sober is I don't want the number in my sobriety app to go back to ZERO! Also some people might see it as permission to drink and go "Oh well I had a slip up, I'm still at 600 days". It's like NO you're not! Maybe if they knew they'd have to go back to zero it might have prevented them from relapsing!
Yep AA never felt I fit in.. I also have OCD/PTSD that like to trick me on the daily. Meetings for me felt unsafe. My meetings were always something bigger than myself. Like watching your vids or LD’s vid’s. I feel accepted because I don’t go out into the world much anymore.
@@Mmoose712 I do in my own way… love being outside, all errands early in the morning, there are a lot of people here that’s for sure. Lol! More than a west suburb in Cleveland, Oh. It’s a lot for me but I do what I can and push when I know I can do it. 🫶🏻♥️
i experienced something similar after a 4-day festival years ago. i drank too much alcohol and the sleep was bad. when i came home i had sleep paralysis for the next two nights and i felt the presence of something supernatural and evil in my bedroom. there were multiple demonic entities screamed and yelling at me with extreme loud voices. i had fear every time i felt asleep as you can imagine. after praying to our *Lord and Saviour* the evil was gone. it was completely silent after that.
I always say brother the people who know, know. Praying really does help. You need to cry out to god and beg him to come and help you, but when you do he does. Definitely terrifying I’m sorry you had to go through that. Alcohol is crazy.
Glad to see you’re doing better. Was actually going to comment today and check in on you. Yes. This community of ours is awesome! I’m proud to be a part of it. Be well brother.
Great to see you again. I'm very grateful for you and other sobriety youtubers for this community. We are more than addicts. The title of this video reminded me of a thing that happened when I was still in early days of recovery. I had been sober for a couple of months and relapsed on New Year. A few days into January I was listening to a song (Sodankylä by Maj Karma) and it's chorus: "I realized we will never see each other again" (free translation by me). That was the moment it became clear to me: I would never have a "healthy" relationship with alcohol and need to keep my guard up for the rest of my life. I still think it's a break-up song for me and booze 😄
Hey thanks ILAA, it always brings a smile to my face seeing your comments. I’m really grateful for this community as well. Also that was a sign from god I think!! I’ve had similar experiences with music trying to tell me something. It’s just not meant for us and that’s okay, some people can’t eat peanuts we just can’t drink alcohol. It’s really one day at a time for us. Much love always ILAA. 🙏🏻🖤
Hi Slayer, your timing is impeccable, ugh here comes the weekend. Don’t get me wrong, I love the weekend but man the thought of never drinking again is scary. I’m not sure why, I never liked drinking initially it’s crazy how things can change. I want to stop, I want to do it while I still have a choice. As for the demon yikes that’s scary. I believe you do open up different dimension when you’re at a certain point in drinking the ☠️. I have not gotten anywhere near that, 🙏 and hope I never do, but have seen some dark shit. The constant waking up at 3:00 am (if you know you know), being fully awake and seeing shadow man to just realize nothing is there. The suffocating feeling and pressure of something on your chest and not being able to scream because your vocal cords no longer work. Bottom line it’s terrifying. Anyways so happy you’re past that. You’re a bright light, have your whole life ahead of you. You’re at crossroad…stay on the right path because you deserve to live your best life. Thank you for pushing through and being an inspiration.
Hey micru!! Also yes the weekends are both a good and bad thing for us lol. It’s really about replacing it with things that are going to give you some happiness without the booze. That can be different for everyone, but if I sit around all weekend it’s really dangerous for me. You can do anything you set your mind to micru, I’m not sure how long you have sober I never ask people that type of stuff but trust me you really can. Keep me updated! Also I know exactly what you’re talking about. Truly only people who have experienced these things will ever understand. I never thought I’d get as bad as I did, but I drank A LOT. Looking back on it, it’s just insane. Thanks as always micru, you inspire me yourself. Much love 🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373right exactly, stay busy and focused is the only way. Well when I first started on this journey in November, I made it a month. That was January, then I’ll go a couple of weeks and bam there I am again. Sometimes without even thinking about it and others time I find myself rationalizing why I deserve to have a few. Then I pay for it the next day with hangovers. TBH I don’t even know if I could label myself an alcoholic. I consider myself a functional binge drinker but maybe I am an alcoholic. I have it in my family too so maybe I’m predisposed. What I do know is I drink fast to get F’up. So I’m trying to just focus on the day. I want to stop thinking about it altogether but it’s tough when you’re brushing your teeth and listen to at least two back to back commercials on why you should be drinking right now. Smdh…so I’m going to keep trying Slayer ultimately my goal is to just stop. A few weeks ago I was in a liquor store and saw a women standing in front of me purchasing the small bottles I’m not sure what they’re called (maybe shooters) I’ve bought them too no big deal right. Well this woman looked incredibly sad to me. She didn’t look happy at all and I looked at her deep in her eyes and it was blank. Well although that’s not me “yet” it can be. That broke my heart but why did I end up right back there again buying more crap?
@@Micru866 a month is pretty huge, even a couple weeks is pretty good. It shows you can do it. The commercials and advertisements for alcohol are absolutely everywhere. It makes me sick after a while, I get tired of it being shoved in my face constantly when I’m trying my best not to drink. It’s like I’ve said before, could you imagine a m3th addict having to see it all the time, right in his face. It would be very hard to stop. Also about the lady you saw, who knows maybe you won’t ever get to that point, but I want to say. I was a functional alcoholic for a long while. I really never thought it would get to the point it got to, but it did. Just be careful, you will get there. You must want it more than you want the bottle. It’s hard, 🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373 thanks slayer! You’re spot on. I’m just going to continue pushing for that. Just like I know you can do this too..we will do this. Because we’re all worth being healthy body and mind. That shit just gets in the way. Have a great day!
Greetings from Liverpool UK. Thankyou so much for your videos you talk so much sense about this..I'm literally hating alcohol ATM and trying to taper off ! But you give me hope ❤
This is awesome to see this message is reaching all the way out to the UK!!! That’s amazing, thank you so much for the kind words 🖤🙏🏻. I believe in you, you can do it!!!! Trust me you can. Please keep me updated on your journeys and be safe!!! Much love.
Man, you are just awesome, Slayer!! You are so honest. You don't hide from reality and where you are in the moment, even when you're struggling. That's a part of what makes your videos so comforting and relatable. We can never get comfortable. That's a hard lesson I've been learning this year myself. I have found that the conversation never ends with my friends and family. Because they see me doing well, and they (not maliciously) sometimes wave temptation in my face. I haven't had the courage yet to have another talk with some family members, but I think that's just because I don't want them to feel like they're not supporting me, or like they're hurting me. Oftentimes, I think they're trying to show trust in me by letting me know that I'm welcome to a drink, but they don't understand how fragile our sobriety can be. I think it's so cool that you're jumping back into your life and your routine. Just don't burn your candle at both ends, please! I hope you carve out time to rest, and I hope you carve out time to enjoy life. The weather is getting nice, and the world is open to you! And there are movie theaters, parks, and beaches that are calling for you haha I'm sorry I went missing. Mother's day weekend started for us on Friday, and when the weekend was coming to an end, calamity happened with my cat. He has a small growth on his toe bean and my vet doesn't have availability until next Monday. So I've been driving myself crazy looking for second opinions and figuring out how I can try to treat him until then. Sending some big love to you and this whole community!! ❤
Amanda your comments always brighten my day, thank you so much. Thank you for also taking the time out of your day to talk to me, give me advice, share your own stories and journey. It’s really awesome. Also happy late Mother’s Day!!!!! 🙏🏻🖤 hope it was Amazing!!!
@Slayer-7373 thank you!! It was great!! We had some really great hangout time the whole weekend. Saturday was special because my church had been without a pastor for over a year, and we finally voted on a new one. Even better, she used to be part of our congregation, so we're really excited to have her. Since my mother just moved back home, her installation service was a great way for my mom to re-enter the congregation. As for Sunday, my mom loves Thanksgiving, so we cooked a small Thanksgiving spread for Mother's Day. It's been so nice having the family back together, and the togetherness has been giving me a lot of strength. Although I don't have any kids, I do have a cat, and I consider him my child... hence the helicopter parenting hahah have a great night, Slayer!! Also, I'm sure that you know it by now, but I appreciate you infinitely, too 😊
@@amandaflaherty7528 that’s awesome Amanda, it sounds like things are going really well in your life right now which is great and makes me happy. You’re doing good things and usually good things come back to you. Positivity is so important. Much love Amanda have an amazing night 🌙
I was never an alcoholic, but it does run in my family. Eo I wasn't TOO terribly upset to learn that I can never drink alcohol ever again, not a single beer, for as long as I live. I had a bunch of gallstones, and I had my gallbladder removed as a result...and it wasn't until after that, that I learned you actually need a gallbladder to process alcohol! Who knew? I actually tell a lot of people about this, and literally NO ONE knows that you need a gallbladder in order to process alcohol. A single beer will make me SO sick, that I will go into gastroparesis for the next three straight days. It's horrible. It's like being poisoned.
No kidding??? I don’t think I knew that either which shocks me! Alcohol is 100% a poison. It seems to be bad for every single part of our bodies. Thank you for this comment 🙏🏻
A close friend got sober and had his gallbladder removed while in rehab program. He has been sober😢7 years now but don't think he realizes that any alcohol could kill him. He has no intention and very committed to staying sober😮😊❤
BS talks and BS walks..until we decide to get real everybody sees right through you. I agree It's very difficult to keep track of your sober days personally it makes me more conscious of drinking If I can just get the thoughts of drinking out of my head I wouldn't have to count the days I believe that's one of the tactics of the devil very sneaky very prideful it doesn't matter how many days or hours you have sober Just stay sober Love you bro keep it moving homie ❤
Absolutely Luke, spot on as always brother. It’s super good to hear from you as well man. You’re right about the devil using that as a weapon against us. He knows what makes us tic and what upsets us, he knows how sensitive we are when it comes to our addiction and he uses that against us. It’s like you said man, we just gotta stay sober and keep pushing forward, it’s all we can do. Together as a team, we can get through it. Love you as well dawg 🙏🏻 god bless.
@@Slayer-7373 Great to see you are looking like the best version of yourself strong healthy full of energy spreading the good news and positive vibes absolutely love it. Sorry I've been busy super busy He's past couple weeks I've had some deaths in my family things are warming up so my kids are very active in their spring sports band concerts all that stuff so I'm trying to make as much time as I can to have some personal time and watch your videos but you know how it goes lol Life can get very very busy I'm just so happy to see you back on your feet homie I love it keep marching on soldier 💯✌🏻
@@lukebrown7340 i appreciate that brother, thank you. Also I’m very sorry to hear that man, prayers go out to you. That’s never easy, keep your head up soldier. Don’t apologize as well my friend I completely understand how life gets hectic and busy. The daily grind, but it’s good for us man. Thanks as always Luke 🙏🏻take care brother.
@@Slayer-7373 The daily grind really is good for us Good point my friend It stretches our capacity It stretches our patience It makes us realize that there are so many other things out there that is more important than ourselves and how we try to make ourselves feel whether it's alcohol going for a walk whatever it doesn't matter We always want to feel good It is a grind That is so true Thank you for your prayers and well wishes 🔥😊❤️
Yeah man it doesn't matter how many years of sobriety you have that little demon will always be there. You gotta battle it until the very end. I've relapsed twice. But that's why we get back up and charge ahead. Great video slayer. Like you said, take it day by day.
"You gotta battle it until the very end". Absolute phucking nonsense! You clearly haven't been dry long enough to understand the power of true sobriety.
That's why it's so important to call your sponsor, I called mine after I went through a heartbreak over a girl I was crushing on, found out she was with somebody else and that crushed me, I didn't want to drink that never crossed my mind but I called him anyway to keep my mind off of her
One drink for me turns into a couple cases at the corner store and holing up for days, probably losing my job, burning bridges with friends/family, not eating, showering or anything, just full send into alcoholic abyss.
@@Slayer-7373Its pretty scary once drinking goes from a game of roulette(maybe something bad will happen but probably not teehee) to a guaranteed outcome. I hope you're on the mend. Just know you're inspiring people and helping them stay sober, or making them feel welcome when they relapse. Its part of the journey and as long as we are trying that's progress. Currently coming off a messy one myself.
@@yates656 that’s a good way of putting it brother, they say it’s a progressive disease and I believe that 100%. I appreciate the kind words, this TH-cam has really helped more than anyone knows. Even if it never blows up im happy that I helped people. Keep me updated on your journey man, we are in this together. 🙏🏻
Very proud of you Brother Slayer. You are turning things around - just pace yourself yet I agree, you need to keep yourself busy to stop yourself from dwelling on past traumas - not easy, but you have to try. Thiamine, magnesium glycinate, Vitamin C, good nutrition and gentle exercise helped me and may help you. And if AA does not pan out, you have us Slayer...always. In your corner brother now FIGHT!!!
Thank you my friend!! Also I think you’re spot on about the nutrition and exercise. I desperately need to do it and stick to it, in the past when I have it does do wonders. I’m glad I have you guys, y’all are awesome. Thanks so much brother for this comment 🙏🏻🙏🏻
Bro I can't seem to shake the habit of drinking every Friday. I religiously do it and don't even know why. I am drunk right now and just am like "what's even the point of this," but I can't seem to stop?? Sigh.
It’s that pattern brother, you’ve gotta somehow break it. It will probably be one of the hardest things you’ve ever done but trust me you can do it!!! You’ve been commenting for a long time, I can tell you’re a smart person. I believe in you man, please keep me updated 🙏🏻
I watched a video earlier today on how our brains maps out drinking patterns. The longer you’ve been drinking the more in-depth the maps. Stay strong, the weekends are extremely tough for me too.
Bible study in a tattoo shop? That's rad. Love to see you so pumped about the future. Makes me laugh a lot that you're deliberately keeping your ethnicity a secret just for the fun of it. Man you're so good at this stuff. Hey for your Q&A video, I have a question: it's not a question so much as something I'd just like to hear you talk about cos it's kind of a big one. So... you're working a lot right now. I do that too, I throw myself into work to keep myself occupied. But what do you do in those downtimes, between shifts and when there's nothing going on, to keep yourself occupied and sober? Do you have any hobbies we don't know about, or strategies that might be useful?
Right?? It’s awesome and the people in the Bible study have some wild stories. We are just a group of misfits tryna better our lives lol. I appreciate that man, you gotta keep people guessing 😂, you are as well. I expect your channel to blow up in the next few months. Also definitely man, that’s a great topic to cover. I have several hobbies/activities that i need to cover. I’ll make sure to answer this in the video. Thanks for the comment and question brother!! Take care. 💯
Hey grace 👋!! That’s awesome to hear, we need to have a good laugh once and a while haha. Sometimes laughing can make all the difference in the world. Thank you so much 🙏🏻🖤
Ayeee congratulations on the 6 days and also congratulations on stepping up and getting yourself into a program my friend. That’s awesome!!! I’m glad my videos help, comments like these help me. Keep me updated on your journey!! 🙏🏻
omg I want a shy guy tattoo hahaha. you should totally it!! I feel like that would probably be so healing for you. also that demon thing is insane!! I have a question, not sure if you have answered in another video- do you have any sober people in your personal life?
A shy guy would be pretty dope 😂, also that’s a good question. I can get more in depth when I make my question and answer video but to give you a short answer yes and no. There are more people in my life that partake in those types of things than not. It can be tough trying to be sober around intoxicated people that’s why I try to stick to my own for the most part. I’m really cautious about who I go visit or hangout with nowadays because I don’t want to walk into a drunk fest. Thanks for this comment sage!!! 🙏🏻🖤
Fuck I gave in, the last couple of nights i had some really dark dreams which didn't make sence, weird fkn figured things, not smoking not drinking, I woke up panicked I had to take a diazepam, I know with the thiamine and magnesium tablets but I don't want to get hooked on Diaz I had no choice. Just remember folks were all in this together
We are all in this together brother, we really are. We all fall down sometimes but it’s how you pick yourself up. It’s a new day, with new opportunities. Keep going strong brother and keep me updated!! 🙏
@Slayer-7373 just went to the doctors im going to be on a program,diazepam 2x daily thiamine and magnesium, im gonna have one last drink with the boys 😔 and then start fresh
@@rollajay5301 aye man that’s a great start, you will be able to come off of the booze safely and it will mitigate some of the mental stuff too. I salute you brother for taking that step, once you are out of the storm try your best not to go back. Try to remember the reasons you don’t wanna drink. Keep me updated bro! 🙏
I used to see f'n scary things when I was in withdrawal - worse than any nightmare. Now I'm six months sober after 20 years of heavy drinking, and it took about a month before sleep started to come easy.
Trust me brother I know about those scary things you talk about. I always say the people who know, know. Congratulations on the six months man!!! That is incredible 💪. Also yea believe me I know all too well about the “alcohol insomnia” totally sucks. Thanks for this comment my friend! Stay the course! 🙏🏻
Hi Slayer, here is a question 😊 : when you are in a social gathering where people do not know you or very less, or a work gathering for instance, what do you answer when you are offerd a drink ? and how do you feal seing others drink and laugh because they are tipsy ? I did not know the expression « the average Joe » (I am french) made me smile and looked it up. But in dead, many people juge and can not understand what an addiction is. Take care ! 🙏🏻
This is an amazing question, I was actually thinking about making my next video on just this instead of doing a question and answer. Because I feel like it’s a super important topic!! That’s awesome that you’re French, I’m glad this is reaching so far. Much love! Thank you for this comment. 🙏🏻
I’ve done almost every drug you can think of but the one substance that got ahold of me worse than the others is alcohol, I got 3 DUIs I’ve lost more jobs than I can count and I’ve also gone through the withdrawals too. It’s really hard to quit for sure, but it’s not impossible.
I can totally relate to everything you just wrote my friend. It’s definitely possible, but you’ve gotta want it. I want it this time so bad. It’s really one day at a time. Much love 🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373 and I heard you mention that you go to a Bible I think you should checkout a ministry called Celebrate Recovery it’s like AA but it’s like the Christian version. It’s helped me a lot.
Hello Subscriber from the UK here wishing you all the best, I am also around the 2 week mark currently on day 16. Longest I ever managed was 115 days off, so 4 months 3 days. I have decided to quit forever because a close male relative chucked a chair at me in a bar and tried to smash a glass in my face completely out of nowhere. Alcoholism runs on that side of my family and I do not want to become like that.
Hey 👋!! I love when i hear people from over seas are watching. It’s beautiful that this is spreading across the world. Also our stories sound very similar, even our sobriety time. It runs in my family as well, I’m sorry you’ve had to go through that. Alcohol brings nothing but chaos and destruction. We run back to it for a moment of satisfaction, then it all comes crashing down again. I wish you the best on your journey! Please keep me updated.
"never drinking again" bothers me less and less with each round of relapse and consequence. The more I visceraly understand that before long I will stop drinking forever no matter what happens; I can abstain from it, or I can die by it. Either way, I will no longer drink.
I agree with you brother, each time that I’ve relapsed it does make me hate it more and more which makes it easier to quit. Also that’s the cold reality of our situation brother, we will get out of it one way or another. Much love, take care 🙏🏻
Hey, I have just found your channel and it has been such a life line for me. You seem like such an awesome person and It's ironic I found your channel while wearing my slayer t shirt haha! If you do another q and a I would love to ask how you deal at the moment with triggers for relapse. The most I have gone is 2 months just gone and when I relapsed I experienced all of the hallucinations and hell all over again except it felt worse.. its crazy how we still go back to the bottle even after living through hell so long but In a way for me I think I crave the chaos until I don't and I just want peace, then the boredom and loneliness starts. Sorry for rambling but yeah, I hope your well and happy and I'm so so glad I found your channel 🖤
Hey robyn!!! Thank you so much 🙏🖤 this is so awesome. I want to say welcome, we really are a community over here just trying to help one another. When I read comments like these it really brings a smile to my face, y’all help me just as much as I help you!! Believe me when I say that. I will definitely speak on triggers for relapse!! I’ve been meaning to actually make an entire video just on that. What you say about the chaos is so true and isn’t spoken on enough. I think I relate 100% it is craving that chaos sometimes. For me I also think sometimes all of the chaos that comes with relapse is addictive in a way because my mind completely focuses just on the drinking and relapse/recovery feeling better. In a very odd way its addictive because it takes your mind off of trauma that you might be dealing with. It’s super dangerous and that’s why it’s definitely better for me to just stay away from the booze all together. Much love my friend, I wish you luck on your journey! Keep me updated. ✌️
@@Slayer-7373 will do! Thanks man! I don’t miss it! Carnivore diet helped me with it as well. Had to get rid of All carbs and sugar. Blood pressure is normal now!
@@petergosenya3027 that’s awesome man, I’ve heard a lot of good things about the carnivore diet from recovered alcoholics. I might have to give it a try. 💪💯
Hey brother I know this isn't your most recent video, but I just had to comment on this video. Because I know what you're talking about with alcohol withdrawals and demons. I had an anxiety attack in San Francisco over it, my sister and her girlfriend had to light Palo santo wood and sage just to keep me from losing my mind. What's scary about alcoholism is that it's a harder substance to quit for this reason. Fear is one of the most difficult emotions to deal with and when I first went to detox, I mentioned to another alcoholic in group, and I said what people don't realize about alcohol is it's like heroin's cousin. I have never done heroin, but I know people that have and they're not much different from alcoholics with the withdrawals they go through. Detox can be intimidating but going through alcohol withdrawals is scarier because you can be calm one moment and freak out the next.
No worries man any comment on any of my videos is appreciated. I totally know of the hell you speak of, it’s a living nightmare. Only those who have been through it will understand. It’s similar to herion withdrawal but the only difference is that herion withdrawal won’t kill you, alcohol withdrawal will. Alcohol is one of the hardest drugs on this earth but it’s just been normalized to the point people don’t bat an eye. Crazy!
I am glad you are back on your feet. I doubt you were in true delirium tremens. It's very rare. Only five percent of alcoholics experience true delirium tremens. You were most likely in Zone 5 Afterburner alcoholic hallucinosis. Did you have a fever when you were hallucinating? That's pretty much the defining characteristics of true delirium tremens. You may have been in DT. Normally those people end up in the ICU. I am not downplaying your problem because it sucked and I was worried about you. A.A is pretty good if you already believe in God. You can very easily find your higher power. Good luck.
I think you’re right to be honest shades, I probably got very close to dt’s. Like you said probably alcoholic hallucinosis. Also I’ve only had a fever once while withdrawing and it didn’t last night. Whatever it was though was terrifying.
@@Slayer-7373 I am just glad you are ok. I had a fever only once withdrawing. It can happen without DT, but not normally. What is Sage's URL for her channel. I looked, but couldn't find it. We are all in this together.
The StopDrinkingExpert talks about something I interpreted you to have; Dry Drunk Syndrome. What I mean is drinking is usually a symptom of another problem - life dissatisfaction. You need to build a great, stimulating life worth living to offset the inevitable life long cravings.
Interesting Diane, also yes there are multiple different ways to see these things. Usually never good, always frightening. Pretty fascinating stuff really. God bless 🙏
Ya know, I found going out to eat at restaurants was really tough so I didn’t go out to eat for a while. Now at 7.5 years sober I can go, but sometimes I still wanna glass of wine. Alcohol never gives up but we are stronger☺️
Man, outgroup therapy was kinda hard for me. They say it helps to be with people that have the same problems and they understand you etc but like... Honestly speaking I had like 0 connection with them. I doubt I would like most of them personally (not because of their illness, but because it was two different worlds and its not like Im better, Im just weird and I like weird people). Personally I get very little good feelings from talking to strangers about my problems - my friends however make me feel lifted and understood (because I kinda know they can understand me). Also its stupid but all this talk about alcohol and alcohol related stuff (also probably the stress of trying to be honest infront of unknown people, I have some anxiety issues going on) was a trigger for me - I actually drink less not going to therapy 🤣 btw thats a cool tatoo haha
I can relate to this actually, you aren’t alone in this thinking. A lot of people don’t understand that though. Thanks for this comment my friend, also thank you about the tattoo 🤣 🙏🏻.
Hey 👋 brother I’m sorry you’re going through this, I’ve been there many times. At one point I couldn’t get more than 1-2 days under my belt before relapsing. My advice is to do whatever you’ve got to do to get help and I mean whatever. If you have to go to a detox or the hospital go, If you need AA or whatever it might be try it out. It’s worth it man, you are worth it. I believe in you, please keep me updated! 🙏🏻
Give a 12 step program a try. After all, what do you have to lose? I found amazing friends through the program over the past year. We go out to dinner before our Tuesday meetings and after the meeting on Fridays. I’ve ran a 5k with someone I’ve met through the program. I recently had a couple of people help me buy a house where I live and they are in the program. Best wishes!
I saw a tiny demon looking thing standing on the foot of my bed when I detoxed, freaky, all kinds of visual auditory and tactile halucinations for three days, glad I quit though. I had medical help and family support , get help if youre a hard drinker it can be dangerous.
I’d ask a question but I feel like I know the answer to so many of them I can’t ask it. Let’s go with the brother-thing. Does he reach out to you ever? I mean I’d be telling him to fuck off too.
I had electric “snaps” in my head startle me as soon as I was dozing off while withdrawal. Sweats terrible vivid lsd like enhanced dreams . Sensing evil beings everywhere. F that
Alcohol is the devil’s pee. 😂 I have too much soul to drink spirits. I am better than alcohol. I am not toxic so why would I intoxicate myself? Alcohol is the biggest tragedy ever introduced to humanity.
I'm a recovering heroin addict with over 10 years. Alcohol is the hardest substance to quit because it's justified in American culture. Don't give in to temptation, just keep going forward
Please give the fellowship an honest try as well as having a sponsor. Be humble. Accept that you have no control of alcohol. You have never had more than 4 months of sobriety. You have so much to learn.
Well since you put it like that, I think I’ll have to keep it 🤣. Also you like Luigi’s mansion??? That is so cool lol. I applaud you for appreciating awesome video games 👏. I also really like the number 24, it has a lot of significance in my life. Thanks for your awesome comment 🖤🙏🏻. Take care.
I am so sorry about your drinking addiction!!! Have you read the Holy Bible regarding what God has to say about drinking? Jesus Christ is the Holy Spirit and he can deliver you from this demonic spirit of alcohol!!! This is a spirit you are fighting with and it's a spiritual warfare against your spirit!!!
Hey Helen 👋 I have yes, Jesus is the only one that can deliver be from this addiction and I believe that. I believe without a doubt we are in a spiritual warfare. You’re super smart!!! Thank you so much for this comment 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Jesus Christ says that we must be born again of water and the Spirit!!! Being Born again by the Power of the Holy Ghost!!! Will definitely help you fight against your enemy the devil because you must remember he has powers too!!! So it's a spiritual battle and this is the reason you must be born again to receive God's Power to help you overcome the power of the enemy!!! Believe me I know how hard it is to struggle with SIN!!! Until I received the Power of the Holy Ghost and believe me!!! I hate Sin ! I do not want no part of sin in my life!!! I choose Jesus Christ over the desire of my flesh!!! I want to always walk in the Power of the Holy Spirit!!! I hope this will encourage you and please continue to read the Word of God because Jesus Christ is our only hope in this fallen world that is truly heading start to hell!!! You do not want to go there !!! The devil is taking many with him because he knows his time is short and Jesus Christ is coming soon!!!
I read out of the King James Bible! Please look up these scriptures so you have a better understanding of God's Word!!! Proverbs 20:1 Proverbs 23:19-21 Proverbs 23:29-35 John 8:36 1 John 1:9 1 Corinthians 6:10 Please seek God !!! I Hate alcohol because it's legal and it destroys many life's and many families!!!
@@Slayer-7373 I will do my best to stick to that each time I get sick , if I do drink it wil be beer I can control that better also my body don’t like to much beer so it’s easier for me to quit that, but the luiquor the strong drinks are not good ever !
My past comments to you Slayer have always been based on my actual experience, written with compassion, and a great desire to see you succeed. What follows may not feel like compassion, but needs to be said. STOP wasting you time and efforts making YT videos, and put that time and effort into a program of recovery. This is nothing but a phucking distraction for you. We tell people in early sobriety NOT to make major changes like relationships, employment, etc, for very good reasons. So you can focus on sobriety. I'm sure you get some satisfaction from the attention, and have no doubt about your sincerity to help others, but this is NOT the time. Come back in 10 or 15 years and do videos , when you actually have some experience, besides what NOT TO DO. And if "Slayer" is not your given name, lets start right there with some rigorous honesty about who you are!
I get what you’re saying mark, but at the same time I’ve created this channel to document my sobriety journey. I don’t think it’s just a distraction, I think it’s something positive that really does help me stay sober. I know I can’t put all my eggs into this one basket but doing TH-cam on the side doesn’t do much harm. I definitely understand where you’re coming from mark and I appreciate the honesty but trust me man, this TH-cam helps me! 🙏🏻 I’m going to take this serious.
As long as it’s not bringing you down slayer you should be fine. If it messes with your sobriety at all though like mark said I’d put TH-cam to the side. Love you slayer
@@Slayer-7373 My friend, you don't know what you don't know. You can "think" till the cows come home, but it's still a distraction and no sponsor would or should approve of it. You were just in the phucking hospital, and the only thing you're going to "document" is your phucking DEATH, if you don't start listening to people who actually know what they're saying. Live in the solution, or live in the problem. At the moment, you're living in the problem, which is YOU LISTENING TO YOU!
While I have never gone through DT's from my drinking, I have gone through many bad withdrawls that I ended up in the Hospital for. I do completely believe you about what you saw though. Have you heard of sleep deprived Psychosis? A few years ago I did not/could not sleep for 4 days straight. Long story short by day 3 or 4, I was having full blow halluincations, many of them were random people in my house, flying tracers, etc... But eventually got to the point I was seeing, hearing, and interacting with demons. Even in the hospital I was Hallucinating so bad I was there for 4 days. It was 100% real in my mind. It got to the point I did not know what was real and what was "Halluincations." I also believe that what you saw, and what I saw are closely related. I think DT's and Sleep deprived Psychosis some how lets you look/interact with another realm or dimension. People that have not gone through it would not believe this to be true, but there is no way my mind some how decided to show me the horrors of what I saw. For whatever reason we were given access to it. It has stayed with me till this day and I don't think I will ever forget that experience.
Hey James thanks for this comment brother, also trust me man I know. I always say the people who know, know. Everyone on the outside says there’s no way and that we are crazy. They would have to have an experience of their own to believe it. Anyways brother you’re not alone, I know of these things you speak of. 🙏🏻
Hi All 🤍, what Slayer says is true, there is a real community on his channel, it’s not only his videos but all the comments I read below that give me courage & make me feal we are in the same boat ! 🤍
17:13 for the creepy “demon” part. Much love y’all.
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Respect and thanks
@@michaelmcelligott6336 I’ll check it out Micheal!
@@michaelmcelligott6336 do you think I look like Benny the jet 🤣?
I keep relapsing. But I’m not giving up. It’s nice to know there’s someone going through it just like me. Keep it up! Your videos are inspiring!
We are in this together bro, don’t give up. You’ve been here since the beginning. We’ve got each others back bro. Thanks as always brother, one day at a time!! 🙏🏻
No one is ever safe. The temptation will always be there. It's crucial to keep your guard up at all times. I have no intention to drink anymore, but I know there's always the chance I will. It's so easy to slip up and get drunk again, and if I do, I'll be right back into my old ways.
Absolutely spot on brother.
Great video slayer
I’ve just recently got sober from a horrific alcohol binge and was attacked in my sleep whist heavy drinking by a demon, just as I was waking up i heard it’s voice scream the c..t word in my ear and it wasn’t in my head it had so much dark energy attached to it to say it was terrifying would be an understatement
Hey thanks shine!!! That sounds horrifying my friend but trust me I know what you mean. I actually had an experience like this while laying it bed, like you said I heard something speak to me and it sounded like it was right in my ear. As if someone put their lips right next to my ear and whispered, absolutely terrifying, bone chilling. I always say the people who know, know. You aren’t alone. Thank you for the comment my friend! 🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373just happened to me . Followed me to another country last time . Only happens when I’m drinking .. done with this man
@@nickwatland3565
It feeds of low vibrational energy so we need to be careful what we put out their
@@nickwatland3565 that pretty wild, that’s why prayer is so important. Also like shine said be careful what you’re throwing out there, watch your words. Keep me updated my friend!!!
Also be careful of random people even in stores. Witchcraft is real. Stay safe with The blood of Jesus for ptotection❤😊❤😢
I will say as an AA myself its a phenomenal program that has just changed me as a man. AA is just like this, sharing your experience strength and hope and the formats are very precise from topic meetings, big book meetings, speaker meetings and open discussion meetings. Its a daily reprieve where you can go and just let it off your chest and others will listen, support you and help you. And helping others helps the helper also. I recommend AA for anyone in recovery. It’s a life saving program that will change you inwardly! I’m a new man today, a sober spiritual man today thanks to the program.
I’m looking forward to actually giving AA a real chance, in the past I’ve never followed through. Whenever I would stay for a while I’d start to begin to see the positives then I’d leave. You as well as so many people have told me I need to give it a real go, so I’m looking forward to it. I’m glad you’re sober today brother, that’s awesome. Thank you for this comment 🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373 your channel is better than CE!!
Meant "AA"...been there...trying to find places...etc..here you feel more meaningful input,and importantly, love!!
@@CraigFox-lt6lt thanks Craig!!! 🙏
This is awesome slayer!!! Thank you for answering my questions
Thank you Jeff!!
Really proud of you bro this is the 2nd video I’ve seen and your channel is awesome. Stay busy bro we got your back and support. I’m going to keep tuning into your videos. 1 day at a time pretty soon that anxiety you got will go away and you’ll be back to normal. We all mess up bro no one’s perfect but your videos do help all.
Hey jbenz, thanks brother. This is awesome of you to say man. I’ve got your back as well. I’m glad you are here on this journey with me and I’m glad I’m helping. God bless 🙏🏻
One day at a time my friend. 🙏🏻
I love that you're recounting your days - it keeps you accountable. Part of what keeps me sober is I don't want the number in my sobriety app to go back to ZERO! Also some people might see it as permission to drink and go "Oh well I had a slip up, I'm still at 600 days". It's like NO you're not! Maybe if they knew they'd have to go back to zero it might have prevented them from relapsing!
Agreed brother. 💯🙏🏻
Yep AA never felt I fit in.. I also have OCD/PTSD that like to trick me on the daily. Meetings for me felt unsafe. My meetings were always something bigger than myself.
Like watching your vids or LD’s vid’s. I feel accepted because I don’t go out into the world much anymore.
You’re always accepted here Kristen. 🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373 much ♥️ thank you
Get out into the world, you will be ok
@@Mmoose712 I do in my own way… love being outside, all errands early in the morning, there are a lot of people here that’s for sure. Lol! More than a west suburb in Cleveland, Oh. It’s a lot for me but I do what I can and push when I know I can do it. 🫶🏻♥️
i experienced something similar after a 4-day festival years ago. i drank too much alcohol and the sleep was bad.
when i came home i had sleep paralysis for the next two nights and i felt the presence of something supernatural and evil in my bedroom.
there were multiple demonic entities screamed and yelling at me with extreme loud voices. i had fear every time i felt asleep as you can imagine.
after praying to our *Lord and Saviour* the evil was gone. it was completely silent after that.
I always say brother the people who know, know. Praying really does help. You need to cry out to god and beg him to come and help you, but when you do he does. Definitely terrifying I’m sorry you had to go through that. Alcohol is crazy.
Glad to see you’re doing better. Was actually going to comment today and check in on you. Yes. This community of ours is awesome! I’m proud to be a part of it. Be well brother.
Much love brother, I appreciate that. I’m glad you’re part of it man, take care my friend!! 🙏🏻
Yes, this community is awesome! Slayer is helping so many people!
@@Mmoose712 thanks Angela :).
Great to see you again. I'm very grateful for you and other sobriety youtubers for this community. We are more than addicts.
The title of this video reminded me of a thing that happened when I was still in early days of recovery. I had been sober for a couple of months and relapsed on New Year. A few days into January I was listening to a song (Sodankylä by Maj Karma) and it's chorus: "I realized we will never see each other again" (free translation by me). That was the moment it became clear to me: I would never have a "healthy" relationship with alcohol and need to keep my guard up for the rest of my life. I still think it's a break-up song for me and booze 😄
Hey thanks ILAA, it always brings a smile to my face seeing your comments. I’m really grateful for this community as well.
Also that was a sign from god I think!! I’ve had similar experiences with music trying to tell me something. It’s just not meant for us and that’s okay, some people can’t eat peanuts we just can’t drink alcohol. It’s really one day at a time for us. Much love always ILAA. 🙏🏻🖤
Hi Slayer, your timing is impeccable, ugh here comes the weekend. Don’t get me wrong, I love the weekend but man the thought of never drinking again is scary. I’m not sure why, I never liked drinking initially it’s crazy how things can change. I want to stop, I want to do it while I still have a choice. As for the demon yikes that’s scary. I believe you do open up different dimension when you’re at a certain point in drinking the ☠️. I have not gotten anywhere near that, 🙏 and hope I never do, but have seen some dark shit. The constant waking up at 3:00 am (if you know you know), being fully awake and seeing shadow man to just realize nothing is there. The suffocating feeling and pressure of something on your chest and not being able to scream because your vocal cords no longer work. Bottom line it’s terrifying. Anyways so happy you’re past that. You’re a bright light, have your whole life ahead of you. You’re at crossroad…stay on the right path because you deserve to live your best life. Thank you for pushing through and being an inspiration.
Hey micru!! Also yes the weekends are both a good and bad thing for us lol. It’s really about replacing it with things that are going to give you some happiness without the booze. That can be different for everyone, but if I sit around all weekend it’s really dangerous for me. You can do anything you set your mind to micru, I’m not sure how long you have sober I never ask people that type of stuff but trust me you really can. Keep me updated!
Also I know exactly what you’re talking about. Truly only people who have experienced these things will ever understand. I never thought I’d get as bad as I did, but I drank A LOT. Looking back on it, it’s just insane.
Thanks as always micru, you inspire me yourself. Much love 🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373right exactly, stay busy and focused is the only way. Well when I first started on this journey in November, I made it a month. That was January, then I’ll go a couple of weeks and bam there I am again. Sometimes without even thinking about it and others time I find myself rationalizing why I deserve to have a few. Then I pay for it the next day with hangovers. TBH I don’t even know if I could label myself an alcoholic. I consider myself a functional binge drinker but maybe I am an alcoholic. I have it in my family too so maybe I’m predisposed. What I do know is I drink fast to get F’up. So I’m trying to just focus on the day. I want to stop thinking about it altogether but it’s tough when you’re brushing your teeth and listen to at least two back to back commercials on why you should be drinking right now. Smdh…so I’m going to keep trying Slayer ultimately my goal is to just stop. A few weeks ago I was in a liquor store and saw a women standing in front of me purchasing the small bottles I’m not sure what they’re called (maybe shooters) I’ve bought them too no big deal right. Well this woman looked incredibly sad to me. She didn’t look happy at all and I looked at her deep in her eyes and it was blank. Well although that’s not me “yet” it can be. That broke my heart but why did I end up right back there again buying more crap?
@@Micru866 a month is pretty huge, even a couple weeks is pretty good. It shows you can do it. The commercials and advertisements for alcohol are absolutely everywhere. It makes me sick after a while, I get tired of it being shoved in my face constantly when I’m trying my best not to drink. It’s like I’ve said before, could you imagine a m3th addict having to see it all the time, right in his face. It would be very hard to stop. Also about the lady you saw, who knows maybe you won’t ever get to that point, but I want to say. I was a functional alcoholic for a long while. I really never thought it would get to the point it got to, but it did. Just be careful, you will get there. You must want it more than you want the bottle. It’s hard, 🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373 thanks slayer! You’re spot on. I’m just going to continue pushing for that. Just like I know you can do this too..we will do this. Because we’re all worth being healthy body and mind. That shit just gets in the way. Have a great day!
@@Micru866 we’ve got this, keep me updated. I hope you have a beautiful Saturday 🙏🏻
That’s awesome! I liked working night shift.. your body is still recovering.
I’m so happy to hear you
U do U Slay
Don’t push it
Good thinking no 6day
Much love 🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373 back atcha
Greetings from Liverpool UK. Thankyou so much for your videos you talk so much sense about this..I'm literally hating alcohol ATM and trying to taper off ! But you give me hope ❤
This is awesome to see this message is reaching all the way out to the UK!!! That’s amazing, thank you so much for the kind words 🖤🙏🏻. I believe in you, you can do it!!!! Trust me you can. Please keep me updated on your journeys and be safe!!! Much love.
“Im not drinking today vs. I’m never drinking again helps me 😊
Same here brother, it’s a lot easier to just worry about today. Much love brother 🙏🏻
today is the only thing that matters
@@TheSaival exactly.
Man, you are just awesome, Slayer!! You are so honest. You don't hide from reality and where you are in the moment, even when you're struggling. That's a part of what makes your videos so comforting and relatable. We can never get comfortable. That's a hard lesson I've been learning this year myself. I have found that the conversation never ends with my friends and family. Because they see me doing well, and they (not maliciously) sometimes wave temptation in my face. I haven't had the courage yet to have another talk with some family members, but I think that's just because I don't want them to feel like they're not supporting me, or like they're hurting me. Oftentimes, I think they're trying to show trust in me by letting me know that I'm welcome to a drink, but they don't understand how fragile our sobriety can be. I think it's so cool that you're jumping back into your life and your routine. Just don't burn your candle at both ends, please! I hope you carve out time to rest, and I hope you carve out time to enjoy life. The weather is getting nice, and the world is open to you! And there are movie theaters, parks, and beaches that are calling for you haha I'm sorry I went missing. Mother's day weekend started for us on Friday, and when the weekend was coming to an end, calamity happened with my cat. He has a small growth on his toe bean and my vet doesn't have availability until next Monday. So I've been driving myself crazy looking for second opinions and figuring out how I can try to treat him until then. Sending some big love to you and this whole community!! ❤
Amanda your comments always brighten my day, thank you so much. Thank you for also taking the time out of your day to talk to me, give me advice, share your own stories and journey. It’s really awesome. Also happy late Mother’s Day!!!!! 🙏🏻🖤 hope it was Amazing!!!
@Slayer-7373 thank you!! It was great!! We had some really great hangout time the whole weekend. Saturday was special because my church had been without a pastor for over a year, and we finally voted on a new one. Even better, she used to be part of our congregation, so we're really excited to have her. Since my mother just moved back home, her installation service was a great way for my mom to re-enter the congregation. As for Sunday, my mom loves Thanksgiving, so we cooked a small Thanksgiving spread for Mother's Day. It's been so nice having the family back together, and the togetherness has been giving me a lot of strength. Although I don't have any kids, I do have a cat, and I consider him my child... hence the helicopter parenting hahah have a great night, Slayer!! Also, I'm sure that you know it by now, but I appreciate you infinitely, too 😊
@@amandaflaherty7528 that’s awesome Amanda, it sounds like things are going really well in your life right now which is great and makes me happy. You’re doing good things and usually good things come back to you. Positivity is so important. Much love Amanda have an amazing night 🌙
@@amandaflaherty7528 also that’s cool that you’re a cat mom. 🐱
@Slayer-7373 haha thanks and I hope you had a great night, too 💞
I was never an alcoholic, but it does run in my family. Eo I wasn't TOO terribly upset to learn that I can never drink alcohol ever again, not a single beer, for as long as I live. I had a bunch of gallstones, and I had my gallbladder removed as a result...and it wasn't until after that, that I learned you actually need a gallbladder to process alcohol! Who knew? I actually tell a lot of people about this, and literally NO ONE knows that you need a gallbladder in order to process alcohol. A single beer will make me SO sick, that I will go into gastroparesis for the next three straight days. It's horrible. It's like being poisoned.
No kidding??? I don’t think I knew that either which shocks me! Alcohol is 100% a poison. It seems to be bad for every single part of our bodies. Thank you for this comment 🙏🏻
A close friend got sober and had his gallbladder removed while in rehab program. He has been sober😢7 years now but don't think he realizes that any alcohol could kill him. He has no intention and very committed to staying sober😮😊❤
BS talks and BS walks..until we decide to get real everybody sees right through you. I agree It's very difficult to keep track of your sober days personally it makes me more conscious of drinking If I can just get the thoughts of drinking out of my head I wouldn't have to count the days I believe that's one of the tactics of the devil very sneaky very prideful it doesn't matter how many days or hours you have sober Just stay sober Love you bro keep it moving homie ❤
Absolutely Luke, spot on as always brother. It’s super good to hear from you as well man. You’re right about the devil using that as a weapon against us. He knows what makes us tic and what upsets us, he knows how sensitive we are when it comes to our addiction and he uses that against us. It’s like you said man, we just gotta stay sober and keep pushing forward, it’s all we can do. Together as a team, we can get through it. Love you as well dawg 🙏🏻 god bless.
@@Slayer-7373 Great to see you are looking like the best version of yourself strong healthy full of energy spreading the good news and positive vibes absolutely love it. Sorry I've been busy super busy He's past couple weeks I've had some deaths in my family things are warming up so my kids are very active in their spring sports band concerts all that stuff so I'm trying to make as much time as I can to have some personal time and watch your videos but you know how it goes lol Life can get very very busy I'm just so happy to see you back on your feet homie I love it keep marching on soldier 💯✌🏻
@@lukebrown7340 i appreciate that brother, thank you. Also I’m very sorry to hear that man, prayers go out to you. That’s never easy, keep your head up soldier. Don’t apologize as well my friend I completely understand how life gets hectic and busy. The daily grind, but it’s good for us man. Thanks as always Luke 🙏🏻take care brother.
@@Slayer-7373 The daily grind really is good for us Good point my friend It stretches our capacity It stretches our patience It makes us realize that there are so many other things out there that is more important than ourselves and how we try to make ourselves feel whether it's alcohol going for a walk whatever it doesn't matter We always want to feel good It is a grind That is so true Thank you for your prayers and well wishes 🔥😊❤️
Yeah man it doesn't matter how many years of sobriety you have that little demon will always be there. You gotta battle it until the very end. I've relapsed twice. But that's why we get back up and charge ahead. Great video slayer. Like you said, take it day by day.
Absolutely datone. Much love brother as always, thanks for being a cool a#% person. Take care 💯
@@Slayer-7373 *virtual hug*
"You gotta battle it until the very end". Absolute phucking nonsense! You clearly haven't been dry long enough to understand the power of true sobriety.
Looking well Slayer keep it up. Looking forward to your lives.
Hey thanks Luke!!! Always makes me smile seeing your comments brother. I’m looking forward to the lives as well. 🙏🏻
It's okay dude you go at your own pace that works for you.
Thanks terry, i appreciate that man. You guys are super understanding which really helps. 🙏🏻
We all are one negative thought away from a relapse
Absolutely.
That's why it's so important to call your sponsor, I called mine after I went through a heartbreak over a girl I was crushing on, found out she was with somebody else and that crushed me, I didn't want to drink that never crossed my mind but I called him anyway to keep my mind off of her
One drink for me turns into a couple cases at the corner store and holing up for days, probably losing my job, burning bridges with friends/family, not eating, showering or anything, just full send into alcoholic abyss.
I’m the absolute same exactly way, you aren’t alone my friend. 🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373Its pretty scary once drinking goes from a game of roulette(maybe something bad will happen but probably not teehee) to a guaranteed outcome. I hope you're on the mend. Just know you're inspiring people and helping them stay sober, or making them feel welcome when they relapse. Its part of the journey and as long as we are trying that's progress. Currently coming off a messy one myself.
@@yates656 that’s a good way of putting it brother, they say it’s a progressive disease and I believe that 100%. I appreciate the kind words, this TH-cam has really helped more than anyone knows. Even if it never blows up im happy that I helped people. Keep me updated on your journey man, we are in this together. 🙏🏻
Very proud of you Brother Slayer. You are turning things around - just pace yourself yet I agree, you need to keep yourself busy to stop yourself from dwelling on past traumas - not easy, but you have to try. Thiamine, magnesium glycinate, Vitamin C, good nutrition and gentle exercise helped me and may help you. And if AA does not pan out, you have us Slayer...always. In your corner brother now FIGHT!!!
Thank you my friend!! Also I think you’re spot on about the nutrition and exercise. I desperately need to do it and stick to it, in the past when I have it does do wonders. I’m glad I have you guys, y’all are awesome. Thanks so much brother for this comment 🙏🏻🙏🏻
Draw strength from us, your community, brother Slayer. WE ARE WITH YOU, NEVER ALONE AND ALWAYS IN THE FIGHT.
@@ASIF_M1934 trust me brother I do, y’all have been giving me the strength. You guys help a LOT. 🙏🏻
Getting sober was easy .. staying sober is a real challenge for me..
Absolutely brother, that’s when the real challenge begins. God bless 🙏🏻
Bro I can't seem to shake the habit of drinking every Friday. I religiously do it and don't even know why. I am drunk right now and just am like "what's even the point of this," but I can't seem to stop?? Sigh.
It’s that pattern brother, you’ve gotta somehow break it. It will probably be one of the hardest things you’ve ever done but trust me you can do it!!! You’ve been commenting for a long time, I can tell you’re a smart person. I believe in you man, please keep me updated 🙏🏻
Prayers go out to you LP.
@@Slayer-7373 Like SS said. You have to want it. Don't let something terrible happen before you decide to quit. Quit now. Live long and prosper.
@@ShadesOClarity 100%
I watched a video earlier today on how our brains maps out drinking patterns. The longer you’ve been drinking the more in-depth the maps. Stay strong, the weekends are extremely tough for me too.
Bible study in a tattoo shop? That's rad.
Love to see you so pumped about the future. Makes me laugh a lot that you're deliberately keeping your ethnicity a secret just for the fun of it. Man you're so good at this stuff.
Hey for your Q&A video, I have a question: it's not a question so much as something I'd just like to hear you talk about cos it's kind of a big one. So... you're working a lot right now. I do that too, I throw myself into work to keep myself occupied. But what do you do in those downtimes, between shifts and when there's nothing going on, to keep yourself occupied and sober? Do you have any hobbies we don't know about, or strategies that might be useful?
Right?? It’s awesome and the people in the Bible study have some wild stories. We are just a group of misfits tryna better our lives lol.
I appreciate that man, you gotta keep people guessing 😂, you are as well. I expect your channel to blow up in the next few months.
Also definitely man, that’s a great topic to cover. I have several hobbies/activities that i need to cover. I’ll make sure to answer this in the video. Thanks for the comment and question brother!! Take care. 💯
This is a great question 👍🏻
I did get a couple of laughs out of today’s video! Yeah, King of Booze needs to go!
As always, love your honesty!
Hey grace 👋!! That’s awesome to hear, we need to have a good laugh once and a while haha. Sometimes laughing can make all the difference in the world. Thank you so much 🙏🏻🖤
I’m on my 6th day of a 6 week rehab and ur vids help so thanks brotha
Ayeee congratulations on the 6 days and also congratulations on stepping up and getting yourself into a program my friend. That’s awesome!!! I’m glad my videos help, comments like these help me. Keep me updated on your journey!! 🙏🏻
Slayer good to see you! Stay strong you are doing great. Great video. Thanks 🙏 😊
Thank you Jackie!!! 🙏🏻 I appreciate that a lot. Much love.
omg I want a shy guy tattoo hahaha. you should totally it!! I feel like that would probably be so healing for you. also that demon thing is insane!! I have a question, not sure if you have answered in another video- do you have any sober people in your personal life?
A shy guy would be pretty dope 😂, also that’s a good question. I can get more in depth when I make my question and answer video but to give you a short answer yes and no. There are more people in my life that partake in those types of things than not. It can be tough trying to be sober around intoxicated people that’s why I try to stick to my own for the most part. I’m really cautious about who I go visit or hangout with nowadays because I don’t want to walk into a drunk fest. Thanks for this comment sage!!! 🙏🏻🖤
I heard you say you’re one of the only people in your life that are sober, I can definitely relate to that, it can be tricky. 😅
Oops I meant you should totally cover** yours! Also cool hehe can’t wait to hear more!
Fuck I gave in, the last couple of nights i had some really dark dreams which didn't make sence, weird fkn figured things, not smoking not drinking, I woke up panicked I had to take a diazepam, I know with the thiamine and magnesium tablets but I don't want to get hooked on Diaz I had no choice. Just remember folks were all in this together
We are all in this together brother, we really are. We all fall down sometimes but it’s how you pick yourself up. It’s a new day, with new opportunities. Keep going strong brother and keep me updated!! 🙏
@Slayer-7373 just went to the doctors im going to be on a program,diazepam 2x daily thiamine and magnesium, im gonna have one last drink with the boys 😔 and then start fresh
@@rollajay5301 aye man that’s a great start, you will be able to come off of the booze safely and it will mitigate some of the mental stuff too. I salute you brother for taking that step, once you are out of the storm try your best not to go back. Try to remember the reasons you don’t wanna drink. Keep me updated bro! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 th-cam.com/users/shortsgGluWai-pkQ?si=WZ_lj4i59havWxs4
@@rollajay5301 that’s pretty crazy bro, but honestly accurate.
I used to see f'n scary things when I was in withdrawal - worse than any nightmare. Now I'm six months sober after 20 years of heavy drinking, and it took about a month before sleep started to come easy.
Trust me brother I know about those scary things you talk about. I always say the people who know, know. Congratulations on the six months man!!! That is incredible 💪. Also yea believe me I know all too well about the “alcohol insomnia” totally sucks. Thanks for this comment my friend! Stay the course! 🙏🏻
Slayer, I've been missing your videos!! Found you again....YES THIS REALLY HELPS!!!
Glad you are back Craig!!!! Your comments are always so awesome 👏!! Thank you my friend.
Hi Slayer, here is a question 😊 : when you are in a social gathering where people do not know you or very less, or a work gathering for instance, what do you answer when you are offerd a drink ? and how do you feal seing others drink and laugh because they are tipsy ?
I did not know the expression « the average Joe » (I am french) made me smile and looked it up. But in dead, many people juge and can not understand what an addiction is. Take care ! 🙏🏻
This is an amazing question, I was actually thinking about making my next video on just this instead of doing a question and answer. Because I feel like it’s a super important topic!! That’s awesome that you’re French, I’m glad this is reaching so far. Much love! Thank you for this comment. 🙏🏻
French? Wow very neat
I’ve done almost every drug you can think of but the one substance that got ahold of me worse than the others is alcohol, I got 3 DUIs I’ve lost more jobs than I can count and I’ve also gone through the withdrawals too. It’s really hard to quit for sure, but it’s not impossible.
I can totally relate to everything you just wrote my friend. It’s definitely possible, but you’ve gotta want it. I want it this time so bad. It’s really one day at a time. Much love 🙏🏻
Comments like yours shows me it’s possible.
@@Slayer-7373 and I heard you mention that you go to a Bible I think you should checkout a ministry called Celebrate Recovery it’s like AA but it’s like the Christian version. It’s helped me a lot.
Good meeting 👍
Hey thanks brother. 🙏🏻
Ah that's a sweet comment :)
Hello Subscriber from the UK here wishing you all the best, I am also around the 2 week mark currently on day 16. Longest I ever managed was 115 days off, so 4 months 3 days. I have decided to quit forever because a close male relative chucked a chair at me in a bar and tried to smash a glass in my face completely out of nowhere. Alcoholism runs on that side of my family and I do not want to become like that.
Hey 👋!! I love when i hear people from over seas are watching. It’s beautiful that this is spreading across the world. Also our stories sound very similar, even our sobriety time. It runs in my family as well, I’m sorry you’ve had to go through that. Alcohol brings nothing but chaos and destruction. We run back to it for a moment of satisfaction, then it all comes crashing down again. I wish you the best on your journey! Please keep me updated.
Slayer so good to see you looking good ❤. Cont praying for strength for you. Take care. Hugs Mona
Hey Mona 👋👋!! It’s good to hear from you, thank you so much. I appreciate your comments always!!
Guten tag Mona !!
Good video
Thanks brother. 🙏🏻
"never drinking again" bothers me less and less with each round of relapse and consequence. The more I visceraly understand that before long I will stop drinking forever no matter what happens; I can abstain from it, or I can die by it. Either way, I will no longer drink.
I agree with you brother, each time that I’ve relapsed it does make me hate it more and more which makes it easier to quit. Also that’s the cold reality of our situation brother, we will get out of it one way or another. Much love, take care 🙏🏻
Hey, I have just found your channel and it has been such a life line for me. You seem like such an awesome person and It's ironic I found your channel while wearing my slayer t shirt haha! If you do another q and a I would love to ask how you deal at the moment with triggers for relapse. The most I have gone is 2 months just gone and when I relapsed I experienced all of the hallucinations and hell all over again except it felt worse.. its crazy how we still go back to the bottle even after living through hell so long but In a way for me I think I crave the chaos until I don't and I just want peace, then the boredom and loneliness starts. Sorry for rambling but yeah, I hope your well and happy and I'm so so glad I found your channel 🖤
Hey robyn!!! Thank you so much 🙏🖤 this is so awesome. I want to say welcome, we really are a community over here just trying to help one another. When I read comments like these it really brings a smile to my face, y’all help me just as much as I help you!! Believe me when I say that. I will definitely speak on triggers for relapse!! I’ve been meaning to actually make an entire video just on that.
What you say about the chaos is so true and isn’t spoken on enough. I think I relate 100% it is craving that chaos sometimes. For me I also think sometimes all of the chaos that comes with relapse is addictive in a way because my mind completely focuses just on the drinking and relapse/recovery feeling better. In a very odd way its addictive because it takes your mind off of trauma that you might be dealing with. It’s super dangerous and that’s why it’s definitely better for me to just stay away from the booze all together.
Much love my friend, I wish you luck on your journey! Keep me updated. ✌️
never say never.. just for today. The anxiety I get when say never again.
Exactly. 💯
Your a young boss man
I know you already know
Remember alcohol is essentially diet .
Hey Michael 👋, i appreciate your comment brother. Thank you.
14:14 holy cow man sad about that guy.
Right? That is a wild story. When she told us a lot of jaws were hanging open.
I work in the beer industry. Sober 3 months now.
That’s huge brother, congratulations!!! Keep kicking this things a%#. I wish you the best on your journey, keep me updated!
@@Slayer-7373 will do! Thanks man! I don’t miss it! Carnivore diet helped me with it as well. Had to get rid of All carbs and sugar. Blood pressure is normal now!
@@petergosenya3027 that’s awesome man, I’ve heard a lot of good things about the carnivore diet from recovered alcoholics. I might have to give it a try. 💪💯
Hey brother I know this isn't your most recent video, but I just had to comment on this video. Because I know what you're talking about with alcohol withdrawals and demons. I had an anxiety attack in San Francisco over it, my sister and her girlfriend had to light Palo santo wood and sage just to keep me from losing my mind. What's scary about alcoholism is that it's a harder substance to quit for this reason. Fear is one of the most difficult emotions to deal with and when I first went to detox, I mentioned to another alcoholic in group, and I said what people don't realize about alcohol is it's like heroin's cousin. I have never done heroin, but I know people that have and they're not much different from alcoholics with the withdrawals they go through. Detox can be intimidating but going through alcohol withdrawals is scarier because you can be calm one moment and freak out the next.
No worries man any comment on any of my videos is appreciated. I totally know of the hell you speak of, it’s a living nightmare. Only those who have been through it will understand. It’s similar to herion withdrawal but the only difference is that herion withdrawal won’t kill you, alcohol withdrawal will. Alcohol is one of the hardest drugs on this earth but it’s just been normalized to the point people don’t bat an eye. Crazy!
Link to Sage?
youtube.com/@sageysage?si=aAvOmFY6nPMXkxcr
Here it is 🙏🏻🖤.
It may have manifested as that creature but being fallen angels, demons have no gender . Keep fighting the good fight bro!
@@ClayAdams great point brother 🙏 also will do! One day at a time.
I am glad you are back on your feet. I doubt you were in true delirium tremens. It's very rare. Only five percent of alcoholics experience true delirium tremens. You were most likely in Zone 5 Afterburner alcoholic hallucinosis. Did you have a fever when you were hallucinating? That's pretty much the defining characteristics of true delirium tremens. You may have been in DT. Normally those people end up in the ICU. I am not downplaying your problem because it sucked and I was worried about you. A.A is pretty good if you already believe in God. You can very easily find your higher power. Good luck.
I think you’re right to be honest shades, I probably got very close to dt’s. Like you said probably alcoholic hallucinosis. Also I’ve only had a fever once while withdrawing and it didn’t last night. Whatever it was though was terrifying.
Alcoholic hallucinosis sucks I’ve been in it 4 times now
@@Slayer-7373 I am just glad you are ok. I had a fever only once withdrawing. It can happen without DT, but not normally. What is Sage's URL for her channel. I looked, but couldn't find it. We are all in this together.
@@jeff67788 I doesn't get any better my friend.
The lives are going to be epic.
I think so as well Jeff, much love as always.
The StopDrinkingExpert talks about something I interpreted you to have; Dry Drunk Syndrome.
What I mean is drinking is usually a symptom of another problem - life dissatisfaction.
You need to build a great, stimulating life worth living to offset the inevitable life long cravings.
I think you’re definitely spot on with this.
I've seen shadow people and spiders from alcohol, but also as a kid and young adult from night terrors due to my C-PTSD.
Interesting Diane, also yes there are multiple different ways to see these things. Usually never good, always frightening. Pretty fascinating stuff really.
God bless 🙏
Good man. You look and aojnd a lot better already. 😃
Hey 👋 thanks so much plan-C, that’s awesome of you to say :).
I have a tough time handling sports events with no booze.
Football is rough!! 😓
Ya know, I found going out to eat at restaurants was really tough so I didn’t go out to eat for a while. Now at 7.5 years sober I can go, but sometimes I still wanna glass of wine. Alcohol never gives up but we are stronger☺️
@@kerrymeadows amen kerry!
Man, outgroup therapy was kinda hard for me. They say it helps to be with people that have the same problems and they understand you etc but like... Honestly speaking I had like 0 connection with them. I doubt I would like most of them personally (not because of their illness, but because it was two different worlds and its not like Im better, Im just weird and I like weird people). Personally I get very little good feelings from talking to strangers about my problems - my friends however make me feel lifted and understood (because I kinda know they can understand me).
Also its stupid but all this talk about alcohol and alcohol related stuff (also probably the stress of trying to be honest infront of unknown people, I have some anxiety issues going on) was a trigger for me - I actually drink less not going to therapy 🤣
btw thats a cool tatoo haha
I can relate to this actually, you aren’t alone in this thinking. A lot of people don’t understand that though. Thanks for this comment my friend, also thank you about the tattoo 🤣 🙏🏻.
Keep it up 💪🏼
💪one day at a time brother.
That demon was creepy. They come for you to take over your soul. Right about drugs and alcohol open doors so keep those gateways locked😢😢😢❤❤❤
Absolutely brother.
I keep relapsing
Hey 👋 brother I’m sorry you’re going through this, I’ve been there many times. At one point I couldn’t get more than 1-2 days under my belt before relapsing. My advice is to do whatever you’ve got to do to get help and I mean whatever. If you have to go to a detox or the hospital go, If you need AA or whatever it might be try it out. It’s worth it man, you are worth it. I believe in you, please keep me updated! 🙏🏻
@Slayer-7373 thank you ❤️
You're NOT alone !!!!
Thank you jenn :) 🖤.
I’d love to hear about your Bible study group & what yall talk about
I’ll talk about Kristen, much love 🙏🏻
Totally awesome! Bible studies at a tattoo shop! Why not. ❤❤❤
Right??? I think it’s so cool lol. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
Give a 12 step program a try. After all, what do you have to lose? I found amazing friends through the program over the past year. We go out to dinner before our Tuesday meetings and after the meeting on Fridays. I’ve ran a 5k with someone I’ve met through the program. I recently had a couple of people help me buy a house where I live and they are in the program. Best wishes!
This sounds pretty awesome brother, I’ll look into it. I’m open to anything that will help me stay sober. Thanks for the comment my friend!!
Spirituality is the only cure against alcoholism
Agreed.
I saw a tiny demon looking thing standing on the foot of my bed when I detoxed, freaky, all kinds of visual auditory and tactile halucinations for three days, glad I quit though. I had medical help and family support , get help if youre a hard drinker it can be dangerous.
@@MrROTD I’m sorry brother that you went through this…. Alcohol in high doses definitely seems demonic….
I’d ask a question but I feel like I know the answer to so many of them I can’t ask it.
Let’s go with the brother-thing. Does he reach out to you ever? I mean I’d be telling him to fuck off too.
That’s a good question brother, I’ll make sure to answer that. You guys might be shocked. 🙏🏻
Yep … there are many of those entities that attach to some
Of us
I had electric “snaps” in my head startle me as soon as I was dozing off while withdrawal. Sweats terrible vivid lsd like enhanced dreams . Sensing evil beings everywhere. F that
Like a dark acid trip 100%. I’m sorry you had to go through that brother but trust me I know of what you speak of…..
Slayer is part south Korean
You never know 🤷🏻♂️
2 wks 12 1/2 hrs
First time feeling positive in a long time 1:26
🙏🖤 that is absolutely incredible Silvia!!! Keep going strong!! 🙏
Alcohol is the devil’s pee. 😂 I have too much soul to drink spirits. I am better than alcohol. I am not toxic so why would I intoxicate myself? Alcohol is the biggest tragedy ever introduced to humanity.
Couldn’t have said it better myself. 💯
Two years in Dec. ! Hideous situation, don't go back to 'square one...' 🙏 IOP is where I started,walk -in. V.A. 🙏
That is amazing to hear brother, don’t ever look back. Please. 🙏
I'm a recovering heroin addict with over 10 years. Alcohol is the hardest substance to quit because it's justified in American culture. Don't give in to temptation, just keep going forward
This comment is very telling bro, screen shotting this. Congratulations on the clean time brother 🙏!! God bless
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Please give the fellowship an honest try as well as having a sponsor. Be humble. Accept that you have no control of alcohol. You have never had more than 4 months of sobriety. You have so much to learn.
You have an enemy that wants to destroy you and destroy your life!!! He comes to steal, kill and destroy!!!
You’re 100% correct.
He who is in you is greather than he who is in the world. 1 John 1:4
Amen 🙏 🙏
I agree don't cover your tattoo hun, I look at mine as a memory xx
Hey thanks seg. 🖤 I like your thinking. Your comments are always so sweet, thank you!
@@Slayer-7373 I got you x
Don't cover that tattoo, it's dope and so is Luigi's Mansion and the number 24
Well since you put it like that, I think I’ll have to keep it 🤣. Also you like Luigi’s mansion??? That is so cool lol. I applaud you for appreciating awesome video games 👏.
I also really like the number 24, it has a lot of significance in my life. Thanks for your awesome comment 🖤🙏🏻. Take care.
Your comments are always so awesome, thank you!! 🙏🏻🖤
@@Slayer-7373 My comments are just a response to your awesome videos. Thank you for inspiring so many people
Hope you are doing well Elizabeth!! 🙏
I am so sorry about your drinking addiction!!! Have you read the Holy Bible regarding what God has to say about drinking? Jesus Christ is the Holy Spirit and he can deliver you from this demonic spirit of alcohol!!! This is a spirit you are fighting with and it's a spiritual warfare against your spirit!!!
Hey Helen 👋 I have yes, Jesus is the only one that can deliver be from this addiction and I believe that. I believe without a doubt we are in a spiritual warfare. You’re super smart!!! Thank you so much for this comment 🙏
@@Slayer-7373
Jesus Christ says that we must be born again of water and the Spirit!!! Being Born again by the Power of the Holy Ghost!!! Will definitely help you fight against your enemy the devil because you must remember he has powers too!!! So it's a spiritual battle and this is the reason you must be born again to receive God's Power to help you overcome the power of the enemy!!! Believe me I know how hard it is to struggle with SIN!!! Until I received the Power of the Holy Ghost and believe me!!! I hate Sin ! I do not want no part of sin in my life!!! I choose Jesus Christ over the desire of my flesh!!! I want to always walk in the Power of the Holy Spirit!!! I hope this will encourage you and please continue to read the Word of God because Jesus Christ is our only hope in this fallen world that is truly heading start to hell!!! You do not want to go there !!! The devil is taking many with him because he knows his time is short and Jesus Christ is coming soon!!!
God has plans for you.
🙏 lord willing my friend, lord willing.
I read out of the King James Bible! Please look up these scriptures so you have a better understanding of God's Word!!!
Proverbs 20:1
Proverbs 23:19-21
Proverbs 23:29-35
John 8:36
1 John 1:9
1 Corinthians 6:10
Please seek God !!! I Hate alcohol because it's legal and it destroys many life's and many families!!!
I’ll check these out Helen! Thank you so much 🙏
I’m never touching luiqor again i promise you not worth it
You’ve got the right idea cute7g, stick to that. Thanks for the comment 🙏🏻🖤.
@@Slayer-7373 I will do my best to stick to that each time I get sick , if I do drink it wil be beer I can control that better also my body don’t like to much beer so it’s easier for me to quit that, but the luiquor the strong drinks are not good ever !
Yeah don’t talk to us “Addicts” lol
Keep it simple
My past comments to you Slayer have always been based on my actual experience, written with compassion, and a great desire to see you succeed. What follows may not feel like compassion, but needs to be said.
STOP wasting you time and efforts making YT videos, and put that time and effort into a program of recovery. This is nothing but a phucking distraction for you. We tell people in early sobriety NOT to make major changes like relationships, employment, etc, for very good reasons. So you can focus on sobriety.
I'm sure you get some satisfaction from the attention, and have no doubt about your sincerity to help others, but this is NOT the time. Come back in 10 or 15 years and do videos , when you actually have some experience, besides what NOT TO DO. And if "Slayer" is not your given name, lets start right there with some rigorous honesty about who you are!
I get what you’re saying mark, but at the same time I’ve created this channel to document my sobriety journey. I don’t think it’s just a distraction, I think it’s something positive that really does help me stay sober. I know I can’t put all my eggs into this one basket but doing TH-cam on the side doesn’t do much harm. I definitely understand where you’re coming from mark and I appreciate the honesty but trust me man, this TH-cam helps me! 🙏🏻 I’m going to take this serious.
As long as it’s not bringing you down slayer you should be fine. If it messes with your sobriety at all though like mark said I’d put TH-cam to the side. Love you slayer
@@Slayer-7373 My friend, you don't know what you don't know. You can "think" till the cows come home, but it's still a distraction and no sponsor would or should approve of it. You were just in the phucking hospital, and the only thing you're going to "document" is your phucking DEATH, if you don't start listening to people who actually know what they're saying.
Live in the solution, or live in the problem. At the moment, you're living in the problem, which is YOU LISTENING TO YOU!
@@markg.4246 I will keep this in mind brother, thank you for being honest with me.
Ethyl alcohol is a loose-loose game. Too easy of a 'mark'. Not funny anymore.....👎
100% brother.
Dude I’m 7 mins in and you haven’t touched on the title. Cut the rambling and fluff
Buckle up brethren and use this weekend to prep yourselves for May 24
🙏🏻
While I have never gone through DT's from my drinking, I have gone through many bad withdrawls that I ended up in the Hospital for.
I do completely believe you about what you saw though. Have you heard of sleep deprived Psychosis? A few years ago I did not/could not sleep for 4 days straight. Long story short by day 3 or 4, I was having full blow halluincations, many of them were random people in my house, flying tracers, etc... But eventually got to the point I was seeing, hearing, and interacting with demons.
Even in the hospital I was Hallucinating so bad I was there for 4 days. It was 100% real in my mind. It got to the point I did not know what was real and what was "Halluincations."
I also believe that what you saw, and what I saw are closely related. I think DT's and Sleep deprived Psychosis some how lets you look/interact with another realm or dimension.
People that have not gone through it would not believe this to be true, but there is no way my mind some how decided to show me the horrors of what I saw.
For whatever reason we were given access to it. It has stayed with me till this day and I don't think I will ever forget that experience.
Hey James thanks for this comment brother, also trust me man I know. I always say the people who know, know. Everyone on the outside says there’s no way and that we are crazy. They would have to have an experience of their own to believe it.
Anyways brother you’re not alone, I know of these things you speak of. 🙏🏻
I want to see you in the gym crushing some steel brother
I like that idea man. 💪 I’ll have to do that.
Hi All 🤍, what Slayer says is true, there is a real community on his channel, it’s not only his videos but all the comments I read below that give me courage & make me feal we are in the same boat ! 🤍
We are some what of a family over on this channel. 🖤🙏 it’s awesome.