I have memory loss so bad I thought I had dementia but I was tested and it's ok ... I now use my memory as a guide to how my mental health is, when my memory's bad I know I'm not well
@@shinebabyshine. im in the same boat. Im BD2 going on around 5 years without treatment its being extremely tough but not impossible. In saying that i think seeing the right person could be extremely beneficial even if you didnt want to take medication just to have someone to explain the illness and all the complications that come with it, that way you know what your in for and can develop ways to deal with it. Also people close to you might need someone to explain it to them as it can significantly complicate your social life aswell unfortunately. Best of luck with everything!
Austin Cook Social life? What’s that? lol Yeah, going on what I’m thinking is 10 years undiagnosed and that has certainly taken a hit. Appreciate your comment
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I've been praying for a long time that you would find an amazing psychiatrist who would be fully able to understand your bipolar❤️ I hope you're one step closer
I was just talking to my boyfriend about how fun our dates were throughout the last year, specially in one place saying “those 4 times were magical” when he replied “we went there like 9 times!” i mean i know i have memory loss of not so great i have BUT WHY CANT I REMEMBER THE MOST FUN MEANINGFUL TIMES I HAD??? I’m literally freaking out rn!!! I was depressed at most times but ....
Stress is a major environmental trigger for both mania and depression and cortisol is a key hormone in the stress response. Cortisol, in excess, damages the part of the brain responsible for forming new memories (the hippocampus).
@@carnivoredownunder what if I’ve been doing all those and I still struggle with emotional numbness? Been like this over a year, I take supplements, exercise (weight lifting and cardio) I go out with friend and family, but the numbness just won’t go away, and it makes me feel like a robot…I haven’t been able to experience positive emotions in over a year, just constant anxiety and that’s it.
@@marioncarbonell6047 you need meds man. It's the only thing that seems to help. I couldn't even type out a full sentence before but now I'm doing better.
Hey Lizzie thanks for this video! I believe I am facing depression as well, cause I had to withdraw from the course I was studying because I couldn't study due to emotional and spiritual problems! So then After this I moved back to my home country and my parents home. Due to the fact that I currently am not studying, I feel very bored and far from God and I also have had many depression and hard fatigue episodes during my life. Finally I started to notice that I also have memory loss,and I didn't know this was related to depression before seeing your video.
I've been doing a lot of self reflection lately and have my first appointment ever with a psychiatrist this week. Super nervous but your videos help a lot ❤ you are so inspirational!!
A therapist once told me that depression (especially long term depression) can cause a kind of dementia that effects memories, concentration, and your ability to feel things like enjoyment. The word "depressed" is about things that are held down. This doesn't just mean mood. It means energy levels, mood, memory, and even your senses can be effected like your sense of hunger, your sense of sight may begin to worsen (for me it was colors, all colors looked drab, and I didn't notice until I took medication and all this color came back!) it can even depress the way food tastes and smells. Depression depresses everything. The longer you're in it, the more depressed everything becomes until all you're left with is an empty shell of nothing. Bathing, eating, socializing, and all the other normal shit will gradually seem less important and more pointless with each passing day. I've never been manic, but I'm told it's kind of the opposite with lots of color, texture, smells, etc. Wasn't sure about memory until watching this video.
The reason it happens is about state-dependent memory. Memories are easier to recall when you are in the same state of mind from the memory. Then if you don't reach mania, depression, or stable for long periods of time, the memories will fade from non-use. This is my theory. Because memories are triggered by experience and they are less triggered if you don't experience the same things as when memory was formed.
I have pretty bad disassociation as well as type 2, and it’s so comforting to know that the memory loss is normal, it’s made me feel crazy for such a long time and it’s awful. I’m sorry this is a common thing because it’s awful other people have to experience this, but it’s nice to know that I’m not alone
My memory is so bad, I literally just forgot to mention in my previous comment that my memory is really bad. Also, diet plays a big role in brain function and memory. My background is in medicine and nutrition, and I've seen quite a few people improve their brain function by changing their diet.
Liese-Lotte start noticing that almost every thing in the grocery store is because of capitalism, so most “foods” are just products. Eat natural, get your antioxidants, amino acids, vitamins and fruits and veggies in.
Thank you for this. I was diagnosed with Bipolar in 2009. My stress & depression have increased over these past 3 years. I am now at point where I can't even remember sayings, spelling, what I had done or heard. My Psychiatrist said it is the Stress & Depression. Evidently after watching this, she was correct. Thanks
I also seem to get "brain farts" ALL THE TIME and I my words also get jumbled a lot. I guess that is the brain damage. Have you experienced this before?
ALL THE TIME. More of when I'm in depression though. That's when I CANNOT think of words and just have a brain freeze SO often of what I'm trying to explain. Sometimes my words get jumbled when I'm talking like I say one word and some incomprehensible syllable-combination thing comes out. But that's rare. My manic episodes tend to be mostly hypomanic so I talk faster but I tend to have this extreme clarity and connection within my brain of everything I'm saying.
THANK YOU for making this video ... I have been dealing with memory loss since i turned 15 .. so 7 years of my life have gone by and i can only remember very specific events .. I did not know what was going on with my brain .. I recently only got to know what bipolar disorder is and i seam to match with the symptoms .. i have been in depresion for 3 years ( of course there are periods where i feel much better but it is constanlty there ) .. and last summer i think that i had my first manic or more likely hypomanic episode.. I am going to seek help and visit a doctor very soon .. THANK YOU for making me understand what is going on with my life ... ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Yeah i generally can't remember an event happening itself, but i remember texting my friend about said event. Also i tend to forget how i've felt in the past. Like i forgot the isolation i had felt during high school until i went back through some of my old artwork and pinterest boards that i made at the time.
I've been addressing this with my friend and friend/ex recently. There are chunks of memory missing from the times i was manic. My friend said I was like a completely different person during those times. This was terrifying to realize. I knew I had memory issues and I've been slowly realizing I've had many manic episodes in my life, but I never realized it was so severe and that I've rarely ever even been myself.
My bipolar disorder was triggered very early in my life. When I was a kid I didn't know why I couldn't remember the past. People wouldn't believe me. Plus back then doctors didn't believe that bipolar disorder caused memory problems. I'm glad that they are finally seeing that it's a serious problem. Maybe one day they will be able to fix it.
Thank you Lizzie i have been struggling with memory loss because of bipolar for so long. Thank you for putting it in perspective for me and everyone else watching this.
I was depressed for a long period of time in a previous abusive relationship I find it difficult to remember anything during that time that wasn't traumatic or it's super blurred
Damn... this happened to me. I didn't now it was a symptom. I just thought this was how thigns work or figured this happens to other people. But yeah, during my dark periods, I can't recall what I was doing except mroe what I was feeling and general concepts of the time.
Your young but girl you just said everything I’m going through I have now a great doctor and I’m happy he listens to me when I talk and cares about his patients finally someone I can trust bi polar sucks especially the depression more education is needed more and more keep it up never stop this again thanks
What a super interesting topic, thank you for this. I've experienced as well. I don't remember half the things I did during a manic episode. Its fun, but its kind of unfortunate I can't reminisce the good times.
Thanks. It's like you answer specific questions I have and then you bring up things I can relate to that I hadn't idea could be from being bipolar.. like being extremely bad with names and faces, even if you had met them several times.. or forgetting the name of someone you like.. another one was,feeling like I need to see someone everyday, because it feels like so much time has passed. You really get into the mechanics of and breakdown to where I can understand why it feels that way.. thank you
I have gone through this sooo much! It is so scary and literally shows you how sick you are. I even forget things I did that day or couple days ago! Even with words or how to spell words that I know! Lose my train of thought! This is me!!! 🤦🏽♀️🤦🏽♀️ Forgot what I’m talking about or what I needed to get done that day. It’s bad! And I get scared 😟
Wow, this is so me, especially @ 4:03. Also I remembering thinking to myself, on multiple occasions, "Remember this, remember this, this is a good memory, remember this" and seriously trying to commit that moment to memory. And now that thought is all I remember of those moments. 😢
Took welbutrin for a few years, after most of my creativity and memory has gone away i stopped taking it. Now the neurologist has told me i now have a build up of white cells in my brain, the front lobe of my brain is not funtioning as it should. Depression drugs are damaging people's brains and no one is doing anything!
I think for me, the bipolar severely damaged my brain. I was untreated for many many years and I felt my memory and ability to concentrate and work on complex tasks deteriorate. I’m on medication now for a while and at least my mood is mostly stable right now. I hope you’re doing well without the medication!
Feel the same way. I've been on antidepressants for years & it feels like my memory isn't what it once was. I went off them a year ago cause nothing really helped. Struggling right now but scared to go on meds because I'm afraid my brain will deteriorate further.
Yes honey! I’ve been dealing with this for years and I’m pushing 40 now and I don’t remember so much of my life and it’s honestly really scary! When my children remember things that happened when they were a toddler and I can’t even grasp that memory at all! What’s worse, just trying to get everybody to understand that and not think you’re just lying or something.
I am 53 I've had bipolar 1 since 25 misdiagnosed for 25years.I suffered brain damage after a hypercycle 12 years ago..nothing was the same again I lost my nursing career my home and most of my relationship.I had a brain aneurysm and two strokes three years ago and was not expected to survive.I'm home independent on meds that took three years to come right but it has its supreesed...Go asap get a assessment try and face it its shit having a mental illness but its the only way..This disease is a total body run down really your heart is affected as our many of the bodies systens... Please go and take med stay safe.
I love your video's I've watched a couple today. I have memory problems after dealing with severe/chronic depression (I don't have bipolar disorder but Idk bc I'm not diagnosed and never have been to a psychiatrist) These video really are educating especially your life update one you just posted which brought me here. I feel like I've discovered something worthwhile and could convince my family to take me to the docor's before my brain gets too rewired and unfixable from the depression. Let's hope !
I find myself constantly repeating the major events of the past verbally so I don't loose site of where I've been. But most of the gaps between those times and now are gone.
I feel crazy and like no one believes me when I talk about this memory loss, but luckily the few people who've known me for years and have witnessed this happen to me believe me
I am always so ashamed that I can't speak probably because I forget words and what I was talking about in the middle of the sentence. I'm always like hawing (is that the right word), stuttering and mumbling. It's quite relieving that is also a symptom of Depression or Bipolar II which I'm suffering from. I forget so much! The funniest insiders with friends, what somebody told me no matter how important, forget tasks and forget plenty of stuff of my past. Thank you very much!
Thank you for sharing. I have bipolar type 1 and the whole brainfog, memory loss thing I've mentioned over the years but not really got much help/support back that I can recall 😋
Same happened to me, during my depression I had a lot of memory issue, I always felt disconnected with my self. Quit with alcohol, quit with all meds at the moment. I am feeling really better at the moment.
I'm very concerned, because I'm bipolar and start with the memory loss, but also a loss of my cognitive capacity, I cannot do a lot of things and my daily work start to be difficult for me.. I don't know if someone else experience this. Also I read a study that this episodes and the memory loss it could turn into dementia in the long term..
I understand you with the physichiatrist thing. I have the sane problem. He is not willing to cope with my disease and i feel like its very hard for me to deal with because i dont always like to take the medication. Because of its secondary effects it has had on me. I am glad you found a good doctor though. My doctor is really good with me he just doesnt understands me or what i go through. I feel that with bipolar. Its something you have to go through to understand it. But i wish sometimes he was a lil more understandable with me... anyways i loved your video thanks for sharing stay strong we can get through it!!!!
This is so damn accurate. My memory loss is terrible and it doesn't help me at all in the military. I've been deployed for several months and as it is, every day runs together and feels like an endless monday; but I legitimately can't remember if we had done a patrol or any task for that matter, two weeks or two days before I think about the event. This video has helped explain a great deal so I thank you for it!
I was depressed for some seven years until I decided to get help. Over the last four years I've slowly regained lost memories all the way from being a baby to growing up as a kid as well as the good times in school.
I have memory loss short term and long term, from depression and anxiety, I left my med (zoloft) ten years ago and I stop going to the doctor, I think im living in automatic, but the memory loss is what is getting me worried, I dont want to start taking zoloft again, when I went to the doctor I never took CBT, just got my prescription and a little talk, she never told me I was depressed just the anxiety.
This may sound really crazy, but I really believe that your symptoms of bipolar depression would lessen if you would cover your head. As Christians, we should cover our heads when we pray and prophesy or teach like you do. The scripture in first Corinthian’s 11 tells us to do so because of the angels. I believe that we are attacked by spirits of the world when we do not head cover. I have done many videos on this very subject if you would like to check them out and see.
I've been diagnosed with Bipolar I and I have a lot memory gaps from both my manic and depressive episodes. After a recent manic episode, I found a bunch of books on my shelf that I can't remember getting, When I looked at then more closely, I started having a deja vu feeling of having read them before.
oh this makes me feel better about forgetting names and faces. like i'll have the greatest conversation with someone and really want to be their friend then the next day i can't remember their name or face. and last week i just completely forgot that one of my classes assigns homework every day even though that's been the system for the entire year haha
For me at least, I can't specifically attribute memory loss as part of my bipolar, I still remember quite well about what I was feeling and thinking at the time, I still think about what happened to me and how I felt at the time. Something which I did quite a lot of when I was depressed and especially when I was manic was to write a lot which maybe contributed to me remembering what I did at the time.
I have forgotten the whole relationships. Like I will remember dating the guy but not much else. I will remember about 20% of an almost 2-year relationship at most. Gosh, it makes me feel dumb in public.
I have a poor memory anyway........... It's common for people with mental illnesses to forget their own name, and it's a major problem....... Like people at the psych ward will go into your room, and think it's their room. I had this stuffed animal that a friend gave me, and it would disappear and then reappear, it was actually funny, it's like, it's back.......... I try to keep a diary. I was so worried for you when I read your Twitter post. It says subscribed on my end.
im a newly diagnosed bipolar and chileee my memory has led me to leaving my keys in the car, forgetting where i put my belongings even if I just moved it, forgetting people names and faces . someone also told me i eems like the type of person who forgets the whole work day once they leave the premises to go home and i was thinking dang well your not wrong.
me too and I was worried it was just cause I was a bad friend... I don't remember much at all from highschool on. It's really difficult to pull memories out. I just had a manic episode and can't remember the last few days at all. Worried me so I searched it and found this vid.. feeling better...
I would say my memories are state dependent, i remember things happened in that state before, selectively. This issue makes me really sad, because as I also drastically change my looks to the point that people dont recognize me, and i dont remember anything, i lose ANY touch with the past self...
That was really interesting because I actually used to date this girl who actually had bipolar disorder and also my aunt also has bipolar disorder as well. And I didn't know any of that at all. Also my ex actually took tons of medications for her conditions.
I have had moments When I'm walking up to a group of people talking and the closer I get the more I can hear them talking and the louder they become to the point I'm virtually stood with them trying my best to understand the words they're saying and I am convinced they're speaking in a foreign language until I literally focus on their mouths and slowly almost like turning the tuning knob on an old radio the voices join together until eventually I can understand them and realise they've been speaking English all the time. Sometimes and it's getting more and more regular is I see people I see everyday at work. I have done for over 10yrs I for no reason forget their names and they say "Hi." and my mind suddenly freezes and says I know I know them but i can't remember their names and I have to just say "Hi Mate." and I'm so embarrassed and hope they don't realise that I can't remember their name. This can go on for about a fortnight until for no reason I either hear their name called or I suddenly remember it myself. Does anybody else ha e these problems?
My sleep is completely messed up right now. I need to take my meds at 9 p.m. every night so I get my sleep back to normal. The problem is, I will not wake up until 2 p.m. in the afternoon, go back to sleep around 5 p.m., wake up around 8 something, and then I'm up until 1!! I know that's not normal. I was sleep deprived in high school, I've never had a normal sleep schedule for more than 6 months.
I thought I was the only one going through something like. Now I know that it's happening because of depression. I feel like I can't learn or remember anything new anymore. It's like my mind is resisting to learn or remember anything new anymore. The more I try to remember or recall something the more I forget. There's like a hollow in my memories. I completely can't remember few parts of my life.
Dude I had a manic episode,couple months ago. I lost like 10 hours! I don't even know how. I remember coming to reality and it was 10...I was like am or pm!!?? 😳A couple months ago. That one was harsh. And scary. I didnt know what I did for hours..I opened my eyes, I was sitting up in a chair..how could I have slept? I can't ever sleep up in a chair! Never. That's what scared me more about it. At least I woke up safe in my house. Ya I looked outside my window and it was day light. I was so confused. And yes I do forget people too and things. I also do the picture and note thing !!
Ya nobody believes that I have memory issues because of my depression and I get yelled at a lot because they assume I’m making excuses and it makes my depression worse 😥😔😭
I have bad short term memory and recall issues after having psychomotor retardation The memory still hasn't really come back I'm just hoping that long term this issue solves
I only realized my memory was a problem when a coworker asked what I did on my birthday. And when they asked me it was only 2 days before. And I could not think of it at all. I don’t remember anything if I don’t have a photo or wrote it down. I had to withdraw from college because I was failing classes because I couldn’t remember shit
I never thought that bcoz of depression one day I will be so short of my memory that I will forget the next day that something had been decided to remain a secret a previous day by my group of friends including me. And I m not a trustworthy person anymore.
Honestly I'm a little hurt that you're lumping my question in with things like "Have you tried praying it away? You don't really seem depressed, etc" .... CBD is *real* medicine. I encourage you to do some research... I only suggested it because you're an intelligent, research-based person. I'm not suggesting you rub crystals all over your body lmao
I'm bipolar and an herbalist. I've tried CBD. It definitely doesn't help the side effects of bipolar, but it doesn't hurt either. CBD does not help you snap out of mania or depression, but with constant use over a long time it can help sooth inflammation in the brain that can lead to these episodes. I've managed to get off all my meds for my health problems with the use of CBD and cannabis, but I still take meds for my bipolar disorder. Also, CBD is A LOT MORE EXPENSIVE than cannabis with THC, which is kind of pricey anyway. The thing about Medical Marijuana is that, its still weed, and people still use it for fun. The people who make medicinal products still sell them for recreational use at a much higher frequency than they do for the medical side, thus contributing to the capitalist market. Using CBD as an herbal medication has a long way to go, and at this point, anti-inflamitories from a doctor that you can use your insurance on, or other herbal supplements like valerian root and turmeric, that are taxed as food items, is a much better deal than being ripped off by the dispensaries. Change has to come from within the cannabis using community to support medical research and to become less income driven. Once more medical and herbal doctors are welcomed into the MMJ industry, we might start seeing some change, but not currently. Sometimes blazing some indica helps sooth the panic, if you can deal with the depression it can cause as a side affect, but it doesn't help with the brain fog or memory loss, and Sativa strains will make a Bipolar person manic. Weed affects the bipolar brain differently than it does "normal people" and can sometimes cause self harm and hospitalization, so any bipolar people out there, USE WITH CAUTION! Also, in Lizzy's defense, I'm sure she's tried everything to cure herself more than once.
I’ve been top of my class at number 5 for all four years of high school. Except the last month or two. That’s when every second I felt like I was gonna end it then and there and everything was out of touch. Ive always had thoughts and been depressed and out of touch but that last year was the year I thought. I dropped to 24 in the last month. My friend now makes fun of me and calls me dumb. Says I’m lazy. Says I’m stupid. I know he’s joking a bit but it sticks. Look at me. I was top of my class always reading, studying, participating in extracurriculars. Now I can never focus and I’m considered dumb and lazy.
Someone I know has type 1 rapid cycling with psychotic features. They've had so many episodes that they're losing memory and getting brain damage. They're close to being institutionalized
sometimes i feel problem in spelling english words too...can u plz say what is this??? i was worried to have dementia bt i don’t have any other sign n my doctor told me that as m only 20 so its impossible to have dementia in this age...so plz clarify
I have memory loss so bad I thought I had dementia but I was tested and it's ok ... I now use my memory as a guide to how my mental health is, when my memory's bad I know I'm not well
Jus discovered this myself! My memory and and brain function seems to get worse as my mental health deteriorates.
Same! I just realized I have BD2 and have yet to see a psych. Does it get better with treatment?
@@shinebabyshine. im in the same boat. Im BD2 going on around 5 years without treatment its being extremely tough but not impossible. In saying that i think seeing the right person could be extremely beneficial even if you didnt want to take medication just to have someone to explain the illness and all the complications that come with it, that way you know what your in for and can develop ways to deal with it. Also people close to you might need someone to explain it to them as it can significantly complicate your social life aswell unfortunately. Best of luck with everything!
Austin Cook Social life? What’s that? lol Yeah, going on what I’m thinking is 10 years undiagnosed and that has certainly taken a hit. Appreciate your comment
I experience memory loss as well. People I have met when I was manic come up to me and I have no idea who they are.
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Videos like these are exactly the kind of validation that I have been needing. Thank you for all of your hard work Lizzie!!!!
I've been praying for a long time that you would find an amazing psychiatrist who would be fully able to understand your bipolar❤️ I hope you're one step closer
I was just talking to my boyfriend about how fun our dates were throughout the last year, specially in one place saying “those 4 times were magical” when he replied “we went there like 9 times!”
i mean i know i have memory loss of not so great i have BUT WHY CANT I REMEMBER THE MOST FUN MEANINGFUL TIMES I HAD??? I’m literally freaking out rn!!!
I was depressed at most times but ....
Thx for shining a light on how challenging this is❤
I tend to be more outgoing when I’m manic and I “meet” a lot of people, but I can’t remember there names for the life of me.
This is exactly why I write everythig down. :-(
I have situational depression and seasonal depression, so I'll have these gaps in time where I don't remember the months I was depressed.
Stress is a major environmental trigger for both mania and depression and cortisol is a key hormone in the stress response. Cortisol, in excess, damages the part of the brain responsible for forming new memories (the hippocampus).
Can you undo or minimize this damage??
@@ii2bcnii I believe u can through healthy eating, fasting and exercise :] The whole body can regenerate itself into being healthy
@@carnivoredownunder what if I’ve been doing all those and I still struggle with emotional numbness? Been like this over a year, I take supplements, exercise (weight lifting and cardio) I go out with friend and family, but the numbness just won’t go away, and it makes me feel like a robot…I haven’t been able to experience positive emotions in over a year, just constant anxiety and that’s it.
@@marioncarbonell6047 you need meds man. It's the only thing that seems to help. I couldn't even type out a full sentence before but now I'm doing better.
Hey Lizzie thanks for this video!
I believe I am facing depression as well, cause I had to withdraw from the course I was studying because I couldn't study due to emotional and spiritual problems! So then After this I moved back to my home country and my parents home. Due to the fact that I currently am not studying, I feel very bored and far from God and I also have had many depression and hard fatigue episodes during my life. Finally I started to notice that I also have memory loss,and I didn't know this was related to depression before seeing your video.
I've been doing a lot of self reflection lately and have my first appointment ever with a psychiatrist this week. Super nervous but your videos help a lot ❤ you are so inspirational!!
A therapist once told me that depression (especially long term depression) can cause a kind of dementia that effects memories, concentration, and your ability to feel things like enjoyment. The word "depressed" is about things that are held down. This doesn't just mean mood. It means energy levels, mood, memory, and even your senses can be effected like your sense of hunger, your sense of sight may begin to worsen (for me it was colors, all colors looked drab, and I didn't notice until I took medication and all this color came back!) it can even depress the way food tastes and smells. Depression depresses everything. The longer you're in it, the more depressed everything becomes until all you're left with is an empty shell of nothing. Bathing, eating, socializing, and all the other normal shit will gradually seem less important and more pointless with each passing day.
I've never been manic, but I'm told it's kind of the opposite with lots of color, texture, smells, etc. Wasn't sure about memory until watching this video.
I have major depression and dementia 😪
The reason it happens is about state-dependent memory. Memories are easier to recall when you are in the same state of mind from the memory. Then if you don't reach mania, depression, or stable for long periods of time, the memories will fade from non-use. This is my theory. Because memories are triggered by experience and they are less triggered if you don't experience the same things as when memory was formed.
then how come i remember a time when i was really sad
What really boggles my mind is how she calls the cerebellum the hippocampus
I have pretty bad disassociation as well as type 2, and it’s so comforting to know that the memory loss is normal, it’s made me feel crazy for such a long time and it’s awful. I’m sorry this is a common thing because it’s awful other people have to experience this, but it’s nice to know that I’m not alone
Literally cant stop watching you!! So realistic, much love!
My memory is so bad, I literally just forgot to mention in my previous comment that my memory is really bad. Also, diet plays a big role in brain function and memory. My background is in medicine and nutrition, and I've seen quite a few people improve their brain function by changing their diet.
What do they change?
Liese-Lotte start noticing that almost every thing in the grocery store is because of capitalism, so most “foods” are just products. Eat natural, get your antioxidants, amino acids, vitamins and fruits and veggies in.
Omg... its me.. what a relief to know that it's a part of bipolar bcuz I was about to go crazy..
Thank you for this. I was diagnosed with Bipolar in 2009. My stress & depression have increased over these past 3 years. I am now at point where I can't even remember sayings, spelling, what I had done or heard. My Psychiatrist said it is the Stress & Depression. Evidently after watching this, she was correct. Thanks
I also seem to get "brain farts" ALL THE TIME and I my words also get jumbled a lot. I guess that is the brain damage. Have you experienced this before?
ALL THE TIME. More of when I'm in depression though. That's when I CANNOT think of words and just have a brain freeze SO often of what I'm trying to explain. Sometimes my words get jumbled when I'm talking like I say one word and some incomprehensible syllable-combination thing comes out. But that's rare. My manic episodes tend to be mostly hypomanic so I talk faster but I tend to have this extreme clarity and connection within my brain of everything I'm saying.
@@LizziesAnswers my symptoms matching with you
And truly saying i am dying everyday please help mam please
THANK YOU for making this video ...
I have been dealing with memory loss since i turned 15 .. so 7 years of my life have gone by and i can only remember very specific events ..
I did not know what was going on with my brain ..
I recently only got to know what bipolar disorder is and i seam to match with the symptoms .. i have been in depresion for 3 years ( of course there are periods where i feel much better but it is constanlty there ) .. and last summer i think that i had my first manic or more likely hypomanic episode..
I am going to seek help and visit a doctor very soon ..
THANK YOU for making me understand what is going on with my life ...
❤️❤️❤️❤️
Yeah i generally can't remember an event happening itself, but i remember texting my friend about said event. Also i tend to forget how i've felt in the past. Like i forgot the isolation i had felt during high school until i went back through some of my old artwork and pinterest boards that i made at the time.
It happens to me I can’t recall events but I remember certain things like that
I've been addressing this with my friend and friend/ex recently. There are chunks of memory missing from the times i was manic. My friend said I was like a completely different person during those times. This was terrifying to realize. I knew I had memory issues and I've been slowly realizing I've had many manic episodes in my life, but I never realized it was so severe and that I've rarely ever even been myself.
My bipolar disorder was triggered very early in my life. When I was a kid I didn't know why I couldn't remember the past. People wouldn't believe me. Plus back then doctors didn't believe that bipolar disorder caused memory problems. I'm glad that they are finally seeing that it's a serious problem. Maybe one day they will be able to fix it.
Thank you Lizzie i have been struggling with memory loss because of bipolar for so long. Thank you for putting it in perspective for me and everyone else watching this.
I was depressed for a long period of time in a previous abusive relationship I find it difficult to remember anything during that time that wasn't traumatic or it's super blurred
I. Forget. Everything. I had no idea it could've been associated with my disorder. Thank you for sharing! This really helps a lot.
Damn... this happened to me. I didn't now it was a symptom. I just thought this was how thigns work or figured this happens to other people. But yeah, during my dark periods, I can't recall what I was doing except mroe what I was feeling and general concepts of the time.
Brilliant Video thanks very much. 10 mins listening to you was more hepfull than 3 years of gaslighting from a so called doctor.
Your young but girl you just said everything I’m going through I have now a great doctor and I’m happy he listens to me when I talk and cares about his patients finally someone I can trust bi polar sucks especially the depression more education is needed more and more keep it up never stop this again thanks
Thank you so much for talking about this, Lizzie!! 💛
What a super interesting topic, thank you for this. I've experienced as well. I don't remember half the things I did during a manic episode. Its fun, but its kind of unfortunate I can't reminisce the good times.
This was great to watch having not been on meds following my my first psychotic episode over a year ago.
Thanks. It's like you answer specific questions I have and then you bring up things I can relate to that I hadn't idea could be from being bipolar.. like being extremely bad with names and faces, even if you had met them several times.. or forgetting the name of someone you like.. another one was,feeling like I need to see someone everyday, because it feels like so much time has passed. You really get into the mechanics of and breakdown to where I can understand why it feels that way.. thank you
You just described my life.
I have gone through this sooo much! It is so scary and literally shows you how sick you are. I even forget things I did that day or couple days ago! Even with words or how to spell words that I know! Lose my train of thought! This is me!!! 🤦🏽♀️🤦🏽♀️
Forgot what I’m talking about or what I needed to get done that day. It’s bad! And I get scared 😟
Wow, this is so me, especially @ 4:03. Also I remembering thinking to myself, on multiple occasions, "Remember this, remember this, this is a good memory, remember this" and seriously trying to commit that moment to memory. And now that thought is all I remember of those moments. 😢
Hey, I know this is an old vid, but I really needed to see it. Thank you for everything you do! We are not alone!
My memory is shot. I'm kinda glad about some of the manic memory loss. I probably dont want to remember. 😩
Took welbutrin for a few years, after most of my creativity and memory has gone away i stopped taking it. Now the neurologist has told me i now have a build up of white cells in my brain, the front lobe of my brain is not funtioning as it should. Depression drugs are damaging people's brains and no one is doing anything!
I think for me, the bipolar severely damaged my brain. I was untreated for many many years and I felt my memory and ability to concentrate and work on complex tasks deteriorate. I’m on medication now for a while and at least my mood is mostly stable right now.
I hope you’re doing well without the medication!
geee I feel the same. I’ve yet to be treated. Does it get better with treatment?
Feel the same way. I've been on antidepressants for years & it feels like my memory isn't what it once was. I went off them a year ago cause nothing really helped. Struggling right now but scared to go on meds because I'm afraid my brain will deteriorate further.
How was your neurologist able to test the white cells in your frontal lobe?
Thank you queen! 👑. I am bp1 rapid cycling. Legit cant remember names, numbers, faces ect while manic. New sub here! I fully support you.
Yes honey! I’ve been dealing with this for years and I’m pushing 40 now and I don’t remember so much of my life and it’s honestly really scary! When my children remember things that happened when they were a toddler and I can’t even grasp that memory at all! What’s worse, just trying to get everybody to understand that and not think you’re just lying or something.
I believe you . And i am so sorry.
I am 53 I've had bipolar 1 since 25 misdiagnosed for 25years.I suffered brain damage after a hypercycle 12 years ago..nothing was the same again I lost my nursing career my home and most of my relationship.I had a brain aneurysm and two strokes three years ago and was not expected to survive.I'm home independent on meds that took three years to come right but it has its supreesed...Go asap get a assessment try and face it its shit having a mental illness but its the only way..This disease is a total body run down really your heart is affected as our many of the bodies systens... Please go and take med stay safe.
this just happened to me, ad it made me sad.
I love you so much right now. I was never told this and thought I was convinced I had early onset dementia. Wow
I love your video's I've watched a couple today. I have memory problems after dealing with severe/chronic depression (I don't have bipolar disorder but Idk bc I'm not diagnosed and never have been to a psychiatrist) These video really are educating especially your life update one you just posted which brought me here. I feel like I've discovered something worthwhile and could convince my family to take me to the docor's before my brain gets too rewired and unfixable from the depression. Let's hope !
i have a 4 month memory gap from the start of this year when i was depressed :(((((
stay strong y'all
I find myself constantly repeating the major events of the past verbally so I don't loose site of where I've been. But most of the gaps between those times and now are gone.
OOOO IT IS NICE TO KNOW SOME OF THE REASONING BEHIND WHY IT TAKES ME SO LONG TO PROCESS THINGS AND FIND WORDS WHEN I'M TRYING TO WRITE OR TALK
I feel crazy and like no one believes me when I talk about this memory loss, but luckily the few people who've known me for years and have witnessed this happen to me believe me
Same problem
I am always so ashamed that I can't speak probably because I forget words and what I was talking about in the middle of the sentence. I'm always like hawing (is that the right word), stuttering and mumbling. It's quite relieving that is also a symptom of Depression or Bipolar II which I'm suffering from. I forget so much! The funniest insiders with friends, what somebody told me no matter how important, forget tasks and forget plenty of stuff of my past. Thank you very much!
same here
Thank you for sharing. I have bipolar type 1 and the whole brainfog, memory loss thing I've mentioned over the years but not really got much help/support back that I can recall 😋
This is literally what I have been through. Thank you for sharing
Thanks Lizzie. That was good stuff. I just got diagnosed BP as well. Nice to know I'm not alone. And I'm Catholic too!!
Same happened to me, during my depression I had a lot of memory issue, I always felt disconnected with my self. Quit with alcohol, quit with all meds at the moment. I am feeling really better at the moment.
Stefano Dozzo What did you do to get past it?
I'm very concerned, because I'm bipolar and start with the memory loss, but also a loss of my cognitive capacity, I cannot do a lot of things and my daily work start to be difficult for me.. I don't know if someone else experience this.
Also I read a study that this episodes and the memory loss it could turn into dementia in the long term..
I didn't know about this, dementia:(
I understand you with the physichiatrist thing. I have the sane problem. He is not willing to cope with my disease and i feel like its very hard for me to deal with because i dont always like to take the medication. Because of its secondary effects it has had on me. I am glad you found a good doctor though. My doctor is really good with me he just doesnt understands me or what i go through. I feel that with bipolar. Its something you have to go through to understand it. But i wish sometimes he was a lil more understandable with me... anyways i loved your video thanks for sharing stay strong we can get through it!!!!
This is so damn accurate. My memory loss is terrible and it doesn't help me at all in the military. I've been deployed for several months and as it is, every day runs together and feels like an endless monday; but I legitimately can't remember if we had done a patrol or any task for that matter, two weeks or two days before I think about the event. This video has helped explain a great deal so I thank you for it!
I really appreciate your videos. Thank you so much. It makes me feel so much better for some reason.
I was depressed for some seven years until I decided to get help. Over the last four years I've slowly regained lost memories all the way from being a baby to growing up as a kid as well as the good times in school.
Did you take medication? What kind?
Oh Jesus.. I have this!
I have memory loss short term and long term, from depression and anxiety, I left my med (zoloft) ten years ago and I stop going to the doctor, I think im living in automatic, but the memory loss is what is getting me worried, I dont want to start taking zoloft again, when I went to the doctor I never took CBT, just got my prescription and a little talk, she never told me I was depressed just the anxiety.
i did not know about the sleeping flip during depression :o thanks for the video!
Sleeping flip as in...? I am not English
Really well explained. I have the same but i have always found it traumatic until quite recently.
This may sound really crazy, but I really believe that your symptoms of bipolar depression would lessen if you would cover your head. As Christians, we should cover our heads when we pray and prophesy or teach like you do. The scripture in first Corinthian’s 11 tells us to do so because of the angels. I believe that we are attacked by spirits of the world when we do not head cover. I have done many videos on this very subject if you would like to check them out and see.
I've been diagnosed with Bipolar I and I have a lot memory gaps from both my manic and depressive episodes.
After a recent manic episode, I found a bunch of books on my shelf that I can't remember getting, When I looked at then more closely, I started having a deja vu feeling of having read them before.
oh this makes me feel better about forgetting names and faces. like i'll have the greatest conversation with someone and really want to be their friend then the next day i can't remember their name or face. and last week i just completely forgot that one of my classes assigns homework every day even though that's been the system for the entire year haha
For me at least, I can't specifically attribute memory loss as part of my bipolar, I still remember quite well about what I was feeling and thinking at the time, I still think about what happened to me and how I felt at the time. Something which I did quite a lot of when I was depressed and especially when I was manic was to write a lot which maybe contributed to me remembering what I did at the time.
I have forgotten the whole relationships. Like I will remember dating the guy but not much else. I will remember about 20% of an almost 2-year relationship at most. Gosh, it makes me feel dumb in public.
I have a poor memory anyway........... It's common for people with mental illnesses to forget their own name, and it's a major problem....... Like people at the psych ward will go into your room, and think it's their room. I had this stuffed animal that a friend gave me, and it would disappear and then reappear, it was actually funny, it's like, it's back.......... I try to keep a diary. I was so worried for you when I read your Twitter post. It says subscribed on my end.
im a newly diagnosed bipolar and chileee my memory has led me to leaving my keys in the car, forgetting where i put my belongings even if I just moved it, forgetting people names and faces . someone also told me i eems like the type of person who forgets the whole work day once they leave the premises to go home and i was thinking dang well your not wrong.
me too and I was worried it was just cause I was a bad friend... I don't remember much at all from highschool on. It's really difficult to pull memories out. I just had a manic episode and can't remember the last few days at all. Worried me so I searched it and found this vid.. feeling better...
Thx for the content. Try making an outline & pausing between thoughts. It’s coming across a bit manic. But, I appreciate the insight
Omg I needed this thank you
TBH I am going through that right now. I do feel like I'm losing my memories.
I would say my memories are state dependent, i remember things happened in that state before, selectively. This issue makes me really sad, because as I also drastically change my looks to the point that people dont recognize me, and i dont remember anything, i lose ANY touch with the past self...
That was really interesting because I actually used to date this girl who actually had bipolar disorder and also my aunt also has bipolar disorder as well. And I didn't know any of that at all. Also my ex actually took tons of medications for her conditions.
I have had moments When I'm walking up to a group of people talking and the closer I get the more I can hear them talking and the louder they become to the point I'm virtually stood with them trying my best to understand the words they're saying and I am convinced they're speaking in a foreign language until I literally focus on their mouths and slowly almost like turning the tuning knob on an old radio the voices join together until eventually I can understand them and realise they've been speaking English all the time.
Sometimes and it's getting more and more regular is I see people I see everyday at work. I have done for over 10yrs I for no reason forget their names and they say "Hi." and my mind suddenly freezes and says I know I know them but i can't remember their names and I have to just say "Hi Mate." and I'm so embarrassed and hope they don't realise that I can't remember their name.
This can go on for about a fortnight until for no reason I either hear their name called or I suddenly remember it myself.
Does anybody else ha e these problems?
My sleep is completely messed up right now. I need to take my meds at 9 p.m. every night so I get my sleep back to normal. The problem is, I will not wake up until 2 p.m. in the afternoon, go back to sleep around 5 p.m., wake up around 8 something, and then I'm up until 1!! I know that's not normal. I was sleep deprived in high school, I've never had a normal sleep schedule for more than 6 months.
I thought I was the only one going through something like. Now I know that it's happening because of depression. I feel like I can't learn or remember anything new anymore. It's like my mind is resisting to learn or remember anything new anymore. The more I try to remember or recall something the more I forget. There's like a hollow in my memories. I completely can't remember few parts of my life.
Exactly the same happens to me!
How are you now? Please respond any of you, guys.
@@andressstyle6390 I am alive but things are still the same😔
Dude I had a manic episode,couple months ago. I lost like 10 hours! I don't even know how. I remember coming to reality and it was 10...I was like am or pm!!?? 😳A couple months ago. That one was harsh. And scary. I didnt know what I did for hours..I opened my eyes, I was sitting up in a chair..how could I have slept? I can't ever sleep up in a chair! Never. That's what scared me more about it. At least I woke up safe in my house. Ya I looked outside my window and it was day light. I was so confused. And yes I do forget people too and things. I also do the picture and note thing !!
I don't remember most of my life. Never knew it was a symptom of bipolar. Do you remember the bits in-between episodes? Or is it all a bit blurry?
thank you , your videos really helped me
Have you ever recorded a video while in the state of depression or while in a manic state so your viewers could see what it’s like?
Ya nobody believes that I have memory issues because of my depression and I get yelled at a lot because they assume I’m making excuses and it makes my depression worse 😥😔😭
I have bad short term memory and recall issues after having psychomotor retardation
The memory still hasn't really come back I'm just hoping that long term this issue solves
I only realized my memory was a problem when a coworker asked what I did on my birthday. And when they asked me it was only 2 days before. And I could not think of it at all. I don’t remember anything if I don’t have a photo or wrote it down. I had to withdraw from college because I was failing classes because I couldn’t remember shit
How are you now??
I never thought that bcoz of depression one day I will be so short of my memory that I will forget the next day that something had been decided to remain a secret a previous day by my group of friends including me. And I m not a trustworthy person anymore.
i was hypomanic the first time i saw my psychiatrist.. fast forward 6 weeks to our next appointment and i didn't recognise his face or personality D:
Lizzie, have you considered CBD oil for your bipolar? Research is showing very positive results!
Please refer to this video: th-cam.com/video/rjJtsByF4_M/w-d-xo.html I wish you'd commented this two days earlier, you would've made the video too!
Oh... sorry if I offended you in any way. I was just asking if you'd looked into it...
Honestly I'm a little hurt that you're lumping my question in with things like "Have you tried praying it away? You don't really seem depressed, etc" .... CBD is *real* medicine. I encourage you to do some research... I only suggested it because you're an intelligent, research-based person. I'm not suggesting you rub crystals all over your body lmao
I'm bipolar and an herbalist. I've tried CBD. It definitely doesn't help the side effects of bipolar, but it doesn't hurt either. CBD does not help you snap out of mania or depression, but with constant use over a long time it can help sooth inflammation in the brain that can lead to these episodes. I've managed to get off all my meds for my health problems with the use of CBD and cannabis, but I still take meds for my bipolar disorder. Also, CBD is A LOT MORE EXPENSIVE than cannabis with THC, which is kind of pricey anyway. The thing about Medical Marijuana is that, its still weed, and people still use it for fun. The people who make medicinal products still sell them for recreational use at a much higher frequency than they do for the medical side, thus contributing to the capitalist market. Using CBD as an herbal medication has a long way to go, and at this point, anti-inflamitories from a doctor that you can use your insurance on, or other herbal supplements like valerian root and turmeric, that are taxed as food items, is a much better deal than being ripped off by the dispensaries. Change has to come from within the cannabis using community to support medical research and to become less income driven. Once more medical and herbal doctors are welcomed into the MMJ industry, we might start seeing some change, but not currently. Sometimes blazing some indica helps sooth the panic, if you can deal with the depression it can cause as a side affect, but it doesn't help with the brain fog or memory loss, and Sativa strains will make a Bipolar person manic. Weed affects the bipolar brain differently than it does "normal people" and can sometimes cause self harm and hospitalization, so any bipolar people out there, USE WITH CAUTION! Also, in Lizzy's defense, I'm sure she's tried everything to cure herself more than once.
I been taking that and its not working
I’ve been top of my class at number 5 for all four years of high school. Except the last month or two. That’s when every second I felt like I was gonna end it then and there and everything was out of touch. Ive always had thoughts and been depressed and out of touch but that last year was the year I thought. I dropped to 24 in the last month. My friend now makes fun of me and calls me dumb. Says I’m lazy. Says I’m stupid. I know he’s joking a bit but it sticks. Look at me. I was top of my class always reading, studying, participating in extracurriculars. Now I can never focus and I’m considered dumb and lazy.
No one chose to have mental problems. Go easy on yourself.
How are you doing now? Omg, the life is so unfair for some of us...
I was also told that everyone has glutamate in their brain but people with bipolar have high levels when manic, which causes brain damage
I've never heard of that!! I'll look it up!!
Oh my god, this is new to me, but this is my biggest problem. No memories of blocks of time during either phase
Your amazing everything your saying is so true it’s scary so very scary I wish I could meet you lol God is good trust me
Thank you so much. I’m going through this now. 😟😣
Someone I know has type 1 rapid cycling with psychotic features. They've had so many episodes that they're losing memory and getting brain damage. They're close to being institutionalized
May i aask how are they now
i thought i was crazy and maybe my meds, thank you for this video
You think about what you thought at a certain moment, it's really hard
Lizzie what is the name of the medication you take to help you with the memory lost? I'm experiencing the same thing. I need help!
Do you get headaches on back neck when experience memory dysfunction problem during mania and depression. I
May i ask what do you mean ?
sometimes i feel problem in spelling english words too...can u plz say what is this??? i was worried to have dementia bt i don’t have any other sign n my doctor told me that as m only 20 so its impossible to have dementia in this age...so plz clarify