4 MAJOR symptoms of narcissistic relationships

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  • @gypsygirl6010
    @gypsygirl6010 ปีที่แล้ว +237

    "It's fatiguing to constantly be future faking yourself." It's soul-sucking. 100%

    • @textme.0083
      @textme.0083 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      To catch your cheating spouse

    • @douglasusrey
      @douglasusrey ปีที่แล้ว +4

      or the beatings, them stealing, lying, and threatening to steal my kid too! it's been a long road out of hell!

    • @victoriavitoroulis3273
      @victoriavitoroulis3273 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      We speak about the narc future faking us .. I think I future faked myself into a 35 yr narc thinking it’ll change ..

    • @CobCeo
      @CobCeo ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I have never been so tired or slept so little. I cannot sleep over 4 hours at a time most days.

    • @gypsygirl6010
      @gypsygirl6010 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@CobCeo I have resorted to Ativan, CBD/THC, Advil PM, and Benedryl. I alternate days so I don't develop a habit, but without them I wake up at 2:30-3:00 AM every night and can't go back to sleep. I have been racking my brain trying to figure out if something happened at this time that I'm trying to remember.

  • @elizabethd.2398
    @elizabethd.2398 ปีที่แล้ว +367

    I had adrenal fatigue all through high school because I was being bullied at home and in school. I dealt with it by going to sleep when I got home in the afternoon. I was obviously depressed from all of the abuse and stress. But thank God I didn’t turn to drugs and alcohol - I just slept to escape the horrors. I’ve been no-contact with my narcissistic family for 10 years now. Despite the HELL I’ve gone through for being their scapegoat - I’m living a pretty good life now. 🙏

    • @denisethompson1257
      @denisethompson1257 ปีที่แล้ว +26

      Exactly what I went through 😢Bullied at school and home. No peace anywhere.

    • @Mister_Listener
      @Mister_Listener ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Yes, i was bullied at home for being gay, so when the kids on the playground started, it seemed normal for me.

    • @denisethompson1257
      @denisethompson1257 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      @@Mister_Listener I'm so sorry. Has it gotten any better for you?

    • @Mister_Listener
      @Mister_Listener ปีที่แล้ว +12

      @@denisethompson1257 well hard to say. I am happiest now than i have ever been and i feel joy more easily, but i am best when i stay home alone as i always worry if i come across like all those awful names Mom and Dad called me when i was bullied, if that makes sense? Life was difficult for me until i cut off all of my relatives, because nobody took my side after a large confrontation at a funeral. That was the final straw and it has been about 6 years but my career has definitely faltered and failed out and stalled. Wish i could afford therapy. What about you? It is impossible to heal when it is coming from home base, i am just hopeful i can keep finding happiness.

    • @Mister_Listener
      @Mister_Listener ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Elizabeth--glad to hear you are good 10 years away from them. I am about 6 years free from them, and things are starting to look better for me. It was a rebuilding process for me once i told them to eff off, so i look forward to a really great life someday.

  • @lindajohnsonkaplan647
    @lindajohnsonkaplan647 ปีที่แล้ว +150

    A husband did a weekly airing of the grievances at marriage counseling, the wife couldn’t do or say the right thing and was unable to “meet his needs” (which was the most common complaint. After listening week after week to the endless complaints the marriage counselor finally asked him
    “Do you think you’re meeting her needs?”
    No response for several minutes. It hadn’t occurred to him because the wife had long ago stopped asking for anything.
    Then he said
    “She keeps throw pillows on the sofa and wants me to put them back when I take them off. They’re just in the way and shouldn’t be there”. That’s it. Throw pillows. And he couldn’t even accommodate that.
    When the couple got home the wife removed the throw pillows and put them in a closet for storage. The husband came into the living room and was furious that the throw pillows were gone and called the wife “passive aggressive”.
    Tip: These people refuse to be pleased. Ever. Stop trying and get away from them.

    • @onmywayto8083
      @onmywayto8083 ปีที่แล้ว +29

      You just described my "marriage" to a T. I put the throw pillows away a long time ago and don't ask for ANYTHING anymore. And he wonders why he doesn't " get any sex". Well.... " Because that's the ONLY thing you want to do together so, no thanks"

    • @TheXtrafresh
      @TheXtrafresh ปีที่แล้ว +13

      @@onmywayto8083 An observation: "Why am I not getting any sex?" is it's own answer. If sex is something you "get", you should just go pay for it. In a healthy relationship, you *have* sex, together. You know, because both of you want to.
      Sex is not a dogtreat to reward good behavior, or to be withheld for punishment. I'm in the situation where my partner both punishes me by not having sex AND complains about the lack of it. It's baffling.
      Disclaimer: if you don't want to, you don't. No reason needed. There are almost no rules in sex, besides it always being optional for all parties.

    • @onmywayto8083
      @onmywayto8083 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@TheXtrafresh an observation: you seem to be sexually frustrated! Why don't you focus on YOU, and not come at me with your unwanted and unneeded comment. If you notice, my comment was about my life and my relationship. Your comment seems to be based around someone else's life. You don't know me or my situation, so I would say you are making serious ASSumptions. Also, I see some reading comprehension issues on your end 🤪
      There is a saying.... If you have nothing nice to say, don't say it at all.

    • @MsJanetLouise
      @MsJanetLouise ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Maybe the reason one doesn't want to be intimate is bc they're being manipulated by their narc. For many years I didn't understand why I had no desire for intimatcy and was told and thought I had the problem UNTIL I realized my spouse was a manipulative narc! I even felt guilty and started being intimate anyway, but he'd argue that it was less frequent than it really was! I would've made out a receipt and had him Sign off on it but knew he'd never do that as they deny things even if you show proof...

    • @bradsutton4021
      @bradsutton4021 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      My wife and I tried marriage counseling and the counselor and it was on video chat said okay. I'm going to give each y'all 5 to 10 minutes to talk about what happened this past week. Please do not interrupt each other who would like to go first and I let my wife go first. I sat there and patiently listened to her. Totally tear me up and down a lot with lies but just basically bitching about me constantly. When the time was up it was my turn. I could not get through the first sentence without her already jumping and talking over me. I reminded her I was quiet during her talk. It was her turn to be quiet. So I continue to talk and then she got mad and started yelling at me and left and went outside. Then I decided okay. Why don't we do it separately? I do 30 minutes and you do 30 minutes because I'm trying to make a solution here. Well it took about two sessions and she charmed the pants off of this therapist and he revealed some stuff that I told him about feelings I had and she used them right against me. I was specific with him about telling him her stuff because she uses my vulnerabilities as weapons against me. I was very upset at this therapist and we never used him since

  • @josieparsons3355
    @josieparsons3355 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    1. Fatigue
    2. Self doubt
    3. Shame
    4. Depression

    • @Sara-zf7ig
      @Sara-zf7ig 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Experienced all of the above

    • @maryyoung4046
      @maryyoung4046 20 วันที่ผ่านมา

      @@Sara-zf7ig me too and some of them now also.

    • @bereal6590
      @bereal6590 15 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      Yes and when you hit rock bottom they kick you while you're down. Blame you for not being string enough.

    • @mohammednasir3156
      @mohammednasir3156 7 วันที่ผ่านมา

      The worst part it they suggest you to see a shrink like you created your own mental breakdown

  • @FatFrogChonk
    @FatFrogChonk ปีที่แล้ว +97

    I'm dealing with the fallout of my deadly relationship.
    That relationship completely broke me. I was a very active person who socialized and could keep up a conversation before I met him.
    It broke me to the point where I lost hair from stress and became bedridden.
    I never once drank or used substances until I couldn't deal with the extreme stress he put me through.
    I find it difficult to talk to people, even about normal subjects.
    The shame I felt every time I took him back got to the point where I wouldn't tell people, and I would hide it because I knew he would leave me again eventually, and I didn't want the embarrassment.
    I am forcing myself to go to the gym everyday, even if I go for a small amount of time. I used to go 2-3 hours a day, now I can't even handle a few minutes without feeling drained.
    The fatigue and lack of interest in life are the worst symptoms in my opinion.

    • @TheKrispyfort
      @TheKrispyfort ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Emotional and psychological pain are processed in the same part of the brain as bodily pain. Pain be pain.
      Motivation relies on your ability to prioritise, which relies on emotions.
      If you're in so much pain that your brain defends itself by going numb, you no longer have emotion, leading to no ability to prioritise, so no motivation, and everything is then a struggle which is exhausting.
      Does this help you understand what's happening with the body part known as your brain?
      I've heard - yet to try - that massage therapy can help release the emotion so it is properly processed. Only if that's something you are okay with. Might not work for everyone

    • @FatFrogChonk
      @FatFrogChonk ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@TheKrispyfort Thank you for your explanation, it does make sense. I will explore massage therapy because nothing else has worked.

    • @FatFrogChonk
      @FatFrogChonk ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@rachmcd160 Walking helps once in a while for me, but I find it difficult to even leave the house. Luckily I have a dog who pushes me out of the house, so I have no choice unless someone else is around.
      I will explore the more alternative therapies, even though I don't exactly believe in most of them. Acupuncture/acupressure/massage therapy is probably what I will try.

    • @CobCeo
      @CobCeo ปีที่แล้ว +6

      I am just discovering I have attracted narcissists also and have one I am married to rn, the trickiest one yet. What you said above rings so true for me. You are not alone. This also changed me. I haven't had a friend or spoken to over 10 people outside my immediate family in the last 5 years. have never been a person to bite my lip, and that started the day the denigration phase began, 6 years ago. I have always been able to sleep, and now I cannot stay asleep for over 4 hours, even though I made my own room years ago. I am glad I found this doctor and I am starting to formulate exit plans. But I am paralyzed with indecision and lack of options. He controls everything and is the only one that works outside the home.

    • @tatianateixeira8163
      @tatianateixeira8163 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@CobCeo I was in the same situation until 2 weeks ago... I knew he wouldn't let me go if I decided to, also not working because he was always exploding around the subject, no friends whatsoever, horrible... I was NOTHING like that... moved countries ALONE 3 times, and in the beginning of the year I couldn't even manage to go to the supermarket, panic attacks... I bought some plastic boxes for moving after a fight he told me to leave the house, one month after I delivered my apartment to the landlord... but I was living there basically since July when I stopped working, there was always a tantrum for me to go to my freaking house.... Then I put an expiration date of a year, well that was March, now August... I started to talk back, very behaved but talking back and not agreeing with the stuff, then he broke up with me and I said yes... it's messy....
      If I can offer a tip, get the boxes (excuse for storage and organisation), start making a list of what you need, and check if there's any crisis centre for women in your city... it's hard to get to their door, but it helps loads... they know exactly how stuff goes in these relationships and have all the steps to help you, it's very comforting really... Totally recommend!

  • @FostersImposter1
    @FostersImposter1 ปีที่แล้ว +148

    Please know that each of your videos help others. Personally, I really wonder where the hell I would be at this point if I hadn't found you online. Please know that you have profoundly helped me understand that narcissism really is a thing, how it impacts us, and how we can heal. I thank God I found you. Seriously.❤

    • @js92607
      @js92607 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Absolutely right!! Same goes for me!💖

    • @tidycoat
      @tidycoat ปีที่แล้ว +4

      And me as well…I feel so empowered now that I know what I was dealing with all these years thx to Dr Ramani❤

    • @rterrigino
      @rterrigino ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I so agree!!! I'm stuck still married (but seperated for 6 years) due to my health and financial reasons.... and... I have nowhere to go, and if I did, noone who could help me leave. I've learned so much from Dr. Ramani. She's opened my eyes to sooo much. Up to and including the toxic traits in myself, that have come from childhood trauma/abuse, and childhood and adult sexual abuse.

    • @cindybates6633
      @cindybates6633 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Exactly what I am feeling now knowing more about narcissism. A true life saver. Thank you Doc!

    • @beverlyadams7205
      @beverlyadams7205 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Me too ❤

  • @costelloandlizzievolk2233
    @costelloandlizzievolk2233 ปีที่แล้ว +144

    For me, the ‘depression’ I’ve felt after severe stress and narcissistic abuse, is exhaustion, hurt, pain, disappointment, despair, discouragement, hopelessness and helplessness etc…from it all after trying so hard only to be so mistreated traumatized and wounded. What I now know is that these are perfectly normal feelings for being so wounded traumatized and stressed in that way. Grateful for the self care tools I’ve learnt and the support I have with therapy and these programs to help me heal and manage it all. Thank you Dr Ramani. ❤

    • @bfortruthtoday2470
      @bfortruthtoday2470 ปีที่แล้ว

      @costelloandlizzievolk2233 This looks like the scammer. Dr. Ramani did a video on it about a year ago. It’s called beware of the scammer on my TH-cam channel. I could be wrong and I’m not telling you what to do but this is just a heads up. Be careful out there. All the best.

    • @DeborahOlander
      @DeborahOlander ปีที่แล้ว +6

      You certainly described my world. I wish all the skills I've learned helped more.

    • @naturalist369
      @naturalist369 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Yes it's true we all go through this & the self care tools & self care period, must be our new & everpresent focus moving forward , now that we know what we know! It is so very helpful to have Dr. Ramani & all the support on here of those who truly understand & are willing to share their insights & experiences . Thank you 💞🙏🏼 😇🌟🎶🕊️💫

  • @shookm8890
    @shookm8890 ปีที่แล้ว +65

    “The grief and disappointment to learn things at 40 that have probably should have easily shown to you when you were 5”….. thank you for expressing my tortured soul 🥺 7:15

  • @barbwinters1693
    @barbwinters1693 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I just broke out crying as you say it exactly like it is and has been for many years.

  • @SS-jw9mm
    @SS-jw9mm ปีที่แล้ว +39

    So true about societal judgment. No one supports people going through narcissistic abuse in marriage. It’s makes it even harder to get away.

    • @maryyoung4046
      @maryyoung4046 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

      The abuse that is more prevalently recognized seems to me to be the physical abuse rather than the non physical abuse.

    • @mohammednasir3156
      @mohammednasir3156 7 วันที่ผ่านมา

      The Smear campaign combined with crocodile tear is the worst that is why you get judged cos they are perfect in lying and play victim your own family disown you

  • @nicolew4738
    @nicolew4738 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    I got out and I feel great. No more headache and fatigue. No more self denial and self neglect. I have more friends, love, and joy than ever. There is hope for something better.

    • @karinbernhardt8747
      @karinbernhardt8747 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      And tulips from Amsterdam , dear Nicole🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷 feel so happy for you. Wish you the best life there is👍✌🍀🌼👌💜 Karin

  • @JennBartie
    @JennBartie 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    The energy ur brain burns even just anticipating the narcs presence at a later time, itself is exhausting then during and after each encounter.

  • @scottnewcomb4230
    @scottnewcomb4230 ปีที่แล้ว +81

    My narc wife repeatedly told me that I was an unwelcome guest in my own home. You talked about many aspects of my life with her. I am free now (she stormed out and left) and healing. Thank you for this video. Scott

    • @LoveBeliefTruth
      @LoveBeliefTruth ปีที่แล้ว

      Lucky you she left! Usually the male narcs use violence to keep women trapped in home.

    • @vickieevans9323
      @vickieevans9323 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Every man I married moved in to my home, 'cause of course, they had none and I was a rescuer, way to empathetic certainly for my own good, however those guys found ways to make me unwelcome in my own home! and then gaslight me for having a home!!!! for them to live in!!! I hope you joy and some peace from this time forward, learn from these videos so at the very least we can see whats coming🙂

    • @SlicedInPosts
      @SlicedInPosts ปีที่แล้ว +1

      She’ll be back.

    • @JaffaCakes-c7d
      @JaffaCakes-c7d ปีที่แล้ว

      ​@@SlicedInPostshe should change the locks and go grey rock method on her. His mental and physical health is more important

    • @JaffaCakes-c7d
      @JaffaCakes-c7d ปีที่แล้ว

      ​@@vickieevans9323my sister in law did this. She was a nightmare for us all to live with. It was like we were treading on egg shells constantly cos she was so mean. It's amazing how she has no self awareness of it all.. It also amazing that she's a psychologist.

  • @raceyrenee205
    @raceyrenee205 ปีที่แล้ว +536

    Marriage shouldn't be a prison

    • @chillyinchile
      @chillyinchile ปีที่แล้ว +31

      Narcissistics should be in jail

    • @KoolT
      @KoolT ปีที่แล้ว +16

      Dateline teaches us MARRIAGE leads to murder😂😂😂😂😂❤

    • @rickybobby9797
      @rickybobby9797 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      People today simply don’t take marriage seriously. Nor do they think it takes any “work” to maintain their marriage. Very few people experience “actual” narcissistic relationships. Chances are it is the persons own baggage that is making them feel this way.

    • @InvisibleBorderline
      @InvisibleBorderline ปีที่แล้ว +33

      Don’t listen to some of the folks in the comments. That one comment was absolutely spoken like a narcissist

    • @ONNHA-qm1bl
      @ONNHA-qm1bl ปีที่แล้ว +17

      Sigh.....17+ years of it. And still scared to leave now as I was then. The domineering and controlling and bossy and manipulative and hateful responses when they don't get their way. "IT IS WHAT IT IS" "YOU'LL GET OVER IT" I KNOW THAT YOU'RE NOT GETTING SMART WITH MEEEEEE" "I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU THINK YOU'RE TALKING TO"
      I've lost myself years ago. And yes "more than enough" is exhausting. I am just existing in the matrix. Their system and demands and never being good enough puts me in a constant fight or flight mode

  • @redlikewineagain697
    @redlikewineagain697 ปีที่แล้ว +120

    This reminds me of leaving a job I was at for 1.5 years. It seemed more like 10 years. I was working for a bunch of narcissists. I remember my first days on my new job and I was experiencing brain fog and I couldn't understand why my memory was not good because my memory was always great. I was also really tense because I worried about making mistakes. I was so nervous around my new supervisor but she was so understanding. She never gave me a hard time about any of it. She was very patient, which then helped me to relax, and then my memory returned to normal after a bit of time and the tension released. This is such an affirming video. Thank you for your self-disclosure, Dr. Ramani. It's great to have both professional and personal experience. We know you truly get it.

    • @elipotter369
      @elipotter369 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Job situations can be so toxic and wear us down without realising. I told a family member to not stay in a job she was being bullied in. She thought she could handle it, but eventually finally left. It wasn't until she felt teary when her next boss was kind & positive, she realised how bad it was and how it had eaten away at her and warped what was "normal ".

    • @KoolT
      @KoolT ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Oh yes, people will be so worried they can't think straight.

    • @DaveJohnson-Php
      @DaveJohnson-Php ปีที่แล้ว +11

      This explains why I did so poorly in school and left school. I returned as an adult to get a 4.0 GPA

    • @lynylcullen8370
      @lynylcullen8370 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Sad to say however your story makes me feel better.. I’m not the only one who has experienced these reactions. I’ve never been so full of “self doubt” when around all that toxic energy!

    • @maytheforcebewithyou4313
      @maytheforcebewithyou4313 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      You describe me perfectly. Spent 30 yrs fixing me finally 3 yrs ago no contact.

  • @maggiepie8810
    @maggiepie8810 ปีที่แล้ว +189

    I'm starting to wonder how often substance use disorders become a way to cope with narcissistic abuse.

    • @Seeker0fTruth
      @Seeker0fTruth ปีที่แล้ว +24

      I would say absolutely substances are OFTEN used to help partners of narcissists survive the hell they must endure. It’s very damaging in my opinion to focus more heavily on substance abuse than it is to inquire and be interested in the reasons why a person feels the need to reach for such substances.

    • @maggiepie8810
      @maggiepie8810 ปีที่แล้ว +24

      @Seeker0fTruth For me, it's been binge eating more than substances, but I feel as if there's so little understanding when it comes to how people dealing with narcissistic abuse are perceived. It's all about how they're the problem, not the abuser.

    • @medusaslair
      @medusaslair ปีที่แล้ว +7

      It's not a way to cope with in particular narcissistic abuse. Substance use is a coping mechanism for ALL kinds of abuse and trauma, there's plenty of scientific material on this. Also, substance use is not a disorder.

    • @maggiepie8810
      @maggiepie8810 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      @medusaslair I know that substance dependency is always a coping mechanism. Substance use is always a symptom of something else. By substance use disorder, I mean someone who's depending on substances to cope to the point where it's doing damage to their health/personal life.

    • @gypsygirl6010
      @gypsygirl6010 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      Absolutely! I myself started drinking a glass of wine while making dinner as a way of preparing for my now-ex husband to get home. My boys even noted how calm the house was when he would go away for the weekend. *Shocker* 2/3 of my kids struggle with anxiety as well.

  • @cathycarr8085
    @cathycarr8085 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    Once you made a comment about not getting it until you are 70, well that’s me. At first I felt same that I had such a wasted life, that’s really helpful, right! I am the scapegoat, empathetic daughter of a narcissist, heroin addict/speed freak mother. The fact that I am present wanting knowledge and healing is a miracle.

    • @cathycarr8085
      @cathycarr8085 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I’m tired of feeling shame . We get our lessons when we’re ready. Happy healing.

    • @catherine3249
      @catherine3249 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Happy healing 💗

  • @JohnKotch
    @JohnKotch ปีที่แล้ว +19

    I went through the Fog for years. Short term memory was almost nonexistence. I spent all my energy trying to keep the train on the tracks. I am working hard, but little by little I am getting better. There is hope after getting away from the abuse. Dr. Ramani, I can't thank you enough. God bless your beautiful soul.

  • @Havenkuleva
    @Havenkuleva ปีที่แล้ว +13

    The depression has been soul crushing. Escaped my narcissistic husband only to fall back at home with narcissistic parents because of financial stress. It took a miracle to pull out of that, in the form of an informed therapist who helped me recognize the narcissism in my parents. Slowly building life back better than I never had it, but process is, like I said, slow.

    • @soniahathaway1
      @soniahathaway1 ปีที่แล้ว

      Well done, you will make it. We are survivors and we are strong. ❤

    • @cheekytitaable
      @cheekytitaable ปีที่แล้ว

      Going through exactly the same thing

    • @chrisrendino1529
      @chrisrendino1529 ปีที่แล้ว

      Glad you got help. I’ve been there too.

  • @tragimelody
    @tragimelody ปีที่แล้ว +4

    The last part of this video made me realize there was virtually no significant period in my life in which I wasn't trying to accomodate a narcissistic man's moods. No wonder I've been depressed and suicidal since childhood...
    I am now living on my own for the first time at 25 and it's simultaneously strange and refreshing to look out for myself only.

  • @beverlyadams7205
    @beverlyadams7205 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Today I’m beginning to realize a dream I’ve had since I was 10 years old. I’m 75. I’ve always wanted to play the piano. I’m finally going to realize that dream. My keyboard will be delivered by FedEx today. I don’t know yet how I’ll take lessons, but I know I’ll figure it out. Thank you Dr. Ramani, watching your videos for almost a year has brought me to this place. Thank you.❤

    • @shsummers
      @shsummers 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      I hope your piano lessons are going well, and that you're loving the learning process.

    • @beverlyadams7205
      @beverlyadams7205 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@shsummers thank you for the support. I appreciate it so much.❤

    • @shsummers
      @shsummers 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@beverlyadams7205 I'm 61, and I started guitar two years ago, and began watercolor painting last year. Creativity washes away the dirt and grime from the soul. God bless.

  • @slloyd4278
    @slloyd4278 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    Dr Ramini you have been my educator in the past 3 months & I than God for your channel!!!
    I am a therapist but had narcissistic parents & ex husband.
    U validate me every time I listen to what you share.
    Many thanks for your amazing work!❤

  • @denisedevoto5703
    @denisedevoto5703 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    My personal experience with depression has been a life long struggle. I remember not wanting to be alive when I was 4 years old. Of course, I had also been told my whole life that I was irritable and depressed. My dad calls me a PITA. When I was married to my second husband, my psychiatrist prescribed Deplin for an MTHFR mutation which causes low serotonin levels. Once I divorced my husband in 2018, and went no contact with my family at the same time, I realized that I am not a depressed person. I still take the Deplin, but I am not sad and angry anymore. It took getting rid of all the toxic and abusive people in my family for me to stop being depressed. I highly recommend kicking all the toxic people in your life to the curb. The sooner the better.

  • @HipHop-vg7cd
    @HipHop-vg7cd ปีที่แล้ว +16

    I'm that lady in the story who packed her treasures away. It's as is you were speaking directly to me about my life! I can't thank you enough for all of your wisdom and advice, truly 🙏💯❤️

  • @ritatharp5238
    @ritatharp5238 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Thank you Dr. Ramani, I say, "not making a decision, IS making a decision".

  • @C.D.J.Burton
    @C.D.J.Burton 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Just to think of how much I've learned through Ramani, prompts me to imagine just how many other people she's helped, the hundreds of thousands of people she's saved from toxic romantic, workplace and family relationships, maybe even millions! There's no doubt in my mind that she's the primary reason for helping those in need, and that the difference she's made is likely uncomprehendable. What a saint, she needs a a statue erected somewhere... or everywhere!

  • @audbaltzersenrameckers8832
    @audbaltzersenrameckers8832 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    This about depression is so enlightning. When I look back I see how I went in and out of depression being around my narc mom, my narc abusive ex-husband, and some other short relationships and my last relationship with a narcissist. I am slowly starting to do things I enjoy again 🙌🌳💖🩵🦉 It took me 53 years to understand. Turning 54 in March. I have been so exhausted. But it all makes sense. Thankfully my couple therapist knew alot about narsissists. Thank you Dr. Ramani your videos are so enlightning and I discover new aha moments everytime ❤❤🙌

  • @lynylcullen8370
    @lynylcullen8370 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    THANK YOU!! I keep telling my therapist how exhausted I am. Plus she says I’m too distracted. My thoughts do not flow as ordered as in the past.
    But no matter what I have tried it wasn’t working.
    Now I know (THANKS TO YOU!…)that I’m not “loosing it” and my memory issues are not unusual nor MY FAULT!
    I’m going to follow your suggestions.
    It is very frustrating to be exhausted all the time. And adds more SHAME to the recovery process.
    Beautiful work again.
    I’m grateful for the education you have provided. Keep up the enthusiasm and know you are valued!

    • @KoolT
      @KoolT ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Sounds like dissonances from worrying

    • @lynylcullen8370
      @lynylcullen8370 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@KoolT - I’ll have to do more research on dissidence and talk to my therapist too.

  • @SAD-ij8in
    @SAD-ij8in ปีที่แล้ว +21

    I'm so grateful for my husband. We both have one narcissistic parent and brought narc behavior patterns into our marriage. But he was willing to change and we both spent time in therapy learning better communication patterns and better emotional maturity. I still see some of these grief patterns in us but it's because of our ongoing relationship with our narc parents but we no longer experience any of this between each other.

    • @mariastewart9861
      @mariastewart9861 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Reading this gives me so much hope! Thanks for sharing

  • @BratKid111
    @BratKid111 ปีที่แล้ว +45

    Dr. Ramani you have made such a difference in so many lives with these videos. I’m hoping you could maybe start a series to explain to friends and families of victims why their formerly outgoing full of life daughter can’t even call them once a week. My parents are 88 and I know how important it is I keep in touch but I find I just don’t seem to have the energy ever to pick up the phone I know it hurts my mom terribly because we suddenly lost my sister two years ago - something my mom still struggles with. I am 56 and 21 years married to what I think is a malignant narcissist. No hope for getting out and he’s pretty much taken over my life snd keeps his secret. Textbook mental, emotional and financial abuse. I have 1,000’s of hours of conversations recorded with his knowledge on advice of my GP should you need research material lol. Thank you again for all your hard work getting information on narcissism and narcissistic abuse out there for all to access free of charge. You saved my life literally. Big hugs 🤗

  • @michaela5202
    @michaela5202 ปีที่แล้ว +41

    Has anyone developed panic attacks and agoraphobia after narcissistic abuse?

    • @user-wi9hv2pb2q
      @user-wi9hv2pb2q ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Yes! there are some days I can't leave the house, despite crushing loneliness I feel like I literally cannot go outside or deal at all with the world.

    • @cherylu9716
      @cherylu9716 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I think I've gotten panic attacks, wheezing, hard time to breathe

    • @grunge_surf_witch_uk9130
      @grunge_surf_witch_uk9130 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Yes

    • @betsyrossispissedoff4259
      @betsyrossispissedoff4259 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I developed auto immune disease (Rheumatoid Arthritis) and chronic pain

    • @JR-zx8ll
      @JR-zx8ll 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      Yes, I experienced panic attacks regularly when I was around my narcissistic Mom and Sister, now I live 2 states away from them and no more panic attacks!!!

  • @Paula-eb1tt
    @Paula-eb1tt ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Learning in my 40s that my childhood was soaked with narcissistic abuse from all angles which overflowed into adulthood. Never trusted my choices and judgement became exhausting. Learning to relax, stretch, breathe, and look inward for life’s answers In my forties and fifties. Thankful for helpful Therapists, like Dr Ramani. The health issues associated with Narcissistic abuse may have ended me.

  • @meandi6042
    @meandi6042 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    It's heartbreaking and frustrating that this is my life. Thank you so much for being the voice and beacon of hope and for helping many navigate through the dark 💗

  • @cjkamm1897
    @cjkamm1897 ปีที่แล้ว +33

    Dr Ramini
    Just wanted to say self doubt is my biggest hurdle as well, so wanted to make sure you knew that you should never doubt your advice through these videos. They, as well as you, are what keeps me going. The world needs more Dr Ramani's.❤

    • @rachelc9180
      @rachelc9180 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I discovered today, that self doubt was also my stumbling block. I had no idea what was going on with me.

    • @frau_ic
      @frau_ic ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Narcs always diminish your Potential.

  • @Karisbarlowe
    @Karisbarlowe 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Thank you ❤
    I’m studying Maths at 41 and I feel to old to do it but listening to you validating my feelings will keep me going as I feel my Father bullied me calling me stupid every day and I’ve no qualifications and I dream about having a few….
    God bless you and thank you ❤ 💪

  • @HeatherSchlemmer
    @HeatherSchlemmer 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    I somehow knew my “depression “ was not true depression, it was narcissistic abuse!

  • @matilda1505
    @matilda1505 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    “ The fog “. Not only I didn’t experience fully what was happening, I have no memories of it.

  • @LuAnnAlderman
    @LuAnnAlderman ปีที่แล้ว +9

    OMG!! I am just recently learning about living with a narcissist!! This is SPOT on!! Thank you!

  • @denisedevoto5703
    @denisedevoto5703 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    I understand the constant doubting. But Dr. Ramani, you have been a major help to me going through my divorce and my healing. I have started writing a book too. Thank you so much for being one of the most positive influences in my life.

  • @nnnsandra
    @nnnsandra ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I went through 2 years of fatigue, high blood pressure, acid reflux, extreme back pain until I decided to leave because I saw that I was slowly loosing my life. My job was suffering, I could not take care of my children. I finally left and filed for divorce. The narc keeps changing terms and conditions and does not want to sign. I have also cut him off, he calls to talk to the children. I let him talk to his children but instead of talking to then he wants to abuse m through my child’s phone. I ignore him and don’t take the bait. I m less fatigued, brain fog is clearing, extreme back pain stopped, acid reflux under control and I hv recovered at work and at home. I sleep more and waiting patiently for d-day. I pray when I feel overwhelmed and it helps to keep me grounded. Counseling also helped and listening to dr Ramani.

  • @Lorraine611
    @Lorraine611 ปีที่แล้ว +34

    It takes one to know one. I’m really grateful to have you.
    Spelling it all out for us and on behalf of us.
    I really adore and honore you for being someone who turns your own negative experience into a good strong force outward to make the world a better place.

  • @honey-feeney9800
    @honey-feeney9800 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    You’re a wonderful mental health support team . Thank you .

  • @MicheleLHarvey
    @MicheleLHarvey ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This is sooo amazingly spot on! I've called it 'losing myself' to the narcissist. For more than 30 years I tried to be everything my person commanded, because every disagreement (become argument) ended with the "D" word (divorce.) "I'll leave you if..." was a daily refrain to control me, until a kindly therapist told me, "he'll NEVER" leave you!" That gave me the courage to begin standing up for myself. To this day that was a game-changer!

  • @naturalist369
    @naturalist369 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    You helped me realize my mother was a narcissist. I just thought she was mean. Good thing is I started meditating young, left home young & did very well for myself. Bad news, I'm such a happy giver I have only ever been with takers 😞 I've been doing my deep dive introspection ongoing for a long time is why I never stay in these relationships though I work at it way too hard for way too long. I'm getting close to indifference as this last one took me for alot & will take at least 30 months to dig my way out financially (I left my previous career related to narcissism affecting client care adversely)!
    One thing I know is I love me for who I am & am definitely worthy of abundance . I have always focused on efficacy but this is never ever noticed by any narc. I'm determined not to do this ever again !!! I am learning to enjoy my efficacy for myself in ways that I enjoy ! Thank you Dr.Ramani . Much Love & Light to you all 💞🙏🏼😇💖🕊️

  • @honey-feeney9800
    @honey-feeney9800 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    I think I I compromised quite a bit in my marriage . After chasing the OW out of our bedroom and the house, my soon to be divorced spouse told me I was uncompromising .
    In retrospect, I compromised so much that I had compromised my own sense of self . Talk about loosening one’s identity !!! Loosing my identity was the one major thing I had prided myself on retaining from my single life .
    This lecture is tremendously eye-opening .

  • @donnabohanon1570
    @donnabohanon1570 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Wow Dr. R your self doubt segment shook me to my core. You are wonderful at what you do.

  • @stephaniehepler8341
    @stephaniehepler8341 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    My mother in law once told me about my parenting, “it’s all your fault the kids are the way they are.” NO! It has never been my fault. I have always been the BEST most nurturing competent mother and am so proud of my amazing kids. And “how” exactly are my kids for her to say such a thing? It’s her fault & my husband’s fault that I am now broken & trying to leave this mess. My husband will try to turn the kids on me, even tho he is a withdrawn & unattentive father. My kids are growing up in a toxic abusive marriage. Her comment made me realize that this is the garbage my husband grew up with and got from her. He still took her side. No gratitude for all my love, time & energy. It’s never enough for a narcissist. Unattainable standards that can’t humanly be met. His life without me will be sad & pathetic. Good.

    • @jtowensbyiii6018
      @jtowensbyiii6018 หลายเดือนก่อน

      SeRious question, why did you have sex with him and have multiple kids with such scum?

    • @sablechicken
      @sablechicken 2 วันที่ผ่านมา

      ​@@jtowensbyiii6018 The narcissist hides their evil ways until their supply is trapped in marriage.

  • @karenbirckhead3101
    @karenbirckhead3101 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Thank you for the clear description of gaslighting-the deliberate denial of your reality that is DESIGNED to foster self doubt. THANK YOU!! I was even beginning to mistrust people and family members who I have loved and trusted for years because of a very toxic relationship. Thank God for deliverance and insight and FREEDOM! You are just the best Dr. Ramani!♥️

  • @elfinshell4758
    @elfinshell4758 ปีที่แล้ว +84

    I’m not even joking when I say this. Almost an hour of Dr Ramani’s wisdom is the best birthday gift I’ve had today.
    Thank you so much for sharing your knowledge with us all, and for free, at that! 💛

    • @cosmoshope3462
      @cosmoshope3462 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Happy Birthday🎉🎉🎉! I agree ! Her videos have literally saved my life ❤

    • @kirstinalphabet796
      @kirstinalphabet796 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Happy Birthday from Charleston,SC
      🥳🥳❤🍰🍭

    • @JazzyG1505
      @JazzyG1505 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Happy Birthday! I hope her knowledge is helping you heal. I left my Narc 10mos ago and her videos keep me from going back.

    • @pinkyproper6216
      @pinkyproper6216 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      happy birthday :)

    • @Luckymillion96
      @Luckymillion96 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      You can't explain " the theory of relativity" " or "narcissist abuse" in five minutes. Good stuff ❤️

  • @Stardusted1
    @Stardusted1 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    You hit the nail on the head TOTALLY. Again. Thank you.

  • @WuwuLemon
    @WuwuLemon ปีที่แล้ว +22

    I truly appreciate your authenticity and transparency in this video. As a professional with lived experience myself, it’s really empowering and inspiring to me and I’m sure many others! ❤

  • @jordanrice4533
    @jordanrice4533 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    I had fatigue so extreme I got a sleep study. I would literally sleep 8 hours a night, wake up and get my kids to school and go back to sleep for hours. It was a soul crushing relationship. I told one person, one, before I left him because I knew that person wouldn’t take his side. I’ve said all along to everyone that the hardest moment of my life was deciding to leave him, because I knew the ways I was blowing up my life, and I was terrified everyone would be upset with me. When I finally told everyone, they were so relieved at my decision. But I was and still am so ashamed I brought this person into their lives in the first place, because he’s not only disrupted mine but also a close family member and one of my best friends. I should have done more and listened to my inner gut a long time ago to avoid the abuse they also suffered.

    • @carensanns7916
      @carensanns7916 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I have been there, am there, slowly healing!

    • @mariastewart9861
      @mariastewart9861 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      The guilt is real. You didn’t know. That’s what makes narcissists so dangerous; they wear a mask until you’re on the hook

  • @bethmccall9254
    @bethmccall9254 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This might be your BEST video ever. It perfectly explains my life from birth to age 51.

  • @aprettylilhippie
    @aprettylilhippie 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Whenever I start to ruminate, I watch Dr. Ramani's videos and feel all better ❤

  • @LoveBeliefTruth
    @LoveBeliefTruth ปีที่แล้ว +12

    My narc abusers gave me PTSD, which gave me physical illnesses, like hypothyroidism. Talk about the fatigue, right!

  • @mehkosmeta2426
    @mehkosmeta2426 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Sometimes I genuinely lament the time, youth, and spirit I lost to my narcissistic partner- 12+ years, covert. It’s really sad, bordering on regret. I yearn for an apology and closure I know will never come and still yearning for those things is where I feel the most vulnerable and unhealed. I just wish so much that things were different. I wish I had the tools to leave sooner, I wish I had been raised to recognize my own needs, I wish I could provide myself with the closure and healing I need.. it’s been 5 years post divorce and I still struggle. I have more good days than bad now and things are improving, but I wonder when the damage will cease to disrupt my inner peace. Thanks for your work Dr Ramani ❤️

    • @jancollins1125
      @jancollins1125 ปีที่แล้ว

      We have very similar stories. Once I realized he was a narcissist, learned about narcissist, I accepted the fact that there would never be an apology because it is a mental illness that he can't control.

  • @Jess-kn8vl
    @Jess-kn8vl ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I wasnt honest in taking the depression tests at the doctor after having my kids. I didnt check off how bad it was but enough where I did see a therapist so I could explain our family dynamics but didnt get to the marriage part. I was afraid they would take my kids away from me as I knew I was a good mom, just soul crushed. I wish I would have been more honest but at the time couldnt see the forest through the trees and articulate what was really happening. I like to describe it as 1000 piece puzzle you put together, you link different parts and keep adding which has taken me years.
    CPTSD and borderline personality disorder can take 20 years off your life. Treatment and a plan is necessary!

  • @MeMms-yy4rm
    @MeMms-yy4rm ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Thank you so much for your help. Please don't self doubt yourself. You are wonderful.

  • @sherrimorris1375
    @sherrimorris1375 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Thank you for making me feel like a human again.... Your knowledge is invaluable!!

  • @leilagomulka5690
    @leilagomulka5690 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Yes. It’s tiring enough to keep up the appearance that you are enough…the waiting is the forever that never comes. Yes- soul tired.

  • @celesteinman56
    @celesteinman56 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I've noticed in these relationships it must always be their Ideas. Even if whatever it is it's yours. It may be a day or a week later then all of a sudden they came up with the idea.

  • @kathiemihindukulasuriya1538
    @kathiemihindukulasuriya1538 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Thank you for sharing how hard it is to get over the self doubt. I struggle with this also. It leads me to misinterpret things as criticism sometimes, because I was so used to being treated as less than and thinking that I had to "earn" things that should just be part of a healthy relationship. I would get very stressed when my husband would suggest I cook and bake less for the holidays, because in my mind, that was the only reason I was worth having at a celebration, for the food I made. It was so bad that if he said, "Why don't you take a break from cooking this week and we'll order Thai.", I heard "You can be replaced by a restaurant." and I would cook more food than usual to show that I had value. It seems ridiculous, but I didn't even realize what I was doing until last year.

    • @bendy6626
      @bendy6626 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Sounds like your hubby is a good guy.

  • @DeborahOlander
    @DeborahOlander ปีที่แล้ว +4

    So true. I'm exhausted all the time and I get plenty of sleep.
    This video, in all its aspects, so clearly describes me, my illness, my struggles. Thank you.
    I hope that one day I will be able to regain my energy and be able to function better. Not there yet, but still fighting every day.

  • @amaderbotya
    @amaderbotya ปีที่แล้ว +2

    First off, a big hug to you❤ I could literally feel your words of self-doubting yourself years to follow after you leave the relationship.

  • @chuck2093
    @chuck2093 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    My life in a nutshell. Constantly walking on eggshells. Can’t be around this woman but I won’t leave for the sake of my children. It really sucks living like this.

    • @agoodpitch9
      @agoodpitch9 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

      me too

  • @js92607
    @js92607 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    You described me Dr. Ramani, I couldn't even have photos of my own family up!

  • @sherrydickie8459
    @sherrydickie8459 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Dr. Ramani, please know I've been watching your videos for a couple of years and have learned something from EVERY video i watch! Im sorry you struggle with self-doubt too. You did make me laugh telling us to start out small, paper or plastic, chocolate or vanilla 😁! Again, this is a very informative video that clears up alot! THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU DO!

  • @KoolT
    @KoolT ปีที่แล้ว +16

    Many Christian church leaders teach against divorce say it jeopardizes your immortal SOUL. that's why a lot of people stay

    • @shsummers
      @shsummers 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Many christian church leaders are narcissists, too.

    • @manuelarodriguez342
      @manuelarodriguez342 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      So IT is!

    • @jtowensbyiii6018
      @jtowensbyiii6018 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ​@@manuelarodriguez342nope, Jesus plans to put bigots who deny human rights in hell, divorce is supported by God

  • @karencox8699
    @karencox8699 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you ❤! I am free of most N’s now at 76 but oh yes the ‘fatigue’ but I do what I want in getting rest! I know younger people have to have schedules but one of the perks of retirement is no schedule!

  • @michelleyanniello1111
    @michelleyanniello1111 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    You are amazing at delivering your messages. You have impacted my life so much! I can not thank you enough! ❤

    • @northernfox6420
      @northernfox6420 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Her delivery is everything. I've listened to others, but she just feels like you're sitting down on a couch with a good friend who REALLY wants you to be heard and seen. She's a godsend!

  • @grammyspa-jammies1737
    @grammyspa-jammies1737 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    "Like standing in the rain waiting on a bus that is never going to come." --- And that's without an umbrella or a raincoat! That is, people in your life to protect and help you.

  • @hungothenomster3776
    @hungothenomster3776 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    This video... hit home on every level. Thank you, God Bless you, for this.
    I am tempted to try and write you a letter (email) to tell you about my experiences. I come from an insanely abusive narcissistic family, mother, father, sister, are all HORRID Narcs, and they all picked me as their target to abuse. I am still stuck, at 35 years old, in torment and destroyed by all the abuse, and now it's burned inside myself.
    Thank you for your work, it is really helping people like me.

  • @melodydonovan7884
    @melodydonovan7884 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Oh my word I am 70 and it’s been a road of narcissism all enfolding me where I have ended up saving, overly responsible, drowning in empathy, standing like a pillar of assistance ready to uplift in so many ways. Even financially. Guess what when I pulled back and put up boundaries everyone turned on me to attack and blame me.
    My mom is 93 and I hide away - my children demand and attack. From them I want a total divorce. But I sit here feeling guilty and ashamed that I will be named as failing them.
    Oh my goodness I am fighting. I have decided I am going on holidays and camping trips and keeping far out of their space.
    The guilt of wanting to divorce my children is serious because I feel society will judge me and say that’s so wrong.
    My adult children are 53 - 50 and 38 and they gang up on me when I ask for my large sums of money back or I am not pleased at their drug usage - it’s a mess.
    I am running far away.

    • @dessaarnold7540
      @dessaarnold7540 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I don't think that is wrong. If anyone judges you for that,, they are the problem. Certainly not you. Your kids are grown. Shame on them! Go live your life . And do it with glee.

    • @soniahathaway1
      @soniahathaway1 ปีที่แล้ว

      I have a narcissistic son in his 30’s. I get you.
      I am hoping my youngest isn’t narcissistic.
      Be kind to yourself, you are not responsible for toxic adult behaviour. ❤

  • @F289F
    @F289F ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Bless you for all this content took me 2 years since i saw things clearly and its my first week out. Couldn’t have done this without you 🙏🏼 thank you

  • @kristophertarot3988
    @kristophertarot3988 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I love you Dr. Ramani for your videos, I am brought to tears knowing you care about the truth so much that you may self doubt. I sometimes self doubt as well. You are special to me in that you have been ( and other videos) my support system, the only support as my family and friends do not believe me that I have been stalked from NPD ppl/ psychopaths...
    I just want to say thank you, for what it's worth Thank you and blessings
    Kristopher

  • @apostolia2124
    @apostolia2124 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Dr. Ramani, i can assure you that you're extremely to the point about ... everything when it comes to narcissism, basically because you're a survivor and you have the talent to educate. Thank you, greets from Greece. 💙✌

  • @ursalaoutrageous9249
    @ursalaoutrageous9249 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You just described thirty years of my life. Thankfully, I have been free for twenty years. Today my brother and I were discussing a niece who had also been in a narcissistic marriage. My brother said that she must have been weak minded to have put up with that. Not necessarily, I thought. There are other reasons that women stick it out. Religious reasons: your church tells you that adultery is the only excuse for divorce. Be submissive. You exhaust yourself trying to do what you are convicted is right. You spend decades trying to preserve your family. Hoping that someday, somehow, you’d find the key to your spouse’s heart and you would finally be friends. Living in the belief that you are saving your family, no matter what it takes and that someday you’d be rewarded with an intact, happy, close family. If you can just keep trying and finding ways to be better. If only you can completely forget yourself, set aside your dreams and absorb into the expectations off someone you can never please, no matter what you do. There is a happily ever after out there somewhere and you keep imagining it in the distance if only you endure.

    • @user-wi9hv2pb2q
      @user-wi9hv2pb2q ปีที่แล้ว +1

      women also stay for financial reasons. poverty is also violent and dangerous, sometimes it is safer to stay.

    • @shelliemathews1043
      @shelliemathews1043 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      You literally wrote my life...married just about 33 years (Aug. 31st as a matter of fact)...

  • @nefarioussagittarius8906
    @nefarioussagittarius8906 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I don’t always comment, but I do appreciate all the videos you make Dr. Ramani. Marriage to the right person is so crucial and I’m so grateful and lucky in that regard.

  • @onmywayto8083
    @onmywayto8083 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Dr. Ramani
    Your knowledge, communication skills and way of explaining narcissism is unmatched! You have helped so many people and continue to reinforce a healthy mindset. Please never doubt yourself..... You really are that good and we all love you and appreciate you! 💕

  • @sudeepparaghamian7468
    @sudeepparaghamian7468 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Dr Ramini, your words hit me every time I listen to you. God bless you for your constant encouragement in healing words.

  • @mmarie6045
    @mmarie6045 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I’m glad you’re explained what this disorder is. It helps so much to understand what it is and coping tools. 16 years i didn’t know why. Now I know why.

  • @DanielleWhite
    @DanielleWhite ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I love the point in you intro about years married being viewed as a major achievement. I struggled with the idea of my divorce as a failure as a result but came to understand that failure is staying in a relationship that was miserable and was going to run into bankruptcy and foreclosure because my ex was that hellbent on getting her was (financial abuse; she was demanding I get a second job in addition to my full-time one because a promotion had been an effective reduction of gross income as the raise was less than the pay for voluntary on-call that i previously did every week.)
    The chronic tension was present in my youth when a physically and mentally abusive father who daily demanded "WTF reason do you have to be stressed and tired" while I was made responsible for not just getting As in school but doing more than half of the work on his dairy farm and all I ever heard about was the

    • @CJbrieflittlecandle
      @CJbrieflittlecandle ปีที่แล้ว

      I’m sorry you went through that. She should do a video about narcissistic dairy farmers. It’s a real thing.

  • @MegaRose1958
    @MegaRose1958 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Dr. Ramani your videos have helped me so much!! I first watched your video about Narcissistic personalities when I left my home and stayed at a hotel for eight to nine days. You have helped me so much!! I didn't know what I was dealing with, but I knew I wasn't in a healthy relationship!! I have shared your videos with alot of people in hopes they can see that they too aren't alone. Thank you for sharing your knowledge with us in a way that is understanding and easy to follow.

  • @vanessazvosec2367
    @vanessazvosec2367 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This session was loaded with good validating and vindicating information. A regular dose of Dr. R is mental armour that I can wear to protect myself. Thank you, thank you, thank you.❤

  • @leilagomulka5690
    @leilagomulka5690 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    So true. Societal judgement hurts. Even when you theoretically, that you don’t care what people think, 🙏

  • @leilagomulka5690
    @leilagomulka5690 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you. For being you.Dr. Ramani , you rock and roll.

  • @bonnystarkey1143
    @bonnystarkey1143 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This was me. Thank you so much for your validating videos. He had me convinced I was the problem. Now I can better see that he controlled almost everything in my life (what I ate, what I wore, where we went on vacation, what we bought). He also corrected me constantly bc I couldn’t do anything right. You’re correct. It was easier to go along than to get into a rageful argument with him.

  • @angeliquebasantaquiyou8209
    @angeliquebasantaquiyou8209 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Yes i ruminate all the time because of the high end narcissistic abuse i get from my mother. The grief and depression as you said make me fatigued. Everything you said is everything I feel. It is like you are speaking my life.

  • @Remant144
    @Remant144 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Your videos saved my life and sanity ( I would love to interview you ) thank you my sister for your heart and work

  • @happygucci5094
    @happygucci5094 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    You have no idea how much I needed this.
    Thank you.

  • @arelisasteasuainzarra6220
    @arelisasteasuainzarra6220 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Dr. Ramani everything you are saying is true I’ve been there and I’m going to set my self free thank you for all of these videos. I definitely didn’t fight when I was going through.😢

  • @dansasap
    @dansasap ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Here are the notes!
    1. Brain fog and fatigue
    Why: 1- ruminations = less energy, less efficiency, being less present
    2- necessity to be more than enough, perfectionistic/ocd pull
    3- constant tension, no pauses, always doing
    4- bad sleep
    5- constant disappointment / hyper vigilence
    6- soul tiredness, existential grief
    Remedies:
    1- sleep hygiene: regular hours, calm, no phone 1h before bed... see other vid on sleep
    2- healing: radical acceptance, realistic expectations
    3- grief work: letting go of what you can't get, set new goals
    4- mindfulness, meditation, stay present
    5- healthcare, rule out other health issues
    2. Second-guessing, self-doubt, indecision
    Main cause: gaslighting, walking on eggshells
    Remedies:
    1- start making choices, small, low-stakes ones
    2- make choices alone, without an audience
    3- make pros/cons/judgment lists (= what fears and whose voice am I hearing lists)
    4- play it out with neutral person like a therapist
    5- visualize, plan or replay, connect your choices and the feelings driving them
    3. Feelings of shame
    = when deficits or flaws are seen or shown publicly
    - about your family / narc's behavior
    - about your own choices: staying, not pushing back, enabling...
    - due to familial and societal judgments : that you failed, are responsible, don't see red flags, that you are the judgmental one for calling it out...
    - due to cultural judgments, having to follow cultural rules
    = Loss of authentic self to avoid feelings of shame
    What to do:
    1- Speak your truth, share who you are with trusted people
    2- Therapy: get a neutral, empathic observer
    3- Look at other people's stories, realise many people experience these issues
    4. Depression
    Symptoms (2 weeks or longer for a MDE):
    1- mood disorder: some sadness or irritability or loss of pleasure in usual activities each day
    2- appetite and sleep disturbances (too much / not enough...)
    3- low energy and fatigue, difficulties in concentration
    4- feelings of worthlessness, apathy, helplessness, hopelessness, tearfulness, suicidal thoughts, social withdrawal...
    If the cause is mainly narc abuse : symptoms fade when you are away from narcs (=dose-response relationships). You have to address both depression and the handling of narc relationships.
    What to do:
    1- Seek treatment for depression, no matter what the cause
    2- if suicidal, seek out emergency help or support immediately
    3- observe when you experience depression. If it's due to a certain relationship : seek information about narcissism, the consecutive grief, maintaining realistic expectations etc
    4- Combine adjacent treatments : physical exercise, sleep routine and diets, meditation etc
    I hope this helps some, have a beautiful day!

  • @MichaelSkinner-e9j
    @MichaelSkinner-e9j ปีที่แล้ว +24

    I have seen someone stay in a one-sided relationship for over 30 years. Most of my life, by the time I could understand. I would not want that for anybody.
    At the same time, I have seen mutual relationships that have lasted 30 years or more. And both parties were very loving to each other and empathetic.
    It’s finding that balance. Finding that mutual-ness, that respect. Finding a relationship that is for both people.
    Marriage shouldn’t be about trapping someone. It should be mutual. And that should be you coming back to them because they are healthy for you, and treat you well.
    Finding long-term mutuality, consistency, And empathy

    • @KoolT
      @KoolT ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Yes exactly

    • @TheKrispyfort
      @TheKrispyfort ปีที่แล้ว

      That sounds awful 😢
      Hoping you have the resources and supports for recovery

    • @MichaelSkinner-e9j
      @MichaelSkinner-e9j ปีที่แล้ว

      @@TheKrispyfort I’ve never been married. I’ve seen it around me

    • @charlottaw599
      @charlottaw599 ปีที่แล้ว

      Leaving is not always an option.

  • @tatjanakecman7236
    @tatjanakecman7236 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Dear Dr. Ramani, thank you for sharing your personal experience. I am working as a psychotherapist and even with very long experience, I still doubt my abilities to do it well. I'd be delightful if one day I go forth with curiosity and not doubts.

  • @claireburkus8497
    @claireburkus8497 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Dr. R…❤❤❤ most outstanding video to date!!! At 75 am well aware of the ball and chain of self doubt, being born into and then marrying another narcissist… this has been the best hour yet spent with you….tied up all in a bundle with a bow and so many lightbulbs going off inside my brain ….I cannot tell you how the plague of doubt and shame has just dropped off me in a God ordained suddenly …!!!! Thank you for taking the pain of your past to be a pool of healing for multitudes of others!!!yours will always be a life well lived in this world and a journey to know love and live it well!!! ❤❤

  • @theresecote-perron9231
    @theresecote-perron9231 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You are so spot on, Dr. Ramani! I can relate to all of what you mention.

  • @suzanbizier7200
    @suzanbizier7200 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Your content is priceless and has helped me immeasurably in recovering from narcissistic abuse. Thank you, Dr. Ramini, for all that you do.❤

  • @ellilock1
    @ellilock1 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    I love your videos. I left my narcissist while 7 months pregnant with my now 18 year old. My son is struggling mightily with making decisions and breaking free from the narcissistic abuse and buys into his father’s projections that my behavior is narcissistic because I have opinions because my son is an empathic creature and has no memory of the abuse. My elder child has blocked out all memories before the divorce, altogether. You are enough, more than enough and in fact a jewel. Thank you.

    • @suzanbizier7200
      @suzanbizier7200 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Same here. You are not alone. Your kids will be fine if you continue to love them unconditionally. They will see the contrast with their father's conditional acceptance of them. Don't be afraid of lasting negative impacts on them. They will be all right. God bless you.❤

  • @ScorpionMaiden75
    @ScorpionMaiden75 ปีที่แล้ว +31

    It's a learned characteristic. My father would kill himself trying to please my step mom.
    Oddly enough my birth mom tried to keep my dad happy. She turned to alcoholism and it ended her life at 36 years old. I swore I'd never go that route.
    Unfortunately, I had repeated the cycle. I am finally learning. I still have to co-parent with a narcissist. I appreciate all of your help on this situation.
    💜💕🔥👑🔥💕💜

  • @CS-iv8tk
    @CS-iv8tk ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Agree 100% about trusting your own judgement. I was painting our living room and it took me over 6 months to decide on the paint