😂 spot on! I’m right with ya! Awesome content and channel! ❤ thanks 🙏 stu! You are assisting me on my recovery journey! I enjoy ever one and have listened to them more than once! It’s imperative to have a community and your channel is excellent! I live in a tiny village in NZ and online AA is the only option… I watch your channel and a few others to experience AA for me! Thankyou. Ex “ lost” fan too! 😂😂
Your channel is becoming the new school on alcholism. I do believe that AA is correct when they tell us that as sober alcoholics we owe a debt of service to those still suffering-- not for their benefit, but our own peace of mind. I hope your growing usefulness to alcoholics is a source of peaceful moments for you.
@@_BatCountry Thanks! The part of connectiveness you were talking about really hit home. There's just so much room to connect with other people (without having panic attacks all the time) since I'm sober. It's quite remarkable.
The number one tip for sobriety?...Put as much effort into your recovery, as you did thinking about drinking, planning your drinking, manipulating, choreographing, directing, implementing, and LYING about your drinking! "Not possible", you say? Bingo! My point is, none of us will ever be able to duplicate that kind of effort, but our very lives depend on us doing everything we can! "Get busy livin, or get busy dyin"! Peace and love, Mark
Thank you, Bad Country. I walked by the alcohol aisle in the supermarket today. My first time in 6 years without picking up a bottle. Not that I go to the supermarket everyday. But I drink alcohol everyday. NOT TODAY! All down to you Bad Country. Appreciate your honesty & story telling. Thank you friend.
Most TH-cam Q&A videos SUCK! But this one was brilliant, so much useful information, none of the dross that I didn't need. Thank you. Pushing at 4K subscribers, so this is becoming an important and relevant channel. For you, and for us, the watchers.
Thank you mate, I really appreciate that! Tbh I wasn't sure about doing a Q&A at all, it feels a bit self-indulgent, but I quite enjoyed it in the end.
The algorithm led me here. The excellent articulation kept me here. Some very wise words in this that are just what I need to hear at the minute. Just over 2 months sober now.
I have been watching your videos since yesterday (Which happens to be when I discovered your channel). In that time, I have made the decision to get over myself and to finally make a decision that might benefit me. I called a rehab hospital so that I may take my life back. Long story short, I am leaving in the morning to go on a 28-day program. I can't say (for sure) that you are the reason, but you are definitely the impetus for why I made this decision. Thank you from ALL my heart. You are an eloquent speaker and an all-out inspiration to me and everyone who listens/watches these videos. Thank You.
Your wisdom is a key part of my current attempt at staying sober- have tried over and over again for a decade- one of these days it might actually stick!
🙏 can't remember where I heard this, someone said that when we overcome hardships & win in battle, that our ancestors share in our victories in spirit, are uplifted & rejoice! 🙏💜🕯💧🌱🐾👣🌿🌎
Without doubt one of the most criminally undersubscribed channels on both alcohol and life itself! Thankyou for doing this. I am confident this channel will blow up to over a million subscribers by the end of the year. I’ve been hooked for the past week
So, in a sense we putting you on a pedestal but here is the thing....some of your best stories are completely unstructured and you can tell the man is just going with a thread of what happened that's most appealing and making sense in the presence....and I love that because there is so much authenticity in spontaneity
The more I watch your channel, the more I notice how similar our stories are! Especially the whole social chameleon thing and kind of fitting in a little bit with everyone in high school. I've struggled with anxiety/self confidence issues for as long as I can remember, things have gotten better with time, and they are certainly better now that I'm sober, but I think it will be a lifelong struggle for me either way! I'm grateful that I found your channel man, awesome stuff! Keep posting! ❤
Thanks so much for your recent comments and your support David. There's some consolation in the fact that we're similar, and we're both kind of ok today.
24:35 “that is alcoholism, whispering in your ear, in your own voice”. This is so powerful, thank you. My depression also comes in this form, and it’s important to question that voice and act against it.
Today (6 years sober) when someone offer me a drink I always say "thank you, I don't drink".. when they insist and ask "why".. I say.. "I don't drink.. that is the end of a sentence.. there is no comma"... it is funny that alcohol is the only drug that when you refuse people think there is something wrong with you 😂
Thank you Shades! I quite enjoyed the slightly less formal style.I think I'll do one of these every couple of months. Hope you're doing good today mate!
Thanks for addressing my question! I could relate to some that you mentioned. Yes, somewhat personal topic but aren't a lot of these personal when it comes to alcohol issues. Respect your bravery and keep up the content in the channel. Best of luck!
Describing it as a miracle devalues how much work you've done towards it. It's not just a miracle, and you deserve to feel proud of what you've accomplished.
Love all the crazy stories.keep the truth coming please.Thank you for sharing and helping people and giving up your time to do these videos.Great channel 👍👍👍👍👏✌
@@_BatCountry I think it's brave opening up about all your experience in alcohol.Keep it coming.All you're subscribers want the truth as we can relate to the madness.thanks
This is beyond incredible yet again, THANK YOU!. Found your channel a few weeks ago ive listened to every video. I listen to many podcasts to help me with staying sober and BAT COUNTRY is the best...Thank you brother! Much love from USA
It's an honor to hear back from you! I have listened to Dirk Dilirium a few times and still really dont understand what happened to him. Perhaps you could do another video about him in the future if you ever want to? God Bless my friend!
An amazing video, I've never watched a video on TH-cam this long from start to finish. The Q&A works so well, it's actually answered many questions I didn't know I wanted to know the answer to and given advice I didn't know I needed before I need it! Thank you
I really enjoyed this Q&A, even at 11 weeks sober from my middle lane binge drinking Hell of 40 years, the question about being more sensitive, connected to the world was indeed mind blowing and it resonated with me, I get the feeling a lot now( yes I'm probably pink clouding a bit ) and I feel I'm like the person I'm supposed to be as apposed to the one governed by alcohol and my worship of it at the weekends and the misery of days without it ( only 2 or 3 days a week ). I appreciate my family so much more as I was or could be a horrible, paranoid self pitying shit when drunk, not nice at all and verbally abusive. That's not me at all when sober ! I've heard other sober people say that Sobriety is a super power and I think they're right ! keep up the good work Stu ! 👏
Dude, I am always looking forward to your latest installment, your latest episode because I relate so well to the situations you been through. I always feel sad when an episode is nearing end; that's the power of your storytelling, a veritable raconteur if I ever listened to one; that's you man!!
I’m not an alcoholic or have had any history of alcoholism or alcohol use disorder, but your channel really pulls me in. Your content is unmatched. I will continue to watch and follow.
Newly subscribed and really enjoy your content! 10 months sober here and I to have had the pink cloud moment about 4 months in - it does get better with time to actually finding things again to fill the time - for me it's making electronic music and photography and cooking, the exercise part I do neglect but really need to get motivated to get into shape - I am the same weight if not more than I was 10 months ago , a heavy wine drinker. I do like long walks though up into the hills. Great channel!
From one War On Drugs fan to another, its a pleasure to have you here. You should stick some of your photography online and ping me a link, I'd love to take a look.
Waiting for this channel to skyrocket in subs. Great quality content, man. Not only that, but you’re genuinely helping people. Keep up the great work, my guy.
I found this channel right at the perfect moment. Really inspiring, and calming. Appreciate it a lot, thank you! One thing im having trouble with is insomnia. I’m betting that it will even out eventually. It’s nice to have a cool channel to binge while I’m not sleeping though haha!
This is captivating! Amazing chat! Love the awareness to know whether you should limit an answer and save the rest for a full-length video. Music is 🔥, vibe is the perfect amount of chill. I just played this while I was making myself a nice dinner and winding down for the night. Thoroughly enjoyable!
Bat! Great Q&A! Enjoyed the heck out of it. You touched on a point I’ve pondered quite a bit which helps me enormously in my sobriety: the only time alcohol alleviates my anxiety is when I’m already dependent on it. (A lesson learned through much personal research) It’s almost as though we chase physical dependency on a relapse, just to experience the relief of drinking once we are dependent again. Don’t think too much about the half-assed logic in that approach, or you may need a drink. 🤦♀️Talk about insanity…..Love the channel, keep ‘em coming!
HEY! Good to see you here again. You're right, at the start of a relapse I'm chasing that deep dependence really fast. It makes zero sense. Tanks for watching, and for the comment.
Ron White used to have a stand up routine, paraphrase: " i sat up on the side of the bed ,picked my pants up off the floor only to discover that some bastard had schite in my pants while i was asleep! gezus, who would do something like that? well, whoever it was.. they ate corn!
Thanks for taking the time to answer my question, really appreciated. Funny you mentioned jigsaw puzzles, I did exactly that as well using my new found time to improve my guitar playing. Things might not be as rosey after 2 years but I'm definitely way more productive and emotionally balanced. Thanks again, love the channel.
@@_BatCountry For sure man. I know what it’s like to have a small channel that everyone constantly calls “underrated”. I had a little venture into comedy and sketch videos like ten years ago and even got “recognized” in the produce section of a grocery store one time lol. Deleted most of em but I had a small, really dedicated following by the end of it. Point is, I know how hard it is to grow on TH-cam but it looks like you’re putting solid effort into it and it seems like it’s a labor of love for you, which is exactly the attitude to have. Good for you mate 🤙
I loved this Q & A session, the questions were brilliant and your answers where so helpful. You certainly have a lot of individual topics to work through and I look forward to watching those videos in the future. Thank you as always.
I love your way of telling stories. Although I don't drink like you used to, I still binge. But my binge is once a week and a bottle and maybe one glass more of wine. My brothers binges are more like yours used to be. It's such an insidious substance.
@_BatCountry I spend my life thinking about quitting and my week thinking about my binge. It takes an enormous amount of mental time. For about maybe 3 to 4 hours a week of actual drinking. Very weird. I'll keep watching you to inspire me to quit permanently. Thank you very much for your response and for replying to everyone on your channel.
Hi Bat Country - hope you’re doing well. I really enjoyed the q&a session. Listening to you really is therapeutic. I appreciate you addressing my question. I’m going to put that into practice, just walking away without saying goodbye. It sounds terrifying and empowering at the same time but I know it’s for my own good. I’ve also incorporated drinking flavored club soda the colder the better 🥶. Thanks BC really appreciate your advice. Until next time…
Hey micru! I've heard from someone overseas that drinking cold (non alcoholic) drinks is an American thing . Maybe it's true. I don't want to drink like warm anything. Put some ice on it
in regards to the biggest lies of alcohol, i think the one truth that alcohol (& the other drugs) exposes, is the frailty & vulnerability of our human willpower/won'tpower & the need for a deeper/wider/higher power than mere will, to quote Schopenhauer: "man can do what he wills, but he cannot will what he wills."
probably the channel I look forward to most on my youtube feed for new content lol. thank you for sharing the cringe story, it's evident how painful it was to relive. we all have stories like those.. I remember my rock bottom, or one of the bottoms I found rocky. I woke up 7 hours before work and as usual I was going to drive to the gas station and buy two big Clubtails Margiritas 10% alc and come back and watch shows and nap before work. My "happy place" at the time. Because I always woke up still tired from drinking the night before. Anyway, I get out to the parking lot and my car is gone! From where I parked it. I double checked the whole parking lot but I already knew it had me repossessed no matter how far down I pushed those problems. I got back to my apartment, sober and well aware of how fucked I was. (Later that day I would receive a warning on my door that it had been the end of the grace period for me to pay my rent) I broke down and cried like a bitch. I texted my stepbro some morbid shit about my life and about self harm even though it might not have been entirely authentic, but I was confused, lost, scared. Tricked by booze. Fucked by myself. He shared the text with my family who became very worried about me. They called me repeatedly that night. I remember going out on my balcony and my neighbor was out there and gave me a weird concerned look. I guess he heard a grown man crying and was like wtf? Anyway, I got a ride to work and showed up obviously distraught. My coworkers noticed because usually I was the outgoing, silly one. My family called my work just checking to see if I showed up. And life goes on. You pick up the pieces and go from there. I started walking to and from work, 7 miles a day. I eventually got a bike and that made life easier. Until it got stolen of course lmao. I kept drinking and it was my only happy place for years and I wasn't even in hardcore alcoholism yet. I only drank 10 or less beers a day at that point. When the pandemic hit I moved in with my mom and the government started paying me unemployment just to stay home. That's when I started drinking 20+ drinks for a year or so and started getting real withdrawals. It always gets worse before it gets better , aye? Anyway, there were more rock bottoms but I think that was my first one. Many Emergency room visits later, I am 28 years old; 4+ years clean from phenibut and 2+ years sober from booze now. I have my own place and car. I have a decent job and I live in a different state lol. Life is still hard because my credit is fucked and my anxiety is also FOOKED but I am sober and have opportunities to face my life problems head on instead of being exhausted and drunk all the time. edit: I was also jacked when I was a drunk. eventually I ballooned up to 5'10, 240 lbs when I stopped being active and drinking really took over. But I lost all that weight and I'm down to 170lbs today. Skin isn't as tight as it was but I look better. Also I did not look good chubby like some people do lol, I looked like a goblin
I've wondered about your story since you started appearing in my comments, I'm really grateful you told me. Congrats on your sober time, I hope you're working hard at it and you're in it for the long haul. Keep me posted. Ohhhh and that thing about your credit being fucked - YEAH. For real. Never heard anyone really mention that before, but that's real as hell, a BIG problem for a lot of us and hard to fix.
I just wanna say that I absolutely love your channel. The production value is fantastic and your storytelling and descriptive powers make this a go-to at night. Thank you for letting us into your journey
I thoroughly enjoyed this and it felt like we got to know more about you. Your authenticity and candour shines through. So much to reflect on here I’m not sure where to start. I particularly liked your views on how sobriety gives us more chances for connection and empathy. I was such an insufferable prick when I boozed and nobody could teach me anything. Now I’m only really interested in what I can learn from others. Thank you for this and please run the Q&A format again… we can cover so much ground.
It's reassuring to know that I don't have to talk about booze ALL the time. I might test that theory and do a video about something else I'm interested in. Thanks for the question mate!
I think the pink cloud is Great! Keep being happy as long as possible in life and especially in sobriety!!!! Anyone who tries to kill your joy and pink cloud are not your friends. A lot of the time, those are the ppl in AA. 🤦🏻♂️ Stay away from HATERS!!!
You talk about your treatment for withdrawals in the UK, here in Australia when my wife had her alcohol withdrawal seizure a few years ago I was appalled at the treatment. She was taken away in an ambulance (I wasn't allowed to go or enter the hospital due to COVID protocols) and discharged about 4 hours later, given a piece of paper to take to her GP and told "Don't ever drink again". That was it. I was fuming, I wanted her to at least spend the night there being monitored and cared for.
thank you for your videos as always. favorite youtube channel ever because everythig you say about yourself is true about myself. i am a completely suicidal alcoholic and always will be. giving me a bottle of vodka is the equivalent of giving a suicidal person a loaded gun. it makes life very anxiety inducing to think that its always around the corner. makes it terrifying to fear about not having a supportive partner who will aid me in my sobriety. alcoholism makes life so anxiety inducing even while youre completely sober. and the reason i started drinking to begin with was because of anxiety. now it has made it so much worse even when completely sober. i know that the possibility of a difficult situation causing me to drink is probable, and the consequences of that are inevitable and its something i have to live with for the rest of my life. even in recovery alcoholism is truly horrific
Hello mate! Thanks for your comments, and for supporting the channel. How long have you been sober? You're right that alcohol still dominates our lives even in sobriety, but I've found the anxiety about it subsides in time.
I love your stories and your voice so much….thank you for your honesty and willingness to speak about this issue that so many of us deal with. Have you relapsed? I feel like it’s a hard thing to predict and manage… How do I contact you directly?
Thanks so much for the compliments! And yeah, I bounced around in relapses for a while. My email should be in the video description if you'd like to reach out :)
I love to listen to you and I learned so much through your videos, the only thing that bothers me is the background music. I prefer to hear only your voice or keep it down please ❤
When the background music is loud, it's usually because I'm using it to hide a problem with the audio recording. In this case, there was an electrical buzz. Believe me, the music is less annoying than that. So... you're welcome hahha :D
U talk alot of good commensence ...reaferming..many of my thoughts..its helpfull to hear it out lould from u...p.s.i dig your music...older miles davis is on my mind...he went through a lot...later man. Mid michigan usa.
Hey brotha, just a quick note, a question, and a small hooray for 3 months sober :D Hope you are well, ya look good, and yer keeping that beard *tight*. Question: is Bat Country a reference to Hunter S. Thompson, or am I reading too much into it? Lastly, it's amazing what you can do when ya get sober--I am going to start, sometime this year, recording videos for youtube and other sharing sites. I started a business (again, amazing what the boredom of sobriety does to some people. Don't want to waste your life and die, like, next week? Let's build something), and I know I shouldn't get **too** distracted and I already have enough experience in photography, living in darkrooms, the smell of fixer, dodging/burning with scraps of paper, what lenses do you really like? I figure for YT shorts it's just gonna be a phone, that's kind of the aesthetic. And I don't have a ton of money to burn, so BlackMagic's are right out of my price range. What works for you? Old and german? ;) Anyways, i'll go back to acting like noble elements and make myself scarce. Love your vids!!
Hello mate! Congrats on your sober time! Stay vigilant, 3 months was a stumbling block for me in the past. Bat Country is indeed a partial reference to Fear and Loathing. I saw bats in a DT hallucination, and after that I felt like I had visited bat country. Give me a nudge when you've started your channel, I'll subscribe straight away. And I'd love to see some of your photography. As for me, you got it in one: most of my lenses are old and German. Most of my recent videos are filmed on a 1961 Meyer Optik Oreston 50mm f1.8 - it's not the most interesting lens I own by far, but it's the most predictable and the most dependable. That lens is one of my favourite possessions. Thanks for the comment mate, I look forward to talking cameras with you soon!
@@_BatCountry heh, that line was the second funniest thing in the movie, the funniest of course was depp in a dino tail :D So I wouldn't say I'm a 'good' photographer, but with so many things, some of the best are mediocre people with mediocre kit showing up at AN INCREDIBLE TIME that just makes shit great. Whenever I make it over to England/Scotland/Wales/Ireland, I just fucking run amok around ruined castles, ancient sites, and act like a kid in a candy shop. The last time I went to New Grange unfortunately i had a pint of whisky with me, but me and my ex wife were literally the only people on the entire grounds, and it was a bright sunny February morning and the shots (no, not those kind 🙃) were magical. I also got amazing footage on a ruined castle next to the north sea during March when I climbed, freestyle, six floors up. The ruin had no floors, it had been largely knocked down by canons two hundred years ago (I should be dead). I got photos at the Cliffs of Mohr in April when they had to close due to weather. The cliffs of Mohr. More like the Cliffs of Insanity. I am gonna get back to shenanigans of some type early next year. I had a surgery in July I wasn't expecting, and I found the reason for the huge amount of seizure, general falling down, and heart murmers and palpitations. Very, very touch and go. The Mayo clinic gives this--basically MRSA in the spinal column next to the nerve running from my cerebellum to my heart) as a straight coin toss for surviving the surgery. I won, and feel a solid 91, 92%. Sp 2025? Sober shenanigans, me droogs!
I've been having blackouts all my life. Then I just lived in a blackout. They weren't always a nightmare. People would tell me how much their mom loved me and other nice times. But the bad times. I talked to a councilor once after I started having seizures. That I blackout everytime. She said that I'd probably been having seizures far longer than I thought. Waking up somewhere I'd never been. Bruised, bleeding and robbed. The last time was in a hospital in police custody. Once I woke up in the back of an ambulance. Paramedic said- I'll let you go since you came to. So many stories. I blackout early but don't pass-out. I can be a lot of fun. But it's a stimulant to me until I'm almost dead from alcohol poisoning.
yeah man, this was my cycle for a while too. It's a really dangerous place to be. Have you stopped? Because if you haven't you sound like you urgently need to.
@_BatCountry I'm at what I say is 99%. I still get the cravings. It's such a familiar place that I almost feel safe and comfortable. Then the anhedonia I've had for years makes life so boring. Alcohol let's me feel again, even if it's sad. Long ago I realized that I can only drink at home, or at least after the first few. I get in a lot of trouble going out. So drinking is a conscious decision made a day or two prior. Since I know it's all in, I try to be prepared. Which means, one, don't run out. I was getting to know the guys in the parking lot outside the 24 hr liquor store by my house at 4am. So, I stock up. Don't eat. It slows it down and when you puke it's less mess. I can go on but yes, I still do. About twice a year. Down from everyday. Each time the hangover is worse so that's a good thing. Now it's a decision though. Not just automatic second nature. There was never a thought about it. It was just normal. Despite the blackout, my tolerance is so high that I can't stop until I shut off. Then have a seizure. Pass out on the street. Both. I have so many stories and that's with being blackout. I wonder what I look like the rest of the time. I have to shut out triggers, mainly music. But just hearing a certain song at a certain time can put me in the hospital.
@_BatCountry yet it doesn't sound that bad right now. Having knowing all of that and it sounds better than where you're at speaks to my level of depression and addiction.
On toxic relationships, read certain parts of 'Diary of a drug fiend' by Aleister Crowley. He went through some messed up detox scenarios. Not by choice, they ran out. His descriptions of these processes are frightening- like yours.
wasn't sure I'm in the right place. Someone said ck this channel out about alcohol abstinence from alcohol. IS IT " BACK COUNTRY OR BAT country " ? Does anyone know if there is a "BACK country " and I am on the wrong channel? thanks
giving Up cigarettes very similar as far as pink cloud --- you now have to really live without smoking --- sit around a bon fire without beer and cigs -- how could that be fun ?
Off-topic BC but what do you think about landlords of public houses who drink among their regulars? I have one near me who has an air of narcissism and I attribute his encouragement of heavy drinking to the early deaths of several men. I acknowledge personal choice
great video but could you pls talk about why addicts cheat? it would be interesting... and you mention you are in a relationship... you talk a bit that your gf keeps you sober which is good but did you ever cheat on her? it seems you make your addiction dependent on gf... my husband and I cheated on each other during active addiction but have forgiven and moved forward. I would like you to talk about it also I don't want to accuse but your language in this video about other women is a bit telling. I feel a bit bad for your gf. it just sounds like you're with her bcz she's sober.
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I am waiting your videos like i was waiting new episodes of Lost 20 years ago. This channel is UNDERRATED!
He's awsome at explaining alcoholism and all things associated with the disorder.
That's a huge compliment! I LOVED Lost!
Lost was awesome! The ending was a little questionable though haha.
😂 spot on! I’m right with ya! Awesome content and channel! ❤ thanks 🙏 stu! You are assisting me on my recovery journey! I enjoy ever one and have listened to them more than once! It’s imperative to have a community and your channel is excellent! I live in a tiny village in NZ and online AA is the only option… I watch your channel and a few others to experience AA for me! Thankyou. Ex “ lost” fan too! 😂😂
Whole heartedly agree 👍
The amount of effort you put into this “little channel” will no doubt pay off in a big way!!
Thank you my friends. Hope all's well with you!
Your channel is becoming the new school on alcholism. I do believe that AA is correct when they tell us that as sober alcoholics we owe a debt of service to those still suffering-- not for their benefit, but our own peace of mind. I hope your growing usefulness to alcoholics is a source of peaceful moments for you.
It really is Seb. Thanks for supporting the channel for so long, I appreciate it.
Yesss, an hour long Q&A to fall asleep to tonight!! 81 days sober today, partly thanks to your channel and the online sober community.
CONGRATULATIONS!! And sleep well :)
@@_BatCountry Thanks! The part of connectiveness you were talking about really hit home. There's just so much room to connect with other people (without having panic attacks all the time) since I'm sober. It's quite remarkable.
Yes yes..the deception! Functioning= better at hiding!@_BatCountry
@@Stormvogel262Congratulations!🎈 I’m working on my third month of sobriety too!
@@CMoore8539 Thanks! Congrats to you as well! (feels good doesn't it?)
The number one tip for sobriety?...Put as much effort into your recovery, as you did thinking about drinking, planning your drinking, manipulating, choreographing, directing, implementing, and LYING about your drinking! "Not possible", you say? Bingo!
My point is, none of us will ever be able to duplicate that kind of effort, but our very lives depend on us doing everything we can! "Get busy livin, or get busy dyin"! Peace and love, Mark
Get busy living, or get busy dyin. See you in Zihuatanejo, brother.
Please don’t ever downplay the relevance of your channel ever again! I love your channel and feel like I’m “talking” to a friend. Thank you 💕
Awww that's very generous of you, thank you!
@@_BatCountry🎉🎉🎉
Thank you, Bad Country.
I walked by the alcohol aisle in the supermarket today.
My first time in 6 years without picking up a bottle.
Not that I go to the supermarket everyday. But I drink alcohol everyday.
NOT TODAY!
All down to you Bad Country.
Appreciate your honesty & story telling.
Thank you friend.
Most TH-cam Q&A videos SUCK! But this one was brilliant, so much useful information, none of the dross that I didn't need. Thank you.
Pushing at 4K subscribers, so this is becoming an important and relevant channel. For you, and for us, the watchers.
Thank you mate, I really appreciate that! Tbh I wasn't sure about doing a Q&A at all, it feels a bit self-indulgent, but I quite enjoyed it in the end.
Congratulations on possible the most professional and eclectic alcohol info channel on utube..
Oh that's VERY generous of you, thank you very much!
The algorithm led me here. The excellent articulation kept me here. Some very wise words in this that are just what I need to hear at the minute. Just over 2 months sober now.
I have been watching your videos since yesterday (Which happens to be when I discovered your channel).
In that time, I have made the decision to get over myself and to finally make a decision that might benefit me.
I called a rehab hospital so that I may take my life back.
Long story short, I am leaving in the morning to go on a 28-day program.
I can't say (for sure) that you are the reason, but you are definitely the impetus for why I made this decision.
Thank you from ALL my heart.
You are an eloquent speaker and an all-out inspiration to me and everyone who listens/watches these videos.
Thank You.
AMAZING. That means a huge, indescribable amount to me. How's it going today?
Love the music that you play in the background of your videos. Appreciate the thoughtful details in your work.
Thanks so much for watching, and I appreciate the comment!
I love this music!
It's super cosy
Your wisdom is a key part of my current attempt at staying sober- have tried over and over again for a decade- one of these days it might actually stick!
It took a while for it to stick for me too, but when it does, it's worth it all. Thanks for the comment, I appreciate it.
Thank you..I am close, and I know I’m an alcoholic.. lost my mother to the stuff. Appreciate your calm nature and genuine help
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can't remember where I heard this, someone said that when we overcome hardships & win in battle, that our ancestors share in our victories in spirit, are uplifted & rejoice!
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Love ya buddy. Thanks for the question.
Without doubt one of the most criminally undersubscribed channels on both alcohol and life itself! Thankyou for doing this. I am confident this channel will blow up to over a million subscribers by the end of the year. I’ve been hooked for the past week
Thanks so much! To be honest I quite like the channel being small: it makes it feel like a secet :)
A bat country Q and A???? H*ll yeaaaa! Lol.
God bless bro.
u should make one too
Ha! Thanks mate, I hope it measures up :D
Hey Slayer! Where's your next video? And how are you doing??
@@TheSaival that’s a fantastic idea brother!!
@@_BatCountry it did man, great QaA.
So, in a sense we putting you on a pedestal but here is the thing....some of your best stories are completely unstructured and you can tell the man is just going with a thread of what happened that's most appealing and making sense in the presence....and I love that because there is so much authenticity in spontaneity
I think there's a lot of truth in that.
Brilliant work as always. Always fascinating to hear you discuss such a dark, nightmarish topic with so much eloquence.
Thank you so much, that's a wonderful compliment
The more I watch your channel, the more I notice how similar our stories are! Especially the whole social chameleon thing and kind of fitting in a little bit with everyone in high school. I've struggled with anxiety/self confidence issues for as long as I can remember, things have gotten better with time, and they are certainly better now that I'm sober, but I think it will be a lifelong struggle for me either way! I'm grateful that I found your channel man, awesome stuff! Keep posting! ❤
Thanks so much for your recent comments and your support David. There's some consolation in the fact that we're similar, and we're both kind of ok today.
Stu, you could read the dictionary and I’d watch that video! Great channel, hope you keep going from strength to strength!
Well that WOULD be easier than writing scripts...
Thanks mate, I appreciate you watching and commenting. Stay well.
24:35 “that is alcoholism, whispering in your ear, in your own voice”. This is so powerful, thank you.
My depression also comes in this form, and it’s important to question that voice and act against it.
Today (6 years sober) when someone offer me a drink I always say "thank you, I don't drink".. when they insist and ask "why".. I say.. "I don't drink.. that is the end of a sentence.. there is no comma"... it is funny that alcohol is the only drug that when you refuse people think there is something wrong with you 😂
Everything about the consumption of alcohol is upside down isn't it?
Thoughtful channel
Thanks!
@@_BatCountry You’re very welcome… enjoy the whole ambiance you create with your smooth vocal flow and delightfully eerie background music
Really cool format, Stu. Very enjoyable.
Thank you Shades! I quite enjoyed the slightly less formal style.I think I'll do one of these every couple of months. Hope you're doing good today mate!
@_BatCountry Hanging in there. I pick up that two months and a few days chip tomorrow.
Thanks for addressing my question! I could relate to some that you mentioned. Yes, somewhat personal topic but aren't a lot of these personal when it comes to alcohol issues. Respect your bravery and keep up the content in the channel. Best of luck!
Thanks for the searching question Alex. As I mentioned, I think it's worth doing a whole video just about that topic.
Love your content. 5 years sober. A miracle
Describing it as a miracle devalues how much work you've done towards it. It's not just a miracle, and you deserve to feel proud of what you've accomplished.
Fan boy here! Was so pleased to see a "New video" was excited! Keep up the amazing work sir ! :)
Thanks Alex, I'm grateful for you watching and for your comments! Hope you're doing good today :)
Love all the crazy stories.keep the truth coming please.Thank you for sharing and helping people and giving up your time to do these videos.Great channel 👍👍👍👍👏✌
Thanks so much for watching I really appreciate it!
@@_BatCountry I think it's brave opening up about all your experience in alcohol.Keep it coming.All you're subscribers want the truth as we can relate to the madness.thanks
Liking before even watching;) Love your channel! ❤
I hope it earns the like :)
It did. I was confident:) @@_BatCountry
Alcohol Always Caused Anxiety for me. It is a trick.
Yes indeed. Hope you've got it beat today!
This is beyond incredible yet again, THANK YOU!. Found your channel a few weeks ago ive listened to every video. I listen to many podcasts to help me with staying sober and BAT COUNTRY is the best...Thank you brother! Much love from USA
Thanks Matt, I really appreciate that!
It's an honor to hear back from you! I have listened to Dirk Dilirium a few times and still really dont understand what happened to him. Perhaps you could do another video about him in the future if you ever want to? God Bless my friend!
An amazing video, I've never watched a video on TH-cam this long from start to finish. The Q&A works so well, it's actually answered many questions I didn't know I wanted to know the answer to and given advice I didn't know I needed before I need it! Thank you
I was so happy to see a new video by you! cozying up this morning with a hot cuppa coffee and clicking play!
🤩🤩
I hope it measured up to expectations! Thanks for the comment.
@@_BatCountry It definitely did and more! So good 😊
I really enjoyed this Q&A, even at 11 weeks sober from my middle lane binge drinking Hell of 40 years, the question about being more sensitive, connected to the world was indeed mind blowing and it resonated with me, I get the feeling a lot now( yes I'm probably pink clouding a bit ) and I feel I'm like the person I'm supposed to be as apposed to the one governed by alcohol and my worship of it at the weekends and the misery of days without it ( only 2 or 3 days a week ). I appreciate my family so much more as I was or could be a horrible, paranoid self pitying shit when drunk, not nice at all and verbally abusive. That's not me at all when sober ! I've heard other sober people say that Sobriety is a super power and I think they're right ! keep up the good work Stu ! 👏
Dude, I am always looking forward to your latest installment, your latest episode because I relate so well to the situations you been through. I always feel sad when an episode is nearing end; that's the power of your storytelling, a veritable raconteur if I ever listened to one; that's you man!!
Thanks so much for your support. Maybe I should do longer videos....
I’m not an alcoholic or have had any history of alcoholism or alcohol use disorder, but your channel really pulls me in. Your content is unmatched. I will continue to watch and follow.
Newly subscribed and really enjoy your content! 10 months sober here and I to have had the pink cloud moment about 4 months in - it does get better with time to actually finding things again to fill the time - for me it's making electronic music and photography and cooking, the exercise part I do neglect but really need to get motivated to get into shape - I am the same weight if not more than I was 10 months ago , a heavy wine drinker. I do like long walks though up into the hills. Great channel!
From one War On Drugs fan to another, its a pleasure to have you here. You should stick some of your photography online and ping me a link, I'd love to take a look.
Prelapse!
Thank You, new word for my dyslexicon..
hahahaha glad someone picked up on that :)
@@_BatCountry
& to further the cause, for those on the fence, considering whether or not they need to quit & how..
Prehab
Waiting for this channel to skyrocket in subs. Great quality content, man. Not only that, but you’re genuinely helping people. Keep up the great work, my guy.
Thank you Pusher, love that avi :)
Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out.❤ Thank you for the Awesome Video!!!💞
Thank you as always!
I found this channel right at the perfect moment. Really inspiring, and calming. Appreciate it a lot, thank you! One thing im having trouble with is insomnia. I’m betting that it will even out eventually. It’s nice to have a cool channel to binge while I’m not sleeping though haha!
This is captivating! Amazing chat! Love the awareness to know whether you should limit an answer and save the rest for a full-length video. Music is 🔥, vibe is the perfect amount of chill. I just played this while I was making myself a nice dinner and winding down for the night. Thoroughly enjoyable!
Bat! Great Q&A! Enjoyed the heck out of it. You touched on a point I’ve pondered quite a bit which helps me enormously in my sobriety: the only time alcohol alleviates my anxiety is when I’m already dependent on it. (A lesson learned through much personal research) It’s almost as though we chase physical dependency on a relapse, just to experience the relief of drinking once we are dependent again. Don’t think too much about the half-assed logic in that approach, or you may need a drink. 🤦♀️Talk about insanity…..Love the channel, keep ‘em coming!
HEY! Good to see you here again.
You're right, at the start of a relapse I'm chasing that deep dependence really fast. It makes zero sense.
Tanks for watching, and for the comment.
great channel bro. over 4 years sober. Lego helped me man. Maybe do a q and a with other people in future?
Thank you mate, glad you like my stuff. Lego is a great one, I'll make sure to mention that the next time I'm talking about this subect.
Ron White used to have a stand up routine, paraphrase:
" i sat up on the side of the bed ,picked my pants up off the floor only to discover that some bastard had schite in my pants while i was asleep!
gezus, who would do something like that?
well, whoever it was..
they ate corn!
Just finished your book Stu, have to say it was an excellent read thanks.
What is the name of the book?
Oh my god really!? Wow thank you, that is so wonderful to hear I truly appreciate it.
It's called Just Crazy Enough To Work: How To Fail On The Silk Road :)
@@_BatCountryno worries mate, best book I’ve read in some time.
Thanks for taking the time to answer my question, really appreciated. Funny you mentioned jigsaw puzzles, I did exactly that as well using my new found time to improve my guitar playing. Things might not be as rosey after 2 years but I'm definitely way more productive and emotionally balanced. Thanks again, love the channel.
I love these vids!
Just found your channel bro.
Love the aesthetic, love the style, love the message. Good work, keep it up
Hello mate! Thanks so much for watching and for the comment, I appreciate it :)
@@_BatCountry For sure man. I know what it’s like to have a small channel that everyone constantly calls “underrated”. I had a little venture into comedy and sketch videos like ten years ago and even got “recognized” in the produce section of a grocery store one time lol. Deleted most of em but I had a small, really dedicated following by the end of it.
Point is, I know how hard it is to grow on TH-cam but it looks like you’re putting solid effort into it and it seems like it’s a labor of love for you, which is exactly the attitude to have. Good for you mate 🤙
great episode BC!
Thanks mate! I hope you're doing good today!
So glad to find this channel. Content is right up my street. Bravo 🙌
Good to have you on board, thanks for watching!
2 months sober your videos are good insight in to future battles I understand sobriety will be tested and the pink cloud will receed overtime now 😊
Congrats on getting a grip on it, 2 months is a lot of time! Watch out for the 3 month mark, I tripped up there a couple of times, so be vigilant.
I loved this Q & A session, the questions were brilliant and your answers where so helpful. You certainly have a lot of individual topics to work through and I look forward to watching those videos in the future. Thank you as always.
Thank you so much, that's wonderful to hear.
I love your way of telling stories. Although I don't drink like you used to, I still binge. But my binge is once a week and a bottle and maybe one glass more of wine. My brothers binges are more like yours used to be. It's such an insidious substance.
Thank you for watching, and for the comment. I guess you're seriously thinking about quitting permanently? How's it going?
@_BatCountry I spend my life thinking about quitting and my week thinking about my binge. It takes an enormous amount of mental time. For about maybe 3 to 4 hours a week of actual drinking. Very weird. I'll keep watching you to inspire me to quit permanently. Thank you very much for your response and for replying to everyone on your channel.
Please keep replaying these old 1920s/30s songs in your videos love it bro ❤ great content
Hi Bat Country - hope you’re doing well. I really enjoyed the q&a session. Listening to you really is therapeutic. I appreciate you addressing my question. I’m going to put that into practice, just walking away without saying goodbye. It sounds terrifying and empowering at the same time but I know it’s for my own good. I’ve also incorporated drinking flavored club soda the colder the better 🥶. Thanks BC really appreciate your advice. Until next time…
Hey micru! I've heard from someone overseas that drinking cold (non alcoholic) drinks is an American thing . Maybe it's true. I don't want to drink like warm anything. Put some ice on it
@@Mmoose712hey Angela righttttt!! I do enjoy my coffee hot but not to the point I burn my mouth lol. Hope you’re doing well 😊.
Thanks for the question, and thanks for being so supportive of the channel. I don't take it for granted.
Hey, I really appreciate the bravery and passion you put into these videos, they are awesome, thank you brother
Thanks so much for that, I'm glad they're connecting with you!
@@_BatCountry I'm afraid they do;D
in regards to the biggest lies of alcohol, i think the one truth that alcohol (& the other drugs) exposes, is the frailty & vulnerability of our human willpower/won'tpower & the need for a deeper/wider/higher power than mere will,
to quote Schopenhauer:
"man can do what he wills,
but he cannot
will what he wills."
I can only agree heartily.
probably the channel I look forward to most on my youtube feed for new content lol. thank you for sharing the cringe story, it's evident how painful it was to relive. we all have stories like those..
I remember my rock bottom, or one of the bottoms I found rocky. I woke up 7 hours before work and as usual I was going to drive to the gas station and buy two big Clubtails Margiritas 10% alc and come back and watch shows and nap before work. My "happy place" at the time. Because I always woke up still tired from drinking the night before. Anyway, I get out to the parking lot and my car is gone! From where I parked it. I double checked the whole parking lot but I already knew it had me repossessed no matter how far down I pushed those problems.
I got back to my apartment, sober and well aware of how fucked I was. (Later that day I would receive a warning on my door that it had been the end of the grace period for me to pay my rent)
I broke down and cried like a bitch. I texted my stepbro some morbid shit about my life and about self harm even though it might not have been entirely authentic, but I was confused, lost, scared. Tricked by booze. Fucked by myself. He shared the text with my family who became very worried about me. They called me repeatedly that night. I remember going out on my balcony and my neighbor was out there and gave me a weird concerned look. I guess he heard a grown man crying and was like wtf?
Anyway, I got a ride to work and showed up obviously distraught. My coworkers noticed because usually I was the outgoing, silly one. My family called my work just checking to see if I showed up. And life goes on. You pick up the pieces and go from there. I started walking to and from work, 7 miles a day. I eventually got a bike and that made life easier. Until it got stolen of course lmao. I kept drinking and it was my only happy place for years and I wasn't even in hardcore alcoholism yet. I only drank 10 or less beers a day at that point. When the pandemic hit I moved in with my mom and the government started paying me unemployment just to stay home. That's when I started drinking 20+ drinks for a year or so and started getting real withdrawals. It always gets worse before it gets better , aye?
Anyway, there were more rock bottoms but I think that was my first one. Many Emergency room visits later, I am 28 years old; 4+ years clean from phenibut and 2+ years sober from booze now. I have my own place and car. I have a decent job and I live in a different state lol. Life is still hard because my credit is fucked and my anxiety is also FOOKED but I am sober and have opportunities to face my life problems head on instead of being exhausted and drunk all the time.
edit: I was also jacked when I was a drunk. eventually I ballooned up to 5'10, 240 lbs when I stopped being active and drinking really took over. But I lost all that weight and I'm down to 170lbs today. Skin isn't as tight as it was but I look better. Also I did not look good chubby like some people do lol, I looked like a goblin
I've wondered about your story since you started appearing in my comments, I'm really grateful you told me.
Congrats on your sober time, I hope you're working hard at it and you're in it for the long haul. Keep me posted.
Ohhhh and that thing about your credit being fucked - YEAH. For real. Never heard anyone really mention that before, but that's real as hell, a BIG problem for a lot of us and hard to fix.
Loved this new channel I’ve just discovered thank you.. you deliver well 😊
Welcome to the channel, and thank you for the comment!
I just wanna say that I absolutely love your channel. The production value is fantastic and your storytelling and descriptive powers make this a go-to at night. Thank you for letting us into your journey
This is a very valuable channel for me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart
You are most welcome.
I thoroughly enjoyed this and it felt like we got to know more about you. Your authenticity and candour shines through. So much to reflect on here I’m not sure where to start. I particularly liked your views on how sobriety gives us more chances for connection and empathy. I was such an insufferable prick when I boozed and nobody could teach me anything. Now I’m only really interested in what I can learn from others. Thank you for this and please run the Q&A format again… we can cover so much ground.
I really appreciate your support and positivity mate. Thanks for being here.
@@_BatCountry you are welcome. My other half wants to know what the music is that’s playing in the background ? It’s wonderful
what a gem of a channel! can't get enough!
Thanks so much, I'm happy you're here :)
That was great, you're a very articulate guy, more please
Question at 41:00 is brilliant
I completely agree. Worth a full video of its own, that one. Thanks for watching!
I think you'd be excellent at other content, based on your delivery and demeanor and production quality. Whatever subjects you're interested in
It's reassuring to know that I don't have to talk about booze ALL the time. I might test that theory and do a video about something else I'm interested in. Thanks for the question mate!
I think the pink cloud is Great! Keep being happy as long as possible in life and especially in sobriety!!!! Anyone who tries to kill your joy and pink cloud are not your friends. A lot of the time, those are the ppl in AA. 🤦🏻♂️ Stay away from HATERS!!!
You talk about your treatment for withdrawals in the UK, here in Australia when my wife had her alcohol withdrawal seizure a few years ago I was appalled at the treatment. She was taken away in an ambulance (I wasn't allowed to go or enter the hospital due to COVID protocols) and discharged about 4 hours later, given a piece of paper to take to her GP and told "Don't ever drink again". That was it. I was fuming, I wanted her to at least spend the night there being monitored and cared for.
Thank you so much for another great video, and for sharing your thoughts with us. ❤
Thank you so much! Believe me, I don't take it for granted that anyone might give me a superlike. It means a lot.
thank you for your videos as always. favorite youtube channel ever because everythig you say about yourself is true about myself. i am a completely suicidal alcoholic and always will be. giving me a bottle of vodka is the equivalent of giving a suicidal person a loaded gun. it makes life very anxiety inducing to think that its always around the corner. makes it terrifying to fear about not having a supportive partner who will aid me in my sobriety. alcoholism makes life so anxiety inducing even while youre completely sober. and the reason i started drinking to begin with was because of anxiety. now it has made it so much worse even when completely sober. i know that the possibility of a difficult situation causing me to drink is probable, and the consequences of that are inevitable and its something i have to live with for the rest of my life. even in recovery alcoholism is truly horrific
Hello mate! Thanks for your comments, and for supporting the channel.
How long have you been sober? You're right that alcohol still dominates our lives even in sobriety, but I've found the anxiety about it subsides in time.
I love your stories and your voice so much….thank you for your honesty and willingness to speak about this issue that so many of us deal with.
Have you relapsed? I feel like it’s a hard thing to predict and manage…
How do I contact you directly?
Thanks so much for the compliments! And yeah, I bounced around in relapses for a while. My email should be in the video description if you'd like to reach out :)
He who makes a beast out of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man.
I love to listen to you and I learned so much through your videos, the only thing that bothers me is the background music. I prefer to hear only your voice or keep it down please ❤
When the background music is loud, it's usually because I'm using it to hide a problem with the audio recording. In this case, there was an electrical buzz. Believe me, the music is less annoying than that. So... you're welcome hahha :D
Or that you realised that your ‘friends’ were just drinking buddies all along.. this hurts quite a bit….
The clarity of hindsight is a little too sharp sometimes, isn't it?
do you have a batman costume?
Maybe.... why....?
Your videos are amazing 👏 🤩 😍 💖
Thank you mate! Or should I say, Спасибо.
@@_BatCountry :)
U talk alot of good commensence ...reaferming..many of my thoughts..its helpfull to hear it out lould from u...p.s.i dig your music...older miles davis is on my mind...he went through a lot...later man. Mid michigan usa.
Hey brotha, just a quick note, a question, and a small hooray for 3 months sober :D Hope you are well, ya look good, and yer keeping that beard *tight*. Question: is Bat Country a reference to Hunter S. Thompson, or am I reading too much into it? Lastly, it's amazing what you can do when ya get sober--I am going to start, sometime this year, recording videos for youtube and other sharing sites. I started a business (again, amazing what the boredom of sobriety does to some people. Don't want to waste your life and die, like, next week? Let's build something), and I know I shouldn't get **too** distracted and I already have enough experience in photography, living in darkrooms, the smell of fixer, dodging/burning with scraps of paper, what lenses do you really like? I figure for YT shorts it's just gonna be a phone, that's kind of the aesthetic. And I don't have a ton of money to burn, so BlackMagic's are right out of my price range. What works for you? Old and german? ;)
Anyways, i'll go back to acting like noble elements and make myself scarce. Love your vids!!
Hello mate!
Congrats on your sober time! Stay vigilant, 3 months was a stumbling block for me in the past.
Bat Country is indeed a partial reference to Fear and Loathing. I saw bats in a DT hallucination, and after that I felt like I had visited bat country.
Give me a nudge when you've started your channel, I'll subscribe straight away. And I'd love to see some of your photography. As for me, you got it in one: most of my lenses are old and German. Most of my recent videos are filmed on a 1961 Meyer Optik Oreston 50mm f1.8 - it's not the most interesting lens I own by far, but it's the most predictable and the most dependable. That lens is one of my favourite possessions.
Thanks for the comment mate, I look forward to talking cameras with you soon!
@@_BatCountry heh, that line was the second funniest thing in the movie, the funniest of course was depp in a dino tail :D
So I wouldn't say I'm a 'good' photographer, but with so many things, some of the best are mediocre people with mediocre kit showing up at AN INCREDIBLE TIME that just makes shit great. Whenever I make it over to England/Scotland/Wales/Ireland, I just fucking run amok around ruined castles, ancient sites, and act like a kid in a candy shop. The last time I went to New Grange unfortunately i had a pint of whisky with me, but me and my ex wife were literally the only people on the entire grounds, and it was a bright sunny February morning and the shots (no, not those kind 🙃) were magical. I also got amazing footage on a ruined castle next to the north sea during March when I climbed, freestyle, six floors up. The ruin had no floors, it had been largely knocked down by canons two hundred years ago (I should be dead). I got photos at the Cliffs of Mohr in April when they had to close due to weather. The cliffs of Mohr. More like the Cliffs of Insanity.
I am gonna get back to shenanigans of some type early next year. I had a surgery in July I wasn't expecting, and I found the reason for the huge amount of seizure, general falling down, and heart murmers and palpitations. Very, very touch and go. The Mayo clinic gives this--basically MRSA in the spinal column next to the nerve running from my cerebellum to my heart) as a straight coin toss for surviving the surgery. I won, and feel a solid 91, 92%. Sp 2025? Sober shenanigans, me droogs!
learning sobriety..
as a second language..
oof, once again you come swinging in with a real linguistic jewel!
4:54 warhammer 40k mini painting
YES!
11:51 get something strongly caffinated so you have more willpower
I'm now binging your videos, do I have a problem?
I can probably recommend a decent Bat Country detox centre if you need one :D
I've been having blackouts all my life. Then I just lived in a blackout. They weren't always a nightmare. People would tell me how much their mom loved me and other nice times. But the bad times. I talked to a councilor once after I started having seizures. That I blackout everytime. She said that I'd probably been having seizures far longer than I thought. Waking up somewhere I'd never been. Bruised, bleeding and robbed. The last time was in a hospital in police custody. Once I woke up in the back of an ambulance. Paramedic said- I'll let you go since you came to. So many stories. I blackout early but don't pass-out. I can be a lot of fun. But it's a stimulant to me until I'm almost dead from alcohol poisoning.
yeah man, this was my cycle for a while too. It's a really dangerous place to be. Have you stopped? Because if you haven't you sound like you urgently need to.
@_BatCountry I'm at what I say is 99%. I still get the cravings. It's such a familiar place that I almost feel safe and comfortable. Then the anhedonia I've had for years makes life so boring. Alcohol let's me feel again, even if it's sad. Long ago I realized that I can only drink at home, or at least after the first few. I get in a lot of trouble going out. So drinking is a conscious decision made a day or two prior. Since I know it's all in, I try to be prepared. Which means, one, don't run out. I was getting to know the guys in the parking lot outside the 24 hr liquor store by my house at 4am. So, I stock up. Don't eat. It slows it down and when you puke it's less mess. I can go on but yes, I still do. About twice a year. Down from everyday. Each time the hangover is worse so that's a good thing. Now it's a decision though. Not just automatic second nature. There was never a thought about it. It was just normal. Despite the blackout, my tolerance is so high that I can't stop until I shut off. Then have a seizure. Pass out on the street. Both. I have so many stories and that's with being blackout. I wonder what I look like the rest of the time. I have to shut out triggers, mainly music. But just hearing a certain song at a certain time can put me in the hospital.
@_BatCountry yet it doesn't sound that bad right now. Having knowing all of that and it sounds better than where you're at speaks to my level of depression and addiction.
On toxic relationships, read certain parts of 'Diary of a drug fiend' by Aleister Crowley. He went through some messed up detox scenarios. Not by choice, they ran out. His descriptions of these processes are frightening- like yours.
wasn't sure I'm in the right place. Someone said ck this channel out about alcohol abstinence from alcohol. IS IT " BACK COUNTRY OR BAT country " ? Does anyone know if there is a "BACK country " and I am on the wrong channel? thanks
Is it possible to become sober without becoming religious?
Yeah I think so. I'm not a religious person, and my sobriety is pretty robust.
What do you think?
What did you do in the adult industry??
Hey Paul. It's marketing mostly.
giving Up cigarettes very similar as far as pink cloud --- you now have to really live without smoking --- sit around a bon fire without beer and cigs -- how could that be fun ?
8:32 the strip club is more fun sober 😂
thats hardcore what i see..about light drinking..give me a sec
Off-topic BC but what do you think about landlords of public houses who drink among their regulars? I have one near me who has an air of narcissism and I attribute his encouragement of heavy drinking to the early deaths of several men. I acknowledge personal choice
great video but could you pls talk about why addicts cheat? it would be interesting... and you mention you are in a relationship... you talk a bit that your gf keeps you sober which is good but did you ever cheat on her? it seems you make your addiction dependent on gf... my husband and I cheated on each other during active addiction but have forgiven and moved forward. I would like you to talk about it
also I don't want to accuse but your language in this video about other women is a bit telling. I feel a bit bad for your gf. it just sounds like you're with her bcz she's sober.
Maybe I'll get my girlfriend to make that video instead of me. She's much smarter about that stuff.