UGH! That's WONDERFUL. I'm so happy it feels like that. I have kind of been contemplating set design for my videos to make it seem like we are all sitting on the floor of my boudoir together, drinking champagne (or nonalcoholic sparking bubbly for the younger ones) and eating chocolates.
It wasn’t until I acknowledged my own neediness, my desperate energy, that I was truly able to begin to detach. This, coupled with the epiphany that self love is not optional, but required, has brought me on a path of realization after realization about myself. And I have felt immensely more confident ever since (sans the ebbs between flows, which are inevitable, are not enough to undo my progress.)
i saw this quote ages ago and i think about it whenever i get nervous about being seen as a freak: what greater reassurance can the weak have than that they are like anyone else? (eric hoffer)
I first heard "we write to taste life twice" in Phoebe Waller Bridge's interview of 73 Questions with Vogue. So cool to hear you read it out in this video. I've never read Anaïs Nin but I feel compelled to now.
Every video you make is so valuable!! Please don’t ever leave TH-cam-there’s no one like you making the content you do. I think this may be my most favorite video of yours. I feel like I have made my own world. I live my life very differently and it can be lonely sometimes, but I think my life is happier and richer than most people’s. Wishing you the absolute best!!
I still struggle with self esteem. I don’t like to tell people much about myself because what I say, they judge and try to stab me with it. I’m 33, unmarried, no kids and it’s rare where I live. They treat me differently because I don’t want kids, because I live my life differently. I have a boyfriend I love and my brother is my best friend, but other than that I don’t let others into my world. I’m happy in my small world, I don’t want to invite in static. When I’m at work or out in society, my defense mechanism is I keep everything about the other person. Most people love talking about themselves, so I just listen but don’t say much about myself.
Definitely stand your ground. Live the way you like, for the reasons you see valid. Worst thing you can do is buckle under the pressure and betray yourself. I'm happy you have reached a place where you can be content despite the loneliness.
I feel Marilyn Monroe, as she hit a point of not wanting to fight social norms. She tried to fit the “grown” ideal and momentarily destroyed herself only to emerge with a new found complexity.
i feel completely seen. thank you so much for doing this. being a radical individual and your explanation is the definition I needed to continue this journey of knowing myself.
My life has been under reclamation after spending my vitality pursuing a career, education, and a marriage that was not right for me. Journaling and writing poetry helped me create the world I needed to live in, to experience, so that I could return to myself and reflect my inner world back to all things in my life. It essentially supports me in being the change I seek in world, as I believe the Dali Lama once said. It's a simple concept but oh so powerful, especially for artists. Thank you once again, your videos are so validating and comforting to the artists' soul.
Your voice, your face, your ideas, your elegance and the way you talk about being strange makes me feel so much less alone and self conscious about my own personal and perpetually othered existence. I'm really happy I found your channel and thank you so much! I don't have friends my coworkers thing I'm strange and actively cast me out of the circles hahaha but regardless of it all, there is still a remarkable allure to the witch that lives on the edge of the town.
Our own engine steam, our own breath; no one but the Gods should ever be able to take it away. I love to hear how the diamond of you hardened- I keep forgetting for myself
the most important thing i’ve done is to learn to trust my intuition. the more i trust fall on myself, the more i’m aware of what’s true to myself and what i do/say/wear/believe just to please or attract others. i loved the anais nin quote you read. i need to buy a copy of her works so i can annotate it! i truly admire your self-reliance and convictions. wishing you the best 🕯️
Your channel is so beautiful and you really speak to the parts of me that have been crushed over the years that are only now blooming through study, writing and music. I find a lot of solace and comfort in femininity and individuality and I'm so glad to find you talking so openly about its joys.
I think finding your channel was one of the most life changing things. The ease you express your sensitivity and authenticity to the world makes it an even better one 🌺
You have discussed the creation of your own myth which rather obviously is linked to being an individual. Creating your own myth must obviously account for external perception and interface functionally. I would enjoy your thoughts on the complexity of creating myth while accounting for external assumptions [often with cultural basis] and managing the backlash of individuality. I see so many people say they are an individual and yet so few are because the backlash is severe. Now the backlash is simply aimed differently than in times before. Truly, in the USA many people believe they are individual and are very much not. There is a real price for not conforming and I am interested in your philosophical views on this point.
Your channel and whole body of work is a God's gift. Your art inspires and resembles with my way of perceiving world. Thank you very much for sharing this with us.
Great video! Are you into witchcraft and magic? do you practice anything like glamor magic, empowerment rituals? affirmations? And how do you approach spirituality through the lens of an aesthete?
I do not. But I am warming back up to Roman Catholicism, the religion I was loosely raised in. And there is PLENTY of beauty in that religion to last multiple lifetimes.
@@HeavenSentHoney that's interesting and makes total sense with the cleanliness talk you mentioned in the first part of your video. Holy water being a distinct part of Catholicism and one of the elements on how it differs from Christianity. A lot of rituals regarding self purification. Cleaning yourself physically helps cement mentally spiritual cleansing
I loved your channel, I even left a comment on one of your past videos saying I would love to be your friend, but I lost some respect for your content after you said in a video where you said that for Kim to look better dressed in Marilyn she should be naturally pale... Girl? did you hear yourself? As a woman of color myself, I couldn't wear an iconic dress in that shade why would I make it look cheap? why is that what you said with that sentence, implying that only white complexion would fit in the dress. Yes, I know it was designed just for Marilyn and Kim did disrespect the dress but not because of her color, if you look at pictures of Kim K when she was a kid, she was always tanned, that's naturally her skin color and she uses Body Oil to make herself brighter (I'm still not denying blackfishing, but kim is not naturally pale), her sentence had an internalized racism and I'm unsubscribing from your channel, I hope you review these concepts.
I agree with you that that was a hurtful option, and I don't even like Kim, but to say that the dark complexion made the dress look cheap was disgusting! I wonder if she even saw the dress, as Marilyn was much paler than the fabric and didn't exactly give the effect of 100% nude (but that was part of the elegance of the piece), the girl in the video said she grew up in a European environment , we can tell where she got that kind of opinion
@@barbie5607 When I watched this video and heard her saying that, I didn't say anything because I'm not poc but bro, I was horrified. Really, the dress didn't look good on Kim, but as stated in the comments above, the dress wasn't as white and pale fabric as Marilyn's skin, I could easily imagine Zoe Kravitz in it, she was extremely colorist saying Kim should be pale for the dress to fit more 🤮
@@marluceribeiro4828 thank god someone talked about it! she was a full colorist, obviously there are colors and pieces that match some complexions more than others, but to say that a darker skin tone made the dress look cheap??? who does this girl think she is? some famous white stylita? I saw videos and photos of Marilyn in the dress and it was a shade lighter than her real skin color! this girl must excuse the audience
I love how intimate your videos are. Feels like talking to a friend in the middle of the night. Have a wonderful weekend, C.
UGH! That's WONDERFUL. I'm so happy it feels like that. I have kind of been contemplating set design for my videos to make it seem like we are all sitting on the floor of my boudoir together, drinking champagne (or nonalcoholic sparking bubbly for the younger ones) and eating chocolates.
You are my type of people ...which is rarity in this mass of people ... people that actually care about deep and soulful thing
Same, I'm to deep for the people around me. I want to express and I don't know how.
same
It wasn’t until I acknowledged my own neediness, my desperate energy, that I was truly able to begin to detach. This, coupled with the epiphany that self love is not optional, but required, has brought me on a path of realization after realization about myself. And I have felt immensely more confident ever since (sans the ebbs between flows, which are inevitable, are not enough to undo my progress.)
i really relate to this!
I love how she speaks as if she’s writing poetry, Anïas Nin
Every word is, absolutely. Love her mind.
1. cleanliness
2. lifestyle, purpose & self reliance
3. create your own world and laws
i saw this quote ages ago and i think about it whenever i get nervous about being seen as a freak: what greater reassurance can the weak have than that they are like anyone else? (eric hoffer)
ohhhh that is wonderful
I first heard "we write to taste life twice" in Phoebe Waller Bridge's interview of 73 Questions with Vogue. So cool to hear you read it out in this video. I've never read Anaïs Nin but I feel compelled to now.
Your words give me 100 % clarity and
watching you seems it as if I was looking in a mirror internally .Thank you for being you .
Thank YOU for embracing me love
Every video you make is so valuable!! Please don’t ever leave TH-cam-there’s no one like you making the content you do. I think this may be my most favorite video of yours. I feel like I have made my own world. I live my life very differently and it can be lonely sometimes, but I think my life is happier and richer than most people’s. Wishing you the absolute best!!
I still struggle with self esteem. I don’t like to tell people much about myself because what I say, they judge and try to stab me with it. I’m 33, unmarried, no kids and it’s rare where I live. They treat me differently because I don’t want kids, because I live my life differently. I have a boyfriend I love and my brother is my best friend, but other than that I don’t let others into my world. I’m happy in my small world, I don’t want to invite in static. When I’m at work or out in society, my defense mechanism is I keep everything about the other person. Most people love talking about themselves, so I just listen but don’t say much about myself.
Definitely stand your ground. Live the way you like, for the reasons you see valid. Worst thing you can do is buckle under the pressure and betray yourself. I'm happy you have reached a place where you can be content despite the loneliness.
I feel Marilyn Monroe, as she hit a point of not wanting to fight social norms. She tried to fit the “grown” ideal and momentarily destroyed herself only to emerge with a new found complexity.
Thanks for this video. I needed these thoughts. I can be myself away from the crowd.
i feel completely seen. thank you so much for doing this. being a radical individual and your explanation is the definition I needed to continue this journey of knowing myself.
My life has been under reclamation after spending my vitality pursuing a career, education, and a marriage that was not right for me. Journaling and writing poetry helped me create the world I needed to live in, to experience, so that I could return to myself and reflect my inner world back to all things in my life. It essentially supports me in being the change I seek in world, as I believe the Dali Lama once said. It's a simple concept but oh so powerful, especially for artists. Thank you once again, your videos are so validating and comforting to the artists' soul.
Your voice, your face, your ideas, your elegance and the way you talk about being strange makes me feel so much less alone and self conscious about my own personal and perpetually othered existence. I'm really happy I found your channel and thank you so much! I don't have friends my coworkers thing I'm strange and actively cast me out of the circles hahaha but regardless of it all, there is still a remarkable allure to the witch that lives on the edge of the town.
Our own engine steam, our own breath; no one but the Gods should ever be able to take it away.
I love to hear how the diamond of you hardened- I keep forgetting for myself
the most important thing i’ve done is to learn to trust my intuition. the more i trust fall on myself, the more i’m aware of what’s true to myself and what i do/say/wear/believe just to please or attract others. i loved the anais nin quote you read. i need to buy a copy of her works so i can annotate it! i truly admire your self-reliance and convictions. wishing you the best 🕯️
you really are heaven-sent. so grateful for you and your content.
Thank you!! Likewise ❤️
Your channel is so beautiful and you really speak to the parts of me that have been crushed over the years that are only now blooming through study, writing and music. I find a lot of solace and comfort in femininity and individuality and I'm so glad to find you talking so openly about its joys.
Thank you for creating these videos and for creating this community. Hope you never stop making these videos ❤️
No problem babe! Thank you for being a part of it.
I think finding your channel was one of the most life changing things. The ease you express your sensitivity and authenticity to the world makes it an even better one 🌺
Hard relate on always having been an outcast and always feeling a desire to be. Felt. ❤
I knew I liked your videos but the Spongebob reference elevated this one for me lol
A composer that I 100% recommend is Hildegard von Bingen.
You have discussed the creation of your own myth which rather obviously is linked to being an individual. Creating your own myth must obviously account for external perception and interface functionally. I would enjoy your thoughts on the complexity of creating myth while accounting for external assumptions [often with cultural basis] and managing the backlash of individuality. I see so many people say they are an individual and yet so few are because the backlash is severe. Now the backlash is simply aimed differently than in times before. Truly, in the USA many people believe they are individual and are very much not. There is a real price for not conforming and I am interested in your philosophical views on this point.
Such as a video about living on the fringes of society? Not a bad idea. I do have some interesting thoughts on that.
But sometimes it gets hard for me when I’m down ! So I take a shower or a bath
Cleanliness is good
Needed this more than you know
I wake up everyday and watch this specific video to become god(like)
Your channel and whole body of work is a God's gift. Your art inspires and resembles with my way of perceiving world. Thank you very much for sharing this with us.
Great video! Are you into witchcraft and magic? do you practice anything like glamor magic, empowerment rituals? affirmations? And how do you approach spirituality through the lens of an aesthete?
I do not. But I am warming back up to Roman Catholicism, the religion I was loosely raised in. And there is PLENTY of beauty in that religion to last multiple lifetimes.
@@HeavenSentHoney that's interesting and makes total sense with the cleanliness talk you mentioned in the first part of your video. Holy water being a distinct part of Catholicism and one of the elements on how it differs from Christianity. A lot of rituals regarding self purification. Cleaning yourself physically helps cement mentally spiritual cleansing
I try as a woman it helps with my self esteem
I love your videos and you're so beautiful! Everytime I watch a video of yours I learn a new word lol you're so poetic when you speak 😍
YES! I’ve got all the vocab words for you darling. Thank you so much for your kindness.
i need this today. thank you so much.
You're welcome! ❤️
I really love this video and I can relate to your story.
reminding me of myself listening to Hildegard von Bingen music in the beginning there
I bow to you
Washing sheets too
Incredible video ❤
God i love your videos
♥️
Wonderful philosophy!
Thank you 🙏🏼🙌🏽💥
❤️❤️❤️
Beautiful 💕💖
❤️❤️❤️
Inspiring.
There’s no way you’re not an Aquarius ♒️ ❤😊
She is a virgo that was born on august 26th. Probably she has other aquarius placements. Such a woman...
True tell Courtney
Found this video, struck a cord in me ❤ thank you
what’s your sign?
And your hair
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Showers help
Hey dua lipa don’t smoke or drink stay safe use herbs
I loved your channel, I even left a comment on one of your past videos saying I would love to be your friend, but I lost some respect for your content after you said in a video where you said that for Kim to look better dressed in Marilyn she should be naturally pale... Girl? did you hear yourself? As a woman of color myself, I couldn't wear an iconic dress in that shade why would I make it look cheap? why is that what you said with that sentence, implying that only white complexion would fit in the dress. Yes, I know it was designed just for Marilyn and Kim did disrespect the dress but not because of her color, if you look at pictures of Kim K when she was a kid, she was always tanned, that's naturally her skin color and she uses Body Oil to make herself brighter (I'm still not denying blackfishing, but kim is not naturally pale), her sentence had an internalized racism and I'm unsubscribing from your channel, I hope you review these concepts.
I agree with you that that was a hurtful option, and I don't even like Kim, but to say that the dark complexion made the dress look cheap was disgusting! I wonder if she even saw the dress, as Marilyn was much paler than the fabric and didn't exactly give the effect of 100% nude (but that was part of the elegance of the piece), the girl in the video said she grew up in a European environment , we can tell where she got that kind of opinion
She said that darker complexion made Marilyn dress look cheap? Whats wrong with this girl?
@@larapavline2198 yes, she did 🙄 so colorist that hurts
@@barbie5607 When I watched this video and heard her saying that, I didn't say anything because I'm not poc but bro, I was horrified. Really, the dress didn't look good on Kim, but as stated in the comments above, the dress wasn't as white and pale fabric as Marilyn's skin, I could easily imagine Zoe Kravitz in it, she was extremely colorist saying Kim should be pale for the dress to fit more 🤮
@@marluceribeiro4828 thank god someone talked about it! she was a full colorist, obviously there are colors and pieces that match some complexions more than others, but to say that a darker skin tone made the dress look cheap??? who does this girl think she is? some famous white stylita? I saw videos and photos of Marilyn in the dress and it was a shade lighter than her real skin color! this girl must excuse the audience
*We write to taste life twice...*
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I’m so glad you exist Celin!! ♥️🤍