SWU illustrates that we are all truly products of our environments and childhoods. It is so hard to recover from or even realize it. Another beautiful portrait, Mark.
In the first minute - he was raised by a single mom - albeit one who tried hard. Children brought up in single mother homes are: 10 times more likely to abuse chemical substances, 14 times more likely to commit rape, 20 times more likely to end up in prison, 32 times more likely to run away from home. Almost dont need to watch the rest. and before the obvious gets raised - No the same is not true for children raised by single fathers - their stats are almost identical to never divorced two parent familiies. And yet judges continually cut fathers off from their children in family courts. this guy represents the price everyone pays for that stupidity.
@@MrMattsAdventuressecond worse thing about being a product of a single mother is having to hear utter morons declare that there is nothing inherently wrong with that. First worse thing is being like this guy being interviewed when all you wanted to be is anything else.
I somewhat agree... when you're really little and have zero choice and agency- yes. But at some point you have to take some responsibility for your demons and not make yourself a complete life long victim.
Such a big fan of your work because of the light you shed on all sorts of different people you see if you walk around. Its really anthropology and super interesting to watch as always. Thanks!
Dude is saying this and that about being proud to be white though, ngl I'm white and I can't stand white Americans. It's not about being white. I don't have a problem with Irish, Poles, Russians mostly, Ukrainians mostly, Latvians, Italians, French, the issue is white America, and to an extent English and German and Canadian white society. But primarily, white Americans. Republican or Democrat doesn't matter, I finally realized they're both an issue. I do think it's funny dude says "girls like me, and dudes hate me" yeah except they won't marry you, and then they're going to expect some absolute moronic dweeb to raise your kids for you.
This man reminds me so much of my brother and gives me additional sad insights into his experience as a felon. With fentanyl being involved, I’m constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop. I wish people like them didn’t think other people’s lives are better without them. I’ve lost my brother so many times and in so many ways and it never gets easier.
I lost my sister to meth once. Fortunately she got out of that life and does right now, but it's like having them die. You never know if they are going to make it out.
I'm sorry you're going through that brother.. at least sad insights are still insights I feel like, you know? If there were any consolation in this. Keep your head up my friend. Stay strong
Somebody who has done some extensive work with prisoners once said (can't remember the verbatim) that the most hard-core guys are the most vulnerable and hurt inside. Thought about that when I listened to this interview.
Consider his mother always telling him he’s wrong while she preaches at him while she doesn’t live it herself. Doesn’t sound there was much room for love from her.
He said some real shit. Because I had to grow up quickly in Baltimore Prisons and I had to do some crazy things as being a "White Boy ". But I got my respect and made it out after 18 years. God Bless you all. 🙏
Came here from the yt short they just made of these guy, and its edited so that the "the racism is here" line sounds like he's talking about being racist, when he's actually talking about being targeted for being White. 👏🏻 👏🏻 👏🏻 Good job SWU.
Wolves are extremely social animals. Lone wolves are typically individuals who have been rejected from the pack for antisocial behavior, and it's pretty much the worst thing for a wolf to be left alone. Funny how things mirror each other.
Speak for yourself 🐑 I avoid people more than ever these days an my life has never been smoother or more peaceful In fact the ONLY time i feel lonely or down is when im AROUND other people
I saw an extremely interesting nature documentary called The Rise Of The Black Wolf. It was about a pack of wolves in Alaska who's one territory border was a highway. They were terrified of the highway & wouldn't attempt to cross it. One black wolf was lone for whatever reason & he figured out that the highway was safe to cross or be on as long as no vehicles were coming. So, he'd use it to his advantage. He would go & mate with the female wolves & when caught he'd run right back to the highway while being chased by the pissed off male wolves. He'd cross it sometimes if there was some traffic but, the funny part was sometimes he'd just sit in the middle of it staring defiantly at the angry, snarling pack males who wouldn't dare set foot onto the highway.
Jesus, y’all are crazy. Schools and prisons failed, sure, but the core of the issue is the parents and culture he grew up in. Only child, and it seems they clearly didn’t even want to be parents as they shipped him off to military schools etc. Probably not a lot of love in the house to start with. He was on the fast track long before he got to schools or prisons
My ears perked up at the 12 minute mark. Dude is not as dumb as expected. He has a moment of self-awareness and self reflection. And his general thoughts on society and psychology are pretty accurate. Too bad his responses to it in general have been poor.
*"you define yourself through [...] conflict, and who your enemies are says [a lot about you]. If you've got some scrub-ass enemies get rid of them and get some better ones."*
I grew up in LA ( Long Beach ) and i grew up extremely poor in the suburbs with dudes exactly like this guy. Some of my best bros are now deceased because of the lifestyle they led similar to this brother. I wish him luck with the rest of his life. Life is hard for dudes like this.
@@tresdostres ok. I live in San Bernardino county, it's so incredibly large almost every area here have their own pd I'm pretty sure Long Beach still resides in LA county so it's a dumb point to argue. I've known people from Long Beach and they have always claimed LA. So what does it matter?
Interesting you'd say that. He got locked up for the first time at 15. Prisons in America aren't there to rehabilitate you, they want repeat offenders so they can keep making money
I can relate. My drug councillor told me that my emotions, maturity, mental age what have you had been stunted by my substance abuse. Several councillors have delayed that your maturity stops as the drug abuse begins, so I am a 50 year old with the maturity/emotional control of a 20 year old due to my 30+ year drug history (30+ years of Cannabis, Speed, Ecstasy, GHB, Ketamine, LSD, Shrooms, Cocaine, Crack, Heroin. The last 20 years of that were as a Heroin addict!)control I am far from your average 50 year old man! I am still impulsive, irratic, struggle with emotional control, can be very angry and short tempered. But DO have control in the one place it is most important to have it, with my 3 children. Without them I wouldn't be here today for sure and they gave me something to live for, work for, stay fit and healthy for and fight for. But I can certainly sympathise. Without my children I would be lost like him too!
You ain't alone man. I'm 43 and wonder the same about myself. I very rarely start problems and over the years I've learned to be able to bottle my anger up longer(not sure if that's a good thing) and in a way feel a bit desensitized to loss and suffering as a coping mechanism. My issue is that once I flip that switch I am all in and I'll deal with the repercussions afterwards.
@@perpetualmotion357I'm 30 and relate as well. I've been spending the past few years looking in and really getting to know myself and I've learned I automatically remove bad memories from my brain. Maybe not permanently, but damn near (a lot i cannot remember). And I put that logic to how I view other people, and sure enough, I forget a lot of the minimal wrongdoings and bad times I have and keep the good times in my mind. It was nice when I was depressed in my younger years, but nowadays I wish I could remember more just for myself. But then again, what does sulking in the bad do? Also, I'm scared of what the alternative would've been had I not began experimenting. Because I started doing drugs after I attempted suicide.
Thanks for speaking Kaos. Alot of value in this interview sensitive people will be incapable of looking past but many will take something from it. Thankyou!
Hi my name is Amar . I lived in LA for 15 years ( I’m back to Oh since Covid ) . I lived on the wild side while I was there, and I can assure you that everything this dude is saying is 100% true ie Gang Module & LA county racism violence ( where I spent 3 nights for rec op ), Torrance PD & this shoot out , he only made 1 error Ed Bunker was actually Mr Blue 😊 Oh yeah … I kicked H & Chrissy when it turned to Fentanyl ( 3 years clean now yippie ).
This is one hard dude, hard from a hard life. ...starting w how he was treated at a young age. Sounds like his Mom was pretty abusive. I appreciate his honesty and vulnerability. Hes also smart and well read. I hope he stays safe....a fent addiction is nothing nice. Hes got his work cut out for him. Wishing him peace and healing.
@@kashastaaado you have contact with your Dad? Are you going to give him a chance at redemption? What could he do to make up for lost time? Do you think there is any hope? Sorry for all the questions I am studying human behaviors so I can one day help more people. You say she was not abusive, but why does he believe she was? Does his Mom think maybe he has some mental disabilities now that there is more information on that type of stuff in today’s medical world?
I’d love to do an interview on one of these podcast. To helpfully inspire and encourage others to overcome adversities in life, and prove statistics wrong. Everyone got excuses and gets no where, I have all the excuses to use, but I chose the path of success and growth not believe what I was told. It got me to be a free thinking man, and I got lots of wild chapters to my story of life. This was a neat interview. I subscribed and hit the bell. I hope to see more of these
Kaos, you are the same age as my father. You have mad potential even at 48 to be a lot of good things. You’ll have to work the rest of your life to maintain a good relationship with your daighters but I guarantee itll be worth it when you meet your grand children
This man never grew up. Still in a wayward teenage mentally. Wish him all the best in finding his way around in life. Hoping he doesn't hurt anyone and seeks help.
Not wrong.. but the thing about that is you can not say that if you were in his shoes and raised in his circumstances, you could have done any better. 🤔
@@justinwilliams1728I was what you would call a wayward teen, but I joined the military and afterwards found a career. At some point in every man’s life, you have to become your own person. Blaming this or that wears pretty thin the older you get.
"Sometimes you gotta do time, but it's actually worth it." This sentence hits hard. People are just trying to be good citizens and just scrape by, but apparently you don't have to do it.
He's talking about SHU, not solitary. It's the California state prison system's way of dealing with race-gang factions. Read about it. Really: read about it. It's a whole different universe in there. A few years ago a magazine (maybe _The New Yorker_ but maybe not) did a longish article on it, but there are likely lots of videos on it now, and the movie _Shot Caller_ was probably based on it to some extent. Because it's a totally different way of life than the world outside-even more extremely different than regular prison-is presumably how and why it changes people as Kaos describes.
This was a great interview. I loved his honesty. It's sad too, though. He seems pretty smart and brutally ambitious. He could have done anything with his life, so why this path? It doesn't seem like his motto of "do what you want" has worked out very well.
Nah, I kinda agree with him. Our lives are all equally meaningless in the grand scheme, and we're all gonna be dead relatively soon anyways. The Universe/God (whatever you wanna call it) doesn't seem to care too much one way or the other from what I've seen so far in 42 years. There is no point in accruing nice things if you don't exist to enjoy them anymore. I've had nice things before. I've had the opportunity to have been with beautiful women too. It's all overrated. "There are no wolves in sheeptown." I like that.
Different strokes for different folks. I will take my kids running up to me excitedly at the front door, when I get home from work over parties, drugs and sex any day.
Some people are willing to take risk and live life on the edge and others want to always play it safe and go by the book…. You only get one life live it To the fullest (not saying go do a bunch of crime but go live a little man)
@@GORILLA_PIMP I’m guessing you are a complete moron with a crappy life. I don’t understand how being there for my kids makes me a sheep. If it does… Then I’ll own it 100%.
My friend's brother wasn't racist prior to prison but was after being released 3 years later. But with a good support system, he snapped out if it after a year or so. Doesn't have to be permanent.
Three years later, you said, this guy was locked up for more than half of his life and 15 years of the life he sat alone, 23 hours a day in a cell by himself. He went to jail as a child. I don't think your friends, brother and his three years in jail compares to what this one has been through. This is how this man survives whether it's right or it's wrong, he needed to survive, and that gang offered him survival. It is an ideology. It is a way of life, not three year stint.
@@southphillylillystop. Just stop. I'm an ex-convict myself and I'm sick of this mentality. "This asshole did 15 years so his experience is more valid and he's this much more of a victim.". No, the dudes an out of control junkie. Let's be real. That ain't because of prison. These women with their pom-poms going all day. You ever done a lick of time? Or is it straight cheer leading for some dip ass dope fiend who pretends he's a victim even though he's had 1,000 chances and expects everyone to let him do whatever he wants AND cover for his bs? That's the truth. He's an over grown, drug addicted child with a serious touch of entitlement. The prison system is the least of his worries.
This is a Loose Cannon. Been around dudes like this. Cant turn your back on them, cant drink with them. One glance and it's ON. What makes these psychos more dangerous is that they read a couple Dime Store movels and they believe they got everything and everyone figured out all the while being strung out on H or whatever else they are jonesen on. Can not believe they let him out to roam our streets. Great System!!
Literally what I was thinking. He looks like a bomb ready to blow any second and these guys start reading books and think they’re the smartest person in the room. Literally animals. He’s dangerous.
Based on this interview, this man is a teenager in a grown man’s body, and the hard lifestyle of drugs, jail, and drama isn’t the only thing adding to the immaturity. He seems to exhibit a mental disorder, adhd in my opinion. And at nearly 50, he’s not going to change for nobody.
Do you think he cares what you say or think? Maybe your the robotic immature one. In his world your the immature one for being judgemental. If your a Christian remember what it says about the plank in your eye.
I think what people don’t want to understand is that people like him don’t know any different/any better. When your whole life is “khaos” stillness and peace is extremely uncomfortable - that’s more traumatic for these individuals than their daily lives. There’s a lot he didn’t tell us, and I’m betting he was exposed much younger than jouvie. For some “being a lost cause”, as someone commented, is really the issue with our society. No one taught him how to love let alone how to get a job. And why would he? He knows how to make a quick $100, opposed to working a 9-5.
Why would he? To live a normal life and stay out of prison.. maybe have a family.. people make choices.. even at a young age you know what the right path is and what the wrong path is.. cmon now. Some kids just like to do bad shit.
@@macdietzIf all you hear from your mother is that everything you do is wrong/not good enough, most likely you’re going to show her she’s right by making bad choices.
@@marylougeorge9890bull kids need discipline some of them hard discipline and still don't learn this guy is a born loser and gets everything he deserves. He made the choices and these kind of people are the lowlife of society
I’m not racist by any means but one thing he is right about is the double standard. You see it constantly in your face in entertainment, the news, the tv, everywhere
@@craig5222 lmao I just googled to see if Webster or urban would know that answer (bc I speak in code 🤣) but seeing’s how you prolly did…. I meant are ya old enough to know the dewey decimal system?🤣😅🤣 regardless, Bc
I grew up with so many dudes like this. Everyone had shitty parents-myself included. Somehow, someway, I escaped this life. I joined the military, went to college, got into a white collar career after the military and have done very well. I know so many dudes who have been in prison, dudes who died young, etc. All the people in the comments saying he made stupid decisions, etc. Imagine you’re born into a life where your parents are not role models and not good parents. Everyone you see is involved in some type of crime. Everyone is constantly trying to get over on each other. No one has a regular job, no one is building anything in life, everyone is looking icee their shoulders or locked up. It’s very hard to break out of that when all you have is yourself.
Any creature held in captivity for a significant period of its life cannot be returned to the wild without being reconditioned, the normal behaviors required to survive much less thrive has been lost. Humans are no different once they have been conditioned to institutional life.
Yes unfortunately in todays "civilized" and "sophisticated" society we must tolerate an endure people who think differently That definitely really sucks but it's better than prison
The real world functions differently than the prison system? I tell ya, if it weren't for this comment I would have never known that. Thank you. I only hope Kaos sees this comment. I mean, if someone tells him that the real world functions differently than the prison system I bet you he would get a job tomorrow and reunite with his family!
It's interesting to listen to him talk. His speech patterns kind of give away that he started down this road at a young age. If I didn't know his age I would have guessed MUCH younger based on that alone. Fascinating, as always, Mark.
MUCH younger???? The guy has taken his own path in life. He would blow you away with his knowledge. You probably havent even lived outside of your four grand walls.
"you define yourself through [...] conflict, and who your enemies are says [a lot about you]. If you've got some scrub-ass enemies get rid of them and get some better ones."
@@colingreig3460definitely much younger, all he knows about is being on the street. No adult experience, no time spent traveling, no time being a responsible parent. A life of lost opportunity.
One of the best interviews I’ve seen on this channel. Kaos is absolutely captivating! His intelligence breaks through his misgivings at times. Sadly due to his choices, he knows no other life. There but for the grace of God go I! I hope you have a brighter future, Kaos. I wish you well. Thanks Mark et al - you open up all of your viewers worlds to other people’s realities.
"you define yourself through [...] conflict, and who your enemies are says [a lot about you]. If you've got some scrub-ass enemies get rid of them and get some better ones."
@bartclam May be so..Good for you, But do you think that people who need to be needed would be drawn to these types of characters?.. Happens everyday. You old enough to remember Manson and his murderous group ?...
One thing about being a white man in prison. They are exposed to blatant racism from the 90% black or brown population. So they learn to hate, and ive heard this alot.
He’s battling hisself…lol he doesn’t have to put a fake target on his back and treat his self as a victim that blacks are his eternal enemies it’s sad to watch, his mind is in a box
I understand why they have solitary confinement. But, what I don't understand is giving a person YEARS of solitary confinement. What good can it do for a person? I can only imagine it causing, anxiety, depression, anger, ect... ect... If they didn't have mental illness before, I'm sure they would after some type of diagnosis after...
Never been to prison but got solitary in county i found it a blessing, no cell mate to crap right next to your bunk (yes the toilet/sink is within a few feet of the bunks) no worries about arguments, your food is brought to you, a "little" less noisy.
@@curtismorris8243I completely understand a short term stint, especially in a city/or county. Shit that would be a blessing for some, city/county are nasty. But Kaos said he did 15 years!
He did 15 years because he is an NLR member(they all got rounded up and sent to the shu because of the criminal actions they were doing Inside of the walls in the 90s) same with other gangs in California
You are 100% correct. The people commenting here saying they would prefer it have no idea what long-term stints in the prison-system solitary confinement is actually like, or can actually do to someone's neurological pathways. Prison solitary is a cruel and unusual punishment that the prisons use to torture their prisoners, without any sort of repercussions whatsoever. You are in pitch-blackness 24 hrs a day, and any long-term stint can lead to psychosis and other severe mental issues. It is modern day torture.
@@baublesanddollsthat's not true... I bet he fuckin knows how to have fun in ways you could only glimpse in a horror movie! Haha I'm a crazy fucker myself so I can see value in being friends with this guy. Just not too close of friends. I feel like if this guy is a 10 on crazy, drug user, intense... I am on the same scale but at like a 4. But it's lonely having that wild animal shit inside you. Like 95% of the time I honestly would do anything and everything if the situation arose. Like I could just be driving to work or something and one thing turns another and I am in a multi state high speed chase then get out and go out like his friend did... Would even think twice about it. People don't know what's that's like to have that fearlessness and impulsiveness. It terrifies people. And they think I'm bad or nuts. But what I feel it's like is just being very committed, determined, a never quit attitude, loyalty, honesty... I judge each single situation soley on its own. Nothing else matters. Only what is justified right then.
When Kaos mentioned his girlfriend O.D.-ing from crack laced fentanyl, i thought back to the tragedy that was Hye Jung, who was so impressive as an individual, but died from the same circumstance as his friend. Kaos talks about either boosting or dying to live, never once contemplating the option of getting a real job.
@@MG-zu4stthat’s a lie I did 14 years got out in 2018 got a job that same week I have my brother in law got out last year after being locked up for 21 years and he got job with me then he left to to work construction for a local Union there’s so many opportunities for ex felons it’s ridiculous the Department of rehabilitation paid for my CDL school anyone that wants to make a life for themselves out here can and that’s a fact
It’s crazy he says his mom was too strict and maybe so. However, he left his two daughters to grown up with the same mother and they turned out great. We all have choices to make. The girls probably heeded to the righteous path his mother wanted him to walk on.
What a education it is to watch these different videos i Thanks those that open themselves up raw honest taking us down roads that we never realize or sometimes imagine God Bless Them All I Pray they find Peace Happiness and Good Health 🌹Thank You Mark for bringing it to us surely makes me Feel more Grateful for what I have in many ways God Bless Mark 🕊💙🙏🏼💙🕊
My dad thought the same thing and we never really knew him. The truth was that the BEST thing for us would’ve been to have a father that chose to grow TF up and be a role model for his kids. THATS what we needed. I understand what you are saying and I half agree. But his choice was selfish and childish and wrong. It’s so sad to see how many dudes never become men. It’s no wonder our society is f*cked. We have no men. They’re either in prison or they want to be women 😂
He says he is all about the Reich history, I really doubt he knows much about it. He would struggle to define Nazism; their origin, main policies, ideology, goals. Or to name 10 nazi TOP leaders and their deeds.
What a powerful portrait Mark! I’m not going to pretend I wouldn’t cross the road if I saw this fella coming the other way mind. Interesting interview all the same.
@@moondog9086 fair question. I have been followed by unpredictable males 5 times. I’ve been chased down, followed by a car with the passenger door open, grabbed and pushed into woodland, taunted on a train, having to jump off at a random station to find help. I’ve been prayed on by a ‘family’ member. Let’s just say I’ve become hyper aware of people that feel they’ve got NOTHING to lose. I escaped everyone of these attacks, just, I just wouldn’t take the risk. I think it’s amazing when someone like Kaos decides to value human life, I’m not sure I’m hearing that just yet? Are you?
@@student22044 Thanks for answering. After all that I can understand why you became hyper aware & I really was just curious. I guess I'm weird in how things that seem to scare most ppl don't scare me, but a lot of things that I fear most ppl don't worry about. I've never understood that about myself honestly, & I realize it's probably not for the best...just being honest.
When you came from a bad background and abuse it’s easy to go down this lifestyle and some actually get addicted to it and think it’s fun & better than a square one cuz it’s more exciting
Mark always says if the subject is boring or unoriginal or has nothing valid to say of interest, or he needs to ask lots of questions, it's a short interview. Like this one.
*_"you define yourself through [...] conflict, and who your enemies are says [a lot about you]. If you've got some scrub-ass enemies get rid of them and get some better ones."_*
It's the second one. I promise somethings you can't talk about. Even on the outside someone is always watching. It will follow you when you hit the yard
Man this was a good interview. I could tell when you talked about your daughter's...your heart softened a bit. I hope you can get close with them one day. Good luck to you.
Man it takes guts...crazy or not...to lower your walls and tell your story. Kudos to you man. I hope that relationship with your kids gets stronger one day.
@fritzish7299 The point of this channel is to show that we are all human beings. Most of us, on this planet, struggle through life. That's what makes us who we are. We are still human and are worthy, in the absolute least of things, to be wished well. That small sentiment can make a huge impact on some and we will never know how it affected them.
A broken 15 year old in a grown man’s body.
He was raised by the prison system.
Well- said.
Sums it up
Very true. I wish the best for him. I couldn't imagine growing up that way
FACTS
Arrested development.
Excellent portrait, Mark.
Kaos thanks for your interview telling us about a different part of life than most of us know.
Are you ready to swallow his babies too?
Better than expected. The pic is one of the best.
I was actually thinking the same thing. 🖤🖤🖤
You gotta get this guy back for a part two man
Agreed. I resonate with this guy the most of all interviews on this channel
He won't be alive
@@scottfetter3480 He made it to 48... why wouldn't he?
He said, "wtf we talking about"? While he was answering the question 😂😂 same man, same lol
an interviewee on the run ! what an interesting interview. thanks mark.
SWU illustrates that we are all truly products of our environments and childhoods. It is so hard to recover from or even realize it. Another beautiful portrait, Mark.
In the first minute - he was raised by a single mom - albeit one who tried hard.
Children brought up in single mother homes are: 10 times more likely to abuse chemical substances, 14 times more likely to commit rape, 20 times more likely to end up in prison, 32 times more likely to run away from home.
Almost dont need to watch the rest.
and before the obvious gets raised - No the same is not true for children raised by single fathers - their stats are almost identical to never divorced two parent familiies.
And yet judges continually cut fathers off from their children in family courts.
this guy represents the price everyone pays for that stupidity.
Most people who are parents SHOULDN'T be i agree
@@MrMattsAdventuressecond worse thing about being a product of a single mother is having to hear utter morons declare that there is nothing inherently wrong with that. First worse thing is being like this guy being interviewed when all you wanted to be is anything else.
I somewhat agree... when you're really little and have zero choice and agency- yes. But at some point you have to take some responsibility for your demons and not make yourself a complete life long victim.
Yeah, it's nature AND nurture. @@Sandy-of6gq
Such a big fan of your work because of the light you shed on all sorts of different people you see if you walk around. Its really anthropology and super interesting to watch as always. Thanks!
It really is.
My boy! T UNIT!!🤘
I agree
Agreed! 💓
I appreciate him for just being who he is during the interview. Our environments definitey shape us.
Dude is saying this and that about being proud to be white though, ngl I'm white and I can't stand white Americans. It's not about being white. I don't have a problem with Irish, Poles, Russians mostly, Ukrainians mostly, Latvians, Italians, French, the issue is white America, and to an extent English and German and Canadian white society. But primarily, white Americans. Republican or Democrat doesn't matter, I finally realized they're both an issue. I do think it's funny dude says "girls like me, and dudes hate me" yeah except they won't marry you, and then they're going to expect some absolute moronic dweeb to raise your kids for you.
Respect
So sad. So much of this interview was painful. Lost individual who will never understand peace.
This man reminds me so much of my brother and gives me additional sad insights into his experience as a felon. With fentanyl being involved, I’m constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop. I wish people like them didn’t think other people’s lives are better without them. I’ve lost my brother so many times and in so many ways and it never gets easier.
Sending love and healing 💖💖💖
I lost my sister to meth once. Fortunately she got out of that life and does right now, but it's like having them die. You never know if they are going to make it out.
I'm sorry you're going through that brother.. at least sad insights are still insights I feel like, you know? If there were any consolation in this. Keep your head up my friend. Stay strong
Sorry.
I'm so sorry man. I don't know you but I'm thinking about you.
Somebody who has done some extensive work with prisoners once said (can't remember the verbatim) that the most hard-core guys are the most vulnerable and hurt inside. Thought about that when I listened to this interview.
That pretty much sums it up. If you are balanced and in a good place you don't go for that kind of shit.
Consider his mother always telling him he’s wrong while she preaches at him while she doesn’t live it herself. Doesn’t sound there was much room for love from her.
@@marylougeorge9890 and so the generational trauma gets pased on .... really hard to break the cycle no matter what it is.
@@marylougeorge9890You never know. He is way the heck out there.
The inner conflict's gotta be exhausting.
Best portrait ever! You really captured his chaotic life style !
Hence his name, I guess!
Satanic lifestyle.
Yes!!
Nah. He was just able to jankily elegantly deliver it.
He has been in prison practicing telling this story for years lol
He said some real shit. Because I had to grow up quickly in Baltimore Prisons and I had to do some crazy things as being a "White Boy ". But I got my respect and made it out after 18 years. God Bless you all. 🙏
Most of society has no idea how racial politics play out in the pen! Hats off to you my brother!👊🏻💪🏻🍀
410 represent
Glad you are doing well, you sound like a warrior
One thing í will say about white prison gangs. They were right about everything!!!! Our people are in trouble.
stay straight and strong Christopher. you got this dude
Came here from the yt short they just made of these guy, and its edited so that the "the racism is here" line sounds like he's talking about being racist, when he's actually talking about being targeted for being White. 👏🏻 👏🏻 👏🏻 Good job SWU.
See, I didn't get that impression.
@davidadams2395 which part?
Antiwhiteism 😢😢, cry me a river.
@@hyperbolic-time-chamber-strand you hate us cus you aint us
@@CerebralFriction Sure bud, white victimhood lolol what a sad way to live, amazing....
Dude makes me glad to be a square.
Huey Lewis wasn’t joking! It is hip to be square.
Hell yeah! Glad to be square too!
Yeah me too guys 48 trying to live like a delinquent teenager
Haha never knew what that phrase meant until now!
It is so hip to be square
Wolves are extremely social animals. Lone wolves are typically individuals who have been rejected from the pack for antisocial behavior, and it's pretty much the worst thing for a wolf to be left alone. Funny how things mirror each other.
Well put
Speak for yourself 🐑
I avoid people more than ever these days an my life has never been smoother or more peaceful
In fact the ONLY time i feel lonely or down is when im AROUND other people
I saw an extremely interesting nature documentary called The Rise Of The Black Wolf. It was about a pack of wolves in Alaska who's one territory border was a highway. They were terrified of the highway & wouldn't attempt to cross it. One black wolf was lone for whatever reason & he figured out that the highway was safe to cross or be on as long as no vehicles were coming. So, he'd use it to his advantage. He would go & mate with the female wolves & when caught he'd run right back to the highway while being chased by the pissed off male wolves. He'd cross it sometimes if there was some traffic but, the funny part was sometimes he'd just sit in the middle of it staring defiantly at the angry, snarling pack males who wouldn't dare set foot onto the highway.
@@GORILLA_PIMPwell you’re a person not a wolf
What if society is the problem and you don’t feel comfortable participating in it, which makes people feel like lone wolfs..
I loved his honesty, in that he’s taking a huge risk doing this interview. I appreciate you for shedding light on reality!
why 'wat risk >
A part of him wants to return to prison, he indirectly said so 06:16
@@davechristian7543 Any talk regardless that nothing said....
@@davechristian7543 he said he's still an active member of a known gang, that by itslef could mean trouble if hes on parole for example.
@@Vistacraft82he became institutionalized
Perfect example of mental arrested development, I hate our prison system so much.
Yea... This should be allowed to be free in YOUR neighborhood so you can live with the consequences of your ignorance.
Also the educational system failed him & many before the prison system
Jesus, y’all are crazy. Schools and prisons failed, sure, but the core of the issue is the parents and culture he grew up in. Only child, and it seems they clearly didn’t even want to be parents as they shipped him off to military schools etc. Probably not a lot of love in the house to start with. He was on the fast track long before he got to schools or prisons
You definitely have pronouns. What a dumb ass comment
“If you got some little scrub ass enemies…get some better ones.” -Kaos
Same mentality that gon get him killed
Great interview, ty Kaos!
My ears perked up at the 12 minute mark. Dude is not as dumb as expected. He has a moment of self-awareness and self reflection. And his general thoughts on society and psychology are pretty accurate. Too bad his responses to it in general have been poor.
I don’t know what made you say that, the guy is pretty dumb.
Everybody knows something I don’t.
True. Remember though, all of that is a layer floating on top of an inner mayhem that you can't cope with.
pretty dum though
*"you define yourself through [...] conflict, and who your enemies are says [a lot about you]. If you've got some scrub-ass enemies get rid of them and get some better ones."*
I grew up in LA ( Long Beach ) and i grew up extremely poor in the suburbs with dudes exactly like this guy. Some of my best bros are now deceased because of the lifestyle they led similar to this brother. I wish him luck with the rest of his life. Life is hard for dudes like this.
Long beach ain’t LA fool
@@lamBETTERthanY0Uum, pretty sure it's still LA bruh.
@AliciaM5555 they litteraly have their own pd
@@tresdostres ok. I live in San Bernardino county, it's so incredibly large almost every area here have their own pd I'm pretty sure Long Beach still resides in LA county so it's a dumb point to argue. I've known people from Long Beach and they have always claimed LA. So what does it matter?
Used to be a lot of these guys.
Damn.. this guy sounds like he's still 15. The way he talks and processes information
Interesting you'd say that. He got locked up for the first time at 15. Prisons in America aren't there to rehabilitate you, they want repeat offenders so they can keep making money
It's called arrested development. He's a stupid, immature jackass. It's hopeless for him.
I can relate. My drug councillor told me that my emotions, maturity, mental age what have you had been stunted by my substance abuse. Several councillors have delayed that your maturity stops as the drug abuse begins, so I am a 50 year old with the maturity/emotional control of a 20 year old due to my 30+ year drug history (30+ years of Cannabis, Speed, Ecstasy, GHB, Ketamine, LSD, Shrooms, Cocaine, Crack, Heroin. The last 20 years of that were as a Heroin addict!)control
I am far from your average 50 year old man! I am still impulsive, irratic, struggle with emotional control, can be very angry and short tempered. But DO have control in the one place it is most important to have it, with my 3 children. Without them I wouldn't be here today for sure and they gave me something to live for, work for, stay fit and healthy for and fight for. But I can certainly sympathise. Without my children I would be lost like him too!
You ain't alone man. I'm 43 and wonder the same about myself. I very rarely start problems and over the years I've learned to be able to bottle my anger up longer(not sure if that's a good thing) and in a way feel a bit desensitized to loss and suffering as a coping mechanism. My issue is that once I flip that switch I am all in and I'll deal with the repercussions afterwards.
@@perpetualmotion357I'm 30 and relate as well. I've been spending the past few years looking in and really getting to know myself and I've learned I automatically remove bad memories from my brain. Maybe not permanently, but damn near (a lot i cannot remember). And I put that logic to how I view other people, and sure enough, I forget a lot of the minimal wrongdoings and bad times I have and keep the good times in my mind. It was nice when I was depressed in my younger years, but nowadays I wish I could remember more just for myself. But then again, what does sulking in the bad do? Also, I'm scared of what the alternative would've been had I not began experimenting. Because I started doing drugs after I attempted suicide.
Thanks for speaking Kaos. Alot of value in this interview sensitive people will be incapable of looking past but many will take something from it. Thankyou!
Hi my name is Amar .
I lived in LA for 15 years ( I’m back to Oh since Covid ) . I lived on the wild side while I was there, and I can assure you that everything this dude is saying is 100% true ie Gang Module & LA county racism violence ( where I spent 3 nights for rec op ), Torrance PD & this shoot out , he only made 1 error Ed
Bunker was actually
Mr Blue 😊
Oh yeah … I kicked H & Chrissy when it turned to Fentanyl ( 3 years clean now yippie ).
Congratulations on your sobriety. ❤️
@@marylougeorge9890 Thank You !
Ha ha yeah I thought he was wrong about Mr Brown. That was Tarantino.
Good on you, proud of your sobriety
@@tifKh Sincerely thank you
Find your peace quickly, brother. Your colour will not matter when you are six feet under.
A poignant comment thanks for posting
guy will never find peace while alive.
These guys will NEVER change! Not at this age .. no chance
Clearly you haven't been to prison. Your color will get you put 6' under. Whether you like it or not. It's American history X.
THAT Part.
This is one hard dude, hard from a hard life. ...starting w how he was treated at a young age. Sounds like his Mom was pretty abusive. I appreciate his honesty and vulnerability. Hes also smart and well read. I hope he stays safe....a fent addiction is nothing nice. Hes got his work cut out for him. Wishing him peace and healing.
Well said❤❤❤
His mom was not abusive. I am his daughter. She did everything she could to help him. And he rejected her.
@@kashastaaail be your dady
@@kashastaaado you have contact with your Dad? Are you going to give him a chance at redemption? What could he do to make up for lost time? Do you think there is any hope? Sorry for all the questions I am studying human behaviors so I can one day help more people. You say she was not abusive, but why does he believe she was? Does his Mom think maybe he has some mental disabilities now that there is more information on that type of stuff in today’s medical world?
@kashastaaa you should try to get an interview. I'm sure you have a lot to talk about.
I’d love to do an interview on one of these podcast. To helpfully inspire and encourage others to overcome adversities in life, and prove statistics wrong. Everyone got excuses and gets no where, I have all the excuses to use, but I chose the path of success and growth not believe what I was told. It got me to be a free thinking man, and I got lots of wild chapters to my story of life. This was a neat interview. I subscribed and hit the bell. I hope to see more of these
Kaos, you are the same age as my father. You have mad potential even at 48 to be a lot of good things. You’ll have to work the rest of your life to maintain a good relationship with your daighters but I guarantee itll be worth it when you meet your grand children
Rumor has it that this man has not worn a shirt since the 80's.
proud of his ink / muscle : ALL man
@@mda1218🤣
@@mda1218 pride before the fall
@@mda1218There is zero muscle .
Black Flag Tattoo is funny. They would hate this guy
The portrait picture is so vivid and speaks volumes.
This man never grew up. Still in a wayward teenage mentally. Wish him all the best in finding his way around in life. Hoping he doesn't hurt anyone and seeks help.
Not wrong.. but the thing about that is you can not say that if you were in his shoes and raised in his circumstances, you could have done any better. 🤔
Think about it
Growing up is way over rated anyway.
@@justinwilliams1728I was what you would call a wayward teen, but I joined the military and afterwards found a career. At some point in every man’s life, you have to become your own person. Blaming this or that wears pretty thin the older you get.
True! @@justinwilliams1728
"Sometimes you gotta do time, but it's actually worth it."
This sentence hits hard. People are just trying to be good citizens and just scrape by, but apparently you don't have to do it.
Fantastic photo Mark! One of your best.
He is correct about solitary confinement. It completely breaks you mentally.
He's talking about SHU, not solitary. It's the California state prison system's way of dealing with race-gang factions. Read about it. Really: read about it. It's a whole different universe in there. A few years ago a magazine (maybe _The New Yorker_ but maybe not) did a longish article on it, but there are likely lots of videos on it now, and the movie _Shot Caller_ was probably based on it to some extent.
Because it's a totally different way of life than the world outside-even more extremely different than regular prison-is presumably how and why it changes people as Kaos describes.
@@hughmac13 I know the difference. Maybe YOU should read about solitary confinement, waste.
It would be paradise for me to be totally isolated from the rest of humanity, to the greatest extent possible.
@@Ozark_Bule Why so abbrasive? Chill the fvck out dude.
@@rong2912i agree as long as EYE have the power to come and go as i please and not anyone else
That's the key (no pun intended)
This was a great interview. I loved his honesty. It's sad too, though. He seems pretty smart and brutally ambitious. He could have done anything with his life, so why this path? It doesn't seem like his motto of "do what you want" has worked out very well.
"Do what you want" is usually not a moto people would choose no matter the background. It's rather a response to your environment in order to survive.
Feel better?
Nah, I kinda agree with him. Our lives are all equally meaningless in the grand scheme, and we're all gonna be dead relatively soon anyways.
The Universe/God (whatever you wanna call it) doesn't seem to care too much one way or the other from what I've seen so far in 42 years.
There is no point in accruing nice things if you don't exist to enjoy them anymore. I've had nice things before. I've had the opportunity to have been with beautiful women too. It's all overrated.
"There are no wolves in sheeptown." I like that.
@@Robocop4Everedge lord ✨✌️
You get hugged very often?
Not one thing he said in this interview shows above average intelligence.
Different strokes for different folks. I will take my kids running up to me excitedly at the front door, when I get home from work over parties, drugs and sex any day.
You a good 🐑
Never let anyone tell you differently
no, I’m from the street too. I just learn to speak and behave.
Some people are willing to take risk and live life on the edge and others want to always play it safe and go by the book…. You only get one life live it To the fullest (not saying go do a bunch of crime but go live a little man)
You bet mate !
@@GORILLA_PIMP I’m guessing you are a complete moron with a crappy life. I don’t understand how being there for my kids makes me a sheep. If it does… Then I’ll own it 100%.
Can only hope for the best for this dude and can hope eventually his kids can be apart of his life
Absolutely loved the portrait!
Thank you for the interview Kaos & SWU
Those girls of his are grown. It’s never too late to tell them that you love them, they are beautiful, they matter and you’re sorry.
He has!
He says his daughters should thank him for not being in their lives. Perhaps he should have gotten his shit together for them. What a total p.o.s.
He's right, his love was him not being around because of the gang violence that follow him
My friend's brother wasn't racist prior to prison but was after being released 3 years later. But with a good support system, he snapped out if it after a year or so. Doesn't have to be permanent.
Three years later, you said, this guy was locked up for more than half of his life and 15 years of the life he sat alone, 23 hours a day in a cell by himself. He went to jail as a child. I don't think your friends, brother and his three years in jail compares to what this one has been through. This is how this man survives whether it's right or it's wrong, he needed to survive, and that gang offered him survival. It is an ideology. It is a way of life, not three year stint.
You literally have no idea what they went through but you over here talking like you know em.
@@kenosabi has a reply to every comment I've clicked on
Being racist is only considered bad if you happen to be white. Prove me wrong
@@southphillylillystop. Just stop. I'm an ex-convict myself and I'm sick of this mentality. "This asshole did 15 years so his experience is more valid and he's this much more of a victim.". No, the dudes an out of control junkie. Let's be real. That ain't because of prison. These women with their pom-poms going all day. You ever done a lick of time? Or is it straight cheer leading for some dip ass dope fiend who pretends he's a victim even though he's had 1,000 chances and expects everyone to let him do whatever he wants AND cover for his bs? That's the truth. He's an over grown, drug addicted child with a serious touch of entitlement. The prison system is the least of his worries.
This is a Loose Cannon. Been around dudes like this. Cant turn your back on them, cant drink with them. One glance and it's ON. What makes these psychos more dangerous is that they read a couple Dime Store movels and they believe they got everything and everyone figured out all the while being strung out on H or whatever else they are jonesen on. Can not believe they let him out to roam our streets. Great System!!
Yea dude!! this is the walking definition of a "Loose Cannon"!!
Literally what I was thinking. He looks like a bomb ready to blow any second and these guys start reading books and think they’re the smartest person in the room. Literally animals. He’s dangerous.
That's actually surprisingly accurate.
Loose and on the juice. The only good thing is that they are easy to spot and easy to read.
Based on this interview, this man is a teenager in a grown man’s body, and the hard lifestyle of drugs, jail, and drama isn’t the only thing adding to the immaturity. He seems to exhibit a mental disorder, adhd in my opinion. And at nearly 50, he’s not going to change for nobody.
Do you think he cares what you say or think? Maybe your the robotic immature one. In his world your the immature one for being judgemental. If your a Christian remember what it says about the plank in your eye.
I think what people don’t want to understand is that people like him don’t know any different/any better. When your whole life is “khaos” stillness and peace is extremely uncomfortable - that’s more traumatic for these individuals than their daily lives. There’s a lot he didn’t tell us, and I’m betting he was exposed much younger than jouvie. For some “being a lost cause”, as someone commented, is really the issue with our society. No one taught him how to love let alone how to get a job. And why would he? He knows how to make a quick $100, opposed to working a 9-5.
Why would he? To live a normal life and stay out of prison.. maybe have a family.. people make choices.. even at a young age you know what the right path is and what the wrong path is.. cmon now. Some kids just like to do bad shit.
@@macdietzIf all you hear from your mother is that everything you do is wrong/not good enough, most likely you’re going to show her she’s right by making bad choices.
@@macdietztrauma does crazy things.
@@ryansack5198 stop dehumanising you look stupid
@@marylougeorge9890bull kids need discipline some of them hard discipline and still don't learn this guy is a born loser and gets everything he deserves. He made the choices and these kind of people are the lowlife of society
Thanks, Mark & Kaos
Mark all your interviews are Stellar.. Thanks again sir”
I’m not racist by any means but one thing he is right about is the double standard. You see it constantly in your face in entertainment, the news, the tv, everywhere
Great interview, real & raw ! Keep up z awsome work! Respect fellas
He’s why everything is locked up at CVS
LOL
I had this exact thought too. 😅
I don’t think that’s true if you look at it statistically
yeah I'm not sure it's white supremacists doing that, bro.
Lmao right
The saddest part is he already does have a life sentence, and he doesn’t even realize it 😵💫🦋💜🦋
That was deep bro
Well said. Also, I have no choice but to think you are a hot librarian
@@craig5222 do you know the dewy? 😉 🕵️♀️
@@craig5222 lmao I just googled to see if Webster or urban would know that answer (bc I speak in code 🤣) but seeing’s how you prolly did…. I meant are ya old enough to know the dewey decimal system?🤣😅🤣 regardless,
Bc
@@LettiesLife hahah that’s intellectually sexy
Mark has incredible patience and dedication to sit through & listen to this constantly
i think he’s genuinely interested in people
@@ibox9sI agree. Mark is a humble and compassionate human being.
He’s getting pretty wealthy doing it.
@@Dawg7227 he had an excellent idea and his content is paying off. That’s true.
Mark was wealthy before he started this. But he’s going broke paying everyone! Brilliant in so many ways.
I grew up with so many dudes like this. Everyone had shitty parents-myself included. Somehow, someway, I escaped this life. I joined the military, went to college, got into a white collar career after the military and have done very well. I know so many dudes who have been in prison, dudes who died young, etc. All the people in the comments saying he made stupid decisions, etc. Imagine you’re born into a life where your parents are not role models and not good parents. Everyone you see is involved in some type of crime. Everyone is constantly trying to get over on each other. No one has a regular job, no one is building anything in life, everyone is looking icee their shoulders or locked up. It’s very hard to break out of that when all you have is yourself.
“Live your life to the fullest!” says the dude who spent years of his life staring at the walls.
That’s probably the reason he says that. He knows he wasted his life.
Good interview Mark. He’s the product of his parents. Poor boy was destined for trouble from the jump. I wish him well. I hope he finds peace.
No growing up with this guy, the real world functions outside of a prison system where different people try to coexist peacefully.
Yes, he is mentally stunted. I'm sure 15 years of solitary confinement didn't help either.
Any creature held in captivity for a significant period of its life cannot be returned to the wild without being reconditioned, the normal behaviors required to survive much less thrive has been lost. Humans are no different once they have been conditioned to institutional life.
there is no coexistence. Have you seen the crime in this country??? Clueless shitlibs
Yes unfortunately in todays "civilized" and "sophisticated" society we must tolerate an endure people who think differently
That definitely really sucks but it's better than prison
The real world functions differently than the prison system? I tell ya, if it weren't for this comment I would have never known that. Thank you.
I only hope Kaos sees this comment. I mean, if someone tells him that the real world functions differently than the prison system I bet you he would get a job tomorrow and reunite with his family!
It's interesting to listen to him talk. His speech patterns kind of give away that he started down this road at a young age. If I didn't know his age I would have guessed MUCH younger based on that alone. Fascinating, as always, Mark.
MUCH younger???? The guy has taken his own path in life. He would blow you away with his knowledge.
You probably havent even lived outside of your four grand walls.
"you define yourself through [...] conflict, and who your enemies are says [a lot about you]. If you've got some scrub-ass enemies get rid of them and get some better ones."
@@colingreig3460definitely much younger, all he knows about is being on the street. No adult experience, no time spent traveling, no time being a responsible parent. A life of lost opportunity.
@@colingreig3460his knowledge that’s a fucking dope head who cannot speak English?
One of the best interviews I’ve seen on this channel. Kaos is absolutely captivating! His intelligence breaks through his misgivings at times. Sadly due to his choices, he knows no other life. There but for the grace of God go I!
I hope you have a brighter future, Kaos. I wish you well.
Thanks Mark et al - you open up all of your viewers worlds to other people’s realities.
Intelligence?
@@punxsurf2144Exactly what I thought. Guy’s just a mass of contradictions.
"you define yourself through [...] conflict, and who your enemies are says [a lot about you]. If you've got some scrub-ass enemies get rid of them and get some better ones."
Social choices affected him far more than his own choices. It is all cultural.
@@weevolvetogether C’mon then woke moron, explain exactly what you mean by “social choices”.
I love the way he said Crystal on the side like it's a salad
He's a good reason to ALWAYS be cautious about who your around. He's got a personality that can draw people in... Then spit them out !...😳
YUP - keep your kids away from him and others like him cause you'll regret it!
I see nothing about his personality that can draw people in .
I don't see anything at all about his personality that can draw people in .
@bartclam May be so..Good for you, But do you think that people who need to be needed would be drawn to these types of characters?.. Happens everyday. You old enough to remember Manson and his murderous group ?...
@@SharonJacobs-r2h Read what I responded to before commenting .
GREAT portrait Mark. Wow,. what a shot.
Ever been in love ?
“Oh yes… my ex girlfriend …yea she was a black belt in muy thai , we used to have some good fights”
Romantic
And she died about a month and a half ago.
And she wasn’t his MAIN girl
I hope you do well mate .Great vid as always .
One thing about being a white man in prison. They are exposed to blatant racism from the 90% black or brown population. So they learn to hate, and ive heard this alot.
He’s battling hisself…lol he doesn’t have to put a fake target on his back and treat his self as a victim that blacks are his eternal enemies it’s sad to watch, his mind is in a box
You have no compassion
@@jasonweczorek4135lol what this comment is pure compassion
It's not a "fake" bullseye.
would definitely buy a "how would you describe your childhood?" t-shirt
Great interview this morning to start my morning off.. tx Mark. Any updates on Patrick???
San Pedro is one interesting place. Having grown up there, went to highschool there, it's very easy to fall into the wrong place, very fast.
Anyone notice how frequent prisons turn simple criminals into monsters?
Damn now I see why you named this project “ Soft White Underbelly “
Bahaha🤭😭😭😭... I see what you did there🏃🏿♀️🏃🏿♀️🏃🏿♀️💥💥💥🤸🏿♂️💥🤸🏿♂️💥🤸🏿♂️
😂
😂😅😂
soft white belly , but bets it’s taken some 👊🏼 busters & softened a few himself
fn' genius
I understand why they have solitary confinement. But, what I don't understand is giving a person YEARS of solitary confinement. What good can it do for a person? I can only imagine it causing, anxiety, depression, anger, ect... ect... If they didn't have mental illness before, I'm sure they would after some type of diagnosis after...
Never been to prison but got solitary in county i found it a blessing, no cell mate to crap right next to your bunk (yes the toilet/sink is within a few feet of the bunks) no worries about arguments, your food is brought to you, a "little" less noisy.
@@curtismorris8243I completely understand a short term stint, especially in a city/or county. Shit that would be a blessing for some, city/county are nasty. But Kaos said he did 15 years!
He did 15 years because he is an NLR member(they all got rounded up and sent to the shu because of the criminal actions they were doing Inside of the walls in the 90s) same with other gangs in California
If I would go to prison I'd prefer solitary
You are 100% correct. The people commenting here saying they would prefer it have no idea what long-term stints in the prison-system solitary confinement is actually like, or can actually do to someone's neurological pathways. Prison solitary is a cruel and unusual punishment that the prisons use to torture their prisoners, without any sort of repercussions whatsoever. You are in pitch-blackness 24 hrs a day, and any long-term stint can lead to psychosis and other severe mental issues. It is modern day torture.
Some ppl love living a life of chaos so much that they name themselves Kaos .
Noone loves this. His environment shaped him. Room temp IQ take.
A lot of people get their nicknames and street names given to them.
Kaos, thank you for your honesty. I'm sorry that life was hard for you. This is by far one of SWU's best interviews.
Mark.. please share some tips and camera etc for all those amazing portrait shots
seems like the kind of guy that doesn't bring positive influence into anyone's life, even his own. avoid at all costs.
Man's name is Kaos I think you can figure that out pretty quickly.
Oh yeah? You changed the world and I just missed it?
Lol. His name is chaos just spelled differently
@@baublesanddollsthat's not true... I bet he fuckin knows how to have fun in ways you could only glimpse in a horror movie! Haha I'm a crazy fucker myself so I can see value in being friends with this guy. Just not too close of friends. I feel like if this guy is a 10 on crazy, drug user, intense... I am on the same scale but at like a 4. But it's lonely having that wild animal shit inside you. Like 95% of the time I honestly would do anything and everything if the situation arose. Like I could just be driving to work or something and one thing turns another and I am in a multi state high speed chase then get out and go out like his friend did... Would even think twice about it. People don't know what's that's like to have that fearlessness and impulsiveness. It terrifies people. And they think I'm bad or nuts. But what I feel it's like is just being very committed, determined, a never quit attitude, loyalty, honesty... I judge each single situation soley on its own. Nothing else matters. Only what is justified right then.
@@matthewramey5677no s hit
The portrait is amazing!
When Kaos mentioned his girlfriend O.D.-ing from crack laced fentanyl, i thought back to the tragedy that was Hye Jung, who was so impressive as an individual, but died from the same circumstance as his friend. Kaos talks about either boosting or dying to live, never once contemplating the option of getting a real job.
Sadly, our system does not help rehabilitate criminals.
There are tons of places that hire felons.
These people think we are stupid for working for a living. That's why they never get a job.
@@MG-zu4stand traditional jobs don't make enough for a drug habit
@@MG-zu4stthat’s a lie I did 14 years got out in 2018 got a job that same week I have my brother in law got out last year after being locked up for 21 years and he got job with me then he left to to work construction for a local Union there’s so many opportunities for ex felons it’s ridiculous the Department of rehabilitation paid for my CDL school anyone that wants to make a life for themselves out here can and that’s a fact
Hard to get a good enough job to support yourself in cali let alone anywhere with a record like his…
Thought his tatt said booty bandit for a split second
It’s crazy he says his mom was too strict and maybe so. However, he left his two daughters to grown up with the same mother and they turned out great. We all have choices to make. The girls probably heeded to the righteous path his mother wanted him to walk on.
Or maybe the mom learned her lesson messing him up and changed the way she raised kids?
The portrait brought me here..the interview kept me.
Looks like one of the extras in Shot Caller
What an interesting guy. As much as he's a gangster I feel like you could have a very complex, in depth conversation with him. Great video!
What a education it is to watch these different videos i Thanks those that open themselves up raw honest taking us down roads that we never realize or sometimes imagine God Bless Them All I Pray they find Peace Happiness and Good Health 🌹Thank You Mark for bringing it to us surely makes me Feel more Grateful for what I have in many ways God Bless Mark 🕊💙🙏🏼💙🕊
I agree when he say that the best thing he can do for his daugthers is step away...
My dad thought the same thing and we never really knew him. The truth was that the BEST thing for us would’ve been to have a father that chose to grow TF up and be a role model for his kids. THATS what we needed.
I understand what you are saying and I half agree. But his choice was selfish and childish and wrong. It’s so sad to see how many dudes never become men. It’s no wonder our society is f*cked. We have no men. They’re either in prison or they want to be women 😂
@@travisschaefer5286 step away? na , STEP UP!
The one thing I you always see , doesn’t matter how messed up they are, they still have regret/ love about their children. It’s interesting
Insightful interview with great topics. The defeatist attitude he displayed at times is easily remedied. Keep Believing and Good Luck.
This was a good one!
He says he is all about the Reich history, I really doubt he knows much about it. He would struggle to define Nazism; their origin, main policies, ideology, goals. Or to name 10 nazi TOP leaders and their deeds.
Damn what a great interview. Bring him back when the time is right. Good stuff
I’d like to hear more of his growing up.
@@marylougeorge9890 I'd like to hear more of how he heard 'straighten up and fly right' but rejected it because he's ya know.... dumb.
@@glenneric1 Smh 🤦♀️
What a powerful portrait Mark! I’m not going to pretend I wouldn’t cross the road if I saw this fella coming the other way mind. Interesting interview all the same.
Just curious...why would you cross the road?
@@moondog9086 fair question. I have been followed by unpredictable males 5 times. I’ve been chased down, followed by a car with the passenger door open, grabbed and pushed into woodland, taunted on a train, having to jump off at a random station to find help. I’ve been prayed on by a ‘family’ member. Let’s just say I’ve become hyper aware of people that feel they’ve got NOTHING to lose. I escaped everyone of these attacks, just, I just wouldn’t take the risk. I think it’s amazing when someone like Kaos decides to value human life, I’m not sure I’m hearing that just yet? Are you?
@@student22044 lol look at your head
@@moondog9086To get to the other side.
@@student22044 Thanks for answering. After all that I can understand why you became hyper aware & I really was just curious. I guess I'm weird in how things that seem to scare most ppl don't scare me, but a lot of things that I fear most ppl don't worry about. I've never understood that about myself honestly, & I realize it's probably not for the best...just being honest.
I do not understand the fascination w this kinda life. Makes me glad to be normal. Living on drugs, in prison, gangs, etc seems exhausting.
When you came from a bad background and abuse it’s easy to go down this lifestyle and some actually get addicted to it and think it’s fun & better than a square one cuz it’s more exciting
Mark always says if the subject is boring or unoriginal or has nothing valid to say of interest, or he needs to ask lots of questions, it's a short interview. Like this one.
“No wolves in Sheep Town”! 😂😂😂 True that! Great interview!!!
Very true
*_"you define yourself through [...] conflict, and who your enemies are says [a lot about you]. If you've got some scrub-ass enemies get rid of them and get some better ones."_*
One, he is bullshitting,or two hes choosing his words wisely so he doesnt say too much to get him in trouble with his gang.
It's the second one. I promise somethings you can't talk about. Even on the outside someone is always watching. It will follow you when you hit the yard
It’s incredible the difference in mindset between a lifelong criminal and a square.
Men do what they want boys do what they can 😘
"Ask a lot of questions and do what the eff you want." There's a lot of truth to that.
Great interview
That Life Sentence he fears is just around the corner.
That’s lokey what he wants
@@noahandmick9646right
Sad but true 😢
Yup its hell, unless he repents
@@adamdacruz2897what does repent mean?
Man this was a good interview. I could tell when you talked about your daughter's...your heart softened a bit. I hope you can get close with them one day. Good luck to you.
Man it takes guts...crazy or not...to lower your walls and tell your story. Kudos to you man. I hope that relationship with your kids gets stronger one day.
What the hell with this society today wishing thugs good luck...
Its probably a branch out of the Stockholm syndrome; or maybe like a weird attraction to thugs.
Literally 90% of rap songs promote thug behavior
@fritzish7299 The point of this channel is to show that we are all human beings. Most of us, on this planet, struggle through life. That's what makes us who we are. We are still human and are worthy, in the absolute least of things, to be wished well. That small sentiment can make a huge impact on some and we will never know how it affected them.
I'm a southbay native and I can definiety see how people can end up being like this. There's still a lot of white supremacy in the southbay