Need to study almost all these disorders within a week for my exam. This will help tremendously. By only watching it I already remembered a few of them. Thanks a lot!!
So well done, thank you. Your book is great too. I love having it as a study tool and reference. I think it’s great you share your knowledge and great delivery on TH-cam as well as in your written material! Keep it up!
You are a Psych genius. Thank you for saving me from this confusion about psych conditions. I have liked and subscribed. You did the work!!! Kudos to you.
I'm curious about your last name, on the replies to this tape, is that your true surname not a user name? I'm not being pushy just wondering. Kraut is not a common surname.
I hate Psych but I came across this Mark Klimek nclex video and it was very simple and explicit. You should watch this video. th-cam.com/video/CQkSlMciX4k/w-d-xo.html
Thanks for making these videos! It helps a lot when I can't understand it, It also helps me study psychiatry! I want to be a psychiatrist soon because I have magic thinking OCD, I didn't really have a tramatic past so I think I'm just born with it. I want to help some people with it or other disorders, it makes me feel happier! These videos helped me a lot with note-taking too! By the way, if you don't mind answering, should I study biology or chemistry for psychiatry?
If I make a suggestion, if you plan on going the medical school route (bachelors -> med school -> psychiatry residency) then you might find neuroscience as a bachelors interesting. Although everything you learn, you'll probably learn again in medical school.
I hate Psych but I came across this Mark Klimek nclex video and it was very simple and explicit. You should watch this video. th-cam.com/video/CQkSlMciX4k/w-d-xo.html
Hi Dr purchased all your books just wanna say how brilliant your work is. PS do you have any intention on writing a book on the endocrine system? Keep up the good work DOC 👌
So glad you found them helpful! I don't have any intention of writing a book on the endocrine system at this time. I feel like psych and neuro are probably the extent of what I can write knowledgeably about! =)
Hi just want to kindly ask for advice on how can I raise my kids different from the way I was raised. I just don't want them to experience the things I gone thru when growing up. But I am worried I am taking them forgranted because I am still dealing with my own mental health issues.
Go to therapy that gives you more self awareness of your behavioral patterns. Then you and your therapist can teach you new tools to help you achieve the goals you have set. Also, a reminder parenting is hard and there is no such thing as a perfect parent! All parenta screw up their children to an extent. Its obviously more tough for people going through their own issues. I commend you for being courageous and I can already tell you care a lot for your children and will do your best by them. I hope you have a reliable support system to help you as well. I wish you all the best and I know you can do this!
It's good stuff but like he mentioned in the beginning of the video this is only a basic map for schizophrenia for instance there's alot of symptoms like being antisocial or lack of motivation which are your negative symptoms I was actually told that negative symptoms have to be present and hallucinations, paranoia, and/or mania are productive symptoms that don't necessarily have to be present.
I hate Psych but I came across this Mark Klimek nclex video and it was very simple and explicit. You should watch this video. th-cam.com/video/CQkSlMciX4k/w-d-xo.html
I was doing average in elementary school, but because I was being a little troublesome like ditching school or trying weed in the age of 15, my parents got me to start with adhd medication. I am currently taking 120 mg og ritalin + antidepressants - and I'm studying medicine ti become a doctor. How ever after a long and traumatic depression recently, I discovered I have deep trauma and self hate from always seeing myself as someone with adhd. Trying to remove stigma in adhd with normalising talk about it, or doing stuff like trying to explain every facet of my life or behaviour as related to adhd, is totally absurd. I have always felt like I was underperformed, before I got adhd i wanted to become a mechanic or a electrician. I wasn't happy with siting still all day learning about subjects that didn't interest me. I would much rather be outside or working on something. So yes the medication "improved" my life but. And IT IS A BIG BUT - it only improved my life because I was able to conform more to the goals and the narrative set by parents, teachers and society, on what is most optimal behaviour. Today I found out I have to stop with my medication, as I have developed high bloodpressure. I'm not saying that this is because of the medication, but having to go back to my old self after all these years is SO scary. Also let me say this - since I started my medication I have had no hobbies, I socialize yes, but It is mostly my freinds who contact me as I often have a fear of not optimising my time. I generally have deep trauma from not understanding why I needed to continuously improve myself, and why eventhough I was scoring at the top of my high-school I was still constantly seeing videos about and being told about how kids with adhd have problems in school. Before adhd I was also incredibly good at maths and logic, so eventhough I didn't do my homework I was understanding everything and doing fine. Remember how much we expect of our kids and future kids. From our point of view a Chinese school with discipline and conformity is very very evil and bad to the kids, and many say that the kids are only ever existing to become productive citizens. I wish I could go back in time and maybe tell my parents and teachers that I just needed some time to be young, give me a year or so, I want to explorer the big cities around me, go to koncerts. I was also before meds playing guitar and windsurfing and also skateboarding. I wish I didn't stop with that. It simply wasn't possible with all the mess of starting at a psychiatrist and also starting high school without taking a break. I can say to this day, that I always have been depressed since stopping with my hobbies, and all my life goals has since my diagnosis been to prove to the world I was not sick or stupid or at a disadvantage. Telling me about all my negative traits, and then only telling me that the positive traits with adhd was creativity ruined me. I FUCKING READ MEDICINE AND I GOT PERFECT SCORE IN HIGHSCHOOL BUT I WAS FUCKING TAKING DRUGS AND I WANT MY SELF PICTURE AS BEING HUMAN BACK YOU MOTHERFUCKERS! Everytime I am going through a period of stress or a break up or something throughout my life, my family and freinds have always brought up something they heard about adhd. I WONT fucking take it anymore. Its like everytime a woman has an issue you tell them "well as a woman you are prone to emotional instability, do you think that could be the reason for your current situation?" Fuck you bastards - please take an ethical dialogue internationally about what boundaries and predictions you as experts can really help with. There is a very good lesson in chaos theory, and it is important to be very honest about your potentiel limitations and not promise a one truth. I'm not saying my medication is wrong or diagnosis. But I'm sure that there is a positive feed back loop going on currently which might accidently collapse on it self - we have never seen a higher increase in disbelief in experts. This is some would say a direct cause of over all the contradicting expert statements to the public, also overexposure to all kinds of information fro
I was doing average in elementary school, but because I was being a little troublesome like ditching school or trying weed in the age of 15, my parents got me to start with adhd medication. I am currently taking 120 mg og ritalin + antidepressants - and I'm studying medicine ti become a doctor. How ever after a long and traumatic depression recently, I discovered I have deep trauma and self hate from always seeing myself as someone with adhd. Trying to remove stigma in adhd with normalising talk about it, or doing stuff like trying to explain every facet of my life or behaviour as related to adhd, is totally absurd. I have always felt like I was underperformed, before I got adhd i wanted to become a mechanic or a electrician. I wasn't happy with siting still all day learning about subjects that didn't interest me. I would much rather be outside or working on something. So yes the medication "improved" my life but. And IT IS A BIG BUT - it only improved my life because I was able to conform more to the goals and the narrative set by parents, teachers and society, on what is most optimal behaviour. Today I found out I have to stop with my medication, as I have developed high bloodpressure. I'm not saying that this is because of the medication, but having to go back to my old self after all these years is SO scary. Also let me say this - since I started my medication I have had no hobbies, I socialize yes, but It is mostly my freinds who contact me as I often have a fear of not optimising my time. I generally have deep trauma from not understanding why I needed to continuously improve myself, and why eventhough I was scoring at the top of my high-school I was still constantly seeing videos about and being told about how kids with adhd have problems in school. Before adhd I was also incredibly good at maths and logic, so eventhough I didn't do my homework I was understanding everything and doing fine. Remember how much we expect of our kids and future kids. From our point of view a Chinese school with discipline and conformity is very very evil and bad to the kids, and many say that the kids are only ever existing to become productive citizens. I wish I could go back in time and maybe tell my parents and teachers that I just needed some time to be young, give me a year or so, I want to explorer the big cities around me, go to koncerts. I was also before meds playing guitar and windsurfing and also skateboarding. I wish I didn't stop with that. It simply wasn't possible with all the mess of starting at a psychiatrist and also starting high school without taking a break. I can say to this day, that I always have been depressed since stopping with my hobbies, and all my life goals has since my diagnosis been to prove to the world I was not sick or stupid or at a disadvantage. Telling me about all my negative traits, and then only telling me that the positive traits with adhd was creativity ruined me. I FUCKING READ MEDICINE AND I GOT PERFECT SCORE IN HIGHSCHOOL BUT I WAS FUCKING TAKING DRUGS AND I WANT MY SELF PICTURE AS BEING HUMAN BACK YOU MOTHERFUCKERS! Everytime I am going through a period of stress or a break up or something throughout my life, my family and freinds have always brought up something they heard about adhd. I WONT fucking take it anymore. Its like everytime a woman has an issue you tell them "well as a woman you are prone to emotional instability, do you think that could be the reason for your current situation?" Fuck you bastards - please take an ethical dialogue internationally about what boundaries and predictions you as experts can really help with. There is a very good lesson in chaos theory, and it is important to be very honest about your potentiel limitations and not promise a one truth. I'm not saying my medication is wrong or diagnosis. But I'm sure that there is a positive feed back loop going on currently which might accidently collapse on it self - we have never seen a higher increase in disbelief in experts. This is some would say a direct cause of over all the contradicting expert statements to the public, also overexposure to all kinds of information from
I was doing average in elementary school, but because I was being a little troublesome like ditching school or trying weed in the age of 15, my parents got me to start with adhd medication. I am currently taking 120 mg og ritalin + antidepressants - and I'm studying medicine ti become a doctor. How ever after a long and traumatic depression recently, I discovered I have deep trauma and self hate from always seeing myself as someone with adhd. Trying to remove stigma in adhd with normalising talk about it, or doing stuff like trying to explain every facet of my life or behaviour as related to adhd, is totally absurd. I have always felt like I was underperformed, before I got adhd i wanted to become a mechanic or a electrician. I wasn't happy with siting still all day learning about subjects that didn't interest me. I would much rather be outside or working on something. So yes the medication "improved" my life but. And IT IS A BIG BUT - it only improved my life because I was able to conform more to the goals and the narrative set by parents, teachers and society, on what is most optimal behaviour. Today I found out I have to stop with my medication, as I have developed high bloodpressure. I'm not saying that this is because of the medication, but having to go back to my old self after all these years is SO scary. Also let me say this - since I started my medication I have had no hobbies, I socialize yes, but It is mostly my freinds who contact me as I often have a fear of not optimising my time. I generally have deep trauma from not understanding why I needed to continuously improve myself, and why eventhough I was scoring at the top of my high-school I was still constantly seeing videos about and being told about how kids with adhd have problems in school. Before adhd I was also incredibly good at maths and logic, so eventhough I didn't do my homework I was understanding everything and doing fine. Remember how much we expect of our kids and future kids. From our point of view a Chinese school with discipline and conformity is very very evil and bad to the kids, and many say that the kids are only ever existing to become productive citizens. I wish I could go back in time and maybe tell my parents and teachers that I just needed some time to be young, give me a year or so, I want to explorer the big cities around me, go to koncerts. I was also before meds playing guitar and windsurfing and also skateboarding. I wish I didn't stop with that. It simply wasn't possible with all the mess of starting at a psychiatrist and also starting high school without taking a break. I can say to this day, that I always have been depressed since stopping with my hobbies, and all my life goals has since my diagnosis been to prove to the world I was not sick or stupid or at a disadvantage. Telling me about all my negative traits, and then only telling me that the positive traits with adhd was creativity ruined me. I FUCKING READ MEDICINE AND I GOT PERFECT SCORE IN HIGHSCHOOL BUT I WAS FUCKING TAKING DRUGS AND I WANT MY SELF PICTURE AS BEING HUMAN BACK YOU MOTHERFUCKERS! Everytime I am going through a period of stress or a break up or something throughout my life, my family and freinds have always brought up something they heard about adhd. I WONT fucking take it anymore. Its like everytime a woman has an issue you tell them "well as a woman you are prone to emotional instability, do you think that could be the reason for your current situation?" Fuck you bastards - please take an ethical dialogue internationally about what boundaries and predictions you as experts can really help with. There is a very good lesson in chaos theory, and it is important to be very honest about your potentiel limitations and not promise a one truth. I'm not saying my medication is wrong or diagnosis. But I'm sure that there is a positive feed back loop going on currently which might accidently collapse on it self - we have never seen a higher increase in disbelief in experts. This is some would say a direct cause of over all the contradicting expert statements to the public, also overexposure to all kinds of information from
This man really out here saving me for psych. Thank you
Need to study almost all these disorders within a week for my exam. This will help tremendously. By only watching it I already remembered a few of them. Thanks a lot!!
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I was stuck on learning psychiatry for my med degree, and now here i am, finding my saviour, thank you so much❤
This is great. We need this for EVERY condition!
So well done, thank you. Your book is great too. I love having it as a study tool and reference. I think it’s great you share your knowledge and great delivery on TH-cam as well as in your written material! Keep it up!
You are a Psych genius. Thank you for saving me from this confusion about psych conditions. I have liked and subscribed. You did the work!!! Kudos to you.
I'm in need of your prayers and support. Please keep me in your thoughts as I navigate my health journey.
I've got 2 out of your 3 books. They're just BAD.
B for Brilliant
A for Awesome
D for Delightful
Which books?
@@irektaflinski5449 Memorable Psychiatry, Memorable Neurology, Memorable Psychopharmacology. EXCELLENT books!
Beyond grateful for these videos. Really looking forward to new ones. Thank you so much!
Thank you so much for simplification for this
I really enjoyed your description on the Clusters of PDs!
Relly smart disclaimer (as someone with adhd)! Hope DSM 6 takes emotions and executive function more into its picture
I'm curious about your last name, on the replies to this tape, is that your true surname not a user name? I'm not being pushy just wondering. Kraut is not a common surname.
That’s why I’m here 😖
Should be called Executive Function Spectrum Disorder
This video was a blessing for me before psychopathology paper.
INCREDIBLE job, thanks a lot from a student of this marvellous subject
Your lecture helped me a lot. Thank you very much.
Thank you! Your presentation and creativity are awesome!
This is amazing! Thank you!
thank you for these incredibly useful videos
Excellent !!!
Thank you thank you so much!
Question is there a transcript for the videos.
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Is this DSM 5?
How about SLD? Is a connection between SLD and OCD?
Do you have for paraphilia?
Great work indeed 👍🏻 mind blowing.
Pls keep up the great stuff. ❤️
Thank you. Love this. 🙏🏽👌🏾
This is helping me so much!
This is so helpful! Thank you.
I hate Psych but I came across this Mark Klimek nclex video and it was very simple and explicit. You should watch this video.
th-cam.com/video/CQkSlMciX4k/w-d-xo.html
this is the best!!!!
Phenomenal.
Very helpful, well done!!
Thanks! Been waiting for this update!
Thank you for this. Awesome!!!
Thanks for making these videos! It helps a lot when I can't understand it, It also helps me study psychiatry! I want to be a psychiatrist soon because I have magic thinking OCD, I didn't really have a tramatic past so I think I'm just born with it. I want to help some people with it or other disorders, it makes me feel happier! These videos helped me a lot with note-taking too!
By the way, if you don't mind answering, should I study biology or chemistry for psychiatry?
If I make a suggestion, if you plan on going the medical school route (bachelors -> med school -> psychiatry residency) then you might find neuroscience as a bachelors interesting. Although everything you learn, you'll probably learn again in medical school.
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Is this DSM 5 Based?
Yes! In general these mnemonics are based on the DSM-5.
Thank you so much. Highly grateful. ❤️♥️
I love the warning that you should actually learn things before actually practising.
Good info
I hate Psych but I came across this Mark Klimek nclex video and it was very simple and explicit. You should watch this video.
th-cam.com/video/CQkSlMciX4k/w-d-xo.html
Hi Dr purchased all your books just wanna say how brilliant your work is. PS do you have any intention on writing a book on the endocrine system? Keep up the good work DOC 👌
So glad you found them helpful! I don't have any intention of writing a book on the endocrine system at this time. I feel like psych and neuro are probably the extent of what I can write knowledgeably about! =)
@@MemorablePsych Appreciate the reply again thanks a bunch 😉👌👍
Make it hilarious and out of pocket they seem to like it, full blown psychosis.
are these icd 10
Hi just want to kindly ask for advice on how can I raise my kids different from the way I was raised. I just don't want them to experience the things I gone thru when growing up. But I am worried I am taking them forgranted because I am still dealing with my own mental health issues.
Go to therapy that gives you more self awareness of your behavioral patterns. Then you and your therapist can teach you new tools to help you achieve the goals you have set. Also, a reminder parenting is hard and there is no such thing as a perfect parent! All parenta screw up their children to an extent. Its obviously more tough for people going through their own issues. I commend you for being courageous and I can already tell you care a lot for your children and will do your best by them. I hope you have a reliable support system to help you as well. I wish you all the best and I know you can do this!
Thank you so much!
It's good stuff but like he mentioned in the beginning of the video this is only a basic map for schizophrenia for instance there's alot of symptoms like being antisocial or lack of motivation which are your negative symptoms I was actually told that negative symptoms have to be present and hallucinations, paranoia, and/or mania are productive symptoms that don't necessarily have to be present.
Schizophrenia doesnt exist its a made up disease by psychiatrists designed to stigmatize people.
You are brilliant
This is great !!!!
The most important thing to remember is not a single one of these diagnosis is based on known causes, they simply are not scientifically valid.
Thank you!
Thank you
Thank you for this effort ^^
thank you so much
I hate Psych but I came across this Mark Klimek nclex video and it was very simple and explicit. You should watch this video.
th-cam.com/video/CQkSlMciX4k/w-d-xo.html
Thanks
I highly recommend taking out the reverb effect on your voice...
Go create your own videos
I was doing average in elementary school, but because I was being a little troublesome like ditching school or trying weed in the age of 15, my parents got me to start with adhd medication.
I am currently taking 120 mg og ritalin + antidepressants - and I'm studying medicine ti become a doctor.
How ever after a long and traumatic depression recently, I discovered I have deep trauma and self hate from always seeing myself as someone with adhd.
Trying to remove stigma in adhd with normalising talk about it, or doing stuff like trying to explain every facet of my life or behaviour as related to adhd, is totally absurd.
I have always felt like I was underperformed, before I got adhd i wanted to become a mechanic or a electrician.
I wasn't happy with siting still all day learning about subjects that didn't interest me. I would much rather be outside or working on something.
So yes the medication "improved" my life but. And IT IS A BIG BUT - it only improved my life because I was able to conform more to the goals and the narrative set by parents, teachers and society, on what is most optimal behaviour.
Today I found out I have to stop with my medication, as I have developed high bloodpressure. I'm not saying that this is because of the medication, but having to go back to my old self after all these years is SO scary.
Also let me say this - since I started my medication I have had no hobbies, I socialize yes, but It is mostly my freinds who contact me as I often have a fear of not optimising my time. I generally have deep trauma from not understanding why I needed to continuously improve myself, and why eventhough I was scoring at the top of my high-school I was still constantly seeing videos about and being told about how kids with adhd have problems in school. Before adhd I was also incredibly good at maths and logic, so eventhough I didn't do my homework I was understanding everything and doing fine.
Remember how much we expect of our kids and future kids. From our point of view a Chinese school with discipline and conformity is very very evil and bad to the kids, and many say that the kids are only ever existing to become productive citizens.
I wish I could go back in time and maybe tell my parents and teachers that I just needed some time to be young, give me a year or so, I want to explorer the big cities around me, go to koncerts. I was also before meds playing guitar and windsurfing and also skateboarding. I wish I didn't stop with that. It simply wasn't possible with all the mess of starting at a psychiatrist and also starting high school without taking a break.
I can say to this day, that I always have been depressed since stopping with my hobbies, and all my life goals has since my diagnosis been to prove to the world I was not sick or stupid or at a disadvantage.
Telling me about all my negative traits, and then only telling me that the positive traits with adhd was creativity ruined me.
I FUCKING READ MEDICINE AND I GOT PERFECT SCORE IN HIGHSCHOOL BUT I WAS FUCKING TAKING DRUGS AND I WANT MY SELF PICTURE AS BEING HUMAN BACK YOU MOTHERFUCKERS!
Everytime I am going through a period of stress or a break up or something throughout my life, my family and freinds have always brought up something they heard about adhd. I WONT fucking take it anymore. Its like everytime a woman has an issue you tell them "well as a woman you are prone to emotional instability, do you think that could be the reason for your current situation?"
Fuck you bastards - please take an ethical dialogue internationally about what boundaries and predictions you as experts can really help with. There is a very good lesson in chaos theory, and it is important to be very honest about your potentiel limitations and not promise a one truth. I'm not saying my medication is wrong or diagnosis. But I'm sure that there is a positive feed back loop going on currently which might accidently collapse on it self - we have never seen a higher increase in disbelief in experts. This is some would say a direct cause of over all the contradicting expert statements to the public, also overexposure to all kinds of information fro
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This is very judgmental. You nor anyone can contain trauma in other people's lives. Excuse me, Sir? Have you experienced trauma before?
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I was doing average in elementary school, but because I was being a little troublesome like ditching school or trying weed in the age of 15, my parents got me to start with adhd medication.
I am currently taking 120 mg og ritalin + antidepressants - and I'm studying medicine ti become a doctor.
How ever after a long and traumatic depression recently, I discovered I have deep trauma and self hate from always seeing myself as someone with adhd.
Trying to remove stigma in adhd with normalising talk about it, or doing stuff like trying to explain every facet of my life or behaviour as related to adhd, is totally absurd.
I have always felt like I was underperformed, before I got adhd i wanted to become a mechanic or a electrician.
I wasn't happy with siting still all day learning about subjects that didn't interest me. I would much rather be outside or working on something.
So yes the medication "improved" my life but. And IT IS A BIG BUT - it only improved my life because I was able to conform more to the goals and the narrative set by parents, teachers and society, on what is most optimal behaviour.
Today I found out I have to stop with my medication, as I have developed high bloodpressure. I'm not saying that this is because of the medication, but having to go back to my old self after all these years is SO scary.
Also let me say this - since I started my medication I have had no hobbies, I socialize yes, but It is mostly my freinds who contact me as I often have a fear of not optimising my time. I generally have deep trauma from not understanding why I needed to continuously improve myself, and why eventhough I was scoring at the top of my high-school I was still constantly seeing videos about and being told about how kids with adhd have problems in school. Before adhd I was also incredibly good at maths and logic, so eventhough I didn't do my homework I was understanding everything and doing fine.
Remember how much we expect of our kids and future kids. From our point of view a Chinese school with discipline and conformity is very very evil and bad to the kids, and many say that the kids are only ever existing to become productive citizens.
I wish I could go back in time and maybe tell my parents and teachers that I just needed some time to be young, give me a year or so, I want to explorer the big cities around me, go to koncerts. I was also before meds playing guitar and windsurfing and also skateboarding. I wish I didn't stop with that. It simply wasn't possible with all the mess of starting at a psychiatrist and also starting high school without taking a break.
I can say to this day, that I always have been depressed since stopping with my hobbies, and all my life goals has since my diagnosis been to prove to the world I was not sick or stupid or at a disadvantage.
Telling me about all my negative traits, and then only telling me that the positive traits with adhd was creativity ruined me.
I FUCKING READ MEDICINE AND I GOT PERFECT SCORE IN HIGHSCHOOL BUT I WAS FUCKING TAKING DRUGS AND I WANT MY SELF PICTURE AS BEING HUMAN BACK YOU MOTHERFUCKERS!
Everytime I am going through a period of stress or a break up or something throughout my life, my family and freinds have always brought up something they heard about adhd. I WONT fucking take it anymore. Its like everytime a woman has an issue you tell them "well as a woman you are prone to emotional instability, do you think that could be the reason for your current situation?"
Fuck you bastards - please take an ethical dialogue internationally about what boundaries and predictions you as experts can really help with. There is a very good lesson in chaos theory, and it is important to be very honest about your potentiel limitations and not promise a one truth. I'm not saying my medication is wrong or diagnosis. But I'm sure that there is a positive feed back loop going on currently which might accidently collapse on it self - we have never seen a higher increase in disbelief in experts. This is some would say a direct cause of over all the contradicting expert statements to the public, also overexposure to all kinds of information from
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I was doing average in elementary school, but because I was being a little troublesome like ditching school or trying weed in the age of 15, my parents got me to start with adhd medication.
I am currently taking 120 mg og ritalin + antidepressants - and I'm studying medicine ti become a doctor.
How ever after a long and traumatic depression recently, I discovered I have deep trauma and self hate from always seeing myself as someone with adhd.
Trying to remove stigma in adhd with normalising talk about it, or doing stuff like trying to explain every facet of my life or behaviour as related to adhd, is totally absurd.
I have always felt like I was underperformed, before I got adhd i wanted to become a mechanic or a electrician.
I wasn't happy with siting still all day learning about subjects that didn't interest me. I would much rather be outside or working on something.
So yes the medication "improved" my life but. And IT IS A BIG BUT - it only improved my life because I was able to conform more to the goals and the narrative set by parents, teachers and society, on what is most optimal behaviour.
Today I found out I have to stop with my medication, as I have developed high bloodpressure. I'm not saying that this is because of the medication, but having to go back to my old self after all these years is SO scary.
Also let me say this - since I started my medication I have had no hobbies, I socialize yes, but It is mostly my freinds who contact me as I often have a fear of not optimising my time. I generally have deep trauma from not understanding why I needed to continuously improve myself, and why eventhough I was scoring at the top of my high-school I was still constantly seeing videos about and being told about how kids with adhd have problems in school. Before adhd I was also incredibly good at maths and logic, so eventhough I didn't do my homework I was understanding everything and doing fine.
Remember how much we expect of our kids and future kids. From our point of view a Chinese school with discipline and conformity is very very evil and bad to the kids, and many say that the kids are only ever existing to become productive citizens.
I wish I could go back in time and maybe tell my parents and teachers that I just needed some time to be young, give me a year or so, I want to explorer the big cities around me, go to koncerts. I was also before meds playing guitar and windsurfing and also skateboarding. I wish I didn't stop with that. It simply wasn't possible with all the mess of starting at a psychiatrist and also starting high school without taking a break.
I can say to this day, that I always have been depressed since stopping with my hobbies, and all my life goals has since my diagnosis been to prove to the world I was not sick or stupid or at a disadvantage.
Telling me about all my negative traits, and then only telling me that the positive traits with adhd was creativity ruined me.
I FUCKING READ MEDICINE AND I GOT PERFECT SCORE IN HIGHSCHOOL BUT I WAS FUCKING TAKING DRUGS AND I WANT MY SELF PICTURE AS BEING HUMAN BACK YOU MOTHERFUCKERS!
Everytime I am going through a period of stress or a break up or something throughout my life, my family and freinds have always brought up something they heard about adhd. I WONT fucking take it anymore. Its like everytime a woman has an issue you tell them "well as a woman you are prone to emotional instability, do you think that could be the reason for your current situation?"
Fuck you bastards - please take an ethical dialogue internationally about what boundaries and predictions you as experts can really help with. There is a very good lesson in chaos theory, and it is important to be very honest about your potentiel limitations and not promise a one truth. I'm not saying my medication is wrong or diagnosis. But I'm sure that there is a positive feed back loop going on currently which might accidently collapse on it self - we have never seen a higher increase in disbelief in experts. This is some would say a direct cause of over all the contradicting expert statements to the public, also overexposure to all kinds of information from