ANOREXIA RECOVERY- Day of the scone
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 18 ก.ย. 2024
- Hello!!
This is my first ever TH-cam video... (sorry for all the shortcomings- I'm learning!) but hopefully there will be many more to come!
Can't wait to share my journey with you all, and hopefully connect with come fellow TH-camrs/viewers along the way!
Much love
xxx
You can find Tabithas blog at over at: tabithafarrar....
"I can't do this over and over. So it's time to do something about it. Anything." GOOD. I'm proud of you. And i can't wait to watch you get better!
Aw thank you so much my dear, I’m hoping that the start of this channel will mark the start of recovery! ❤️
I was just diagnosed with cancer and your videos make me smile. Like when im down, I come here. You're so strong.
I could really use all of the support that I can get if anybody wants to subscribe to my channel and keep up with my cancer journey, It makes me feel not so alone 💖
She died 😭😭
Hi66101 So awful. I have known two women who died from anorexia. Be well. It’s not worth it. 💕
@@Hi66101CP WHAT HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT
I saw you having some trouble swallowing down the food, this is common when you've lived on very little. A tip would be to eat more puréed food until your throat gets used to is, like applesauce, mashed potatoe, blended soups etc. And energy/nutrition shakes are of course great for you! Keep going!
Yes very good advice
Samir C. Cat u can't eat pureed food it will mess up her teeth more than the damage if being anorexia did she just needs to take small bites and quit measuring food
@@alishadawn6636 ya I was thinking about cutting the pieces small or taking small bites then I thought small pieces could be triggering maybe I'm not sure?
alisha Dawn short term should be absolutely fine. Getting her used to consuming viable foods. Aka heavier foods. Again short term while continuing to try often small bites. It’s really not much different than chewing your food till it’s overly chewed then swallowing.
Ally Cabs no its not triggering her shes not better she pulls at her food shes done with out food so long she doesn't want it she needs the hospitol her body is shutting down so much and she also needs organ testing done as well to
Don’t give up. I have been there. Exactly where you are. I promise it is better on the other side. It is worth it.
thanks SO much for this message of hope xxx
@Mika Frances @Lilli Johnston I totally agree! I've been there as well. Recovery is by far the best decision I've ever made in my life. You are not alone and we are all here to support you. You matter and your existence matters a WHOLE lot in this world. Don't ever stop fighting hun. You GOT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!! XXXXXX
You’re so strong! You got this 😘❤️
omg I saw the pfp and thought I posted this comment, but I didn't remember watching this😂
Cassiopeia Sama omg hahahhahah 😂😂😂 relatable
I was just diagnosed with cancer and your videos make me smile. Like when im down, I come here. You're so strong.
I could really use all of the support that I can get if anybody wants to subscribe to my channel and keep up with my cancer journey, It makes me feel not so alone 💖
It's not just a case of "eating anything". It's a case of eating enough consistently to gain weight to reach a healthy weight and be able to think cognitively and mentally recover .
Yes, thank you. And it's not about eating bad fattening foods that have not a lot of nutritional value. Even eat things like tofu, chicken, rice and broccoli, (PROTIEN!!) a good healthy hearty soup, not bagels and scones and cake. I really cannot comment about this anyway. I don't have this disorder, I have the opposite. I over eat, I binge. So why I think I know anything is beyond me. I wish I could eat healthy all the time and not give in to my addiction.
@@SailorSiFi oh, I see, I didn't even think about that or realize. I get it then now that you have said it. I thought she was just going for the typical "forbidden junk food" like bagels and scones and cake. See, I really don't understand this side of an eating disorder. I am on the opposite side, I eat too much, I binge but don't purge. Not fun either. Well, I hope she will be ok. Xoxo.
Funny how some people won't eat when they can and others want to and can't. I have gastroparesis and live on tpn. Eat and I will live vicariously through you. Thank you and keep me posted! Let's do this...
Linday Mohegan no need to load on protein. Raw fruits and veggies are full of minerals that she needs. Phase 1 must be to replenish all the lost minerals. Just avoid the junk food it has no value and make people fat and guilty and they go back to their issues. We don’t need cakes or sweets or crap burgers. Real food is in nature.
Phase one is actually eating.
Ohh, Sweetie, you can do this! I’m a lot older than you, but I was anorexic for years and spent a whole year in a hospital when I was 26. This is what I didn’t realize at the time: once you’ve gotten healthier and your brain is functioning better from eating regularly, the fear of eating will go away almost completely. I never would have believed it.
I really wish you the best.
Please trust your doctors. I know it’s terrifying, but you’ve got to take a leap of faith and just follow their treatment plans.
Really wish you the best.
I’m so sorry to hear of your struggles. Thank you so much for the hope and advice 💖 sending you lots of courage and love for your own battles xxx
U can do this!!! Please b gentler and compassionate with yourself. Keep leaning forward at the same time u should consider being monitored medically . Can u discuss some of the concrete treatment options u r presently doing? U can do this and committing is the first step.hugs and Love from USA nyc
Thank you so much for your support and concern. Sending that love right back at you! x
Lilli Johnston 💙👍💙👍💙👍💙👍💙
You got this!!!
Hey Michael!!👋
Stella Gibson really that’s just great isn’t it . Attack a person based on their appearance/ weight disgusting behaviour especially so on this lady’s vlog
Stella Gibson Please get help. You deserve it!
I really hope you don't do this woman like you do Amber. She really needs positive encouragement.
@@prettyprincess94602 "You got this" What part of that isn't positive encouragement?
u got this, girl. ur extremely brave, courageous, and strong! you should be extremely proud of urself 💗 sending good vibes and positive, healing energy - we all believe in u :)🙏🏻
Such a kind comment! Thank you for your encouragement sweetie xxxx
Lilli Johnston of course!! and no problem at all :) xx
keep it up because ur doing amazingly well, i can’t imagine how tough it must be but again, u should be very proud of urself! 🤗 remind urself of that every single day!
This is the first time I’ve come across your channel but you seem so strong and determined and I’m so proud of you
I'm so proud of you for making this recovery channel! I really resonate what you say about "thinking and talking a lot but not doing it" thing. I've been struggling this issue for a LONG time which kept me in quasi recovery, like forever. Even when i finally determined to do the changes but it won't last... :( People like us needs to constantly remind ourselves commitment and the actions are the only way for full and real recovery, aren't we?
We can do it! YOU can do it!
Well done for the scone! But the lunch may not be enough for you to weight gain though:)
Mio Kusakari absolutely- it’s the actions that are tough! But as you said, it’s totally about consistently making a choice to COMMIT, and doing the actions even when it’s the last thing we want to do!! (Once again, all this is easier said than done!) but you’re not alone. We will fight together ❤️
Be careful in your physical recovery process while starting to eat! Don't go from nothing to everything, it can cause deadly refeeding syndrome!! I hope both you and your team are aware of it, and especially at your low weight it's a higher risk. We want you to recover, not your body to go into shock mode :-(
I'm so impressed with your attitude! You've got this girl!! Eat, be happy, live again!
@Mimi I think they'd be okay with a fellow eating disorder surviverer warning for a life threatning complication. I've had refeeding syndrome myself and know my shit about EDs. It's not like I make this up.
Jesus Mimi CHILL OUT lol
You can do this hun I had a horrible eating disorder it nearly toke my life my lung collapsed because of it! But I promise you can do it it’s worth it toke me 2 years to recover but I’m so happy now
Jacqui Rose wow! Good for you sweetheart, keep fighting. Proud of you! Xx
It is so good to read this😘💖💪 I'm in recovery and I struggle... I realy believe recovery is worth it. I believe all of us deserve to be healthy. Keep going!
@@joannakosowska2922 aww its ok hun you will have bad days and its ok to have them as long as you keep moving 2 steps forward its ok to go one step back sometimes but just keep reminding your self there is so much more to life!
@@lillijohnston3880
Can u plz tell me is yr body exactly d same as before...I have recovered..but my feet are still shrinked ....it makes walking difficult...
Goodness you are very attractive with very pretty features- reminds me of a blooming flower... it just needs to fill in & bloom more to look like this 🌹 take in all the energy & nutrients you can! dont prevent this pretty face from blossoming 💓
You made me blush!! Your words are too kind. Thank you 🙈 xx
This is so poetic❤️ and very true. She's so beautiful and I can't wait to see the happiness continue to radiate during this recovery process
O ain O aw 🤧
Keep going..kick that eating disorder into the grass...enjoy your food, enjoy your life...very proud of you.
I was told that despite doing _everything_ that can be done in terms of eating disorder symptoms (binging, purging, starving, exercising, lax abuse etc) I wasn’t severe because im still in the lower range of healthy. Our only hopes are ourselves it seems, I hope and pray for you to recover
I'm so sorry to hear you are being denied the help you DESERVE. I think it's an excellent motivation though- fuel to the fire. Show them your STRENGTH and your ability to beat this, with help or without it xx and i adore those youtubers! Watch them every day :)
I felt the same way when I was in the position to have to go inpatient. I was done with treatment and not getting better, I came home and started eating and eating and crying and sleeping and resting and eating. Three months later Iv made so much progress and the compulsions are non existent. Tabitha Farrar s podcast and books have helped change my life. You have to commit to gaining weight, you have to fully commit to eating as much as you want when you want. Just get on with it!
wow thank you SO much for this comment. You've honestly filled me with so much hope! Would love to hear more about YOUR journey in recovery. Tabitha is definitely a gigantic help. Sending you lots of courage and love x
Lilli Johnston I’m sooo glad you listen to tabitha. Her perspective made me realize treatment doesn’t have to be the answer. A lot of times it made me worse. The cure is food. You can do this girl. It wasn’t easy but honestly once I gave in and started eating without restriction, it’s ten times easier than having to restrict and move compulsively. I promise! Just keep moving forward. Like Tabitha says ‘there is no try, there’s only do’, always kicks me in the butt lol.
@@lilbsbluvr07 yes yes!! if we go into it 'trying' we've already failed. Action is key! We can do this xx
Your absolutely beautiful no matter what and I know you will recover❤️
Well done Lilli, you are an inspiration to many people especially my little sister who struggles with anorexia. Thank you for the great content many of us support you. Much love & take care ❤️
I can't begin to imagine how hard this is for you. But you know you're doing the right thing. Stay strong!
Yesssss you go girl! You're doing awesome! It might be a bumpy road, but the destination is sooooo very worth it! We'll be here cheering you on!
Stay strong, I’ve been where you are and I’m currently fully recovered (1yr) and living a normal, full, beautiful and amazing life. You can do it too xx
so happy to hear this! Good for you sweet, success stories always fill me with hope. xx
You got this! We’re rooting for you. 💓
I will be praying for you (I hope that doesn’t offend you ❤️). I’ve never been diagnosed with an eating disorder but I did have a very damaging relationship with food in high school and am very empathetic to your struggles. Stay strong, love!
You can and you will do this, girl!💪 And it will be worth it. We all here believe in you. Take your time and focus on yourself. Much love from Germany!❤
You so beautiful and I'm so proud you have stepped out on this journey. WE ARE WITH YOU!
You're so brave sharing this. You are not alone. These videos will help so many people. You are stronger than you ever thought possible. ❤❤❤
So proud of you. I am crying so hard. Please never stop recovering, you are beautiful and perfect and you deserve to feel healthy and happy ❤️
I don't know you, but I love you. So much. Never give up.
Hi, I just came across your channel and just wanted to give you a few words of encouragement! I'm not anorexic, however I am an addict in recovery, and have been for the last 5 years. The desperation you had in the beginning of this vlog, really felt familiar. I know what it's like to be in a place where you've made so many promise not only to yourself, but to family and friends as well, failing over and over again, but so desperately wanting to get better, but it just seems so impossible and out of reach. Making this video will prove to be very significant in this process, because like you said, vlogging holds you accountable for what you do or don't do. I've been clean for 5 years now, something that I never thought I'd be able to do, but here I am. I'm really excited for you and I can't wait to see your journey back to living ❤️
You want to do it for yourself. And that is the one and only thing you need to genuinely recover. You have got this.
Just found your channel and sending you so much strength. Don't be scared, you can do this. Come on... Keep pushing forward. You don't have to keep doing this over and over anymore stop the cycle. You are brave and you can do this for you because you deserve to be happy and free.
You can do this. I believe in you Lilli, you deserve to get better. Your body deserves love and to be healthy. I cant wait to see your journey!
I'm so proud of you! I also fought with restriction and ocd for a couple of years and I sure know that changing that mindset is incredibly hard. I am very glad to see that even after so many hospital admission you refused to give up. Thank your journey with us and go cold turkey at it!! Don't let people who have no idea of what you are and have been dealing with tell you to do it their way. I wish you the best!
I'm so happy that you are doing this. Recovery is hard, but remember that it's a two step forward, one step backward thing. I wish you all the best!
I’m “recovered” physically, meaning that I’ve reached a healthy weight for my height. and have been able to maintain this weight (fluctuating 30+ lbs up and down for more than 15 years) but my mental state is still in deep eating disorder mode. I hope you are able to fully recover and your mental state gets better along with your body. I send you lots of love and strength.
Sweet girl, I’m so glad I’ve found your channel! Coming from someone that was in your place, I know how hard it is. It must be even harder to share it like this. I’M SO PROUD OF YOU! ❤️ I can’t wait to see your recovery!
I can’t imagine what a struggle this is and you are so brave to face it! Keep going strong girl, this is possible! 💕
I just came across your channel and I can't believe how amazing you are. Anorexia is one of the hardest demons to fight and you're not letting it take control over you anymore! Recovery isn't easy, its scary, difficult and long, most people don't even choose to start it. However, its the most rewarding thing you can do for yourself, just take it one step at a time. Continue taking back your life, you deserve it
i'll be visiting this channel once in a while (idk, if too often would be bad for me), but i'm absolutely rooting for you and i believe in you!
here to support you through this journey! it will have its ups and downs just remember to keep your head up. you're a gorgeous soul and i could tell from two seconds in the video!
you got this, girl!! i know you’ll make an awesome recovery, and just keep in mind that you have SO many supporters. i love your determination. sending so much love and support from california, USA 💗💗
I just would like to say I’ve been just about where you are. I’m now fully recovered, it was difficult, but I’m so unbelievably glad I pushed through the grip of ednos. I wish you all the luck in your journey and all the best in life. 💕
Wishing you luck on this journey, it's hard but it will be so worth it! You've got this!
Lilli you are absolutely lovely and I’m so proud of you! Thank you for sharing your journey with us and I’m so excited to watch you get better and cheer you on the whole way! You’ve got this, love!!
Lilli you are INCREDIBLE this is my first time watching you, and it feels like you have given me strength. You are a QUEEN! You got this girl!!!!
Aww you have so much support here! I am soo soo proud of you for making this step! We know you can do it! Your family loves you that is why they are doing this! Many people wish they had family like yours that cares and loves you! Wasting away is not healthy! Can’t wait to see your journey in blossoming into the beautiful human being that God put you on this earth for! We love you and so does the Lord!❤️🙏
The fact that you are sharing your experience is testament to your strength and courage ♥️ keep up the good work
You're so brave and strong, massive well done for taking that first step. You completely deserve to free of that horrible ED. Wishing you lots of love and strength (and more of those delicious scones!) xx
I’m definitely not doing perfectly by any means- but giving this a red hot go!! And plan on eating PLENTY more scones 😂💖 thanks love xx
QUEEEN I hope you get better with your recovery pls be a strong becan of light, we’re all hoping for you and seeing you this strong is inspirational! 💕
You’ve got this! This is YOUR life and it’s time you RECLAIM it!!! Sending so much positivity and encouragement your way!
i support you 100 percent, i know how difficult it is to make the mental commitment to actually recover and decide "I want to get better". it's not gonna be easy at all, but you will get stronger everyday. even on the bad days.
I’M SO PROUD OF YOU FOR WANTING TO GET BETTER!! Everything starts in the mind, if you think that you want to recover, DO IT! You have so much support surrounding you and even with all the setbacks you might have, continue forward. Look forward to the future, dwell less on the past. You’re gonna get to where you want to be, one day. Baby steps, don’t ever give up.
I LOVE this positivity 💖 thank you so much darling. Wanting to try is the first step I suppose!! Lots of love xxx
i’m so proud of you. this is so powerful, you have no idea. thank you for showing your recovery.
I hope that honest ED recovery attempts and struggles won’t negatively effect anyone, trying to make a positive space for us all!! But still being honest ☺️ sending you love and courage x
Im so proud of you for trying to get better! Ive been watching recovery ed videos to help me motivate myself to continue getting better myself. Thank you so much for posting this. We can do this no matter how difficult it is. Lots of love.💖
Recovery is probably the hardest thing to commit to, it's quite literally a life long battle that you have to combat. I'm trying to stay on track and it really helps when others like yourself share your story. Thank you. You got this, girl! Rooting for you forever💕
Omg I’m so sorry about everything you’ve gone and are going through!!! I’ve just gotten out of my 4th hospital admission for anorexia but I can’t even imagine what you’ve Gone through. You can do this!!! I believe in you and we’re all here for you! You’re such a beautiful person inside and out. I also have a recovery channel (Stephanie Everingham) if you would like to check it out xxxx keep strong 💕💕💕 so proud of you ❤️❤️
Stephanie Everingham thank you for such a lovely comment! We have all had our own struggles (sounds like you’re having a tough time too!!) but we are in it together. Would love to support you through your journey! 💖
Lilli Johnston yes! We all struggle. Thanks so much xxx
You are a courageous woman, it is your time! All the best to you!
I just happened to stumble on your video, and I just wanted to send you all my prayers and positive vibes! You got this pretty girl!!! I’m so proud of you for taking the initiative to try to get better! And I know you must be such an inspiration to so many out there!❤️❤️❤️❤️
Wishing you nothing but luck on your journey! You sound incredibly clear minded and very intellectual, I can only fathom what you will sound like once your body and mind have everything they need. I'm glad you're eating infront of the camera, it shows your willingness for change. I hope this year brings you nothing but positive and good changes :)
Cant wait to see you blossom!! Good luck, darling!
Suffered with anorexia and bulimia a few years back. It was a living hell. I’m at a point now where I still get those thoughts but I force myself to eat healthy instead of not eating at all or binging/purging. I am sending good vibes and thoughts your way. You can do this - we believe in you !
You are so admirable! The love you have for yourself and faith you have in yourself is incredible. I’m so happy for you.
ugh i love u sm it’s hard to watch when i’ve just developed anorexia and i’m so damn proud of you
Just saw this and I’m rooting for you girl! I hope you are able to have a speedy recovery 💗 I suffer from bulimia so I know how hard it is to want to change and get better. Sending lots of love, light and positivity your way. 🌷🍃✨ Good luck!
Thank you so much ❤️ sending you tons of love and courage in your own journey, we can fight this together xxx
This takes serious guts, im proud. I hope you get healthier and happier in no time ❤️❤️❤️
You are so incredibly brave! So excited to see you on this journey of recovery! ❤️
You are so beyond beautiful, I'm extremely proud of you for having this video as your first. This is a big deal! You have so much courage, I'm inspired, please keep going, you got this.❤
Yessssss girl! You have a supporter and I hope your journey goes well. Slowley but surely is good to keep in mind because going to fast can make it worse, but you seem to be in check so lol probably barely need any advise. Much love over here, hope you are okay.
You got this!! Starting recovery is always the hardest part. Sending love and support always!
U got this!!! You’re super brave and I’m sending u my support! Hoping for the best for u ❤️
This made me really happy ❤️ I’m tearing up. I loved seeing you so determined to eat that scone. It’s a long journey, but it’ll be worth it. I wish you all the best really, stay strong.
I know it’s hard , keep pushing. Don’t stop. Nothing can hold you back besides yourself❤️❤️❤️
Congrats on your determination to be better. Looking forward to seeing more videos and seeing you looking healthier and healthier. Lots of love and best wishes.
you got this, it cant happen over night it takes time and you are taking the right steps....... i love you and cant wait to see you doing better
I cannot wait to see your recovery journey. You are an inspiration
I’m so so proud of you. Remember to be gentle with yourself 💗 you’ve got this, angel
YOU ARE SO STRONG! IM SO PROUD OF YOU💞
You are so strong! We support you 100%...you can do this 🙌🏾
So so extremely proud of you. I love you and I’m rooting for your path of getting better. All of my love, ♥️
I'm so proud you decided to take this step! I hope to see many more videos of your journey to health and loving yourself❤ I'm rooting you on!!
Super proud and here for you always,keep strong!xxx
you are so incredibly brave for this 💙 please go easy on yourself and good luck through your recovery
I’m so proud of you! Anything is possible with determination and a good support system.
Be gentle with yourself love. You got this. The voice is lying to you and we are all here to reassure you when you doubt that ❤️
I am so proud of you. You’re doing so well! Please do not give up! I’m praying for you ❤️
So proud of you. You can do this. You are enough, you are strong and can do anything.
It’s amazing to watch someone struggling on the other side of things. I eat too much and need to lose weight. You are an inspiration and I believe in you.
Lilli I’m so so proud of you for doing this. You’ve always inspired me with your determination and I’m so ready to follow you along this journey! I’m always here if you want some company lazing about 😋 love you forever my little warrior 💕
Jess Kuss you are one special human being. I have a lot of love for you in my heart. Thank you for your eternal kindness darling ❤️
You are both capable AND deserving of recovery! I'm excited to watch your journey💜
I know you don't know me but I'm so proud of you for trying to recover. People that haven't suffered from EDs have no idea how strong we have to be to accept we need to recover and take the steps to do it. You got this
You got this I've been there ..and it's so beautiful to over come this and you will realize that this beauty thing we call life is so important we are here for so little of time..and soon you can start to live it without a lens over your eyes and see the beauty in the world ❤️ hope the best for you my dear .
You can do this!! Will be praying for you. You have a beautiful soul & will go far in life. One day at a time.
That is so powerful 👏 I don't know who you are, this is the first video by you that I'm seeing but I already feel inspired
Well done!! I wish you all the best!!! You’ve got this!
You can do this!! We all believe in you ❤️❤️
Jesus Is with you honey, I believe your going to get through this, stay strong and determined, much love xoxoxoxo!!!
You can do it, you are strong we are here for you💜
I find it so amazing that you allowed yourself to eat that scone when you wanted it. That is control, not anorexia. Good luck with recovery girl! Sending all my love and strength to you so you can win this battle 💖🥳
You got this girl. YOU GOT THIS. One step at a time.
I am fighting against my own issues and it’s funny it seems like I am most successful when I’m almost mad at myself and have those little meltdowns, it’s like you’re facing your bad side and scolding it to really realize what’s happening and what we really need to do to fix it. I love how sincere you are. You go girl!