Lilli Johnston (Recovery with Lilli)
Lilli Johnston (Recovery with Lilli)
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ANOREXIA RECOVERY- Day of the Iced Vovo
Hey there angels!
This video is raw and real, and I'm quite afraid of the judgement I will receive in posting it... Please be nice! This channel is for motivation, support, accountability, self reflection and helping each other! I AM trying, but it's time to try HARDER! This delicious shopping experiment should help me get there :)
Might just pop a trigger warning on this video- I DO touch on some of the disordered behaviors i struggle with... so please, if that will NEGATIVELY affect your recovery, perhaps give this video a miss!
Adore you all, and as always, thank you for your support. It means so much more to me than you'll ever know
Lotsa love!
Lilli xxx
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ANOREXIA RECOVERY- Day of my discharge
มุมมอง 16K5 ปีที่แล้ว
LONG TIME NO POST! Hello lovelies, sorry I've been so absent- I've missed you all greatly! This video is just an update on the little hospital stay I've had. Whilst I DIDN'T FAIL my 1 week challenge, my body gave up and I wound up in hospital a few days in to my experiment. Head over to the 'community' section of my channel for a proper explanation- and check out today's video for a little summ...
ANOREXIA RECOVERY- Day of the deadline
มุมมอง 39K5 ปีที่แล้ว
Well, let the games begin! Jokes aside, anorexia recovery is certainly NOT a game, and a very serious illness to be going through- but i'm trying to see this coming week as a bit of a personal challenge; pushing myself to my limits, VERY far from my comfort zone and hopefully out of my recent rut! Sending you all endless love and courage xxx
ANOREXIA RECOVERY- Day of the pasta
มุมมอง 16K5 ปีที่แล้ว
Hello again, beautiful people! Bit proud of my 'mini announcement' in this video- and A LOT proud of the bowl of pasta I have for lunch at the end of it! Pushing hard- but not hard ENOUGH- so onward and upward with some FRESH motivation (shout out to my psych!) Much love xxx
ANOREXIA RECOVERY- Day of the caramel/hedgehog hybrid
มุมมอง 9K5 ปีที่แล้ว
It's tough to really be honest with yourself... let alone with the cyber world! But this video is me, truly reflecting on the FACTS, and how my week has truly been. But when facts get boring, we also have A CARAMEL HEDGEHOG SLICE that was absolutely divine! Hope you enjoy this video! Much love xxx
ANOREXIA RECOVERY- Day of the onion dip
มุมมอง 11K5 ปีที่แล้ว
Second video! BAM! Today, we go through some of the food bits and bobs i bought (a far less disordered shop!) and have a bit of a rant about where i'm at! I would be lying if I were to claim i'm smashing recovery... or really even IN IT completely... but i'm giving it a hot go, and trying to keep progressing towards the LEAP of faith I need to make. Next stop- FULL AND TOTAL COMMITMENT (hopeful...
ANOREXIA RECOVERY- Day of the scone
มุมมอง 138K5 ปีที่แล้ว
Hello!! This is my first ever TH-cam video... (sorry for all the shortcomings- I'm learning!) but hopefully there will be many more to come! Can't wait to share my journey with you all, and hopefully connect with come fellow TH-camrs/viewers along the way! Much love xxx You can find Tabithas blog at over at: tabithafarrar.com/

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  • @sylviafranklin7291
    @sylviafranklin7291 ปีที่แล้ว

    I ❤am hoping that you make the weight gain,and you may not have to go to the hospital. I am praying for you, get better! I want to keep up with your progress. Love 💕 you, glad to see you eating and buying food! Keep up the good work! Sylvia, from the USA Detroit, Michigan.

  • @crystaldream1754
    @crystaldream1754 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Are you still alive?

    • @Simulacra719
      @Simulacra719 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Sadly she passed away.

  • @mandykitson7039
    @mandykitson7039 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Lilli i miss you every day , i can’t accept that this beautiful girl is gone - lilli i love you beyond words 😩

    • @mandykitson7039
      @mandykitson7039 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Mumma loves you xxxxx

    • @mistypeach-
      @mistypeach- 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet girl. It is utterly unfair that she isn't here anymore... it is just so wrong.

    • @mandykitson7039
      @mandykitson7039 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@mistypeach- Thankyou sweetheart , she was the most beautiful thoughtful daughter anyone could wish for - though she left us on july 30 2019 , i ve only recently been able to look at her videos .Just know anyone who left a kind comment like you have to me means everything to me and to those who left Lilli a kind comment - it made her so happy amongst such incredible despair .xxx

  • @artestra
    @artestra 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    hey it’s been a while. i was wondering how you been getting on. please stay well. would love to hear from you

    • @artestra
      @artestra 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Mari-lb8lr jesus 😔

  • @kk3707
    @kk3707 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Did she died????

  • @ebonyrose5501
    @ebonyrose5501 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Please watch & like all her videos so her struggle & life doesn't go in vain ♥

  • @Ellajjane
    @Ellajjane 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I have been searching for your channel for such a long time, trying to see how you were doing. Devastated to hear you passed away. Rest in peace <33

  • @solaria5513
    @solaria5513 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    how is she 21 in this video she looks so much older?

  • @Lowrix100
    @Lowrix100 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    rest in peace beautiful angel.

  • @toandeathrandomer
    @toandeathrandomer 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    No posts in 2 years .... that’s not good

  • @essenceofnothingness
    @essenceofnothingness 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I just found this by accident and I was going to wish this woman all the luck and happiness in the world but sadly I googled her name and was devastating.

    • @mandykitson7039
      @mandykitson7039 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hi , i’m Lillis mum and yea i’m devastated !! And even though Lilli bought food she didn’t really eat it .I love her more than anything and still cry every day - i adored her .Good luck to you xxxxx

  • @VinosKSabir
    @VinosKSabir 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hi I just find your TH-cam and I had anorexia too and now I'm in recovery but my hair falling out in clumps and it's almost 2 months and half and still continue, so for how long your hair loss lasted if you experienced? Did you have any balding areas? Did I getting bald or it stops? I'm so scared

    • @JamaicanRain
      @JamaicanRain 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      She died from anorexia sometime ago.

    • @VinosKSabir
      @VinosKSabir 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@JamaicanRain OMG really??

  • @ButterflyMama500
    @ButterflyMama500 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    How are you Lilli?

    • @Simulacra719
      @Simulacra719 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Sadly, Lilli passed away in July 2019 x

    • @ButterflyMama500
      @ButterflyMama500 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Simulacra719 oh no. Okay thank u.

  • @jessqinn7702
    @jessqinn7702 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hope you’re doing ok - thinking of you 29/1/2021

    • @alanjames7877
      @alanjames7877 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      She died from anorexia over a year ago. I hope her mum keeps these videos up. Maybe they can help others trying to beat this disorder.

    • @jessqinn7702
      @jessqinn7702 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@alanjames7877 oh no, oh geez. Thanks for letting me know. What a fricken awful thing.

  • @emberella5474
    @emberella5474 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Moms home at a hotel??? #BS

  • @lov3hurts943
    @lov3hurts943 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    🙏🏼💙😥 Fly high beautiful girl

  • @katherinerosemore274
    @katherinerosemore274 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    looks like shit bro

  • @nadoo1711
    @nadoo1711 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    I miss you

  • @rainababy9982
    @rainababy9982 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Where did you go lilli ??????

    • @alc7665
      @alc7665 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      She passed away last year x

    • @rainababy9982
      @rainababy9982 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@alc7665 Rest in peace 😔💜

  • @TheTaylan1993
    @TheTaylan1993 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Here in iowa in the states. You did not get to ralk about food.. see your weight..move at all..you were in a day room and watched for 16 hrs a day. All meals and snacks were monitored and you were watched. 45 minutes to eat a meal..eat around plate..don't chew to fast or to slow. Talk with others while eating. No complaint or talking about meals.. weight..likes and dislikes of food. Sizes of clothes they took tags out. Bathroom always locked and watched when use of restroom..I was never Bulimia but all of us were until almost outpatient. Much more. I didn't get let go until over shot on weight due to the theory u will loose some weight when discharged

  • @-loveablenugget-5571
    @-loveablenugget-5571 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    You can do this!! Idk if you're still fighting this disorder or not but YOU CAN DO THISS!!! 💞💞

    • @Simulacra719
      @Simulacra719 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Sadly Lilli passed away last year x

  • @simplyv8430
    @simplyv8430 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Ooo,that scone looked so scrummy. I hope you allowed yourself many more since this video. I know it's so,so difficult to deal with.

    • @maree6250
      @maree6250 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      She died

  • @AFunkyHypnoCat
    @AFunkyHypnoCat 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Rest in peace Lilli <3 x

  • @wordlessASMR
    @wordlessASMR 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Dude how are you doing??

  • @georgielacey3929
    @georgielacey3929 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    i like you so much. stay strong. you can do this X

    • @Simulacra719
      @Simulacra719 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Georgie Lacey sadly she couldn't - she died last July. So, so sad x RIP Lilli x

    • @georgielacey3929
      @georgielacey3929 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Simulacra719 oh NO..im really sad to know about this :(

    • @Simulacra719
      @Simulacra719 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Georgie Lacey I know, it's just horrible. I followed her from the start and then she said she was taking a break to focus on getting better, but when I checked back in (as she hadn't posted in a while) her friends said she had passed. I was so so shocked and saddened. I hope she's at peace now x

  • @jamieandkaylaforsyth1431
    @jamieandkaylaforsyth1431 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    She is so scary looking this is the scariest person I have ever seen her face! You can literally see her skull through her face every single bone!

  • @dandarth-kc9cf
    @dandarth-kc9cf 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    She died and the next one is dr,Dray. All i want is that you tube to ban this "vegan" people. This is not veganism, this is mental illness and food disorder . Waste of life.

    • @marinaxlove
      @marinaxlove 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      dan darth Lilli wasn’t vegan. Veganism has nothing to do with anorexia. Please stop it. Be respectful. Don’t diminish the suffering these people go through just to bash the vegan lifestyle. Come on.

    • @luuvis1276
      @luuvis1276 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      marinaxlove whether Dr Dray has an ed or not she is extremely malnourished and it’s very clear.

    • @katana5562
      @katana5562 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      marinaxlove Wrong. A lot of people with eating disorders go vegan in the first place to disguise their disease. And Dr. Dray is definitely vegan AND anorexic.

  • @dandarth-kc9cf
    @dandarth-kc9cf 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    What have you done to yourself? Ohhh.

  • @toni5543
    @toni5543 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Man, I'm sorry your gone Lilli. I hope others can learn from your story. Rest in peace. Your at one with the earth now.

  • @Victoria-qt6vq
    @Victoria-qt6vq 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Rest In Peace Lilli🙏

  • @bobavalentine6768
    @bobavalentine6768 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    this is so damn hard recovering from anorexia I have had it almost died from it. I wish u the best luck and u are strong brave I hope u do it! (Sorry this is late)

  • @kellysutton2780
    @kellysutton2780 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Eat some pizza you will gain

    • @Lunarangst
      @Lunarangst 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Lilli passed away . Do everyone a favour and stop leaving ignorant comments

    • @kellysutton2780
      @kellysutton2780 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Lunarangst sorry to hear that and my comment was to be helpful not to be mean thank you very much

  • @kellysutton2780
    @kellysutton2780 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Been there I was 90 pounds but now I'm at a healthy 120 and maintaining it by eating smaller portions but I'm eating hang in there you can do it you can get to a healthy weight and maintain it

  • @Threadworxs
    @Threadworxs 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    This was a sobering video to watch, realising this was uploaded just days before Lilli ended up in hospital, and then passed away 30th July, just 16wks later....... xxx may you truly be at peace Lilli.

  • @jishthepickled3711
    @jishthepickled3711 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hi you haven't uploaded in a while. i stumbled upon your channel probably well over a year ago, was so touched by your story and struggles. I have been thinking about how you're doing since and just scrolled for hours trying to find you and now i have, i truly hope you are in a better way these days. you deserve happiness and safety

    • @stormyXwrld
      @stormyXwrld 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      She passed away. May her soul rest in peace

    • @jishthepickled3711
      @jishthepickled3711 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@stormyXwrld this is so heartbreaking. Rest in peace

  • @mynameisnothere9465
    @mynameisnothere9465 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hey, are you okay? Are you coming back to TH-cam?

    • @stormyXwrld
      @stormyXwrld 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      She won't be coming back sadly. Rest in peace

  • @reneeharbek7863
    @reneeharbek7863 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Rest in peace Lilli. You are in a better place now.

    • @ArisSafari98
      @ArisSafari98 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Omg what?! How do you know?

  • @Tiarose88
    @Tiarose88 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Was really hoping she would get well again, RIP Lilli 💜😪

  • @oliviaLOVEShenry
    @oliviaLOVEShenry 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    RIP Lilli, you are now at peace; so loved and missed ❤️

  • @siobhangeoghegan5612
    @siobhangeoghegan5612 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Rest in peace love x

  • @samantha843
    @samantha843 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    She passed away you guys 😭😭😭

  • @sewlybutsurely
    @sewlybutsurely 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    <3

  • @sophievan5396
    @sophievan5396 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    FAR OUT LILLI I MISS YOU SO MUCH :( HDUSBVKUEHFWGVUDCMRKNVWSV

  • @jessicamonticelli6462
    @jessicamonticelli6462 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    So sorry to hear of your passing sweet girl. You were so young, facing such a tough fight. Thank you for the little bit you shared with us, I hope you are in Heaven now, with no more struggles or pain. Rip Lilli xx

  • @teainortakoy
    @teainortakoy 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    So sorry to hear that this sweet, lovely person passed away. Sending much love to her family and friends xx

  • @itsalwaysteatime3803
    @itsalwaysteatime3803 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hope your doing well lilli ❤️❤️❤️ Thinking of you 💕💖💓

    • @Simulacra719
      @Simulacra719 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Lilli sadly passed away last summer x

  • @kmd10533
    @kmd10533 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    RIP Lilli Very sad this killed you