I’m 42 and just started Adderall extended release yesterday. For a long time I was anti medication. It got to the point where I thought hey , giving medication a try has got to be better than struggling through life. I was so tired of not being able to live up to my full potential and constantly feeling disappointed with myself. I’m starting to feel more confident that I’ll be able to get my life together before it’s too late. All the best to you everyone on this journey.
I get what you mean. For me: I wasn't anti-meds per sé but I was afraid I would "see" how things "could 've been". There is a stigma of sorts at least in some communities. When I take meds it's not an absence of chaos per sé but from the chaos I can choose ONE thing and go with it and stick with it.
Same, I'm 40, recently diagnosed ADHD and it was reeking havoc on my mental health and ability to perform at work. I'm now on day 3 of Adderall XR. I'm very happy with how it is helping me perform at work and at home, but I am now I am dealing with the stigma that often comes with these medications. Unfortunately, my wife is very concerned with me being on this medication and the potential long term repercussions/side effects. I am thankful for the medication so far because I am productive at work again and am actually feeling like myself.
I’m 52 and am awaiting an ADHD assessment after my GP referred me. Thankfully because I live in the UK the process is free. It's been a real revelation to realise my lifetime of poor focus, procrastination, time blindness, difficulty with organisation, emotional dysregulation, impulsivity, restlessness/anxiety, losing everything and loathing of all things boring, 'laziness' etc actually isn't just my personality. Now my 3 adult children and granddaughter are all awaiting assessment too. Quite a journey we are all on but videos like yours really help us on it so thanks.❤
Thank you so much for sharing this. It definitely makes you mourn for time lost and time not understanding yourself and blaming yourself for things out of your control. I’m actually going through the process in the UK too - I hope everything goes well for you and your family!
It's a long waiting list i am afraid 2+ years. Luckily I have private medical insurance through my work and was able to get a diagnosis and currently on my titration period with Elvance (lisdexamfetamine) within 3 months
I started ADHD meds a week ago, after being diagnosed at 43. the "noise and sudden quiet" was a definite shock. we started with extended release adderall, so I'm waiting to see where it goes. that mourning period for "what could have been if I'd known this 30 years ago" is definitely real. oddly, I've not had terrible crashes from it so far, which is good.
Oh my Goodness. I am 43 too and this video makes me feel sad, even your comment when you wrote that what could have been if you'd known this 30 years ago. I am seriously thinking to go to the doctor and start using. Best wishes for you.
44 here. Just got diagnosed. The 'what if' part is killing me. Everyone thought I was going to be a world-class opera singer. I just couldn't get it together. All the skill but none of the infrastructure for the career. Didn't know what was wrong with me and gave up the dream for the sake of my kids.
@@thomasprislacjr.4063 Some people say 'its never too late'. You might just try so. The what if part is getting to me too. Im in the process of getting the diagnosis. While I've been certain I'm affected by add for around 10-12 yrs. My problems never felt 'severe' enough to actually get myself checked.
Thank you for the video. I discovered this year that I have ADHD and began treatment with Ritalin. I can relate to the feelings you expressed. It’s tough to be like this, but now I feel like I’ve had a “eureka” moment. Many things I used to do, and still do, now make sense. I’m 27 years old and in my third year of medical school. In Brazil, we have to pass an entrance exam to get into university, and it took me six years of trying and hating myself because I couldn’t achieve my goals. I know I’m just beginning the treatment, but I feel like someone I’ve always wanted to be but thought I could never be. It’s fantastic to sit down and study. On the first day I tried Ritalin, I was able to do something that used to be horrible for me: sit, read something, and understand it with focus without needing to read it again. It’s one of the best feelings of my life. I feel confident, certain, and attentive. I understand it’s just the beginning, but I feel like the best days of my life have just begun.
Wow, thank you so much for sharing. I am so glad you have found some peace and clarity after trying medication. Your persistence is amazing, and truly something to admire. I hope everything continues in the right direction for you!
I was on it from 7y/o to 18 y/o then due to financial reasons and loosing parents insurance I didn’t have any choice but to get off the meds. I’ve been off them for 6 years now and feel like everything’s been in a downward spiral since then. I now have anxiety and depression which wasn’t there before. Now I’m actually going through the process of getting back on something. Have a psych appointment in 4 days I’m so excited
I'm 56 and just learned that what I have been experiencing my whole life is ADHD. I am still coming to grips with the idea of how much I have struggled my whole life and the possibility that I could have not been working so hard to focus is life altering and yes a sense of loss.
It sounds like a very general advice but meditating can really help, its hard to do especially with adhd but starting with a minute or even 30sec daily eventually you can go on for 10+ minutes. It really helps control your thoughts which in turn controls your feelings and emotions. Im very happy i did this a decade ago and still have a lot more control over my emotions
I've watched alot of these videos, and the "life changing"and "being at peace" is definitely both accurate statements when it comes to what the medication feels like for us, also the mourning for the period of time spent suffering without diagnosis is also accurate and seems like we all go through this as well. That sense of loss, of time, of happiness, and of success is painful but allow yourself time to mourn it. Overwhelming gratitude can help with that just knowing that despite the suffering that we finally found something that helps, and that we were able to find it without going our whole lives struggling.
Absolutely, gratitude is so important and I’m so slowly learning how to get better at that. Im incredibly fortunate to be diagnosed this young, as so many people don’t have that opportunity. It’s nice knowing I’m not alone in these thoughts.
this was a perfect description of what its like to live with ADHD and the differences between the symptoms when medicated and un-medicated. I was recently diagnosed at 38years old. It explains so much about the constant struggle that my life has been up until now. The example you gave with the very noisy chatter in the background is no joke. I took vyvanse for the first time and that was the first time that I have experienced the peace of a calm mind. The peace and calm is life changing. I definitely had some resentfulness because of all the years that I could have been receiving treatment instead of chastisement and punishment for my behavior and emotional outbursts. Unfortunately vyvanse gave me headaches so I had to stop its use. I'm still trying to find the right med for me, but now I know that its possible. I have hope.
I really hope you find something that works for you and your brain, be patient with yourself and take the time you need to grieve and adjust to this new normal 💛
Aaa it's just shocking for me the way you describe my life so so accurate piece by piece. And this is the first time I hear somebody having the "noon appoiment" blocking their whole day... I have the note "scheduele an appoiment for ADHD" in my notes for months and months.. and hearing your story and fighting every day with these symtomps really encourages me to go and be diagnosed and get treatement.. thank you!
Oh my gosh this made my day. It was small things like that, that just felt so overwhelming and made me feel like I wasn’t “adulting” properly. I hope you manage to start the process to get things underway. Take as long as you need, don’t rush, and be kind to yourself! You’ve got this!!
Same, I finally convinced the secretary to send me a test so she could see IF I could get an appointment with a doctor last year, and kid you not, it took me around 6/8 months to finish and send. I finally started medication and can’t wait to find the right dosage or type of medication to help me, it’s crazy how I’ve managed to live 32 years like that
@@tillyzarrella I know, and want to know the most revolting part? My mother is a psychologist so when I was around 16 and explained to her about forgetting everything even things she would ask me to do seconds later, she connected the dots and took me to the best professional in town to get test, did QI test, all the tests possible to be sure it couldn’t be something else. And this professional only diagnosed me with anxiety… when I asked her why I forget everything all the time and can barely read, she had the audacity to say “because you’re just not interested”. I guess in 32 years I only really read like 8 books, but I could read the same book over and over because I forget everything, even thou I was really interested in the story. That’s the most frustrating thing for me. Hopefully now I’ll find a medication to help, since I started one 2 weeks ago, it only worked the first day, but that gave me hope because I really want to do so much in life.
@@MA-xd9zl Thank you so much for sharing, truly. That is incredibly frustrating, I have found that taking the time to grieve the time lost is really important. I am just so so glad you are on the right track now with your diagnosis and I hope you find a medication that works for you! You absolutely can do all you want and more, exciting things are coming my friend.
Hi, just got diagnosed at age 56. I have been searching for answers for so long. I have been put on meds for depression and anxiety and nothing ever worked. Then they blamed my symptoms on menopause and that was the way it is and just have to make it through. I new I was very sensitive to noises, smells, materials etc. and busy mind, compulsive thoughts. Never slept well and have been exhausted all my life. I have literally have tried everything to get better and heal myself. Now i am ANGRY because I think about how my life could of not been so hard and struggled for so long. I just started a med but had to come off because side effects, going to start another one tomorrow and hope this is going to help. Thanks for sharing your journey.
Thank you so much for sharing this Kathy, it’s so nice to know that others can relate. The sense of anger and grief is completely normal and it does feel like a waste. Be kind to yourself as you try out different medications! You’ve got this!
I'm a 31 year old male and I'm having my ADHD assesment on august 1st. Some things you spoke about in your video made me tear up because I can relate to it so much! The thing what hit me most was the fact that when you had an appointment, you couldn't do anything before the appointment. I have this all the time! I'm really nervous for my assesment :(
Ur first reaction to the meds sounds the same as mine. I took a shower and when i stepped out i realized there was peace in my head. Before i had so many thoughts, some screaming, music, etc at once. It felt like im constantly in a fog and trying to balance on ever changing thoughts on a stormy sea
Thanks! I had misdiagnosed my restlessness bad racing thoughts as generalised anxiety disorder. I finally realised I have ADHD. I’m just waiting on treatment now, and I think it improve things drastically.
Thanks so much for sharing your experience. I have been diagnosed with ADHD as an adult in my 40's and have been on medication for 1 week. Hearing about your experience is really helpful for navigating my own way through. I find it very supportive 🙏
Thank you for posting this. I am 37 and i was diagnosed with ADHD a week ago and was prescribed Vyvanse. My experience with the meds have been precisely as you explained it. I have been struggling to articulate my experience on the medication so far and you sharing your experience has really helped.
Thanks for the video ! I have been diagnosed earlier this year at 42 and my psychiatrist has agreed to prescribe ADHD medication once my anxiety is under control, I can’t wait to experience the silence in my head !
Honestly... That's ridiculous. Adderall helped my anxiety tremendously. I have a habit of clenching my jaw. Adderall stopped the clenching and I found my anxiety all but disappeared gone. Just an fyi. If my Dr waited for my anxiety to be under control... Never happen.
@@tammyscully879 my comment is 6 month old, here is an update. I have been on Ritaline for close to 5 months now. It has helped a lot with many symptoms I was experiencing but not anxiety unfortunately. Not yet anyway. Therapy is helping but I need anxiety medication way too often. That being said, I have been diagnosed with a Generalized Anxiety Disorder years ago that may not be linked with the ADHD, I was truly hoping it was, looks like it’s not linked.
Alright, I was tested as a kid and had ADHD.. Took Aderall and then eventually went off that same year. I have been living and coping (white knuckling) without fully knowing that I still had ADHD and that I was coping. I was always told I out grew it.. I just recently went to the doctor because I couldn't keep up with all my responsibilities that I have at my job, my ministries and the leadership involved with it. All of it has made me so incredibly anxious that I get executive dysfunction and I let things go. And I am not mentioning all the other things.. That would be too much :) Just started taking medication as a 30 year old and it is unreal how I feel.. I feel confident and I feel like doing all the things that I have always wanted to. Now I want to lead people and I can't believe that I don't really have much anxiety to do it! It is quite an difference that I feel
After finishing school I stopped taking medication over fear of addiction. I had an accident andconcussion in 2022 and my ADHD became a million times worse. It became crippling - I was constantly screwing up in my job (11 years of experience and I trained my current boss), so I had to get help. After more test and a new diagnosys, my doctor put me on wellbutrin for a month before stymulants. What a difference. The only side effect (Vyvance) is high blood pressure. For a few years (2010 - 2013 I think) I was on Rytalin, which worked but didn't last long. Then came Concerta till 2016 or 7ish. Lasted much longer. Now I am on my second month on Wellbutrin and fifth day on Vyvance. Wellbutrin is an antidepressant, so with Vyvance I have not had anxiety or mood swings. Last week I had lots of problems at work, and kept cool all day. Solved lots of anoying problems without cursing or getting discouraged. Treating ADHD is life changing!
I'm 32 years old and was diagnosed with ADHD four days ago. I had no idea I had it until now. My doctor prescribed me atomoxetine at 40 mg. About 30 minutes after taking it, just like you mentioned in the video, everything felt so quiet. I never knew I could experience this level of peace. As a father of three, I was finally able to play with my kids and do my chores without feeling grumpy or like it was a burden. I actually wanted to get things done. Even my work has improved-it’s incredible! The only downside I would say is I get really really strange dreams. But apart from that whoa
Everyone talks about taking the meds stops the noise in their heads. I don't have that. I dont have a noisy head. I only have a few thoughts at a time. And when I'm trying to think a thought, it disappears. On the meds i can just hold on the my thoughts longer. Anyone else?
What you’re describing is the same thing, just not as severe as others. The noise isn’t loud. It’s just describing how many thoughts at once can drown out your executive function. Medication can make your executive function thoughts come to the fore and quiet the rest.
i think this is the same thing or similar as "noise" you probably just misunderstand them or think the way they describe it is exaggerating. its kind of like a refigerator buzzing, you dont notice it until its gone, or one day you just go "Woah was that always that loud"
If I had been diagnosed with ADHD at a young age, life would have been a lot easier. I noticed at a young age that I was easily distracted and in my adolescence I noticed that I was only good at school if I enjoyed it. But as soon as the challenge of sports, work or school came up, I noticed that my motivation diminished day by day until I no longer even liked what I was doing. I'm sure I would have finished school if I was on medication at the time. I also became unhappy with work as soon as the challenge was gone. But I have been on medication for 2 years now and since then I am a really happy person, I can focus and use my brain capacity. Thanks for your vid.😉
Hey Tily, I was also diagnosed with ADHD as an adult. I have been on the medication for it since 2009. From my experience I much prefer the fast acting ritalin. I did time released stuff,concerta, for about a year. While it was convenient to only take one pill in the morning i found that after prolonged use for me it had some terrible side effects. The biggest one being if I forgot to take it by 10:00am, normally took it around 7:00am, I would become nauseous and and my mood would crash. I would contiue in this downward spiral of dizziness, nauseousness, negative thoughts, until I was able to take the dose of concerta. The fast acting ritalin, and much cheaper in US by the way, had no such side effects for me. If I missed my first dose I would just feel my “beehive without a queen” mind coming back. If it was a situation where I had traveled away and did not have access to the fast acting I could muddle my way through the day. However, if that happened with the concerta, I would was completely f*cked. I tried adderall but that caused blood pressure issues. So I just take three dose per day of the fast acting ritalin and have done so for over a decade. It has really changed my life.
Hey Tom, thank you so much for sharing! I am so glad you’ve found one that works for you, and super thankful that you took the time to share. Makes me feel less alone! I also think I prefer the short acting one, but like I mentioned in the video I’m currently on the long acting one. I was diagnosed in HK so will have to go through the process again here in UK! Not sure what their medications are like, but I have noticed a massive difference in my day to day. I think it’s something I’ll keep up for a while.
Huge help. Thank you for this video. I've been recently diagnosed and start meds tomorrow. I was looking to get some insight on possible reactions, benefits, issues, etc. Thank you so much for these observations.
The part about appointments really hit home. I'm almost never late for anything but I think this is because I've naturally developed a coping mechanism. I read that being stressed releases chemicals that can actually override the ADHD, similar to how we tend to only do work for deadlines closer to the deadline, it's because the stress overrides the lack of motivation.
Everything you've said is extremely spot on to what i feel on the medecine I'd like to add some more personal infos about how it affects me for others to read upon I am in uni and i have to do months long projects that take regular work hours every day for multiple weeks, its IMPOSSIBLE without ritalin i take 20mg every day but i stop on the weekends when i dont need to do anything I have trouble working without the medecine, i go from 2 hours MAX with realistically one being productive to 6-8 hours of very productive work with 2 breaks, i get worried about my career because of this but i dont feel like i can get good habbits yet My sleep is quite bad depending on when i take the medecine, usually i also have a crash when i get home at around 7pm and if i can relax i can sleep, thats after around 10 hours after taking the medecine i do have a weird metabolism for substances It made me very calm as well even tho its a stimulant i never get angry or frustrated, like i can sort my thoughts, i'd never watch the news cause i'd get mad but now its whatever even irl with other people i am well adjusted I have almost no appetite throughout the day its tough when i need to work out Thats about it, the biggest part to me is really how it impacts how i work, i could not live without it now and i hope to stop taking ritalin eventually and be able to work correctly without it
Thank you so much for this. This is the most accurate and concise explanation I’ve heard yet, not just regarding your experience of medication, but also how you explain how adhd is for you. 👍🏻
I was diagnosed around 41. I’m now 51 and watching your video brought back memories of my first dose of Adderral. I actually cried from overwhelming feelings of gratefulness and amazement that for the first time in my life I felt mentally focused. Like putting glasses on my brain. The worst was dry mouth for me. Also clenching my jaw. Those went away for the most part but I do have to be cognizant of my water intake. I took a medication break for about a year and a half during Covid. I never had withdrawals. I still don’t if I don’t take my meds. My hubby practically begged me to get back on meds although I was questioning whether they were still working. I’ve never liked taking meds, I don’t even take Tylenol, which is why I was resistant in the first place to getting diagnosed. Anyhoo, I’m blathering. Enjoy the newness. It’s a tool but definitely not a cure.
Thanks tilly for the video. Helps me understand so much more about adhd and how unique each of our brains are. Being kind to yourself and others goes along way in this world. Thank you.
very insightful, currently waiting for my assessment after being referred. GP already told me its very likely they will diagnose me with ADHD going by my symptoms, can't wait as I need something to change.. definetly effects your life & how productive you are.
Thanks for sharing this, so many people need the conversation around ADHD reinforced not only for those undiagnosed but for those that are cynical and dismiss this disorder as character weakness. What a relief to discover normality! Life is dope ✨
@drtwiz7490 I'm not sure how this relates to my comment - but if you're talking about bypassing the system to get controlled drugs then I really don't want your help.
I Found the medication worked so well in the beginning but now not so much. It definitely makes me more anxious and sensitive to negativity. Has anyone else experienced this?
For me - the meds are a nightmare taking them regularly I feel my energy system is off and I am disconnected from my inner power and others The meds were really putting me off and I think - I am not take them anymore regularly Maybe they take away loads of my sensitivity
@@Ash-to1gp doing yoga helped me a lot with my anxiety. But I agree. I think you are a sensitive person. There is nothing wrong with that… best of luck with your journey.
Earlier this year I got diagnosed with something called a Thyroglossal Duct Cyst (massive lump in my throat) and when they removed the cyst, they also had to remove my thyroid. So I started on some thyroid replacement medication and in the aftermath of my hormones leveling out from that, I’ve started noticing traits that seem very ADHD-esque that I think we’re perhaps masked by my thyroid issues. So the next time I have to see my Doctor for a refill I’m going to try and get the process started on an ADHD diagnosis. Hopefully correcting both the thyroid issue and the ADHD issue will finally help me get a level of control over my life I’ve been missing.
@@tillyzarrella I have my doctor's appointment on Tuesday, so I'm hoping to know more then. However, I don't know what the process is to get diagnosed, so I don't know if I'll have answers on Tuesday or if I'll just be starting the process.
@@BrianOsler For me it was a self-report checklist, and then depending on where you are they might choose to speak to some of your family / friends and see if they've noticed the same symptoms. This can be frustrating because so often we mask symptoms to fit in!
I've watched a ton of videos and am certain I have ADHD, perhaps inattentive ADHD. You perfectly said what I'm trying to say. Seriously. 🤯 Thank you. I have an apt on Monday to talk about this.
Thank you for this video. I recently (since September 2022) discovered that I need to be more proactive about my adhd. After weeks/months of working towards medication treatment. I’m almost there after a EKG. And this gives me two feelings. One excitement. That I’ll finally get to a goal. Two scared how how it’s going to “change” me. This video has given me more peace about this course of action.
I was really worried about how it would affect my personality as well. In my experience at least, I actually feel like I've been more myself? Mostly because it's allowed me to be less overwhelmed by the noise in my head! I feel calmer and more like me. Keeping my fingers crossed your journey goes well! 🤞🏼
Crashing: eat a bag of salted peanuts or something similar just before the crash usually happens. The nausea and headaches are low blood sugar. Eating is indeed the issue.
Great video and good info. 62 and just through titration in uk. Anxiety for me much reduced and getting a buzz from ticking things off my todo list rather than procrastinating and doing more interesting stuff! Still adapting to this new way of being but highly recommend to anybody in doubt particularly older folk.
I tried ritalin twice and both times I felt this inner peace that I have never felt before and I felt I could concentrate on things at will more easily. I could focus without being constantly distracted by noise in my mind. Getting diagnosed seems like such an ordeal but I may start to do so
Thanks for sharing your experience. I've very recently started taking ADHD meds and am very appreciative to hear of others experiences to help me be prepared for what to expect.
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"Grain brain" ~ I was diagnosed about a decade ago, hated taking the medication because I felt like it took my personality away. After changing my diet four months ago, my attention capacity has drastically improved.
@@mindlessfatemusicthat's a very specific diet for healing and that's good to hear. There is some science pointing to Keto repairing mitochondria, which have become dysfunctional due to oxidative stress (trauma, genetics, etc.). A theory is that this is a common link with most brain disorders. I've likely got a long wait in the UK for a diagnosis so I'm thinking of trying Keto. But the meds do sound fantastic for many people in combination with a healthy lifestyle, which in many ways it opens up the door to - a virtuous cycle. I experienced all what was said in the video just from a temporary dopamine boost from taking Sertraline. So happy to know the potential!
yes. it is lifechanging. i was on modafinil, which i loved, but i had an allergic reaction. i now do a daytrana patch. because i suffer from migraine, if i feel a headache coming on, i pull the patch off. i like having control over the long acting meds. adderall made me the worst version of myself...
I finally received my ADHD diagnosis at the age of 60 after being misdiagnosed with GAD. The first time taking vyvanse was life altering, I never knew that level of calm could exist.
I was severely traumatized years ago as a teenage, got diagnosed with ADHD. Spent my whole life fighting ADHD. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Germany don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
YES very sure of Dr.alishrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Very similar experience on my first day but on my second day now and actually nothing has changed so wired 😳 I am a bit disappointed but let’s see what’s happens tomorrow
Thanks: I am a 68 year old male and have figured out from multiple youtube videos, I probably have ADHD or ADD. It has taken me two weeks to just get an appointment with a psychists to be diagnosed. I started back bicycling and follow a training program and also go on some very intense group rides where my heart rate goes up to 185 BMP. I am a little concerned if I go on a stimulant for ADHD, it could be dangerous for my heart to push so hard on the bike . I will ask the psychist. But I would love for once be able to maintain focus. My job requires very detailed focus and I struggle with that. Anyway thanks for your wonderful video.
I started ADHD meds four days ago and it's been wonderful as well as strange. I am still quite young but I've flunked out of 5 schools and generally speaking, my life is a mess. I struggle so much. Taking this medication is such a big difference, I didn't even know what I was missing out on! My head is a lot more quiet and I can do chores with much more ease. As a whole I feel happy knowing I can start to do something with my life now, but I'm also feeling that grief over what I've missed out on. I wonder what I would’ve been able to achieve had I been given medication at the start of middle school, as that's where I went downhill fast. I wonder if I would’ve been able to stay in one school and perhaps go to university after.
I can't tell you how many times I had to skip back 30 seconds while watching this. 😅 I've been diagnosed recently, and I'm hoping to start medication in the near future.
I always feel bad for the length of my videos because I do the exact same thing whenever I watch something on TH-cam 😂 best of luck with your journey!!
How do you feel now? (Since this video is 11 months ago). Everything you said has been my exact same experience and it makes me nervous for the future.
I'm from India. We don't have any medication available for ADHD in India. It is so frustrating. Being academically so brilliant but being able to study for even half an hour straight. I'm literally on my nerve for almost 2 years now
For those that have gotten late life diagnosis and decided on trying medication: Did it change who you are personality wise or simply eliminate the negatives of ADHD?
I am on day 3 of elvanse, I can't really say much about my Focus since my grandpa passed away and I have been grieving. But I feel much more away, went on a 10km (~6 miles) walk the first day and enjoyed all the energy and peace I felt. One thing that worries my is my puls, according to my fitbit my resting puls is about the same, but even getting up and walking, doing chores etc gets it up to 110 to 140.
That is horrible to hear about your grandpa, I’m so sorry. I suppose just be patient with yourself and give yourself as much time as you need to sit with all the change. My pulse is quite high as well, it’s certainly something to speak with your dr about! You deserve all the peace, fingers crossed things get better from here x
@@tillyzarrellais your pulse high just on meds or has it always been high? How much of a difference are we talking about? Curious as that is the one thing that has me nervous to start my medication.
my son loves concerta and fits him... he loves being himself while being in meds.. he isnt impulsive and he sits well in class and not hyper.. he is more focused..
So pissed of, Ive got my late life diagnosis a year ago and all ive been offered is Wellbutrin/bupropion and Atomoxetine (which have had minimum effect on me), because i said i smoke 5 cigarettes a day she thinks i have an addictive personality so NO ritalin or concerta for me! and because i procrastinate and am not productive and am now depressed i dont even wake up on time nor do i bother calling them and wait 4 months for my regular 5 minute appointment.. I might ask for antidepressants instead now because i am depressed that even a year after being diagnosed and wasting half of my life i cant treat my symptoms..
It is so great watching videos like this and realizing there are other people like me, wow! Only 1 day trying medication so far. Effects were almost entirely positive. I say almost because something you mentioned as a positive is a potential negative for me. You said "I did not feel anxious about work I have not yet completed" (I probably paraphrased that). It was true for me too, but I also felt a lot less motivated to take on tasks that require a lot of thought and effort -- I believe the anxiety being removed, while great, might lead to being less ambitious/self-motivated. Not good for a person who is self employed, lol. Time will tell though. Thank you for making this video!
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I appreciate your video. I'm going in next week to get some mental health services, and asking about getting tested for ADHD. It's really nice to know what medication could do, and it sounds like we both have similar headspace in ADHD.
When you said off medication your day revolves around something you have to do once.. yes! I can totally relate. Even the thought of doing something that you don’t actually do. Yesterday I was finally in a focus and my friend asked if I wanted to go to lunch. I kinda felt bad when I said no, and then the rest of my day was completely derailed.
This is good content, thank you. I do think the audio quality would benefit from not overlapping and fading the beginning and end of your sentences. It's not natural, and my ADD is focusing on the strange editing instead of the content.
UPDATE: i got my diagnose ADD and have been on Elvase for a week soon. I can really say that so far the medicin have helped me a lot in so many places. I am on the path of getting a diagnose as a 57 year. It feels very nice to see how the medication can help and get a change to be a person that you want to be.
@@tillyzarrella UPDATE: i got my diagnose ADD and have been on Elvase for a week soon. I can really say that so far the medicin have helped me a lot in so many places. I feel like a New person.
Great video, this really spoke to me. I'm on my third week of Ritalin LA and my experiences are very similar to what you describe in a lot of ways. Definitely mourning in some ways, but excited for change in others.
As someone who received a childhood diagnosis and treatment and who is now in his 30s I will say it has been a rough ride... the medical understanding of ADHD and how to treat it were not what it is today. I actually just started on a new medication... Foquest, it a methylphenidate salt designed for long release up to 16 hours.
@@LG-ro5le Not if I manage when I take it, essentially it allows me to time my day such that I have focus through the day when it matters and the taper off aligns with my typical days end... essentially I don't crash I just fall into bedtime. now that can get me out of sync if my schedule pivots due to an unexpected event.
@@LG-ro5le I have tried Vyvanse which is the same thing but here in Canada there have been shortages of the medication that made it hard to maintain taking it, I also had more difficulty managing consistent effects from the medication... sometimes it seemed to do what I needed and sometimes it felt like I didn't even take it. I hope that your experience continues to be positive!
@@ianmastin there is instant release dexamfetamine pills, I haven’t tried them yet but it’s the same drug as elvanse but it works straight away as it doesn’t need to be processed in the body to convert to dexamphetamine
My therapist thinks I have adhd. I don’t think so but here’s my symptoms: stress, frustration, procrastination, scatterbrained, irritation, poor word recall, low motivation, social withdrawal, anxiety if I’m not working.
This did give me not any insight ... yeah! ;) Just kidding. Super good video. Can relate sooo much to every aspect your describing and i got my first dose day aaaaand i am also sooo super sad about the missed potential of beeing a better version of "myself" in my twenties, in my past. How much i had to fight during my Bachelors-Degree ... how unhappy i was ... this whole noise in the backgroud was such a burden .. Today i cried, because of joy
I just started Foquest today. 70mg, I was on Vyvanse but the crash was quick. I am getting the crash. How do you deal with this? Do you drink caffeine hours later?
First time watching your videos - the way you pronounce “Concerta” makes me suspect you’re a classical musician. If so, shout out from a fellow music dork ❤ Great video, packed with information. Thanks for making it!
Sadly in my country there are only 2 ADHD medications available to be prescribed: Metylphenidate (Concerta) and Atomoxotine (Stratera). I tried Concerta and I feel like it works only if I take pauses in between them. If i took them daily I would start to feel more and more like a zombie, maybe I had a clearer mind but nothing made me feel joy anymore, not even computer games or watching tiktoks/tv. I am 2 weeks in Atomoxetine and don't feel any big changes, maybe more calm but still can't get myself to do laundry or wash the dishes. Maybe the dose might be too low but also online it said it takes up to 1 month to feel the full effect of Strattera.
I upped my dose to 80mg and only the first day i felt a big fidgety with Atomoxetine, afterwards i felt like it wasnt doing anything (made me a more depressed and i would get periods where i could cry. didnt feel like it was doing much else to me after 2-3 months of use so i stopped and 2 days after you go back to realising that it did have an effect that took a long time to accumulate, tricks your brain that nothing has changed.. but 2 days after stopping i went back to my old self. no emotions, lack of willpower, couldnt start things that i needed to do for days.. Its not a great drug or anything but it does have some positive impact i would rate it 5/10
Hey did your one of the symptom for adhd include dissociation as well? I think I've dissociating despite being on ritalin for 1 months. Not to mention it givese huge anxiety.
that sounds incredibly stressful! Have you been able to talk with someone about it? I do have some dissociation but I don’t know whether that’s a part of ADHD or not!
I starred taking the lowest dosage of Concerta four days ago, and I'm a bit upset at it making me even more unfocused and gittery... very far away from my "Eureka" moment :/
When I was younger at v work I use to have highs and lows. And I use to tell myself go home happy, like I came into work sad for v some reason in don’t know, then mood improved at work. I don’t know why I felt low
The amount of weird thoughts I’ve had , if I work for Sainsburys I won’t be able to sleep, WHY . No logical reason for it. Everyone is thinking about me WHY
Hey throwing my two cents for the younger people on the audience. ADHD medication can often hinder your physical development in your growing stages (up to 21 years of age). And if you lack a routine, exercise, sleep schedule, and a balance nutrition, it’s more likely due to harm than good. I know it’s a struggle, but I am so glad I didn’t take it until now that am an adult, since I know I won’t think I need it to function (cuz I managed without it) and I know my health won’t be compromise, because of my good habits and routines. Please don’t insist on medication, until you have exhausted you lifestyle regulation avenues.
I don't really relate to the quite part. My smooth brain is as quiet as a paving stone, and for this reason, I suck at planning. There is no one to remind me.
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I’m 42 and just started Adderall extended release yesterday. For a long time I was anti medication. It got to the point where I thought hey , giving medication a try has got to be better than struggling through life. I was so tired of not being able to live up to my full potential and constantly feeling disappointed with myself. I’m starting to feel more confident that I’ll be able to get my life together before it’s too late.
All the best to you everyone on this journey.
I get what you mean. For me: I wasn't anti-meds per sé but I was afraid I would "see" how things "could 've been". There is a stigma of sorts at least in some communities. When I take meds it's not an absence of chaos per sé but from the chaos I can choose ONE thing and go with it and stick with it.
Same, I'm 40, recently diagnosed ADHD and it was reeking havoc on my mental health and ability to perform at work. I'm now on day 3 of Adderall XR. I'm very happy with how it is helping me perform at work and at home, but I am now I am dealing with the stigma that often comes with these medications. Unfortunately, my wife is very concerned with me being on this medication and the potential long term repercussions/side effects. I am thankful for the medication so far because I am productive at work again and am actually feeling like myself.
One thing i noticed was how everything slowed down, eating, walking, talking. I wasn't rushing to do everything. Even time seemed to slow a bit
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I’m 52 and am awaiting an ADHD assessment after my GP referred me. Thankfully because I live in the UK the process is free. It's been a real revelation to realise my lifetime of poor focus, procrastination, time blindness, difficulty with organisation, emotional dysregulation, impulsivity, restlessness/anxiety, losing everything and loathing of all things boring, 'laziness' etc actually isn't just my personality. Now my 3 adult children and granddaughter are all awaiting assessment too. Quite a journey we are all on but videos like yours really help us on it so thanks.❤
Thank you so much for sharing this. It definitely makes you mourn for time lost and time not understanding yourself and blaming yourself for things out of your control. I’m actually going through the process in the UK too - I hope everything goes well for you and your family!
I am starting next week. Took 15 months
This is a great video - thanks.
If it helps I joined the NHS wait list in Feb 2021 and I'm receiving my first prescription this week x
It's a long waiting list i am afraid 2+ years. Luckily I have private medical insurance through my work and was able to get a diagnosis and currently on my titration period with Elvance (lisdexamfetamine) within 3 months
I started ADHD meds a week ago, after being diagnosed at 43. the "noise and sudden quiet" was a definite shock. we started with extended release adderall, so I'm waiting to see where it goes. that mourning period for "what could have been if I'd known this 30 years ago" is definitely real. oddly, I've not had terrible crashes from it so far, which is good.
Oh my Goodness. I am 43 too and this video makes me feel sad, even your comment when you wrote that what could have been if you'd known this 30 years ago. I am seriously thinking to go to the doctor and start using. Best wishes for you.
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44 here. Just got diagnosed. The 'what if' part is killing me. Everyone thought I was going to be a world-class opera singer. I just couldn't get it together. All the skill but none of the infrastructure for the career. Didn't know what was wrong with me and gave up the dream for the sake of my kids.
@@thomasprislacjr.4063 Some people say 'its never too late'. You might just try so. The what if part is getting to me too. Im in the process of getting the diagnosis. While I've been certain I'm affected by add for around 10-12 yrs. My problems never felt 'severe' enough to actually get myself checked.
@augm3ntxr541everyone has different experiences with medication, please stop fear mongering!
Thank you for the video. I discovered this year that I have ADHD and began treatment with Ritalin. I can relate to the feelings you expressed. It’s tough to be like this, but now I feel like I’ve had a “eureka” moment. Many things I used to do, and still do, now make sense. I’m 27 years old and in my third year of medical school. In Brazil, we have to pass an entrance exam to get into university, and it took me six years of trying and hating myself because I couldn’t achieve my goals.
I know I’m just beginning the treatment, but I feel like someone I’ve always wanted to be but thought I could never be. It’s fantastic to sit down and study. On the first day I tried Ritalin, I was able to do something that used to be horrible for me: sit, read something, and understand it with focus without needing to read it again. It’s one of the best feelings of my life. I feel confident, certain, and attentive. I understand it’s just the beginning, but I feel like the best days of my life have just begun.
Wow, thank you so much for sharing. I am so glad you have found some peace and clarity after trying medication. Your persistence is amazing, and truly something to admire. I hope everything continues in the right direction for you!
I was on it from 7y/o to 18 y/o then due to financial reasons and loosing parents insurance I didn’t have any choice but to get off the meds. I’ve been off them for 6 years now and feel like everything’s been in a downward spiral since then. I now have anxiety and depression which wasn’t there before. Now I’m actually going through the process of getting back on something. Have a psych appointment in 4 days I’m so excited
I'm 56 and just learned that what I have been experiencing my whole life is ADHD. I am still coming to grips with the idea of how much I have struggled my whole life and the possibility that I could have not been working so hard to focus is life altering and yes a sense of loss.
A definite sense of loss. Give yourself as much space and time as you need, you can do this.
Welcome ❤
Is 32 to old to find out
It is a reason to be extra proud of yourself
Just diagnosed at 54. Never too late to be diagnosed. It's a huge relief to be acknowledged for the struggles you've endured over the years.
Emotional disregulation gets me. I really struggle to control my emotions
It sounds like a very general advice but meditating can really help, its hard to do especially with adhd but starting with a minute or even 30sec daily eventually you can go on for 10+ minutes.
It really helps control your thoughts which in turn controls your feelings and emotions.
Im very happy i did this a decade ago and still have a lot more control over my emotions
I've watched alot of these videos, and the "life changing"and "being at peace" is definitely both accurate statements when it comes to what the medication feels like for us, also the mourning for the period of time spent suffering without diagnosis is also accurate and seems like we all go through this as well. That sense of loss, of time, of happiness, and of success is painful but allow yourself time to mourn it. Overwhelming gratitude can help with that just knowing that despite the suffering that we finally found something that helps, and that we were able to find it without going our whole lives struggling.
Absolutely, gratitude is so important and I’m so slowly learning how to get better at that. Im incredibly fortunate to be diagnosed this young, as so many people don’t have that opportunity. It’s nice knowing I’m not alone in these thoughts.
For me adhd medication made such a difference that I though that I was dizzy all the time cause my mind was quiet and being present 😅😅😅
this was a perfect description of what its like to live with ADHD and the differences between the symptoms when medicated and un-medicated. I was recently diagnosed at 38years old. It explains so much about the constant struggle that my life has been up until now. The example you gave with the very noisy chatter in the background is no joke. I took vyvanse for the first time and that was the first time that I have experienced the peace of a calm mind. The peace and calm is life changing. I definitely had some resentfulness because of all the years that I could have been receiving treatment instead of chastisement and punishment for my behavior and emotional outbursts. Unfortunately vyvanse gave me headaches so I had to stop its use. I'm still trying to find the right med for me, but now I know that its possible. I have hope.
I really hope you find something that works for you and your brain, be patient with yourself and take the time you need to grieve and adjust to this new normal 💛
Aaa it's just shocking for me the way you describe my life so so accurate piece by piece. And this is the first time I hear somebody having the "noon appoiment" blocking their whole day... I have the note "scheduele an appoiment for ADHD" in my notes for months and months.. and hearing your story and fighting every day with these symtomps really encourages me to go and be diagnosed and get treatement.. thank you!
Oh my gosh this made my day. It was small things like that, that just felt so overwhelming and made me feel like I wasn’t “adulting” properly. I hope you manage to start the process to get things underway. Take as long as you need, don’t rush, and be kind to yourself! You’ve got this!!
Same, I finally convinced the secretary to send me a test so she could see IF I could get an appointment with a doctor last year, and kid you not, it took me around 6/8 months to finish and send. I finally started medication and can’t wait to find the right dosage or type of medication to help me, it’s crazy how I’ve managed to live 32 years like that
@@MA-xd9zl 32 years before a diagnosis is so crazy! I am so glad you're on the path to managing this now! Keeping my fingers crossed for you 🤞🏼
@@tillyzarrella I know, and want to know the most revolting part? My mother is a psychologist so when I was around 16 and explained to her about forgetting everything even things she would ask me to do seconds later, she connected the dots and took me to the best professional in town to get test, did QI test, all the tests possible to be sure it couldn’t be something else. And this professional only diagnosed me with anxiety… when I asked her why I forget everything all the time and can barely read, she had the audacity to say “because you’re just not interested”. I guess in 32 years I only really read like 8 books, but I could read the same book over and over because I forget everything, even thou I was really interested in the story. That’s the most frustrating thing for me. Hopefully now I’ll find a medication to help, since I started one 2 weeks ago, it only worked the first day, but that gave me hope because I really want to do so much in life.
@@MA-xd9zl Thank you so much for sharing, truly. That is incredibly frustrating, I have found that taking the time to grieve the time lost is really important. I am just so so glad you are on the right track now with your diagnosis and I hope you find a medication that works for you! You absolutely can do all you want and more, exciting things are coming my friend.
Hi, just got diagnosed at age 56. I have been searching for answers for so long. I have been put on meds for depression and anxiety and nothing ever worked. Then they blamed my symptoms on menopause and that was the way it is and just have to make it through. I new I was very sensitive to noises, smells, materials etc. and busy mind, compulsive thoughts. Never slept well and have been exhausted all my life. I have literally have tried everything to get better and heal myself. Now i am ANGRY because I think about how my life could of not been so hard and struggled for so long. I just started a med but had to come off because side effects, going to start another one tomorrow and hope this is going to help. Thanks for sharing your journey.
Thank you so much for sharing this Kathy, it’s so nice to know that others can relate. The sense of anger and grief is completely normal and it does feel like a waste. Be kind to yourself as you try out different medications! You’ve got this!
How are you going on
I'm a 31 year old male and I'm having my ADHD assesment on august 1st. Some things you spoke about in your video made me tear up because I can relate to it so much! The thing what hit me most was the fact that when you had an appointment, you couldn't do anything before the appointment. I have this all the time! I'm really nervous for my assesment :(
Ur first reaction to the meds sounds the same as mine.
I took a shower and when i stepped out i realized there was peace in my head. Before i had so many thoughts, some screaming, music, etc at once. It felt like im constantly in a fog and trying to balance on ever changing thoughts on a stormy sea
Thanks!
I had misdiagnosed my restlessness bad racing thoughts as generalised anxiety disorder.
I finally realised I have ADHD. I’m just waiting on treatment now, and I think it improve things drastically.
Same
Thanks so much for sharing your experience. I have been diagnosed with ADHD as an adult in my 40's and have been on medication for 1 week. Hearing about your experience is really helpful for navigating my own way through. I find it very supportive 🙏
Thank you for posting this. I am 37 and i was diagnosed with ADHD a week ago and was prescribed Vyvanse. My experience with the meds have been precisely as you explained it. I have been struggling to articulate my experience on the medication so far and you sharing your experience has really helped.
Thanks for the video ! I have been diagnosed earlier this year at 42 and my psychiatrist has agreed to prescribe ADHD medication once my anxiety is under control, I can’t wait to experience the silence in my head !
Honestly... That's ridiculous. Adderall helped my anxiety tremendously. I have a habit of clenching my jaw. Adderall stopped the clenching and I found my anxiety all but disappeared gone. Just an fyi. If my Dr waited for my anxiety to be under control... Never happen.
@@tammyscully879 my comment is 6 month old, here is an update. I have been on Ritaline for close to 5 months now. It has helped a lot with many symptoms I was experiencing but not anxiety unfortunately. Not yet anyway.
Therapy is helping but I need anxiety medication way too often. That being said, I have been diagnosed with a Generalized Anxiety Disorder years ago that may not be linked with the ADHD, I was truly hoping it was, looks like it’s not linked.
Alright, I was tested as a kid and had ADHD.. Took Aderall and then eventually went off that same year.
I have been living and coping (white knuckling) without fully knowing that I still had ADHD and that I was coping. I was always told I out grew it..
I just recently went to the doctor because I couldn't keep up with all my responsibilities that I have at my job, my ministries and the leadership involved with it.
All of it has made me so incredibly anxious that I get executive dysfunction and I let things go. And I am not mentioning all the other things.. That would be too much :)
Just started taking medication as a 30 year old and it is unreal how I feel.. I feel confident and I feel like doing all the things that I have always wanted to.
Now I want to lead people and I can't believe that I don't really have much anxiety to do it!
It is quite an difference that I feel
After finishing school I stopped taking medication over fear of addiction.
I had an accident andconcussion in 2022 and my ADHD became a million times worse. It became crippling - I was constantly screwing up in my job (11 years of experience and I trained my current boss), so I had to get help.
After more test and a new diagnosys, my doctor put me on wellbutrin for a month before stymulants. What a difference.
The only side effect (Vyvance) is high blood pressure.
For a few years (2010 - 2013 I think) I was on Rytalin, which worked but didn't last long.
Then came Concerta till 2016 or 7ish. Lasted much longer.
Now I am on my second month on Wellbutrin and fifth day on Vyvance. Wellbutrin is an antidepressant, so with Vyvance I have not had anxiety or mood swings.
Last week I had lots of problems at work, and kept cool all day. Solved lots of anoying problems without cursing or getting discouraged.
Treating ADHD is life changing!
Thanks for opening up and calling out what you need. Take the time to do what you need to be well :)
I'm 32 years old and was diagnosed with ADHD four days ago. I had no idea I had it until now. My doctor prescribed me atomoxetine at 40 mg. About 30 minutes after taking it, just like you mentioned in the video, everything felt so quiet. I never knew I could experience this level of peace.
As a father of three, I was finally able to play with my kids and do my chores without feeling grumpy or like it was a burden. I actually wanted to get things done. Even my work has improved-it’s incredible!
The only downside I would say is I get really really strange dreams. But apart from that whoa
Everyone talks about taking the meds stops the noise in their heads. I don't have that. I dont have a noisy head. I only have a few thoughts at a time. And when I'm trying to think a thought, it disappears. On the meds i can just hold on the my thoughts longer. Anyone else?
What you’re describing is the same thing, just not as severe as others. The noise isn’t loud. It’s just describing how many thoughts at once can drown out your executive function. Medication can make your executive function thoughts come to the fore and quiet the rest.
i think this is the same thing or similar as "noise" you probably just misunderstand them or think the way they describe it is exaggerating. its kind of like a refigerator buzzing, you dont notice it until its gone, or one day you just go "Woah was that always that loud"
If I had been diagnosed with ADHD at a young age, life would have been a lot easier. I noticed at a young age that I was easily distracted and in my adolescence I noticed that I was only good at school if I enjoyed it. But as soon as the challenge of sports, work or school came up, I noticed that my motivation diminished day by day until I no longer even liked what I was doing. I'm sure I would have finished school if I was on medication at the time. I also became unhappy with work as soon as the challenge was gone. But I have been on medication for 2 years now and since then I am a really happy person, I can focus and use my brain capacity. Thanks for your vid.😉
Hey Tily, I was also diagnosed with ADHD as an adult. I have been on the medication for it since 2009.
From my experience I much prefer the fast acting ritalin.
I did time released stuff,concerta, for about a year. While it was convenient to only take one pill in the morning i found that after prolonged use for me it had some terrible side effects. The biggest one being if I forgot to take it by 10:00am, normally took it around 7:00am, I would become nauseous and and my mood would crash. I would contiue in this downward
spiral of dizziness, nauseousness, negative thoughts, until I was able to take the dose of concerta.
The fast acting ritalin, and much cheaper in US by the way, had no such side effects for me. If I missed my first dose I would just feel my “beehive without a queen” mind coming back. If it was a situation where I had traveled away and did not have access to the fast acting I could muddle my way through the day.
However, if that happened with the concerta, I would was completely f*cked.
I tried adderall but that caused blood pressure issues.
So I just take three dose per day of the fast acting ritalin and have done so for over a decade.
It has really changed my life.
Hey Tom, thank you so much for sharing! I am so glad you’ve found one that works for you, and super thankful that you took the time to share. Makes me feel less alone! I also think I prefer the short acting one, but like I mentioned in the video I’m currently on the long acting one. I was diagnosed in HK so will have to go through the process again here in UK! Not sure what their medications are like, but I have noticed a massive difference in my day to day. I think it’s something I’ll keep up for a while.
Huge help. Thank you for this video. I've been recently diagnosed and start meds tomorrow. I was looking to get some insight on possible reactions, benefits, issues, etc. Thank you so much for these observations.
The part about appointments really hit home. I'm almost never late for anything but I think this is because I've naturally developed a coping mechanism. I read that being stressed releases chemicals that can actually override the ADHD, similar to how we tend to only do work for deadlines closer to the deadline, it's because the stress overrides the lack of motivation.
Everything you've said is extremely spot on to what i feel on the medecine
I'd like to add some more personal infos about how it affects me for others to read upon
I am in uni and i have to do months long projects that take regular work hours every day for multiple weeks, its IMPOSSIBLE without ritalin i take 20mg every day but i stop on the weekends when i dont need to do anything
I have trouble working without the medecine, i go from 2 hours MAX with realistically one being productive to 6-8 hours of very productive work with 2 breaks, i get worried about my career because of this but i dont feel like i can get good habbits yet
My sleep is quite bad depending on when i take the medecine, usually i also have a crash when i get home at around 7pm and if i can relax i can sleep, thats after around 10 hours after taking the medecine i do have a weird metabolism for substances
It made me very calm as well even tho its a stimulant i never get angry or frustrated, like i can sort my thoughts, i'd never watch the news cause i'd get mad but now its whatever even irl with other people i am well adjusted
I have almost no appetite throughout the day its tough when i need to work out
Thats about it, the biggest part to me is really how it impacts how i work, i could not live without it now and i hope to stop taking ritalin eventually and be able to work correctly without it
Thank you so much for this. This is the most accurate and concise explanation I’ve heard yet, not just regarding your experience of medication, but also how you explain how adhd is for you. 👍🏻
That’s made my day, thank you so much 🥹🩵
@@tillyzarrella❤
I was diagnosed around 41. I’m now 51 and watching your video brought back memories of my first dose of Adderral. I actually cried from overwhelming feelings of gratefulness and amazement that for the first time in my life I felt mentally focused. Like putting glasses on my brain. The worst was dry mouth for me. Also clenching my jaw. Those went away for the most part but I do have to be cognizant of my water intake. I took a medication break for about a year and a half during Covid. I never had withdrawals. I still don’t if I don’t take my meds. My hubby practically begged me to get back on meds although I was questioning whether they were still working. I’ve never liked taking meds, I don’t even take Tylenol, which is why I was resistant in the first place to getting diagnosed. Anyhoo, I’m blathering. Enjoy the newness. It’s a tool but definitely not a cure.
I always thought my brain was normal before I found out about adhd and realised it should always be calm
Thanks tilly for the video. Helps me understand so much more about adhd and how unique each of our brains are. Being kind to yourself and others goes along way in this world. Thank you.
I appreciate this so much 🧡🧡
Excellent description. Amazing job at self observation! 🎉 go on!
very insightful, currently waiting for my assessment after being referred. GP already told me its very likely they will diagnose me with ADHD going by my symptoms, can't wait as I need something to change.. definetly effects your life & how productive you are.
Absolutely effects your life! I hope the process goes well for you!
Thanks for sharing this, so many people need the conversation around ADHD reinforced not only for those undiagnosed but for those that are cynical and dismiss this disorder as character weakness. What a relief to discover normality! Life is dope ✨
Started Methylphenidate this week. I relate to the silence. It was amazing! I’ve never been able to just concentrate on one thing before.
@drtwiz7490 I'm not sure how this relates to my comment - but if you're talking about bypassing the system to get controlled drugs then I really don't want your help.
I Found the medication worked so well in the beginning but now not so much. It definitely makes me more anxious and sensitive to negativity. Has anyone else experienced this?
Si. It means your sensitive
Yes. Vyvanse
Short therapeutic range. Perhaps regular returning intermittently? You can check your responses and reactions to things sex and stress
For me - the meds are a nightmare taking them regularly
I feel my energy system is off and I am disconnected from my inner power and others
The meds were really putting me off and I think - I am not take them anymore regularly
Maybe they take away loads of my sensitivity
@@Ash-to1gp doing yoga helped me a lot with my anxiety. But I agree. I think you are a sensitive person. There is nothing wrong with that… best of luck with your journey.
Earlier this year I got diagnosed with something called a Thyroglossal Duct Cyst (massive lump in my throat) and when they removed the cyst, they also had to remove my thyroid. So I started on some thyroid replacement medication and in the aftermath of my hormones leveling out from that, I’ve started noticing traits that seem very ADHD-esque that I think we’re perhaps masked by my thyroid issues. So the next time I have to see my Doctor for a refill I’m going to try and get the process started on an ADHD diagnosis. Hopefully correcting both the thyroid issue and the ADHD issue will finally help me get a level of control over my life I’ve been missing.
I am keeping my fingers crossed for you, and I hope you get some answers
@@tillyzarrella I have my doctor's appointment on Tuesday, so I'm hoping to know more then. However, I don't know what the process is to get diagnosed, so I don't know if I'll have answers on Tuesday or if I'll just be starting the process.
@@BrianOsler For me it was a self-report checklist, and then depending on where you are they might choose to speak to some of your family / friends and see if they've noticed the same symptoms. This can be frustrating because so often we mask symptoms to fit in!
You described the DBT skill named STOP. 👍👍 where you stop, take a step back, observe, and proceed mindfully. 👍👍
I've watched a ton of videos and am certain I have ADHD, perhaps inattentive ADHD. You perfectly said what I'm trying to say. Seriously. 🤯 Thank you. I have an apt on Monday to talk about this.
Perfect Perfect Perfect, exactly like me! Everything fits on me. I feel like can't survive without the medication anymore!
Thank you for this video. I recently (since September 2022) discovered that I need to be more proactive about my adhd. After weeks/months of working towards medication treatment. I’m almost there after a EKG. And this gives me two feelings. One excitement. That I’ll finally get to a goal. Two scared how how it’s going to “change” me. This video has given me more peace about this course of action.
I was really worried about how it would affect my personality as well. In my experience at least, I actually feel like I've been more myself? Mostly because it's allowed me to be less overwhelmed by the noise in my head! I feel calmer and more like me. Keeping my fingers crossed your journey goes well! 🤞🏼
@tilly Thank you very much for making this video. It's encouraging me to try the medication.
Thanks for sharing your experience with adhd meds .but what about memory disturbances?does the med did any improvement in memory 😢😢
I think I would shout for joy if my mind felt that free
Crashing: eat a bag of salted peanuts or something similar just before the crash usually happens.
The nausea and headaches are low blood sugar. Eating is indeed the issue.
Yes! I’ve definitely noticed eating more often helps. 🫶🏼
Great video and good info. 62 and just through titration in uk. Anxiety for me much reduced and getting a buzz from ticking things off my todo list rather than procrastinating and doing more interesting stuff! Still adapting to this new way of being but highly recommend to anybody in doubt particularly older folk.
Thank you for sharing! I’m experiencing the same! I didn’t realise how much of my anxiety came from just not doing things.
I tried ritalin twice and both times I felt this inner peace that I have never felt before and I felt I could concentrate on things at will more easily. I could focus without being constantly distracted by noise in my mind. Getting diagnosed seems like such an ordeal but I may start to do so
63 and just diagnosed.on Thursday. ADHD Combined. Will talk to someone about meds early next week.
Thanks for sharing your experience. I've very recently started taking ADHD meds and am very appreciative to hear of others experiences to help me be prepared for what to expect.
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"Grain brain" ~ I was diagnosed about a decade ago, hated taking the medication because I felt like it took my personality away. After changing my diet four months ago, my attention capacity has drastically improved.
Diet and exercise can have a massive impact on ADHD as well! I’m glad you’ve managed to find something that works for you :)
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@@dt.3484 I eat a zero-carbohydrate, high-fat diet with mostly meat and water.
@@mindlessfatemusicthat's a very specific diet for healing and that's good to hear. There is some science pointing to Keto repairing mitochondria, which have become dysfunctional due to oxidative stress (trauma, genetics, etc.). A theory is that this is a common link with most brain disorders. I've likely got a long wait in the UK for a diagnosis so I'm thinking of trying Keto. But the meds do sound fantastic for many people in combination with a healthy lifestyle, which in many ways it opens up the door to - a virtuous cycle. I experienced all what was said in the video just from a temporary dopamine boost from taking Sertraline. So happy to know the potential!
Thanks for this! I just started meds and this video was super helpful!❤
yes. it is lifechanging. i was on modafinil, which i loved, but i had an allergic reaction. i now do a daytrana patch. because i suffer from migraine, if i feel a headache coming on, i pull the patch off. i like having control over the long acting meds. adderall made me the worst version of myself...
I finally received my ADHD diagnosis at the age of 60 after being misdiagnosed with GAD. The first time taking vyvanse was life altering, I never knew that level of calm could exist.
I was severely traumatized years ago as a teenage, got diagnosed with ADHD. Spent my whole life fighting ADHD. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Germany don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
YES very sure of Dr.alishrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
How do i reach out to him? Is he on Instagram
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an
obsession with violence.
Very similar experience on my first day but on my second day now and actually nothing has changed so wired 😳 I am a bit disappointed but let’s see what’s happens tomorrow
Thanks: I am a 68 year old male and have figured out from multiple youtube videos, I probably have ADHD or ADD. It has taken me two weeks to just get an appointment with a psychists to be diagnosed. I started back bicycling and follow a training program and also go on some very intense group rides where my heart rate goes up to 185 BMP. I am a little concerned if I go on a stimulant for ADHD, it could be dangerous for my heart to push so hard on the bike . I will ask the psychist. But I would love for once be able to maintain focus. My job requires very detailed focus and I struggle with that.
Anyway thanks for your wonderful video.
Maybe you just need to stop taking the medicine on the days you have physical activity.
I started ADHD meds four days ago and it's been wonderful as well as strange. I am still quite young but I've flunked out of 5 schools and generally speaking, my life is a mess. I struggle so much. Taking this medication is such a big difference, I didn't even know what I was missing out on! My head is a lot more quiet and I can do chores with much more ease. As a whole I feel happy knowing I can start to do something with my life now, but I'm also feeling that grief over what I've missed out on. I wonder what I would’ve been able to achieve had I been given medication at the start of middle school, as that's where I went downhill fast. I wonder if I would’ve been able to stay in one school and perhaps go to university after.
I have an appointment to get diagnosed at the end of the month. This video gives me so much hope!
On medication, is it easier to clean and tidy?
I have found it to be easier yes!
This video is very helpful. Thank you so much❤ I am 31 from South Africa and going through the process now.
I hope everything goes well for you Astrid!!
Thank you for sharing your story!! I'm currently struggling, and you have given me hope :)
Thank you so much for this! I hope you find something to help manage things for you 🩷
I can't tell you how many times I had to skip back 30 seconds while watching this. 😅 I've been diagnosed recently, and I'm hoping to start medication in the near future.
I always feel bad for the length of my videos because I do the exact same thing whenever I watch something on TH-cam 😂 best of luck with your journey!!
@Tilly Zarrella no, that's not what I meant at all! It's just a funny illustration of my adhd symptoms. I do it with just about every video as well.
How do you feel now? (Since this video is 11 months ago). Everything you said has been my exact same experience and it makes me nervous for the future.
That is exactly what happened to me the first time I took the meds, three months ago. My brain went completely silent. I cried. I'm 38 years old
I'm 37yrs old on day 1... The difference is big!
I'm from India. We don't have any medication available for ADHD in India. It is so frustrating. Being academically so brilliant but being able to study for even half an hour straight. I'm literally on my nerve for almost 2 years now
This video is extraordinarily helpful, I am going for a psychiatric evaluation soon and will bring up these talking points. Thank you.
For those that have gotten late life diagnosis and decided on trying medication:
Did it change who you are personality wise or simply eliminate the negatives of ADHD?
I am on day 3 of elvanse, I can't really say much about my Focus since my grandpa passed away and I have been grieving. But I feel much more away, went on a 10km (~6 miles) walk the first day and enjoyed all the energy and peace I felt. One thing that worries my is my puls, according to my fitbit my resting puls is about the same, but even getting up and walking, doing chores etc gets it up to 110 to 140.
That is horrible to hear about your grandpa, I’m so sorry. I suppose just be patient with yourself and give yourself as much time as you need to sit with all the change. My pulse is quite high as well, it’s certainly something to speak with your dr about! You deserve all the peace, fingers crossed things get better from here x
@Tilly Zarrella thank you for your kind words! I'll definitely talk to my doctor about my pulse, thanks ❤️
@@tillyzarrellais your pulse high just on meds or has it always been high? How much of a difference are we talking about? Curious as that is the one thing that has me nervous to start my medication.
Hey! Sorry I missed this, I think I do notice some heart palpitations, more often than when not on meds. Have you spoken to someone about this?
It only worked for 3 months, and now it does nothing but make me more depressed yet content with lazing around.
Sounds like all psychdrugs I tried ✌️
my son loves concerta and fits him... he loves being himself while being in meds.. he isnt impulsive and he sits well in class and not hyper.. he is more focused..
So pissed of, Ive got my late life diagnosis a year ago and all ive been offered is Wellbutrin/bupropion and Atomoxetine (which have had minimum effect on me), because i said i smoke 5 cigarettes a day she thinks i have an addictive personality so NO ritalin or concerta for me! and because i procrastinate and am not productive and am now depressed i dont even wake up on time nor do i bother calling them and wait 4 months for my regular 5 minute appointment.. I might ask for antidepressants instead now because i am depressed that even a year after being diagnosed and wasting half of my life i cant treat my symptoms..
I’ve only just realised I have adhd. I can’t imagine feeling present every day. I think I would cry
I think the correct meds will be life changing , might improve my performance at work if I was more present
It is so great watching videos like this and realizing there are other people like me, wow! Only 1 day trying medication so far. Effects were almost entirely positive. I say almost because something you mentioned as a positive is a potential negative for me. You said "I did not feel anxious about work I have not yet completed" (I probably paraphrased that). It was true for me too, but I also felt a lot less motivated to take on tasks that require a lot of thought and effort -- I believe the anxiety being removed, while great, might lead to being less ambitious/self-motivated. Not good for a person who is self employed, lol. Time will tell though. Thank you for making this video!
[Adderall, helps a lot in treatment of ADHD, Anxiety, PTSD and have benefited a lot then. i 'did recommend you to this reliable place i always grab some from very affordable and ships to any location also guide newbies on rations]
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They're on Telegrams & Instagrams
I appreciate your video. I'm going in next week to get some mental health services, and asking about getting tested for ADHD. It's really nice to know what medication could do, and it sounds like we both have similar headspace in ADHD.
When you said off medication your day revolves around something you have to do once.. yes! I can totally relate. Even the thought of doing something that you don’t actually do. Yesterday I was finally in a focus and my friend asked if I wanted to go to lunch. I kinda felt bad when I said no, and then the rest of my day was completely derailed.
You’re amazing but everyone can try this. Would be nice to hear your outlook
This is good content, thank you.
I do think the audio quality would benefit from not overlapping and fading the beginning and end of your sentences. It's not natural, and my ADD is focusing on the strange editing instead of the content.
UPDATE: i got my diagnose ADD and have been on Elvase for a week soon. I can really say that so far the medicin have helped me a lot in so many places.
I am on the path of getting a diagnose
as a 57 year. It feels very nice to see how the medication can help and get a change to be a person that you want to be.
I’m keeping my fingers crossed everything goes well for you, and I wish you well on your journey 🤞🏼
@@tillyzarrella
UPDATE: i got my diagnose ADD and have been on Elvase for a week soon. I can really say that so far the medicin have helped me a lot in so many places.
I feel like a New person.
Wow that is incredible!! 🩷 so happy for you!
So everyone else v is not having constant thoughts, what do they think about 24/7
Great video, this really spoke to me. I'm on my third week of Ritalin LA and my experiences are very similar to what you describe in a lot of ways. Definitely mourning in some ways, but excited for change in others.
As someone who received a childhood diagnosis and treatment and who is now in his 30s I will say it has been a rough ride... the medical understanding of ADHD and how to treat it were not what it is today. I actually just started on a new medication... Foquest, it a methylphenidate salt designed for long release up to 16 hours.
Does it cause insomnia?
@@LG-ro5le Not if I manage when I take it, essentially it allows me to time my day such that I have focus through the day when it matters and the taper off aligns with my typical days end... essentially I don't crash I just fall into bedtime. now that can get me out of sync if my schedule pivots due to an unexpected event.
@@ianmastin Ritalin dosnt do anything for me, i switched to elvanse today and its alot nicer, more calm and happy
@@LG-ro5le I have tried Vyvanse which is the same thing but here in Canada there have been shortages of the medication that made it hard to maintain taking it, I also had more difficulty managing consistent effects from the medication... sometimes it seemed to do what I needed and sometimes it felt like I didn't even take it. I hope that your experience continues to be positive!
@@ianmastin there is instant release dexamfetamine pills, I haven’t tried them yet but it’s the same drug as elvanse but it works straight away as it doesn’t need to be processed in the body to convert to dexamphetamine
Thank you for sharing. My son has ADHD and I'm trying to learn about it and how to help him.
This gives me a lot of hope
My therapist thinks I have adhd. I don’t think so but here’s my symptoms: stress, frustration, procrastination, scatterbrained, irritation, poor word recall, low motivation, social withdrawal, anxiety if I’m not working.
This did give me not any insight ... yeah! ;)
Just kidding. Super good video. Can relate sooo much to every aspect your describing and i got my first dose day aaaaand i am also sooo super sad about the missed potential of beeing a better version of "myself" in my twenties, in my past. How much i had to fight during my Bachelors-Degree ... how unhappy i was ... this whole noise in the backgroud was such a burden ..
Today i cried, because of joy
I just started Foquest today. 70mg, I was on Vyvanse but the crash was quick. I am getting the crash. How do you deal with this? Do you drink caffeine hours later?
First time watching your videos - the way you pronounce “Concerta” makes me suspect you’re a classical musician. If so, shout out from a fellow music dork ❤
Great video, packed with information. Thanks for making it!
Sadly in my country there are only 2 ADHD medications available to be prescribed: Metylphenidate (Concerta) and Atomoxotine (Stratera). I tried Concerta and I feel like it works only if I take pauses in between them. If i took them daily I would start to feel more and more like a zombie, maybe I had a clearer mind but nothing made me feel joy anymore, not even computer games or watching tiktoks/tv.
I am 2 weeks in Atomoxetine and don't feel any big changes, maybe more calm but still can't get myself to do laundry or wash the dishes. Maybe the dose might be too low but also online it said it takes up to 1 month to feel the full effect of Strattera.
Why do you feel like a zombie?
I upped my dose to 80mg and only the first day i felt a big fidgety with Atomoxetine, afterwards i felt like it wasnt doing anything (made me a more depressed and i would get periods where i could cry. didnt feel like it was doing much else to me after 2-3 months of use so i stopped and 2 days after you go back to realising that it did have an effect that took a long time to accumulate, tricks your brain that nothing has changed.. but 2 days after stopping i went back to my old self. no emotions, lack of willpower, couldnt start things that i needed to do for days.. Its not a great drug or anything but it does have some positive impact i would rate it 5/10
Hey did your one of the symptom for adhd include dissociation as well?
I think I've dissociating despite being on ritalin for 1 months. Not to mention it givese huge anxiety.
that sounds incredibly stressful! Have you been able to talk with someone about it? I do have some dissociation but I don’t know whether that’s a part of ADHD or not!
I starred taking the lowest dosage of Concerta four days ago, and I'm a bit upset at it making me even more unfocused and gittery... very far away from my "Eureka" moment :/
When I was younger at v work I use to have highs and lows. And I use to tell myself go home happy, like I came into work sad for v some reason in don’t know, then mood improved at work. I don’t know why I felt low
The amount of weird thoughts I’ve had , if I work for Sainsburys I won’t be able to sleep, WHY . No logical reason for it. Everyone is thinking about me WHY
Crazy, I had depression crushes with the short acting and none with long action
Hey throwing my two cents for the younger people on the audience. ADHD medication can often hinder your physical development in your growing stages (up to 21 years of age). And if you lack a routine, exercise, sleep schedule, and a balance nutrition, it’s more likely due to harm than good.
I know it’s a struggle, but I am so glad I didn’t take it until now that am an adult, since I know I won’t think I need it to function (cuz I managed without it) and I know my health won’t be compromise, because of my good habits and routines.
Please don’t insist on medication, until you have exhausted you lifestyle regulation avenues.
I don't really relate to the quite part. My smooth brain is as quiet as a paving stone, and for this reason, I suck at planning. There is no one to remind me.
My managers at work think I get confused. That’s what it looks from the outside