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Year 2 Day 133 - 20 July 2024 out and about
went for a walk in Amersfoort. went into the main shopping street for a while but it quickly became too much so rather than go home i went to a quieter area and explored. it was exhausting but good and felt normal. later went into nijkerk with ferdi to sort some banking out. that was more of a workout than training and needed a rest so went for a coffee.
by the end of the day i was wiped and rested to recover. it was needed and very rewarding.
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Year 2 Day 132 - 19 July 2024 ups and downs
มุมมอง 37 ชั่วโมงที่ผ่านมา
plus side i was sewing again. down side while ferdi was as physio someone made such a loud noise i had an immediate meltdown. shaking, crying. went out into the waiting room with noise cancelling til it was done. calmed down and went to the supermarket to get food for dinner. two of the ladies working there where having some fun talking between themselves but it was too loud for me. explained t...
Year 2 Day 127 - 14 July 2024 hitting bottom gives perspective
มุมมอง 619 ชั่วโมงที่ผ่านมา
i hit an all time low but it gave me the opportunity to put it all all in its place. having got so low gave me the opportunity to process exactly whats happened, all of it. im better for the other day. writing it all down and putting it out to the world was and is good therapy to get my place in it all. if anyone reads/sees it cool and if they dont also cool. im stronger for that fall and take ...
Year 2 Day 126 - 13 July 2024 lot to process
มุมมอง 6วันที่ผ่านมา
it took a lot to process after the talk with the company doctor yesterday. i worked out a timeline as part of the putting things in perspective ferdi had his shoulder replaced just before lockdown so i was taking care of him through lockdown then there was lockdown in the pandemic i was taking care of ferdi and survival instinct took over then came ferdi discovering he had parkinsons burnout af...
Year 2 Day 125 - 12 July 2024 dealt with it. its been a tough couple of days
มุมมอง 8วันที่ผ่านมา
the lady that helps us with paperwork was here and it got overwhelming for me. i broke down crying just dealing with but it was necessary. today had a talk with the company doctor and just talking about it all i broke again but it was needed to get it out of my system
Year 2 Day 123 - 10 July 2024 slowly getting there. still feeling small but im trying
มุมมอง 5วันที่ผ่านมา
getting the house back after the hospital bed has gone made a big mental improvement. getting out of the funk takes time so i'll give it time. something simple set me back yesterday - going to get a kebab for dinner of all things. the girl behind the counter could hardly speak dutch and struggled with ferdi so i took over. she didnt speak english and was dismissive of us. got it clear to the gu...
Year 2 Day 120 - 7 July 2024 feeling small
มุมมอง 514 วันที่ผ่านมา
im exhausted all the time. i keep trying to do things but im exhausted all the time. i want to go out and be around people but the noise and input is too much. i feel small right now. this will change in time but not today. im even too exhausted to sew. ive got ideas in my head but to do them takes more energy than ive got. the thought going through my head is why make things when im never goin...
Year 2 Day 117 - 4 July 2024 two days of complete rest
มุมมอง 914 วันที่ผ่านมา
i needed the rest days and its paid off. feel much better for it.
Year 2 Day 115 - 2 July 2024 up and down day
มุมมอง 1014 วันที่ผ่านมา
bed arrived but there were problems with it. i had to do the communication for it and that exhausted me. they will come back to fix it. ferdi went to choir i was too exhausted to take him. when he came back he fell again and his face was covered in blood. i freaked. the neighbour helped and checked him. she was amazing. ferdi had more problems the rest of the night and had to help him out of be...
Year 2 Day 112 - 29 June 2024 things are going well. mindset is everything
มุมมอง 1121 วันที่ผ่านมา
im more positive. arranged a social worker from the doctors to talk with. have an appointment with hospital to see if there is a way of improving the aphasia because of the limting effects it has on me. if they can help great if not also good. i forgot to see the good which is easy to do. accept that which i cannot change change that which i can recognise the difference between the two
Year 2 Day 107 - 24 June 2024 good day
มุมมอง 828 วันที่ผ่านมา
had a visitor come over it was nice to have someone here. had a nap after to recover. ferdi went to get chinese after so that was dinner sorted. all went well apart from him falling on the way back to the car and he cut his face again. i'll concentrate on the positives: someone came over ferdi got dinner
Year 2 Day 106 - 23 June 2024 been exhausted and that has followed with everything in doing
มุมมอง 1428 วันที่ผ่านมา
Year 2 Day 106 - 23 June 2024 been exhausted and that has followed with everything in doing
Year2 Day 104 - 21 June 2024 a complete rest day
มุมมอง 19หลายเดือนก่อน
i knew i was going to need a rest day after going to amsterdam the day before so wasnt surprised how tired i was. even getting up and down stairs was a challenge but took it all in my stride. when i got a message on fb from a friend it counted. it means im doing something right.
Year2 Day 103 - 20 June 2024 milestone, made it in to the office for a little visit
มุมมอง 14หลายเดือนก่อน
it was a huge step. i got there on my own and went in. the building was overwhelming by the sheer size of it and the noise. had my noise cancelling on til i got in a quiet place. i wanted initially to go and see everyone but the reality was the sensory overload was too much so i kept it small and just stayed in the drop in area. people were coming up to me a lot. happy to see me and that was an...
Year 2 Day 101 - 18 June 2024 training improved and expectations managed
มุมมอง 11หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 101 - 18 June 2024 training improved and expectations managed
Year 2 Day 99 - 16 June 2024 getting there
มุมมอง 18หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 99 - 16 June 2024 getting there
Year 2 Day 98. - 15 June 2024 ups and downs
มุมมอง 4หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 98. - 15 June 2024 ups and downs
Year 2 Day 93 - 10 June 2024 good weekend
มุมมอง 6หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 93 - 10 June 2024 good weekend
Year 2 Day 90 - 7 June 2024 im happy with managed expectations
มุมมอง 9หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 90 - 7 June 2024 im happy with managed expectations
Year 2 Day 89 - 6 June 2024 rest day and a day of contemplation
มุมมอง 10หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 89 - 6 June 2024 rest day and a day of contemplation
Year 2 Day 88 - 5 June 2024 another exhausted day
มุมมอง 58หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 88 - 5 June 2024 another exhausted day
Year 2 Day 85 - 2 June 2024 more rest and acceptance
มุมมอง 9หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 85 - 2 June 2024 more rest and acceptance
Year2 Day 84 - 1 June 2024 a complete day of rest did the trick
มุมมอง 14หลายเดือนก่อน
Year2 Day 84 - 1 June 2024 a complete day of rest did the trick
Year 2 Day 83 - 31 May 2024 completely wiped. after last night. nothing left in me
มุมมอง 18หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 83 - 31 May 2024 completely wiped. after last night. nothing left in me
Year 2 Day 82 - 30 May 2024 working through managing expectations
มุมมอง 12หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 82 - 30 May 2024 working through managing expectations
Year 2 Day 79 - 27 May 2024 rest and recovery day
มุมมอง 10หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 79 - 27 May 2024 rest and recovery day
Year 2 Day 78 26 May 2024 tough day and ended up losing my ability to speak
มุมมอง 15หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 78 26 May 2024 tough day and ended up losing my ability to speak
Year 2 Day 76 - 24 May 2024 low battery day
มุมมอง 13หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 76 - 24 May 2024 low battery day
Year 2 Day 75 - 23 May 2024 today was a reality check and facing whats in the mirror
มุมมอง 112 หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 75 - 23 May 2024 today was a reality check and facing whats in the mirror
Year 2 Day 73 - 21 May 2024 a quiet day but a good day
มุมมอง 42 หลายเดือนก่อน
Year 2 Day 73 - 21 May 2024 a quiet day but a good day

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  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Hello Ray, very brave of you to go out and explore on your own. Despite some of the dfiificulties you had, it seems compared to last year, that you are coping much better also given the warm weather. I hope you'll have together more of good days....

  • @Iskdhdbd
    @Iskdhdbd 22 วันที่ผ่านมา

    So me saxe bum

  • @mdsaborislam6414
    @mdsaborislam6414 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Hello dear. I am sabor. Are you looking for a professional you tube thumbnail designer? Lat me know please thanks?

  • @grigorsa3424
    @grigorsa3424 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    😘😘🔥

  • @user-wk1ms8og3g
    @user-wk1ms8og3g 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

  • @grigorsa3424
    @grigorsa3424 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Wishing you indeed a stress less Kingsday! both of you.

  • @major4488
    @major4488 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    🤔 Promo`SM

  • @grigorsa3424
    @grigorsa3424 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

  • @user-he7kc7dp2n
    @user-he7kc7dp2n 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I have analyzed your TH-cam channel and found some problems in your channel. Can we discuss the problem that your channel has?

  • @user-he7kc7dp2n
    @user-he7kc7dp2n 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Unique video

  • @Fraslet
    @Fraslet 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Oh no!! I’m so sorry x

    • @01motormouse
      @01motormouse 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      its part of the game. keep smiling and try not to get frustrated too much

  • @user-he7kc7dp2n
    @user-he7kc7dp2n 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Informative video

  • @grigorsa3424
    @grigorsa3424 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    🙏👍🤗

  • @grigorsa3424
    @grigorsa3424 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

  • @hachanalisarker
    @hachanalisarker 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Nice

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Hi Ray, this is the day I (and you yourself most) feared. You've made a long journey and you had to come from far - you recording this will help a lot of people. I want to congratulate you, not on the anniverary of the stroke, but for how you have shown coping with it..on the many levels you've mentioned. I hope and know that you'll still take steps to further recovery. Despite that medical staff might say these are smaller, they still can mean a lot for you and Ferdi. I admire your courage and wish you well. Big and warm hugs to both of you.

  • @hachanalisarker
    @hachanalisarker 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you for sharing such a heartfelt and empowering message!

  • @hachanalisarker
    @hachanalisarker 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    You've accomplished so much, even on a challenging day! 🌟 Managing paperwork and sorting out issues with your mobile provider can be draining, but you handled it with resilience. Taking care of Ferdi after his fall shows your compassion and strength as a caregiver. Remember to be kind to yourself-you've done an incredible job today. 💪

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Ray, I myself was a bit afraid of this video, that necessarily would come, knowing you: an honest self assessment after a year. It's a brave video, with a lot of mixed feelings for you but also to all of us watching. It's good that you look how to better cope and even improve things the coming time. But also asking for help from others might be an option, saving your 'little battery' for those things you want to do as well and give you pleasure in life. Take care, big hug.

  • @hachanalisarker
    @hachanalisarker 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Your reflection on the impact of ample sleep is insightful. It's wonderful to hear how it enhances your cognitive function, despite the minor inconvenience of backache. Your awareness of these effects is commendable!

  • @feliciamorrison7113
    @feliciamorrison7113 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    ❣️ P r o m o S M

  • @oliverdiamond6594
    @oliverdiamond6594 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    good job.

  • @coutt6480
    @coutt6480 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    i am happy to hear that you are doing well! 😊 good fortune ! ❤

  • @diproy135
    @diproy135 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Hello sir my name is Dip, I just see your youtube video your video is excellent but some thing missing on your video that's your SEO that's why your video not reach more views and subscriber . Below we found your channel issue : .Not to be high quality Thumbnail. .Add average Title. .Not to add good and high quality Tags. .Shoort description. .Not to add End screens. .And some channel Technical Issue. SO sir i can help to grow your SEO score that's can help you reach your video views and channel subscriber . I have my own teems of youtube video SEO.

    • @01motormouse
      @01motormouse 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      the purpose of these videos isnt to reach a large audience but be a video diary for recovering from a stroke

    • @diproy135
      @diproy135 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@01motormouse i understand sir but you upload regular video on your channel so you just work your seo sector and some channel techical issue i thik it's help to your content suggest more people and they are also khow what you talk and it's also grow your channel.

  • @Manojsharmaentrepreneur
    @Manojsharmaentrepreneur 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    😮very

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    happy you both had a good Christmas together! And yes a goal without a plan is merely a dream...but be patient too! you are making huge progress

  • @user-wt6ly4oz9i
    @user-wt6ly4oz9i 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    dear Ray, I was not aware what happened to you. Stay strong and a big hug from me and my husband

    • @01motormouse
      @01motormouse 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

      aw thanks Jack. i started making this for me as a way to vent and keep a diary that i can look back at to see how far ive come. its proved to be very theraputic and when im in my dark moments i look back at the first week to remind myself

  • @growfast786
    @growfast786 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    So nice share 😂 gift ✅ done with full watch video 🎉

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Ray, you are a wise man!

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    huge and overwhelming, but you did it!

  • @grigorsa3424
    @grigorsa3424 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    ❤💋

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Take a deep breath and a good rest!

  • @user-bl9kc8zy1j
    @user-bl9kc8zy1j 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    It was sooo good to see you too Ray!!! =)

    • @01motormouse
      @01motormouse 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

      it was good to put a face the person :)

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Giving goose bumps how well you care for each other! an example for everyone.

  • @Fraslet
    @Fraslet 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    So happy that you and Ferdi still love each others....it's obvious from your whole expression. I hope this helps you through difficult times!

  • @grigorsa3424
    @grigorsa3424 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

  • @Fraslet
    @Fraslet 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Rest as best you can x

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    hi Ray, though indeed: I hope that you'll be better together after this 2 weeks hospitalisation of Ferdi. Take care and watch after yourself!

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    hi Ray....I can see it's very very difficult, but don't give up!

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    hi Ray, despite you saying "you don't want to do anything" you've managed this video! Thumbs up for you. Big hug.

  • @Fraslet
    @Fraslet ปีที่แล้ว

    Things are going in the right direction.

  • @Fraslet
    @Fraslet ปีที่แล้ว

    I was also at the dentist on the 28th!

  • @Fraslet
    @Fraslet ปีที่แล้ว

    I’ve also had terrible hayfever this summer.

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 ปีที่แล้ว

    hi Ray, it seems you have taken a serious barrier here and taken a steep learning curve....I hope this knowledge & recognition will be of great help in future. But remember that you have a part of the truth as well concerning the situation you have run into at the garden center.

  • @stellarscintillate6388
    @stellarscintillate6388 ปีที่แล้ว

    I'm glad that you are still facile enough to use your computer, so you can share these videos of yourself.

  • @twandebruijn7714
    @twandebruijn7714 ปีที่แล้ว

    you really are on the right road again!! take care

  • @MarlaDiamond-jf3fw
    @MarlaDiamond-jf3fw ปีที่แล้ว

    Nice shared

  • @MarlaDiamond-jf3fw
    @MarlaDiamond-jf3fw ปีที่แล้ว

    Nice