They say you die three times. The first is your actual death. The second is the last time anyone actually sees you before you are buried. The third is the last time anyone utters your name.
@Justin there's 2 types of people "this is unrelated to the video and the comment, please move your self promos to r/smallyoutubers" "go fuck yourself"
this is because when you have your final moments of having dementia, you remember everything. Kind of how like before you die you have 7 minutes of memories before dying.
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@@xiomixx-dn7riYou'll keep your memories into Afterlife because you are on that decayed Body no more
@@xiomixx-dn7ri this reminds me of that scene in coco where mama coco is reminiscing about her childhood in front of her family (even though in the beginning of coco, she has a couple traits of dementia)
After the final minute of silence, the patient wakes up and hears the following words. "Hey, you. You're finally awake. You were trying to cross the border, right? Walked right into that Imperial ambush. Same as us, and that thief over there."
The most heartbreaking part is that creepy distorted noise is supposed to be singing..and the listener just can't remember how to piece together the sound of voices. Their brain is almost gone.
This piece represents the final memory before you and everything you loved vanishes before your very eyes as you drift ever deeper into the sorrowful void, unable to remember yourself your family or anything you ever loved before you finally take your last breathe and you feel nothing, no pain, no sorrow, no record scratches, just silence.
My grandmother spent her last 6 years in a home. Near the end, she had a terrible fall, and became non vocal. It was a tough couple weeks, seeing the fear and anxiety in her eyes as she was unable to speak. The last night, we knew she was fading. My aunt was flying in from California to see her while there was still time. We kept telling her that all night, and when my aunt called from the airport and said she was close, we told her. She started humming "You Are My Sunshine." She never spoke, but it was the clearest form of communication she'd be able to make for months. She wasn't conscious anymore when my aunt made it, but she hung on long enough, and squeezed our hands before the end. Terminal lucidity is terrifying and beautiful and heartbreaking all at once.
You don’t suddenly die. You decay. That’s the scariest part. Years of decline and losing everything that you were made of for your entire life. Think about how much of you memories makes up. Look at objects in your bedroom. Each one has a memory attached. You see the object and you can recall how you got it, each one with a story. Now imagine every item is gone, every event with them. When you are dying from dementia you don’t even have the comfort to say you had a good life. You don’t know who you are. You die with nothing. You worked so hard through your whole life to be happy and as you sit dying in the last moments that you are able to think ever again, you cannot recall them at all. You work for everything but in the end you die with all of it gone. You die not as yourself but as no one. You will decay slowly and as you die, you are not even yourself. You die long before you give your final breath. And that is what is so scary.
This is the probably the most tragic song I've ever heard. A lot of people seem to interpret is as the character being already dead and being welcomed by a choir of angels. But I've always thought of it as a final drop of lucidity against all odds (terminal lucidity). This is because there is a clear change between the rest of the song and what follows after that needle drop sound. What comes first is that 'fog' which is mostly ambient noise, and what follows is a return to the staticy memories we came to associate with lucidity in parts 1-3. This person is experiencing their very last memory in full, with no skips, jumps or alterations besides the heart-wrenching static. It finishes, and abruptly ends (death). To me the scariest part about this album is that it's a reminder not that we die, but that we decay.
How I see it is a grim reminder to hold your past and your sense of self every dearly and to be grateful of this life because tbh if this were happening to me I'd gladly be decaying knowing that I did the best with what I had
this is extremely plausable as you can actually hear what sounds like some muffled crying. probably your family around you as they think you are already gone... too bad you probably forgot them a year ago so its just noise to you now
in my opinion this is actually one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard. i hope I'm doing justice to those suffering by not allowing their essence to be forgotten.
What really gets me is the crackle before the silence. You hear a faint pop followed by total silence, as if the last tiny signal in your brain telling you you're alive finally sizzles out.
"Terminal lucidity, rally before death or end-of-life rally, refers to an unexpected return of mental clarity and memory, or suddenly regained consciousness that occurs in the time shortly before death in patients suffering from severe psychiatric or neurological disorders." "This phenomenon has been noted in patients with schizophrenia, tumors, strokes, meningitis, Parkinson's disease, and Alzheimer's disease."
my aunt before she died wanted everyone to eat with her right before she passed, she said she say her husband fading in and out of her vision like sand and we ate with her and she was as animated as before she got really sick and she even made us laugh right before the next morning where she peacefully died in her sleep
My grandmother passed away this last October and she suffered heavily from dementia. There was a very brief moment, maybe about six or seven seconds right at the end where the turmoil on her face cleared, she sat upright in bed, then gave no one in particular the brightest smile we'd seen from her in years. Then she left us. That moment changed my life and stumbling on this album months later has given me a haunting idea of what she might've been going through. I like to think those final seconds were this song, the final moment of clarity, or maybe she was being welcomed to her new home by her husband. I dunno, this turned into rambling, but... It's something to think about, I suppose.
I’ve lost a grandparent to the slow toll of pancreatic cancer caused by exposure to herbicides during the Vietnam War, I’ve lost another from suddenly getting hit by a car while biking. I hope the other two never catch dementia. I’m sorry for your loss.
Premortem lucidity is such a strange thing but cool thing it's like the mind is gone but the soul is still there just for the brief moment has enough strength to say goodbye I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope she's at peace now
I wonder how the Caretaker, the person who made this track, doesn't fall into sadness or depression whilst working on this. A track so beautiful yet a horrifying reminder that death will come to us all. In what is seemingly a person's final moments appears, finally, a clear memory. A song piece. The piece soulfully accompanies them after years of fog - no more white noise; nor skips or jumps: clarity. All for nothing as shortly all is taken from them. It ends, the person dies in peace, the song remembered for the easing of their own passing. A minute of silence is given and the track ends. So freaking depressive man...
I don’t think someone who is emotionally okay would start a project like this in the first place. If anything, it’s the mode of expression that got him through something.
It’s weird honestly, how this can do that although it’s heavily edited old music re vamped to make this atmosphere. Truly crazy what sound and visuals can do
Terminal lucidity is when you regain mental clarity, it usually happens on the day of death. It's like the disease is mocking you in your final moments. Like, your memories slowly fade away, only for them to return the day you die. They were never truly gone.
@@transientparadox sometimes it can last weeks, in a FEW cases it lasted a few months, and they were able to go home- but then one day they wake up not remembering again, and they die VERy soon after. if they are lucky they will die during the lucidity, so they can remember they're family at least while they die.
Alzheimer's is a testament to the fact that it is much better to die early, with your memories intact, than to watch with your own eyes as they fade away until you forget even the concept of forgetting.
is it truly so bad? I'd like to think of it like a new timer, if ever some way to ease worry of such stubborn people like myself, this is the way I'd love to go, knowing nothing but the faces of those seeing me die, forgetting my place in the world, its... blissful...
The music is like someone dying alone. We don’t know this stranger, or the type of life he/she lived, but we just see them stripped down to their purest form in their last hours, and it really feels humbling, but it comes with the thoughts that we may end up dying alone too.
It feels more like he's slipping from his dementia filled life, and into the afterlife. Throughout the song you can hear faint sounds of memories, a dog barking, footsteps, stuff being knocked down. This is the choir to the gates of heaven, trying to remind him. The longer this track went on the larger my smile grew, he was getting a well deserved rest. Rest easy.
I know this is about dementia, but makes me feel for my friend who commited suicide yesterday. I like to think that this symbolizes his suffering ending. Rest in peace friend.
I don’t see the reaper as a villain, i see him as a lost soul welcoming the new lost souls. As he embraces you when you die, that cold shudder that hits your family isn’t an emotion. Its him letting them know you are ok. He welcomes you with his arms, as you look over your family. You remember them Its too late Death welcomes you. Welcome home Edit: damn
@@MaybeTophat It shows that they gained consciousness for a short period of time, only to die, back in complete emptyness and abyss. At least, that’s how I see it.
Today my grandfather died after a long battle with Alzheimer’s, minutes after being told the news all I could think of was to come here, and here I cried.
Lost grandma two days ago. She chose to be taken off of O2 after a week and two days of fighting. She had an aneurysm, and almost died that first night. She gave us time for all of us to come together as a family and be with her. We didn’t even know she was going to die until the day of, when she said she wanted nothing more to be done for her. I left school at 9:00 am. We drove for a few hours to see her. When I held her hand, it was very hot. The hospital was cold, so it was nice to feel that she wasn’t. She passed October 8th, at 5:25 pm. She was 74 years old. I came here to listen to this and think about her final moments. I wasn’t there when she went, but she apparently wanted to pack a bag for a fishing trip with my grandpa, and she said she wished she could have painted the walls of her home. My grandpa passed away 15 years ago, but I think she knew it was time to see him again. Every time I hear the voices begin singing in this song, I think of angels coming down to take her to heaven. When I saw her afterwards, it was just like she was sleeping. She just looked a little yellow, and her mouth was wide open, but it still looked like my grandma. She had been drifting in and out of consciousness when she was alive, and it looked like she had just gone back to sleep. When I touched her hand, it was still warm. I’m very glad it was still warm, it gave me a lot of comfort in that cold, cold hospital. I’ll forever think of her warm hands, of her lying in that bed, her face not in pain, but in total relaxation. I gave her a kiss, and I told her that it was all ok now. I went home yesterday after crying a million tears with my mom at my aunts house. I’ve cried a few times while writing this, but it was good for me to put this out into the world. It helps me accept that it all really did happen- that the last time I ever saw her was after she died. It’s not a very nice memory, but it helps the good ones shine through it.
This part made me want to cry. Imagine slowly decaying, falling and falling into the inky black void of nothingness, becoming a shell of a human. The worst part is, you don't even die for a while. Your family, the ones who care about you, just have to watch you fade. I really hope they find a cure for this horrid disease. The Caretaker did a really good job with this song, and the album as a whole.
@Killer Queen Well, I do understand you're point. Some people can't cry at certain points. But I so happened too. If its your thing, try looking for something sad like your soul
@Killer Queen Look, it's okay to cry sometimes. We aren't made to be strong 100% of the time. You probaly need something or someone to take off some steam and anger. Plus I know what you're doing, looking for an argument. All I can do is give you a suggestion. Take a break from the internet, find some music you like and relax
@UC96ERanfOsiZ4qCsOrxKzvw Why the sudden aggression towards people. He just stated that he cried since this album depicts an experience to people what (metaphorically) dementia sounds like, and emotions are a normal thing its not like you see someone cry for the 100th time. Stop trying to even make a scene and I recommend to fuck off this reply section then give yourself some fresh air.
Like sirens, screaming at you fall down an endless abyss forgetting their faces. A choir of voices you can faintly remember, but have no words to call upon and no emotions to feel. Forgetting that you exist, that you used to be a thing in the world, but now no longer. Symphonies of ontological torment, a song that you heard your entire life that you can no longer remember. My mother has Alzheimer’s, and I would do anything to stop her existential pain and horror.
Im so sorry man, youre both beautiful souls and she's so lucky to have you. Her memory lives in you, and you too are gonna pass it on. Just please stay strong. A lot of people love you both, blessings ❤
my grandma is currently suffering from severe dementia and she was born in the twenties. listening to this whole album kind of makes me feel like i have a relationship with her again, i understand her confusion more now.
My grandfather just passed away few days ago because of cancer. His dead, skinny and unnaturally yellow face with his mouth opening showed how painful he had been through. This music makes me think he's finally got released from suffering. Rest in Peace. I'll miss you.
same thing happened to my father back in 2022. he was just a normal recovering cancer patient at the beginning of the year. he even drove us to some places in second of january. in february we learned that his lung cancer has spread to his brain after his lymphs or whatever they're called. 3 months into the year he was already bedridden. in june he was hardly speaking. we quickly arranged my brother's wedding so he could see his older son married before he died. beginning of september, he was almost gone. they took him into the palliative section because there was no hope for him. my family still believed in some kind of miracles but I had already given up in april. he died on 28th of september, 2022 sometime between 5 am and 6 am. to be honest, it was pretty hard to see my own father in mere months decay before my 15th birthday.
It’s peace. The years of torture are done. All you have to do now is sleep. You’re okay. You’re tired. It’s time to rest. It’s time to reach that peace. Everlasting, elegant, peace. That’s what this song means to me
It's the scariest thing ever to go from not knowing what you had for breakfast, to not recognizing your loved ones to forgetting your own existence to have life become this, a faint distorted and broken down version of a memory, a song you always used to remember slowly escaping you while you can't get it back, before you realize nothing makes sense and that was the last of your sanity, the last of your emotions, and the last of your hopes, you would cry, you would scream, but you forgot how to do it... I would not wish upon anyone such fate
EATEOT has honestly made me so afraid of the fact that i cant remember what i had for breakfast. sure, i guess you should "make every moment count" or something like that but it really just makes me so aware of how every experience is slipping through my fingers like sand and it paralyzes me with fear of doing anything cause it will just be lost
Everyone in the comments is saying how heartbreaking this song is. Like it’s the “bad ending”. And while it is heartbreaking, to me… it seemed to be filled with relief. Almost joy. If we’re using the Terminal Lucidity theory, the patient is finally remembering in their final moments. They’re given a parting gift, so they may die knowing that they were loved and cherished by those around them. They may die with a smile on their face, after a long and terrible battle with this horrible disease. They can rest now.
when the last memory dies, the person dies too, they will be like a husk of themselves, no identity and inable to comprehend identity itself, like a soulless thing, dementia sucks.
Isn’t it comforting? No more needed, no more worries, true peace, nothingness eternally.... I would hate to have to deal with this world over and over again.
Man its crazy how this original sample was literally made with the intent of being private. Nobody besides the original choir and Leyland Kirby has them, and he's lucky to even have two copies. It almost really makes this more the magical, knowing that you won't ever truly hear the original sample unless it gets leaked out or Leyland Kirby releases it. It really, and truly feels like a solid end.
Don’t worry. Maybe you’ve heard of it before, but this song is made to represent terminal lucidity. Notice how there is no more skipping and less static, notice the minute of complete silence and peace. Terminal lucidity is a moment in a person with dementia’s life where they suddenly remember everything. I mean everything, everything that they have been struggling with so so much they finally remember. It usually only lasts for a few seconds to even 5 minutes, but some people have been lucky enough to have it last a week or more.
@@weegee42069no, This is the moment when all your memories come back, right in the moment your soul leaves your body into Afterlife. Like a Heavenly light with an Angelical Choir over your head
"How's your grandma?" It was the last thing I heard from my grandfather, he didn't see her for decades after their divorce, but he always kept asking me that everytime he was with me, sadder with the time. He's in a better place now, as I knew he left us when he was sleeping, watching his old movies even if he couldn't hear, move or even speak too much in his final moments, maybe just escaping in his mind by thinking in better places and better times, seeing his loved ones that left him years ago. Now with my wodden car toy that he gave me as a child I remember him, not mainly because his speaches or ideas, but for his acts that had good intentions, without saying too much to leave an impact in the lives of many.
Death is a very funny thing. It leaves us all wondering. Contemplating it's TRUE form. To some, death is an escape. To others, something to fear. An object of their nightmares as their life slowly grinds to a halt. But for me, death is just sleep. A dreamless one at that. Filled with endless peace and quiet. It is a sleep that transports us to the next realm. Will it come as a screech? Or will it take the form of an old friend? It doesn't matter. All that matters is that you finally rest. You sleep. in heavenly peace. as you reconcile with the stars.
This song is supposed to represent your last memory. You're clinging onto it. It's all you have left. The choir are the cries for you to keep holding onto this precious memory. All the other ones you have forgotten include your name, your family, your friends, how to eat, how to speak, how to communicate. Nothing it's all gone. All you have left is how to breathe. You're breathing in an unfamiliar room. The person in front of you claims that they're your close relative, but you don't recognize them at all. Who the fuck is this? Get out get out get out! You are distracted as the choir suddenly stops singing. Your memory has drifted elsewhere. You have nothing. Just empty silence and confusion. You're empty.
It legitimately is supposed to be the last memory, specifically your favorite song. www.crisisprevention.com/Blog/June-2015/Music-Soothes-Last-Moments-for-Father-With-Dementia Music can trigger the most powerful of memories
@@thatnikkakris2339 nothing, imo its more just a gradual decline into extreme confusion and emotions you cant describe. this is too consonant and real after everything else, along with the coughing sounds and the rocky wooden noises, this def sounds like a service at a church. there is no life to cling on to, there is no moment, no final moment of bliss or even a describable emotion, good or bad. its the end, and this song is just the song at the funeral thats ofc my interpretation and its all fine to take it in a diff way.
The last minute of utter silence in this song may seem pointless, but has so much meaning. It’s like it shows the patient having their final breaths and seconds before finally passing away, heading into the peaceful afterlife.
I feel like the purpose of it is so that you yourself can hear the ambience around you and hear what a dementia patient might be hearing in their final minute. It’s to help you realize what step you should take next after listening, depending on what you hear. The first time I listened to this final track, I was on my way home from my grandpa’s house, he actually had dementia and my family was going to check up on him and get him prepared meals and clean clothing. I heard my family talking and getting gas at a gas station, they said the area seemed shady and they were afraid. I was far from afraid though.
this is literally exactly how i interpreted it. the patient takes their final breaths before passing away and the silence is suppose to resemble their loved ones mourning their death in silence
@@lilsquidyyy Stage 1 is calming but it still has an uneasy feel to it, really easy for me. Stage 2 sorta had an uncanny valley feel to it, it was like stage one but instead it was more disturbing. Stage 3 is just noises. Stage 4 is where I first cried purely from fear. Stage 5 is where I was just shivering. And stage 6 was where I broke.
The creepiest part of this, is that, the tune actually makes sense, and you can hear it. You shouldn’t expect a Tune since it’s all the way at the end and at that point everything would be gone. But there is a tune, that you can very clearly hear, with no errors. After all this chaos, there’s the death tune. The end tune, that represents the person’s final moments, before dying.
My great grand mother was taken by this disease before I was born. And like many sufferers, she apparently became very clear towards the end after many years of being incoherent. My father was with my great grandfather and in a very rough spot in life himself, telling him that he was lost and didn’t know how to go on, that he felt like God had abandoned him. My great grandmother, who until then had for years sat in her rocking chair everyday and hummed nonsense to herself, suddenly stopped and stood up. She walked to him and kneeled beside my father and took his hands and said, “he won’t. He never will.” She then promptly returned to her chair, and within seconds was back to her non responsive mumbling. To this day, my father believes God spoke to him through my great grandmother. Maybe, maybe not. But it’s a clear example of how there’s always a piece of the person still inside the fractured mind of a dementia sufferer. And they have a few strong memories that can sometimes bring them back.
I was depressed enough after listening to the entire thing (even if it was not in one go), reading all the comments makes it worse. To this day I've never got destroyed by a piece of music. Yes, I listened to sad songs before but they usually had some kind of context behind them, like a sad movie or a tv show. This is just one song from the entire album without any context which doesn't even need any sad story behind it to be so powerful.
It's called "terminal lucidity", which is when a dementia or Alzheimer's patient suddenly is much more coherent and remembers their memories due to a wave of energy from their body to the brain which gets the neurons working again, but it only lasts from seconds to days because the neurons and the proteins that they have are decayed due to said Alzheimer's/dementia/amnesia. Either that or God spoke to your great grandmother. May she rest in peace 🙏
I've come to listen to this on the really hard days to relax. But this last year has been hard. I lost a very close friend to suicide, and my 2 great grandmothers who i was really attached to. They both had dementia and their birthdays were (April 6th 1924-december 11th 2023 at 4:55pm; and August 27th 1931-August 7th 2024) they were 99 and 93 respectively and i had one wish and that was that they attended my graduation (May 31st 2024) and Mary(99) was dead and Marguerite(93) was on hospice care after having multiple strokes in February. They both bad dementia and neither of them remembered anything about me after my 6th birthday. They'd remember what I look like but nothing else. I still remember going to see Mary and she'd ask how old am i and what grade im in and see her shocked, happy, and proud face all at once. She'd always say how my hair was such a bright blonde color and my light blue eyes were what made her day. And to see her beg me, my sister (16), my mom (59), my dad (57), and grandfather (77) to end her life as she was suffering. I remember i got the call when i was at work December 2nd that she had some form of an aneurysm and they didn't know how long she'd make it but they said itd be a miracle for her to live into the new year. I remember my mom, sister, dad, and I basically rushed to the hospital and sat with her. My grandfather is the last of her kids and was the oldest of the 3. I still remember the day of the funeral. I was supposed to be a paul bearer but i got covid the day before and couldn't walk without help. I still went and was there with her for about an hour before the funeral services started. Marguerite's was a lot sadder. She forgot more or less everything about me atter my 3rd birthday. But whenever we'd talk she'd have the same expressions as Mary. She was proud that her first grandchild had a child after decades of trying. She was the sweetest lady but to see her go from a sweet, caring, and loving lady act like a child and be violent at times isn't what I remembered. The saddest part about her passing away was that there were 8 different scares where she wouldn't wake up or she'd have that rattly breathing. The final time was when she finally lost her battle. She was given 6 months and she lasted about 5 days longer than the 6 full months given. And August 6th was the worst day completely. I tried calling off work and was stuck on hold for 45 minutes while i drove like I was an f1 racer to her home. She wasnt awake and she hasnt been at that point for almost 3 days and the oxygen percent for her blood was in the 70s which is not good and she was already on oxygen at that point so there really was nothing to do to help her. I was there with my mom, sister, dad, and grandmother and we talked about her and the best things we remembered about her. About halfway through a hospice nurse came to do the daily check in on her and as soon as she did the oxygen level check she asked us to leave the room for a moment so she could clean her up. The nurse came out after to tell us she isn't looking good and that she needs an oxygen mask instead of the tubes to try to give her a little more time. We all went back in with the nurse and we talked about memories with all of us we had with her and it was a heartbreaker for me because in the last year so much happened i wanted just a little bit longer with her. But now that it's almost 3 months since she passed and the funeral service i can say life doesn't have the magic it had when they were alive. I tried my hardest to not cry at the funeral since the 3 kids that look up to me as a role model were there next to me. I kid you not when i say my eyes were tearing up but i didn't let them fall and my vision was looking like you opened your eyes in a pool. I miss you Mary, Maggie, Will, Dom, and Brandon. I know I'll see you all again one day but i wish it was sooner. You 5 gave me the best outlook on life but i can't seem to get my edge back from when you all were alive. I just hope i dont go through this much of a period again for a while. 2 years i spent trying to get over Dom and Brandon then less than a year later Will died, and then Mary and Marguerite. I hate this life and i cant figure out what to do to continue. I've had a decent life but i believe it'll only be getting worse from here. Its sad how someone who's going on 19 already wants to die but this life has been a rough one. To all those who have read this far take my advice. Take the time with friends and family as if its the last and get as much as you can to remembe them by when they can't remember you. But to all those who struggle with your life choices and the cards you were dealt. Hold on to them for as long as you can and enjoy the best parts of this life. Goodbye for now everyone. I'll keep fighting this battle until the very end. And to Mary, Marguerite, Dom, Will, and Brandon I'll see you all again one day sooner or later and when that day comes that piece of me that's gone will be back together.
He called me his Caretaker. He was at peace. I watched as his body relaxed and the silence shattered into a thousand chimes. The ringing snapped me out of my trance. Time was still passing. I watched as his fingers tapped on the side of the bed. The IV's cord bounced as his hand began playing an imaginary piano. His lifeless eyes, free of the shadowy tears, were darting. The whole irises were seeing things despite being clouded by a dense fog that, I swear unto you, seemed to have vanished. He was seeing again, perhaps. And he was playing a piano, one that I could not see but he definitely could. I held his cold hand that didn't want to hold mine. He wasn't even focused on me. It was like his eyes didn't want to see anything anymore, nothing more than what he was imagining, maybe. The church beyond the rustling trees held its choirs high, and I swear I could hear them as clear as I believe he could. I didn't know what he was playing, but if I had to guess, it was a church's organ, and may those heavenly angels hear him play it! Those pearly gates should open for that man. Key after key, seconds and thirds, I watched his fingers slow their tapping. He was at Stage 6. I saw his white irises look at me, the one holding his hand, the one who took care of him. I don't know if he was looking at my face, or right through me. It was hard to tell. And I saw the corners of his lips lift into a slight smile. He played the last key. There was no use in telling him anything, not one more thing he didn't know already. Could I have said any goodbyes, take cares? Any farewells? I didn't want to tell anything. I wanted him to have his silence. I was his Caretaker. He was my friend.
@@ghoul5286 Yung bae fan too ayyyye also I quite liked this song not as sad as the hype gave it I would actually like to transcribe it to play it with some friends it sounds very nice imo but I want to understand what made you cry
My great uncle passed away in July. My grandma was depressed for a while. His last words to me were: May I speak to your Lola again? He had so much ambition. It has been 2 months since his passing. Only now I understand the true meaning of this. This made me feel his presence one last time before he passed. I had a dream the day after his passing that I wished him luck as he boarded a shuttle and went off into space. I will forever miss you uncle.
Many people think this final part is sad, I disagree, it feels like a release from all the torment, a final beautiful melody that sets you free from this life
Yeah based on the whole album, its about dementia as you begin to lose grasp on reality. The sudden shift from warped music to an angelic choir is more so a peaceful yet depressing end where death is a more peaceful option than losing memory and sanity
@@zombienoah6408 adding to that, when I listened to the whole thing it felt sudden, like a sudden cut to the final part. I think it's that sudden because of how you can't really tell when you'll die. It's so sudden. One second you're there, the next one you've forgotten how to breathe.
Yeah, like how the oldest person was 122 years old before their death. Seems very long, right? Well, compare that to the 4-5 billion years that Earth has been here and however much longer it will exist in the Universe, from being formed by elements and gases that made up the Earth from core-to-atmosphere, and eventually the decay of Earth's orbit in quintillions of years, then the decay of the Universe itself (including the Earth) and atoms, and, eventually, protons themselves in God-knows-how-many years, then the death of the Universe itself, when every star that is currently shining fading away, only black holes ever remaining, then even the black holes in the Universe will fade away due to Hawking radiation (if it even exists).
Lol we can live for like up to 122 years. You call that short? We live so much longer compared to other creatures on this earth. Do you think we live so little time, like the life span of a HAMSTER? a hamster's life span is literally 2 to 3 years. WE LIVE SO MUCH LONGER THAN THAT. Just reminding you we live for a really long time.
@@gooberuploadsinc Someone reaching this age, even to this day, is extermely rare. Some animals lives as long as human, and some even longer. But in my opinion, what matter isn't how long you lived, but how fully you lived.
the last 6 minutes of everywhere at the end of time made me tear up after 4 hours of disortion and sounds of repetitive horror, a melancholic yet beautiful chorus comes in, so close yet so distant, flawless and not disorted. Terminal lucidity. (it has been shown when those suffering from severe dementia and other related diseases have one last clear reocurrence of their sanity and theirselves, as well as their memories before they completely loose the ability to remember anything) the chorus is the suffering individual, trying so hard not to let go, but dementia is overpowering. The finest memory, the final piece of youself breaking loose before 2 minutes of silence. You don't remember anything, you don't remember your name, you don't remember your family, friends, memories, you don't remember yourself. You cannot eat, you cannot walk, you can only know how to breathe. and the world fades away from a former husk of yourself.
On a happier note. I would say Leyland Kirby has done a fantastic job of giving awareness to this horrible disease. In turn, more progress has been made to combat Dementia. More funding, more research, less agony.
WDYM IT CAME OUT LIKE "On a happier note, this is a good repressentation of the ETERNAL TORMENT AND HORROR OF THIS TERRIFYINGLY OMNIOUS DEPRESSING HORRIBLE CONDITION."
@@Ilikecatsl0l because this representation helps people understand that agony, leading to us helping the people going through it and attempting to prevent it in the future.
@@Ilikecatsl0l It's a horrible condition, yes, but it's good we're raising awareness about it. We may even find a cure someday. Or atleast a way to slow it down.
0:10 Crying/Banging Being put in a coffin or people mourning you 0:14 Funeral bell rings 0:21 Choir and orchestra starts playing 5:07 Music stops 5:16 A minute of silence to respect the life lost... at least that's what i think this track is
I always thought the beginning was the sound of coughing and then someone walking down a hallway, possibly a worker in hospice walking past the dementia patient’s room.
2:48 in specifics hits me. Those few seconds sound so fucking sad, I cannot even describe it. It just feels like the end of a journey, an era's end. I cant even describe in words how it feels, it just sounds like you just passed away and are now being sent to heavens gates. Its just a happy little like 4 seconds, but at the same time its insanely depressing, it just is the end of something big. Something that you've been doing for most of your life, and it finally came to an end. Its so heart wrenching to hear but its so happy.
Everything has an end even your life anything anyone it has a time to be vanished their clock will end from those suffering from pain of life and then they will rest in peace in the other side then God chose their drection of their end being in heaven or hell you can now chose what place you wanna go to if you wanna heaven you can work hard and be nice not to go to heaven bc you love God we do good things because we love God but the other people in the other side they do not work by themselves and be nice they would steal and be rude and then gates of hell will be opening to them to re watch the pain and feel the pain but even if you are good you have a bad side a point in your heart that if someone make you suffer it takes all over you and it hurt that person more painfull than a bad person would they would snap and bad people have a point in their heart of good they can be good it's like ying and yang But if we get back to the point of dementia this stage is the end I call it brain dead hum because before a person who have dementia is going to dei and they are at stage 6 they start humming their favorites songs and when its done of humming they remember from those songs things and remember everything then when the music ends the person ends with it to and at least he was in peace before he/she deid but the most hurtfull and harder stage is 5 it's were the person suffer and scream for their memory the last screams the last breaths the last suffering things they don't know who they are who are the people around them they would be fearing anything anyone crying and screaming in that stage evreyhing is weird and scary and trefying to them even when they look at their self's they would ask what is this or who is that evreyhing would be hard to do until the brain dead comes they rest and the worst part in this thing that you will not be cured anymore just stay still in that bed with the person you love before they would be vanished aleardy but hey everything has a end and that why the album name is evreywhere at the end of the time at least you learner something that evreyhing would have a end even that dementia thing would have a end so there's nothing to fear just try to stay safe and be happy even the loved ones that deid would be happy to see others happy they would be happy to flying and not fearing anything and they rest in peace
If you haven't gone through the entire thing, and I mean the 6 stages, please, do not watch this video. I know curiosity can get the best of us sometimes, but avoid it at all costs, because then, when you finally get to the end this music will sound like the most beautiful thing you've ever heard and only then, you may come back here. By this time, you will tear, or at least get chilled by this amazing piece of art.
Nope, that's wrong. I listened to the full album and this has pretty much the impact you'd expect it to have, even now. EATEOT is amazing, but it's not something that should be worshipped and listened 'in the right order', it's literally just a work of art that depicts dementia. I don't get people treating music like it's a person that needs to be treated in a particular way to be 'understood', spoilers for actual stories I get worrying over, but this is just silly.
Actually, some people prefer to skip out some phases because some either aren't psychologically well and ready or are busy and can't endure the whole 6 hours that this beautiful album has to offer. In my case, it was the former, and yet, only hearing fragments of EATEOT, this track hit me as a train, I really felt melancholic and almost teared up.
I have listened to every song in the track. And this one hits me the hardest. I can't exactly say why, but it's just... Different. It's like, as sanity drifts away, and your last memory is barely stable, your place in the world fades away, as your last memory, turns into void.
Not afraid to admit this song literally made me cry. My great grandmother had recently passed away from cancer, and was overall deteriorating and it made me sad. This song reminds me a lot of her in ways I never thought possible, it’s beautiful, simply beautiful.
Lost my uncle to Alzheimer's last may, grandparents are diagnosed with Parkinson's and Alzheimer's. My maternal grandpa recently found out that he has stomach cancer which can't be operated thanks to diabetes and old age. Literally waiting for death,I hope nothing similar happens to me.
I lost my boxer dog and he passed away when he was 3 years old i couldn't stop crying it heart breaks me to death and i cried 10 minutes because im going to miss him forever in life
When I discover music I like, I usually leave lengthy comments upon comments about how passionate I am, but with this what is there to say that the caretaker already hasn’t?
I lost my grandma this morning after a rapid decline into late-stage dementia. She'd had problems with memory for years, but the last 3 months went so quickly. Hearing this, I can only hope she felt at peace as she went, after so much suffering. She's with her husband again now, after 21 years. I love you Gram.
glad that they are together again. my father died because of cancer last september. nothing about dementia but, last time I saw him, he couldn't even realize that his beloved son was there for him. I was there. it was something like 2 weeks before his death. he wasn't even able to lift his hands, his feet were almost purple-ish and swollen, his black-gray hair was long gone, he was looking like a skeleton. don't know why but I was unable to cry for months. my then best-friend was trying to make me feel her support but she wasn't helping. I heard my mom's cries every night. couples getting seperated is one of the worst things to happen in this world.
Feels like your witnessing a person's final memory. A good, angelic, peaceful moment in time. The one that means the most, the one that despite everything managed to survive becoming part of the encompassing void that is the decayed mind. Then...... its gone. And the mess the mind has become, is gone too. Dissappeared into emptiness, and nothing. Such a somber, yet beautiful send off to the album, it makes the six and a half hour journey worth it.
@@thatnikkakris2339 my interpretation is that it’s terminal lucidity. The moment of clarity before death. It’s not a very well researched phenomenon but it’s worth looking into.
Your body starts to slowly empty. You desperately try to cling on to your last memories, but they all fade away. You forget who you are, who your mom is, your pets, your family, everything. The only thing you remember is how to breathe. You don't even realize what's going on. Then you have a brief moment of your memories returning. All you want is to say one last goodbye to everything, but you can't. You then forget everything. Eventually, they cut off your life support and give everyone the news. A few days later, at your funeral, everyone says how great of a person you are. They lower the coffin along with your body into the ground as the sobbing and bidding farewell continues. A few years later, someone mutters your name for the last time. Then, you are forgotten. Just like all of your memories in your previous life. They're all gone.
I did not cry from this, dont get me wrong it was emotional, but not in a sad way. instead it felt like liberation from the brutal 4 hours of noise i just endured. an intensely bitter sweet ending. I guess its kind of like dying if you were afflicted with this disease, you are emotional about all you have experienced through your journey but overall your final days were unfortunately torturous, and a quiet death is the best thing you can have to extract you out of the empty void of your own decayed mind. people have compared this to a funeral, but i see it more as an ascension to heaven type thing
The choir wasn't really a peaceful death. You can hear coughing in the background. They are obviously in an old folks home. Even when someone has dementia, they can still hear music and tunes from their past. When the music disappears So does their last trace of thought. They simply exist and dont think. The quiet wasn't death. It was the moment before death. They dont actually die until the album is over.
@@saturn-silves432 yep, there's a whole "unofficial" storyline to it - but, with what we know, this final 'scene' is the funeral of the caretaker. explains the shuffling and coughing before the choral piece begins. the minute of silence is, as you said, a minute of silence for his death. super well executed, made me cry so badly first time
I think the fact that it's 5 minutes of music and 1 minute of silence, is because it takes roughly 5 minutes to fully suffocate, and the most common way alzeimer's kills a person is by causing them to forget how to regulate even instinctual tasks, such as breathing, the last minute is final death.
honestly, the prospect of this ending being a final moment of clarity before the mind becomes a complete void is even more terrifying than if it was a funeral where the person had died
When I was listening to the whole playlist, this song shocked me. It sounded like I was living my last moments on a deathbed, waiting for the suffering to end as the lights took me in. The best way to end an amazing artistic interpretation of dementia.
0:10 I really like this part here, to me it symbolizes that the patient has finally broken through all the confusion and nothingness to remember one last time before passing away.
And, at the highest peak, we look upon the world. Large holes dot the landscape, like blotches of ink and tears in the fabric. What lies beyond the cracks? what color is the abyss? is it a dark, looming void, or the brightest light ever seen? We try our hardest to see something, but there is nothing left. The fabric has torn completely. Now, only small shreds and fragments of our world is left. And those are fleeting. And we are falling apart. And you are falling apart. And you don't even realize. You don't realize anything. Where are we? Everywhere, at the end of your time.
For me, after hours of dread, followed by confusion, followed by terror, followed by emptiness, this final song acted as a reminder. This is how it feels to forget. This is how it feels to remember. This is how it feels to feel.
the fact that there is an entire minute of pure silence between this track and the end of the album really shows that this is what death for dementia patients is. this is a modern masterpiece
Context: The patient is having a moment of terminal lucidity as the patients final drop of life is squeezed, and is going into the afterlife. Finally, the patient will not suffer. The patient will not forget. The patient will be immortal, remembering their life, remembering the waves, the music. The choir. Finally, enjoying things, remembering the choir. They see the light, that blank canvas won't be blank anymore. It will have colors, many colors. They can read the book, they can take care of the flowers, cut the seaweed, finish the statue, and perfect the sculpture.
@@StavDev The thing is, neurology carries with it many risk because, you're not just experimenting, one wrong move can damage, traumatize and even take away a person's soul. So usually it takes many years, even decades to at least have any breakthrough.
Sounds like your last dream before fading away forever. You feel it like an eternity, and you'll never know that this empty dream was last in your life. You'll never see the end of your time, cause the moment of it is uncatchable.
I saw a comment on here from some guy talking about how before his grandfather passed away, he said something along the lines of "Do you see them? The angels, I see them. Are you still here?" and it's stuck in my brain ever since. It's hard to describe the emotion something like that must capture. God rest that man's soul.
Dude, just me listening to this part makes me feel scared of death. Idk why, but maybe its the music and the feeling of the song. This album is so well done, it has left me speechless.
I think we have moments like that, I remember one time after I just woke up I remember thinking about death and being horrified at the thought of nothingness and non existence. Maybe, just maybe tho there’s more to this plane of reality and existence than just the material world/realm…
My Grandma's friend died of dementia a few years back. She was one of the most friendly, cheerful elderly women I'd ever known. Then, all of a sudden, dementia set in and took her in a matter of months. By the end, she was like a lost, confused child trapped in an unfamiliar body surrounded by unfamiliar people and places. She would often leave her house and wander the streets, knocking on windows pleading for help, with absolutely no clue what was going on, where she was, or how she got there. It's absolutely terrifying how quickly the human brain can deteriorate. Cherish every moment with your elders folks. Always be there for them.
Apart from the actual song itself, I've been thinking about the fact that this is probably the second most wanted sample out of the entire album, and honestly the story behind it makes sense and adds a whole new perspective to this album. You see, the first most wanted sample, for a wide variety of reasons, was the hell sirens, a section of a track which represents some sort of painful memory or realization which I personally believe to be the brief realization of exactly what is happening to the brain. We found the sample for that piece very easily, with someone speeding it up and realizing that it sounded a lot like Mantovani's Grenada. The sample which represents one of the scariest moments of this entire experience-for both the listener and the patient-was easy to find, easy to recall. We know what it is and where to find it; anyone could look it up on TH-cam and listen to the original song with ease. Heck, there's probably still somewhere where you can get a physical copy of the song. This, on the other hand, we haven't managed to find the sample for despite it having been almost six years since this track released. We have a few ideas, but the most likely one is a song that we'll likely never get to listen to because the one place that has it has refused several times to share it with the public. When you think about what this track represents, how it symbolizes a final respite for the patient who can, for a brief moment, remember all the happy memories they once thought were lost, you begin to see things differently. We'll likely never have the original track which was sampled for this song, just like how the patient will never truly have the chance to reminisce on their happiest memories, because after this moment the very thing that allowed them to see those memories in the first place will never let them see them again. But all that pain, all that suffering they went through? That was easy to remember, because that was all they knew for who knows how long-just like how the hell sirens were the most-no, only-memorable part of all that terrible static. For that is the horror of this disease, an unstoppable force which tears away one's memories, replaces them with nothing but pain, and finally allows them to see their memories for one last second before destroying them, permanently. On a much lighter note, I'm gonna be ticked if I find out in like a month that someone got a hold of the sample for this song. Well, technically it'd be for this and another one of the Caretaker's songs, but same difference. That'd be a half hour wasted for nothing...
I love this because it sounds like something ive herd before, like its on the tip of my tongue. A song I should know, a Song I should sing along to. But all you get is feeling of "I should know this, I shouldnt be crying."
In case it helps you at all, this song is sampled from one of his earlier songs called "friends past, reunited" Im not really sure what the sample on that song was though
@@djjablonsky3367 it's a sample of an old 60's church opera Leyland found digging through old records in thrift stores. An incredible find used to maximum potential. He has the two vinyl copies that we know exist
@@danestambaugh255 Also, the song is "O Jesus Christ", an English translation of the German hymn "Let me kiss him just one more time", which in turn is part of J.S. Bach's St. Luke Passion.
my great grandma got dementia a few years ago, she remembered how she lived, but not the people and stuff around her, once she thought she was having soup and she dipped bread in some icecream, thinking it was soup, now she can rest in peace, i didn’t even get to know her..
This is truly the most beautiful piece of music created. It's one of those things that you have to earn. I've never cried the same way I have after hearing this after HOURS of static and garbled noise. It's crazy because you don't even hear the audio clipping after stage 5+6.
the choir sings as you have a moment of pure clarity, the terminal lucidity kicks in, after years of deterioration, your brain sees clearly, only to fear death, it wasn't worth it, you don't remember any specific memories, your life, and all that came with it, has gone. the moment before death feels like an eternity as you recall the suffering of dementia, this is not a final resting place, you are not in peace, you are lost and scared, only comforted by the very thing you are terrified of, the end.
actually, most patients gain all their memories back in the last minute of their life, many records have shown patients suddenly remembering names on the patients, being able to recall past memories, and remembering losing them. Nobody knows what causes this but it could actually be death having some sort of power.
Such a heartbreaking ending. After years of an uphill battle against your own brain, you finally receive one last moment of bliss before you breathe your final breath. You feel like you've just been reborn as you've forgotten what it was even like to exist in the first place. Although only to be taken away a very short time after. But you don't mind. You embrace it. You're finally at peace.
The clipping is so absolutely terrifying. The fact that during terminal lucidity we return to music of similar beauty as those of the early stages, but there's just not enough there. The brain doesn't have the same capacity it once did, it's empty, it's bare bones; leaning off the edge and barely avoiding death. This song is our brain trying its hardest, but it's too damaged to ever return to the way things were.
i like how the rest of the comments are actual serious things while listening to this but the top comment i see is "You can now play as Luigi.
"
it’s gone
@@mitchtom1409 now it's just a burning memory
@@oofhole9349 YOOO
*@@oofhole9349* *BRÙH*
Who’s Luigi?
after 5 minutes of singing there is one minute of silence: usually one minute of silence is mandatory to pay respect for a dead person
i now am even more terrified and distressed about this
no
I read kinder as “kin”-“der” and was confused for a solid 7 seconds
@@PP-dy5by You eat any surprise eggs?
Probably
They say you die three times. The first is your actual death. The second is the last time anyone actually sees you before you are buried. The third is the last time anyone utters your name.
The 4th is ever trace of you finally fading away
@@itsmegoodbye9227 how would we define a trace of a person though?
@@alexsiemers7898 Everything that you ever affected in any way be instantly wiped. Whether it be the Earth being destroyed or the big bang.
The first time you die, is when you forget everything, your personality, life and family. You're just a moving coffin at that point, it is tragic.
I dread the day I die for the last time.
This hits different after about 4 hours of shifting static.
true
@@nightshiftts this is unrelated to the video and the comment, please move your self promos to r/smallyoutubers
@Justin there's 2 types of people
"this is unrelated to the video and the comment, please move your self promos to r/smallyoutubers"
"go fuck yourself"
The duality of man
@@GDNashit So nice, you replied it twice.
At 2:48 you can hear an exhale and then a happier ascending tone starts playing, such beautiful symbolism.
The music also becomes somewhat clearer
this is because when you have your final moments of having dementia, you remember everything. Kind of how like before you die you have 7 minutes of memories before dying.
@@xiomixx-dn7riYou'll keep your memories into Afterlife because you are on that decayed Body no more
Also at 3:23 you can hear coughs
@@xiomixx-dn7ri this reminds me of that scene in coco where mama coco is reminiscing about her childhood in front of her family (even though in the beginning of coco, she has a couple traits of dementia)
Crazy how the most unlucky people can get dementia in their 40's, but yet there can be a 102 old person who still drives around and is active.
@ㅤ some people are genetically more likely to get it unfortunately
I think I know the latter
You can get it at any age, even when you are just born, but it is just much more likely when you are older because your brain is weaker.
@@guy-dev o-o........oh shiiit
@@izzyravin9713 don't worry though, it's hilariously rare to get it at any age before about 60
my english teacher would be proud of me if she found out that i'm reading all these essays in the comment section.
Honestly
I wanna ask how to spell this 帕特里克?
Oh wait english oh ok understandable have a great day.
@@calvinchandra5759 p-a-t-r-i-c-k
@@tubaraofeio1053 IMPOSIBBLE
What happens when an artist let one silence minute in a song
After the final minute of silence, the patient wakes up and hears the following words.
"Hey, you. You're finally awake. You were trying to cross the border, right? Walked right into that Imperial ambush. Same as us, and that thief over there."
Todd Howard, you did it again.
The good ending.
*and so starts the story of skyrim-*
What would life be if we couldn't joke a little, huh? 😊
Imagine dying and you get "To continue playing
99 dollars for life+"
The most heartbreaking part is that creepy distorted noise is supposed to be singing..and the listener just can't remember how to piece together the sound of voices. Their brain is almost gone.
It’s the sound of church, Heaven
Your profile picture goes with this perfectly
@@chaos9608 hmmmmmmmmmmmm
This piece represents the final memory before you and everything you loved vanishes before your very eyes as you drift ever deeper into the sorrowful void, unable to remember yourself your family or anything you ever loved before you finally take your last breathe and you feel nothing, no pain, no sorrow, no record scratches, just silence.
People with dementia usually remember their favorite song, and when they do forget the tune, they die shortly after.
all of these people in the comments, to see these people with silly pfps and funny names being fully serious is, scary.
It's scarier than any horror movie, really
Obama *Care*
Its often that the people who are most sus.... are the people who arent the imposter...😟😞
Yeah
true though, it's weird when people with funny silly meme names and profile pictures start talking about the real serious shit
The saddest part about this is that it’s the only song that has voices used but you cannot recognize a single lyric.
Yeah, but another factor probably has to do with the fact that the song is sung in german.
@@sonata_180 also the choir sounds kind of saturated
@@sonata_180 me who sung all of one winged angel's choir without even checking to see if it sounded anything like latin:
Something scary is finding the sample used for this is extremely hard
don’t Back There Benjamin (E1j and the Mandolin Segment (K1) have voices too?
My grandmother spent her last 6 years in a home. Near the end, she had a terrible fall, and became non vocal. It was a tough couple weeks, seeing the fear and anxiety in her eyes as she was unable to speak.
The last night, we knew she was fading. My aunt was flying in from California to see her while there was still time. We kept telling her that all night, and when my aunt called from the airport and said she was close, we told her. She started humming "You Are My Sunshine."
She never spoke, but it was the clearest form of communication she'd be able to make for months. She wasn't conscious anymore when my aunt made it, but she hung on long enough, and squeezed our hands before the end.
Terminal lucidity is terrifying and beautiful and heartbreaking all at once.
Im so sorry for your loss
@@PhinnKonieczny-jj3hp you are NOT my sunshine
@@N3oNexus_FKA_J4VASCR1PT 😢
I'm sorry for your loss and for the tough moments you and your family had. I hope your grandma is resting in piece now
that was really depressing to read, im sorry for your loss
You don’t suddenly die. You decay. That’s the scariest part. Years of decline and losing everything that you were made of for your entire life. Think about how much of you memories makes up. Look at objects in your bedroom. Each one has a memory attached. You see the object and you can recall how you got it, each one with a story. Now imagine every item is gone, every event with them.
When you are dying from dementia you don’t even have the comfort to say you had a good life. You don’t know who you are. You die with nothing. You worked so hard through your whole life to be happy and as you sit dying in the last moments that you are able to think ever again, you cannot recall them at all. You work for everything but in the end you die with all of it gone. You die not as yourself but as no one.
You will decay slowly and as you die, you are not even yourself. You die long before you give your final breath. And that is what is so scary.
Not even flex tape can fix that
thanks phil swift
Thanks Phil swift
Thank you for reminding us!
@@defox5019 glad I could!
This is the probably the most tragic song I've ever heard. A lot of people seem to interpret is as the character being already dead and being welcomed by a choir of angels. But I've always thought of it as a final drop of lucidity against all odds (terminal lucidity). This is because there is a clear change between the rest of the song and what follows after that needle drop sound. What comes first is that 'fog' which is mostly ambient noise, and what follows is a return to the staticy memories we came to associate with lucidity in parts 1-3. This person is experiencing their very last memory in full, with no skips, jumps or alterations besides the heart-wrenching static. It finishes, and abruptly ends (death).
To me the scariest part about this album is that it's a reminder not that we die, but that we decay.
We from the start are decaying, a damned fate, but in the least we can all attain perfection... Eternal nothingness thereafter.
i know i’m not serious sometimes but this comment just changed my way of looking at things.
@Layne Krusz Yup, best never been.
How I see it is a grim reminder to hold your past and your sense of self every dearly and to be grateful of this life because tbh if this were happening to me I'd gladly be decaying knowing that I did the best with what I had
this is extremely plausable as you can actually hear what sounds like some muffled crying. probably your family around you as they think you are already gone... too bad you probably forgot them a year ago so its just noise to you now
in my opinion this is actually one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard. i hope I'm doing justice to those suffering by not allowing their essence to be forgotten.
I agree
That's you
Choir is good.
It's beautiful and horrifying at the same time. A testament to human existence.
Their essence? Ok, psychopath.
What really gets me is the crackle before the silence. You hear a faint pop followed by total silence, as if the last tiny signal in your brain telling you you're alive finally sizzles out.
"Terminal lucidity, rally before death or end-of-life rally, refers to an unexpected return of mental clarity and memory, or suddenly regained consciousness that occurs in the time shortly before death in patients suffering from severe psychiatric or neurological disorders."
"This phenomenon has been noted in patients with schizophrenia, tumors, strokes, meningitis, Parkinson's disease, and Alzheimer's disease."
"Others may experience deathbed visions: having visions of deceased relatives, friends or religious figures, and often communicating with them."
@@DynamicAndrew that's fucked up.
@@nightshiftts Yeah here's one: Don't do that here
Even if it's a false sense of peace, if I was in that position, I'd take it, at that point what else can one do but believe?
my aunt before she died wanted everyone to eat with her right before she passed, she said she say her husband fading in and out of her vision like sand and we ate with her and she was as animated as before she got really sick and she even made us laugh right before the next morning where she peacefully died in her sleep
My grandmother passed away this last October and she suffered heavily from dementia. There was a very brief moment, maybe about six or seven seconds right at the end where the turmoil on her face cleared, she sat upright in bed, then gave no one in particular the brightest smile we'd seen from her in years. Then she left us. That moment changed my life and stumbling on this album months later has given me a haunting idea of what she might've been going through. I like to think those final seconds were this song, the final moment of clarity, or maybe she was being welcomed to her new home by her husband. I dunno, this turned into rambling, but... It's something to think about, I suppose.
I’ve lost a grandparent to the slow toll of pancreatic cancer caused by exposure to herbicides during the Vietnam War, I’ve lost another from suddenly getting hit by a car while biking. I hope the other two never catch dementia.
I’m sorry for your loss.
Premortem lucidity is such a strange thing but cool thing it's like the mind is gone but the soul is still there just for the brief moment has enough strength to say goodbye
I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope she's at peace now
Holy fuck
This is the saddest thing i have ever readed..
I looked at the world different after this comment and listening to the full 6 and a half hours of this
This song feels like obtaining the bad ending in a video game that has no good ending.
*Spec Ops: the Line wants to know your location*
Persona 5 royal
@Bromine Bradley Doesn't have to be a bad end. Death is a progression of life after all.
@@ZKP314 that game is so underrated
@@ZKP314 Friday Night Funkin's Everywhere at the end of funk mod: *wHo aRe yOu?*
I wonder how the Caretaker, the person who made this track, doesn't fall into sadness or depression whilst working on this.
A track so beautiful yet a horrifying reminder that death will come to us all. In what is seemingly a person's final moments appears, finally, a clear memory. A song piece. The piece soulfully accompanies them after years of fog - no more white noise; nor skips or jumps: clarity. All for nothing as shortly all is taken from them. It ends, the person dies in peace, the song remembered for the easing of their own passing. A minute of silence is given and the track ends. So freaking depressive man...
I don’t think someone who is emotionally okay would start a project like this in the first place. If anything, it’s the mode of expression that got him through something.
He must have a perfect understanding of human emotions to make this emotional masterpiece
Art is a way to express emotions. Music is art.
I didn't cry, I just felt an overbearing sense of emptiness and dread, but nontheless it's very powerful emotionly speaking
This is what goes on inside black peoples heads
@@joonerboi its just a very very misplaced statement
It’s weird honestly, how this can do that although it’s heavily edited old music re vamped to make this atmosphere. Truly crazy what sound and visuals can do
Same man.
Same thing. I came close though
all you can do after listening to this album is be a bit kinder to people.
True
Yeah
Word
What word?
@@Daddy-ue1du words of wisdom and truth
Terminal lucidity is when you regain mental clarity, it usually happens on the day of death.
It's like the disease is mocking you in your final moments.
Like, your memories slowly fade away, only for them to return the day you die. They were never truly gone.
Dementia and Alzheimers are fucked up man
It's quite rare for Dementia patients to get Terminal Lucidity before dying
@@AvengedPanzer That Is True 20% Of Alzheimer’s And Dementia Patients Experience Terminal Lucidity
@@transientparadox sometimes it can last weeks, in a FEW cases it lasted a few months, and they were able to go home- but then one day they wake up not remembering again, and they die VERy soon after. if they are lucky they will die during the lucidity, so they can remember they're family at least while they die.
@@romansteuer5861 sometimes remembering can be even sader
The last 5 minutes... is probably the most bone chilling, heartbreaking, terrifying, yet beautiful piece of music ever
If you like this Check out
Autechre - Vltrmx21
Boards of canada - 5.9.78
Biosphere - poa alpina
Aphex twin - rhubarb
Aphex twin - lichen
its literally just nothing
@@syretal-acidic You mean the last one minute
@@syretal-acidicyes, that’s it, it’s nothing and it’s beautiful
@@syretal-acidic Thats why it is so good.
Alzheimer's is a testament to the fact that it is much better to die early, with your memories intact, than to watch with your own eyes as they fade away until you forget even the concept of forgetting.
A fate that is worse than death
I plan on dying before I get to that age
is it truly so bad? I'd like to think of it like a new timer, if ever some way to ease worry of such stubborn people like myself, this is the way I'd love to go, knowing nothing but the faces of those seeing me die, forgetting my place in the world, its... blissful...
@@Wolf-kx8li I find it difficult to agree, but I understand where you come from.
This reminds me of the guy who forgot he had Alzheimer’s and remembered everything
The music is like someone dying alone. We don’t know this stranger, or the type of life he/she lived, but we just see them stripped down to their purest form in their last hours, and it really feels humbling, but it comes with the thoughts that we may end up dying alone too.
@ all black people have dementia?
It feels more like he's slipping from his dementia filled life, and into the afterlife. Throughout the song you can hear faint sounds of memories, a dog barking, footsteps, stuff being knocked down. This is the choir to the gates of heaven, trying to remind him. The longer this track went on the larger my smile grew, he was getting a well deserved rest. Rest easy.
Boots Jew How did you connect George Floyd to this???
Sofia Rosenberg it’s not just him it’s all of them
We all die alone
I feel like I shouldn't be experiencing this yet. Its too soon.
It’s practice
You cannot play as Luigi.
yet
Just remember, it's always too early.
then don't
I know this is about dementia, but makes me feel for my friend who commited suicide yesterday. I like to think that this symbolizes his suffering ending. Rest in peace friend.
Oh.
I’m so sorry. I hope you’re doing ok.
let's hit the gritty for your friend
@@FishwicksREAL read the room
I'm sorry for your loss.
Feels like dementia finally releases your mind and you're allowed to walk into death's embrace like he's someone who's rescuing you. Heartbreaking.
I don’t see the reaper as a villain, i see him as a lost soul welcoming the new lost souls. As he embraces you when you die, that cold shudder that hits your family isn’t an emotion. Its him letting them know you are ok. He welcomes you with his arms, as you look over your family.
You remember them
Its too late
Death welcomes you. Welcome home
Edit: damn
@@zim.is.emo. Or the grim reaper could beyour roomie. Only 2000s kids will get what i am saying
You know Alzheimers sucks when freaking death is the cure to it
@@zim.is.emo. "You remember them. It's too late". God, that gave me chills...
All the pain will be _finally_ gone.
WE will be able to _finally_ rest
For them and for _ME_
For them and for _US_
Was it really worth it?
The 60 seconds at the end of the song isn’t just 60 seconds, it carries the weight of the entire album with it.
I heard it represents the death of someone with dementia so thats why the 60 seconds of silence
@@MaybeTophat I also see it as plaque corrupting the rest of the brain, as the crackling represents plaque build up.
i think the creator said r it was a minute of silence in honor of those who died from it
@@MaybeTophat It shows that they gained consciousness for a short period of time, only to die, back in complete emptyness and abyss. At least, that’s how I see it.
Not just the album but the caretaker as well
me: yo who's funeral is this?
friends: you
*music plays*
Who's "You"?
@[Jac̡҉k̕_ W҉̛̕o͞od̀́͞s̢͞] Me
@@jonjared88 Who are you?
@@Jack_Woods me
@@predro1524 Who are you?
Today my grandfather died after a long battle with Alzheimer’s, minutes after being told the news all I could think of was to come here, and here I cried.
stay strong mate
I lost my grandma for a stroke but I handled it even though it was tough, be strong bud
can't believe someone with a squidward profile picture would make me tear up a little
Lost grandma two days ago. She chose to be taken off of O2 after a week and two days of fighting. She had an aneurysm, and almost died that first night. She gave us time for all of us to come together as a family and be with her. We didn’t even know she was going to die until the day of, when she said she wanted nothing more to be done for her. I left school at 9:00 am. We drove for a few hours to see her. When I held her hand, it was very hot. The hospital was cold, so it was nice to feel that she wasn’t. She passed October 8th, at 5:25 pm. She was 74 years old.
I came here to listen to this and think about her final moments. I wasn’t there when she went, but she apparently wanted to pack a bag for a fishing trip with my grandpa, and she said she wished she could have painted the walls of her home. My grandpa passed away 15 years ago, but I think she knew it was time to see him again. Every time I hear the voices begin singing in this song, I think of angels coming down to take her to heaven.
When I saw her afterwards, it was just like she was sleeping. She just looked a little yellow, and her mouth was wide open, but it still looked like my grandma. She had been drifting in and out of consciousness when she was alive, and it looked like she had just gone back to sleep. When I touched her hand, it was still warm. I’m very glad it was still warm, it gave me a lot of comfort in that cold, cold hospital. I’ll forever think of her warm hands, of her lying in that bed, her face not in pain, but in total relaxation. I gave her a kiss, and I told her that it was all ok now. I went home yesterday after crying a million tears with my mom at my aunts house. I’ve cried a few times while writing this, but it was good for me to put this out into the world. It helps me accept that it all really did happen- that the last time I ever saw her was after she died. It’s not a very nice memory, but it helps the good ones shine through it.
@LeastInsaneUtsu-PFan underrated reply, im so sorry
This part made me want to cry. Imagine slowly decaying, falling and falling into the inky black void of nothingness, becoming a shell of a human. The worst part is, you don't even die for a while. Your family, the ones who care about you, just have to watch you fade. I really hope they find a cure for this horrid disease. The Caretaker did a really good job with this song, and the album as a whole.
I am a person who rarely cries, after hearing this, I wept for a while. It got to me. Tis pain, but a good pain for some reason
@Killer Queen Well, I do understand you're point. Some people can't cry at certain points. But I so happened too. If its your thing, try looking for something sad like your soul
@Killer Queen Gladly, I like feeling emotions. Not just the feeling of mischief
@Killer Queen Look, it's okay to cry sometimes. We aren't made to be strong 100% of the time. You probaly need something or someone to take off some steam and anger. Plus I know what you're doing, looking for an argument. All I can do is give you a suggestion. Take a break from the internet, find some music you like and relax
@UC96ERanfOsiZ4qCsOrxKzvw Why the sudden aggression towards people. He just stated that he cried since this album depicts an experience to people what (metaphorically) dementia sounds like, and emotions are a normal thing its not like you see someone cry for the 100th time. Stop trying to even make a scene and I recommend to fuck off this reply section then give yourself some fresh air.
Like sirens, screaming at you fall down an endless abyss forgetting their faces. A choir of voices you can faintly remember, but have no words to call upon and no emotions to feel. Forgetting that you exist, that you used to be a thing in the world, but now no longer. Symphonies of ontological torment, a song that you heard your entire life that you can no longer remember.
My mother has Alzheimer’s, and I would do anything to stop her existential pain and horror.
Im sorry man.
I’m sorry...
Im so sorry man, youre both beautiful souls and she's so lucky to have you. Her memory lives in you, and you too are gonna pass it on. Just please stay strong. A lot of people love you both, blessings ❤
I hope she rests well, take care
campaign for physician assisted suicide?
my grandma is currently suffering from severe dementia and she was born in the twenties. listening to this whole album kind of makes me feel like i have a relationship with her again, i understand her confusion more now.
How is she?
@Jakob Patrick bruh
@Jakob Patrick that bops ngl
yeah same. it's really hard to see her like this :'/
How is she?
My grandfather just passed away few days ago because of cancer. His dead, skinny and unnaturally yellow face with his mouth opening showed how painful he had been through. This music makes me think he's finally got released from suffering. Rest in Peace. I'll miss you.
same thing happened to my father back in 2022. he was just a normal recovering cancer patient at the beginning of the year. he even drove us to some places in second of january. in february we learned that his lung cancer has spread to his brain after his lymphs or whatever they're called. 3 months into the year he was already bedridden. in june he was hardly speaking. we quickly arranged my brother's wedding so he could see his older son married before he died. beginning of september, he was almost gone. they took him into the palliative section because there was no hope for him. my family still believed in some kind of miracles but I had already given up in april. he died on 28th of september, 2022 sometime between 5 am and 6 am. to be honest, it was pretty hard to see my own father in mere months decay before my 15th birthday.
also sorry for writing all this stuff under your comment. it just triggered something in me.
@@Korayyoss It's okay.
my final message, change da world. Goodbye
*windows 95 startup playing*
**this starts playing**
LMAOOOO u just made this feel completely different
hello
@Layne Krusz That's- That's not the right sound.
It’s peace. The years of torture are done. All you have to do now is sleep. You’re okay. You’re tired. It’s time to rest. It’s time to reach that peace. Everlasting, elegant, peace. That’s what this song means to me
Unless you go to the underworld, then you are fucked.
@@caite3693 *the bad ending*
Monters are nearby
Go on, and take your rest, for your destination is here. Come home now.
unless you didn't watch the super mario show, you go to hell before you died
It's the scariest thing ever to go from not knowing what you had for breakfast, to not recognizing your loved ones to forgetting your own existence
to have life become this, a faint distorted and broken down version of a memory, a song you always used to remember slowly escaping you while you can't get it back, before you realize nothing makes sense and that was the last of your sanity, the last of your emotions, and the last of your hopes, you would cry, you would scream, but you forgot how to do it...
I would not wish upon anyone such fate
it's something you'd never ever wish on your worst enemy
Geez dont ya scare me im 15 and often dont know what i had for breakfast
@@delta713 just wish upon them a normal death like getting murdered smh this is too much
EATEOT has honestly made me so afraid of the fact that i cant remember what i had for breakfast. sure, i guess you should "make every moment count" or something like that but it really just makes me so aware of how every experience is slipping through my fingers like sand and it paralyzes me with fear of doing anything cause it will just be lost
@@polpotbaza9489 Don't worry, not remembering what you had for breakfast is common. Merely means you're distracted while eating.
Everyone in the comments is saying how heartbreaking this song is. Like it’s the “bad ending”. And while it is heartbreaking, to me… it seemed to be filled with relief. Almost joy. If we’re using the Terminal Lucidity theory, the patient is finally remembering in their final moments. They’re given a parting gift, so they may die knowing that they were loved and cherished by those around them. They may die with a smile on their face, after a long and terrible battle with this horrible disease. They can rest now.
Can you really say goodbye at this point, if you already did a long time ago?
It’s known as the long goodbye
Drawn out from the time of conception, the peace stolen by the progenitors, finally we can return... hopefully painlessly.
when the last memory dies, the person dies too, they will be like a husk of themselves, no identity and inable to comprehend identity itself, like a soulless thing, dementia sucks.
When a familiar face is long forgotten, all I can do is sigh in bitter relief. For I know that familiar face is now in peace, in tranquility.
This is what death sounds to me if there's nothing after it.
probably
Is the most plausible reality we're not ready to confront, and for many, a reason to turn to religion
@@Jack_Woods Fuck off, fedoratipper
Isn’t it comforting? No more needed, no more worries, true peace, nothingness eternally.... I would hate to have to deal with this world over and over again.
@@benis9684 bruh what
Man its crazy how this original sample was literally made with the intent of being private. Nobody besides the original choir and Leyland Kirby has them, and he's lucky to even have two copies.
It almost really makes this more the magical, knowing that you won't ever truly hear the original sample unless it gets leaked out or Leyland Kirby releases it. It really, and truly feels like a solid end.
I'm sorry but who's Kirby?
@@Luka2000_ the person behind the caretaker albums.
@@SakuraSkyes thank you
@@Luka2000_ Kirby from Star Allies
@@Luka2000_ sucky sucky man
For me, this is the song of defeat. It embodies something that just makes me feel as if i've lost, everything.
Don’t worry. Maybe you’ve heard of it before, but this song is made to represent terminal lucidity. Notice how there is no more skipping and less static, notice the minute of complete silence and peace. Terminal lucidity is a moment in a person with dementia’s life where they suddenly remember everything. I mean everything, everything that they have been struggling with so so much they finally remember. It usually only lasts for a few seconds to even 5 minutes, but some people have been lucky enough to have it last a week or more.
Its that feeling of knowing you are forgeting something but you cant remember what exactly
that pfp looks like my dog
@@weegee42069no, This is the moment when all your memories come back, right in the moment your soul leaves your body into Afterlife.
Like a Heavenly light with an Angelical Choir over your head
"How's your grandma?"
It was the last thing I heard from my grandfather, he didn't see her for decades after their divorce, but he always kept asking me that everytime he was with me, sadder with the time. He's in a better place now, as I knew he left us when he was sleeping, watching his old movies even if he couldn't hear, move or even speak too much in his final moments, maybe just escaping in his mind by thinking in better places and better times, seeing his loved ones that left him years ago. Now with my wodden car toy that he gave me as a child I remember him, not mainly because his speaches or ideas, but for his acts that had good intentions, without saying too much to leave an impact in the lives of many.
Respect for you since my Grandpa has cancer even if he didn't have cancer I would still respect you (I know this isn't related to Dementia)
my grandfather died of dementia/alzheimer
When I saw "wooden car toy", I almost cried.
best comment..
maked me cry
i hope you feel better buddy
Ow
That got me to cry a little
The reward for all your troubles
The sweet release of death
i wouldn't count this as a reward, this is heartbreaking
Pretty sure you wont remember what your troubles was
Death is a very funny thing.
It leaves us all wondering.
Contemplating it's TRUE form.
To some, death is an escape.
To others, something to fear. An object of their nightmares as their life slowly grinds to a halt.
But for me, death is just sleep.
A dreamless one at that.
Filled with endless peace and quiet.
It is a sleep that transports us to the next realm.
Will it come as a screech?
Or will it take the form of an old friend?
It doesn't matter. All that matters is that you finally rest. You sleep. in heavenly peace. as you reconcile with the stars.
...what troubles?
This song is supposed to represent your last memory. You're clinging onto it. It's all you have left. The choir are the cries for you to keep holding onto this precious memory. All the other ones you have forgotten include your name, your family, your friends, how to eat, how to speak, how to communicate. Nothing it's all gone. All you have left is how to breathe. You're breathing in an unfamiliar room. The person in front of you claims that they're your close relative, but you don't recognize them at all. Who the fuck is this? Get out get out get out!
You are distracted as the choir suddenly stops singing.
Your memory has drifted elsewhere.
You have nothing.
Just empty silence and confusion.
You're empty.
I like to think this is death, the person has already been empty for a while now, the choir is The sweet release that is death by this point
It actually is supposed to be the last memory, and the end is the memory fading away, just like the other memories before it
HockeyLover 569 that doesn’t make much sense to me though, because then what would the build up before it be.
It legitimately is supposed to be the last memory, specifically your favorite song.
www.crisisprevention.com/Blog/June-2015/Music-Soothes-Last-Moments-for-Father-With-Dementia
Music can trigger the most powerful of memories
@@thatnikkakris2339 nothing, imo its more just a gradual decline into extreme confusion and emotions you cant describe. this is too consonant and real after everything else, along with the coughing sounds and the rocky wooden noises, this def sounds like a service at a church. there is no life to cling on to, there is no moment, no final moment of bliss or even a describable emotion, good or bad. its the end, and this song is just the song at the funeral
thats ofc my interpretation and its all fine to take it in a diff way.
The last minute of utter silence in this song may seem pointless, but has so much meaning. It’s like it shows the patient having their final breaths and seconds before finally passing away, heading into the peaceful afterlife.
I feel like the purpose of it is so that you yourself can hear the ambience around you and hear what a dementia patient might be hearing in their final minute. It’s to help you realize what step you should take next after listening, depending on what you hear. The first time I listened to this final track, I was on my way home from my grandpa’s house, he actually had dementia and my family was going to check up on him and get him prepared meals and clean clothing. I heard my family talking and getting gas at a gas station, they said the area seemed shady and they were afraid. I was far from afraid though.
The one minute of silence for the caretaker
this is literally exactly how i interpreted it. the patient takes their final breaths before passing away and the silence is suppose to resemble their loved ones mourning their death in silence
Me during stages 1-5: eh, I’ve dealt with worse.
Me during stage 6: *”Scotsman drowns the entirety of the uk in tears, millions dead.”*
How did you make it through stage 1 it was terrifying for me and stage 6 didn’t even make me cry
@@lilsquidyyy how tf
@@lilsquidyyy
Stage 1 is calming but it still has an uneasy feel to it, really easy for me.
Stage 2 sorta had an uncanny valley feel to it, it was like stage one but instead it was more disturbing.
Stage 3 is just noises.
Stage 4 is where I first cried purely from fear.
Stage 5 is where I was just shivering.
And stage 6 was where I broke.
@@furiousstudios4438 only ever listened to Stage 1, stage 4 and stage 6. All of which didn’t terrify me. Should I listen to stage 5 now?
@@lilsquidyyy stage 5 is the most terrifying for me stage 6 starts to become more peaceful as the long decline is over
The creepiest part of this, is that, the tune actually makes sense, and you can hear it. You shouldn’t expect a Tune since it’s all the way at the end and at that point everything would be gone. But there is a tune, that you can very clearly hear, with no errors. After all this chaos, there’s the death tune. The end tune, that represents the person’s final moments, before dying.
I cant take what you said seriously because of your name
@@LLIAMAH344 I said that before I changed my name and profile pic. You definitely could’ve guessed
@@TheCloseout you were sussy baka the whole time, you were just hiding it back then
I’m thinking it’s terminal lucidity
sussy baka
My great grand mother was taken by this disease before I was born. And like many sufferers, she apparently became very clear towards the end after many years of being incoherent.
My father was with my great grandfather and in a very rough spot in life himself, telling him that he was lost and didn’t know how to go on, that he felt like God had abandoned him.
My great grandmother, who until then had for years sat in her rocking chair everyday and hummed nonsense to herself, suddenly stopped and stood up. She walked to him and kneeled beside my father and took his hands and said, “he won’t. He never will.”
She then promptly returned to her chair, and within seconds was back to her non responsive mumbling. To this day, my father believes God spoke to him through my great grandmother. Maybe, maybe not. But it’s a clear example of how there’s always a piece of the person still inside the fractured mind of a dementia sufferer. And they have a few strong memories that can sometimes bring them back.
I was depressed enough after listening to the entire thing (even if it was not in one go), reading all the comments makes it worse. To this day I've never got destroyed by a piece of music. Yes, I listened to sad songs before but they usually had some kind of context behind them, like a sad movie or a tv show. This is just one song from the entire album without any context which doesn't even need any sad story behind it to be so powerful.
Those who are closest to death can see Azrael coming, they can see the smallest peace of God's divnity
God will never leave you.
It's called "terminal lucidity", which is when a dementia or Alzheimer's patient suddenly is much more coherent and remembers their memories due to a wave of energy from their body to the brain which gets the neurons working again, but it only lasts from seconds to days because the neurons and the proteins that they have are decayed due to said Alzheimer's/dementia/amnesia. Either that or God spoke to your great grandmother. May she rest in peace 🙏
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I've come to listen to this on the really hard days to relax. But this last year has been hard. I lost a very close friend to suicide, and my 2 great grandmothers who i was really attached to. They both had dementia and their birthdays were (April 6th 1924-december 11th 2023 at 4:55pm; and August 27th 1931-August 7th 2024) they were 99 and 93 respectively and i had one wish and that was that they attended my graduation (May 31st 2024) and Mary(99) was dead and Marguerite(93) was on hospice care after having multiple strokes in February. They both bad dementia and neither of them remembered anything about me after my 6th birthday. They'd remember what I look like but nothing else. I still remember going to see Mary and she'd ask how old am i and what grade im in and see her shocked, happy, and proud face all at once. She'd always say how my hair was such a bright blonde color and my light blue eyes were what made her day. And to see her beg me, my sister (16), my mom (59), my dad (57), and grandfather (77) to end her life as she was suffering. I remember i got the call when i was at work December 2nd that she had some form of an aneurysm and they didn't know how long she'd make it but they said itd be a miracle for her to live into the new year. I remember my mom, sister, dad, and I basically rushed to the hospital and sat with her. My grandfather is the last of her kids and was the oldest of the 3. I still remember the day of the funeral. I was supposed to be a paul bearer but i got covid the day before and couldn't walk without help. I still went and was there with her for about an hour before the funeral services started. Marguerite's was a lot sadder. She forgot more or less everything about me atter my 3rd birthday. But whenever we'd talk she'd have the same expressions as Mary. She was proud that her first grandchild had a child after decades of trying. She was the sweetest lady but to see her go from a sweet, caring, and loving lady act like a child and be violent at times isn't what I remembered. The saddest part about her passing away was that there were 8 different scares where she wouldn't wake up or she'd have that rattly breathing. The final time was when she finally lost her battle. She was given 6 months and she lasted about 5 days longer than the 6 full months given. And August 6th was the worst day completely. I tried calling off work and was stuck on hold for 45 minutes while i drove like I was an f1 racer to her home. She wasnt awake and she hasnt been at that point for almost 3 days and the oxygen percent for her blood was in the 70s which is not good and she was already on oxygen at that point so there really was nothing to do to help her. I was there with my mom, sister, dad, and grandmother and we talked about her and the best things we remembered about her. About halfway through a hospice nurse came to do the daily check in on her and as soon as she did the oxygen level check she asked us to leave the room for a moment so she could clean her up. The nurse came out after to tell us she isn't looking good and that she needs an oxygen mask instead of the tubes to try to give her a little more time. We all went back in with the nurse and we talked about memories with all of us we had with her and it was a heartbreaker for me because in the last year so much happened i wanted just a little bit longer with her. But now that it's almost 3 months since she passed and the funeral service i can say life doesn't have the magic it had when they were alive. I tried my hardest to not cry at the funeral since the 3 kids that look up to me as a role model were there next to me. I kid you not when i say my eyes were tearing up but i didn't let them fall and my vision was looking like you opened your eyes in a pool. I miss you Mary, Maggie, Will, Dom, and Brandon. I know I'll see you all again one day but i wish it was sooner. You 5 gave me the best outlook on life but i can't seem to get my edge back from when you all were alive. I just hope i dont go through this much of a period again for a while. 2 years i spent trying to get over Dom and Brandon then less than a year later Will died, and then Mary and Marguerite. I hate this life and i cant figure out what to do to continue. I've had a decent life but i believe it'll only be getting worse from here. Its sad how someone who's going on 19 already wants to die but this life has been a rough one. To all those who have read this far take my advice. Take the time with friends and family as if its the last and get as much as you can to remembe them by when they can't remember you. But to all those who struggle with your life choices and the cards you were dealt. Hold on to them for as long as you can and enjoy the best parts of this life. Goodbye for now everyone. I'll keep fighting this battle until the very end. And to Mary, Marguerite, Dom, Will, and Brandon I'll see you all again one day sooner or later and when that day comes that piece of me that's gone will be back together.
He called me his Caretaker.
He was at peace.
I watched as his body relaxed and the silence shattered into a thousand chimes. The ringing snapped me out of my trance. Time was still passing. I watched as his fingers tapped on the side of the bed. The IV's cord bounced as his hand began playing an imaginary piano.
His lifeless eyes, free of the shadowy tears, were darting. The whole irises were seeing things despite being clouded by a dense fog that, I swear unto you, seemed to have vanished.
He was seeing again, perhaps.
And he was playing a piano, one that I could not see but he definitely could. I held his cold hand that didn't want to hold mine. He wasn't even focused on me. It was like his eyes didn't want to see anything anymore, nothing more than what he was imagining, maybe.
The church beyond the rustling trees held its choirs high, and I swear I could hear them as clear as I believe he could. I didn't know what he was playing, but if I had to guess, it was a church's organ, and may those heavenly angels hear him play it! Those pearly gates should open for that man. Key after key, seconds and thirds, I watched his fingers slow their tapping.
He was at Stage 6.
I saw his white irises look at me, the one holding his hand, the one who took care of him. I don't know if he was looking at my face, or right through me. It was hard to tell.
And I saw the corners of his lips lift into a slight smile.
He played the last key.
There was no use in telling him anything, not one more thing he didn't know already. Could I have said any goodbyes, take cares? Any farewells?
I didn't want to tell anything.
I wanted him to have his silence.
I was his Caretaker.
He was my friend.
That made me tear up, man..
That was beautiful. C'est fini.
DUDE STOP YOURE MAKING ME CRY
damn thats deep
source?
Congratulations, you’ve reached the ending.
Nobody ever said it would be a happy one.
its been week since I've listen to the whole project and these last 6 minutes haunt me. there's something about this that is just so...wow
I think this was the only song that i cried at.
Yeah its an experience. At first i though its just some creepy abiance track...boy was i wrong
I've not even listened to it all. Read about it before, listened to bits of it. This is haunting as fuck.
@@ghoul5286 Yung bae fan too ayyyye also I quite liked this song not as sad as the hype gave it I would actually like to transcribe it to play it with some friends it sounds very nice imo but I want to understand what made you cry
My great uncle passed away in July. My grandma was depressed for a while. His last words to me were: May I speak to your Lola again? He had so much ambition. It has been 2 months since his passing. Only now I understand the true meaning of this. This made me feel his presence one last time before he passed. I had a dream the day after his passing that I wished him luck as he boarded a shuttle and went off into space. I will forever miss you uncle.
I didn't cry personally but god damn the ending hits like a truck. This is genuinely one of those once-an-era masterpieces.
never thought to see you here
Just wait until you see eitbon's ending of stage 7.
That hit like a tank.
You've been hit by
You've been struck by
Truck
@@NightrageTheFoxAH
@mrbist9404 It does
Lamb: "What do all stories have in common, dear Wolf?"
Wolf: "They end."
When one story ends, another one begins. Hopefully.
@@veosult9066that actually happens all the time.
Many people think this final part is sad, I disagree, it feels like a release from all the torment, a final beautiful melody that sets you free from this life
Yeah based on the whole album, its about dementia as you begin to lose grasp on reality. The sudden shift from warped music to an angelic choir is more so a peaceful yet depressing end where death is a more peaceful option than losing memory and sanity
@@zombienoah6408 adding to that, when I listened to the whole thing it felt sudden, like a sudden cut to the final part. I think it's that sudden because of how you can't really tell when you'll die. It's so sudden. One second you're there, the next one you've forgotten how to breathe.
it might not set you free
@@Eric00006 we dont know how consciousness works. what if we come back and get dementia again
my grandpa died of dementia 2 days ago and I cant help but listen to this and think of him
Dang it must be cruel to die because you forgot how to exist
@@LowTierPresident he was a bit of a punk bitch so its ok
This album really expresses not only how dementia effects the brain but how little time we have on this earth
Yeah
Yeah, like how the oldest person was 122 years old before their death. Seems very long, right? Well, compare that to the 4-5 billion years that Earth has been here and however much longer it will exist in the Universe, from being formed by elements and gases that made up the Earth from core-to-atmosphere, and eventually the decay of Earth's orbit in quintillions of years, then the decay of the Universe itself (including the Earth) and atoms, and, eventually, protons themselves in God-knows-how-many years, then the death of the Universe itself, when every star that is currently shining fading away, only black holes ever remaining, then even the black holes in the Universe will fade away due to Hawking radiation (if it even exists).
@@chirone_ wow wise words
Lol we can live for like up to 122 years. You call that short? We live so much longer compared to other creatures on this earth. Do you think we live so little time, like the life span of a HAMSTER? a hamster's life span is literally 2 to 3 years. WE LIVE SO MUCH LONGER THAN THAT. Just reminding you we live for a really long time.
@@gooberuploadsinc Someone reaching this age, even to this day, is extermely rare.
Some animals lives as long as human, and some even longer.
But in my opinion, what matter isn't how long you lived, but how fully you lived.
the last 6 minutes of everywhere at the end of time made me tear up
after 4 hours of disortion and sounds of repetitive horror, a melancholic yet beautiful chorus comes in, so close yet so distant, flawless and not disorted. Terminal lucidity. (it has been shown when those suffering from severe dementia and other related diseases have one last clear reocurrence of their sanity and theirselves, as well as their memories before they completely loose the ability to remember anything)
the chorus is the suffering individual, trying so hard not to let go, but dementia is overpowering.
The finest memory, the final piece of youself breaking loose before 2 minutes of silence. You don't remember anything, you don't remember your name, you don't remember your family, friends, memories, you don't remember yourself. You cannot eat, you cannot walk, you can only know how to breathe.
and the world fades away from a former husk of yourself.
@Sebastian Freeman after Stage 3 is just shifting static and and slight tunes that can be barely heard through all the mess
stage 5 clarities:
You can now play as Luigi.
what did he mean by this
u guys gotta reply
@@luauthemancool I’m still here
Who am I
@@Mr.OrganStealer Cannibal human under-dweller?
On a happier note. I would say Leyland Kirby has done a fantastic job of giving awareness to this horrible disease. In turn, more progress has been made to combat Dementia.
More funding, more research, less agony.
WDYM IT CAME OUT LIKE "On a happier note, this is a good repressentation of the ETERNAL TORMENT AND HORROR OF THIS TERRIFYINGLY OMNIOUS DEPRESSING HORRIBLE CONDITION."
@@Ilikecatsl0l because this representation helps people understand that agony, leading to us helping the people going through it and attempting to prevent it in the future.
@@Ilikecatsl0l
Empathy for others is a good thing, actually
@@Ilikecatsl0l It's a horrible condition, yes, but it's good we're raising awareness about it. We may even find a cure someday. Or atleast a way to slow it down.
0:10 Crying/Banging Being put in a coffin or people mourning you
0:14 Funeral bell rings
0:21 Choir and orchestra starts playing
5:07 Music stops
5:16 A minute of silence to respect the life lost...
at least that's what i think this track is
No no you are right. This is the last track of the song that represents the funeral of someone with dementia.
The first and last timestamp just reminds me of my grandma who died last year. God it pains me so much.
It's quite interesting... Because it's proved that the last of your senses to die... *Is your hearing*
I always thought the beginning was the sound of coughing and then someone walking down a hallway, possibly a worker in hospice walking past the dementia patient’s room.
2:48 in specifics hits me. Those few seconds sound so fucking sad, I cannot even describe it. It just feels like the end of a journey, an era's end. I cant even describe in words how it feels, it just sounds like you just passed away and are now being sent to heavens gates. Its just a happy little like 4 seconds, but at the same time its insanely depressing, it just is the end of something big. Something that you've been doing for most of your life, and it finally came to an end. Its so heart wrenching to hear but its so happy.
HOURGLASS DOG
HOURGLASS DOG
Everything has an end even your life anything anyone it has a time to be vanished their clock will end from those suffering from pain of life and then they will rest in peace in the other side then God chose their drection of their end being in heaven or hell you can now chose what place you wanna go to if you wanna heaven you can work hard and be nice not to go to heaven bc you love God we do good things because we love God but the other people in the other side they do not work by themselves and be nice they would steal and be rude and then gates of hell will be opening to them to re watch the pain and feel the pain but even if you are good you have a bad side a point in your heart that if someone make you suffer it takes all over you and it hurt that person more painfull than a bad person would they would snap and bad people have a point in their heart of good they can be good it's like ying and yang
But if we get back to the point of dementia this stage is the end I call it brain dead hum because before a person who have dementia is going to dei and they are at stage 6 they start humming their favorites songs and when its done of humming they remember from those songs things and remember everything then when the music ends the person ends with it to and at least he was in peace before he/she deid but the most hurtfull and harder stage is 5 it's were the person suffer and scream for their memory the last screams the last breaths the last suffering things they don't know who they are who are the people around them they would be fearing anything anyone crying and screaming in that stage evreyhing is weird and scary and trefying to them even when they look at their self's they would ask what is this or who is that evreyhing would be hard to do until the brain dead comes they rest and the worst part in this thing that you will not be cured anymore just stay still in that bed with the person you love before they would be vanished aleardy but hey everything has a end and that why the album name is evreywhere at the end of the time at least you learner something that evreyhing would have a end even that dementia thing would have a end so there's nothing to fear just try to stay safe and be happy even the loved ones that deid would be happy to see others happy they would be happy to flying and not fearing anything and they rest in peace
HOURGLASS DOG
HOURGLASS DOG
If you haven't gone through the entire thing, and I mean the 6 stages, please, do not watch this video. I know curiosity can get the best of us sometimes, but avoid it at all costs, because then, when you finally get to the end this music will sound like the most beautiful thing you've ever heard and only then, you may come back here. By this time, you will tear, or at least get chilled by this amazing piece of art.
Aw damn, I found your comment too late :(
Nope, that's wrong.
I listened to the full album and this has pretty much the impact you'd expect it to have, even now. EATEOT is amazing, but it's not something that should be worshipped and listened 'in the right order', it's literally just a work of art that depicts dementia.
I don't get people treating music like it's a person that needs to be treated in a particular way to be 'understood', spoilers for actual stories I get worrying over, but this is just silly.
Too late bucko
Actually, some people prefer to skip out some phases because some either aren't psychologically well and ready or are busy and can't endure the whole 6 hours that this beautiful album has to offer.
In my case, it was the former, and yet, only hearing fragments of EATEOT, this track hit me as a train, I really felt melancholic and almost teared up.
Oops 😭
I have listened to every song in the track. And this one hits me the hardest. I can't exactly say why, but it's just... Different. It's like, as sanity drifts away, and your last memory is barely stable, your place in the world fades away, as your last memory, turns into void.
Long Decline is Over was that. This is being dead, or maybe just brain dead but physically alive, alive for your own funeral.
@@Mortablunt Bit late of a reply, but ig that does make sense.
Not afraid to admit this song literally made me cry. My great grandmother had recently passed away from cancer, and was overall deteriorating and it made me sad. This song reminds me a lot of her in ways I never thought possible, it’s beautiful, simply beautiful.
Lost my uncle to Alzheimer's last may, grandparents are diagnosed with Parkinson's and Alzheimer's. My maternal grandpa recently found out that he has stomach cancer which can't be operated thanks to diabetes and old age. Literally waiting for death,I hope nothing similar happens to me.
@@GreenGoblinCoryintheHouse : (
@@blueberry3663 true, some guys name was green goblin from Corey in the house
Real deal. HOW NOT TO HAVE DEMENTIA - 1) Think in 2+ LANGUAGES 2) Keep your GUMS HYGIENIZED
I lost my boxer dog and he passed away when he was 3 years old i couldn't stop crying it heart breaks me to death and i cried 10 minutes because im going to miss him forever in life
When I discover music I like, I usually leave lengthy comments upon comments about how passionate I am, but with this what is there to say that the caretaker already hasn’t?
I lost my grandma this morning after a rapid decline into late-stage dementia. She'd had problems with memory for years, but the last 3 months went so quickly. Hearing this, I can only hope she felt at peace as she went, after so much suffering. She's with her husband again now, after 21 years. I love you Gram.
@theepicguy253 dang. hits hard man, im lucky cuz no one has dementia in my family, so im fine but im sorry for your losses.
glad that they are together again. my father died because of cancer last september. nothing about dementia but, last time I saw him, he couldn't even realize that his beloved son was there for him. I was there. it was something like 2 weeks before his death. he wasn't even able to lift his hands, his feet were almost purple-ish and swollen, his black-gray hair was long gone, he was looking like a skeleton. don't know why but I was unable to cry for months. my then best-friend was trying to make me feel her support but she wasn't helping. I heard my mom's cries every night. couples getting seperated is one of the worst things to happen in this world.
Feels like your witnessing a person's final memory. A good, angelic, peaceful moment in time. The one that means the most, the one that despite everything managed to survive becoming part of the encompassing void that is the decayed mind. Then...... its gone. And the mess the mind has become, is gone too. Dissappeared into emptiness, and nothing. Such a somber, yet beautiful send off to the album, it makes the six and a half hour journey worth it.
I think it represents death, and the person is finally free of their condition
@@thatnikkakris2339 my interpretation is that it’s terminal lucidity. The moment of clarity before death. It’s not a very well researched phenomenon but it’s worth looking into.
Can I borah ya thesaurus
Your body starts to slowly empty. You desperately try to cling on to your last memories, but they all fade away. You forget who you are, who your mom is, your pets, your family, everything. The only thing you remember is how to breathe. You don't even realize what's going on. Then you have a brief moment of your memories returning. All you want is to say one last goodbye to everything, but you can't. You then forget everything. Eventually, they cut off your life support and give everyone the news. A few days later, at your funeral, everyone says how great of a person you are. They lower the coffin along with your body into the ground as the sobbing and bidding farewell continues. A few years later, someone mutters your name for the last time. Then, you are forgotten. Just like all of your memories in your previous life. They're all gone.
Why do I feel like this was stolen from multiple comments?
Isn’t this Terminal Lucidity?
I did not cry from this, dont get me wrong it was emotional, but not in a sad way. instead it felt like liberation from the brutal 4 hours of noise i just endured. an intensely bitter sweet ending. I guess its kind of like dying if you were afflicted with this disease, you are emotional about all you have experienced through your journey but overall your final days were unfortunately torturous, and a quiet death is the best thing you can have to extract you out of the empty void of your own decayed mind. people have compared this to a funeral, but i see it more as an ascension to heaven type thing
exactly how i feel
You painted my feeling on this nicely dude
I did shed a tear though because it felt like release from this horror
I can’t take this comment seriously with that profile picture
same. if i had made it this far i would have cried from happiness, knowing that it was finally over and that i could rest in peace
The choir wasn't really a peaceful death. You can hear coughing in the background. They are obviously in an old folks home. Even when someone has dementia, they can still hear music and tunes from their past.
When the music disappears
So does their last trace of thought.
They simply exist and dont think. The quiet wasn't death. It was the moment before death. They dont actually die until the album is over.
RIP dad 1953-2024
I'm sorry for your loss may he rest in peace 🕊️
🕊️
Lost mine this year in January. He was 59
So sorry for your loss. May his soul rest in paradise and peace. 🕊️
This final scene, the way I see it is death. It begins in compete silence and ends in curch type music
after all the pain and suffering i hope it is
Look up the term 'terminal lucidity'. I think it's about that.
it is, if you pay attention, you will notice there's a minute of silence after the music ends, it's a pretty great ending
@@saturn-silves432 yep, there's a whole "unofficial" storyline to it - but, with what we know, this final 'scene' is the funeral of the caretaker. explains the shuffling and coughing before the choral piece begins. the minute of silence is, as you said, a minute of silence for his death. super well executed, made me cry so badly first time
@@SalvadorP88 it definitely is dude, you feel it
I think the fact that it's 5 minutes of music and 1 minute of silence, is because it takes roughly 5 minutes to fully suffocate, and the most common way alzeimer's kills a person is by causing them to forget how to regulate even instinctual tasks, such as breathing, the last minute is final death.
honestly, the prospect of this ending being a final moment of clarity before the mind becomes a complete void is even more terrifying than if it was a funeral where the person had died
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Terminal_lucidity
I'm juggling whether or not the final minute is meant to forget this, or to have even forgotten dying.
bruh its juke herself
Hello?
When I was listening to the whole playlist, this song shocked me. It sounded like I was living my last moments on a deathbed, waiting for the suffering to end as the lights took me in. The best way to end an amazing artistic interpretation of dementia.
0:10 I really like this part here, to me it symbolizes that the patient has finally broken through all the confusion and nothingness to remember one last time before passing away.
Sounds like a lightning strike
@@tatoalfiemixedchannel133 it is
@@H128 ok
I thought it was the patient finally dying and someone gasping at the sight of it
indeed
I cried multiple times during this whole thing. 10/10
And, at the highest peak, we look upon the world. Large holes dot the landscape, like blotches of ink and tears in the fabric. What lies beyond the cracks? what color is the abyss? is it a dark, looming void, or the brightest light ever seen? We try our hardest to see something, but there is nothing left. The fabric has torn completely. Now, only small shreds and fragments of our world is left. And those are fleeting. And we are falling apart. And you are falling apart. And you don't even realize. You don't realize anything. Where are we? Everywhere, at the end of your time.
Holy shit dude
wow
beautiful
You really are complex
For me, after hours of dread, followed by confusion, followed by terror, followed by emptiness, this final song acted as a reminder.
This is how it feels to forget.
This is how it feels to remember.
This is how it feels to feel.
the fact that there is an entire minute of pure silence between this track and the end of the album really shows that this is what death for dementia patients is. this is a modern masterpiece
Context:
The patient is having a moment of terminal lucidity as the patients final drop of life is squeezed, and is going into the afterlife. Finally, the patient will not suffer. The patient will not forget. The patient will be immortal, remembering their life, remembering the waves, the music. The choir. Finally, enjoying things, remembering the choir. They see the light, that blank canvas won't be blank anymore. It will have colors, many colors. They can read the book, they can take care of the flowers, cut the seaweed, finish the statue, and perfect the sculpture.
kool but there is no such thing as an afterlife
@@ortherner Cool but literally no one asked nor do we actually know.
@@CDRW24 and no one asked for you to reply to me lmao.
@@ortherner Well you're the one that started it. Let people believe what they want when it doesn't even hurt you.
@@CDRW24 sounds like someone’s mad. Didn’t even do anything and your going defensive.
dementia is no joke
you are now an adult reborn
Except instead of starting to make memories like when you're born, you just can't make memories at all
@@StavDev and here’s me listening at 11 (and making a cheap multi-hour ripoff of TCIADOT)
@@StavDev The thing is, neurology carries with it many risk because, you're not just experimenting, one wrong move can damage, traumatize and even take away a person's soul. So usually it takes many years, even decades to at least have any breakthrough.
@@starcatcherksp1517 There is no such thing as a soul you are not in kindergarden anymore
@@78anurag Remember that even the brain is still a mystery to science. Don't act like humanity know everything about the universe yet.
Sounds like your last dream before fading away forever. You feel it like an eternity, and you'll never know that this empty dream was last in your life. You'll never see the end of your time, cause the moment of it is uncatchable.
I saw a comment on here from some guy talking about how before his grandfather passed away, he said something along the lines of "Do you see them? The angels, I see them. Are you still here?" and it's stuck in my brain ever since. It's hard to describe the emotion something like that must capture. God rest that man's soul.
Dude, just me listening to this part makes me feel scared of death. Idk why, but maybe its the music and the feeling of the song. This album is so well done, it has left me speechless.
@SlavаI know lol. I just noticed.
I think we have moments like that, I remember one time after I just woke up I remember thinking about death and being horrified at the thought of nothingness and non existence.
Maybe, just maybe tho there’s more to this plane of reality and existence than just the material world/realm…
PFP checks out.
Bro same
Don’t be scared of death. If you die of natural causes (which most do) , you’ll drift off without pain and peacefully.
My Grandma's friend died of dementia a few years back. She was one of the most friendly, cheerful elderly women I'd ever known. Then, all of a sudden, dementia set in and took her in a matter of months.
By the end, she was like a lost, confused child trapped in an unfamiliar body surrounded by unfamiliar people and places. She would often leave her house and wander the streets, knocking on windows pleading for help, with absolutely no clue what was going on, where she was, or how she got there.
It's absolutely terrifying how quickly the human brain can deteriorate. Cherish every moment with your elders folks. Always be there for them.
Always will
Only a few Months?
Apart from the actual song itself, I've been thinking about the fact that this is probably the second most wanted sample out of the entire album, and honestly the story behind it makes sense and adds a whole new perspective to this album.
You see, the first most wanted sample, for a wide variety of reasons, was the hell sirens, a section of a track which represents some sort of painful memory or realization which I personally believe to be the brief realization of exactly what is happening to the brain. We found the sample for that piece very easily, with someone speeding it up and realizing that it sounded a lot like Mantovani's Grenada. The sample which represents one of the scariest moments of this entire experience-for both the listener and the patient-was easy to find, easy to recall. We know what it is and where to find it; anyone could look it up on TH-cam and listen to the original song with ease. Heck, there's probably still somewhere where you can get a physical copy of the song.
This, on the other hand, we haven't managed to find the sample for despite it having been almost six years since this track released. We have a few ideas, but the most likely one is a song that we'll likely never get to listen to because the one place that has it has refused several times to share it with the public. When you think about what this track represents, how it symbolizes a final respite for the patient who can, for a brief moment, remember all the happy memories they once thought were lost, you begin to see things differently. We'll likely never have the original track which was sampled for this song, just like how the patient will never truly have the chance to reminisce on their happiest memories, because after this moment the very thing that allowed them to see those memories in the first place will never let them see them again. But all that pain, all that suffering they went through? That was easy to remember, because that was all they knew for who knows how long-just like how the hell sirens were the most-no, only-memorable part of all that terrible static. For that is the horror of this disease, an unstoppable force which tears away one's memories, replaces them with nothing but pain, and finally allows them to see their memories for one last second before destroying them, permanently.
On a much lighter note, I'm gonna be ticked if I find out in like a month that someone got a hold of the sample for this song. Well, technically it'd be for this and another one of the Caretaker's songs, but same difference. That'd be a half hour wasted for nothing...
I love this because it sounds like something ive herd before, like its on the tip of my tongue. A song I should know, a Song I should sing along to. But all you get is feeling of "I should know this, I shouldnt be crying."
In case it helps you at all, this song is sampled from one of his earlier songs called "friends past, reunited"
Im not really sure what the sample on that song was though
@@djjablonsky3367 it's a sample of an old 60's church opera Leyland found digging through old records in thrift stores. An incredible find used to maximum potential. He has the two vinyl copies that we know exist
@@danestambaugh255 Also, the song is "O Jesus Christ", an English translation of the German hymn "Let me kiss him just one more time", which in turn is part of J.S. Bach's St. Luke Passion.
my great grandma got dementia a few years ago, she remembered how she lived, but not the people and stuff around her, once she thought she was having soup and she dipped bread in some icecream, thinking it was soup, now she can rest in peace, i didn’t even get to know her..
I am sorry for your lost.
@@cultleaderofmonke4758 it was when i was like 8 and i wasn’t sad but only if i understood..
Is it weird that I laughed at someone having dementia and dipping bread in ice cream thinking it was soup? Just me?
Sorry for your loss.
Ice cream and bread seems good though
that is terrifying, someone at that point in time would have the iq of a 2 year old
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@@tf2nico says the weeb
@Jonathan Perez did i ask for your opinion on my opinion?
@@tf2nico If they have an anime profile picture, their opinion is invalid
@@tf2nico what the hell is your channel banner
This is truly the most beautiful piece of music created. It's one of those things that you have to earn. I've never cried the same way I have after hearing this after HOURS of static and garbled noise. It's crazy because you don't even hear the audio clipping after stage 5+6.
the choir sings as you have a moment of pure clarity, the terminal lucidity kicks in, after years of deterioration, your brain sees clearly, only to fear death, it wasn't worth it, you don't remember any specific memories, your life, and all that came with it, has gone.
the moment before death feels like an eternity as you recall the suffering of dementia, this is not a final resting place, you are not in peace, you are lost and scared, only comforted by the very thing you are terrified of, the end.
actually, most patients gain all their memories back in the last minute of their life, many records have shown patients suddenly remembering names on the patients, being able to recall past memories, and remembering losing them. Nobody knows what causes this but it could actually be death having some sort of power.
it's sad how the caretaker can't even remember the lyrics of his own song. Fly high, Caretaker.
С ним все хорошо...
Он записал этот альбом в честь своей бабушки
@@miitomek yeah!
@@miitomek Vodka 4 the win!
what if I told you that it was a german choir
@play gray no, he quite literally gave the project dementia
Such a heartbreaking ending. After years of an uphill battle against your own brain, you finally receive one last moment of bliss before you breathe your final breath. You feel like you've just been reborn as you've forgotten what it was even like to exist in the first place. Although only to be taken away a very short time after. But you don't mind. You embrace it. You're finally at peace.
“An uphill battle against your own brain”
The clipping is so absolutely terrifying. The fact that during terminal lucidity we return to music of similar beauty as those of the early stages, but there's just not enough there. The brain doesn't have the same capacity it once did, it's empty, it's bare bones; leaning off the edge and barely avoiding death. This song is our brain trying its hardest, but it's too damaged to ever return to the way things were.
I'm going to simplify it
choir: remembering your last memory
instruments: trying to make it fade
end: it took over