One million views. I cannot thank you all enough for watching this video and giving such nuanced discussion on a morbid but important topic. In retrospect, there are a lot of things that I would do differently if I were to remake this video, but overall I am still happy with the final product as it is now. Thank you for motivating me to pursue my passion and continue making content through some of the most emotionally difficult and creatively burnout periods of my life. I hope to continue 2021 with more ambitious and in-depth projects, but suggestions for topics are always welcome! Thank you again, and may the ballroom remain eternal.
OR the caretaker skipped stage 1, thus making stages 1 - 6 actually the 2nd to 7th stages of dementia. This can be backed up by the hell sirens in stage 4 (aka. sundown syndrome), which actually occur in stage 5.
It's been almost a year since I discovered Everywhere at the End of Time, and almost a year since I started working at a memory care facility, where most residents there have severe dementia. I was sort of nervous going into this job. I thought it was going to be as depressing as this music. And, sure, to an extent, this music can describe certain residents at my facility. Some of them are sort of aware that they are losing their memory, and it's sad to see. But generally, everyone there is very happy, and I've learned what their favourite jokes are so I can say them the next day and hear them laugh at it like they've never heard it before. I appreciate this album deeply. I discovered it right when my grandmother forgot who I was. But it's important to have a sense of humour with people going through this disease. You can be yourself, 100% without fear of being judged. You can be as friendly or as strange, humorous or as funny as you'd like. Because in a day, and in some cases, a few minutes, they'll forget any embarrassing or stupid thing you've done and remain your friend, as long as you're friendly to them.
@@ketaminepoptarts happens to me with songs too, what I like to do, what I’ve noticed is that I can watch a movie/listen to a song and make it feel somewhat like the first time. What I noticed is all I need to do is wait at least 2 months, and it’s like that. Don’t know if anyone else has felt/ discovered this other than me
@@JabubMontoya I used to watch Angry Video Game Nerd when me and my sister were younger, watched a few episodes about 7 or 8 years later (2019) and it felt like rediscovering a childhood gem. I've come to the conclusion/hypothesis that if you allow yourself to experience things in the little details, returning to them later in life, depending on the length, will make your brain give you that same feeling the first time you experienced that particular thing or moment. I've experienced this with many video games too. Idk. I'm just a commenter with a theory.
My mom made a theory, the final image is not cardboard with tape or a blank canvas, it’s a photo on the other side, due to memory loss you can’t see it
Personally, due to the fact that the tape creates a sort of box, I think it represents a photo, but due to memory loss, you can’t remember who or what could possibly be shown in that photo
@@the.n.1 From what I've heard, music is one of, if not the last thing a dementia patient will remember, and they can often be heard humming it. When the music goes, the patient is gone. So someone out there with dementia probably had EATEOT as their final memory.
Theirs a video on TH-cam of the 2008 USS Oklahoma survivor’s reunion and in the first minute a Mr. Paul Goodyear described the following, “We got one man in Eastern Texas, he’s in a nursing home, he cannot remember his wife, he cannot remember his children, he cannot remember his family, anything. He can’t remember anything except he could tell you everything that happened those ten minutes of December 7th, that’s just how deeply that is etched in everyone’s mind”.
Fish Fingers Another caretaker here, and yes, I have. It is one of the most painful things to witness because you are happy in the moment that the person you once loved seems to be back from the dead, but you also know that they are going to physically die soon thereafter. There’s a reason they call dementia the disease with two deaths; first goes the mind, followed by the body sometime later.
dementia is like when your trying to remember a dream. The more you think about it the more it fades away untill eventually it’s gone. The memory of the dream starts to deteriorate and then your just left with disappointment.
Sometimes for a second I get like a flashback of the dream Like a millisecond And I see what was happening But it’s hard to explain because it’s like a screenshot of the dream and it dissapears again
I was messed up for a few days after listening to this for the first time. I deal with some mental health issues so I’m a little vulnerable to such heavy experiences.. I seriously advise some level of preparation for this. It’s a strange but intense and weirdly beautiful album. It just made me feel intense sadness, like an overwhelming cloud of fear and anxiety.
Like I was on my death bed, alone. Without my family, but unable to even remember my own families faces with all the noise going on. Just this gut wrenching longing for things to return to normal. Return to the earlier stages, but only slipping further onto the chaos of your lapsing memory. Drowned out by the screaming distorted noise.
@@Nova-pi5de I listened a few from stage one and i feel deep pain and thoughts about dementia can’t imagine how the ones who listened to almost everything would feel like
Internet is a strange place you may say but I'm sure you found someone to share the same sadness. And maybe you would realize and get a new perspective to see the sadness and life as well. Anyway I hope you're fine :D
@@Aster_Risk I remember initially seeing the title of the video and then it's thumbnail and being confused as to what the video was about then I saw it was 6 hours long and had millions of views so out of sheer confusion & curiosity I clicked the video and read the comments to find out that the video was an art piece that was a musical representation of Dementia I think I watched a few minutes or maybe seconds of it (I don't remember which) then dropped a like and went on with my day.
Fun fact about your username: All letters in your username could be represented by the Hebrew "Vav" (except O, which could also be represented by Ayin".) Vav is the sixth letter in Hebrew, and its value in gematria matches its position in the Hebrew abjad.
I once accidentally fell asleep listening to the album. After being woken up at 4:30 am to E1 playing, I were not having a clue in the who or in the fuck world where I was for a solid couple of minutes. I will never make that mistake again.
Personal thing here: I’ve heard many people mention or talk about certain pieces of media they “can’t listen to/watch” because they’re “not mentally prepared”. I always laughed that off… until now. This project is genuinely, and I mean genuinely, the most terrifying concept I can think of. Dementia is hands down the most terrifying thing in this world and it’s not even really that close, so a project meant to simulate it in all its horror is something that I’m certain will cause panic attacks that persist for a long time. I have been unable to really focus and take my mind off this project for the last few hours simply by seeing people talk about it, I can’t fathom listening. I saw one video where the guy called it the album that broke him, and it damn near broke me just by learning about it.
it really is incredibly disorienting and really really scary. The first time i had heard of it i was with one of my closest friends and we had just pulled it up on his phone and was letting me skip through all the albums while explaining what each stage represents, and it REALLY fucked me up for like two or three days after that, my brain was just consumed by dementia and its reprocussions. listening to this is absolutely not for the feight of heart.
@@lukewatson8848I'm really glad I found comments like these, I won't watch it, I think it would really mess me up. Thanks for the heads up, take care of yourself man
I am a Grown Ass Man. I'm scared of very little, including death. And as a Grown Ass Man who does not fear death: I cannot listen to this fucking music. It rips and tears into my brain, I freak out So Bad every time I listen to it. If you aren't ready to listen. /Do not./
I wish there were artists who would do something similar to the Caretaker but...IDK...happy? I like to listen to this album backwards as in Stage 6 - Stage 1 and I like to see it as someone who has been in a terrible accident, or suffering from something serious like depression and how despite it getting better over time there is that lingering pain that is felt while recovering that may not go away, but you are alive.
You should listen to some of kirby's works released under his own name. two that come to mind are "sadly, the future is no longer what it was" and "eager to tear apart the stars"
ikr I tried so hard to listen to the album in its entirety but my anxiety is too bad so I could not make it though the first part. I do like to admire it from afar though :(
I was playing rooster and skipped straight to the end, and within the first second of audio of the final track I had a massive anxiety attack that lasted several hours. Fuck that album.
I was listening to it while trying to do my homework but I ended up playing a game. By the way, doing something else to distract yourself while listening to the album does NOT WORK. I still ended up feeling anxious afterwards and I actually became afraid of the dark for some reason. I couldn't make it past halfway of stage 4
I fell asleep while listening to it and finished it while asleep.. bad idea. My dream was scary and confusing, I had dementia, I was lost, it was the worst nightmare I had ever had
@@RenéSaussy a parachute mine is just a naval mine thats dropped from an aircraft via parachute. they tended to be dropped on land targets. hence, he died because he was in the blast radius of a mine
Not the sample but at least the origin of “Friends Past Reunited” has been found. It’s a rare choir recording of J.S. Bach’s choir piece “Lasst mich ihn nur noch einmal küssen”, from his St. Luke Passion BWV 246. I’m German myself and interestingly, the text is about someone who wishes to give their deceased friend one last kiss before they put him into his grave. The final minute of silence was already quite indicative of the caretaker’s death, but the choir before that singing about death is like the final nail in the coffin, if you will.
yeah from what I've heard the fpr sample is close to being found. the discord has been working their asses off to find it and a vinyl recording of some church from england (if i recall correctly it was milford parish) was found, but it isnt the one kirby has. kirby himself said he'd release pics of the record he got the sample for fpr from so once he releases the pics the search for the sample might really speed up. quite exciting times to be in the community.
I will say that Bach’s song definitely is not about a friend but rather about a significant other. Bach was actually gay, although sadly this fact isn’t very well known.
@@Sir_Crow It is a widely accepted fact that, due to time constraints, Bach definitely did not write this passion himself but instead only arranged it for orchestra, choir and four soloists. So no, if Bach really was gay, he definitely didn’t show it in this piece, because it’s not even his.
The only time I’ve experienced dementia close up was when I went to see my great aunt with my grandma. We went into her room at the care home, she turned around from her wardrobe and looked at me. My grandma was talking to her but she clearly was not listening. After having a conversation with me only minutes before, she asked me “I’m sorry, but who are you?” My heart dropped so hard. I told her, “well I’m Betty’s (my grandma’s and her sister’s) grand daughter.” “What? Anthony? Anthony hasn’t got any children?” Anthony is my dad. I walked out of the room where my grandad was standing. She died a couple months after. She and her sisters were triplets, and now my grandma is the last triplet left. I really hope that doesn’t happen to her. It’s ironic, because I can’t actually remember my great aunt’s name. She’s the only one. Betty, Gwen and... the one who died with dementia. How poetic and sad.
You've posted it in here, now at least a snippet of a memory of her will remain until the death of the Internet, which is, philosophically, being alive after death.
I'm terrified because I'm reminded of my grandmother. The paintings remind me of my grandmother and the music sounds like the taste of stale water. It's unsettling. I'm scared of the idea that I'll lose my mind. I'm scared of the idea that I'll end up like her.
@@Mr.Knightman912 Everywhere at the end of time, you feel your mind shatter, all of the achievements you have made on your long lasting journey are now gone. You scratch your head, not knowing where you are, people look at you and want to help but you push them away. "Why am I here?" "Who am I?" "What am I doing?" You keep interrogating yourself these simple things but why?
Same, my grandma died 5 - 6 months ago when she can't remember a single thing about us. At that time i was being dumb, thinking that she will be back normal after going to hospital. But no, it got worse, she can't even stand up or atleast move one of her body, until a weeks later, we apologies to her for the last time. We miss you Grandma.
Damn I understand you. I grew something that ...should be called 'slow-jazz-phobia' after listening to EATEOT. I can't feel comfort listening to jazz anymore. I don't know something is wrong with me until I play a game called 'kind words' and its soundtrack are mean to be relaxing, but I feel extremely uncomfort on a certain slow jazz track. I caught myself later that it remind me of Everywhere at the end of the time. No regret listening to this masterpiece though.
Another thing I never hear much about are some track titles on stage 3. “Back There Benjamin” “Libet delay” “Libet’s all joyful comraderies.” Libet is obviously tied to his other work but Benjamin has confused me for a bit. I looked around and found out about Benjamin Libet, a neuroscientist who had conducted an experiment based on free will. How does this relate to the alum? Idk, just kinda cool tho.
My guess is that Libet’s connection to sciences involving the brain (and the Caretaker project’s connection to the brain) is what made his name such a common motif in Kirby’s work. “Libet’s delay” is a scientific term which refers to the time between being touched and feeling the physical sensation of that touch. I believe I heard that most of the other track names in EATEOT are random jumbles of words taken from a book about the author’s experience about dementia, although I am uncertain of its name. Perhaps Benjamin Libet happened to appear in a randomly generated title and Kirby liked the name, or Kirby discovered him and the term “Libet’s delay” while researching dementia and neuroscience. TL;DR - Those tracks in EATEOT and AEBBTW are definitely named after Benjamin Libet because of his work with the brain, but how they came together as a motif is unclear. Hope this helps :)
@@carmenjuliarodriguez3221 I see your point as well. Watching this video, I'm not even a quarter of the way through and I'm already confused about where songs are sampled from, when they are repeated etc. It definitely seems like a concept the artist wants us to experience.
It also may reference “The curious case of Benjamin Button,” a movie and novel by Scott Fitzgerald about an old man who ages backwards. He ultimately falls in love but is unable to stop his backwards aging until he dies an infant. Considering dementia has commonly been compared to the brain “aging backwards,” so much so that there’s a term for it (retrogenesis) I think this is likely
I think the choir is of Angels; welcoming The Caretaker into the afterlife, his family is watching him die, which is why you hear coughing and shuffling. Then it goes silent as his soul leaves his body. Terminal lucidity makes sense but it’s also kinda less happy. So please let me have one thing to smile about during this emotional rollercoaster. Also terminal lucidity may not actually exist.
@@proximab9028 it’s a little controversial of a theory cuz a lot of people don’t believe in the afterlife. Basically whatever the listener believes happens when you die is how they interpret the ending.
My grandfather passed last year due to complications with Parkinson's disease. Up until he was bedridden in a hospital, breathing shallow gasps in pain as his organs shut down, his memory was sharp as a knife. Even at 86 years of age, he only needed minor hints to remember events in his life. He had served in the Navy during Vietnam. He managed to hold out through Veteran's Day, passing the next morning in his sleep. Rest in peace, Conley. You were, and still are, my hero.
Can someone tell me what it is? I don't have the time to listen anytime soon because of school classes and stuff but like maybe To avoid others seeing spoilers, it can be told like this
Literally what happened to me... I was having a good time on yt and then "oh yeah there's this really depressing 6 hours long music about your mind deteriorating and you dying at the end, listen to it :)" uh no thanks
in spite of the depressing nature of this album, it helped me get through late september-late october of 2020. all i remember was doing schoolwork and feeling a bit mentally unsound, which got worse until march of 2021. i even made a fan album called "everywhere at the end of quarantine" which is basically EATEOT but more about emotional decay during the pandemic. besides, most of the samples i used in my album were songs that I listened to during the worst moments of the pandemic. they're more modern than the EATEOT samples but there are a few oldies in there.
My brain went thru a lot of Inflamation+deterioration because of untreated chronic illness, to the point where it mimicked Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s. I’ll pass on listening to this one haha
@@hahaihaveahandlenow wow, I forgot I made this comment! Been nearly a year. Doing so, so much better now, my brain has healed a lot thanks to treatment. Neuroplasticity is a wonder
Hey, I just wanted to say that this video is really great. As someone with ADHD, I'm always trying to achieve a perfect balance of stimulation- enough that I can focus, but not so much that I'm distracted. And this video is perfect. There are hardly any volume spikes or abrupt changes in pace or mood, and your voice is very calm and soothing. I've had it on loop for two hours now. Probably more. Thank you.
I got PTSD and listened to this album while going through it. I literally started to cry hearing Stage 2 for the first time because of how relatable it felt. I was a healthy kid with an amazing memory then I gradually couldn't focus or remember anything for the life of me. On TOP of that I had moved to a different school program and had to repeat tons of work I had already done cuz it went through a different credit program. It felt like I was going in a loop and I was losing my MARBLES
i saw my name and i SCREAMED OH MY GOD, i can't believe how far those vids reached oh my god... awesome video by the way, been in that iceberg rabbithole and this fuceknnnn, i was like whoa, thank you hahaha
Idk why but stage one is the most unsettling one for me,it's just feels like I know everything is going to be fucked up but I'm just trying my best to be denial with the slow relaxing music...
I haven't seen the full album only the popular song that came out of it but I'm guessing you know how messed up the album gets soon but you know that it's coming so you're scared of it's arrival
Oh god that's terrifying...she's been twisted to the point that she's completely faceless and just made up of wads of paint..! It reminds me of that one set of self portraits...I forgot the name of the artist, but god that set of portraits was just simply tragic and horrifying...
EATEOT made me realize how crazy precious and valuable memories are. In a few minutes, it made dementia and forgetting everything one of my worst fears. It also made me realize that this fear, may not stay a simple fear, but it may become reality. And it become even more terrifying to think about
We did find the song, but it's not the EXACT sample. the sample finders are still looking for it. We know it was a private recording and only around 50 copies of it exist
This album is horrifying man. I watched both of my grandparents who raised me pass away over the past few months. I saw my grandmother with alzheimer's deteriorate over the past two years. She went from just having a little stutter to whatever she was. Over the two years her texts to me became more and more incoherent, until she quit using her phone altogether. as I came to visit her after her husband passed away(a few months before she passed) she would deteriorate worse and worse every week. I had to run out of the house a couple times because it just got so awful. I was showing her pictures of my niece, evelyn, a 2 year old cancer survivor, who she loved to death. She remembered her, but it got scary when her reality started getting altered. she thought we brought Evelyn over to visit a few minutes after I showed her the photos. The last time I was able to visit her to bring a gift, it really hurt. She was on her bed, splayed out, mouth wide open. She recognized me, managed to give a very tiny wide eyed nod when I asked a question. A couple of days later she came to pass. I wouldn't wish alzheimers on my worst enemies. It is so heartbreaking to watch someone deteriorate, to see the fear in their eyes when they realize over and over again that they're losing their mind.
When I saw your profile picture I was gonna laugh, but then I read the whole story. I feel bad for you and her and all the people who had to watch her suffer, and also suffer with her.
This comment will probably be buried, but I work in a dementia facility in a nursing home. The 7 Stage Diagram is wrong, and there absolutely are 6 stages. I don't know if the 7 stage diagram is outdated or something, but there are 6 stages. One thing that I'm noticing is in the 7 stage diagram, there are things that appear to only begin in Stage 7 which normally are present as early as Stage 3. Weird. The Caretaker's album is pretty accurate, pretty much everything past Stage 4 is literally post-awareness.
As far as the 7 stages are concerned, stage 1 has no symptoms. There's still degradation, but it's not to the point that anyone would notice yet. Stage 2 is where the album starts.
The first time I listened to it I did it in one sitting while writing. I liked it. It was unlike anything I’d heard before it. The last track hit me hard, I knew exactly what it was representing. I finished writing and didn’t think about the album for the rest of the day. It was just a sad but interesting experimental album that I’d stumbled on. That night I dreamed that I was sitting in a chair in a bright, hospital like room. I didn’t recognize it, but it was familiar. Hazy figures moved around me. I had no clue who they were, but felt as if I should. They spoke, but I couldn’t make any of it out. They were very cheery in a very forced way. As if they were devastated, but did not want me to know. I felt a childlike happiness all the way through. It wasn’t until I woke up that I realized that I was a dementia patient. I haven’t listened to the album since.
I've only ever heard the first song in EATEOT. I couldn't even go past that. My fear of death, existentialism, and memory loss wouldn't let me go further. I'm so scared of losing the ones I love, but even more scared of losing the memories of them. If they die, I'll still have memories. But if I lose those memories, there'll be nothing left. But there's some morbid curiosity in me that wants to go further into EATEOT. It's scary. Terrifying even. I'm not sure how to end this, and I apologize that it ended so abruptly. I just felt like I had to get something out.
Oh Everywhere At The End of Time is a scary experience Anxiety fills up the more stages you go into, I got so scared I never even made it past stage 5. Or 4... Dunno Its too scary to remember.
I'm surprised that "Everywhere at the end of schizophrenia" wasn't mentioned. Its a very well made depiction of schizophrenia in musical form. Definitely check it out if you haven't already
@@QuacktivateAll you are going to want is to get back there - Caretaker (Its from a older album from him, not Everywhere at the end of time, but its related)
I had a thought hearing the last song, an image that popped up in my head. I imagined angels, like those little cherub figurines, pulling the patient into "Heaven". The whole project is the process of tiny angels, angels that can dance on the head of a pin, traveling throughout the brain and destroying memories in preparation for the afterlife. All thoughts of your earthly life is removed, returning you to the blank slate of a soul you were before you were born. The cracks and pops are the angels flashing through the brain like light and cutting the connections. The brain frays and expands into a fuzzy fungus pouring out the ears and nose of the sufferer, and it is bleached white by the angels making it into a new cloud of heaven. The cherubs lift the decayed mind into cold, black heavens far away.
@@geodom85yt40 I'm not Christian. I'm an atheist. This is a bit of creative writing inspired by the album. Does any mention of angels or an afterlife piss you off?
I never met my great grandpa, but my dad told me about him. He had been loosing his memory's, living in a nursing home. However, one day when dad visited him, he was completely fine. They talked, and he even waved good bye before my dad left (usually he forgot about dad the moment he started to leave). That night, dad woke up with a sickening feeling in his stomach. The next day, he found out he had died.
I'm just praying to god I never get dimentia. My great grandmother had it, and it seems like my grandma (same side of the family) is starting to develop it. She forgot about my Grandpa once, but remembered after I reminded her of him. She looked worried but smiled and played it off. If something like that is happening she needs to tell me. She can't just shove me in the dark like that if she thinks something is wrong she needs to go get help.
@@tomatertate correct me if i'm wrong but i had a stroke trying to understand how an alzheimer's patient got their alzheimer's cured by forgetting about it
I am incredibly close to my vis-grandmother, she is currently 98 years old, I would not know what to do if something like this happened to her. she has taught me the love of receiving food always with joy. But, really, I feel like she has but it seems that it is difficult for her to remember some things, at least she is still very healthy, and she do a lot of exercises. Greetings from Chile, Antofagasta.
This music gets me in an odd place from my childhood. It reminded me of when I first read Flowers for Algernon. I've never cried more from a story than that. I was only in 3rd grade when I realized the existential crisis of dementia/alzheimer's or the losing of the mind. It freaked me out as a kid. But I loved the story anyway. Jump to today having heard and listened to the tracks as a normie, and learning there's deeper levels to this... BRUH 😨
My great grandpa got diagnosed w dementia and alzheimer’s this year. His memory got very bad that he calls his son his brother. Yesterday He was about to drive to the nursing home, and of course I went to say goodbye. To my suprise he remembered me, and even smiled at me. Listening to the caretaker makes me cry everytime. Please appreciate everyone close to you while they remember you.
My great grandmother never got diagnosed but we knew that even if we weren't already certain it was dementia (which we were certain of), it wouldn't have helped to have it diagnosed anyway as treatments would only prolong the inevitable. Often she would flashback to World War 2 when she was locked in an internment camp (she is Japanese) because her short-term memory was so bad and she had nothing else to remember. It was sad to watch her go through that. One time, her dementia spiraled from around stage 3 or so to basically stage 6 and she fell, breaking both of her arms. That was when the delusions began in the hospital. It didn't get much better. Oftentimes, since my room was right next to hers, I would wake up in the middle of the night to her talking to herself, sometimes trying to order chinese food. It was sometimes funny but mostly sad. I rarely got sleep and I wasn't even the one who had to take care of her as that was my parent's jobs and they wouldn't let me help. If you're still going through this, try to prepare yourself more than him since nothing can really be done for him, but you'll feel the effects for a long time after if you're living with him like I was with my great grandmother. If he's already gone, I'm really sorry for your loss and know that there are people online who understand exactly how it feels to watch dementia and alzheimer's advance.
As someone whos worked in a nursery for people with dementia/Alzheimer's whenever i hear anything remotely similar to EATEOT it gives me chills and scares me
I’d like to say something - your voice is calm and easy to listen to, and the Caretaker’s music under it made it almost hypnotic to watch and listen to this video. Whenever a new clip started to play (the Barney clip or video essay clip) I was scared, like I was vulnerable and almost pulled out of my mind. Maybe that’s just me, but the generally calm and soothing sounds of their voice and the music paired with such a terrifying subject (dementia) just put me into some sort of state of complete vulnerability, letting my guard all the way down. I think that’s rather fitting for this video - it’s a very well made iceberg video. Well done!
There should be a level below the last one, which has "the hell sirens are real recordings from ww2 stuka sirens," "the Stage 6 artwork is a blank canvas, showing the death of the mind," and "in Stage 5, the transition from chaos to calmness is the symbol of extreme brain death"
My great grandmother had Alzheimer's and my grandma will more than likely die from it too. Watching her go from this active woman who was always on the go and could never sit still (because according to her there was always stuff to be done), was always there to take care of me, my brother and my cousins and was basically a second mom to me after my parents divorced to just a little more than an empty husk with no memory of all the things we experienced, unable to recognize me and even her own children, just faintly smiling and looking at what seems to be another dimension is absolutely terrifying. My mother is starting to display symptoms of the disease as well and I'm pretty positive I'm next in line. I feel like crying whenever I listen to this album.
13:30 "When the colours of the stage three cover are inverted, it bears a striking resemblance to synapses." I am amazed at how perceptive and creative other people can be at seeing the connection.
This album is the music I was listening to during the most painful and traumatic breakup of my life. Every time I hear it, it drags me back to that time and that conversation and I nearly pass out, whether from PTSD symptoms or from other, unknown heart or health issues I'm not sure. Good video though haha, worth the bouts of brain shutdown!
I am pretty sure they will let you use one word, like I do, just put a period for the last name ( I think) if it doesn't work I will find the video that showed me how to do it and explain here
This album is absolutely terrifying to me. I can't listen to it without getting nauseous. It's like my worst fear. It reminds me of my aunt and grandma and it horrifies me thinking about what they've gone through. My aunt... I didn't really know her, my memories of her stop at my seventh birthday, but I remember I loved her so much. She died last year but had basically already been dead for ten years before that. She got Alzheimer's at 55. The worst part to me was that when she got diagnosed she was aware that everything was going to slip away from her. Until she wasn't anymore. And my grandma... the last day I saw her, before she died, she spoke to me. She had lost the ability to speak a few weeks before. She looked at me and said, "don't you have school tomorrow?". I cried, because I did, I was in sixth grade at that time, and she remembered. I miss her every day. Idk why I'm writing this but I guess it just feels good to vent. To put down all of these thoughts i've been holding in in fear of crying. This video is brilliant
I will echo what many others have said: this album is disturbing, and not in a temporary fun kind of way. Like many people who have stumbled upon this album via internet algorithms, I am and always have been a huge music listener and creator. I have never, ever been slightly disturbed by anyone else’s music I have ever listened to, and I listen to hours of new music across genres nearly every day. Occasionally, I have made the hair on my own back stand on end by playing improvised dirges on my guitar and staring into an open closet at 3:30am alone in the dark, depressed and going without sleep for multiple nights, but EATEOT is unfathomably worse. I am in my 30s, can watch any sort of horror film and feel fine the next day, have seen real violence and death on the internet and elsewhere, have read extremely disturbing accounts of all manners of unspeakable things… and EATEOT disturbed me as much as the most disturbing thing I’ve ever had to witness (which I’ve edited out). On the other hand, just months after being scarred by this album, my dad got brain cancer, lost his memory, and died. He forgot how to do basic things, forgot who I was (“you look a lot like me!”), and forgot how to speak. I think in a way, EATEOT prepared me for the horrors of losing my dad in that way, and honestly made it a lot easier. I felt like I understood and appreciated what my dad was going through on at least some level, and it granted me patience and acceptance. I still won’t listen to this album again, though.
This album kinda permanently fucked me. Listened to it around the same time my grandmother started to get real bad, in the month or so before she passed. At least, I think, for her the dementia wasn’t a dragged out process. The cancer hit her brain, and her memory went right after. It’s weird, how someone dying can happen both slowly and all at once. I worry about dementia a lot, though. It’s just a burning memory is such a haunting phrase, encapsulating the adamant denial of an end to memory already in the works. I listen to A1 and every crackle is the tinder being lit that will salt the mind and leave it untenable to any thought at all. Sorry I needed to vent.
2:50 I wish you'd mentioned that terminal lucidity is not scientifically proven. The quote you picked from is from an article which flat out states the two physicians who stated it greatly embellished their account, so it's to be taken with a massive grain of salt.
So many people have witnessed it though, which is of course anecdotal, but simultaneously hard to ignore. I think the fact that terminal lucidity is not proven, or more importantly, explained by science, somehow makes it even more harrowing.
oh DAMN. You're actually pretty good! Actually quite excited for more content. Ps: did i mention that i like your accent? It's quite nice and i'd listen to you read an audiobook
I did manage to acquire a physical copy of the horrible book I talked about in my first video (if you’ve seen that), and was considering doing a reading of it. However, doing a proper audiobook is a cool idea, and I’m very flattered to here you’d listen to me reading one. Thank you :)
I personnaly think that Stage 6's cover is genius. The canvas is a memory, and the back of the canvas says we can't see/remember this memory. I'm not usually a big fan of paintings but this one is just too good.
40 subs? Good mic quality? Interesting subject matter? Bro you're underrated as fuck. Subbed EDIT: Also, it's strange how they never talked about how The Caretaker's name and genre are related to The Shining.
As someone who works in Memory Care this should be part of every employer's training program. It would give every employee a chilling reminder of what their patients/residents go through
Ironically, I want to forget I ever listened to this album. It gives me paranoia, which is a first, as I’ve never been paranoid over music. It makes me sad yet I can’t stop coming back to it
The caretaker makes me think about losing my memory as a toddler, I was around 3 when I forgot who I was and couldn't recognize anyone. It makes me think of the fear I had around losing my memory ever since then.
Nice video and heya. I listened to Everywhere at the End of Time twice, once blind and another to analyze minute by minute. I illustrated each track of all 6 albums and am considering to perhaps illustrate more of the Caretaker's songs. Which album would you recommend I visualize next?
Not a caretaker album but it’s really similar Nowhere at the millennium of space is EATEOT but with 2000 - 2010 samples instead of old ones. It’s still a wip and stage 6 has yet to be released but o recomend it
i found this album right after the full version came out (around 3.5 years ago) and i come back to every now and then, when you can really place yourself and understand what someone with dementia is experiencing, it’s a truly heartbreaking experience and i’ll never forget it’s effects.
I'm a big fan of video essayists and those who deconstruct art, so I was easily drawn to this video. I just listened to the album for the first time and craved something that dissected it. I was enjoying your content here when I realized how your channel is still growing! I was taken aback since the quality of your writing really captivated me. I can see you blowing up, and I hope you continue to work on topics that are as interesting and complex as this! Thank you for this video. Really, it's a pleasure.
My grandma has dementia and oh my god it’s so sad. Her memory started to get worse and worse. She blames people in my family for stuff they never did for example “where did you put my bag? you moved all my stuff around last night.” but nobody in my family touched it, she moved it around. She can’t tell the difference between day or night, she speaks full hardcore Italian and when you ask her to speak english she gets all mad because she believes that she was speaking english and she can’t even tell where the washroom and her bedroom are. Her room is just a bed and a washroom (she lives at an old age home) and she will walk into the washroom thinking her bed is in there. It’s just sad I remember her being super independent, being able to live on her own but now she needs someone to be with her almost 24/7.
I recall finding An Empty Bliss Beyond This World whilst trying to find music reminiscent of The Shining, which Kirby was inspired by when creating the album. I used to listen it during college back in 2017 and it helped me finish my work. It's a truly unique album and I love the reverb, as if the music is being played in a desolate landscape or empty building. Even thought it's about something depressing, it helped me focus and fuels my imagination to this day.
A theory i had was that the reason why Heartaches, or Its Just a Burning Memory, shows up many times is because the character with dementia we are following has forgotten about the piece, and keeps re-listening to it "for the first time" despite the fact they have listened to it, they just forgot.
One million views. I cannot thank you all enough for watching this video and giving such nuanced discussion on a morbid but important topic. In retrospect, there are a lot of things that I would do differently if I were to remake this video, but overall I am still happy with the final product as it is now. Thank you for motivating me to pursue my passion and continue making content through some of the most emotionally difficult and creatively burnout periods of my life. I hope to continue 2021 with more ambitious and in-depth projects, but suggestions for topics are always welcome!
Thank you again, and may the ballroom remain eternal.
Don’t need to thank us, you’re the one who made the amazing video!
Well deserved, man.
C'est fini. Great video, my dude.
OR the caretaker skipped stage 1, thus making stages 1 - 6 actually the 2nd to 7th stages of dementia.
This can be backed up by the hell sirens in stage 4 (aka. sundown syndrome), which actually occur in stage 5.
@ If that was true you wouldn’t even be able to say that.
Missed opportunity to say "Level 6 is without description"
becouse it is, even in despripsion of eaeot its
@@houstilicious damn... he forgot how to spell.....
@@Chimera144 NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo
@@Chimera144 NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo
@@Chimera144 NNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO99OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO000OO
Dementia is so depressing and I hope modern science will eradicate it
Waheguru watch over us.
@Jack Kavanagh time to give grandma alcohol
*ayo grandma's wasted again. get the walker!*
Let’s all forget it exists then it’ll disappear
@@LanieMae *FORGET THE FORGETTING*
Stage one is the only one where I’m comfortable
same
That's the point uwu
@@Chimera144 why?
Stage 3 is kind of catchy sometimes
@@sadhatter7015 yeah having your memories slowly fade away while you’re dying of old age is catchy
It's been almost a year since I discovered Everywhere at the End of Time, and almost a year since I started working at a memory care facility, where most residents there have severe dementia. I was sort of nervous going into this job. I thought it was going to be as depressing as this music. And, sure, to an extent, this music can describe certain residents at my facility. Some of them are sort of aware that they are losing their memory, and it's sad to see. But generally, everyone there is very happy, and I've learned what their favourite jokes are so I can say them the next day and hear them laugh at it like they've never heard it before. I appreciate this album deeply. I discovered it right when my grandmother forgot who I was. But it's important to have a sense of humour with people going through this disease. You can be yourself, 100% without fear of being judged. You can be as friendly or as strange, humorous or as funny as you'd like. Because in a day, and in some cases, a few minutes, they'll forget any embarrassing or stupid thing you've done and remain your friend, as long as you're friendly to them.
At least something positive to cheer the mood, thanks I needed that. Even if it kinda has gritty undertones and most likely sad backstories.
I guess one of the only upsides to dementia is you can hear the same joke everyday and still find it as funny as the first time.
@@noahmay7708 you also get to watch your favourite movie for the first time ever again
@@ketaminepoptarts happens to me with songs too, what I like to do, what I’ve noticed is that I can watch a movie/listen to a song and make it feel somewhat like the first time. What I noticed is all I need to do is wait at least 2 months, and it’s like that. Don’t know if anyone else has felt/ discovered this other than me
@@JabubMontoya I used to watch Angry Video Game Nerd when me and my sister were younger, watched a few episodes about 7 or 8 years later (2019) and it felt like rediscovering a childhood gem.
I've come to the conclusion/hypothesis that if you allow yourself to experience things in the little details, returning to them later in life, depending on the length, will make your brain give you that same feeling the first time you experienced that particular thing or moment. I've experienced this with many video games too.
Idk. I'm just a commenter with a theory.
My mom made a theory, the final image is not cardboard with tape or a blank canvas, it’s a photo on the other side, due to memory loss you can’t see it
My mom says “thank you for liking my sons post”
Lmao
maybe it causes a illusion that makes you feel like you have dementia but dont, *or do we?*
I love this theory
Personally, due to the fact that the tape creates a sort of box, I think it represents a photo, but due to memory loss, you can’t remember who or what could possibly be shown in that photo
Rule 43:if it exists there's an ice berg of it
Yes there is a berg made out of ice
I saw this and almost flipped my shit, but its just 43 not 34 ;-;
@@parkerthedirector lmao me too
rule 43 is actually "43. DISREGARD THAT I SUCK COCKS"
@@idkwhattoput7729 where can I read these?
funny that an album about dementia is an unforgettable experience
b r o
it would piss me off a bit if its the last thing i remember
@@the.n.1 guess it was everywhere at the end of your time... heh hehhh....
*runs away*
@@the.n.1 From what I've heard, music is one of, if not the last thing a dementia patient will remember, and they can often be heard humming it. When the music goes, the patient is gone. So someone out there with dementia probably had EATEOT as their final memory.
i want to forget some, but not all. this part of what i wish to not remember
Theirs a video on TH-cam of the 2008 USS Oklahoma survivor’s reunion and in the first minute a Mr. Paul Goodyear described the following, “We got one man in Eastern Texas, he’s in a nursing home, he cannot remember his wife, he cannot remember his children, he cannot remember his family, anything. He can’t remember anything except he could tell you everything that happened those ten minutes of December 7th, that’s just how deeply that is etched in everyone’s mind”.
"No songs later than Stage 1 are played"
Dude thank you so much
That’s just a nice thing to do
I’ve haven’t even listened to the others because when I try I get so depressed and uncomfortable.
i didnt understand that, what was he trying to say? (i dont understand english very well)
@@lemenva2341 EATEOT has 6 stages, each getting more and more depressing, only songs from the first stage are played, and thats a good thing.
@@pathetic_girl not only more and more depressing but more like rusted and glitchy sounds are played like a vinyl record getting rustier
i work as a caretaker
sometimes when im at the alzheimers/dementia wing i lose myself and feel like im a patient of the facility
Are you feeling alright?
You are the caretaker 😳 Intense The Shining flashbacks
have you ever witnessed terminal Lucidity?
Fish Fingers Another caretaker here, and yes, I have. It is one of the most painful things to witness because you are happy in the moment that the person you once loved seems to be back from the dead, but you also know that they are going to physically die soon thereafter. There’s a reason they call dementia the disease with two deaths; first goes the mind, followed by the body sometime later.
MAGIC MAN idk what that means
dementia is like when your trying to remember a dream. The more you think about it the more it fades away untill eventually it’s gone. The memory of the dream starts to deteriorate and then your just left with disappointment.
Except in dementia, you dont know what dissapointment is, nor any other feeling.
You know they exist, but you cant... describe them?
Dreams stay stuck in my head all day till the next day
Some of my dreams....
They’re very strange in ways that I can’t even describe them well...
And thanks to this I shall re do my dream diary.
Sometimes for a second I get like a flashback of the dream
Like a millisecond
And I see what was happening
But it’s hard to explain because it’s like a screenshot of the dream and it dissapears again
I was messed up for a few days after listening to this for the first time. I deal with some mental health issues so I’m a little vulnerable to such heavy experiences.. I seriously advise some level of preparation for this. It’s a strange but intense and weirdly beautiful album. It just made me feel intense sadness, like an overwhelming cloud of fear and anxiety.
Like I was on my death bed, alone. Without my family, but unable to even remember my own families faces with all the noise going on. Just this gut wrenching longing for things to return to normal. Return to the earlier stages, but only slipping further onto the chaos of your lapsing memory. Drowned out by the screaming distorted noise.
@@Nova-pi5de I listened a few from stage one and i feel deep pain and thoughts about dementia can’t imagine how the ones who listened to almost everything would feel like
Fr sometimes i regret listening to it because listening to or thinking about any track from it could turn my happy mood into a sad one
Internet is a strange place you may say but I'm sure you found someone to share the same sadness.
And maybe you would realize and get a new perspective to see the sadness and life as well.
Anyway I hope you're fine :D
This is exactly how I reacted. I was sad the rest of the day/week
"Everywhere at the end of time" is the best video I ever saw, yet I never want to see it again.
I couldn't get past a few hours. It's too difficult.
@@Aster_Risk I watched the whole 6 hours, and I gotta tell you, it gives you a new perspective in life.
@@Aster_Risk I remember initially seeing the title of the video and then it's thumbnail and being confused as to what the video was about then I saw it was 6 hours long and had millions of views so out of sheer confusion & curiosity I clicked the video and read the comments to find out that the video was an art piece that was a musical representation of Dementia I think I watched a few minutes or maybe seconds of it (I don't remember which) then dropped a like and went on with my day.
@@mlgkarbon in what sense exactly? I can never find the time to listen to it but I'm really curious on how it changes one's perspective on everything
@@mlgkarbon I’m Intrested
I’m so glad that this masterpiece has an iceberg theory
Fun fact about your username: All letters in your username could be represented by the Hebrew "Vav" (except O, which could also be represented by Ayin".)
Vav is the sixth letter in Hebrew, and its value in gematria matches its position in the Hebrew abjad.
Fun fact: grubhub delivery dance ad has an iceberg
@@Hidden4125 I’m not American so I didn’t knew this ad, I was for sure happier before knowing it
@@thehound2720 I am sorry, I thought you wouldve seen it before :(
It makes it even better yet worse
I once accidentally fell asleep listening to the album. After being woken up at 4:30 am to E1 playing, I were not having a clue in the who or in the fuck world where I was for a solid couple of minutes. I will never make that mistake again.
Just fucking happened to me and still can't sleep, glad to see I'm not alone!
I've fallen asleep to it a couple of times! Always fall asleep to track 2 or 3 as they're so relaxing and wake up tripping out in stage 4
Oh man, I slept during around stage 2 and woke up at stage 5 I can’t sleep anymore
SAME HERE deadass thought i was haunted for a second
Welp gotta try that lol
Personal thing here: I’ve heard many people mention or talk about certain pieces of media they “can’t listen to/watch” because they’re “not mentally prepared”. I always laughed that off… until now. This project is genuinely, and I mean genuinely, the most terrifying concept I can think of. Dementia is hands down the most terrifying thing in this world and it’s not even really that close, so a project meant to simulate it in all its horror is something that I’m certain will cause panic attacks that persist for a long time. I have been unable to really focus and take my mind off this project for the last few hours simply by seeing people talk about it, I can’t fathom listening. I saw one video where the guy called it the album that broke him, and it damn near broke me just by learning about it.
it really is incredibly disorienting and really really scary. The first time i had heard of it i was with one of my closest friends and we had just pulled it up on his phone and was letting me skip through all the albums while explaining what each stage represents, and it REALLY fucked me up for like two or three days after that, my brain was just consumed by dementia and its reprocussions. listening to this is absolutely not for the feight of heart.
I can't even imagine trying to listen to it alone and not having someone there to be with me
@@lukewatson8848I'm really glad I found comments like these, I won't watch it, I think it would really mess me up. Thanks for the heads up, take care of yourself man
thanks for the input john wilkes booth. preciate it x
I am a Grown Ass Man. I'm scared of very little, including death. And as a Grown Ass Man who does not fear death: I cannot listen to this fucking music. It rips and tears into my brain, I freak out So Bad every time I listen to it. If you aren't ready to listen. /Do not./
I wish there were artists who would do something similar to the Caretaker but...IDK...happy? I like to listen to this album backwards as in Stage 6 - Stage 1 and I like to see it as someone who has been in a terrible accident, or suffering from something serious like depression and how despite it getting better over time there is that lingering pain that is felt while recovering that may not go away, but you are alive.
I like this idea.
You should listen to some of kirby's works released under his own name. two that come to mind are "sadly, the future is no longer what it was" and "eager to tear apart the stars"
I mean isn't that what lo-fi mixes are?
@@Ciaudius no
@@yuchk8588 ok
God anytime I hear even a snippet of music from this album it brings back the giant wave of sad anxiety I got the first time
ikr I tried so hard to listen to the album in its entirety but my anxiety is too bad so I could not make it though the first part. I do like to admire it from afar though :(
same
I was playing rooster and skipped straight to the end, and within the first second of audio of the final track I had a massive anxiety attack that lasted several hours. Fuck that album.
I was listening to it while trying to do my homework but I ended up playing a game. By the way, doing something else to distract yourself while listening to the album does NOT WORK. I still ended up feeling anxious afterwards and I actually became afraid of the dark for some reason. I couldn't make it past halfway of stage 4
I fell asleep while listening to it and finished it while asleep.. bad idea. My dream was scary and confusing, I had dementia, I was lost, it was the worst nightmare I had ever had
“You are the caretaker, you have always been the caretaker.”
“Don’t you recall?”
Thanks for more depression
Thanks Grady.
this sounds like a 1984 reference
Nikodem Glapinski its the shining reference
I should know. I've *always* been here.
12:39
Sad fact:
This guy died when he was 43 because of a parachute mine explosion
This makes me wonder if dying a quick but violent death is worse or better than dying a slow but peaceful death. Maybe shouldn't put it that way.
what’s a parachute mine explosion?
And the _caretaker_ find his body...
Very... Interesting...
@@RenéSaussy a parachute mine is just a naval mine thats dropped from an aircraft via parachute. they tended to be dropped on land targets. hence, he died because he was in the blast radius of a mine
Aaahbright yeah I was confused, I was thinking mine as in pickaxes and dynamite 😅
Not the sample but at least the origin of “Friends Past Reunited” has been found. It’s a rare choir recording of J.S. Bach’s choir piece “Lasst mich ihn nur noch einmal küssen”, from his St. Luke Passion BWV 246.
I’m German myself and interestingly, the text is about someone who wishes to give their deceased friend one last kiss before they put him into his grave. The final minute of silence was already quite indicative of the caretaker’s death, but the choir before that singing about death is like the final nail in the coffin, if you will.
yeah from what I've heard the fpr sample is close to being found. the discord has been working their asses off to find it and a vinyl recording of some church from england (if i recall correctly it was milford parish) was found, but it isnt the one kirby has. kirby himself said he'd release pics of the record he got the sample for fpr from so once he releases the pics the search for the sample might really speed up. quite exciting times to be in the community.
HELLO BLACKOUT1912!
I will say that Bach’s song definitely is not about a friend but rather about a significant other. Bach was actually gay, although sadly this fact isn’t very well known.
@@Sir_Crow It is a widely accepted fact that, due to time constraints, Bach definitely did not write this passion himself but instead only arranged it for orchestra, choir and four soloists. So no, if Bach really was gay, he definitely didn’t show it in this piece, because it’s not even his.
such insight from xXepic_swag_gamingXx
The only time I’ve experienced dementia close up was when I went to see my great aunt with my grandma. We went into her room at the care home, she turned around from her wardrobe and looked at me. My grandma was talking to her but she clearly was not listening. After having a conversation with me only minutes before, she asked me “I’m sorry, but who are you?” My heart dropped so hard. I told her, “well I’m Betty’s (my grandma’s and her sister’s) grand daughter.”
“What? Anthony? Anthony hasn’t got any children?” Anthony is my dad. I walked out of the room where my grandad was standing.
She died a couple months after. She and her sisters were triplets, and now my grandma is the last triplet left. I really hope that doesn’t happen to her.
It’s ironic, because I can’t actually remember my great aunt’s name. She’s the only one. Betty, Gwen and... the one who died with dementia. How poetic and sad.
She is in a better place rn. Worry not
sheesh dude life can be cruel
Find her name, don't let her disappear from life like that dude ..
You've posted it in here, now at least a snippet of a memory of her will remain until the death of the Internet, which is, philosophically, being alive after death.
.... 😔🚬
I did not expect an iceberg video about EATEOT
me neither but we all needed it 😏
As someone else said in the comments: if it exists, there is an iceberg of it
Me for some reason pronouncing it: eateeeeoat
i came here to comment just that
@@Equa11ysurl me too hahaha
2:09 this man doesn’t look like he traumatized millions of listeners
Relatable
as someone who has grandparents with dementia, i can safely admit this album makes me cry every time i listen to it, and thats not an exaggeration.
im sorry buddt
Im so sorry for you dude,
God bless you guys that sucks
Grandparents have a skill issue
@@bingusbongus3109 very funny 😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐
I'm terrified because I'm reminded of my grandmother.
The paintings remind me of my grandmother and the music sounds like the taste of stale water.
It's unsettling. I'm scared of the idea that I'll lose my mind. I'm scared of the idea that I'll end up like her.
My great grandmother died of alzheimers 2 years ago, it’s horrible
I'm glad both of my grandmothers doesen't have dementia and alzimers.
@@Mr.Knightman912 Everywhere at the end of time, you feel your mind shatter, all of the achievements you have made on your long lasting journey are now gone.
You scratch your head, not knowing where you are, people look at you and want to help but you push them away.
"Why am I here?"
"Who am I?"
"What am I doing?"
You keep interrogating yourself these simple things but why?
Same, my grandma died 5 - 6 months ago when she can't remember a single thing about us. At that time i was being dumb, thinking that she will be back normal after going to hospital. But no, it got worse, she can't even stand up or atleast move one of her body, until a weeks later, we apologies to her for the last time.
We miss you Grandma.
You guys are lucky my grandmother died before i was born
Everytime i hear the start of stage 1, it just haunts me for hours.
Your profile pic haunts me for hours
@@abuckarooboyo7104 It's just a dog it isn't gonna hurt you oooooooo scary
@@cdaemondx8241 nah it murdered everyone I knew and loved
@@abuckarooboyo7104 Schizophrenia
Damn I understand you. I grew something that ...should be called 'slow-jazz-phobia' after listening to EATEOT. I can't feel comfort listening to jazz anymore. I don't know something is wrong with me until I play a game called 'kind words' and its soundtrack are mean to be relaxing, but I feel extremely uncomfort on a certain slow jazz track. I caught myself later that it remind me of Everywhere at the end of the time.
No regret listening to this masterpiece though.
Another thing I never hear much about are some track titles on stage 3. “Back There Benjamin” “Libet delay” “Libet’s all joyful comraderies.” Libet is obviously tied to his other work but Benjamin has confused me for a bit. I looked around and found out about Benjamin Libet, a neuroscientist who had conducted an experiment based on free will.
How does this relate to the alum? Idk, just kinda cool tho.
My guess is that Libet’s connection to sciences involving the brain (and the Caretaker project’s connection to the brain) is what made his name such a common motif in Kirby’s work. “Libet’s delay” is a scientific term which refers to the time between being touched and feeling the physical sensation of that touch. I believe I heard that most of the other track names in EATEOT are random jumbles of words taken from a book about the author’s experience about dementia, although I am uncertain of its name. Perhaps Benjamin Libet happened to appear in a randomly generated title and Kirby liked the name, or Kirby discovered him and the term “Libet’s delay” while researching dementia and neuroscience. TL;DR - Those tracks in EATEOT and AEBBTW are definitely named after Benjamin Libet because of his work with the brain, but how they came together as a motif is unclear. Hope this helps :)
Maybe thats the point. Thee is no reason, which is confusing (JUST LIKE DEMENTED MEMORIES)
@@carmenjuliarodriguez3221 I see your point as well. Watching this video, I'm not even a quarter of the way through and I'm already confused about where songs are sampled from, when they are repeated etc. It definitely seems like a concept the artist wants us to experience.
It also may reference “The curious case of Benjamin Button,” a movie and novel by Scott Fitzgerald about an old man who ages backwards. He ultimately falls in love but is unable to stop his backwards aging until he dies an infant. Considering dementia has commonly been compared to the brain “aging backwards,” so much so that there’s a term for it (retrogenesis) I think this is likely
@@zeNUKEify I never thought about that connection.
I think the choir is of Angels; welcoming The Caretaker into the afterlife, his family is watching him die, which is why you hear coughing and shuffling. Then it goes silent as his soul leaves his body.
Terminal lucidity makes sense but it’s also kinda less happy. So please let me have one thing to smile about during this emotional rollercoaster.
Also terminal lucidity may not actually exist.
I agree
Holy shit that does make sense
@@proximab9028 it’s a little controversial of a theory cuz a lot of people don’t believe in the afterlife. Basically whatever the listener believes happens when you die is how they interpret the ending.
The theory that just poses the choir as terminal lucidity and rhe silence as deaths makes more sense tbh
@@wewuzkangz93 I’m an atheist and I completely welcome this idea, not sure abt others tho
BOULDER SMOKIN A CIGGIE
It’s a match, not a cigar. It’s far too thin and the red tip is too round to be a cigar.
@@myusername3689 is this sarcastic or have you never seen that joke
Briish doomer
@@peereeahaha1824 I wanna know the joke
@@beemelonhead1 it’s just people comment boulder smokin a ciggie on the album cover with a boulder smokin a ciggie
My grandfather passed last year due to complications with Parkinson's disease. Up until he was bedridden in a hospital, breathing shallow gasps in pain as his organs shut down, his memory was sharp as a knife. Even at 86 years of age, he only needed minor hints to remember events in his life. He had served in the Navy during Vietnam. He managed to hold out through Veteran's Day, passing the next morning in his sleep. Rest in peace, Conley. You were, and still are, my hero.
the fact that the end of album 6 deserves a spoiler warning is all you need to know tbh
the fact that a piece of music has a spoiler warning though
I haven’t listen to it yet..what happens??
@@blackberry8615 won't tell
go spend 6.5 hours losing your mind to find out
@@blackberry8615 trauma. don't listen if you're not mentally at a good place. it will haunt you
Can someone tell me what it is? I don't have the time to listen anytime soon because of school classes and stuff but like maybe
To avoid others seeing spoilers, it can be told like this
4:05 “... as they are impossible to identify.” Nah, I’m pretty sure that was just a bent coat hanger.
And a chefs hat
A coat hanger with the edges bent backwards hanging on a string. Still very strange and off putting
Ayo who bent the coat hanger where i hang my shirts on?
Second one is part of a mirror
The other was actually a toilet door
Found out about this album through a meme... It's Friday morning and this is not the energy I'm tryna start the weekend off with :-/
Same man, same
Literally what happened to me... I was having a good time on yt and then "oh yeah there's this really depressing 6 hours long music about your mind deteriorating and you dying at the end, listen to it :)" uh no thanks
i found about it from trollge
Same man, hadn't listened to it yet... So it's still kinda the 'that one meme song'' for me.
But from what I've heard damn, it's deep.
@@kubz1570 yeah that song is TERRIFYING
in spite of the depressing nature of this album, it helped me get through late september-late october of 2020. all i remember was doing schoolwork and feeling a bit mentally unsound, which got worse until march of 2021. i even made a fan album called "everywhere at the end of quarantine" which is basically EATEOT but more about emotional decay during the pandemic. besides, most of the samples i used in my album were songs that I listened to during the worst moments of the pandemic. they're more modern than the EATEOT samples but there are a few oldies in there.
I'd be interested in listening!!
It's in my created playlist tab on my channel
bro made the remaster (jokes aside, well done)
😂🎉
My brain went thru a lot of Inflamation+deterioration because of untreated chronic illness, to the point where it mimicked Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s. I’ll pass on listening to this one haha
I hope you're managing better now
@Иван Распутин you can't make fun of someone for being brain damaged while you just typed pronounce instead of pronouns lmfaoooool
Are you OK now?
@@hahaihaveahandlenow wow, I forgot I made this comment! Been nearly a year. Doing so, so much better now, my brain has healed a lot thanks to treatment. Neuroplasticity is a wonder
That’s awesome
“I understand this is more niche than my other videos”
Is his most watched video by a long shot.
lol I know
Thx tiktok, very cool
Hey, I just wanted to say that this video is really great. As someone with ADHD, I'm always trying to achieve a perfect balance of stimulation- enough that I can focus, but not so much that I'm distracted. And this video is perfect. There are hardly any volume spikes or abrupt changes in pace or mood, and your voice is very calm and soothing. I've had it on loop for two hours now. Probably more. Thank you.
I agree!!!
i recommend watching aquarium building, such as serpadesign, or painting restoration, like baumgartner restoration :) they totally help me study!
see I thought that too and all this could make me think about was my own adhd memory issues, god am I glad adhd doesn’t innately get worse with age
I have adhd and while I play video games I just put on long videos that I find interesting but not so much that I can’t focus on the game
@@fyretnt i do that too! it’s so relaxing
I got PTSD and listened to this album while going through it. I literally started to cry hearing Stage 2 for the first time because of how relatable it felt. I was a healthy kid with an amazing memory then I gradually couldn't focus or remember anything for the life of me. On TOP of that I had moved to a different school program and had to repeat tons of work I had already done cuz it went through a different credit program. It felt like I was going in a loop and I was losing my MARBLES
What are you referring marbles as
@@ichinihq sanity i think or mind/brain
I have PTSD and… didn’t know it could cause memory loss. This explains a LOT
OH GOD THIS EXACT THING HAPPENED TO ME OH GOD OH GOD
stop me too plus i have adhd so my memory is just horrible
i saw my name and i SCREAMED OH MY GOD, i can't believe how far those vids reached oh my god... awesome video by the way, been in that iceberg rabbithole and this fuceknnnn, i was like whoa, thank you hahaha
No problem! Thanks for the music.
Vibing to your remixes right now
what iceberg and what name?....
Idk why but stage one is the most unsettling one for me,it's just feels like I know everything is going to be fucked up but I'm just trying my best to be denial with the slow relaxing music...
this! i cant even listen to stage 1 without getting anxious and paranoid
@@noctis1979 gang
Same
I haven't seen the full album only the popular song that came out of it but I'm guessing you know how messed up the album gets soon but you know that it's coming so you're scared of it's arrival
I feel that stage 4 is meant to be the girl with the pearl earring by Johannes Vermeer but distorted
Oh god that's terrifying...she's been twisted to the point that she's completely faceless and just made up of wads of paint..! It reminds me of that one set of self portraits...I forgot the name of the artist, but god that set of portraits was just simply tragic and horrifying...
@@adumbooctopus1115 It's william utermohlen
@@deadchannel408 thanks sus imposter
@@davidholmes2932 Sus 😲😲😲😱😱😨😰 Calling sus impostor at 3AM *Gone sexual*
@@deadchannel408 Hello? Is this imposter? Is this imposter from amogus!?
YES THIS IS THE IMPOSTER
EATEOT made me realize how crazy precious and valuable memories are. In a few minutes, it made dementia and forgetting everything one of my worst fears. It also made me realize that this fear, may not stay a simple fear, but it may become reality. And it become even more terrifying to think about
Memory loss makes you feel crazy
The sample in Place in the World Fades Away has been found, it’s called Lasst mich ihn nur noch einmal küssen, from Johann Sebastian Bach.
Not the sample, the melody
Bach is the man
We did find the song, but it's not the EXACT sample. the sample finders are still looking for it.
We know it was a private recording and only around 50 copies of it exist
@@SamiChenVA you gotta tell me the sauce of your profile pic
@@A42631 Idk bro, twitter
This album is horrifying man. I watched both of my grandparents who raised me pass away over the past few months.
I saw my grandmother with alzheimer's deteriorate over the past two years. She went from just having a little stutter to whatever she was. Over the two years her texts to me became more and more incoherent, until she quit using her phone altogether. as I came to visit her after her husband passed away(a few months before she passed) she would deteriorate worse and worse every week.
I had to run out of the house a couple times because it just got so awful. I was showing her pictures of my niece, evelyn, a 2 year old cancer survivor, who she loved to death. She remembered her, but it got scary when her reality started getting altered. she thought we brought Evelyn over to visit a few minutes after I showed her the photos.
The last time I was able to visit her to bring a gift, it really hurt. She was on her bed, splayed out, mouth wide open. She recognized me, managed to give a very tiny wide eyed nod when I asked a question. A couple of days later she came to pass.
I wouldn't wish alzheimers on my worst enemies. It is so heartbreaking to watch someone deteriorate, to see the fear in their eyes when they realize over and over again that they're losing their mind.
Man,i feel sad for you,r.i.p
God rest her soul. My great grandmother also suffers from dementia. Shes still her cheerful self but I'm scared that'll change soon.
@@darthmader057mmm6 it might but it also might not the shits so unpredictable
@@darthmader057mmm6 It will change soon. 100%. Just spend as much time with her as possible.
When I saw your profile picture I was gonna laugh, but then I read the whole story. I feel bad for you and her and all the people who had to watch her suffer, and also suffer with her.
This comment will probably be buried, but I work in a dementia facility in a nursing home. The 7 Stage Diagram is wrong, and there absolutely are 6 stages. I don't know if the 7 stage diagram is outdated or something, but there are 6 stages.
One thing that I'm noticing is in the 7 stage diagram, there are things that appear to only begin in Stage 7 which normally are present as early as Stage 3. Weird. The Caretaker's album is pretty accurate, pretty much everything past Stage 4 is literally post-awareness.
ok
Thanks for the information!
As far as the 7 stages are concerned, stage 1 has no symptoms. There's still degradation, but it's not to the point that anyone would notice yet. Stage 2 is where the album starts.
@@mememan1546 1 is a part,just a anti-puesdo part
ANTI-PUESDO is a way,that does not seem like a way
the symptoms in that chart seemed so shuffled in the later stages
The first time I listened to it I did it in one sitting while writing. I liked it. It was unlike anything I’d heard before it. The last track hit me hard, I knew exactly what it was representing. I finished writing and didn’t think about the album for the rest of the day. It was just a sad but interesting experimental album that I’d stumbled on.
That night I dreamed that I was sitting in a chair in a bright, hospital like room. I didn’t recognize it, but it was familiar. Hazy figures moved around me. I had no clue who they were, but felt as if I should. They spoke, but I couldn’t make any of it out. They were very cheery in a very forced way. As if they were devastated, but did not want me to know. I felt a childlike happiness all the way through.
It wasn’t until I woke up that I realized that I was a dementia patient.
I haven’t listened to the album since.
its tellin u smth man, that is creepy as hell… naw but fr, i hope ur feelin better and how scary that must be to experience that
Dude I think ghosts of dimentia patients visited you in your sleep
Or it was telling the future. Good luck
that is mad
you made this the fuck up lol
@@mcgfn bro does not know how dreams work
I've only ever heard the first song in EATEOT. I couldn't even go past that. My fear of death, existentialism, and memory loss wouldn't let me go further. I'm so scared of losing the ones I love, but even more scared of losing the memories of them. If they die, I'll still have memories. But if I lose those memories, there'll be nothing left. But there's some morbid curiosity in me that wants to go further into EATEOT. It's scary. Terrifying even.
I'm not sure how to end this, and I apologize that it ended so abruptly. I just felt like I had to get something out.
The first song is arguably the best
I could only listen to the first 2 stages before getting too scared to continue.
are you me
you are quite literally me, holy hell
Same.
Watching dementia patients deteriorate is one of the most deeply scary things I think about
Oh I've Seen It
And also one of the saddest things...
Absolutely. Currently experiencing this at nursing home. It's awfully depressing and confusing
Didn't know about "Everywhere At The End of Time" before this video, but you did an awesome job of introducing me to it! Hope this video blows up!
Same
Oh Everywhere At The End of Time is a scary experience
Anxiety fills up the more stages you go into, I got so scared I never even made it past stage 5.
Or 4...
Dunno Its too scary to remember.
I think it's really cool too. I actually made piano covers of some of the songs on my channel. But yeah, Everywhere At The End of Time is awesome!!!!
I'm surprised that "Everywhere at the end of schizophrenia" wasn't mentioned. Its a very well made depiction of schizophrenia in musical form. Definitely check it out if you haven't already
what is the background music at 0:00
i thought this was a joke about us having schizophrenia but it's actually real
@@QuacktivateAll you are going to want is to get back there - Caretaker
(Its from a older album from him, not Everywhere at the end of time, but its related)
Everywhere at the end of Autism must exists then
I had a thought hearing the last song, an image that popped up in my head. I imagined angels, like those little cherub figurines, pulling the patient into "Heaven". The whole project is the process of tiny angels, angels that can dance on the head of a pin, traveling throughout the brain and destroying memories in preparation for the afterlife. All thoughts of your earthly life is removed, returning you to the blank slate of a soul you were before you were born. The cracks and pops are the angels flashing through the brain like light and cutting the connections. The brain frays and expands into a fuzzy fungus pouring out the ears and nose of the sufferer, and it is bleached white by the angels making it into a new cloud of heaven. The cherubs lift the decayed mind into cold, black heavens far away.
cold black heavens... eugh
......welp Thats gonna give me nightmare
Of course you Christian's manage to connect an album about dementia to something to do with your bogus religon.
@@geodom85yt40 I'm not Christian. I'm an atheist. This is a bit of creative writing inspired by the album.
Does any mention of angels or an afterlife piss you off?
@@geodom85yt40 🤡
level 6 of the iceberg is without description...
He forgot to put one in
@@nickkayfabe6147 don’t got the joke sir
@@emicharr I was trying to make a joke about dementia
@@nickkayfabe6147 i though you didn’t get the stage 6 joke
@@emicharr Joke..? What's a joke? What's stage 6..
I feel faint, I'm going to lay down.
You mean you can make EATEOT even more unsettling than it already is?
I can't help but read EATEOT eatout instead of everywhere at the end of time
@@t26e1-1super-pershing lmaoo i do it too
I never met my great grandpa, but my dad told me about him. He had been loosing his memory's, living in a nursing home. However, one day when dad visited him, he was completely fine. They talked, and he even waved good bye before my dad left (usually he forgot about dad the moment he started to leave). That night, dad woke up with a sickening feeling in his stomach. The next day, he found out he had died.
I dont know what to say
A great example of terminal lucidity
I'm just praying to god I never get dimentia. My great grandmother had it, and it seems like my grandma (same side of the family) is starting to develop it. She forgot about my Grandpa once, but remembered after I reminded her of him. She looked worried but smiled and played it off. If something like that is happening she needs to tell me. She can't just shove me in the dark like that if she thinks something is wrong she needs to go get help.
Sounds rough, but its hard to help someone. Dementia has no cure.
@@tomatertate correct me if i'm wrong but i had a stroke trying to understand how an alzheimer's patient got their alzheimer's cured by forgetting about it
I am incredibly close to my vis-grandmother, she is currently 98 years old, I would not know what to do if something like this happened to her.
she has taught me the love of receiving food always with joy.
But, really, I feel like she has but it seems that it is difficult for her to remember some things, at least she is still very healthy, and she do a lot of exercises.
Greetings from Chile, Antofagasta.
go get her a checkup man
@@epicKerBallze it’s a joke
i swear
its just a burning memory triggers my fight or flight respawnse
God, this comment triggers my flight of flight respawnse.
is this an accidental pun
Bubba
@@NikolaiAvilov4446 i also hope it's not intentional
Lmfao
This music gets me in an odd place from my childhood. It reminded me of when I first read Flowers for Algernon. I've never cried more from a story than that. I was only in 3rd grade when I realized the existential crisis of dementia/alzheimer's or the losing of the mind. It freaked me out as a kid. But I loved the story anyway. Jump to today having heard and listened to the tracks as a normie, and learning there's deeper levels to this... BRUH 😨
Pour one out for my nigga algernon
Isn't that the book written by the guy who had a stroke and could only move his eyelids? I might be wrong but I seem to remember that being the title.
[SPOILER WARNING!!!!]
The ending of Flowers for Algernon left me in a depressed state for a few hours.... God, poor Charlie...
flowers for algernon was so horribly sad man the ending was fucked up
I loved that story. It was so fucked, but I loved it. Poor Charlie..
My great grandpa got diagnosed w dementia and alzheimer’s this year. His memory got very bad that he calls his son his brother.
Yesterday He was about to drive to the nursing home, and of course I went to say goodbye. To my suprise he remembered me, and even smiled at me.
Listening to the caretaker makes me cry everytime. Please appreciate everyone close to you while they remember you.
wow how is he doing now? i’m sorry that that happened
My great grandmother never got diagnosed but we knew that even if we weren't already certain it was dementia (which we were certain of), it wouldn't have helped to have it diagnosed anyway as treatments would only prolong the inevitable. Often she would flashback to World War 2 when she was locked in an internment camp (she is Japanese) because her short-term memory was so bad and she had nothing else to remember. It was sad to watch her go through that. One time, her dementia spiraled from around stage 3 or so to basically stage 6 and she fell, breaking both of her arms. That was when the delusions began in the hospital. It didn't get much better. Oftentimes, since my room was right next to hers, I would wake up in the middle of the night to her talking to herself, sometimes trying to order chinese food. It was sometimes funny but mostly sad. I rarely got sleep and I wasn't even the one who had to take care of her as that was my parent's jobs and they wouldn't let me help. If you're still going through this, try to prepare yourself more than him since nothing can really be done for him, but you'll feel the effects for a long time after if you're living with him like I was with my great grandmother. If he's already gone, I'm really sorry for your loss and know that there are people online who understand exactly how it feels to watch dementia and alzheimer's advance.
@@Myeko2190 Thank you for sharing your story. Sadly my great grandfather passed away two weeks ago. It was hard but it was harder seeing him in pain.
There's a chance he got terminal lucidity
I think the 5th album looks like a man with a cane carrying his newlywed wife down the stairs
Way better than what I came up with lol
@@liamsmith1637 what did tou come up with?
@@klutzycactus4174 A retired powerlifter with cumulative injuries over the years going down the stairs using a cane
My view of it is just a victorian woman with a can and her cape thing draping from her leg while she has a fan in her other hand/maybe a fan and a bag
For me it looks like the knight piece from chess but melted
As someone whos worked in a nursery for people with dementia/Alzheimer's whenever i hear anything remotely similar to EATEOT it gives me chills and scares me
When you inverted the colours of the album for cover 3, I saw cherubs surrounding something. Possibly signifying death coming soon?
new to this, what's a 'cherubs'???
@@Elizabeth-sv1ui little angel bastards
@@velocitypeasant5832 o h-
don't cherubs represent love?
@@el._.diabl0 possibly?
I’d like to say something - your voice is calm and easy to listen to, and the Caretaker’s music under it made it almost hypnotic to watch and listen to this video. Whenever a new clip started to play (the Barney clip or video essay clip) I was scared, like I was vulnerable and almost pulled out of my mind. Maybe that’s just me, but the generally calm and soothing sounds of their voice and the music paired with such a terrifying subject (dementia) just put me into some sort of state of complete vulnerability, letting my guard all the way down. I think that’s rather fitting for this video - it’s a very well made iceberg video. Well done!
There should be a level below the last one, which has "the hell sirens are real recordings from ww2 stuka sirens," "the Stage 6 artwork is a blank canvas, showing the death of the mind," and "in Stage 5, the transition from chaos to calmness is the symbol of extreme brain death"
@First Self He explained in the video that the bottom are just speculations, so I was going off of that, should have clarified
Being forgetten is scary, but forgetting is terrifying
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100k...bro...
nice :D
Very epic!
Grats! You deserve it.
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u deserve it!
My great grandmother had Alzheimer's and my grandma will more than likely die from it too. Watching her go from this active woman who was always on the go and could never sit still (because according to her there was always stuff to be done), was always there to take care of me, my brother and my cousins and was basically a second mom to me after my parents divorced to just a little more than an empty husk with no memory of all the things we experienced, unable to recognize me and even her own children, just faintly smiling and looking at what seems to be another dimension is absolutely terrifying. My mother is starting to display symptoms of the disease as well and I'm pretty positive I'm next in line. I feel like crying whenever I listen to this album.
Hey man i know its almost been a year but are you still ok?
You okay man?
I'm in the same boat, it's running down my family... sometimes I wish we could get any sort of experimental therapy here..
There are things you can do to mitigate your risk, and there's always hope that they may find a way to end this disease.
The stage three cover looks like Van Goh’s sunflowers, but extremely distorted. Has anyone else noticed that?
I always recognize it as a real life Oak Sapling.
Stage 2 appears to have a boy and a girl playing but in stage 3. They appear to be bigger playing around in a tree. Stage 4 and 5 are seperated.
it actually looks more like his painting "Irises" (the yellow background one)
13:30
"When the colours of the stage three cover are inverted, it bears a striking resemblance to synapses."
I am amazed at how perceptive and creative other people can be at seeing the connection.
This album is the music I was listening to during the most painful and traumatic breakup of my life. Every time I hear it, it drags me back to that time and that conversation and I nearly pass out, whether from PTSD symptoms or from other, unknown heart or health issues I'm not sure.
Good video though haha, worth the bouts of brain shutdown!
I am pretty sure they will let you use one word, like I do, just put a period for the last name ( I think) if it doesn't work I will find the video that showed me how to do it and explain here
@@CHKNSkratch Oh thanks lol
This album is absolutely terrifying to me. I can't listen to it without getting nauseous. It's like my worst fear.
It reminds me of my aunt and grandma and it horrifies me thinking about what they've gone through. My aunt... I didn't really know her, my memories of her stop at my seventh birthday, but I remember I loved her so much. She died last year but had basically already been dead for ten years before that. She got Alzheimer's at 55. The worst part to me was that when she got diagnosed she was aware that everything was going to slip away from her. Until she wasn't anymore.
And my grandma... the last day I saw her, before she died, she spoke to me. She had lost the ability to speak a few weeks before. She looked at me and said, "don't you have school tomorrow?". I cried, because I did, I was in sixth grade at that time, and she remembered. I miss her every day.
Idk why I'm writing this but I guess it just feels good to vent. To put down all of these thoughts i've been holding in in fear of crying. This video is brilliant
Missed opportunity to call levels 'stages'
@Henry's Alt r/woosh
That was the strangest woosh i have seen in a min
@Henry's Alt lol “don’t woosh me”. I don’t know why but that made me laugh
@@jayst cuz it's pretty funny lmao
I'm tired too
the outro music is dimentia but epic
epic
Very epic indeed
it's epic
it's epic
epic
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why everyone want me to listen to this EAT EOT stuff, like no I dont want to eat EOT
IKR like what even is EOT? 🙄
Oats
@@bruhnard3391 they’re oats *i think*
@@bruhnard3391 EATEOT stands for the actual album Everywhere At The End Of Time
@@legolover25106 ...
I will echo what many others have said: this album is disturbing, and not in a temporary fun kind of way. Like many people who have stumbled upon this album via internet algorithms, I am and always have been a huge music listener and creator. I have never, ever been slightly disturbed by anyone else’s music I have ever listened to, and I listen to hours of new music across genres nearly every day. Occasionally, I have made the hair on my own back stand on end by playing improvised dirges on my guitar and staring into an open closet at 3:30am alone in the dark, depressed and going without sleep for multiple nights, but EATEOT is unfathomably worse. I am in my 30s, can watch any sort of horror film and feel fine the next day, have seen real violence and death on the internet and elsewhere, have read extremely disturbing accounts of all manners of unspeakable things… and EATEOT disturbed me as much as the most disturbing thing I’ve ever had to witness (which I’ve edited out).
On the other hand, just months after being scarred by this album, my dad got brain cancer, lost his memory, and died. He forgot how to do basic things, forgot who I was (“you look a lot like me!”), and forgot how to speak. I think in a way, EATEOT prepared me for the horrors of losing my dad in that way, and honestly made it a lot easier. I felt like I understood and appreciated what my dad was going through on at least some level, and it granted me patience and acceptance. I still won’t listen to this album again, though.
what was the most disturbing thing you've ever had to witness?
@@s1lv3rfir3 You forgot.
@@Yanxve ???
@@s1lv3rfir3 Exactly.
@@Yanxve LOL
This album kinda permanently fucked me. Listened to it around the same time my grandmother started to get real bad, in the month or so before she passed. At least, I think, for her the dementia wasn’t a dragged out process. The cancer hit her brain, and her memory went right after. It’s weird, how someone dying can happen both slowly and all at once.
I worry about dementia a lot, though. It’s just a burning memory is such a haunting phrase, encapsulating the adamant denial of an end to memory already in the works. I listen to A1 and every crackle is the tinder being lit that will salt the mind and leave it untenable to any thought at all.
Sorry I needed to vent.
It's ok
2:50 I wish you'd mentioned that terminal lucidity is not scientifically proven. The quote you picked from is from an article which flat out states the two physicians who stated it greatly embellished their account, so it's to be taken with a massive grain of salt.
@@avaneshprasan6492 That's not what the saying means at all.
So many people have witnessed it though, which is of course anecdotal, but simultaneously hard to ignore. I think the fact that terminal lucidity is not proven, or more importantly, explained by science, somehow makes it even more harrowing.
oh DAMN. You're actually pretty good! Actually quite excited for more content.
Ps: did i mention that i like your accent? It's quite nice and i'd listen to you read an audiobook
I did manage to acquire a physical copy of the horrible book I talked about in my first video (if you’ve seen that), and was considering doing a reading of it. However, doing a proper audiobook is a cool idea, and I’m very flattered to here you’d listen to me reading one. Thank you :)
@@Guineax Are you implying Atlanta Nights is horrible and not a proper book?
beyeyd
I personnaly think that Stage 6's cover is genius. The canvas is a memory, and the back of the canvas says we can't see/remember this memory. I'm not usually a big fan of paintings but this one is just too good.
what is the background music at 0:00
read the description
great video!!
i'm addicted to those iceberg videos though..
40 subs?
Good mic quality?
Interesting subject matter?
Bro you're underrated as fuck. Subbed
EDIT: Also, it's strange how they never talked about how The Caretaker's name and genre are related to The Shining.
Thank you so much. It’s comments like yours which motivate me.
This dude deserves alot more..
Wow you put my sculptures in the video. I was not expecting that at all. Thank you 10:16
As someone who works in Memory Care this should be part of every employer's training program. It would give every employee a chilling reminder of what their patients/residents go through
Nice to see that the iceberg has six levels.
Just like how there are 6 stages.
I went on a mental breakdown during stage 5 and immediately stopped listening
I couldn't fucking take it man.........
Honestly understandable. Had a legit existential crisis after I listened to the whole thing.
why are y’all so scared lmao
I can listen to the whole thing
Ironically, I want to forget I ever listened to this album. It gives me paranoia, which is a first, as I’ve never been paranoid over music. It makes me sad yet I can’t stop coming back to it
The caretaker makes me think about losing my memory as a toddler, I was around 3 when I forgot who I was and couldn't recognize anyone. It makes me think of the fear I had around losing my memory ever since then.
listening to this album makes me feel sick, depressed. It's a modern work of art that will go down in history as one of the best albums of all time
How do you only have 45 subs... This video is so professional. Like and sub. Keep rockin.
Nice video and heya. I listened to Everywhere at the End of Time twice, once blind and another to analyze minute by minute. I illustrated each track of all 6 albums and am considering to perhaps illustrate more of the Caretaker's songs.
Which album would you recommend I visualize next?
Not a caretaker album but it’s really similar
Nowhere at the millennium of space is EATEOT but with 2000 - 2010 samples instead of old ones.
It’s still a wip and stage 6 has yet to be released but o recomend it
@@pinkman_ Where can I see these illustration?
@@hamstersamiright8837 th-cam.com/video/EWlh0GGW0qw/w-d-xo.html
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i found this album right after the full version came out (around 3.5 years ago) and i come back to every now and then, when you can really place yourself and understand what someone with dementia is experiencing, it’s a truly heartbreaking experience and i’ll never forget it’s effects.
I'm a big fan of video essayists and those who deconstruct art, so I was easily drawn to this video. I just listened to the album for the first time and craved something that dissected it.
I was enjoying your content here when I realized how your channel is still growing! I was taken aback since the quality of your writing really captivated me. I can see you blowing up, and I hope you continue to work on topics that are as interesting and complex as this! Thank you for this video. Really, it's a pleasure.
Thank you very much, I really appreciate meaningful comments like this.
@@Guineax of course!! All creators deserve encouragement
Editing is so good, you deserve more views.
tbh this is one of my fav icebergs
thanks
My grandma has dementia and oh my god it’s so sad. Her memory started to get worse and worse. She blames people in my family for stuff they never did for example “where did you put my bag? you moved all my stuff around last night.” but nobody in my family touched it, she moved it around. She can’t tell the difference between day or night, she speaks full hardcore Italian and when you ask her to speak english she gets all mad because she believes that she was speaking english and she can’t even tell where the washroom and her bedroom are. Her room is just a bed and a washroom (she lives at an old age home) and she will walk into the washroom thinking her bed is in there. It’s just sad I remember her being super independent, being able to live on her own but now she needs someone to be with her almost 24/7.
Sending you and your family lots of love ❤️
I recall finding An Empty Bliss Beyond This World whilst trying to find music reminiscent of The Shining, which Kirby was inspired by when creating the album. I used to listen it during college back in 2017 and it helped me finish my work. It's a truly unique album and I love the reverb, as if the music is being played in a desolate landscape or empty building. Even thought it's about something depressing, it helped me focus and fuels my imagination to this day.
i would kill for this album to be released physically.
All of the stages are getting repressed on vinyl later this year, along with AEBBTW and Patience After Seabald.
Can I ask what the fuck is wrong with your channel?
@@kohrenhund IKR I LITERALLY SHAT MYSELF WHEN I SAW THE PFP
@@knownmints shat yourself
@@knownmints same
Good lord, been searching for this type of video for a bit now. I like your tone when discussing these type of subjects as well, heavily underrated.
A theory i had was that the reason why Heartaches, or Its Just a Burning Memory, shows up many times is because the character with dementia we are following has forgotten about the piece, and keeps re-listening to it "for the first time" despite the fact they have listened to it, they just forgot.