Story Time: My family died
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 23 ส.ค. 2024
- First of all, sorry for shooting in portrait mode. I'm using my iPhone and I default to portrait for everything, without thinking about widescreen.
This is the story of how my family died last year.
TW: a lot of crying and talking about child death.
It's 12 months on since it happened...I didn't know if I would make it to be honest. But I did. I'm here to tell the story.
Thank you for watching.
Rachael x
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“People think that grief slowly gets smaller with time. In reality, grief stays the same size. But slowly life begins to grow bigger around it” - Dr Lois Tonkin
Thank you for sharing this.
That’s the truth.
I felt this. My husband passed away at 37. 10 years later and I cry every day
Very true, you never forget or heal completely but learn how to live around it.
Best explaination I ever heard was by a hospice nurse, grief is a giant red button that sits inside a box and that box is your everyday life. Whenever someone passes away, the box surrounding the button is very small and the button takes up a majority of the space inside. And every time that button gets pushed it causes a physical pain like an electrical shock. And someone releases a bouncy ball inside the box and shuts the door. So it bounces off the walls and hits that pain button a lot. But over time the box surrounding said pain button gets larger. The button never gets smaller, it is always the same size. The pain felt when the button pushes never diminishes, it feels the exact same level of pain that you felt the first time it was pushed. As you go through life and the box gets bigger the button gets hit by the bouncy ball less and less. But when it does, it is all consuming agony. It never gets less and the button never gets smaller. The worst part, you can’t see the bouncy ball, you have no warning when it’s going to hit the button. You simply just live your life, hoping beyond hope that the button doesn’t get hit by the bouncy ball. But you know it will eventually. Sometimes it happens backed to back and you have to deal with another shock of pain before you have recovered from the last hit. And then sometimes it doesn’t get hit for a long time but when it does, it still brings you to your knees just like the first time.” I hope that I explained that correctly.
I listened to your whole story because I lost my baby daughter to homicide almost 5 years ago. There’s nothing I can say to comfort you, but I am sitting beside you and holding your hand while you stare at the gaping hole that used to be your life. We’re part of a club we didn’t ask to be in. I’m here. You’re not alone.
I am so incredibly sorry.😢❤
I’m very sorry for your loss. Nobody should have to go through anything like that.
Im praying for you...May God's comfort embrace you & grant you healing. May you find love again, be a Mum again and be happy and at peace...🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss.
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I’m just a 13 year old guy. but I want to say I’m very proud of you, and I hope you have a great life, may Oria and Ashley rest in peace. I’m very sorry for all the pain you’ve been through, and I hope it gets better, thank you for sharing oria and Ashley’s story.
What a sweet young man!
You are a kind and wise young man ❤
Well said young man 🫶🏼
I'm proud of you too kiddo. Very sweet of you. ❤
What a kind and compassionate young man you are! So proud of you, kid 🙏🏻
My son put your video in my face. I just know he did. He passed less than 2 months ago. He’s been directing me and protecting me. I am so broken. As I know you are. But darling girl, I will tell you that you are shining light through sharing your painfully tragic story. Tears flowed for your pain and for my own. My son is trying to help heal me through your story. Continue to find your light, your purpose, yourself. One day I hope you can find joy as well. ❤
Thank you for being open to his communications because I can’t imagine how much effort he goes through to let you know he is okay. I wish I would have kept a journal of “signs” that were sent. My heart goes out to you and I’m so sorry that you lost your son. Thank you for posting your comment. It gives others hope. Sending virtual hugs. 🦋🦋🦋 You know deep down inside he’s okay, but your heart and mind are in shock right now. You should watch videos on YT about NDE (Near death experiences.) That helped me a lot. I’m here if you need me. 🙏🏼
I feel the same way. I lost my son too.
God bless you. My great grandson was killed by 2 oilfield trucks. He was 6. We bury him tomorrow and are unable to view him because of the severe damage.
@@ritablackmon5162 Prayers for you and your family my deepest condolences
@@crazeelotta thank you
I'm not sure why TH-cam recommended this video to me, but I don't believe in coincidences. I'm honored to have held space with you for 36 minutes while you told us your story. You, your family, and Ashley's family will be in my prayers. I simply cannot imagine that kind of crushing grief you all are going through.
No such thing as coincidences in life. My heart hurts about this whole video. I lost my niece in a car accident and I was talking about it today..... before I was recommended this video. AI and algorithm is CRAZY! They always listening (our phones) 😢
Same here. Sometimes the algorithm shows me just what I need to see and hear. 💔
@@jondra1693Your phone is always listening…
The same scenario for me. So much love in us 🙏🏼💕💖
i,m so so sorry gir your loss, I eish the best in the whole workd for you your family, love from denmark
Dear Heavenly Father please wrap this mum in your warm embrace and heal her broken heart. She has endured pain that no parent should ever experience.
💔😞. 🙏🏻🕊️
Yes! Amen 🙏🏼💔
Was praying the same. Amen❣️
🙏 Amen
Amen.
To say “I’m in pain hurting every day but it’s my goal to spread light” that is strength when you have none❤
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You are such a strong, brave lady. I'm so sorry x
The fact that this amazing mother makes comments several times about how bad she felt for others who were involved in this tradedy speaks volumes for the kind person she is inside. I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you go thru. I pray for your comfort and peace, although I know it escapes you. 😢❤😢❤😢❤
Amen. It's clear she's a kind and caring parson.
So so very sorry for you
I’m not sure why TH-cam recommended your video to me, but I stopped what I was doing and just stared at my phone and listened for 36 minutes and 5 seconds. Thank you for sharing your and Oria’s life with the world.
Me too, it's directed us all here for a reason, whatever that reason is, we're here x we're here together to try to support Rachael and for her baby girl Oria and for each other x ❤
Same here, it showed up on my recommendations and I felt compelled to hear every word. My heart aches for you and I’m sending lots of love and hugs to you. It is obvious you loved her deeply and were a wonderful mother to her. I’m so sorry this happened and I can’t imagine the pain you’re feeling. I’m sure sharing her story was extremely difficult, but you’re keeping her memory alive and now she also lives in the hearts of lots of other people who have watched your video of her story. ♥️
Same here. I don't watch stuff like this usually because my mama heart just can not take it. But i felt completely compelled to listen to every word. I am so so very sorry, Rachael. Oria is loved by many & Oria will never be forgotten. I am praying for you. From one mama to another, I love you. 🫂 Thank you for sharing your story, I hope it helped even just a little bit to share it.🙏❤️🩹
@@PBJ22525 same.
Same. This is gut wrenching. I have four girls. 💔
My Husband was Hawaiian and Samoan, he was a Police Officer, he was murdered almost eight years ago. He will make sure Your Precious Little Angel is safe and will watch over her till you can be back together again. God bless you❤
What a sweet thing to say 💛🙏 I’m sorry for your loss. May he and Oria rest in eternal peace 💛
Sorry to hear about your husband
I am so very sorry for the loss of your husband. You just shared such a beautiful, selfless gift with her. This speaks volumes about who you are, and I am thankful the world has you. Lifting you up in prayer.
@@MarsEdition Hi there yeah I've just watched her video I feel her pain and suffering
Oh God bless you honey - I am so sorry you lost your precious husband - a public servant. I pray he is a peace.
I have done autopsies on probably somewhere close to a hundred children of various ages (I was a forensic pathologists assistant). I did my job with the greater care than I have done anything in my life for children. Adults I could handle, my mind justifying that they'd lived some life at least. I was still empathetic, but children are completely innocent in almost all circumstances. Those cases chipped away at me until I had a mental breakdown and couldn't take it anymore. I don't know how people spend their whole lives doing this sort of thing. Those who work with death are truly unsung hero's.
This made me absolutely lose it. You and your family will forever be in my thoughts
Thank you for your service, what a heartbreaking role
❤ Having a breakdown is certainly not pleasant but it's your mind and body saying...I can't do this anymore ❤
There ain't nothing wrong with that. Take care of your soul. You have a good one ❤
You have reached a level of consciousness that not many women will ever reach. You will rise from this. You are the strongest woman I know.
I am so sorry for your pain, and if I could lessen it I would. May the angels wrap you in their love as they hold your daughter. Our bodies die, but We do Not die. Google NDE of Anita Moorjani. The cruelty of your ex-husband is unfathomable. Know that those of us who experienced similar are sending the warmth of our love in hope that it will at least ease your pain and grief, even if it is just a bit.
I lost a daughter, Chelsea, on April 4, 1987. The sane day that she was born. My daughter in law, who is pregnant, called and told me her due date is April 4. Her name will be Emma or Emily. ❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🦋🦋
I am sorry for your loss. I can relate. My wife, pregnant with what would have been our first child, died suddenly in an auto accident. She was just 27 years old and I was 30 at the time. I am 59 today and there is not a sun that has set since that I haven't thought of her and not a night that fell, crawling into my bed alone that I didn't long for her. I remember the way her hand felt in mine, the smell of her, they way she felt when we hugged and the way she made me feel being held by her. I remember how she lit up a room when she walked in, her infectious smile and contagious laughter. I remember how her long blonde curly hair disastrously turned into a fro at the first hints of humidity, lol. I remember she sometimes snorted when she laughed. But most of all, I remember how much she loved God and lived a life of selflessness. In all these years of hearing people say I had to move on and find love again, to that I say hogwash. I know what I'm worth and know what I deserve and it would be unfair of me to myself and any other woman because I could never fully give myself to knowing I will always be in love with the woman who awaits me in Heaven.
God BLESS you sir. I am excited for the reunion you will experience when that moment comes and Jesus calls you home or the moment Jesus is told to go and receive His Bride. They are watching and waiting for that moment.
I'm sorry. That was beautiful.❤
What an amazing man ❤
That is truly one of the most beautiful things I've ever read! I'm sorry for your loss, she's with you in spirit though their never truly gone! I know it's not the same, I truly am sorry for your loss
😭😭😭 man im crying, God bless you and your beautiful wife and unborn child. ❤
The fact that you considered the feelings of the female officer that had to be in the room with your deceased child, even in the midst of your own grief, says a lot about your character. God bless you and I am saddened by your loss.
I was really struck by that too. And the grief her mother had to go through in identifying her daughter. Empathy like this is truly a rare gift and you shine even though it is so terribly difficult right now. You don’t need anything more than yourself to give. That is MORE than enough! I believe you are just what this world needs right now. I’m so sorry for your tremendous loss. Never give up.
I am so very sorry your beloved daughter is missing from you . As well as the man that you had loved as a husband and father- though you were seperated it had to be such a horrible blow.😢😢😢😢
I thought that to😢
Yes, it's a true testament to one's character and their remarkable kindness to not only think about a total stranger's feelings but to genuinely consider them in a moment when selfishness would be entirely warranted and expected.
That is exactly I thought when she said that.
I used to work in DV and I've seen and heard all kinds of horrific violence, but nothing compares to murdering the child or loved one of the ex partner. It is the cruelest act of violence and control. You are an incredible person to commit to living and surviving and finding new ways to be in this world. You and Oria did not deserve this. ❤
Her painful agony slices like a thousand hot knives, a terrible grief. I made myself watch and witness knowing my acute discomfort is a shadow of her pain. It is hellish to know her experience. AND beautiful to learn that her LOVE for her child and Compassion for others and herself is quietly larger than this unimaginable kind of loss. It battles and balances the obscenity of her daughter's death. Her heart is punctured but Love , Light and Forgiveness pour out with the tears and sorrow. In the retelling the grief can be shared and love magnified. She does great honor to Oria's spirit and cracks open a doorway to a possible way forward carrying the burden of loss.
This comment is so beautifully and perfectly worded
@@f-bradbeautiful ❤️
This was the single most gut wrenching video I’ve ever watched. I have never cried so deeply for a total stranger. My heart is absolutely shattered for you and your baby girl lost.
I’m so sorry for your loss. A child isnt suppose to go before the parent. You seem strong, you’re going to be ok, but it’ll take a while. God bless you for putting this on utube…this is the start of your healing🙏🙏🙏
Exactly and we can all be here for her always..I feel ao deeply saddened for Rachael. Alls i want to do is go hold her.😢😢😢😢
Me too❣️
My heart is breaking 💔 for her. I found myself wanting to reach through the screen to hug her ❤ Prayers, love and healing to you and your family - Wendy
I feel the same way, just wish i could hug her! So sorry!@@nicholreed7008
I’m a 64 year old man. I hadn’t cried for years until I watched this video. You’re definitely in my prayers tonight.
It's impossible not to cry, after hearing such a heartbreaking story 😔
Oh you poor darling may God wrap his arms around you and heal you, I am in tears 😢 💔🙏🙏🙏
@@marcioramos2632I think you need to calm down. What you’ve said just now is very insensitive, I’m not very religious myself but you can’t just say that..
@@goofyrat2938 you are right. my bad...
@@marcioramos2632that's a hateful thing to say God is our only salvation I pray for you that you don't find out the hard way your life is in need of a Savior
My 20 yr old Grandaughter Amanda died from an accidental overdose 3-8-2016. Then my 47 yr. old son John ( Amandas father) died in a motorcycle accident 58 days later, 5-5-2016. I dont believe it was an accident. I think he just couldn't take it anymore and went to be with her. I feel your pain, and the terribly sad way you lost your child, Oria and Ashley too!❤
I stumbled upon this while trying to distract myself from thinking about how I miss and want my son back, so badly, but agonize over the last ten years after losing him. I know that he wanted me to see this and even though it doesnt take my pain away, your amazing selflessness makes me a little stronger. God bless you sweetheart, your little Oria and all those who love her still.
I will never understand why a suicidal parent takes their child with them. I'm so terribly sorry for your loss.
To hurt the xspouse deepest pain ever, so sorry 😞 😢😮
Satanic
They probably weren't in their right mind at all. The lady is at peace with it now, doesn't take away what's happened but yeah 😢
A monster
He was a deliberately HOMICIDAL person. He has killed everything. This poor woman has had her entire world ripped apart by someone whom she LOVED. His selfishness is evil.
He KNEW how this would affect his ex! He did the wrong thing … and KNEW it would cause all this pain and anguish. He was much more sadistic than suicidal.
WILLFULLY SADISTIC
I worked as a paramedic. I hope the medics that worked on your precious daughter are able to find peace. It's haunting some days. I hope you find peace and are able to smile and laugh again. I will remember your daughter always.
Idk if this helps any, but the people you saved will forever be grateful to you. I wish I could find the paramedics who took care of me (multiple GSW's) and just hug them. They were also comforting me because my loved one passed in my arms while I was attempting to keep him alive till the medics got there. I still live with survivors guilt from that. But THANK YOU for your work as a paramedic. Paramedics and EMS are the calm and safety in the middle of the worst storm of your life. So from the bottom of my heart, thank you for your service. ❤
I cannot imagine the heartache & trauma first responders endure for the people they help! We forget about this
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I couldn't imagine having that job seeing stuff like this. It would affect me in the darkest ways possible in ways I couldn't imagine. I'm so grateful for that job but I wouldn't envy it for anything.
Thank you for your service!
You are so brave for sharing your darkest most raw time in your life.. there will never be enough words to heal your heart of this agonising heartbreak youre going through 😢 but talking about Oria and your pain will help heal your peace ❤ my deepest sympathy to you ❤
So sorry for your loss. Watching my sister go through the loss of her son. He fell asleep on the sofa and didn't wake up. 27 years old. It will be a week tomorrow. Sending you and your family love. ❤
You are one of the bravest women I had the honor of being a part of for the last 30 minutes. I am crushed by your story but find joy that you have peace. Countless blessings to you until you meet your daughter again on the other side.
My heart breaks for the loss of your daughter! Be strong and have faith in God ! Your daughter is with you always! I am sure you see signs of her, she will not leave you ! God bless you !
And a forgiving heart...
So courageous she is for sharing her story.
The healing power of this video…I hope it helps her and so many more. 🤍
I cannot imagine your pain but I hope, somehow, you can rebuild your life in time to remember and honour your precious daughter and fight on. I am sad and so angry you have been through this. 😢 I genuinely hope sharing your experience here helps you. It is brave and raw and you have my respect for doing it. ❤
God please envelop this hurting mother in your arms and give her the grace to slowly heal.
You feel that you’re able to communicate with god via the TH-cam comment section?
@matthewnewton8812
If you had God in your life, you'd realize he's everywhere... I pray you find him and don't leave comments like this in comment sections.
❤️🙏🏻❤️
Amen to that.@@goose7574
@@matthewnewton8812God is omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent. He can hear everything, see everything, He knows everything. God can bless this woman just because someone ask for it. He can do anything. I pray He saves this poor lady's soul. This much pain is unbearable for anyone. No matter what you believe you should as least send positive vibes her way. To go through so much like this is horrific.
Amen
Im not sure why I got this video recommended. But I stopped and listened to your whole story. I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I'm sitting here crying my eyes out for you. I can not even imagine that kind of pain. I have 2 little boys myself, and it absolutely breaks me listening to your story. It's amazing that you've already found so much strength and are pushing forward. I bet your little girl is so proud of you❤ All the love, thoughts and prayers to you and your families❤
As a mother im so sorry for your loss!Youre very strong to tell your story! ❤
This was the most gut wrenching thing I’ve ever heard. I’m so incredibly sorry .
Had to pause at 10:37 mins in....
Just to say...
Your pain is felt through the screen.
I am in canada.. .
And although I havnt finished the video yet or found out what the police revealed fully... that I am sending you love and prayers and that I hope that God takes away your pain and heart ache and makes everything whole for you ❤
I am sorry honey. Come to my country costa rica . I d like to see you and take you to visit this paradise country. It really hurts me to hear your story
@@josedanielchavarriachevez2087CC B C
Yes yes. How much pain can one heart hold? Thankfully we are all here hoping our presence can soothe this poor mother even a tiny bit.
It’s so striking how, in the midst of telling this story of what I’m sure everybody on earth would agree is the worst thing anybody could ever go through, you were thinking about how horrible it must’ve been for the police officer. You took the time to write trigger warnings in your description. You’ve somehow managed to get to a place where you wish peace upon the man who did this to you. I’m absolutely in awe at what a selfless, incredible person you are. I have every faith that you will do your beautiful Oria so very proud.
Beautifully said. ❤️
I was thinking the same thing, but didn't know how to say it. Rachel is such an inspiration. I couldn't be more grateful to hear her story. Absolutely beautiful ❤️
She is inspiring.
I agree
That’s what hit me, too. Such a beautiful soul, just like her Oria.
Life can be so hard and painful. Even though you have gone through so much grief you still want to shine your light with us. Thankyou for sharing your story as that helps everyone who has gone through grief. Grief can be so painful and you are such a strong beautiful person to come out the other side and tell your story. Shine your light! you are still a mum and when you see her again, it will be the best reunion ever!!
My daughter’s 13 yr old son died and it almost destroyed her. She went through a really difficult and dark time. You never get over the loss of a child, but you get through it over time. You have to stay connected to others-you can’t get through this alone. I pray that you are given strength and the peace that surpasses all understanding, the peace that comes from God. 😢
"...sat and held her hand, and it was still warm"
That is quite literally the absolute worst thing I have ever heard in my 58 years.
May you find some peace in this life.
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It's the worst I've ever heard in my 58 years too 😢
You poor, poor dear. My heart goes out to you.
I hope you feel mine and strangers hugs and strength. You're going to need it. You're right, there are no words we can say that will lessen this pain. You are allowed to take this time, feel the pain and slowly with help join life again. It will be a different future for you but you will get through it in Oria's name. She will help you through memories. ❤
I’m watching all the ads because I’m just a broke college student but this poor mama😢
Rachael, my daughter was killed by her ex-husband when she was 30, in 2016. Her child survived. I know exactly what you mean about the first year; everything is exquisitely painful. The grief never goes away nor does it necessarily lessen, but after the first year it changes from acute into chronic and the loss becomes part of who you are. From there you rebuild. As you are now.
Thank you for your wisdom ❤️
For now I wish you strength🌸
I’m sorry for your loss.
That was well described. I’m sorry for your loss.
Please take care ❤
I am so sorry for your loss, Rachel... My heartfelt condolences. Hang in there. Your baby is in paradise. 😢🙏
Oh my darling Rachael, your story appeared on my feed. I'm so sorry for your loss, but wow what a courageous, brave, inspiring person you are xxx. You will.never stop being Oria's Mummy xxx. Love will come to you again when you allow it back in xxx. I haven't ever been comfortable with grief, I shut down & hide away. Yet, somehowI felt compelled to keep listening & watching. I just wanted to reach through the screen to hug you! You are a beautiful soul, have a pure heart and a guardian angel with you always. Thank you for letting us hear and share your journey xxx God Bless you Rachael, love light & Blessings.
This video just popped up , my god, i can't even begin to tell you how much pain i felt for you watching this, only a mum could understand this pain, the father of my child also didnt accept the breakup of our relationship, and i can't even begin to tell you the fear i had of what he may do, im so sorry Rachael, just want to send you lots of love and hugs xx
It pop up on mine aswell
@@private8937I'm so sorry, it must be hard to find the worst in everything. That was a nice comment.
@@private8937Really? I wonder what the Lord thought of your comment. That was mean
Ewwww troll
Stop the stupid question on a grieving mom@@private8937
I lost my daughter to a drug overdose when she was 18. It’s been almost 25 years and still hurts. I feel your pain so sharply. I’m so sorry. So very sorry.
I’m so very sorry for your loss❤️🙏
💔🙏🏼✨
I lost my baby girl to drugs 3 years ago. I miss her so. Love and prayers to you.
I, too, lost my young adult daughter to accidental pharmaceutical toxicity. Today, I heard the last song we sang together in the car. I'm so sorry for your loss. 🙏🏻🙏🏻
Amen I will pray for you ❤
My heart breaks for you. There are no words. People shouldn’t have to deal with such atrocities. It’s completely unfathomable.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. As a mom, I feel you deeply. This is possibly the worst thing that could happen to someone. And yet, here you are believing in yourself and your life and even though my grief has a different cause, feeling with you helped me soften into it after a while of numbing myself and being incapable of facing it and it gives me the strength to believe in myself and my life, too. Knowing that I'm not alone with grief gives me a sense of peace and also faith that I will be ok again, too. And I really wish for you that your Oria's soul makes its way back into your life as a love that could never be separated from you.
" I hope he's at peace and has found the love that he so rightly deserves" is not a sentence I would ever have expected to hear you say. I can imagine it's taken an incredible amount of work over the last 12 months to get there, but to possess that level of maturity, forgiveness, understanding and love is extraordinarily inspiring. I sincerely hope you always remember and have the strength to keep spreading your light, because your light has just had a profound impact on me. I'll be working on my compassion and understanding. Thank you, and I'm deeply sorry for your loss.
@@SnakesNSquids you have articulated perfectly what I could not.
my thoughts as well🙏
"I originally thought this was retaliation for me telling him that I didn't want to be with him and that we needed to co-parent" 6:40
"I told them about Ashley's mental state" 7:24
Then, finally....
"I hope he's at peace and has found the love that he so rightfully deserves"
She knew where Ashley was mentally and why.
She likely had forewarning and an opportunity to seek help for him.
And last but not least.... she wasn't worried about her daughters safety considering "Ashley's mental state"?
The words you're praising are finely tuned to remove guilt. She doesn't blame Ashley for a reason.
@@Shadow_Lurker968everything u just said is so strange
@@rinnitttyes, shadow is psychoanalyzing her, saying because she knew ashley's mental state that she then must have known he would harm the child. With shadow's thinking it would follow that victims of abuse are guilty for the acts of their abuser. Twisted.
Every breath you take is an act of pure courage.
I divorced a violent man,and this was my constant fear. You are having to live that nightmare. I'm so damn sorry. Your story is powerful. Thank you for telling it.
This is the pure, raw agony of a mother's grief 💔 truly heartbreaking. God bless this broken woman 😢
No idea why this appeared on my TH-cam.I am so sorry for this tragic loss. You tell your story so well. Sending love and prayers to you and all involved 😢❤❤
Lord please comfort this mother and give her the peace that surpasses all understanding!
Amen ❤✝️🙏🏻 I pray for ❤️🩹Healing from head to toe heal your Heart your mind your soul .
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IN JESUS MIGHTY NAME
Amen 🙏🏽
I know that sorrow. I found my daughter's body. There are no words in the world to describe the depths of this grief. I hope this was cathartic for you.
I'm so sorry you lost your daughter. I have 2 daughters and I'm not even able to imagine how it might feel to be in your shoes because it's too painful to think about. So the fact that you are living a reality that i can't even bare to imagine just breaks my heart. I know I'm a random stranger on the internet, but I am sending you all the love i can muster. I don't know if you believe that sort of thing, but I hope my love reaches you and embraces you. I really feel it, so i hope you can too.
My heart aches for you. I wish I had some pithy uplifting words to encourage you, but they seem insultingly hollow. All I can say is I have hope that there will be reunion, someday, and then nothing will part you again, in the world without end. This is my heartfelt prayer to the universe I need to believe has better things in mind for us. My best wishes to you for grace and happy moments to ease the interval until that joyful time.
❤ 🌈 😇
Bless you for your loss. Much love ❤
Oh my lord so so sorry for your loss 😭❤️
The way you could recall, and the empathy you have for the police officer is truly a testament of your love, and your kindness. 😢
Rachel your story led me to absolute tears and breakdown. I’m so sorry for the pain you’re feeling and your loss. Both my parents (who were my best friends) have died in the past 2 years. I then lost my brother. The pain has been unbelievable. The only thing that’s kept me going are my daughters. I can’t, I absolutely can’t imagine the depth of your pain. When my father passed, I can relate to the noise you made when you saw your daughter. I cried and yelled so loud, I could probably be heard blocks away. The pain went so deep, it’s like half of my soul was ripped out of me. My dad and I had a special kind of soul tie in some way, we didn’t need to speak we just knew what the other needed at all times. Seeing your story, it makes me think about my daughters. I don’t know if I would have your strength, but there’s one thing I do know - God is with you, and Oria is as well. That drive you have to do good for others, that’s the Holy Spirit working in you. I feel that same feeling. All I want to do is help others, but I haven’t found my purpose yet. I wish I could take this pain from you, and I don’t even know you. We were blessed to have had such love in our lives, it’s horribly hard to lose that, especially at such a young age. I pray God gives you comfort and strength. Life sure is hard.. we just can’t let it concur us. No matter how hard it gets, be the best person you can be. You will see Oria again, that I’m confident about. Shortly before my dad passed, he told me he saw a woman sitting in the corner of the room with a rimmed hat and a dog. He knew she wasn’t real, but she appeared real. I know that was his sister. She always wore rimmed sun hats and loved her dogs more than anything. She died when she was in her 40s & I am positive that was her waiting to welcome my father. I’ve heard so many stories like that. Oria is in Gods hands, there’s not a better place she could be. Make her proud. Sending you hugs from the United States. ❤
You may not hear Oria say "mummy" out loud any more... but when you close your eyes and think of her, you'll hear her beautiful voice and see her beautiful face... she is and will be with you always, in your heart and memories. 👼💖
I send you love for your healing, and hope for this next chapter in your life 💕💕
I was grumpy today, then I came across your video. Watching you immediately put my whole life into perspective. I will be immensely grateful for everything I have today. Thank you for sharing your story. RIP baby girl.
I know what you mean, I'm a mother to 5 and these last few days have been rough. This video... I couldn't imagine losing a single one of them. I felt her pain, it brought tears to my eyes, I will be content in my circumstances and grateful for each moment. I pray that I never have to know the pain of losing a child.
So so true ❤ God bless this sweet girl!
Your commitment to keep moving and never give up in the face of your terrible tragedy is one of the bravest and strongest things I have ever encountered. I know you'll make it and give many people strength and change their lives for the better. In 36 minutes you've changed mine. I hope you are able to heal and find peace. Thank you for your story. ❤
I am so sorry for your lost! She is resting in peace. That little angel will protect you for the rest of your life. Be strong❤ 😢
This pulled my heart strings. I lost my daughter Aug 25, 2023 almost a year ago..My heart grieves for this woman because there is absolutely nothing that is harder than loosing a child, especially this way. I know a lady that lost 3 children in a car accident... It's the most empty feeling there is. It never goes away. 😢😢...God bless you.
2 Corinthians 1:3,4
John 5:28
Sorry to hear that
I lost my son, 17, Aug 27, 2023. My heart hurts for you mama ❤️
@@ericabell9392 so sorry to hear about your son
I’m so sorry. I wish you peace.
I’ve never felt so much pain through a video. I am so sorry for your loss 😓
I think it just changed my life. How I do not know. I've been through tragedies and a hard life. It all made me who I am now but one malignant narcissist who took his life before I could bring up legal charges for things he had done to me and my family in just a few months of dating.
He was so jealous that he would rudely stop me from praying 🤷🏻♀️
I'm trying to find peace but it's not easy especially with all the hate, judgement and wicked things going on and sick people in the world.
With everything I've been dragged through and lost loved ones etc
THIS story moved me tonight to be more open to let peace and tranquility back into my life.
To take care of my mental health and health in general.
THIS woman's story moved me tonight.
I'm watching the funeral service for Oria as I write this message to you.
These videos popped up in my suggestions and I wholeheartedly believe she was godsent, it was meant to be. 🙏🏼
God bless you 🙏🏼
I'm so, so sorry to hear your story and praying you find peace Rachael. My in-laws experienced something similar - they were driving their motorhome on a highway and a car coming the opposite way swerved and hit them head on, killing its driver (a divorced Dad), his two teenage kids, and a passenger instantly. They believe it was intentional. Fortunately my in-laws escaped with minor bumps and bruises, but they'll forever live with the terrible memory and guilt. It's so hard to make sense of these tragedies and the grief and harm it causes. Thank you for sharing your story; I know it wasn't easy, but know that you have so much support from others.
I kept seeing a single stork fly over my house and I started looking up storks and it eventually led me here. I've had nightmares about losing a child and it felt like I was walking through mud the next day so I can't even imagine how difficult this is for you. I have a neighbor who lost her family to cancer and a car wreck. She told me she did everything to help them and one had a high survival rate and it still took her son and husband. She keeps very busy and I still watch her amazed at her. You putting one foot in front of the other making this video to reach people is shining your light. Life can get really painful and you love both of them and that's not in the past it's every day ❤ I hope your love and memory of them reaches all the people it was meant for and it touches and heals them. Ive certainly been touched by it thank you for sharing ❤ 🙏
The crushing immense pain of grief is something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. I’m so so very sorry for your loss.
I think I can safely say that everyone who watched this sobbed along with you as the story unfolded. I’m so, so sorry. I am amazed that you prayed for peace, healing, and love for Ashley after what he had done - that shows what an incredible soul you are. I am praying hard for the same for you. 🙏💖
So true are Your words. But if I was in Her shoes I just couldnt imagine my feelings. She will never be the same but hope Her Family will be thete to comfort and hold Her and Ashley close to Their 💔
I find myself in absolute awe of your strength, courage, and determination - what an inspiration and example of bravery you are to all who are suffering. The fact that you are turning pain into purpose and spreading love and light is a phenomenal gift to this world. Thank you for putting hope into those who are hurting, despite your own immeasurable pain. I send so much love your way and I have faith your precious Oria is so proud of her mummy for what you are doing with the rest of your life. May you continue to give yourself permission to start your new chapter, find pure love, experience joy again, and someday bring a new life into the world. Your beautiful girl will always be with you along the way, just on the other side of the veil. ❤
I am lying next to my little son watching your video, listening to your words and all I can do is crying with you. I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story. I am sure you will bring so much light into people’s life’s. I send you all my love ❤️.
I’m so sorry for you loss. As a retired police chaplain and a domestic violence counselor. He wanted to control you and taking the thing you love the most was his way to abuse you, to make you feel the pain he felt losing you and his inability to control his own feelings. You won’t get over this loss, but you will get thru it. Life is changed, different now for you and in some way people that hear you story.
May you find a new life, a life impossible without experiencing the love of a child lost. Love is an intangible, yet we all know it’s life changing power. All that love is still here, now.
Namaste
This was a sweet thing to say. Compassionate of you.
Was this guy the classic narcissist? He wasn’t just depressed. If he was, he would have put your daughter some place safe and then finished himself off. He succeeded in weaponizing a little toddler against you bc knew he was losing control of you. He was incapable of rational dialogue. This is the work of the Enemy. The light you have comes from God. Now is the time to turn to Jesus. I am happy for your soul to have found forgiveness in your heart because you will spare yourself the devastating effects of bitterness. He is a healer, the Shepherd of the lambs who choose to be born again and enter His fold.❤
@@radixdudetteAmen, Jesus is the only Way. She will see her baby again in heaven so there is tremendous hope when trusting in the Lord. It doesn’t have to be hopeless or the end. Nothing is hopeless with Jesus. God bless you and this poor woman who has been through hell on earth.
@@radixdudette i think he might have been. This was about control. He was prepared to take the life of an innocent child just so he could destroy the life of his ex. I see there are people judging the mum but this isn't about her, its about the choice to destroy an innocent life. That is just the most vile, disgusting and unforgivable thing anyone can do. I don't care how much you hate your ex or want to ruin them, a child is NEVER a pawn for that. My father was /is a narcissist and behaved terribly towards me and my sister not because we had done anything wrong but because he knew it was the best way to destroy our mum and manipulate her into submission.. This is the most extreme escalation of that , a suicidal narc is the most terrifying jugganaut of revenge and quite dangerous. My father is a terrible human but his need for self preservation means he has limits.
This happens when you drag your child into adult drama
I keep trying to form a "comment" that conveys my emotion and pain I feel watching this. It is not possible.
I know what you mean ❤
@@HarleyChiky ⚡️cuz we want soo much to find a way to ease her pain 😥💔🙏🏽
I feel the same ❤
@@winterlite3243because Father God is the only one who can ease her pain. Her little girl is in Heaven waiting on her. Waiting in perfect peace. Waiting with Jesus and all our family and other children. She waits on her mother to finish growing up.
I know these things because this is what the Lord told me about my babies in Heaven, since I miscarried them.
These WORDS OF LIFE came from the Lord THE MAKER OF LIFE so He soothed my soul and depression left me. And, joy overwhelmed my heart.
The LORD is Good and His mercy endures forever and ever.
Add me to this list. I have no words. It broke my heart to hear this story & I want to help - to reach out - to say we are here for you. But it seems so flat. No one knows your pain. You are in my prayers 🙏🏼
Thanks for this, I struggled to watch all of this... And just held the tears back... Lord, we pray for Rachael, wherever she is right now, and help her day to day, dealing with this very sad occasion marking the 1 year since the loss of Little Oria. Nothing will ever completely dismiss this from her mind, but I pray it gets easier even just a little, so that she can build her life again. Amen. Xx
I’m so sorry for your loss. My heart deeply aches for you. While I can’t fully know the pain you’re feeling, as a mother myself, I can imagine the depth of it. Your strength during this incredibly difficult time is truly remarkable. Sending you love ❤️
You are such a forgiving woman. Not only are you working through your immeasurable grief, but you’re thinking of others while doing so. You are so strong and kind.
34:29 34:29 34:29
So sorry for not understanding how it works.......but to give Rose all my love and strength to get through. You're not alone, never so accept all the kindness and support from caring people that you don't even know. Just allow God's love to fill you and keep your memories close to you.
I'm so sorry for you and your near ones.
So much love
I feel like everyone criticising him he was clearly in pain too to take his own life
To discover it had been planned, not a moment of insanity is devastating. Knowing, as he was sending her pictures, that they would be the last of her precious child. Unimaginable 💔
What a cruel, cruel man.
He even called her to let her know that he was on the way. 😭
@@abigailandino6251😩😩😩😩
Like to brag he had the last moments with her... & clearly he had issues & she wasn't in the wrong to split with him. This is murder & this poor mum got exactly what he planned, complete devastation and misery...
You are such an empathetic, incredible human to still think about how the cop would've been feeling while going through this horrible tragedy. My heart aches for you.
No parent should ever feel that pain. Sending much love. 🤍
Your grief is so big and tearing that it reaches through your words. My heart breaks for you.
You are a strong young woman to tell your story, You have a good heart to forgive your daughter’s father not many can do that. Your little girl would be so proud of you, I pray that God continues to strengthen, comfort, and guide you through this difficult journey. My deepest condolences, may your beautiful daughter and her father rest in peace. 🙏🏽🕊💐
My heart broke watching this and seeing the crippling pain you’ve been walking through. But the way you’ve walked in your journey and the forgiveness you gave to your ex is nothing short of beautiful!!! You’re choosing love! Thank you for sharing your story. 🫶✝️
Don't call it "keep on fighting" call it "keep on living". ❤ Your story is a message of life. I lost my sister 26 years ago in a car crash. My mother is 82, and she keeps on living. You are not alone in your experience and you never will be. ❤
I also want to say that the fact that you felt so badly for the officer that guarded your baby girl after she died- shows what a caring and empathetic person you truly are. Your daughter is always with you. I know that doesn't help right now but i hope you feel her presence and see her in your dreams. I am not a religious person but my thoughts are with you and I truly hope for you to have more good days than bad.
Bless your heart, you're in my prayers
Beautifully articulated. Thank you.
❤don't you want to go to heaven....or burn in the Lake of Fire 🔥 for all eternity....ask Jesus into your heart today, He's the only way to heaven, now I've told you, it's up to you to make the choice...Jesus or Satan...there is no in-between...just believe that Jesus died as payment for your sin and was buried and rose from the dead and ask Him to be your Lord and Savior ❤
@@lovesJesus448there is a time and a place and as a Reverend i can advise you neither of those is right now. Please try to have some common decency and respect instead of copying and pasting generic unrelated comments everywhere
@@courtneygreene7213god bless u, this was well said 💜
There is no end to the capacity of compassion and empathy within us as human beings, and that has never been more evident to me than now -
Watching this video of a woman tell us about the worst day of her life and talk about the sadness she felt for her mother and the guard who was watching over her daughter, and about how she wished for peace and love for the man that caused her such pain.
For the last 36 minutes, I shared in your pain and your grief, but I also felt your light and the strength of your spirit, and I'll carry that with me for a long a time.
I'm going to light a candle for Oria and speak her name. And light a candle for you. I want nothing but peace and healing for you.
I don't know you. But I love you. And I hope you know that you aren't grieving Oria alone.
May the waves of healing and peace in between your tides of grief grow longer and longer. May you always be strong enough to swim against them.
And may the love you have for Oria be the life preserver that keeps you afloat.
I am so sorry for that loss, you are so brave for sharing that with us.
Sending you so much love and healing ❤
As a woman, I am so proud of you getting through this year. Sending you so much love.
I have never...never ever in my 58 years on earth felt someone else's pain so viscerally. Oh my heart 😞 Darling I am so, so sorry. Your precious girl. You will ALWAYS be her mummy and she will always be your daughter. I am subscribing.... I know you will make something of your life and Oria will be so proud. I'm sending you so much love and positive energy. ❤️
58 years here and i feel the same, so painful to hear , can’t imagine , just can’t imagine 💔💔
I am so sorry youve been through all this grief and misery. I am sending positive and healing vibes and I hope you find peace in this someday. xx
You did a wonderful job sharing your heartbreaking story. I feel certain you are helping others by being so vulnerable and so very strong at the same time.
I’m saying a prayer for you right now and sending positive energy your way.
Hold on to your happiest memories 💕
I'm so sorry for the unbearable loss of your beautiful daughter.
My fiancé passed away in May, in a motorcycle accident. Your story gave me so many flashbacks of how I found out, and the times. It made me absolutely sick to my stomach, I still feel it some days. He left our daughter & I behind.
I am so incredibly sorry, I could never imagine losing my baby. Thinking of you, mama ❤
The hardest times are the most unexpected.
I am so sorry for your loss. Sincere blessings to you 🙏💚
Its horrible and i undestand perfectly you, my husband died january 2023, we found him in the bed our daugther 2 years old and me. He was not sick. Heart stop.
Sorry for words, im french ...
Thoughts and prayers for you. ❤
So sorry, my heart goes out to you. Hugs to you and your little girl. I'm wishing you peace, comfort and strength
@@Lo.A2023I'm so sorry 😞
I am so so sorry for your devastating loss - i pray you will have peace in your heart knowing your baby is safe and at peace ❤
I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending warm hugs, love and prayers for your healing❤️🙏
TH-cam just recommended this video to me. I sat here crying the entire time with my 2 daughters, age 1 & 2.
I was just begging their father to drive us to the store because he had promised he would. He just got back from a 12 hour shift and he's extremely tired. I was being so selfish because I wanted to go shopping... I'm happy I still have my family.. I see now that I was taking it for granted... I'm not bothering him.. I'm letting him get his sleep so we can get there safely.
✨When a husband, her wife loses his spouse, they are called a widow.
When a minor child loses a parent, they are called an orphan.
There is no name for when a parent loses a child… besides devastated and heartbroken for your loss. I’m sending him love prayers and a big hug.❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🇨🇦
Putting a name to the event, doesn't make it any easier. I have loss a child and a husband. I have loss a brother and both parents. Labels don't change how your heart hurts and the anquish you feel. Rest in peace precious Orien.
@@Emy53
I'm sorry for your losses.
I do know the story of one woman who lost her baby at a week old...
And she suffered for many many years over that loss, and she was ready in her mid thirties to try to have a baby again... And she was revisiting buried feelings about the loss from in her early 20s...
But until her therapist called her a mother...
"You are a mother who lost her child"...she didn't feel the same release that she did until that moment.
I know it's not a word, it's a phrase... But that phrase was very meaningfull to her, because nobody had ever said it before.
That she IS a mom
This was intentional not an accident or natural. Intentional. It's a sick parent that was selfish and hated the child and used that child to retaliate. That's what it's called. Mental illness...a narcissist who wanted attention so harmed daughter to hurt the mother. He controlled her and wants to torment her for life. Hopefully she remarries and builds a family with new beautiful memories. This teaches us to set boundaries with these men...and laws need to help women with those gut instincts to save the children so I'm they aren't victims.
@@michellepernula872
Sadly, you could be right about this. It happens far too many times.
Mother or father. They are always a mother or father. You can’t take those experiences away from the parents. Even if they don’t have any other children.
My sister lost her child the day after Mother’s Day. It’s hard to celebrate Mother’s Day now. I reminded her, she always be a mother. Your head will always turn when a little voice says mom, when a child cries you want to kiss the boo-boo. When they lay on the floor, you give that mom the “it’s okay, it gets better” look.
My heart absolutey broke listening to this. Ive never felt more pain than i have just now hearing your story. Praying for you tonight. Whether or not you have more kids, you'll always, always, be a mother. Nothing on this world could ever undo that. All my love
There is no way that I could feel the sadness and the loss and the heartbreak that you have experienced, dear lady I will pray for you every day that the light you seek to shine will start within your soul, and spread out to the world. Please know there are people who will pray for your healing, and wish nothing but the best for you after such a horrible horrible thing. You are loved.
I was crushed by your video. For me, it was a reminder to not dwell on petty misfortunes, and appreciate the resiliance of those truly damaged. I take inspiration from you.
I felt this exactly. Rachael’s pain, horrendous to share part of was also healing in a way.
One day at a time Rachael; keep on keeping on. 🫂🫂
What an incredibly wise and validating thing to say❤
Me as well, she's a true fighter. Oh the lives we live. What we survive, it's amazing
Unbelievable the waves of grief caused by such a traumatic loss. A mom just knows when something happens to a child and I’m so so sorry Rachael.
Rachael, I don't have the words to express how very, very sorry I am. God bless and keep you 🙏
I'm so sorry for your loss, you're incredibly brave to film and edit this. You've got this and. I look forward to seeing your journey and the progress you make as you heal. One step at a time, much love to you
Oh my darling. You took me right back to the day my son passed away in a house fire, he was 3. I felt every emotion with you. Some of the last pictures I have of my son are in Skegness, having a great time, he didn't want to come home. I am so sorry that this has happened to you. Jesus saved me or I'd never have made it through. He was my only child. It's his birthday next week and it's so hard. Thankyou for sharing your story and precious Oria with us. Rest in peace sweetheart. I'm praying for you Hun. God bless you ❤❤
So sorry ❤
Thankyou ❤@@nikkireigns
So sorry for your loss, this is such a hard time for you, I can only imagine. I do hope you celebrate your son's birthday. I am sure he is with you every step of the way! Thank you for sharing your heartbreaking story too.
Thank you so much for this beautiful message, even more beautiful because today is my Son's birthday.
Much love
Kelly@@naturallywonder1279
My the Lord continue ro comfort you. I too have 1 beloved child. I fear thia very thing. Sending you hugs and praying for you. X
Family annihilation is a tragic phenomenon that needs to be discussed Very brave of this courageous survivor to share her heartbreaking story I hope it can help prevent any one considering such an horrendous hateful end to something that began with so much love.
I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I'm so glad you are working on healing yourself and pushing yourself through this grief. You are so strong. May Oria and Ashley rest in peace.
Words can't express how sorry I feel for you. You are really strong.
Dear sweet Racheal, as a Mum who has lost a child in difficult circumstances ..aand to the others who have commented I send you my loving wishes and comfort on your next journey and one day we will meet our darlings again in joy . Much love xx
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the butterfly at your window 🦋 .
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you wake in the morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there, I did not die ❤
Your daughter is with you ALWAYS, everywhere and anywhere you go❤❤❤
That was the verse I had put on my thank you cards after I lost my daughter and then I lost my other daughter. Only memories
@@Blueerer730My heart breaks for you, Sweetie!! I cannot even begin to imagine the pain and the grief!! I never know what to say, knowing No Words will ever help, but just know: I prayed for you!! God is Truly your ONLY ANSWER!! ❤❤❤
@@Blueerer730Im so sorry for your loss, so sorry
@@Blueerer730 I'm so sorry for your loss in this life. Nothing anyone can say will change things that have come to pass and the loss we suffer but I myself always find comfort in this verse because it's true! Our loved ones energy has returned to the universe and they are everywhere and everything. That means they are also a part of you and god ❤
"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of those depths." ~ Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
Oh my gosh, you just popped up on my TH-cam feed and i had to watch. The pain i felt through your video is intense. I'm so incredibly sorry for your tragic loss...
Back in 1999, one of my dad's closest friends lost his 7 month old grandson at the hands of the father. The father had planned it since before the baby was even born, all to get revenge on his wife. She wasn't able to attend his father's funeral because she was on a trip with her dying mother. So because of that, this disgusting man planned to marry her, get her pregnant, then planned how he would do it. I won't go into details. But it's truly sickening how children suffer because of a parent wanting revenge....
I hope you get the comfort and peace you need, because you seem like the sweetest person who didn't deserve this. Sending my love and prayers 🫶🏻🫶🏻.
Oh my goodness, I have just watched story and was gripped by your bravery and courage to be able to tell your devastatingly tragic story. My heart goes out to you, I cannot begin to imagine how you are carrying on but well done. Your daughter will be so proud of you. Keep going, the sunlight will find you in time I hope. Xx
I feel your pain. My 18 yr old son was killed in a car accident 16 years ago, my then oldest surviving son was 26 when he was a pedestrian killed by a driver high on fentanyl, 6 years ago. My mother passed away the day we buried him. Ive managed to go on in life and am at the point i can function, but i remember that moment when my first son passed 16 yrs ago, "i will truly never be happy again, for the rest of my life". In those years since, i remember my boys with a smile in my heart when i think of them & i try to do that as often as possible, more so than the times i still break down & cry. I wish you peace and strength on your journey...
I'm so very sad to read what you've been through.
Oh my heart breaks for you. What an incredibly strong woman you are. I know you are spreading the light and love enough for all three of you. God bless you ❤
Im so terribly sorry and I know there’s nothing I can say to take the pain away. You give me hope to live if anything happened to my two boys. When my husband died (military fighter pilot) I was 3.5 months pregnant. I understood how people died from grief. It was so deep…and lasts forever. And that’s not the death of a child, let alone two. But here you are, giving complete strangers hope to go on, to live one more day….because you have…and I thank you for that. Sending huge virtual hugs. 🦋🦋🦋
We must trust God, I won't give you my story, pain is it's own story, we can only trust God threw our screams we can only trust God, peace will find you
I really cannot imagine what you had to go through. My deepest sympathy! I hope you can find calmness of the soul and even some happiness in your life.
I wish you the very best!
That he could do that deliberately is beyond horrific. To take your sweet baby girl’s life to what end? To spite you? I’m so angry but so filled with sorrow at the same time. I can’t properly express how sorry I am for your loss. I’m heartbroken.
I think it's more complicated than spite. Somebody suffering with mental illness, is just that. Mentally ill. You can't see it like a lost limb. But mental health can deteriorate to the point it kills you. It's a horrifically tragic situation. One that that will be exponentially more involved than simple spite xx
@@carlydriver9741It's not mental illness. It's straight up evil.
@@carlydriver9741 very well stated. Thank you for your comment.
No it's because the person who commits suicide is so in pain themselves they can't even put it into words and they don't know how because they were not allowed to experience emotions or Express themselves and they were so stifled and destroyed in their own childhood, everyone carries their childhood stuff into adulthood without knowing they're doing it. And they're running on those subconscious programs. They want to offload their pain into another and they want someone else to connect with them and feel that level of pain that they think is so deep. The people that I know have committed suicide really do just want to get back to source energy, to creator, to the light...... so that they don't have to feel pain. And perhaps, since children are high vibrational light beings, just as animals are which is why animals and children connect so well... there are those who cannot be around children because they are authentic and transparent, and then there are those who want to engulf them, similar to the movie poltergeist. Suck their energy, so to speak. People are not thinking and coming from the headspace when they're in a lot of pain in their lives, they're running on programs that are programmed within the body for survival, to navigate and survive each day, even if they're not actually experiencing the same situation that they did in childhood, because they cannot see things with clarity, because of the childhood trauma and emotional neglect and abuse.
You must always dig deep into someone else's childhood but we must always dig deep first into our own, and introspect and do our healing, in order to bring a healthy child into the world..... however most people's childhoods are traumatic, even if it is a parent that wasn't fully present, animated and engaged and encouraging and supportive, honoring and cherishing the child and setting them up for success, Uno's parents do their children such damage if they don't create their own joy and happiness in their own lives within themselves first..... so they're not draining and sucking from the children... and trauma abuse and neglect is often covert and families, parents especially😢 put on a show for the outside world. And then people minimize their trauma and neglect because they think it's no longer occurring in the physical world, but yet it has impacted them in so many subconscious ways, they cannot even imagine😢
@@jenifernadeau wow, you wrote all that bs to excuse a disgusting family annihilator who was jealous and insecure at the thought of his ex moving on and that another man might be involved in his daughters life. Gross.