Bisexual Reacts HEARTSTOPPER Gay Kiss EP3 I Alice Oseman Courtney Jai

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  • Bisexual Reacts HEARTSTOPPER EP3 I'M Crying Alice Oseman Courtney Jai
    Heartstopper Episode 3 is the perfect all round episode we get everything from a gay kiss , to nick sticking up for Charlie against homophobia. Its a truly powerful episode that shows the raw emotions of both characters even making me cry . The episode ends with a climatic nick soak in rain after sharing his first kiss with Charlie.
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    Heartstopper S1 E3 Plot
    Sparks fly at a birthday party where Nick's friend, Tara, confides in him; inspired, Nick shares his feelings with Charlie, and they grow even closer.
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    Episode Review
    It made me cry can i say more , the perfect gay kiss scene and with a truly uplifting end this was just special in so many ways.
    10/10
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  • @Courtney-Jai
    @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +131

    just for anyone who notices it yes I am the youtuber in the show

    • @olly-kai
      @olly-kai 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      How could we NOT notice, Handsome? And yeah Heartstopper is beautiful and amazing. In fact it's a masterpiece. Love your videos, I cry right along with you!

    • @johnking5174
      @johnking5174 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Hi again, you have probably one of the most softest and gentle voices to listen to. Hope you don't mind me saying this, but as soon as I saw you I got a little Daniel Howell vibe from you. Hope you don't mind me saying that.

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@johnking5174 no that's cool I actually really like Dan he's cool it's be nice to meet him one day

    • @johnking5174
      @johnking5174 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Courtney-Jai Thank you, I was a bit afraid of saying. I am glad you liked it. Dan is cool. I have been following him on TH-cam for a long time. Got his book on mental health, which really helped me.

    • @camilaslkj
      @camilaslkj ปีที่แล้ว

      I knew hahahaha but I was also doubting, I knew I knew you from somewhere

  • @isabelcorp1308
    @isabelcorp1308 2 ปีที่แล้ว +450

    Can we just talk about the rainbow cascading over Tara and Darcy and Nick watching them, awash in bisexual lighting??? Give that cinematographer a RAISE

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +44

      very clever I almost didn't even notice

    • @pratfallpratt8998
      @pratfallpratt8998 2 ปีที่แล้ว +25

      When they're running up the stairs together and down the halls, each floor and section of the hallway is a different color of the bi flag. There are also yellow side lights, so some interpret the lighting as the pan flag too.

    • @AGayNamedRural
      @AGayNamedRural 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      It bothered me at first 'cause it felt very overlay...but then I remembered the comic/hand drawn aspect of the aesthetic and I loved it again.
      But it's timed so well to a song that's always been on my "kiss for the explosion" playlist. XD

    • @skadi6750
      @skadi6750 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I didnt notice the bi-flag untill I saw a comment like this one in another video. They totally do put him infront of a lot of bi-flag colored backgrounds and under bi-flag lights. It would be a great foreshadowing, if I wasnt that blind myself...

    • @skadi6750
      @skadi6750 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@pratfallpratt8998 Pink windows and blue walls in the cinema etc... they do that a lot...

  • @Courtney-Jai
    @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +379

    Can we give a round of applause for Charlie's dad aswell incredible parenting at the end 👏

    • @twinderful
      @twinderful 2 ปีที่แล้ว +46

      As a parent of a trans daughter and a lesbian daughter. (Twins) I felt this scene IMMENSELY!!. We can’t always be there to protect our kids in certain situations. Although we wish we could be by their sides always. But we can be there for them to offer hugs and console them. 💜💜

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +27

      @@twinderful I think the show is doing a great job showing representation and helping alot of people feel comfortable in their own skin

    • @canny_linguist
      @canny_linguist 2 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      Charlie's dad and Nick's mum are too sweet for this world 🥰

    • @DanielDiaz-um1xd
      @DanielDiaz-um1xd 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      YES! It was so nice seeing him there to comfort Charlie

    • @stonec8238
      @stonec8238 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      His dad deserves more appearance in the series.

  • @Callimachus33
    @Callimachus33 2 ปีที่แล้ว +80

    Don't apologize for crying! Eye leakage is a perfectly healthy release of emotions!

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Eye leakage 🤣 I love it

    • @olly-kai
      @olly-kai 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Compassion (crying) is a superpower!

  • @canny_linguist
    @canny_linguist 2 ปีที่แล้ว +225

    Nick watching Tara and Darcy kiss is the pinnacle for me. He's like *I need that in my life rn where is Charlie* and I can never stop crying about it.
    Also, you're not gonna comment about the obvious bisexual lighting? 😁

    • @lucthin6245
      @lucthin6245 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      It's great to see that bisexual colors as a foreshadowing of episode 6.

    • @canny_linguist
      @canny_linguist 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@lucthin6245 Thought they did a really good job of it though I didn't twig until second viewing 😂

    • @lindblumpickles3407
      @lindblumpickles3407 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Nick must be protected at all costs 🥺🥺🥺

    • @brokencupid1014
      @brokencupid1014 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      yah i notice tht too... 🌈

  • @adampatricktandy
    @adampatricktandy 2 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    That scene with Tara and Darcy kissing on the dance floor has to be one of the most beautiful scenes I’ve ever seen. The colors, the music, the way Nick is beaming. It literally makes me cry just thinking about it. So beautiful.

  • @travelbridges3513
    @travelbridges3513 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Doesn't matter how many times I watch their first kiss, gets me every time.

  •  2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    "No, You are not allowed to say the S word" anymore
    WE ALL CRIED WITH EVERY SINGLE EPISODE ... IS JUST.......... SOOOOOO PERFECT .... T_T

  • @tjsingletonjr
    @tjsingletonjr 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    "Did this episode make you cry?"
    My answer would be shorter if you asked, "Which episode did NOT make you cry?" This show is so beautifully filmed with such amazing performances by the cast! Of course, we have to give a tip of the hat to Alice Oseman who created it all!

  • @joyceomeara9719
    @joyceomeara9719 2 ปีที่แล้ว +68

    Don't ever feel sorry for being so emotional; you're such a softie and your reaction was beautiful! I can't decide who I love more - Charlie or Nick - for different reasons, but they are both so real and so innocent and their connection is so pure. Love everything about this story and these characters.

  • @MaxxGritti
    @MaxxGritti 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I think this one is my favourite episode. I just love it, from the beginning with the single tear in Nick's eye to the end in the Rain 🧡

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I think its great start to finish definitely a 10/10

  • @roseharper606
    @roseharper606 2 ปีที่แล้ว +43

    For me, that scene with Harry after the kiss had me scared for Nick, and I kept thinking "get out, get out, now!"
    Harry had called him into an isolated room with his friends standing staggered round him essentially surrounded
    Previously, Nick had told him off in a large crowd of people, but in that moment he was all alone & out numbered. This might be my brain going to worst case scenario (or having flashbacks), but I really thought there might be a point where they might gang up on him for daring to insult the birthday boy at his party
    I totally accept him simply agreeing and getting the hell out of there

    • @jennymallamace1742
      @jennymallamace1742 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I felt the same... omg I was terrified in that scene.

    • @Sileithel
      @Sileithel 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Totally. The way the scene was shot, all dark and ominous... all the guys right behind Harry. Plus, Nick probably wanted to deal with that as soon as possible to be able to go back to Charlie.

    • @michaelblower7363
      @michaelblower7363 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yeah he just wanted to settle the conflict ASAP.

    • @susanmallet766
      @susanmallet766 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I interpretted the scene (beginning with Nick's leaving Charlie while he goes to face Harry) -- as Nick being protective.
      Protective of what he and Charlie had just experienced and protective of Charlie.
      He quickly agreed to the idea that he was just in a bad mood and to saying that he and Harry were 'good' -- I believe because he just wanted to get away ASAP and get back to Charlie, who was sitting all alone ( Nick thought).
      He used an excuse that many people use to extricate themselves from a negative situation -- the need to go to the loo.

  • @spencesc20
    @spencesc20 2 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    This show is amazing. I’ve watched it multiple times. Your play by play and feelings about each scene are spot on. don’t ever be sorry for crying! Charlie and Nick’s kiss was the best.

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      thanks I got pretty emotional watching my scene aswell

  • @buckeyefan20012001
    @buckeyefan20012001 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I've posted this on other reactions too but have to point out regarding Nick's answers to Charlie...he has no idea who or what he may be, but he does know that when it comes to Charlie he has no real doubt he wants him. And it's so beautiful...and yes when Tara and Darcy kiss in the light of the rainbow I cried so much especially when you see Nick being so happy seeing it while being bathed in bisexual lighting...such an emotional scene

  • @JeccaJ
    @JeccaJ 2 ปีที่แล้ว +44

    Don't ever apologise for crying! I cried at pretty much every episode and every reaction I've seen; I wish I had this kind of show when I was figuring things out in my teens but I'm glad I've found this show!

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      I wish I had someone like me when I was younger , the cool thing is I get to be that for nick in the show so it's almost full circle I get to be for so many other what I didn't have when I was coming out

    • @JeccaJ
      @JeccaJ 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@Courtney-Jai And I love that you're being there for people, but don'tforget we're here for you too! This show has definitely helped people find the community and the confidence to be themselves and I'm here for the wholesomeness! Sending love and positive vibes ❤️

  • @nofishinmydiet
    @nofishinmydiet 2 ปีที่แล้ว +78

    Yes, it made me cry. In fact I'm not sure if I can trust someone who doesn't cry at least a bit when watching this. Hugz!

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      I just felt a little overwhelmed

  • @stevecaddick1251
    @stevecaddick1251 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    I watched it 20 times and it still makes me cry

  • @shannonoconnell3146
    @shannonoconnell3146 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I am now going to have to watch this show for the 3rd time. It's such a wonderful story that addresses very serious issues that LGBTQ teens face. The magical thing about this show is that it still manages to find the innocence and earnestness of budding first loves. I think it's rare to see a full picture when stories about minority groups are told. Having cast and crew members who have their lived experience that they can bring to the table as well as Alice's unique perspective is what makes Heartstopper truly special. I am here for it! I am already so looking forward to the next two seasons!

  • @dianawatt1657
    @dianawatt1657 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    we need more TV like Heartstopper - just adorable - and uplifting as you said

  • @stevenreid4634
    @stevenreid4634 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    To focus on the acting for a second, the look on Nick's face right after the first kiss told us everything going through his mind in that moment. Kit NAILED it.

  • @floppsymoppsy5969
    @floppsymoppsy5969 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Oh honey, I laughed, I cried, I hit every beat on the entire emotional spectrum... twice

  • @rogue0413
    @rogue0413 2 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    Favorite Character is Nick. He's just so sweet and kind 💕 I'm looking forward to the Paris Trip in Season 2...but not emotionally ready for the plot 🥺

    • @clairemacdonald6428
      @clairemacdonald6428 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      It is emotional as it progresses, but there is still so much optimism ❤️

    • @NinetyTwoJL
      @NinetyTwoJL 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      SAMEEEE😭

  • @BeautyMonster1000
    @BeautyMonster1000 2 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    My favorite character is Nick. My favorite scene is right at the beginning when Nick is doing research trying to figure himself out because I really relate to the way that happened for him, having gone through it myself and coming to the same conclusion which was, I'm bisexual. I almost cried seeing such a relatable scene and seeing you in the show was amazing as well, of course because you're a role model for bisexuals everywhere. 😊

  • @Amyduckie
    @Amyduckie 2 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    My favourite character is Nick, I love that boy, would protect him with everything. I didn't cry during that scene, but I felt like my heart got so big while watching it. I'm only sometimes a crier, moreso during sad stuff rather than happy.

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I only really cry at stuff that's really happy or really sad

  • @thom_is_trans
    @thom_is_trans 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Glad to see I'm not the only one who got teary during the Tara and Darcy kissing scene! Just the joy and beauty of that moment, and Nick looking on with that big smile on his face... Amazing stuff.

  • @MargaretRunaas
    @MargaretRunaas 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Yes, I have watched the show 3 times already and this episode makes me cry every time! I don't think you need to apologize for being emotional--tears are such a natural expression of emotion, and everyone has emotions!! Thanks for being real with us. ❤

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Thats awesome and thank if I cried this much this early on I think I'm going to cry my eyes out when it gets mine and nicks scene 😅

  • @eddietucker7005
    @eddietucker7005 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    YOU are my favorite part of Heartstopper, but I don’t ever want to hear you apologizing for crying, for whatever reason. It shows another dimension to you that only makes you better. And I’m glad I got to see it.

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thank you thats very sweet

  • @NatManzano
    @NatManzano 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I cry every single time the song "Clear Blue", the one that is playing when Tara and Darcy are dancing is on now. Every single time. Tears of joy.

  • @yolkyolk3148
    @yolkyolk3148 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    the kiss scene between tara and darcy and then seeing how joyful nick is seeing them, like he's thinking how free and happy they look and how much he wants that too (kudos to kit connor for that face dude!!!!!!) - that scene just killed me the first time i watched too. like i was choking back sobs lol. i think that scene has that effect on most people who see it tho honestly. like i think it just captures this feeling as a queer person of wishing we could be this free all the time.. it's kind of interesting too cause if you think of gay night clubs and stuff like that's where a lot of queer people go to feel free and express themselves so it kind of feels like a nod to that culture as well.

  • @bishbosh4815
    @bishbosh4815 2 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    The insane thing about this is that YOU literally helped Nick realise his love for Charlie. They kissed because of YOU 🤩🤯

    • @tararaboomdiay1
      @tararaboomdiay1 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      No Nick and Charlie kiss in episode 3 and Courtney's youtube video is in episode 6, by this point Nick and Charlie are well and truly together

    • @sophiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiie
      @sophiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiie 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      er, no 😂

  • @ggbrookes
    @ggbrookes 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    You do not need to apologize for getting emotional. Please don’t feel like you have to hold it back. I thought there was something wrong with me crying during these beautiful moments but we all feel this way. I can’t wait to watch your reaction when you see your own scene, I can’t believe you haven’t seen these yet. Don’t hold back!!!

  • @GerardPare
    @GerardPare ปีที่แล้ว

    I did cry. I love how they portrayed Nick as a Bisexual male with so much respect. For young actors they have a great deal of maturity playing the roles and being young there is an amazing innocence

  • @kimpelrine1786
    @kimpelrine1786 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    The only thing more wholesome than this show is your reaction to this show❤️

  • @NotaVideoEssayist
    @NotaVideoEssayist 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I loved this episode, and I definitely cried when Tara and Darcy kissed. It is a scene which centers gay joy like I've rarely seen. And I think many queer people end up feeling the same thing as Nick. It's a moment that reminds us or teaches us that queer love can be transcendent and beautiful. It hopefully makes him think "That could be me."

  • @dannys8493
    @dannys8493 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    The eyeroll from Issac when he sees the chat. Gets me everytime. 🤣🤣🤣

  • @howtaobrowncow
    @howtaobrowncow 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I'm not sure I've seen a reaction video to Heartstopper that didn't involve tears. It's *so* cute, and warm, and positive, and people just *bawl*. I'm sniffling just writing this.

  • @olly-kai
    @olly-kai 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    It amazing for so many reasons...but #1 is that this wonderful story is about romance. It's about love. ❤️❤️❤️

  • @Anne-dl2zs
    @Anne-dl2zs 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    My heart actually stopped so many times during this episode. It's so great seeing you being so happy while watching the show!

  • @coletraper1
    @coletraper1 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Don’t ever be sorry for crying! This episode breaks my heart (Charlie crying) and makes me the happiest at the same time!

  • @ihni28m
    @ihni28m 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Can we just stop apologizing for crying about these two getting together?! I think its the only reaction to their chemistry. They are so heartwarming and cute... you cannot not love them together! 😍
    Your reaction was just like mine: "aaawwwww...they are sooooo cute!"
    Nice video and you seem like a very lovely person!😊

  • @mark9652
    @mark9652 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Definitely cried multiple times in this episode and all throughout the series. So heartwarming!

  • @oliveryazzie1110
    @oliveryazzie1110 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    It definitely made me cry. Multiple times! And I did it again 😭. I can’t get over this cute, iconic scene. It reminded me of my past in middle school.

  • @kara1084
    @kara1084 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Nick is my favorite character and my favorite scene is at the beach in the last episode! so cool you got to be in the show!!

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      yeah its a pretty proud moment for me what even cooler alice chose me yo be in the show I didn't audition just got a message asking me to be apart of it

  • @greysquirrel2007
    @greysquirrel2007 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Don't ever apologise for crying. I've watched the show 17 times so far and I cry every time. I've started watching reaction videos and cry during those too.

  • @skadi6750
    @skadi6750 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I totally teared up in both those kissing scenes in this episodes. Tara and Darcy kinda even the third time, cuz that was such a revelatory moment even for Nick...

  • @paultidd9332
    @paultidd9332 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    It makes me cry every time I watch it or read it in the book. The emotional intensity is immense and the courage Charlie has to have that conversation is also immense to find the clarity of where things were going. Let’s not hold back on what this has done for each one of us and for everybody who watches it in the future.

  • @tallactordude
    @tallactordude 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I think the moment in this episode that got to me the most is the very end. When Charlie opened the door, my eyes definitely welled up at what he saw. But it really is a lovely episode from beginning to end.

  • @tsimeone
    @tsimeone 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I cried at the Darcy + Tara kiss scene too. Its just so brilliant.. - That chrvces song built and built.. euphoria.
    the Nick and Charlie kiss though awww.
    the whole series is just

  • @stephenkeoughan4994
    @stephenkeoughan4994 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Really love episode 3...most of it but especially the dancing scene and the kiss. Ep 5 is also a fave. Like your reactions.

  • @legok6037
    @legok6037 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Made me cry too! The first few episodes I cried every time something cute happens.

  • @sasgirl9244
    @sasgirl9244 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    You should never apologise for crying

  • @charlie5529
    @charlie5529 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Don't apologize for crying. This show made me cry so much. I'm so in love with this amazing heartwarming series.

  • @madmarrr
    @madmarrr 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I cried through the whole show! I wish a character like Nick existed when I was a teenager figuring out my bisexuality. I’m 35 now and I didn’t feel like I could come out as anything until I was in my mid 20s. It’s very bittersweet. Definitely very happy that this show/comic exists for all the younger generations out there!

  • @Savvy1718
    @Savvy1718 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Oh I definitely did cry during the kissing scene. I've been reading the books for years and knew it was coming and held out for most of the episodes but that moment was too WHOLESOME I lost it

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Its a very beautiful moment , I just filmed the last 2 episodes and I loved it I cried so many time I cried when I nick was watching my videos I cried when nick come out to his mum I even cried when Charlie said he's used to be bullied so emotional

    • @Savvy1718
      @Savvy1718 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@Courtney-Jai I finished your reaction videos up through 6 and loved them! I really appreciate how you talk about the characters and their circumstances 💙
      And, yesss, telling his mumm!! I was emotional about everything but I got teary over that, his telling Charlie he doesn't want to break up, and their date (it was so sweet!) 🙏💙

  • @IExpectedBSJustNotThisMuchBS
    @IExpectedBSJustNotThisMuchBS 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I love Kit’s portrayal of the confusion and panic, and also the bravery displayed to overcome Nick’s fears … enough to kiss Charlie. I was in school in the early 70s and no one was out. I didn’t feel like I could broach the subject with anyone and the one close friend I tried to talk about it, someone I suspected was a lesbian, she up and married her boyfriend at the end of term a few months later. She later came out as a lesbian. I was confused by suddenly being attracted to guys, as I was always attracted to girls and figured I must be a lesbian. I ended up marrying, and while physically attracted to men, I really don’t have romantic feelings about them as I do for women… so, I guess my first impression of myself was right. There can be so much to figure out when it comes to gender, sexuality, and love.

  • @A2dy
    @A2dy 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I got really emotional too at the dancing scene. What I would have done to feel that energy at my prom in high school.

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I think many of us would have loved that , it's such a heartwarming scene

  • @hanaj
    @hanaj 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I’m in my 40s. I’m so glad this generation of kids can have a sweet love story. I want every generation to have a Anne and Gilbert (Anne of Green Gables) and now Nick and Charlie!

  • @samanthawilliams9635
    @samanthawilliams9635 ปีที่แล้ว

    I started sobbing in the exact same place 😭 literally we all was like this in how you were like. This is my favourite episode and now clearest blue by CHVRCHES is now my favourite song. ❤️

  • @VeronicaOrtega-ur1sq
    @VeronicaOrtega-ur1sq 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Watching Tara a Darcy kiss openly was just nick’s bisexual awakening

  • @TheBroodyKai
    @TheBroodyKai 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I think my favorite character is Charlie cuz he reminds me of me n I think my favorite scene is when he hugged Nick when the guy was confused

  • @jwrig000
    @jwrig000 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I’m a 45 year old gay man. I’ve watched this show 5 times and it wasn’t until the 5th time that I wasn’t an absolute puddle. It’s so beautiful, and I’m so happy it exists esp for young queer kids, but even years of therapy and processing couldn’t prepare me for the overwhelming sense of a lost childhood…

  • @Ulriquinho
    @Ulriquinho 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    No apologies for crying! Boys and us AMAB enbies have been told too many times that boys don’t cry when growing up. Your expression of emotion is wonderful and wholesome!

  • @donaldbellinger3781
    @donaldbellinger3781 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Never apologize for showing your true emotions

  • @troublenesss
    @troublenesss ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Ummmm, only every episode made me cry!
    I 💖 Heartstopper. Love your cameos!!👍🏻

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  ปีที่แล้ว

      Haha I was blubbering mess is a fair few and thank you 😊

  • @jeresitkosanfrancisco8370
    @jeresitkosanfrancisco8370 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    We have no reason to apologize for crying. It's a healthy human response to triggering events. I encouraged my patients to cry whenever they needed to.😍

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Are you a doctor by any chance

    • @jeresitkosanfrancisco8370
      @jeresitkosanfrancisco8370 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@Courtney-Jai PhD clinical psychologist. Thanks for asking. Love you, all the way from Ohio, USA

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@jeresitkosanfrancisco8370 thats very awesome I have thought about becoming psychologist myself, I'd love to specialise in sexuality helping people come to a full understanding of myself its kinda what I do now but I can only help up to a certain point.

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@jeresitkosanfrancisco8370 my actual real job is I'm a refrigeration engineer, I only actually do youtube as a hobbie

  • @vander9
    @vander9 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I can't understand how you're able to take so long to watch the whole thing, I couldn't stop for a second 🤧

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Because people want to watch my reacts trust me I want to watch the show very badly , I still haven't even seen my scene in it but alot of people look forward to my videos and I always want to make people happy.

    • @vander9
      @vander9 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Courtney-Jai you're very strong haha

  • @lisamcarthur3225
    @lisamcarthur3225 ปีที่แล้ว

    this scean was so beautiful and lighting was so magical and there chemistry and passion was so well done and i love how nick looking for charlie and when they both fund each other u can see they both run up and saying to each other i was looking for u and u can see there eyes lilt up and also glowing cross the dance floor and i love how nick stand up to harry and also he said happy brithday and walk off so he can find charlie and i love how charile push ben and when they in the room on there own i love how charile asking nick question and u can see on nick face how scared he is but when charile ask him if he would kiss him and nick did he was very sure that he want to kiss him and i love how nick came to charile place in the rain that was so beautiful. and i love how nick see tara and darsey on the dance floor he was so happy.

  • @chevychase
    @chevychase 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    My favorite moments in Heartstopper: 1. The kiss in the rain under the umbrella. 2. The boys playing in the snow. 3. Every scene with just Nick & Charlie in it.

  • @Landra372
    @Landra372 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Never apologise for crying. These are your emotions at that moment and it is so good to see that you can allow them. This marks you out as an honest strong person who can stand by himself.

  • @thedeathangel444
    @thedeathangel444 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I think i watched this show like 5 times already, and i feel sad for no having something like this in my teens, would've changed sooo many things yet i am really happy that the teens who watch this can have a nice, warm and happy representation

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Me to I was grateful to be apart of the shoe and I like give somthing back that I never had

  • @amandalindquist8798
    @amandalindquist8798 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I love your reaction to this episode. I am right there with you: this show got me in the feels. And that first kiss between Charlie and Nick was amazing!
    I'm in love with the way this show represents the challenges and fears of figuring out your sexuality. It can be so confusing, and Heartstopper masterfully uses music, social media, looks between characters, pauses, etc to get that feeling across to the audience. I wish a show like this had existed when I was in school. It would have made a world of difference!

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I feel the exact same way it why it's amazing to be apart of the cast

  • @Lisa-ze7yk
    @Lisa-ze7yk 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    your reaction is always so adorable and touching! ^-^

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Well I'm happy you liked it ☺️

    • @Lisa-ze7yk
      @Lisa-ze7yk 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@Courtney-Jai yeah you can really see the emotions in your face/mimic and you word things so well and lovely. Your reactions definitely are my favourite and I always look forward to watching them! 🫶🏼

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@Lisa-ze7yk awwww ❤️ I love that

  • @luwirap
    @luwirap 2 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    In a series I always pick my favorite episode of the season, but this series it's impossible to single out a favorite episode so I just pick favorite scenes in an episode instead. That Tara and Darcy kiss made me cry so much, while screaming, "WHY DIDNT WE HAD THIS KIND OF SHOWS WHEN I WAS YOUNG!?" Hhahaha

    • @michaelblower7363
      @michaelblower7363 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I asked myself that question too. It would have made my coming out more easier too. :'-)

    • @canny_linguist
      @canny_linguist 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Watched this scene so many times and it still breaks me down 😭

    • @archraskal
      @archraskal 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @Louie Ralph The answer to your question typed out in caps is rather obvious The difference between your youth and now is thru the efforts of gay people who militated for society
      to treat them as worthy of the respect afforded to heterosexuals in society. We didn't get to have gay couples featured in mainstream entertainment media because of something arising on its own. The risks taken that came with this activism were substantial. They deserve appreciation.

    • @michaelblower7363
      @michaelblower7363 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@archraskal Indeed. Our predecessors suffered a great deal and fought for decades to get to where we are now. We have gained our rights and equalities, yes. Now we have to defend them.

  • @pbeckerle
    @pbeckerle 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I decided to subscribe to your channel because this episode made you cry and you showed us tears. Thank you for sharing.

  • @josephtrujillo9095
    @josephtrujillo9095 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This video is awesome 🤩👍 can't wait to see the next episode 👍

  • @MR-wh2fi
    @MR-wh2fi 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Yes, it made me cry some happy tears, for sure.

  • @stevenreid4634
    @stevenreid4634 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I've watched the whole series several time, and I teared up watching you watch it.

  • @FMDICinc
    @FMDICinc 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Yes, I cried. It’s one of the most legitimate reactions. Thanks for the validation!

  • @adamparrott797
    @adamparrott797 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    So this is one of my favourite shows this episode feels so pure I was a mess. It's a wall of complicated emotions,. I wish lgbt youth had this when i was young. Not saying its easy now but it was a lot harder then. But I digress that kiss was just so adorable, I feel I spend my time watching going 'awww' at everything then feeling the tears. And can I shout out about Charlie's Dad been so supportive.

  • @cassandragunkel6101
    @cassandragunkel6101 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I am so enjoying your Heartstopper posts. I’ve gone back to revisit posts from years ago. You and the show have made me revisit all the assumptions about sexuality that I grew up with. Thank you for your own warm, inviting and insightful views.

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว

      No problem glad u find them helpful

  • @josephtrujillo9095
    @josephtrujillo9095 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Can't wait to see your reaction to this episode Courtney

  • @JemuzuDatsWho
    @JemuzuDatsWho 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    At this point I think every episode has made me cry at some point or another 😭❤ I love this show so much I don't even have words to express it

  • @scottvermillion1426
    @scottvermillion1426 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I have watched Heartstopper four times now and I've cried every time. I cried while watching your review. I loved the scenes where Nick watches your You Tube videos to help him understand his bisexuality. Heartstopper has been incredibly emotional for me...it has brought up painful memories of being bullied, but also the sweet memories of experiencing a first time gay love. I melt every time that Nick and Charlie hold hands and kiss. I love everything about Heartstopper...the story, the soundtrack (Orla Gartland's song "Why Am I Like This?" is the question that every gay, lesbian, bisexual or trans person asks themselves as they start to discover who they are), the animation that ties it into Alice Oseman's webcomic, and even the way that they use texts and Instagram to carry the emotions and conversation along. I cannot wait for the second season. I thank you for being part of the experience.

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Thank you for writing such a sweet comment and yeah I think thr show is brilliant and it's just what every queer person needs right now

  • @arielamejeiras8677
    @arielamejeiras8677 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I never cry at movies. But Tara and Darcy kissing at the party and Nick watching them being so proud and carefree, pure queer joy beaming out of them it gets me in tears every time. Not everyone gets emotional with that scene, but for me I think it just shows that we LGBTQ derserve happiness. Also the melancholy of not being able to have any of these moments when I was their age.

  • @BBGirl555
    @BBGirl555 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I cryed through this whole episode. I was so happy.

  • @yongcnkr9223
    @yongcnkr9223 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    It’s the weirdest thing that we watch this show crying while being happy.

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Happy crying , its weird watching thr show knowing your in it aswell

  • @keineAhnung553
    @keineAhnung553 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    don't apologize for crying and being emotional. I wanna quote one of the most iconic characters of all time: "your allowed to say the s-word!"

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  ปีที่แล้ว

      I cried alot in this series, especially when my scene came up , felt like a full circle moment I finally got to be what I never had.

    • @keineAhnung553
      @keineAhnung553 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Courtney-Jai i think thats absolutly normal, im 29 and i outet myself finally last year christmas as polysexual, because i didn't had anything to identify with when i was younger. i cried at so many scenes, espacially nicks, because i could relate so much. i think ist important for queer people to feel okay with feeling these feelings and also cry if that helps, because it is sometime just very releaving. I also wish so much i had this representation when i was about 14.
      Greetungs from Germany :)

  • @jackkodoesthings
    @jackkodoesthings 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Can’t wait for episode 4!

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Oh don't you worry big boy your going to love it 😉

  • @oceanlover3530
    @oceanlover3530 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Yeah. I’m a big cry baby. Every episode in this series had me crying at some point. 😢😭 Thank you for the reaction. I love this show!
    ✌🏻🙂✌🏻

  • @aVAness
    @aVAness 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Such a lovely heartwarming show ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜 Yes I did cry watching it 🥹

  • @becausemiro
    @becausemiro 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Awwww ❤️ baby never apologize for crying! We all cried watching this show, many many times! All happy tears! Love you Cortney ❤️

  • @rickymanuel4237
    @rickymanuel4237 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I cried during this episode and I cried watching your reaction to the episode...

  • @maca23th
    @maca23th 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Honestly I cried in that part too, it's so beautiful with the colors and the music 😭💕

  • @queercrazycat
    @queercrazycat 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Don’t apologize for crying. It’s never a bad thing to be in touch with and open about your emotions.

  • @angelacurran5924
    @angelacurran5924 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Aww your reactions are so precious. I absolutely adore Charlie and Nick, this story is so beautiful 🥰😪💕

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Thank you my next reaction is yhe episode im in so that should hopefully be out tomorrow

  • @fuyudxb
    @fuyudxb 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    God, this really made me cry. I loved the video!! ❤️

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Aww thank you I'm glad you liked it ❤️

  • @kymfortescue6737
    @kymfortescue6737 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Your reactions are so sweet. Definitely Nick-like. Lovely.

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Haha thanks I guess that's why nick Nelson watches my channel 😉

  • @mandipandi303
    @mandipandi303 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Almost every episode of Heartstopper made me cry. I didn't think it was possible for it to replicate the magic of its source material, but it totally does IMO

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      If I feel this emotional now I don't know how ill feel when I see my scene with nick

  • @AundreaMJones
    @AundreaMJones 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Watching your reaction to the show is just as adorable as the show! ❤️

    • @Courtney-Jai
      @Courtney-Jai  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Awww thank you well the episodes I'm in is an emotional one

  • @boop_beep_sheep4876
    @boop_beep_sheep4876 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I'm excited!!