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"But the absolute worst part of depression
is that even though you know you're depressed,
you're unable to stop yourself from getting worse"
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Well, since this is becoming more viral. I just wanted to say that if you have depression or you are just feeling that way, there is hope.
I made this edit a year ago after my recover from depression and today my life is amazing.
Just keep going, find help🤍
what is this song? thanks
@@4tiffff Requiem - Davis Harwell
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Sometimes help is a facade.
Find peace with emptiness. Then with that perspective find joy in little acts and nature.
“Being alone for awhile is dangerous. It's addicting. Once you see how peaceful it is, you don't want to deal with people anymore.” -Tom Hardy
Love the line.
That's not dangerous, that's solitude 😅😛😜
Quite a fine "line" between solitude and isolation though. It's often the latter wich kicks off depressive thoughts. Kind of like when Robin Williams said "One of the worst things is feeling alone when you're around other people". Find better company...
How I feel 1000%...wtf.
Fucking right it is, most people just want to go home and relax but its the people around you that give you meaning 😢
@@Johny40Se7en You dont quite get it. I think that what it means is that the danger of being alone, is isolation and so "staying and reinforcing" the depressive state. (I agree with you in this one). But its not always because you are with people who make you feel alone...You can have great friends, but still feel the need/urge to detach yourself from everyone around you cause its "easier" being alone when you're depressed, than facing the fact that you're depressed or even pretending to be ok when you're not...I dont know, thats my interpretation...
There is a difference between being sad and being depressed: when we’re sad, happy things help, but when we’re depressed they don’t. Depression swallows up everything happy and makes it unrecognisable. Sadness is being wet in the rain, knowing that we’ll soon be warm and dry. Depression is living under water, where everything is slow and the slightest movement feels like lifting the heaviest weight. Sadness makes us wish we could be happy; depression makes us forget what happiness is.
Very well said 😮
I feel this in every bone in my body and don't wish it on the people who hate me.. it's awful feeling and I wish I could just snap out of it and be happy 😞
Exactly. Feeling sad is very different to clinical depression. I wish people wouldn't confuse the two as it diminishes the suffering of those with depression. It's fkg awful and no matter how hard you try it just never fully goes away. You can take medication and do therapy, go for walks, read, watch a movie, CBT, and that may help a bit but it's a daily battle and I'm fearful it could re-emerge again at any time.
@@jena.alexia Give your pain to Jesus. He will give u rest like gave me. He loves u❤️
@@Dogestronaut2.0 just stop.
Depression isn't just feeling sad, it's being in a body that's fighting to live with a brain that's trying die because you feel so broken inside that no matter how hard you try it feels like you'll never put the pieces back together
You brought words to something I never could, thank you
For me my sleep is affected, I wake at 3 am and can’t get back to sleep, stomach is in knots of despair, I ruminate, I feel shaky inside, I feel uncomfortable in my own skin/clothes. I have dark thoughts, it’s absolutely terrifying, you cant even take much solace in sleep as you aren’t sleeping well, you skip meals and feel huge self loathing like you are a terrible person too.
Thats exactly what i am, a mindless human.
Just empty
I'm a married man...have two kids...everyone thinks im happy....and yet this is a exactly how I feel....
I need help...before it's too late...
the worst thing about depression to me is that it never gets better you only get better at ignoring it
it’s not depression if it’s what you feel all the time. it’s dysthymia. every depressive episode even untreated lasts maximum of 9 months.
Depression tore me and my wife apart. I almost left her, then later she did leave. What finally helped, was I reached out to God. I found freedom in Jesus Christ who sacrificed Himself so I could be free from my depression. But I had to surrender my depression. Depression is something that latches on to us, but we latch onto it back. We have to let it go. We have to surrender our addiction to it, to Jesus, and let Him begin to heal us.
@reubenkriegel7639 I apologize for any perceived disrespect but I'm a an atheist
True
Honestly going to therapy can help. I went to a mental hospital where I stayed for two months and now I'm almost back to my old self. I'm not saying that it works for everyone, I just wanted to put it out there
The worst thing about depression for me is you always try to find a reason to live but you'll soon realize how the world is sad miserable pointless and utterly disappointing..
“Its so easy to fake a smile… Though it’s impossible to feel true joy..”
This is the closest thing I found to explaining how I feel. It's endless nothingness. It's constantly being sad,angry, or anxious. It's constantly wanting to be away from people, but not wanting to be lonely. It's constantly second guessing yourself. Always wanting to talk to someone about what your feeling but also not wanting to speak about it. It's so exhausting. Some days are better than others but it's a 24/7 feeling and it's awful
Idk if this will help you but it helps me. It's doing the things that made u happy once even if they dont do now and what also helped me was caring for something. I was helping my parents with cleaning and everything to just keep myself occupied to not think and with help of antidepressants these things worked. For a few months anyway.
This is the perfect summation of how I feel.
Exactly
Ur not alone, I'm right there beside u in the darkness we feel but others cannot see.
This is it exactly.
It's like an invisible blanket that's wrapped around you 24/7 that weighs & holds you down. It numbs everything & after a while you feel almost nothing at all, good or bad. Everything you used to love to do becomes boring or non important. Family, friendships, relationships, it all just feels distant. You can feel how it's changed you. You're tired all the time, even when you're not actually tired. You still show up, try, but it's like you can predict every feeling or thing that will happen so nothing really excites you. idk im rambling, i love you all
Thank you for representing what I feel. God bless you, wherever you’re now and what are you doing right now. I hope you always protected from any harm.
Much respect @teeqo I feel the exact same way things get better, it's only up from here.
Love you teeqo been watching you for years man you might not know it but you have a great impact on people, your videos have lifted me up and I’m sure others I remember you posting a vlog where you showed kid cudi performing that song with his cup in his hand and I’ve loved that song ever since, I hope you’re well man and taking care of yourself
I feel like I've used up all my happiness, drug abuse deffo plays a big part and anti depressants deffo kill the person you once were
For me it's similar but at some point the feeling of nothing becomes a pain that no matter how hard you try is deep inside you like a tumor because I loved people but never got loved back in anyway so when I loose someone I feel the blanket becoming colder
It slowly eats away your insides, and by the time you realize it, all that's left is an empty shell filled with nothing but darkness.
I think one of the things that isn’t talked about enough but is so hard is feeling as if you’re watching your dreams and aspirations slip away. You have so much you want to do and achieve and yet you can’t do anything about it because you’re just drowning.
"Time is the only resource for which no creature may bargain..." --DD1
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Keep putting in that work Tyler,
I’ve been there. Step by step, itlll take a while but one day’ll come when it all comes together
Put the work in and trust in God’s plan.
I feel that. I tried to graduate then started focusing on a girl and now the girls gone and my life is shit. I started live streaming and it’s hard to even do that
Emptiness. No emotion. Just blank.
It feels like you want to go home, when you’re already tucked away in bed. A sense of not belonging. Worthlessness.
But I won’t lose. I’ll keep on fighting. Another day, another battle. I will make myself happy. I know this will get buried and no one will see it, but I don’t mind. I just want to feel happy.
My time is coming. I will succeed.
For anyone else reading this, you’re not alone. No surrender.
We. March. On.
I needed to hear. Thank you. I also will keep fighting the good fight and believe that I will see the light in the end of the tunnel.
I can do it. So can you. March on.
Beatiful words bro. An argentinian here, after losing my parents at 12 life I feel always empty.
At first it's was all rage. Living in their house just makes me sick. I was worse and worse until my 20's in the pandeminc I tried to sucess and do stuff.
It is really hard here. But I will sucess, and happiness will come alone.
Never sourrender. It is not an option. Eventually happiness and joy will come in our lifes.
Keep it up bro. You are not alone. We are not alone.
Well said, the worst part of being depressed is knowing that you're depressed you're unable to stop yourself from getting worse. I should know I'm there now I suffer from depression, anxiety and loneliness!
The self awareness is awful. It’s like watching a play that’s a tragedy and you’re the star but you can’t stop it.
it feels as if i am drowning all the time and no one notices.
I feel you. I feel the exact same way.
Your not alone...
I am here , you don't know me but please do your best for me. It will get better
I’m here…. You’re not alone
You aren't alone. God loves you.
I have been depressed for a pretty long time now. And this really does describe it best. The more you look at things, the more you realize things have always been this way.
Love you.
💚
““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28 because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖
And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u
I’ll be praying for u❤❤❤
@psycoscillator he is not weak. He has given me strength. And he gave everyone strength. He gave strength to David and with it killed 7000 men. And he gave Samson strength to kill 300 men with a jaw of an ass. (Donkey) Jesus loves u
20 years deep homie. It gets easier. You stop missing being happy. You start joking about wanting to be dead, everyone takes it as your being quirky. The two people that know you from before you were depressed get super uncomfortable with those jokes. And I sit there and stare at them as they shrink back into themselves. So you leave, isolating yourself from the only people on the planet you stayed for because they shunned you.
I want to see her again before I go. But I promised myself IL be better before I see her. So *shrugs* this time I won't be a emotional mess. IL smile and play nice and humor her. And when I leave IL give her a kiss on the cheek and just go.
There's really nothing here for me anymore.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.porassss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this
Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is dr.porassss.
I’m depressed often cause most of my life I’ve known loneliness. It’s hard.
Me too
Sitting in a circle of friends and speaking, only to realize that no one heard you or even noticed that you even said anything is a deep and unique pain.
sigh
I know this is a year old but im still gonna comment. This has been the first time in more than half a year that I have cried. I have depression, and it makes me unable to cry, but this just unleashed a whole lot of emotions for me, in a good way. Thank you whoever made this
I’m always happy to remember this edit. I’m glad you commented. Depression sucks, I’m sorry but as a person that it’s way better now, there is always hope🤍
Glad to help in sort of way
Does the pain ever go away?
It doesn't. somehow you feel joy when your little girl is laughing, when ever thing go awry she is the one that keeps me going. You need to find a purpose in the mix of everything that tires you out me I'm a mechanic I am breaking my back day and winters night providing for my family and somehow seeing joy in some else without complaining
@@glennvanzyl4066 I'm proud of you and may God bless the work of your hands ♥️
I know how you feel, I could not cry for 15yrs. Now it takes a while to cry but i know that the crying is what will rebalance me, and i start to feel better. I have tried suicide a few times but in the end i have found that having someone who understands, staying busy and being able to cry helps a lot. I have gone long periods without depression and then out of the blue it will hit me. May you find the hope you need to heal.
The worst part is I can't choose between life and death, so you feel as though you might as well be dead. It's a living, conscious decay
feeling bleeding out slowly till i die
This is so relatable, its ironic that we view ourselves as weak when struggling with these problems, the fact we are still here is a testiment to how strong we actually are, say things like "i dont care anymore" but the thing is we care too much, overthink, know we have a problem and yet we are still stuck feeling like that no matter how good your life is the dark cloud never goes away.
You are simply a brilliant editor, i admire this edit
Thank you so much, Jesse
She is amazing
Two of my fav editors on one post . Wow yu guys don’t even kno how talented yu are .
““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28 because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖
And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u
I’ll be praying for u❤❤❤❤❤
You never really get better, you just get used to it
You do get better, but requires a lot of time and effort that sometimes is really hard to find.
Yes!!same feeling here
Me too 😈😈
@@BMEdits12Not everyone gets better, sometimes it's just impossible, you try and try and you only feel worse because nothing helps and it's never ending, suffering suffering suffering and hope only makes it worse so hope dies too and you have nothing left
@@karolinanie5946 And you'll surely die, when hope dies
For me, depression felt like I was walking around in someone else's dream and at any moment, that person might wake up and I would no longer exist.
I deal with depression every single second. To tell the truth im tired of trying to only fail. Tired of putting a fake smile on to make sure that my family thinks im ok when inside im tearing myself apart. Tired of being slone, but yet scared to get close to someone to keep from being hurt. Im tired of fighting. Tired of losing the things that matters to me. Tired of these feelings that won't go away. People say that time heals all wounds. That may be the case but not when the wounds keep getting opened. Not when you see the scars that the ones that have healed, there to constantly remind you of the pain.
Yeah. Same. 💯 With you
The scary thing is how common depression really is and how it goes almost completely unnoticed. We are all fighting a battle within ourselves that nobody knows about because we are to scared and ashamed to tell anyone because you we don’t want anyone worrying about us. We keep it bottled up inside until it reaches a tipping point that sadly ends in many suicides. It’s like the line in the song don’t fear the reaper “40 thousand men and women everyday (like Romeo and Juliet)”. It’s just such a grim reality that we lose that many people a day to suicide.
"Before I start, I must see my end.
Destination known, my mind's journey now begins.
Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed.
In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled.
But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain,
We must see all in nothingness...
...before we start again." --DD1
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And it's further compounded bc what does it matter? What does acknowledging it do? Its still there, it will take constant effort to not to give in, but it will always there and it will do it's best to unceasingly negate any and all positive things in your life until you're just a shell of you shit behavior so you can justify being the way you are
I deserve this
Those are rookie numbers! I wanna see 120 million!
Something to say about depression is that people who have it aren’t always sad. Sadness goes hand in hand with depression, but being depressed doesn’t always mean you’re sad, often it’s hopelessness and the feeling of being lost and out of control.
At least, that’s my experience with the things I’ve seen; I just think it’s something to remember when interacting with people you feel may be going through a tough time and even those who aren’t.
Is it normal to feel nothing during depression? I get that way.
Its perfectly normal, to feel empty, like theres this void inside you that nothing can fill. it passes, i promise.
"We must see all in nothingness before we start again." --DD1
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Sadly yes
Anhedonia is a common symptom of depression, but it's not an easy way to live. Please seek help.
Yes
The only way I can explain it, its kind of like you are waiting. Not sure of what, but something.
I’ve been depressed for over 6 years now, lost my mother at 17, she was my best friend, I had a downfall with my father and at times he tries to talk and check up on me, but I just don’t feel anymore, I don’t feel happy, I don’t feel sad I just feel numb, sometimes I wanna die but then there’s days I wanna fight it but it’s just too much, things have gotten worse now, I’ve pushed people away, I drove my girlfriend away while I slowly saw her fall out of love with me, and it’s all my fault, I wanna change, but I’m just so alone and don’t know how to open up, I just want to be happy but it’s been so long that I forgot how to be happy.
@gdog5798 Very similar story in my life. Keep pushing you will get better. The only way is of you don’t give up. Just give everyday a chance and try to improve yourself in whatever way possible. Focus on success made by your own doing and the feeling will come back.
I wish you all the best in your recovery journey, brother, and hope you find the light in darkness soon. Stay strong man ♥️💪🏻
Thank you all for your kind words, I will hold them deep in my heart, I’m still fighting trying to be a better person
I understand this.
Its ok to be broken… its part of life. And yup ending it up all at once makes it easy right? But there is that part inside that still pushing us every day. Because all we want is a small measure of peace. Not happiness, not joy, just a small measure of piece. The worst thing people can go through is grief. Broken memories of a happy time. … there are times where i just wanna break everything in my house or crash my car. But what’s the point? Nothing will fulfill the void right? You dont get over it, you get used to it. We dont seek attention and we wanna see everyone around us happy. And thats what hurts the most… wish i had the answers for a happy life but i dont.
I...I really needed to see this, to know I'm not alone in feeling this way, to...understand everything and feel everything this video says and shows...I think a lot of people need to see this.
You have the kind of talent that moves people. I love this
It's been several years since I last cried, and your video made me cry all night, loneliness eats me up, and family problems destroy me, despite being surrounded by my friends and family I feel terribly alone, and I tell myself that if at barely 21 I break now it will be even worse in the future.... thank you for being the only shoulder on which I can release a few tears and move on
the way you can capture the emotions and the theme you are portraying is cheff kiss, the talent you radiate. this is just so goood bb, BESTIEEEE YOU DOING AMAZING
Thank you baby
““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28 because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖
And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u
I’ll be praying for u❤❤❤
This is awesome! Thank you for making it 😊
At my darkest moment, I remember thinking: Nothing is ever going to get better. I have been depressed my whole life. it always comes back. Why am I even here anymore.
I have managed to survive 3 more years. life is still looking up. But depression feels like a leech you can never get rid of. it is always there. waiting for you to give an inch so it can snatch a THOUSAND miles of your life in an instant
This put it perfectly
Same..
This video makes me real greatful that ive managed to recover a bit, remembering how bad it used to be makes the progress so much more clear
Such a stunning edit❤️
I hope you are feeling better soon♥️
This was excellent. Perfect music choice. I can't wait to start going through your catalogue of edits. Thank you.
Thank you so much!
Like chester said, my head is not a safe space to be all on my own. If you do not see a way out yourself, trust in your environment and take the leap. It won't stop untill you take a step yourself.
I know which Video you mean.. its a Interview by The radio. This laughing from The Guy hits hard
Damn! This hit hard! Well done!
This video is really really good and really well put together the scenes and the quotes with the soundtrack. Great job.
Well, that was a particulalry beautifully put together video. Now time to time stamp each movie and show used in this. Outstanding job
Thank you!
So glad this is here. Exactly how I feel. No hope no reason to be here anymore
Me too,... !
I hurting beyond my vocabulary can express.
I've called 988, ...
It's of no use.... it's too unbearable.
the first time i ever broke out in tears was at a grocery store with my mom i was 22 maybe, it was terrible letting her see me like that and her not knowing how to handle the situation. The only person i thought of that day was my high school teacher who taught Psychology, who i thought could help explain it. Turns out her daughter of the same age as me was also going through depression and she hadn't a clue how to help her. Learned that it's something you solve yourselve but i've yet to figure it out. I texted her this "i know its a preocess that occurrs to most people, a mid life crisis about the existential or meaningless of what they used to think was enjoyable. It's just i never thought itd be such a terrible feeling" you can know you're depressed and yet are unable to save yourself from your own thoughts, this video reminded me of this day
This was brilliant, really good work on this ! I’m going through some stuff at the moment and this was just perfect thank you I hope people are okay 😔
Today i lost my 19 years old cat named Tigrou…my cat was with me since i was a kid, i’m 24 now.. and for me i lost my best friend, he was my therapy for getting better in my life but now that he is gone im in a very dark place in my mind.. really empty inside, no motivation to fight in life anymore, and im so lonely 😢… i don’t have a job, no goal in life, no passion, don’t know what to do with my life.. im lost… i just want to disapear man… for me the reality is like a nightmare and in my mind i’m not there anymore, im like dead inside.. I simply lost control of my mind !! I don’t know what to do.. the only reason i’m still here is becausd of my lovely mom ❤ but i’m so tired this sh** man😭
Thanks for this, needed it.
Life’s a beautiful journey but oh was it so painful don’t forget your loved and cared about keep fighting!!!
That was so good, you portrayed the emotions so well in this edit, I loved all the fandoms in this, you're such a talented editor ❤️❤️
And that sequence from 0:46 to 1:06.... And Ivar's 'I wish I wasn't angry all the time', ok that just make me cry my heart out, I need moment- 😭
Thank you so much!!!
““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28 because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖
And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u
I’ll be praying for u all.
That one hit home for me so much...
This video made me realize....I really do have mental depression. I thought I was fine all these years going in between happy times and motivation, but really, that was just a short spurt before it all fell away again...
I feel that but only in my head, I can’t express it at all. Feeling so sad and stuff is just so sad and I wish people to feel better
Lovely work Bianca. Really felt the emotion within this one. Your edits always have a uniqueness about them that I just adore.
Well done!
Thank you Ben, means a lot❤️
I hope to achieve happiness one day, stop feeling sadness in myself every day and the regret I have from living, I hope to find peace, I hope to stop being lonely, I just hope to be happy.
It's so beautiful ❤️ music choice is really perfect.
Thank you!!!
Well my expierence with depression is that it makes you feel nothing, And makes you feel like its gonna be with you forever and theres no hope to feel happy ever again.
Beautiful edit.
Beautiful work like always Bianca
Thank you so much MK🥰
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I've stopped listening to music that have -too much words in-, and this have improved my life fr. Ppl don't really think about how much music actually impact our thoughts, like majority of the lyrics are negative and toxic. I hope this helps someone who’s stuck with toxic music. Peace and love.
love this video, thank you really much
The clip with jesse from breaking bad always gets me. It's like anything you try sometimes doesn't make a difference but you just keep trying again because what else are we supposed to do
Never seen such a perfect (and truelly beautiful) description of where I was back in 2010. Alone and without any help till this day, it took me years to reach the surface, the whole process took almost a decade to be precise. I hope I will find the magic potion that can heal me from my past 31 years on earth one day, until then, I'll still continue to live in this "literally me meme" kind of state.
"Before I start, I must see my end.
Destination known, my mind's journey now begins.
Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed.
In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled.
But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain,
We must see all in nothingness...
...before we start again." --DD1
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The happy or sad peaky blinders scene is in every single one of these
I don’t have any fears but one, not knowing when one day I’ll snap and end it all
It’s been a dozen years and it hasn’t gotten any easier. I don’t think it ever will.
For anyone fighting depression I want to you know this there was a video I watched today were this guy asked someone they would want a million dollars and the guy said” yes” but then the guy asking him that I’m taking to money he wouldn’t wake up tomorrow . The reason I tell you this is because every life is worth more than a million dollars your life is something that can’t be replaced. All of what you are feeling now will be gone it may take awhile but there are many others that have been though the same thing you are going through now
I just throw on a happy face so the people that love don’t have to worry about me because well I am a fixer that can’t fix himself. My friend tried talking to me on a long drive and they noticed that I was getting distant and they stated that I was starting to have a cold heart. I just blamed it on work and gave them a smile because that is easier then finding a reason to why I am depressed. I am depressed because I haven’t found what I have truly been longing for but the problem is I don’t know what that is so I hide all of it from everyone. And the only reason I don’t end it is because I don’t want to make other lives difficult.
I have no doubts anymore. This is how I feel and I haven't realized although it was obvious. Every day is so hard and my energy is drained all the time. Friends only annoy me, games aren't fun anymore, music is only a way to cope for 30 minutes a day before I get tired of it again and try to sleep it away. Then my obsessive thoughts and my sleep problems make everything worse. I feel so empty...
The worst felling about depression to me is that it when people need you to there in bad time but when you need someone that time you always alone
If there is anyone out thrre struggling with depression, just know that your not alone ive had it since i was a little boy ,i get up everyday and i don't quit and i push myself to greatness,if none has ever told you they love you i love you don't quit, everyone deserves love ❤️🙏🙏 sending love it's okay your not alone
I’ve spent days, weeks, months, and years being happy for other people. I’ve fought and raged against this loneliness. Railed against sadness and prayed for relief. I tried everything to move forward and never wanted to let my family down. Wanted anyone to see my worth because I don’t think I’m worth anything. Even when I’m successful I feel like it’s a counterfeit. Happiness floats away like oil in the ocean.
I’m bipolar and my lows are exactly like this, desensitized, hopeless, empty. The only relief are my manic highs where I go off the rails. Equally as bad bc I have little to no control of my thought process and actions. There hasn’t been one moment where I sat down in my life feeling genuine content. It’s an endless storm of emotion, never knowing which one will get washed onto my brain next.
I lost the woman that meant everything to me. I’ve never given depression power over me but now that I’ve lost that person. And the future I thought I had. I feel myself slipping further day by day. And I can’t do anything to stop it. I love her so much and I can’t rid myself of this fear and loss. And the fact I might not ever see her again is pushing me to the brink
@@meganrose5069 I just want to forget everything. She broke me rly bad man😭😭😭
Bro, i feel the exact same way. 4 years I knew her, getting to know every little distinct detail about her life, and her knowing mine. Sharing our lives for the last 3 years, for it to all fade away in a matter of months, like It meant nothing. Never seeing her, is whats killing me.
Me same
My love just walked out on me
The love if my life, just broke up with me and I feel the world crumbling around me
wonderfully made...
I cant quit solitude after this long. I can find a way to beat loneliness every time but anxiety caused by people is acute incurable
I havent cried for about 3 years, not even that helped, I think Im already dead inside.
I use to be an extravert, always in need of someone or somebody, and I remember once I started losing friends and family, I felt it even more. But then I somehow got used to the solitude and it started to become peaceful instead. Now I don't really wanna see people, infact I hate people, and I feel off alone much better. Because once you step in that circle where people need others, you're also tied to the opinions of others, which can also be judgemental. Your also exposed to somebody elses thoughts and feelings, something I don't wanna deal with anymore. Finding peace without family, was a blessing. And I still have good friends, but I prefer most of my time alone.
Woow, this hits me so hard.. No idea what to do, feels like I don't have time to continue so gloomily.
My depression feels like I’m in a body of water drowning and I know to save myself all I have to do is walk out, but I never have the will nor energy to do so. It’s like I’m drowning myself in myself and it is exhausting
My sister keeps saying that out of ur family, I'm the happiest. She will never see me break down in the middle of the night. She will never know my thoughts, waiting for the day to end as it has just begun. And no, she will never see this comment. I know she is having a hard time, so I keep it together so she can have my advice, my parents help, etc. Really though, I just want to find a place somewhere in nature, and just leave it all behind. All the worry and stress from family just gone. Nobody to worry about me, and nobody to worry about. I love them, don’t mistake that. I just want to find my peace alone. I guess that's selfish.
Honestly, i sincerely want that pain to end like fr, i try to have hope but it gets crushed any time i get it, i really hate it,
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I’m stuck here in this feeling.
I have the most amazing partner who loves and supports me so much, fantastic parents who will do anything to help me, a young son I can’t see who I love so much and I know me doing what I think would hurt forever.
Yet no matter what I try I can’t change my thoughts or pick myself up.
I've had clinical depression since I hit puberty. I was officially diagnosed with it, (& put on medication,) at 16. That was in 1996. 'Mental health' wasn't talked about then, & it wasn't used as an excuse for everything then either. Actual depression, CLINICAL DEPRESSION, is horrendous. You WANT to be happy, to be healthy, but it seems impossible. It's like drowning. You are underwater, and you can see where to swim up, but your body JUST WON'T LET YOU. No matter how much you cry & beg......YOU CAN'T SWIM UP. It's horrible, absolutely hellish. Over the years I have tried to get off my meds, hoping that I am better, but it never works. I change my diet, exercise, etc. I've changed my medication 3 times too. Sadly I think I'm stuck with this for the rest of my life. 😮💨☹️ It runs in my family; I just hope that it doesn't touch my daughter. 🙏☸️
Life is unfair.
@@ardnaxoy It is, but I'm still fortunate. I have a loving family. ❤️ There are people like me who don't have that; I worry for them.
i just watch these vids to help me release and cry, but damn, no tears coming out. AHHG
This is me every day
The worst feeling is your not alone but you feel alone. And when you do feel alone and they make you feel like your not alone you want to be alone.
it's like a knife stabbed in your chest for a long time. it's still there but you just live through it
Depression takes us over but only Depression can take us as souls left behind
Whoever is out there struggling right now. Just know that it gets better, you are loved and this life is worth living. The pain will stop and the sun will shine brightly on your face again. Never give up, no matter how hard it gets, I love you.
the pain only stops when you end it sad truth 😢
@jerryperez6670 That is entirely a false statement. You shouldn't say such things that would incentivise others to harm themselves. Time heals all wounds, family and friends, growth mindset, medical help...just to name a few things that would help anyone dealing with troubles in their life. Don't sit in your sadness and do nothing! You can get through it, I believe in you!
@@nekotajni394 deep depression is not something that clears up or goes away it envelops every aspect of your body and mind you don't control it oh no!.it controls you is dark lonely and dangerous and for some sufferers the only relief for them is to end their life and it can affect you for your whole life so think about comments before you make them and never accuse anyone of inciting someone to kill themselves that is such an ignorant thing to say and depression dosnt work like that so maybe educate yourself and you could provide more true and informative comments.
Suicide is committed to end the pain! Some feel it's the only way out! Just talk have a cry get it out there get it off your chest and off your mind!
People sometimes don't know how hard it is to dream of something better but waking up feeling stuck and you there is no way out, so yeah admire those who have good lives cherish it, because to me its like a myth dont know if it ever gets good but thats how the universe works😔
Thanks ... I really don't know what to say ... Well this year was, man... I almost lost my brother to cancer, I broke up with a girl I met when I was a child. All my friends ... Well there are not here anymore, they have differents paths ... I really don't know if one day I will be happy, I want ... But don't know if it's for me or what. I'm not shy or what, more a golden boy who loses a lot.
I realize I'm really alone and ...well, I'm afraid of it.
Thanks, no matter the world or language barrier, this kind of videos helps me a little.
Thx !
No absolution. No forgetting. Joy elusive.
To all of you who can relate. More than anything, you are worth it, your life has meaning and no, we aren't better off without you, we need your strength. We need you to fight and tell everyone else how you managed to find the strength to keep going. All of you, every single last one, you can change the world by being here.
1:41 I hate being angry all the time too I hate that version of myself as someone with an autism spectrum disorder that feels overwhelmed and lashes out sometimes I felt that 😔
““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28 because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖
And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u
I’ll be praying for u❤❤❤❤❤
Currently having a breakdown in my car after going out to get wine to numb myself.
I am in medical school in loans close to $150,000, on my emergency medical rotation far away from everyone I love for so long. Isolated.
My preceptors are harsh and rude and make me feel stupid maybe I am. So close to giving up.
Then the truth is I will be a burden with my loans and nothing to show for it.
I will be a burden on the ones I love and they will be better off without me.
That is the truth.
I chose this path for stability and I got the absolute opposite.i just tried to do this for a good life.
I feel like the end is near for me.
@@mhh16 Thank you, I appreciate that. I am still trying my best until the end. My exam is this Friday. Just going to try my best. I appreciate your comment.
Rust chole basically explains why depression is a thing and how it sucks. Nothing is ever solved or over, time is a flat circle, a nightmare you just keep waking up into, no girlfriend just go to work go home, literally the most realistic character ever made
I don’t have full blown depression but today will be the day I will start lexapro for my anxiety, self harm urges and depressive thoughts. For me it’s like an emptiness at the deepest middle portion of your chest. It’s restlessness and inability to do things besides which ones harm you.
But I have hope that I will get better- or maybe worse- I just won’t give up. This world has already broken me, I have nothing to lose.
Love and prayers to everyone and anyone struggling. We’re in this together💖.
Este video es completamente emocional y magnifico al mismo tiempo. Me encanta!!!
Gracias belleza🥰🥰🥰
Being alone means no one will ever make you happy, no one will ever make you laugh. No one will ever make you smile. No one will ever hurt you ever again. It’s peace.