hey everyone, i just wanted to make a quick announcement! i’ll start off by thank everyone so much for the support on this video and basically on my channel in general!! i was so not expecting this!! so thank you guys so much and i hope you guys can heal soon 💕💕. i also wanted to say that if you leave a comment and i don’t heart it or reply to it, it’s probably youtube not letting me see some of the comments. it’s really annoying ngl. i like to reply to everyone, but sometimes youtube won’t let me. i’ll receive the notification but when i click it, the comment won’t show. so just know that it’s nothing personal and it’s just youtube being annoying. anyways, once again thank you all so much and remember, stay strong and take all the time you need to heal. y’all can do this ❤️💕
Espero que você não esteja pensando em suicídio mesmo e isso seja um vídeo artístico porque quem é que pensa e suicidio é tá com depressão e cria um vídeo desse
oh dang.. i hope it didn’t trigger you or anything.. if it did, then i’m extremely sorry!! would you like me to add a trigger warning on the title of the video?
@@meliitonin5443 it didn't exactly trigger me. but i think having a trigger warning anyway would be nice. I think all traumacore vids should have a T.W but this video was really good and I thank you for making it!
I will vent now Failing school. Retaking the 9. grade and failing again. I cant do this anymore I have made so many mistakes already. Everything is hitting me harder every day. My family is poor, my mother is suicidal and depressed. Im sorry for my family that Im like this. I cant go outside because my anxiety is way to hard. I have no friends, they ditched me 2 years ago and thats when it all started. Not going to school anymore, not going outside, rotting my room. Everyday Im more sad. I worry about my family but also about myself. I cant controll myself often and Im scared of that. I know I should get help. I tried therapy four times. Everything got worse. I tried to get a new therapy but they wont take me anymore because I tried to many and it didnt work out, they tell me that it wont work out again and Im hopeless sitting in my room. Rotting away. Slowly dying. Im crying everyday. Crying right now too. I want a hug. I want friends. I want to be normal. My friends ditched me because they found out that Im gay. Im way to scared to do anything anymore because I know that I will fail. I want a hug. I need someone that I can talk to and hug. I hug my mom sometimes because she is crying so much everyday. She has several depression. I have two siblings. They are still so young, six and eight years old. I love them and I dont want to be sad infront of them. They dont know how hard it is for us but they love us. I feel bad for them. I try to be a good brother. Im sorry if Im just writing down random stuff, this is just stuff that comes in my mind right now. I have no other place to vent. I have a dad, I got to know him when I was 12 years old. He had to go to war and is addicted to drugs. I love him too even tho I dont really know him. He is my dad but I know like nothing about him but he cares so much about me. I dont want to hurt anyone but Im getting more and more depressed over the days. Im suicidal but I know that If I end it my mother would end it any my siblings would have a trauma. Thats the only reason why Im not doing it. Im trying to stay strong. Im trying. I have no other place to vent Im just writing down everything that comes in my mind right now. Sorry if its random,,
don't worry about venting, you can vent all you want in this comment section ❤️. and those "friends" aren't good people if they ditched you because of your sexuality. they should give you the right to be yourself. there's nothing wrong with being gay, i might be gay too (although i'm currently questioning my sexuality). and i'm going to be honest, i might be depressed myself and it's affecting me in school a little. although my situation isn't exactly the same as yours, just know that you're not alone and i'm here to listen to you. so feel free to vent and let it all out, because you've been through a lot and you deserve so much better ❤️❤️
hey, i know it's been a month since this comment, but i hope you'll read this. i know text doesnt do much to get to people, and i dont blame you for that. you are within your rights to not be affected by this comment or any other comments. your feelings are yours. that isnt a mistake. you arent dumb for that. if you are reading this, good job. you were able to stay alive, push through the pain, and get here. you are trying. even if it's for somebody else, you are trying. that is something that not many people can do. it's been a month. you are alive. you are not defined by what happens to you. i know you've probably heard all of this before, and many people have told it to you. but life will get better. i can promise you that. you were strong enough to stay alive for your family and share what you're feeling to other people. you are amazing. i've never met you before, but if i can say that from reading one of your comments, you have protentional. you are the strongest person that i have ever met. im proud that you could gather the strength to write this. if you're still here, how are you? how have things been? i'll listen to anything you have to say. and if you dont want to share, that's okay too.
I made trauma core art the other night and it honestly really helps, don't be ashamed of your trauma or to use this type of vent art to cope. Its okay, your trauma doesn't make you a bad person. I love you, have a nice night
honestly, thank you so much for commenting this. sometimes i feel ashamed of my trauma because it's something that most people wouldn't consider valid. this makes me feel better, so thank you! and i hope you have a good night too❤️!
Fake. I'm a bad human being. I'm a disgusting piece of sh¡t and the only thing i can bring to this world is disgust, disrespect, destruction and global suffering. I was the one victim of traumas, now i'm causing it, i'm perpetuating this cycle. Stop lying and sugar coating it moth3rfucker, i am bad.
Sadly this has become... “aesthetic” but it’s vent art for people who survived sexual abuse- abusive relationships- ( etc..) and after that some blame themselves maybe/ or something is going on with them- trauma takes a toll on people- please stop thinking of this as an aesthetic for the ones who do think of it that way, it’s really not.
yes, thank you for pointing this out. trauma shouldn't be romanticized as an aesthetic. people in the traumacore community use this vent art style to cope with trauma. which is why i made this video. to help others cope, as well as myself. traumacore can be comforting for some who have gone through trauma and it's honestly disrespectful to turn this into an aesthetic for people who have been traumatized just to seem "edgy" or "quirky". really, thank you so much for this comment 💕
@@meliitonin5443 your welcome I would just love for this to be recognized I’ve seen lots of serious things becoming “aesthetic” and it’s horrible things like this are serious- I’m glad to try and help get that out there 💕
Everything is such a chore “Do what makes you happy” they said Nothing makes me happy anymore Please rewind to the comfort I felt for 3 seconds.. Eating is such a chore.. my enemy... my lover.
sometimes it can feel like you are an empty shell with no energy left in you. you might feel like you have no emotions left to give. and it might feel like nothing affects you anymore. that's okay. i know text doesnt do much to get to you, but i'd like you to know that we care about you and what you're feeling. even if there isnt feeling at all after what happened to you. or if nothing happened to you at all. you arent being overdramatic or edgy, or anything they call you. i know this doesnt affect you, but i'll try my best to get to you. do you want to talk? if not, that's okay too. i dont mind. it's just an offer if you want to let out whatever you might have bottled up. you dont have to accept it, i wont be sad or offended.
hey, i know what you are going through is tough, but your feeling are valid. i know text wont do much to get to you, but you are amazing. you shared your experience. not many people can do that. you are strong and you need to stay that way. dont let what happened get to you. and, if you're still experiencing this, i'd be happy to talk. if you dont want to, that's okay too. i wont be sad or offended. thank you for staying strong through this.
My family was such a beautiful one as a kid, as i grew older I found out the ugly truth about my family, our relationship started becoming toxic and frustrating, my family has mentally scarred me and left me with paranoia, sad how things change, no more sitting at tables together, laughing and eating dinner, just everyone locked in their room, depressed and desperately slipping into hopelessness. Can't remember when was the last time i saw us all laughing and hugging together. well here come the tears This stuff kinda helps coping :)
0:14 I had to pause, this shit just hits too hard. I see people venting in the comments and feel like it’s safe for me to as well. I honestly thought I was the only one that felt trapped in my body or that it isn’t me because of all the shit that happened to it that was out of my control and wanted to escape. It feels like it isn’t mine.
damn.. i haven’t felt that personally but you don’t deserve to go through what you experienced. people who do awful things to other people’s bodies are just sick and disgusting. i honestly can’t believe that there are people like that with extremely sick and gross intentions. i hope you feel better really soon ❤️
0:25 I can relate to. My friend manipulated and guilt tripped me into thinking that I was the bad guy. She did a cruel prank and it caused me to lose my temper on her. She must of known too dang well that I have a short fuse.. it happend 1 year ago but I'm still angry about it. I hate you, ####. You almost ruined my soul. You took away my innocence(not in a sexual way, don't worry everyone else)
Dang.. i think i had a friend who also did that to me. But not only me, to many of my other friends too. She moved after 7th grade which I’m glad. She was very manipulative and would always just ruin the mood. Anyways, i hope you’re surrounding yourself with better people now!!
@@JoeNuts42 don't make fun of people for their interests. sure, the gacha community has it's bad side. but there is also a good side to it. this is coming from an ex-gachatuber. not every gachatuber is bad.
0:050:23 This is also very relative and happened twice. When I was drawing on my computer I was 12 years old when I heard screams of someone fighting. At first I thought it was the neighbors until I realized it was my parents and when I started I was scared by this fighting situation because I thought they were going to get separated when my mother came into our room with the bag in her hand and I think I put on my shoes or clothes, making me more tormented because I thought we were going to separate but soon after my mother and father started fighting again but the fight ended. When I saw my parents crying after the argument, I cried too. The other was at the hotel in BH. When we leave tomorrow, my parents started arguing again. But in the end the speech ended and I almost cried just for my sister because we were both scared that we were going to separate. (No. My parents don't separate)
💮Trigger warning💮 I'll never live in a castle I'll be stuck in this basement I'm a princess like Daddy says But not the like the princesses in the stories, because I don't get a happy ever after I don't deserve happiness
For those of you who *want* trauma... You have trauma. You may not remember it, or you may be invalidating your experience because you think it wasn't "that bad", but wishing you had trauma is an actual trauma response. You feel the pain, but you don't think it's a big deal. You just want your pain to be valid, to be real. But it already is real. You just don't see it.
I fucking hate how people want to “have trauma” and have abusive parents just to follow the trend. This isn’t cool, it fucking destroys your entire perception of love and loved ones. This is one of the worst things to ever experience and do you know how much we wanted to be like you? Ugh, great video anyways, makes me feel like I’m not alone
yea i agree, i haven’t been abused myself (at least i don’t think so) but i do have some trauma of my own and it’s completely changed me (in a bad way) i don’t even know how it feels to be genuinely happy anymore
ive never even experienced any major trauma and i couldn't fathom wanting life-destroying trauma just to follow a TREND. i don't think people who think like that have even an ounce of understanding
I used to want trauma. Not to follow a trend but to have a reason for my sh!tty mental health. (I actually do have trauma, I just overlooked it back then because it wasn't like everyone else's)
The more I watch of this stuff the more I realise how truly traumatised and broken I truly am. And now the pain is flooding back. All the pain I tried to ignore. I feel like a kid again, scared to death by those countless bullies who broke me. I might as well be 8 or 9 again.
@@meliitonin5443 they broke me mentally. They made me hate myself and now they go to the same school as me and like to remind me of the PTSD THEY gave me. I hope karma gets them.
@@spacekid9680 oh my.. the fact that they continue to torment you still is just horrible. they are terrible people. is there a way to avoid them? because you definitely deserve so much better and you deserve to be with better people
Watching these is the only thing that can make me cry, and it upsetting to admit I purposefully seek them out because I feel my breakdown isn't considered real if it's not physical.
a breakdown doesn't have to be real if it's not physical. just because you can't cry for the most part, it doesn't mean that your feelings and what you're going through aren't real or valid. they are real and valid 💕💕
0:18 This hit personally the hardest. I just feel like I don't have a right to feel the way I feel, because so many people have it worse. And then there comes my age, I've been told so many times that I'm too old to still be crying. I now feel like I'm just over exaggerating
honestly, me too sometimes. sometimes i feel like my feelings aren’t valid because others have it worse. but it’s not good to compare your experiences with other people’s. just because yours “isn’t as bad”, it doesn’t mean that it’s not valid and that you don’t have the right to feel that way. everyone’s feelings and experiences are valid, no matter how old the person is, the experience, or how “small” it is 💕
@@meliitonin5443 thank you so much. I'm aware that, that's how it should be, but it's so hard to reverse that when it feels like the whole world is telling you overwise. But I'm also so sorry you had to deal with this too, no one deserves to be feeling like this or any kind of trauma. Please stay strong, I know we can pull this through 💕
@@chickennoodlesoup3768 no problem! and yea, it can be hard to believe that sometimes when you feel like the whole world is telling you the opposite, but yes! we can stay strong and pull through! 💖💕
crying may not exactly solve the issue, but it helps to cry. it helps to let out your emotions. don't let others make you feel like you can't cry. i hope you get well soon, you can get through it ❤️
I watched this video to try and understand people with trauma, not to comfort myself. But then reading the comments made me realize, I also have trauma. Not the same as in the video, not severe, but it's there. It's made me realize this aesthetic isn't reserved for only a certain demographic of severely traumatized individuals, it's for anyone who can relate, whatever trauma they have, big or small. My trauma doesn't seem like a big trauma, or at least what I would consider severe, but it has ruined my mind and I can't figure out why. I'm paranoid all the time, find it difficult to experience true joy that isn't just the absence of depression or a "good mood," and life just seems grim. But what I've gone through seems like normal life struggles. I lost two family members a year apart. One I wasn't close to and one I was closer to. I didn't go through the whole reactive depression and five stages of grief or feeling empty, the first time I was just reacting to seeing my other family members in pain and reacting to the scary idea of premature death in general. The second time, I had my moments, but cant recall any feelings that overtook me. I became at peace with it very quickly. Then another person I am very close to had a heart attack a couple months later, was diagnosed with heart failure. This is having severe affects on me to this day. Then everything started to get to me. Another family member got cancer (I'm not very close to them but it still gets to me), The nuke threats, the pandemic, our financial struggles, I start worrying about death and illness in general, the odds of dying, getting murdered or sick, if I will lose someone very close to me, if society will collapse, if I will get struck by lightning, if I will die early, I am just petrified of everything and nothing feels normal anymore. So many people go through the same things but cope much better than I am. I don't understand why these events that people seem to get through eventually have destroyed my mind. No one else in my family seems to have these issues. It's like all of these mildly traumatizing events have just built up and slowly chipped away at my passion for life. Sometimes I ask, am I just weak and self-destructive because of my ruminating thoughts or is it normal to feel this way?
hey, it's okay to feel that way. just because the others don't seem to feel that way, it doesn't mean that you can't. i find oddly fascinating how people feel like they're the only one with a perspective like this due to trauma. but in reality, there are other people who feel those things too. they're just not around them, or they can't tell until they get to know them.
Need to get this off my chest. Being yelled at and backed into a corner by your entire family was a scary experience that I've ever gone through, this video provided me with some coping specially the part where the character says please stop yelling, and the too sensitive part I thank you for the very comforting video and I know this seems probably selfish but I just really wanted to say, you're helping a lot of people with these videos. please keep up the good work
The help is poisonous, i thought i could trust medical pros, well, nope. It just made it worse, i almost did go to jail for opening up a lil too much to a psy. I fucking hate everything about this world, myself included.
im failing every single class bc im too insecure to go out of my room but i just say i dont want to lololol 😊 also i feel like i have forgotten trauma-
@@myaklls yea i feel that way too. i can say that i’ve been traumatised 3 times for sure. but i think there’s a fourth one hidden away somehow. since my traumatic experience in the 7th grade was so bad, i might have completely forgotten about my 6th grade trauma (because stuff happened that year too)
@@meliitonin5443 i think the first trauma i had was when i was like 1 or 2 and then i kept being traumatized from then on but idk maybe my brain made me forget some that was worse ? but the trauma ive had is alr really bad so- i just dk
@@myaklls dang.. 1 or 2? that’s just way too young to go through something traumatising. but yea, for me it’s a similar situation i think but my first traumatic experience was at the age 9 or 10
I want to scream No, keep it in I want to have mom No, you dont I think I'm depressed No, your overdramatic I think I'm traumatized No, you want attention I'm scared No, you aren't
your feelings are yours. nobody can tell you what you are feeling. there is never a wrong feeling about something. whatever happened to you, i'd be happy to hear it and listen to you. if you dont want to tell, that's okay too. i dont mind. i hope you're doing well now! i know text doesnt do much to get to people, but i'll try to help in the best way i can. how are you by the way?
@@Gregory.Edgeworth i meant that if somebody was telling you that you shouldn't do these things, then you shouldn't listen to them. if you are telling yourself these things, then that's a problem that i cant solve through the internet. i'm not a professional at this and i don't want you to see me as one, but i do hope that the counselor you have now is to your liking. and i hope you are able to recover from your trauma in a way that makes you happy.
healing from trauma takes time, and sometimes it can take years. so if you are not noticing better results atm, don’t feel bad!! take your time. go at your pace. be easy on yourself and remember that self love is hard, but you can slowly start to treat yourself with love. 💕
Discovered traumacore thanks to a dreamcore video, i love this. And not in an aestethic way, but in a Psycological one. It's interesting to see what we do to make urselves feel better against a trauma or more than one, and the constrast between the characters/phrases from the enviromment, is something amazes me. I'm a writer, not a professional one though, i'm starting to see these type of videos and give me inspiration to write more about my characters. Make more!
thanks! i’m glad that you’re getting inspired! i do writing as a hobby, making and seeing these videos also gives me inspiration at times! i also think that the contrast of the characters and the environment is interesting. there’s innocence in the characters in a dark and scary environment. i really don’t know how to describe it, but i agree with what you’re saying!
oh my.. i don't know what to say except that i hope things get better for you really soon. and telling your mom about your situation does not make you an attention seeker. it makes you a really brave and strong person for reaching out for help. take your time to gain the courage, of course. it takes time to gather courage to tell someone about what you're going through. it took me a while to tell my mom about what happened to me recently. so don't be hard on yourself, take your time to feel ready, and know that what you're going through is not your fault and you deserve so much better. i wish you the very best of luck ❤️✨
@@meliitonin5443 Thank you. He's coming over today, and I don't want to be here anymore, my mom's always busy with something, and I turn all of my sadness into anger which drags many people away from me. I don't want to be here. I haven't cried for 7 months. I can't cry anymore. No one considers my emotions, because they think I don't have any. I don't smile. But I do have emotions. I don't want to be here. Thanks so much for the help.
@@tenshiroronoa4807 no problem! i'm glad i could give you some advice ❤️. i really hope that things get better for you and that your uncle leaves you alone and stops doing what he's doing to you
@@meliitonin5443 I don't know what to do anymore. Nobody knows about this, I'm good at keeping a straight face so nobody notices. Right now, it's either him or me. I wonder if death is a escape from this.
@@tenshiroronoa4807 death isn’t the answer for this. maybe you have a hobby that can help you escape for a while at least? or maybe you could go out on walks in your neighbourhood while listening to music if it’s safe enough. walking personally helps me escape for a bit and i come home feeling so much better. maybe you could do one of those to escape for a while. but just know that death isn’t the key to escape and it will only pass the pain to someone else ❤️
"your expectations are too high" i've been telling my family this for years and they never listen. they compare me to everyone else and don't listen when i tell them i'm trying my best. they all just tell me i'm lazy and make me feel like nothing i do is good enough.
Tw So my dad is coming back Tuesday morning, and I’m really fucking scared. I’m not gonna get into details since I’m afraid of having another mental breakdown (just had one yesterday) but I’ll list what he did: -when I was 8 years old he yelled at me in the car and threatened to beat me to death -when I was 9 years old I was forced to grow up to defend my own mother from my father -also 9 years old is when I started developing mental health issues -I was 10 years old when the trauma really started to trickle in. He asked me if I would rather live with my mother or him and I said my mother and he proceeded to corner me, yell slurs and hurtful words at me for an hour and grabbed me -when I was 11 years old he started becoming much nicer to me -when I was 12 years old I realized he was grooming me, but it was too late. He made me unclean. -When I was 13 years old he kept doing this behavior and I had multiple suicide attempts, one of which was very close -I am now fourteen years old, and he’s coming back home from work. Can’t wait to endure emotional and sexual abuse from that motherfucker. He invalidates me and apart from the abuse he amplifies my gender dysphoria (I am trans ftm) because I blame myself and my mind constantly goes: “it’s your fault, if you were born in a boys body, this wouldn’t have happened to you” So yeah can’t wait to endure another year of abuse until he leaves for a month :)
Lo siento mucho por lo que te paso, enserio lo siento!!! Espero y puedas ser alegre y resplandeciente, eres más que válido, aquí te apoyamos todos 💖🥺 y espero que ese infeliz no te haga daño nunca más... Ánimo pequeño. Dios te bendiga.
*Trigger warning: emotional abuse, slurs, self harm* I had an ex, she cheated on me. Not a big deal. But she did other things too. She liked about leaked nudes of her for support she didn't need. She made me worry. She made be distrustful of her. She would tell me she self harmed and would never take my advice. She seaked attention from me and made me lose my mind. She said she loved me. She said she hated me. She said I wasn't worth it. She said I was a bitch, she said I was stupid, retarded, idiotic, overdramatic. She made me think I wasn't doing enough, I was being too distant she told me. Am I distant for sleeping in?
I honestly never know if it is trauma or I’m being an over dramatic baby. I’m scared that once I tell someone how I feel they’ll make fun of me and start trauma dumping saying how they have it worse.
0:13 and 0:15 are so relatable i feel like im supposed to be some academic prodigy, but when i dont get straight a's or a good grade, my brain yells at me "you're such a failure, why do you even exist, you had one job" and i depersonalize and derealize a LOT, not only because of the constant stress and fear of failure, but also because of my gender dysphoria which makes me feel like a girl trapped in a boy's body. i want to escape. this isn't right.
1:35 hit me hard, that really reminds me of my early childhood with my single mother and getting thought the hwhole video made me shaky and kinda nauseous, yet I feel kind of reassured in a weird way
"Im sorry mom I wasnt good enough" "Im sorry dad Im a mistake child" "Im sorry for making you guys have to love me" "Hideous hideous hideous" "Porcelain people eat me alive with their stares! Mommy please help meee :
"Mom was right, i'm undesired and shouldnt continue to live, it is literally pointless" 12 year old me after remembering the time when my mom said that i was the undesired kid in a night familial conversation
most my childhood feels like a blur honestly. i can’t believe that i was actually happy at some point in my life. i only remember some things about it, but it kinda feels like most of my childhood was in another life tbh
the worst thing about trauma is not realizing that it's really trauma and just falling into a spiraling void of thinking that you made it all up for attention.
yea that’s true.. i’ve had experiences where i haven’t realised that my trauma is trauma until after the event(s). and.. it’s even worse when someone tells you that you’re acting the way you are because you’re seeking for attention. trauma can change your behaviour around people. which has happened to me personally. ever since i’ve been traumatised for the first time at the age of 9/10, i’ve been extremely shy with most people and have difficulties communicating verbally, since i tend to speak in a way that’s way too quiet for pretty much anyone to hear. but when i’m with friends, i tend to act in an extroverted manner. because i feel free around them and i don’t feel like i have to be afraid of them. and because of that, i’ve been accused of being an attention seeker. and ever since then, i’ve had the fear of people thinking that i’m being extremely shy for attention, when in reality i just feel really nervous around most people. so yeah, i can understand this
I can hope that all of you can make your way out of this horrible feeling eventually I have my own issues and insecurities (that's why I'm here in the first place) and they won't ever go away, but I can forget them for a short while. I'm always looking forward for those moments where I can simply disconnect from everything that is awful in my head I hope that you can look forward to these moments too and feel safe wherever you end up being
thanks!! and i also hope that for you and everyone else here ❤️. i always enjoy the times where i’m not thinking about my trauma and i’m somewhere fun in my head. it feels nice and relaxing to forget about it, even if it’s for a short period of time ☺️
0:05 When I was 5 or 6 I think, my father got drunk when I was using my cell phone and he hit my cell phone that was in my hand and it fell on the floor until it was broken which made me cry. Then my mom started fighting with my dad on the couch and I went out in my backyard crying and I sat there while my parents fought which made me cry even more. Yes guys, my father went there and sat next to me apologizing for everything he did. (I managed to write what I remember from my childhood)
I was 6 i still remember when it happened i got triggered while watching a video about abuse it clicked in my mind i had a panic attack it rushed through my head i felt like dieeingg
( Vent ) Well i grew up in a "good" family , except the detail that my mom is always with suicidal thoughts and she says she is possessed everytime that she is wrong , and she one day touched me and etc without permission My dad isnt abusive , he just dont care about us because he lost hope in living My sister isnt the same , she became abusive , she always scream at me and tries to beat me and my parents They say i have a good life , they say if i cry they will make me cry much more , they say that other kids suffer and are better than me because im being dramatic because i cry everytime they scream at eachother and at me I can't say anything , because they think my problem isnt big , because they think im faking it and im too young for having problems Sometimes i can't breathe , sometimes i want just to kill myself , i get violent everytime someone says something even if its a little thing Everytime i feel like im too big for my body , i feel like a stranger , i feel trapped in my body I want to be clean , my mom made me unholy , she made me dirty , im disgusting I want to be free , i want to fit in a body that is big like my soul feels like I want to find myself , i can't handle being the person im , i Don't know who i am anymore Im just a ghost , everybody excludes me from everything I can't eat , it makes me wanna throw up , everything i eat feel disgusting while im chewing I feel like im being watched everytime I want to feel like im in home , i want to feel safe , i want to come back to my reality My mom says that i will never be a boy , maybe she is right I want to be a boy , i dont feel right being a girl My chest is too big I want to be sick forever , i only feel safe and at home when im sick ( Traumacore helps me so much in this situation )
I've always wanted to remember my childhood,it's always so fuzzy and I hate it I wish I could remember something good but most of the things I remember just end up hurting me,then I no longer want to think about it. I always tell my self there's no point...but then I try again
I don't know why (I can't remenber I guess), but I really feel identified with this images and I have mental peace that finally I can identify my emotions 0:06 0:59 1:54 2:04 2:21 Thank you for making the video, that helped me a lot ♡
1:55 I do wish I could tell people things that upset me because I don't want to waste their time or feel like I'm "in need of attention" that hit pretty hard lol
I always wish others didnt go through the things I have, and many times just want to hug or at the very least be there for them... videos like these remember me why I choose psychology... why I do care about people even though I keep... struggling with my emotions... I get angry easily at people when they do annoying things or act rude... cant help to get rough myself u.u... and I try to lower it... is difficult... and I know I need to if I want to actually be able to successfully help others and live by example...
its a great thing that you want to help others 💕. and remember, take your time to improve yourself and don’t be so harsh on yourself!! self love is important too ❤️
0:16 TW:Homophobia, Transphobia, Religion (the religion part is mainly pos) this is exactly how I feel My parents don't accept the fact that I'm trans (gendersylphen) and bi. I feel like crap every day cuz of it. I ordered a chest binder from gc2b and I really hope my mom doesn't find out. I have this huge plan and everything to make sure she doesn't and I've prayed abt it ma n y times (prayer is reallyyy helping me out) and the only support systems I have is God and my friends. I wish that my parents would be there but no. I showed her this hilarious Trump x Shrek fanfiction and she did a disgusted face and she said, why is it a man marryign man! This world is corrupting you guys" blah blah blah. Last school year I came out to her as pan (I'm actually bi) by emailing her saying," HI MOM! I'm pan so if u have a complaint please put it in the complaints box *shows the amazing world of gumball complaints box joke*" and she said that she as s e v er a l complaints abt tht. when I tell her I'm trans/bi she says stuff like, "you're too young, your brain's developing so you don't know for sure" and "are you really associating yourself with those people?" and then she tells me tht when I was born she promised God tht she would raise me right (it's cuz I was supposed to die when I was born) and each time she tells me that, I feel like she's using tht against me :( Pls pray for me and my family (including my mom) I feel like I could be better and just speak up to her but I'm scared. I've been trying to just suck it up but it hasn't been working. I feel like I should be stronger and I feel guilty. What did I do wrong? since I ordered the binder, I've been checking the mail and I'll keep doing that after I get it so my mom doesn't think I'm sus. When it comes in the mail, I'm gonna put it in my purse (I check the mail after school) and I'm gonna try on my binder once I get upstairs into my room. I'm going to hide it under my tank tops and I'm gonna only put it on at school and when I'm out walking cuz my mom tells me I look weird when I actually pass. (I chad a clasp binder earlier but it wasn't the best even though it made me flat) and if my mom finds out I'm gonna tell her everything. If she hurts me, I might run away. If I do, I'm gonna bring my dog, my sibling's contacts (maybe my actual siblings), my phone, my bible, my rosary, my St. Michael's chaplet, my clothes, some Doraemon manga, a toothbrush, toothepaste, washcloth, body soap, lotion, etc. Idk where I'm gonna run to tho. imma gonna keep my parent's contacts too tho and my friend's contacts cuz I love them Srry for the vent :( I'm not ok Pls help
@@xx_somescenecath0lic_xx888 i hope that everything turns out okay. just know that you’re valid no matter what your gender and sexuality is. i wish you the best!
hello! I am not transgender, but I am religious. I am not as Christian as some would like me to be, I have my own faith, it does not mean that I believe that God is everything that I like, but it does mean that he is everything that I need. I have never been discriminatory against transgender people, without being one I know how hard it is, and I can't imagine how hard it is to be in a conservative family. I just want to tell you that because of the compassion you have for your parents, you already show that you are a good person, please, don't blame yourself, I know it's easy to say, but sometimes people mistakenly see things that they think are wrong. I wish you all the best, I hope you are better and I want you to know that no pain is eternal, and at some point you will realize that you have to prioritize your well-being over others, even your own family.
Though my childhood wasn’t as bad as it is today, it’s unfortunate that others have been sexually assaulted by some vile creatures. Sad they never got the joy they deserved.
Traumacore : is a type of imagery that delves into the themes of abuse and trauma (particularly sexual trauma or CSA), though it's not strictly limited to physical or sexual abuse. Mental, emotional, and spiritual abuse are also common themes as it pertains to Traumacore. its is NOT an aesthetic.
This is weird but this calms me down. I used to struggle going to sleep because of nightmares and would be scared to sleep because of them (mainly because it came from past abuse I experienced) but watching these alongside the music weirdly relaxs me to sleep. It even stopped the nightmares and I just don't dream which is strange but it better than waking up at 12am crying no?
i feel like i have no one to talk to. i cant tell if things ive experienced are traumatic or im just being dramatic. my parents would fight and things would often escalate. i saw someone hurt someone i loved. and i used to love them so much til i started to realize how terrible of a person they actually are. it also sucks bc this person is my dad and hes not just someone i can just cut out of my life. my sister has therapy and my brother was in counselling. i was even offered counselling from my parents but i said no. if i couldnt even tell my best friend what happened i cant tell a random person my parents are paying. im just so unhappy and idk what to do about it.
if there’s no one you can talk to, i recommend for you to maybe write down what you’re feeling in a notebook or maybe, if it’s easier, you could do voice recordings and say everything you want to say. idk, these are just some ideas to express your feelings. but i hope things get better for you soon and that you find someone to talk to ❤️
I don't have any forms of trauma but I also use this to cope. I have been bullied and I have been told very rude things. I hope this isn't offensive in any way
I was groomed by someone in the discord, my mother found out and deleted my discord account and i started going to the psychologist, even though I don't trust her now i feel it was my fault for talking to him
I'm a 20 year old guy and i very much have childhood trauma. I am shocked that people want to go through what i went through just for clout. Whenever i open up about my trauma, I'm not looking for sympathy and likes. All i want is for people to understand how i am the way I am today. I tell my story to raise awareness about childhood abuse and trauma. It genuinely annoys me when people want to suffer because "haha internet clout"
Until I was about twenty-one, if someone who made life bearable could leave, they would. I was always really different and never really understood why. They always took the chance. Even my parents. They left me with bad people. I've found a good support system, and they've proven that they wouldn't leave me. But sometimes the flames still lick me and I go to these videos. It's comforting to know other people have kind of the same mindset, and saddening at the same time. Edit: I remember everyone who left. I even remember the guy who found me at my worst and promised he'd be the one to stay. He didn't. He left twice. The first time I indulged in alcohol too much to cope, the second time I felt numb. If I'm not feeling numb about it, I'm inconsolable. Part of me is still so deeply submerged in it. This little girl desperate to find a forever friend. Desperate for someone to finally be able to stay, yet unable to believe that anyone would. My therapist is gonna have me screened for ADHD. She thinks that, along with my previous diagnosis of borderline personality disorder, is what's made me so different this entire time.
having the feeling of someone leaving you really hurts. i’ve experienced that a couple times too and i would always feel so hurt. i do, also, feel different than my friends, family, and classmates. not because of a disorder, but because i was always much more sensitive than everyone else. till this day i still am very sensitive and i don’t really know why. all i can say is that i guess i was born that way. always getting hurt by even the little things. and i feel like most of my traumatic experiences are because of how sensitive i was. since i always get hurt so easily, it’s easy for me to get traumatized over getting called on and humiliated in class over and over again because of my shyness. and if i weren’t so sensitive, then maybe i wouldn’t be traumatized and i would feel okay. since most people in my life aren’t as sensitive as i am, they usually find my trauma invalid. and sometimes i feel that way too. and because of this i feel isolated. i feel different because everyone else i know can brush off the little things while i get extremely hurt by it and can’t get over it for at least a few days. and i’ve had a close friend leave me for a while because i was too sensitive for them. they came back eventually but still, it hurt me really badly. but yeah, it hurts being and feeling different from everyone else you know.
2:37 -TW!- I.. used to be unintetionally meam to my brother.. my mum said i was a bully.. i agree with her.. what is wrong with me.. i’m worried i traumatized him.. and its my fault.. he had a nightmare about me once.. i love him.. i don’t meam harm.. not normal.. I hurt my only sibling… I’m worried he hates me, i understand this.. i probwbly did fuckijg traumatize him.. being loud.. throwing things.. i’m a monster who deserves to be alone.. *i’m sorry bro..* - 2: 0:14 is really how i used to think. I have autism so during a meltdown i panicked so much that i was shaking or i couldn’t breathe,, 0:18 . . . This is really my way of thinking.. mum tells me that other people have it worse off then me.. i feel like when i cry over.. anything i consider little; i shouldn’t be crying… others have it worse off.. I have most things i like.. i’m ok.. just why the fuck do i still cry if others have it worse off.. Even now i’m crying and thinking this.. why… am i crying… others have it worse off.. I’m scared of attetion seeking.. mum says its natural but it isn’t.. i fucking hate myself due to autism.. i feel lazy.. i feel stupid.. i feel weak… scared.. *so.. scared..* I probably shouldn’t even be venting.. i’m 100% playing the victim.. i don’t know whats wrong from right.. I tend to annoy my classmates on accident.. my voice is too loud.. after being annoyed or even threatening to do harm to me they act like nothing ever fucking happened… it feels fake.. almost no one is my friend.. i’m broken.. can’t socialize properly.. i’m stupid.. why am i venting this.. i literally know people on discord who’ve been through worse.. I feel like i’m being an attetion seeker.. I really shouldn’t be venting about this at all.. people have been through worse.. Thanks for reading.. stay well and drink water.. I love you.
attention seeking isn’t always negative. although a lot people make it out to be. sometimes it’s good so that you can reach out for help! i hope things get better soon for you
I hope things get better for you soon.. i know that this is really cliche but you’re not alone, and its true, even though literally everyone says that. there’s people out there going through similar situations. but i guess we can hope for things to get better for us ❤️
Sometimes I feel like a whole different person.. This is kind of comforting tho. I've had trauma before *especially when I lost one of my family members.*
i have been holding this in for the longest time so um.. imma vent: i've been struggling for the longest time but i can't ever get myself to reach out. i always try to be there for my friends, whether it be emotional support or help with school and etc. but no one ever seems to try to help me back, and even when i do i can't get myself to accept it, and i can't even get myself to ask without feeling like i'm selfish. whenever they come to vent to me or ask for help, little do they know on the other side..i'm hurting so much myself and trying to be the strong one for them.. but it's getting all too much and i don't think i can take it anymore. i've also been failing school for the first time ever because i dont even have the motivation to get out of bed, let alone do my work, and my parents think i'm lazy and a disappointment making excuses even though i opened up to them about how i'm feeling. i'm trying, really.. i even got them to take me to the doctor to find out what's going wrong with me but after that one appointment they didn't turn back. and nothing really changed. i haven't gotten help. my teachers have probably given up on me. and i dont think ill be able to pass my classes in time,,,, i dont know what to do.. i just feel so trapped and stuck and exhausted and i dont think i can do this by myself anymore.. i feel like i have no way out and it's all too much to handle
i can really feel you on this one. sometimes my motivation just goes away and i can’t do anything. not even school work. and sometimes it leads me to having overdue assignments which is stressful. and keeping that feeling inside and not telling anyone is one of the worst feelings. because you feel so alone and trapped. and whenever you want to tell someone, you end up not doing so because you feel selfish and feeling like that really hurts. i hate how hard we’re trying just for other people to not even notice. so i can feel you on this.. i can relate to this a lot. i hope things get better for you soon 💕💕
@@xleepiii Family or people's expectations are too high for normal students. They need to understand; We aren't machines, we have lifes too. I can relate to this comment, I don't have enough motivation to do anything in general, I always like giving advice to other people, but I just feel so vulnerable and selfish whenever I open up to someone. I'm here for you if you need to talk about anything.
I still don't know how to talk about personal things without sounding like an attention seeker. There's so much I wanna hide, but there's so much of that I can't.
el dreamcore, wairdcore y el traumacore extrañamente me hace sentir de una manera que no puedo explicar, pero digamos que me hace sentir más alla de bien, es como escapar de la realidad 💜🌌
(Vent) My mom died in 2016. She died because she could not afford to raise me. My parents divorced when I was 2 years old because of the same reason. My grandmother is raising me since my mom died. I remember her face. She had severe depression. She looked really tired but I did not know why, I was only a child. She told me "Everything is gonna be fine" and hugged me and she started crying. That was 2 days before she died. I also got bullied by a girl named Anna and other people in school. They were often making fun of my name, the fact that I wear glasses and more stuff. I just wish they will pay for everything they did to me. The last trauma I have is the death of my fiance. He was fat but he was extremely sweet to me. We used to laugh a lot. He was my online boyfriend since 2018 , until I asked him out on 20 march 2021 and he said "Yes, I would love to!". I remember his voice and moaning sometimes. We were sexting very often. I can still hear him saying "I love you" as I write this text. He died but I don't know the cause. It's been some months (June or may I can't remember) since we last talked. I still miss him and he'll always be a special person in my heart.
that’s terrible.. i hope you’re doing okay. you’re really strong, and that’s an amazing trait to have, so keep it up, okay? keep on going like you have been doing all this time 💗
AHHH IM SO SORRY IF THAT TRIGGERED YOU!! THATS MY DEAD NAME TOO AND MELI IS MY PREFERRED NAME. I was actually the one who made that edit so- but yea my birth name is triggering because of my trauma
If you relate to this, I’m so sorry that you have gone through such things, Asking for help is normal and you should if you need to. Talking about it doesn’t make you a attention seeker. You shouldn’t have to feel so unsafe… no one deserves that. You are beautiful, you are awesome. You are loved.
traumacore's like weirdly pleasant? i dunno it feels like liminal spaces, or looking back at your old childhood memories and noticing patterns you didn't before
I’m not too sure if I can consider what I’ve experienced “Tramua” or “Abuse” but I feel like my existence is just, I don’t even know how to describe it. But what I know for sure is that is hurts me, it makes me and my surroundings just feel so weird and conflicted. So recently, I’ve been using Tramuacore as a way to kinda vent about this, although I’m not too sure if Traumacore is what I’m supposed to be using.
hmm i haven't seen a lot of traumacore edits like that. but i've seen a few. and have made a couple of my own like that, and then i include some of my favorite/comfort characters over them!
I dont have trauma but i struggle with sh, and ive been clean for almost three months but holy shit does this make me feel a lot better abt it. I can’t really describe it….it’s like something with the same comfort as sh but its not sh which really helps
hey everyone, i just wanted to make a quick announcement! i’ll start off by thank everyone so much for the support on this video and basically on my channel in general!! i was so not expecting this!! so thank you guys so much and i hope you guys can heal soon 💕💕. i also wanted to say that if you leave a comment and i don’t heart it or reply to it, it’s probably youtube not letting me see some of the comments. it’s really annoying ngl. i like to reply to everyone, but sometimes youtube won’t let me. i’ll receive the notification but when i click it, the comment won’t show. so just know that it’s nothing personal and it’s just youtube being annoying. anyways, once again thank you all so much and remember, stay strong and take all the time you need to heal. y’all can do this ❤️💕
Espero que você não esteja pensando em suicídio mesmo e isso seja um vídeo artístico porque quem é que pensa e suicidio é tá com depressão e cria um vídeo desse
traumacore always seems to make me feel oddly comforted
Right? Me too. It feels nice to know that you’re not the only one who has gone through traumatic events in life
@@meliitonin5443 Yeah, it does give me this very odd vibe but it gives me some comfort
@@meliitonin5443 i havent even gone through anything traumatic but this entire genre makes me feel so comfortable
@@cy-bernet-ix yea, there's something about traumacore that is just so comforting. but i can't say exactly what it is
Yeah
"Other people have it worse" ❌
"Different people have different traumas, no one has it worse, just different. Every trauma needs to be respected" ✔️
yes!! i totally agree with this
Very agreed
Heck yea
Y E S
I wish I knew this when I was younger...
0:13 this one....this one oh boy...this one...I felt this one so badly that it shook me to my core.
oh dang.. i hope it didn’t trigger you or anything.. if it did, then i’m extremely sorry!! would you like me to add a trigger warning on the title of the video?
@@meliitonin5443 it didn't exactly trigger me. but i think having a trigger warning anyway would be nice. I think all traumacore vids should have a T.W but this video was really good and I thank you for making it!
@@0gsn0x8 np!! i’ll edit the title and add a tw :)
“WHY AM I SO DRAWN TO THE THINGS I FEAR THE MOST” I relate to this line on every level. I don’t even have the words to describe it.. oh my god.
Me to sadly
I will vent now
Failing school. Retaking the 9. grade and failing again. I cant do this anymore I have made so many mistakes already. Everything is hitting me harder every day. My family is poor, my mother is suicidal and depressed. Im sorry for my family that Im like this. I cant go outside because my anxiety is way to hard. I have no friends, they ditched me 2 years ago and thats when it all started. Not going to school anymore, not going outside, rotting my room. Everyday Im more sad. I worry about my family but also about myself. I cant controll myself often and Im scared of that. I know I should get help. I tried therapy four times. Everything got worse. I tried to get a new therapy but they wont take me anymore because I tried to many and it didnt work out, they tell me that it wont work out again and Im hopeless sitting in my room. Rotting away. Slowly dying. Im crying everyday. Crying right now too. I want a hug. I want friends. I want to be normal. My friends ditched me because they found out that Im gay. Im way to scared to do anything anymore because I know that I will fail. I want a hug. I need someone that I can talk to and hug. I hug my mom sometimes because she is crying so much everyday. She has several depression. I have two siblings. They are still so young, six and eight years old. I love them and I dont want to be sad infront of them. They dont know how hard it is for us but they love us. I feel bad for them. I try to be a good brother. Im sorry if Im just writing down random stuff, this is just stuff that comes in my mind right now. I have no other place to vent. I have a dad, I got to know him when I was 12 years old. He had to go to war and is addicted to drugs. I love him too even tho I dont really know him. He is my dad but I know like nothing about him but he cares so much about me. I dont want to hurt anyone but Im getting more and more depressed over the days. Im suicidal but I know that If I end it my mother would end it any my siblings would have a trauma. Thats the only reason why Im not doing it. Im trying to stay strong. Im trying. I have no other place to vent Im just writing down everything that comes in my mind right now. Sorry if its random,,
don't worry about venting, you can vent all you want in this comment section ❤️. and those "friends" aren't good people if they ditched you because of your sexuality. they should give you the right to be yourself. there's nothing wrong with being gay, i might be gay too (although i'm currently questioning my sexuality). and i'm going to be honest, i might be depressed myself and it's affecting me in school a little. although my situation isn't exactly the same as yours, just know that you're not alone and i'm here to listen to you. so feel free to vent and let it all out, because you've been through a lot and you deserve so much better ❤️❤️
@@meliitonin5443 Thank you so much
@@atloos no problem!! i really hope for things to get better for you soon, because you really do deserve so much better and deserve to be happy 💖
Hey man I hope things get better for you stay strong for your family
hey, i know it's been a month since this comment, but i hope you'll read this. i know text doesnt do much to get to people, and i dont blame you for that. you are within your rights to not be affected by this comment or any other comments. your feelings are yours. that isnt a mistake. you arent dumb for that. if you are reading this, good job. you were able to stay alive, push through the pain, and get here. you are trying. even if it's for somebody else, you are trying. that is something that not many people can do. it's been a month. you are alive. you are not defined by what happens to you. i know you've probably heard all of this before, and many people have told it to you. but life will get better. i can promise you that. you were strong enough to stay alive for your family and share what you're feeling to other people. you are amazing. i've never met you before, but if i can say that from reading one of your comments, you have protentional. you are the strongest person that i have ever met. im proud that you could gather the strength to write this. if you're still here, how are you? how have things been? i'll listen to anything you have to say. and if you dont want to share, that's okay too.
I made trauma core art the other night and it honestly really helps, don't be ashamed of your trauma or to use this type of vent art to cope. Its okay, your trauma doesn't make you a bad person. I love you, have a nice night
honestly, thank you so much for commenting this. sometimes i feel ashamed of my trauma because it's something that most people wouldn't consider valid. this makes me feel better, so thank you! and i hope you have a good night too❤️!
Fake.
I'm a bad human being. I'm a disgusting piece of sh¡t and the only thing i can bring to this world is disgust, disrespect, destruction and global suffering. I was the one victim of traumas, now i'm causing it, i'm perpetuating this cycle. Stop lying and sugar coating it moth3rfucker, i am bad.
Sadly this has become... “aesthetic” but it’s vent art for people who survived sexual abuse- abusive relationships- ( etc..) and after that some blame themselves maybe/ or something is going on with them- trauma takes a toll on people- please stop thinking of this as an aesthetic for the ones who do think of it that way, it’s really not.
yes, thank you for pointing this out. trauma shouldn't be romanticized as an aesthetic. people in the traumacore community use this vent art style to cope with trauma. which is why i made this video. to help others cope, as well as myself. traumacore can be comforting for some who have gone through trauma and it's honestly disrespectful to turn this into an aesthetic for people who have been traumatized just to seem "edgy" or "quirky". really, thank you so much for this comment 💕
@@meliitonin5443 your welcome I would just love for this to be recognized I’ve seen lots of serious things becoming “aesthetic” and it’s horrible things like this are serious- I’m glad to try and help get that out there 💕
can i also use this because im getting abused by my parents?
@@zeinab9423 ofc you can! anyone who has experienced or is experiencing trauma can make traumacore art ❤️
@@meliitonin5443 thank you ❤❤❤
Everything is such a chore
“Do what makes you happy” they said
Nothing makes me happy anymore
Please rewind to the comfort I felt for 3 seconds..
Eating is such a chore.. my enemy... my lover.
sometimes it can feel like you are an empty shell with no energy left in you. you might feel like you have no emotions left to give. and it might feel like nothing affects you anymore. that's okay. i know text doesnt do much to get to you, but i'd like you to know that we care about you and what you're feeling. even if there isnt feeling at all after what happened to you. or if nothing happened to you at all. you arent being overdramatic or edgy, or anything they call you. i know this doesnt affect you, but i'll try my best to get to you. do you want to talk? if not, that's okay too. i dont mind. it's just an offer if you want to let out whatever you might have bottled up. you dont have to accept it, i wont be sad or offended.
I'm failing reading
Mother says I do well
But I know she's lying
I'm stuck in this chair
Reading until I fall asleep
Yes this is based on a real thing that I experience
i hope things get better for you soon 💕💕
@saddest little brat Thank you Queen
@@sunnybellsz np!! ❤️✨
hey, i know what you are going through is tough, but your feeling are valid. i know text wont do much to get to you, but you are amazing. you shared your experience. not many people can do that. you are strong and you need to stay that way. dont let what happened get to you. and, if you're still experiencing this, i'd be happy to talk. if you dont want to, that's okay too. i wont be sad or offended. thank you for staying strong through this.
My family was such a beautiful one as a kid, as i grew older I found out the ugly truth about my family, our relationship started becoming toxic and frustrating, my family has mentally scarred me and left me with paranoia, sad how things change, no more sitting at tables together, laughing and eating dinner, just everyone locked in their room, depressed and desperately slipping into hopelessness.
Can't remember when was the last time i saw us all laughing and hugging together.
well here come the tears
This stuff kinda helps coping :)
i’m really sorry about that you’re experiencing, i hope you’re doing okay, stay strong, you can do it 💕💕
im suffering with exactly this right now
now i dont feel safe anywhere...
stay strong!!!
❤
0:14 I had to pause, this shit just hits too hard. I see people venting in the comments and feel like it’s safe for me to as well. I honestly thought I was the only one that felt trapped in my body or that it isn’t me because of all the shit that happened to it that was out of my control and wanted to escape. It feels like it isn’t mine.
damn.. i haven’t felt that personally but you don’t deserve to go through what you experienced. people who do awful things to other people’s bodies are just sick and disgusting. i honestly can’t believe that there are people like that with extremely sick and gross intentions. i hope you feel better really soon ❤️
:(
Same here
Hey, I hope you're ok. You should seek professional help like a therapist or a loved one you trust, it can really help!
my childhood feels like a fever dream :)
Same.
mine feels like a nightmare
@@idk_whyihow
@@spruceeeee_ bc
0:25 I can relate to. My friend manipulated and guilt tripped me into thinking that I was the bad guy. She did a cruel prank and it caused me to lose my temper on her. She must of known too dang well that I have a short fuse.. it happend 1 year ago but I'm still angry about it. I hate you, ####. You almost ruined my soul. You took away my innocence(not in a sexual way, don't worry everyone else)
Dang.. i think i had a friend who also did that to me. But not only me, to many of my other friends too. She moved after 7th grade which I’m glad. She was very manipulative and would always just ruin the mood. Anyways, i hope you’re surrounding yourself with better people now!!
pffff, gacha
@@JoeNuts42 don't make fun of people for their interests. sure, the gacha community has it's bad side. but there is also a good side to it. this is coming from an ex-gachatuber. not every gachatuber is bad.
@@meliitonin5443 yes
@@JoeNuts42 jeez dude, someone's venting and that's your response? Have some respect
0:05 0:23 This is also very relative and happened twice. When I was drawing on my computer I was 12 years old when I heard screams of someone fighting. At first I thought it was the neighbors until I realized it was my parents and when I started I was scared by this fighting situation because I thought they were going to get separated when my mother came into our room with the bag in her hand and I think I put on my shoes or clothes, making me more tormented because I thought we were going to separate but soon after my mother and father started fighting again but the fight ended. When I saw my parents crying after the argument, I cried too.
The other was at the hotel in BH. When we leave tomorrow, my parents started arguing again. But in the end the speech ended and I almost cried just for my sister because we were both scared that we were going to separate. (No. My parents don't separate)
I relate to you a lot.
💮Trigger warning💮
I'll never live in a castle
I'll be stuck in this basement
I'm a princess like Daddy says
But not the like the princesses in the stories,
because I don't get a happy ever after
I don't deserve happiness
Shit, I.. just- wow..
I really hope you feel better soon ❤️
@@meliitonin5443 thank you
Dude i have the same discord pfp as ur yt one! It just says "Bunny would like yo know your location"
Ye not with that spelling
For those of you who *want* trauma...
You have trauma. You may not remember it, or you may be invalidating your experience because you think it wasn't "that bad", but wishing you had trauma is an actual trauma response. You feel the pain, but you don't think it's a big deal. You just want your pain to be valid, to be real. But it already is real. You just don't see it.
Oh...
(I always thought I was a bad person for thinking like that..)
I fucking hate how people want to “have trauma” and have abusive parents just to follow the trend. This isn’t cool, it fucking destroys your entire perception of love and loved ones. This is one of the worst things to ever experience and do you know how much we wanted to be like you? Ugh, great video anyways, makes me feel like I’m not alone
yea i agree, i haven’t been abused myself (at least i don’t think so) but i do have some trauma of my own and it’s completely changed me (in a bad way) i don’t even know how it feels to be genuinely happy anymore
Yeahh Tw: help!! So fucking disturbed
ive never even experienced any major trauma and i couldn't fathom wanting life-destroying trauma just to follow a TREND. i don't think people who think like that have even an ounce of understanding
I used to want trauma. Not to follow a trend but to have a reason for my sh!tty mental health.
(I actually do have trauma, I just overlooked it back then because it wasn't like everyone else's)
@@meliitonin5443 same
for anyone who needs this, its gonna get better soon. i wish the best for u! your gonna get better very soon. i promise
I like traumacore even though I never was abused or was into hello kitty or carebears. I just find it comforting, and especially the music.
The more I watch of this stuff the more I realise how truly traumatised and broken I truly am. And now the pain is flooding back. All the pain I tried to ignore. I feel like a kid again, scared to death by those countless bullies who broke me. I might as well be 8 or 9 again.
yea.. i sometimes feel the same way too. also did i trigger you? if i did, i'm really sorry. it's not my intention to trigger anyone ❤️
@@meliitonin5443 you didn't do anything to trigger me. It was those butt holes at the YMCA who I wanna find and punch them in the face.
@@spacekid9680 dang.. i guess those people must have hurt you in some way.. i hope things get better and that you feel happier soon ❤️
@@meliitonin5443 they broke me mentally. They made me hate myself and now they go to the same school as me and like to remind me of the PTSD THEY gave me. I hope karma gets them.
@@spacekid9680 oh my.. the fact that they continue to torment you still is just horrible. they are terrible people. is there a way to avoid them? because you definitely deserve so much better and you deserve to be with better people
Watching these is the only thing that can make me cry, and it upsetting to admit I purposefully seek them out because I feel my breakdown isn't considered real if it's not physical.
a breakdown doesn't have to be real if it's not physical. just because you can't cry for the most part, it doesn't mean that your feelings and what you're going through aren't real or valid. they are real and valid 💕💕
This is such a comforting aesthetic coming from a kid who suffered from medical trauma it’s one of my favourites and I cope with it
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This hit personally the hardest. I just feel like I don't have a right to feel the way I feel, because so many people have it worse. And then there comes my age, I've been told so many times that I'm too old to still be crying. I now feel like I'm just over exaggerating
honestly, me too sometimes. sometimes i feel like my feelings aren’t valid because others have it worse. but it’s not good to compare your experiences with other people’s. just because yours “isn’t as bad”, it doesn’t mean that it’s not valid and that you don’t have the right to feel that way. everyone’s feelings and experiences are valid, no matter how old the person is, the experience, or how “small” it is 💕
@@meliitonin5443 thank you so much. I'm aware that, that's how it should be, but it's so hard to reverse that when it feels like the whole world is telling you overwise. But I'm also so sorry you had to deal with this too, no one deserves to be feeling like this or any kind of trauma. Please stay strong, I know we can pull this through 💕
@@chickennoodlesoup3768 no problem! and yea, it can be hard to believe that sometimes when you feel like the whole world is telling you the opposite, but yes! we can stay strong and pull through! 💖💕
"Don't cry
crying is useless."
That's why I can't cry anymore.
crying may not exactly solve the issue, but it helps to cry. it helps to let out your emotions. don't let others make you feel like you can't cry. i hope you get well soon, you can get through it ❤️
@@meliitonin5443 Tysm ❤
@@CottonCandy-blue np 💕💕
my mom literally told me this yesterday when I panicked over math for not finding the right answer
i had to put up with “crying isn’t gonna fix anything”
I legit cry out a tear on one of my eye at 2:02[Also im using my parent's acc so don't mind the name and the stupid pfp]
I watched this video to try and understand people with trauma, not to comfort myself. But then reading the comments made me realize, I also have trauma. Not the same as in the video, not severe, but it's there. It's made me realize this aesthetic isn't reserved for only a certain demographic of severely traumatized individuals, it's for anyone who can relate, whatever trauma they have, big or small. My trauma doesn't seem like a big trauma, or at least what I would consider severe, but it has ruined my mind and I can't figure out why. I'm paranoid all the time, find it difficult to experience true joy that isn't just the absence of depression or a "good mood," and life just seems grim. But what I've gone through seems like normal life struggles. I lost two family members a year apart. One I wasn't close to and one I was closer to. I didn't go through the whole reactive depression and five stages of grief or feeling empty, the first time I was just reacting to seeing my other family members in pain and reacting to the scary idea of premature death in general. The second time, I had my moments, but cant recall any feelings that overtook me. I became at peace with it very quickly. Then another person I am very close to had a heart attack a couple months later, was diagnosed with heart failure. This is having severe affects on me to this day. Then everything started to get to me. Another family member got cancer (I'm not very close to them but it still gets to me), The nuke threats, the pandemic, our financial struggles, I start worrying about death and illness in general, the odds of dying, getting murdered or sick, if I will lose someone very close to me, if society will collapse, if I will get struck by lightning, if I will die early, I am just petrified of everything and nothing feels normal anymore. So many people go through the same things but cope much better than I am. I don't understand why these events that people seem to get through eventually have destroyed my mind. No one else in my family seems to have these issues. It's like all of these mildly traumatizing events have just built up and slowly chipped away at my passion for life. Sometimes I ask, am I just weak and self-destructive because of my ruminating thoughts or is it normal to feel this way?
hey, it's okay to feel that way. just because the others don't seem to feel that way, it doesn't mean that you can't. i find oddly fascinating how people feel like they're the only one with a perspective like this due to trauma. but in reality, there are other people who feel those things too. they're just not around them, or they can't tell until they get to know them.
The sanrio characters make this feel so Menhera. Thank you for making something that us with trauma can relate to.
no problem! sanrio characters are really comforting to me so i tend to add them a lot in my art. and it seems to be the same for others too =)
Need to get this off my chest. Being yelled at and backed into a corner by your entire family was a scary experience that I've ever gone through, this video provided me with some coping specially the part where the character says please stop yelling, and the too sensitive part I thank you for the very comforting video and I know this seems probably selfish but I just really wanted to say, you're helping a lot of people with these videos. please keep up the good work
thanks! i’m glad this video was comforting for you! and i’m sorry about your experience, i hope you never experience something like that again 💕
Oh no! I hope that things are better with you’re family.
@@maxwellmeows Oh they are, thank you!😸
I feel bad for all the people suffering from trama I hope y'all can get help.
The help is poisonous, i thought i could trust medical pros, well, nope. It just made it worse, i almost did go to jail for opening up a lil too much to a psy. I fucking hate everything about this world, myself included.
This made me oddly comforted
I regret things i did in the past alot
0:31 this one hurt
im failing every single class bc im too insecure to go out of my room but i just say i dont want to lololol 😊 also i feel like i have forgotten trauma-
i have trauma that i know about but it feels like i have some locked away
@@myaklls yea i feel that way too. i can say that i’ve been traumatised 3 times for sure. but i think there’s a fourth one hidden away somehow. since my traumatic experience in the 7th grade was so bad, i might have completely forgotten about my 6th grade trauma (because stuff happened that year too)
@@meliitonin5443 i think the first trauma i had was when i was like 1 or 2 and then i kept being traumatized from then on but idk maybe my brain made me forget some that was worse ? but the trauma ive had is alr really bad so- i just dk
@@myaklls dang.. 1 or 2? that’s just way too young to go through something traumatising. but yea, for me it’s a similar situation i think but my first traumatic experience was at the age 9 or 10
I want to scream
No, keep it in
I want to have mom
No, you dont
I think I'm depressed
No, your overdramatic
I think I'm traumatized
No, you want attention
I'm scared
No, you aren't
i feel you honestly.. but your feelings are valid. don't feel ashamed for feeling that way 💕
:(
your feelings are yours. nobody can tell you what you are feeling. there is never a wrong feeling about something. whatever happened to you, i'd be happy to hear it and listen to you. if you dont want to tell, that's okay too. i dont mind. i hope you're doing well now! i know text doesnt do much to get to people, but i'll try to help in the best way i can. how are you by the way?
@@user-nf9ug2lf5t then why does my counselor tell me I shouldn't feel this way?
@@Gregory.Edgeworth i meant that if somebody was telling you that you shouldn't do these things, then you shouldn't listen to them. if you are telling yourself these things, then that's a problem that i cant solve through the internet. i'm not a professional at this and i don't want you to see me as one, but i do hope that the counselor you have now is to your liking. and i hope you are able to recover from your trauma in a way that makes you happy.
Honestly a lot of these are relatable, personally despite going through ages of therapy for my trauma I don't see myself getting better anytime soon.
healing from trauma takes time, and sometimes it can take years. so if you are not noticing better results atm, don’t feel bad!! take your time. go at your pace. be easy on yourself and remember that self love is hard, but you can slowly start to treat yourself with love. 💕
@@meliitonin5443 Thank you for your kind words. 💖💖💖💖
@@truespiderlover no problem!! 💕💕
Discovered traumacore thanks to a dreamcore video, i love this. And not in an aestethic way, but in a Psycological one. It's interesting to see what we do to make urselves feel better against a trauma or more than one, and the constrast between the characters/phrases from the enviromment, is something amazes me.
I'm a writer, not a professional one though, i'm starting to see these type of videos and give me inspiration to write more about my characters.
Make more!
thanks! i’m glad that you’re getting inspired! i do writing as a hobby, making and seeing these videos also gives me inspiration at times! i also think that the contrast of the characters and the environment is interesting. there’s innocence in the characters in a dark and scary environment. i really don’t know how to describe it, but i agree with what you’re saying!
@@meliitonin5443 good!
This reminds me of a friend i have. I can't wait to see her again. I really want to give her a hug.
“You don’t have the right to be upset”. I wish people knew how damaging it is to yell at kids for getting upset.
Me too......
2:19 I felt this. And the fact that is happening again now, but I can't tell my mom because it's her brother. My uncle...
oh my.. i don't know what to say except that i hope things get better for you really soon. and telling your mom about your situation does not make you an attention seeker. it makes you a really brave and strong person for reaching out for help. take your time to gain the courage, of course. it takes time to gather courage to tell someone about what you're going through. it took me a while to tell my mom about what happened to me recently. so don't be hard on yourself, take your time to feel ready, and know that what you're going through is not your fault and you deserve so much better. i wish you the very best of luck ❤️✨
@@meliitonin5443 Thank you. He's coming over today, and I don't want to be here anymore, my mom's always busy with something, and I turn all of my sadness into anger which drags many people away from me. I don't want to be here. I haven't cried for 7 months. I can't cry anymore. No one considers my emotions, because they think I don't have any. I don't smile. But I do have emotions. I don't want to be here. Thanks so much for the help.
@@tenshiroronoa4807 no problem! i'm glad i could give you some advice ❤️. i really hope that things get better for you and that your uncle leaves you alone and stops doing what he's doing to you
@@meliitonin5443 I don't know what to do anymore. Nobody knows about this, I'm good at keeping a straight face so nobody notices. Right now, it's either him or me. I wonder if death is a escape from this.
@@tenshiroronoa4807 death isn’t the answer for this. maybe you have a hobby that can help you escape for a while at least? or maybe you could go out on walks in your neighbourhood while
listening to music if it’s safe enough. walking personally helps me escape for a bit and i come home feeling so much better. maybe you could do one of those to escape for a while. but just know that death isn’t the key to escape and it will only pass the pain to someone else ❤️
"your expectations are too high"
i've been telling my family this for years and they never listen. they compare me to everyone else and don't listen when i tell them i'm trying my best. they all just tell me i'm lazy and make me feel like nothing i do is good enough.
0:28 parents❤
Tw
So my dad is coming back Tuesday morning, and I’m really fucking scared. I’m not gonna get into details since I’m afraid of having another mental breakdown (just had one yesterday) but I’ll list what he did:
-when I was 8 years old he yelled at me in the car and threatened to beat me to death
-when I was 9 years old I was forced to grow up to defend my own mother from my father
-also 9 years old is when I started developing mental health issues
-I was 10 years old when the trauma really started to trickle in. He asked me if I would rather live with my mother or him and I said my mother and he proceeded to corner me, yell slurs and hurtful words at me for an hour and grabbed me
-when I was 11 years old he started becoming much nicer to me
-when I was 12 years old I realized he was grooming me, but it was too late. He made me unclean.
-When I was 13 years old he kept doing this behavior and I had multiple suicide attempts, one of which was very close
-I am now fourteen years old, and he’s coming back home from work. Can’t wait to endure emotional and sexual abuse from that motherfucker. He invalidates me and apart from the abuse he amplifies my gender dysphoria (I am trans ftm) because I blame myself and my mind constantly goes: “it’s your fault, if you were born in a boys body, this wouldn’t have happened to you”
So yeah can’t wait to endure another year of abuse until he leaves for a month :)
i’m sorry you had to go through all of that.. but no matter what gender you identify as, you are still valid and will always be
@@meliitonin5443 thank you
@@Ivemovedlmao np =)
Do you want him to leave and never come back?
Lo siento mucho por lo que te paso, enserio lo siento!!! Espero y puedas ser alegre y resplandeciente, eres más que válido, aquí te apoyamos todos 💖🥺 y espero que ese infeliz no te haga daño nunca más... Ánimo pequeño. Dios te bendiga.
*Trigger warning: emotional abuse, slurs, self harm*
I had an ex, she cheated on me. Not a big deal. But she did other things too. She liked about leaked nudes of her for support she didn't need. She made me worry. She made be distrustful of her. She would tell me she self harmed and would never take my advice. She seaked attention from me and made me lose my mind. She said she loved me. She said she hated me. She said I wasn't worth it. She said I was a bitch, she said I was stupid, retarded, idiotic, overdramatic. She made me think I wasn't doing enough, I was being too distant she told me. Am I distant for sleeping in?
I honestly never know if it is trauma or I’m being an over dramatic baby. I’m scared that once I tell someone how I feel they’ll make fun of me and start trauma dumping saying how they have it worse.
Same here. I can never tell if I'm experiencing trauma or hormones. Am I sad, or just dramatic? I can never tell.
@@indecisiveire1746
Exactly. Don’t give up hopes though, it’s gonna be alright :]
0:13 and 0:15 are so relatable
i feel like im supposed to be some academic prodigy, but when i dont get straight a's or a good grade, my brain yells at me "you're such a failure, why do you even exist, you had one job"
and i depersonalize and derealize a LOT, not only because of the constant stress and fear of failure, but also because of my gender dysphoria which makes me feel like a girl trapped in a boy's body. i want to escape. this isn't right.
1:35 hit me hard, that really reminds me of my early childhood with my single mother and getting thought the hwhole video made me shaky and kinda nauseous, yet I feel kind of reassured in a weird way
"Im sorry mom I wasnt good enough"
"Im sorry dad Im a mistake child"
"Im sorry for making you guys have to love me"
"Hideous hideous hideous"
"Porcelain people eat me alive with their stares! Mommy please help meee :
"Mom was right, i'm undesired and shouldnt continue to live, it is literally pointless" 12 year old me after remembering the time when my mom said that i was the undesired kid in a night familial conversation
The first image left me crying because I don’t remember my childhood. It upsets me.
most my childhood feels like a blur honestly. i can’t believe that i was actually happy at some point in my life. i only remember some things about it, but it kinda feels like most of my childhood was in another life tbh
0:15 I can feel this picture, because I hate how I was born in my own body.
the worst thing about trauma is not realizing that it's really trauma and just falling into a spiraling void of thinking that you made it all up for attention.
yea that’s true.. i’ve had experiences where i haven’t realised that my trauma is trauma until after the event(s). and.. it’s even worse when someone tells you that you’re acting the way you are because you’re seeking for attention. trauma can change your behaviour around people. which has happened to me personally. ever since i’ve been traumatised for the first time at the age of 9/10, i’ve been extremely shy with most people and have difficulties communicating verbally, since i tend to speak in a way that’s way too quiet for pretty much anyone to hear. but when i’m with friends, i tend to act in an extroverted manner. because i feel free around them and i don’t feel like i have to be afraid of them. and because of that, i’ve been accused of being an attention seeker. and ever since then, i’ve had the fear of people thinking that i’m being extremely shy for attention, when in reality i just feel really nervous around most people. so yeah, i can understand this
I can hope that all of you can make your way out of this horrible feeling eventually
I have my own issues and insecurities (that's why I'm here in the first place) and they won't ever go away, but I can forget them for a short while. I'm always looking forward for those moments where I can simply disconnect from everything that is awful in my head
I hope that you can look forward to these moments too and feel safe wherever you end up being
thanks!! and i also hope that for you and everyone else here ❤️. i always enjoy the times where i’m not thinking about my trauma and i’m somewhere fun in my head. it feels nice and relaxing to forget about it, even if it’s for a short period of time ☺️
For people who dont understand all of the "I feel sick" its either sexual abuse or its an eating disorder. There are both oth them in this video.
0:05 When I was 5 or 6 I think, my father got drunk when I was using my cell phone and he hit my cell phone that was in my hand and it fell on the floor until it was broken which made me cry. Then my mom started fighting with my dad on the couch and I went out in my backyard crying and I sat there while my parents fought which made me cry even more. Yes guys, my father went there and sat next to me apologizing for everything he did. (I managed to write what I remember from my childhood)
I was 6 i still remember when it happened i got triggered while watching a video about abuse it clicked in my mind i had a panic attack it rushed through my head i felt like dieeingg
i hope you’re doing alright.. take care 💕
( Vent )
Well i grew up in a "good" family , except the detail that my mom is always with suicidal thoughts and she says she is possessed everytime that she is wrong , and she one day touched me and etc without permission
My dad isnt abusive , he just dont care about us because he lost hope in living
My sister isnt the same , she became abusive , she always scream at me and tries to beat me and my parents
They say i have a good life , they say if i cry they will make me cry much more , they say that other kids suffer and are better than me because im being dramatic because i cry everytime they scream at eachother and at me
I can't say anything , because they think my problem isnt big , because they think im faking it and im too young for having problems
Sometimes i can't breathe , sometimes i want just to kill myself , i get violent everytime someone says something even if its a little thing
Everytime i feel like im too big for my body , i feel like a stranger , i feel trapped in my body
I want to be clean , my mom made me unholy , she made me dirty , im disgusting
I want to be free , i want to fit in a body that is big like my soul feels like
I want to find myself , i can't handle being the person im , i Don't know who i am anymore
Im just a ghost , everybody excludes me from everything
I can't eat , it makes me wanna throw up , everything i eat feel disgusting while im chewing
I feel like im being watched everytime
I want to feel like im in home , i want to feel safe , i want to come back to my reality
My mom says that i will never be a boy , maybe she is right
I want to be a boy , i dont feel right being a girl
My chest is too big
I want to be sick forever , i only feel safe and at home when im sick
( Traumacore helps me so much in this situation )
This is why u got abused fucking bookworm nerd
I cant get over being cheated on and being used for art. It hurts. Why did he manipulate me for his fetishes.
aww i’m sorry :( you don’t deserve that.. one day you’ll find someone that will appreciate you for you :)
I have always felt safe when making Traumacore photos. its a good way to vent. some poeple just dont see that.
I've always wanted to remember my childhood,it's always so fuzzy and I hate it I wish I could remember something good but most of the things I remember just end up hurting me,then I no longer want to think about it. I always tell my self there's no point...but then I try again
Sometimes I use these kinds of images to cry, it seems to make it easier, thank you for this ❤
I don't know why (I can't remenber I guess), but I really feel identified with this images and I have mental peace that finally I can identify my emotions
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Thank you for making the video, that helped me a lot ♡
i’m really glad that my video could help you!! it makes me really happy everytime i help someone with one of my videos!! 💕💕
@@meliitonin5443 Thank you to exist ♡
Keep making this videos, help a lot ☆
@@shined.9424 np! i’ll definitely keep making these! =)
@@meliitonin5443 YAY ☆
I feel sad. I don’t know why. Nothing seemed to make me happy anymore. I had to force myself to be happy.
That image of my melody crying with texts like “you failed” is so me :(
0:18
Damn that hit me hard
Those are all exact thoughts I have almost constantly
I didn’t even realize “or I’ll give you a reason to cry!” Was abusive I thought that shit was normal
same
1:55 I do wish I could tell people things that upset me because I don't want to waste their time or feel like I'm "in need of attention" that hit pretty hard lol
My empathic ways have sent me to trauma. I just want to stop. I’m dragging myself down a hurtful wormhole.
my dad makes me feel SICK, everything about him. even the place he lives in is cold and unwelcoming.
I always wish others didnt go through the things I have, and many times just want to hug or at the very least be there for them... videos like these remember me why I choose psychology... why I do care about people even though I keep... struggling with my emotions... I get angry easily at people when they do annoying things or act rude... cant help to get rough myself u.u... and I try to lower it... is difficult... and I know I need to if I want to actually be able to successfully help others and live by example...
its a great thing that you want to help others 💕. and remember, take your time to improve yourself and don’t be so harsh on yourself!! self love is important too ❤️
0:16
TW:Homophobia, Transphobia, Religion (the religion part is mainly pos)
this is exactly how I feel
My parents don't accept the fact that I'm trans (gendersylphen) and bi. I feel like crap every day cuz of it. I ordered a chest binder from gc2b and I really hope my mom doesn't find out. I have this huge plan and everything to make sure she doesn't and I've prayed abt it ma n y times (prayer is reallyyy helping me out) and the only support systems I have is God and my friends. I wish that my parents would be there but no. I showed her this hilarious Trump x Shrek fanfiction and she did a disgusted face and she said, why is it a man marryign man! This world is corrupting you guys" blah blah blah. Last school year I came out to her as pan (I'm actually bi) by emailing her saying," HI MOM! I'm pan so if u have a complaint please put it in the complaints box *shows the amazing world of gumball complaints box joke*" and she said that she as s e v er a l complaints abt tht. when I tell her I'm trans/bi she says stuff like, "you're too young, your brain's developing so you don't know for sure" and "are you really associating yourself with those people?" and then she tells me tht when I was born she promised God tht she would raise me right (it's cuz I was supposed to die when I was born) and each time she tells me that, I feel like she's using tht against me :(
Pls pray for me and my family (including my mom)
I feel like I could be better and just speak up to her but I'm scared. I've been trying to just suck it up but it hasn't been working. I feel like I should be stronger and I feel guilty. What did I do wrong?
since I ordered the binder, I've been checking the mail and I'll keep doing that after I get it so my mom doesn't think I'm sus. When it comes in the mail, I'm gonna put it in my purse (I check the mail after school) and I'm gonna try on my binder once I get upstairs into my room. I'm going to hide it under my tank tops and I'm gonna only put it on at school and when I'm out walking cuz my mom tells me I look weird when I actually pass. (I chad a clasp binder earlier but it wasn't the best even though it made me flat) and if my mom finds out I'm gonna tell her everything. If she hurts me, I might run away. If I do, I'm gonna bring my dog, my sibling's contacts (maybe my actual siblings), my phone, my bible, my rosary, my St. Michael's chaplet, my clothes, some Doraemon manga, a toothbrush, toothepaste, washcloth, body soap, lotion, etc. Idk where I'm gonna run to tho. imma gonna keep my parent's contacts too tho and my friend's contacts cuz I love them
Srry for the vent :(
I'm not ok
Pls help
I really hope my mom doesn't see this. I don't wanna hurt her
I love my mom
@@xx_somescenecath0lic_xx888 i hope that everything turns out okay. just know that you’re valid no matter what your gender and sexuality is. i wish you the best!
@@meliitonin5443 ty! :D
hello! I am not transgender, but I am religious. I am not as Christian as some would like me to be, I have my own faith, it does not mean that I believe that God is everything that I like, but it does mean that he is everything that I need. I have never been discriminatory against transgender people, without being one I know how hard it is, and I can't imagine how hard it is to be in a conservative family. I just want to tell you that because of the compassion you have for your parents, you already show that you are a good person, please, don't blame yourself, I know it's easy to say, but sometimes people mistakenly see things that they think are wrong. I wish you all the best, I hope you are better and I want you to know that no pain is eternal, and at some point you will realize that you have to prioritize your well-being over others, even your own family.
Though my childhood wasn’t as bad as it is today, it’s unfortunate that others have been sexually assaulted by some vile creatures. Sad they never got the joy they deserved.
Traumacore : is a type of imagery that delves into the themes of abuse and trauma (particularly sexual trauma or CSA), though it's not strictly limited to physical or sexual abuse. Mental, emotional, and spiritual abuse are also common themes as it pertains to Traumacore. its is NOT an aesthetic.
This is weird but this calms me down.
I used to struggle going to sleep because of nightmares and would be scared to sleep because of them (mainly because it came from past abuse I experienced) but watching these alongside the music weirdly relaxs me to sleep. It even stopped the nightmares and I just don't dream which is strange but it better than waking up at 12am crying no?
i’m glad that my videos were able to help you get better sleep! it makes me happy that i helped someone! 💕
I don't have trauma, but the images are weirdly comforting, and the music helps a bit too
i feel like i have no one to talk to. i cant tell if things ive experienced are traumatic or im just being dramatic. my parents would fight and things would often escalate. i saw someone hurt someone i loved. and i used to love them so much til i started to realize how terrible of a person they actually are. it also sucks bc this person is my dad and hes not just someone i can just cut out of my life. my sister has therapy and my brother was in counselling. i was even offered counselling from my parents but i said no. if i couldnt even tell my best friend what happened i cant tell a random person my parents are paying. im just so unhappy and idk what to do about it.
if there’s no one you can talk to, i recommend for you to maybe write down what you’re feeling in a notebook or maybe, if it’s easier, you could do voice recordings and say everything you want to say. idk, these are just some ideas to express your feelings. but i hope things get better for you soon and that you find someone to talk to ❤️
@@meliitonin5443 thanks for the ideas 💕
@@bruisesncontusions np! =)
I don't have any forms of trauma but I also use this to cope. I have been bullied and I have been told very rude things. I hope this isn't offensive in any way
no don’t worry! i’m not offended at all =)
This makes me feel safe, like home when I was still 5. It was calm and happy, but now everything's a huge mess.
0:40
✨"You literally ripped me open. What the fuck"✨
I love that line so much for some reason-
I was groomed by someone in the discord, my mother found out and deleted my discord account and i started going to the psychologist, even though I don't trust her
now i feel it was my fault for talking to him
it's not your fault. you didn't expect it to happen. so don't blame yourself for something that was out of your control 💕
@@meliitonin5443 thanks! 💖 I hope you get well! 💕
@@miilllkk tysm!! i hope you get well too! ❤️❤️
i found you here too-
I'm a 20 year old guy and i very much have childhood trauma. I am shocked that people want to go through what i went through just for clout. Whenever i open up about my trauma, I'm not looking for sympathy and likes. All i want is for people to understand how i am the way I am today. I tell my story to raise awareness about childhood abuse and trauma. It genuinely annoys me when people want to suffer because "haha internet clout"
Until I was about twenty-one, if someone who made life bearable could leave, they would. I was always really different and never really understood why. They always took the chance. Even my parents. They left me with bad people.
I've found a good support system, and they've proven that they wouldn't leave me. But sometimes the flames still lick me and I go to these videos. It's comforting to know other people have kind of the same mindset, and saddening at the same time.
Edit: I remember everyone who left. I even remember the guy who found me at my worst and promised he'd be the one to stay.
He didn't.
He left twice.
The first time I indulged in alcohol too much to cope, the second time I felt numb. If I'm not feeling numb about it, I'm inconsolable.
Part of me is still so deeply submerged in it. This little girl desperate to find a forever friend. Desperate for someone to finally be able to stay, yet unable to believe that anyone would.
My therapist is gonna have me screened for ADHD. She thinks that, along with my previous diagnosis of borderline personality disorder, is what's made me so different this entire time.
having the feeling of someone leaving you really hurts. i’ve experienced that a couple times too and i would always feel so hurt. i do, also, feel different than my friends, family, and classmates. not because of a disorder, but because i was always much more sensitive than everyone else. till this day i still am very sensitive and i don’t really know why. all i can say is that i guess i was born that way. always getting hurt by even the little things. and i feel like most of my traumatic experiences are because of how sensitive i was. since i always get hurt so easily, it’s easy for me to get traumatized over getting called on and humiliated in class over and over again because of my shyness. and if i weren’t so sensitive, then maybe i wouldn’t be traumatized and i would feel okay. since most people in my life aren’t as sensitive as i am, they usually find my trauma invalid. and sometimes i feel that way too. and because of this i feel isolated. i feel different because everyone else i know can brush off the little things while i get extremely hurt by it and can’t get over it for at least a few days. and i’ve had a close friend leave me for a while because i was too sensitive for them. they came back eventually but still, it hurt me really badly. but yeah, it hurts being and feeling different from everyone else you know.
How come the images are adorable then the concept and details are so sad. :(
people use cute and child-like characters to show the innocence of the artist while they were going through their trauma
1:34 that one hit different tho
2:37
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I.. used to be unintetionally meam to my brother.. my mum said i was a bully.. i agree with her.. what is wrong with me.. i’m worried i traumatized him.. and its my fault.. he had a nightmare about me once.. i love him.. i don’t meam harm.. not normal..
I hurt my only sibling…
I’m worried he hates me, i understand this.. i probwbly did fuckijg traumatize him.. being loud.. throwing things.. i’m a monster who deserves to be alone..
*i’m sorry bro..*
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0:14 is really how i used to think.
I have autism so during a meltdown i panicked so much that i was shaking or i couldn’t breathe,,
0:18 . . .
This is really my way of thinking.. mum tells me that other people have it worse off then me.. i feel like when i cry over.. anything i consider little; i shouldn’t be crying… others have it worse off..
I have most things i like.. i’m ok.. just why the fuck do i still cry if others have it worse off..
Even now i’m crying and thinking this.. why… am i crying… others have it worse off..
I’m scared of attetion seeking.. mum says its natural but it isn’t.. i fucking hate myself due to autism.. i feel lazy.. i feel stupid.. i feel weak… scared.. *so.. scared..*
I probably shouldn’t even be venting.. i’m 100% playing the victim.. i don’t know whats wrong from right..
I tend to annoy my classmates on accident.. my voice is too loud.. after being annoyed or even threatening to do harm to me they act like nothing ever fucking happened… it feels fake.. almost no one is my friend.. i’m broken.. can’t socialize properly.. i’m stupid.. why am i venting this.. i literally know people on discord who’ve been through worse..
I feel like i’m being an attetion seeker..
I really shouldn’t be venting about this at all.. people have been through worse..
Thanks for reading.. stay well and drink water..
I love you.
attention seeking isn’t always negative. although a lot people make it out to be. sometimes it’s good so that you can reach out for help! i hope things get better soon for you
@@meliitonin5443 thank you!..
This describes perfectly how i feel :,(
I hope things get better for you soon.. i know that this is really cliche but you’re not alone, and its true, even though literally everyone says that. there’s people out there going through similar situations. but i guess we can hope for things to get better for us ❤️
traumacore makes me feel like im not the only one suffering.
I don’t think I’ve ever had any major trauma as far as I can remember being alive, yet… Some of these feel relatable or comforting to me.
Sometimes I feel like I’m faking it all for attention
my parents aren’t abusive
But despite it all, this still resonates with me
Sometimes I feel like a whole different person..
This is kind of comforting tho.
I've had trauma before
*especially when I lost one of my family members.*
im sorry for your loss..
i have been holding this in for the longest time so um.. imma vent:
i've been struggling for the longest time but i can't ever get myself to reach out. i always try to be there for my friends, whether it be emotional support or help with school and etc. but no one ever seems to try to help me back, and even when i do i can't get myself to accept it, and i can't even get myself to ask without feeling like i'm selfish. whenever they come to vent to me or ask for help, little do they know on the other side..i'm hurting so much myself and trying to be the strong one for them.. but it's getting all too much and i don't think i can take it anymore.
i've also been failing school for the first time ever because i dont even have the motivation to get out of bed, let alone do my work, and my parents think i'm lazy and a disappointment making excuses even though i opened up to them about how i'm feeling. i'm trying, really.. i even got them to take me to the doctor to find out what's going wrong with me but after that one appointment they didn't turn back. and nothing really changed. i haven't gotten help. my teachers have probably given up on me. and i dont think ill be able to pass my classes in time,,,, i dont know what to do..
i just feel so trapped and stuck and exhausted and i dont think i can do this by myself anymore.. i feel like i have no way out and it's all too much to handle
i can really feel you on this one. sometimes my motivation just goes away and i can’t do anything. not even school work. and sometimes it leads me to having overdue assignments which is stressful. and keeping that feeling inside and not telling anyone is one of the worst feelings. because you feel so alone and trapped. and whenever you want to tell someone, you end up not doing so because you feel selfish and feeling like that really hurts. i hate how hard we’re trying just for other people to not even notice. so i can feel you on this.. i can relate to this a lot. i hope things get better for you soon 💕💕
@@meliitonin5443 thank you so much, knowing that someone out there understands brings me so much comfort :,) i hope you're doing well yourself!
@@xleepiii thanks!! and np! i hope you’re doing well too 💕✨
@@xleepiii Family or people's expectations are too high for normal students. They need to understand; We aren't machines, we have lifes too. I can relate to this comment, I don't have enough motivation to do anything in general, I always like giving advice to other people, but I just feel so vulnerable and selfish whenever I open up to someone. I'm here for you if you need to talk about anything.
I still don't know how to talk about personal things without sounding like an attention seeker. There's so much I wanna hide, but there's so much of that I can't.
i get that :(
el dreamcore, wairdcore y el traumacore extrañamente me hace sentir de una manera que no puedo explicar, pero digamos que me hace sentir más alla de bien, es como escapar de la realidad 💜🌌
si, a mi me ayuda mucho también 🌈🌟
el weirdcore y el traumacore me ha dado mucha creatividad y me ayuda a expresarme en la forma que yo quiera 🍄🌤🎨
yo i dont have trauma but sorry for all who does 💕🐈 i hope u have a good day!
tysm 💕💕
i hope you have a good day too! and same for everyone else ❤️
@@meliitonin5443
question, am i allowed to like the video? it's okay if not
@@nafsii04 ofc you're allowed to like it! although making traumacore is for people who have been traumatized, anyone can watch it and like it!! :D
@@meliitonin5443
ah ok thank you! hope your life gets better !
@@nafsii04 thanks!! and np!
(Vent)
My mom died in 2016. She died because she could not afford to raise me. My parents divorced when I was 2 years old because of the same reason. My grandmother is raising me since my mom died. I remember her face. She had severe depression. She looked really tired but I did not know why, I was only a child. She told me "Everything is gonna be fine" and hugged me and she started crying. That was 2 days before she died.
I also got bullied by a girl named Anna and other people in school. They were often making fun of my name, the fact that I wear glasses and more stuff. I just wish they will pay for everything they did to me.
The last trauma I have is the death of my fiance. He was fat but he was extremely sweet to me. We used to laugh a lot. He was my online boyfriend since 2018 , until I asked him out on 20 march 2021 and he said "Yes, I would love to!". I remember his voice and moaning sometimes. We were sexting very often. I can still hear him saying "I love you" as I write this text. He died but I don't know the cause. It's been some months (June or may I can't remember) since we last talked. I still miss him and he'll always be a special person in my heart.
that’s terrible.. i hope you’re doing okay. you’re really strong, and that’s an amazing trait to have, so keep it up, okay? keep on going like you have been doing all this time 💗
@@meliitonin5443 Thank you.
@@aprilsweetness no problem!
First of all thank you for this it's helped me cope a bit
AHHH IM SO SORRY IF THAT TRIGGERED YOU!! THATS MY DEAD NAME TOO AND MELI IS MY PREFERRED NAME. I was actually the one who made that edit so- but yea my birth name is triggering because of my trauma
If you relate to this, I’m so sorry that you have gone through such things,
Asking for help is normal and you should if you need to.
Talking about it doesn’t make you a attention seeker.
You shouldn’t have to feel so unsafe… no one deserves that.
You are beautiful, you are awesome. You are loved.
traumacore's like
weirdly pleasant?
i dunno it feels like liminal spaces, or looking back at your old childhood memories and noticing patterns you didn't before
yea.. it’s just weirdly unexplainable but it’s so pleasant in my opinion too
I’m not too sure if I can consider what I’ve experienced “Tramua” or “Abuse” but I feel like my existence is just, I don’t even know how to describe it. But what I know for sure is that is hurts me, it makes me and my surroundings just feel so weird and conflicted. So recently, I’ve been using Tramuacore as a way to kinda vent about this, although I’m not too sure if Traumacore is what I’m supposed to be using.
Can't stop crying tonight.
i always feel the need to fill up the entire picture with words when i make traumacore edits
hmm i haven't seen a lot of traumacore edits like that. but i've seen a few. and have made a couple of my own like that, and then i include some of my favorite/comfort characters over them!
I dont have trauma but i struggle with sh, and ive been clean for almost three months but holy shit does this make me feel a lot better abt it. I can’t really describe it….it’s like something with the same comfort as sh but its not sh which really helps