I don’t know if I am depressed or just bipolar but I’m sick of doing the same thing everyday edit: doing better now, i’ve been working out and making a lot of friends. I love you all.
ykw man Im so sick of living like this wake up, school, eat, homework, tiktok, sleep. Im not happy I want to conquer myself Im tired of tiktok Im tired of all the instant gratification I want to be proud of myself man I wanna become the best version of myself (I will change I’ll do whatever it takes.)
@@defaultuser9925 yaaa i feel great. life is good when u get out there man. life is too short for u to be moping around and being depressed n shi. talk to that girl, hit that new pr at the gym, make friends at church or school, and overall realize the potential u have as a human being 🫡
I recently got diagnosed with schizophrenia and I don't know how to feel about it. I knew that there were a lot of probabilities of me having it because a lot of people in my family do but to hear it from an actual expert is different.
It ain't what you said? I'm better father than you Rick, I'm better for Lori than you man, 'causd i'm a better man than you Rick. You just came and destroyed everything
Man i just wanna be loved and be normal. I dont wanna be depressed anymore, i dont wanna skip school anymore, i dont wanna be fat anymore, i just want my old friends back. I made a mistake...and im sorry.
This song is kind of like nostalgic. Sad but happy at the same time. Bittersweet. Like remembering the good memories of the past, and it makes me smile, in a sad way.
It gives me different emotions and motives at the same time. I want to help everybody and be kind of useful for society, but at the same time, I realize that no one is here to do the same thing towards me, which gives me a huge frustration, but I kinda got used to it. I just want everyone to be happy and cheerful as well as to live in peace. That's all.
life hits u hard bro, but always remember that the amount of sadness u get will be transformed to joy and multiplied by 100%, so what I'm sayin bro is dont be lost
This gives me a feeling of my own limitations, see the interesting lives of other people, and understand that I may not find my happiness, in the end I will simply get depressed and live a boring and boring life. but it's still pointless
I do everything right. I eat right, sleep right, workout consistently, do good in school, I have money, and I’m Christian, but I’m not happy. I make my parents proud, my friends proud, I inspire my friends to do better, but I’m still not happy. I’m not depressed or anything but I just don’t feel happy anymore. I don’t even know what makes me happy
i was exactly like this before i started to get closer w God. He will help you through this rough stage in life, i promise u. from a christian to another. i'm a month late but i hope everything is okay for you right now. just remember that it's okay to feel like this but it's not okay to dismiss it. i'll pray for you, even though i don't even know your name because God does. He recognizes this emptiness inside of you, and you recognize it too, so let him and let yourself be in His hands. He is great and can pull you out of this. He is the missing piece to the puzzle you're desperately trying to solve. Romans 15:13 "May God, the source of hope, fill you with all joy and peace by means of your faith in Him, so that your hope will continue to grow by the power of the Holy Spirit."
Just found out that the pastors husband passed last night, i cried to this song just thinking about how he wouldn't suffer anymore.. hes in gods hands now!. Sending love to the pastor she shouldn't go through this but, its just apart of our lives..we lose someone we love..
thx to everyone that writes helpful stuff down in the comments, like "You are going to get through this" and stuff, its a cool sight to see that people try to help others, although nothing really makes me happy anymore, it can sometimes make me happy to see that there are people who care about others, not even knowing who the other person is, its really nice to see that there are people with empathy in this world, that provide something to people who dont get it, such as me, although they dont help, it just makes me slightly happy that others care about another of whom they know nothing about
I care about you, and to answer your question about why you are pondering here,u are pondering because you are here for a reason, you were never a mistake, u are important, people need people who are exactly like you, u are important to me, I genuinely fell for you as a person who used to cry them selves every single night and wishing it could all end right in the morning , I wanna hear a reply from you @notahappypersonhere7881:).[ I really hope you remove the “not” from your name]
This song plays in my head everyday. I feel miserable. Everything feels foggy, cloudy, I feel lost. I don't know. This song is playing in my head on repeat, when I sleep, when I go to school, when I'm at school, when I'm doing something. This song is simply my life.
This is for everyone who wants to die: Everyone will cry if you die, everyone will miss you, even if no one is in love with you, just dont do it I love you all i hope you all gonna be fine!:)
My name is Daniel. Throughout my life, I have struggled with weight issues and faced bullying due to my body. Thanks to my own efforts, I have managed to achieve a healthier physique. However, I have recently been neglecting my health and gained some weight due to depression. Yes, I admit it, depression. I am feeling lost and scared about the direction of my life.
The sound makes me calm , ive got every reason to lose my sanity although when i hear this sound i can breathe and clear my mind and remind myself we as humans have a gift and thats our brain a blessing or a curse for you to choose, thanks be to the all mighty father 👆💪🙏
this version of slowed, compared to all the other “extremely slowed” versions, makes me realize that this song..kinda sounds more hopeful. it shouldn’t feel like a depressing song. it feels like, if i was listening to this as i was crying, that this song would make me stop and realize that if i pray to Allah and I’m a good person I’ll get the hope and the happiness i want. it feels like a call to me, like a call saying that I’ll be ok.
All my friends have moved to college or are pursuing their careers, im the youngest and I'm still in my senior year of highschool. I leave in June for the army and will see them even less than I do now. I have never been more alone. I have nothing, no one. I'm not even depressed, I'm just angry at my situation and have no way to change it
hey man. its alright. i had no idea what i was doing with my life after senior year. i tried college, but it wasnt for me. i ended up joining the navy and embracing the path and the means to my future. im glad that you chose something bigger than yourself to pursue. just hold on a bit longer, youll be through soon.
You are loved, and remember that the thing you do on this would are not eternal no matter how big the mistake you made is there’s always a way to get over it Idk if you wanna hear this or not but having faith in Jesus has always worked for me anytime I’m feeling depressed he always has helped me out of it
Hate to break it to you but you can't have those things while simultaneously not caring about money/school. You need to work hard to earn a nice home and a loving partner, yeah I get that society sucks but there's nothing we can do about it, just do the best you can with what you have.
Focus on yourself, not others expectations of you but just on what you want. Your goals, ambitions, and how you want to live life. If you constantly have the desire for something but do not put in the work, did you truly deserve it? Take steps to living a life you know you can take pride in. Don’t live a meaningless life you’ve already gone through.. there’s a reason you’re tired of this, because you realize it’s a waste. Take care, and remember you live for yourself not for others. Comparison is the thief of joy.
I don't know if I'm heading in the right direction in life, everything seems so foggy and I feel like its too late to catch up with everyone else. (sorry if this is cringe just need to vent)
"Glass aint dangerous until its broken." "Real ones would chose you over they girl" "Single today, Single tommorow, Shi might be single forever its hard to find real love in this generation" "I may be ugly or not known, but i still have a good heart in a fucked up generation" "You cant get up if you aint down"
''La mayoría de las veces, el problema no es que los problemas que enfrentamos no puedan resolverse, el problema es que tenemos tanto miedo al fracaso que nos negamos a ver nuestros problemas desde una nueva perspectiva. Y entonces hacemos las mismas cosas una y otra vez. Y ahí, por supuesto, encontramos exactamente el fracaso que buscábamos. Tu vida siempre será una lucha y siempre tendrás problemas.'' -Superliminal (Dr. Glen)
''i dont know how i feel like. i dont know who i really am. am i a normal person? or am i not? am i different from people or am i just overthinking? do i really care about how people feel about me? what is my real self? what is the real me? do i have a real personality? did i finally lose myself? how do i feel like? i hate being pitied. i dont know if i can be every type of person i want. i dont know anything. i dont even know anything about myself. i dont even know anything about my feelings. do i really dont feel anything or do i feel every emotion possible. i had never acted like my real self. would people like me if they saw who i really was? do i actually have a real self? i dont think that im depressed or suicidal or anything so why do i feel like this? i dont know if im depressed or have anxiety. i hate expressing my real feelings. do i have real feelings? i had been mirroring peoples personality and all just to be loved and i didnt even get the love i deserved. i love observing my friends reaction so i can copy their reaction because i dont know how to react. am i really dumb or is it just the personality im using right now? am i a cruel person to use people just to dont look ''lonely'' i dont really care about being alone i just dont want people to see me being alone and pity me. i only have friends so i dont look ''lonely''. why do i care about the stuff people thing about me? do people even thing about me? i want people to care about me, i just want to be noticed. the only thing i want in this world is to be loved. its not like im a ''hopeless romantic'' or something like that. i just want to see if there would be a boy who would like me. confess to me and love me. i dont really love boys or anything. to realize no one actually sees me as a important person. they dont care and i care too much. but no one really knows how i truly feel and they dont care. not like i know how i feel.'' Anyways. this was my first time expressing my ''feelings'' this is usually what i think in my mind when i think about my feelings. I dont know if this is truly how i feel. I dont even know if i just lied to myself about my feelings. I dont really care if people really reads this and if u just readed this please dont pity me. I didnt delete this because i want to see reactions. I normaly woudnt even wright or say anything like this cause people would pity me and look at me with sad eyes. But would they? Would they even care? I just want to see if anyone cares. Anyways if you actually readed this (u prob didnt) im gonna say again but please dont pity me. I dont think i had any traumas or anything and i dont if this is just bc i grow up and this is normal. Im 13 and i dont see my past self like me anymore. I dont really remember if i always copied peoples personalitys or it just started. If yall tell me to go to a therapist i would prob lie to them cuz i dont wanna get pitied, i dont know how i truly feel and i woudnt want anyone to know abt my real feelings. I have been feeling like this for a while know or am i just dramatic abt it? I just care abt what ppl think abt me too much. Anyways if u readed this actually or just skipped to this part ily. Bye bye and please tell me if u know how i feel and if u fell like this. I usually woudnt wright this cuz i dont wanna be pitied but anyways i think i keep saying the same things. Anyways i hope my comment doesnt get popular and people dont see. I said bye and still didnt stop typing cuz i know no one would actually read this. Well i have more things to say but if theres a person who actually readed this might be annoyed so im not gonna talk more. BYEEEEE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND TAKE CARE OF YOUSELF :3 (this was so hard to comment because this was the first time i expressed my feelings even tho its little)
i forgot to comment this but to realize i actually love people pitying me so times. because it feels like they care. but i hate when i fall or sum like that and they just stare while looking sad.
You say that you don't want anyone to pity you but the more I read your message it sounds like your begging for someone to pity you or be there for you
Just the way of life my friend, the whole system is messed up. The one thing we can look forward to is having everlasting life in GODS kingdom, remember this temporary life we live is nothing compared to eternity, stay safe friend :)
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This song plays in my head on repeat.
Real
Fr was on a loop all day at work
real
Real
Real
THE PAIN ISNT GOING AWAY🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
it’s not even seasonal depression at this point its something worse 🥲 don’t give up in life though i promise better times will come
FR🔥🔥🔥🔥🗣🗣🗣
@@spedupsl0w3dreal
@@spedupsl0w3d I feel sad and depressed but in the same time I like it
@@Soul.8877 bro u are me
Suffering in silence.
real
average real writer 😂🔫 (i can't take it anymore)
real shit
@@avakadopubg3534real
aye man just know we all know what you’re going through. and we all are going through it.
I’m not depressed I just like this song
fr man
I am
@@gayslut-realwell NOBODY ASKED 😂😂
Oh😢
I already suffer from depression and anxiety. 2 months ago I got out of the psychiatric hospital and I think I'm going back. 😂😂😂
“The Pain you are going through is Nothing compared to the Joy that’s coming to you “
thank you bro
amen
Thank u bro u opened my eyes
amen
amen
I keep listening to this song and it really reminds me of how privileged we are to be alive.
Frr
Yessirrr 🤟🏽
i don’t want that privilege anymore
@@hugawoo White?
and even be humans
I don’t know if I am depressed or just bipolar but I’m sick of doing the same thing everyday
edit: doing better now, i’ve been working out and making a lot of friends. I love you all.
Real
Real
Used to feel like that too until I started not giving a crap about rules and doing whatever tf I wanted to
Just get off your phone and live in the real world.
@@DK-lz7kg I do
this song just. takes you back to the days you want back so badly but then you realize, life will always get harder and the world only gets sadder.
ykw man Im so sick of living like this wake up, school, eat, homework, tiktok, sleep. Im not happy I want to conquer myself Im tired of tiktok Im tired of all the instant gratification I want to be proud of myself man I wanna become the best version of myself
(I will change I’ll do whatever it takes.)
How are you now, All good bro?
Good luck
i deleted tiktok and all mostly all my socials to better myself and find God.
@@SireRaMessiahHave you found yourself yet
@@defaultuser9925 yaaa i feel great. life is good when u get out there man. life is too short for u to be moping around and being depressed n shi. talk to that girl, hit that new pr at the gym, make friends at church or school, and overall realize the potential u have as a human being 🫡
this song makes me feel so many things i can’t explain
Same
yet but soon may you one day understand :)
bro this album is a masterpiece and it's a shame that people only pay attention to this song
yeeaah but I'm just glad that Cities makes a big bag off the hype.
I recently got diagnosed with schizophrenia and I don't know how to feel about it. I knew that there were a lot of probabilities of me having it because a lot of people in my family do but to hear it from an actual expert is different.
real 😂😂😂😂😂
as long as you take your medication you’ll be able to live a normal life
What’s it feel like
God Bless you I hope you are able to manage your condition well. My thoughts are with you.
How are you now? All good Bro?
"what happened Rick, i thought you weren't the good guys anymore"
Hit hard
It ain't what you said? I'm better father than you Rick, I'm better for Lori than you man, 'causd i'm a better man than you Rick.
You just came and destroyed everything
ain’t that what you said even right here right now u ain't gonna fight for it
Man i just wanna be loved and be normal. I dont wanna be depressed anymore, i dont wanna skip school anymore, i dont wanna be fat anymore, i just want my old friends back. I made a mistake...and im sorry.
It comes with work my friend but I know you can get better
Thank you ❤@@padd0ck
@@GreysAnatomy601 in your troubles Christ cares. Turn to him my friend, life may be a struggle and not so much normal but that he is true love. ✝️❤️
My smile just go away after 1 second of this music.
It feels like I have heard this song before in my life
i thought it's only me, when i first heard this song it felt so familiar
fr man
I swear its a sample from somewhere else, I just have no clue.
u have . Its from the voices in ur head.
This song is kind of like nostalgic. Sad but happy at the same time. Bittersweet. Like remembering the good memories of the past, and it makes me smile, in a sad way.
It gives me different emotions and motives at the same time. I want to help everybody and be kind of useful for society, but at the same time, I realize that no one is here to do the same thing towards me, which gives me a huge frustration, but I kinda got used to it.
I just want everyone to be happy and cheerful as well as to live in peace. That's all.
life hits u hard bro, but always remember that the amount of sadness u get will be transformed to joy and multiplied by 100%, so what I'm sayin bro is dont be lost
This gives me a feeling of my own limitations, see the interesting lives of other people, and understand that I may not find my happiness, in the end I will simply get depressed and live a boring and boring life. but it's still pointless
This song is always playing in my head.
i need someone to run on the beach with during a sunset
Real
same
real real
me too bruh
Frr
“What happened Rick I thought you weren’t the good guy anymore ain’t that what you said?”
it’s such a serious yet so beautiful song
I do everything right. I eat right, sleep right, workout consistently, do good in school, I have money, and I’m Christian, but I’m not happy. I make my parents proud, my friends proud, I inspire my friends to do better, but I’m still not happy. I’m not depressed or anything but I just don’t feel happy anymore. I don’t even know what makes me happy
Pray more and adopt a dog it helped me so I thought it would help you too
i don't either man
then find a reason to be happy instead of saying you don't know only you can know what truly makes you happy
i was exactly like this before i started to get closer w God. He will help you through this rough stage in life, i promise u. from a christian to another. i'm a month late but i hope everything is okay for you right now. just remember that it's okay to feel like this but it's not okay to dismiss it. i'll pray for you, even though i don't even know your name because God does. He recognizes this emptiness inside of you, and you recognize it too, so let him and let yourself be in His hands. He is great and can pull you out of this. He is the missing piece to the puzzle you're desperately trying to solve.
Romans 15:13 "May God, the source of hope, fill you with all joy and peace by means of your faith in Him, so that your hope will continue to grow by the power of the Holy Spirit."
Try something new in your life change up your routine, doing the same exact things for a long time can lead up to depression
you made me feel safe even when you were hurting me the most
I am better father than you Rick!
I am better for Lori than you man!
What happened rick I thought you weren't the good guy
@@montgomeryjacob8889ain’t that what you said?!
IS THIS TWD REFERENCE
Just found out that the pastors husband passed last night, i cried to this song just thinking about how he wouldn't suffer anymore.. hes in gods hands now!. Sending love to the pastor she shouldn't go through this but, its just apart of our lives..we lose someone we love..
This song always makes me think about me life and how I shouldn't take things for granted
I just miss my grandpa man
I’m scared to lose mine he already lost his hearing a little
Same here G
I can literally remember all my childhood while listening to this song.
spedupsl0w3d is our savior! thank you for allowing us to listen to this masterpiece
thx to everyone that writes helpful stuff down in the comments, like "You are going to get through this" and stuff, its a cool sight to see that people try to help others, although nothing really makes me happy anymore, it can sometimes make me happy to see that there are people who care about others, not even knowing who the other person is, its really nice to see that there are people with empathy in this world, that provide something to people who dont get it, such as me, although they dont help, it just makes me slightly happy that others care about another of whom they know nothing about
I care about you, and to answer your question about why you are pondering here,u are pondering because you are here for a reason, you were never a mistake, u are important, people need people who are exactly like you, u are important to me, I genuinely fell for you as a person who used to cry them selves every single night and wishing it could all end right in the morning , I wanna hear a reply from you @notahappypersonhere7881:).[ I really hope you remove the “not” from your name]
Just search goggins man, it'll change your life bro. Also, Jesus loves you bro.
I feel like there is this feeling, always near me, sneaking up at times before bed. Like a warm blanket around you, keeping yourself melancholic
this song stuck in my head
This song plays in my head everyday. I feel miserable. Everything feels foggy, cloudy, I feel lost. I don't know. This song is playing in my head on repeat, when I sleep, when I go to school, when I'm at school, when I'm doing something. This song is simply my life.
@@gaurdionz307 real
The joy in the future will make up for all the bad times experienced in the past
This is for everyone who wants to die: Everyone will cry if you die, everyone will miss you, even if no one is in love with you, just dont do it I love you all i hope you all gonna be fine!:)
Ain't true
@@ericcomentalista Yes it is, bro. Everyone love you. Idk who you are, but you're a good people for sure:)! Good luck for life!
@@ericcomentalistatrust me bro, it aint over
who's going to cry 😂
@@antosomignore8636 Your Mom, Your crush, Your dad, Your brother or sister, Your friends, Your grandpa,Grandma, Your dogs, cats Will be sad
I searched for this for so long🙏
Finally found inner peace😌
My sanity is being ripped apart faster and faster 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
this song makes feels the good old memories.
This song hits different when slowed
that song makes me talk with my self
same
lol
Im not depressed, its just that this makes me cry
we love you
this makes me cry for no reason.
Guys, i finally got to know someone, and I've never been more alive
update?
Enjoy it while it lasts.
It’s like that we’re back in our day
everyday is the same.
The voices in my head are getting louder and louder day by day.. I just want to end it...
This is nice for night biking
this too, shall pass.
-King Solomon
I hold on to that quote daily
My name is Daniel. Throughout my life, I have struggled with weight issues and faced bullying due to my body. Thanks to my own efforts, I have managed to achieve a healthier physique. However, I have recently been neglecting my health and gained some weight due to depression. Yes, I admit it, depression. I am feeling lost and scared about the direction of my life.
Make a schedule for everyday
"Good men are defined by the choices they make" -Hesh Walker
This song feels like limbo.
This is 🔥🔥
Perfecta para ver como toda tu vida pasa por tus ojos
real 😂😂😂😂
Real Real
real.
real
Opino lo mismo
Cliff ahh song🙏
R: realize
E: everyone
A: always
L: leaves
this is so corny im gonna kms
please never ever delete this
I just want to be loved 😞😔
The sound makes me calm , ive got every reason to lose my sanity although when i hear this sound i can breathe and clear my mind and remind myself we as humans have a gift and thats our brain a blessing or a curse for you to choose, thanks be to the all mighty father 👆💪🙏
this version of slowed, compared to all the other “extremely slowed” versions, makes me realize that this song..kinda sounds more hopeful. it shouldn’t feel like a depressing song. it feels like, if i was listening to this as i was crying, that this song would make me stop and realize that if i pray to Allah and I’m a good person I’ll get the hope and the happiness i want. it feels like a call to me, like a call saying that I’ll be ok.
Cliffe owns this song tbh
WISH I COULD JUST DROWN🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣💯💯💯💯💯🔥🔥🔥
All my friends have moved to college or are pursuing their careers, im the youngest and I'm still in my senior year of highschool. I leave in June for the army and will see them even less than I do now. I have never been more alone. I have nothing, no one. I'm not even depressed, I'm just angry at my situation and have no way to change it
hey man. its alright. i had no idea what i was doing with my life after senior year. i tried college, but it wasnt for me. i ended up joining the navy and embracing the path and the means to my future. im glad that you chose something bigger than yourself to pursue. just hold on a bit longer, youll be through soon.
i cant stop listening even though it's so repetitive
Um grito tem mais de 1000 palavras de sofrimento.
Real
Jesus is our only hope
One word will change someone's life
"you can't keep anyone safe, can you?"
When Cliff pops up in my reels with this in the background i know he’s gonna cook!✝️🔥
It's gotten so bad that i didn't even realize that i manipulate my self into think I'm absolutely nothing
Finnaly I found this song
I don't wanna live in a hole anymore...
I wish I could go back but I should also stop drowning in nostalgia and enjoy the present because in a few years I will miss these days to.
Im not fine. I am miserable. I need help. I dont wanna die i just want to disappear
You are loved, and remember that the thing you do on this would are not eternal no matter how big the mistake you made is there’s always a way to get over it
Idk if you wanna hear this or not but having faith in Jesus has always worked for me anytime I’m feeling depressed he always has helped me out of it
you want to kill something inside you and fill the emptiness of your life. go do something about it.
@@hoboisaac8948well said
This song perfectly conveys how I imagine all our memories play as we die
I dont feel no need for shcool, money, economics. I just want a good future with a good home, and someone to love man. Im so tired of everything.
Same here.
@@fizzypizzel6477 fr man.
Hate to break it to you but you can't have those things while simultaneously not caring about money/school. You need to work hard to earn a nice home and a loving partner, yeah I get that society sucks but there's nothing we can do about it, just do the best you can with what you have.
Focus on yourself, not others expectations of you but just on what you want. Your goals, ambitions, and how you want to live life. If you constantly have the desire for something but do not put in the work, did you truly deserve it? Take steps to living a life you know you can take pride in. Don’t live a meaningless life you’ve already gone through.. there’s a reason you’re tired of this, because you realize it’s a waste. Take care, and remember you live for yourself not for others. Comparison is the thief of joy.
@@passthebleach9745 ❤️
This has been stuck in my head for days😭😭😭
She will never leave you trust me 🪽🐒
Tá ai a prova que ele não é qualquer um 💙
not even sad anymore just numb
Always will love this song
Cliff Knechtle owns this song
I don't know if I'm heading in the right direction in life, everything seems so foggy and I feel like its too late to catch up with everyone else. (sorry if this is cringe just need to vent)
yeah man no problm its not cringe, its ok to feel like that
"It will be over soon.. Stay strong.."
This song makes me remind on my dead friend.....
I just remember my dead grandpa and my dead dad. I love them but they are all passed away.. Im only 12
Im so sorry to hear that man, I know that type of stuff can really hurt at a young age. Stay strong bro 🫡🙏
@@razingfire_19_19 thx bro🫡
Inaction is a slow death.
"Glass aint dangerous until its broken." "Real ones would chose you over they girl" "Single today, Single tommorow, Shi might be single forever its hard to find real love in this generation" "I may be ugly or not known, but i still have a good heart in a fucked up generation" "You cant get up if you aint down"
If I were a song I would definitely be this one... 💯💯
Real.
''La mayoría de las veces, el problema no es que los problemas que enfrentamos no puedan resolverse, el problema es que tenemos tanto miedo al fracaso que nos negamos a ver nuestros problemas desde una nueva perspectiva. Y entonces hacemos las mismas cosas una y otra vez. Y ahí, por supuesto, encontramos exactamente el fracaso que buscábamos. Tu vida siempre será una lucha y siempre tendrás problemas.''
-Superliminal (Dr. Glen)
im so fucking tired bro
Are you holding up?
Me too
yoooo this song is fire🔥🔥🔥
''i dont know how i feel like. i dont know who i really am. am i a normal person? or am i not? am i different from people or am i just overthinking? do i really care about how people feel about me? what is my real self? what is the real me? do i have a real personality? did i finally lose myself? how do i feel like? i hate being pitied. i dont know if i can be every type of person i want. i dont know anything. i dont even know anything about myself. i dont even know anything about my feelings. do i really dont feel anything or do i feel every emotion possible. i had never acted like my real self. would people like me if they saw who i really was? do i actually have a real self? i dont think that im depressed or suicidal or anything so why do i feel like this? i dont know if im depressed or have anxiety. i hate expressing my real feelings. do i have real feelings? i had been mirroring peoples personality and all just to be loved and i didnt even get the love i deserved. i love observing my friends reaction so i can copy their reaction because i dont know how to react. am i really dumb or is it just the personality im using right now? am i a cruel person to use people just to dont look ''lonely'' i dont really care about being alone i just dont want people to see me being alone and pity me. i only have friends so i dont look ''lonely''. why do i care about the stuff people thing about me? do people even thing about me? i want people to care about me, i just want to be noticed. the only thing i want in this world is to be loved. its not like im a ''hopeless romantic'' or something like that. i just want to see if there would be a boy who would like me. confess to me and love me. i dont really love boys or anything. to realize no one actually sees me as a important person. they dont care and i care too much. but no one really knows how i truly feel and they dont care. not like i know how i feel.'' Anyways. this was my first time expressing my ''feelings'' this is usually what i think in my mind when i think about my feelings. I dont know if this is truly how i feel. I dont even know if i just lied to myself about my feelings. I dont really care if people really reads this and if u just readed this please dont pity me. I didnt delete this because i want to see reactions. I normaly woudnt even wright or say anything like this cause people would pity me and look at me with sad eyes. But would they? Would they even care? I just want to see if anyone cares. Anyways if you actually readed this (u prob didnt) im gonna say again but please dont pity me. I dont think i had any traumas or anything and i dont if this is just bc i grow up and this is normal. Im 13 and i dont see my past self like me anymore. I dont really remember if i always copied peoples personalitys or it just started. If yall tell me to go to a therapist i would prob lie to them cuz i dont wanna get pitied, i dont know how i truly feel and i woudnt want anyone to know abt my real feelings. I have been feeling like this for a while know or am i just dramatic abt it? I just care abt what ppl think abt me too much. Anyways if u readed this actually or just skipped to this part ily. Bye bye and please tell me if u know how i feel and if u fell like this. I usually woudnt wright this cuz i dont wanna be pitied but anyways i think i keep saying the same things. Anyways i hope my comment doesnt get popular and people dont see. I said bye and still didnt stop typing cuz i know no one would actually read this. Well i have more things to say but if theres a person who actually readed this might be annoyed so im not gonna talk more. BYEEEEE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND TAKE CARE OF YOUSELF :3 (this was so hard to comment because this was the first time i expressed my feelings even tho its little)
i forgot to comment this but to realize i actually love people pitying me so times. because it feels like they care. but i hate when i fall or sum like that and they just stare while looking sad.
Holy shit
You good?
We can talk about it if you want I'm open
You say that you don't want anyone to pity you but the more I read your message it sounds like your begging for someone to pity you or be there for you
That picture is something ill never experience in life
Im so fucking tired of living
Stay strong friend 🙏
real 😂😂😂😂
We got your back
real
You've let us down kid...we had big aspirations about you.
This is what you repay us with ?
*FALL*
I am so close to just ending it
why?
Bro, dont do it theres so much to liev for..
how are u doing man
they meant the video guys!!! ending the video 😁😁😁
@@ashIeigh Oh okay:)
this is my alarm
в этот мрак не может проникнуть даже крохотный лучик света
God is who we can always trust
Remember man im proud of you im happy with you.. keep chasing your dream.. even if something stop you.. Just keep chasing.. i know you can one day.
Pouring concrete at 2 am listening to this and wondering why I’m slaving myself when all these other people get things handed on a silver spoon
Just the way of life my friend, the whole system is messed up. The one thing we can look forward to is having everlasting life in GODS kingdom, remember this temporary life we live is nothing compared to eternity, stay safe friend :)