maybe so, but suffering ends when you accept and surrender to the ups and downs of life. you can never not feel the hurt, though, and im currently experiencing one of the downs of life. peace/content is sought when you realize that as long as you are breathing you are more capable and powerful than you think. i think you are more capable and powerful than you think. i hope you the best in life and do something kind for yourself or others today.
it reminds me of the thumbnail too, just alone in the woods during a mild summer day, not too humid, overcast with a brisk breeze of smoking barbecue, like at a park. Its one of those songs that you swear sounds familiar.
My girlfriend left me an audio message via WhatsApp with this playing in the background and it perfectly frames the feeling of nostalgia of the everyday things we experience when we're in a relationship. I saved the audio clip and it's one of my most treasured possessions. She was only talking about a test she was preparing for that turned out to be a few questions about herself and laughing about it, but when I listen back to it her voice and this track send me to a place of pure happiness.
i wouldn't know, i haven't cried for 5 years. And that really destroys me sometimes because it's difficult to let all my pent up anger and frustration out, everything happens in my head and it eats me up from the inside out
I love how everyone portrays this song differently. Some sad some nostalgic some happy, but I believe this song is trying to describe limerence into music. If you’ve never experienced limerence before it’s like the up and down of this same feeling over and over. It’s a false feeling of adoration, love, attachment, idolization, and happiness attached to a person you barely know. I just love how this music sounds exactly like it: the notes playing the same tune over and over, and it’s not quite a real sound. It’s not any instrument at all but almost a distorted sound of a blend of them, most likely electrical sound. Exactly like limerence: love that seems real but is just obsession
this is it. you put into words exactly how this feels, and how this song reflects the feeling of its namesake. i've struggled for months to pin it down. thank you so much.
@@gabeschulze Aw you’re welcome! I struggled with limerence for 2 years. Once you get over it, it changes how you look at other people and relationships for the better:) wishing you well
Limerence- Is the feeling of being so in love with someone you grow an unhealthy obsession to them, similar to a yandere. Feelings or instances of Limerence are usually caused by under lying health issues, like depression, anxiety or obsessive disorders. Limerence can occur once or maybe a struggle throughout a person's life time. Although Limerence itself is not a mental disorder.
Hey folks that are scrolling through, I love every single one of you. Depression, any mental disorder, really, is tough. But what’s tougher is you, for enduring it. One day it’ll get better, I promise.
I think I really did it this time. I deleted every social media I have and cut my ties and got a new number. No one can reach me anymore except for a tiny group of people. I always fantasized about just disappearing without a trace, feeling free and leaving people wondering. If I’m being honest I was always the happy girl with many friends. I loved being around people and people liked me, But now I’m completely different. I don’t think anyone thought I would end up like this. But I’m so happy. I wanna be that person that randomly pops up in your mind leaving you wondering what ever happened to them? Where did they go? Lots of people wanna be known, but I just wanna be missing. Someone who just disappeared
@@shamelmae ok fair enough. I’ll start with the basics. You know my name already. I’m 20 years old and I live in Canada. I’m a student working 2 jobs and looking towards creating a business based in either music or some other form of entertainment.
Yeah, as if it slowly progresses. It feel like a cold winter morning waking up before the sun rises to go to school. You don't really want to go, you want to turn around and go home. You are halfway there and the frost has started to nibble on your nose. With every step you take the pain in your stomach grows greater. The lights outside are still on as dawn starts to throw its blue glow over the roads and walkways. But you just cant go any further, instead you go to the park. Its on the way there, you find a bench and sit down. Slowly the morning commuters reach their destinations and the pathways fall quiet, the skies in the distance have started to turn orange, suddently all the lamps shut off, a new darkness emerges. This lasts some minutes until its suddently broken with an intense red flash of sunshine. The world around you is cold below freezing but filled with the warmest shade of sunlight. Its starts to snow heavy flakes of snow slowly falling to the ground, being almost without wind. Every single flake of snow lit by the morning sun. You wish you could just sit there for some ours and just be for yourself for a while, but the cold is slowly creeping through your mittens and your socks. You dont want to go, but you also dont want to go home. You dont want your parents disapointment but you cant go to school either, you just cant take that right now. And yet you cannot stay. A decision will have to be made. Even though it is just a teusday morning, the choice feels like it will determine the rest of your life.
story time, two years ago i was listening to this song a lot because my university friend gave it to me as a suggestion during a sunny day we barely talked but he was kind, he was very gentle and he was the kind of boy who's obsessed with spirituality and he used to tell me that this song reminds him of a spiritual realm. even tho we didn't use to talk a lot but there was that solid bond between us; even if we don't see eachother for months the bond is still strong once we are reunited. one November night, i heard that he passed away in a car accident. i didn't want to believe he had breathed his last, everytime i listen to this song i remember him, his voice, the fresh air on my face when we used to talk together. it hurts to say it but i had some real feelings for him and now he died... rest in peace K.
it’s funny how everyone says it’ll get better but it never has for me... i watch everyone else as they move forward while i’m stuck in the same exact blank spot. i’m in so much pain.
maybe focus on ur spiritual self? unless it goes against ur religon or anything, but meditating and positive affirmations have really helped me! i hope things get better for u ❤️❤️
Try to be as healthy as possible, exercise, having a good diet, being aware and treating your medical problems included. Keep people in company with you that you know will love you and will try to help you with your issues. Make a huge effort to be active. Seek therapy and possibly medication. Always make a huge effort to talk to people and to become more social. Don't put down yourself if you see constant failure in your life. Take little steps to ensure some happiness and build up yourself from there. Write down your goals if you have to (make sure they're realistic and attainable). Think about your problems in a more practical way. Really make an effort to understand why you feel the way you do. It requires a lot of thinking and time and patience and you may not ever completely solve all your issues but you make your life more manageable. As someone who has been suffering with mental problems myself for most of my life, I really hope things go well for you.
@@godiebeard thank you so much. i’m better now that i’ve worked out some of my problems and i’m just trying to live my life the best way that feels comfortable to me. but you sound like you’ve been through a lot and i’m sorry. i hope the best for you ❤️
this song is like the feeling of seeing the light at the end of the tunnel but not knowing when you'll actually get there. you just know you're getting closer
another way I'd describe it is kinda like searching for something or someone and you keep chasing them and think you're getting closer and closer even though at the end it was a waste of time since you were never close enough to make them love you as much as you did.
To me, this sounds like the feeling of happiness despite a bad situation. Like finding joy in little things while trying desperately to ignore the state your life is in, just focusing on a tiny speck of beauty and feeling complete bliss for a moment
this sounds like depression. november air. feeling the snow on your face at 6 in the morning. getting on the bus watching the street lights. slowly your life faded into grey and never saw it coming
i feel like my life will never get better. i wish everything would go back to normal. before this pandemic i wasn't very happy but much better than how i feel right now. school was a distraction for me since i talked to my friends, but now everything is online and my friends barely talk to me, so now i just feel useless. i just want to get out my house and have fun again ;-;
I feel the same way. Its hard to imagine anything feeling 'normal' again, after feeling so vacant for so long, nothing to glue life together into something coherent; just day after day, month after month existence, full of loneliness, nothing to look forward to, every day being the same, no goals, no aspiration, no ambition... again, hard to imagine once this is all over we will remember what its like to feel normal again. You're not alone, friend. Just find comfort in the fact that everything you feel is natural.
All people are saying that this music brings either depression or hope, but for me it's just calm. Looking out of the window at night to witness the city's lights. Just that ambience.
i think this song perfectly describes what i’ve felt over the last five years. an endless amount of stress, sadness and loneliness. yes i have an amazing life and am grateful for so much but i just can’t take this pain anymore. over and over and over i’ve been hurt, used and made to feel unworthy. i can’t stand people. my own family have made me feel invalid and a disappointment countless times.
Hey i hope you’re doing well now. I know how you are feeling I won’t assure you it will get better so soon, but i know it will eventually someday for us. We grow and learn and experience a lot in life ‘what’s happiness if one don’t feel pain?’. What’s important is trying to love yourself and simply try your best. Simply try. Because then you can say i did my best no matter the outcome, you have done your part and that is all it matters. Im sending you lots of hugs. I saw your video and i just want to say you have such a beautiful smile it warmed my heart. Have a wonderful day sweetie. And to anyone else reading this it’s okay we got this, ily
These comments depict sadness, emptiness, and a slow building depression but to me this music sounds very hopeful. To me I feel like it’s going to be okay eventually, I will be happy and safe eventually. Idk but to me this song sounds like a warm hug amidst the heavy deluge that is the chaotic thunderstorm of existence. This song sounds like the calm I feel after I cry. This song feels like the secrets only strangers know about me. This song feels like protection.
Same here. I love holding my newborn to this. Like you said, protection. I stare at him with this desire to protect him from everything and everyone, make sure I guide him in the right paths. Love how you described the feel of the song for you
limerence- this song to me feels like being in love with someone who's suffering from severe mental illness and slowly watch their own mind eat away at them and destroy them and not being able to do anything about it. it slowly you start to go into the same state as them and you both fall apart together.
im goin through that exact thing someone I really care for n that loves me is addicted to drugs n they cant get off of it. ive tried my best to help but they just keep doing it. im not going to get any authorities involved or anything but it just hurts to see their addiction eat away at them slowly. ive tried explaining it to them many times its eating at them n they just brush it off n dont listen. hopefully she will eventually put this behind her but she still loves me so theres that I guess
I just don't see this as depression I see it as the gradual walk out of depression, when you realise your feelings are back, it sounds like a sigh of relief to me.
Is it me or does anyone else enjoy the thrill of suffering? The difficulty in acquiring such things but once you get them, you’re like “now what?” Perhaps it’s just me but I love not being happy all the time. Not having a fake smile on my face and acting as if everything is okay but rather more so, facing my demons head on and thanking them for transforming me. If you’re reading this, you’re awesome!
I get this. Might sound masochistic, but I realized that I kinda enjoy feeling despair or grief or just anything bad once in a while, you're not alone in that.
It's not depression. It's memories. They live in you, but suddenly you realise you've actually started to live in them. You're stuck, incapable of living another moment without comparing it to the old, better version of it. The Crucifixion of you life. The slow, burning sound of the end of the cigarette. It's now yours. You start to think of death more often, watching old people who don't realise they're close to "it". It's a weird feeling. You should enjoy life, right? Even pain itself. An experience of humanity. I don't have to stop, I can't stop, even if I want. -20:11
yeah.... let me know if you ever make it out of that loop of memories. i, like you, cant seem to stop thinking about them, comparing them. i dont think itll ever stop if im being honest, i dont think ill ever be present again. but i mean if you can maybe i can idk... let me know if you do🕳💠 best of luck to u💮
U won’t and u have to deal with it bc it’s the real world and just because she said it will, it won’t unless u make it happen, stop laying there saying it won’t because ur the only one holding back from getting better
this is the feeling of being understood, being heard, being seen, being included, feeling real, having no fear, actually being yourself with no judgement or regret. this is how it feels for someone to actually look at you and love every part and every inch of you as if you are a wonderful piece of art.
I was writing in my diary when this song came up randomly and you just summarized my emotions perfectly as I wrote them down just be you and you will find love
i was cleaning my room while listening to songs and this played and for a moment I stopped, sat down and just felt my heart break into tears. this is the most beautiful thing to exist.
Limerance was the single most Euphoric and at the same time, the most painful experience of my entire life - I learnt what it truly felt like to have my heartbroken. Never going to let anyone in like that again.
closing yourself off to relationships is not good for human nature. you are only being your own enemy by shutting down feelings and potential relationships that can foster positivity. there are ups and downs but that’s just life. The purpose of our existence is to experience life, simple as that. So go live and don’t hold yourself back!
“Mommy I can’t wait to grow up” That’s how stupid I was. Excitement blocking my eyes, I didn’t appreciate what I had. Now I can see clear, But it’s nothing of what I hoped for. Everything is just grey Without happiness or joy. I can’t see ahead of me. Everything feels the same. At least I hope that one day I get to feel again. - i
That child like happiness is gone forever. U have to find a new form an unfortunately stop searching for that old feeling. “It’ll never be the same as when u first tried it” uangaze
This song is nostalgic and painful at the same time. A distant memory of times long past, where you recognised that at some point in your past that you were truly happy, you just didnt know it til it was gone.
“Depression is your bodies physical reaction to the the fake character you’re trying to play” - Jim Carrey It’s your body trying to tell you it’s time to adapt and become who you were meant to be 🫂💙 … you Societal stigmatism’s says you’re supposed to act, learn, dress, love, create, and just be a certain way. Once you realize you are not tied down to society, you will never be the same person again. In a way you transcend beyond the old you, and look at the world through the eyes of a poet. Pure bliss and melancholy are the bi-product of this realization.
This music invites you into your mindscape. Whenever I hear these kinds of songs I immediately go into the comments. The way people open up to this void, seeking to connect and be understood in their personal struggles. The stories that come out; suffering, loneliness, depression, a sense of being disconnected from the world. A truly shared human experience.
This song feels like you're realizing that everything you felt was limerence and not necessarily real love. Or maybe the feeling of when limerence becomes true love.
this song resonates emptiness - the one after breakups, long periods of sadness, dissapointment, loneliness, its an emptiness that changes depending on when / where you listen to it. well depends on the weather, but if i hear this song in my room as i study it enhances it, makes me question a lot more of the things i do and why i do them. if its freezing cold, early in the morning, cloudy but not yet raining, an eerie gloominess / darkness on the world, well it changes. it forces me to question what has been troubling my mind. its an emptiness that lingers in your stomach, masquerading as hunger when in reality its a yearning for warmth or love. its a test of a genuine good mood or not if u can listen to this song in full and not end it in a sadder state. i don't know how yves tumor did it, but he managed to create a loop that enhances emptiness, sucking out any fake notion of happiness. like a winter without the festivities of Christmas or New Year, where all that is left is freezing temperatures, short days, and melancholy.
this song feels exactly like limerence. the repeating melody going over and over and over; you’re constantly expecting something to change but it never does, sounds exactly like how limerence feels. the feeling of superficial “love” and infatuation that isn’t real. this song hurts
you’re so right. it’s exactly like limerence-a condition that is temporarily and infinitely replaying itself with no bound and yet, the melody revitalizes fragments of segmented emotions to create a superficial meaning of memory - one that is etched into time and the construct of pain
Usually I would get annoyed by a loop, but this one is different. It's entrancing, and there's this odd comfort and satisfaction from the repetitiveness, kinda like my thoughts. Sometimes I feel like ripping my head off because they drive me insane, but other times it has a constant calming effect. The best analogy I can think of is when waves hit the shore over and over and after a while of listening or watching, it just fades into the background and blends in with everything else. It's also similar to how some people need white noise to fall asleep. Without white noise to drown out the silence or ringing of the ears, it feels impossible to fall asleep. Likewise, it feels impossible to stay sane or at ease without obsessive/repetitive thinking (to those with obsessive thought patterns). When it comes to obsessive thinking of a person, say that you have a crush on, I feel like it's a way of escaping from reality? It's easy to think of said person, even if you're not thinking anything in particular about them. For example, it's easy for me to just get lost in thought about someone I like, without even creating scenarios in my mind or recalling memories. It's more like an emphasis on the comforting feeling of what it's like to be around them (in person or just talking to them and hearing their voice), or of what I know about them as a whole. Sometimes it's also just imagining what it would be like to be in their shoes (what is their daily life like? what do they think about? what do they find entertaining? what kinds of hardship do they face? what makes then angry/sad/happy? what kind of deep thoughts do they have? how well do they get along with their family? what would it be like to be them for a day (think the way they do, have the same memories, and all)?...). Which all leads me to the conclusion that it's the equivalent of numbing out/escaping from reality. We're directing our thoughts anywhere but on ourselves and what's happening around us-- and our brain sees the person we like as an easy target to do so. The worst part is when you want to quit defaulting to obsessively thinking of the person you like, and it literally feels impossible because you've been doing it for so long. And it hurts when you realize how unhealthy it is and that you may never have genuinely liked them from the start. I want to believe that I genuinely like them, but I'm starting to doubt it. At this point it's just a coping mechanism that my brain latched onto. I want to quit thinking of them in an obsessive manner so that I can think of them in a normal/healthy way-- you know, not 24/7. Only if I've recently hung out with/talked to them, get reminded of them once in a while, and worry if they're doing alright on occasion. Sometimes I wonder whether or not I've genuinely liked someone or if I ever will. I know what it means to truly care for and love someone, but I don't think I've ever experienced it. At least not romantically. Which reminds me of something my sister once told me. She said, "knowledge isn't the same as wisdom." In other words, knowing something (in this case, what it means to love someone) isn't the same as experiencing it firsthand. I love my family and cat beyond what words can describe (I mean I could if I tried, but it would be a lot and this comment is already long enough lol). I hope I can love someone to the same extent if not more some day. One of my biggest fears is that I never will. Sorry if any of this was confusing to read >.
This. The warm, comforting feeling when thinking about them is almost addictive. Its just so easy to slip into those thoughts. My situation is gathering the courage to take these thoughts into action and to let my feelings be known, regardless of the outcome. I think we can all experience love, we just need to put ourselves out there and in as many situations as possible to eventually experience it. 80 years of a lifetime is enough time to find it
You just put everything i'm experiencing into words. I think i'm obessesed with them.. i don't know if i should actively fight against it or not. I just don't know. The only thing i know is that.. they feel comforting no matter how they act.. i care about them but i know i can't get into a relationship with them, we don't have anything to build on.. i'm not sure if there's even a ground.. i'm not sure... at all
god, this song never fails to pull tears from my eyes. it feels so intimate, as if I'm looking into someones mind when they think of someone they love.
This is the feeling of losing so many people that you have that gag feeling before you cry but you can’t cry anymore, it just hurts. It aches deeply, like something inside of one’s self is getting eaten away. It’s not depression, just pure despair. The resilience becomes a roadblock of emotions trapped inside of you. The sinking feeling of dread and future abandonment makes you hug your knees to stay warm against a cool breeze, but no matter how tight you hold only some places are warm as the rest is bare and exposed. Withering away the cold gets worse until you can’t feel your nose, but it’s not that you can’t feel it because you feel the numbness, the tingling, it’s the absence of the ability to feel that what makes it hurt. The frostbite is painful but the lack of blood flow makes it look dead. The pain of losing someone like losing a limb.
I completely understand everyone’s portrayal of this song but am I the only to find it truly peaceful? It just empties my mind and really resonates with my soul, no negative feelings, only peace and calm.
i remember going to my sisters house in august 2020 and laying on the couch at like 2 in the morning listening to this song, the windows were open with a light breeze and it was thunderstorming. i remember listening to the late night traffic and wondering where those people were going, I didn't have a care in the world since i had the school year off from covid-19. only if I could go back to those days. unfortunately I'm starting highschool and my sister is wrapped up in college and work so i wont be able to visit her as often. but again, I would do anything in the world to be chilling on her couch listening to this song and playing cod. everything was so simple and I wish I could go back to those simple times, I wish I was able to cherish those moments.
It sounds like the hope and happiness trapped under all that depression and pain is slowly trying to escape out and into the open. The immense reverb being the empty space it has to fill, while the static is its battle with our dark thoughts. Each high note appears from nothing and rises up attempting to poke above the clouds, similar to finding joy in small things in life while being surrounded by very big but sad parts.
i remember hearing this when i was in 7th grade at the real peak of my first encounter with depression. it was too much for me back then, i couldnt take how sad i felt. i am much older now, but still not fully formed. there is so much happening in my head but i dont let any of it out. all these ideas and passions feel like they are locked behind a thin pane of glass, that my hands are extending in every direction as far as they can but still cannot grab anything. i feel that life is taunting me with the self i could be, i have so much love for music and videogames and art and people and i want to give myself to those who share that passion and use all my energy to create incredible stories and sounds and put forth ideas to my friends and to the world that can help people realize the love they have for what makes them happiest. i cannot figure out where to go. i feel as though i am being pulled downwards into the ocean and i can see the light from the surface slowly fading. i feel that i am weak, given all the opportunity of any human in the world and nothing to show for it. i am so tired of living like this
know that you are not weak. there are obstacles for you to face if you want to become that self you mentioned, but it's nowhere near impossible. channel that passion or you will regret it even more in the future. you owe this to yourself.
quit listening to music that makes you sad and wasting your time. choose rather you want to be a dev for games or a musician and walk on a path straight for long enough to achieve the goal. one or the other will actually require your full attention. if you really feel like you have this immense passion behind a thin pane of glass, well then shatter the glass. no one wants you to fail but your self, life is not taunting you. life is just simply hard to begin with and any goals you set worth that are achieving will be a bit soul consuming. you shouldn't;t worry about making other people find their love in the world when you seem lost yourself. figure yourself out and do something with your life and you will be happy. you are "tired of living like this" because you know you should be doing better.
you seem to be so interesting. hope you find someone to share these ideas you got on your mind and to live a better life. chase these things you are passionate about, without thinking twice. we never know if (or what) we will achieve until we get there. good people deserve good things and i'm sure it'll be this way for you. stay safe, grace.
There’s something about this song. It sounds like the news of someone you know has died, the realization of how your in love with that person, how the days seem to repeat, and the acceptance of how life is.
I will never like a song this much in my entire life, I found this song last year in March and I have accumulated 7000 minutes listening to it, this song repeats in my head. I love this song, I will never get old of hearing this, I love this song.
Laying down on your bed after crying hard, with earbuds in, volume up, full blast, this song hits hard and different. Edit: It’s 2024 now and I wrote this over two years ago. I was in a super rough patch when I found this song and honestly it’s gotten me through a lot. This song will forever hold a special place in my heart. As for me, I am in a much better place today and I’m proud of myself and my accomplishments. It will get better! ❤️🩹
To me this song reminds me of getting caught up in all the romantic aspects of a false relationship all for it to go bad and eventually turn sour. At first you’re both reaching to look and be like the ideal perfect couple, doing and saying the things you think need to say rather than going at your own pace and moving way to fast by observing how other relationships happen around you rather than making the relationship your own… eventually you both can’t put up the act anymore and one person crumbles and breaks character, leaving you to either perform alone til the end of the show or to also leave the situation. It never fares well when you rush and force things to happen in a relationship… sure appreciate what you have but please don’t force yourself to try and make happiness from a short term life aspect. I love you all - M
i love how everyone is saying this song is reminding them of some sort of sadness and loneliness, but there’s hope. hope to find someone, hope to find yourself. it’s beautiful
I first heard this song while I was looking out of my window at a little bird feeder I have attached to the glass. There was one bird, a little finch, who was away from the others and barely moving. I went outside to try and see what was wrong and he didn't react to me until I was inches away, and he weakly fluttered away to a nearby tree. I saw that bird again over the next few days, still weak and immobile. I crushed up seeds and bread and placed it near him, hoping he'd eat something. He never did. After a few days I went outside to see that he had passed away, just a few feet away from my window. I buried him in the backyard. I know it's a little thing, just a small sick bird, but it hit me hard for some reason and I listened to this song a lot at the time. It reminds me of how fleeting life is, how the brief moments of goodness can always be gone in a flash. Enjoy it while you can, friends.
I picked up a finch from the side of the road. Tt was immobile too. I assumed its left leg was broken because it didn't move all that much. I brought it home, placed it in a small plastic tub, and tried to give it water. My dad, who used to take care of finches, said he didn't have much time to live. He said we could possibly revive it by giving it water. We bring it inside and place it in a basket. We successfully give it water using a dropper. My hope rose exponentially. I thought it was going to be ok. An hour after that my dad walks into the room saying it passed. My dad buries it in the backyard. At school, I was crushed. When lunch came I went to my usual spot where I've been sitting alone for the majority of the school year. I started crying profusely. I never want to go through that again. Seeing the life of another living thing deteriorate in front of your own eyes. Having your hopes rise up, just for them to be absolutely demolished. I'm still deeply affected because it happened a few days ago.
@@wonaspottingenthusiast That's so recent, I'm so sorry. I know exactly how you feel, friend. That's the main struggle of life. You can love other things, but there is always the risk of them dying; I struggled a lot with that and I've realized that, as painful as it is to see our little buddies in pain, the best that we can do is give them as good lives as we possibly can. I have a bunch of bird feeders in my yard now, along with bird houses and bird baths. I try to take care of them all as best I can. I encourage you to do the same, it'll be good for your soul to bring them happiness
Wow, I remember listening to this in February of last year, so depressed and in a horrible place mentally, as well as being tangled up in a toxic relationship. I’m listening to this now in a beautiful house, with my beautiful new family, and I have a whole new perspective of things. I was suicidal then, but here, I’ve never felt more alive.. I love life, I love my friends, I love my family.. I’m in a much better place. Im in SH and ED recovery, and I’m doing amazing.. I feel wonderful. Im loving life, and I’m so happy I didn’t end it. It does get better, no matter what people say, it does get better.
I frequently reminisce about small conversations I had with people. Remembering how happy I felt talking to them or hanging out with them. I remember these things too easily, just as easy as it is to be forgotten by them. I cling onto those memories because they were genuinely the last time I felt happy. I appreciate those moments dearly, even if they've moved on. I'm grateful for all I've met, but I took it for granted, and now I'm here alone. It feels like life is moving fast, but I think it's because I never really paid attention to it/appreciated it. Now I'm watching everyone grow, while I'm stuck in the same spot, and it feels bittersweet.
Wordless songs don’t really strongly portray a particular emotion, they instead influence the listener to feel a certain emotion, and it lets them find the meaning and emotion in the song. I think this is why everyone feels music differently.
This is the feeling after suffering for long, you just can’t explain if you feel depressed, happy, empty. Is that feeling you never experienced before.
It's odd. The juxtaposition of the emotions I feel listening to this leaves me baffled; it greets me like a stranger during our first meeting, yet hugs me like a nostalgic memory of a lifelong friend at the same time. It awakes anxiety and peace, misery and mirth. It blends my past and present into a jumbled mixture, and I can't shake off the questions that's forced it's way into my mind: am I truly happier, or am I still stuck in the same old loop? I feel lost. I have no clue what to do with my life, even though the present is better than my past has ever been. Maybe it's because I'm scared of loosing myself again? Every day, everything goes the same exact way; I'm not living, just existing. Looking in from the outside, my life looks fine. Still, it feels bleak, wrong, out of place. What am I supposed to do? In spite all of this, I, for once, feel held. I feel heard, and understood. I assume most of you in the comment section feel the same way. I hope things will get better for us all, no matter what's chaining us away from our goals and happiness.
To me, this sounds like the natural transition between something "enjoyable" and something "unwanted" but not necessarily "Bad", like the last weeks of summer vacation before a new school year, the transition between sunny and bright summer days and colder but vibrant autumn nights, sort of like a sunset sky, if you want, where brightness and darkness meet each other, but darkness slowly gaining more precense. It feels like the days are running out of warmth, school makes you nervous but also excited because of the new possibilities that come, so all you can do in that moment is enjoy the last days of rest to the fullest and accept that they are soon to be over, while you patiently await for the "unwanted" to arrive.
Some days all i can think of is where it all went wrong. When did i become so changed by my mental illness that my friends and family all alienated and left me. But i come to this song and it makes me feel like a teenager again when it used to be good times and recklessness that was common w us kids. This reminds me of my friend who passed away. Rest in Power my sister Bethany. If only she could see the world once we were free. She wouldve been so happy yet when that day comes even if it happened tommorow; ill never be able to share it with her. That taste of freedom we had spent our youths so vocally and verbosely fighting for will only be tasted by one of us when it comes Ill be damned if neither if us live long enough to see the day, so now I guess its all a twisted reminder to keep myself healthy and to aim for old age. Oh my dear sister, if only you knew how much we cherised you. I still go back to your instagram page and see it happened nearly 2 years now at this point
this song has genuinely made me more emotional than any other song i've listened to, and there aren't even any lyrics. i've had it on repeat every day for years and i just can't get tired of it. i really don't know what it is. it's just the same tune replaying and yet it makes me cry, reminisce, and smile more than any song ever has before. some people would say "it's not that deep," and maybe it's not. but something about the sound of it just brings something out of me.
Yeah this song caused me to go into psychosis, filling my apartment up to an excessive amount with steam trying to get high like the picture suggests. There are much smokier versions of the picture which I took as a sign to make it that smokey. I also suffer from limerence. I believed I stopped time one night. 9/10-11/21 I think.
This song makes me feel nostalgia, loneliness, summer times at about after 8 in the afternoon, late mid-late 2000s , a suburb covered in snow at night and it's still snowing and just one person is walking outside with the silence
I think it's funny how in the comment section, some people find this song either very relaxing or extremely depressing depending on their state of mind.
This is one of the most spiritual songs I have ever heard. I now listen to this daily and it helps me enter a deep meditative state. Not keen on his other music but this is utter genius in my opinion. 💜👍🏽
feels like late summer night, when the air gets colder but also wetter. you got your soulmate with you, sitting in the middle of the colorful meadow. you know you can look into her eyes for hours, tell her everything, she will understand, she gives you your safe place you deserve. sometimes you tear up, while looking into her deep eyes, but its ok. everything got a meaning when you feel like it.
Для меня эта песня - лето. У меня нету стресса, учёбы. Я могу наслаждаться жизнью. По идее я должна чувствовать себя счастливой. Но я одна. Нету никого с кем я бы могла поделиться своим счастьем и эта песня - олицетворение моего состояния. Она успокаивает, позволяет мечтать, но её постоянное звучание не позволяет забывать тебе о реальности всего.
To me this song emanates a feeling of surreal peace. The type of calmness you feel only under the loving embrace of a partner, a friend, or any loved one. Platonic or romantic. It evokes a feeling in me I haven't felt in a long time, it feels like the moon's vibrant prism halo on a cloudy summer night, chilled but still warm enough to stand on the empty street in only your lounge pants. It feels like spreading your arms across the still and peaceful chest of a sleeping partner, the melody looping repeatedly, like the rise and fall of their breathing. It feels like finishing a lovely book, those pages which you still grieve, yearning to be back in that fictional script of characters and bustling life. This song, it feels like living.
Hey dude we all have a void inside, we're all being eaten. Just some more than others. We need to slow it down and and keep giving ourselves fuel before we run dry. Keep at it don't give up
This song makes me think of the beach, and my first relationship. My highschool girlfriend and i dated for 5 years and went to the same community college together, they were the best 5 years of my life. We’d go to the beach for a week with my family every year, for 4 years in a row, and they were the happiest times i’ve ever experienced. The fourth year was great, but there was this looming sense of dread and anxiety over the whole week, as we were both about to move out of town, to the same university. A part of me knew it would be the last year we spent together at the beach, and i so badly didn’t want that week to end. We were best friends and we both considered eachother soulmates. We completely got eachother, and now that we aren’t together it’s been difficult not to ruminate on what we had. I know we both need to move on and live our own lives, but for so long we were so comfortable and familiar with one another. This song takes me back to those warm summer nights at the beach with her, walking along the waves in the dark holding hands, the wind blowing in our hair as we talked about everything and anything, looking at the stars and laying together. I’m still so deeply in love with her, and it hurts to know she has likely moved on and won’t reach out to me again. It’s the end of the happiest chapter in my life so far. I’m hopeful for the future and know more is to come for me, but i wish i could rewind time and just experience those years over again, falling in love with her and having a best friend like no other. I wouldn’t trade any of it for the world, and i wouldn’t change a single thing about what we had. I feel a sense of pure nostalgia when listening to this, i can almost hear every word she’s ever said to me, every date and activity we did together replays in my mind when listening to this song. How i wish i could experience it over again. I guess i hope someone out there will read this and find solace in my words and realize they aren’t alone in all this.
this song makes me feel something, its not sad or anything, its dark nights in the foggy woods, or the warm breeze of summer on your face, the sun setting and reflecting off the beach while you and your friends are having fun, romantic summer nights, dancing in the rain.
this song is romantic summer night in the city with cars, this song is feeling empty after crying, nostalgia this song is everything everywhere at all once and so much more than a loop.
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everyone is suffering
not like you
Everyone is turning that suffering into peace
@@katsills7044 not everyone*
maybe so, but suffering ends when you accept and surrender to the ups and downs of life. you can never not feel the hurt, though, and im currently experiencing one of the downs of life. peace/content is sought when you realize that as long as you are breathing you are more capable and powerful than you think. i think you are more capable and powerful than you think. i hope you the best in life and do something kind for yourself or others today.
We can rejoice. Lose your ego, and live in the nothingness
To me this song is not about depression or suffering. I feel nostalgia, more romantic feelings.. Summer night in the city... Breeze.. Sounds of cars..
it reminds me of the thumbnail too, just alone in the woods during a mild summer day, not too humid, overcast with a brisk breeze of smoking barbecue, like at a park. Its one of those songs that you swear sounds familiar.
the sound of the waves too
My girlfriend left me an audio message via WhatsApp with this playing in the background and it perfectly frames the feeling of nostalgia of the everyday things we experience when we're in a relationship. I saved the audio clip and it's one of my most treasured possessions. She was only talking about a test she was preparing for that turned out to be a few questions about herself and laughing about it, but when I listen back to it her voice and this track send me to a place of pure happiness.
@@neon_jam1127 that is beautiful
thankyou, this doesnt sound like depression, there are too many people in comments lowering the vibe
This feels like when you’re done crying and you just feel empty
THISS
..
its peaceful
fr
i wouldn't know, i haven't cried for 5 years. And that really destroys me sometimes because it's difficult to let all my pent up anger and frustration out, everything happens in my head and it eats me up from the inside out
i find myself playing this over and over
As we get older and older and older
You probably will for the rest of your life mate
me too:)
Real shi .
Me too :》》
I love how everyone portrays this song differently. Some sad some nostalgic some happy, but I believe this song is trying to describe limerence into music. If you’ve never experienced limerence before it’s like the up and down of this same feeling over and over. It’s a false feeling of adoration, love, attachment, idolization, and happiness attached to a person you barely know. I just love how this music sounds exactly like it: the notes playing the same tune over and over, and it’s not quite a real sound. It’s not any instrument at all but almost a distorted sound of a blend of them, most likely electrical sound. Exactly like limerence: love that seems real but is just obsession
this is it. you put into words exactly how this feels, and how this song reflects the feeling of its namesake. i've struggled for months to pin it down. thank you so much.
very well put
@@gabeschulze Aw you’re welcome! I struggled with limerence for 2 years. Once you get over it, it changes how you look at other people and relationships for the better:) wishing you well
Wowww spot! On!
@@vivilevin1014 how did u get over it
Limerence-
Is the feeling of being so in love with someone you grow an unhealthy obsession to them, similar to a yandere. Feelings or instances of Limerence are usually caused by under lying health issues, like depression, anxiety or obsessive disorders. Limerence can occur once or maybe a struggle throughout a person's life time. Although Limerence itself is not a mental disorder.
so you're here rn too :))
I finally figured out why it had to be Julyus out of everyone that I couldn't get rid of.
Deep
Aw fuck.
Just got dumped....funny I got suggested this
Hey folks that are scrolling through, I love every single one of you. Depression, any mental disorder, really, is tough. But what’s tougher is you, for enduring it. One day it’ll get better, I promise.
Thank you so much.
It never got better, it only gets worse
@@kaiba3518 true that.
I think I really did it this time. I deleted every social media I have and cut my ties and got a new number. No one can reach me anymore except for a tiny group of people. I always fantasized about just disappearing without a trace, feeling free and leaving people wondering. If I’m being honest I was always the happy girl with many friends. I loved being around people and people liked me, But now I’m completely different. I don’t think anyone thought I would end up like this. But I’m so happy. I wanna be that person that randomly pops up in your mind leaving you wondering what ever happened to them? Where did they go? Lots of people wanna be known, but I just wanna be missing. Someone who just disappeared
If people do miss you you will begin to sense the presence of ghosts in particular ways, the blips of people trying to get in.
Can we date?
this is really beautiful. im so glad that you found yourself and happiness within being independent.
@@shamelmae why not? I just wanna give love to someone that’s all. It’s been forever. You don’t have to give me anything in return.
@@shamelmae ok fair enough. I’ll start with the basics. You know my name already. I’m 20 years old and I live in Canada. I’m a student working 2 jobs and looking towards creating a business based in either music or some other form of entertainment.
To me this just doesn’t feel looped, it feels like a whole song.
Yeah, as if it slowly progresses. It feel like a cold winter morning waking up before the sun rises to go to school. You don't really want to go, you want to turn around and go home. You are halfway there and the frost has started to nibble on your nose. With every step you take the pain in your stomach grows greater. The lights outside are still on as dawn starts to throw its blue glow over the roads and walkways. But you just cant go any further, instead you go to the park. Its on the way there, you find a bench and sit down. Slowly the morning commuters reach their destinations and the pathways fall quiet, the skies in the distance have started to turn orange, suddently all the lamps shut off, a new darkness emerges. This lasts some minutes until its suddently broken with an intense red flash of sunshine. The world around you is cold below freezing but filled with the warmest shade of sunlight. Its starts to snow heavy flakes of snow slowly falling to the ground, being almost without wind. Every single flake of snow lit by the morning sun. You wish you could just sit there for some ours and just be for yourself for a while, but the cold is slowly creeping through your mittens and your socks. You dont want to go, but you also dont want to go home. You dont want your parents disapointment but you cant go to school either, you just cant take that right now.
And yet you cannot stay. A decision will have to be made. Even though it is just a teusday morning, the choice feels like it will determine the rest of your life.
@@thesaddestdude3575 omg thats so good
@@thesaddestdude3575 that’s a really great way to read it as
Yeah
@@thesaddestdude3575 become a writer. seriously
Imagine listening to this outside while it rains :)
Not hard to imagine
there is going to be a thunderstorm in my area soon so I’m looking forward to it
I did that yesterday, it was like a dream. A beautiful one
@@toyah6459 they didn’t say it was?
Doing it rn
an almost perfect balance of darkness and light. timelessness.
This melody gives the same feeling as being deeply understood
could not have said it better
yessss
wow thats beautiful to put it that way. also music is just so nice and special to humans.
Or misunderstood.
i absolutely love and agree with this.
this song is constantly looping in my head
YES
Still?
thats because that is all it is - a constant loop
Absolutely
story time, two years ago i was listening to this song a lot because my university friend gave it to me as a suggestion during a sunny day we barely talked but he was kind, he was very gentle and he was the kind of boy who's obsessed with spirituality and he used to tell me that this song reminds him of a spiritual realm. even tho we didn't use to talk a lot but there was that solid bond between us; even if we don't see eachother for months the bond is still strong once we are reunited. one November night, i heard that he passed away in a car accident. i didn't want to believe he had breathed his last, everytime i listen to this song i remember him, his voice, the fresh air on my face when we used to talk together. it hurts to say it but i had some real feelings for him and now he died...
rest in peace K.
I'm sorry for your loss, i hope you doing ok
@@TheNolife96 thank you, it was a shock but i am living for his memory
😢got me crying rn
bout put me in tears man im so sorry for your loss stay strong brother
i thought this was going to be a nice story... RIP K
it’s funny how everyone says it’ll get better but it never has for me... i watch everyone else as they move forward while i’m stuck in the same exact blank spot. i’m in so much pain.
maybe focus on ur spiritual self? unless it goes against ur religon or anything, but meditating and positive affirmations have really helped me! i hope things get better for u ❤️❤️
ninacena thank you. i will try and take your advice. i’m trying to focus on getting better but my brain is mean 😪 i’ll be ok soon ❤️
Try to be as healthy as possible, exercise, having a good diet, being aware and treating your medical problems included. Keep people in company with you that you know will love you and will try to help you with your issues. Make a huge effort to be active. Seek therapy and possibly medication. Always make a huge effort to talk to people and to become more social. Don't put down yourself if you see constant failure in your life. Take little steps to ensure some happiness and build up yourself from there. Write down your goals if you have to (make sure they're realistic and attainable). Think about your problems in a more practical way. Really make an effort to understand why you feel the way you do. It requires a lot of thinking and time and patience and you may not ever completely solve all your issues but you make your life more manageable. As someone who has been suffering with mental problems myself for most of my life, I really hope things go well for you.
@@godiebeard thank you so much. i’m better now that i’ve worked out some of my problems and i’m just trying to live my life the best way that feels comfortable to me. but you sound like you’ve been through a lot and i’m sorry. i hope the best for you ❤️
Fake it til you make it
this song is like the feeling of seeing the light at the end of the tunnel but not knowing when you'll actually get there. you just know you're getting closer
amazing thought.
wow such a great way to explain
another way I'd describe it is kinda like searching for something or someone and you keep chasing them and think you're getting closer and closer even though at the end it was a waste of time since you were never close enough to make them love you as much as you did.
🔹
will i ever get there?
This song is the definition of loneliness, but it’s a way that says “it’s ok to feel lonely”.
remember when i was so sick..? i wish you had..believed me.
oh yeah..
This reminds me of that one feeling you get when you’re anxiously waiting for something that you only have one chance of doing.
oh my god you could’ve have described it better
yes I`ve thought of that too
This yes.
To me, this sounds like the feeling of happiness despite a bad situation. Like finding joy in little things while trying desperately to ignore the state your life is in, just focusing on a tiny speck of beauty and feeling complete bliss for a moment
Is it instrumental????
@@yourmissingc0ckring759yes
wow never interpreted it this way but its so true
Someone feels me
wow you exactly explained the feeling i get from this song 🥲
this sounds like depression. november air. feeling the snow on your face at 6 in the morning. getting on the bus watching the street lights. slowly your life faded into grey and never saw it coming
i feel like my life will never get better. i wish everything would go back to normal. before this pandemic i wasn't very happy but much better than how i feel right now. school was a distraction for me since i talked to my friends, but now everything is online and my friends barely talk to me, so now i just feel useless. i just want to get out my house and have fun again ;-;
im with u
I feel the same way. Its hard to imagine anything feeling 'normal' again, after feeling so vacant for so long, nothing to glue life together into something coherent; just day after day, month after month existence, full of loneliness, nothing to look forward to, every day being the same, no goals, no aspiration, no ambition... again, hard to imagine once this is all over we will remember what its like to feel normal again.
You're not alone, friend. Just find comfort in the fact that everything you feel is natural.
@@marcusberns3746 Thanks I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels like this
it always gets better! stay strong
Hang in there dude you'll be OK. It gets better!
All people are saying that this music brings either depression or hope, but for me it's just calm. Looking out of the window at night to witness the city's lights. Just that ambience.
i think this song perfectly describes what i’ve felt over the last five years. an endless amount of stress, sadness and loneliness. yes i have an amazing life and am grateful for so much but i just can’t take this pain anymore. over and over and over i’ve been hurt, used and made to feel unworthy. i can’t stand people. my own family have made me feel invalid and a disappointment countless times.
Hey i hope you’re doing well now. I know how you are feeling I won’t assure you it will get better so soon, but i know it will eventually someday for us. We grow and learn and experience a lot in life ‘what’s happiness if one don’t feel pain?’. What’s important is trying to love yourself and simply try your best. Simply try. Because then you can say i did my best no matter the outcome, you have done your part and that is all it matters. Im sending you lots of hugs. I saw your video and i just want to say you have such a beautiful smile it warmed my heart. Have a wonderful day sweetie. And to anyone else reading this it’s okay we got this, ily
I hope you are doing better, now! You are not unworthy and there is so much more life to be had. I wish you all the love and all the power!
are you me? but seriously, that kinda thing is a hard thing to deal with, you can do it!
It’s time to only seek what benefits you.
Goofy
These comments depict sadness, emptiness, and a slow building depression but to me this music sounds very hopeful. To me I feel like it’s going to be okay eventually, I will be happy and safe eventually. Idk but to me this song sounds like a warm hug amidst the heavy deluge that is the chaotic thunderstorm of existence. This song sounds like the calm I feel after I cry. This song feels like the secrets only strangers know about me. This song feels like protection.
I feel the same way
exactly :)
Ikr
Same here. I love holding my newborn to this. Like you said, protection. I stare at him with this desire to protect him from everything and everyone, make sure I guide him in the right paths. Love how you described the feel of the song for you
same
limerence-
this song to me feels like being in love with someone who's suffering from severe mental illness and slowly watch their own mind eat away at them and destroy them and not being able to do anything about it. it slowly you start to go into the same state as them and you both fall apart together.
im goin through that exact thing someone I really care for n that loves me is addicted to drugs n they cant get off of it. ive tried my best to help but they just keep doing it. im not going to get any authorities involved or anything but it just hurts to see their addiction eat away at them slowly. ive tried explaining it to them many times its eating at them n they just brush it off n dont listen. hopefully she will eventually put this behind her but she still loves me so theres that I guess
I used to listen to this alot when I lived with my Dad... he died of covid last October. Rest in peace old man...
i’m so sorry for your loss 🙏🏻❤️
I’m so very sorry about this and I want you to know you are loved, and that your dad would want you to be happy and I love you as a fellow human
I just don't see this as depression I see it as the gradual walk out of depression, when you realise your feelings are back, it sounds like a sigh of relief to me.
I agree
I agree
Yeah
Is it me or does anyone else enjoy the thrill of suffering? The difficulty in acquiring such things but once you get them, you’re like “now what?” Perhaps it’s just me but I love not being happy all the time. Not having a fake smile on my face and acting as if everything is okay but rather more so, facing my demons head on and thanking them for transforming me. If you’re reading this, you’re awesome!
I second this
I am too :)
You are awesome too
This
I get this. Might sound masochistic, but I realized that I kinda enjoy feeling despair or grief or just anything bad once in a while, you're not alone in that.
I do because I remember what it feels like to not feel anything but once you start "suffering" it makes you feel alive.
It's not depression. It's memories. They live in you, but suddenly you realise you've actually started to live in them. You're stuck, incapable of living another moment without comparing it to the old, better version of it. The Crucifixion of you life. The slow, burning sound of the end of the cigarette. It's now yours. You start to think of death more often, watching old people who don't realise they're close to "it". It's a weird feeling. You should enjoy life, right? Even pain itself. An experience of humanity. I don't have to stop, I can't stop, even if I want.
-20:11
that first part describes me so much right now.. but I think I'm starting to accept my current life now.
yeah.... let me know if you ever make it out of that loop of memories. i,
like you, cant seem to stop thinking about them, comparing them. i dont think itll ever stop if im being honest, i dont think ill ever be present again. but i mean if you can maybe i can idk... let me know if you do🕳💠 best of luck to u💮
wow. beautifully worded.
i’m never getting better.
you will
U won’t and u have to deal with it bc it’s the real world and just because she said it will, it won’t unless u make it happen, stop laying there saying it won’t because ur the only one holding back from getting better
@@mishak38 i got so much worse, so so much worse.
@@c_uslt it’s only been 6 months, it isnt like this forever. life is tumultuous you gotta actively look for the good. it is hard though :(
@@c_uslt hug
this is the feeling of being understood, being heard, being seen, being included, feeling real, having no fear, actually being yourself with no judgement or regret. this is how it feels for someone to actually look at you and love every part and every inch of you as if you are a wonderful piece of art.
I was writing in my diary when this song came up randomly and you just summarized my emotions perfectly as I wrote them down just be you and you will find love
for me this song feels like staring into space, reminiscing on the good times as you are currently going through bad times
This is what depression sounds like
i feel it sounds like when you lost a loved one to suicide, yet the funeral happens during a beautiful sunny day, and the two collide to create this
i actually feel like it’s the exact opposite. sounds like somebody trying to find themselves in a forest of confusing emotions after tragedy struck
@@fordquaintance Indeed.
A stupid thing to say tbh
@@toyah6459 but fr what he/they could say more?
that's their lifestyle, loool depression session
the song, when looking in the mirror and seeing nothing
i was cleaning my room while listening to songs and this played and for a moment I stopped, sat down and just felt my heart break into tears. this is the most beautiful thing to exist.
high five :)
Limerance was the single most Euphoric and at the same time, the most painful experience of my entire life - I learnt what it truly felt like to have my heartbroken. Never going to let anyone in like that again.
Same.
Trying not to be with my person. Working on changing myself. But scared I can’t and I’ll lose them.
i am sorry.
closing yourself off to relationships is not good for human nature. you are only being your own enemy by shutting down feelings and potential relationships that can foster positivity. there are ups and downs but that’s just life. The purpose of our existence is to experience life, simple as that. So go live and don’t hold yourself back!
i used to listen to this song at my lowest point just to not go insane in my own mind. i can finally say i see this song as a positive
so real
“Mommy I can’t wait to grow up”
That’s how stupid I was.
Excitement blocking my eyes,
I didn’t appreciate what I had.
Now I can see clear,
But it’s nothing of what I hoped for.
Everything is just grey
Without happiness or joy.
I can’t see ahead of me.
Everything feels the same.
At least I hope that one day
I get to feel again.
- i
Me and you my friend.
That child like happiness is gone forever. U have to find a new form an unfortunately stop searching for that old feeling. “It’ll never be the same as when u first tried it” uangaze
Any better these days brah?
@@samfunk6848 i think recently i feel too much LMAO but yea i think its getting a bit better thanks!
@@ine77 good to hear :)
find me here .
are you here
🤓🔪
@@9piumm yes my friend .
I find myself listening to this even when I’m not sad I truly enjoy the melody of this track
This song is nostalgic and painful at the same time. A distant memory of times long past, where you recognised that at some point in your past that you were truly happy, you just didnt know it til it was gone.
I feel you
real
It feels like as if I was drowning in my tears
EXACTLY
“Depression is your bodies physical reaction to the the fake character you’re trying to play” - Jim Carrey
It’s your body trying to tell you it’s time to adapt and become who you were meant to be 🫂💙 … you
Societal stigmatism’s says you’re supposed to act, learn, dress, love, create, and just be a certain way. Once you realize you are not tied down to society, you will never be the same person again. In a way you transcend beyond the old you, and look at the world through the eyes of a poet. Pure bliss and melancholy are the bi-product of this realization.
This music invites you into your mindscape. Whenever I hear these kinds of songs I immediately go into the comments. The way people open up to this void, seeking to connect and be understood in their personal struggles. The stories that come out; suffering, loneliness, depression, a sense of being disconnected from the world. A truly shared human experience.
This song feels like you're realizing that everything you felt was limerence and not necessarily real love. Or maybe the feeling of when limerence becomes true love.
this song resonates emptiness - the one after breakups, long periods of sadness, dissapointment, loneliness, its an emptiness that changes depending on when / where you listen to it. well depends on the weather, but if i hear this song in my room as i study it enhances it, makes me question a lot more of the things i do and why i do them. if its freezing cold, early in the morning, cloudy but not yet raining, an eerie gloominess / darkness on the world, well it changes. it forces me to question what has been troubling my mind. its an emptiness that lingers in your stomach, masquerading as hunger when in reality its a yearning for warmth or love. its a test of a genuine good mood or not if u can listen to this song in full and not end it in a sadder state. i don't know how yves tumor did it, but he managed to create a loop that enhances emptiness, sucking out any fake notion of happiness. like a winter without the festivities of Christmas or New Year, where all that is left is freezing temperatures, short days, and melancholy.
this song feels exactly like limerence. the repeating melody going over and over and over; you’re constantly expecting something to change but it never does, sounds exactly like how limerence feels. the feeling of superficial “love” and infatuation that isn’t real. this song hurts
you’re so right.
it’s exactly like limerence-a condition that is temporarily and infinitely replaying itself with no bound
and yet, the melody revitalizes fragments of segmented emotions to create a superficial meaning of memory - one that is etched into time and the construct of pain
Usually I would get annoyed by a loop, but this one is different. It's entrancing, and there's this odd comfort and satisfaction from the repetitiveness, kinda like my thoughts. Sometimes I feel like ripping my head off because they drive me insane, but other times it has a constant calming effect. The best analogy I can think of is when waves hit the shore over and over and after a while of listening or watching, it just fades into the background and blends in with everything else. It's also similar to how some people need white noise to fall asleep. Without white noise to drown out the silence or ringing of the ears, it feels impossible to fall asleep. Likewise, it feels impossible to stay sane or at ease without obsessive/repetitive thinking (to those with obsessive thought patterns).
When it comes to obsessive thinking of a person, say that you have a crush on, I feel like it's a way of escaping from reality? It's easy to think of said person, even if you're not thinking anything in particular about them. For example, it's easy for me to just get lost in thought about someone I like, without even creating scenarios in my mind or recalling memories. It's more like an emphasis on the comforting feeling of what it's like to be around them (in person or just talking to them and hearing their voice), or of what I know about them as a whole. Sometimes it's also just imagining what it would be like to be in their shoes (what is their daily life like? what do they think about? what do they find entertaining? what kinds of hardship do they face? what makes then angry/sad/happy? what kind of deep thoughts do they have? how well do they get along with their family? what would it be like to be them for a day (think the way they do, have the same memories, and all)?...). Which all leads me to the conclusion that it's the equivalent of numbing out/escaping from reality. We're directing our thoughts anywhere but on ourselves and what's happening around us-- and our brain sees the person we like as an easy target to do so.
The worst part is when you want to quit defaulting to obsessively thinking of the person you like, and it literally feels impossible because you've been doing it for so long. And it hurts when you realize how unhealthy it is and that you may never have genuinely liked them from the start. I want to believe that I genuinely like them, but I'm starting to doubt it. At this point it's just a coping mechanism that my brain latched onto. I want to quit thinking of them in an obsessive manner so that I can think of them in a normal/healthy way-- you know, not 24/7. Only if I've recently hung out with/talked to them, get reminded of them once in a while, and worry if they're doing alright on occasion.
Sometimes I wonder whether or not I've genuinely liked someone or if I ever will. I know what it means to truly care for and love someone, but I don't think I've ever experienced it. At least not romantically. Which reminds me of something my sister once told me. She said, "knowledge isn't the same as wisdom." In other words, knowing something (in this case, what it means to love someone) isn't the same as experiencing it firsthand. I love my family and cat beyond what words can describe (I mean I could if I tried, but it would be a lot and this comment is already long enough lol). I hope I can love someone to the same extent if not more some day. One of my biggest fears is that I never will.
Sorry if any of this was confusing to read >.
This. The warm, comforting feeling when thinking about them is almost addictive. Its just so easy to slip into those thoughts. My situation is gathering the courage to take these thoughts into action and to let my feelings be known, regardless of the outcome. I think we can all experience love, we just need to put ourselves out there and in as many situations as possible to eventually experience it. 80 years of a lifetime is enough time to find it
You just put everything i'm experiencing into words. I think i'm obessesed with them.. i don't know if i should actively fight against it or not. I just don't know. The only thing i know is that.. they feel comforting no matter how they act.. i care about them but i know i can't get into a relationship with them, we don't have anything to build on.. i'm not sure if there's even a ground.. i'm not sure... at all
god, this song never fails to pull tears from my eyes. it feels so intimate, as if I'm looking into someones mind when they think of someone they love.
This is the feeling of losing so many people that you have that gag feeling before you cry but you can’t cry anymore, it just hurts. It aches deeply, like something inside of one’s self is getting eaten away. It’s not depression, just pure despair. The resilience becomes a roadblock of emotions trapped inside of you. The sinking feeling of dread and future abandonment makes you hug your knees to stay warm against a cool breeze, but no matter how tight you hold only some places are warm as the rest is bare and exposed. Withering away the cold gets worse until you can’t feel your nose, but it’s not that you can’t feel it because you feel the numbness, the tingling, it’s the absence of the ability to feel that what makes it hurt. The frostbite is painful but the lack of blood flow makes it look dead. The pain of losing someone like losing a limb.
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I completely understand everyone’s portrayal of this song but am I the only to find it truly peaceful? It just empties my mind and really resonates with my soul, no negative feelings, only peace and calm.
I Always come back to this, this tack is very special to me. I wonder what Yves Tumor was thinking while making this.
so many emotions were put into this song- it could describe and fit so many scenarios
@@asias8474 agreed
Happiness is evil man, everybody wants it, but no one wants to give it.
“As we get older and older” hits right in the depths of me.
i remember going to my sisters house in august 2020 and laying on the couch at like 2 in the morning listening to this song, the windows were open with a light breeze and it was thunderstorming. i remember listening to the late night traffic and wondering where those people were going, I didn't have a care in the world since i had the school year off from covid-19. only if I could go back to those days. unfortunately I'm starting highschool and my sister is wrapped up in college and work so i wont be able to visit her as often. but again, I would do anything in the world to be chilling on her couch listening to this song and playing cod. everything was so simple and I wish I could go back to those simple times, I wish I was able to cherish those moments.
It sounds like the hope and happiness trapped under all that depression and pain is slowly trying to escape out and into the open. The immense reverb being the empty space it has to fill, while the static is its battle with our dark thoughts. Each high note appears from nothing and rises up attempting to poke above the clouds, similar to finding joy in small things in life while being surrounded by very big but sad parts.
This is so accurate
This is so accurate
i remember hearing this when i was in 7th grade at the real peak of my first encounter with depression. it was too much for me back then, i couldnt take how sad i felt.
i am much older now, but still not fully formed. there is so much happening in my head but i dont let any of it out. all these ideas and passions feel like they are locked behind a thin pane of glass, that my hands are extending in every direction as far as they can but still cannot grab anything.
i feel that life is taunting me with the self i could be, i have so much love for music and videogames and art and people and i want to give myself to those who share that passion and use all my energy to create incredible stories and sounds and put forth ideas to my friends and to the world that can help people realize the love they have for what makes them happiest.
i cannot figure out where to go.
i feel as though i am being pulled downwards into the ocean and i can see the light from the surface slowly fading.
i feel that i am weak, given all the opportunity of any human in the world and nothing to show for it.
i am so tired of living like this
know that you are not weak. there are obstacles for you to face if you want to become that self you mentioned, but it's nowhere near impossible. channel that passion or you will regret it even more in the future. you owe this to yourself.
quit listening to music that makes you sad and wasting your time. choose rather you want to be a dev for games or a musician and walk on a path straight for long enough to achieve the goal. one or the other will actually require your full attention. if you really feel like you have this immense passion behind a thin pane of glass, well then shatter the glass. no one wants you to fail but your self, life is not taunting you. life is just simply hard to begin with and any goals you set worth that are achieving will be a bit soul consuming. you shouldn't;t worry about making other people find their love in the world when you seem lost yourself. figure yourself out and do something with your life and you will be happy. you are "tired of living like this" because you know you should be doing better.
you’re not weak the fact that you’re here today is proof you are strong. you are appreciated
Holy shit this is too relatable. I feel and felt the exact same way, you put it into words. Thank you.
you seem to be so interesting. hope you find someone to share these ideas you got on your mind and to live a better life. chase these things you are passionate about, without thinking twice. we never know if (or what) we will achieve until we get there. good people deserve good things and i'm sure it'll be this way for you. stay safe, grace.
There’s something about this song. It sounds like the news of someone you know has died, the realization of how your in love with that person, how the days seem to repeat, and the acceptance of how life is.
I will never like a song this much in my entire life, I found this song last year in March and I have accumulated 7000 minutes listening to it, this song repeats in my head. I love this song, I will never get old of hearing this, I love this song.
Laying down on your bed after crying hard, with earbuds in, volume up, full blast, this song hits hard and different.
Edit: It’s 2024 now and I wrote this over two years ago. I was in a super rough patch when I found this song and honestly it’s gotten me through a lot. This song will forever hold a special place in my heart.
As for me, I am in a much better place today and I’m proud of myself and my accomplishments. It will get better! ❤️🩹
this is exactly what I'm doing right now 😕
Mood.
This song makes me feel something I can't describe.
this is eternal
To me this song reminds me of getting caught up in all the romantic aspects of a false relationship all for it to go bad and eventually turn sour. At first you’re both reaching to look and be like the ideal perfect couple, doing and saying the things you think need to say rather than going at your own pace and moving way to fast by observing how other relationships happen around you rather than making the relationship your own… eventually you both can’t put up the act anymore and one person crumbles and breaks character, leaving you to either perform alone til the end of the show or to also leave the situation. It never fares well when you rush and force things to happen in a relationship… sure appreciate what you have but please don’t force yourself to try and make happiness from a short term life aspect. I love you all - M
rip big bro i’m sorry i didn’t do more to help you stay clean i hope you at them gates rn crackin jokes with the man above 🕊😪
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This is what serenity sounds like
i love how everyone is saying this song is reminding them of some sort of sadness and loneliness, but there’s hope. hope to find someone, hope to find yourself.
it’s beautiful
Remember when i was so sick i wish you had belieeeve
I found this song a month before tiktok found it but tbh I like it even more now
I first heard this song while I was looking out of my window at a little bird feeder I have attached to the glass. There was one bird, a little finch, who was away from the others and barely moving. I went outside to try and see what was wrong and he didn't react to me until I was inches away, and he weakly fluttered away to a nearby tree.
I saw that bird again over the next few days, still weak and immobile. I crushed up seeds and bread and placed it near him, hoping he'd eat something. He never did.
After a few days I went outside to see that he had passed away, just a few feet away from my window. I buried him in the backyard. I know it's a little thing, just a small sick bird, but it hit me hard for some reason and I listened to this song a lot at the time. It reminds me of how fleeting life is, how the brief moments of goodness can always be gone in a flash.
Enjoy it while you can, friends.
I picked up a finch from the side of the road. Tt was immobile too. I assumed its left leg was broken because it didn't move all that much. I brought it home, placed it in a small plastic tub, and tried to give it water. My dad, who used to take care of finches, said he didn't have much time to live. He said we could possibly revive it by giving it water. We bring it inside and place it in a basket. We successfully give it water using a dropper. My hope rose exponentially. I thought it was going to be ok. An hour after that my dad walks into the room saying it passed. My dad buries it in the backyard. At school, I was crushed. When lunch came I went to my usual spot where I've been sitting alone for the majority of the school year. I started crying profusely. I never want to go through that again. Seeing the life of another living thing deteriorate in front of your own eyes. Having your hopes rise up, just for them to be absolutely demolished. I'm still deeply affected because it happened a few days ago.
@@wonaspottingenthusiast That's so recent, I'm so sorry. I know exactly how you feel, friend.
That's the main struggle of life. You can love other things, but there is always the risk of them dying; I struggled a lot with that and I've realized that, as painful as it is to see our little buddies in pain, the best that we can do is give them as good lives as we possibly can.
I have a bunch of bird feeders in my yard now, along with bird houses and bird baths. I try to take care of them all as best I can. I encourage you to do the same, it'll be good for your soul to bring them happiness
@@_Cato_ this is super wise. i have so much respect for both of you guys
the summer nostalgia song
Wow, I remember listening to this in February of last year, so depressed and in a horrible place mentally, as well as being tangled up in a toxic relationship. I’m listening to this now in a beautiful house, with my beautiful new family, and I have a whole new perspective of things. I was suicidal then, but here, I’ve never felt more alive.. I love life, I love my friends, I love my family.. I’m in a much better place. Im in SH and ED recovery, and I’m doing amazing.. I feel wonderful. Im loving life, and I’m so happy I didn’t end it. It does get better, no matter what people say, it does get better.
im so happy for you!
This is so inspiring!! Thank you for sharing and for confirming that things will get better🫂
@@heleyyit’s my pleasure. ❤
it’s so bleak and barren, yet full of emotion.
I frequently reminisce about small conversations I had with people. Remembering how happy I felt talking to them or hanging out with them. I remember these things too easily, just as easy as it is to be forgotten by them. I cling onto those memories because they were genuinely the last time I felt happy. I appreciate those moments dearly, even if they've moved on. I'm grateful for all I've met, but I took it for granted, and now I'm here alone. It feels like life is moving fast, but I think it's because I never really paid attention to it/appreciated it. Now I'm watching everyone grow, while I'm stuck in the same spot, and it feels bittersweet.
Wordless songs don’t really strongly portray a particular emotion, they instead influence the listener to feel a certain emotion, and it lets them find the meaning and emotion in the song. I think this is why everyone feels music differently.
This is the sound of my energy. I cannot word it a better way
What a fascinating comment section
This is the feeling after suffering for long, you just can’t explain if you feel depressed, happy, empty.
Is that feeling you never experienced before.
this song literally its how i feel
i just want to be happy.
It's odd. The juxtaposition of the emotions I feel listening to this leaves me baffled; it greets me like a stranger during our first meeting, yet hugs me like a nostalgic memory of a lifelong friend at the same time. It awakes anxiety and peace, misery and mirth. It blends my past and present into a jumbled mixture, and I can't shake off the questions that's forced it's way into my mind: am I truly happier, or am I still stuck in the same old loop?
I feel lost. I have no clue what to do with my life, even though the present is better than my past has ever been. Maybe it's because I'm scared of loosing myself again? Every day, everything goes the same exact way; I'm not living, just existing. Looking in from the outside, my life looks fine. Still, it feels bleak, wrong, out of place. What am I supposed to do?
In spite all of this, I, for once, feel held. I feel heard, and understood. I assume most of you in the comment section feel the same way. I hope things will get better for us all, no matter what's chaining us away from our goals and happiness.
This track makes me yawn a lot. Really calms me down. Also sounds cool as hell when you yawn
To me, this sounds like the natural transition between something "enjoyable" and something "unwanted" but not necessarily "Bad", like the last weeks of summer vacation before a new school year, the transition between sunny and bright summer days and colder but vibrant autumn nights, sort of like a sunset sky, if you want, where brightness and darkness meet each other, but darkness slowly gaining more precense.
It feels like the days are running out of warmth, school makes you nervous but also excited because of the new possibilities that come, so all you can do in that moment is enjoy the last days of rest to the fullest and accept that they are soon to be over, while you patiently await for the "unwanted" to arrive.
Some days all i can think of is where it all went wrong. When did i become so changed by my mental illness that my friends and family all alienated and left me.
But i come to this song and it makes me feel like a teenager again when it used to be good times and recklessness that was common w us kids.
This reminds me of my friend who passed away. Rest in Power my sister Bethany. If only she could see the world once we were free. She wouldve been so happy yet when that day comes even if it happened tommorow; ill never be able to share it with her. That taste of freedom we had spent our youths so vocally and verbosely fighting for will only be tasted by one of us when it comes
Ill be damned if neither if us live long enough to see the day, so now I guess its all a twisted reminder to keep myself healthy and to aim for old age.
Oh my dear sister, if only you knew how much we cherised you. I still go back to your instagram page and see it happened nearly 2 years now at this point
this song has genuinely made me more emotional than any other song i've listened to, and there aren't even any lyrics. i've had it on repeat every day for years and i just can't get tired of it. i really don't know what it is. it's just the same tune replaying and yet it makes me cry, reminisce, and smile more than any song ever has before. some people would say "it's not that deep," and maybe it's not. but something about the sound of it just brings something out of me.
Yeah this song caused me to go into psychosis, filling my apartment up to an excessive amount with steam trying to get high like the picture suggests. There are much smokier versions of the picture which I took as a sign to make it that smokey. I also suffer from limerence. I believed I stopped time one night. 9/10-11/21 I think.
Such an amazing song, I listen to it to fall asleep. It just feels like peace
This song makes me feel nostalgia, loneliness, summer times at about after 8 in the afternoon, late mid-late 2000s , a suburb covered in snow at night and it's still snowing and just one person is walking outside with the silence
I think it's funny how in the comment section, some people find this song either very relaxing or extremely depressing depending on their state of mind.
This is one of the most spiritual songs I have ever heard. I now listen to this daily and it helps me enter a deep meditative state. Not keen on his other music but this is utter genius in my opinion. 💜👍🏽
i remember smoking by my window at night with a picture of him in my other hand. i'd just talk to it like he was actually there
Real
feels like late summer night, when the air gets colder but also wetter. you got your soulmate with you, sitting in the middle of the colorful meadow. you know you can look into her eyes for hours, tell her everything, she will understand, she gives you your safe place you deserve. sometimes you tear up, while looking into her deep eyes, but its ok. everything got a meaning when you feel like it.
Для меня эта песня - лето. У меня нету стресса, учёбы. Я могу наслаждаться жизнью. По идее я должна чувствовать себя счастливой. Но я одна. Нету никого с кем я бы могла поделиться своим счастьем и эта песня - олицетворение моего состояния. Она успокаивает, позволяет мечтать, но её постоянное звучание не позволяет забывать тебе о реальности всего.
To me this song emanates a feeling of surreal peace. The type of calmness you feel only under the loving embrace of a partner, a friend, or any loved one. Platonic or romantic. It evokes a feeling in me I haven't felt in a long time, it feels like the moon's vibrant prism halo on a cloudy summer night, chilled but still warm enough to stand on the empty street in only your lounge pants. It feels like spreading your arms across the still and peaceful chest of a sleeping partner, the melody looping repeatedly, like the rise and fall of their breathing. It feels like finishing a lovely book, those pages which you still grieve, yearning to be back in that fictional script of characters and bustling life. This song, it feels like living.
A boy showed me this group, and I fell absolutely in love with each album
the void inside of me is eating every feeling i've ever felt. i'm sick. goodbye
Are you still here?
Hey dude we all have a void inside, we're all being eaten. Just some more than others.
We need to slow it down and and keep giving ourselves fuel before we run dry. Keep at it don't give up
Im here
This song makes me think of the beach, and my first relationship. My highschool girlfriend and i dated for 5 years and went to the same community college together, they were the best 5 years of my life. We’d go to the beach for a week with my family every year, for 4 years in a row, and they were the happiest times i’ve ever experienced. The fourth year was great, but there was this looming sense of dread and anxiety over the whole week, as we were both about to move out of town, to the same university. A part of me knew it would be the last year we spent together at the beach, and i so badly didn’t want that week to end. We were best friends and we both considered eachother soulmates. We completely got eachother, and now that we aren’t together it’s been difficult not to ruminate on what we had. I know we both need to move on and live our own lives, but for so long we were so comfortable and familiar with one another. This song takes me back to those warm summer nights at the beach with her, walking along the waves in the dark holding hands, the wind blowing in our hair as we talked about everything and anything, looking at the stars and laying together. I’m still so deeply in love with her, and it hurts to know she has likely moved on and won’t reach out to me again. It’s the end of the happiest chapter in my life so far. I’m hopeful for the future and know more is to come for me, but i wish i could rewind time and just experience those years over again, falling in love with her and having a best friend like no other. I wouldn’t trade any of it for the world, and i wouldn’t change a single thing about what we had. I feel a sense of pure nostalgia when listening to this, i can almost hear every word she’s ever said to me, every date and activity we did together replays in my mind when listening to this song. How i wish i could experience it over again. I guess i hope someone out there will read this and find solace in my words and realize they aren’t alone in all this.
this song makes me feel something, its not sad or anything, its dark nights in the foggy woods, or the warm breeze of summer on your face, the sun setting and reflecting off the beach while you and your friends are having fun, romantic summer nights, dancing in the rain.
this sound plays in the background of my head all day long
i feel so lost
Same. Since my mom died.
@@4blaire4 im so sorry, stay strong🤍
@@briannasofia2933 Thank you. Stay safe.
how do you feel now? is it gone?
this song is romantic summer night in the city with cars, this song is feeling empty after crying, nostalgia this song is everything everywhere at all once and so much more than a loop.
Replaced the real limerence imh with a constant loop of just this, yves godsent fr